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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: AppleJack on April 17, 2013, 11:59:00 AM
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Here it is... day 1 of my quit. Been at this for 25 years, 2 cans a day at least. I'm tired, man. Tired of needing, tired of sneaking, tired of knowing my wife thinks just a li'l bit less of me, tired of hoping to be around for my daughter, tired of a ridiculous weed running my life... DONE!!!! Am I terrified? Yup.
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Here it is... day 1 of my quit. Been at this for 25 years, 2 cans a day at least. I'm tired, man. Tired of needing, tired of sneaking, tired of knowing my wife thinks just a li'l bit less of me, tired of hoping to be around for my daughter, tired of a ridiculous weed running my life... DONE!!!! Am I terrified? Yup.
Hold onto that fear and never forget. Click on the pink Welcome Center above left and sign on Roll. You will be in the July 2013 "Cornhole Fucksticks" quit group. They really could use a little help picking a better name.
Welcome to Club Freedom!
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Welcome AJ,
NotDead got you going...click on the Welcome Center Link, learn how to post roll. That is the key. Then give your word that you won't have anything to do with nicotine today. Read all you can. "One day at a time" is your new focus. Don't worry about tomorrow, next week or whatever...we'll deal with those things when they get here. Today is the only thing that matters. And anybody can go one day, right?
You took the first step. We've got your back the rest of the way. Rage, rant, do whatever you have to...but no more nicotine. Embrace the suck. That shitty feeling is actually wonderful...it is the feeling of freedom!
Cold turkey is the way to go. YOU CAN DO THIS, brother!!!
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All the advise you have gotten thus far is great now here is another perspective to make sure you look at.....
Quit for you and nobody else......... sounds simple but there is more to it.
Quitting for you is being very selfish but also the best way to maintain your good relations with wife and/or kids or even co-workers, the mind tells you that your quitting for your wife family which if things get tough you may start to resent them.......
Quit for you have the determination for you and let everone else enjoy the better person you will become.
Grizzly25 out......
Message me if you need numbers or any other help brother, tough days come and go but resolve determination = QUIT!
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There is no need for me to add anything else except you have my support. Pm me if you need anything.
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Here it is... day 1 of my quit. Been at this for 25 years, 2 cans a day at least. I'm tired, man. Tired of needing, tired of sneaking, tired of knowing my wife thinks just a li'l bit less of me, tired of hoping to be around for my daughter, tired of a ridiculous weed running my life... DONE!!!! Am I terrified? Yup.
That could have been my exact opening statement.....1202 days ago. It can be done. Follow our rules. We are 100% successful when our rules are followed. Yes it is hard, yes it is scary. yes it gets better, yes it is worth it.
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Here it is... day 1 of my quit. Been at this for 25 years, 2 cans a day at least. I'm tired, man. Tired of needing, tired of sneaking, tired of knowing my wife thinks just a li'l bit less of me, tired of hoping to be around for my daughter, tired of a ridiculous weed running my life... DONE!!!! Am I terrified? Yup.
That could have been my exact opening statement.....1202 days ago. It can be done. Follow our rules. We are 100% successful when our rules are followed. Yes it is hard, yes it is scary. yes it gets better, yes it is worth it.
x2 brother. Except the day count. Trailing Mike by a couple hundred.
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Here it is... day 1 of my quit. Been at this for 25 years, 2 cans a day at least. I'm tired, man. Tired of needing, tired of sneaking, tired of knowing my wife thinks just a li'l bit less of me, tired of hoping to be around for my daughter, tired of a ridiculous weed running my life... DONE!!!! Am I terrified? Yup.
That could have been my exact opening statement.....1202 days ago. It can be done. Follow our rules. We are 100% successful when our rules are followed. Yes it is hard, yes it is scary. yes it gets better, yes it is worth it.
x2 brother. Except the day count. Trailing Mike by a couple hundred.
x3 Holy sheep shit. That statement was me exactly not that long ago (seems like forever and a day, totally "different" guy). I'm gonna lift that intro statement and pretend it was mine. Sort of like I lifted the following great newbie advice from Evil_won:
Welcome on the greatest decision ever, quitting. You got some great advice. Man up and take it all in.
This site has both changed and saved my life, and itÂ’s really quite simple:
Masterbate frequently: Evil_won didn't put this is his original post, but I'm pretty sure it is a big part of his quit. Besides, with nic-withdrawal and nic-rage, youre gonna be to much an asshole to get laid any time soon, so this is good advice.
Post Roll: Why (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=120)? How (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50)?
Every day you log into your “Group”, a bunch of guys all quitting together and going through the same suck, fog, cravings, etc. You “Post Roll”; add your name and the number of days quit that you are. This is your promise, a pledge to your quit brothers and sisters, to yourself, and to everyone else here on KTC to not use nicotine in any way, shape, or form, for the next 24 hours. Keep your promise. A man is nothing if his word is no good. If you're feeling board and want to figure out how the board works risk free, go to the TEST THREAD (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=345) and play all you want, nothing you do there counts for shit.
Get Involved:
Read: Introductions (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=25) and [color=DARK BLUE]HOF Speeches[/color] (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=90). Read the banter in other groups. Read the non-dip discussions in the [color=DARK GREEN]Wilcard[/color] (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=11) section when you want to get away from thoughts of dip. By doing this you will realize that you are not alone in the feeling you are having. You will gain strength though others. And, you will get to know these people on a personal level, which adds accountability.
Send out a few PMs:
Send out a PM to someone in your group, or to someone that posted something that you related to. Offer your phone number. I bet you will get a phone number in return. Store those numbers in your phone and USE THEM in a moment of weakness. Sending a text out has prevented me from caving more than a few times. Sometimes I didn’t even need a response, just taking a few seconds to text was all it took to get me thinking straight again. Other times the response I got was, “you do NOT have permission to cave”, which I took to heart.
Every tool you need to QUIT and remain QUIT is here, for free, but you have to want it. No one can quit for you, but we can offer support whenever you need it.
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Here it is... day 1 of my quit. Been at this for 25 years, 2 cans a day at least. I'm tired, man. Tired of needing, tired of sneaking, tired of knowing my wife thinks just a li'l bit less of me, tired of hoping to be around for my daughter, tired of a ridiculous weed running my life... DONE!!!! Am I terrified? Yup.
That could have been my exact opening statement.....1202 days ago. It can be done. Follow our rules. We are 100% successful when our rules are followed. Yes it is hard, yes it is scary. yes it gets better, yes it is worth it.
x2 brother. Except the day count. Trailing Mike by a couple hundred.
x3 Holy sheep shit. That statement was me exactly not that long ago (seems like forever and a day, totally "different" guy). I'm gonna lift that intro statement and pretend it was mine. Sort of like I lifted the following great newbie advice from Evil_won:
Welcome on the greatest decision ever, quitting. You got some great advice. Man up and take it all in.
This site has both changed and saved my life, and itÂ’s really quite simple:
Masterbate frequently: Evil_won didn't put this is his original post, but I'm pretty sure it is a big part of his quit. Besides, with nic-withdrawal and nic-rage, youre gonna be to much an asshole to get laid any time soon, soon this is good advice.
Post Roll: Why (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=120)? How (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50)?
Every day you log into your “Group”, a bunch of guys all quitting together and going through the same suck, fog, cravings, etc. You “Post Roll”; add your name and the number of days quit that you are. This is your promise, a pledge to your quit brothers and sisters, to yourself, and to everyone else here on KTC to not use nicotine in any way, shape, or form, for the next 24 hours. Keep your promise. A man is nothing if his word is no good. If you're feeling board and want to figure out how the board works risk free, go to the TEST THREAD (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=345) and play all you want, nothing you do there counts for shit.
Get Involved:
Read: Introductions (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=25) and [color=DARK BLUE]HOF Speeches[/color] (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=90). Read the banter in other groups. Read the non-dip discussions in the [color=DARK GREEN]Wilcard[/color] (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=11) section when you want to get away from thoughts of dip. By doing this you will realize that you are not alone in the feeling you are having. You will gain strength though others. And, you will get to know these people on a personal level, which adds accountability.
Send out a few PMs:
Send out a PM to someone in your group, or to someone that posted something that you related to. Offer your phone number. I bet you will get a phone number in return. Store those numbers in your phone and USE THEM in a moment of weakness. Sending a text out has prevented me from caving more than a few times. Sometimes I didn’t even need a response, just taking a few seconds to text was all it took to get me thinking straight again. Other times the response I got was, “you do NOT have permission to cave”, which I took to heart.
Every tool you need to QUIT and remain QUIT is here, for free, but you have to want it. No one can quit for you, but we can offer support whenever you need it.
x4. You are spot on Applejack.
Self liberation is where it is at. A relvolution one quitter at a time...one day at a time.
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Here it is... day 1 of my quit. Been at this for 25 years, 2 cans a day at least. I'm tired, man. Tired of needing, tired of sneaking, tired of knowing my wife thinks just a li'l bit less of me, tired of hoping to be around for my daughter, tired of a ridiculous weed running my life... DONE!!!! Am I terrified? Yup.
That could have been my exact opening statement.....1202 days ago. It can be done. Follow our rules. We are 100% successful when our rules are followed. Yes it is hard, yes it is scary. yes it gets better, yes it is worth it.
x2 brother. Except the day count. Trailing Mike by a couple hundred.
x3 Holy sheep shit. That statement was me exactly not that long ago (seems like forever and a day, totally "different" guy). I'm gonna lift that intro statement and pretend it was mine. Sort of like I lifted the following great newbie advice from Evil_won:
Welcome on the greatest decision ever, quitting. You got some great advice. Man up and take it all in.
This site has both changed and saved my life, and itÂ’s really quite simple:
Masterbate frequently: Evil_won didn't put this is his original post, but I'm pretty sure it is a big part of his quit. Besides, with nic-withdrawal and nic-rage, youre gonna be to much an asshole to get laid any time soon, soon this is good advice.
Post Roll: Why (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=120)? How (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50)?
Every day you log into your “Group”, a bunch of guys all quitting together and going through the same suck, fog, cravings, etc. You “Post Roll”; add your name and the number of days quit that you are. This is your promise, a pledge to your quit brothers and sisters, to yourself, and to everyone else here on KTC to not use nicotine in any way, shape, or form, for the next 24 hours. Keep your promise. A man is nothing if his word is no good. If you're feeling board and want to figure out how the board works risk free, go to the TEST THREAD (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=345) and play all you want, nothing you do there counts for shit.
Get Involved:
Read: Introductions (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=25) and [color=DARK BLUE]HOF Speeches[/color] (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=90). Read the banter in other groups. Read the non-dip discussions in the [color=DARK GREEN]Wilcard[/color] (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=11) section when you want to get away from thoughts of dip. By doing this you will realize that you are not alone in the feeling you are having. You will gain strength though others. And, you will get to know these people on a personal level, which adds accountability.
Send out a few PMs:
Send out a PM to someone in your group, or to someone that posted something that you related to. Offer your phone number. I bet you will get a phone number in return. Store those numbers in your phone and USE THEM in a moment of weakness. Sending a text out has prevented me from caving more than a few times. Sometimes I didn’t even need a response, just taking a few seconds to text was all it took to get me thinking straight again. Other times the response I got was, “you do NOT have permission to cave”, which I took to heart.
Every tool you need to QUIT and remain QUIT is here, for free, but you have to want it. No one can quit for you, but we can offer support whenever you need it.
x4. You are spot on Applejack.
Self liberation is where it is at. A relvolution one quitter at a time...one day at a time.
x5 - I knew my excessive masturbation was for a good cause.
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Didn't think I could do this... Here I am. 1 day down, another ahead. I have nobody to blame but myself and... For myself I will quit again today. Thanks to all who have PM'd or posted advice or encouragement. Not alone like I felt.
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Here it is... day 1 of my quit. Been at this for 25 years, 2 cans a day at least. I'm tired, man. Tired of needing, tired of sneaking, tired of knowing my wife thinks just a li'l bit less of me, tired of hoping to be around for my daughter, tired of a ridiculous weed running my life... DONE!!!! Am I terrified? Yup.
That could have been my exact opening statement.....1202 days ago. It can be done. Follow our rules. We are 100% successful when our rules are followed. Yes it is hard, yes it is scary. yes it gets better, yes it is worth it.
x2 brother. Except the day count. Trailing Mike by a couple hundred.
x3 Holy sheep shit. That statement was me exactly not that long ago (seems like forever and a day, totally "different" guy). I'm gonna lift that intro statement and pretend it was mine. Sort of like I lifted the following great newbie advice from Evil_won:
Welcome on the greatest decision ever, quitting. You got some great advice. Man up and take it all in.
This site has both changed and saved my life, and itÂ’s really quite simple:
Masterbate frequently: Evil_won didn't put this is his original post, but I'm pretty sure it is a big part of his quit. Besides, with nic-withdrawal and nic-rage, youre gonna be to much an asshole to get laid any time soon, soon this is good advice.
Post Roll: Why (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=120)? How (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50)?
Every day you log into your “Group”, a bunch of guys all quitting together and going through the same suck, fog, cravings, etc. You “Post Roll”; add your name and the number of days quit that you are. This is your promise, a pledge to your quit brothers and sisters, to yourself, and to everyone else here on KTC to not use nicotine in any way, shape, or form, for the next 24 hours. Keep your promise. A man is nothing if his word is no good. If you're feeling board and want to figure out how the board works risk free, go to the TEST THREAD (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=345) and play all you want, nothing you do there counts for shit.
Get Involved:
Read: Introductions (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=25) and [color=DARK BLUE]HOF Speeches[/color] (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=90). Read the banter in other groups. Read the non-dip discussions in the [color=DARK GREEN]Wilcard[/color] (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=11) section when you want to get away from thoughts of dip. By doing this you will realize that you are not alone in the feeling you are having. You will gain strength though others. And, you will get to know these people on a personal level, which adds accountability.
Send out a few PMs:
Send out a PM to someone in your group, or to someone that posted something that you related to. Offer your phone number. I bet you will get a phone number in return. Store those numbers in your phone and USE THEM in a moment of weakness. Sending a text out has prevented me from caving more than a few times. Sometimes I didn’t even need a response, just taking a few seconds to text was all it took to get me thinking straight again. Other times the response I got was, “you do NOT have permission to cave”, which I took to heart.
Every tool you need to QUIT and remain QUIT is here, for free, but you have to want it. No one can quit for you, but we can offer support whenever you need it.
x4. You are spot on Applejack.
Self liberation is where it is at. A relvolution one quitter at a time...one day at a time.
x5 - I knew my excessive masturbation was for a good cause.
Welcome Applejack to getting your life back.
The fear helps keep us safe...Quit on brother. 'bang head'
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Didn't think I could do this... Here I am. 1 day down, another ahead. I have nobody to blame but myself and... For myself I will quit again today. Thanks to all who have PM'd or posted advice or encouragement. Not alone like I felt.
Good Job, one day at a time, it's all we ask. Do it again and Ill do it with you today.
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I'm with you bro. Day 4 here. It's a little better today, but not much. I hope to remember this suck so I never do it again. Let me know if you need anything. Good work and hang in there. I know how you feel.
-Greg
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I'm with you bro. Day 4 here. It's a little better today, but not much. I hope to remember this suck so I never do it again. Let me know if you need anything. Good work and hang in there. I know how you feel.
-Greg
Thank you, bros. Thank you. I'm proud as hell to quit with everyone today.
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Day 5, Spun in circles last night till I knocked myself out. Feel great today, the thought of going to through this again makes it a lot easier to keep going forward. Stick with it, PM me if you need anything.
Murph
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Good decision my friend. I'm on day 31 and I honestly didn't think it was possible. But IT IS. Pay attention to the veteran's advices and really take it one day at a time. You will be a new human being i promise you!
manny
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Well done all!
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Day 26 here it gets better be ready for triggers though. I have used seeds and fake dip to overcome mine. Just remember you only quitting today. Come back tomorrow and quit again.
Good luck and I quit with you today
Aksn823
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Didn't think I could do this... Here I am. 1 day down, another ahead. I have nobody to blame but myself and... For myself I will quit again today. Thanks to all who have PM'd or posted advice or encouragement. Not alone like I felt.
Welcome to ktc and congrats on kicking that evil can to the curb. You have the right attitude for sure and I will quit with you anyday and everyday. One of the great things about ktc is that you are never alone and anytime that you need something or need to vent or even a swift kick in the ass; all you have to do is call, text or pm someone.
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Day 2... Nic Bitch rode me hard today and the crave wave was deep. Just like I knew it would be. But on this site... Good people, good advice, no bullshit, truth, determination. I will do this... You will too. Day2... I quit today!
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Day 2... Nic Bitch rode me hard today and the crave wave was deep. Just like I knew it would be. But on this site... Good people, good advice, no bullshit, truth, determination. I will do this... You will too. Day2... I quit today!
Congrats, great job. You need to limit your intro to 1 thread so you can look back on it.
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Day 4... Doing better than I thought I would ever be doing. Sleep though!? Holy Lord, I need some sleep! Between the fog (which isn't too bad) and the lack of sleep, I'm even more useless and funk'd out. Sleeping pills, sleep aids... Good idea or bad idea?
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Day 4... Doing better than I thought I would ever be doing. Sleep though!? Holy Lord, I need some sleep! Between the fog (which isn't too bad) and the lack of sleep, I'm even more useless and funk'd out. Sleeping pills, sleep aids... Good idea or bad idea?
Applejack,, glad to have you aboard. My two cents which, isn't much I tell you. I had such a rough time sleeping my first couple weeks. I tried benadrill (spelling all fudged up) which didn't work. I didn't try anything else. I have heard before that nyquil works.
Apple jack the first couple weeks are just seriously jacked up, but things get so much better as the days stack up. I don't know how long you used,, but your mind has to rewire which takes time and unfortunately sleep is one thing the mind does not do well when rewiring after using nicotine for unteen years.
I'm on day 66 and my sleep is fine now,,, as a matter of fact it's better than ever.
Push through this,, keep your quit close, everything gets better one day at a time. Glad to be quit with you.
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Day 4... Doing better than I thought I would ever be doing. Sleep though!? Holy Lord, I need some sleep! Between the fog (which isn't too bad) and the lack of sleep, I'm even more useless and funk'd out. Sleeping pills, sleep aids... Good idea or bad idea?
Applejack,, glad to have you aboard. My two cents which, isn't much I tell you. I had such a rough time sleeping my first couple weeks. I tried benadrill (spelling all fudged up) which didn't work. I didn't try anything else. I have heard before that nyquil works.
Apple jack the first couple weeks are just seriously jacked up, but things get so much better as the days stack up. I don't know how long you used,, but your mind has to rewire which takes time and unfortunately sleep is one thing the mind does not do well when rewiring after using nicotine for unteen years.
I'm on day 66 and my sleep is fine now,,, as a matter of fact it's better than ever.
Push through this,, keep your quit close, everything gets better one day at a time. Glad to be quit with you.
I used melatonin. The main concern is staying quit.
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I used for 25 years guys. Last thing before bed was a big ol' security blanket dip. So, I know exactly why sleep is screwy. I'm gonna try the melatonin and herbal teas... Anything! I do realize I can't undo in 6 days what I just spent 25 years screwing up. Thanks for the positive and the patience you all dish out. Proud to be 5 days quit!
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I used for 25 years guys. Last thing before bed was a big ol' security blanket dip. So, I know exactly why sleep is screwy. I'm gonna try the melatonin and herbal teas... Anything! I do realize I can't undo in 6 days what I just spent 25 years screwing up. Thanks for the positive and the patience you all dish out. Proud to be 5 days quit!
Hey AJ -
another point - in your early quit your body is physically fighting, so you will get tired. Even though the sleep at night may be messed up a little if you can go ahead and take cat naps during the day. This will help as you gain that rest time.
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Thanks guys. Despite being ass-tired... I feel liberated. Does that make sense? I was driving home from work to pick up my daughter at school today. It's the first time, ever, that I didn't worry about getting there on time because I didn't "have" to pick up a tin or two. It hit me how pathetic that was. How truly depraved and pathetic that I thought of that crap first. Damn. Not anymore. Not. Anymore. 7 days quit today. Many more to come...
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Hang in there Apple Jack. I'm a 25 year addict and on Day 148 of my Quit. You must keep your guard up at all times. What's crazy for me....I found the first 5 days to be the easiest. Everyone has different experiences...It was around day 60 or 70 when I about lost it. The first few days were like..."Look at me...I'm quit! Kodiak is a pussy. I'm kicking the can's ass. I don't use tobacco anymore".....and then about 5-7 weeks later The Nic Bitch dug her claws into me and begged me to come back. She still begs me to come back. I miss her a lot.....But I will NOT FUCKING CHEW ANY MORE!
Just had to vent a little...You get the point right? Keep it up. This shit is hard but so worth it. I have a 8 year old son and 6 year old daughter. They need me. I don't need Kodiak anymore.
Good luck buddy. I know you can do it. KC Bronco
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Thank you, bro! I do get your point loud and clear. I will not take for granted some of the things that come easy. I will gear up for a fight, I will gear up for bad days, I will reach out for help or a kick in the ass. 25 years is a serious addiction... I screwed with my health and every aspect of my personality. KTC is a blessing/lifeline and I WILL honor my quit and quit group. Thanks for your example...
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Thank you, bro! I do get your point loud and clear. I will not take for granted some of the things that come easy. I will gear up for a fight, I will gear up for bad days, I will reach out for help or a kick in the ass. 25 years is a serious addiction... I screwed with my health and every aspect of my personality. KTC is a blessing/lifeline and I WILL honor my quit and quit group. Thanks for your example...
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Nicely said, AppleJack!! Excellent attitude.
I agree with everything KC Bronco said.
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My two cents...you may have read them on here before...
"One day at a time" is your new way of life. The thought of "quitting forever" was (almost) overwhelming at 5 to 7 weeks. My thoughts would jump ahead to that first Thanksgiving, Christmas, fishing trip, etc. (insert milestone). I just didn't believe in myself...and the self-doubt made it even worse.
Then I came across the same old words I'd seen here a million times...ONE DAY AT A TIME.
See, nobody is asking you to "quit forever." Quitting forever is hard...really hard. So, don't try to do it. In fact, don't even think about tomorrow, next week, next year, etc. We'll figure those out when they get here. You just get through today. Anybody can go one day, right?
Don't worry about what you can't control. You can't change the past...forget it. The future isn't here yet...forget it. Just worry about today. Post roll, give us your word, and fight like Hell to keep it. That's all there is to it.
Like that joke about how to eat an elephant...one bite at a time. How are you going to stay quit? One day at a time.
You can do this, brother!
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10 days. Cold turkey, no fake stuff. Fog is gone. I actually slept more than 4 hours and didn't wake up sweating my wife outa the bed. Didn't bitch slap anyone but the nic bitch no matter how irritable I was/am at times. All you vets have harped on the One Day At A Time mindset... I freakin' get that today. It's one thing to hear it and understand it from an intellectual standpoint... Something else altogether when your sanity and health depend on UNDERSTANDING it! I can do it again today. I feel better, feel sharper, feel like I'm more "present" in every conversation or interaction. That kicks ass. Extra bene... 10 days, 2 cans/day @$6... I didn't pay the Bitch $120 out of my family's needs. Today... I QLF!!
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10 days. Cold turkey, no fake stuff. Fog is gone. I actually slept more than 4 hours and didn't wake up sweating my wife outa the bed. Didn't bitch slap anyone but the nic bitch no matter how irritable I was/am at times. All you vets have harped on the One Day At A Time mindset... I freakin' get that today. It's one thing to hear it and understand it from an intellectual standpoint... Something else altogether when your sanity and health depend on UNDERSTANDING it! I can do it again today. I feel better, feel sharper, feel like I'm more "present" in every conversation or interaction. That kicks ass. Extra bene... 10 days, 2 cans/day @$6... I didn't pay the Bitch $120 out of my family's needs. Today... I QLF!!
Beautiful. The plan is coming together.
Congratulations, brother.
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I can totally relate bout pissed myself when I read "didnt bitch slap anyone today"...holy shit if I would have been allowed to bitch slap everyone I thought that needed it in my first 10 days my arms would have been worn out. keep up the good quit.
qfl brother
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Keep fighting brother. Anger seems to be a problem for all of us at one point or another during the quit. Just remember fences can be mended but your word cannot. Sometimes, you got to uncork to keep on the path. Keep up the good work.
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I'm with you bud! You're doing great. Positive reinforcement. I would not be doing my KTC duty though if I didn't say: Don't fuck up! Text me before you fuck up. I'll PM you my number.
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Day 13... Had my first dip dream last night. Holy Mother of God. It was an evil bomb dropped into my brain. It's all a li'l foggy now but, in the dream, I didn't even want it. No crave - no jones... It was just routine. I also recall being indifferent in the dream... Didn't really take any enjoyment from it. The truly scary part is this: How easily, how quickly I was ready to lie about it and hide it. Do I really need to confess? It's just this once... I'll sweep it under and just move on. It won't affect my relationships/day count/integrity/self-worth. I'm good, I can handle it.
I must've spent most of the night in that half sleep stage... The "quit" me fighting with the evil dream me. Half asleep rational mind fighting with that deep subconscious monster of dream land. I am funked up and tired today. If ever I had any lingering doubts about my status, my reality, as an addict... They are so much dust in the wind right now. How easily I considered lying and hiding and justifying that dream dip was damn terrifying. Just one doesn't happen for me. I. Will. Die.
My addiction will see to it... I can't edit or moderate my intake. I'm still jumpy and vibrating from adrenaline 5 hrs after waking up. Here's what I know... That dream was a glimpse of what could be. My reality... I am quit today. Damn right!
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That is good shit, right there. Congrats. I had a few dip dreams...one was so real I actually had to check my pockets and truck before I was sure it was just a dream.
Just kick the Nic Bitch in the balls each day by posting roll. Sounds like you have a great quit going. CONGRATS, Brother!!!
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That is good shit, right there. Congrats. I had a few dip dreams...one was so real I actually had to check my pockets and truck before I was sure it was just a dream.
Just kick the Nic Bitch in the balls each day by posting roll. Sounds like you have a great quit going. CONGRATS, Brother!!!
Yeah man, I had to sit on the edge of the bed and logic my way through it!
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That is good shit, right there. Congrats. I had a few dip dreams...one was so real I actually had to check my pockets and truck before I was sure it was just a dream.
Just kick the Nic Bitch in the balls each day by posting roll. Sounds like you have a great quit going. CONGRATS, Brother!!!
Yeah man, I had to sit on the edge of the bed and logic my way through it!
The Nic bitch knows she can't get you when your awake, so she comes for you in your dreams... I had one so real I still think i caved. I couldn't find any proof so I kept posting.
Quit on my friend.
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25 days. A fairly symbolic number for me today. 1 day quit for every year I was a slave. That's 25 days of freedom stacked against 9,125 days of being a slave to nicotine. No more. I don't want to ramble so suffice to say... My world is changing, my outlook is unhindered and unpolluted. No more lies, no more shame, no more self-loathing, no more nic. No. More!! Watch out day 26... You're next.
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25 days. A fairly symbolic number for me today. 1 day quit for every year I was a slave. That's 25 days of freedom stacked against 9,125 days of being a slave to nicotine. That is soooo screwed up! I don't want to ramble so suffice to say... My world is changing, my outlook is unhindered and unpolluted. No more lies, no more shame, no more self-loathing, no more nic. No. More!! Watch out day 26... You're next.
Applejack
Your quit is so BA, you keep rocking your quit. Thank you for paving a path for many of us. Thank you for all your help, your quit has strengthened mine, I quit with you man!
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25 days. A fairly symbolic number for me today. 1 day quit for every year I was a slave. That's 25 days of freedom stacked against 9,125 days of being a slave to nicotine. No more. I don't want to ramble so suffice to say... My world is changing, my outlook is unhindered and unpolluted. No more lies, no more shame, no more self-loathing, no more nic. No. More!! Watch out day 26... You're next.
Proud to be a July quitter with you applejack. Keep it up!
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25 days. A fairly symbolic number for me today. 1 day quit for every year I was a slave. That's 25 days of freedom stacked against 9,125 days of being a slave to nicotine. No more. I don't want to ramble so suffice to say... My world is changing, my outlook is unhindered and unpolluted. No more lies, no more shame, no more self-loathing, no more nic. No. More!! Watch out day 26... You're next.
Proud to be a July quitter with you applejack. Keep it up!
Thank you bro! Proud to be a July quitter with you too... Even if we don't know what the hell to call ourselves!
Day 30 today... Hopefully this 2nd stage funk/I don't give a damn attitude will wear off soon. Even I'm starting to piss myself off! The 20's have been a pain in the ass... Anyone!? I'll take even a tiny breather from constant anxiety/panic attack mode I've been in. DAMN!
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25 days. A fairly symbolic number for me today. 1 day quit for every year I was a slave. That's 25 days of freedom stacked against 9,125 days of being a slave to nicotine. No more. I don't want to ramble so suffice to say... My world is changing, my outlook is unhindered and unpolluted. No more lies, no more shame, no more self-loathing, no more nic. No. More!! Watch out day 26... You're next.
Proud to be a July quitter with you applejack. Keep it up!
Thank you bro! Proud to be a July quitter with you too... Even if we don't know what the hell to call ourselves!
Day 30 today... Hopefully this 2nd stage funk/I don't give a damn attitude will wear off soon. Even I'm starting to piss myself off! The 20's have been a pain in the ass... Anyone!? I'll take even a tiny breather from constant anxiety/panic attack mode I've been in. DAMN!
The 20 to 30's really did suck. The good news is that very soon it gets tons better. I know it feels like you are at the end of your strength. Don't give up! A joyful, free life is right around the corner. (Besides, Applejack, any ideas of caving we would find you and kick your ass. :unsure: ). Anyway, hang in there, you are doing awesome!
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25 days. A fairly symbolic number for me today. 1 day quit for every year I was a slave. That's 25 days of freedom stacked against 9,125 days of being a slave to nicotine. No more. I don't want to ramble so suffice to say... My world is changing, my outlook is unhindered and unpolluted. No more lies, no more shame, no more self-loathing, no more nic. No. More!! Watch out day 26... You're next.
Proud to be a July quitter with you applejack. Keep it up!
Thank you bro! Proud to be a July quitter with you too... Even if we don't know what the hell to call ourselves!
Day 30 today... Hopefully this 2nd stage funk/I don't give a damn attitude will wear off soon. Even I'm starting to piss myself off! The 20's have been a pain in the ass... Anyone!? I'll take even a tiny breather from constant anxiety/panic attack mode I've been in. DAMN!
The 20 to 30's really did suck. The good news is that very soon it gets tons better. I know it feels like you are at the end of your strength. Don't give up! A joyful, free life is right around the corner. (Besides, Applejack, any ideas of caving we would find you and kick your ass. :unsure: ). Anyway, hang in there, you are doing awesome!
Mucho appreciated Sage! I think Jaynellie would beat you to the ass-kickin'... He's a whole lot closer than you... Literally, down the road from me close :)
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25 days. A fairly symbolic number for me today. 1 day quit for every year I was a slave. That's 25 days of freedom stacked against 9,125 days of being a slave to nicotine. No more. I don't want to ramble so suffice to say... My world is changing, my outlook is unhindered and unpolluted. No more lies, no more shame, no more self-loathing, no more nic. No. More!! Watch out day 26... You're next.
Proud to be a July quitter with you applejack. Keep it up!
Thank you bro! Proud to be a July quitter with you too... Even if we don't know what the hell to call ourselves!
Day 30 today... Hopefully this 2nd stage funk/I don't give a damn attitude will wear off soon. Even I'm starting to piss myself off! The 20's have been a pain in the ass... Anyone!? I'll take even a tiny breather from constant anxiety/panic attack mode I've been in. DAMN!
The 20 to 30's really did suck. The good news is that very soon it gets tons better. I know it feels like you are at the end of your strength. Don't give up! A joyful, free life is right around the corner. (Besides, Applejack, any ideas of caving we would find you and kick your ass. :unsure: ). Anyway, hang in there, you are doing awesome!
Mucho appreciated Sage! I think Jaynellie would beat you to the ass-kickin'... He's a whole lot closer than you... Literally, down the road from me close :)
Oh good, AppleJack because I live in Alaska. I would still find you, though. :P or maybe send a brother hit man.
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To the Bad ass quitter that owns this thread,
All the pain you are going thru and still take the time to check on the guys just behind you, like me. Thanks for the text today, it meant alot to me. Caught me at a needed time. You hang tough and you remember, now that you are part of this group not only "you" depend on your decision to remain quit! You are one hell of a quitter bro! I am thankful to be quit with you Applejack!
Apprentice Quitter 2 U
Erussell
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To the Bad ass quitter that owns this thread,
   All the pain you are going thru and still take the time to check on the guys just behind you, like me. Thanks for the text today, it meant alot to me. Caught me at a needed time. You hang tough and you remember, now that you are part of this group not only "you" depend on your decision to remain quit! You are one hell of a quitter bro! I am thankful to be quit with you Applejack!
Apprentice Quitter 2 U
Erussell
That, right there... That was MONEY. Thank you bro! That butched my quit for today and made it a little more hairy and manly :)
See you tomorrow... Let's do this quit again.
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Day 50
This will be wordy. Sorry...
I realize I never posted a proper intro. Not really. Aside from a few delarations of resolve and other generic tidbits, I posted nothing about ME. I was reluctant to and now, 50 days later, I think I know why. Ninja mentality.
Sadly, the biggest part of my life was dip and for 25 years I hid it and lied about it. You can't do something (lie) for that long and not have it infect your personality. The end result is never opening up or letting people close because you have a dirty little secret that needs hid. Retarded right!? Addict rationalization 101. Part II of said retardation?... I don't like ME. The "real" me can see all of the above for what it is and loathes it. I... don't like... ME. Quitting created a bizzare situation. I stopped doing what I hated about myself so I had no more reason to dislike myself (well, there ARE other reasons but that's another post). BUT... too many years hiding my secret made it too strong. I actually have to learn to be ME... without the seret dictating the shots. Whoa.
I'm 42. I'm a professional muscian. Because that doesn't always pay alot (music... not as glam/lucrative as you think!) I also work for the school district where I live. Married 18 years to a woman who should have beat my ass blue years ago for lying/hiding stuff/ruining my health/wasting our families money/etc. She's awesome - I owe her. I'm dad to an 11 yr old daughter. She's my heart. I've been an active music minister for 10 years. I don't really like to cuss a whole lot other than fairly standard fare like helldamnshit. However... a beautifully placed F bomb is very satisfying. I am a dipper of 25 years and (call me out for this next statement, I don't care) I fucking loved it and... I fucking hated it. You will understand the duality of that statement. I suffer from anxiety/panic attacks too. Yaaay. This was mostly under control until I quit then... my good friends anxiety and panic perked up - the nic bitch woke 'em up because she had to leave the building. My quit has not seen a smooth moment yet. I fight every damn day. Hard... Every. Damn. Day. I don't feel better yet. I know my health is better... my doc and dentist assure me of that. Cool.
These last 50 days have been the hardest, yet most rewarding thing I have ever done. Cold turkey - no substitutes. Quit.
I did that... for ME.
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Day 50
This will be wordy. Sorry...
I realize I never posted a proper intro. Not really. Aside from a few delarations of resolve and other generic tidbits, I posted nothing about ME. I was reluctant to and now, 50 days later, I think I know why. Ninja mentality.
Sadly, the biggest part of my life was dip and for 25 years I hid it and lied about it. You can't do something (lie) for that long and not have it infect your personality. The end result is never opening up or letting people close because you have a dirty little secret that needs hid. Retarded right!? Addict rationalization 101. Part II of said retardation?... I don't like ME. The "real" me can see all of the above for what it is and loathes it. I... don't like... ME. Quitting created a bizzare situation. I stopped doing what I hated about myself so I had no more reason to dislike myself (well, there ARE other reasons but that's another post). BUT... too many years hiding my secret made it too strong. I actually have to learn to be ME... without the seret dictating the shots. Whoa.
I'm 42. I'm a professional muscian. Because that doesn't always pay alot (music... not as glam/lucrative as you think!) I also work for the school district where I live. Married 18 years to a woman who should have beat my ass blue years ago for lying/hiding stuff/ruining my health/wasting our families money/etc. She's awesome - I owe her. I'm dad to an 11 yr old daughter. She's my heart. I've been an active music minister for 10 years. I don't really like to cuss a whole lot other than fairly standard fare like helldamnshit. However... a beautifully placed F bomb is very satisfying. I am a dipper of 25 years and (call me out for this next statement, I don't care) I fucking loved it and... I fucking hated it. You will understand the duality of that statement. I suffer from anxiety/panic attacks too. Yaaay. This was mostly under control until I quit then... my good friends anxiety and panic perked up - the nic bitch woke 'em up because she had to leave the building. My quit has not seen a smooth moment yet. I fight every damn day. Hard... Every. Damn. Day. I don't feel better yet. I know my health is better... my doc and dentist assure me of that. Cool.
These last 50 days have been the hardest, yet most rewarding thing I have ever done. Cold turkey - no substitutes. Quit.
I did that... for ME.
Hang in there AppleJack. I feel your pain. I was close to 80 days quit before I had a smooth day of quit. The craves were horrible. My mouth watered all the time because I was craving a dip. I'm on my 195th day and I still have some days when it's bad and I have to fight really hard. That is the price we pay for becoming addicts to begin with.
Hang in there. I promise that it will get better. The craves will diminish in severity and become less frequent. In the future you will have days at a time when you won't even think about it. Hard to grasp now but there will come a day when you will see I speak the truth. But don't try to look that far ahead. Just take it one day at a time. That is all we can do.
I'm quit with you today.
Mike
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i know where you are coming from, i hated to love it and loved to hate it... thats
what the makers want, they depend on us for profits. no telling what they put in it to control our brains the way it does. hey, all i know is to quit each day, and im learning not to think ahead, that creates anxiety for me , so im working on today. I quit with you today. You are much further in your quit than i am, but i read your post and it sounded familiar. Probably familiar to many on the KTC.
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Day 50
This will be wordy. Sorry...
I realize I never posted a proper intro. Not really. Aside from a few delarations of resolve and other generic tidbits, I posted nothing about ME. I was reluctant to and now, 50 days later, I think I know why. Ninja mentality.
Sadly, the biggest part of my life was dip and for 25 years I hid it and lied about it. You can't do something (lie) for that long and not have it infect your personality. The end result is never opening up or letting people close because you have a dirty little secret that needs hid. Retarded right!? Addict rationalization 101. Part II of said retardation?... I don't like ME. The "real" me can see all of the above for what it is and loathes it. I... don't like... ME. Quitting created a bizzare situation. I stopped doing what I hated about myself so I had no more reason to dislike myself (well, there ARE other reasons but that's another post). BUT... too many years hiding my secret made it too strong. I actually have to learn to be ME... without the seret dictating the shots. Whoa.
I'm 42. I'm a professional muscian. Because that doesn't always pay alot (music... not as glam/lucrative as you think!) I also work for the school district where I live. Married 18 years to a woman who should have beat my ass blue years ago for lying/hiding stuff/ruining my health/wasting our families money/etc. She's awesome - I owe her. I'm dad to an 11 yr old daughter. She's my heart. I've been an active music minister for 10 years. I don't really like to cuss a whole lot other than fairly standard fare like helldamnshit. However... a beautifully placed F bomb is very satisfying. I am a dipper of 25 years and (call me out for this next statement, I don't care) I fucking loved it and... I fucking hated it. You will understand the duality of that statement. I suffer from anxiety/panic attacks too. Yaaay. This was mostly under control until I quit then... my good friends anxiety and panic perked up - the nic bitch woke 'em up because she had to leave the building. My quit has not seen a smooth moment yet. I fight every damn day. Hard... Every. Damn. Day. I don't feel better yet. I know my health is better... my doc and dentist assure me of that. Cool.
These last 50 days have been the hardest, yet most rewarding thing I have ever done. Cold turkey - no substitutes. Quit.
I did that... for ME.
Hang in there AppleJack. I feel your pain. I was close to 80 days quit before I had a smooth day of quit. The craves were horrible. My mouth watered all the time because I was craving a dip. I'm on my 195th day and I still have some days when it's bad and I have to fight really hard. That is the price we pay for becoming addicts to begin with.
Hang in there. I promise that it will get better. The craves will diminish in severity and become less frequent. In the future you will have days at a time when you won't even think about it. Hard to grasp now but there will come a day when you will see I speak the truth. But don't try to look that far ahead. Just take it one day at a time. That is all we can do.
I'm quit with you today.
Mike
Thanks m'man... Appreciated!
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Day 50
This will be wordy. Sorry...
I realize I never posted a proper intro. Not really. Aside from a few delarations of resolve and other generic tidbits, I posted nothing about ME. I was reluctant to and now, 50 days later, I think I know why. Ninja mentality.
Sadly, the biggest part of my life was dip and for 25 years I hid it and lied about it. You can't do something (lie) for that long and not have it infect your personality. The end result is never opening up or letting people close because you have a dirty little secret that needs hid. Retarded right!? Addict rationalization 101. Part II of said retardation?... I don't like ME. The "real" me can see all of the above for what it is and loathes it. I... don't like... ME. Quitting created a bizzare situation. I stopped doing what I hated about myself so I had no more reason to dislike myself (well, there ARE other reasons but that's another post). BUT... too many years hiding my secret made it too strong. I actually have to learn to be ME... without the seret dictating the shots. Whoa.
I'm 42. I'm a professional muscian. Because that doesn't always pay alot (music... not as glam/lucrative as you think!) I also work for the school district where I live. Married 18 years to a woman who should have beat my ass blue years ago for lying/hiding stuff/ruining my health/wasting our families money/etc. She's awesome - I owe her. I'm dad to an 11 yr old daughter. She's my heart. I've been an active music minister for 10 years. I don't really like to cuss a whole lot other than fairly standard fare like helldamnshit. However... a beautifully placed F bomb is very satisfying. I am a dipper of 25 years and (call me out for this next statement, I don't care) I fucking loved it and... I fucking hated it. You will understand the duality of that statement. I suffer from anxiety/panic attacks too. Yaaay. This was mostly under control until I quit then... my good friends anxiety and panic perked up - the nic bitch woke 'em up because she had to leave the building. My quit has not seen a smooth moment yet. I fight every damn day. Hard... Every. Damn. Day. I don't feel better yet. I know my health is better... my doc and dentist assure me of that. Cool.
These last 50 days have been the hardest, yet most rewarding thing I have ever done. Cold turkey - no substitutes. Quit.
I did that... for ME.
Apple, you and I have gotten to talk a few times in chat. I am glad to know you, and I am glad to be QLF with you. 50/days, feels good to have your freedom huh? I am quit with you today!
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Day 50
This will be wordy. Sorry...
I realize I never posted a proper intro. Not really. Aside from a few delarations of resolve and other generic tidbits, I posted nothing about ME. I was reluctant to and now, 50 days later, I think I know why. Ninja mentality.
Sadly, the biggest part of my life was dip and for 25 years I hid it and lied about it. You can't do something (lie) for that long and not have it infect your personality. The end result is never opening up or letting people close because you have a dirty little secret that needs hid. Retarded right!? Addict rationalization 101. Part II of said retardation?... I don't like ME. The "real" me can see all of the above for what it is and loathes it. I... don't like... ME. Quitting created a bizzare situation. I stopped doing what I hated about myself so I had no more reason to dislike myself (well, there ARE other reasons but that's another post). BUT... too many years hiding my secret made it too strong. I actually have to learn to be ME... without the seret dictating the shots. Whoa.
I'm 42. I'm a professional muscian. Because that doesn't always pay alot (music... not as glam/lucrative as you think!) I also work for the school district where I live. Married 18 years to a woman who should have beat my ass blue years ago for lying/hiding stuff/ruining my health/wasting our families money/etc. She's awesome - I owe her. I'm dad to an 11 yr old daughter. She's my heart. I've been an active music minister for 10 years. I don't really like to cuss a whole lot other than fairly standard fare like helldamnshit. However... a beautifully placed F bomb is very satisfying. I am a dipper of 25 years and (call me out for this next statement, I don't care) I fucking loved it and... I fucking hated it. You will understand the duality of that statement. I suffer from anxiety/panic attacks too. Yaaay. This was mostly under control until I quit then... my good friends anxiety and panic perked up - the nic bitch woke 'em up because she had to leave the building. My quit has not seen a smooth moment yet. I fight every damn day. Hard... Every. Damn. Day. I don't feel better yet. I know my health is better... my doc and dentist assure me of that. Cool.
These last 50 days have been the hardest, yet most rewarding thing I have ever done. Cold turkey - no substitutes. Quit.
I did that... for ME.
For all to know this is a guy that sent me his cell number ten minutes after I posted my first intro. This is a guy that text me often to check on me. This is a guy that when I had my first panic attack spent considerable time with me on the phone making sure I was ok and calming me down. This is a guy that PMs me out of the blue to tell me how good I am doing. Yet his quit is one of the hardest ever, .....well.... Erussell would put his quit up against this serial quitter (I love doing that "cereal" lmao) as I know I would be weighed, measured... And found wanting... Mr applejack is a FUCKING raging bad ass! I just wanted all of you to know that!
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Day 50
This will be wordy. Sorry...
I realize I never posted a proper intro. Not really. Aside from a few delarations of resolve and other generic tidbits, I posted nothing about ME. I was reluctant to and now, 50 days later, I think I know why. Ninja mentality.
Sadly, the biggest part of my life was dip and for 25 years I hid it and lied about it. You can't do something (lie) for that long and not have it infect your personality. The end result is never opening up or letting people close because you have a dirty little secret that needs hid. Retarded right!? Addict rationalization 101. Part II of said retardation?... I don't like ME. The "real" me can see all of the above for what it is and loathes it. I... don't like... ME. Quitting created a bizzare situation. I stopped doing what I hated about myself so I had no more reason to dislike myself (well, there ARE other reasons but that's another post). BUT... too many years hiding my secret made it too strong. I actually have to learn to be ME... without the seret dictating the shots. Whoa.
I'm 42. I'm a professional muscian. Because that doesn't always pay alot (music... not as glam/lucrative as you think!) I also work for the school district where I live. Married 18 years to a woman who should have beat my ass blue years ago for lying/hiding stuff/ruining my health/wasting our families money/etc. She's awesome - I owe her. I'm dad to an 11 yr old daughter. She's my heart. I've been an active music minister for 10 years. I don't really like to cuss a whole lot other than fairly standard fare like helldamnshit. However... a beautifully placed F bomb is very satisfying. I am a dipper of 25 years and (call me out for this next statement, I don't care) I fucking loved it and... I fucking hated it. You will understand the duality of that statement. I suffer from anxiety/panic attacks too. Yaaay. This was mostly under control until I quit then... my good friends anxiety and panic perked up - the nic bitch woke 'em up because she had to leave the building. My quit has not seen a smooth moment yet. I fight every damn day. Hard... Every. Damn. Day. I don't feel better yet. I know my health is better... my doc and dentist assure me of that. Cool.
These last 50 days have been the hardest, yet most rewarding thing I have ever done. Cold turkey - no substitutes. Quit.
I did that... for ME.
Apple, you and I have gotten to talk a few times in chat. I am glad to know you, and I am glad to be QLF with you. 50/days, feels good to have your freedom huh? I am quit with you today!
Thank you brutha...
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Day 50
This will be wordy. Sorry...
I realize I never posted a proper intro. Not really. Aside from a few delarations of resolve and other generic tidbits, I posted nothing about ME. I was reluctant to and now, 50 days later, I think I know why. Ninja mentality.
Sadly, the biggest part of my life was dip and for 25 years I hid it and lied about it. You can't do something (lie) for that long and not have it infect your personality. The end result is never opening up or letting people close because you have a dirty little secret that needs hid. Retarded right!? Addict rationalization 101. Part II of said retardation?... I don't like ME. The "real" me can see all of the above for what it is and loathes it. I... don't like... ME. Quitting created a bizzare situation. I stopped doing what I hated about myself so I had no more reason to dislike myself (well, there ARE other reasons but that's another post). BUT... too many years hiding my secret made it too strong. I actually have to learn to be ME... without the seret dictating the shots. Whoa.
I'm 42. I'm a professional muscian. Because that doesn't always pay alot (music... not as glam/lucrative as you think!) I also work for the school district where I live. Married 18 years to a woman who should have beat my ass blue years ago for lying/hiding stuff/ruining my health/wasting our families money/etc. She's awesome - I owe her. I'm dad to an 11 yr old daughter. She's my heart. I've been an active music minister for 10 years. I don't really like to cuss a whole lot other than fairly standard fare like helldamnshit. However... a beautifully placed F bomb is very satisfying. I am a dipper of 25 years and (call me out for this next statement, I don't care) I fucking loved it and... I fucking hated it. You will understand the duality of that statement. I suffer from anxiety/panic attacks too. Yaaay. This was mostly under control until I quit then... my good friends anxiety and panic perked up - the nic bitch woke 'em up because she had to leave the building. My quit has not seen a smooth moment yet. I fight every damn day. Hard... Every. Damn. Day. I don't feel better yet. I know my health is better... my doc and dentist assure me of that. Cool.
These last 50 days have been the hardest, yet most rewarding thing I have ever done. Cold turkey - no substitutes. Quit.
I did that... for ME.
Apple, you and I have gotten to talk a few times in chat. I am glad to know you, and I am glad to be QLF with you. 50/days, feels good to have your freedom huh? I am quit with you today!
Thank you brutha...
Good job on the fifty. 50 days ago you were a slave. Now look at you. Your a walking talking testimony. Proud of you man. Keep it up apple. Your not only making your life better, but at the same time helping others. You like me have realized this is bigger than just us. Proud to be quit with you brother.
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Day 50
This will be wordy. Sorry...
I realize I never posted a proper intro. Not really. Aside from a few delarations of resolve and other generic tidbits, I posted nothing about ME. I was reluctant to and now, 50 days later, I think I know why. Ninja mentality.
Sadly, the biggest part of my life was dip and for 25 years I hid it and lied about it. You can't do something (lie) for that long and not have it infect your personality. The end result is never opening up or letting people close because you have a dirty little secret that needs hid. Retarded right!? Addict rationalization 101. Part II of said retardation?... I don't like ME. The "real" me can see all of the above for what it is and loathes it. I... don't like... ME. Quitting created a bizzare situation. I stopped doing what I hated about myself so I had no more reason to dislike myself (well, there ARE other reasons but that's another post). BUT... too many years hiding my secret made it too strong. I actually have to learn to be ME... without the seret dictating the shots. Whoa.
I'm 42. I'm a professional muscian. Because that doesn't always pay alot (music... not as glam/lucrative as you think!) I also work for the school district where I live. Married 18 years to a woman who should have beat my ass blue years ago for lying/hiding stuff/ruining my health/wasting our families money/etc. She's awesome - I owe her. I'm dad to an 11 yr old daughter. She's my heart. I've been an active music minister for 10 years. I don't really like to cuss a whole lot other than fairly standard fare like helldamnshit. However... a beautifully placed F bomb is very satisfying. I am a dipper of 25 years and (call me out for this next statement, I don't care) I fucking loved it and... I fucking hated it. You will understand the duality of that statement. I suffer from anxiety/panic attacks too. Yaaay. This was mostly under control until I quit then... my good friends anxiety and panic perked up - the nic bitch woke 'em up because she had to leave the building. My quit has not seen a smooth moment yet. I fight every damn day. Hard... Every. Damn. Day. I don't feel better yet. I know my health is better... my doc and dentist assure me of that. Cool.
These last 50 days have been the hardest, yet most rewarding thing I have ever done. Cold turkey - no substitutes. Quit.
I did that... for ME.
Apple, you and I have gotten to talk a few times in chat. I am glad to know you, and I am glad to be QLF with you. 50/days, feels good to have your freedom huh? I am quit with you today!
Thank you brutha...
Good job on the fifty. 50 days ago you were a slave. Now look at you. Your a walking talking testimony. Proud of you man. Keep it up apple. Your not only making your life better, but at the same time helping others. You like me have realized this is bigger than just us. Proud to be quit with you brother.
I gotta blow you a kiss too man. We chat all the time, and you have become not only a brother here but a good friend. Your quit inspires me, and hell I've YOU by 100 days. Keep that shit strong man. Proud to know you. Proud to be quit with you. Proud to call you friend.
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Day 50
This will be wordy. Sorry...
I realize I never posted a proper intro. Not really. Aside from a few delarations of resolve and other generic tidbits, I posted nothing about ME. I was reluctant to and now, 50 days later, I think I know why. Ninja mentality.
Sadly, the biggest part of my life was dip and for 25 years I hid it and lied about it. You can't do something (lie) for that long and not have it infect your personality. The end result is never opening up or letting people close because you have a dirty little secret that needs hid. Retarded right!? Addict rationalization 101. Part II of said retardation?... I don't like ME. The "real" me can see all of the above for what it is and loathes it. I... don't like... ME. Quitting created a bizzare situation. I stopped doing what I hated about myself so I had no more reason to dislike myself (well, there ARE other reasons but that's another post). BUT... too many years hiding my secret made it too strong. I actually have to learn to be ME... without the seret dictating the shots. Whoa.
I'm 42. I'm a professional muscian. Because that doesn't always pay alot (music... not as glam/lucrative as you think!) I also work for the school district where I live. Married 18 years to a woman who should have beat my ass blue years ago for lying/hiding stuff/ruining my health/wasting our families money/etc. She's awesome - I owe her. I'm dad to an 11 yr old daughter. She's my heart. I've been an active music minister for 10 years. I don't really like to cuss a whole lot other than fairly standard fare like helldamnshit. However... a beautifully placed F bomb is very satisfying. I am a dipper of 25 years and (call me out for this next statement, I don't care) I fucking loved it and... I fucking hated it. You will understand the duality of that statement. I suffer from anxiety/panic attacks too. Yaaay. This was mostly under control until I quit then... my good friends anxiety and panic perked up - the nic bitch woke 'em up because she had to leave the building. My quit has not seen a smooth moment yet. I fight every damn day. Hard... Every. Damn. Day. I don't feel better yet. I know my health is better... my doc and dentist assure me of that. Cool.
These last 50 days have been the hardest, yet most rewarding thing I have ever done. Cold turkey - no substitutes. Quit.
I did that... for ME.
Apple, you and I have gotten to talk a few times in chat. I am glad to know you, and I am glad to be QLF with you. 50/days, feels good to have your freedom huh? I am quit with you today!
Thank you brutha...
Good job on the fifty. 50 days ago you were a slave. Now look at you. Your a walking talking testimony. Proud of you man. Keep it up apple. Your not only making your life better, but at the same time helping others. You like me have realized this is bigger than just us. Proud to be quit with you brother.
I gotta blow you a kiss too man. We chat all the time, and you have become not only a brother here but a good friend. Your quit inspires me, and hell I've YOU by 100 days. Keep that shit strong man. Proud to know you. Proud to be quit with you. Proud to call you friend.
Backer down iiz he's spoken for......Only 40 minute drive from mia casa. 'finger point' :wub:
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Day 50
This will be wordy. Sorry...
I realize I never posted a proper intro. Not really. Aside from a few delarations of resolve and other generic tidbits, I posted nothing about ME. I was reluctant to and now, 50 days later, I think I know why. Ninja mentality.
Sadly, the biggest part of my life was dip and for 25 years I hid it and lied about it. You can't do something (lie) for that long and not have it infect your personality. The end result is never opening up or letting people close because you have a dirty little secret that needs hid. Retarded right!? Addict rationalization 101. Part II of said retardation?... I don't like ME. The "real" me can see all of the above for what it is and loathes it. I... don't like... ME. Quitting created a bizzare situation. I stopped doing what I hated about myself so I had no more reason to dislike myself (well, there ARE other reasons but that's another post). BUT... too many years hiding my secret made it too strong. I actually have to learn to be ME... without the seret dictating the shots. Whoa.
I'm 42. I'm a professional muscian. Because that doesn't always pay alot (music... not as glam/lucrative as you think!) I also work for the school district where I live. Married 18 years to a woman who should have beat my ass blue years ago for lying/hiding stuff/ruining my health/wasting our families money/etc. She's awesome - I owe her. I'm dad to an 11 yr old daughter. She's my heart. I've been an active music minister for 10 years. I don't really like to cuss a whole lot other than fairly standard fare like helldamnshit. However... a beautifully placed F bomb is very satisfying. I am a dipper of 25 years and (call me out for this next statement, I don't care) I fucking loved it and... I fucking hated it. You will understand the duality of that statement. I suffer from anxiety/panic attacks too. Yaaay. This was mostly under control until I quit then... my good friends anxiety and panic perked up - the nic bitch woke 'em up because she had to leave the building. My quit has not seen a smooth moment yet. I fight every damn day. Hard... Every. Damn. Day. I don't feel better yet. I know my health is better... my doc and dentist assure me of that. Cool.
These last 50 days have been the hardest, yet most rewarding thing I have ever done. Cold turkey - no substitutes. Quit.
I did that... for ME.
Apple, you and I have gotten to talk a few times in chat. I am glad to know you, and I am glad to be QLF with you. 50/days, feels good to have your freedom huh? I am quit with you today!
Thank you brutha...
Good job on the fifty. 50 days ago you were a slave. Now look at you. Your a walking talking testimony. Proud of you man. Keep it up apple. Your not only making your life better, but at the same time helping others. You like me have realized this is bigger than just us. Proud to be quit with you brother.
I gotta blow you a kiss too man. We chat all the time, and you have become not only a brother here but a good friend. Your quit inspires me, and hell I've YOU by 100 days. Keep that shit strong man. Proud to know you. Proud to be quit with you. Proud to call you friend.
Backer down iiz he's spoken for......Only 40 minute drive from mia casa. 'finger point' :wub:
Damn fine autobiography, Applejack. You basically just wrote mine, too. I might copy and paste that on my intro just so I won't forget how to quit. Very inspiring, bro.
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Day 50
This will be wordy. Sorry...
I realize I never posted a proper intro. Not really. Aside from a few delarations of resolve and other generic tidbits, I posted nothing about ME. I was reluctant to and now, 50 days later, I think I know why. Ninja mentality.
Sadly, the biggest part of my life was dip and for 25 years I hid it and lied about it. You can't do something (lie) for that long and not have it infect your personality. The end result is never opening up or letting people close because you have a dirty little secret that needs hid. Retarded right!? Addict rationalization 101. Part II of said retardation?... I don't like ME. The "real" me can see all of the above for what it is and loathes it. I... don't like... ME. Quitting created a bizzare situation. I stopped doing what I hated about myself so I had no more reason to dislike myself (well, there ARE other reasons but that's another post). BUT... too many years hiding my secret made it too strong. I actually have to learn to be ME... without the seret dictating the shots. Whoa.
I'm 42. I'm a professional muscian. Because that doesn't always pay alot (music... not as glam/lucrative as you think!) I also work for the school district where I live. Married 18 years to a woman who should have beat my ass blue years ago for lying/hiding stuff/ruining my health/wasting our families money/etc. She's awesome - I owe her. I'm dad to an 11 yr old daughter. She's my heart. I've been an active music minister for 10 years. I don't really like to cuss a whole lot other than fairly standard fare like helldamnshit. However... a beautifully placed F bomb is very satisfying. I am a dipper of 25 years and (call me out for this next statement, I don't care) I fucking loved it and... I fucking hated it. You will understand the duality of that statement. I suffer from anxiety/panic attacks too. Yaaay. This was mostly under control until I quit then... my good friends anxiety and panic perked up - the nic bitch woke 'em up because she had to leave the building. My quit has not seen a smooth moment yet. I fight every damn day. Hard... Every. Damn. Day. I don't feel better yet. I know my health is better... my doc and dentist assure me of that. Cool.
These last 50 days have been the hardest, yet most rewarding thing I have ever done. Cold turkey - no substitutes. Quit.
I did that... for ME.
Apple, you and I have gotten to talk a few times in chat. I am glad to know you, and I am glad to be QLF with you. 50/days, feels good to have your freedom huh? I am quit with you today!
Thank you brutha...
Good job on the fifty. 50 days ago you were a slave. Now look at you. Your a walking talking testimony. Proud of you man. Keep it up apple. Your not only making your life better, but at the same time helping others. You like me have realized this is bigger than just us. Proud to be quit with you brother.
I gotta blow you a kiss too man. We chat all the time, and you have become not only a brother here but a good friend. Your quit inspires me, and hell I've YOU by 100 days. Keep that shit strong man. Proud to know you. Proud to be quit with you. Proud to call you friend.
Backer down iiz he's spoken for......Only 40 minute drive from mia casa. 'finger point' :wub:
Damn fine autobiography, Applejack. You basically just wrote mine, too. I might copy and paste that on my intro just so I won't forget how to quit. Very inspiring, bro.
Dude, your understanding is not quite there yet. You are a drug addict. Your addiction does not DEFINE you. It has controlled you in the past, but not any more. Never again.
You never loved dip. Fucking listen to me. You are a drug addict. You loved getting your fix! You loved the relief from withdrawal that dip gave you.
Everyone on here claims they have anxiety problem. Ya, it's called withdrawal attacks from being addicted to one of the most addictive substances known to man.
You are NOT a special butterfly. You are drug addict. Just like me. You have been an outstanding quitter. You will be a free man forever if you truly understand what makes you a slave. You are in no way anything like nicotine. Please learn who YOU are without that bitch. I bet you are a really good guy without nicotine controlling you. Do you understand?
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Day 50
This will be wordy. Sorry...
I realize I never posted a proper intro. Not really. Aside from a few delarations of resolve and other generic tidbits, I posted nothing about ME. I was reluctant to and now, 50 days later, I think I know why. Ninja mentality.
Sadly, the biggest part of my life was dip and for 25 years I hid it and lied about it. You can't do something (lie) for that long and not have it infect your personality. The end result is never opening up or letting people close because you have a dirty little secret that needs hid. Retarded right!? Addict rationalization 101. Part II of said retardation?... I don't like ME. The "real" me can see all of the above for what it is and loathes it. I... don't like... ME. Quitting created a bizzare situation. I stopped doing what I hated about myself so I had no more reason to dislike myself (well, there ARE other reasons but that's another post). BUT... too many years hiding my secret made it too strong. I actually have to learn to be ME... without the seret dictating the shots. Whoa.
