69franx

[pab1964]

YouÂ’re doing it right! YouÂ’ve got some badass quitters on your side! Oddat Edd thatÂ’s the key to staying Quit. Thanks for the daily support

[worktowin]

Happy birthday, brother. Today you will own the whole day... you wonÂ’t be sharing it with an addiction that stole parts of your celebrations from you in the past. That is the best gift to yourself ever!

[69franx]

One Day At A Time Every Damn Day
When I joined in 2012, was just checking it out because a friend told me about the site. I was not ready to quit because I still thought I liked it. I really did not understand that it was an addiction, I thought I was in control. I was just a dumbass. When I stopped for over a year in the past I started using again because I gave in to stress: kids, wife, whatever was a convenient excuse

[Montovon]

Congrats on day 50. Keep it up. Haven't had a dip dream yet, but last nights sleep was the worst in a while. Sweating and tightness in the chest. Yikes.

Day 27, looking forward to my turn at 50.

[4TheWin]

Lots and lots of good stuff here, so thanks for sharing!!

One question....what the F*ck is "ODAAT EDD."

One other question....what the hell made you give up last time.

Congrats on day 50...proud to quit with you today.

[69franx]

Today makes 50. thank you to everyone who was "kind" enough to share the special KTC Half HOF meme with me via text this morning. If only he were singing. So 50 days gone by, roughly $150 saved, Dipquit app says my circulation is 50% of the way back to normal, taste and smell normal, heart attack risk dropped 100%. I am feeling better. No fake in the last week, but a lot of sugar free cough drops. May be looking to pick up and try out Jake's mint chews when I am out and about town this week. Its not going to be a quick run to the Cmart like grizzly used to be, I will have to make an effort to get it. But I have definitely been jonesing for a dip in the last week: brewed first batch of home brew chew free (long day of sitting and watching a pot warm up, sit for a while, heat it up to boil, watch that for an hour, then an hour's worth of cleanup, all without a dip!), suffering through the Damn Clowns game (thats not an It reference but rather an NFL reference.) Big thanx go out to all my November 2017 Pre-Hof brothers and sister for their daily support. Keep strong, keep quit. Also big thanx out to so many different vets who support us on a daily basis: miker0351, ReWire, Samrs, Bicycleptic, ADMann, Cbird65, PMILS, Tyrsman, Sfurze76, Big Red, and all the others who keep us on our toes. All in all, feeling much better today about life, my quit and the universe than I was during my last post

[69franx]

Depressing fact: If I had actually quit back when I joined this site, I would be posting day 2082 today. Instead, I am posting day 45. If you have any doubts about quitting, just do it now, don't wait, I wasted 5.5 years and over $6K on those cans full of poison. What could I do today with $6K, I'll tell you it would solve some problems, pay off a credit card, anything i could do with it would be better than buying cat turds in a can. Just another random little rant. One more post to help me stay quit. Learning to hate nicotine when the dollar signs slap me in the face. Reached out today to a couple old vets, from way back in April 2010. They were in the same HOF class as the brother that introduced me to KTC back in late 2011. If only I had listened back then. If only I had realized that I did not really enjoy chewing, thats just what the nic bitch made me think. That bitch stole $6K from me and I let her do it! What the hell was I thinking? I did not realize that I was an addict who was giving up control to that rotten bitch. I think this is all coming to the forefront as Embracethesuck, a brother in my own Pre-HOF class caved last night. Posted roll, and went back on his word. I don't want to be that guy. I will not be that guy. I am still an addict, but I can beat that bitch today. I can win today. I will wake up tomorrow and do it again. I cannot get that $6K back, but i can be sure to not give it away again to UST.

[69franx]

Day 42, 6 weeks in. Quit is going well. Spent last week in Vegas for work. Avoided the poker and Black jack tables, cause I always loved to play and chew. No issues out there with craves. Met up with ReWire yesterday morning right here in SE Indiana as he was heading home. He also gave me a KTC coozie. Did not spend much time with him, just a quick pic and exchanged a story or 2. He had the wife and kids in the car as well as another 8+ hours to drive. It was a little strange to just meet a total "stranger" in a McDonald's parking lot, at least at first. So glad I got out there and made it happen. Seems like a great guy, a great family man, and a strong quitter with over 600 days in quit. So, if you have the chance to get out and meet fellow quitters, do it. I feel that I could never let him down now, and will be quit with him ODAAT EDD. Created and loaded up the contact page on our home made SSOA, just need to get the info from everyone else to get it up to date and complete.

[69franx]

Here in Vegas for work on Day 36. No internet this morning, but got all my texts out to my quit brothers and sisters. Thanks to buddyaces for the pick up. I'll mostly be out of pocket until Saturday afternoon: conference stuff all day, and business meetings (I mean cocktail parties) at night. Keeping the alcohol on the low low side to prevent any issues from creeping in. I'll be back to my usual hanging out here almost all day long once I am back in the office on Monday. Some big days today for others I text with: Sfurze hit HOF and Bicycleptic hit the 6th floor. I will get to those but I have to do it ODAAT EDD and I will!

