Today I quit. Tomorrow, I'll quit again. (A journey through one man's recovery)

[Mogul]

Thanks guys! It's my birthday, and I haven't even stopped by my intro thread. That's pretty weak.

I'm amped though. My UK Wildcats are playing their first game in this years NCAA tournament. They fought their way through the SEC tournament and came out victorious. I think they'll make it to the final four this year.

On the quit front, I'm at day 22, and it's not too bad, but I don't feel "normal". I don't remember what normal feels like. This is my first nicotine free birthday in 38 years, give or take. I'm still dealing with oral fixation thing. It's a mind game now. I'm good today. That's all that matters.

I wonder what normal will feel like too... After having quit for as long as I did in the past, I don't remember what it's like. I am looking forward to this stage being done. 11 days in, and I am quit today. Keep on keeping on Irish!

I'm 449 days free and a whole calm of life has came over me after 38 years dipping. I guess that's normal and I'm loving every second of it and will never take it for granted because we are all one stupid ass mistake away from a day one! Life is good!

that badass quitter! ^^^^ he helps so many, you know what?
That is a platform for a very, very strong quit.
Take your eyes off yourself. Help someone else, it will strengthen both of your quits.

3 weeks is huge Irish!

You'll be tested over and over, but stay connected and reach out at all times.
Don't worry about the oral fixation. That will diminish as your quit lengthens.
Do what it takes. Stay strong. Keep doing what you are doing.

What an awesome read. here is another slanted/rude/unusual way to look at it....... You have been a nicotine slave for 30+ years and YOU KNOW WHAT THAT FEELS LIKE. Hell, let's live another 30 without it and see what that life is like. Experience new things, be crazy about it. Hell, yell to people about it if you need too. Just do whatever comes to ya and enjoy the ride. 'Remshot'

[ChickDip]

Thanks guys! It's my birthday, and I haven't even stopped by my intro thread. That's pretty weak.

I'm amped though. My UK Wildcats are playing their first game in this years NCAA tournament. They fought their way through the SEC tournament and came out victorious. I think they'll make it to the final four this year.

On the quit front, I'm at day 22, and it's not too bad, but I don't feel "normal". I don't remember what normal feels like. This is my first nicotine free birthday in 38 years, give or take. I'm still dealing with oral fixation thing. It's a mind game now. I'm good today. That's all that matters.

I wonder what normal will feel like too... After having quit for as long as I did in the past, I don't remember what it's like. I am looking forward to this stage being done. 11 days in, and I am quit today. Keep on keeping on Irish!

I'm 449 days free and a whole calm of life has came over me after 38 years dipping. I guess that's normal and I'm loving every second of it and will never take it for granted because we are all one stupid ass mistake away from a day one! Life is good!

that badass quitter! ^^^^ he helps so many, you know what?
That is a platform for a very, very strong quit.
Take your eyes off yourself. Help someone else, it will strengthen both of your quits.

3 weeks is huge Irish!

You'll be tested over and over, but stay connected and reach out at all times.
Don't worry about the oral fixation. That will diminish as your quit lengthens.
Do what it takes. Stay strong. Keep doing what you are doing.

[pab1964]

Thanks guys! It's my birthday, and I haven't even stopped by my intro thread. That's pretty weak.

I'm amped though. My UK Wildcats are playing their first game in this years NCAA tournament. They fought their way through the SEC tournament and came out victorious. I think they'll make it to the final four this year.

On the quit front, I'm at day 22, and it's not too bad, but I don't feel "normal". I don't remember what normal feels like. This is my first nicotine free birthday in 38 years, give or take. I'm still dealing with oral fixation thing. It's a mind game now. I'm good today. That's all that matters.

I wonder what normal will feel like too... After having quit for as long as I did in the past, I don't remember what it's like. I am looking forward to this stage being done. 11 days in, and I am quit today. Keep on keeping on Irish!

I'm 449 days free and a whole calm of life has came over me after 38 years dipping. I guess that's normal and I'm loving every second of it and will never take it for granted because we are all one stupid ass mistake away from a day one! Life is good!