I'm 42. I'm a professional muscian. Because that doesn't always pay alot (music... not as glam/lucrative as you think!) I also work for the school district where I live. Married 18 years to a woman who should have beat my ass blue years ago for lying/hiding stuff/ruining my health/wasting our families money/etc. She's awesome - I owe her. I'm dad to an 11 yr old daughter. She's my heart. I've been an active music minister for 10 years. I don't really like to cuss a whole lot other than fairly standard fare like helldamnshit. However... a beautifully placed F bomb is very satisfying. I am a dipper of 25 years and (call me out for this next statement, I don't care) I fucking loved it and... I fucking hated it. You will understand the duality of that statement. I suffer from anxiety/panic attacks too. Yaaay. This was mostly under control until I quit then... my good friends anxiety and panic perked up - the nic bitch woke 'em up because she had to leave the building. My quit has not seen a smooth moment yet. I fight every damn day. Hard... Every. Damn. Day. I don't feel better yet. I know my health is better... my doc and dentist assure me of that. Cool.
These last 50 days have been the hardest, yet most rewarding thing I have ever done. Cold turkey - no substitutes. Quit.
I did that... for ME.
Apple, you and I have gotten to talk a few times in chat. I am glad to know you, and I am glad to be QLF with you. 50/days, feels good to have your freedom huh? I am quit with you today!
Thank you brutha...
Good job on the fifty. 50 days ago you were a slave. Now look at you. Your a walking talking testimony. Proud of you man. Keep it up apple. Your not only making your life better, but at the same time helping others. You like me have realized this is bigger than just us. Proud to be quit with you brother.
I gotta blow you a kiss too man. We chat all the time, and you have become not only a brother here but a good friend. Your quit inspires me, and hell I've YOU by 100 days. Keep that shit strong man. Proud to know you. Proud to be quit with you. Proud to call you friend.
Backer down iiz he's spoken for......Only 40 minute drive from mia casa. 'finger point' :wub:
Damn fine autobiography, Applejack. You basically just wrote mine, too. I might copy and paste that on my intro just so I won't forget how to quit. Very inspiring, bro.
Dude, your understanding is not quite there yet. You are a drug addict. Your addiction does not DEFINE you. It has controlled you in the past, but not any more. Never again.
You never loved dip. Fucking listen to me. You are a drug addict. You loved getting your fix! You loved the relief from withdrawal that dip gave you.
Everyone on here claims they have anxiety problem. Ya, it's called withdrawal attacks from being addicted to one of the most addictive substances known to man.
You are NOT a special butterfly. You are drug addict. Just like me. You have been an outstanding quitter. You will be a free man forever if you truly understand what makes you a slave. You are in no way anything like nicotine. Please learn who YOU are without that bitch. I bet you are a really good guy without nicotine controlling you. Do you understand?
Um... Notdeadyet... did YOU understand what I wrote?
Of course I understand that my addiction doesn't DEFINE me. I know I was a slave to it as stated here...
"I actually have to learn to be ME... without the secret dictating the shots"
Of course I never loved dip but, rather, the fix as stated here...
"I fucking loved it and... I fucking hated it. You will understand the duality of that statement"
My anxiety is profession related compounded by the idiocy of my addiction.
Your OPINION on the validity of my anxiety is just that... your opinion.
Never claimed "special butterfly" status so why throw that out there? Just to rant? Because it's your little trademark thing? Cool with me...
I'm an addict... yup.
I'm nothing like nicotine... yup.
I'm learning to be who I am without the bitch... yup.
I'm coming to find out I AM a pretty good guy without the bitch.
Do I understand?... more everyday bro.
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Day 50
This will be wordy. Sorry...
I realize I never posted a proper intro. Not really. Aside from a few delarations of resolve and other generic tidbits, I posted nothing about ME. I was reluctant to and now, 50 days later, I think I know why. Ninja mentality.
Sadly, the biggest part of my life was dip and for 25 years I hid it and lied about it. You can't do something (lie) for that long and not have it infect your personality. The end result is never opening up or letting people close because you have a dirty little secret that needs hid. Retarded right!? Addict rationalization 101. Part II of said retardation?... I don't like ME. The "real" me can see all of the above for what it is and loathes it. I... don't like... ME. Quitting created a bizzare situation. I stopped doing what I hated about myself so I had no more reason to dislike myself (well, there ARE other reasons but that's another post). BUT... too many years hiding my secret made it too strong. I actually have to learn to be ME... without the seret dictating the shots. Whoa.
I'm 42. I'm a professional muscian. Because that doesn't always pay alot (music... not as glam/lucrative as you think!) I also work for the school district where I live. Married 18 years to a woman who should have beat my ass blue years ago for lying/hiding stuff/ruining my health/wasting our families money/etc. She's awesome - I owe her. I'm dad to an 11 yr old daughter. She's my heart. I've been an active music minister for 10 years. I don't really like to cuss a whole lot other than fairly standard fare like helldamnshit. However... a beautifully placed F bomb is very satisfying. I am a dipper of 25 years and (call me out for this next statement, I don't care) I fucking loved it and... I fucking hated it. You will understand the duality of that statement. I suffer from anxiety/panic attacks too. Yaaay. This was mostly under control until I quit then... my good friends anxiety and panic perked up - the nic bitch woke 'em up because she had to leave the building. My quit has not seen a smooth moment yet. I fight every damn day. Hard... Every. Damn. Day. I don't feel better yet. I know my health is better... my doc and dentist assure me of that. Cool.
These last 50 days have been the hardest, yet most rewarding thing I have ever done. Cold turkey - no substitutes. Quit.
I did that... for ME.
Apple, you and I have gotten to talk a few times in chat. I am glad to know you, and I am glad to be QLF with you. 50/days, feels good to have your freedom huh? I am quit with you today!
Thank you brutha...
Good job on the fifty. 50 days ago you were a slave. Now look at you. Your a walking talking testimony. Proud of you man. Keep it up apple. Your not only making your life better, but at the same time helping others. You like me have realized this is bigger than just us. Proud to be quit with you brother.
I gotta blow you a kiss too man. We chat all the time, and you have become not only a brother here but a good friend. Your quit inspires me, and hell I've YOU by 100 days. Keep that shit strong man. Proud to know you. Proud to be quit with you. Proud to call you friend.
Backer down iiz he's spoken for......Only 40 minute drive from mia casa. 'finger point' :wub:
Damn fine autobiography, Applejack. You basically just wrote mine, too. I might copy and paste that on my intro just so I won't forget how to quit. Very inspiring, bro.
Dude, your understanding is not quite there yet. You are a drug addict. Your addiction does not DEFINE you. It has controlled you in the past, but not any more. Never again.
You never loved dip. Fucking listen to me. You are a drug addict. You loved getting your fix! You loved the relief from withdrawal that dip gave you.
Everyone on here claims they have anxiety problem. Ya, it's called withdrawal attacks from being addicted to one of the most addictive substances known to man.
You are NOT a special butterfly. You are drug addict. Just like me. You have been an outstanding quitter. You will be a free man forever if you truly understand what makes you a slave. You are in no way anything like nicotine. Please learn who YOU are without that bitch. I bet you are a really good guy without nicotine controlling you. Do you understand?
Um... Notdeadyet... did YOU understand what I wrote?
Of course I understand that my addiction doesn't DEFINE me. I know I was a slave to it as stated here...
"I actually have to learn to be ME... without the secret dictating the shots"
Of course I never loved dip but, rather, the fix as stated here...
"I fucking loved it and... I fucking hated it. You will understand the duality of that statement"
My anxiety is profession related compounded by the idiocy of my addiction.
Your OPINION on the validity of my anxiety is just that... your opinion.
Never claimed "special butterfly" status so why throw that out there? Just to rant? Because it's your little trademark thing? Cool with me...
I'm an addict... yup.
I'm nothing like nicotine... yup.
I'm learning to be who I am without the bitch... yup.
I'm coming to find out I AM a pretty good guy without the bitch.
Do I understand?... more everyday bro.
Solid AJ.... 'boob'
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Day 50
This will be wordy. Sorry...
I realize I never posted a proper intro. Not really. Aside from a few delarations of resolve and other generic tidbits, I posted nothing about ME. I was reluctant to and now, 50 days later, I think I know why. Ninja mentality.
Sadly, the biggest part of my life was dip and for 25 years I hid it and lied about it. You can't do something (lie) for that long and not have it infect your personality. The end result is never opening up or letting people close because you have a dirty little secret that needs hid. Retarded right!? Addict rationalization 101. Part II of said retardation?... I don't like ME. The "real" me can see all of the above for what it is and loathes it. I... don't like... ME. Quitting created a bizzare situation. I stopped doing what I hated about myself so I had no more reason to dislike myself (well, there ARE other reasons but that's another post). BUT... too many years hiding my secret made it too strong. I actually have to learn to be ME... without the seret dictating the shots. Whoa.
I'm 42. I'm a professional muscian. Because that doesn't always pay alot (music... not as glam/lucrative as you think!) I also work for the school district where I live. Married 18 years to a woman who should have beat my ass blue years ago for lying/hiding stuff/ruining my health/wasting our families money/etc. She's awesome - I owe her. I'm dad to an 11 yr old daughter. She's my heart. I've been an active music minister for 10 years. I don't really like to cuss a whole lot other than fairly standard fare like helldamnshit. However... a beautifully placed F bomb is very satisfying. I am a dipper of 25 years and (call me out for this next statement, I don't care) I fucking loved it and... I fucking hated it. You will understand the duality of that statement. I suffer from anxiety/panic attacks too. Yaaay. This was mostly under control until I quit then... my good friends anxiety and panic perked up - the nic bitch woke 'em up because she had to leave the building. My quit has not seen a smooth moment yet. I fight every damn day. Hard... Every. Damn. Day. I don't feel better yet. I know my health is better... my doc and dentist assure me of that. Cool.
These last 50 days have been the hardest, yet most rewarding thing I have ever done. Cold turkey - no substitutes. Quit.
I did that... for ME.
Apple, you and I have gotten to talk a few times in chat. I am glad to know you, and I am glad to be QLF with you. 50/days, feels good to have your freedom huh? I am quit with you today!
Thank you brutha...
Good job on the fifty. 50 days ago you were a slave. Now look at you. Your a walking talking testimony. Proud of you man. Keep it up apple. Your not only making your life better, but at the same time helping others. You like me have realized this is bigger than just us. Proud to be quit with you brother.
I gotta blow you a kiss too man. We chat all the time, and you have become not only a brother here but a good friend. Your quit inspires me, and hell I've YOU by 100 days. Keep that shit strong man. Proud to know you. Proud to be quit with you. Proud to call you friend.
Backer down iiz he's spoken for......Only 40 minute drive from mia casa. 'finger point' :wub:
Damn fine autobiography, Applejack. You basically just wrote mine, too. I might copy and paste that on my intro just so I won't forget how to quit. Very inspiring, bro.
Dude, your understanding is not quite there yet. You are a drug addict. Your addiction does not DEFINE you. It has controlled you in the past, but not any more. Never again.
You never loved dip. Fucking listen to me. You are a drug addict. You loved getting your fix! You loved the relief from withdrawal that dip gave you.
Everyone on here claims they have anxiety problem. Ya, it's called withdrawal attacks from being addicted to one of the most addictive substances known to man.
You are NOT a special butterfly. You are drug addict. Just like me. You have been an outstanding quitter. You will be a free man forever if you truly understand what makes you a slave. You are in no way anything like nicotine. Please learn who YOU are without that bitch. I bet you are a really good guy without nicotine controlling you. Do you understand?
Um... Notdeadyet... did YOU understand what I wrote?
Of course I understand that my addiction doesn't DEFINE me. I know I was a slave to it as stated here...
"I actually have to learn to be ME... without the secret dictating the shots"
Of course I never loved dip but, rather, the fix as stated here...
"I fucking loved it and... I fucking hated it. You will understand the duality of that statement"
My anxiety is profession related compounded by the idiocy of my addiction.
Your OPINION on the validity of my anxiety is just that... your opinion.
Never claimed "special butterfly" status so why throw that out there? Just to rant? Because it's your little trademark thing? Cool with me...
I'm an addict... yup.
I'm nothing like nicotine... yup.
I'm learning to be who I am without the bitch... yup.
I'm coming to find out I AM a pretty good guy without the bitch.
Do I understand?... more everyday bro.
Solid AJ.... 'boob'
Apple Jack, this was exactly my point in my thread, and proof of my program over yours.
You are an addict, you hate yourself, you have dirty little secrets, etc.
That just seems miserable to me. Why choose that for yourself from here forward? Why choose to be an addict and hate yourself?
You quit dipping, right? So why not choose to respect yourself now, and to no longer be an addict.
Does a tin can truly hold so much power over man, that even upon acknowledgement of its dangers, it still remains a master?
Not for me!!!
Release yourself of that mentality!
If you are an addict right now, then you have a dip in your lip!!!!!!!
If at this moment you do not have a dip in your lip, you are no longer an addict!!! Make it count! You are recovering and regaining your life!!! The sooner you accept that fact, the sooner you will stop struggling with addiction!
The sooner you denounce your addiction, and deny its power over you, the sooner your addiction will lose its power.
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Day 50
This will be wordy. Sorry...
I realize I never posted a proper intro. Not really. Aside from a few delarations of resolve and other generic tidbits, I posted nothing about ME. I was reluctant to and now, 50 days later, I think I know why. Ninja mentality.
Sadly, the biggest part of my life was dip and for 25 years I hid it and lied about it. You can't do something (lie) for that long and not have it infect your personality. The end result is never opening up or letting people close because you have a dirty little secret that needs hid. Retarded right!? Addict rationalization 101. Part II of said retardation?... I don't like ME. The "real" me can see all of the above for what it is and loathes it. I... don't like... ME. Quitting created a bizzare situation. I stopped doing what I hated about myself so I had no more reason to dislike myself (well, there ARE other reasons but that's another post). BUT... too many years hiding my secret made it too strong. I actually have to learn to be ME... without the seret dictating the shots. Whoa.
I'm 42. I'm a professional muscian. Because that doesn't always pay alot (music... not as glam/lucrative as you think!) I also work for the school district where I live. Married 18 years to a woman who should have beat my ass blue years ago for lying/hiding stuff/ruining my health/wasting our families money/etc. She's awesome - I owe her. I'm dad to an 11 yr old daughter. She's my heart. I've been an active music minister for 10 years. I don't really like to cuss a whole lot other than fairly standard fare like helldamnshit. However... a beautifully placed F bomb is very satisfying. I am a dipper of 25 years and (call me out for this next statement, I don't care) I fucking loved it and... I fucking hated it. You will understand the duality of that statement. I suffer from anxiety/panic attacks too. Yaaay. This was mostly under control until I quit then... my good friends anxiety and panic perked up - the nic bitch woke 'em up because she had to leave the building. My quit has not seen a smooth moment yet. I fight every damn day. Hard... Every. Damn. Day. I don't feel better yet. I know my health is better... my doc and dentist assure me of that. Cool.
These last 50 days have been the hardest, yet most rewarding thing I have ever done. Cold turkey - no substitutes. Quit.
I did that... for ME.
Apple, you and I have gotten to talk a few times in chat. I am glad to know you, and I am glad to be QLF with you. 50/days, feels good to have your freedom huh? I am quit with you today!
Thank you brutha...
Good job on the fifty. 50 days ago you were a slave. Now look at you. Your a walking talking testimony. Proud of you man. Keep it up apple. Your not only making your life better, but at the same time helping others. You like me have realized this is bigger than just us. Proud to be quit with you brother.
I gotta blow you a kiss too man. We chat all the time, and you have become not only a brother here but a good friend. Your quit inspires me, and hell I've YOU by 100 days. Keep that shit strong man. Proud to know you. Proud to be quit with you. Proud to call you friend.
Backer down iiz he's spoken for......Only 40 minute drive from mia casa. 'finger point' :wub:
Damn fine autobiography, Applejack. You basically just wrote mine, too. I might copy and paste that on my intro just so I won't forget how to quit. Very inspiring, bro.
Dude, your understanding is not quite there yet. You are a drug addict. Your addiction does not DEFINE you. It has controlled you in the past, but not any more. Never again.
You never loved dip. Fucking listen to me. You are a drug addict. You loved getting your fix! You loved the relief from withdrawal that dip gave you.
Everyone on here claims they have anxiety problem. Ya, it's called withdrawal attacks from being addicted to one of the most addictive substances known to man.
You are NOT a special butterfly. You are drug addict. Just like me. You have been an outstanding quitter. You will be a free man forever if you truly understand what makes you a slave. You are in no way anything like nicotine. Please learn who YOU are without that bitch. I bet you are a really good guy without nicotine controlling you. Do you understand?
Um... Notdeadyet... did YOU understand what I wrote?
Of course I understand that my addiction doesn't DEFINE me. I know I was a slave to it as stated here...
"I actually have to learn to be ME... without the secret dictating the shots"
Of course I never loved dip but, rather, the fix as stated here...
"I fucking loved it and... I fucking hated it. You will understand the duality of that statement"
My anxiety is profession related compounded by the idiocy of my addiction.
Your OPINION on the validity of my anxiety is just that... your opinion.
Never claimed "special butterfly" status so why throw that out there? Just to rant? Because it's your little trademark thing? Cool with me...
I'm an addict... yup.
I'm nothing like nicotine... yup.
I'm learning to be who I am without the bitch... yup.
I'm coming to find out I AM a pretty good guy without the bitch.
Do I understand?... more everyday bro.
Solid AJ.... 'boob'
Apple Jack, this was exactly my point in my thread, and proof of my program over yours.
You are an addict, you hate yourself, you have dirty little secrets, etc.
That just seems miserable to me. Why choose that for yourself from here forward? Why choose to be an addict and hate yourself?
You quit dipping, right? So why not choose to respect yourself now, and to no longer be an addict.
Does a tin can truly hold so much power over man, that even upon acknowledgement of its dangers, it still remains a master?
Not for me!!!
Release yourself of that mentality!
If you are an addict right now, then you have a dip in your lip!!!!!!!
If at this moment you do not have a dip in your lip, you are no longer an addict!!! Make it count! You are recovering and regaining your life!!! The sooner you accept that fact, the sooner you will stop struggling with addiction!
The sooner you denounce your addiction, and deny its power over you, the sooner your addiction will lose its power.
Special Butterfly was in reference to your anxiety problems, which are not unique to you, and are very common with nicotine addicts. But it sounds like you understand it all so I'll stay off your thread now.
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Hey Applejack,
Thanks for sharing that. You and me have some things in common. I'm a 48 yr old musician with a day job and a long history of self loathing/esteem issues. I've come a LONG ways and I'm not where I want to be yet, but I'm getting there and see daylight at the end of the tunnel.
I'll share more of my story when I can get a chance to type it up. You ain't seen wordy, yet.
Qutting with you today my friend..
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Hey Applejack,
Thanks for sharing that. You and me have some things in common. I'm a 48 yr old musician with a day job and a long history of self loathing/esteem issues. I've come a LONG ways and I'm not where I want to be yet, but I'm getting there and see daylight at the end of the tunnel.
I'll share more of my story when I can get a chance to type it up. You ain't seen wordy, yet.
Qutting with you today my friend..
Nice man! PM me if you want to bs about anything bro...
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Got a guy who works for me... He's a dumbass. I don't see him all that much... I like him but, he's a dumbass. I got a chance to work around him recently and I noticed a few things. He's a smoker of the worst sort. He's a whore for it... Will smoke anything and everything you put in front of him with perverse joy. He has a Pig-Pen like cloud of odor about him... Flavored pipe tobacco. I actually kinda dig that because it reminds me of my grandfather. Doesn't set me to craving or anything... It's a very nostalgic, homey memory. Love it... 'Nuff said.
Anyway... My worker, Dumbass, whips out a li'l e-cig dildo and starts puffing away rhapsodizing his nicotine being vaporized so he can enjoy it in "Blueberry Champagne" (gay) flavor. Pissed me off - he knows I quit. BUT... The brief thought of ingesting any form of that crap almost made me physically ill. Almost had to leave it was so intense. Also... I pitied Dumbass for his perverse joy.
I read something Morgan 1 wrote today... It resonated. BIG.
"If you understand that everything about nicotine is a lie then a 'quitting is FUN' attitude can be obtained... I quit all day everyday and I celebrate it!"
Right there... Gonna WORK on that attitude. I dig it. I wanna be there.
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Got a guy who works for me... He's a dumbass. I don't see him all that much... I like him but, he's a dumbass. I got a chance to work around him recently and I noticed a few things. He's a smoker of the worst sort. He's a whore for it... Will smoke anything and everything you put in front of him with perverse joy. He has a Pig-Pen like cloud of odor about him... Flavored pipe tobacco. I actually kinda dig that because it reminds me of my grandfather. Doesn't set me to craving or anything... It's a very nostalgic, homey memory. Love it... 'Nuff said.
Anyway... My worker, Dumbass, whips out a li'l e-cig dildo and starts puffing away rhapsodizing his nicotine being vaporized so he can enjoy it in "Blueberry Champagne" (gay) flavor. Pissed me off - he knows I quit. BUT... The brief thought of ingesting any form of that crap almost made me physically ill. Almost had to leave it was so intense. Also... I pitied Dumbass for his perverse joy.
I read something Morgan 1 wrote today... It resonated. BIG.
"If you understand that everything about nicotine is a lie then a 'quitting is FUN' attitude can be obtained... I quit all day everyday and I celebrate it!"
Right there... Gonna WORK on that attitude. I dig it. I wanna be there.
Amen! That's the attitude we all need to have! Quitting is hard, but it doesn't have to be torture! Embrace it! We are doing something GOOD! It's all about our mind set! Own it and Enjoy the victory! I'm "working" on having that attitude today myself!
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Got a guy who works for me... He's a dumbass. I don't see him all that much... I like him but, he's a dumbass. I got a chance to work around him recently and I noticed a few things. He's a smoker of the worst sort. He's a whore for it... Will smoke anything and everything you put in front of him with perverse joy. He has a Pig-Pen like cloud of odor about him... Flavored pipe tobacco. I actually kinda dig that because it reminds me of my grandfather. Doesn't set me to craving or anything... It's a very nostalgic, homey memory. Love it... 'Nuff said.
Anyway... My worker, Dumbass, whips out a li'l e-cig dildo and starts puffing away rhapsodizing his nicotine being vaporized so he can enjoy it in "Blueberry Champagne" (gay) flavor. Pissed me off - he knows I quit. BUT... The brief thought of ingesting any form of that crap almost made me physically ill. Almost had to leave it was so intense. Also... I pitied Dumbass for his perverse joy.
I read something Morgan 1 wrote today... It resonated. BIG.
"If you understand that everything about nicotine is a lie then a 'quitting is FUN' attitude can be obtained... I quit all day everyday and I celebrate it!"
Right there... Gonna WORK on that attitude. I dig it. I wanna be there.
Amen! That's the attitude we all need to have! Quitting is hard, but it doesn't have to be torture! Embrace it! We are doing something GOOD! It's all about our mind set! Own it and Enjoy the victory! I'm "working" on having that attitude today myself!
You a li'l high strung bro? 'crackup'
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Got a guy who works for me... He's a dumbass. I don't see him all that much... I like him but, he's a dumbass. I got a chance to work around him recently and I noticed a few things. He's a smoker of the worst sort. He's a whore for it... Will smoke anything and everything you put in front of him with perverse joy. He has a Pig-Pen like cloud of odor about him... Flavored pipe tobacco. I actually kinda dig that because it reminds me of my grandfather. Doesn't set me to craving or anything... It's a very nostalgic, homey memory. Love it... 'Nuff said.
Anyway... My worker, Dumbass, whips out a li'l e-cig dildo and starts puffing away rhapsodizing his nicotine being vaporized so he can enjoy it in "Blueberry Champagne" (gay) flavor. Pissed me off - he knows I quit. BUT... The brief thought of ingesting any form of that crap almost made me physically ill. Almost had to leave it was so intense. Also... I pitied Dumbass for his perverse joy.
I read something Morgan 1 wrote today... It resonated. BIG.
"If you understand that everything about nicotine is a lie then a 'quitting is FUN' attitude can be obtained... I quit all day everyday and I celebrate it!"
Right there... Gonna WORK on that attitude. I dig it. I wanna be there.
Amen! That's the attitude we all need to have! Quitting is hard, but it doesn't have to be torture! Embrace it! We are doing something GOOD! It's all about our mind set! Own it and Enjoy the victory! I'm "working" on having that attitude today myself!
You a li'l high strung bro? 'crackup'
I am the last few days. 'Crazy'
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Got a guy who works for me... He's a dumbass. I don't see him all that much... I like him but, he's a dumbass. I got a chance to work around him recently and I noticed a few things. He's a smoker of the worst sort. He's a whore for it... Will smoke anything and everything you put in front of him with perverse joy. He has a Pig-Pen like cloud of odor about him... Flavored pipe tobacco. I actually kinda dig that because it reminds me of my grandfather. Doesn't set me to craving or anything... It's a very nostalgic, homey memory. Love it... 'Nuff said.
Anyway... My worker, Dumbass, whips out a li'l e-cig dildo and starts puffing away rhapsodizing his nicotine being vaporized so he can enjoy it in "Blueberry Champagne" (gay) flavor. Pissed me off - he knows I quit. BUT... The brief thought of ingesting any form of that crap almost made me physically ill. Almost had to leave it was so intense. Also... I pitied Dumbass for his perverse joy.
I read something Morgan 1 wrote today... It resonated. BIG.
"If you understand that everything about nicotine is a lie then a 'quitting is FUN' attitude can be obtained... I quit all day everyday and I celebrate it!"
Right there... Gonna WORK on that attitude. I dig it. I wanna be there.
Amen! That's the attitude we all need to have! Quitting is hard, but it doesn't have to be torture! Embrace it! We are doing something GOOD! It's all about our mind set! Own it and Enjoy the victory! I'm "working" on having that attitude today myself!
You a li'l high strung bro? 'crackup'
I am the last few days. 'Crazy'
only the last few day? hmmm
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Got a guy who works for me... He's a dumbass. I don't see him all that much... I like him but, he's a dumbass. I got a chance to work around him recently and I noticed a few things. He's a smoker of the worst sort. He's a whore for it... Will smoke anything and everything you put in front of him with perverse joy. He has a Pig-Pen like cloud of odor about him... Flavored pipe tobacco. I actually kinda dig that because it reminds me of my grandfather. Doesn't set me to craving or anything... It's a very nostalgic, homey memory. Love it... 'Nuff said.
Anyway... My worker, Dumbass, whips out a li'l e-cig dildo and starts puffing away rhapsodizing his nicotine being vaporized so he can enjoy it in "Blueberry Champagne" (gay) flavor. Pissed me off - he knows I quit. BUT... The brief thought of ingesting any form of that crap almost made me physically ill. Almost had to leave it was so intense. Also... I pitied Dumbass for his perverse joy.
I read something Morgan 1 wrote today... It resonated. BIG.
"If you understand that everything about nicotine is a lie then a 'quitting is FUN' attitude can be obtained... I quit all day everyday and I celebrate it!"
Right there... Gonna WORK on that attitude. I dig it. I wanna be there.
Amen! That's the attitude we all need to have! Quitting is hard, but it doesn't have to be torture! Embrace it! We are doing something GOOD! It's all about our mind set! Own it and Enjoy the victory! I'm "working" on having that attitude today myself!
You a li'l high strung bro? 'crackup'
I am the last few days. 'Crazy'
only the last few day? hmmm
I can related to the pleasurable association. Both of my maternal grandparents died of cancer when I was young. My grandfather when I was about three. My grandmotthrer when I was about five.
I only have one memory for each of them. Each time my grandfather lit a cigarette of cigar, maybe even his pipe, he used a Zippo lighter. That initial smell of the butane reminds me of him. Each time I smell it I think of him and wish that I got to know him. He was a butcher and had a butcher shop on the first floor of their two-flat graystone in Chicago's Humboldt Park neighborhood. I'm sure that my passion for butchering, cooking, and for food in gerenal are from him. Too bad cancer toook him away. Too bad my mom was without both her parents for the past 35 years.
That lighter, even though it was a direct link to his death, is a pleasant memory. I don't think I romanticize the smell, but I don't want to hate it either. It's all I have of him so hating that lighter/cigar/cancer/death association would leave me with nothing.
Keep it in perspective.
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Got a guy who works for me... He's a dumbass. I don't see him all that much... I like him but, he's a dumbass. I got a chance to work around him recently and I noticed a few things. He's a smoker of the worst sort. He's a whore for it... Will smoke anything and everything you put in front of him with perverse joy. He has a Pig-Pen like cloud of odor about him... Flavored pipe tobacco. I actually kinda dig that because it reminds me of my grandfather. Doesn't set me to craving or anything... It's a very nostalgic, homey memory. Love it... 'Nuff said.
Anyway... My worker, Dumbass, whips out a li'l e-cig dildo and starts puffing away rhapsodizing his nicotine being vaporized so he can enjoy it in "Blueberry Champagne" (gay) flavor. Pissed me off - he knows I quit. BUT... The brief thought of ingesting any form of that crap almost made me physically ill. Almost had to leave it was so intense. Also... I pitied Dumbass for his perverse joy.
I read something Morgan 1 wrote today... It resonated. BIG.
"If you understand that everything about nicotine is a lie then a 'quitting is FUN' attitude can be obtained... I quit all day everyday and I celebrate it!"
Right there... Gonna WORK on that attitude. I dig it. I wanna be there.
Amen! That's the attitude we all need to have! Quitting is hard, but it doesn't have to be torture! Embrace it! We are doing something GOOD! It's all about our mind set! Own it and Enjoy the victory! I'm "working" on having that attitude today myself!
You a li'l high strung bro? 'crackup'
I am the last few days. 'Crazy'
only the last few day? hmmm
I can related to the pleasurable association. Both of my maternal grandparents died of cancer when I was young. My grandfather when I was about three. My grandmotthrer when I was about five.
I only have one memory for each of them. Each time my grandfather lit a cigarette of cigar, maybe even his pipe, he used a Zippo lighter. That initial smell of the butane reminds me of him. Each time I smell it I think of him and wish that I got to know him. He was a butcher and had a butcher shop on the first floor of their two-flat graystone in Chicago's Humboldt Park neighborhood. I'm sure that my passion for butchering, cooking, and for food in gerenal are from him. Too bad cancer toook him away. Too bad my mom was without both her parents for the past 35 years.
That lighter, even though it was a direct link to his death, is a pleasant memory. I don't think I romanticize the smell, but I don't want to hate it either. It's all I have of him so hating that lighter/cigar/cancer/death association would leave me with nothing.
Keep it in perspective.
I hate those damn e cigs. Even though we all used to dip, we were only hurting ourselves, not others.(unless your ex drinks your dip spit, notice the EX).Still happier then hell to never put that shit in my lip ever again. Quit on brother!
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Day 75... not much happened today. Saw a movie with my girls, went shopping, ate food, practiced a few new songs for recording, hopped in chat, posted a few things, posted roll and support in a couple spots, hoping to have a li'l dirty time with Mrs. Apple...
Never thought of dip once today.
Not.
Once.
Not much happened today but... it was a miraculous day.
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Got a guy who works for me... He's a dumbass. I don't see him all that much... I like him but, he's a dumbass. I got a chance to work around him recently and I noticed a few things. He's a smoker of the worst sort. He's a whore for it... Will smoke anything and everything you put in front of him with perverse joy. He has a Pig-Pen like cloud of odor about him... Flavored pipe tobacco. I actually kinda dig that because it reminds me of my grandfather. Doesn't set me to craving or anything... It's a very nostalgic, homey memory. Love it... 'Nuff said.
Anyway... My worker, Dumbass, whips out a li'l e-cig dildo and starts puffing away rhapsodizing his nicotine being vaporized so he can enjoy it in "Blueberry Champagne" (gay) flavor. Pissed me off - he knows I quit. BUT... The brief thought of ingesting any form of that crap almost made me physically ill. Almost had to leave it was so intense. Also... I pitied Dumbass for his perverse joy.
I read something Morgan 1 wrote today... It resonated. BIG.
"If you understand that everything about nicotine is a lie then a 'quitting is FUN' attitude can be obtained... I quit all day everyday and I celebrate it!"
Right there... Gonna WORK on that attitude. I dig it. I wanna be there.
Amen! That's the attitude we all need to have! Quitting is hard, but it doesn't have to be torture! Embrace it! We are doing something GOOD! It's all about our mind set! Own it and Enjoy the victory! I'm "working" on having that attitude today myself!
You a li'l high strung bro? 'crackup'
I am the last few days. 'Crazy'
only the last few day? hmmm
I can related to the pleasurable association. Both of my maternal grandparents died of cancer when I was young. My grandfather when I was about three. My grandmotthrer when I was about five.
I only have one memory for each of them. Each time my grandfather lit a cigarette of cigar, maybe even his pipe, he used a Zippo lighter. That initial smell of the butane reminds me of him. Each time I smell it I think of him and wish that I got to know him. He was a butcher and had a butcher shop on the first floor of their two-flat graystone in Chicago's Humboldt Park neighborhood. I'm sure that my passion for butchering, cooking, and for food in gerenal are from him. Too bad cancer toook him away. Too bad my mom was without both her parents for the past 35 years.
That lighter, even though it was a direct link to his death, is a pleasant memory. I don't think I romanticize the smell, but I don't want to hate it either. It's all I have of him so hating that lighter/cigar/cancer/death association would leave me with nothing.
Keep it in perspective.
I hate those damn e cigs. Even though we all used to dip, we were only hurting ourselves, not others.(unless your ex drinks your dip spit, notice the EX).Still happier then hell to never put that shit in my lip ever again. Quit on brother!
Lovin' this stuff. Ringing bells with me . quit with you all everyday as it comes...
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Day 75... not much happened today. Saw a movie with my girls, went shopping, ate food, practiced a few new songs for recording, hopped in chat, posted a few things, posted roll and support in a couple spots, hoping to have a li'l dirty time with Mrs. Apple...
Never thought of dip once today.
Not.
Once.
Not much happened today but... it was a miraculous day.
Love you man! We shared a prefered flavor of poison, which led you to be one of the first KTC members to get into my quit (not possible without first your desire to own your own quit and get involved in others' quits'); therefore, you are one of my quit heros ( added acountability for you 'cause it would crush me if ever you cave)... I am day 33-34 right now, and have had my first day with no craves and no thoughts of dip other than my thoughts about KTC and my daily promise... Glad to see you are having some 'easy' days too. Keep it up! Looiking forward to reading your HOF speech.
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Day 75... not much happened today. Saw a movie with my girls, went shopping, ate food, practiced a few new songs for recording, hopped in chat, posted a few things, posted roll and support in a couple spots, hoping to have a li'l dirty time with Mrs. Apple...
Never thought of dip once today.
Not.
Once.
Not much happened today but... it was a miraculous day.
Love you man! We shared a prefered flavor of poison, which led you to be one of the first KTC members to get into my quit (not possible without first your desire to own your own quit and get involved in others' quits'); therefore, you are one of my quit heros ( added acountability for you 'cause it would crush me if ever you cave)... I am day 33-34 right now, and have had my first day with no craves and no thoughts of dip other than my thoughts about KTC and my daily promise... Glad to see you are having some 'easy' days too. Keep it up! Looiking forward to reading your HOF speech.
AJ..it is not ghey to say I love you since I am a girl. Love your day quit with your girls. Makes me happy. :wub:
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Apple, you are a bad ass! Total bad ass bro! I am glad your part of this site!!!!
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Day 75... not much happened today. Saw a movie with my girls, went shopping, ate food, practiced a few new songs for recording, hopped in chat, posted a few things, posted roll and support in a couple spots, hoping to have a li'l dirty time with Mrs. Apple...
Never thought of dip once today.
Not.
Once.
Not much happened today but... it was a miraculous day.
Love you man! We shared a prefered flavor of poison, which led you to be one of the first KTC members to get into my quit (not possible without first your desire to own your own quit and get involved in others' quits'); therefore, you are one of my quit heros ( added acountability for you 'cause it would crush me if ever you cave)... I am day 33-34 right now, and have had my first day with no craves and no thoughts of dip other than my thoughts about KTC and my daily promise... Glad to see you are having some 'easy' days too. Keep it up! Looiking forward to reading your HOF speech.
AJ..it is not ghey to say I love you since I am a girl. Love your day quit with your girls. Makes me happy. :wub:
If Sage thought it sounded ghey cause I am a dude, and said "I love you man!" just remember those old bud light commercials...
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Day 75... not much happened today. Saw a movie with my girls, went shopping, ate food, practiced a few new songs for recording, hopped in chat, posted a few things, posted roll and support in a couple spots, hoping to have a li'l dirty time with Mrs. Apple...
Never thought of dip once today.
Not.
Once.
Not much happened today but... it was a miraculous day.
Love you man! We shared a prefered flavor of poison, which led you to be one of the first KTC members to get into my quit (not possible without first your desire to own your own quit and get involved in others' quits'); therefore, you are one of my quit heros ( added acountability for you 'cause it would crush me if ever you cave)... I am day 33-34 right now, and have had my first day with no craves and no thoughts of dip other than my thoughts about KTC and my daily promise... Glad to see you are having some 'easy' days too. Keep it up! Looiking forward to reading your HOF speech.
AJ..it is not ghey to say I love you since I am a girl. Love your day quit with your girls. Makes me happy. :wub:
If Sage thought it sounded ghey cause I am a dude, and said "I love you man!" just remember those old bud light commercials...
Hey bro we did it 75+ days of quit proud of you leader of our group. Well hope you got to sport your quit wood today during ur naughty time.....hahaha
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Day 75... not much happened today. Saw a movie with my girls, went shopping, ate food, practiced a few new songs for recording, hopped in chat, posted a few things, posted roll and support in a couple spots, hoping to have a li'l dirty time with Mrs. Apple...
Never thought of dip once today.
Not.
Once.
Not much happened today but... it was a miraculous day.
Love you man! We shared a prefered flavor of poison, which led you to be one of the first KTC members to get into my quit (not possible without first your desire to own your own quit and get involved in others' quits'); therefore, you are one of my quit heros ( added acountability for you 'cause it would crush me if ever you cave)... I am day 33-34 right now, and have had my first day with no craves and no thoughts of dip other than my thoughts about KTC and my daily promise... Glad to see you are having some 'easy' days too. Keep it up! Looiking forward to reading your HOF speech.
AJ..it is not ghey to say I love you since I am a girl. Love your day quit with your girls. Makes me happy. :wub:
If Sage thought it sounded ghey cause I am a dude, and said "I love you man!" just remember those old bud light commercials...
Hey bro we did it 75+ days of quit proud of you leader of our group. Well hope you got to sport your quit wood today during ur naughty time.....hahaha
I had to come back and add more than just the fact that you are a total bad ass, you are a special quitter and a leader. This site works because of people like you apple. You were the first quitter to send me digits, you reach out to me often just to check on me, and you were my first call when i had my panic attack. Yes sir Mr Apple, I am an apprentice quitter to you bro!
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Day 75... not much happened today. Saw a movie with my girls, went shopping, ate food, practiced a few new songs for recording, hopped in chat, posted a few things, posted roll and support in a couple spots, hoping to have a li'l dirty time with Mrs. Apple...
Never thought of dip once today.
Not.
Once.
Not much happened today but... it was a miraculous day.
Love you man! We shared a prefered flavor of poison, which led you to be one of the first KTC members to get into my quit (not possible without first your desire to own your own quit and get involved in others' quits'); therefore, you are one of my quit heros ( added acountability for you 'cause it would crush me if ever you cave)... I am day 33-34 right now, and have had my first day with no craves and no thoughts of dip other than my thoughts about KTC and my daily promse... Glad to see you are having some 'easy' days too. Keep it up! Looiking forward to reading your HOF speech.
AJ..it is not ghey to say I love you since I am a girl. Love your day quit with your girls. Makes me happy. :wub:
If Sage thought it sounded ghey cause I am a dude, and said "I love you man!" just remember those old bud light commercials...
Hey bro we did it 75+ days of quit proud of you leader of our group. Well hope you got to sport your quit wood today during ur naughty time.....hahaha
I had to come back and add more than just the fact that you are a total bad ass, you are a special quitter and a leader. This site works because of people like you apple. You were the first quitter to send me digits, you reach out to me often just to check on me, and you were my first call when i had my panic attack. Yes sir Mr Apple, I am an apprentice quitter to you bro!
This new family I've found... I'm grateful everyday.
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Day 75... not much happened today. Saw a movie with my girls, went shopping, ate food, practiced a few new songs for recording, hopped in chat, posted a few things, posted roll and support in a couple spots, hoping to have a li'l dirty time with Mrs. Apple...
Never thought of dip once today.
Not.
Once.
Not much happened today but... it was a miraculous day.
Love you man! We shared a prefered flavor of poison, which led you to be one of the first KTC members to get into my quit (not possible without first your desire to own your own quit and get involved in others' quits'); therefore, you are one of my quit heros ( added acountability for you 'cause it would crush me if ever you cave)... I am day 33-34 right now, and have had my first day with no craves and no thoughts of dip other than my thoughts about KTC and my daily promse... Glad to see you are having some 'easy' days too. Keep it up! Looiking forward to reading your HOF speech.
AJ..it is not ghey to say I love you since I am a girl. Love your day quit with your girls. Makes me happy. :wub:
If Sage thought it sounded ghey cause I am a dude, and said "I love you man!" just remember those old bud light commercials...
Hey bro we did it 75+ days of quit proud of you leader of our group. Well hope you got to sport your quit wood today during ur naughty time.....hahaha
I had to come back and add more than just the fact that you are a total bad ass, you are a special quitter and a leader. This site works because of people like you apple. You were the first quitter to send me digits, you reach out to me often just to check on me, and you were my first call when i had my panic attack. Yes sir Mr Apple, I am an apprentice quitter to you bro!
This new family I've found... I'm grateful everyday.
You are truly one of the good guys. It's an honor to know you.
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Day 50
This will be wordy. Sorry...
I realize I never posted a proper intro. Not really. Aside from a few delarations of resolve and other generic tidbits, I posted nothing about ME. I was reluctant to and now, 50 days later, I think I know why. Ninja mentality.
Sadly, the biggest part of my life was dip and for 25 years I hid it and lied about it. You can't do something (lie) for that long and not have it infect your personality. The end result is never opening up or letting people close because you have a dirty little secret that needs hid. Retarded right!? Addict rationalization 101. Part II of said retardation?... I don't like ME. The "real" me can see all of the above for what it is and loathes it. I... don't like... ME. Quitting created a bizzare situation. I stopped doing what I hated about myself so I had no more reason to dislike myself (well, there ARE other reasons but that's another post). BUT... too many years hiding my secret made it too strong. I actually have to learn to be ME... without the seret dictating the shots. Whoa.
I'm 42. I'm a professional muscian. Because that doesn't always pay alot (music... not as glam/lucrative as you think!) I also work for the school district where I live. Married 18 years to a woman who should have beat my ass blue years ago for lying/hiding stuff/ruining my health/wasting our families money/etc. She's awesome - I owe her. I'm dad to an 11 yr old daughter. She's my heart. I've been an active music minister for 10 years. I don't really like to cuss a whole lot other than fairly standard fare like helldamnshit. However... a beautifully placed F bomb is very satisfying. I am a dipper of 25 years and (call me out for this next statement, I don't care) I fucking loved it and... I fucking hated it. You will understand the duality of that statement. I suffer from anxiety/panic attacks too. Yaaay. This was mostly under control until I quit then... my good friends anxiety and panic perked up - the nic bitch woke 'em up because she had to leave the building. My quit has not seen a smooth moment yet. I fight every damn day. Hard... Every. Damn. Day. I don't feel better yet. I know my health is better... my doc and dentist assure me of that. Cool.
These last 50 days have been the hardest, yet most rewarding thing I have ever done. Cold turkey - no substitutes. Quit.
I did that... for ME.
WOW- funny how we think we are the only ones that feel this way- I too have/had a lot of self loathing throughout my life - I am proud to be quit with you-
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Day 50
This will be wordy. Sorry...
I realize I never posted a proper intro. Not really. Aside from a few delarations of resolve and other generic tidbits, I posted nothing about ME. I was reluctant to and now, 50 days later, I think I know why. Ninja mentality.
Sadly, the biggest part of my life was dip and for 25 years I hid it and lied about it. You can't do something (lie) for that long and not have it infect your personality. The end result is never opening up or letting people close because you have a dirty little secret that needs hid. Retarded right!? Addict rationalization 101. Part II of said retardation?... I don't like ME. The "real" me can see all of the above for what it is and loathes it. I... don't like... ME. Quitting created a bizzare situation. I stopped doing what I hated about myself so I had no more reason to dislike myself (well, there ARE other reasons but that's another post). BUT... too many years hiding my secret made it too strong. I actually have to learn to be ME... without the seret dictating the shots. Whoa.
I'm 42. I'm a professional muscian. Because that doesn't always pay alot (music... not as glam/lucrative as you think!) I also work for the school district where I live. Married 18 years to a woman who should have beat my ass blue years ago for lying/hiding stuff/ruining my health/wasting our families money/etc. She's awesome - I owe her. I'm dad to an 11 yr old daughter. She's my heart. I've been an active music minister for 10 years. I don't really like to cuss a whole lot other than fairly standard fare like helldamnshit. However... a beautifully placed F bomb is very satisfying. I am a dipper of 25 years and (call me out for this next statement, I don't care) I fucking loved it and... I fucking hated it. You will understand the duality of that statement. I suffer from anxiety/panic attacks too. Yaaay. This was mostly under control until I quit then... my good friends anxiety and panic perked up - the nic bitch woke 'em up because she had to leave the building. My quit has not seen a smooth moment yet. I fight every damn day. Hard... Every. Damn. Day. I don't feel better yet. I know my health is better... my doc and dentist assure me of that. Cool.
These last 50 days have been the hardest, yet most rewarding thing I have ever done. Cold turkey - no substitutes. Quit.
I did that... for ME.
WOW- funny how we think we are the only ones that feel this way- I too have/had a lot of self loathing throughout my life - I am proud to be quit with you-
Wow, that was really brave to post, A.J. I agree with Dougie, so much of what you say I can Totally relate to. Especially about the self-loathing regarding the dip habit...I am a woman so I felt a lot of shame. What "normal" woman would do this habit? So, you are not alone. Btw, I can't play any instrument or sing well at all, but the best part of my week is singing at the top of my lungs at church. (Luckily, the band plays really loud). I admire you!
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Day 50
This will be wordy. Sorry...
I realize I never posted a proper intro. Not really. Aside from a few delarations of resolve and other generic tidbits, I posted nothing about ME. I was reluctant to and now, 50 days later, I think I know why. Ninja mentality.
Sadly, the biggest part of my life was dip and for 25 years I hid it and lied about it. You can't do something (lie) for that long and not have it infect your personality. The end result is never opening up or letting people close because you have a dirty little secret that needs hid. Retarded right!? Addict rationalization 101. Part II of said retardation?... I don't like ME. The "real" me can see all of the above for what it is and loathes it. I... don't like... ME. Quitting created a bizzare situation. I stopped doing what I hated about myself so I had no more reason to dislike myself (well, there ARE other reasons but that's another post). BUT... too many years hiding my secret made it too strong. I actually have to learn to be ME... without the seret dictating the shots. Whoa.
I'm 42. I'm a professional muscian. Because that doesn't always pay alot (music... not as glam/lucrative as you think!) I also work for the school district where I live. Married 18 years to a woman who should have beat my ass blue years ago for lying/hiding stuff/ruining my health/wasting our families money/etc. She's awesome - I owe her. I'm dad to an 11 yr old daughter. She's my heart. I've been an active music minister for 10 years. I don't really like to cuss a whole lot other than fairly standard fare like helldamnshit. However... a beautifully placed F bomb is very satisfying. I am a dipper of 25 years and (call me out for this next statement, I don't care) I fucking loved it and... I fucking hated it. You will understand the duality of that statement. I suffer from anxiety/panic attacks too. Yaaay. This was mostly under control until I quit then... my good friends anxiety and panic perked up - the nic bitch woke 'em up because she had to leave the building. My quit has not seen a smooth moment yet. I fight every damn day. Hard... Every. Damn. Day. I don't feel better yet. I know my health is better... my doc and dentist assure me of that. Cool.
These last 50 days have been the hardest, yet most rewarding thing I have ever done. Cold turkey - no substitutes. Quit.
I did that... for ME.
WOW- funny how we think we are the only ones that feel this way- I too have/had a lot of self loathing throughout my life - I am proud to be quit with you-
Wow, that was really brave to post, A.J. I agree with Dougie, so much of what you say I can Totally relate to. Especially about the self-loathing regarding the dip habit...I am a woman so I felt a lot of shame. What "normal" woman would do this habit? So, you are not alone. Btw, I can't play any instrument or sing well at all, but the best part of my week is singing at the top of my lungs at church. (Luckily, the band plays really loud). I admire you!
I haven't posted on your page. Hummm. I'm glad you are here. With time I think you will solve your anxiety issues, or atleast get better control of them now that you have removed a poison from your life.
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Today I did something for the 93rd day in a row...
I posted roll and promised every person in my group, every person who posts with me, every quitter on this site who has never even freakin' heard of me... no nic for me today. I QUIT!!
It takes me awhile now 'cuz I post everywhere it seems. It's my pennance for 25 years of being an idiot slave to a weed. Sometimes it's a chore but... I do it gladly. Why? HOF in 7 days. That daily promise is life boys and girls... do it.
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Today I did something for the 93rd day in a row...
I posted roll and promised every person in my group, every person who posts with me, every quitter on this site who has never even freakin' heard of me... no nic for me today. I QUIT!!
It takes me awhile now 'cuz I post everywhere it seems. It's my pennance for 25 years of being an idiot slave to a weed. Sometimes it's a chore but... I do it gladly. Why? HOF in 7 days. That daily promise is life boys and girls... do it.
Proud of you bro. I'm waiting for you on the first floor. It has a Pretty good view. Kind of been worrying about the furniture. Been hearing some things about critters and stuff. Can't tell you what I've seen. They have rules. I'm kinda worried I've told you to much. They have some mighty big critters I'm worried about. Quit with you any day bro.
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Today I did something for the 93rd day in a row...
I posted roll and promised every person in my group, every person who posts with me, every quitter on this site who has never even freakin' heard of me... no nic for me today. I QUIT!!
It takes me awhile now 'cuz I post everywhere it seems. It's my pennance for 25 years of being an idiot slave to a weed. Sometimes it's a chore but... I do it gladly. Why? HOF in 7 days. That daily promise is life boys and girls... do it.
Awesome Applejack! Nice meeting you in chat tonight. You guys kept a guy entertained through a difficult evening tonight. Thanks and I'll be looking for that hall of fame post!
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Today I did something for the 93rd day in a row...
I posted roll and promised every person in my group, every person who posts with me, every quitter on this site who has never even freakin' heard of me... no nic for me today. I QUIT!!
It takes me awhile now 'cuz I post everywhere it seems. It's my pennance for 25 years of being an idiot slave to a weed. Sometimes it's a chore but... I do it gladly. Why? HOF in 7 days. That daily promise is life boys and girls... do it.
And I am damn proud to quit with you each day, see ya tomorrow!
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Today I did something for the 93rd day in a row...
I posted roll and promised every person in my group, every person who posts with me, every quitter on this site who has never even freakin' heard of me... no nic for me today. I QUIT!!
It takes me awhile now 'cuz I post everywhere it seems. It's my pennance for 25 years of being an idiot slave to a weed. Sometimes it's a chore but... I do it gladly. Why? HOF in 7 days. That daily promise is life boys and girls... do it.
And I am damn proud to quit with you each day, see ya tomorrow!
Thanks brother! That means a helluva lot...
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Today I did something for the 93rd day in a row...
I posted roll and promised every person in my group, every person who posts with me, every quitter on this site who has never even freakin' heard of me... no nic for me today. I QUIT!!
It takes me awhile now 'cuz I post everywhere it seems. It's my pennance for 25 years of being an idiot slave to a weed. Sometimes it's a chore but... I do it gladly. Why? HOF in 7 days. That daily promise is life boys and girls... do it.
Proud of you bro. I'm waiting for you on the first floor. It has a Pretty good view. Kind of been worrying about the furniture. Been hearing some things about critters and stuff. Can't tell you what I've seen. They have rules. I'm kinda worried I've told you to much. They have some mighty big critters I'm worried about. Quit with you any day bro.
That's just wrong bro 'Crazy'
'crackup'
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Today I did something for the 93rd day in a row...
I posted roll and promised every person in my group, every person who posts with me, every quitter on this site who has never even freakin' heard of me... no nic for me today. I QUIT!!
It takes me awhile now 'cuz I post everywhere it seems. It's my pennance for 25 years of being an idiot slave to a weed. Sometimes it's a chore but... I do it gladly. Why? HOF in 7 days. That daily promise is life boys and girls... do it.
Proud of you bro. I'm waiting for you on the first floor. It has a Pretty good view. Kind of been worrying about the furniture. Been hearing some things about critters and stuff. Can't tell you what I've seen. They have rules. I'm kinda worried I've told you to much. They have some mighty big critters I'm worried about. Quit with you any day bro.
That's just wrong bro 'Crazy'
'crackup'
Applejack I heard that the highlands are great for man loves beasters since the sheep push back when they are facing a drop... You were 2 weeks earlier in your quit than I am now when you sent me a little encouragement the first days of my quit... I am still inspired following your trail. Quit on!
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100 days (well... a few hours yet)
So... I take a spill at work today and break a rib. Awesome.
Happy HOF to me _ Life sure has a way of putting things in perspective... sometimes painfully!
My HOF is important to me, a HUGE milestone! But really... 101 is just as huge. Today is just another day I get to quit with all of you and... THAT is my extreme honor! Thank you brothers and sisters... I quit with you today.
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100 days (well... a few hours yet)
So... I take a spill at work today and break a rib. Awesome.
Happy HOF to me _ Life sure has a way of putting things in perspective... sometimes painfully!
My HOF is important to me, a HUGE milestone! But really... 101 is just as huge. Today is just another day I get to quit with all of you and... THAT is my extreme honor! Thank you brothers and sisters... I quit with you today.
Congrates Applejack! You get to celebrate 100 days of being quit from the most addictive thing known to man by suffering one of the most painful bone breaks known to man! Do not laugh, cough, sneeze, fart, burp, twist quickly at a loud noise, move, eat, or breath for a few weeks, and you will be fine... Anyway you can always write a few drafts of your HOF speach to take your mind of the pain.
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100 days (well... a few hours yet)
So... I take a spill at work today and break a rib. Awesome.
Happy HOF to me _Â Life sure has a way of putting things in perspective... sometimes painfully!
My HOF is important to me, a HUGE milestone! But really... 101 is just as huge. Today is just another day I get to quit with all of you and... THAT is my extreme honor! Thank you brothers and sisters... I quit with you today.
Congrates Applejack! You get to celebrate 100 days of being quit from the most addictive thing known to man by suffering one of the most painful bone breaks known to man! Do not laugh, cough, sneeze, fart, burp, twist quickly at a loud noise, move, eat, or breath for a few weeks, and you will be fine... Anyway you can always write a few drafts of your HOF speach to take your mind of the pain.
Too late man. I sneezed, like, 15 minutes ago. I'm still cryin' like a li'l girl! Dammit!
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100 days (well... a few hours yet)
So... I take a spill at work today and break a rib. Awesome.
Happy HOF to me _Â Life sure has a way of putting things in perspective... sometimes painfully!
My HOF is important to me, a HUGE milestone! But really... 101 is just as huge. Today is just another day I get to quit with all of you and... THAT is my extreme honor! Thank you brothers and sisters... I quit with you today.
Congrates Applejack! You get to celebrate 100 days of being quit from the most addictive thing known to man by suffering one of the most painful bone breaks known to man! Do not laugh, cough, sneeze, fart, burp, twist quickly at a loud noise, move, eat, or breath for a few weeks, and you will be fine... Anyway you can always write a few drafts of your HOF speach to take your mind of the pain.
Too late man. I sneezed, like, 15 minutes ago. I'm still cryin' like a li'l girl! Dammit!
Lol at least you have an easy way to make craves disapear.
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Congrats apple. 'clap'
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Congrats AppleJack
'clap' 'clap'
You Sir are a Bad-Ass
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Damn proud of you. Enjoy the self pride brother you earned it.
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Damn proud of you. Enjoy the self pride brother you earned it.
That's right Applejack, enjoy the self pride you earned it.
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Ode to the AppleJack
This Ode's for my friend, He just hit the HOF!
But with a name like his, I think he's a little off..
The site's for dip addicts, not smokers of crack.
He was smokin something when he thought up AppleJack.
But as a quitter he's solid, his apple ain't rotten.
And he's get a cute butt, so I call him AppleBottom.
OK, let me be serious, cuz his quit is bad ass.
He dipped as a ninja but came out and showed class.
That had to be tough after 25 years,
but my man, he did it, so we owe him some cheers.
Some cheers to his wife, who stayed by his side.
She loves her some Apple, even though he had lied.
We text all the time, he's such a text whore.
He's the first that I got, when I hit the second floor.
So today marks 100, days he's been free,
And by his own admission, "I did it for me"!
To my brother, I'm proud you made it this far,
We're brother's in quit, and playing guitar.
I'll tell you this now, but you already know,
There's tough days to come, that nic's still a hoe.
Just keep with the plan and post up every day,
Your quit will stay hard, and you will stay Ghey...
Congrats bro!
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100 days! Way to go Apple!!! Enjoy your day, you have earned this!!
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Thanks, everyone, for all the well wishes!
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Thanks, everyone, for all the well wishes!
nice start, keep it up!
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Thanks, everyone, for all the well wishes!
nice start, keep it up!
'clap'
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Damn congrats apple! Apple was the first Guy to PM me. He was also the first guy to give me his number.
Below is the PM this bad ass sent me, he was only 13 days quit when he sent this to me. I zeroed out his number. I have said many times and will say it again "my quit is an apprentice quit to Mr Apple's quit". I am proud of you brother! But most of all I am proud to have you as a brother!
Hey dude! AppleJack here... You can call me Shane
000-000-0000... Use it if you need to. I'm not in your quit group but doesn't matter. We're all in this together. Post roll, read, learn, chat, vent, read some more... Keep yourself busy. There are people on this sight that will rabidly back you and your quit... Don't let them/us*Erussell down. Day 1 was a hurdle I never thought I'd get over... I did. You will too and then we'll see you here the next day and do it all over again... Together! Good on ya bro! Rock your quit!!
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Day 1... 4-17-13
Well, it's one louder isn't it? It's not ten.
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Day 104... Had the dip dream from hell number 2. WTF!? The only other one I had was on day 10. I had to spend 5 minutes sitting on the bed trying to figure out if I actually went out at some point last night, bought a can, and chewed my face off.
Still feelin' a li'l weird about it... Slightly dirty/guilty? I dunno. I don't like it!
Here's the scary part newbs... Pay attention. Even half awake, with part of me KNOWING I was dreaming, there was the other half - the dream half/the addict I have locked away for 104 days- trying to justify that it was just one can... Nobody would know... I'm still a good ninja... I can post 105 tomorrow... No big deal.
Falling back into death would be that easy. Just giving up on a fight I've been winning for 104 days. Fight hard with the weapons you are learning to use... Everyday, post your roll/promise not to use, build your support foundation, soak up the knowledge on this site, be inspired, be scared, be strong... Be involved.
I'm quit today.
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Day 104... Had the dip dream from hell number 2. WTF!? The only other one I had was on day 10. I had to spend 5 minutes sitting on the bed trying to figure out if I actually went out at some point last night, bought a can, and chewed my face off.
Still feelin' a li'l weird about it... Slightly dirty/guilty? I dunno. I don't like it!
Here's the scary part newbs... Pay attention. Even half awake, with part of me KNOWING I was dreaming, there was the other half - the dream half/the addict I have locked away for 104 days- trying to justify that it was just one can... Nobody would know... I'm still a good ninja... I can post 105 tomorrow... No big deal.
Falling back into death would be that easy. Just giving up on a fight I've been winning for 104 days. Fight hard with the weapons you are learning to use... Everyday, post your roll/promise not to use, build your support foundation, soak up the knowledge on this site, be inspired, be scared, be strong... Be involved.
I'm quit today.
I am still having them Applecrack! Now, I laugh them off, but man I wake up with the guilt and the wonder.
As I mentioned to you a few days ago, post HOF funk was a bitch for me. Your quit has been so solid, discovery channel called me and asked about doing a documentary on you.
But serious, keep it close and have your battle bud's ready.
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Day 104... Had the dip dream from hell number 2. WTF!? The only other one I had was on day 10. I had to spend 5 minutes sitting on the bed trying to figure out if I actually went out at some point last night, bought a can, and chewed my face off.
Still feelin' a li'l weird about it... Slightly dirty/guilty? I dunno. I don't like it!
Here's the scary part newbs... Pay attention. Even half awake, with part of me KNOWING I was dreaming, there was the other half - the dream half/the addict I have locked away for 104 days- trying to justify that it was just one can... Nobody would know... I'm still a good ninja... I can post 105 tomorrow... No big deal.
Falling back into death would be that easy. Just giving up on a fight I've been winning for 104 days. Fight hard with the weapons you are learning to use... Everyday, post your roll/promise not to use, build your support foundation, soak up the knowledge on this site, be inspired, be scared, be strong... Be involved.
I'm quit today.
I am still having them Applecrack! Now, I laugh them off, but man I wake up with the guilt and the wonder.
As I mentioned to you a few days ago, post HOF funk was a bitch for me. Your quit has been so solid, discovery channel called me and asked about doing a documentary on you.
But serious, keep it close and have your battle bud's ready.
:)
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Day 104... Had the dip dream from hell number 2. WTF!? The only other one I had was on day 10. I had to spend 5 minutes sitting on the bed trying to figure out if I actually went out at some point last night, bought a can, and chewed my face off.
Still feelin' a li'l weird about it... Slightly dirty/guilty? I dunno. I don't like it!
Here's the scary part newbs... Pay attention. Even half awake, with part of me KNOWING I was dreaming, there was the other half - the dream half/the addict I have locked away for 104 days- trying to justify that it was just one can... Nobody would know... I'm still a good ninja... I can post 105 tomorrow... No big deal.
