First Week

[DWEIRICK]

Day 148

Today we had to take our 7 year old boy in for an upper GI scope and they had to insert a tube to measure his acid production as he has been having issues with acid reflux, choking and some other symptoms. He is back home resting and we go back down tomorrow to have the acid device removed. Today was the first time that I had to be in the hospital with one of the kids without that shitty nic bitch and let me tell you it felt freaking awesome. It was awesome to not think to myself "where and when can I sneak off to throw a cat turd in" Making progress ODAAT..

On top of this issue with our boy we are still struggling with our teen daughter and that has been an absolute train wreck shit show but realizing that dip won't solve anything has allowed me to further prove that I can get through anything this life throws at me without the nic bitch. Life might be stressful and chaotic as hell right now, but my quit is solid and more protected and guarded then it has ever been!!

[MN_Engineer]

Day 140

39 Years Today — and My Final Quit

Today I turn 39, and I find myself reflecting on all the birthdays I once swore I’d be quit by — yet couldn’t get my head out of my ass long enough to make it stick. Back in 2015, I was given an incredible opportunity to quit for good when I joined KTC — and I torched it. Then again in 2018, I was given another chance… and I repeated the same behavior. Another shot, another flame-out.
Ten more years of birthdays spent using this poison. Ten more years of abusing my body and hiding from the brothers who once believed in me and supported me — until I gave them every reason not to. But not anymore. From this birthday forward, there will be no more “I’ll be quit by my 40th” or any other future milestone. That ends today — because I am quit. This is my final quit.

Getting the nod to conduct again lit my quit on fire. Not that it wasn’t already burning, but being given this second opportunity — one I truly didn’t deserve — has been an incredible boost. I will make this one stick. I will not tarnish the halls of KTC or the legacy of all the badass conductors who’ve carried this role before me. To those who believed in me — who saw that I could change, and that I did change — thank you. It means the world to me. The best birthday gift I could ever ask for is right here, right now: being free from this soul-sucking addiction.

Happy birthday sir!! So happy you are here; one day at a time!!

[DWEIRICK]

Day 140

39 Years Today — and My Final Quit

Today I turn 39, and I find myself reflecting on all the birthdays I once swore I’d be quit by — yet couldn’t get my head out of my ass long enough to make it stick. Back in 2015, I was given an incredible opportunity to quit for good when I joined KTC — and I torched it. Then again in 2018, I was given another chance… and I repeated the same behavior. Another shot, another flame-out.
Ten more years of birthdays spent using this poison. Ten more years of abusing my body and hiding from the brothers who once believed in me and supported me — until I gave them every reason not to. But not anymore. From this birthday forward, there will be no more “I’ll be quit by my 40th” or any other future milestone. That ends today — because I am quit. This is my final quit.

Getting the nod to conduct again lit my quit on fire. Not that it wasn’t already burning, but being given this second opportunity — one I truly didn’t deserve — has been an incredible boost. I will make this one stick. I will not tarnish the halls of KTC or the legacy of all the badass conductors who’ve carried this role before me. To those who believed in me — who saw that I could change, and that I did change — thank you. It means the world to me. The best birthday gift I could ever ask for is right here, right now: being free from this soul-sucking addiction.

[DWEIRICK]

Day 127

When to leave KTC (September is past HOF so we are bound to lose a few....)

This has been bounced around so many times, but I thought I would touch on it as I myself have struggled with staying the course in the past….
 
When is the best time to leave KTC? Although you might think the answer would be simple, it's far from that. Most of us came here because we had no other option. We tried all kinds of methods and other ways, and we failed each and every time. Only when we found KTC and the quitters in these halls were we able to break away from this addiction so why would you leave if it is working? Personally, I know for a fact that if I was not here posting daily and was solely relying on myself, I would fail. I know this because I have done this and I have failed. For me it is simple - leaving here lets the door open for nicotine, leaving here puts me at risk for another day 1 and leaving here after the only cost I pay is a daily roll post is probably one of the most idiotic things I could possibly do next to caving. I’m sure many are able to leave and stay the course, but for me I am not willing to risk my quit. I will continue to post each and every day as a reminder of the life I left behind. See you tomorrow on roll call!!