[overitinmt]

Thanks guys! It's my birthday, and I haven't even stopped by my intro thread. That's pretty weak.

I'm amped though. My UK Wildcats are playing their first game in this years NCAA tournament. They fought their way through the SEC tournament and came out victorious. I think they'll make it to the final four this year.

On the quit front, I'm at day 22, and it's not too bad, but I don't feel "normal". I don't remember what normal feels like. This is my first nicotine free birthday in 38 years, give or take. I'm still dealing with oral fixation thing. It's a mind game now. I'm good today. That's all that matters.

I wonder what normal will feel like too... After having quit for as long as I did in the past, I don't remember what it's like. I am looking forward to this stage being done. 11 days in, and I am quit today. Keep on keeping on Irish!

[wildirish317]

I noted the avatar and though I'm much more of a BMW fan than a basketball fan, I'll let this one slide.

That's our girl, Ashley Judd, in a pose she did for the UK Hockey team calendar a few years ago. I drag it out sometimes in March when I need inspiration.

[danojeno]

Irish, it's been inspiring to watch your progress and involvement. Keep digging that quit hole you spoke of. I noted the avatar and though I'm much more of a BMW fan than a basketball fan, I'll let this one slide.

[wildirish317]

Thanks guys! It's my birthday, and I haven't even stopped by my intro thread. That's pretty weak.

I'm amped though. My UK Wildcats are playing their first game in this years NCAA tournament. They fought their way through the SEC tournament and came out victorious. I think they'll make it to the final four this year.

On the quit front, I'm at day 22, and it's not too bad, but I don't feel "normal". I don't remember what normal feels like. This is my first nicotine free birthday in 38 years, give or take. I'm still dealing with oral fixation thing. It's a mind game now. I'm good today. That's all that matters.

[Dagranger]

Happy Birthday! 'Sing and Drink' 'irish'

Wild Irish birthday on St Patrick's day....that definitely deserves some recognition. I like what I've seen you doing on this site...Keep it up.

[ChickDip]

Happy Birthday! 'Sing and Drink' 'irish'

[wildirish317]

Hey Irish, your intro is a good read. I've been quit for 800+ days now and you know I'm still an addict. very liberating words and a feeling of "I can let perfect go". Know what I mean? I don't need to impress anyone but me and I know that today I didn't go to the c-store, buy some cope, and be disappointed in who I am. I'm impressed. You should be too. I quit with ya.

Mogul

Thanks Mogul. Every freakin' day I learn something new about my addiction. I quit with you today.

[Mogul]

Hey Irish, your intro is a good read. I've been quit for 800+ days now and you know I'm still an addict. very liberating words and a feeling of "I can let perfect go". Know what I mean? I don't need to impress anyone but me and I know that today I didn't go to the c-store, buy some cope, and be disappointed in who I am. I'm impressed. You should be too. I quit with ya.

Mogul

[pab1964]

Okay, day #13 quit. The suck is gone, and the mind games are here. If I see anything round out of the corner of my eye, it's a can of cope. As I type this, there's a focking rubber band just in the corner of my vision. It becomes a can of Copenhagen. They said there'd be days like this.

A couple of observations I've made in this short journey:

The first one is that I'm an addict. This realization hit me during the suck, and it hit hard. I came to this site to quit, but I wasn't an addict. I wasn't addicted to nicotine, no way. I just had a strong habit that I needed to break. Now I'm a focking addict. I really hate that about myself, but I have to learn to live with it. I can't change the color of my skin, and I can't get rid of this addiction.

The second one is that I need you, all of you. I figured I could just come and post roll every day for 100 days, and then leave. I didn't need other people's phone numbers, I'm not going to cave, I'm not going to need anyone. Hah! If you're serious about your quit (and I am), then you need your brothers for support. At some point, I'm going to reach out for help. I have peoples' digits. I also reach out to others in my group that may need help. I know how hard this is for me. It's just as hard for everyone else.