Falling back into death would be that easy. Just giving up on a fight I've been winning for 104 days. Fight hard with the weapons you are learning to use... Everyday, post your roll/promise not to use, build your support foundation, soak up the knowledge on this site, be inspired, be scared, be strong... Be involved.
I'm quit today.
I am still having them Applecrack! Now, I laugh them off, but man I wake up with the guilt and the wonder.
As I mentioned to you a few days ago, post HOF funk was a bitch for me. Your quit has been so solid, discovery channel called me and asked about doing a documentary on you.
But serious, keep it close and have your battle bud's ready.
:)
Just smack yourself in the side when you think you can have just one! (the broken side).
I had a dip dream last night too... but the shit was floating all around my mouth making me queasy so it wasnt a "glory days" sort of thing. I couldn't get the shit out of my teeth, which us ninjas know is not a good thing!
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Wow... day 137.
Been feeling a little guilty lately. Not sharing much - not posting onto many intros - HOF speech not written yet ( I know, dammit!). I've pulled my intro up a few times and just sat staring at the screen. Um... I got nothin'? Really!? I hit HOF and all this energy just left me. Not a funk either. Feelin' good... great in fact. So I've been pondering the last few days. Pondering is good for the soul. I felt kinda like Pooh in the ol' cartoons... "think, think, think"... it came to me, finally ~
You ever expend an absolute limitless amount of energy into a project? A weekend of gnarly yardwork - a home remodel/renovation - a work project - whatever. There comes that moment when you've finished where it's time to sit back, have a beer, and enjoy the hell out of what you just did. Tired as hell but satisfied. I just spent 99 days gearing up for a huge milestone in my life ~ my HOF day. I worked my ASS off building this first floor. Blood, sweat, and tears man. Some days it took everything I had and some days were a breeze. Lazy as it may sound, I've been sitting on the front porch for the last 37 days just enjoying the hell out of that. No funk, no let down, no apathy... just a breather to enjoy this Quit I've built. You know what?... my first floor kicks ass! I love it. It's roomy and it's so solid that I'm gonna keep adding floors. The 2nd floor is shaping up to be something even more badass. This is the Quit that Jack built... Ima enjoy all of it.
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Wow... day 137.
Been feeling a little guilty lately. Not sharing much - not posting onto many intros - HOF speech not written yet ( I know, dammit!). I've pulled my intro up a few times and just sat staring at the screen. Um... I got nothin'? Really!? I hit HOF and all this energy just left me. Not a funk either. Feelin' good... great in fact. So I've been pondering the last few days. Pondering is good for the soul. I felt kinda like Pooh in the ol' cartoons... "think, think, think"... it came to me, finally ~
You ever expend an absolute limitless amount of enerygy into a project? A weekend of gnarly yardwork - a home remodel/renovation - a work project - whatever. There comes that moment when you've finished where it's time to sit back, have a beer, and enjoy the hell out of what you just did. Tired as hell but satisfied. I just spent 99 days gearing up for a huge milestone in my life ~ my HOF day. I worked my ASS off building this first floor. Blood, sweat, and tears man. Some days it took everything I had and some days were a breeze. Lazy as it may sound, I've been sitting on the front porch for the last 37 days just enjoying the hell out of that. No funk, no let down, no apathy... just a breather to enjoy this Quit I've built. You know what?... my first floor kicks ass! I love it. It's roomy and it's so solid that I'm gonna keep adding floors. The 2nd floor is shaping up to be something even more badass. This is the Quit that Jack built... Ima enjoy all of it.
Quit on AJ.....There is no Handbook or YouTube video to watch on the "perfect" Quit.Work your quit, don't let it work you.Quit is all that is asked of each of us everyday,not did you hit your 17.4 posts again?Proud to be quit with you again today 137 or 437.QLFEDD!!!!!
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Wow... day 137.
Been feeling a little guilty lately. Not sharing much - not posting onto many intros - HOF speech not written yet ( I know, dammit!). I've pulled my intro up a few times and just sat staring at the screen. Um... I got nothin'? Really!? I hit HOF and all this energy just left me. Not a funk either. Feelin' good... great in fact. So I've been pondering the last few days. Pondering is good for the soul. I felt kinda like Pooh in the ol' cartoons... "think, think, think"... it came to me, finally ~
You ever expend an absolute limitless amount of energy into a project? A weekend of gnarly yardwork - a home remodel/renovation - a work project - whatever. There comes that moment when you've finished where it's time to sit back, have a beer, and enjoy the hell out of what you just did. Tired as hell but satisfied. I just spent 99 days gearing up for a huge milestone in my life ~ my HOF day. I worked my ASS off building this first floor. Blood, sweat, and tears man. Some days it took everything I had and some days were a breeze. Lazy as it may sound, I've been sitting on the front porch for the last 37 days just enjoying the hell out of that. No funk, no let down, no apathy... just a breather to enjoy this Quit I've built. You know what?... my first floor kicks ass! I love it. It's roomy and it's so solid that I'm gonna keep adding floors. The 2nd floor is shaping up to be something even more badass. This is the Quit that Jack built... Ima enjoy all of it.
Congrats on 137 days! It's not lazy at all to sit back enjoy the fruits of your labor because you're still moving forward. For yourself and for others, I know you're laboring to help others now. So don't feel a bit guilty for enjoying your hard work my friend!
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Wow... day 137.
Been feeling a little guilty lately. Not sharing much - not posting onto many intros -Â HOF speech not written yet ( I know, dammit!). I've pulled my intro up a few times and just sat staring at the screen. Um... I got nothin'? Really!? I hit HOF and all this energy just left me. Not a funk either. Feelin' good... great in fact. So I've been pondering the last few days. Pondering is good for the soul. I felt kinda like Pooh in the ol' cartoons... "think, think, think"... it came to me, finally ~
You ever expend an absolute limitless amount of energy into a project? A weekend of gnarly yardwork - a home remodel/renovation - a work project - whatever. There comes that moment when you've finished where it's time to sit back, have a beer, and enjoy the hell out of what you just did. Tired as hell but satisfied. I just spent 99 days gearing up for a huge milestone in my life ~ my HOF day. I worked my ASS off building this first floor. Blood, sweat, and tears man. Some days it took everything I had and some days were a breeze. Lazy as it may sound, I've been sitting on the front porch for the last 37 days just enjoying the hell out of that. No funk, no let down, no apathy... just a breather to enjoy this Quit I've built. You know what?... my first floor kicks ass! I love it. It's roomy and it's so solid that I'm gonna keep adding floors. The 2nd floor is shaping up to be something even more badass. This is the Quit that Jack built... Ima enjoy all of it.
Congrats on 137 days! It's not lazy at all to sit back enjoy the fruits of your labor because you're still moving forward. For yourself and for others, I know you're laboring to help others now. So don't feel a bit guilty for enjoying your hard work my friend!
Very good read apple. I know your feeling. The way it sounds you were a lot like me the first 100. Keep on keepen on.
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Wow... day 137.
Been feeling a little guilty lately. Not sharing much - not posting onto many intros -Â HOF speech not written yet ( I know, dammit!). I've pulled my intro up a few times and just sat staring at the screen. Um... I got nothin'? Really!? I hit HOF and all this energy just left me. Not a funk either. Feelin' good... great in fact. So I've been pondering the last few days. Pondering is good for the soul. I felt kinda like Pooh in the ol' cartoons... "think, think, think"... it came to me, finally ~
You ever expend an absolute limitless amount of energy into a project? A weekend of gnarly yardwork - a home remodel/renovation - a work project - whatever. There comes that moment when you've finished where it's time to sit back, have a beer, and enjoy the hell out of what you just did. Tired as hell but satisfied. I just spent 99 days gearing up for a huge milestone in my life ~ my HOF day. I worked my ASS off building this first floor. Blood, sweat, and tears man. Some days it took everything I had and some days were a breeze. Lazy as it may sound, I've been sitting on the front porch for the last 37 days just enjoying the hell out of that. No funk, no let down, no apathy... just a breather to enjoy this Quit I've built. You know what?... my first floor kicks ass! I love it. It's roomy and it's so solid that I'm gonna keep adding floors. The 2nd floor is shaping up to be something even more badass. This is the Quit that Jack built... Ima enjoy all of it.
Congrats on 137 days! It's not lazy at all to sit back enjoy the fruits of your labor because you're still moving forward. For yourself and for others, I know you're laboring to help others now. So don't feel a bit guilty for enjoying your hard work my friend!
Very good read apple. I know your feeling. The way it sounds you were a lot like me the first 100. Keep on keepen on.
I have been coasting for a few days and kinda wondering why. Nice time for me to read this AJ as it makes sense to me.
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Wow... day 137.
Been feeling a little guilty lately. Not sharing much - not posting onto many intros -Â HOF speech not written yet ( I know, dammit!). I've pulled my intro up a few times and just sat staring at the screen. Um... I got nothin'? Really!? I hit HOF and all this energy just left me. Not a funk either. Feelin' good... great in fact. So I've been pondering the last few days. Pondering is good for the soul. I felt kinda like Pooh in the ol' cartoons... "think, think, think"... it came to me, finally ~
You ever expend an absolute limitless amount of energy into a project? A weekend of gnarly yardwork - a home remodel/renovation - a work project - whatever. There comes that moment when you've finished where it's time to sit back, have a beer, and enjoy the hell out of what you just did. Tired as hell but satisfied. I just spent 99 days gearing up for a huge milestone in my life ~ my HOF day. I worked my ASS off building this first floor. Blood, sweat, and tears man. Some days it took everything I had and some days were a breeze. Lazy as it may sound, I've been sitting on the front porch for the last 37 days just enjoying the hell out of that. No funk, no let down, no apathy... just a breather to enjoy this Quit I've built. You know what?... my first floor kicks ass! I love it. It's roomy and it's so solid that I'm gonna keep adding floors. The 2nd floor is shaping up to be something even more badass. This is the Quit that Jack built... Ima enjoy all of it.
Congrats on 137 days! It's not lazy at all to sit back enjoy the fruits of your labor because you're still moving forward. For yourself and for others, I know you're laboring to help others now. So don't feel a bit guilty for enjoying your hard work my friend!
Very good read apple. I know your feeling. The way it sounds you were a lot like me the first 100. Keep on keepen on.
I have been coasting for a few days and kinda wondering why. Nice time for me to read this AJ as it makes sense to me.
Good stuff AJ! However, I disagree that you have mailed it in the past 37 days. You are not just relaxing on your front porch with your focus on yourself... reveling in your HOF accomplishment. You can not sell me on that one! You have reached out to me countless times via text during this period I am sure you've done it to others, you wrote a guest spot for the August train, you post roll on your July thread countless others each and every day. You are spreading your quit around bro! You are engaged in the brotherhood I am damn glad to be QLF with you today! Keep on bro!
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Wow... day 137.
Been feeling a little guilty lately. Not sharing much - not posting onto many intros -Â HOF speech not written yet ( I know, dammit!). I've pulled my intro up a few times and just sat staring at the screen. Um... I got nothin'? Really!? I hit HOF and all this energy just left me. Not a funk either. Feelin' good... great in fact. So I've been pondering the last few days. Pondering is good for the soul. I felt kinda like Pooh in the ol' cartoons... "think, think, think"... it came to me, finally ~
You ever expend an absolute limitless amount of energy into a project? A weekend of gnarly yardwork - a home remodel/renovation - a work project - whatever. There comes that moment when you've finished where it's time to sit back, have a beer, and enjoy the hell out of what you just did. Tired as hell but satisfied. I just spent 99 days gearing up for a huge milestone in my life ~ my HOF day. I worked my ASS off building this first floor. Blood, sweat, and tears man. Some days it took everything I had and some days were a breeze. Lazy as it may sound, I've been sitting on the front porch for the last 37 days just enjoying the hell out of that. No funk, no let down, no apathy... just a breather to enjoy this Quit I've built. You know what?... my first floor kicks ass! I love it. It's roomy and it's so solid that I'm gonna keep adding floors. The 2nd floor is shaping up to be something even more badass. This is the Quit that Jack built... Ima enjoy all of it.
Congrats on 137 days! It's not lazy at all to sit back enjoy the fruits of your labor because you're still moving forward. For yourself and for others, I know you're laboring to help others now. So don't feel a bit guilty for enjoying your hard work my friend!
Very good read apple. I know your feeling. The way it sounds you were a lot like me the first 100. Keep on keepen on.
I have been coasting for a few days and kinda wondering why. Nice time for me to read this AJ as it makes sense to me.
Good stuff AJ! However, I disagree that you have mailed it in the past 37 days. You are not just relaxing on your front porch with your focus on yourself... reveling in your HOF accomplishment. You can not sell me on that one! You have reached out to me countless times via text during this period I am sure you've done it to others, you wrote a guest spot for the August train, you post roll on your July thread countless others each and every day. You are spreading your quit around bro! You are engaged in the brotherhood I am damn glad to be QLF with you today! Keep on bro!
its like a quit buns of steel video. You will write the speech when you are ready. I have a feeling that you are putting too much pressure on yourself to write it. Just relax let the trip speak for itself. The speech doesnt have to be a work or art to be reviewed by literary scholars its just a bunch of addicts wantin to hear from their friend and new power house of quit. Don't worry I got your back with witnesses.... paa ting shovel back of the head....(inside joke) so enjoy your quit and keep doing what you are doing. quit w you today AJ
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I was all set to post this brilliant update that made everyone think, "Wow!", that was AWESOME! Yeah... not so much :P
I've been reading through intros the last few days... newbies and not-so-newbies and I've seen a subtle, yet common, thread. It basically boils down to this... "Life has dealt me 'THIS' piece of crap but I'm dealing with it and I'm still QUIT!".
I have found this VERY interesting/sad/confusing/frustrating/perplexing.
What I set out to post was just a gripe about life in general... I have an old friend who has a stomach mass that we're hoping isn't cancer, my wife's gramma died, my recent plumbing re-pipe cost me $11,000, my job keeps having bits and pieces cut... blah, blah, blah. Through this all I'm still QUIT too! With effort but... I'm rock solid. What I've found interesting is that, by and large, we are all having to learn to cope with life without a filter or securilty blanket of a drug (nicotine). I have REALLY wanted to dip this last few weeks! I took a real hard look at myself this weekend and really contemplated what going to the store, buying a can, and filling my face would do for me. Aside from the obvious that it would do NOTHING to solve anything going on in my life I really, truly understood, my addiction to be a thing of avoidance. I want something else to fix everything.
Duh.
Ain't gonna happen.
It may hurt a little (or alot) but being fully present without a drug is kind of a rush. Every situation I overcome without nicotine, makes me the person I was made to be. Life sucks sometimes... that's normal! I'm stoked to be dealing with it as a "whole" person. No filters, no security blanket, no crutch. 160 days free. That's pretty damn cool.
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I was all set to post this brilliant update that made everyone think, "Wow!", that was AWESOME! Yeah... not so much :P
I've been reading through intros the last few days... newbies and not-so-newbies and I've seen a subtle, yet common, thread. It basically boils down to this... "Life has dealt me 'THIS' piece of crap but I'm dealing with it and I'm still QUIT!".
I have found this VERY interesting/sad/confusing/frustrating/perplexing.
What I set out to post was just a gripe about life in general... I have an old friend who has a stomach mass that we're hoping isn't cancer, my wife's gramma died, my recent plumbing re-pipe cost me $11,000, my job keeps having bits and pieces cut... blah, blah, blah. Through this all I'm still QUIT too! With effort but... I'm rock solid. What I've found interesting is that, by and large, we are all having to learn to cope with life without a filter or securilty blanket of a drug (nicotine). I have REALLY wanted to dip this last few weeks! I took a real hard look at myself this weekend and really contemplated what going to the store, buying a can, and filling my face would do for me. Aside from the obvious that it would do NOTHING to solve anything going on in my life I really, truly understood, my addiction to be a thing of avoidance. I want something else to fix everything.
Duh.
Ain't gonna happen.
It may hurt a little (or alot) but being fully present without a drug is kind of a rush. Every situation I overcome without nicotine, makes me the person I was made to be. Life sucks sometimes... that's normal! I'm stoked to be dealing with it as a "whole" person. No filters, no security blanket, no crutch. 160 days free. That's pretty damn cool.
See you at 161 my friend. ;)
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I was all set to post this brilliant update that made everyone think, "Wow!", that was AWESOME! Yeah... not so much :PÂ
I've been reading through intros the last few days... newbies and not-so-newbies and I've seen a subtle, yet common, thread. It basically boils down to this... "Life has dealt me 'THIS' piece of crap but I'm dealing with it and I'm still QUIT!".
I have found this VERY interesting/sad/confusing/frustrating/perplexing.
What I set out to post was just a gripe about life in general... I have an old friend who has a stomach mass that we're hoping isn't cancer, my wife's gramma died, my recent plumbing re-pipe cost me $11,000, my job keeps having bits and pieces cut... blah, blah, blah. Through this all I'm still QUIT too! With effort but... I'm rock solid. What I've found interesting is that, by and large, we are all having to learn to cope with life without a filter or securilty blanket of a drug (nicotine). I have REALLY wanted to dip this last few weeks! I took a real hard look at myself this weekend and really contemplated what going to the store, buying a can, and filling my face would do for me. Aside from the obvious that it would do NOTHING to solve anything going on in my life I really, truly understood, my addiction to be a thing of avoidance. I want something else to fix everything.
Duh.
Ain't gonna happen.Â
It may hurt a little (or alot) but being fully present without a drug is kind of a rush. Every situation I overcome without nicotine, makes me the person I was made to be. Life sucks sometimes... that's normal! I'm stoked to be dealing with it as a "whole" person. No filters, no security blanket, no crutch. 160 days free. That's pretty damn cool.
See you at 161 my friend. ;)
"being fully present without a drug is kind of a rush."
Mission accomplished. That was awesome.
I've been thinking similar thoughts for a couple months now. I think my nicotine use was partly about numbing the experience of life. Well, why the hell did I want to do that? Bring on the highs and lows, and bring on the next day of freedom to experience them without a (counterproductive) crutch.
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I was all set to post this brilliant update that made everyone think, "Wow!", that was AWESOME! Yeah... not so much :P
I've been reading through intros the last few days... newbies and not-so-newbies and I've seen a subtle, yet common, thread. It basically boils down to this... "Life has dealt me 'THIS' piece of crap but I'm dealing with it and I'm still QUIT!".
I have found this VERY interesting/sad/confusing/frustrating/perplexing.
What I set out to post was just a gripe about life in general... I have an old friend who has a stomach mass that we're hoping isn't cancer, my wife's gramma died, my recent plumbing re-pipe cost me $11,000, my job keeps having bits and pieces cut... blah, blah, blah. Through this all I'm still QUIT too! With effort but... I'm rock solid. What I've found interesting is that, by and large, we are all having to learn to cope with life without a filter or securilty blanket of a drug (nicotine). I have REALLY wanted to dip this last few weeks! I took a real hard look at myself this weekend and really contemplated what going to the store, buying a can, and filling my face would do for me. Aside from the obvious that it would do NOTHING to solve anything going on in my life I really, truly understood, my addiction to be a thing of avoidance. I want something else to fix everything.
Duh.
Ain't gonna happen.
It may hurt a little (or alot) but being fully present without a drug is kind of a rush. Every situation I overcome without nicotine, makes me the person I was made to be. Life sucks sometimes... that's normal! I'm stoked to be dealing with it as a "whole" person. No filters, no security blanket, no crutch. 160 days free. That's pretty damn cool.
Proud to be quit with you today my friend!
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Well put AJ I have had similar experiences and I keep quit. No numbing no filters no security blankets....I keep going cause I got guys like you in my corner...quit on bro
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I was all set to post this brilliant update that made everyone think, "Wow!", that was AWESOME! Yeah... not so much :PÂ
I've been reading through intros the last few days... newbies and not-so-newbies and I've seen a subtle, yet common, thread. It basically boils down to this... "Life has dealt me 'THIS' piece of crap but I'm dealing with it and I'm still QUIT!".
I have found this VERY interesting/sad/confusing/frustrating/perplexing.
What I set out to post was just a gripe about life in general... I have an old friend who has a stomach mass that we're hoping isn't cancer, my wife's gramma died, my recent plumbing re-pipe cost me $11,000, my job keeps having bits and pieces cut... blah, blah, blah. Through this all I'm still QUIT too! With effort but... I'm rock solid. What I've found interesting is that, by and large, we are all having to learn to cope with life without a filter or securilty blanket of a drug (nicotine). I have REALLY wanted to dip this last few weeks! I took a real hard look at myself this weekend and really contemplated what going to the store, buying a can, and filling my face would do for me. Aside from the obvious that it would do NOTHING to solve anything going on in my life I really, truly understood, my addiction to be a thing of avoidance. I want something else to fix everything.
Duh.
Ain't gonna happen.Â
It may hurt a little (or alot) but being fully present without a drug is kind of a rush. Every situation I overcome without nicotine, makes me the person I was made to be. Life sucks sometimes... that's normal! I'm stoked to be dealing with it as a "whole" person. No filters, no security blanket, no crutch. 160 days free. That's pretty damn cool.
See you at 161 my friend. ;)
"being fully present without a drug is kind of a rush."
Mission accomplished. That was awesome.
I've been thinking similar thoughts for a couple months now. I think my nicotine use was partly about numbing the experience of life. Well, why the hell did I want to do that? Bring on the highs and lows, and bring on the next day of freedom to experience them without a (counterproductive) crutch.
Damn right!
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Well put AJ I have had similar experiences and I keep quit. No numbing no filters no security blankets....I keep going cause I got guys like you in my corner...quit on bro
Right back atcha m'man...
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I was all set to post this brilliant update that made everyone think, "Wow!", that was AWESOME! Yeah... not so much :PÂ
I've been reading through intros the last few days... newbies and not-so-newbies and I've seen a subtle, yet common, thread. It basically boils down to this... "Life has dealt me 'THIS' piece of crap but I'm dealing with it and I'm still QUIT!".
I have found this VERY interesting/sad/confusing/frustrating/perplexing.
What I set out to post was just a gripe about life in general... I have an old friend who has a stomach mass that we're hoping isn't cancer, my wife's gramma died, my recent plumbing re-pipe cost me $11,000, my job keeps having bits and pieces cut... blah, blah, blah. Through this all I'm still QUIT too! With effort but... I'm rock solid. What I've found interesting is that, by and large, we are all having to learn to cope with life without a filter or securilty blanket of a drug (nicotine). I have REALLY wanted to dip this last few weeks! I took a real hard look at myself this weekend and really contemplated what going to the store, buying a can, and filling my face would do for me. Aside from the obvious that it would do NOTHING to solve anything going on in my life I really, truly understood, my addiction to be a thing of avoidance. I want something else to fix everything.
Duh.
Ain't gonna happen.Â
It may hurt a little (or alot) but being fully present without a drug is kind of a rush. Every situation I overcome without nicotine, makes me the person I was made to be. Life sucks sometimes... that's normal! I'm stoked to be dealing with it as a "whole" person. No filters, no security blanket, no crutch. 160 days free. That's pretty damn cool.
See you at 161 my friend. ;)
"being fully present without a drug is kind of a rush."
Mission accomplished. That was awesome.
I've been thinking similar thoughts for a couple months now. I think my nicotine use was partly about numbing the experience of life. Well, why the hell did I want to do that? Bring on the highs and lows, and bring on the next day of freedom to experience them without a (counterproductive) crutch.
Damn right!
Excellent post, AJ, and spot on. I don't understand the whole stress + nicotine = less stress... poisoning yourself doesn't fix your leaky roof, make your job come back, your bills go away, or cure cancer. What made me want to chew (aside from being addicted) more than usual was hunting, fishing, driving, watching movies, etc. Maybe it's just me, but I've always thought that rationalizing nicotine use with stress was a bunch of bullshit.
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Well put AJ I have had similar experiences and I keep quit. No numbing no filters no security blankets....I keep going cause I got guys like you in my corner...quit on bro
Right back atcha m'man...
AJ, your update was perfect. I much like you have had that few seconds where I contemplated "would it makes things better", only I determined that although a few minutes of drug induced mental elevation weren't worth having to sneak around hiding it from my wife and kids, putting a cog into my 70+ days of quit on here, or better yet letting myself down. I promised today and that is all that I care about.
I would quit with you any damn day brother!
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Well put AJ I have had similar experiences and I keep quit. No numbing no filters no security blankets....I keep going cause I got guys like you in my corner...quit on bro
Right back atcha m'man...
AJ, your update was perfect. I much like you have had that few seconds where I contemplated "would it makes things better", only I determined that although a few minutes of drug induced mental elevation weren't worth having to sneak around hiding it from my wife and kids, putting a cog into my 70+ days of quit on here, or better yet letting myself down. I promised today and that is all that I care about.
I would quit with you any damn day brother!
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I think I will stay quit with ya'll today. ;)
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I was all set to post this brilliant update that made everyone think, "Wow!", that was AWESOME! Yeah... not so much :P
I've been reading through intros the last few days... newbies and not-so-newbies and I've seen a subtle, yet common, thread. It basically boils down to this... "Life has dealt me 'THIS' piece of crap but I'm dealing with it and I'm still QUIT!".
I have found this VERY interesting/sad/confusing/frustrating/perplexing.
What I set out to post was just a gripe about life in general... I have an old friend who has a stomach mass that we're hoping isn't cancer, my wife's gramma died, my recent plumbing re-pipe cost me $11,000, my job keeps having bits and pieces cut... blah, blah, blah. Through this all I'm still QUIT too! With effort but... I'm rock solid. What I've found interesting is that, by and large, we are all having to learn to cope with life without a filter or securilty blanket of a drug (nicotine). I have REALLY wanted to dip this last few weeks! I took a real hard look at myself this weekend and really contemplated what going to the store, buying a can, and filling my face would do for me. Aside from the obvious that it would do NOTHING to solve anything going on in my life I really, truly understood, my addiction to be a thing of avoidance. I want something else to fix everything.
Duh.
Ain't gonna happen.
It may hurt a little (or alot) but being fully present without a drug is kind of a rush. Every situation I overcome without nicotine, makes me the person I was made to be. Life sucks sometimes... that's normal! I'm stoked to be dealing with it as a "whole" person. No filters, no security blanket, no crutch. 160 days free. That's pretty damn cool.
Great stuff, Apple. should be required reading IMO. proud to quit with you today, keep on rockin!
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Well put AJ I have had similar experiences and I keep quit. No numbing no filters no security blankets....I keep going cause I got guys like you in my corner...quit on bro
Right back atcha m'man...
AJ, your update was perfect. I much like you have had that few seconds where I contemplated "would it makes things better", only I determined that although a few minutes of drug induced mental elevation weren't worth having to sneak around hiding it from my wife and kids, putting a cog into my 70+ days of quit on here, or better yet letting myself down. I promised today and that is all that I care about.
I would quit with you any damn day brother!
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I think I will stay quit with ya'll today. ;)
Thanks AJ. I was just browsing here a bit today and found your update here. Reading your post was just one of those moments here where you hit on something and say, that's exactly how I've been feeling!
I'll quit with you today!
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6 months ago the phrase "3 week Family Vacation" would have damn near sent me into a panic attack. Where the hell was I gonna stash that much Skoal!? How much should I take!? Can I retrofit some small portion of the Mustang's trunk to be a secret compartment!? (That sounds like a joke... It isn't! Some of you understand). Barring that I would maybe have to do a little research, maybe make a few calls to some mini-marts close by to where we were staying. My. God! The energy expended to feed my addiction. 192 days ago that would have been my focus of our family vacation.
Well... We just got back. Wow.
Miles driven... 2700
Money spent... +/- $6k
Fun had... Immeasurable
Chew hidden/consumed/bought... ZERO!
Here's a few things I learned on this vacation:
1) Central California from, like, Chico down past LA is an armpit. Why the hell do people live there!? I had some people tell me it has its own kinda charm. Nope. You're wrong. And you drive like retards. (My apologies to my brothers and sisters who live there... No offense!)
2) Driving 2700 miles in a 5 speed manual Mustang is fun AND torture.
3) I love my wife and daughter but... Traveling with 2 females and sharing one bathroom most of the time is, um, trying. So glad to be a dude too! I like my low maintenance gender.
4) Trying to keep up with an 11 year old girl on her first trip to Disneyland is like trying to keep up with a crack addict looking for a fix. Get out of the way... Just hand her the money.
5) It's mid October... Why the hell am I sweating!? It's 85 degrees? That ain't right Southern California.
6) Meeting my fellow quitters is fun. JBradley and his awesome family were a joy to run into @Disneyland!
7) Imposing on your KTC family is a must! It builds this brotherhood and it solidifies every aspect of accountability. More than once I had bros post up for me because I was on the road. They jumped at it no questions asked and I never felt like I was imposing. It's how we do things. Hell... Trauma even did it without me asking a few times. He was getting antsy waiting for me to do it so he preempted my request. Thanks to Fleas and Trauma and NoMoreDip for keeping me on track.
8) This is the most profound/exciting one ~ it's possible, at this stage, to go days without even thinking of chew. Read that again. Soak it up. I had stretches of days where, other than posting roll or texting someone to do it for me, it NEVER crossed my mind. That's a beautiful thing boys and girls. It makes the hellish beginning worth every clawed inch forward.
So... Good vacation? Yeah, totally.
Happy to quit with you all!
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6 months ago the phrase "3 week Family Vacation" would have damn near sent me into a panic attack. Where the hell was I gonna stash that much Skoal!? How much should I take!? Can I retrofit some small portion of the Mustang's trunk to be a secret compartment!? (That sounds like a joke... It isn't! Some of you understand). Barring that I would maybe have to do a little research, maybe make a few calls to some mini-marts close by to where we were staying. My. God! The energy expended to feed my addiction. 192 days ago that would have been my focus of our family vacation.
Well... We just got back. Wow.
Miles driven... 2700
Money spent... +/- $6k
Fun had... Immeasurable
Chew hidden/consumed/bought... ZERO!
Here's a few things I learned on this vacation:
1) Central California from, like, Chico down past LA is an armpit. Why the hell do people live there!? I had some people tell me it has its own kinda charm. Nope. You're wrong. And you drive like retards. (My apologies to my brothers and sisters who live there... No offense!)
2) Driving 2700 miles in a 5 speed manual Mustang is fun AND torture.
3) I love my wife and daughter but... Traveling with 2 females and sharing one bathroom most of the time is, um, trying. So glad to be a dude too! I like my low maintenance gender.
4) Trying to keep up with an 11 year old girl on her first trip to Disneyland is like trying to keep up with a crack addict looking for a fix. Get out of the way... Just hand her the money.
5) It's mid October... Why the hell am I sweating!? It's 85 degrees? That ain't right Southern California.
6) Meeting my fellow quitters is fun. JBradley and his awesome family were a joy to run into @Disneyland!
7) Imposing on your KTC family is a must! It builds this brotherhood and it solidifies every aspect of accountability. More than once I had bros post up for me because I was on the road. They jumped at it no questions asked and I never felt like I was imposing. It's how we do things. Hell... Trauma even did it without me asking a few times. He was getting antsy waiting for me to do it so he preempted my request. Thanks to Fleas and Trauma and NoMoreDip for keeping me on track.
8) This is the most profound/exciting one ~ it's possible, at this stage, to go days without even thinking of chew. Read that again. Soak it up. I had stretches of days where, other than posting roll or texting someone to do it for me, it NEVER crossed my mind. That's a beautiful thing boys and girls. It makes the hellish beginning worth every clawed inch forward.
So... Good vacation? Yeah, totally.
Happy to quit with you all!
Great thoughts Apple! I'm glad you survived your vacation with two girls. We are difficult and complicated but generally worth it. :)
Welcome back.
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6 months ago the phrase "3 week Family Vacation" would have damn near sent me into a panic attack. Where the hell was I gonna stash that much Skoal!? How much should I take!? Can I retrofit some small portion of the Mustang's trunk to be a secret compartment!? (That sounds like a joke... It isn't! Some of you understand). Barring that I would maybe have to do a little research, maybe make a few calls to some mini-marts close by to where we were staying. My. God! The energy expended to feed my addiction. 192 days ago that would have been my focus of our family vacation.
Well... We just got back. Wow.
Miles driven... 2700
Money spent... +/- $6k
Fun had... Immeasurable
Chew hidden/consumed/bought... ZERO!
Here's a few things I learned on this vacation:
1) Central California from, like, Chico down past LA is an armpit. Why the hell do people live there!? I had some people tell me it has its own kinda charm. Nope. You're wrong. And you drive like retards. (My apologies to my brothers and sisters who live there... No offense!)
2) Driving 2700 miles in a 5 speed manual Mustang is fun AND torture.
3) I love my wife and daughter but... Traveling with 2 females and sharing one bathroom most of the time is, um, trying. So glad to be a dude too! I like my low maintenance gender.
4) Trying to keep up with an 11 year old girl on her first trip to Disneyland is like trying to keep up with a crack addict looking for a fix. Get out of the way... Just hand her the money.
5) It's mid October... Why the hell am I sweating!? It's 85 degrees? That ain't right Southern California.
6) Meeting my fellow quitters is fun. JBradley and his awesome family were a joy to run into @Disneyland!
7) Imposing on your KTC family is a must! It builds this brotherhood and it solidifies every aspect of accountability. More than once I had bros post up for me because I was on the road. They jumped at it no questions asked and I never felt like I was imposing. It's how we do things. Hell... Trauma even did it without me asking a few times. He was getting antsy waiting for me to do it so he preempted my request. Thanks to Fleas and Trauma and NoMoreDip for keeping me on track.
8) This is the most profound/exciting one ~ it's possible, at this stage, to go days without even thinking of chew. Read that again. Soak it up. I had stretches of days where, other than posting roll or texting someone to do it for me, it NEVER crossed my mind. That's a beautiful thing boys and girls. It makes the hellish beginning worth every clawed inch forward.
So... Good vacation? Yeah, totally.
Happy to quit with you all!
Awesom brotha!! sounds like you had a great time! reminds me of when id go camping or fishing with my wifes family, id hide a whole roll in my tackle box and make up some lame excuse on why i have to fish on the other side of the lake lol. if ive learned anything the last couple days is that the lies ive told trying to uphold and defend my habit are not worth the trust lost with your loved one. I used to think oh its just dip its not a big deal... she will get over it.. but i was wrong. for one thing; women never forget ANYTHING! and secondly they know this shit would eventually kill us and why would they let us kill ourselves slowly with poison?
and yes, I live on the border of cen cal and i can honestly say there aint shit out there haha
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It was awesome to meet you there as well. Wish we could have talked for a little more but when Disney calls we have to take a backseat!
I only had a week out there but I agree 100% that it was amazing not thinking about chewing at all. I got to expend 100% (maybe a little more) of my energy, time, and thoughts with my family.
Proud to quit with you!
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It was awesome to meet you there as well. Wish we could have talked for a little more but when Disney calls we have to take a backseat!
I only had a week out there but I agree 100% that it was amazing not thinking about chewing at all. I got to expend 100% (maybe a little more) of my energy, time, and thoughts with my family.
Proud to quit with you!
Good stuff man! Thanks!
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6 months ago the phrase "3 week Family Vacation" would have damn near sent me into a panic attack. Where the hell was I gonna stash that much Skoal!? How much should I take!? Can I retrofit some small portion of the Mustang's trunk to be a secret compartment!? (That sounds like a joke... It isn't! Some of you understand). Barring that I would maybe have to do a little research, maybe make a few calls to some mini-marts close by to where we were staying. My. God! The energy expended to feed my addiction. 192 days ago that would have been my focus of our family vacation.
Well... We just got back. Wow.
Miles driven... 2700
Money spent... +/- $6k
Fun had... Immeasurable
Chew hidden/consumed/bought... ZERO!
Here's a few things I learned on this vacation:
1) Central California from, like, Chico down past LA is an armpit. Why the hell do people live there!? I had some people tell me it has its own kinda charm. Nope. You're wrong. And you drive like retards. (My apologies to my brothers and sisters who live there... No offense!)
2) Driving 2700 miles in a 5 speed manual Mustang is fun AND torture.
3) I love my wife and daughter but... Traveling with 2 females and sharing one bathroom most of the time is, um, trying. So glad to be a dude too! I like my low maintenance gender.
4) Trying to keep up with an 11 year old girl on her first trip to Disneyland is like trying to keep up with a crack addict looking for a fix. Get out of the way... Just hand her the money.
5) It's mid October... Why the hell am I sweating!? It's 85 degrees? That ain't right Southern California.
6) Meeting my fellow quitters is fun. JBradley and his awesome family were a joy to run into @Disneyland!
7) Imposing on your KTC family is a must! It builds this brotherhood and it solidifies every aspect of accountability. More than once I had bros post up for me because I was on the road. They jumped at it no questions asked and I never felt like I was imposing. It's how we do things. Hell... Trauma even did it without me asking a few times. He was getting antsy waiting for me to do it so he preempted my request. Thanks to Fleas and Trauma and NoMoreDip for keeping me on track.
8) This is the most profound/exciting one ~ it's possible, at this stage, to go days without even thinking of chew. Read that again. Soak it up. I had stretches of days where, other than posting roll or texting someone to do it for me, it NEVER crossed my mind. That's a beautiful thing boys and girls. It makes the hellish beginning worth every clawed inch forward.
So... Good vacation? Yeah, totally.
Happy to quit with you all!
Great thoughts Apple! I'm glad you survived your vacation with two girls. We are difficult and complicated but generally worth it. :)
Welcome back.
Thanks LHG!
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6 months ago the phrase "3 week Family Vacation" would have damn near sent me into a panic attack. Where the hell was I gonna stash that much Skoal!? How much should I take!? Can I retrofit some small portion of the Mustang's trunk to be a secret compartment!? (That sounds like a joke... It isn't! Some of you understand). Barring that I would maybe have to do a little research, maybe make a few calls to some mini-marts close by to where we were staying. My. God! The energy expended to feed my addiction. 192 days ago that would have been my focus of our family vacation.
Well... We just got back. Wow.
Miles driven... 2700
Money spent... +/- $6k
Fun had... Immeasurable
Chew hidden/consumed/bought... ZERO!
Here's a few things I learned on this vacation:
1) Central California from, like, Chico down past LA is an armpit. Why the hell do people live there!? I had some people tell me it has its own kinda charm. Nope. You're wrong. And you drive like retards. (My apologies to my brothers and sisters who live there... No offense!)
2) Driving 2700 miles in a 5 speed manual Mustang is fun AND torture.
3) I love my wife and daughter but... Traveling with 2 females and sharing one bathroom most of the time is, um, trying. So glad to be a dude too! I like my low maintenance gender.
4) Trying to keep up with an 11 year old girl on her first trip to Disneyland is like trying to keep up with a crack addict looking for a fix. Get out of the way... Just hand her the money.
5) It's mid October... Why the hell am I sweating!? It's 85 degrees? That ain't right Southern California.
6) Meeting my fellow quitters is fun. JBradley and his awesome family were a joy to run into @Disneyland!
7) Imposing on your KTC family is a must! It builds this brotherhood and it solidifies every aspect of accountability. More than once I had bros post up for me because I was on the road. They jumped at it no questions asked and I never felt like I was imposing. It's how we do things. Hell... Trauma even did it without me asking a few times. He was getting antsy waiting for me to do it so he preempted my request. Thanks to Fleas and Trauma and NoMoreDip for keeping me on track.
8) This is the most profound/exciting one ~ it's possible, at this stage, to go days without even thinking of chew. Read that again. Soak it up. I had stretches of days where, other than posting roll or texting someone to do it for me, it NEVER crossed my mind. That's a beautiful thing boys and girls. It makes the hellish beginning worth every clawed inch forward.
So... Good vacation? Yeah, totally.
Happy to quit with you all!
Great thoughts Apple! I'm glad you survived your vacation with two girls. We are difficult and complicated but generally worth it. :)
Welcome back.
Thanks LHG!
My brotha! Glad to see you're back!!
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6 months ago the phrase "3 week Family Vacation" would have damn near sent me into a panic attack. Where the hell was I gonna stash that much Skoal!? How much should I take!? Can I retrofit some small portion of the Mustang's trunk to be a secret compartment!? (That sounds like a joke... It isn't! Some of you understand). Barring that I would maybe have to do a little research, maybe make a few calls to some mini-marts close by to where we were staying. My. God! The energy expended to feed my addiction. 192 days ago that would have been my focus of our family vacation.
Well... We just got back. Wow.
Miles driven... 2700
Money spent... +/- $6k
Fun had... Immeasurable
Chew hidden/consumed/bought... ZERO!
Here's a few things I learned on this vacation:
1) Central California from, like, Chico down past LA is an armpit. Why the hell do people live there!? I had some people tell me it has its own kinda charm. Nope. You're wrong. And you drive like retards. (My apologies to my brothers and sisters who live there... No offense!)
2) Driving 2700 miles in a 5 speed manual Mustang is fun AND torture.
3) I love my wife and daughter but... Traveling with 2 females and sharing one bathroom most of the time is, um, trying. So glad to be a dude too! I like my low maintenance gender.
4) Trying to keep up with an 11 year old girl on her first trip to Disneyland is like trying to keep up with a crack addict looking for a fix. Get out of the way... Just hand her the money.
5) It's mid October... Why the hell am I sweating!? It's 85 degrees? That ain't right Southern California.
6) Meeting my fellow quitters is fun. JBradley and his awesome family were a joy to run into @Disneyland!
7) Imposing on your KTC family is a must! It builds this brotherhood and it solidifies every aspect of accountability. More than once I had bros post up for me because I was on the road. They jumped at it no questions asked and I never felt like I was imposing. It's how we do things. Hell... Trauma even did it without me asking a few times. He was getting antsy waiting for me to do it so he preempted my request. Thanks to Fleas and Trauma and NoMoreDip for keeping me on track.
8) This is the most profound/exciting one ~ it's possible, at this stage, to go days without even thinking of chew. Read that again. Soak it up. I had stretches of days where, other than posting roll or texting someone to do it for me, it NEVER crossed my mind. That's a beautiful thing boys and girls. It makes the hellish beginning worth every clawed inch forward.
So... Good vacation? Yeah, totally.
Happy to quit with you all!
Great thoughts Apple! I'm glad you survived your vacation with two girls. We are difficult and complicated but generally worth it. :)
Welcome back.
Thanks LHG!
My brotha! Glad to see you're back!!
Hey not all SoCal is an armpit but you have to get out of the city. The coastal towns are nice but the mountains are much better. yes the roads SUCK but you learn a lot. We love our warm weather. While others are freezing we are comfortable. We get cold down here when the temp goes below 60. I love road trips brother. Gonna spend my anniversary up there in crazyland here in a few weeks. Fortunately my children are all grown up, so if they come they have to pay their way and not be a pain in my ass. I totally understand what you are talking about when it came to the stashing of snuff for road trips. I can tell you almost every good stop from SD to Yosemite to get snuff and how to hide it. This up coming vacation will be something to look forward too.
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200 days bro strong work!
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Day 50
This will be wordy. Sorry...
I realize I never posted a proper intro. Not really. Aside from a few delarations of resolve and other generic tidbits, I posted nothing about ME. I was reluctant to and now, 50 days later, I think I know why. Ninja mentality.
Sadly, the biggest part of my life was dip and for 25 years I hid it and lied about it. You can't do something (lie) for that long and not have it infect your personality. The end result is never opening up or letting people close because you have a dirty little secret that needs hid. Retarded right!? Addict rationalization 101. Part II of said retardation?... I don't like ME. The "real" me can see all of the above for what it is and loathes it. I... don't like... ME. Quitting created a bizzare situation. I stopped doing what I hated about myself so I had no more reason to dislike myself (well, there ARE other reasons but that's another post). BUT... too many years hiding my secret made it too strong. I actually have to learn to be ME... without the seret dictating the shots. Whoa.
I'm 42. I'm a professional muscian. Because that doesn't always pay alot (music... not as glam/lucrative as you think!) I also work for the school district where I live. Married 18 years to a woman who should have beat my ass blue years ago for lying/hiding stuff/ruining my health/wasting our families money/etc. She's awesome - I owe her. I'm dad to an 11 yr old daughter. She's my heart. I've been an active music minister for 10 years. I don't really like to cuss a whole lot other than fairly standard fare like helldamnshit. However... a beautifully placed F bomb is very satisfying. I am a dipper of 25 years and (call me out for this next statement, I don't care) I fucking loved it and... I fucking hated it. You will understand the duality of that statement. I suffer from anxiety/panic attacks too. Yaaay. This was mostly under control until I quit then... my good friends anxiety and panic perked up - the nic bitch woke 'em up because she had to leave the building. My quit has not seen a smooth moment yet. I fight every damn day. Hard... Every. Damn. Day. I don't feel better yet. I know my health is better... my doc and dentist assure me of that. Cool.
These last 50 days have been the hardest, yet most rewarding thing I have ever done. Cold turkey - no substitutes. Quit.
I did that... for ME.
Bump...you are a long way from here bro
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200 days brudda!! Congrats! Enjoy the heck out of today. Quittin with you all day long!
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200 days brudda!! Congrats! Enjoy the heck out of today. Quittin with you all day long!
Great work aj.. :)
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Day 50
This will be wordy. Sorry...
I realize I never posted a proper intro. Not really. Aside from a few delarations of resolve and other generic tidbits, I posted nothing about ME. I was reluctant to and now, 50 days later, I think I know why. Ninja mentality.
Sadly, the biggest part of my life was dip and for 25 years I hid it and lied about it. You can't do something (lie) for that long and not have it infect your personality. The end result is never opening up or letting people close because you have a dirty little secret that needs hid. Retarded right!? Addict rationalization 101. Part II of said retardation?... I don't like ME. The "real" me can see all of the above for what it is and loathes it. I... don't like... ME. Quitting created a bizzare situation. I stopped doing what I hated about myself so I had no more reason to dislike myself (well, there ARE other reasons but that's another post). BUT... too many years hiding my secret made it too strong. I actually have to learn to be ME... without the seret dictating the shots. Whoa.
I'm 42. I'm a professional muscian. Because that doesn't always pay alot (music... not as glam/lucrative as you think!) I also work for the school district where I live. Married 18 years to a woman who should have beat my ass blue years ago for lying/hiding stuff/ruining my health/wasting our families money/etc. She's awesome - I owe her. I'm dad to an 11 yr old daughter. She's my heart. I've been an active music minister for 10 years. I don't really like to cuss a whole lot other than fairly standard fare like helldamnshit. However... a beautifully placed F bomb is very satisfying. I am a dipper of 25 years and (call me out for this next statement, I don't care) I fucking loved it and... I fucking hated it. You will understand the duality of that statement. I suffer from anxiety/panic attacks too. Yaaay. This was mostly under control until I quit then... my good friends anxiety and panic perked up - the nic bitch woke 'em up because she had to leave the building. My quit has not seen a smooth moment yet. I fight every damn day. Hard... Every. Damn. Day. I don't feel better yet. I know my health is better... my doc and dentist assure me of that. Cool.
These last 50 days have been the hardest, yet most rewarding thing I have ever done. Cold turkey - no substitutes. Quit.
I did that... for ME.
Bump...you are a long way from here bro
A long way. Congratulations on another big milestone. The days keep getting better from here. You've been a great inspiration to many of this site. Doesn't it feel great to no longer hide and feel guilty? To just be you, and enjoy the sense of freedom? Well done.
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Day 50
This will be wordy. Sorry...
I realize I never posted a proper intro. Not really. Aside from a few delarations of resolve and other generic tidbits, I posted nothing about ME. I was reluctant to and now, 50 days later, I think I know why. Ninja mentality.
Sadly, the biggest part of my life was dip and for 25 years I hid it and lied about it. You can't do something (lie) for that long and not have it infect your personality. The end result is never opening up or letting people close because you have a dirty little secret that needs hid. Retarded right!? Addict rationalization 101. Part II of said retardation?... I don't like ME. The "real" me can see all of the above for what it is and loathes it. I... don't like... ME. Quitting created a bizzare situation. I stopped doing what I hated about myself so I had no more reason to dislike myself (well, there ARE other reasons but that's another post). BUT... too many years hiding my secret made it too strong. I actually have to learn to be ME... without the seret dictating the shots. Whoa.
I'm 42. I'm a professional muscian. Because that doesn't always pay alot (music... not as glam/lucrative as you think!) I also work for the school district where I live. Married 18 years to a woman who should have beat my ass blue years ago for lying/hiding stuff/ruining my health/wasting our families money/etc. She's awesome - I owe her. I'm dad to an 11 yr old daughter. She's my heart. I've been an active music minister for 10 years. I don't really like to cuss a whole lot other than fairly standard fare like helldamnshit. However... a beautifully placed F bomb is very satisfying. I am a dipper of 25 years and (call me out for this next statement, I don't care) I fucking loved it and... I fucking hated it. You will understand the duality of that statement. I suffer from anxiety/panic attacks too. Yaaay. This was mostly under control until I quit then... my good friends anxiety and panic perked up - the nic bitch woke 'em up because she had to leave the building. My quit has not seen a smooth moment yet. I fight every damn day. Hard... Every. Damn. Day. I don't feel better yet. I know my health is better... my doc and dentist assure me of that. Cool.
These last 50 days have been the hardest, yet most rewarding thing I have ever done. Cold turkey - no substitutes. Quit.
I did that... for ME.
Bump...you are a long way from here bro
A long way. Congratulations on another big milestone. The days keep getting better from here. You've been a great inspiration to many of this site. Doesn't it feel great to no longer hide and feel guilty? To just be you, and enjoy the sense of freedom? Well done.
Way to go A.J.! 200 second floor! I quit with you.
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Day 50
This will be wordy. Sorry...
I realize I never posted a proper intro. Not really. Aside from a few delarations of resolve and other generic tidbits, I posted nothing about ME. I was reluctant to and now, 50 days later, I think I know why. Ninja mentality.
Sadly, the biggest part of my life was dip and for 25 years I hid it and lied about it. You can't do something (lie) for that long and not have it infect your personality. The end result is never opening up or letting people close because you have a dirty little secret that needs hid. Retarded right!? Addict rationalization 101. Part II of said retardation?... I don't like ME. The "real" me can see all of the above for what it is and loathes it. I... don't like... ME. Quitting created a bizzare situation. I stopped doing what I hated about myself so I had no more reason to dislike myself (well, there ARE other reasons but that's another post). BUT... too many years hiding my secret made it too strong. I actually have to learn to be ME... without the seret dictating the shots. Whoa.
I'm 42. I'm a professional muscian. Because that doesn't always pay alot (music... not as glam/lucrative as you think!) I also work for the school district where I live. Married 18 years to a woman who should have beat my ass blue years ago for lying/hiding stuff/ruining my health/wasting our families money/etc. She's awesome - I owe her. I'm dad to an 11 yr old daughter. She's my heart. I've been an active music minister for 10 years. I don't really like to cuss a whole lot other than fairly standard fare like helldamnshit. However... a beautifully placed F bomb is very satisfying. I am a dipper of 25 years and (call me out for this next statement, I don't care) I fucking loved it and... I fucking hated it. You will understand the duality of that statement. I suffer from anxiety/panic attacks too. Yaaay. This was mostly under control until I quit then... my good friends anxiety and panic perked up - the nic bitch woke 'em up because she had to leave the building. My quit has not seen a smooth moment yet. I fight every damn day. Hard... Every. Damn. Day. I don't feel better yet. I know my health is better... my doc and dentist assure me of that. Cool.
These last 50 days have been the hardest, yet most rewarding thing I have ever done. Cold turkey - no substitutes. Quit.
I did that... for ME.
Bump...you are a long way from here bro
A long way. Congratulations on another big milestone. The days keep getting better from here. You've been a great inspiration to many of this site. Doesn't it feel great to no longer hide and feel guilty? To just be you, and enjoy the sense of freedom? Well done.
Way to go A.J.! 200 second floor! I quit with you.
Thanks guys! Everyone of you out there in KTC land help me. Doesn't matter if we've communicated or not... The stories, the struggles, the ups, the downs, the victories... The caves. Every bit of it helps keep me on track.
I can barely stand to read that day 50 post. Ugh.
It's so full of desperation, uncertainty, self loathing, fear... You name it.
That wasn't me. That isn't me. That was still the loss of nicotine speaking.
200 days today. Free. THIS... Is me! Rock on y'all.
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Day 50
This will be wordy. Sorry...
I realize I never posted a proper intro. Not really. Aside from a few delarations of resolve and other generic tidbits, I posted nothing about ME. I was reluctant to and now, 50 days later, I think I know why. Ninja mentality.
Sadly, the biggest part of my life was dip and for 25 years I hid it and lied about it. You can't do something (lie) for that long and not have it infect your personality. The end result is never opening up or letting people close because you have a dirty little secret that needs hid. Retarded right!? Addict rationalization 101. Part II of said retardation?... I don't like ME. The "real" me can see all of the above for what it is and loathes it. I... don't like... ME. Quitting created a bizzare situation. I stopped doing what I hated about myself so I had no more reason to dislike myself (well, there ARE other reasons but that's another post). BUT... too many years hiding my secret made it too strong. I actually have to learn to be ME... without the seret dictating the shots. Whoa.
I'm 42. I'm a professional muscian. Because that doesn't always pay alot (music... not as glam/lucrative as you think!) I also work for the school district where I live. Married 18 years to a woman who should have beat my ass blue years ago for lying/hiding stuff/ruining my health/wasting our families money/etc. She's awesome - I owe her. I'm dad to an 11 yr old daughter. She's my heart. I've been an active music minister for 10 years. I don't really like to cuss a whole lot other than fairly standard fare like helldamnshit. However... a beautifully placed F bomb is very satisfying. I am a dipper of 25 years and (call me out for this next statement, I don't care) I fucking loved it and... I fucking hated it. You will understand the duality of that statement. I suffer from anxiety/panic attacks too. Yaaay. This was mostly under control until I quit then... my good friends anxiety and panic perked up - the nic bitch woke 'em up because she had to leave the building. My quit has not seen a smooth moment yet. I fight every damn day. Hard... Every. Damn. Day. I don't feel better yet. I know my health is better... my doc and dentist assure me of that. Cool.
These last 50 days have been the hardest, yet most rewarding thing I have ever done. Cold turkey - no substitutes. Quit.
I did that... for ME.
Bump...you are a long way from here bro
A long way. Congratulations on another big milestone. The days keep getting better from here. You've been a great inspiration to many of this site. Doesn't it feel great to no longer hide and feel guilty? To just be you, and enjoy the sense of freedom? Well done.
Way to go A.J.! 200 second floor! I quit with you.
Thanks guys! Everyone of you out there in KTC land help me. Doesn't matter if we've communicated or not... The stories, the struggles, the ups, the downs, the victories... The caves. Every bit of it helps keep me on track.
I can barely stand to read that day 50 post. Ugh.
It's so full of desperation, uncertainty, self loathing, fear... You name it.
That wasn't me. That isn't me. That was still the loss of nicotine speaking.
200 days today. Free. THIS... Is me! Rock on y'all.
Never had a doubt that I would be congratulating you on 200 days of freedom! Keep kicking ass Shane!
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Day 50
This will be wordy. Sorry...
I realize I never posted a proper intro. Not really. Aside from a few delarations of resolve and other generic tidbits, I posted nothing about ME. I was reluctant to and now, 50 days later, I think I know why. Ninja mentality.
Sadly, the biggest part of my life was dip and for 25 years I hid it and lied about it. You can't do something (lie) for that long and not have it infect your personality. The end result is never opening up or letting people close because you have a dirty little secret that needs hid. Retarded right!? Addict rationalization 101. Part II of said retardation?... I don't like ME. The "real" me can see all of the above for what it is and loathes it. I... don't like... ME. Quitting created a bizzare situation. I stopped doing what I hated about myself so I had no more reason to dislike myself (well, there ARE other reasons but that's another post). BUT... too many years hiding my secret made it too strong. I actually have to learn to be ME... without the seret dictating the shots. Whoa.
I'm 42. I'm a professional muscian. Because that doesn't always pay alot (music... not as glam/lucrative as you think!) I also work for the school district where I live. Married 18 years to a woman who should have beat my ass blue years ago for lying/hiding stuff/ruining my health/wasting our families money/etc. She's awesome - I owe her. I'm dad to an 11 yr old daughter. She's my heart. I've been an active music minister for 10 years. I don't really like to cuss a whole lot other than fairly standard fare like helldamnshit. However... a beautifully placed F bomb is very satisfying. I am a dipper of 25 years and (call me out for this next statement, I don't care) I fucking loved it and... I fucking hated it. You will understand the duality of that statement. I suffer from anxiety/panic attacks too. Yaaay. This was mostly under control until I quit then... my good friends anxiety and panic perked up - the nic bitch woke 'em up because she had to leave the building. My quit has not seen a smooth moment yet. I fight every damn day. Hard... Every. Damn. Day. I don't feel better yet. I know my health is better... my doc and dentist assure me of that. Cool.
These last 50 days have been the hardest, yet most rewarding thing I have ever done. Cold turkey - no substitutes. Quit.
I did that... for ME.
Bump...you are a long way from here bro
A long way. Congratulations on another big milestone. The days keep getting better from here. You've been a great inspiration to many of this site. Doesn't it feel great to no longer hide and feel guilty? To just be you, and enjoy the sense of freedom? Well done.
Way to go A.J.! 200 second floor! I quit with you.
Thanks guys! Everyone of you out there in KTC land help me. Doesn't matter if we've communicated or not... The stories, the struggles, the ups, the downs, the victories... The caves. Every bit of it helps keep me on track.
I can barely stand to read that day 50 post. Ugh.
It's so full of desperation, uncertainty, self loathing, fear... You name it.
That wasn't me. That isn't me. That was still the loss of nicotine speaking.
200 days today. Free. THIS... Is me! Rock on y'all.
Never had a doubt that I would be congratulating you on 200 days of freedom! Keep kicking ass Shane!
Shane you have been a huge inspiration to me; keep on quitting and helping make newbies veterans one day at a time.
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There's a badass ol' Stealers Wheel tune I dig. A partial lyric reads, "clowns to the left of me, jokers to the right, here I am, stuck in the middle with you".
Reading the site today the lyric could be, "Liars to the left of me, cavers to the right..."
These cats let themselves get too far from home. Far too left. Far too right. Dangerous ground in all respects. You need to be here in the middle. The middle is solid ground and there are some mighty strong people to help you out. Better yet... Willing to help you out. We do things for a reason... It works. Freedom has a price and the KTC way is it. It's hardcore but that's what makes it sweet. When you're fighting for your life against an addiction... Stuck in the middle is where you wanna be. The rest of us are here too...
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There's a badass ol' Stealers Wheel tune I dig. A partial lyric reads, "clowns to the left of me, jokers to the right, here I am, stuck in the middle with you".
Reading the site today the lyric could be, "Liars to the left of me, cavers to the right..."
These cats let themselves get too far from home. Far too left. Far too right. Dangerous ground in all respects. You need to be here in the middle. The middle is solid ground and there are some mighty strong people to help you out. Better yet... Willing to help you out. We do things for a reason... It works. Freedom has a price and the KTC way is it. It's hardcore but that's what makes it sweet. When you're fighting for your life against an addiction... Stuck in the middle is where you wanna be. The rest of us are here too...
Sadly? Too many of them are too worried about their little feelings getting hurt around here. They're not serious about their quit. They're playing with it....
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There's a badass ol' Stealers Wheel tune I dig. A partial lyric reads, "clowns to the left of me, jokers to the right, here I am, stuck in the middle with you".
Reading the site today the lyric could be, "Liars to the left of me, cavers to the right..."
These cats let themselves get too far from home. Far too left. Far too right. Dangerous ground in all respects. You need to be here in the middle. The middle is solid ground and there are some mighty strong people to help you out. Better yet... Willing to help you out. We do things for a reason... It works. Freedom has a price and the KTC way is it. It's hardcore but that's what makes it sweet. When you're fighting for your life against an addiction... Stuck in the middle is where you wanna be. The rest of us are here too...
Sadly? Too many of them are too worried about their little feelings getting hurt around here. They're not serious about their quit. They're playing with it....
we stick together - lions and hyena prey on the game that stray from the heard - the survivors hang out in the middle of the heard - that's where I want to be. Jbob
The message folks is simple folks keep in the middle we are here because all other methods have failed too harsh then like Phil said you are playing with your quit.
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There's a badass ol' Stealers Wheel tune I dig. A partial lyric reads, "clowns to the left of me, jokers to the right, here I am, stuck in the middle with you".
Reading the site today the lyric could be, "Liars to the left of me, cavers to the right..."
These cats let themselves get too far from home. Far too left. Far too right. Dangerous ground in all respects. You need to be here in the middle. The middle is solid ground and there are some mighty strong people to help you out. Better yet... Willing to help you out. We do things for a reason... It works. Freedom has a price and the KTC way is it. It's hardcore but that's what makes it sweet. When you're fighting for your life against an addiction... Stuck in the middle is where you wanna be. The rest of us are here too...
Sadly? Too many of them are too worried about their little feelings getting hurt around here. They're not serious about their quit. They're playing with it....
we stick together - lions and hyena prey on the game that stray from the heard - the survivors hang out in the middle of the heard - that's where I want to be. Jbob
The message folks is simple folks keep in the middle we are here because all other methods have failed too harsh then like Phil said you are playing with your quit.
Thank god the USMC was kind enough to extract my feelings. I have just one and it doesn't care for drama.
FUCK'EM IF THEY CAN'T TAKE A JOKE!!!
FUCK'EM IF THEY CAN'T TAKE THEIR QUIT SERIOUSLY!!!
FUCK'EM IF THEY CAN'T HANDLE THE TRUTH!!!
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There's a badass ol' Stealers Wheel tune I dig. A partial lyric reads, "clowns to the left of me, jokers to the right, here I am, stuck in the middle with you".
Reading the site today the lyric could be, "Liars to the left of me, cavers to the right..."
These cats let themselves get too far from home. Far too left. Far too right. Dangerous ground in all respects. You need to be here in the middle. The middle is solid ground and there are some mighty strong people to help you out. Better yet... Willing to help you out. We do things for a reason... It works. Freedom has a price and the KTC way is it. It's hardcore but that's what makes it sweet. When you're fighting for your life against an addiction... Stuck in the middle is where you wanna be. The rest of us are here too...
Sadly? Too many of them are too worried about their little feelings getting hurt around here. They're not serious about their quit. They're playing with it....
we stick together - lions and hyena prey on the game that stray from the heard - the survivors hang out in the middle of the heard - that's where I want to be. Jbob
The message folks is simple folks keep in the middle we are here because all other methods have failed too harsh then like Phil said you are playing with your quit.
