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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Fmk1221 on September 27, 2021, 11:51:07 AM
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Hello, I am 34 years old and have been dipping since 13. I have my second kid due in 2 months and I'm getting married next year. I love my family and I want to do this so I can be here as long as possible for them. Havent dipped yet today at all.
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Hello, I am 34 years old and have been dipping since 13. I have my second kid due in 2 months and I'm getting married next year. I love my family and I want to do this so I can be here as long as possible for them. Havent dipped yet today at all.
Welcome @Fmk1221 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=21336)! You are in the right place. To be successful in this battle, you must quit for yourself first and foremost. The second thing is you must embrace the process here. We quit 24 hours at a time. Anyone can quit for one day. Head over to the January 2022 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=17163.120#lastPost) group and post roll. Roll is your daily promise not to use nicotine in ANY form over the next 24 hours. We then create accountability networks by sharing our phone numbers via the PM tool and getting to know our fellow quitters. This is an accountability site so you must be ready and willing to be held accountable as well as hold other people accountable as well.
Congrats on making perhaps the best decision of your life! The freedom that comes along with being quit is second to none. I won't wish you luck because every step of this process is earned through dedication and hard work. But I will say I'm proud to be in this fight with you TODAY.
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Thank you! I'm heading over there now. I'm thick skinned and ready for accountability. Just want this crap out of my life!
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Thank you! I'm heading over there now. I'm thick skinned and ready for accountability. Just want this crap out of my life!
Where are you at @Fmk1221 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=21336) ? Post up your promise in the Jan 2022 group then keep your promise. Lets do this!!!
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I clicked over there and read through the forum but this is confusing af and I dont jk wtf I'm doing. Side note: I hate technology and an limited to using the site in an old smart phone browser.
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Thank you! I'm heading over there now. I'm thick skinned and ready for accountability. Just want this crap out of my life!
Where are you at done@Fmk1221 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=21336) ? Post up your promise in the Jan 2022 group then keep your promise. Lets do this!!!
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Welcome my friend! You've came to the right place to quit. Glad to see that you posted roll. Just take it one day at a time. Need to grab yourself some smokey mountain chew ( herbal, no tobacco or nicotine). Sunflower seeds, gum, tooth picks. Whatever it takes. If you need anything at all. Feel free to reach out. I'm always available.
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Hello, I am 34 years old and have been dipping since 13. I have my second kid due in 2 months and I'm getting married next year. I love my family and I want to do this so I can be here as long as possible for them. Havent dipped yet today at all.
Congrats @Fmk1221 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=21336), one of the best decisions you will ever make. I too started in my early teens and quit in my late 30’s with a young family. I was a ninja dipper and couldn’t bear to let my kids see me weak, controlled by a plant. Follow the protocol on this board, read others experiences, reach out to others, ask questions, if you get angry rage here in this board, just know that you can overcome this. Focus on one day at a time and don’t worry about tomorrow. A very wise Man once said this following with ‘each day has enough troubles of its own’. You can do this, so just do it!
Aumegrad 1,164 and enjoying the good life!
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Hello, I am 34 years old and have been dipping since 13. I have my second kid due in 2 months and I'm getting married next year. I love my family and I want to do this so I can be here as long as possible for them. Havent dipped yet today at all.
Congrats @Fmk1221 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=21336), one of the best decisions you will ever make. I too started in my early teens and quit in my late 30’s with a young family. I was a ninja dipper and couldn’t bear to let my kids see me weak, controlled by a plant. Follow the protocol on this board, read others experiences, reach out to others, ask questions, if you get angry rage here in this board, just know that you can overcome this. Focus on one day at a time and don’t worry about tomorrow. A very wise Man once said this following with ‘each day has enough troubles of its own’. You can do this, so just do it!
Aumegrad 1,164 and enjoying the good life!
Thanks brother. We are weak no more. It has taken me a tremendous amount of strength to make that post every morning, but once I hit post I know I can do it. The fact that you've done that 1164 times is amazing and I know I will succeed because guys like you have succeeded before me.
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I've gotten things alot more figured out on here now and I'm proud I can truly join in the discussion and support my fellow quitters.