Another thing I've learned is that you have to be serious to quit. That's kind of a given, once you realize you're an addict. Addiction is serious stuff.

I've also dug myself a pretty deep "quit hole". I've expressed my $.02 on a lot of topics, and become an administrator for the accountability spreadsheet. If I cave, not only will I be breaking a promise to me and all of you, I will be the biggest hypocrite this site has ever seen.

Quit on, brothers and sisters, quit on!

Good understanding and good observations right here man. You will win. Reach out (PM) if you ever doubt it, but you are on your way to Freedom.

Very well put and a solid perspective on the caver questions. Quit on Irish.

You a little rough around the collars and you don't mind kicking a little ass, I like you! Stay strong and keep on giving back! Quit on! One of them ole guys!

[ChristopherJ]

Okay, day #13 quit. The suck is gone, and the mind games are here. If I see anything round out of the corner of my eye, it's a can of cope. As I type this, there's a focking rubber band just in the corner of my vision. It becomes a can of Copenhagen. They said there'd be days like this.

A couple of observations I've made in this short journey:

The first one is that I'm an addict. This realization hit me during the suck, and it hit hard. I came to this site to quit, but I wasn't an addict. I wasn't addicted to nicotine, no way. I just had a strong habit that I needed to break. Now I'm a focking addict. I really hate that about myself, but I have to learn to live with it. I can't change the color of my skin, and I can't get rid of this addiction.

The second one is that I need you, all of you. I figured I could just come and post roll every day for 100 days, and then leave. I didn't need other people's phone numbers, I'm not going to cave, I'm not going to need anyone. Hah! If you're serious about your quit (and I am), then you need your brothers for support. At some point, I'm going to reach out for help. I have peoples' digits. I also reach out to others in my group that may need help. I know how hard this is for me. It's just as hard for everyone else.

Another thing I've learned is that you have to be serious to quit. That's kind of a given, once you realize you're an addict. Addiction is serious stuff.

I've also dug myself a pretty deep "quit hole". I've expressed my $.02 on a lot of topics, and become an administrator for the accountability spreadsheet. If I cave, not only will I be breaking a promise to me and all of you, I will be the biggest hypocrite this site has ever seen.

Quit on, brothers and sisters, quit on!

Good understanding and good observations right here man. You will win. Reach out (PM) if you ever doubt it, but you are on your way to Freedom.

Very well put and a solid perspective on the caver questions. Quit on Irish.

[Bucky]

Okay, day #13 quit. The suck is gone, and the mind games are here. If I see anything round out of the corner of my eye, it's a can of cope. As I type this, there's a focking rubber band just in the corner of my vision. It becomes a can of Copenhagen. They said there'd be days like this.

A couple of observations I've made in this short journey:

The first one is that I'm an addict. This realization hit me during the suck, and it hit hard. I came to this site to quit, but I wasn't an addict. I wasn't addicted to nicotine, no way. I just had a strong habit that I needed to break. Now I'm a focking addict. I really hate that about myself, but I have to learn to live with it. I can't change the color of my skin, and I can't get rid of this addiction.

The second one is that I need you, all of you. I figured I could just come and post roll every day for 100 days, and then leave. I didn't need other people's phone numbers, I'm not going to cave, I'm not going to need anyone. Hah! If you're serious about your quit (and I am), then you need your brothers for support. At some point, I'm going to reach out for help. I have peoples' digits. I also reach out to others in my group that may need help. I know how hard this is for me. It's just as hard for everyone else.

Another thing I've learned is that you have to be serious to quit. That's kind of a given, once you realize you're an addict. Addiction is serious stuff.

I've also dug myself a pretty deep "quit hole". I've expressed my $.02 on a lot of topics, and become an administrator for the accountability spreadsheet. If I cave, not only will I be breaking a promise to me and all of you, I will be the biggest hypocrite this site has ever seen.

Quit on, brothers and sisters, quit on!

Good understanding and good observations right here man. You will win. Reach out (PM) if you ever doubt it, but you are on your way to Freedom.

[wildirish317]

Day 16. Poof!