Thank god the USMC was kind enough to extract my feelings. I have just one and it doesn't care for drama.
FUCK'EM IF THEY CAN'T TAKE A JOKE!!!
FUCK'EM IF THEY CAN'T TAKE THEIR QUIT SERIOUSLY!!!
FUCK'EM IF THEY CAN'T HANDLE THE TRUTH!!!
All the way... It's the only way!
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There's a badass ol' Stealers Wheel tune I dig. A partial lyric reads, "clowns to the left of me, jokers to the right, here I am, stuck in the middle with you".
Reading the site today the lyric could be, "Liars to the left of me, cavers to the right..."
These cats let themselves get too far from home. Far too left. Far too right. Dangerous ground in all respects. You need to be here in the middle. The middle is solid ground and there are some mighty strong people to help you out. Better yet... Willing to help you out. We do things for a reason... It works. Freedom has a price and the KTC way is it. It's hardcore but that's what makes it sweet. When you're fighting for your life against an addiction... Stuck in the middle is where you wanna be. The rest of us are here too...
Sadly? Too many of them are too worried about their little feelings getting hurt around here. They're not serious about their quit. They're playing with it....
we stick together - lions and hyena prey on the game that stray from the heard - the survivors hang out in the middle of the heard - that's where I want to be. Jbob
The message folks is simple folks keep in the middle we are here because all other methods have failed too harsh then like Phil said you are playing with your quit.
Thank god the USMC was kind enough to extract my feelings. I have just one and it doesn't care for drama.
FUCK'EM IF THEY CAN'T TAKE A JOKE!!!
FUCK'EM IF THEY CAN'T TAKE THEIR QUIT SERIOUSLY!!!
FUCK'EM IF THEY CAN'T HANDLE THE TRUTH!!!
All the way... It's the only way!
Wow some deep quit knowledge dropped in here. I agree with all said. 100% all the way. Quit quit quit quit. I want to be quit. I want to use KYC exactly the way it was meant, many others before me have proven it a success. Close all doors, use KTC letter by letter, for not to, is to leave open doors!!!!
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200 days brudda!! Congrats! Enjoy the heck out of today. Quittin with you all day long!
Dude, I missed you two hundy...congrats!!!!!!
Like I have always said..."A" is for Apple...."J' is Jack.....
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Day 241
Started a new band project! This is something I've been moving toward for more than a year. Getting it thought out, recruiting the right guys, covering all angles, revising schedules, studio time, rehearsal space, writing time, blah, blah, blah. We had our first meeting last night and I'm giddy like it's Christmas eve! This is the first time in years where my music work will be... my work. Not a commercial project, not a hired gun... my/our stuff. Merry Freakin' Christmas to me!
So, this first get together is to hash out logistics. How will we go about the process, what do we want to move toward, etc. My house/home studio is the logical choice to meet. The guys start arriving and I'm just stoked! I've played music with most of these guys for close to 10 years and a few of them are VERY good friends... more like family really. As some of us are standing at the door my bass player arrives. I'll call him Joe. We greet, I hand out beers, and I chat him up for a bit.
Um... something is off.
I'm looking at him and wondering what the hell it is and then it hits me like a truck. He's got a dip in!! WTF!? This man who I've known for years, spent hour upon hour with, been to his house, rode in his car... has a dip in! Now, granted, in that room I was the only one who noticed because of my own ninja credentials. He had in what I called the "polite party dip". Enough to feed the need but hidden enough in the pocket so as not to be seen. I saw it. How did I not know? How on earth did I NOT KNOW!? It literally blew my mind. I thought I was the good ninja... Joe kicked my ass! Anyway, the night goes off without a hitch. The meeting is full of energy and everyone is looking forward to this project. However, at the back of my mind, all night, I'm still in a state of "wtf!?". I'm at work this morning and it's still buggin' me and I'm not sure why. Not like I'm unfamiliar with people who dip! I gotta admit I had flashes of jealousy. Wishing it was still me a little bit. Stupid addict brain sigh Anyway... as I'm thinking about it, it slowly begins to dawn on me that I'm actually thinking a little bit less of my friend Joe. How could he!? What a sneak! What a liar! What a slave! What a... oh... yeah. That was me. For 25 years.
I was pretty ashamed of myself. But for God's grace and KTC that would have been me last night. Easily. I'm glad to have caught a glimpse of that "old me" again. This new me is MUCH better off.
Throughout this project it will be my goal to, as gently as possible, eduacte him. Point him towards this awesome brotherhood. Show him what real freedom is.
Rock on...
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Day 241
Started a new band project! This is something I've been moving toward for more than a year. Getting it thought out, recruiting the right guys, covering all angles, revising schedules, studio time, rehearsal space, writing time, blah, blah, blah. We had our first meeting last night and I'm giddy like it's Christmas eve! This is the first time in years where my music work will be... my work. Not a commercial project, not a hired gun... my/our stuff. Merry Freakin' Christmas to me!
So, this first get together is to hash out logistics. How will we go about the process, what do we want to move toward, etc. My house/home studio is the logical choice to meet. The guys start arriving and I'm just stoked! I've played music with most of these guys for close to 10 years and a few of them are VERY good friends... more like family really. As some of us are standing at the door my bass player arrives. I'll call him Joe. We greet, I hand out beers, and I chat him up for a bit.
Um... something is off.
I'm looking at him and wondering what the hell it is and then it hits me like a truck. He's got a dip in!! WTF!? This man who I've known for years, spent hour upon hour with, been to his house, rode in his car... has a dip in! Now, granted, in that room I was the only one who noticed because of my own ninja credentials. He had in what I called the "polite party dip". Enough to feed the need but hidden enough in the pocket so as not to be seen. I saw it. How did I not know? How on earth did I NOT KNOW!? It literally blew my mind. I thought I was the good ninja... Joe kicked my ass! Anyway, the night goes off without a hitch. The meeting is full of energy and everyone is looking forward to this project. However, at the back of my mind, all night, I'm still in a state of "wtf!?". I'm at work this morning and it's still buggin' me and I'm not sure why. Not like I'm unfamiliar with people who dip! I gotta admit I had flashes of jealousy. Wishing it was still me a little bit. Stupid addict brain sigh Anyway... as I'm thinking about it, it slowly begins to dawn on me that I'm actually thinking a little bit less of my friend Joe. How could he!? What a sneak! What a liar! What a slave! What a... oh... yeah. That was me. For 25 years.
I was pretty ashamed of myself. But for God's grace and KTC that would have been me last night. Easily. I'm glad to have caught a glimpse of that "old me" again. This new me is MUCH better off.
Throughout this project it will be my goal to, as gently as possible, eduacte him. Point him towards this awesome brotherhood. Show him what real freedom is.
Rock on...
Wow! What a revelation for you brother! I can understand how that is burning in your mind. Ultimately you see yourself and you wish you could just shake and wake him up. It's hard to see someone you care about live as a slave. And the news of him being a slave is likely just as discerning. Anyway that's not you anymore and hopefully he comes to the light, but you my friend are in the light!
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Day 241
Started a new band project! This is something I've been moving toward for more than a year. Getting it thought out, recruiting the right guys, covering all angles, revising schedules, studio time, rehearsal space, writing time, blah, blah, blah. We had our first meeting last night and I'm giddy like it's Christmas eve! This is the first time in years where my music work will be... my work. Not a commercial project, not a hired gun... my/our stuff. Merry Freakin' Christmas to me!
So, this first get together is to hash out logistics. How will we go about the process, what do we want to move toward, etc. My house/home studio is the logical choice to meet. The guys start arriving and I'm just stoked! I've played music with most of these guys for close to 10 years and a few of them are VERY good friends... more like family really. As some of us are standing at the door my bass player arrives. I'll call him Joe. We greet, I hand out beers, and I chat him up for a bit.
Um... something is off.
I'm looking at him and wondering what the hell it is and then it hits me like a truck. He's got a dip in!! WTF!? This man who I've known for years, spent hour upon hour with, been to his house, rode in his car... has a dip in! Now, granted, in that room I was the only one who noticed because of my own ninja credentials. He had in what I called the "polite party dip". Enough to feed the need but hidden enough in the pocket so as not to be seen. I saw it. How did I not know? How on earth did I NOT KNOW!? It literally blew my mind. I thought I was the good ninja... Joe kicked my ass! Anyway, the night goes off without a hitch. The meeting is full of energy and everyone is looking forward to this project. However, at the back of my mind, all night, I'm still in a state of "wtf!?". I'm at work this morning and it's still buggin' me and I'm not sure why. Not like I'm unfamiliar with people who dip! I gotta admit I had flashes of jealousy. Wishing it was still me a little bit. Stupid addict brain sigh Anyway... as I'm thinking about it, it slowly begins to dawn on me that I'm actually thinking a little bit less of my friend Joe. How could he!? What a sneak! What a liar! What a slave! What a... oh... yeah. That was me. For 25 years.
I was pretty ashamed of myself. But for God's grace and KTC that would have been me last night. Easily. I'm glad to have caught a glimpse of that "old me" again. This new me is MUCH better off.
Throughout this project it will be my goal to, as gently as possible, eduacte him. Point him towards this awesome brotherhood. Show him what real freedom is.
Rock on...
Wow! What a revelation for you brother! I can understand how that is burning in your mind. Ultimately you see yourself and you wish you could just shake and wake him up. It's hard to see someone you care about live as a slave. And the news of him being a slave is likely just as discerning. Anyway that's not you anymore and hopefully he comes to the light, but you my friend are in the light!
Good job Apple. As you know, quitting is a personal decision. Maybe he isn't ready; maybe he is ready but scared (hence the polite ninja dip). Don't let his decision to slowly kill himself cause you to look at him with anger, just pitty.
He's still a friend. Have you thought about pulling him aside and saying, "Dude, I never knew you dipped. I bet you never knew that I dipped. But I quit 241 days ago. Do you want to quit?"
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Day 241
Started a new band project! This is something I've been moving toward for more than a year. Getting it thought out, recruiting the right guys, covering all angles, revising schedules, studio time, rehearsal space, writing time, blah, blah, blah. We had our first meeting last night and I'm giddy like it's Christmas eve! This is the first time in years where my music work will be... my work. Not a commercial project, not a hired gun... my/our stuff. Merry Freakin' Christmas to me!
So, this first get together is to hash out logistics. How will we go about the process, what do we want to move toward, etc. My house/home studio is the logical choice to meet. The guys start arriving and I'm just stoked! I've played music with most of these guys for close to 10 years and a few of them are VERY good friends... more like family really. As some of us are standing at the door my bass player arrives. I'll call him Joe. We greet, I hand out beers, and I chat him up for a bit.
Um... something is off.
I'm looking at him and wondering what the hell it is and then it hits me like a truck. He's got a dip in!! WTF!? This man who I've known for years, spent hour upon hour with, been to his house, rode in his car... has a dip in! Now, granted, in that room I was the only one who noticed because of my own ninja credentials. He had in what I called the "polite party dip". Enough to feed the need but hidden enough in the pocket so as not to be seen. I saw it. How did I not know? How on earth did I NOT KNOW!? It literally blew my mind. I thought I was the good ninja... Joe kicked my ass! Anyway, the night goes off without a hitch. The meeting is full of energy and everyone is looking forward to this project. However, at the back of my mind, all night, I'm still in a state of "wtf!?". I'm at work this morning and it's still buggin' me and I'm not sure why. Not like I'm unfamiliar with people who dip! I gotta admit I had flashes of jealousy. Wishing it was still me a little bit. Stupid addict brain sigh Anyway... as I'm thinking about it, it slowly begins to dawn on me that I'm actually thinking a little bit less of my friend Joe. How could he!? What a sneak! What a liar! What a slave! What a... oh... yeah. That was me. For 25 years.
I was pretty ashamed of myself. But for God's grace and KTC that would have been me last night. Easily. I'm glad to have caught a glimpse of that "old me" again. This new me is MUCH better off.
Throughout this project it will be my goal to, as gently as possible, eduacte him. Point him towards this awesome brotherhood. Show him what real freedom is.
Rock on...
Wow! What a revelation for you brother! I can understand how that is burning in your mind. Ultimately you see yourself and you wish you could just shake and wake him up. It's hard to see someone you care about live as a slave. And the news of him being a slave is likely just as discerning. Anyway that's not you anymore and hopefully he comes to the light, but you my friend are in the light!
Good job Apple. As you know, quitting is a personal decision. Maybe he isn't ready; maybe he is ready but scared (hence the polite ninja dip). Don't let his decision to slowly kill himself cause you to look at him with anger, just pitty.
He's still a friend. Have you thought about pulling him aside and saying, "Dude, I never knew you dipped. I bet you never knew that I dipped. But I quit 241 days ago. Do you want to quit?"
Evil is striking a chord. I have a lady that works for me whose husband dips. A lot. And she was telling me this week about his high bp, acid reflux, anxiety, cancer scares...
No one knows I did this. With the exception of my wife. But I'm beginning to think... My life is do much better, I owe it to her to say something. Not there yet, but getting closer.
AJ - think about it. You've sure helped a lot on here and I'm sure feel satisfaction from that. No need to push, but Evils suggestion seems perfect. I may follow the advice myself....
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Day 241
Started a new band project! This is something I've been moving toward for more than a year. Getting it thought out, recruiting the right guys, covering all angles, revising schedules, studio time, rehearsal space, writing time, blah, blah, blah. We had our first meeting last night and I'm giddy like it's Christmas eve! This is the first time in years where my music work will be... my work. Not a commercial project, not a hired gun... my/our stuff. Merry Freakin' Christmas to me!
So, this first get together is to hash out logistics. How will we go about the process, what do we want to move toward, etc. My house/home studio is the logical choice to meet. The guys start arriving and I'm just stoked! I've played music with most of these guys for close to 10 years and a few of them are VERY good friends... more like family really. As some of us are standing at the door my bass player arrives. I'll call him Joe. We greet, I hand out beers, and I chat him up for a bit.
Um... something is off.
I'm looking at him and wondering what the hell it is and then it hits me like a truck. He's got a dip in!! WTF!? This man who I've known for years, spent hour upon hour with, been to his house, rode in his car... has a dip in! Now, granted, in that room I was the only one who noticed because of my own ninja credentials. He had in what I called the "polite party dip". Enough to feed the need but hidden enough in the pocket so as not to be seen. I saw it. How did I not know? How on earth did I NOT KNOW!? It literally blew my mind. I thought I was the good ninja... Joe kicked my ass! Anyway, the night goes off without a hitch. The meeting is full of energy and everyone is looking forward to this project. However, at the back of my mind, all night, I'm still in a state of "wtf!?". I'm at work this morning and it's still buggin' me and I'm not sure why. Not like I'm unfamiliar with people who dip! I gotta admit I had flashes of jealousy. Wishing it was still me a little bit. Stupid addict brain sigh Anyway... as I'm thinking about it, it slowly begins to dawn on me that I'm actually thinking a little bit less of my friend Joe. How could he!? What a sneak! What a liar! What a slave! What a... oh... yeah. That was me. For 25 years.
I was pretty ashamed of myself. But for God's grace and KTC that would have been me last night. Easily. I'm glad to have caught a glimpse of that "old me" again. This new me is MUCH better off.
Throughout this project it will be my goal to, as gently as possible, eduacte him. Point him towards this awesome brotherhood. Show him what real freedom is.
Rock on...
Wow! What a revelation for you brother! I can understand how that is burning in your mind. Ultimately you see yourself and you wish you could just shake and wake him up. It's hard to see someone you care about live as a slave. And the news of him being a slave is likely just as discerning. Anyway that's not you anymore and hopefully he comes to the light, but you my friend are in the light!
Good job Apple. As you know, quitting is a personal decision. Maybe he isn't ready; maybe he is ready but scared (hence the polite ninja dip). Don't let his decision to slowly kill himself cause you to look at him with anger, just pitty.
He's still a friend. Have you thought about pulling him aside and saying, "Dude, I never knew you dipped. I bet you never knew that I dipped. But I quit 241 days ago. Do you want to quit?"
Evil is striking a chord. I have a lady that works for me whose husband dips. A lot. And she was telling me this week about his high bp, acid reflux, anxiety, cancer scares...
No one knows I did this. With the exception of my wife. But I'm beginning to think... My life is do much better, I owe it to her to say something. Not there yet, but getting closer.
AJ - think about it. You've sure helped a lot on here and I'm sure feel satisfaction from that. No need to push, but Evils suggestion seems perfect. I may follow the advice myself....
I agree guys. Completely!
Pity is the exact feeling here. And, Evil, I agree... Taking him aside and establishing that connection will be the way to go. Slow and steady. That's how I'm gonna handle this.
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Day 241
Started a new band project! This is something I've been moving toward for more than a year. Getting it thought out, recruiting the right guys, covering all angles, revising schedules, studio time, rehearsal space, writing time, blah, blah, blah. We had our first meeting last night and I'm giddy like it's Christmas eve! This is the first time in years where my music work will be... my work. Not a commercial project, not a hired gun... my/our stuff. Merry Freakin' Christmas to me!
So, this first get together is to hash out logistics. How will we go about the process, what do we want to move toward, etc. My house/home studio is the logical choice to meet. The guys start arriving and I'm just stoked! I've played music with most of these guys for close to 10 years and a few of them are VERY good friends... more like family really. As some of us are standing at the door my bass player arrives. I'll call him Joe. We greet, I hand out beers, and I chat him up for a bit.
Um... something is off.
I'm looking at him and wondering what the hell it is and then it hits me like a truck. He's got a dip in!! WTF!? This man who I've known for years, spent hour upon hour with, been to his house, rode in his car... has a dip in! Now, granted, in that room I was the only one who noticed because of my own ninja credentials. He had in what I called the "polite party dip". Enough to feed the need but hidden enough in the pocket so as not to be seen. I saw it. How did I not know? How on earth did I NOT KNOW!? It literally blew my mind. I thought I was the good ninja... Joe kicked my ass! Anyway, the night goes off without a hitch. The meeting is full of energy and everyone is looking forward to this project. However, at the back of my mind, all night, I'm still in a state of "wtf!?". I'm at work this morning and it's still buggin' me and I'm not sure why. Not like I'm unfamiliar with people who dip! I gotta admit I had flashes of jealousy. Wishing it was still me a little bit. Stupid addict brain sigh Anyway... as I'm thinking about it, it slowly begins to dawn on me that I'm actually thinking a little bit less of my friend Joe. How could he!? What a sneak! What a liar! What a slave! What a... oh... yeah. That was me. For 25 years.
I was pretty ashamed of myself. But for God's grace and KTC that would have been me last night. Easily. I'm glad to have caught a glimpse of that "old me" again. This new me is MUCH better off.
Throughout this project it will be my goal to, as gently as possible, eduacte him. Point him towards this awesome brotherhood. Show him what real freedom is.
Rock on...
Wow! What a revelation for you brother! I can understand how that is burning in your mind. Ultimately you see yourself and you wish you could just shake and wake him up. It's hard to see someone you care about live as a slave. And the news of him being a slave is likely just as discerning. Anyway that's not you anymore and hopefully he comes to the light, but you my friend are in the light!
Good job Apple. As you know, quitting is a personal decision. Maybe he isn't ready; maybe he is ready but scared (hence the polite ninja dip). Don't let his decision to slowly kill himself cause you to look at him with anger, just pitty.
He's still a friend. Have you thought about pulling him aside and saying, "Dude, I never knew you dipped. I bet you never knew that I dipped. But I quit 241 days ago. Do you want to quit?"
Evil is striking a chord. I have a lady that works for me whose husband dips. A lot. And she was telling me this week about his high bp, acid reflux, anxiety, cancer scares...
No one knows I did this. With the exception of my wife. But I'm beginning to think... My life is do much better, I owe it to her to say something. Not there yet, but getting closer.
AJ - think about it. You've sure helped a lot on here and I'm sure feel satisfaction from that. No need to push, but Evils suggestion seems perfect. I may follow the advice myself....
I agree guys. Completely!
Pity is the exact feeling here. And, Evil, I agree... Taking him aside and establishing that connection will be the way to go. Slow and steady. That's how I'm gonna handle this.
This guy would be one lucky SOB to have a quitter like you in his corner.
Not everyone is ready to quit but I believe that everyone that has been using this shit for a decade or so wants to quit. Some dont know that they want it and most are afraid to try.
Keep your quit close.
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Connecting the dots...
I have a gas station that I frequent and, yes, it was a chief supplier of all my chew. They still get alot of money from me but... minus the death weed. I avoided this place for awhile but have recently started going again. Fear of caving was the first motivator. Now? I'm quit. I don't worry about it. It's an opportunity to thumb my nose at big tobacco every other day or so.
Anyway... I stopped in today to fill both our vehicles up. I know all these guys pretty well. We shoot the breeze and I know about their lives in general. Remember... these cats saw me EVERY freakin' day for years! The manager, Joe, is a pretty young guy and the perfect kinda guy to run this place... very amiable and easy to chat with. As I was filling the last car, we got to chatting and it comes out that his granddad passed away Thursday.
Damn. Sorry man.
With lovely affection he starts to talk about his grandpa and his fight for his health. As this conversation rolls along I learn that his gramps passed from cancer... and his mom... and his aunt... and an uncle. Cancer is a real presence in his family. As this conversation rolls along further I learn that his aunt, uncle, and grandpa are tobacco users of various forms. Damn. Even worse because, obviously, that really hits home with me. With tears in his eyes, Joe talks about all this, with HEAVY emotion... while the biggest wad of Kodiak I have ever seen is filling his lip. I can smell it. I can practically taste it.
AJ shakes his head
The incongruities of life blow my mind sometimes. This guy hasn't connected the dots yet. Tobacco is death.
264 days quit today.
FU big tobacco.
I connected the dots and I see the big picture.
Quit. Free.
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Amen to that word bro. I gues it isn't until the claws of nicotine are pried off our flesh AND out of our minds, are we truely able to see what nicotine does to those around us. The FDA is a joke and tobacco is their punch line.
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Amen to that word bro. I gues it isn't until the claws of nicotine are pried off our flesh AND out of our minds, are we truely able to see what nicotine does to those around us. The FDA is a joke and tobacco is their punch line.
Thanks for the read aj. Dots connected.
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Connecting the dots...
I have a gas station that I frequent and, yes, it was a chief supplier of all my chew. They still get alot of money from me but... minus the death weed. I avoided this place for awhile but have recently started going again. Fear of caving was the first motivator. Now? I'm quit. I don't worry about it. It's an opportunity to thumb my nose at big tobacco every other day or so.
Anyway... I stopped in today to fill both our vehicles up. I know all these guys pretty well. We shoot the breeze and I know about their lives in general. Remember... these cats saw me EVERY freakin' day for years! The manager, Joe, is a pretty young guy and the perfect kinda guy to run this place... very amiable and easy to chat with. As I was filling the last car, we got to chatting and it comes out that his granddad passed away Thursday.
Damn. Sorry man.
With lovely affection he starts to talk about his grandpa and his fight for his health. As this conversation rolls along I learn that his gramps passed from cancer... and his mom... and his aunt... and an uncle. Cancer is a real presence in his family. As this conversation rolls along further I learn that his aunt, uncle, and grandpa are tobacco users of various forms. Damn. Even worse because, obviously, that really hits home with me. With tears in his eyes, Joe talks about all this, with HEAVY emotion... while the biggest wad of Kodiak I have ever seen is filling his lip. I can smell it. I can practically taste it.
AJ shakes his head
The incongruities of life blow my mind sometimes. This guy hasn't connected the dots yet. Tobacco is death.
264 days quit today.
FU big tobacco.
I connected the dots and I see the big picture.
Quit. Free.
This is awesome. Strength to keep pounding ODAAT. Thanks for the tale AJ
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Connecting the dots...
I have a gas station that I frequent and, yes, it was a chief supplier of all my chew. They still get alot of money from me but... minus the death weed. I avoided this place for awhile but have recently started going again. Fear of caving was the first motivator. Now? I'm quit. I don't worry about it. It's an opportunity to thumb my nose at big tobacco every other day or so.
Anyway... I stopped in today to fill both our vehicles up. I know all these guys pretty well. We shoot the breeze and I know about their lives in general. Remember... these cats saw me EVERY freakin' day for years! The manager, Joe, is a pretty young guy and the perfect kinda guy to run this place... very amiable and easy to chat with. As I was filling the last car, we got to chatting and it comes out that his granddad passed away Thursday.
Damn. Sorry man.
With lovely affection he starts to talk about his grandpa and his fight for his health. As this conversation rolls along I learn that his gramps passed from cancer... and his mom... and his aunt... and an uncle. Cancer is a real presence in his family. As this conversation rolls along further I learn that his aunt, uncle, and grandpa are tobacco users of various forms. Damn. Even worse because, obviously, that really hits home with me. With tears in his eyes, Joe talks about all this, with HEAVY emotion... while the biggest wad of Kodiak I have ever seen is filling his lip. I can smell it. I can practically taste it.
AJ shakes his head
The incongruities of life blow my mind sometimes. This guy hasn't connected the dots yet. Tobacco is death.
264 days quit today.
FU big tobacco.
I connected the dots and I see the big picture.
Quit. Free.
This is awesome. Strength to keep pounding ODAAT. Thanks for the tale AJ
I used to nag my dad about quitting smoking as my ninja a$$ dipped away. Man was I lost and a total hypocrite. Damn glad to be quit.
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Connecting the dots...
I have a gas station that I frequent and, yes, it was a chief supplier of all my chew. They still get alot of money from me but... minus the death weed. I avoided this place for awhile but have recently started going again. Fear of caving was the first motivator. Now? I'm quit. I don't worry about it. It's an opportunity to thumb my nose at big tobacco every other day or so.
Anyway... I stopped in today to fill both our vehicles up. I know all these guys pretty well. We shoot the breeze and I know about their lives in general. Remember... these cats saw me EVERY freakin' day for years! The manager, Joe, is a pretty young guy and the perfect kinda guy to run this place... very amiable and easy to chat with. As I was filling the last car, we got to chatting and it comes out that his granddad passed away Thursday.
Damn. Sorry man.
With lovely affection he starts to talk about his grandpa and his fight for his health. As this conversation rolls along I learn that his gramps passed from cancer... and his mom... and his aunt... and an uncle. Cancer is a real presence in his family. As this conversation rolls along further I learn that his aunt, uncle, and grandpa are tobacco users of various forms. Damn. Even worse because, obviously, that really hits home with me. With tears in his eyes, Joe talks about all this, with HEAVY emotion... while the biggest wad of Kodiak I have ever seen is filling his lip. I can smell it. I can practically taste it.
AJ shakes his head
The incongruities of life blow my mind sometimes. This guy hasn't connected the dots yet. Tobacco is death.
264 days quit today.
FU big tobacco.
I connected the dots and I see the big picture.
Quit. Free.
This is awesome. Strength to keep pounding ODAAT. Thanks for the tale AJ
I used to nag my dad about quitting smoking as my ninja a$$ dipped away. Man was I lost and a total hypocrite. Damn glad to be quit.
It's genocide plain and simple at this point. Not sure what to think about all the nic replacement products and their role.
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It's sad. I've seen it myself. We have all been on that side of it. Once you connect the dots it is eye opening. Tobacco will kill you. AJ you were the first dude to reach out to me on this site. You helped me open my eyes and connect the dots. I thank you for that. I'm quit with you brother.
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Connecting the dots...
I have a gas station that I frequent and, yes, it was a chief supplier of all my chew. They still get alot of money from me but... minus the death weed. I avoided this place for awhile but have recently started going again. Fear of caving was the first motivator. Now? I'm quit. I don't worry about it. It's an opportunity to thumb my nose at big tobacco every other day or so.
Anyway... I stopped in today to fill both our vehicles up. I know all these guys pretty well. We shoot the breeze and I know about their lives in general. Remember... these cats saw me EVERY freakin' day for years! The manager, Joe, is a pretty young guy and the perfect kinda guy to run this place... very amiable and easy to chat with. As I was filling the last car, we got to chatting and it comes out that his granddad passed away Thursday.
Damn. Sorry man.
With lovely affection he starts to talk about his grandpa and his fight for his health. As this conversation rolls along I learn that his gramps passed from cancer... and his mom... and his aunt... and an uncle. Cancer is a real presence in his family. As this conversation rolls along further I learn that his aunt, uncle, and grandpa are tobacco users of various forms. Damn. Even worse because, obviously, that really hits home with me. With tears in his eyes, Joe talks about all this, with HEAVY emotion... while the biggest wad of Kodiak I have ever seen is filling his lip. I can smell it. I can practically taste it.
AJ shakes his head
The incongruities of life blow my mind sometimes. This guy hasn't connected the dots yet. Tobacco is death.
264 days quit today.
FU big tobacco.
I connected the dots and I see the big picture.
Quit. Free.
This is awesome. Strength to keep pounding ODAAT. Thanks for the tale AJ
I used to nag my dad about quitting smoking as my ninja a$$ dipped away. Man was I lost and a total hypocrite. Damn glad to be quit.
It's genocide plain and simple at this point. Not sure what to think about all the nic replacement products and their role.
Suicide on the instalment plan... Big tobacco execs have a special place in hell reserved for them.
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AJ, thank you for , well, everything. You have a PHD in quit.
Chris
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Connecting the dots...
I have a gas station that I frequent and, yes, it was a chief supplier of all my chew. They still get alot of money from me but... minus the death weed. I avoided this place for awhile but have recently started going again. Fear of caving was the first motivator. Now? I'm quit. I don't worry about it. It's an opportunity to thumb my nose at big tobacco every other day or so.
Anyway... I stopped in today to fill both our vehicles up. I know all these guys pretty well. We shoot the breeze and I know about their lives in general. Remember... these cats saw me EVERY freakin' day for years! The manager, Joe, is a pretty young guy and the perfect kinda guy to run this place... very amiable and easy to chat with. As I was filling the last car, we got to chatting and it comes out that his granddad passed away Thursday.
Damn. Sorry man.
With lovely affection he starts to talk about his grandpa and his fight for his health. As this conversation rolls along I learn that his gramps passed from cancer... and his mom... and his aunt... and an uncle. Cancer is a real presence in his family. As this conversation rolls along further I learn that his aunt, uncle, and grandpa are tobacco users of various forms. Damn. Even worse because, obviously, that really hits home with me. With tears in his eyes, Joe talks about all this, with HEAVY emotion... while the biggest wad of Kodiak I have ever seen is filling his lip. I can smell it. I can practically taste it.
AJ shakes his head
The incongruities of life blow my mind sometimes. This guy hasn't connected the dots yet. Tobacco is death.
264 days quit today.
FU big tobacco.
I connected the dots and I see the big picture.
Quit. Free.
This is awesome. Strength to keep pounding ODAAT. Thanks for the tale AJ
I used to nag my dad about quitting smoking as my ninja a$$ dipped away. Man was I lost and a total hypocrite. Damn glad to be quit.
It's genocide plain and simple at this point. Not sure what to think about all the nic replacement products and their role.
Suicide on the instalment plan... Big tobacco execs have a special place in hell reserved for them.
Never again Apple.
Funny, 453 days later, I'm yet to go into the gas station that I bought 95% of my dip from. Part of me wants to go in just to see if the guy asks "1 or 2 cans today?". I'd like to video his reaction when I tell him I'm quit. I don't think he would be skeptical or angry that I caused a huge decline in their sales (gas and dip). He always looked at me in astonishment that I dipped so much. He would ask how long I had been doing it for, almost as if he was shocked that I was alive.
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Connecting the dots...
I have a gas station that I frequent and, yes, it was a chief supplier of all my chew. They still get alot of money from me but... minus the death weed. I avoided this place for awhile but have recently started going again. Fear of caving was the first motivator. Now? I'm quit. I don't worry about it. It's an opportunity to thumb my nose at big tobacco every other day or so.
Anyway... I stopped in today to fill both our vehicles up. I know all these guys pretty well. We shoot the breeze and I know about their lives in general. Remember... these cats saw me EVERY freakin' day for years! The manager, Joe, is a pretty young guy and the perfect kinda guy to run this place... very amiable and easy to chat with. As I was filling the last car, we got to chatting and it comes out that his granddad passed away Thursday.
Damn. Sorry man.
With lovely affection he starts to talk about his grandpa and his fight for his health. As this conversation rolls along I learn that his gramps passed from cancer... and his mom... and his aunt... and an uncle. Cancer is a real presence in his family. As this conversation rolls along further I learn that his aunt, uncle, and grandpa are tobacco users of various forms. Damn. Even worse because, obviously, that really hits home with me. With tears in his eyes, Joe talks about all this, with HEAVY emotion... while the biggest wad of Kodiak I have ever seen is filling his lip. I can smell it. I can practically taste it.
AJ shakes his head
The incongruities of life blow my mind sometimes. This guy hasn't connected the dots yet. Tobacco is death.
264 days quit today.
FU big tobacco.
I connected the dots and I see the big picture.
Quit. Free.
This is awesome. Strength to keep pounding ODAAT. Thanks for the tale AJ
I used to nag my dad about quitting smoking as my ninja a$$ dipped away. Man was I lost and a total hypocrite. Damn glad to be quit.
It's genocide plain and simple at this point. Not sure what to think about all the nic replacement products and their role.
Suicide on the instalment plan... Big tobacco execs have a special place in hell reserved for them.
Never again Apple.
Funny, 453 days later, I'm yet to go into the gas station that I bought 95% of my dip from. Part of me wants to go in just to see if the guy asks "1 or 2 cans today?". I'd like to video his reaction when I tell him I'm quit. I don't think he would be skeptical or angry that I caused a huge decline in their sales (gas and dip). He always looked at me in astonishment that I dipped so much. He would ask how long I had been doing it for, almost as if he was shocked that I was alive.
I did have a norm local station to buy from a few years back. A local station that also does repairs in a small town just outside Chattanooga. The owner is well known and loved. He has been there for over thirty years. We would all stop in early every morning before work get our caffeine, breakfast, and our nicotine. Until one morning when we all rolled in and wow.......
Me; Dwayne where did you move the Copenhagen, and the rest of the smokes and dip???
Dwayne; yep,,,,,, I moved it out!
Me; (confused) ??what??
Dwayne; I love you guys too much to continue to make money off your deaths.
Me; that's just stupid we will just get it elsewhere
Dwayne; well then at least I didn't sell it to you so when at your funeral I won't feel responsible.
Me; ok whatever.
That was almost two years ago. I have since moved to the other side of town to north GA but still know Dwayne, yea....... I am gonna send him a text tonight and thank him for what he did, while it seamed so stupid to me then now it is huge! I hadn't thought of this event until I read your post apple. Your a bad ass! Erussell at 252 days just behind the bad ass apple!
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Connecting the dots...
I have a gas station that I frequent and, yes, it was a chief supplier of all my chew. They still get alot of money from me but... minus the death weed. I avoided this place for awhile but have recently started going again. Fear of caving was the first motivator. Now? I'm quit. I don't worry about it. It's an opportunity to thumb my nose at big tobacco every other day or so.
Anyway... I stopped in today to fill both our vehicles up. I know all these guys pretty well. We shoot the breeze and I know about their lives in general. Remember... these cats saw me EVERY freakin' day for years! The manager, Joe, is a pretty young guy and the perfect kinda guy to run this place... very amiable and easy to chat with. As I was filling the last car, we got to chatting and it comes out that his granddad passed away Thursday.
Damn. Sorry man.
With lovely affection he starts to talk about his grandpa and his fight for his health. As this conversation rolls along I learn that his gramps passed from cancer... and his mom... and his aunt... and an uncle. Cancer is a real presence in his family. As this conversation rolls along further I learn that his aunt, uncle, and grandpa are tobacco users of various forms. Damn. Even worse because, obviously, that really hits home with me. With tears in his eyes, Joe talks about all this, with HEAVY emotion... while the biggest wad of Kodiak I have ever seen is filling his lip. I can smell it. I can practically taste it.
AJ shakes his head
The incongruities of life blow my mind sometimes. This guy hasn't connected the dots yet. Tobacco is death.
264 days quit today.
FU big tobacco.
I connected the dots and I see the big picture.
Quit. Free.
This is awesome. Strength to keep pounding ODAAT. Thanks for the tale AJ
I used to nag my dad about quitting smoking as my ninja a$$ dipped away. Man was I lost and a total hypocrite. Damn glad to be quit.
It's genocide plain and simple at this point. Not sure what to think about all the nic replacement products and their role.
Suicide on the instalment plan... Big tobacco execs have a special place in hell reserved for them.
Never again Apple.
Funny, 453 days later, I'm yet to go into the gas station that I bought 95% of my dip from. Part of me wants to go in just to see if the guy asks "1 or 2 cans today?". I'd like to video his reaction when I tell him I'm quit. I don't think he would be skeptical or angry that I caused a huge decline in their sales (gas and dip). He always looked at me in astonishment that I dipped so much. He would ask how long I had been doing it for, almost as if he was shocked that I was alive.
I did have a norm local station to buy from a few years back. A local station that also does repairs in a small town just outside Chattanooga. The owner is well known and loved. He has been there for over thirty years. We would all stop in early every morning before work get our caffeine, breakfast, and our nicotine. Until one morning when we all rolled in and wow.......
Me; Dwayne where did you move the Copenhagen, and the rest of the smokes and dip???
Dwayne; yep,,,,,, I moved it out!
Me; (confused) ??what??
Dwayne; I love you guys too much to continue to make money off your deaths.
Me; that's just stupid we will just get it elsewhere
Dwayne; well then at least I didn't sell it to you so when at your funeral I won't feel responsible.
Me; ok whatever.
That was almost two years ago. I have since moved to the other side of town to north GA but still know Dwayne, yea....... I am gonna send him a text tonight and thank him for what he did, while it seamed so stupid to me then now it is huge! I hadn't thought of this event until I read your post apple. Your a bad ass! Erussell at 252 days just behind the bad ass apple!
'Popcorn'
Keep it coming. I love this shit.
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My mom is sick
Very sick.
She's 60 but... In her big ol' hospital bed she looks like a shriveled 85 year old woman. Think... Gollum in the Tolkien books. That's what she looks like. A once beautiful woman. There's a laundry list of things that are wrong right now. One issue makes another worse which exacerbates another that ramps up a different problem... you get the picture. Every issue she's dealing with, however, boils down to ONE root problem... 45 years of smoking.
45 f'ng years. 2 years longer than I've been on earth.
Smoker ~ Dipper ~ Tobacco user in any form... if you are reading this and not quit?
Do. It. Now.
Don't put yourself through this hell. Don't put your family through this hell. Me? 269 days of taking my time on earth BACK!!!!!!
What about you?
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My mom is sick
Very sick.
She's 60 but... In her big ol' hospital bed she looks like a shriveled 85 year old woman. Think... Gollum in the Tolkien books. That's what she looks like. A once beautiful woman. There's a laundry list of things that are wrong right now. One issue makes another worse which exacerbates another that ramps up a different problem... you get the picture. Every issue she's dealing with, however, boils down to ONE root problem... 45 years of smoking.
45 f'ng years. 2 years longer than I've been on earth.
Smoker ~ Dipper ~ Tobacco user in any form... if you are reading this and not quit?
Do. It. Now.
Don't put yourself through this hell. Don't put your family through this hell. Me? 269 days of taking my time on earth BACK!!!!!!
What about you?
sending thoughts and prayers to you my brother....
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Thoughts and prayers for you.......
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My mom is sick
Very sick.
She's 60 but... In her big ol' hospital bed she looks like a shriveled 85 year old woman. Think... Gollum in the Tolkien books. That's what she looks like. A once beautiful woman. There's a laundry list of things that are wrong right now. One issue makes another worse which exacerbates another that ramps up a different problem... you get the picture. Every issue she's dealing with, however, boils down to ONE root problem... 45 years of smoking.
45 f'ng years. 2 years longer than I've been on earth.
Smoker ~ Dipper ~ Tobacco user in any form... if you are reading this and not quit?
Do. It. Now.
Don't put yourself through this hell. Don't put your family through this hell. Me? 269 days of taking my time on earth BACK!!!!!!
What about you?
sending thoughts and prayers to you my brother....
So sorry you and your family have to go through this- it sounds so hard. I'm with you in asking any tobacco user reading this to stop now. It WILL hurt those close to you. Here's an example.
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My mom is sick
Very sick.
She's 60 but... In her big ol' hospital bed she looks like a shriveled 85 year old woman. Think... Gollum in the Tolkien books. That's what she looks like. A once beautiful woman. There's a laundry list of things that are wrong right now. One issue makes another worse which exacerbates another that ramps up a different problem... you get the picture. Every issue she's dealing with, however, boils down to ONE root problem... 45 years of smoking.
45 f'ng years. 2 years longer than I've been on earth.
Smoker ~ Dipper ~ Tobacco user in any form... if you are reading this and not quit?
Do. It. Now.
Don't put yourself through this hell. Don't put your family through this hell. Me? 269 days of taking my time on earth BACK!!!!!!
What about you?
Thoughts and prayers AJ. Glad as hell to be quit with you today.
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My mom is sick
Very sick.
She's 60 but... In her big ol' hospital bed she looks like a shriveled 85 year old woman. Think... Gollum in the Tolkien books. That's what she looks like. A once beautiful woman. There's a laundry list of things that are wrong right now. One issue makes another worse which exacerbates another that ramps up a different problem... you get the picture. Every issue she's dealing with, however, boils down to ONE root problem... 45 years of smoking.
45 f'ng years. 2 years longer than I've been on earth.
Smoker ~ Dipper ~ Tobacco user in any form... if you are reading this and not quit?
Do. It. Now.
Don't put yourself through this hell. Don't put your family through this hell. Me? 269 days of taking my time on earth BACK!!!!!!
What about you?
Thoughts and prayers AJ. Glad as hell to be quit with you today.
X2
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My mom is sick
Very sick.
She's 60 but... In her big ol' hospital bed she looks like a shriveled 85 year old woman. Think... Gollum in the Tolkien books. That's what she looks like. A once beautiful woman. There's a laundry list of things that are wrong right now. One issue makes another worse which exacerbates another that ramps up a different problem... you get the picture. Every issue she's dealing with, however, boils down to ONE root problem... 45 years of smoking.
45 f'ng years. 2 years longer than I've been on earth.
Smoker ~ Dipper ~ Tobacco user in any form... if you are reading this and not quit?
Do. It. Now.
Don't put yourself through this hell. Don't put your family through this hell. Me? 269 days of taking my time on earth BACK!!!!!!
What about you?
Thoughts and prayers AJ. Glad as hell to be quit with you today.
X2
Prayers My Friend,Prayers....ODAAT
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My mom is sick
Very sick.
She's 60 but... In her big ol' hospital bed she looks like a shriveled 85 year old woman. Think... Gollum in the Tolkien books. That's what she looks like. A once beautiful woman. There's a laundry list of things that are wrong right now. One issue makes another worse which exacerbates another that ramps up a different problem... you get the picture. Every issue she's dealing with, however, boils down to ONE root problem... 45 years of smoking.
45 f'ng years. 2 years longer than I've been on earth.
Smoker ~ Dipper ~ Tobacco user in any form... if you are reading this and not quit?
Do. It. Now.
Don't put yourself through this hell. Don't put your family through this hell. Me? 269 days of taking my time on earth BACK!!!!!!
What about you?
Thoughts and prayers AJ. Glad as hell to be quit with you today.
X2
Prayers My Friend,Prayers....ODAAT
Praying for your mom and family AJ.
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My mom is sick
Very sick.
She's 60 but... In her big ol' hospital bed she looks like a shriveled 85 year old woman. Think... Gollum in the Tolkien books. That's what she looks like. A once beautiful woman. There's a laundry list of things that are wrong right now. One issue makes another worse which exacerbates another that ramps up a different problem... you get the picture. Every issue she's dealing with, however, boils down to ONE root problem... 45 years of smoking.
45 f'ng years. 2 years longer than I've been on earth.
Smoker ~ Dipper ~ Tobacco user in any form... if you are reading this and not quit?
Do. It. Now.
Don't put yourself through this hell. Don't put your family through this hell. Me? 269 days of taking my time on earth BACK!!!!!!
What about you?
Thoughts and prayers AJ. Glad as hell to be quit with you today.
X2
Prayers My Friend,Prayers....ODAAT
Praying for your mom and family AJ.
You tell them AJ!!. Our Thoughts and Prayers are with you and the family.
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My mom is sick
Very sick.
She's 60 but... In her big ol' hospital bed she looks like a shriveled 85 year old woman. Think... Gollum in the Tolkien books. That's what she looks like. A once beautiful woman. There's a laundry list of things that are wrong right now. One issue makes another worse which exacerbates another that ramps up a different problem... you get the picture. Every issue she's dealing with, however, boils down to ONE root problem... 45 years of smoking.
45 f'ng years. 2 years longer than I've been on earth.
Smoker ~ Dipper ~ Tobacco user in any form... if you are reading this and not quit?
Do. It. Now.
Don't put yourself through this hell. Don't put your family through this hell. Me? 269 days of taking my time on earth BACK!!!!!!
What about you?
Thoughts and prayers AJ. Glad as hell to be quit with you today.
X2
Prayers My Friend,Prayers....ODAAT
Praying for your mom and family AJ.
You tell them AJ!!. Our Thoughts and Prayers are with you and the family.
Prayers for your mom AJ.
I feel your pain. It is senseless and criminal really. Nicotine is a liar and a thief.
Tobacco has taken all of my grandparents and now both parents are living in very poor health because of it. Oxygen and the whole bit. Their lives will be most certainly be shortened.
This generational curse stops now. Quit with you AJ.
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My mom is sick
Very sick.
She's 60 but... In her big ol' hospital bed she looks like a shriveled 85 year old woman. Think... Gollum in the Tolkien books. That's what she looks like. A once beautiful woman. There's a laundry list of things that are wrong right now. One issue makes another worse which exacerbates another that ramps up a different problem... you get the picture. Every issue she's dealing with, however, boils down to ONE root problem... 45 years of smoking.
45 f'ng years. 2 years longer than I've been on earth.
Smoker ~ Dipper ~ Tobacco user in any form... if you are reading this and not quit?
Do. It. Now.
Don't put yourself through this hell. Don't put your family through this hell. Me? 269 days of taking my time on earth BACK!!!!!!
What about you?
Thoughts and prayers AJ. Glad as hell to be quit with you today.
X2
Prayers My Friend,Prayers....ODAAT
Praying for your mom and family AJ.
You tell them AJ!!. Our Thoughts and Prayers are with you and the family.
Prayers for your mom AJ.
I feel your pain. It is senseless and criminal really. Nicotine is a liar and a thief.
Tobacco has taken all of my grandparents and now both parents are living in very poor health because of it. Oxygen and the whole bit. Their lives will be most certainly be shortened.
This generational curse stops now. Quit with you AJ.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your mom! Thank you for the reminder again of why we are quit! This shit IS real! Hold your head up!
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My mom is sick
Very sick.
She's 60 but... In her big ol' hospital bed she looks like a shriveled 85 year old woman. Think... Gollum in the Tolkien books. That's what she looks like. A once beautiful woman. There's a laundry list of things that are wrong right now. One issue makes another worse which exacerbates another that ramps up a different problem... you get the picture. Every issue she's dealing with, however, boils down to ONE root problem... 45 years of smoking.
45 f'ng years. 2 years longer than I've been on earth.
Smoker ~ Dipper ~ Tobacco user in any form... if you are reading this and not quit?
Do. It. Now.
Don't put yourself through this hell. Don't put your family through this hell. Me? 269 days of taking my time on earth BACK!!!!!!
What about you?
Thoughts and prayers AJ. Glad as hell to be quit with you today.
X2
Prayers My Friend,Prayers....ODAAT
Praying for your mom and family AJ.
You tell them AJ!!. Our Thoughts and Prayers are with you and the family.
Prayers for your mom AJ.
I feel your pain. It is senseless and criminal really. Nicotine is a liar and a thief.
Tobacco has taken all of my grandparents and now both parents are living in very poor health because of it. Oxygen and the whole bit. Their lives will be most certainly be shortened.
This generational curse stops now. Quit with you AJ.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your mom! Thank you for the reminder again of why we are quit! This shit IS real! Hold your head up!
All the best AJ
We texted about this last night...when you step away, get your mind clear, and think about it....how can these products even be legal??
Praying for you and your family
PB
-
My mom is sick
Very sick.
She's 60 but... In her big ol' hospital bed she looks like a shriveled 85 year old woman. Think... Gollum in the Tolkien books. That's what she looks like. A once beautiful woman. There's a laundry list of things that are wrong right now. One issue makes another worse which exacerbates another that ramps up a different problem... you get the picture. Every issue she's dealing with, however, boils down to ONE root problem... 45 years of smoking.
45 f'ng years. 2 years longer than I've been on earth.
Smoker ~ Dipper ~ Tobacco user in any form... if you are reading this and not quit?
Do. It. Now.
Don't put yourself through this hell. Don't put your family through this hell. Me? 269 days of taking my time on earth BACK!!!!!!
What about you?
Thoughts and prayers AJ. Glad as hell to be quit with you today.
X2
Prayers My Friend,Prayers....ODAAT
Praying for your mom and family AJ.
You tell them AJ!!. Our Thoughts and Prayers are with you and the family.
Prayers for your mom AJ.
I feel your pain. It is senseless and criminal really. Nicotine is a liar and a thief.
Tobacco has taken all of my grandparents and now both parents are living in very poor health because of it. Oxygen and the whole bit. Their lives will be most certainly be shortened.
This generational curse stops now. Quit with you AJ.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your mom! Thank you for the reminder again of why we are quit! This shit IS real! Hold your head up!
All the best AJ
We texted about this last night...when you step away, get your mind clear, and think about it....how can these products even be legal??
Praying for you and your family
PB
Thoughts and prayers AJ. Glad you are quit.
-
My mom is sick
Very sick.
She's 60 but... In her big ol' hospital bed she looks like a shriveled 85 year old woman. Think... Gollum in the Tolkien books. That's what she looks like. A once beautiful woman. There's a laundry list of things that are wrong right now. One issue makes another worse which exacerbates another that ramps up a different problem... you get the picture. Every issue she's dealing with, however, boils down to ONE root problem... 45 years of smoking.
45 f'ng years. 2 years longer than I've been on earth.
Smoker ~ Dipper ~ Tobacco user in any form... if you are reading this and not quit?
Do. It. Now.
Don't put yourself through this hell. Don't put your family through this hell. Me? 269 days of taking my time on earth BACK!!!!!!
What about you?
Thoughts and prayers AJ. Glad as hell to be quit with you today.
X2
Prayers My Friend,Prayers....ODAAT
Praying for your mom and family AJ.
You tell them AJ!!. Our Thoughts and Prayers are with you and the family.
Prayers for your mom AJ.
I feel your pain. It is senseless and criminal really. Nicotine is a liar and a thief.
Tobacco has taken all of my grandparents and now both parents are living in very poor health because of it. Oxygen and the whole bit. Their lives will be most certainly be shortened.
This generational curse stops now. Quit with you AJ.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your mom! Thank you for the reminder again of why we are quit! This shit IS real! Hold your head up!
All the best AJ
We texted about this last night...when you step away, get your mind clear, and think about it....how can these products even be legal??
Praying for you and your family
PB
Thoughts and prayers AJ. Glad you are quit.
Wanted to take a sec and thank all that posted up with me, responded to my thread, or texted me over the weekend.
Thank you!
This brotherhood... SO damn cool!
-
My mom is sick
Very sick.
She's 60 but... In her big ol' hospital bed she looks like a shriveled 85 year old woman. Think... Gollum in the Tolkien books. That's what she looks like. A once beautiful woman. There's a laundry list of things that are wrong right now. One issue makes another worse which exacerbates another that ramps up a different problem... you get the picture. Every issue she's dealing with, however, boils down to ONE root problem... 45 years of smoking.
45 f'ng years. 2 years longer than I've been on earth.
Smoker ~ Dipper ~ Tobacco user in any form... if you are reading this and not quit?
Do. It. Now.
Don't put yourself through this hell. Don't put your family through this hell. Me? 269 days of taking my time on earth BACK!!!!!!
What about you?
Thoughts and prayers AJ. Glad as hell to be quit with you today.
X2
Prayers My Friend,Prayers....ODAAT
Praying for your mom and family AJ.
You tell them AJ!!. Our Thoughts and Prayers are with you and the family.
Prayers for your mom AJ.
I feel your pain. It is senseless and criminal really. Nicotine is a liar and a thief.
Tobacco has taken all of my grandparents and now both parents are living in very poor health because of it. Oxygen and the whole bit. Their lives will be most certainly be shortened.
This generational curse stops now. Quit with you AJ.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your mom! Thank you for the reminder again of why we are quit! This shit IS real! Hold your head up!
All the best AJ
We texted about this last night...when you step away, get your mind clear, and think about it....how can these products even be legal??
Praying for you and your family
PB
Thoughts and prayers AJ. Glad you are quit.
Wanted to take a sec and thank all that posted up with me, responded to my thread, or texted me over the weekend.
Thank you!
This brotherhood... SO damn cool!
Sorry to hear all of that AJ, but great point!
-
My mom is sick
Very sick.
She's 60 but... In her big ol' hospital bed she looks like a shriveled 85 year old woman. Think... Gollum in the Tolkien books. That's what she looks like. A once beautiful woman. There's a laundry list of things that are wrong right now. One issue makes another worse which exacerbates another that ramps up a different problem... you get the picture. Every issue she's dealing with, however, boils down to ONE root problem... 45 years of smoking.
45 f'ng years. 2 years longer than I've been on earth.
Smoker ~ Dipper ~ Tobacco user in any form... if you are reading this and not quit?
Do. It. Now.
Don't put yourself through this hell. Don't put your family through this hell. Me? 269 days of taking my time on earth BACK!!!!!!
What about you?
Thoughts and prayers AJ. Glad as hell to be quit with you today.
X2
Prayers My Friend,Prayers....ODAAT
Praying for your mom and family AJ.
You tell them AJ!!. Our Thoughts and Prayers are with you and the family.
Prayers for your mom AJ.
I feel your pain. It is senseless and criminal really. Nicotine is a liar and a thief.
Tobacco has taken all of my grandparents and now both parents are living in very poor health because of it. Oxygen and the whole bit. Their lives will be most certainly be shortened.
This generational curse stops now. Quit with you AJ.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your mom! Thank you for the reminder again of why we are quit! This shit IS real! Hold your head up!
All the best AJ
We texted about this last night...when you step away, get your mind clear, and think about it....how can these products even be legal??
Praying for you and your family
PB
Thoughts and prayers AJ. Glad you are quit.
Wanted to take a sec and thank all that posted up with me, responded to my thread, or texted me over the weekend.
Thank you!
This brotherhood... SO damn cool!
Sorry to hear all of that AJ, but great point!
So sorry for your pain AJ.
I quit with you today. I am praying for you and your family.
Nictotine took my Mom and all of her family.
It's a lesson we don't get to "do over".
So glad you are here Today. Your mom must be proud of You.
-
My mom is sick
Very sick.
She's 60 but... In her big ol' hospital bed she looks like a shriveled 85 year old woman. Think... Gollum in the Tolkien books. That's what she looks like. A once beautiful woman. There's a laundry list of things that are wrong right now. One issue makes another worse which exacerbates another that ramps up a different problem... you get the picture. Every issue she's dealing with, however, boils down to ONE root problem... 45 years of smoking.
45 f'ng years. 2 years longer than I've been on earth.
Smoker ~ Dipper ~ Tobacco user in any form... if you are reading this and not quit?
Do. It. Now.
Don't put yourself through this hell. Don't put your family through this hell. Me? 269 days of taking my time on earth BACK!!!!!!
What about you?
Thoughts and prayers AJ. Glad as hell to be quit with you today.
X2
Prayers My Friend,Prayers....ODAAT
Praying for your mom and family AJ.
You tell them AJ!!. Our Thoughts and Prayers are with you and the family.
Prayers for your mom AJ.
I feel your pain. It is senseless and criminal really. Nicotine is a liar and a thief.
Tobacco has taken all of my grandparents and now both parents are living in very poor health because of it. Oxygen and the whole bit. Their lives will be most certainly be shortened.
This generational curse stops now. Quit with you AJ.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your mom! Thank you for the reminder again of why we are quit! This shit IS real! Hold your head up!
All the best AJ
We texted about this last night...when you step away, get your mind clear, and think about it....how can these products even be legal??
Praying for you and your family
PB
Thoughts and prayers AJ. Glad you are quit.
Wanted to take a sec and thank all that posted up with me, responded to my thread, or texted me over the weekend.
Thank you!
This brotherhood... SO damn cool!
Sorry to hear all of that AJ, but great point!
So sorry for your pain AJ.
I quit with you today. I am praying for you and your family.
Nictotine took my Mom and all of her family.
It's a lesson we don't get to "do over".
So glad you are here Today. Your mom must be proud of You.
Certainly have mad respect for you AJ. Sorry about your mother. 45 years ago, tobacco wasn't exposed as it is now. So sorry about what you have to experience. May you and your family have peace in your trials.
-
My mom is sick
Very sick.
She's 60 but... In her big ol' hospital bed she looks like a shriveled 85 year old woman. Think... Gollum in the Tolkien books. That's what she looks like. A once beautiful woman. There's a laundry list of things that are wrong right now. One issue makes another worse which exacerbates another that ramps up a different problem... you get the picture. Every issue she's dealing with, however, boils down to ONE root problem... 45 years of smoking.
45 f'ng years. 2 years longer than I've been on earth.
Smoker ~ Dipper ~ Tobacco user in any form... if you are reading this and not quit?
Do. It. Now.
Don't put yourself through this hell. Don't put your family through this hell. Me? 269 days of taking my time on earth BACK!!!!!!
What about you?
Thoughts and prayers AJ. Glad as hell to be quit with you today.
X2
Prayers My Friend,Prayers....ODAAT
Praying for your mom and family AJ.
You tell them AJ!!. Our Thoughts and Prayers are with you and the family.
Prayers for your mom AJ.
I feel your pain. It is senseless and criminal really. Nicotine is a liar and a thief.
Tobacco has taken all of my grandparents and now both parents are living in very poor health because of it. Oxygen and the whole bit. Their lives will be most certainly be shortened.
This generational curse stops now. Quit with you AJ.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your mom! Thank you for the reminder again of why we are quit! This shit IS real! Hold your head up!
All the best AJ
We texted about this last night...when you step away, get your mind clear, and think about it....how can these products even be legal??
Praying for you and your family
PB
Thoughts and prayers AJ. Glad you are quit.
Wanted to take a sec and thank all that posted up with me, responded to my thread, or texted me over the weekend.
Thank you!
This brotherhood... SO damn cool!
Sorry to hear all of that AJ, but great point!
So sorry for your pain AJ.
I quit with you today. I am praying for you and your family.
Nictotine took my Mom and all of her family.
It's a lesson we don't get to "do over".
So glad you are here Today. Your mom must be proud of You.
Certainly have mad respect for you AJ. Sorry about your mother. 45 years ago, tobacco wasn't exposed as it is now. So sorry about what you have to experience. May you and your family have peace in your trials.
Man, I sat here reading this over and over, and I didn't know what to say.
I've been back in the fog the last few days, I think I've been a bit depressed since maybe day 5 or so. Then I quit caffeine, soda and junkfood/processed sugars last Thursday too, and I have been feeling extra depressed I guess. Since the cloud of unhappyfunk had no identifiable cause I don't know what else to call it but depression. I have been turning anything I can think of into another reason to be unhappy. And the whole time I know it's ludicrous and unreasonable and that just makes me unhappier. Haven't been in the mood to do much more than post roll, I haven't looked in the intro section for days. Feeling a little more upbeat this morning so I click on the intro's.
And I find out that one of my strongest supporters, who just texted me yesterday to check up on me, as suffering as he watches his Mom suffer the consequences of tobacco use. But Instead of letting it drag him down, he turns it into another reason to stay quit and uplift and motivate the rest of us.
The only job I could get as a new nurse was at gnarly old care and rehab center, a nursing home. Time after time I would tell people in their 40s and 50s how much better off they would be if they quit smoking. Time after time I would do the admission on a patient that had had a stroke and was going to be partially paralyzed for the rest of their lives, because of tobacco. Day after day I treating people suffering from diseases and illnesses directly related to tobacco use. Time after time I watched YOUNG people die of cancer, Diabetes, C.O.P.D. and emphysema and other terrible diseases directly related to their Tobacco use. Just like AJ says, they look like they are ancient, sick and dying, But they are in their only in their 40s 50s and 60s. I had a 19 year old kid with lung cancer, begging to go outside and smoke. I sat with a man on hospice, so frail, so thin, I could see every rib and the muscles inbetween them expand and contract as he fought to breath. I had to hold him so he could sit in a position that helped him breath as best he could, and he died in that position. I believe he was in his late 30s. I even once or twice said I could not believe any healthcare worker could possibly smoke, knowing how bad it was for them. And then I would go ninja dip in the bathroom every chance I could get...
Today is day 41 for me. I have a confession. I was going to cave on day 7. I really didn't want to, but I was going to cave. I had gone over and over every single reason why I hated dip and why I would never touch it again. Repeatedly. And the whole time, the craving was telling me exactly which 7-11 I was stopping at on my way home, and how great it was going to be. Man it was upsetting. Everything I could muster wanted to stay quit, but I knew that I was not stronger than the craving and I was going to fail. I got out to my car and was basically despairing inside. So I gave up. I grabbed my phone, opened my KTC badass quitters group and smashed my fat thumb into the first name on the list. "Applejack (Shane)"
He stayed on the phone with me till I was home. The craving was gone. I survived! *Note to others, never let calling or texting another quitter be your last resort :P*
Shane, Thank You. Because of you, my Family and I will be spared the hell your family and your mother are going through. Thank you for putting my pointless misery in perspective, and pulling me out of it. You have my deepest gratitude. All of my heart goes out to you and your family, and our prayers will definitely be with you and yours.
-
My mom is sick
Very sick.
She's 60 but... In her big ol' hospital bed she looks like a shriveled 85 year old woman. Think... Gollum in the Tolkien books. That's what she looks like. A once beautiful woman. There's a laundry list of things that are wrong right now. One issue makes another worse which exacerbates another that ramps up a different problem... you get the picture. Every issue she's dealing with, however, boils down to ONE root problem... 45 years of smoking.