Some of you guys sent me personal messages with your phone numbers and I am sorry to say that I mistakenly deleted all of my first notifications so I lost the messages and who sent them. I do appreciate the outreach however.
Day 2 is coming to a close for me and here are some observations I've made so far:
Before quiting, I thought getting through work would be impossible. I've found so far that there are some moments at home which are much harder than at work.
Rediscovering my love for spicy food has been great despite my burning asshole.
Sunflower seeds are perfect replacement for me. I would always "play" with the dip in my mouth so the cracking of the seeds is right in line with what I need.
Icebreakers sour mints are the tits.
My drive to avoid cravings has made me workout much harder and enjoy working out more.
Fuck Big Tobacco.
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… Before quiting, I thought getting through work would be impossible. I've found so far that there are some moments at home which are much harder than at work. …
Sunflower seeds are perfect replacement for me. I would always "play" with the dip in my mouth so the cracking of the seeds is right in line with what I need.
Icebreakers sour mints are the tits. …
Overcoming triggers are a major step in crushing this addiction. I also found several that I didn’t realize would exist, but I attacked them like my overall quit, one trigger at a time. You are on top of it with seeds, gum, etc. I used to joke that for the first couple months, I was spending more on these than dip. BUT, it was necessary and highly effective. Even now I keep Mento’s mint gum on auto-order with Amazon, chewing these after most meals with packs at home, all cars, office, backpack, storm cellar, etc. Find what you like and works best, then buy it like ‘90s Amazon stock!
You are going great! Keep crushing this one crave, one thought, one piece of gum, one day at a time.
Aumegrad 1,165
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Looking like I'm going to lose my step dad. Gonna be hard on us in the family. I could blame a lot of things but for now let just say fuck covid. Poor man was heavy smoking nic addict for years. I dont feel any danger of slipping from this at this point. It's just reinforcing why I need to quit.
Staying productive today. Worked out hard and cut the grass before work. Had a good breakfast and a good lunch. Feel strong today, feel prepared for the grieving that is coming.
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… Before quiting, I thought getting through work would be impossible. I've found so far that there are some moments at home which are much harder than at work. …
Sunflower seeds are perfect replacement for me. I would always "play" with the dip in my mouth so the cracking of the seeds is right in line with what I need.
Icebreakers sour mints are the tits. …
Overcoming triggers are a major step in crushing this addiction. I also found several that I didn’t realize would exist, but I attacked them like my overall quit, one trigger at a time. You are on top of it with seeds, gum, etc. I used to joke that for the first couple months, I was spending more on these than dip. BUT, it was necessary and highly effective. Even now I keep Mento’s mint gum on auto-order with Amazon, chewing these after most meals with packs at home, all cars, office, backpack, storm cellar, etc. Find what you like and works best, then buy it like ‘90s Amazon stock!
You are going great! Keep crushing this one crave, one thought, one piece of gum, one day at a time.
Aumegrad 1,165
Thanks brother. I'm already debating on setting up that auto order for these ice breakers mints. I've bought 4 cans in 3 days. Havent finished a single flavor yet but the variety is making them exciting.
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Looking like I'm going to lose my step dad. Gonna be hard on us in the family. I could blame a lot of things but for now let just say fuck covid. Poor man was heavy smoking nic addict for years. I dont feel any danger of slipping from this at this point. It's just reinforcing why I need to quit.
Staying productive today. Worked out hard and cut the grass before work. Had a good breakfast and a good lunch. Feel strong today, feel prepared for the grieving that is coming.
Damn dude. Hang in there. Proud to be quit with you today
Peace
CTF
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Looking like I'm going to lose my step dad. Gonna be hard on us in the family. I could blame a lot of things but for now let just say fuck covid. Poor man was heavy smoking nic addict for years. I dont feel any danger of slipping from this at this point. It's just reinforcing why I need to quit.
Staying productive today. Worked out hard and cut the grass before work. Had a good breakfast and a good lunch. Feel strong today, feel prepared for the grieving that is coming.
Damn dude. Hang in there. Proud to be quit with you today
Peace
CTF
im sending my prayers for you and yours. Life hits us hard though our quits, keep blogging it out man, you will look back here at what you wrote 5 years from now and be damn proud of yourself, that even under the extremes of grief you still overcame and remained quit.
please reach out if you need me, This brotherhood has pulled me out of tough times and im grateful for it.