[DWEIRICK]

Day 119

War On Nicotine

Each of us wages war on this evil and destructive substance day in and day and unfortunately much like war and the battlefield we will lose brothers/sisters. It is an almost unpreventable event no matter the number of days we have stacked up. We mourn the fallen, but we keep fighting for each other, but more importantly for our individual freedom. Take a second to remember them even if they lost this battle on bad terms (cave, leaving with no explanation or straight up ghost) we can learn a valuable lesson from these losses. Our fight wages on until the end of time as there is no end date to addiction. We continue to win battles, but for us the war will always wage on. Make sure your quit is armored and protected as best as possible. Do you have digits for others? Do others have your digits? Do you show up each and every day? Are you here WUPPing or are you strolling to the battlefield at the end of the day while your team has been waging the fight all day long without you? Are you someone your team can lean on when shit gets heavy? Are you willing to be held accountable when you are not protecting your own quit? If you are slipping in any of those areas, you are leaving the door open for the Nic bitches sneak attacks and believe me she’s full of them….

I let myself get “got” by her twice here and I was graced enough to survive and continue this fight. I will do whatever it takes to make sure that door is bolted, welded and sealed shut. No more cracks in my armor…

Don't ever forget that is a daily thing. I often lost sight of it over the years, but anytime that I felt disconnected, I would double down on the basics and pick up a few new quitters.

Absolutely Candy!

[Candoit]

Day 119

War On Nicotine

Each of us wages war on this evil and destructive substance day in and day and unfortunately much like war and the battlefield we will lose brothers/sisters. It is an almost unpreventable event no matter the number of days we have stacked up. We mourn the fallen, but we keep fighting for each other, but more importantly for our individual freedom. Take a second to remember them even if they lost this battle on bad terms (cave, leaving with no explanation or straight up ghost) we can learn a valuable lesson from these losses. Our fight wages on until the end of time as there is no end date to addiction. We continue to win battles, but for us the war will always wage on. Make sure your quit is armored and protected as best as possible. Do you have digits for others? Do others have your digits? Do you show up each and every day? Are you here WUPPing or are you strolling to the battlefield at the end of the day while your team has been waging the fight all day long without you? Are you someone your team can lean on when shit gets heavy? Are you willing to be held accountable when you are not protecting your own quit? If you are slipping in any of those areas, you are leaving the door open for the Nic bitches sneak attacks and believe me she’s full of them….

I let myself get “got” by her twice here and I was graced enough to survive and continue this fight. I will do whatever it takes to make sure that door is bolted, welded and sealed shut. No more cracks in my armor…

Don't ever forget that is a daily thing. I often lost sight of it over the years, but anytime that I felt disconnected, I would double down on the basics and pick up a few new quitters.

[DWEIRICK]

Day 119

War On Nicotine

Each of us wages war on this evil and destructive substance day in and day and unfortunately much like war and the battlefield we will lose brothers/sisters. It is an almost unpreventable event no matter the number of days we have stacked up. We mourn the fallen, but we keep fighting for each other, but more importantly for our individual freedom. Take a second to remember them even if they lost this battle on bad terms (cave, leaving with no explanation or straight up ghost) we can learn a valuable lesson from these losses. Our fight wages on until the end of time as there is no end date to addiction. We continue to win battles, but for us the war will always wage on. Make sure your quit is armored and protected as best as possible. Do you have digits for others? Do others have your digits? Do you show up each and every day? Are you here WUPPing or are you strolling to the battlefield at the end of the day while your team has been waging the fight all day long without you? Are you someone your team can lean on when shit gets heavy? Are you willing to be held accountable when you are not protecting your own quit? If you are slipping in any of those areas, you are leaving the door open for the Nic bitches sneak attacks and believe me she’s full of them….