45 f'ng years. 2 years longer than I've been on earth.
Smoker ~ Dipper ~ Tobacco user in any form... if you are reading this and not quit?
Do. It. Now.
Don't put yourself through this hell. Don't put your family through this hell. Me? 269 days of taking my time on earth BACK!!!!!!
What about you?
Thoughts and prayers AJ. Glad as hell to be quit with you today.
X2
Prayers My Friend,Prayers....ODAAT
Praying for your mom and family AJ.
You tell them AJ!!. Our Thoughts and Prayers are with you and the family.
Prayers for your mom AJ.
I feel your pain. It is senseless and criminal really. Nicotine is a liar and a thief.
Tobacco has taken all of my grandparents and now both parents are living in very poor health because of it. Oxygen and the whole bit. Their lives will be most certainly be shortened.
This generational curse stops now. Quit with you AJ.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your mom! Thank you for the reminder again of why we are quit! This shit IS real! Hold your head up!
All the best AJ
We texted about this last night...when you step away, get your mind clear, and think about it....how can these products even be legal??
Praying for you and your family
PB
Thoughts and prayers AJ. Glad you are quit.
Wanted to take a sec and thank all that posted up with me, responded to my thread, or texted me over the weekend.
Thank you!
This brotherhood... SO damn cool!
Sorry to hear all of that AJ, but great point!
So sorry for your pain AJ.
I quit with you today. I am praying for you and your family.
Nictotine took my Mom and all of her family.
It's a lesson we don't get to "do over".
So glad you are here Today. Your mom must be proud of You.
Certainly have mad respect for you AJ. Sorry about your mother. 45 years ago, tobacco wasn't exposed as it is now. So sorry about what you have to experience. May you and your family have peace in your trials.
Man, I sat here reading this over and over, and I didn't know what to say.
I've been back in the fog the last few days, I think I've been a bit depressed since maybe day 5 or so. Then I quit caffeine, soda and junkfood/processed sugars last Thursday too, and I have been feeling extra depressed I guess. Since the cloud of unhappyfunk had no identifiable cause I don't know what else to call it but depression. I have been turning anything I can think of into another reason to be unhappy. And the whole time I know it's ludicrous and unreasonable and that just makes me unhappier. Haven't been in the mood to do much more than post roll, I haven't looked in the intro section for days. Feeling a little more upbeat this morning so I click on the intro's.
And I find out that one of my strongest supporters, who just texted me yesterday to check up on me, as suffering as he watches his Mom suffer the consequences of tobacco use. But Instead of letting it drag him down, he turns it into another reason to stay quit and uplift and motivate the rest of us.
The only job I could get as a new nurse was at gnarly old care and rehab center, a nursing home. Time after time I would tell people in their 40s and 50s how much better off they would be if they quit smoking. Time after time I would do the admission on a patient that had had a stroke and was going to be partially paralyzed for the rest of their lives, because of tobacco. Day after day I treating people suffering from diseases and illnesses directly related to tobacco use. Time after time I watched YOUNG people die of cancer, Diabetes, C.O.P.D. and emphysema and other terrible diseases directly related to their Tobacco use. Just like AJ says, they look like they are ancient, sick and dying, But they are in their only in their 40s 50s and 60s. I had a 19 year old kid with lung cancer, begging to go outside and smoke. I sat with a man on hospice, so frail, so thin, I could see every rib and the muscles inbetween them expand and contract as he fought to breath. I had to hold him so he could sit in a position that helped him breath as best he could, and he died in that position. I believe he was in his late 30s. I even once or twice said I could not believe any healthcare worker could possibly smoke, knowing how bad it was for them. And then I would go ninja dip in the bathroom every chance I could get...
Today is day 41 for me. I have a confession. I was going to cave on day 7. I really didn't want to, but I was going to cave. I had gone over and over every single reason why I hated dip and why I would never touch it again. Repeatedly. And the whole time, the craving was telling me exactly which 7-11 I was stopping at on my way home, and how great it was going to be. Man it was upsetting. Everything I could muster wanted to stay quit, but I knew that I was not stronger than the craving and I was going to fail. I got out to my car and was basically despairing inside. So I gave up. I grabbed my phone, opened my KTC badass quitters group and smashed my fat thumb into the first name on the list. "Applejack (Shane)"
He stayed on the phone with me till I was home. The craving was gone. I survived! *Note to others, never let calling or texting another quitter be your last resort :P*
Shane, Thank You. Because of you, my Family and I will be spared the hell your family and your mother are going through. Thank you for putting my pointless misery in perspective, and pulling me out of it. You have my deepest gratitude. All of my heart goes out to you and your family, and our prayers will definitely be with you and yours.
This is what it's all about. AJ has been a source of inspiration to many others in your spot as well Neon. Thanks for sharing the story, this is a powerful motivator to own the quit today.
-
My mom is sick
Very sick.
She's 60 but... In her big ol' hospital bed she looks like a shriveled 85 year old woman. Think... Gollum in the Tolkien books. That's what she looks like. A once beautiful woman. There's a laundry list of things that are wrong right now. One issue makes another worse which exacerbates another that ramps up a different problem... you get the picture. Every issue she's dealing with, however, boils down to ONE root problem... 45 years of smoking.
45 f'ng years. 2 years longer than I've been on earth.
Smoker ~ Dipper ~ Tobacco user in any form... if you are reading this and not quit?
Do. It. Now.
Don't put yourself through this hell. Don't put your family through this hell. Me? 269 days of taking my time on earth BACK!!!!!!
What about you?
Thoughts and prayers AJ. Glad as hell to be quit with you today.
X2
Prayers My Friend,Prayers....ODAAT
Praying for your mom and family AJ.
You tell them AJ!!. Our Thoughts and Prayers are with you and the family.
Prayers for your mom AJ.
I feel your pain. It is senseless and criminal really. Nicotine is a liar and a thief.
Tobacco has taken all of my grandparents and now both parents are living in very poor health because of it. Oxygen and the whole bit. Their lives will be most certainly be shortened.
This generational curse stops now. Quit with you AJ.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your mom! Thank you for the reminder again of why we are quit! This shit IS real! Hold your head up!
All the best AJ
We texted about this last night...when you step away, get your mind clear, and think about it....how can these products even be legal??
Praying for you and your family
PB
Thoughts and prayers AJ. Glad you are quit.
Wanted to take a sec and thank all that posted up with me, responded to my thread, or texted me over the weekend.
Thank you!
This brotherhood... SO damn cool!
Sorry to hear all of that AJ, but great point!
So sorry for your pain AJ.
I quit with you today. I am praying for you and your family.
Nictotine took my Mom and all of her family.
It's a lesson we don't get to "do over".
So glad you are here Today. Your mom must be proud of You.
Certainly have mad respect for you AJ. Sorry about your mother. 45 years ago, tobacco wasn't exposed as it is now. So sorry about what you have to experience. May you and your family have peace in your trials.
Man, I sat here reading this over and over, and I didn't know what to say.
I've been back in the fog the last few days, I think I've been a bit depressed since maybe day 5 or so. Then I quit caffeine, soda and junkfood/processed sugars last Thursday too, and I have been feeling extra depressed I guess. Since the cloud of unhappyfunk had no identifiable cause I don't know what else to call it but depression. I have been turning anything I can think of into another reason to be unhappy. And the whole time I know it's ludicrous and unreasonable and that just makes me unhappier. Haven't been in the mood to do much more than post roll, I haven't looked in the intro section for days. Feeling a little more upbeat this morning so I click on the intro's.
And I find out that one of my strongest supporters, who just texted me yesterday to check up on me, as suffering as he watches his Mom suffer the consequences of tobacco use. But Instead of letting it drag him down, he turns it into another reason to stay quit and uplift and motivate the rest of us.
The only job I could get as a new nurse was at gnarly old care and rehab center, a nursing home. Time after time I would tell people in their 40s and 50s how much better off they would be if they quit smoking. Time after time I would do the admission on a patient that had had a stroke and was going to be partially paralyzed for the rest of their lives, because of tobacco. Day after day I treating people suffering from diseases and illnesses directly related to tobacco use. Time after time I watched YOUNG people die of cancer, Diabetes, C.O.P.D. and emphysema and other terrible diseases directly related to their Tobacco use. Just like AJ says, they look like they are ancient, sick and dying, But they are in their only in their 40s 50s and 60s. I had a 19 year old kid with lung cancer, begging to go outside and smoke. I sat with a man on hospice, so frail, so thin, I could see every rib and the muscles inbetween them expand and contract as he fought to breath. I had to hold him so he could sit in a position that helped him breath as best he could, and he died in that position. I believe he was in his late 30s. I even once or twice said I could not believe any healthcare worker could possibly smoke, knowing how bad it was for them. And then I would go ninja dip in the bathroom every chance I could get...
Today is day 41 for me. I have a confession. I was going to cave on day 7. I really didn't want to, but I was going to cave. I had gone over and over every single reason why I hated dip and why I would never touch it again. Repeatedly. And the whole time, the craving was telling me exactly which 7-11 I was stopping at on my way home, and how great it was going to be. Man it was upsetting. Everything I could muster wanted to stay quit, but I knew that I was not stronger than the craving and I was going to fail. I got out to my car and was basically despairing inside. So I gave up. I grabbed my phone, opened my KTC badass quitters group and smashed my fat thumb into the first name on the list. "Applejack (Shane)"
He stayed on the phone with me till I was home. The craving was gone. I survived! *Note to others, never let calling or texting another quitter be your last resort :P*
Shane, Thank You. Because of you, my Family and I will be spared the hell your family and your mother are going through. Thank you for putting my pointless misery in perspective, and pulling me out of it. You have my deepest gratitude. All of my heart goes out to you and your family, and our prayers will definitely be with you and yours.
This is what it's all about. AJ has been a source of inspiration to many others in your spot as well Neon. Thanks for sharing the story, this is a powerful motivator to own the quit today.
Bro,,,,, sorry to hear, my thoughts are with you. You need me,,, reach out. Very sorry bro!
-
My mom is sick
Very sick.
She's 60 but... In her big ol' hospital bed she looks like a shriveled 85 year old woman. Think... Gollum in the Tolkien books. That's what she looks like. A once beautiful woman. There's a laundry list of things that are wrong right now. One issue makes another worse which exacerbates another that ramps up a different problem... you get the picture. Every issue she's dealing with, however, boils down to ONE root problem... 45 years of smoking.
45 f'ng years. 2 years longer than I've been on earth.
Smoker ~ Dipper ~ Tobacco user in any form... if you are reading this and not quit?
Do. It. Now.
Don't put yourself through this hell. Don't put your family through this hell. Me? 269 days of taking my time on earth BACK!!!!!!
What about you?
Thoughts and prayers AJ. Glad as hell to be quit with you today.
X2
Prayers My Friend,Prayers....ODAAT
Praying for your mom and family AJ.
You tell them AJ!!. Our Thoughts and Prayers are with you and the family.
Prayers for your mom AJ.
I feel your pain. It is senseless and criminal really. Nicotine is a liar and a thief.
Tobacco has taken all of my grandparents and now both parents are living in very poor health because of it. Oxygen and the whole bit. Their lives will be most certainly be shortened.
This generational curse stops now. Quit with you AJ.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your mom! Thank you for the reminder again of why we are quit! This shit IS real! Hold your head up!
All the best AJ
We texted about this last night...when you step away, get your mind clear, and think about it....how can these products even be legal??
Praying for you and your family
PB
Thoughts and prayers AJ. Glad you are quit.
Wanted to take a sec and thank all that posted up with me, responded to my thread, or texted me over the weekend.
Thank you!
This brotherhood... SO damn cool!
Sorry to hear all of that AJ, but great point!
So sorry for your pain AJ.
I quit with you today. I am praying for you and your family.
Nictotine took my Mom and all of her family.
It's a lesson we don't get to "do over".
So glad you are here Today. Your mom must be proud of You.
Certainly have mad respect for you AJ. Sorry about your mother. 45 years ago, tobacco wasn't exposed as it is now. So sorry about what you have to experience. May you and your family have peace in your trials.
Man, I sat here reading this over and over, and I didn't know what to say.
I've been back in the fog the last few days, I think I've been a bit depressed since maybe day 5 or so. Then I quit caffeine, soda and junkfood/processed sugars last Thursday too, and I have been feeling extra depressed I guess. Since the cloud of unhappyfunk had no identifiable cause I don't know what else to call it but depression. I have been turning anything I can think of into another reason to be unhappy. And the whole time I know it's ludicrous and unreasonable and that just makes me unhappier. Haven't been in the mood to do much more than post roll, I haven't looked in the intro section for days. Feeling a little more upbeat this morning so I click on the intro's.
And I find out that one of my strongest supporters, who just texted me yesterday to check up on me, as suffering as he watches his Mom suffer the consequences of tobacco use. But Instead of letting it drag him down, he turns it into another reason to stay quit and uplift and motivate the rest of us.
The only job I could get as a new nurse was at gnarly old care and rehab center, a nursing home. Time after time I would tell people in their 40s and 50s how much better off they would be if they quit smoking. Time after time I would do the admission on a patient that had had a stroke and was going to be partially paralyzed for the rest of their lives, because of tobacco. Day after day I treating people suffering from diseases and illnesses directly related to tobacco use. Time after time I watched YOUNG people die of cancer, Diabetes, C.O.P.D. and emphysema and other terrible diseases directly related to their Tobacco use. Just like AJ says, they look like they are ancient, sick and dying, But they are in their only in their 40s 50s and 60s. I had a 19 year old kid with lung cancer, begging to go outside and smoke. I sat with a man on hospice, so frail, so thin, I could see every rib and the muscles inbetween them expand and contract as he fought to breath. I had to hold him so he could sit in a position that helped him breath as best he could, and he died in that position. I believe he was in his late 30s. I even once or twice said I could not believe any healthcare worker could possibly smoke, knowing how bad it was for them. And then I would go ninja dip in the bathroom every chance I could get...
Today is day 41 for me. I have a confession. I was going to cave on day 7. I really didn't want to, but I was going to cave. I had gone over and over every single reason why I hated dip and why I would never touch it again. Repeatedly. And the whole time, the craving was telling me exactly which 7-11 I was stopping at on my way home, and how great it was going to be. Man it was upsetting. Everything I could muster wanted to stay quit, but I knew that I was not stronger than the craving and I was going to fail. I got out to my car and was basically despairing inside. So I gave up. I grabbed my phone, opened my KTC badass quitters group and smashed my fat thumb into the first name on the list. "Applejack (Shane)"
He stayed on the phone with me till I was home. The craving was gone. I survived! *Note to others, never let calling or texting another quitter be your last resort :P*
Shane, Thank You. Because of you, my Family and I will be spared the hell your family and your mother are going through. Thank you for putting my pointless misery in perspective, and pulling me out of it. You have my deepest gratitude. All of my heart goes out to you and your family, and our prayers will definitely be with you and yours.
This is what it's all about. AJ has been a source of inspiration to many others in your spot as well Neon. Thanks for sharing the story, this is a powerful motivator to own the quit today.
Bro,,,,, sorry to hear, my thoughts are with you. You need me,,, reach out. Very sorry bro!
Hey Shane, sorry to hear the bad news. I understand because I've been down that same road with my mom. It's simply horrible what tobacco does to our loved ones health. But you are reversing that in your life and helping others do the same. Hats off to you bro.
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I feel like I'm padding my thread. I'm not! Really.
Helluva f'n week with my mom. What more can go wrong? My grandmother passed away last night. 65+ year smoker. Nothing in her body really worked right anymore. All from tobacco.
When do the fucking tobacco death merchants get their comeuppance!?
Stay quit. I am...
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I feel like I'm padding my thread. I'm not! Really.
Helluva f'n week with my mom. What more can go wrong? My grandmother passed away last night. 65+ year smoker. Nothing in her body really worked right anymore. All from tobacco.
When do the fucking tobacco death merchants get their comeuppance!?
Stay quit. I am...
Shane, so sorry to hear that news. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Nope. Not padding. It's sharing the loss of life and loved ones so that Big Tobacco and probably select FDA and Govt cronies can line their pockets. If it had never been available and legal, we probably wouldn't be dealing with this addiction and destruction.
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I feel like I'm padding my thread. I'm not! Really.
Helluva f'n week with my mom. What more can go wrong? My grandmother passed away last night. 65+ year smoker. Nothing in her body really worked right anymore. All from tobacco.
When do the fucking tobacco death merchants get their comeuppance!?
Stay quit. I am...
Shane, so sorry to hear that news. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Nope. Not padding. It's sharing the loss of life and loved ones so that Big Tobacco and probably select FDA and Govt cronies can line their pockets. If it had never been available and legal, we probably wouldn't be dealing with this addiction and destruction.
condolences brother
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I feel like I'm padding my thread. I'm not! Really.
Helluva f'n week with my mom. What more can go wrong? My grandmother passed away last night. 65+ year smoker. Nothing in her body really worked right anymore. All from tobacco.
When do the fucking tobacco death merchants get their comeuppance!?
Stay quit. I am...
Shane, so sorry to hear that news. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Nope. Not padding. It's sharing the loss of life and loved ones so that Big Tobacco and probably select FDA and Govt cronies can line their pockets. If it had never been available and legal, we probably wouldn't be dealing with this addiction and destruction.
condolences brother
^^^^both of these, x2 bro
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I feel like I'm padding my thread. I'm not! Really.
Helluva f'n week with my mom. What more can go wrong? My grandmother passed away last night. 65+ year smoker. Nothing in her body really worked right anymore. All from tobacco.
When do the fucking tobacco death merchants get their comeuppance!?
Stay quit. I am...
Shane, so sorry to hear that news. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Nope. Not padding. It's sharing the loss of life and loved ones so that Big Tobacco and probably select FDA and Govt cronies can line their pockets. If it had never been available and legal, we probably wouldn't be dealing with this addiction and destruction.
condolences brother
^^^^both of these, x2 bro
More like community service than padding AJ. Thoughts and prayers with you and your family. Nicotine sucks... What it has done to your family sucks. You are the future. Remember that.
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I feel like I'm padding my thread. I'm not! Really.
Helluva f'n week with my mom. What more can go wrong? My grandmother passed away last night. 65+ year smoker. Nothing in her body really worked right anymore. All from tobacco.
When do the fucking tobacco death merchants get their comeuppance!?
Stay quit. I am...
Shane, so sorry to hear that news. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Nope. Not padding. It's sharing the loss of life and loved ones so that Big Tobacco and probably select FDA and Govt cronies can line their pockets. If it had never been available and legal, we probably wouldn't be dealing with this addiction and destruction.
condolences brother
^^^^both of these, x2 bro
More like community service than padding AJ. Thoughts and prayers with you and your family. Nicotine sucks... What it has done to your family sucks. You are the future. Remember that.
I agree^^^^^^ The more you write, the more you recover and learn about yourself. You are now on a journey (adventure) to discover how to deal with life on life's terms. You are going through a time where chewing was your security blanket. Now without it, how are you coping? I have lost loved ones and its a strange time. My heart goes out to you. Never forget and always remember the good times and you will smile.
Please never be embarrassed to vent, rage, question, express gratitude etc. I wrote novels. Each time I wrote, I became more committed never to lose to nicotine. I talked too much trash to cave.
Writing is helpful. To you, to me and to the community. "Take what you need and leave the rest" can also be said, Give more than you think you should, let others chose to take it or leave it but this is your journal and write as often as you need, want or feel you should.
You will help yourself and never know the impact of what you write....how it serves to inspire and help other quitters.
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I feel like I'm padding my thread. I'm not! Really.
Helluva f'n week with my mom. What more can go wrong? My grandmother passed away last night. 65+ year smoker. Nothing in her body really worked right anymore. All from tobacco.
When do the fucking tobacco death merchants get their comeuppance!?
Stay quit. I am...
Shane, so sorry to hear that news. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Nope. Not padding. It's sharing the loss of life and loved ones so that Big Tobacco and probably select FDA and Govt cronies can line their pockets. If it had never been available and legal, we probably wouldn't be dealing with this addiction and destruction.
condolences brother
^^^^both of these, x2 bro
More like community service than padding AJ. Thoughts and prayers with you and your family. Nicotine sucks... What it has done to your family sucks. You are the future. Remember that.
I agree^^^^^^ The more you write, the more you recover and learn about yourself. You are now on a journey (adventure) to discover how to deal with life on life's terms. You are going through a time where chewing was your security blanket. Now without it, how are you coping? I have lost loved ones and its a strange time. My heart goes out to you. Never forget and always remember the good times and you will smile.
Please never be embarrassed to vent, rage, question, express gratitude etc. I wrote novels. Each time I wrote, I became more committed never to lose to nicotine. I talked too much trash to cave.
Writing is helpful. To you, to me and to the community. "Take what you need and leave the rest" can also be said, Give more than you think you should, let others chose to take it or leave it but this is your journal and write as often as you need, want or feel you should.
You will help yourself and never know the impact of what you write....how it serves to inspire and help other quitters.
sorry to hear that AJ. Thoughts and prayers from the tarp family.
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I feel like I'm padding my thread. I'm not! Really.
Helluva f'n week with my mom. What more can go wrong? My grandmother passed away last night. 65+ year smoker. Nothing in her body really worked right anymore. All from tobacco.
When do the fucking tobacco death merchants get their comeuppance!?
Stay quit. I am...
Shane, so sorry to hear that news. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Nope. Not padding. It's sharing the loss of life and loved ones so that Big Tobacco and probably select FDA and Govt cronies can line their pockets. If it had never been available and legal, we probably wouldn't be dealing with this addiction and destruction.
condolences brother
^^^^both of these, x2 bro
More like community service than padding AJ. Thoughts and prayers with you and your family. Nicotine sucks... What it has done to your family sucks. You are the future. Remember that.
Damn, really sorry to hear about your grandma, and your mom, Shane. You ever need anything or need to vent, just text or call, you got my digits bro.
Rick
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I feel like I'm padding my thread. I'm not! Really.
Helluva f'n week with my mom. What more can go wrong? My grandmother passed away last night. 65+ year smoker. Nothing in her body really worked right anymore. All from tobacco.
When do the fucking tobacco death merchants get their comeuppance!?
Stay quit. I am...
Shane, so sorry to hear that news. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Nope. Not padding. It's sharing the loss of life and loved ones so that Big Tobacco and probably select FDA and Govt cronies can line their pockets. If it had never been available and legal, we probably wouldn't be dealing with this addiction and destruction.
condolences brother
^^^^both of these, x2 bro
More like community service than padding AJ. Thoughts and prayers with you and your family. Nicotine sucks... What it has done to your family sucks. You are the future. Remember that.
Damn, really sorry to hear about your grandma, and your mom, Shane. You ever need anything or need to vent, just text or call, you got my digits bro.
Rick
Damn, brother, I hope the shitstorm of life stops raining on you at some point soon! My condolences, text or call if you need to vent brother.
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I feel like I'm padding my thread. I'm not! Really.
Helluva f'n week with my mom. What more can go wrong? My grandmother passed away last night. 65+ year smoker. Nothing in her body really worked right anymore. All from tobacco.
When do the fucking tobacco death merchants get their comeuppance!?
Stay quit. I am...
Shane, so sorry to hear that news. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Nope. Not padding. It's sharing the loss of life and loved ones so that Big Tobacco and probably select FDA and Govt cronies can line their pockets. If it had never been available and legal, we probably wouldn't be dealing with this addiction and destruction.
condolences brother
^^^^both of these, x2 bro
More like community service than padding AJ. Thoughts and prayers with you and your family. Nicotine sucks... What it has done to your family sucks. You are the future. Remember that.
Damn, really sorry to hear about your grandma, and your mom, Shane. You ever need anything or need to vent, just text or call, you got my digits bro.
Rick
Damn, brother, I hope the shitstorm of life stops raining on you at some point soon! My condolences, text or call if you need to vent brother.
no matter how big the storm, it ALWAYS moves on.. sunny days will come i guarantee. prayers with you
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I feel like I'm padding my thread. I'm not! Really.
Helluva f'n week with my mom. What more can go wrong? My grandmother passed away last night. 65+ year smoker. Nothing in her body really worked right anymore. All from tobacco.
When do the fucking tobacco death merchants get their comeuppance!?
Stay quit. I am...
Shane, so sorry to hear that news. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Nope. Not padding. It's sharing the loss of life and loved ones so that Big Tobacco and probably select FDA and Govt cronies can line their pockets. If it had never been available and legal, we probably wouldn't be dealing with this addiction and destruction.
condolences brother
^^^^both of these, x2 bro
More like community service than padding AJ. Thoughts and prayers with you and your family. Nicotine sucks... What it has done to your family sucks. You are the future. Remember that.
Damn, really sorry to hear about your grandma, and your mom, Shane. You ever need anything or need to vent, just text or call, you got my digits bro.
Rick
Damn, brother, I hope the shitstorm of life stops raining on you at some point soon! My condolences, text or call if you need to vent brother.
I think it's pretty clear that tobacco use is often passed from parent's to their children, and on and on. You broke the chain! You are not only saving your own life but your childen, and their children. How long would that cycle have gone on if you didn't choose to Quit?
I can't imagine my boys, when they become teenagers, taking me very seriously when I try to tell them not to use nicotine if I was dipping! 1. They want to be like Dad, and 2. Teens like to rebel! If my Dad had told meI was not allowed to do something that we did all the time... Nevermind, I think you get the picture. You're a hero man and you have my deepest condolences.
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I feel like I'm padding my thread. I'm not! Really.
Helluva f'n week with my mom. What more can go wrong? My grandmother passed away last night. 65+ year smoker. Nothing in her body really worked right anymore. All from tobacco.
When do the fucking tobacco death merchants get their comeuppance!?
Stay quit. I am...
Shane, so sorry to hear that news. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Nope. Not padding. It's sharing the loss of life and loved ones so that Big Tobacco and probably select FDA and Govt cronies can line their pockets. If it had never been available and legal, we probably wouldn't be dealing with this addiction and destruction.
condolences brother
^^^^both of these, x2 bro
More like community service than padding AJ. Thoughts and prayers with you and your family. Nicotine sucks... What it has done to your family sucks. You are the future. Remember that.
Damn, really sorry to hear about your grandma, and your mom, Shane. You ever need anything or need to vent, just text or call, you got my digits bro.
Rick
Damn, brother, I hope the shitstorm of life stops raining on you at some point soon! My condolences, text or call if you need to vent brother.
I think it's pretty clear that tobacco use is often passed from parent's to their children, and on and on. You broke the chain! You are not only saving your own life but your childen, and their children. How long would that cycle have gone on if you didn't choose to Quit?
I can't imagine my boys, when they become teenagers, taking me very seriously when I try to tell them not to use nicotine if I was dipping! 1. They want to be like Dad, and 2. Teens like to rebel! If my Dad had told meI was not allowed to do something that we did all the time... Nevermind, I think you get the picture. You're a hero man and you have my deepest condolences.
I haven't been in Intros for a while. Glad I popped in. I'm really sorry for your loss, AJ. I always say that I wouldn't wish nicotine addiction or its health consequences on my worst enemy. I certainly don't like it affecting my friends or their family. Hang in there.
And, echoing NeonPanther's thoughts, I agree and the science backs it up (http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/11347360): one of the few things that we can actually do to influence our kids is keep nicotine out of our lives. KTC isn't just saving our lives . . . it's saving our progeny!
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Helluva month.
My mom and her health have been dealt with... She's doing better.
My grandmothers death has been dealt with... We're all doing better.
8 days from 300... Quit is getting better!
Dip dreams like I'm on acid the last 2 nights. WTF!? Apparently my dream self is a huge asshole who would just dip and turn away from all that work? I barely slept it bugged the hell out of me!
8 days from 300. I posted my promise to be clean. My dream self can suck it! I'm quit. 300 is mine.
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Helluva month.
My mom and her health have been dealt with... She's doing better.
My grandmothers death has been dealt with... We're all doing better.
8 days from 300... Quit is getting better!
Dip dreams like I'm on acid the last 2 nights. WTF!? Apparently my dream self is a huge asshole who would just dip and turn away from all that work? I barely slept it bugged the hell out of me!
8 days from 300. I posted my promise to be clean. My dream self can suck it! I'm quit. 300 is mine.
I'm glad to hear things are getting better AJ, almost to 300 man that is so awesome, you definatly know how to own your quit, I'm following in your foot steps ODAAT, if you need anything you got my number
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Helluva month.
My mom and her health have been dealt with... She's doing better.
My grandmothers death has been dealt with... We're all doing better.
8 days from 300... Quit is getting better!
Dip dreams like I'm on acid the last 2 nights. WTF!? Apparently my dream self is a huge asshole who would just dip and turn away from all that work? I barely slept it bugged the hell out of me!
8 days from 300. I posted my promise to be clean. My dream self can suck it! I'm quit. 300 is mine.
I'm glad to hear things are getting better AJ, almost to 300 man that is so awesome, you definatly know how to own your quit, I'm following in your foot steps ODAAT, if you need anything you got my number
'clap' I'm loving it bro.....Quit on my friend!!!!
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Helluva month.
My mom and her health have been dealt with... She's doing better.
My grandmothers death has been dealt with... We're all doing better.
8 days from 300... Quit is getting better!
Dip dreams like I'm on acid the last 2 nights. WTF!? Apparently my dream self is a huge asshole who would just dip and turn away from all that work? I barely slept it bugged the hell out of me!
8 days from 300. I posted my promise to be clean. My dream self can suck it! I'm quit. 300 is mine.
I'm glad to hear things are getting better AJ, almost to 300 man that is so awesome, you definatly know how to own your quit, I'm following in your foot steps ODAAT, if you need anything you got my number
'clap' I'm loving it bro.....Quit on my friend!!!!
You got this AJ... In my dreams, you're not an asshole, but rather a tender and caring gentle man... LMAO had to do it 'boob'
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Helluva month.
My mom and her health have been dealt with... She's doing better.
My grandmothers death has been dealt with... We're all doing better.
8 days from 300... Quit is getting better!
Dip dreams like I'm on acid the last 2 nights. WTF!? Apparently my dream self is a huge asshole who would just dip and turn away from all that work? I barely slept it bugged the hell out of me!
8 days from 300. I posted my promise to be clean. My dream self can suck it! I'm quit. 300 is mine.
I'm glad to hear things are getting better AJ, almost to 300 man that is so awesome, you definatly know how to own your quit, I'm following in your foot steps ODAAT, if you need anything you got my number
'clap' I'm loving it bro.....Quit on my friend!!!!
You got this AJ... In my dreams, you're not an asshole, but rather a tender and caring gentle man... LMAO had to do it 'boob'
Nice quitting. Keep fighting!!
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Helluva month.
My mom and her health have been dealt with... She's doing better.
My grandmothers death has been dealt with... We're all doing better.
8 days from 300... Quit is getting better!
Dip dreams like I'm on acid the last 2 nights. WTF!? Apparently my dream self is a huge asshole who would just dip and turn away from all that work? I barely slept it bugged the hell out of me!
8 days from 300. I posted my promise to be clean. My dream self can suck it! I'm quit. 300 is mine.
I'm glad to hear things are getting better AJ, almost to 300 man that is so awesome, you definatly know how to own your quit, I'm following in your foot steps ODAAT, if you need anything you got my number
'clap' I'm loving it bro.....Quit on my friend!!!!
You got this AJ... In my dreams, you're not an asshole, but rather a tender and caring gentle man... LMAO had to do it 'boob'
Nice quitting. Keep fighting!!
At least you got to feel like you were on acid...
Glad you are quit bro. Keep killing it.
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Helluva month.
My mom and her health have been dealt with... She's doing better.
My grandmothers death has been dealt with... We're all doing better.
8 days from 300... Quit is getting better!
Dip dreams like I'm on acid the last 2 nights. WTF!? Apparently my dream self is a huge asshole who would just dip and turn away from all that work? I barely slept it bugged the hell out of me!
8 days from 300. I posted my promise to be clean. My dream self can suck it! I'm quit. 300 is mine.
I'm glad to hear things are getting better AJ, almost to 300 man that is so awesome, you definatly know how to own your quit, I'm following in your foot steps ODAAT, if you need anything you got my number
'clap' I'm loving it bro.....Quit on my friend!!!!
You got this AJ... In my dreams, you're not an asshole, but rather a tender and caring gentle man... LMAO had to do it 'boob'
Nice quitting. Keep fighting!!
At least you got to feel like you were on acid...
Glad you are quit bro. Keep killing it.
Well done AJ. Keep on trucking.
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Helluva month.
My mom and her health have been dealt with... She's doing better.
My grandmothers death has been dealt with... We're all doing better.
8 days from 300... Quit is getting better!
Dip dreams like I'm on acid the last 2 nights. WTF!? Apparently my dream self is a huge asshole who would just dip and turn away from all that work? I barely slept it bugged the hell out of me!
8 days from 300. I posted my promise to be clean. My dream self can suck it! I'm quit. 300 is mine.
I'm glad to hear things are getting better AJ, almost to 300 man that is so awesome, you definatly know how to own your quit, I'm following in your foot steps ODAAT, if you need anything you got my number
'clap' I'm loving it bro.....Quit on my friend!!!!
You got this AJ... In my dreams, you're not an asshole, but rather a tender and caring gentle man... LMAO had to do it 'boob'
Nice quitting. Keep fighting!!
At least you got to feel like you were on acid...
Glad you are quit bro. Keep killing it.
Well done AJ. Keep on trucking.
That AppleJack is one bad mother, hush your mouth...
You sir are a role model among quitters. Your dream self can kiss your whole ass, because the real AppleJack is not an asshole.
P
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AJ ???? WTF??? would I do without you. YOu and ParaDawg and the Doc 2 /Quit are my quit masters. You may not know what you got brother but you have a gift. Keep up the quit and stick with mogul. I need your sorry ass.
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AJ ???? WTF??? would I do without you. YOu and ParaDawg and the Doc 2 /Quit are my quit masters. You may not know what you got brother but you have a gift. Keep up the quit and stick with mogul. I need your sorry ass.
I'm just quitting like you are bro. Nothing special here.
Rock on my bruthas!......
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THREE HUNDRED DAYS!!
April 17, 2013... My day 1. Today might as well have been a decade away. I've learned a lot since that first day. Today is another day... Easier than the 1st one but still another singular day. I'm thankful for each one and each one of you. Rock on y'all...
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THREE HUNDRED DAYS!!
April 17, 2013... My day 1. Today might as well have been a decade away. I've learned a lot since that first day. Today is another day... Easier than the 1st one but still another singular day. I'm thankful for each one and each one of you. Rock on y'all...
300 is awesome! Congrats brother!
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THREE HUNDRED DAYS!!
April 17, 2013... My day 1. Today might as well have been a decade away. I've learned a lot since that first day. Today is another day... Easier than the 1st one but still another singular day. I'm thankful for each one and each one of you. Rock on y'all...
You are a true leader, a great person, and a loyal friend. Congratulations Shane on a big accomplishment today! Every one of these milestones gets a little easier and more rewarding. Your part in keeping so many of us accountable cannot be quantified - so I will just say... Thank you. Enjoy today, more greatness lies ahead.
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THREE HUNDRED DAYS!!
April 17, 2013... My day 1. Today might as well have been a decade away. I've learned a lot since that first day. Today is another day... Easier than the 1st one but still another singular day. I'm thankful for each one and each one of you. Rock on y'all...
You are a true leader, a great person, and a loyal friend. Congratulations Shane on a big accomplishment today! Every one of these milestones gets a little easier and more rewarding. Your part in keeping so many of us accountable cannot be quantified - so I will just say... Thank you. Enjoy today, more greatness lies ahead.
What he said
Thank you for your support. You are a big part of my 71 +1s. Congrats on the 3rd floor..you are the real deal
Pb
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THREE HUNDRED DAYS!!
April 17, 2013... My day 1. Today might as well have been a decade away. I've learned a lot since that first day. Today is another day... Easier than the 1st one but still another singular day. I'm thankful for each one and each one of you. Rock on y'all...
You are a true leader, a great person, and a loyal friend. Congratulations Shane on a big accomplishment today! Every one of these milestones gets a little easier and more rewarding. Your part in keeping so many of us accountable cannot be quantified - so I will just say... Thank you. Enjoy today, more greatness lies ahead.
What he said
Thank you for your support. You are a big part of my 71 +1s. Congrats on the 3rd floor..you are the real deal
Pb
Nice trifecta brother!
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THREE HUNDRED DAYS!!
April 17, 2013... My day 1. Today might as well have been a decade away. I've learned a lot since that first day. Today is another day... Easier than the 1st one but still another singular day. I'm thankful for each one and each one of you. Rock on y'all...
You are a true leader, a great person, and a loyal friend. Congratulations Shane on a big accomplishment today! Every one of these milestones gets a little easier and more rewarding. Your part in keeping so many of us accountable cannot be quantified - so I will just say... Thank you. Enjoy today, more greatness lies ahead.
What he said
Thank you for your support. You are a big part of my 71 +1s. Congrats on the 3rd floor..you are the real deal
Pb
Nice trifecta brother!
Congrats AJ! You are a good example of how to quit! Your active here and you invest much time to help people who need a hand. Enjoy the day bro! You deserve the pride your feeling. Especially after some of the stuff you dealt with the last month or two.
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THREE HUNDRED DAYS!!
April 17, 2013... My day 1. Today might as well have been a decade away. I've learned a lot since that first day. Today is another day... Easier than the 1st one but still another singular day. I'm thankful for each one and each one of you. Rock on y'all...
You are a true leader, a great person, and a loyal friend. Congratulations Shane on a big accomplishment today! Every one of these milestones gets a little easier and more rewarding. Your part in keeping so many of us accountable cannot be quantified - so I will just say... Thank you. Enjoy today, more greatness lies ahead.
What he said
Thank you for your support. You are a big part of my 71 +1s. Congrats on the 3rd floor..you are the real deal
Pb
Nice trifecta brother!
Congrats AJ! You are a good example of how to quit! Your active here and you invest much time to help people who need a hand. Enjoy the day bro! You deserve the pride your feeling. Especially after some of the stuff you dealt with the last month or two.
Congratulation AJ on this monumental occasion! You, just like your other brother Trauma are a pillar to the Junk Free July Quit group. I'm just glad that I'm a few weeks ahead of you because I would hate for you to have to ride my ass to stay quit... Just kidding brother. You have given a lot of support to a lot of peeps here and I know you have been deeply disappointed in a few of them. I admire that in you, you are willing to go that much further than a lot of people would normally go in helping someone quit. You have been the tree that I have leaned on in my quit. You have been the one that has given me reason when I have been unreasonable... Starting to sound like a damn Hallmark card... You know the drill, quit on brother. Really proud to be quit with you these past 300 days.
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Three hundred days
No dip to pack.
Thats fucking quitting,
Thats AppleJack.
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Three hundred days
No dip to pack.
Thats fucking quitting,
Thats AppleJack.
Niiiice aj.
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Three hundred days
No dip to pack.
Thats fucking quitting,
Thats AppleJack.
Niiiice aj.
Nice job on 3rd floor AJ!
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Three hundred days
No dip to pack.
Thats fucking quitting,
Thats AppleJack.
Niiiice aj.
Nice job on 3rd floor AJ!
Well done Brother! Quit with you all day.
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Three hundred days
No dip to pack.
Thats fucking quitting,
Thats AppleJack.
Niiiice aj.
Nice job on 3rd floor AJ!
Well done Brother! Quit with you all day.
'clap' AJ
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Three hundred days
No dip to pack.
Thats fucking quitting,
Thats AppleJack.
Niiiice aj.
Nice job on 3rd floor AJ!
Well done Brother! Quit with you all day.
'clap' AJ
Awesome!
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THREE HUNDRED DAYS!!
April 17, 2013... My day 1. Today might as well have been a decade away. I've learned a lot since that first day. Today is another day... Easier than the 1st one but still another singular day. I'm thankful for each one and each one of you. Rock on y'all...
You are a true leader, a great person, and a loyal friend. Congratulations Shane on a big accomplishment today! Every one of these milestones gets a little easier and more rewarding. Your part in keeping so many of us accountable cannot be quantified - so I will just say... Thank you. Enjoy today, more greatness lies ahead.
What he said
Thank you for your support. You are a big part of my 71 +1s. Congrats on the 3rd floor..you are the real deal
Pb
Complete bad ass right there
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Three hundred days
No dip to pack.
Thats fucking quitting,
Thats AppleJack.
Niiiice aj.
Nice job on 3rd floor AJ!
Well done Brother! Quit with you all day.
'clap' AJ
Awesome!
'BanDog' had to give them to u AJ your a badass keep up the strong work...ain't those bananas kewl
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Three hundred days
No dip to pack.
Thats fucking quitting,
Thats AppleJack.
Niiiice aj.
Nice job on 3rd floor AJ!
Well done Brother! Quit with you all day.
'clap' AJ
Awesome!
'BanDog' had to give them to u AJ your a badass keep up the strong work...ain't those bananas kewl
I gotta pile on, Congrats! you deserve a GREAT day!
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Three hundred days
No dip to pack.
Thats fucking quitting,
Thats AppleJack.
Niiiice aj.
Nice job on 3rd floor AJ!
Well done Brother! Quit with you all day.
'clap' AJ
Awesome!
'BanDog' had to give them to u AJ your a badass keep up the strong work...ain't those bananas kewl
I gotta pile on, Congrats! you deserve a GREAT day!
300 days of Fapping in lieu of Dipping...CONGRATS AJ!
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Three hundred days
No dip to pack.
Thats fucking quitting,
Thats AppleJack.
Niiiice aj.
Nice job on 3rd floor AJ!
Well done Brother! Quit with you all day.
'clap' AJ
Awesome!
'BanDog' had to give them to u AJ your a badass keep up the strong work...ain't those bananas kewl
I gotta pile on, Congrats! you deserve a GREAT day!
300 days of Fapping in lieu of Dipping...CONGRATS AJ!
Way to go AJ!
'oh yeah'
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Three hundred days
No dip to pack.
Thats fucking quitting,
Thats AppleJack.
Niiiice aj.
Nice job on 3rd floor AJ!
Well done Brother! Quit with you all day.
'clap' AJ
Awesome!
'BanDog' had to give them to u AJ your a badass keep up the strong work...ain't those bananas kewl
I gotta pile on, Congrats! you deserve a GREAT day!
300 days of Fapping in lieu of Dipping...CONGRATS AJ!
Way to go AJ!
'oh yeah'
Congrats on 300!!
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Three hundred days
No dip to pack.
Thats fucking quitting,
Thats AppleJack.
Niiiice aj.
Nice job on 3rd floor AJ!
Well done Brother! Quit with you all day.
'clap' AJ
Awesome!
'BanDog' had to give them to u AJ your a badass keep up the strong work...ain't those bananas kewl
I gotta pile on, Congrats! you deserve a GREAT day!
300 days of Fapping in lieu of Dipping...CONGRATS AJ!
Way to go AJ!
'oh yeah'
Congrats on 300!!
Congrats to the first KTC bad ass to reach out to me!!!! 300 days ago was the first day of the rest of your life! Proud to quit with you!
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Three hundred days
No dip to pack.
Thats fucking quitting,
Thats AppleJack.
Niiiice aj.
Nice job on 3rd floor AJ!
Well done Brother! Quit with you all day.
'clap' AJ
Awesome!
'BanDog' had to give them to u AJ your a badass keep up the strong work...ain't those bananas kewl
I gotta pile on, Congrats! you deserve a GREAT day!
300 days of Fapping in lieu of Dipping...CONGRATS AJ!
Way to go AJ!
'oh yeah'
Congrats on 300!!
Congrats to the first KTC bad ass to reach out to me!!!! 300 days ago was the first day of the rest of your life! Proud to quit with you!
Nice 3rd floor bro! Proud to be quit with u!
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Three hundred days
No dip to pack.
Thats fucking quitting,
Thats AppleJack.
Niiiice aj.
Nice job on 3rd floor AJ!
Well done Brother! Quit with you all day.
'clap' AJ
Awesome!
'BanDog' had to give them to u AJ your a badass keep up the strong work...ain't those bananas kewl
I gotta pile on, Congrats! you deserve a GREAT day!
300 days of Fapping in lieu of Dipping...CONGRATS AJ!
Way to go AJ!
'oh yeah'
Congrats on 300!!
Congrats to the first KTC bad ass to reach out to me!!!! 300 days ago was the first day of the rest of your life! Proud to quit with you!
Nice 3rd floor bro! Proud to be quit with u!
yeah! nice job AJ
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Three hundred days
No dip to pack.
Thats fucking quitting,
Thats AppleJack.
Niiiice aj.
Nice job on 3rd floor AJ!
Well done Brother! Quit with you all day.
'clap' AJ
Awesome!
'BanDog' had to give them to u AJ your a badass keep up the strong work...ain't those bananas kewl
I gotta pile on, Congrats! you deserve a GREAT day!
300 days of Fapping in lieu of Dipping...CONGRATS AJ!
Way to go AJ!
'oh yeah'
Congrats on 300!!
Congrats to the first KTC bad ass to reach out to me!!!! 300 days ago was the first day of the rest of your life! Proud to quit with you!
Nice 3rd floor bro! Proud to be quit with u!
yeah! nice job AJ
Turn It up! Congrats AJ!
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Three hundred days
No dip to pack.
Thats fucking quitting,
Thats AppleJack.
Niiiice aj.
Nice job on 3rd floor AJ!
Well done Brother! Quit with you all day.
'clap' AJ
Awesome!
'BanDog' had to give them to u AJ your a badass keep up the strong work...ain't those bananas kewl
I gotta pile on, Congrats! you deserve a GREAT day!
300 days of Fapping in lieu of Dipping...CONGRATS AJ!
Way to go AJ!
'oh yeah'
Congrats on 300!!
Congrats to the first KTC bad ass to reach out to me!!!! 300 days ago was the first day of the rest of your life! Proud to quit with you!
Nice 3rd floor bro! Proud to be quit with u!
yeah! nice job AJ
Turn It up! Congrats AJ!
Damn fine job of quittn bro !!! Thanks for blazing us noobs such an awesome trail to follow.
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I wish I could write better, y'know?
I'm 35 days away from being a year quit. I can barely comprehend that thought let alone put it into words!
Been thinking about time... And freedom. I have both now and they mean something completely different than they did 330 days ago. Freedom was a need to be rid of the weight of all the time my addiction took. I... Was an absolute junkie. Every part of every day was an exercise in, damn near constant, time management. Is my store open? How early do I have to leave so I can still get dip and be on time? Do I have time to hit the store before I'm late in picking up my daughter from school? It's midnight and I have to get up earlier than my store opens... Should I go now? How early should I load the SUV for vacation so I can hide my shit in a really clever spot (and pat myself on the back for my cleverness in dooshbaggery)? How long can I keep this one in before people are around? It wasn't that long... Should I recycle it for later? When can I take a 1 hr shower so I can shave and dip? Blahblahblahyadayadayada. I could go on and on.
See? Every. Waking. Moment.
I won't berate myself or bemoan the loss because it's past. I'm done. I'm quit.
So, today?... Freedom! It's not just the daily beat down of my addiction and being free of its unbearable weight... It's also the release of the burden to manage it. My time is spent living my life... instead of wasting it.
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I wish I could write better, y'know?
I'm 35 days away from being a year quit. I can barely comprehend that thought let alone put it into words!
Been thinking about time... And freedom. I have both now and they mean something completely different than they did 330 days ago. Freedom was a need to be rid of the weight of all the time my addiction took. I... Was an absolute junkie. Every part of every day was an exercise in, damn near constant, time management. Is my store open? How early do I have to leave so I can still get dip and be on time? Do I have time to hit the store before I'm late in picking up my daughter from school? It's midnight and I have to get up earlier than my store opens... Should I go now? How early should I load the SUV for vacation so I can hide my shit in a really clever spot (and pat myself on the back for my cleverness in dooshbaggery)? How long can I keep this one in before people are around? It wasn't that long... Should I recycle it for later? When can I take a 1 hr shower so I can shave and dip? Blahblahblahyadayadayada. I could go on and on.
See? Every. Waking. Moment.
I won't berate myself or bemoan the loss because it's past. I'm done. I'm quit.
So, today?... Freedom! It's not just the daily beat down of my addiction and being free of its unbearable weight... It's also the release of the burden to manage it. My time is spent living my life... instead of wasting it.
You keep writing and I'll keep reading. Proud to be on this journey with u.
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I wish I could write better, y'know?
I'm 35 days away from being a year quit. I can barely comprehend that thought let alone put it into words!
Been thinking about time... And freedom. I have both now and they mean something completely different than they did 330 days ago. Freedom was a need to be rid of the weight of all the time my addiction took. I... Was an absolute junkie. Every part of every day was an exercise in, damn near constant, time management. Is my store open? How early do I have to leave so I can still get dip and be on time? Do I have time to hit the store before I'm late in picking up my daughter from school? It's midnight and I have to get up earlier than my store opens... Should I go now? How early should I load the SUV for vacation so I can hide my shit in a really clever spot (and pat myself on the back for my cleverness in dooshbaggery)? How long can I keep this one in before people are around? It wasn't that long... Should I recycle it for later? When can I take a 1 hr shower so I can shave and dip? Blahblahblahyadayadayada. I could go on and on.
See? Every. Waking. Moment.
I won't berate myself or bemoan the loss because it's past. I'm done. I'm quit.
So, today?... Freedom! It's not just the daily beat down of my addiction and being free of its unbearable weight... It's also the release of the burden to manage it. My time is spent living my life... instead of wasting it.
A big inspiration for me today, showing that it can be done. I'm on day 11 and it's been tough, but I'm determined to be able to write a post like that when I'm almost at a year quit. Thank you for your post!
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I wish I could write better, y'know?
I'm 35 days away from being a year quit. I can barely comprehend that thought let alone put it into words!
Been thinking about time... And freedom. I have both now and they mean something completely different than they did 330 days ago. Freedom was a need to be rid of the weight of all the time my addiction took. I... Was an absolute junkie. Every part of every day was an exercise in, damn near constant, time management. Is my store open? How early do I have to leave so I can still get dip and be on time? Do I have time to hit the store before I'm late in picking up my daughter from school? It's midnight and I have to get up earlier than my store opens... Should I go now? How early should I load the SUV for vacation so I can hide my shit in a really clever spot (and pat myself on the back for my cleverness in dooshbaggery)? How long can I keep this one in before people are around? It wasn't that long... Should I recycle it for later? When can I take a 1 hr shower so I can shave and dip? Blahblahblahyadayadayada. I could go on and on.
See? Every. Waking. Moment.
I won't berate myself or bemoan the loss because it's past. I'm done. I'm quit.
So, today?... Freedom! It's not just the daily beat down of my addiction and being free of its unbearable weight... It's also the release of the burden to manage it. My time is spent living my life... instead of wasting it.
When I signed up on KTC AJ was the first person to reach out to me via PM and the first I texted with. He said things like "Congrats on taking back your Freedom" and "Isn't freedom beautiful?". Every message said something about freedom.
I remember thinking this dude really likes Bravehart...that's cool. Whatever works.
Then that morning I walked past my tool chest without reaching into my screw driver drawer for my dip. I drove past my dip store and didn't stop. I bought a cup of coffee and didn't dump it out to spit in it. I didn't disappear from my desk for a half hour to have a fake-shit/dip session. I went home and didn't have to pat myself down to make sure I hid my tin from my wife. I went to bed at the same time as my wife instead of staying up to pack my face with poison.
That night I realized what AJ was talking about. I was free and it really was beautiful.
Keep leading the way AJ...I'm right behind you.
PB
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AJ, if they had a show on NatGeo about quitting you would be on it. Dude you have owned this right from the start and set an example for all others to follow.
There are those that emerge on this site and you know they have, it was you!
Great work brother! Ill quit with you any day sugar smacks.
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I wish I could write better, y'know?
I'm 35 days away from being a year quit. I can barely comprehend that thought let alone put it into words!
Been thinking about time... And freedom. I have both now and they mean something completely different than they did 330 days ago. Freedom was a need to be rid of the weight of all the time my addiction took. I... Was an absolute junkie. Every part of every day was an exercise in, damn near constant, time management. Is my store open? How early do I have to leave so I can still get dip and be on time? Do I have time to hit the store before I'm late in picking up my daughter from school? It's midnight and I have to get up earlier than my store opens... Should I go now? How early should I load the SUV for vacation so I can hide my shit in a really clever spot (and pat myself on the back for my cleverness in dooshbaggery)? How long can I keep this one in before people are around? It wasn't that long... Should I recycle it for later? When can I take a 1 hr shower so I can shave and dip? Blahblahblahyadayadayada. I could go on and on.
See? Every. Waking. Moment.
I won't berate myself or bemoan the loss because it's past. I'm done. I'm quit.
So, today?... Freedom! It's not just the daily beat down of my addiction and being free of its unbearable weight... It's also the release of the burden to manage it. My time is spent living my life... instead of wasting it.
Posted in Words of Wisdom. Thanks for writing.
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I wish I could write better, y'know?
I'm 35 days away from being a year quit. I can barely comprehend that thought let alone put it into words!
Been thinking about time... And freedom. I have both now and they mean something completely different than they did 330 days ago. Freedom was a need to be rid of the weight of all the time my addiction took. I... Was an absolute junkie. Every part of every day was an exercise in, damn near constant, time management. Is my store open? How early do I have to leave so I can still get dip and be on time? Do I have time to hit the store before I'm late in picking up my daughter from school? It's midnight and I have to get up earlier than my store opens... Should I go now? How early should I load the SUV for vacation so I can hide my shit in a really clever spot (and pat myself on the back for my cleverness in dooshbaggery)? How long can I keep this one in before people are around? It wasn't that long... Should I recycle it for later? When can I take a 1 hr shower so I can shave and dip? Blahblahblahyadayadayada. I could go on and on.
See? Every. Waking. Moment.
I won't berate myself or bemoan the loss because it's past. I'm done. I'm quit.
So, today?... Freedom! It's not just the daily beat down of my addiction and being free of its unbearable weight... It's also the release of the burden to manage it. My time is spent living my life... instead of wasting it.
Posted in Words of Wisdom. Thanks for writing.
It seems that since you've been quit you've been able to manage your time a lot better! Forget the past brother though it is sort of fun looking back at all the stupid things we've done while being under the influence of the bitch. Did the three stooges dip?
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I wish I could write better, y'know?
I'm 35 days away from being a year quit. I can barely comprehend that thought let alone put it into words!
Been thinking about time... And freedom. I have both now and they mean something completely different than they did 330 days ago. Freedom was a need to be rid of the weight of all the time my addiction took. I... Was an absolute junkie. Every part of every day was an exercise in, damn near constant, time management. Is my store open? How early do I have to leave so I can still get dip and be on time? Do I have time to hit the store before I'm late in picking up my daughter from school? It's midnight and I have to get up earlier than my store opens... Should I go now? How early should I load the SUV for vacation so I can hide my shit in a really clever spot (and pat myself on the back for my cleverness in dooshbaggery)? How long can I keep this one in before people are around? It wasn't that long... Should I recycle it for later? When can I take a 1 hr shower so I can shave and dip? Blahblahblahyadayadayada. I could go on and on.
See? Every. Waking. Moment.
I won't berate myself or bemoan the loss because it's past. I'm done. I'm quit.
So, today?... Freedom! It's not just the daily beat down of my addiction and being free of its unbearable weight... It's also the release of the burden to manage it. My time is spent living my life... instead of wasting it.
Posted in Words of Wisdom. Thanks for writing.
It seems that since you've been quit you've been able to manage your time a lot better! Forget the past brother though it is sort of fun looking back at all the stupid things we've done while being under the influence of the bitch. Did the three stooges dip?
Toolboxes
Random boxes
Shoes
Socks
Underwear
Behind stuff under the bathroom sink
Under the car seat
Under the armrest in the car
In couch cushions
Under the mattress
Thought I'd light up your memory with some of the dooooosh hiding places I used to employ. I don't worry about that shit any more. Congratulations on climbing up a steep mountain. The year is a big milestone. And, while there is sill a crave or a thought once in a while, still a damn dip dream once in a while.... Now I kind of enjoy them. Because they are wonderful reminders of the bullshit lives you and I were leading not that long ago.
Thanks for bringing me along on the AJ quit ride. It never gets old man... You should be really proud.
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I wish I could write better, y'know?
I'm 35 days away from being a year quit. I can barely comprehend that thought let alone put it into words!
Been thinking about time... And freedom. I have both now and they mean something completely different than they did 330 days ago. Freedom was a need to be rid of the weight of all the time my addiction took. I... Was an absolute junkie. Every part of every day was an exercise in, damn near constant, time management. Is my store open? How early do I have to leave so I can still get dip and be on time? Do I have time to hit the store before I'm late in picking up my daughter from school? It's midnight and I have to get up earlier than my store opens... Should I go now? How early should I load the SUV for vacation so I can hide my shit in a really clever spot (and pat myself on the back for my cleverness in dooshbaggery)? How long can I keep this one in before people are around? It wasn't that long... Should I recycle it for later? When can I take a 1 hr shower so I can shave and dip? Blahblahblahyadayadayada. I could go on and on.
See? Every. Waking. Moment.
I won't berate myself or bemoan the loss because it's past. I'm done. I'm quit.
So, today?... Freedom! It's not just the daily beat down of my addiction and being free of its unbearable weight... It's also the release of the burden to manage it. My time is spent living my life... instead of wasting it.
Posted in Words of Wisdom. Thanks for writing.
It seems that since you've been quit you've been able to manage your time a lot better! Forget the past brother though it is sort of fun looking back at all the stupid things we've done while being under the influence of the bitch. Did the three stooges dip?
Toolboxes
Random boxes
Shoes
Socks
Underwear
Behind stuff under the bathroom sink
Under the car seat
Under the armrest in the car
In couch cushions
Under the mattress
Thought I'd light up your memory with some of the dooooosh hiding places I used to employ. I don't worry about that shit any more. Congratulations on climbing up a steep mountain. The year is a big milestone. And, while there is sill a crave or a thought once in a while, still a damn dip dream once in a while.... Now I kind of enjoy them. Because they are wonderful reminders of the bullshit lives you and I were leading not that long ago.
Thanks for bringing me along on the AJ quit ride. It never gets old man... You should be really proud.
Shane, your a complete bad ass! You are a quit machine!
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I wish I could write better, y'know?
I'm 35 days away from being a year quit. I can barely comprehend that thought let alone put it into words!
Been thinking about time... And freedom. I have both now and they mean something completely different than they did 330 days ago. Freedom was a need to be rid of the weight of all the time my addiction took. I... Was an absolute junkie. Every part of every day was an exercise in, damn near constant, time management. Is my store open? How early do I have to leave so I can still get dip and be on time? Do I have time to hit the store before I'm late in picking up my daughter from school? It's midnight and I have to get up earlier than my store opens... Should I go now? How early should I load the SUV for vacation so I can hide my shit in a really clever spot (and pat myself on the back for my cleverness in dooshbaggery)? How long can I keep this one in before people are around? It wasn't that long... Should I recycle it for later? When can I take a 1 hr shower so I can shave and dip? Blahblahblahyadayadayada. I could go on and on.
See? Every. Waking. Moment.
I won't berate myself or bemoan the loss because it's past. I'm done. I'm quit.
So, today?... Freedom! It's not just the daily beat down of my addiction and being free of its unbearable weight... It's also the release of the burden to manage it. My time is spent living my life... instead of wasting it.
Posted in Words of Wisdom. Thanks for writing.
It seems that since you've been quit you've been able to manage your time a lot better! Forget the past brother though it is sort of fun looking back at all the stupid things we've done while being under the influence of the bitch. Did the three stooges dip?
Toolboxes
Random boxes
Shoes
Socks
Underwear
Behind stuff under the bathroom sink
Under the car seat
Under the armrest in the car
In couch cushions
Under the mattress
Thought I'd light up your memory with some of the dooooosh hiding places I used to employ. I don't worry about that shit any more. Congratulations on climbing up a steep mountain. The year is a big milestone. And, while there is sill a crave or a thought once in a while, still a damn dip dream once in a while.... Now I kind of enjoy them. Because they are wonderful reminders of the bullshit lives you and I were leading not that long ago.
Thanks for bringing me along on the AJ quit ride. It never gets old man... You should be really proud.
Shane, your a complete bad ass! You are a quit machine!
Before reading your post I was having very similar thoughts. I'm cruzing in on my quit day also, April 1. The freedom from being controlled by the addiction is so good to ponder on. As I read through your check list I was thinking of my list. I can't tell you how many times I miscalculated when I'd be going to town again and run out. I made the 150 mile round trip many times for nothing but my fix. I had the conversation earlier today with another quit hero of mine and said that I've been feelingof being happy with the direction my life is going. My quit is good, I've quit pop, I'm eating healthier and I'm loosing weight. I am beginning to find the peace of mind I've never known.
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I wish I could write better, y'know?
I'm 35 days away from being a year quit. I can barely comprehend that thought let alone put it into words!
Been thinking about time... And freedom. I have both now and they mean something completely different than they did 330 days ago. Freedom was a need to be rid of the weight of all the time my addiction took. I... Was an absolute junkie. Every part of every day was an exercise in, damn near constant, time management. Is my store open? How early do I have to leave so I can still get dip and be on time? Do I have time to hit the store before I'm late in picking up my daughter from school? It's midnight and I have to get up earlier than my store opens... Should I go now? How early should I load the SUV for vacation so I can hide my shit in a really clever spot (and pat myself on the back for my cleverness in dooshbaggery)? How long can I keep this one in before people are around? It wasn't that long... Should I recycle it for later? When can I take a 1 hr shower so I can shave and dip? Blahblahblahyadayadayada. I could go on and on.
See? Every. Waking. Moment.
I won't berate myself or bemoan the loss because it's past. I'm done. I'm quit.
So, today?... Freedom! It's not just the daily beat down of my addiction and being free of its unbearable weight... It's also the release of the burden to manage it. My time is spent living my life... instead of wasting it.
Posted in Words of Wisdom. Thanks for writing.
It seems that since you've been quit you've been able to manage your time a lot better! Forget the past brother though it is sort of fun looking back at all the stupid things we've done while being under the influence of the bitch. Did the three stooges dip?