Nick-275 LTBE
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Looking like I'm going to lose my step dad. Gonna be hard on us in the family. I could blame a lot of things but for now let just say fuck covid. Poor man was heavy smoking nic addict for years. I dont feel any danger of slipping from this at this point. It's just reinforcing why I need to quit.
Staying productive today. Worked out hard and cut the grass before work. Had a good breakfast and a good lunch. Feel strong today, feel prepared for the grieving that is coming.
Damn dude. Hang in there. Proud to be quit with you today
Peace
CTF
im sending my prayers for you and yours. Life hits us hard though our quits, keep blogging it out man, you will look back here at what you wrote 5 years from now and be damn proud of yourself, that even under the extremes of grief you still overcame and remained quit.
please reach out if you need me, This brotherhood has pulled me out of tough times and im grateful for it.
Nick-275 LTBE
Sorry to hear this @Fmk1221 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=21336). Keep using your tools. Reach out to fellow quitters. WUPP EDD and protect your quit. You will never regret quitting but you will always regret caving. Reach out if I can help.
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I had a real moment of strength last night with all this shit. My step dad is on his death bed just waiting out this DNR. The texts and calls from my mother have been absolutely heartbreaking. I was driving home from work, late. I wanted a dip so bad that I shoved a tea bag in between my cheek and gum. I was ready to pull in to the gas station and just buy 1 can. Have 1 dip. I had it fully justified in my mind. I was prepared to repost day 1 and take it and move forward. But I didnt. I'm onto day 4. Very proud of myself.
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I had a real moment of strength last night with all this shit. My step dad is on his death bed just waiting out this DNR. The texts and calls from my mother have been absolutely heartbreaking. I was driving home from work, late. I wanted a dip so bad that I shoved a tea bag in between my cheek and gum. I was ready to pull in to the gas station and just buy 1 can. Have 1 dip. I had it fully justified in my mind. I was prepared to repost day 1 and take it and move forward. But I didnt. I'm onto day 4. Very proud of myself.
First, incredibly sorry to hear about your step dad. Praying for your family during this time.
Secondly, I'm very happy to hear you are posting a Day 4 today vs a Day 1. It should terrify you a bit though that you had it all justified in your mind. It's at (or even before) that point you should be texting every KTC digit you have in your phone and even calling someone from here to help you through that mental battle.
Hold the line brother. One minute, one hour, one day at a time.
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I had a real moment of strength last night with all this shit. My step dad is on his death bed just waiting out this DNR. The texts and calls from my mother have been absolutely heartbreaking. I was driving home from work, late. I wanted a dip so bad that I shoved a tea bag in between my cheek and gum. I was ready to pull in to the gas station and just buy 1 can. Have 1 dip. I had it fully justified in my mind. I was prepared to repost day 1 and take it and move forward. But I didnt. I'm onto day 4. Very proud of myself.
First, incredibly sorry to hear about your step dad. Praying for your family during this time.
Secondly, I'm very happy to hear you are posting a Day 4 today vs a Day 1. It should terrify you a bit though that you had it all justified in your mind. It's at (or even before) that point you should be texting every KTC digit you have in your phone and even calling someone from here to help you through that mental battle.
Hold the line brother. One minute, one hour, one day at a time.
@Fmk1221 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=21336) @MNxEngineer (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=21) speaks the truth. Build out a network of fellow quitters. They will pay huge dividends when times get hard. Reach out if I can help.
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I had a real moment of strength last night with all this shit. My step dad is on his death bed just waiting out this DNR. The texts and calls from my mother have been absolutely heartbreaking. I was driving home from work, late. I wanted a dip so bad that I shoved a tea bag in between my cheek and gum. I was ready to pull in to the gas station and just buy 1 can. Have 1 dip. I had it fully justified in my mind. I was prepared to repost day 1 and take it and move forward. But I didnt. I'm onto day 4. Very proud of myself.
First, incredibly sorry to hear about your step dad. Praying for your family during this time.