I let myself get “got” by her twice here and I was graced enough to survive and continue this fight. I will do whatever it takes to make sure that door is bolted, welded and sealed shut. No more cracks in my armor…

[DWEIRICK]

Day 110

Ten days post HOF for most of us the celebrations are winding down and now we are just facing another day in this never-ending fight. I know from my past experiences here adding a banner to roll call and asking people to sign up for the next floor was something we all looked forward to! A way of not letting those first 100 days be forgotten or the only milestone that needed celebration. Every win deserves a celebration in this battle! For some the wins seem few and far between at times, but they do come I promise! If you’re Pre-HoF or Post it doesn’t matter at the end of the day as we are all in this fight together, but it’s important to stop and take a minute to reflect and truly appreciate what this community does for people who have no other options! It’s important to pay it forward with your stories both triumphs and what you feel might be a loss.  You have no idea how powerful your story could be to someone who’s either on the edge or doesn’t know how to keep fighting!

A few of the members of September 25 have branched out and started posting support to the new groups and that is awesome! Good on you and I hope it helps your quit as much as it does mine!

1st floor for the third time was great and all, but I won’t be seeing it ever again. Here’s to the 2nd floor and the wins and losses we will face together as a group!!

[DWEIRICK]

Day 108

Last night I got hit with an awfully realistic cave dream. I was in my shower when I realized I had a dip of cope wintergreen in, and I immediately spit it on the shower floor. My mind was racing with how it got in there in the first place as I didn’t remember opening the can or putting said dip in. Then I was trying to figure out how to explain this event to my group and all the people who dropped their guard to support a retread. I was terrified and I was trying to come up with all these ideas on how to handle it. I moved from the shower to my couch where said can fell out of my pocket and it was a can of beef jerky that was wintergreen flavor which was really weird, but what I found even more disturbing was the fact that it looked, felt and smelled just like cope wintergreen when I opened it up. My mind then went to someone is playing tricks on me and changed out my fake with the real shit. I then woke up and was soaked in sweat. I had to go downstairs for a glass of water and to collect my thoughts. Holy shit that sucked….

[DWEIRICK]

Day 100 - I could spend all day thanking quitters, but the ones that I owe the biggest thanks to are the ones who called my addict ass out and made sure I stayed accountable. This place is built on accountability and without that none of us can break free! I promise to keep my word; I promise to keep fighting even when I have nothing left and I promise to always hold others accountable! NAFAR!

Few days late in here but congrats on 100 man, honored to have you on the train with us

Thank you!! It was an honor to have you as one of our conductors!!!

[BigRedDog]

Day 100 - I could spend all day thanking quitters, but the ones that I owe the biggest thanks to are the ones who called my addict ass out and made sure I stayed accountable. This place is built on accountability and without that none of us can break free! I promise to keep my word; I promise to keep fighting even when I have nothing left and I promise to always hold others accountable! NAFAR!

Few days late in here but congrats on 100 man, honored to have you on the train with us

[DWEIRICK]

Day 100 - I could spend all day thanking quitters, but the ones that I owe the biggest thanks to are the ones who called my addict ass out and made sure I stayed accountable. This place is built on accountability and without that none of us can break free! I promise to keep my word; I promise to keep fighting even when I have nothing left and I promise to always hold others accountable! NAFAR!

Congrats on 100 sir!!

Thanks, Brother!!

[MN_Engineer]

Day 100 - I could spend all day thanking quitters, but the ones that I owe the biggest thanks to are the ones who called my addict ass out and made sure I stayed accountable. This place is built on accountability and without that none of us can break free! I promise to keep my word; I promise to keep fighting even when I have nothing left and I promise to always hold others accountable! NAFAR!

Congrats on 100 sir!!

[DWEIRICK]

Day 100 - I could spend all day thanking quitters, but the ones that I owe the biggest thanks to are the ones who called my addict ass out and made sure I stayed accountable. This place is built on accountability and without that none of us can break free! I promise to keep my word; I promise to keep fighting even when I have nothing left and I promise to always hold others accountable! NAFAR!

[DWEIRICK]

Day 99

Things are different this time around and I know that because anytime there is a slight inconvenience or a rough patch on the road that I am on I don't immediately think to myself that I need a chew, or I need a dip. It feels good to finally embrace the quit life and to actually learn how to navigate life's obstacles and wins without finger bangin a can. I will always regret the decisions that landed me here and on another road to 100, but I will not let it define the future of my quit! NAFAR