Toolboxes
Random boxes
Shoes
Socks
Underwear
Behind stuff under the bathroom sink
Under the car seat
Under the armrest in the car
In couch cushions
Under the mattress
Thought I'd light up your memory with some of the dooooosh hiding places I used to employ. I don't worry about that shit any more. Congratulations on climbing up a steep mountain. The year is a big milestone. And, while there is sill a crave or a thought once in a while, still a damn dip dream once in a while.... Now I kind of enjoy them. Because they are wonderful reminders of the bullshit lives you and I were leading not that long ago.
Thanks for bringing me along on the AJ quit ride. It never gets old man... You should be really proud.
Shane, your a complete bad ass! You are a quit machine!
Before reading your post I was having very similar thoughts. I'm cruzing in on my quit day also, April 1. The freedom from being controlled by the addiction is so good to ponder on. As I read through your check list I was thinking of my list. I can't tell you how many times I miscalculated when I'd be going to town again and run out. I made the 150 mile round trip many times for nothing but my fix. I had the conversation earlier today with another quit hero of mine and said that I've been feelingof being happy with the direction my life is going. My quit is good, I've quit pop, I'm eating healthier and I'm loosing weight. I am beginning to find the peace of mind I've never known.
Looking over your lists makes me think. I used to always have a can in my back pocket at work. If the can I had in my pocket was running low, I'd open a new can before I went on another call. Plus, I'd always have at least one full can in my ballistic vest that I kept on the truck. Usually had one in my turn-out gear that I kept on the truck, too. So glad that I don't have to worry about that anymore.
Now my biggest worry is if I have a pack of gum with me. Luckily, when I forget mine, my partner has one!
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I wish I could write better, y'know?
I'm 35 days away from being a year quit. I can barely comprehend that thought let alone put it into words!
Been thinking about time... And freedom. I have both now and they mean something completely different than they did 330 days ago. Freedom was a need to be rid of the weight of all the time my addiction took. I... Was an absolute junkie. Every part of every day was an exercise in, damn near constant, time management. Is my store open? How early do I have to leave so I can still get dip and be on time? Do I have time to hit the store before I'm late in picking up my daughter from school? It's midnight and I have to get up earlier than my store opens... Should I go now? How early should I load the SUV for vacation so I can hide my shit in a really clever spot (and pat myself on the back for my cleverness in dooshbaggery)? How long can I keep this one in before people are around? It wasn't that long... Should I recycle it for later? When can I take a 1 hr shower so I can shave and dip? Blahblahblahyadayadayada. I could go on and on.
See? Every. Waking. Moment.
I won't berate myself or bemoan the loss because it's past. I'm done. I'm quit.
So, today?... Freedom! It's not just the daily beat down of my addiction and being free of its unbearable weight... It's also the release of the burden to manage it. My time is spent living my life... instead of wasting it.
Posted in Words of Wisdom. Thanks for writing.
It seems that since you've been quit you've been able to manage your time a lot better! Forget the past brother though it is sort of fun looking back at all the stupid things we've done while being under the influence of the bitch. Did the three stooges dip?
Toolboxes
Random boxes
Shoes
Socks
Underwear
Behind stuff under the bathroom sink
Under the car seat
Under the armrest in the car
In couch cushions
Under the mattress
Thought I'd light up your memory with some of the dooooosh hiding places I used to employ. I don't worry about that shit any more. Congratulations on climbing up a steep mountain. The year is a big milestone. And, while there is sill a crave or a thought once in a while, still a damn dip dream once in a while.... Now I kind of enjoy them. Because they are wonderful reminders of the bullshit lives you and I were leading not that long ago.
Thanks for bringing me along on the AJ quit ride. It never gets old man... You should be really proud.
Shane, your a complete bad ass! You are a quit machine!
Before reading your post I was having very similar thoughts. I'm cruzing in on my quit day also, April 1. The freedom from being controlled by the addiction is so good to ponder on. As I read through your check list I was thinking of my list. I can't tell you how many times I miscalculated when I'd be going to town again and run out. I made the 150 mile round trip many times for nothing but my fix. I had the conversation earlier today with another quit hero of mine and said that I've been feelingof being happy with the direction my life is going. My quit is good, I've quit pop, I'm eating healthier and I'm loosing weight. I am beginning to find the peace of mind I've never known.
Looking over your lists makes me think. I used to always have a can in my back pocket at work. If the can I had in my pocket was running low, I'd open a new can before I went on another call. Plus, I'd always have at least one full can in my ballistic vest that I kept on the truck. Usually had one in my turn-out gear that I kept on the truck, too. So glad that I don't have to worry about that anymore.
Now my biggest worry is if I have a pack of gum with me. Luckily, when I forget mine, my partner has one!
I'm with you at being at a loss for words on coming within a month of one year...it seems so impossible yet here we are staring at it dead in the face with no thought of it not getting here.......one day at a time has finally paid off and we are now far enough down the road to look back and see we've finally gotten somewhere. Looking ahead there's still plently of walking to do, but we've got measuarable progess now that a year ago we were so desperately wanting!
Congrats to all of us in July who have made it this far! And to many more!
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Welcome to the club. Others have hit the nail on the head, reach out. This forum is only as useful a resource as you make it.
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I wish I could write better, y'know?
I'm 35 days away from being a year quit. I can barely comprehend that thought let alone put it into words!
Been thinking about time... And freedom. I have both now and they mean something completely different than they did 330 days ago. Freedom was a need to be rid of the weight of all the time my addiction took. I... Was an absolute junkie. Every part of every day was an exercise in, damn near constant, time management. Is my store open? How early do I have to leave so I can still get dip and be on time? Do I have time to hit the store before I'm late in picking up my daughter from school? It's midnight and I have to get up earlier than my store opens... Should I go now? How early should I load the SUV for vacation so I can hide my shit in a really clever spot (and pat myself on the back for my cleverness in dooshbaggery)? How long can I keep this one in before people are around? It wasn't that long... Should I recycle it for later? When can I take a 1 hr shower so I can shave and dip? Blahblahblahyadayadayada. I could go on and on.
See? Every. Waking. Moment.
I won't berate myself or bemoan the loss because it's past. I'm done. I'm quit.
So, today?... Freedom! It's not just the daily beat down of my addiction and being free of its unbearable weight... It's also the release of the burden to manage it. My time is spent living my life... instead of wasting it.
Posted in Words of Wisdom. Thanks for writing.
It seems that since you've been quit you've been able to manage your time a lot better! Forget the past brother though it is sort of fun looking back at all the stupid things we've done while being under the influence of the bitch. Did the three stooges dip?
Toolboxes
Random boxes
Shoes
Socks
Underwear
Behind stuff under the bathroom sink
Under the car seat
Under the armrest in the car
In couch cushions
Under the mattress
Thought I'd light up your memory with some of the dooooosh hiding places I used to employ. I don't worry about that shit any more. Congratulations on climbing up a steep mountain. The year is a big milestone. And, while there is sill a crave or a thought once in a while, still a damn dip dream once in a while.... Now I kind of enjoy them. Because they are wonderful reminders of the bullshit lives you and I were leading not that long ago.
Thanks for bringing me along on the AJ quit ride. It never gets old man... You should be really proud.
Shane, your a complete bad ass! You are a quit machine!
Before reading your post I was having very similar thoughts. I'm cruzing in on my quit day also, April 1. The freedom from being controlled by the addiction is so good to ponder on. As I read through your check list I was thinking of my list. I can't tell you how many times I miscalculated when I'd be going to town again and run out. I made the 150 mile round trip many times for nothing but my fix. I had the conversation earlier today with another quit hero of mine and said that I've been feelingof being happy with the direction my life is going. My quit is good, I've quit pop, I'm eating healthier and I'm loosing weight. I am beginning to find the peace of mind I've never known.
Looking over your lists makes me think. I used to always have a can in my back pocket at work. If the can I had in my pocket was running low, I'd open a new can before I went on another call. Plus, I'd always have at least one full can in my ballistic vest that I kept on the truck. Usually had one in my turn-out gear that I kept on the truck, too. So glad that I don't have to worry about that anymore.
Now my biggest worry is if I have a pack of gum with me. Luckily, when I forget mine, my partner has one!
I'm with you at being at a loss for words on coming within a month of one year...it seems so impossible yet here we are staring at it dead in the face with no thought of it not getting here.......one day at a time has finally paid off and we are now far enough down the road to look back and see we've finally gotten somewhere. Looking ahead there's still plently of walking to do, but we've got measuarable progess now that a year ago we were so desperately wanting!
Congrats to all of us in July who have made it this far! And to many more!
Oh and to add hiding places plastic bag in the toilet tank and biggest doosh move was to create a false bottom in towel cabinet so that I was able to get in and out quickly and quietly. Another go to was a an unfinished room in the basement a can fits perfect on a floor joist. UGH what a load of crap that was using my woodworking skills and cleverness dooshbaggery for deceit.
Thanks for posting this AJ for a person who wishes he could write better hit this one spot on. QLF w you brother.
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Big congrats out to you brother!!! One year!!!
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Big congrats out to you brother!!! One year!!!
AJ Huge congrats on 1 year! Thanks for helping us loonies stay on the path!
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Big congrats out to you brother!!! One year!!!
AJ Huge congrats on 1 year! Thanks for helping us loonies stay on the path!
Right on Shane....keep leading the way
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Big congrats out to you brother!!! One year!!!
AJ Huge congrats on 1 year! Thanks for helping us loonies stay on the path!
Congrats my friend! This is a much bigger achievement than a non-quitter can understand. Today you can be proud of your accomplishment, personal growth, and the respect you have earned by so many great men and women on this site. Thank you! I'll have some Laphroig in your honor!
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Big congrats out to you brother!!! One year!!!
AJ Huge congrats on 1 year! Thanks for helping us loonies stay on the path!
Right on Shane....keep leading the way
Thanks for quitting with me my friend. Great job on 1 year.
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Big congrats out to you brother!!! One year!!!
AJ Huge congrats on 1 year! Thanks for helping us loonies stay on the path!
Right on Shane....keep leading the way
Thanks for quitting with me my friend. Great job on 1 year.
Nice work. Congrats!
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Big congrats out to you brother!!! One year!!!
AJ Huge congrats on 1 year! Thanks for helping us loonies stay on the path!
Right on Shane....keep leading the way
Thanks for quitting with me my friend. Great job on 1 year.
Nice work. Congrats!
Congrats Applejack. Great accomplishments are achieved by great people.
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Big congrats out to you brother!!! One year!!!
AJ Huge congrats on 1 year! Thanks for helping us loonies stay on the path!
Right on Shane....keep leading the way
Thanks for quitting with me my friend. Great job on 1 year.
Nice work. Congrats!
Congrats Applejack. Great accomplishments are achieved by great people.
One year Brother! I'm really glad you made it. Like I've said before there are several cornerstones of everyone's quit. You are one of those cornerstones of my quit. You made it possible for me to transition from being pissed off at everyone and proving a point to actually having fun quitting and laughing at myself... Well laughing at all us quitters. Thank you for bringing a different perspective. Enjoy your special day my brotha! We'll all do it again tomorrow! +1
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Big congrats out to you brother!!! One year!!!
AJ Huge congrats on 1 year! Thanks for helping us loonies stay on the path!
Right on Shane....keep leading the way
Thanks for quitting with me my friend. Great job on 1 year.
Nice work. Congrats!
Congrats Applejack. Great accomplishments are achieved by great people.
One year Brother! I'm really glad you made it. Like I've said before there are several cornerstones of everyone's quit. You are one of those cornerstones of my quit. You made it possible for me to transition from being pissed off at everyone and proving a point to actually having fun quitting and laughing at myself... Well laughing at all us quitters. Thank you for bringing a different perspective. Enjoy your special day my brotha! We'll all do it again tomorrow! +1
Congrats on 1 year AJ!! That is badass, thanks for everything
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Big congrats out to you brother!!! One year!!!
AJ Huge congrats on 1 year! Thanks for helping us loonies stay on the path!
Right on Shane....keep leading the way
Thanks for quitting with me my friend. Great job on 1 year.
Nice work. Congrats!
Congrats Applejack. Great accomplishments are achieved by great people.
One year Brother! I'm really glad you made it. Like I've said before there are several cornerstones of everyone's quit. You are one of those cornerstones of my quit. You made it possible for me to transition from being pissed off at everyone and proving a point to actually having fun quitting and laughing at myself... Well laughing at all us quitters. Thank you for bringing a different perspective. Enjoy your special day my brotha! We'll all do it again tomorrow! +1
Congrats bro! Your a bad ass. Enjoy your day, it was definitely earned.
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Big congrats out to you brother!!! One year!!!
AJ Huge congrats on 1 year! Thanks for helping us loonies stay on the path!
Right on Shane....keep leading the way
Thanks for quitting with me my friend. Great job on 1 year.
Nice work. Congrats!
Congrats Applejack. Great accomplishments are achieved by great people.
One year Brother! I'm really glad you made it. Like I've said before there are several cornerstones of everyone's quit. You are one of those cornerstones of my quit. You made it possible for me to transition from being pissed off at everyone and proving a point to actually having fun quitting and laughing at myself... Well laughing at all us quitters. Thank you for bringing a different perspective. Enjoy your special day my brotha! We'll all do it again tomorrow! +1
Congrats bro! Your a bad ass. Enjoy your day, it was definitely earned.
Congrats on 365- Feels good to be free!
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Once again, congrats Shane!!!!!!!
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Big congrats out to you brother!!! One year!!!
AJ Huge congrats on 1 year! Thanks for helping us loonies stay on the path!
Right on Shane....keep leading the way
Thanks for quitting with me my friend. Great job on 1 year.
Nice work. Congrats!
Congrats Applejack. Great accomplishments are achieved by great people.
One year Brother! I'm really glad you made it. Like I've said before there are several cornerstones of everyone's quit. You are one of those cornerstones of my quit. You made it possible for me to transition from being pissed off at everyone and proving a point to actually having fun quitting and laughing at myself... Well laughing at all us quitters. Thank you for bringing a different perspective. Enjoy your special day my brotha! We'll all do it again tomorrow! +1
Congrats bro! Your a bad ass. Enjoy your day, it was definitely earned.
Congrats on 365- Feels good to be free!
Here it is... day 1 of my quit. Been at this for 25 years, 2 cans a day at least. I'm tired, man. Tired of needing, tired of sneaking, tired of knowing my wife thinks just a li'l bit less of me, tired of hoping to be around for my daughter, tired of a ridiculous weed running my life... DONE!!!! Am I terrified? Yup.
AJ you have come a long way from this post! I remember a crazy ass musician that had taken time off of work to lock himself in his basement until he could be around his family. Look at you now not that man any moreÂ….blossomed into a fine quitter whom I call my friendÂ…
Enjoy today this is your day never forget day 1
Trauma 366
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Big congrats out to you brother!!! One year!!!
AJ Huge congrats on 1 year! Thanks for helping us loonies stay on the path!
Right on Shane....keep leading the way
Thanks for quitting with me my friend. Great job on 1 year.
Nice work. Congrats!
Congrats Applejack. Great accomplishments are achieved by great people.
One year Brother! I'm really glad you made it. Like I've said before there are several cornerstones of everyone's quit. You are one of those cornerstones of my quit. You made it possible for me to transition from being pissed off at everyone and proving a point to actually having fun quitting and laughing at myself... Well laughing at all us quitters. Thank you for bringing a different perspective. Enjoy your special day my brotha! We'll all do it again tomorrow! +1
Congrats bro! Your a bad ass. Enjoy your day, it was definitely earned.
Congrats on 365- Feels good to be free!
Here it is... day 1 of my quit. Been at this for 25 years, 2 cans a day at least. I'm tired, man. Tired of needing, tired of sneaking, tired of knowing my wife thinks just a li'l bit less of me, tired of hoping to be around for my daughter, tired of a ridiculous weed running my life... DONE!!!! Am I terrified? Yup.
AJ you have come a long way from this post! I remember a crazy ass musician that had taken time off of work to lock himself in his basement until he could be around his family. Look at you now not that man any moreÂ….blossomed into a fine quitter whom I call my friendÂ…
Enjoy today this is your day never forget day 1
Trauma 366
'Cheers' nice job AJ, way to be a quitter!
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Big congrats out to you brother!!! One year!!!
AJ Huge congrats on 1 year! Thanks for helping us loonies stay on the path!
Right on Shane....keep leading the way
Thanks for quitting with me my friend. Great job on 1 year.
Nice work. Congrats!
Congrats Applejack. Great accomplishments are achieved by great people.
One year Brother! I'm really glad you made it. Like I've said before there are several cornerstones of everyone's quit. You are one of those cornerstones of my quit. You made it possible for me to transition from being pissed off at everyone and proving a point to actually having fun quitting and laughing at myself... Well laughing at all us quitters. Thank you for bringing a different perspective. Enjoy your special day my brotha! We'll all do it again tomorrow! +1
Congrats bro! Your a bad ass. Enjoy your day, it was definitely earned.
Congrats on 365- Feels good to be free!
Here it is... day 1 of my quit. Been at this for 25 years, 2 cans a day at least. I'm tired, man. Tired of needing, tired of sneaking, tired of knowing my wife thinks just a li'l bit less of me, tired of hoping to be around for my daughter, tired of a ridiculous weed running my life... DONE!!!! Am I terrified? Yup.
AJ you have come a long way from this post! I remember a crazy ass musician that had taken time off of work to lock himself in his basement until he could be around his family. Look at you now not that man any moreÂ….blossomed into a fine quitter whom I call my friendÂ…
Enjoy today this is your day never forget day 1
Trauma 366
A great milestone for a great quitter, a cornerstone for me and many others. Way to go dude! 'Cheers'
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Big congrats out to you brother!!! One year!!!
AJ Huge congrats on 1 year! Thanks for helping us loonies stay on the path!
Right on Shane....keep leading the way
Thanks for quitting with me my friend. Great job on 1 year.
Nice work. Congrats!
Congrats Applejack. Great accomplishments are achieved by great people.
One year Brother! I'm really glad you made it. Like I've said before there are several cornerstones of everyone's quit. You are one of those cornerstones of my quit. You made it possible for me to transition from being pissed off at everyone and proving a point to actually having fun quitting and laughing at myself... Well laughing at all us quitters. Thank you for bringing a different perspective. Enjoy your special day my brotha! We'll all do it again tomorrow! +1
Congrats bro! Your a bad ass. Enjoy your day, it was definitely earned.
Congrats on 365- Feels good to be free!
Here it is... day 1 of my quit. Been at this for 25 years, 2 cans a day at least. I'm tired, man. Tired of needing, tired of sneaking, tired of knowing my wife thinks just a li'l bit less of me, tired of hoping to be around for my daughter, tired of a ridiculous weed running my life... DONE!!!! Am I terrified? Yup.
AJ you have come a long way from this post! I remember a crazy ass musician that had taken time off of work to lock himself in his basement until he could be around his family. Look at you now not that man any moreÂ….blossomed into a fine quitter whom I call my friendÂ…
Enjoy today this is your day never forget day 1
Trauma 366
A great milestone for a great quitter, a cornerstone for me and many others. Way to go dude! 'Cheers'
Damn proud to quit with you AJ, very glad to know you have my back in this fight. Enjoy the celebration of a year of freedom!!!!
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Y'know... A year ago I was looking at tomorrow (which is my day 1) with something close to terror. I know most of you will know exactly what I mean. That deep in the pit of your stomach dread. I can't really find a proper analogy. I gave too much of myself to nicotine... I think I was mourning. Heavily.
Wow. What a freakin' waste.
Fast forward a year... I don't know that guy anymore.
I will never be that guy again. Every day.
You all rock! Thanks for being here...
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Y'know... A year ago I was looking at tomorrow (which is my day 1) with something close to terror. I know most of you will know exactly what I mean. That deep in the pit of your stomach dread. I can't really find a proper analogy. I gave too much of myself to nicotine... I think I was mourning. Heavily.
Wow. What a freakin' waste.
Fast forward a year... I don't know that guy anymore.
I will never be that guy again. Every day.
You all rock! Thanks for being here...
I completely understand those feelings. Congratulations on your one year!
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Big congrats out to you brother!!! One year!!!
AJ Huge congrats on 1 year! Thanks for helping us loonies stay on the path!
Right on Shane....keep leading the way
Thanks for quitting with me my friend. Great job on 1 year.
Nice work. Congrats!
Congrats Applejack. Great accomplishments are achieved by great people.
One year Brother! I'm really glad you made it. Like I've said before there are several cornerstones of everyone's quit. You are one of those cornerstones of my quit. You made it possible for me to transition from being pissed off at everyone and proving a point to actually having fun quitting and laughing at myself... Well laughing at all us quitters. Thank you for bringing a different perspective. Enjoy your special day my brotha! We'll all do it again tomorrow! +1
Congrats bro! Your a bad ass. Enjoy your day, it was definitely earned.
Congrats on 365- Feels good to be free!
Here it is... day 1 of my quit. Been at this for 25 years, 2 cans a day at least. I'm tired, man. Tired of needing, tired of sneaking, tired of knowing my wife thinks just a li'l bit less of me, tired of hoping to be around for my daughter, tired of a ridiculous weed running my life... DONE!!!! Am I terrified? Yup.
AJ you have come a long way from this post! I remember a crazy ass musician that had taken time off of work to lock himself in his basement until he could be around his family. Look at you now not that man any moreÂ….blossomed into a fine quitter whom I call my friendÂ…
Enjoy today this is your day never forget day 1
Trauma 366
A great milestone for a great quitter, a cornerstone for me and many others. Way to go dude! 'Cheers'
Damn proud to quit with you AJ, very glad to know you have my back in this fight. Enjoy the celebration of a year of freedom!!!!
My quit hero! Way to go AJ!
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Big congrats out to you brother!!! One year!!!
AJ Huge congrats on 1 year! Thanks for helping us loonies stay on the path!
Right on Shane....keep leading the way
Thanks for quitting with me my friend. Great job on 1 year.
Nice work. Congrats!
Congrats Applejack. Great accomplishments are achieved by great people.
One year Brother! I'm really glad you made it. Like I've said before there are several cornerstones of everyone's quit. You are one of those cornerstones of my quit. You made it possible for me to transition from being pissed off at everyone and proving a point to actually having fun quitting and laughing at myself... Well laughing at all us quitters. Thank you for bringing a different perspective. Enjoy your special day my brotha! We'll all do it again tomorrow! +1
Congrats bro! Your a bad ass. Enjoy your day, it was definitely earned.
Congrats on 365- Feels good to be free!
Here it is... day 1 of my quit. Been at this for 25 years, 2 cans a day at least. I'm tired, man. Tired of needing, tired of sneaking, tired of knowing my wife thinks just a li'l bit less of me, tired of hoping to be around for my daughter, tired of a ridiculous weed running my life... DONE!!!! Am I terrified? Yup.
AJ you have come a long way from this post! I remember a crazy ass musician that had taken time off of work to lock himself in his basement until he could be around his family. Look at you now not that man any moreÂ….blossomed into a fine quitter whom I call my friendÂ…
Enjoy today this is your day never forget day 1
Trauma 366
A great milestone for a great quitter, a cornerstone for me and many others. Way to go dude! 'Cheers'
Damn proud to quit with you AJ, very glad to know you have my back in this fight. Enjoy the celebration of a year of freedom!!!!
My quit hero! Way to go AJ!
Congrats on a yr of quit AJ! Awesome!! I appreciate all that you do here at KTC and I'm proud to know you. Thanks for being there bro. I'm quit with you all day long.
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Big congrats out to you brother!!! One year!!!
AJ Huge congrats on 1 year! Thanks for helping us loonies stay on the path!
Right on Shane....keep leading the way
Thanks for quitting with me my friend. Great job on 1 year.
Nice work. Congrats!
Congrats Applejack. Great accomplishments are achieved by great people.
One year Brother! I'm really glad you made it. Like I've said before there are several cornerstones of everyone's quit. You are one of those cornerstones of my quit. You made it possible for me to transition from being pissed off at everyone and proving a point to actually having fun quitting and laughing at myself... Well laughing at all us quitters. Thank you for bringing a different perspective. Enjoy your special day my brotha! We'll all do it again tomorrow! +1
Congrats bro! Your a bad ass. Enjoy your day, it was definitely earned.
Congrats on 365- Feels good to be free!
Here it is... day 1 of my quit. Been at this for 25 years, 2 cans a day at least. I'm tired, man. Tired of needing, tired of sneaking, tired of knowing my wife thinks just a li'l bit less of me, tired of hoping to be around for my daughter, tired of a ridiculous weed running my life... DONE!!!! Am I terrified? Yup.
AJ you have come a long way from this post! I remember a crazy ass musician that had taken time off of work to lock himself in his basement until he could be around his family. Look at you now not that man any moreÂ….blossomed into a fine quitter whom I call my friendÂ…
Enjoy today this is your day never forget day 1
Trauma 366
A great milestone for a great quitter, a cornerstone for me and many others. Way to go dude! 'Cheers'
Damn proud to quit with you AJ, very glad to know you have my back in this fight. Enjoy the celebration of a year of freedom!!!!
My quit hero! Way to go AJ!
Congrats on a yr of quit AJ! Awesome!! I appreciate all that you do here at KTC and I'm proud to know you. Thanks for being there bro. I'm quit with you all day long.
Congrats!!!
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I know we texted this am AJ, but you are a true bonafide badass quitter and glad you were the first to really reach out to me... Congrats on the year man!!! Proud of ya
mike
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Big congrats out to you brother!!! One year!!!
AJ Huge congrats on 1 year! Thanks for helping us loonies stay on the path!
Right on Shane....keep leading the way
Thanks for quitting with me my friend. Great job on 1 year.
Nice work. Congrats!
Congrats Applejack. Great accomplishments are achieved by great people.
One year Brother! I'm really glad you made it. Like I've said before there are several cornerstones of everyone's quit. You are one of those cornerstones of my quit. You made it possible for me to transition from being pissed off at everyone and proving a point to actually having fun quitting and laughing at myself... Well laughing at all us quitters. Thank you for bringing a different perspective. Enjoy your special day my brotha! We'll all do it again tomorrow! +1
Congrats bro! Your a bad ass. Enjoy your day, it was definitely earned.
Congrats on 365- Feels good to be free!
Here it is... day 1 of my quit. Been at this for 25 years, 2 cans a day at least. I'm tired, man. Tired of needing, tired of sneaking, tired of knowing my wife thinks just a li'l bit less of me, tired of hoping to be around for my daughter, tired of a ridiculous weed running my life... DONE!!!! Am I terrified? Yup.
AJ you have come a long way from this post! I remember a crazy ass musician that had taken time off of work to lock himself in his basement until he could be around his family. Look at you now not that man any moreÂ….blossomed into a fine quitter whom I call my friendÂ…
Enjoy today this is your day never forget day 1
Trauma 366
A great milestone for a great quitter, a cornerstone for me and many others. Way to go dude! 'Cheers'
Damn proud to quit with you AJ, very glad to know you have my back in this fight. Enjoy the celebration of a year of freedom!!!!
My quit hero! Way to go AJ!
Congrats on a yr of quit AJ! Awesome!! I appreciate all that you do here at KTC and I'm proud to know you. Thanks for being there bro. I'm quit with you all day long.
Congrats!!!
Congrats you knob twisting quitter!
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Big congrats out to you brother!!! One year!!!
AJ Huge congrats on 1 year! Thanks for helping us loonies stay on the path!
Right on Shane....keep leading the way
Thanks for quitting with me my friend. Great job on 1 year.
Nice work. Congrats!
Congrats Applejack. Great accomplishments are achieved by great people.
One year Brother! I'm really glad you made it. Like I've said before there are several cornerstones of everyone's quit. You are one of those cornerstones of my quit. You made it possible for me to transition from being pissed off at everyone and proving a point to actually having fun quitting and laughing at myself... Well laughing at all us quitters. Thank you for bringing a different perspective. Enjoy your special day my brotha! We'll all do it again tomorrow! +1
Congrats bro! Your a bad ass. Enjoy your day, it was definitely earned.
Congrats on 365- Feels good to be free!
Here it is... day 1 of my quit. Been at this for 25 years, 2 cans a day at least. I'm tired, man. Tired of needing, tired of sneaking, tired of knowing my wife thinks just a li'l bit less of me, tired of hoping to be around for my daughter, tired of a ridiculous weed running my life... DONE!!!! Am I terrified? Yup.
AJ you have come a long way from this post! I remember a crazy ass musician that had taken time off of work to lock himself in his basement until he could be around his family. Look at you now not that man any moreÂ….blossomed into a fine quitter whom I call my friendÂ…
Enjoy today this is your day never forget day 1
Trauma 366
A great milestone for a great quitter, a cornerstone for me and many others. Way to go dude! 'Cheers'
Damn proud to quit with you AJ, very glad to know you have my back in this fight. Enjoy the celebration of a year of freedom!!!!
My quit hero! Way to go AJ!
Congrats on a yr of quit AJ! Awesome!! I appreciate all that you do here at KTC and I'm proud to know you. Thanks for being there bro. I'm quit with you all day long.
Congrats!!!
Congrats you knob twisting quitter!
1 year!!! that's bad ass...
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Congratulations on 400 today! Another huge achievement for a man that has led a lot of others to their own milestones. You are one of the leaders on this site! Enjoy some Laphroig today, play the guitar, and celebrate your freedom!
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Congratulations on 400 today! Another huge achievement for a man that has led a lot of others to their own milestones. You are one of the leaders on this site! Enjoy some Laphroig today, play the guitar, and celebrate your freedom!
Been here 17 days and from agree with Work, see your name a lot. 400 is strong. Congrats. Thanks for supporting the new quitters as well.
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Congratulations on 400 today! Another huge achievement for a man that has led a lot of others to their own milestones. You are one of the leaders on this site! Enjoy some Laphroig today, play the guitar, and celebrate your freedom!
Been here 17 days and from agree with Work, see your name a lot. 400 is strong. Congrats. Thanks for supporting the new quitters as well.
Soak it in. 400 is great. Feel the accomplishment and the gratitude so many share- you deserve it! Freakin badass!
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Congratulations on 400 today! Another huge achievement for a man that has led a lot of others to their own milestones. You are one of the leaders on this site! Enjoy some Laphroig today, play the guitar, and celebrate your freedom!
Been here 17 days and from agree with Work, see your name a lot. 400 is strong. Congrats. Thanks for supporting the new quitters as well.
Soak it in. 400 is great. Feel the accomplishment and the gratitude so many share- you deserve it! Freakin badass!
4 hundred days quit! Well done bro. Proud as hell to be quit with you today!
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Congratulations on 400 today! Another huge achievement for a man that has led a lot of others to their own milestones. You are one of the leaders on this site! Enjoy some Laphroig today, play the guitar, and celebrate your freedom!
Been here 17 days and from agree with Work, see your name a lot. 400 is strong. Congrats. Thanks for supporting the new quitters as well.
Soak it in. 400 is great. Feel the accomplishment and the gratitude so many share- you deserve it! Freakin badass!
4 hundred days quit! Well done bro. Proud as hell to be quit with you today!
AJ you are bad assed! Keep killing it man, I quit with you any day.
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Congratulations on 400 today! Another huge achievement for a man that has led a lot of others to their own milestones. You are one of the leaders on this site! Enjoy some Laphroig today, play the guitar, and celebrate your freedom!
Been here 17 days and from agree with Work, see your name a lot. 400 is strong. Congrats. Thanks for supporting the new quitters as well.
Soak it in. 400 is great. Feel the accomplishment and the gratitude so many share- you deserve it! Freakin badass!
4 hundred days quit! Well done bro. Proud as hell to be quit with you today!
AJ you are bad assed! Keep killing it man, I quit with you any day.
Keep kicking ass AJ keep up the strong work to your quit and this site.
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Congratulations on 400 today! Another huge achievement for a man that has led a lot of others to their own milestones. You are one of the leaders on this site! Enjoy some Laphroig today, play the guitar, and celebrate your freedom!
Been here 17 days and from agree with Work, see your name a lot. 400 is strong. Congrats. Thanks for supporting the new quitters as well.
Soak it in. 400 is great. Feel the accomplishment and the gratitude so many share- you deserve it! Freakin badass!
4 hundred days quit! Well done bro. Proud as hell to be quit with you today!
AJ you are bad assed! Keep killing it man, I quit with you any day.
Keep kicking ass AJ keep up the strong work to your quit and this site.
Congrats on 400, and thanks for being a leader to those of us that are still fairly new to this.
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Congratulations on 400 today! Another huge achievement for a man that has led a lot of others to their own milestones. You are one of the leaders on this site! Enjoy some Laphroig today, play the guitar, and celebrate your freedom!
Been here 17 days and from agree with Work, see your name a lot. 400 is strong. Congrats. Thanks for supporting the new quitters as well.
Soak it in. 400 is great. Feel the accomplishment and the gratitude so many share- you deserve it! Freakin badass!
4 hundred days quit! Well done bro. Proud as hell to be quit with you today!
AJ you are bad assed! Keep killing it man, I quit with you any day.
Keep kicking ass AJ keep up the strong work to your quit and this site.
Congrats on 400, and thanks for being a leader to those of us that are still fairly new to this.
Nice 400 AJ. Keep killing it!
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AppleJack, 400 is amazing, proud to be quit with you today!
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Congratulations on 400 today! Another huge achievement for a man that has led a lot of others to their own milestones. You are one of the leaders on this site! Enjoy some Laphroig today, play the guitar, and celebrate your freedom!
Been here 17 days and from agree with Work, see your name a lot. 400 is strong. Congrats. Thanks for supporting the new quitters as well.
Soak it in. 400 is great. Feel the accomplishment and the gratitude so many share- you deserve it! Freakin badass!
4 hundred days quit! Well done bro. Proud as hell to be quit with you today!
AJ you are bad assed! Keep killing it man, I quit with you any day.
Keep kicking ass AJ keep up the strong work to your quit and this site.
Congrats on 400, and thanks for being a leader to those of us that are still fairly new to this.
Nice 400 AJ. Keep killing it!
Congrats on 400 AJ!!
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Congratulations on 400 today! Another huge achievement for a man that has led a lot of others to their own milestones. You are one of the leaders on this site! Enjoy some Laphroig today, play the guitar, and celebrate your freedom!
Been here 17 days and from agree with Work, see your name a lot. 400 is strong. Congrats. Thanks for supporting the new quitters as well.
Soak it in. 400 is great. Feel the accomplishment and the gratitude so many share- you deserve it! Freakin badass!
4 hundred days quit! Well done bro. Proud as hell to be quit with you today!
AJ you are bad assed! Keep killing it man, I quit with you any day.
Keep kicking ass AJ keep up the strong work to your quit and this site.
Congrats on 400, and thanks for being a leader to those of us that are still fairly new to this.
Nice 400 AJ. Keep killing it!
Congrats on 400 AJ!!
Congrats on the 4th floor, bro!!!
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Congratulations on 400 today! Another huge achievement for a man that has led a lot of others to their own milestones. You are one of the leaders on this site! Enjoy some Laphroig today, play the guitar, and celebrate your freedom!
Been here 17 days and from agree with Work, see your name a lot. 400 is strong. Congrats. Thanks for supporting the new quitters as well.
Soak it in. 400 is great. Feel the accomplishment and the gratitude so many share- you deserve it! Freakin badass!
4 hundred days quit! Well done bro. Proud as hell to be quit with you today!
AJ you are bad assed! Keep killing it man, I quit with you any day.
Keep kicking ass AJ keep up the strong work to your quit and this site.
Congrats on 400, and thanks for being a leader to those of us that are still fairly new to this.
Nice 400 AJ. Keep killing it!
Congrats on 400 AJ!!
Congrats on the 4th floor, bro!!!
'Cheers' nice job AJ, congrats on 400!
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Congratulations on 400 today! Another huge achievement for a man that has led a lot of others to their own milestones. You are one of the leaders on this site! Enjoy some Laphroig today, play the guitar, and celebrate your freedom!
Been here 17 days and from agree with Work, see your name a lot. 400 is strong. Congrats. Thanks for supporting the new quitters as well.
Soak it in. 400 is great. Feel the accomplishment and the gratitude so many share- you deserve it! Freakin badass!
4 hundred days quit! Well done bro. Proud as hell to be quit with you today!
AJ you are bad assed! Keep killing it man, I quit with you any day.
Keep kicking ass AJ keep up the strong work to your quit and this site.
Congrats on 400, and thanks for being a leader to those of us that are still fairly new to this.
Nice 400 AJ. Keep killing it!
Congrats on 400 AJ!!
Congrats on the 4th floor, bro!!!
'Cheers' nice job AJ, congrats on 400!
'BanDog'
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Congratulations on 400 today! Another huge achievement for a man that has led a lot of others to their own milestones. You are one of the leaders on this site! Enjoy some Laphroig today, play the guitar, and celebrate your freedom!
Been here 17 days and from agree with Work, see your name a lot. 400 is strong. Congrats. Thanks for supporting the new quitters as well.
Soak it in. 400 is great. Feel the accomplishment and the gratitude so many share- you deserve it! Freakin badass!
4 hundred days quit! Well done bro. Proud as hell to be quit with you today!
AJ you are bad assed! Keep killing it man, I quit with you any day.
Keep kicking ass AJ keep up the strong work to your quit and this site.
Congrats on 400, and thanks for being a leader to those of us that are still fairly new to this.
Nice 400 AJ. Keep killing it!
Congrats on 400 AJ!!
Congrats on the 4th floor, bro!!!
'Cheers' nice job AJ, congrats on 400!
'BanDog'
AJ, I know this is a happy day for you. It's also a happy day for me. I cheer your accomplishment and a well deserved, "Congratulations"
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Congratulations on 400 today! Another huge achievement for a man that has led a lot of others to their own milestones. You are one of the leaders on this site! Enjoy some Laphroig today, play the guitar, and celebrate your freedom!
Been here 17 days and from agree with Work, see your name a lot. 400 is strong. Congrats. Thanks for supporting the new quitters as well.
Soak it in. 400 is great. Feel the accomplishment and the gratitude so many share- you deserve it! Freakin badass!
4 hundred days quit! Well done bro. Proud as hell to be quit with you today!
AJ you are bad assed! Keep killing it man, I quit with you any day.
Keep kicking ass AJ keep up the strong work to your quit and this site.
Congrats on 400, and thanks for being a leader to those of us that are still fairly new to this.
Nice 400 AJ. Keep killing it!
Congrats on 400 AJ!!
Congrats on the 4th floor, bro!!!
'Cheers' nice job AJ, congrats on 400!
'BanDog'
AJ, I know this is a happy day for you. It's also a happy day for me. I cheer your accomplishment and a well deserved, "Congratulations"
AJ hit the 4th floor. I asked him how the view is. He replied "beautiful and the booze is better...come on up." Funny thing about the 4th, there is no elevator and you only get to stay there one day. There is only a staircase and you can only climb them one at a time. I love hearing all the quitters voices in the stairwell as we climb, each day giving us a better view and a better cocktail. The shit they served on day 1-5 sucked ass.....I didn't think they could make anything worse than md 20/20.
This is the post apple sent to Bronc whom he is mentoring. Apple your a strait up bad ass. You rock.
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Congratulations on 400 today! Another huge achievement for a man that has led a lot of others to their own milestones. You are one of the leaders on this site! Enjoy some Laphroig today, play the guitar, and celebrate your freedom!
Been here 17 days and from agree with Work, see your name a lot. 400 is strong. Congrats. Thanks for supporting the new quitters as well.
Soak it in. 400 is great. Feel the accomplishment and the gratitude so many share- you deserve it! Freakin badass!
4 hundred days quit! Well done bro. Proud as hell to be quit with you today!
AJ you are bad assed! Keep killing it man, I quit with you any day.
Keep kicking ass AJ keep up the strong work to your quit and this site.
Congrats on 400, and thanks for being a leader to those of us that are still fairly new to this.
Nice 400 AJ. Keep killing it!
400 is so great AJ! Thanks for all the help and support. You ROCK! 'oh yeah'
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Congratulations on 400 today! Another huge achievement for a man that has led a lot of others to their own milestones. You are one of the leaders on this site! Enjoy some Laphroig today, play the guitar, and celebrate your freedom!
Been here 17 days and from agree with Work, see your name a lot. 400 is strong. Congrats. Thanks for supporting the new quitters as well.
Soak it in. 400 is great. Feel the accomplishment and the gratitude so many share- you deserve it! Freakin badass!
4 hundred days quit! Well done bro. Proud as hell to be quit with you today!
AJ you are bad assed! Keep killing it man, I quit with you any day.
Keep kicking ass AJ keep up the strong work to your quit and this site.
Congrats on 400, and thanks for being a leader to those of us that are still fairly new to this.
Nice 400 AJ. Keep killing it!
400 is so great AJ! Thanks for all the help and support. You ROCK! 'oh yeah'
Congrats on 400 days!! That is a big deal worth celebrating. Enjoy!
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Congratulations on 400 today! Another huge achievement for a man that has led a lot of others to their own milestones. You are one of the leaders on this site! Enjoy some Laphroig today, play the guitar, and celebrate your freedom!
Been here 17 days and from agree with Work, see your name a lot. 400 is strong. Congrats. Thanks for supporting the new quitters as well.
Soak it in. 400 is great. Feel the accomplishment and the gratitude so many share- you deserve it! Freakin badass!
4 hundred days quit! Well done bro. Proud as hell to be quit with you today!
AJ you are bad assed! Keep killing it man, I quit with you any day.
Keep kicking ass AJ keep up the strong work to your quit and this site.
Congrats on 400, and thanks for being a leader to those of us that are still fairly new to this.
Nice 400 AJ. Keep killing it!
400 is so great AJ! Thanks for all the help and support. You ROCK! 'oh yeah'
Congrats on 400 days!! That is a big deal worth celebrating. Enjoy!
Great Job AJ!!
Awesome!
I quit with You Today!
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Congratulations on 400 today! Another huge achievement for a man that has led a lot of others to their own milestones. You are one of the leaders on this site! Enjoy some Laphroig today, play the guitar, and celebrate your freedom!
Been here 17 days and from agree with Work, see your name a lot. 400 is strong. Congrats. Thanks for supporting the new quitters as well.
Soak it in. 400 is great. Feel the accomplishment and the gratitude so many share- you deserve it! Freakin badass!
4 hundred days quit! Well done bro. Proud as hell to be quit with you today!
AJ you are bad assed! Keep killing it man, I quit with you any day.
Keep kicking ass AJ keep up the strong work to your quit and this site.
Congrats on 400, and thanks for being a leader to those of us that are still fairly new to this.
Nice 400 AJ. Keep killing it!
400 is so great AJ! Thanks for all the help and support. You ROCK! 'oh yeah'
Congrats on 400 days!! That is a big deal worth celebrating. Enjoy!
Great Job AJ!!
Awesome!
I quit with You Today!
400, well ain't that just fucking fantastic!
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Congratulations on 400 today! Another huge achievement for a man that has led a lot of others to their own milestones. You are one of the leaders on this site! Enjoy some Laphroig today, play the guitar, and celebrate your freedom!
Been here 17 days and from agree with Work, see your name a lot. 400 is strong. Congrats. Thanks for supporting the new quitters as well.
Soak it in. 400 is great. Feel the accomplishment and the gratitude so many share- you deserve it! Freakin badass!
4 hundred days quit! Well done bro. Proud as hell to be quit with you today!
AJ you are bad assed! Keep killing it man, I quit with you any day.
Keep kicking ass AJ keep up the strong work to your quit and this site.
Nice work! Congrats!!!
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Congratulations on 400 today! Another huge achievement for a man that has led a lot of others to their own milestones. You are one of the leaders on this site! Enjoy some Laphroig today, play the guitar, and celebrate your freedom!
Been here 17 days and from agree with Work, see your name a lot. 400 is strong. Congrats. Thanks for supporting the new quitters as well.
Soak it in. 400 is great. Feel the accomplishment and the gratitude so many share- you deserve it! Freakin badass!
4 hundred days quit! Well done bro. Proud as hell to be quit with you today!
AJ you are bad assed! Keep killing it man, I quit with you any day.
Keep kicking ass AJ keep up the strong work to your quit and this site.
Nice work! Congrats!!!
Congrats AJ, awesome milestone. Those of us on the floors below certainly are glad to be looking up to quitters like you on the floors above.
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Congratulations on 400 today! Another huge achievement for a man that has led a lot of others to their own milestones. You are one of the leaders on this site! Enjoy some Laphroig today, play the guitar, and celebrate your freedom!
Been here 17 days and from agree with Work, see your name a lot. 400 is strong. Congrats. Thanks for supporting the new quitters as well.
Soak it in. 400 is great. Feel the accomplishment and the gratitude so many share- you deserve it! Freakin badass!
4 hundred days quit! Well done bro. Proud as hell to be quit with you today!
AJ you are bad assed! Keep killing it man, I quit with you any day.
Keep kicking ass AJ keep up the strong work to your quit and this site.
Very nice indeed! Congrats!
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Congratulations on 400 today! Another huge achievement for a man that has led a lot of others to their own milestones. You are one of the leaders on this site! Enjoy some Laphroig today, play the guitar, and celebrate your freedom!
Been here 17 days and from agree with Work, see your name a lot. 400 is strong. Congrats. Thanks for supporting the new quitters as well.
Soak it in. 400 is great. Feel the accomplishment and the gratitude so many share- you deserve it! Freakin badass!
4 hundred days quit! Well done bro. Proud as hell to be quit with you today!
AJ you are bad assed! Keep killing it man, I quit with you any day.
Keep kicking ass AJ keep up the strong work to your quit and this site.
400 days of freedom. Right on AJ
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'oh yeah'
Nice job AJ keep rocking to the next floor!
Congrats on 400.
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Was texting with my July '13 bros (Trauma, Quit, and SFGE) this morning and the convo turned to, for lack of a better phrase, changes in our mindset
This time last year guys hitting that 400 number I hit yesterday were my superheroes. It was a totally alien thought to wrap my head around. Yesterday it really hit me that I'm just a skip away from half comma status. Whoa. Again... something mythical and awe inspiring sitting at day 36 last year.
Second part of that conversation was accountability. Without each other, without our larger July '13 group, without our larger KTC family fighting the same fight... alone, this would have been impossible. I've been overactive on this site since I quit. It was my choice to jump all in and get OCD about it. At a shade over a year I have, like, 9100 posts. I post support with 30ish groups ~ I mess around in Wildcard ~ I try to keep up on intros. In other words... I'm involved. Every now and then I think I need to pull back, take a breather, and go live some life. I will... gradually. The one thing I will continue to do without fail?... Open myself up to the accountability that has saved my life... posting with my July fam and, in a larger sense, posting with all of you! Thanks for all the kudos yesterday... I'll see you tomorrow too.
Shane... 401 ---- qlfedd
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This has been on my mind for a few weeks now... I just haven't taken any real time to put it together. It boils down to this...
I'm 423 days removed from the complete hell that was the beginning of my quit. You new guys will relate to this... my fog was bad. Real bad. Like... a month bad. I was a freakin' zombie. I just existed for awhile y'know? Post roll... fight like hell to be quit... suck on the KTC nipple. Repeat EDD. I missed a lot of what was going on around me... I was super focused on me.
What's hit me the last few weeks is the sheer glut of people just crawling into KTC day in and day out. Needing help. I mean... neeeeeding help! It was pro'ly like that at the beginning of my own quit but I didn't see it. There's so many it's hard to keep up.
On the one hand... I'm so glad we're here to help them/you. This place will save you. Yes, it will.
On the other hand... the sheer number of people who need help is horrifying.
Nicotine is an evil enemy.
Pure. Evil.
Do not doubt my quitter friends... this is war. We are a beacon for those fighting it.
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This has been on my mind for a few weeks now... I just haven't taken any real time to put it together. It boils down to this...
I'm 423 days removed from the complete hell that was the beginning of my quit. You new guys will relate to this... my fog was bad. Real bad. Like... a month bad. I was a freakin' zombie. I just existed for awhile y'know? Post roll... fight like hell to be quit... suck on the KTC nipple. Repeat EDD. I missed a lot of what was going on around me... I was super focused on me.
What's hit me the last few weeks is the sheer glut of people just crawling into KTC day in and day out. Needing help. I mean... neeeeeding help! It was pro'ly like that at the beginning of my own quit but I didn't see it. There's so many it's hard to keep up.
On the one hand... I'm so glad we're here to help them/you. This place will save you. Yes, it will.
On the other hand... the sheer number of people who need help is horrifying.
Nicotine is an evil enemy.
Pure. Evil.
Do not doubt my quitter friends... this is war. We are a beacon for those fighting it.
I can echo all what AJ just spit out. Remember if you have any left in your tank pay it forward and back. Keep the house light burning bright.
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This has been on my mind for a few weeks now... I just haven't taken any real time to put it together. It boils down to this...
I'm 423 days removed from the complete hell that was the beginning of my quit. You new guys will relate to this... my fog was bad. Real bad. Like... a month bad. I was a freakin' zombie. I just existed for awhile y'know? Post roll... fight like hell to be quit... suck on the KTC nipple. Repeat EDD. I missed a lot of what was going on around me... I was super focused on me.
What's hit me the last few weeks is the sheer glut of people just crawling into KTC day in and day out. Needing help. I mean... neeeeeding help! It was pro'ly like that at the beginning of my own quit but I didn't see it. There's so many it's hard to keep up.
On the one hand... I'm so glad we're here to help them/you. This place will save you. Yes, it will.
On the other hand... the sheer number of people who need help is horrifying.
Nicotine is an evil enemy.
Pure. Evil.
Do not doubt my quitter friends... this is war. We are a beacon for those fighting it.
I can echo all what AJ just spit out. Remember if you have any left in your tank pay it forward and back. Keep the house light burning bright.
Good read - Nice post AJ
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This has been on my mind for a few weeks now... I just haven't taken any real time to put it together. It boils down to this...
I'm 423 days removed from the complete hell that was the beginning of my quit. You new guys will relate to this... my fog was bad. Real bad. Like... a month bad. I was a freakin' zombie. I just existed for awhile y'know? Post roll... fight like hell to be quit... suck on the KTC nipple. Repeat EDD. I missed a lot of what was going on around me... I was super focused on me.
What's hit me the last few weeks is the sheer glut of people just crawling into KTC day in and day out. Needing help. I mean... neeeeeding help! It was pro'ly like that at the beginning of my own quit but I didn't see it. There's so many it's hard to keep up.
On the one hand... I'm so glad we're here to help them/you. This place will save you. Yes, it will.
On the other hand... the sheer number of people who need help is horrifying.
Nicotine is an evil enemy.
Pure. Evil.
Do not doubt my quitter friends... this is war. We are a beacon for those fighting it.
I can echo all what AJ just spit out. Remember if you have any left in your tank pay it forward and back. Keep the house light burning bright.
Good read - Nice post AJ
Great post. Very proud to be a part if this thing.
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This has been on my mind for a few weeks now... I just haven't taken any real time to put it together. It boils down to this...
I'm 423 days removed from the complete hell that was the beginning of my quit. You new guys will relate to this... my fog was bad. Real bad. Like... a month bad. I was a freakin' zombie. I just existed for awhile y'know? Post roll... fight like hell to be quit... suck on the KTC nipple. Repeat EDD. I missed a lot of what was going on around me... I was super focused on me.
What's hit me the last few weeks is the sheer glut of people just crawling into KTC day in and day out. Needing help. I mean... neeeeeding help! It was pro'ly like that at the beginning of my own quit but I didn't see it. There's so many it's hard to keep up.
On the one hand... I'm so glad we're here to help them/you. This place will save you. Yes, it will.
On the other hand... the sheer number of people who need help is horrifying.
Nicotine is an evil enemy.
Pure. Evil.
Do not doubt my quitter friends... this is war. We are a beacon for those fighting it.
I can echo all what AJ just spit out. Remember if you have any left in your tank pay it forward and back. Keep the house light burning bright.
Good read - Nice post AJ
Great post. Very proud to be a part if this thing.
I'm down for the fight with you guys. Seriously, I hate the fact that this stuff is legal and essentially none of us who are addicts knew how absolutely evil it was-- nor did we have much of a chance to know it. I can see myself doing what I can in this battle for a long time. I"m glad there are warriors ahead of me to learn tactics from-- there are plenty of people crawling in here ready to do what it takes to save themselves! I think the world of all of you guys in this circle thread here and vow to fight with you!
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Thought I'd post today because, in my world of quit, the 4th of July is significant on soooo many levels. Last year during the 4th I was approaching HOF and stoked about it. Freedom becoming a way of life.
This year during the 4th I'm staring down the barrel of half comma status as the next big milestone. Freedom being my new normal.
New guys... You're winning. Every day... You're winning and freedom becomes more precious and real with each victory. Rock on...
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Thought I'd post today because, in my world of quit, the 4th of July is significant on soooo many levels. Last year during the 4th I was approaching HOF and stoked about it. Freedom becoming a way of life.
This year during the 4th I'm staring down the barrel of half comma status as the next big milestone. Freedom being my new normal.
New guys... You're winning. Every day... You're winning and freedom becomes more precious and real with each victory. Rock on...
Hell yes we are winning ODAAT!
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Thought I'd post today because, in my world of quit, the 4th of July is significant on soooo many levels. Last year during the 4th I was approaching HOF and stoked about it. Freedom becoming a way of life.
This year during the 4th I'm staring down the barrel of half comma status as the next big milestone. Freedom being my new normal.
New guys... You're winning. Every day... You're winning and freedom becomes more precious and real with each victory. Rock on...
Respect.
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Thought I'd post today because, in my world of quit, the 4th of July is significant on soooo many levels. Last year during the 4th I was approaching HOF and stoked about it. Freedom becoming a way of life.
This year during the 4th I'm staring down the barrel of half comma status as the next big milestone. Freedom being my new normal.
New guys... You're winning. Every day... You're winning and freedom becomes more precious and real with each victory. Rock on...
Respect.
“We're going to meet a lot of lonely people in the next week and the next month and the next year. And when they ask us what we're doing, you can say, We're remembering. That's where we'll win out in the long run. And someday we'll remember so much that we'll build the biggest goddamn steamshovel in history and dig the biggest grave of all time and shove [nicotine] in it and cover it up.”-Ray Bradbury (slightly modified)
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Thought I'd post today because, in my world of quit, the 4th of July is significant on soooo many levels. Last year during the 4th I was approaching HOF and stoked about it. Freedom becoming a way of life.
This year during the 4th I'm staring down the barrel of half comma status as the next big milestone. Freedom being my new normal.
New guys... You're winning. Every day... You're winning and freedom becomes more precious and real with each victory. Rock on...
Respect.
“We're going to meet a lot of lonely people in the next week and the next month and the next year. And when they ask us what we're doing, you can say, We're remembering. That's where we'll win out in the long run. And someday we'll remember so much that we'll build the biggest goddamn steamshovel in history and dig the biggest grave of all time and shove [nicotine] in it and cover it up.”-Ray Bradbury (slightly modified)
I love this guy! I haven't started worshiping you yet, but you are in my category of idols.
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Thought I'd post today because, in my world of quit, the 4th of July is significant on soooo many levels. Last year during the 4th I was approaching HOF and stoked about it. Freedom becoming a way of life.
This year during the 4th I'm staring down the barrel of half comma status as the next big milestone. Freedom being my new normal.
New guys... You're winning. Every day... You're winning and freedom becomes more precious and real with each victory. Rock on...
Respect.
“We're going to meet a lot of lonely people in the next week and the next month and the next year. And when they ask us what we're doing, you can say, We're remembering. That's where we'll win out in the long run. And someday we'll remember so much that we'll build the biggest goddamn steamshovel in history and dig the biggest grave of all time and shove [nicotine] in it and cover it up.”-Ray Bradbury (slightly modified)
I love this guy! I haven't started worshiping you yet, but you are in my category of idols.
I have a little AJ idol on top of my model of Stonehenge!
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AJ 500 big ones....You are a big force in the quit of many quitters. I had to go 12 pages deep to find this thread deep in the bone yard of quitters who are still here and some that have come and gone. Nice to have you as the mortar in the halls we call home that hold these bricks together!
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AJ 500 big ones....You are a big force in the quit of many quitters. I had to go 12 pages deep to find this thread deep in the bone yard of quitters who are still here and some that have come and gone. Nice to have you as the mortar in the halls we call home that hold these bricks together!
Congrats on the half shell brother! Thanks for posting up with us everyday. Well done!
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AJ 500 big ones....You are a big force in the quit of many quitters. I had to go 12 pages deep to find this thread deep in the bone yard of quitters who are still here and some that have come and gone. Nice to have you as the mortar in the halls we call home that hold these bricks together!
Congrats on the half shell brother! Thanks for posting up with us everyday. Well done!
In life we have a lot of people pass by who make a little impression, and then a small handful that make a long term meaningful impact. For many of us on this site, you are one of the few. You are a consistent leader and motivator and I thank you for helping me and others. Enjoy 500 today - you've earned it!
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AJ 500 big ones....You are a big force in the quit of many quitters. I had to go 12 pages deep to find this thread deep in the bone yard of quitters who are still here and some that have come and gone. Nice to have you as the mortar in the halls we call home that hold these bricks together!
500 big ones for you dude!! Thanks for posting in Dec 13!!!!
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AJ 500 big ones....You are a big force in the quit of many quitters. I had to go 12 pages deep to find this thread deep in the bone yard of quitters who are still here and some that have come and gone. Nice to have you as the mortar in the halls we call home that hold these bricks together!
500 big ones for you dude!! Thanks for posting in Dec 13!!!!
Congrats AJ...Turn it up to 11 today!
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AJ 500 big ones....You are a big force in the quit of many quitters. I had to go 12 pages deep to find this thread deep in the bone yard of quitters who are still here and some that have come and gone. Nice to have you as the mortar in the halls we call home that hold these bricks together!
500 big ones for you dude!! Thanks for posting in Dec 13!!!!
Congrats AJ...Turn it up to 11 today!
Killing it AJ - 'oh yeah'
oh there is a short cut to finding your post
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AJ 500 big ones....You are a big force in the quit of many quitters. I had to go 12 pages deep to find this thread deep in the bone yard of quitters who are still here and some that have come and gone. Nice to have you as the mortar in the halls we call home that hold these bricks together!
500 big ones for you dude!! Thanks for posting in Dec 13!!!!
Congrats AJ...Turn it up to 11 today!
Killing it AJ - 'oh yeah'
oh there is a short cut to finding your post
Hell yeah half comma! Congrats!
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AJ 500 big ones....You are a big force in the quit of many quitters. I had to go 12 pages deep to find this thread deep in the bone yard of quitters who are still here and some that have come and gone. Nice to have you as the mortar in the halls we call home that hold these bricks together!
500 big ones for you dude!! Thanks for posting in Dec 13!!!!
Congrats AJ...Turn it up to 11 today!
Killing it AJ - 'oh yeah'
oh there is a short cut to finding your post
Hell yeah half comma! Congrats!
Can I get a hell yea?! 'oh yeah' This is a great day, congrats AJ.
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AJ 500 big ones....You are a big force in the quit of many quitters. I had to go 12 pages deep to find this thread deep in the bone yard of quitters who are still here and some that have come and gone. Nice to have you as the mortar in the halls we call home that hold these bricks together!
Congrats on the half shell brother! Thanks for posting up with us everyday. Well done!
In life we have a lot of people pass by who make a little impression, and then a small handful that make a long term meaningful impact. For many of us on this site, you are one of the few. You are a consistent leader and motivator and I thank you for helping me and others. Enjoy 500 today - you've earned it!
Work put it really well^^^^. Congrats, well done, and thanks for being a big force to so many- in a way that shines with pure class!
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AJ 500 big ones....You are a big force in the quit of many quitters. I had to go 12 pages deep to find this thread deep in the bone yard of quitters who are still here and some that have come and gone. Nice to have you as the mortar in the halls we call home that hold these bricks together!
Congrats on the half shell brother! Thanks for posting up with us everyday. Well done!
In life we have a lot of people pass by who make a little impression, and then a small handful that make a long term meaningful impact. For many of us on this site, you are one of the few. You are a consistent leader and motivator and I thank you for helping me and others. Enjoy 500 today - you've earned it!
Work put it really well^^^^. Congrats, well done, and thanks for being a big force to so many- in a way that shines with pure class!
Gratz AJ!
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AJ 500 big ones....You are a big force in the quit of many quitters. I had to go 12 pages deep to find this thread deep in the bone yard of quitters who are still here and some that have come and gone. Nice to have you as the mortar in the halls we call home that hold these bricks together!
Congrats on the half shell brother! Thanks for posting up with us everyday. Well done!
In life we have a lot of people pass by who make a little impression, and then a small handful that make a long term meaningful impact. For many of us on this site, you are one of the few. You are a consistent leader and motivator and I thank you for helping me and others. Enjoy 500 today - you've earned it!
Work put it really well^^^^. Congrats, well done, and thanks for being a big force to so many- in a way that shines with pure class!
Gratz AJ!
Parking at a premium today to see you hit the 5th floor! NICE! Thanks for being a force in my quit brother, right from the beginning. I can't say more than what's already been said except, nice job at collecting that half comma, you've earned every bit of it, every damn day. Now let's go collect the other half of that comma, one day at a time!
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AJ 500 big ones....You are a big force in the quit of many quitters. I had to go 12 pages deep to find this thread deep in the bone yard of quitters who are still here and some that have come and gone. Nice to have you as the mortar in the halls we call home that hold these bricks together!
Congrats on the half shell brother! Thanks for posting up with us everyday. Well done!
In life we have a lot of people pass by who make a little impression, and then a small handful that make a long term meaningful impact. For many of us on this site, you are one of the few. You are a consistent leader and motivator and I thank you for helping me and others. Enjoy 500 today - you've earned it!
Work put it really well^^^^. Congrats, well done, and thanks for being a big force to so many- in a way that shines with pure class!
Gratz AJ!
Parking at a premium today to see you hit the 5th floor! NICE! Thanks for being a force in my quit brother, right from the beginning. I can't say more than what's already been said except, nice job at collecting that half comma, you've earned every bit of it, every damn day. Now let's go collect the other half of that comma, one day at a time!
Way to be Shane! You've been a huge support to me. Thank You. On this fine day after work, I am going to go home and listen to "Lick my Love Pump" over and over. It makes me weep instantly! :wub: 'oh yeah'
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AJ 500 big ones....You are a big force in the quit of many quitters. I had to go 12 pages deep to find this thread deep in the bone yard of quitters who are still here and some that have come and gone. Nice to have you as the mortar in the halls we call home that hold these bricks together!