Secondly, I'm very happy to hear you are posting a Day 4 today vs a Day 1. It should terrify you a bit though that you had it all justified in your mind. It's at (or even before) that point you should be texting every KTC digit you have in your phone and even calling someone from here to help you through that mental battle.
Hold the line brother. One minute, one hour, one day at a time.
@Fmk1221 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=21336) @MNxEngineer (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=21) speaks the truth. Build out a network of fellow quitters. They will pay huge dividends when times get hard. Reach out if I can help.
That may be what has worked for others but right now the awkwardness of a phone call with a complete stranger sounds more like it will make me want to dip than not dip. And to be fair, my group is full of cavers and guys who barely participate. I get more out of you veterans responding to my intro thread. I go in there and even try to post some motivation and bring the guys up and it just stinks like weakness over there. You guys with triple quadruple digits next your names. You're fuckin alphas, I wanna be like you not them.
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I had a real moment of strength last night with all this shit. My step dad is on his death bed just waiting out this DNR. The texts and calls from my mother have been absolutely heartbreaking. I was driving home from work, late. I wanted a dip so bad that I shoved a tea bag in between my cheek and gum. I was ready to pull in to the gas station and just buy 1 can. Have 1 dip. I had it fully justified in my mind. I was prepared to repost day 1 and take it and move forward. But I didnt. I'm onto day 4. Very proud of myself.
First, incredibly sorry to hear about your step dad. Praying for your family during this time.
Secondly, I'm very happy to hear you are posting a Day 4 today vs a Day 1. It should terrify you a bit though that you had it all justified in your mind. It's at (or even before) that point you should be texting every KTC digit you have in your phone and even calling someone from here to help you through that mental battle.
Hold the line brother. One minute, one hour, one day at a time.
@Fmk1221 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=21336) @MNxEngineer (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=21) speaks the truth. Build out a network of fellow quitters. They will pay huge dividends when times get hard. Reach out if I can help.
That may be what has worked for others but right now the awkwardness of a phone call with a complete stranger sounds more like it will make me want to dip than not dip. And to be fair, my group is full of cavers and guys who barely participate. I get more out of you veterans responding to my intro thread. I go in there and even try to post some motivation and bring the guys up and it just stinks like weakness over there. You guys with triple quadruple digits next your names. You're fuckin alphas, I wanna be like you not them.
Brother, trading digits with fellow quitters doesn't mean phone calls nearly as much as it means texting. I exchange texts with at least 20 quitters from lots of different groups every morning, making our promise to each other just as we do on our rolls.
Those phone numbers serve another purpose, too. Say you're not able to post your promise for one reason or another (computer issues, etc.). Having a fellow quitter's digits - especially a quitter in your group - gives you a way to ask for a text pick-up so you don't miss a day. I sent you my digits, not so I'd get a call from you or call you, but so I could personally text you my promise to stay nic free each day. I'm about to do just that.
Buddy, we are all down with you. We are here to hold you accountable, but we are also here to support you. We can't do that if you won't let us. A text or a phone call when you're in the mental battle you said you were in earlier is a helluva lot faster than waiting on a post here on this site.
Proud to be Quit with you every day you post that promise. Keep that shit up, brother.
GS9502
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I had a real moment of strength last night with all this shit. My step dad is on his death bed just waiting out this DNR. The texts and calls from my mother have been absolutely heartbreaking. I was driving home from work, late. I wanted a dip so bad that I shoved a tea bag in between my cheek and gum. I was ready to pull in to the gas station and just buy 1 can. Have 1 dip. I had it fully justified in my mind. I was prepared to repost day 1 and take it and move forward. But I didnt. I'm onto day 4. Very proud of myself.
First, incredibly sorry to hear about your step dad. Praying for your family during this time.
Secondly, I'm very happy to hear you are posting a Day 4 today vs a Day 1. It should terrify you a bit though that you had it all justified in your mind. It's at (or even before) that point you should be texting every KTC digit you have in your phone and even calling someone from here to help you through that mental battle.
Hold the line brother. One minute, one hour, one day at a time.
@Fmk1221 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=21336) @MNxEngineer (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=21) speaks the truth. Build out a network of fellow quitters. They will pay huge dividends when times get hard. Reach out if I can help.