[Jeff W]

You are killing it man! Keep doing what you've been doing. Damn proud to quit with you!

[69franx]

Well that sucked ass. I'm a bit sick, head cold, cant breathe, etc. Took some nyquill before bed ( I should be asleep for another 8 hours.) Just woke up in a cold sweat from my first dip dream after 32 days. The posts about these seemed like such a bunch of shit to me in the past until I had one. I don't think I ever had one before, even when I had stopped for 14 months. The main thought is that it was not a dip dream, it was a cave dream with nothing in it that made sense. I was with family and an in-law who doesn't smoke or chew was telling the family about hew weight loss efforts. Her doctor had prescribed her Medical grade Grizzly(?) that was loose leafs rolled into little footballs(?) almost like a pouch but with no pouch material. No sense at all. Who would prescribe nicotine for weightloss? There was no hesitation on my part, I never even thought of calling or texting anyone; I immediately took one and popped it into my mouth. I was fascinated by the idea of medical grade chew. In the end, it did not even taste good, I did not enjoy it and spit it out after like just a minute or 2. The guilt woke me in an instant.
In my dream, I was stuck with the biggest problem I could imagine: what now? I did not have it in for long, could I still post a +1? Was I that guy? Could I start over and eat all that caver shit? As I believe Broccoli-saurus put it, I have dug a pretty deep quit hole in 33 days: posting roll every day, being pretty vocal in my group and others, reading a ton of stuff on here, daily texts with 21 different members, afternoon reminders sent out to those missing roll or not responding to my texts, etc. When all this went through my head, I woke up and it took almost 10 minutes to convince myself it was only a dream: I was sick, cold meds, and I am quit: this I would not do.
So in the end, I will tell you that dip dreams are a real thing, or to me, cave dreams; and I hope you never have one. I am quite miserable, sitting here awake on the weekend at 5am when I wanted to sleep in until noon, typing this drivel out to clear my head. Have a great holiday weekend everyone, hopefully I am going back to sleep

[69franx]

Day 28, 4 weeks in. Headaches are not as frequent and I am sleeping better. Lack of sleep and the headaches are a good enough reason to never want to go through that suck phase again. No strong cravings during the day, just later at night when I used to ninja dip. Just going to bed earlier than back before I quit seems to eliminate most of those craves as well. My sample order of Grinds came in this week. These are sized so much bigger than the SMS pouches, its like night and day. Only tried the peppermint and cinnamon roll (yuck) so far. The plan will be to finish this sample pack and be able to go back to cold turkey with no substitutions. Thanx for the support

The oral fixation is a bitch. Took me months to get over it, but if it's nic free and helps then stick it in your gob. All the b\s goes away at some point, just keep +1ing.

Thanx Matt. Thats my plan. I did the first week with nothing while I waited for the SMS to come in. That came in and it was not to my liking, so then I ordered the Grinds. They do the job nicely, I am just a little worried that they are too comfortable, too familiar. If I need something, the grinds are what I will lean on, but the plan is to give those up soon, like I stated above when they run out. Plus 1ing is exactly what it is all about. Thanks for the support

[B-loMatt]

Day 28, 4 weeks in. Headaches are not as frequent and I am sleeping better. Lack of sleep and the headaches are a good enough reason to never want to go through that suck phase again. No strong cravings during the day, just later at night when I used to ninja dip. Just going to bed earlier than back before I quit seems to eliminate most of those craves as well. My sample order of Grinds came in this week. These are sized so much bigger than the SMS pouches, its like night and day. Only tried the peppermint and cinnamon roll (yuck) so far. The plan will be to finish this sample pack and be able to go back to cold turkey with no substitutions. Thanx for the support

The oral fixation is a bitch. Took me months to get over it, but if it's nic free and helps then stick it in your gob. All the b\s goes away at some point, just keep +1ing.

[69franx]

Day 28, 4 weeks in. Headaches are not as frequent and I am sleeping better. Lack of sleep and the headaches are a good enough reason to never want to go through that suck phase again. No strong cravings during the day, just later at night when I used to ninja dip. Just going to bed earlier than back before I quit seems to eliminate most of those craves as well. My sample order of Grinds came in this week. These are sized so much bigger than the SMS pouches, its like night and day. Only tried the peppermint and cinnamon roll (yuck) so far. The plan will be to finish this sample pack and be able to go back to cold turkey with no substitutions. Thanx for the support

[69franx]

Thanx a ton pky1520, I am in a whole different world now compared to 23 days ago. I cant remember if you were one of the supportive people or a "motivator/ass kicker" when I came back to KTC, but I know that you were one of the first 2 or 3 people to acknowledge my presence and I can't explain how much all the early comments both good and rough have meant for my quit. You rock this s#$%