Congrats on the half shell brother! Thanks for posting up with us everyday. Well done!
In life we have a lot of people pass by who make a little impression, and then a small handful that make a long term meaningful impact. For many of us on this site, you are one of the few. You are a consistent leader and motivator and I thank you for helping me and others. Enjoy 500 today - you've earned it!
Work put it really well^^^^. Congrats, well done, and thanks for being a big force to so many- in a way that shines with pure class!
Gratz AJ!
Parking at a premium today to see you hit the 5th floor! NICE! Thanks for being a force in my quit brother, right from the beginning. I can't say more than what's already been said except, nice job at collecting that half comma, you've earned every bit of it, every damn day. Now let's go collect the other half of that comma, one day at a time!
Way to be Trauma! You've been a huge support to me. Thank You. On this fine day after work, I am going to go home and listen to "Lick my Love Pump" over and over. It makes me weep instantly! :wub: 'oh yeah'
Gratz AJ! Enjoy your day!
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AJ 500 big ones....You are a big force in the quit of many quitters. I had to go 12 pages deep to find this thread deep in the bone yard of quitters who are still here and some that have come and gone. Nice to have you as the mortar in the halls we call home that hold these bricks together!
Congrats on the half shell brother! Thanks for posting up with us everyday. Well done!
In life we have a lot of people pass by who make a little impression, and then a small handful that make a long term meaningful impact. For many of us on this site, you are one of the few. You are a consistent leader and motivator and I thank you for helping me and others. Enjoy 500 today - you've earned it!
Work put it really well^^^^. Congrats, well done, and thanks for being a big force to so many- in a way that shines with pure class!
Gratz AJ!
Parking at a premium today to see you hit the 5th floor! NICE! Thanks for being a force in my quit brother, right from the beginning. I can't say more than what's already been said except, nice job at collecting that half comma, you've earned every bit of it, every damn day. Now let's go collect the other half of that comma, one day at a time!
Way to be Shane! You've been a huge support to me. Thank You. On this fine day after work, I am going to go home and listen to "Lick my Love Pump" over and over. It makes me weep instantly! :wub: 'oh yeah'
Gratz AJ! Enjoy your day!
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AJ 500 big ones....You are a big force in the quit of many quitters. I had to go 12 pages deep to find this thread deep in the bone yard of quitters who are still here and some that have come and gone. Nice to have you as the mortar in the halls we call home that hold these bricks together!
Congrats on the half shell brother! Thanks for posting up with us everyday. Well done!
In life we have a lot of people pass by who make a little impression, and then a small handful that make a long term meaningful impact. For many of us on this site, you are one of the few. You are a consistent leader and motivator and I thank you for helping me and others. Enjoy 500 today - you've earned it!
Work put it really well^^^^. Congrats, well done, and thanks for being a big force to so many- in a way that shines with pure class!
Gratz AJ!
Parking at a premium today to see you hit the 5th floor! NICE! Thanks for being a force in my quit brother, right from the beginning. I can't say more than what's already been said except, nice job at collecting that half comma, you've earned every bit of it, every damn day. Now let's go collect the other half of that comma, one day at a time!
Way to be Shane! You've been a huge support to me. Thank You. On this fine day after work, I am going to go home and listen to "Lick my Love Pump" over and over. It makes me weep instantly! :wub: 'oh yeah'
Gratz AJ! Enjoy your day!
Way to go! Glad you're here and QLF.
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AJ 500 big ones....You are a big force in the quit of many quitters. I had to go 12 pages deep to find this thread deep in the bone yard of quitters who are still here and some that have come and gone. Nice to have you as the mortar in the halls we call home that hold these bricks together!
Congrats on the half shell brother! Thanks for posting up with us everyday. Well done!
In life we have a lot of people pass by who make a little impression, and then a small handful that make a long term meaningful impact. For many of us on this site, you are one of the few. You are a consistent leader and motivator and I thank you for helping me and others. Enjoy 500 today - you've earned it!
Work put it really well^^^^. Congrats, well done, and thanks for being a big force to so many- in a way that shines with pure class!
Gratz AJ!
Parking at a premium today to see you hit the 5th floor! NICE! Thanks for being a force in my quit brother, right from the beginning. I can't say more than what's already been said except, nice job at collecting that half comma, you've earned every bit of it, every damn day. Now let's go collect the other half of that comma, one day at a time!
Way to be Shane! You've been a huge support to me. Thank You. On this fine day after work, I am going to go home and listen to "Lick my Love Pump" over and over. It makes me weep instantly! :wub: 'oh yeah'
Gratz AJ! Enjoy your day!
Way to go! Glad you're here and QLF.
ThatÂ’s awesome, AJ!
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AJ 500 big ones....You are a big force in the quit of many quitters. I had to go 12 pages deep to find this thread deep in the bone yard of quitters who are still here and some that have come and gone. Nice to have you as the mortar in the halls we call home that hold these bricks together!
Congrats on the half shell brother! Thanks for posting up with us everyday. Well done!
In life we have a lot of people pass by who make a little impression, and then a small handful that make a long term meaningful impact. For many of us on this site, you are one of the few. You are a consistent leader and motivator and I thank you for helping me and others. Enjoy 500 today - you've earned it!
Work put it really well^^^^. Congrats, well done, and thanks for being a big force to so many- in a way that shines with pure class!
Gratz AJ!
Parking at a premium today to see you hit the 5th floor! NICE! Thanks for being a force in my quit brother, right from the beginning. I can't say more than what's already been said except, nice job at collecting that half comma, you've earned every bit of it, every damn day. Now let's go collect the other half of that comma, one day at a time!
Way to be Shane! You've been a huge support to me. Thank You. On this fine day after work, I am going to go home and listen to "Lick my Love Pump" over and over. It makes me weep instantly! :wub: 'oh yeah'
Gratz AJ! Enjoy your day!
Way to go! Glad you're here and QLF.
ThatÂ’s awesome, AJ!
500 is awesome AJ. Holy shit it looks good on you! Way to crush it every damn day. You sir, are a rockstar!
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AJ 500 big ones....You are a big force in the quit of many quitters. I had to go 12 pages deep to find this thread deep in the bone yard of quitters who are still here and some that have come and gone. Nice to have you as the mortar in the halls we call home that hold these bricks together!
Congrats on the half shell brother! Thanks for posting up with us everyday. Well done!
In life we have a lot of people pass by who make a little impression, and then a small handful that make a long term meaningful impact. For many of us on this site, you are one of the few. You are a consistent leader and motivator and I thank you for helping me and others. Enjoy 500 today - you've earned it!
Work put it really well^^^^. Congrats, well done, and thanks for being a big force to so many- in a way that shines with pure class!
Gratz AJ!
Parking at a premium today to see you hit the 5th floor! NICE! Thanks for being a force in my quit brother, right from the beginning. I can't say more than what's already been said except, nice job at collecting that half comma, you've earned every bit of it, every damn day. Now let's go collect the other half of that comma, one day at a time!
Way to be Shane! You've been a huge support to me. Thank You. On this fine day after work, I am going to go home and listen to "Lick my Love Pump" over and over. It makes me weep instantly! :wub: 'oh yeah'
Gratz AJ! Enjoy your day!
Way to go! Glad you're here and QLF.
ThatÂ’s awesome, AJ!
500 is awesome AJ. Holy shit it looks good on you! Way to crush it every damn day. You sir, are a rockstar!
Well done fine sir! Proud to roll with the likes of you! Quit with u all day long.
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AJ 500 big ones....You are a big force in the quit of many quitters. I had to go 12 pages deep to find this thread deep in the bone yard of quitters who are still here and some that have come and gone. Nice to have you as the mortar in the halls we call home that hold these bricks together!
Congrats on the half shell brother! Thanks for posting up with us everyday. Well done!
In life we have a lot of people pass by who make a little impression, and then a small handful that make a long term meaningful impact. For many of us on this site, you are one of the few. You are a consistent leader and motivator and I thank you for helping me and others. Enjoy 500 today - you've earned it!
Work put it really well^^^^. Congrats, well done, and thanks for being a big force to so many- in a way that shines with pure class!
Gratz AJ!
Parking at a premium today to see you hit the 5th floor! NICE! Thanks for being a force in my quit brother, right from the beginning. I can't say more than what's already been said except, nice job at collecting that half comma, you've earned every bit of it, every damn day. Now let's go collect the other half of that comma, one day at a time!
Way to be Shane! You've been a huge support to me. Thank You. On this fine day after work, I am going to go home and listen to "Lick my Love Pump" over and over. It makes me weep instantly! :wub: 'oh yeah'
Gratz AJ! Enjoy your day!
Way to go! Glad you're here and QLF.
ThatÂ’s awesome, AJ!
500 is awesome AJ. Holy shit it looks good on you! Way to crush it every damn day. You sir, are a rockstar!
Well done fine sir! Proud to roll with the likes of you! Quit with u all day long.
500 is awesome, great job!
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AJ 500 big ones....You are a big force in the quit of many quitters. I had to go 12 pages deep to find this thread deep in the bone yard of quitters who are still here and some that have come and gone. Nice to have you as the mortar in the halls we call home that hold these bricks together!
Congrats on the half shell brother! Thanks for posting up with us everyday. Well done!
In life we have a lot of people pass by who make a little impression, and then a small handful that make a long term meaningful impact. For many of us on this site, you are one of the few. You are a consistent leader and motivator and I thank you for helping me and others. Enjoy 500 today - you've earned it!
Work put it really well^^^^. Congrats, well done, and thanks for being a big force to so many- in a way that shines with pure class!
Gratz AJ!
Parking at a premium today to see you hit the 5th floor! NICE! Thanks for being a force in my quit brother, right from the beginning. I can't say more than what's already been said except, nice job at collecting that half comma, you've earned every bit of it, every damn day. Now let's go collect the other half of that comma, one day at a time!
Way to be Shane! You've been a huge support to me. Thank You. On this fine day after work, I am going to go home and listen to "Lick my Love Pump" over and over. It makes me weep instantly! :wub: 'oh yeah'
Gratz AJ! Enjoy your day!
Way to go! Glad you're here and QLF.
ThatÂ’s awesome, AJ!
500 is awesome AJ. Holy shit it looks good on you! Way to crush it every damn day. You sir, are a rockstar!
Well done fine sir! Proud to roll with the likes of you! Quit with u all day long.
500 is awesome, great job!
Congrats, AJ.
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AJ 500 big ones....You are a big force in the quit of many quitters. I had to go 12 pages deep to find this thread deep in the bone yard of quitters who are still here and some that have come and gone. Nice to have you as the mortar in the halls we call home that hold these bricks together!
Congrats on the half shell brother! Thanks for posting up with us everyday. Well done!
In life we have a lot of people pass by who make a little impression, and then a small handful that make a long term meaningful impact. For many of us on this site, you are one of the few. You are a consistent leader and motivator and I thank you for helping me and others. Enjoy 500 today - you've earned it!
Work put it really well^^^^. Congrats, well done, and thanks for being a big force to so many- in a way that shines with pure class!
Gratz AJ!
Parking at a premium today to see you hit the 5th floor! NICE! Thanks for being a force in my quit brother, right from the beginning. I can't say more than what's already been said except, nice job at collecting that half comma, you've earned every bit of it, every damn day. Now let's go collect the other half of that comma, one day at a time!
Way to be Shane! You've been a huge support to me. Thank You. On this fine day after work, I am going to go home and listen to "Lick my Love Pump" over and over. It makes me weep instantly! :wub: 'oh yeah'
Gratz AJ! Enjoy your day!
Way to go! Glad you're here and QLF.
ThatÂ’s awesome, AJ!
500 is awesome AJ. Holy shit it looks good on you! Way to crush it every damn day. You sir, are a rockstar!
Well done fine sir! Proud to roll with the likes of you! Quit with u all day long.
500 is awesome, great job!
Congrats, AJ.
congrats, sir!
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AJ 500 big ones....You are a big force in the quit of many quitters. I had to go 12 pages deep to find this thread deep in the bone yard of quitters who are still here and some that have come and gone. Nice to have you as the mortar in the halls we call home that hold these bricks together!
Congrats on the half shell brother! Thanks for posting up with us everyday. Well done!
In life we have a lot of people pass by who make a little impression, and then a small handful that make a long term meaningful impact. For many of us on this site, you are one of the few. You are a consistent leader and motivator and I thank you for helping me and others. Enjoy 500 today - you've earned it!
Work put it really well^^^^. Congrats, well done, and thanks for being a big force to so many- in a way that shines with pure class!
Gratz AJ!
Parking at a premium today to see you hit the 5th floor! NICE! Thanks for being a force in my quit brother, right from the beginning. I can't say more than what's already been said except, nice job at collecting that half comma, you've earned every bit of it, every damn day. Now let's go collect the other half of that comma, one day at a time!
Way to be Shane! You've been a huge support to me. Thank You. On this fine day after work, I am going to go home and listen to "Lick my Love Pump" over and over. It makes me weep instantly! :wub: 'oh yeah'
Gratz AJ! Enjoy your day!
Way to go! Glad you're here and QLF.
ThatÂ’s awesome, AJ!
500 is awesome AJ. Holy shit it looks good on you! Way to crush it every damn day. You sir, are a rockstar!
Well done fine sir! Proud to roll with the likes of you! Quit with u all day long.
500 is awesome, great job!
Congrats, AJ.
congrats, sir!
Congrats AJ, 500 is bad fucking ass!! Quit with you every damn day!!
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AJ 500 big ones....You are a big force in the quit of many quitters. I had to go 12 pages deep to find this thread deep in the bone yard of quitters who are still here and some that have come and gone. Nice to have you as the mortar in the halls we call home that hold these bricks together!
Congrats on the half shell brother! Thanks for posting up with us everyday. Well done!
In life we have a lot of people pass by who make a little impression, and then a small handful that make a long term meaningful impact. For many of us on this site, you are one of the few. You are a consistent leader and motivator and I thank you for helping me and others. Enjoy 500 today - you've earned it!
Work put it really well^^^^. Congrats, well done, and thanks for being a big force to so many- in a way that shines with pure class!
Gratz AJ!
Parking at a premium today to see you hit the 5th floor! NICE! Thanks for being a force in my quit brother, right from the beginning. I can't say more than what's already been said except, nice job at collecting that half comma, you've earned every bit of it, every damn day. Now let's go collect the other half of that comma, one day at a time!
Way to be Shane! You've been a huge support to me. Thank You. On this fine day after work, I am going to go home and listen to "Lick my Love Pump" over and over. It makes me weep instantly! :wub: 'oh yeah'
Gratz AJ! Enjoy your day!
Way to go! Glad you're here and QLF.
ThatÂ’s awesome, AJ!
500 is awesome AJ. Holy shit it looks good on you! Way to crush it every damn day. You sir, are a rockstar!
Well done fine sir! Proud to roll with the likes of you! Quit with u all day long.
500 is awesome, great job!
Congrats, AJ.
congrats, sir!
Congrats AJ, 500 is bad fucking ass!! Quit with you every damn day!!
Congrats on the big half comma my friend! Thanks for all you've done for me over the last year of that. You are one of the few indeed!
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Man... Wow. 500 days.
Last year at this same time, people who had this number of days quit were gods!
Thanks to all of you for the texts, posts in my July '13 house, and kudos in this intro! Love the KTC lovin'! Big shout out to my July bros... SFGE, Quit, and Trauma. With me everyday in quit.
To all you new guys... This place, this way works. Stick around ~ get involved ~ stay involved.
Freedom
Is
Sweet
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Man... Wow. 500 days.
Last year at this same time, people who had this number of days quit were gods!
Thanks to all of you for the texts, posts in my July '13 house, and kudos in this intro! Love the KTC lovin'! Big shout out to my July bros... SFGE, Quit, and Trauma. With me everyday in quit.
To all you new guys... This place, this way works. Stick around ~ get involved ~ stay involved.
Freedom
Is
Sweet
I quit with you! Congrats and thank you for all the support!
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Man... Wow. 500 days.
Last year at this same time, people who had this number of days quit were gods!
Thanks to all of you for the texts, posts in my July '13 house, and kudos in this intro! Love the KTC lovin'! Big shout out to my July bros... SFGE, Quit, and Trauma. With me everyday in quit.
To all you new guys... This place, this way works. Stick around ~ get involved ~ stay involved.
Freedom
Is
Sweet
I quit with you! Congrats and thank you for all the support!
Awesome work Shane! You were one of the first BAQ to help me out, and you have lead the way for me the whole time! Never stop leading the way.
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Man... Wow. 500 days.
Last year at this same time, people who had this number of days quit were gods!
Thanks to all of you for the texts, posts in my July '13 house, and kudos in this intro! Love the KTC lovin'! Big shout out to my July bros... SFGE, Quit, and Trauma. With me everyday in quit.
To all you new guys... This place, this way works. Stick around ~ get involved ~ stay involved.
Freedom
Is
Sweet
I quit with you! Congrats and thank you for all the support!
Awesome work Shane! You were one of the first BAQ to help me out, and you have lead the way for me the whole time! Never stop leading the way.
Fantastic, AJ!
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Man... Wow. 500 days.
Last year at this same time, people who had this number of days quit were gods!
Thanks to all of you for the texts, posts in my July '13 house, and kudos in this intro! Love the KTC lovin'! Big shout out to my July bros... SFGE, Quit, and Trauma. With me everyday in quit.
To all you new guys... This place, this way works. Stick around ~ get involved ~ stay involved.
Freedom
Is
Sweet
I quit with you! Congrats and thank you for all the support!
Awesome work Shane! You were one of the first BAQ to help me out, and you have lead the way for me the whole time! Never stop leading the way.
Fantastic, AJ!
Sorry I haven't been here in a while AJ, but dammit, I quit with ya bro. YOu have done so much for all of us.. congrats my friend.
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Hey newbies, if you want a thread to read, chose this one. This guy has earned his stripes!! First guy to send me his digits!!! Thanks for all the support Shane!
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Thanks for all the support you've given me all you've done for me bro to help me stay quit!
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Quitters quit. No drama here.
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Another quit Jedi
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Another quit Jedi
Bump!
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To one of the first guys that welcomed me here, AJ is the real deal. AJ, I'm so glad that you didn't get your teeth knocked down your throat months ago. 'winker' We sure miss, don't we? 'no'
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To one of the first guys that welcomed me here, AJ is the real deal. AJ, I'm so glad that you didn't get your teeth knocked down your throat months ago. 'winker' We sure miss, don't we? 'no'
I quit with AJ the Jedi Today.
He knows the truth of the poison.
ODAAT and NAFAR, period
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To one of the first guys that welcomed me here, AJ is the real deal. AJ, I'm so glad that you didn't get your teeth knocked down your throat months ago. 'winker' We sure miss, don't we? 'no'
I quit with AJ the Jedi Today.
He knows the truth of the poison.
ODAAT and NAFAR, period
AppleJack knows how you Quit and Fap like a pro!
You sir are a model quitter.
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To one of the first guys that welcomed me here, AJ is the real deal. AJ, I'm so glad that you didn't get your teeth knocked down your throat months ago. 'winker' We sure miss, don't we? 'no'
I quit with AJ the Jedi Today.
He knows the truth of the poison.
ODAAT and NAFAR, period
AppleJack knows how you Quit and Fap like a pro!
You sir are a model quitter.
fapping, I assume every quitter including the ladies know how to fap. LOL. Apple Jack gets it and is a great support to anyone who really wants to quit.
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To one of the first guys that welcomed me here, AJ is the real deal. AJ, I'm so glad that you didn't get your teeth knocked down your throat months ago. 'winker' We sure miss, don't we? 'no'
I quit with AJ the Jedi Today.
He knows the truth of the poison.
ODAAT and NAFAR, period
AppleJack knows how you Quit and Fap like a pro!
You sir are a model quitter.
fapping, I assume every quitter including the ladies know how to fap. LOL. Apple Jack gets it and is a great support to anyone who really wants to quit.
Glad I have this Fapmiester in my corner hats off to the king of fap
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To one of the first guys that welcomed me here, AJ is the real deal. AJ, I'm so glad that you didn't get your teeth knocked down your throat months ago. 'winker' We sure miss, don't we? 'no'
I quit with AJ the Jedi Today.
He knows the truth of the poison.
ODAAT and NAFAR, period
AppleJack knows how you Quit and Fap like a pro!
You sir are a model quitter.
fapping, I assume every quitter including the ladies know how to fap. LOL. Apple Jack gets it and is a great support to anyone who really wants to quit.
Glad I have this Fapmiester in my corner hats off to the king of fap
Most great quits go up to 10, AJ's is one louder!
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To one of the first guys that welcomed me here, AJ is the real deal. AJ, I'm so glad that you didn't get your teeth knocked down your throat months ago. 'winker' We sure miss, don't we? 'no'
I quit with AJ the Jedi Today.
He knows the truth of the poison.
ODAAT and NAFAR, period
AppleJack knows how you Quit and Fap like a pro!
You sir are a model quitter.
fapping, I assume every quitter including the ladies know how to fap. LOL. Apple Jack gets it and is a great support to anyone who really wants to quit.
Glad I have this Fapmiester in my corner hats off to the king of fap
Most great quits go up to 10, AJ's is one louder!
as he is fapping?
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To one of the first guys that welcomed me here, AJ is the real deal. AJ, I'm so glad that you didn't get your teeth knocked down your throat months ago. 'winker' We sure miss, don't we? 'no'
I quit with AJ the Jedi Today.
He knows the truth of the poison.
ODAAT and NAFAR, period
AppleJack knows how you Quit and Fap like a pro!
You sir are a model quitter.
fapping, I assume every quitter including the ladies know how to fap. LOL. Apple Jack gets it and is a great support to anyone who really wants to quit.
Glad I have this Fapmiester in my corner hats off to the king of fap
Most great quits go up to 10, AJ's is one louder!
Congratulations on not spending $6,672 on that shit (as of today!)
You da man. Glad you are in my corner!
-worktowin
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To one of the first guys that welcomed me here, AJ is the real deal. AJ, I'm so glad that you didn't get your teeth knocked down your throat months ago. 'winker' We sure miss, don't we? 'no'
I quit with AJ the Jedi Today.
He knows the truth of the poison.
ODAAT and NAFAR, period
AppleJack knows how you Quit and Fap like a pro!
You sir are a model quitter.
fapping, I assume every quitter including the ladies know how to fap. LOL. Apple Jack gets it and is a great support to anyone who really wants to quit.
Glad I have this Fapmiester in my corner hats off to the king of fap
Most great quits go up to 10, AJ's is one louder!
Congratulations on not spending $6,672 on that shit (as of today!)
You da man. Glad you are in my corner!
-worktowin
Glad to have you in my corner as well!
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Healing is a bitch.
Especially when the wound was deep. Just when you think youÂ’re over itÂ… wham!... you move wrong or bump it. Dammit. YouÂ’re reminded that because it was deep itÂ’ll be a part of you forever.
At 568 today, IÂ’ve been cruising for a while and itÂ’s been nice. IÂ’ve stepped way back from posting and just being here in general. I needed to unplug a bit because I jumped all inÂ… I mean, ALL in when I quit. Logged my 10, 400th post the other day. SoÂ… it was time to do some more front porch quitting. Just enjoying the view.
It was also time to tackle a hurdle IÂ’ve put off since the beginning of my quit.
This is going to sound ridiculous but I think youÂ’ll all know where IÂ’m coming from. Some of the things we did while we dipped became, in our minds, impossible to fathom doing without dip. Mowing the lawn, working on cars, driving, video games, readingÂ… the list goes on. Me?... I love to read. I meanÂ… Love. To. Read. Usually 2 to 4 books a week.
HavenÂ’t touched a book since last April.
See, I haven’t read a book without a dip in since I was 17… I’m 44 now. Like all of us, I tainted something awesome with my addiction. I tried a few times over the last year to sit down and read but, man, I got geeky. Couldn’t sit still. Needed a snack. Had to pee. Whatever. It was a kind of PTSD. My addict brain whispering, “Remember this was sooooo much better with a dip in? So much more relaxing and enjoyable”. So… I let it go. I haven’t been ready to tackle it yet. At some point I tied the enjoyment too close to my addiction. Stupid huh? I almost hate writing this because it’s sooo lame but… it is what it is. Getting it out will help me remember.
This week?... time to be done. Bought myself 4 new books. Devoured one in a day and a half and plowing through number 2. Why Did I let it go for so long? Dunno. Addicts arenÂ’t rational folk sometimes. I guess IÂ’ll be dealing with the fallout of 25 years of stupidity for some time yet. ButÂ… thatÂ’s why IÂ’m here. One day at a time... Healing.
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Healing is a bitch.
Especially when the wound was deep. Just when you think youÂ’re over itÂ… wham!... you move wrong or bump it. Dammit. YouÂ’re reminded that because it was deep itÂ’ll be a part of you forever.
At 568 today, IÂ’ve been cruising for a while and itÂ’s been nice. IÂ’ve stepped way back from posting and just being here in general. I needed to unplug a bit because I jumped all inÂ… I mean, ALL in when I quit. Logged my 10, 400th post the other day. SoÂ… it was time to do some more front porch quitting. Just enjoying the view.
It was also time to tackle a hurdle IÂ’ve put off since the beginning of my quit.
This is going to sound ridiculous but I think youÂ’ll all know where IÂ’m coming from. Some of the things we did while we dipped became, in our minds, impossible to fathom doing without dip. Mowing the lawn, working on cars, driving, video games, readingÂ… the list goes on. Me?... I love to read. I meanÂ… Love. To. Read. Usually 2 to 4 books a week.
HavenÂ’t touched a book since last April.
See, I haven’t read a book without a dip in since I was 17… I’m 44 now. Like all of us, I tainted something awesome with my addiction. I tried a few times over the last year to sit down and read but, man, I got geeky. Couldn’t sit still. Needed a snack. Had to pee. Whatever. It was a kind of PTSD. My addict brain whispering, “Remember this was sooooo much better with a dip in? So much more relaxing and enjoyable”. So… I let it go. I haven’t been ready to tackle it yet. At some point I tied the enjoyment too close to my addiction. Stupid huh? I almost hate writing this because it’s sooo lame but… it is what it is. Getting it out will help me remember.
This week?... time to be done. Bought myself 4 new books. Devoured one in a day and a half and plowing through number 2. Why Did I let it go for so long? Dunno. Addicts arenÂ’t rational folk sometimes. I guess IÂ’ll be dealing with the fallout of 25 years of stupidity for some time yet. ButÂ… thatÂ’s why IÂ’m here. One day at a time... Healing.
Damn AJ. We are the same.
Dumbass dippers we were.
Proud of You Brother!!!! Fuck it. Read On! Reading is good. Dippin' is bad, period
They ain't gettin' no more of our life or cash. We kill the robber EDD. ODAAT and NAFAR Today With YOU All day.
Your quit is strong.
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Healing is a bitch.
Especially when the wound was deep. Just when you think youÂ’re over itÂ… wham!... you move wrong or bump it. Dammit. YouÂ’re reminded that because it was deep itÂ’ll be a part of you forever.
At 568 today, IÂ’ve been cruising for a while and itÂ’s been nice. IÂ’ve stepped way back from posting and just being here in general. I needed to unplug a bit because I jumped all inÂ… I mean, ALL in when I quit. Logged my 10, 400th post the other day. SoÂ… it was time to do some more front porch quitting. Just enjoying the view.
It was also time to tackle a hurdle IÂ’ve put off since the beginning of my quit.
This is going to sound ridiculous but I think youÂ’ll all know where IÂ’m coming from. Some of the things we did while we dipped became, in our minds, impossible to fathom doing without dip. Mowing the lawn, working on cars, driving, video games, readingÂ… the list goes on. Me?... I love to read. I meanÂ… Love. To. Read. Usually 2 to 4 books a week.
HavenÂ’t touched a book since last April.
See, I haven’t read a book without a dip in since I was 17… I’m 44 now. Like all of us, I tainted something awesome with my addiction. I tried a few times over the last year to sit down and read but, man, I got geeky. Couldn’t sit still. Needed a snack. Had to pee. Whatever. It was a kind of PTSD. My addict brain whispering, “Remember this was sooooo much better with a dip in? So much more relaxing and enjoyable”. So… I let it go. I haven’t been ready to tackle it yet. At some point I tied the enjoyment too close to my addiction. Stupid huh? I almost hate writing this because it’s sooo lame but… it is what it is. Getting it out will help me remember.
This week?... time to be done. Bought myself 4 new books. Devoured one in a day and a half and plowing through number 2. Why Did I let it go for so long? Dunno. Addicts arenÂ’t rational folk sometimes. I guess IÂ’ll be dealing with the fallout of 25 years of stupidity for some time yet. ButÂ… thatÂ’s why IÂ’m here. One day at a time... Healing.
Damn AJ. We are the same.
Dumbass dippers we were.
Proud of You Brother!!!! Fuck it. Read On! Reading is good. Dippin' is bad, period
They ain't gettin' no more of our life or cash. We kill the robber EDD. ODAAT and NAFAR Today With YOU All day.
Your quit is strong.
-
Healing is a bitch.
Especially when the wound was deep. Just when you think youÂ’re over itÂ… wham!... you move wrong or bump it. Dammit. YouÂ’re reminded that because it was deep itÂ’ll be a part of you forever.
At 568 today, IÂ’ve been cruising for a while and itÂ’s been nice. IÂ’ve stepped way back from posting and just being here in general. I needed to unplug a bit because I jumped all inÂ… I mean, ALL in when I quit. Logged my 10, 400th post the other day. SoÂ… it was time to do some more front porch quitting. Just enjoying the view.
It was also time to tackle a hurdle IÂ’ve put off since the beginning of my quit.
This is going to sound ridiculous but I think youÂ’ll all know where IÂ’m coming from. Some of the things we did while we dipped became, in our minds, impossible to fathom doing without dip. Mowing the lawn, working on cars, driving, video games, readingÂ… the list goes on. Me?... I love to read. I meanÂ… Love. To. Read. Usually 2 to 4 books a week.
HavenÂ’t touched a book since last April.
See, I haven’t read a book without a dip in since I was 17… I’m 44 now. Like all of us, I tainted something awesome with my addiction. I tried a few times over the last year to sit down and read but, man, I got geeky. Couldn’t sit still. Needed a snack. Had to pee. Whatever. It was a kind of PTSD. My addict brain whispering, “Remember this was sooooo much better with a dip in? So much more relaxing and enjoyable”. So… I let it go. I haven’t been ready to tackle it yet. At some point I tied the enjoyment too close to my addiction. Stupid huh? I almost hate writing this because it’s sooo lame but… it is what it is. Getting it out will help me remember.
This week?... time to be done. Bought myself 4 new books. Devoured one in a day and a half and plowing through number 2. Why Did I let it go for so long? Dunno. Addicts arenÂ’t rational folk sometimes. I guess IÂ’ll be dealing with the fallout of 25 years of stupidity for some time yet. ButÂ… thatÂ’s why IÂ’m here. One day at a time... Healing.
Damn AJ. We are the same.
Dumbass dippers we were.
Proud of You Brother!!!! Fuck it. Read On! Reading is good. Dippin' is bad, period
They ain't gettin' no more of our life or cash. We kill the robber EDD. ODAAT and NAFAR Today With YOU All day.
Your quit is strong.
Powerful message AJ, thank you!
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Healing is a bitch.
Especially when the wound was deep. Just when you think youÂ’re over itÂ… wham!... you move wrong or bump it. Dammit. YouÂ’re reminded that because it was deep itÂ’ll be a part of you forever.
At 568 today, IÂ’ve been cruising for a while and itÂ’s been nice. IÂ’ve stepped way back from posting and just being here in general. I needed to unplug a bit because I jumped all inÂ… I mean, ALL in when I quit. Logged my 10, 400th post the other day. SoÂ… it was time to do some more front porch quitting. Just enjoying the view.
It was also time to tackle a hurdle IÂ’ve put off since the beginning of my quit.
This is going to sound ridiculous but I think youÂ’ll all know where IÂ’m coming from. Some of the things we did while we dipped became, in our minds, impossible to fathom doing without dip. Mowing the lawn, working on cars, driving, video games, readingÂ… the list goes on. Me?... I love to read. I meanÂ… Love. To. Read. Usually 2 to 4 books a week.
HavenÂ’t touched a book since last April.
See, I haven’t read a book without a dip in since I was 17… I’m 44 now. Like all of us, I tainted something awesome with my addiction. I tried a few times over the last year to sit down and read but, man, I got geeky. Couldn’t sit still. Needed a snack. Had to pee. Whatever. It was a kind of PTSD. My addict brain whispering, “Remember this was sooooo much better with a dip in? So much more relaxing and enjoyable”. So… I let it go. I haven’t been ready to tackle it yet. At some point I tied the enjoyment too close to my addiction. Stupid huh? I almost hate writing this because it’s sooo lame but… it is what it is. Getting it out will help me remember.
This week?... time to be done. Bought myself 4 new books. Devoured one in a day and a half and plowing through number 2. Why Did I let it go for so long? Dunno. Addicts arenÂ’t rational folk sometimes. I guess IÂ’ll be dealing with the fallout of 25 years of stupidity for some time yet. ButÂ… thatÂ’s why IÂ’m here. One day at a time... Healing.
Damn AJ. We are the same.
Dumbass dippers we were.
Proud of You Brother!!!! Fuck it. Read On! Reading is good. Dippin' is bad, period
They ain't gettin' no more of our life or cash. We kill the robber EDD. ODAAT and NAFAR Today With YOU All day.
Your quit is strong.
Powerful message AJ, thank you!
A musician and a reader. I have heard of a Canadian Drummer that likes to read too! Your stock went up even higher in my book today AJ! Good post Bro!
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Healing is a bitch.
Especially when the wound was deep. Just when you think youÂ’re over itÂ… wham!... you move wrong or bump it. Dammit. YouÂ’re reminded that because it was deep itÂ’ll be a part of you forever.
At 568 today, IÂ’ve been cruising for a while and itÂ’s been nice. IÂ’ve stepped way back from posting and just being here in general. I needed to unplug a bit because I jumped all inÂ… I mean, ALL in when I quit. Logged my 10, 400th post the other day. SoÂ… it was time to do some more front porch quitting. Just enjoying the view.
It was also time to tackle a hurdle IÂ’ve put off since the beginning of my quit.
This is going to sound ridiculous but I think youÂ’ll all know where IÂ’m coming from. Some of the things we did while we dipped became, in our minds, impossible to fathom doing without dip. Mowing the lawn, working on cars, driving, video games, readingÂ… the list goes on. Me?... I love to read. I meanÂ… Love. To. Read. Usually 2 to 4 books a week.
HavenÂ’t touched a book since last April.
See, I haven’t read a book without a dip in since I was 17… I’m 44 now. Like all of us, I tainted something awesome with my addiction. I tried a few times over the last year to sit down and read but, man, I got geeky. Couldn’t sit still. Needed a snack. Had to pee. Whatever. It was a kind of PTSD. My addict brain whispering, “Remember this was sooooo much better with a dip in? So much more relaxing and enjoyable”. So… I let it go. I haven’t been ready to tackle it yet. At some point I tied the enjoyment too close to my addiction. Stupid huh? I almost hate writing this because it’s sooo lame but… it is what it is. Getting it out will help me remember.
This week?... time to be done. Bought myself 4 new books. Devoured one in a day and a half and plowing through number 2. Why Did I let it go for so long? Dunno. Addicts arenÂ’t rational folk sometimes. I guess IÂ’ll be dealing with the fallout of 25 years of stupidity for some time yet. ButÂ… thatÂ’s why IÂ’m here. One day at a time... Healing.
Damn AJ. We are the same.
Dumbass dippers we were.
Proud of You Brother!!!! Fuck it. Read On! Reading is good. Dippin' is bad, period
They ain't gettin' no more of our life or cash. We kill the robber EDD. ODAAT and NAFAR Today With YOU All day.
Your quit is strong.
Powerful message AJ, thank you!
A musician and a reader. I have heard of a Canadian Drummer that likes to read too! Your stock went up even higher in my book today AJ! Good post Bro!
Keep on reading AJ. Proud for you today. Every one of these wins makes you stronger.
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Healing is a bitch.
Especially when the wound was deep. Just when you think youÂ’re over itÂ… wham!... you move wrong or bump it. Dammit. YouÂ’re reminded that because it was deep itÂ’ll be a part of you forever.
At 568 today, IÂ’ve been cruising for a while and itÂ’s been nice. IÂ’ve stepped way back from posting and just being here in general. I needed to unplug a bit because I jumped all inÂ… I mean, ALL in when I quit. Logged my 10, 400th post the other day. SoÂ… it was time to do some more front porch quitting. Just enjoying the view.
It was also time to tackle a hurdle IÂ’ve put off since the beginning of my quit.
This is going to sound ridiculous but I think youÂ’ll all know where IÂ’m coming from. Some of the things we did while we dipped became, in our minds, impossible to fathom doing without dip. Mowing the lawn, working on cars, driving, video games, readingÂ… the list goes on. Me?... I love to read. I meanÂ… Love. To. Read. Usually 2 to 4 books a week.
HavenÂ’t touched a book since last April.
See, I haven’t read a book without a dip in since I was 17… I’m 44 now. Like all of us, I tainted something awesome with my addiction. I tried a few times over the last year to sit down and read but, man, I got geeky. Couldn’t sit still. Needed a snack. Had to pee. Whatever. It was a kind of PTSD. My addict brain whispering, “Remember this was sooooo much better with a dip in? So much more relaxing and enjoyable”. So… I let it go. I haven’t been ready to tackle it yet. At some point I tied the enjoyment too close to my addiction. Stupid huh? I almost hate writing this because it’s sooo lame but… it is what it is. Getting it out will help me remember.
This week?... time to be done. Bought myself 4 new books. Devoured one in a day and a half and plowing through number 2. Why Did I let it go for so long? Dunno. Addicts arenÂ’t rational folk sometimes. I guess IÂ’ll be dealing with the fallout of 25 years of stupidity for some time yet. ButÂ… thatÂ’s why IÂ’m here. One day at a time... Healing.
Damn AJ. We are the same.
Dumbass dippers we were.
Proud of You Brother!!!! Fuck it. Read On! Reading is good. Dippin' is bad, period
They ain't gettin' no more of our life or cash. We kill the robber EDD. ODAAT and NAFAR Today With YOU All day.
Your quit is strong.
Powerful message AJ, thank you!
A musician and a reader. I have heard of a Canadian Drummer that likes to read too! Your stock went up even higher in my book today AJ! Good post Bro!
Keep on reading AJ. Proud for you today. Every one of these wins makes you stronger.
Must taste really good...that slice of life you just gained back. Matter of fact, I bet it tastes much better than it ever did when you had a dip in your mouth.
This is a great post. We always say, it continues to get better. Here's a guy coming up on the 6th freakin' floor and it still gets better for him every day. Why? because he's active, has a brotherhood that runs as deep as an abyss, and does not take for granted one ounce that no matter that number or what floor he's on, he'll always be an addict.
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Healing is a bitch.
Especially when the wound was deep. Just when you think youÂ’re over itÂ… wham!... you move wrong or bump it. Dammit. YouÂ’re reminded that because it was deep itÂ’ll be a part of you forever.
At 568 today, IÂ’ve been cruising for a while and itÂ’s been nice. IÂ’ve stepped way back from posting and just being here in general. I needed to unplug a bit because I jumped all inÂ… I mean, ALL in when I quit. Logged my 10, 400th post the other day. SoÂ… it was time to do some more front porch quitting. Just enjoying the view.
It was also time to tackle a hurdle IÂ’ve put off since the beginning of my quit.
This is going to sound ridiculous but I think youÂ’ll all know where IÂ’m coming from. Some of the things we did while we dipped became, in our minds, impossible to fathom doing without dip. Mowing the lawn, working on cars, driving, video games, readingÂ… the list goes on. Me?... I love to read. I meanÂ… Love. To. Read. Usually 2 to 4 books a week.
HavenÂ’t touched a book since last April.
See, I haven’t read a book without a dip in since I was 17… I’m 44 now. Like all of us, I tainted something awesome with my addiction. I tried a few times over the last year to sit down and read but, man, I got geeky. Couldn’t sit still. Needed a snack. Had to pee. Whatever. It was a kind of PTSD. My addict brain whispering, “Remember this was sooooo much better with a dip in? So much more relaxing and enjoyable”. So… I let it go. I haven’t been ready to tackle it yet. At some point I tied the enjoyment too close to my addiction. Stupid huh? I almost hate writing this because it’s sooo lame but… it is what it is. Getting it out will help me remember.
This week?... time to be done. Bought myself 4 new books. Devoured one in a day and a half and plowing through number 2. Why Did I let it go for so long? Dunno. Addicts arenÂ’t rational folk sometimes. I guess IÂ’ll be dealing with the fallout of 25 years of stupidity for some time yet. ButÂ… thatÂ’s why IÂ’m here. One day at a time... Healing.
Damn AJ. We are the same.
Dumbass dippers we were.
Proud of You Brother!!!! Fuck it. Read On! Reading is good. Dippin' is bad, period
They ain't gettin' no more of our life or cash. We kill the robber EDD. ODAAT and NAFAR Today With YOU All day.
Your quit is strong.
Powerful message AJ, thank you!
A musician and a reader. I have heard of a Canadian Drummer that likes to read too! Your stock went up even higher in my book today AJ! Good post Bro!
Keep on reading AJ. Proud for you today. Every one of these wins makes you stronger.
Must taste really good...that slice of life you just gained back. Matter of fact, I bet it tastes much better than it ever did when you had a dip in your mouth.
This is a great post. We always say, it continues to get better. Here's a guy coming up on the 6th freakin' floor and it still gets better for him every day. Why? because he's active, has a brotherhood that runs as deep as an abyss, and does not take for granted one ounce that no matter that number or what floor he's on, he'll always be an addict.
AJ, do books on tape really count as reading? Nice work Shane, way to continue battling the addiction. Shit keeps me motivated along for another day.
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Healing is a bitch.
Especially when the wound was deep. Just when you think youÂ’re over itÂ… wham!... you move wrong or bump it. Dammit. YouÂ’re reminded that because it was deep itÂ’ll be a part of you forever.
At 568 today, IÂ’ve been cruising for a while and itÂ’s been nice. IÂ’ve stepped way back from posting and just being here in general. I needed to unplug a bit because I jumped all inÂ… I mean, ALL in when I quit. Logged my 10, 400th post the other day. SoÂ… it was time to do some more front porch quitting. Just enjoying the view.
It was also time to tackle a hurdle IÂ’ve put off since the beginning of my quit.
This is going to sound ridiculous but I think youÂ’ll all know where IÂ’m coming from. Some of the things we did while we dipped became, in our minds, impossible to fathom doing without dip. Mowing the lawn, working on cars, driving, video games, readingÂ… the list goes on. Me?... I love to read. I meanÂ… Love. To. Read. Usually 2 to 4 books a week.
HavenÂ’t touched a book since last April.
See, I haven’t read a book without a dip in since I was 17… I’m 44 now. Like all of us, I tainted something awesome with my addiction. I tried a few times over the last year to sit down and read but, man, I got geeky. Couldn’t sit still. Needed a snack. Had to pee. Whatever. It was a kind of PTSD. My addict brain whispering, “Remember this was sooooo much better with a dip in? So much more relaxing and enjoyable”. So… I let it go. I haven’t been ready to tackle it yet. At some point I tied the enjoyment too close to my addiction. Stupid huh? I almost hate writing this because it’s sooo lame but… it is what it is. Getting it out will help me remember.
This week?... time to be done. Bought myself 4 new books. Devoured one in a day and a half and plowing through number 2. Why Did I let it go for so long? Dunno. Addicts arenÂ’t rational folk sometimes. I guess IÂ’ll be dealing with the fallout of 25 years of stupidity for some time yet. ButÂ… thatÂ’s why IÂ’m here. One day at a time... Healing.
Damn AJ. We are the same.
Dumbass dippers we were.
Proud of You Brother!!!! Fuck it. Read On! Reading is good. Dippin' is bad, period
They ain't gettin' no more of our life or cash. We kill the robber EDD. ODAAT and NAFAR Today With YOU All day.
Your quit is strong.
Powerful message AJ, thank you!
A musician and a reader. I have heard of a Canadian Drummer that likes to read too! Your stock went up even higher in my book today AJ! Good post Bro!
Keep on reading AJ. Proud for you today. Every one of these wins makes you stronger.
Must taste really good...that slice of life you just gained back. Matter of fact, I bet it tastes much better than it ever did when you had a dip in your mouth.
This is a great post. We always say, it continues to get better. Here's a guy coming up on the 6th freakin' floor and it still gets better for him every day. Why? because he's active, has a brotherhood that runs as deep as an abyss, and does not take for granted one ounce that no matter that number or what floor he's on, he'll always be an addict.
AJ, do books on tape really count as reading? Nice work Shane, way to continue battling the addiction. Shit keeps me motivated along for another day.
goo stuff.
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I quit with ya Shane. You are a big reason I'm still here. I had 10 dip dreams in 10 days. Everytime I woke up I was scared I caved. This drug is real but us quitters of KTC have kicked some real ass, even if we are staring off the front porch just taking it in.
Chris
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Healing is a bitch.
Especially when the wound was deep. Just when you think youÂ’re over itÂ… wham!... you move wrong or bump it. Dammit. YouÂ’re reminded that because it was deep itÂ’ll be a part of you forever.
At 568 today, IÂ’ve been cruising for a while and itÂ’s been nice. IÂ’ve stepped way back from posting and just being here in general. I needed to unplug a bit because I jumped all inÂ… I mean, ALL in when I quit. Logged my 10, 400th post the other day. SoÂ… it was time to do some more front porch quitting. Just enjoying the view.
It was also time to tackle a hurdle IÂ’ve put off since the beginning of my quit.
This is going to sound ridiculous but I think youÂ’ll all know where IÂ’m coming from. Some of the things we did while we dipped became, in our minds, impossible to fathom doing without dip. Mowing the lawn, working on cars, driving, video games, readingÂ… the list goes on. Me?... I love to read. I meanÂ… Love. To. Read. Usually 2 to 4 books a week.
HavenÂ’t touched a book since last April.
See, I haven’t read a book without a dip in since I was 17… I’m 44 now. Like all of us, I tainted something awesome with my addiction. I tried a few times over the last year to sit down and read but, man, I got geeky. Couldn’t sit still. Needed a snack. Had to pee. Whatever. It was a kind of PTSD. My addict brain whispering, “Remember this was sooooo much better with a dip in? So much more relaxing and enjoyable”. So… I let it go. I haven’t been ready to tackle it yet. At some point I tied the enjoyment too close to my addiction. Stupid huh? I almost hate writing this because it’s sooo lame but… it is what it is. Getting it out will help me remember.
This week?... time to be done. Bought myself 4 new books. Devoured one in a day and a half and plowing through number 2. Why Did I let it go for so long? Dunno. Addicts arenÂ’t rational folk sometimes. I guess IÂ’ll be dealing with the fallout of 25 years of stupidity for some time yet. ButÂ… thatÂ’s why IÂ’m here. One day at a time... Healing.
Damn AJ. We are the same.
Dumbass dippers we were.
Proud of You Brother!!!! Fuck it. Read On! Reading is good. Dippin' is bad, period
They ain't gettin' no more of our life or cash. We kill the robber EDD. ODAAT and NAFAR Today With YOU All day.
Your quit is strong.
Powerful message AJ, thank you!
A musician and a reader. I have heard of a Canadian Drummer that likes to read too! Your stock went up even higher in my book today AJ! Good post Bro!
Keep on reading AJ. Proud for you today. Every one of these wins makes you stronger.
Must taste really good...that slice of life you just gained back. Matter of fact, I bet it tastes much better than it ever did when you had a dip in your mouth.
This is a great post. We always say, it continues to get better. Here's a guy coming up on the 6th freakin' floor and it still gets better for him every day. Why? because he's active, has a brotherhood that runs as deep as an abyss, and does not take for granted one ounce that no matter that number or what floor he's on, he'll always be an addict.
AJ, do books on tape really count as reading? Nice work Shane, way to continue battling the addiction. Shit keeps me motivated along for another day.
goo stuff.
Man I'm so proud to be quit with you. I love it! Everytime we take back something that we stupidly gave away it's a victory. Each thing...a victory for all of us. Read on my friend. Every word, every sentence, every page, every chapter, every book is one big giant FUCK YOU to the nic bitch. Read!
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Healing is a bitch.
Especially when the wound was deep. Just when you think youÂ’re over itÂ… wham!... you move wrong or bump it. Dammit. YouÂ’re reminded that because it was deep itÂ’ll be a part of you forever.
At 568 today, IÂ’ve been cruising for a while and itÂ’s been nice. IÂ’ve stepped way back from posting and just being here in general. I needed to unplug a bit because I jumped all inÂ… I mean, ALL in when I quit. Logged my 10, 400th post the other day. SoÂ… it was time to do some more front porch quitting. Just enjoying the view.
It was also time to tackle a hurdle IÂ’ve put off since the beginning of my quit.
This is going to sound ridiculous but I think youÂ’ll all know where IÂ’m coming from. Some of the things we did while we dipped became, in our minds, impossible to fathom doing without dip. Mowing the lawn, working on cars, driving, video games, readingÂ… the list goes on. Me?... I love to read. I meanÂ… Love. To. Read. Usually 2 to 4 books a week.
HavenÂ’t touched a book since last April.
See, I haven’t read a book without a dip in since I was 17… I’m 44 now. Like all of us, I tainted something awesome with my addiction. I tried a few times over the last year to sit down and read but, man, I got geeky. Couldn’t sit still. Needed a snack. Had to pee. Whatever. It was a kind of PTSD. My addict brain whispering, “Remember this was sooooo much better with a dip in? So much more relaxing and enjoyable”. So… I let it go. I haven’t been ready to tackle it yet. At some point I tied the enjoyment too close to my addiction. Stupid huh? I almost hate writing this because it’s sooo lame but… it is what it is. Getting it out will help me remember.
This week?... time to be done. Bought myself 4 new books. Devoured one in a day and a half and plowing through number 2. Why Did I let it go for so long? Dunno. Addicts arenÂ’t rational folk sometimes. I guess IÂ’ll be dealing with the fallout of 25 years of stupidity for some time yet. ButÂ… thatÂ’s why IÂ’m here. One day at a time... Healing.
Damn AJ. We are the same.
Dumbass dippers we were.
Proud of You Brother!!!! Fuck it. Read On! Reading is good. Dippin' is bad, period
They ain't gettin' no more of our life or cash. We kill the robber EDD. ODAAT and NAFAR Today With YOU All day.
Your quit is strong.
Powerful message AJ, thank you!
A musician and a reader. I have heard of a Canadian Drummer that likes to read too! Your stock went up even higher in my book today AJ! Good post Bro!
Keep on reading AJ. Proud for you today. Every one of these wins makes you stronger.
Must taste really good...that slice of life you just gained back. Matter of fact, I bet it tastes much better than it ever did when you had a dip in your mouth.
This is a great post. We always say, it continues to get better. Here's a guy coming up on the 6th freakin' floor and it still gets better for him every day. Why? because he's active, has a brotherhood that runs as deep as an abyss, and does not take for granted one ounce that no matter that number or what floor he's on, he'll always be an addict.
AJ, do books on tape really count as reading? Nice work Shane, way to continue battling the addiction. Shit keeps me motivated along for another day.
goo stuff.
Man I'm so proud to be quit with you. I love it! Everytime we take back something that we stupidly gave away it's a victory. Each thing...a victory for all of us. Read on my friend. Every word, every sentence, every page, every chapter, every book is one big giant FUCK YOU to the nic bitch. Read!
Playboy does have good articles....
Well done. Shane!!!!
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Healing is a bitch.
Especially when the wound was deep. Just when you think youÂ’re over itÂ… wham!... you move wrong or bump it. Dammit. YouÂ’re reminded that because it was deep itÂ’ll be a part of you forever.
At 568 today, IÂ’ve been cruising for a while and itÂ’s been nice. IÂ’ve stepped way back from posting and just being here in general. I needed to unplug a bit because I jumped all inÂ… I mean, ALL in when I quit. Logged my 10, 400th post the other day. SoÂ… it was time to do some more front porch quitting. Just enjoying the view.
It was also time to tackle a hurdle IÂ’ve put off since the beginning of my quit.
This is going to sound ridiculous but I think youÂ’ll all know where IÂ’m coming from. Some of the things we did while we dipped became, in our minds, impossible to fathom doing without dip. Mowing the lawn, working on cars, driving, video games, readingÂ… the list goes on. Me?... I love to read. I meanÂ… Love. To. Read. Usually 2 to 4 books a week.
HavenÂ’t touched a book since last April.
See, I haven’t read a book without a dip in since I was 17… I’m 44 now. Like all of us, I tainted something awesome with my addiction. I tried a few times over the last year to sit down and read but, man, I got geeky. Couldn’t sit still. Needed a snack. Had to pee. Whatever. It was a kind of PTSD. My addict brain whispering, “Remember this was sooooo much better with a dip in? So much more relaxing and enjoyable”. So… I let it go. I haven’t been ready to tackle it yet. At some point I tied the enjoyment too close to my addiction. Stupid huh? I almost hate writing this because it’s sooo lame but… it is what it is. Getting it out will help me remember.
This week?... time to be done. Bought myself 4 new books. Devoured one in a day and a half and plowing through number 2. Why Did I let it go for so long? Dunno. Addicts arenÂ’t rational folk sometimes. I guess IÂ’ll be dealing with the fallout of 25 years of stupidity for some time yet. ButÂ… thatÂ’s why IÂ’m here. One day at a time... Healing.
Damn AJ. We are the same.
Dumbass dippers we were.
Proud of You Brother!!!! Fuck it. Read On! Reading is good. Dippin' is bad, period
They ain't gettin' no more of our life or cash. We kill the robber EDD. ODAAT and NAFAR Today With YOU All day.
Your quit is strong.
Powerful message AJ, thank you!
A musician and a reader. I have heard of a Canadian Drummer that likes to read too! Your stock went up even higher in my book today AJ! Good post Bro!
Keep on reading AJ. Proud for you today. Every one of these wins makes you stronger.
Must taste really good...that slice of life you just gained back. Matter of fact, I bet it tastes much better than it ever did when you had a dip in your mouth.
This is a great post. We always say, it continues to get better. Here's a guy coming up on the 6th freakin' floor and it still gets better for him every day. Why? because he's active, has a brotherhood that runs as deep as an abyss, and does not take for granted one ounce that no matter that number or what floor he's on, he'll always be an addict.
AJ, do books on tape really count as reading? Nice work Shane, way to continue battling the addiction. Shit keeps me motivated along for another day.
goo stuff.
Man I'm so proud to be quit with you. I love it! Everytime we take back something that we stupidly gave away it's a victory. Each thing...a victory for all of us. Read on my friend. Every word, every sentence, every page, every chapter, every book is one big giant FUCK YOU to the nic bitch. Read!
Playboy does have good articles....
Well done. Shane!!!!
I rarely read for recreation, but I do love to research on the net. I find it easier without having to spit, as I always momentarily lost my place just after the spit of poison. Just like all the other dip time faves, you will find things you like better about reading now that you can do it in total freedom. Quit with you!!!
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Wanna hear something cool that happened today?
Late last night I typed, "AJ... 599" then went to bed.
A few minutes ago I just typed, "AJ... 600".
What happened during the almost 24 hours between posts?... I slept about 6 hrs, rode 17 miles on my bike, drove to the coast with the fam, ate, shopped, walked on the beach, drove home, fed the cats, showered, snacked, lazed around... Y'know, just stuff.
That's it.
Just another day and...
I've worked hard to make it just that. Another day. No more quitting.
Just... Quit. That's what happened today.
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Wanna hear something cool that happened today?
Late last night I typed, "AJ... 599" then went to bed.
A few minutes ago I just typed, "AJ... 600".
What happened during the almost 24 hours between posts?... I slept about 6 hrs, rode 17 miles on my bike, drove to the coast with the fam, ate, shopped, walked on the beach, drove home, fed the cats, showered, snacked, lazed around... Y'know, just stuff.
That's it.
Just another day and...
I've worked hard to make it just that. Another day. No more quitting.
Just... Quit. That's what happened today.
Congrats to you AJ on just another day! :-/
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Wanna hear something cool that happened today?
Late last night I typed, "AJ... 599" then went to bed.
A few minutes ago I just typed, "AJ... 600".
What happened during the almost 24 hours between posts?... I slept about 6 hrs, rode 17 miles on my bike, drove to the coast with the fam, ate, shopped, walked on the beach, drove home, fed the cats, showered, snacked, lazed around... Y'know, just stuff.
That's it.
Just another day and...
I've worked hard to make it just that. Another day. No more quitting.
Just... Quit. That's what happened today.
Congrats to you AJ on just another day! :-/
You are a model quitter, a great friend, and a mentor for scores of new quitters on this site. Thanks for all that you do. Enjoy just another day today!
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Wanna hear something cool that happened today?
Late last night I typed, "AJ... 599" then went to bed.
A few minutes ago I just typed, "AJ... 600".
What happened during the almost 24 hours between posts?... I slept about 6 hrs, rode 17 miles on my bike, drove to the coast with the fam, ate, shopped, walked on the beach, drove home, fed the cats, showered, snacked, lazed around... Y'know, just stuff.
That's it.
Just another day and...
I've worked hard to make it just that. Another day. No more quitting.
Just... Quit. That's what happened today.
Congrats to you AJ on just another day! :-/
You are a model quitter, a great friend, and a mentor for scores of new quitters on this site. Thanks for all that you do. Enjoy just another day today!
You are "the man" when it comes to being quit. It's clearly a passion for you and I'm glad you share that passion with us. Congrats brotha.
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Wanna hear something cool that happened today?
Late last night I typed, "AJ... 599" then went to bed.
A few minutes ago I just typed, "AJ... 600".
What happened during the almost 24 hours between posts?... I slept about 6 hrs, rode 17 miles on my bike, drove to the coast with the fam, ate, shopped, walked on the beach, drove home, fed the cats, showered, snacked, lazed around... Y'know, just stuff.
That's it.
Just another day and...
I've worked hard to make it just that. Another day. No more quitting.
Just... Quit. That's what happened today.
Congrats to you AJ on just another day! :-/
You are a model quitter, a great friend, and a mentor for scores of new quitters on this site. Thanks for all that you do. Enjoy just another day today!
You are "the man" when it comes to being quit. It's clearly a passion for you and I'm glad you share that passion with us. Congrats brotha.
You sir are a rock solid quitter and a damn fine friend. Enjoy today and celebrate it with those two beautiful ladies that you have at home. After all they are the direct recipients of this great gift you have given yourself.
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Wanna hear something cool that happened today?
Late last night I typed, "AJ... 599" then went to bed.
A few minutes ago I just typed, "AJ... 600".
What happened during the almost 24 hours between posts?... I slept about 6 hrs, rode 17 miles on my bike, drove to the coast with the fam, ate, shopped, walked on the beach, drove home, fed the cats, showered, snacked, lazed around... Y'know, just stuff.
That's it.
Just another day and...
I've worked hard to make it just that. Another day. No more quitting.
Just... Quit. That's what happened today.
Congrats to you AJ on just another day! :-/
You are a model quitter, a great friend, and a mentor for scores of new quitters on this site. Thanks for all that you do. Enjoy just another day today!
You are "the man" when it comes to being quit. It's clearly a passion for you and I'm glad you share that passion with us. Congrats brotha.
You sir are a rock solid quitter and a damn fine friend. Enjoy today and celebrate it with those two beautiful ladies that you have at home. After all they are the direct recipients of this great gift you have given yourself.
Congrats my friend on 6th floor. Definitely enjoy your day of just quit today.
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Wanna hear something cool that happened today?
Late last night I typed, "AJ... 599" then went to bed.
A few minutes ago I just typed, "AJ... 600".
What happened during the almost 24 hours between posts?... I slept about 6 hrs, rode 17 miles on my bike, drove to the coast with the fam, ate, shopped, walked on the beach, drove home, fed the cats, showered, snacked, lazed around... Y'know, just stuff.
That's it.
Just another day and...
I've worked hard to make it just that. Another day. No more quitting.
Just... Quit. That's what happened today.
Congrats to you AJ on just another day! :-/
You are a model quitter, a great friend, and a mentor for scores of new quitters on this site. Thanks for all that you do. Enjoy just another day today!
You are "the man" when it comes to being quit. It's clearly a passion for you and I'm glad you share that passion with us. Congrats brotha.
You sir are a rock solid quitter and a damn fine friend. Enjoy today and celebrate it with those two beautiful ladies that you have at home. After all they are the direct recipients of this great gift you have given yourself.
Congrats my friend on 6th floor. Definitely enjoy your day of just quit today.
Congrats my friend. keep doing stuff without the poison. Plus one tomorrow.
Mogul
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Wanna hear something cool that happened today?
Late last night I typed, "AJ... 599" then went to bed.
A few minutes ago I just typed, "AJ... 600".
What happened during the almost 24 hours between posts?... I slept about 6 hrs, rode 17 miles on my bike, drove to the coast with the fam, ate, shopped, walked on the beach, drove home, fed the cats, showered, snacked, lazed around... Y'know, just stuff.
That's it.
Just another day and...
I've worked hard to make it just that. Another day. No more quitting.
Just... Quit. That's what happened today.
Congrats to you AJ on just another day! :-/
You are a model quitter, a great friend, and a mentor for scores of new quitters on this site. Thanks for all that you do. Enjoy just another day today!
You are "the man" when it comes to being quit. It's clearly a passion for you and I'm glad you share that passion with us. Congrats brotha.
You sir are a rock solid quitter and a damn fine friend. Enjoy today and celebrate it with those two beautiful ladies that you have at home. After all they are the direct recipients of this great gift you have given yourself.
Congrats my friend on 6th floor. Definitely enjoy your day of just quit today.
Congrats my friend. keep doing stuff without the poison. Plus one tomorrow.
Mogul
'oh yeah'
Keep it up AJ. Things are just getting good.
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Wanna hear something cool that happened today?
Late last night I typed, "AJ... 599" then went to bed.
A few minutes ago I just typed, "AJ... 600".