That may be what has worked for others but right now the awkwardness of a phone call with a complete stranger sounds more like it will make me want to dip than not dip. And to be fair, my group is full of cavers and guys who barely participate. I get more out of you veterans responding to my intro thread. I go in there and even try to post some motivation and bring the guys up and it just stinks like weakness over there. You guys with triple quadruple digits next your names. You're fuckin alphas, I wanna be like you not them.
Brother, trading digits with fellow quitters doesn't mean phone calls nearly as much as it means texting. I exchange texts with at least 20 quitters from lots of different groups every morning, making our promise to each other just as we do on our rolls.
Those phone numbers serve another purpose, too. Say you're not able to post your promise for one reason or another (computer issues, etc.). Having a fellow quitter's digits - especially a quitter in your group - gives you a way to ask for a text pick-up so you don't miss a day. I sent you my digits, not so I'd get a call from you or call you, but so I could personally text you my promise to stay nic free each day. I'm about to do just that.
Buddy, we are all down with you. We are here to hold you accountable, but we are also here to support you. We can't do that if you won't let us. A text or a phone call when you're in the mental battle you said you were in earlier is a helluva lot faster than waiting on a post here on this site.
Proud to be Quit with you every day you post that promise. Keep that shit up, brother.
GS9502
My brother from another mother...preach GS!
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I had a real moment of strength last night with all this shit. My step dad is on his death bed just waiting out this DNR. The texts and calls from my mother have been absolutely heartbreaking. I was driving home from work, late. I wanted a dip so bad that I shoved a tea bag in between my cheek and gum. I was ready to pull in to the gas station and just buy 1 can. Have 1 dip. I had it fully justified in my mind. I was prepared to repost day 1 and take it and move forward. But I didnt. I'm onto day 4. Very proud of myself.
First, incredibly sorry to hear about your step dad. Praying for your family during this time.
Secondly, I'm very happy to hear you are posting a Day 4 today vs a Day 1. It should terrify you a bit though that you had it all justified in your mind. It's at (or even before) that point you should be texting every KTC digit you have in your phone and even calling someone from here to help you through that mental battle.
Hold the line brother. One minute, one hour, one day at a time.
@Fmk1221 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=21336) @MNxEngineer (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=21) speaks the truth. Build out a network of fellow quitters. They will pay huge dividends when times get hard. Reach out if I can help.
That may be what has worked for others but right now the awkwardness of a phone call with a complete stranger sounds more like it will make me want to dip than not dip. And to be fair, my group is full of cavers and guys who barely participate. I get more out of you veterans responding to my intro thread. I go in there and even try to post some motivation and bring the guys up and it just stinks like weakness over there. You guys with triple quadruple digits next your names. You're fuckin alphas, I wanna be like you not them.
Brother, trading digits with fellow quitters doesn't mean phone calls nearly as much as it means texting. I exchange texts with at least 20 quitters from lots of different groups every morning, making our promise to each other just as we do on our rolls.
Those phone numbers serve another purpose, too. Say you're not able to post your promise for one reason or another (computer issues, etc.). Having a fellow quitter's digits - especially a quitter in your group - gives you a way to ask for a text pick-up so you don't miss a day. I sent you my digits, not so I'd get a call from you or call you, but so I could personally text you my promise to stay nic free each day. I'm about to do just that.
Buddy, we are all down with you. We are here to hold you accountable, but we are also here to support you. We can't do that if you won't let us. A text or a phone call when you're in the mental battle you said you were in earlier is a helluva lot faster than waiting on a post here on this site.
Proud to be Quit with you every day you post that promise. Keep that shit up, brother.
GS9502
My brother from another mother...preach GS!
@Fmk1221 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=21336) you can be like guys with triple quadruple digits next their names by doing one day at a time and exchanging digits with other quitters. Only phone calls I have every received from a quitter was when they were in a hole and we had already been texting and I knew he was about to dive in and I told him to call me. I put the ball in his court and he did and we won that day. There have only been two calls in almost 14 years, but thousands of text. We are here to help you quit and these three gentlemen @GS9502 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=17011), @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) and @MNxEngineer (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=21) are some badass quitters to get hep from
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I had a real moment of strength last night with all this shit. My step dad is on his death bed just waiting out this DNR. The texts and calls from my mother have been absolutely heartbreaking. I was driving home from work, late. I wanted a dip so bad that I shoved a tea bag in between my cheek and gum. I was ready to pull in to the gas station and just buy 1 can. Have 1 dip. I had it fully justified in my mind. I was prepared to repost day 1 and take it and move forward. But I didnt. I'm onto day 4. Very proud of myself.
First, incredibly sorry to hear about your step dad. Praying for your family during this time.
Secondly, I'm very happy to hear you are posting a Day 4 today vs a Day 1. It should terrify you a bit though that you had it all justified in your mind. It's at (or even before) that point you should be texting every KTC digit you have in your phone and even calling someone from here to help you through that mental battle.
Hold the line brother. One minute, one hour, one day at a time.
@Fmk1221 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=21336) @MNxEngineer (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=21) speaks the truth. Build out a network of fellow quitters. They will pay huge dividends when times get hard. Reach out if I can help.
That may be what has worked for others but right now the awkwardness of a phone call with a complete stranger sounds more like it will make me want to dip than not dip. And to be fair, my group is full of cavers and guys who barely participate. I get more out of you veterans responding to my intro thread. I go in there and even try to post some motivation and bring the guys up and it just stinks like weakness over there. You guys with triple quadruple digits next your names. You're fuckin alphas, I wanna be like you not them.
Brother, trading digits with fellow quitters doesn't mean phone calls nearly as much as it means texting. I exchange texts with at least 20 quitters from lots of different groups every morning, making our promise to each other just as we do on our rolls.
Those phone numbers serve another purpose, too. Say you're not able to post your promise for one reason or another (computer issues, etc.). Having a fellow quitter's digits - especially a quitter in your group - gives you a way to ask for a text pick-up so you don't miss a day. I sent you my digits, not so I'd get a call from you or call you, but so I could personally text you my promise to stay nic free each day. I'm about to do just that.
Buddy, we are all down with you. We are here to hold you accountable, but we are also here to support you. We can't do that if you won't let us. A text or a phone call when you're in the mental battle you said you were in earlier is a helluva lot faster than waiting on a post here on this site.
Proud to be Quit with you every day you post that promise. Keep that shit up, brother.
GS9502
My brother from another mother...preach GS!
@Fmk1221 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=21336) you can be like guys with triple quadruple digits next their names by doing one day at a time and exchanging digits with other quitters. Only phone calls I have every received from a quitter was when they were in a hole and we had already been texting and I knew he was about to dive in and I told him to call me. I put the ball in his court and he did and we won that day. There have only been two calls in almost 14 years, but thousands of text. We are here to help you quit and these three gentlemen @GS9502 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=17011), @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) and @MNxEngineer (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=21) are some badass quitters to get hep from
Wooooo this vortex is giving me quit wood! This is what it’s all about @Fmk1221 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=21336) , facing these triggers head on and the bulldozing the $hit out of them. And when you need a bigger dozer, reach out to others on this board, we got some earth movers around here. Though there are many who cave in weakness, there exists just as many bad @$$ quitters who have never caved, who have curb stomped nic day in and day out since day 1 with a smile on thier face. You got this, keep grinding bro. It will get easier and never feel too awkward about reaching out. I text a dozen a day right after I post and have for 1,166 days! I’ll send you my digits, always room for that 13!
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I had a real moment of strength last night with all this shit. My step dad is on his death bed just waiting out this DNR. The texts and calls from my mother have been absolutely heartbreaking. I was driving home from work, late. I wanted a dip so bad that I shoved a tea bag in between my cheek and gum. I was ready to pull in to the gas station and just buy 1 can. Have 1 dip. I had it fully justified in my mind. I was prepared to repost day 1 and take it and move forward. But I didnt. I'm onto day 4. Very proud of myself.
First, incredibly sorry to hear about your step dad. Praying for your family during this time.
Secondly, I'm very happy to hear you are posting a Day 4 today vs a Day 1. It should terrify you a bit though that you had it all justified in your mind. It's at (or even before) that point you should be texting every KTC digit you have in your phone and even calling someone from here to help you through that mental battle.
Hold the line brother. One minute, one hour, one day at a time.
@Fmk1221 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=21336) @MNxEngineer (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=21) speaks the truth. Build out a network of fellow quitters. They will pay huge dividends when times get hard. Reach out if I can help.
That may be what has worked for others but right now the awkwardness of a phone call with a complete stranger sounds more like it will make me want to dip than not dip. And to be fair, my group is full of cavers and guys who barely participate. I get more out of you veterans responding to my intro thread. I go in there and even try to post some motivation and bring the guys up and it just stinks like weakness over there. You guys with triple quadruple digits next your names. You're fuckin alphas, I wanna be like you not them.
Brother, trading digits with fellow quitters doesn't mean phone calls nearly as much as it means texting. I exchange texts with at least 20 quitters from lots of different groups every morning, making our promise to each other just as we do on our rolls.
Those phone numbers serve another purpose, too. Say you're not able to post your promise for one reason or another (computer issues, etc.). Having a fellow quitter's digits - especially a quitter in your group - gives you a way to ask for a text pick-up so you don't miss a day. I sent you my digits, not so I'd get a call from you or call you, but so I could personally text you my promise to stay nic free each day. I'm about to do just that.
Buddy, we are all down with you. We are here to hold you accountable, but we are also here to support you. We can't do that if you won't let us. A text or a phone call when you're in the mental battle you said you were in earlier is a helluva lot faster than waiting on a post here on this site.
Proud to be Quit with you every day you post that promise. Keep that shit up, brother.
GS9502
My brother from another mother...preach GS!
@Fmk1221 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=21336) you can be like guys with triple quadruple digits next their names by doing one day at a time and exchanging digits with other quitters. Only phone calls I have every received from a quitter was when they were in a hole and we had already been texting and I knew he was about to dive in and I told him to call me. I put the ball in his court and he did and we won that day. There have only been two calls in almost 14 years, but thousands of text. We are here to help you quit and these three gentlemen @GS9502 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=17011), @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) and @MNxEngineer (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=21) are some badass quitters to get hep from
Wooooo this vortex is giving me quit wood! This is what it’s all about @Fmk1221 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=21336) , facing these triggers head on and the bulldozing the $hit out of them. And when you need a bigger dozer, reach out to others on this board, we got some earth movers around here. Though there are many who cave in weakness, there exists just as many bad @$$ quitters who have never caved, who have curb stomped nic day in and day out since day 1 with a smile on thier face. You got this, keep grinding bro. It will get easier and never feel too awkward about reaching out. I text a dozen a day right after I post and have for 1,166 days! I’ll send you my digits, always room for that 13!
The is one sure fire way to curb any crave as taught to me by one of the old timers. He told me to drop my drawers, sit on the edge of a desk. open the top drawer, place your testicles in said drawer. No slam it shut with everything you have. All craves are gone for at least three or four days or until you get the feeling back in your balls.
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I had a real moment of strength last night with all this shit. My step dad is on his death bed just waiting out this DNR. The texts and calls from my mother have been absolutely heartbreaking. I was driving home from work, late. I wanted a dip so bad that I shoved a tea bag in between my cheek and gum. I was ready to pull in to the gas station and just buy 1 can. Have 1 dip. I had it fully justified in my mind. I was prepared to repost day 1 and take it and move forward. But I didnt. I'm onto day 4. Very proud of myself.
bro - why oh why are you rolling solo? Digits in your inbox
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Today has been an extremely emotionally heavy day. After he fought like hell, my step father has unfortunately left us. My mother is a mess. I am currently the weak half dried piece of Elmers glue that is holding the family together. I havent been on here much today but I'm thinking of everyone of you. I have not come close to caving but I am ready to post or text when that time comes. Thanks guys.
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Today has been an extremely emotionally heavy day. After he fought like hell, my step father has unfortunately left us. My mother is a mess. I am currently the weak half dried piece of Elmers glue that is holding the family together. I havent been on here much today but I'm thinking of everyone of you. I have not come close to caving but I am ready to post or text when that time comes. Thanks guys.
Sorry for your loss @Fmk1221 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=21336). Please reach out if you need anything. You will never regret quitting but you will always regret caving.