What happened during the almost 24 hours between posts?... I slept about 6 hrs, rode 17 miles on my bike, drove to the coast with the fam, ate, shopped, walked on the beach, drove home, fed the cats, showered, snacked, lazed around... Y'know, just stuff.
That's it.
Just another day and...
I've worked hard to make it just that. Another day. No more quitting.
Just... Quit. That's what happened today.
Congrats to you AJ on just another day! :-/
You are a model quitter, a great friend, and a mentor for scores of new quitters on this site. Thanks for all that you do. Enjoy just another day today!
You are "the man" when it comes to being quit. It's clearly a passion for you and I'm glad you share that passion with us. Congrats brotha.
You sir are a rock solid quitter and a damn fine friend. Enjoy today and celebrate it with those two beautiful ladies that you have at home. After all they are the direct recipients of this great gift you have given yourself.
Congrats my friend on 6th floor. Definitely enjoy your day of just quit today.
Congrats my friend. keep doing stuff without the poison. Plus one tomorrow.
Mogul
'oh yeah'
Keep it up AJ. Things are just getting good.
Strong work AJ I am proud to be quit w you...see you back tomorrow!
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Wanna hear something cool that happened today?
Late last night I typed, "AJ... 599" then went to bed.
A few minutes ago I just typed, "AJ... 600".
What happened during the almost 24 hours between posts?... I slept about 6 hrs, rode 17 miles on my bike, drove to the coast with the fam, ate, shopped, walked on the beach, drove home, fed the cats, showered, snacked, lazed around... Y'know, just stuff.
That's it.
Just another day and...
I've worked hard to make it just that. Another day. No more quitting.
Just... Quit. That's what happened today.
Congrats to you AJ on just another day! :-/
You are a model quitter, a great friend, and a mentor for scores of new quitters on this site. Thanks for all that you do. Enjoy just another day today!
You are "the man" when it comes to being quit. It's clearly a passion for you and I'm glad you share that passion with us. Congrats brotha.
You sir are a rock solid quitter and a damn fine friend. Enjoy today and celebrate it with those two beautiful ladies that you have at home. After all they are the direct recipients of this great gift you have given yourself.
Congrats my friend on 6th floor. Definitely enjoy your day of just quit today.
Congrats my friend. keep doing stuff without the poison. Plus one tomorrow.
Mogul
'oh yeah'
Keep it up AJ. Things are just getting good.
Strong work AJ I am proud to be quit w you...see you back tomorrow!
Just quit indeed. You have worked hard for the freedom you are enjoying. Beautiful.
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Wanna hear something cool that happened today?
Late last night I typed, "AJ... 599" then went to bed.
A few minutes ago I just typed, "AJ... 600".
What happened during the almost 24 hours between posts?... I slept about 6 hrs, rode 17 miles on my bike, drove to the coast with the fam, ate, shopped, walked on the beach, drove home, fed the cats, showered, snacked, lazed around... Y'know, just stuff.
That's it.
Just another day and...
I've worked hard to make it just that. Another day. No more quitting.
Just... Quit. That's what happened today.
Congrats to you AJ on just another day! :-/
You are a model quitter, a great friend, and a mentor for scores of new quitters on this site. Thanks for all that you do. Enjoy just another day today!
You are "the man" when it comes to being quit. It's clearly a passion for you and I'm glad you share that passion with us. Congrats brotha.
You sir are a rock solid quitter and a damn fine friend. Enjoy today and celebrate it with those two beautiful ladies that you have at home. After all they are the direct recipients of this great gift you have given yourself.
Congrats my friend on 6th floor. Definitely enjoy your day of just quit today.
Congrats my friend. keep doing stuff without the poison. Plus one tomorrow.
Mogul
'oh yeah'
Keep it up AJ. Things are just getting good.
Strong work AJ I am proud to be quit w you...see you back tomorrow!
Just quit indeed. You have worked hard for the freedom you are enjoying. Beautiful.
Well done AJ. Thanks for being such a good dude and great quitter. Proud to be quit with you today.
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Wanna hear something cool that happened today?
Late last night I typed, "AJ... 599" then went to bed.
A few minutes ago I just typed, "AJ... 600".
What happened during the almost 24 hours between posts?... I slept about 6 hrs, rode 17 miles on my bike, drove to the coast with the fam, ate, shopped, walked on the beach, drove home, fed the cats, showered, snacked, lazed around... Y'know, just stuff.
That's it.
Just another day and...
I've worked hard to make it just that. Another day. No more quitting.
Just... Quit. That's what happened today.
Congrats to you AJ on just another day! :-/
You are a model quitter, a great friend, and a mentor for scores of new quitters on this site. Thanks for all that you do. Enjoy just another day today!
You are "the man" when it comes to being quit. It's clearly a passion for you and I'm glad you share that passion with us. Congrats brotha.
You sir are a rock solid quitter and a damn fine friend. Enjoy today and celebrate it with those two beautiful ladies that you have at home. After all they are the direct recipients of this great gift you have given yourself.
Congrats my friend on 6th floor. Definitely enjoy your day of just quit today.
Congrats my friend. keep doing stuff without the poison. Plus one tomorrow.
Mogul
'oh yeah'
Keep it up AJ. Things are just getting good.
Strong work AJ I am proud to be quit w you...see you back tomorrow!
Just quit indeed. You have worked hard for the freedom you are enjoying. Beautiful.
Well done AJ. Thanks for being such a good dude and great quitter. Proud to be quit with you today.
Very nice. Thanks for being here and doing what you do.
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Wanna hear something cool that happened today?
Late last night I typed, "AJ... 599" then went to bed.
A few minutes ago I just typed, "AJ... 600".
What happened during the almost 24 hours between posts?... I slept about 6 hrs, rode 17 miles on my bike, drove to the coast with the fam, ate, shopped, walked on the beach, drove home, fed the cats, showered, snacked, lazed around... Y'know, just stuff.
That's it.
Just another day and...
I've worked hard to make it just that. Another day. No more quitting.
Just... Quit. That's what happened today.
Congrats to you AJ on just another day! :-/
You are a model quitter, a great friend, and a mentor for scores of new quitters on this site. Thanks for all that you do. Enjoy just another day today!
You are "the man" when it comes to being quit. It's clearly a passion for you and I'm glad you share that passion with us. Congrats brotha.
You sir are a rock solid quitter and a damn fine friend. Enjoy today and celebrate it with those two beautiful ladies that you have at home. After all they are the direct recipients of this great gift you have given yourself.
Congrats my friend on 6th floor. Definitely enjoy your day of just quit today.
Congrats my friend. keep doing stuff without the poison. Plus one tomorrow.
Mogul
'oh yeah'
Keep it up AJ. Things are just getting good.
Strong work AJ I am proud to be quit w you...see you back tomorrow!
Just quit indeed. You have worked hard for the freedom you are enjoying. Beautiful.
Well done AJ. Thanks for being such a good dude and great quitter. Proud to be quit with you today.
Very nice. Thanks for being here and doing what you do.
'cause. AJ. Rocks.
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Wanna hear something cool that happened today?
Late last night I typed, "AJ... 599" then went to bed.
A few minutes ago I just typed, "AJ... 600".
What happened during the almost 24 hours between posts?... I slept about 6 hrs, rode 17 miles on my bike, drove to the coast with the fam, ate, shopped, walked on the beach, drove home, fed the cats, showered, snacked, lazed around... Y'know, just stuff.
That's it.
Just another day and...
I've worked hard to make it just that. Another day. No more quitting.
Just... Quit. That's what happened today.
Congrats to you AJ on just another day! :-/
You are a model quitter, a great friend, and a mentor for scores of new quitters on this site. Thanks for all that you do. Enjoy just another day today!
You are "the man" when it comes to being quit. It's clearly a passion for you and I'm glad you share that passion with us. Congrats brotha.
You sir are a rock solid quitter and a damn fine friend. Enjoy today and celebrate it with those two beautiful ladies that you have at home. After all they are the direct recipients of this great gift you have given yourself.
Congrats my friend on 6th floor. Definitely enjoy your day of just quit today.
Congrats my friend. keep doing stuff without the poison. Plus one tomorrow.
Mogul
'oh yeah'
Keep it up AJ. Things are just getting good.
Strong work AJ I am proud to be quit w you...see you back tomorrow!
Just quit indeed. You have worked hard for the freedom you are enjoying. Beautiful.
Well done AJ. Thanks for being such a good dude and great quitter. Proud to be quit with you today.
Very nice. Thanks for being here and doing what you do.
'cause. AJ. Rocks.
Congrats my brother from another mother! A little late to the party because iPhones suck but I got here as soon as I could. Nice job at posting 600. It seems like yesterday we were posting HOF and in awe of those posting 600. Those guys were (still are) rock stars. I'm not going to get into anything too long as we'll be doing the same thing in another short 100 days. Seems funny to say that as when we were new quitters, 100 days was a damn long time. Not anymore! Proud as anyone could be that you decided to quit when you did. Things do happen for a reason! Quit on brother!
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700 days of giving your word, keeping it, and building the brotherhood. Dude you are one bad ass quitter. Congratulations on another milestone - celebrate and enjoy!
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700 days of giving your word, keeping it, and building the brotherhood. Dude you are one bad ass quitter. Congratulations on another milestone - celebrate and enjoy!
Congratulations on 700 days. Proud to know you and be quit with you. Thanks for being a rock.
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700 days of giving your word, keeping it, and building the brotherhood. Dude you are one bad ass quitter. Congratulations on another milestone - celebrate and enjoy!
Congratulations on 700 days. Proud to know you and be quit with you. Thanks for being a rock.
This is an awesome milestone AJ. Couldn't say more about your quit other than it's bad assed. Carry on and here's to another rock on the pile! 'oh yeah'
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700 days of giving your word, keeping it, and building the brotherhood. Dude you are one bad ass quitter. Congratulations on another milestone - celebrate and enjoy!
Congratulations on 700 days. Proud to know you and be quit with you. Thanks for being a rock.
This is an awesome milestone AJ. Couldn't say more about your quit other than it's bad assed. Carry on and here's to another rock on the pile! 'oh yeah'
Yet another July badass quitter hitting another great milestone! Congrats AJ and thank you for everything you do around here.
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Congrats on 700 days AJ! Thanks for all you do for me everyone on here
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700 days of giving your word, keeping it, and building the brotherhood. Dude you are one bad ass quitter. Congratulations on another milestone - celebrate and enjoy!
Congratulations on 700 days. Proud to know you and be quit with you. Thanks for being a rock.
This is an awesome milestone AJ. Couldn't say more about your quit other than it's bad assed. Carry on and here's to another rock on the pile! 'oh yeah'
Yet another July badass quitter hitting another great milestone! Congrats AJ and thank you for everything you do around here.
Congrats on 700 days AJ! Thanks for all you do for me everyone on here
Congrats on the 7th floor Bro! 'clap'
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700 days of giving your word, keeping it, and building the brotherhood. Dude you are one bad ass quitter. Congratulations on another milestone - celebrate and enjoy!
Congratulations on 700 days. Proud to know you and be quit with you. Thanks for being a rock.
This is an awesome milestone AJ. Couldn't say more about your quit other than it's bad assed. Carry on and here's to another rock on the pile! 'oh yeah'
Yet another July badass quitter hitting another great milestone! Congrats AJ and thank you for everything you do around here.
Congrats on 700 days AJ! Thanks for all you do for me everyone on here
Congrats on the 7th floor Bro! 'clap'
Chasing nic away for 700 lucky days! Congrats and thanks!
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700 days of giving your word, keeping it, and building the brotherhood. Dude you are one bad ass quitter. Congratulations on another milestone - celebrate and enjoy!
Congratulations on 700 days. Proud to know you and be quit with you. Thanks for being a rock.
This is an awesome milestone AJ. Couldn't say more about your quit other than it's bad assed. Carry on and here's to another rock on the pile! 'oh yeah'
Yet another July badass quitter hitting another great milestone! Congrats AJ and thank you for everything you do around here.
Congrats on 700 days AJ! Thanks for all you do for me everyone on here
Congrats on the 7th floor Bro! 'clap'
Chasing nic away for 700 lucky days! Congrats and thanks!
Very Happy for you AJ! 700 is a great day to celebrate! Thanks for all of your support and good humor.
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700 days of giving your word, keeping it, and building the brotherhood. Dude you are one bad ass quitter. Congratulations on another milestone - celebrate and enjoy!
Congratulations on 700 days. Proud to know you and be quit with you. Thanks for being a rock.
This is an awesome milestone AJ. Couldn't say more about your quit other than it's bad assed. Carry on and here's to another rock on the pile! 'oh yeah'
Yet another July badass quitter hitting another great milestone! Congrats AJ and thank you for everything you do around here.
Congrats on 700 days AJ! Thanks for all you do for me everyone on here
Congrats on the 7th floor Bro! 'clap'
Chasing nic away for 700 lucky days! Congrats and thanks!
Very Happy for you AJ! 700 is a great day to celebrate! Thanks for all of your support and good humor.
Who's better than this guy? Cream of the crop right here. Anyone looking for a role model of quit, look no further.
Congrats AJ!
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700 days of giving your word, keeping it, and building the brotherhood. Dude you are one bad ass quitter. Congratulations on another milestone - celebrate and enjoy!
Congratulations on 700 days. Proud to know you and be quit with you. Thanks for being a rock.
This is an awesome milestone AJ. Couldn't say more about your quit other than it's bad assed. Carry on and here's to another rock on the pile! 'oh yeah'
Yet another July badass quitter hitting another great milestone! Congrats AJ and thank you for everything you do around here.
Congrats on 700 days AJ! Thanks for all you do for me everyone on here
Congrats on the 7th floor Bro! 'clap'
Chasing nic away for 700 lucky days! Congrats and thanks!
Very Happy for you AJ! 700 is a great day to celebrate! Thanks for all of your support and good humor.
Who's better than this guy? Cream of the crop right here. Anyone looking for a role model of quit, look no further.
Congrats AJ!
How 'bout that Apple?
Awesome job brother!
ODAAT and NAFAR, period
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700 days of giving your word, keeping it, and building the brotherhood. Dude you are one bad ass quitter. Congratulations on another milestone - celebrate and enjoy!
Congratulations on 700 days. Proud to know you and be quit with you. Thanks for being a rock.
This is an awesome milestone AJ. Couldn't say more about your quit other than it's bad assed. Carry on and here's to another rock on the pile! 'oh yeah'
Yet another July badass quitter hitting another great milestone! Congrats AJ and thank you for everything you do around here.
Congrats on 700 days AJ! Thanks for all you do for me everyone on here
Congrats on the 7th floor Bro! 'clap'
Chasing nic away for 700 lucky days! Congrats and thanks!
Very Happy for you AJ! 700 is a great day to celebrate! Thanks for all of your support and good humor.
Who's better than this guy? Cream of the crop right here. Anyone looking for a role model of quit, look no further.
Congrats AJ!
How 'bout that Apple?
Awesome job brother!
ODAAT and NAFAR, period
700 days...... 1 solid quitter. Congratulations.
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700 days of giving your word, keeping it, and building the brotherhood. Dude you are one bad ass quitter. Congratulations on another milestone - celebrate and enjoy!
Congratulations on 700 days. Proud to know you and be quit with you. Thanks for being a rock.
This is an awesome milestone AJ. Couldn't say more about your quit other than it's bad assed. Carry on and here's to another rock on the pile! 'oh yeah'
Yet another July badass quitter hitting another great milestone! Congrats AJ and thank you for everything you do around here.
Congrats on 700 days AJ! Thanks for all you do for me everyone on here
Congrats on the 7th floor Bro! 'clap'
Chasing nic away for 700 lucky days! Congrats and thanks!
Very Happy for you AJ! 700 is a great day to celebrate! Thanks for all of your support and good humor.
Who's better than this guy? Cream of the crop right here. Anyone looking for a role model of quit, look no further.
Congrats AJ!
How 'bout that Apple?
Awesome job brother!
ODAAT and NAFAR, period
700 days...... 1 solid quitter. Congratulations.
Awesome stuff. Congrats and thank you for your continued support.
Chris
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Thanks all! Feelin' the love... Feelin' the quit!
Y'know... I really did spend yesterday contemplating and enjoying my 700th day. These 100 day milestones are coming to mean more to me than my birthday. I mean, every fool on the planet has a birthday and a damn good chunk of them don't deserve it (cynical? Noooooo!). But, we few, we addicts who have chosen to take back our lives from the brink of extinction or addiction will result in... We celebrate every milestone because it's a second chance of our own choosing. How rare is that? Usually a second chance comes packaged with a heap of grace-n-mercy aimed at us. Not us, man. We choose. We own that choice. I choose, every day, to excercise my choice of that second chance.
Free and clean.
Old heads... Remember and refresh that quit.
Noobs.........Be thankful for the suffering because the freedom that is born from it is miraculous.
AJ... 701
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Thanks all! Feelin' the love... Feelin' the quit!
Y'know... I really did spend yesterday contemplating and enjoying my 700th day. These 100 day milestones are coming to mean more to me than my birthday. I mean, every fool on the planet has a birthday and a damn good chunk of them don't deserve it (cynical? Noooooo!). But, we few, we addicts who have chosen to take back our lives from the brink of extinction or addiction will result in... We celebrate every milestone because it's a second chance of our own choosing. How rare is that? Usually a second chance comes packaged with a heap of grace-n-mercy aimed at us. Not us, man. We choose. We own that choice. I choose, every day, to excercise my choice of that second chance.
Free and clean.
Old heads... Remember and refresh that quit.
Noobs.........Be thankful for the suffering because the freedom that is born from it is miraculous.
AJ... 701
Thanks for the great words of advice bro!
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Cancer.
It's everywhere I look right now.
You've all read of the fight my July '13 brother Trauma is going through right now. Man, that one hits close to home for me because of our shared quit... He's just 1 day ahead of me and only a few years older. Continued props and prayers to/for him...
Today... I learned of another case close to home. It's a guy in my dept.
6 weeks ago he noticed a coldsore on his lip and started treating it as such. A week goes by and there is no change. In fact, it might be a li'l worse. So, he goes to the doc. Doc says, "no sweat" and prescribes him an antibiotic. Another week goes by and it's not better. In fact, it's spread and he has a little lump on his throat under his jawline. Doc says, "hmm, weird. Let's get that checked". Week 3 they do a biopsy and, yup, he's got cancer. In fact, they need to take a portion of his lip off and rebuild it with tissue from his neck... They schedule surgery for the following week. Come pre-op time and the little lump has swollen his jaw and entire neck. Doc says, "hmm, weird". They do another biopsy... An entire scan. The cancer has spread. They need to do part of his jaw now. Surgery is modified and they reschedule it in another 3 days. They give him another year of life with this diagnosis.
2nd surgery date arrives and his entire neck is swollen and he can't even swallow water. They scan him one more time... The cancer is everywhere. It's literally chewing through his body like an alien invader. It's in his lungs, his lymphatic system, it's wrapped around his spinal cord, and his system is shutting down. They decide... Surgery is futile.
A year of life left becomes one month.
Maybe.
Coldsore to hospice in 6 weeks.
He's 56 and has smoked for 40 years.
He's still smoking.
Fuck.
If you haven't... Quit now.
If you have... Stay that way.
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Cancer.
It's everywhere I look right now.
You've all read of the fight my July '13 brother Trauma is going through right now. Man, that one hits close to home for me because of our shared quit... He's just 1 day ahead of me and only a few years older. Continued props and prayers to/for him...
Today... I learned of another case close to home. It's a guy in my dept.
6 weeks ago he noticed a coldsore on his lip and started treating it as such. A week goes by and there is no change. In fact, it might be a li'l worse. So, he goes to the doc. Doc says, "no sweat" and prescribes him an antibiotic. Another week goes by and it's not better. In fact, it's spread and he has a little lump on his throat under his jawline. Doc says, "hmm, weird. Let's get that checked". Week 3 they do a biopsy and, yup, he's got cancer. In fact, they need to take a portion of his lip off and rebuild it with tissue from his neck... They schedule surgery for the following week. Come pre-op time and the little lump has swollen his jaw and entire neck. Doc says, "hmm, weird". They do another biopsy... An entire scan. The cancer has spread. They need to do part of his jaw now. Surgery is modified and they reschedule it in another 3 days. They give him another year of life with this diagnosis.
2nd surgery date arrives and his entire neck is swollen and he can't even swallow water. They scan him one more time... The cancer is everywhere. It's literally chewing through his body like an alien invader. It's in his lungs, his lymphatic system, it's wrapped around his spinal cord, and his system is shutting down. They decide... Surgery is futile.
A year of life left becomes one month.
Maybe.
Coldsore to hospice in 6 weeks.
He's 56 and has smoked for 40 years.
He's still smoking.
Fuck.
If you haven't... Quit now.
If you have... Stay that way.
If you haven't... Quit now.
If you have... Stay that way
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Bulk of the story people I am very sorry to hear of your co-worker AJ thank you for sharing this story.
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Thanks for sharing the story AJ. Sorry to hear about your coworker. While all of us have different inherent risk factors, some it takes fairly young. My boss had a friends wife pass last year. Very similar story. But she was only 48. I can remember thinking I'm gonna be that guy who's like 90 with no Ill effects. While that does happen they're certainly a statistical outlier.
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Cancer sucks.
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Cancer sucks.
Screw that. Thanks for sharing AJ.
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Cancer sucks.
Screw that. Thanks for sharing AJ.
Pure reinforcement right there. Pure resolve.
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Congratulations on 2 years.
Congratulations Shane. It is an honor to quit with you today. Thanks for all that you do around here, and for being a leader and a friend.
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Congratulations on 2 years.
Congratulations Shane. It is an honor to quit with you today. Thanks for all that you do around here, and for being a leader and a friend.
Congrats on 2 years! Well done sir!
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Congratulations on 2 years.
Congratulations Shane. It is an honor to quit with you today. Thanks for all that you do around here, and for being a leader and a friend.
Congrats on 2 years! Well done sir!
Awesome 2 yr milestone Shane! Proud to be quit with you EDD.
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Congratulations on 2 years.
Congratulations Shane. It is an honor to quit with you today. Thanks for all that you do around here, and for being a leader and a friend.
Congrats on 2 years! Well done sir!
Awesome 2 yr milestone Shane! Proud to be quit with you EDD.
Congrats Shane. Thank you for all that you give. Proud to be quit with you.
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Congratulations on 2 years.
Congratulations Shane. It is an honor to quit with you today. Thanks for all that you do around here, and for being a leader and a friend.
Congrats on 2 years! Well done sir!
Awesome 2 yr milestone Shane! Proud to be quit with you EDD.
Congrats Shane. Thank you for all that you give. Proud to be quit with you.
Two years! Never thought possible, I guess that's why we do this ODAAT. Congrats AJ! Enjoy this day. Thanks for being part of my quit every damn day!
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Congratulations on 2 years.
Congratulations Shane. It is an honor to quit with you today. Thanks for all that you do around here, and for being a leader and a friend.
Congrats on 2 years! Well done sir!
Awesome 2 yr milestone Shane! Proud to be quit with you EDD.
Congrats Shane. Thank you for all that you give. Proud to be quit with you.
Two years! Never thought possible, I guess that's why we do this ODAAT. Congrats AJ! Enjoy this day. Thanks for being part of my quit every damn day!
Congrats and thank you for being a rock solid quit role model. Now have those two beautiful ladies of yours take you out for dinner to celebrate.
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Congratulations on 2 years.
Congratulations Shane. It is an honor to quit with you today. Thanks for all that you do around here, and for being a leader and a friend.
Congrats on 2 years! Well done sir!
Awesome 2 yr milestone Shane! Proud to be quit with you EDD.
Congrats Shane. Thank you for all that you give. Proud to be quit with you.
Two years! Never thought possible, I guess that's why we do this ODAAT. Congrats AJ! Enjoy this day. Thanks for being part of my quit every damn day!
Congrats and thank you for being a rock solid quit role model. Now have those two beautiful ladies of yours take you out for dinner to celebrate.
AJ - Have seen your name supporting others consistently since my day 1 in May 2014. You do it the right way, congrats on 2 years!
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Congratulations on 2 years.
Congratulations Shane. It is an honor to quit with you today. Thanks for all that you do around here, and for being a leader and a friend.
Congrats on 2 years! Well done sir!
Awesome 2 yr milestone Shane! Proud to be quit with you EDD.
Congrats Shane. Thank you for all that you give. Proud to be quit with you.
Two years! Never thought possible, I guess that's why we do this ODAAT. Congrats AJ! Enjoy this day. Thanks for being part of my quit every damn day!
Congrats and thank you for being a rock solid quit role model. Now have those two beautiful ladies of yours take you out for dinner to celebrate.
AJ - Have seen your name supporting others consistently since my day 1 in May 2014. You do it the right way, congrats on 2 years!
Shane, I cant thank you enough for all the support you have given me and a lot of others here. You are my Brother! Enjoy this day. Just freaking outstanding!
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2 years is getting it done, enjoy your day man!
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Congrats on your 2 years man!
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Congrats on 2 years my friend!
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Brotha. Thanks to much for all that you've done for me. Thanks for encouraging me to post that Day 1. I'll never forget telling my wife, " this dude AJ is pissn me off. Keeps riding my ass to post a day 1. ". Lol. And thanks for being there every step along the way. Congrats Bad Ass !!!
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Congratulations on 2 years.
Congratulations Shane. It is an honor to quit with you today. Thanks for all that you do around here, and for being a leader and a friend.
Congrats on 2 years! Well done sir!
Awesome 2 yr milestone Shane! Proud to be quit with you EDD.
Congrats Shane. Thank you for all that you give. Proud to be quit with you.
Two years! Never thought possible, I guess that's why we do this ODAAT. Congrats AJ! Enjoy this day. Thanks for being part of my quit every damn day!
Congrats and thank you for being a rock solid quit role model. Now have those two beautiful ladies of yours take you out for dinner to celebrate.
AJ - Have seen your name supporting others consistently since my day 1 in May 2014. You do it the right way, congrats on 2 years!
Shane, I cant thank you enough for all the support you have given me and a lot of others here. You are my Brother! Enjoy this day. Just freaking outstanding!
Awsome milestone. Congratulations on Your 2nd Floor. So glad you are here. See you on the 3rd floor. ODAAT and NAFAR
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Congratulations on 2 years.
Congratulations Shane. It is an honor to quit with you today. Thanks for all that you do around here, and for being a leader and a friend.
Congrats on 2 years! Well done sir!
Awesome 2 yr milestone Shane! Proud to be quit with you EDD.
Congrats Shane. Thank you for all that you give. Proud to be quit with you.
Two years! Never thought possible, I guess that's why we do this ODAAT. Congrats AJ! Enjoy this day. Thanks for being part of my quit every damn day!
Congrats and thank you for being a rock solid quit role model. Now have those two beautiful ladies of yours take you out for dinner to celebrate.
AJ - Have seen your name supporting others consistently since my day 1 in May 2014. You do it the right way, congrats on 2 years!
Shane, I cant thank you enough for all the support you have given me and a lot of others here. You are my Brother! Enjoy this day. Just freaking outstanding!
Awsome milestone. Congratulations on Your 2nd Floor. So glad you are here. See you on the 3rd floor. ODAAT and NAFAR
I'm so glad you found this place a couple of years ago brother! Awesome bad assed quit you are rockin'. Here's to another year of QLF.
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AppleJack... Day 1
2 years ago today, that's what I typed on my first roll call. That mighta been the hardest thing I've ever done. I was so damn foggy and scared... hence my site name. I still don't know what the hell I was thinking! But... I'll wear AJ with pride cuz it reminds me, every time I see it, of who I don't want to be, and what I don't want to do, ever again.
Rock on, all you badass quitters!!
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Cancer.
It's everywhere I look right now.
You've all read of the fight my July '13 brother Trauma is going through right now. Man, that one hits close to home for me because of our shared quit... He's just 1 day ahead of me and only a few years older. Continued props and prayers to/for him...
Today... I learned of another case close to home. It's a guy in my dept.
6 weeks ago he noticed a coldsore on his lip and started treating it as such. A week goes by and there is no change. In fact, it might be a li'l worse. So, he goes to the doc. Doc says, "no sweat" and prescribes him an antibiotic. Another week goes by and it's not better. In fact, it's spread and he has a little lump on his throat under his jawline. Doc says, "hmm, weird. Let's get that checked". Week 3 they do a biopsy and, yup, he's got cancer. In fact, they need to take a portion of his lip off and rebuild it with tissue from his neck... They schedule surgery for the following week. Come pre-op time and the little lump has swollen his jaw and entire neck. Doc says, "hmm, weird". They do another biopsy... An entire scan. The cancer has spread. They need to do part of his jaw now. Surgery is modified and they reschedule it in another 3 days. They give him another year of life with this diagnosis.
2nd surgery date arrives and his entire neck is swollen and he can't even swallow water. They scan him one more time... The cancer is everywhere. It's literally chewing through his body like an alien invader. It's in his lungs, his lymphatic system, it's wrapped around his spinal cord, and his system is shutting down. They decide... Surgery is futile.
A year of life left becomes one month.
Maybe.
Coldsore to hospice in 6 weeks.
He's 56 and has smoked for 40 years.
He's still smoking.
Fuck.
If you haven't... Quit now.
If you have... Stay that way.
I posted this a month ago and today it demands an update...
This poor guy passed away last night.
Diagnosis to death in 2.5 months.
Smoked right up to the end.
I don't even have words to describe how sad and undignified that is.
AJ... 750 ~ thankful beyond measure to be free.
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Congrats on two years of awesome quit work and mentoring. Thanks for sharing the update on your coworker as well. Not a coincidence. It gives you, and by extension the rest of us, something to focus on for your two year anniversary.
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Cancer.
It's everywhere I look right now.
You've all read of the fight my July '13 brother Trauma is going through right now. Man, that one hits close to home for me because of our shared quit... He's just 1 day ahead of me and only a few years older. Continued props and prayers to/for him...
Today... I learned of another case close to home. It's a guy in my dept.
6 weeks ago he noticed a coldsore on his lip and started treating it as such. A week goes by and there is no change. In fact, it might be a li'l worse. So, he goes to the doc. Doc says, "no sweat" and prescribes him an antibiotic. Another week goes by and it's not better. In fact, it's spread and he has a little lump on his throat under his jawline. Doc says, "hmm, weird. Let's get that checked". Week 3 they do a biopsy and, yup, he's got cancer. In fact, they need to take a portion of his lip off and rebuild it with tissue from his neck... They schedule surgery for the following week. Come pre-op time and the little lump has swollen his jaw and entire neck. Doc says, "hmm, weird". They do another biopsy... An entire scan. The cancer has spread. They need to do part of his jaw now. Surgery is modified and they reschedule it in another 3 days. They give him another year of life with this diagnosis.
2nd surgery date arrives and his entire neck is swollen and he can't even swallow water. They scan him one more time... The cancer is everywhere. It's literally chewing through his body like an alien invader. It's in his lungs, his lymphatic system, it's wrapped around his spinal cord, and his system is shutting down. They decide... Surgery is futile.
A year of life left becomes one month.
Maybe.
Coldsore to hospice in 6 weeks.
He's 56 and has smoked for 40 years.
He's still smoking.
Fuck.
If you haven't... Quit now.
If you have... Stay that way.
I posted this a month ago and today it demands an update...
This poor guy passed away last night.
Diagnosis to death in 2.5 months.
Smoked right up to the end.
I don't even have words to describe how sad and undignified that is.
AJ... 750 ~ thankful beyond measure to be free.
Damn bud. Sorry for your loss. I hate to see loss for anyone but at least with you we can back on another win form you tomorrow as you post yet another day quit.
Cancer is scary shit and it sucks. Even Superman had a weakness but at least together all of us are strong united and ready to fight as a brotherhood.
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Cancer.
It's everywhere I look right now.
You've all read of the fight my July '13 brother Trauma is going through right now. Man, that one hits close to home for me because of our shared quit... He's just 1 day ahead of me and only a few years older. Continued props and prayers to/for him...
Today... I learned of another case close to home. It's a guy in my dept.
6 weeks ago he noticed a coldsore on his lip and started treating it as such. A week goes by and there is no change. In fact, it might be a li'l worse. So, he goes to the doc. Doc says, "no sweat" and prescribes him an antibiotic. Another week goes by and it's not better. In fact, it's spread and he has a little lump on his throat under his jawline. Doc says, "hmm, weird. Let's get that checked". Week 3 they do a biopsy and, yup, he's got cancer. In fact, they need to take a portion of his lip off and rebuild it with tissue from his neck... They schedule surgery for the following week. Come pre-op time and the little lump has swollen his jaw and entire neck. Doc says, "hmm, weird". They do another biopsy... An entire scan. The cancer has spread. They need to do part of his jaw now. Surgery is modified and they reschedule it in another 3 days. They give him another year of life with this diagnosis.
2nd surgery date arrives and his entire neck is swollen and he can't even swallow water. They scan him one more time... The cancer is everywhere. It's literally chewing through his body like an alien invader. It's in his lungs, his lymphatic system, it's wrapped around his spinal cord, and his system is shutting down. They decide... Surgery is futile.
A year of life left becomes one month.
Maybe.
Coldsore to hospice in 6 weeks.
He's 56 and has smoked for 40 years.
He's still smoking.
Fuck.
If you haven't... Quit now.
If you have... Stay that way.
I posted this a month ago and today it demands an update...
This poor guy passed away last night.
Diagnosis to death in 2.5 months.
Smoked right up to the end.
I don't even have words to describe how sad and undignified that is.
AJ... 750 ~ thankful beyond measure to be free.
Damn bud. Sorry for your loss. I hate to see loss for anyone but at least with you we can back on another win form you tomorrow as you post yet another day quit.
Cancer is scary shit and it sucks. Even Superman had a weakness but at least together all of us are strong united and ready to fight as a brotherhood.
Wow, I just can't imagine that. THANK YOU FOR HELPING ME QUIT, AJ. Thank you so much..
Mogul
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Another huge milestone fora bad ass quitter! You have come a long way dude! It is an honor to quit with you.
Congrats on 800.
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Another huge milestone fora bad ass quitter! You have come a long way dude! It is an honor to quit with you.
Congrats on 800.
I'll add my congrats too on an awesome 800!!
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Another huge milestone fora bad ass quitter! You have come a long way dude! It is an honor to quit with you.
Congrats on 800.
I'll add my congrats too on an awesome 800!!
Congrats on 800 Shane!! You're rocking this quit every day!!
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Another huge milestone fora bad ass quitter! You have come a long way dude! It is an honor to quit with you.
Congrats on 800.
I'll add my congrats too on an awesome 800!!
Congrats on 800 Shane!! You're rocking this quit every day!!
I'm quit for 646 days today because you came before me. Thanks for helping me quit again today!
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Another huge milestone fora bad ass quitter! You have come a long way dude! It is an honor to quit with you.
Congrats on 800.
I'll add my congrats too on an awesome 800!!
Congrats on 800 Shane!! You're rocking this quit every day!!
I'm quit for 646 days today because you came before me. Thanks for helping me quit again today!
8th floor man! Congrats!!!
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Another huge milestone fora bad ass quitter! You have come a long way dude! It is an honor to quit with you.
Congrats on 800.
I'll add my congrats too on an awesome 800!!
Congrats on 800 Shane!! You're rocking this quit every day!!
I'm quit for 646 days today because you came before me. Thanks for helping me quit again today!
8th floor man! Congrats!!!
Shane you are my friend and brother and I can never thank you enough for all your support. You are ;Ironman: Enjoy your day Rocker! 'oh yeah'
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Another huge milestone fora bad ass quitter! You have come a long way dude! It is an honor to quit with you.
Congrats on 800.
I'll add my congrats too on an awesome 800!!
Congrats on 800 Shane!! You're rocking this quit every day!!
I'm quit for 646 days today because you came before me. Thanks for helping me quit again today!
8th floor man! Congrats!!!
Shane you are my friend and brother and I can never thank you enough for all your support. You are ;Ironman: Enjoy your day Rocker! 'oh yeah'
congrats my friend enjoy your day and reflect back over your 800 days!
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Another huge milestone fora bad ass quitter! You have come a long way dude! It is an honor to quit with you.
Congrats on 800.
I'll add my congrats too on an awesome 800!!
Congrats on 800 Shane!! You're rocking this quit every day!!
I'm quit for 646 days today because you came before me. Thanks for helping me quit again today!
8th floor man! Congrats!!!
Shane you are my friend and brother and I can never thank you enough for all your support. You are ;Ironman: Enjoy your day Rocker! 'oh yeah'
congrats my friend enjoy your day and reflect back over your 800 days!
One badass quitter! 8th floor see you at 9th ,quit on!
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Another huge milestone fora bad ass quitter! You have come a long way dude! It is an honor to quit with you.
Congrats on 800.
I'll add my congrats too on an awesome 800!!
Congrats on 800 Shane!! You're rocking this quit every day!!
I'm quit for 646 days today because you came before me. Thanks for helping me quit again today!
8th floor man! Congrats!!!
Shane you are my friend and brother and I can never thank you enough for all your support. You are ;Ironman: Enjoy your day Rocker! 'oh yeah'
congrats my friend enjoy your day and reflect back over your 800 days!
One badass quitter! 8th floor see you at 9th ,quit on!
I think the amazing thing about the our work and effort to quit is the impact it has on other's quits. AJ - you were a key cog in mine. Another dude from the internet, that decided even though you didn't know me, I was important enough to put the time and effort into helping. Your calls and texts and chats all along those first few hundred days were so key in my quit. I remember at one point asking you how the view is from the 3rd floor and you said it was amazing and I should come on up. In some ways, I can't believe how time has gone by so fast. It sure didn't seem like it was those first few days. My brother, I'm so grateful for you, and proud to quit with you.
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Another huge milestone fora bad ass quitter! You have come a long way dude! It is an honor to quit with you.
Congrats on 800.
I'll add my congrats too on an awesome 800!!
Congrats on 800 Shane!! You're rocking this quit every day!!
I'm quit for 646 days today because you came before me. Thanks for helping me quit again today!
8th floor man! Congrats!!!
Shane you are my friend and brother and I can never thank you enough for all your support. You are ;Ironman: Enjoy your day Rocker! 'oh yeah'
congrats my friend enjoy your day and reflect back over your 800 days!
One badass quitter! 8th floor see you at 9th ,quit on!
I think the amazing thing about the our work and effort to quit is the impact it has on other's quits. AJ - you were a key cog in mine. Another dude from the internet, that decided even though you didn't know me, I was important enough to put the time and effort into helping. Your calls and texts and chats all along those first few hundred days were so key in my quit. I remember at one point asking you how the view is from the 3rd floor and you said it was amazing and I should come on up. In some ways, I can't believe how time has gone by so fast. It sure didn't seem like it was those first few days. My brother, I'm so grateful for you, and proud to quit with you.
Level 8 is huge! Congrats.
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Another huge milestone fora bad ass quitter! You have come a long way dude! It is an honor to quit with you.
Congrats on 800.
I'll add my congrats too on an awesome 800!!
Congrats on 800 Shane!! You're rocking this quit every day!!
I'm quit for 646 days today because you came before me. Thanks for helping me quit again today!
8th floor man! Congrats!!!
Shane you are my friend and brother and I can never thank you enough for all your support. You are ;Ironman: Enjoy your day Rocker! 'oh yeah'
congrats my friend enjoy your day and reflect back over your 800 days!
One badass quitter! 8th floor see you at 9th ,quit on!
I think the amazing thing about the our work and effort to quit is the impact it has on other's quits. AJ - you were a key cog in mine. Another dude from the internet, that decided even though you didn't know me, I was important enough to put the time and effort into helping. Your calls and texts and chats all along those first few hundred days were so key in my quit. I remember at one point asking you how the view is from the 3rd floor and you said it was amazing and I should come on up. In some ways, I can't believe how time has gone by so fast. It sure didn't seem like it was those first few days. My brother, I'm so grateful for you, and proud to quit with you.
Level 8 is huge! Congrats.
8th floor is awesome! Keep leading the way for me Shane!
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Another huge milestone fora bad ass quitter! You have come a long way dude! It is an honor to quit with you.
Congrats on 800.
I'll add my congrats too on an awesome 800!!
Congrats on 800 Shane!! You're rocking this quit every day!!
I'm quit for 646 days today because you came before me. Thanks for helping me quit again today!
8th floor man! Congrats!!!
Shane you are my friend and brother and I can never thank you enough for all your support. You are ;Ironman: Enjoy your day Rocker! 'oh yeah'
congrats my friend enjoy your day and reflect back over your 800 days!
One badass quitter! 8th floor see you at 9th ,quit on!
I think the amazing thing about the our work and effort to quit is the impact it has on other's quits. AJ - you were a key cog in mine. Another dude from the internet, that decided even though you didn't know me, I was important enough to put the time and effort into helping. Your calls and texts and chats all along those first few hundred days were so key in my quit. I remember at one point asking you how the view is from the 3rd floor and you said it was amazing and I should come on up. In some ways, I can't believe how time has gone by so fast. It sure didn't seem like it was those first few days. My brother, I'm so grateful for you, and proud to quit with you.
Level 8 is huge! Congrats.
8th floor is awesome! Keep leading the way for me Shane!
Thanks guys...
I don't spend near the amount of time here as I used to. For awhile I was logged in 24/7... I needed it. I'm not sure when I turned the corner but I'm stoked that at this point... quitting isn't something I think about. Ever. It's something I just am.
New guys... put in serious time and effort to build your quit. It pays off in ways that will blow your mind! Freedom is damn cool.
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You da man, Shane. Congrats on 800! You're an inspiration...thanks for having my back, brother.
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Another huge milestone fora bad ass quitter! You have come a long way dude! It is an honor to quit with you.
Congrats on 800.
I'll add my congrats too on an awesome 800!!
Congrats on 800 Shane!! You're rocking this quit every day!!
I'm quit for 646 days today because you came before me. Thanks for helping me quit again today!
8th floor man! Congrats!!!
Shane you are my friend and brother and I can never thank you enough for all your support. You are ;Ironman: Enjoy your day Rocker! 'oh yeah'
congrats my friend enjoy your day and reflect back over your 800 days!
One badass quitter! 8th floor see you at 9th ,quit on!
I think the amazing thing about the our work and effort to quit is the impact it has on other's quits. AJ - you were a key cog in mine. Another dude from the internet, that decided even though you didn't know me, I was important enough to put the time and effort into helping. Your calls and texts and chats all along those first few hundred days were so key in my quit. I remember at one point asking you how the view is from the 3rd floor and you said it was amazing and I should come on up. In some ways, I can't believe how time has gone by so fast. It sure didn't seem like it was those first few days. My brother, I'm so grateful for you, and proud to quit with you.
Level 8 is huge! Congrats.
8th floor is awesome! Keep leading the way for me Shane!
Thanks guys...
I don't spend near the amount of time here as I used to. For awhile I was logged in 24/7... I needed it. I'm not sure when I turned the corner but I'm stoked that at this point... quitting isn't something I think about. Ever. It's something I just am.
New guys... put in serious time and effort to build your quit. It pays off in ways that will blow your mind! Freedom is damn cool.
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Enjoy the day AJ!
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870 today.
870!?!
Dayum!
I really got nothing to lay down. No profound quit knowledge. Nothing earth-shaking has happend. No life crisis. Family is good. Yeah... just life's ups and downs. I've seen quite a few old heads post in their intros the last few months about their activity level on site. How it has waned... relaxed, really. No more doggin' the intros and jumping all over noobs or idiots who talk smack. Just... enjoying the flow of a life not ruled by their/our addiction.
Same here.
For a helluva stretch I was logged on here pretty much all damn day. Posted up everywhere. And... I needed to. 25 years of nicotine junkie status required it. I, like so many of you/us, had to literally rebuild my life. We rarely get the "re-do" like when were playing as kids. That ultimate start over. KTC gave me that chance. I took it... I went overboard with it. The payoff has been... _____ (fill in the blank). It's everything.
You new guys... grind it out, man. Roll around in the pain. Soak up the misery. Wear it like a badge. Wave it like a banner. Doing ths... really doing this... owning this... is what freedom is all about. There's a price to pay for it because it's precious and you need to never take it for granted again.
Freedom... it's pretty damn cool.
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870 today.
870!?!
Dayum!
I really got nothing to lay down. No profound quit knowledge. Nothing earth-shaking has happend. No life crisis. Family is good. Yeah... just life's ups and downs. I've seen quite a few old heads post in their intros the last few months about their activity level on site. How it has waned... relaxed, really. No more doggin' the intros and jumping all over noobs or idiots who talk smack. Just... enjoying the flow of a life not ruled by their/our addiction.
Same here.
For a helluva stretch I was logged on here pretty much all damn day. Posted up everywhere. And... I needed to. 25 years of nicotine junkie status required it. I, like so many of you/us, had to literally rebuild my life. We rarely get the "re-do" like when were playing as kids. That ultimate start over. KTC gave me that chance. I took it... I went overboard with it. The payoff has been... _____ (fill in the blank). It's everything.
You new guys... grind it out, man. Roll around in the pain. Soak up the misery. Wear it like a badge. Wave it like a banner. Doing ths... really doing this... owning this... is what freedom is all about. There's a price to pay for it because it's precious and you need to never take it for granted again.
Freedom... it's pretty damn cool.
True!
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870 today.
870!?!
Dayum!
I really got nothing to lay down. No profound quit knowledge. Nothing earth-shaking has happend. No life crisis. Family is good. Yeah... just life's ups and downs. I've seen quite a few old heads post in their intros the last few months about their activity level on site. How it has waned... relaxed, really. No more doggin' the intros and jumping all over noobs or idiots who talk smack. Just... enjoying the flow of a life not ruled by their/our addiction.
Same here.
For a helluva stretch I was logged on here pretty much all damn day. Posted up everywhere. And... I needed to. 25 years of nicotine junkie status required it. I, like so many of you/us, had to literally rebuild my life. We rarely get the "re-do" like when were playing as kids. That ultimate start over. KTC gave me that chance. I took it... I went overboard with it. The payoff has been... _____ (fill in the blank). It's everything.
You new guys... grind it out, man. Roll around in the pain. Soak up the misery. Wear it like a badge. Wave it like a banner. Doing ths... really doing this... owning this... is what freedom is all about. There's a price to pay for it because it's precious and you need to never take it for granted again.
Freedom... it's pretty damn cool.
True!
I'm on the same track as you AJ. Everyday still gets better, but it's not just about quitting, it's about rebuilding. I rarely think about nicotine anymore, but not one day goes by that I don't remember what I have accomplished with the coaching and friendship of the likes of you and many others.
Mogul
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870 today.
870!?!
Dayum!
I really got nothing to lay down. No profound quit knowledge. Nothing earth-shaking has happend. No life crisis. Family is good. Yeah... just life's ups and downs. I've seen quite a few old heads post in their intros the last few months about their activity level on site. How it has waned... relaxed, really. No more doggin' the intros and jumping all over noobs or idiots who talk smack. Just... enjoying the flow of a life not ruled by their/our addiction.
Same here.
For a helluva stretch I was logged on here pretty much all damn day. Posted up everywhere. And... I needed to. 25 years of nicotine junkie status required it. I, like so many of you/us, had to literally rebuild my life. We rarely get the "re-do" like when were playing as kids. That ultimate start over. KTC gave me that chance. I took it... I went overboard with it. The payoff has been... _____ (fill in the blank). It's everything.
You new guys... grind it out, man. Roll around in the pain. Soak up the misery. Wear it like a badge. Wave it like a banner. Doing ths... really doing this... owning this... is what freedom is all about. There's a price to pay for it because it's precious and you need to never take it for granted again.
Freedom... it's pretty damn cool.
True!
I'm on the same track as you AJ. Everyday still gets better, but it's not just about quitting, it's about rebuilding. I rarely think about nicotine anymore, but not one day goes by that I don't remember what I have accomplished with the coaching and friendship of the likes of you and many others.
Mogul
Listen to AJ...embrace the pain. Own it and remember it.
Pb
646
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870 today.
870!?!
Dayum!
I really got nothing to lay down. No profound quit knowledge. Nothing earth-shaking has happend. No life crisis. Family is good. Yeah... just life's ups and downs. I've seen quite a few old heads post in their intros the last few months about their activity level on site. How it has waned... relaxed, really. No more doggin' the intros and jumping all over noobs or idiots who talk smack. Just... enjoying the flow of a life not ruled by their/our addiction.
Same here.
For a helluva stretch I was logged on here pretty much all damn day. Posted up everywhere. And... I needed to. 25 years of nicotine junkie status required it. I, like so many of you/us, had to literally rebuild my life. We rarely get the "re-do" like when were playing as kids. That ultimate start over. KTC gave me that chance. I took it... I went overboard with it. The payoff has been... _____ (fill in the blank). It's everything.
You new guys... grind it out, man. Roll around in the pain. Soak up the misery. Wear it like a badge. Wave it like a banner. Doing ths... really doing this... owning this... is what freedom is all about. There's a price to pay for it because it's precious and you need to never take it for granted again.
Freedom... it's pretty damn cool.
True!
I'm on the same track as you AJ. Everyday still gets better, but it's not just about quitting, it's about rebuilding. I rarely think about nicotine anymore, but not one day goes by that I don't remember what I have accomplished with the coaching and friendship of the likes of you and many others.
Mogul
Listen to AJ...embrace the pain. Own it and remember it.
Pb
646
one heck of a lot of wisdom in this dogpile vortex of quitters--- read and learn! AJ has helped so many along the way, and the journey gets better all the time!
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870 today.
870!?!
Dayum!
I really got nothing to lay down. No profound quit knowledge. Nothing earth-shaking has happend. No life crisis. Family is good. Yeah... just life's ups and downs. I've seen quite a few old heads post in their intros the last few months about their activity level on site. How it has waned... relaxed, really. No more doggin' the intros and jumping all over noobs or idiots who talk smack. Just... enjoying the flow of a life not ruled by their/our addiction.
Same here.
For a helluva stretch I was logged on here pretty much all damn day. Posted up everywhere. And... I needed to. 25 years of nicotine junkie status required it. I, like so many of you/us, had to literally rebuild my life. We rarely get the "re-do" like when were playing as kids. That ultimate start over. KTC gave me that chance. I took it... I went overboard with it. The payoff has been... _____ (fill in the blank). It's everything.
You new guys... grind it out, man. Roll around in the pain. Soak up the misery. Wear it like a badge. Wave it like a banner. Doing ths... really doing this... owning this... is what freedom is all about. There's a price to pay for it because it's precious and you need to never take it for granted again.
Freedom... it's pretty damn cool.
True!
I'm on the same track as you AJ. Everyday still gets better, but it's not just about quitting, it's about rebuilding. I rarely think about nicotine anymore, but not one day goes by that I don't remember what I have accomplished with the coaching and friendship of the likes of you and many others.
Mogul
Listen to AJ...embrace the pain. Own it and remember it.
Pb
646
one heck of a lot of wisdom in this dogpile vortex of quitters--- read and learn! AJ has helped so many along the way, and the journey gets better all the time!
Damn fellows thanks! I needed that definite quit boost! Quit on you badasses!
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Congrats on 900 Shane! Your contributions to my quit, and many others, has been incredible. You, my friend, are one badass quitter who I am proud to quit with EDD!
CJ
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Congrats on 900 Shane! Your contributions to my quit, and many others, has been incredible. You, my friend, are one badass quitter who I am proud to quit with EDD!
CJ
What he said! Not hard to believe you put together 900 days in a row one day at a time. That's some awesome bricklaying! Congrats Shane! Let's try again tomorrow!
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Congrats on 900 Shane! Your contributions to my quit, and many others, has been incredible. You, my friend, are one badass quitter who I am proud to quit with EDD!
CJ
What he said! Not hard to believe you put together 900 days in a row one day at a time. That's some awesome bricklaying! Congrats Shane! Let's try again tomorrow!
Honored to quit with you today. You are the definition of a man of his word. Nice milestone!
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Congrats on 900 Shane! Your contributions to my quit, and many others, has been incredible. You, my friend, are one badass quitter who I am proud to quit with EDD!
CJ
What he said! Not hard to believe you put together 900 days in a row one day at a time. That's some awesome bricklaying! Congrats Shane! Let's try again tomorrow!
Honored to quit with you today. You are the definition of a man of his word. Nice milestone!
Nice AJ strong work way to set the bar for KTC everyday enjoy your day!
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Congrats on 900 Shane! Your contributions to my quit, and many others, has been incredible. You, my friend, are one badass quitter who I am proud to quit with EDD!
CJ
What he said! Not hard to believe you put together 900 days in a row one day at a time. That's some awesome bricklaying! Congrats Shane! Let's try again tomorrow!
Honored to quit with you today. You are the definition of a man of his word. Nice milestone!
Nice AJ strong work way to set the bar for KTC everyday enjoy your day!
Love reading me some AJ post! Quit on my brother and congratulations on the 900!
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Congrats on all your hard work to reach 900 bro!
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Congrats on 900 Shane! Your contributions to my quit, and many others, has been incredible. You, my friend, are one badass quitter who I am proud to quit with EDD!
CJ
What he said! Not hard to believe you put together 900 days in a row one day at a time. That's some awesome bricklaying! Congrats Shane! Let's try again tomorrow!
Honored to quit with you today. You are the definition of a man of his word. Nice milestone!
Nice AJ strong work way to set the bar for KTC everyday enjoy your day!
Love reading me some AJ post! Quit on my brother and congratulations on the 900!
Nobody crushes it as hard as this guy. Model quitter right here and proud to call him friend. Congrats Shane
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Congrats on 900 Shane! Your contributions to my quit, and many others, has been incredible. You, my friend, are one badass quitter who I am proud to quit with EDD!
CJ
What he said! Not hard to believe you put together 900 days in a row one day at a time. That's some awesome bricklaying! Congrats Shane! Let's try again tomorrow!
Honored to quit with you today. You are the definition of a man of his word. Nice milestone!
Nice AJ strong work way to set the bar for KTC everyday enjoy your day!
Love reading me some AJ post! Quit on my brother and congratulations on the 900!
Nobody crushes it as hard as this guy. Model quitter right here and proud to call him friend. Congrats Shane
Nice 900 Shane! Love your freedom from that evil candy brother; I know how hard it was to break free from that poison, but you lead the way for me and many others. Keep killing it, and enjoy 901 :)
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Congrats on 900 Shane! Your contributions to my quit, and many others, has been incredible. You, my friend, are one badass quitter who I am proud to quit with EDD!
CJ
What he said! Not hard to believe you put together 900 days in a row one day at a time. That's some awesome bricklaying! Congrats Shane! Let's try again tomorrow!
Honored to quit with you today. You are the definition of a man of his word. Nice milestone!
Nice AJ strong work way to set the bar for KTC everyday enjoy your day!
Love reading me some AJ post! Quit on my brother and congratulations on the 900!
Nobody crushes it as hard as this guy. Model quitter right here and proud to call him friend. Congrats Shane
Nice 900 Shane! Love your freedom from that evil candy brother; I know how hard it was to break free from that poison, but you lead the way for me and many others. Keep killing it, and enjoy 901 :)
Late for this but congrats anyways on the 9th floor Shane. You are the man and have one of the loudest quits going. Well past 11 in my book!
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Congrats on 900 Shane! Your contributions to my quit, and many others, has been incredible. You, my friend, are one badass quitter who I am proud to quit with EDD!
CJ
What he said! Not hard to believe you put together 900 days in a row one day at a time. That's some awesome bricklaying! Congrats Shane! Let's try again tomorrow!
Honored to quit with you today. You are the definition of a man of his word. Nice milestone!
Nice AJ strong work way to set the bar for KTC everyday enjoy your day!
Love reading me some AJ post! Quit on my brother and congratulations on the 900!
Nobody crushes it as hard as this guy. Model quitter right here and proud to call him friend. Congrats Shane
Nice 900 Shane! Love your freedom from that evil candy brother; I know how hard it was to break free from that poison, but you lead the way for me and many others. Keep killing it, and enjoy 901 :)
Late for this but congrats anyways on the 9th floor Shane. You are the man and have one of the loudest quits going. Well past 11 in my book!
Hell, late to my own party!
Each of these additional HOF milestones just zip on by anymore. They're there before you know it. Damn... this is a sweet place to be! I still, and will always, remember the white knuckle living of that first few days, weeks, months. Man, never again! I fought like a bastard for this freedom!
I like the view from up here...
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973
That's what I typed and texted this morning.
Tomorrow... I'm gonna type 974 everywhere. Yeah, I know we talk about doing it all one day at a time but let's be honest here... at this point, the only thing that's really gonna keep it from happening is me kicking over tonight or tomorrow morning.
Why am I so sure, you ask?
Because I remember typing, and living, "Day 1".
It sucked.
Oh, dear God, more than anything else in the history of sucking... it SUCKED! It was humiliating... it was humbling... it was hard... It. Was. Hell. Pure hell and I don't know if I have it in me to give that much again. I'm too big a weenie. One true Quit is all you get... this is mine. So... see ya tomorow.
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Look forward to seeing ya tomorrow bro! I hear ya on being too much of a weenie to try going through day 1 again.
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dang proud to see you make it this far and knowing that everyday it's just the beginning.we have similar paths my friend. I quit with you!
one day at a time!
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973
That's what I typed and texted this morning.
Tomorrow... I'm gonna type 974 everywhere. Yeah, I know we talk about doing it all one day at a time but let's be honest here... at this point, the only thing that's really gonna keep it from happening is me kicking over tonight or tomorrow morning.
Why am I so sure, you ask?
Because I remember typing, and living, "Day 1".
It sucked.
Oh, dear God, more than anything else in the history of sucking... it SUCKED! It was humiliating... it was humbling... it was hard... It. Was. Hell. Pure hell and I don't know if I have it in me to give that much again. I'm too big a weenie. One true Quit is all you get... this is mine. So... see ya tomorow.
Solid as always,
well done and keep moving forward, beating all those that never took that first initial step to Day 1.
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1,000!
Dude you are a daily inspiration. A bad ass whose words resonate with noobs and vets alike. The definition of accountability, of brotherhood, and a friend. Raising a glass of Laphroig in your honor tonight.
Soak this achievement in. This one is big.
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1,000!
Dude you are a daily inspiration. A bad ass whose words resonate with noobs and vets alike. The definition of accountability, of brotherhood, and a friend. Raising a glass of Laphroig in your honor tonight.
Soak this achievement in. This one is big.
AJ - One thousand days of kicking ass, staying quit and being a rock for so many others both here and at home. Very proud to be part of your journey.
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Congrats on the bug comma! Awesome work to get here. Thanks for all you've done for me along the way. Truly blessed to be part of such a great quit.
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1,000!
Dude you are a daily inspiration. A bad ass whose words resonate with noobs and vets alike. The definition of accountability, of brotherhood, and a friend. Raising a glass of Laphroig in your honor tonight.
Soak this achievement in. This one is big.
AJ - One thousand days of kicking ass, staying quit and being a rock for so many others both here and at home. Very proud to be part of your journey.
congrats AJ ON THAT COMMA
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1,000!
Dude you are a daily inspiration. A bad ass whose words resonate with noobs and vets alike. The definition of accountability, of brotherhood, and a friend. Raising a glass of Laphroig in your honor tonight.
Soak this achievement in. This one is big.
AJ - One thousand days of kicking ass, staying quit and being a rock for so many others both here and at home. Very proud to be part of your journey.
congrats AJ ON THAT COMMA
YES! Brother, you are one of the baddest-ass quitters I know. Strait shooter, no fluff quitter; one that I have the utmost respect and so glad to have as a rock in my quit foundation. Congratulations on that comma!
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1,000!
Dude you are a daily inspiration. A bad ass whose words resonate with noobs and vets alike. The definition of accountability, of brotherhood, and a friend. Raising a glass of Laphroig in your honor tonight.
Soak this achievement in. This one is big.
AJ - One thousand days of kicking ass, staying quit and being a rock for so many others both here and at home. Very proud to be part of your journey.
congrats AJ ON THAT COMMA
YES! Brother, you are one of the baddest-ass quitters I know. Strait shooter, no fluff quitter; one that I have the utmost respect and so glad to have as a rock in my quit foundation. Congratulations on that comma!
Brother Shane! Nice job and congrats on that dangle. I hope you have time to take it for a walk because it, truly is large... 'embarrassed' Just don't hit anyone with it 'winker'
Thanks for being a major part of my quit I would have found it very difficult to have stayed quit. I'm sure I'm not the only one that will say that! Quitting with you every day brother!
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1,000!
Dude you are a daily inspiration. A bad ass whose words resonate with noobs and vets alike. The definition of accountability, of brotherhood, and a friend. Raising a glass of Laphroig in your honor tonight.
Soak this achievement in. This one is big.
AJ - One thousand days of kicking ass, staying quit and being a rock for so many others both here and at home. Very proud to be part of your journey.
congrats AJ ON THAT COMMA
YES! Brother, you are one of the baddest-ass quitters I know. Strait shooter, no fluff quitter; one that I have the utmost respect and so glad to have as a rock in my quit foundation. Congratulations on that comma!
Brother Shane! Nice job and congrats on that dangle. I hope you have time to take it for a walk because it, truly is large... 'embarrassed' Just don't hit anyone with it 'winker'
Thanks for being a major part of my quit I would have found it very difficult to have stayed quit. I'm sure I'm not the only one that will say that! Quitting with you every day brother!
Shane, you are a huge part of my quit too. Thanks for all the support you give all of us! What a great day!
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1,000!
Dude you are a daily inspiration. A bad ass whose words resonate with noobs and vets alike. The definition of accountability, of brotherhood, and a friend. Raising a glass of Laphroig in your honor tonight.
Soak this achievement in. This one is big.
AJ - One thousand days of kicking ass, staying quit and being a rock for so many others both here and at home. Very proud to be part of your journey.
congrats AJ ON THAT COMMA
YES! Brother, you are one of the baddest-ass quitters I know. Strait shooter, no fluff quitter; one that I have the utmost respect and so glad to have as a rock in my quit foundation. Congratulations on that comma!
Brother Shane! Nice job and congrats on that dangle. I hope you have time to take it for a walk because it, truly is large... 'embarrassed' Just don't hit anyone with it 'winker'
Thanks for being a major part of my quit I would have found it very difficult to have stayed quit. I'm sure I'm not the only one that will say that! Quitting with you every day brother!
Shane, you are a huge part of my quit too. Thanks for all the support you give all of us! What a great day!
Congrats on your comma!
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1,000!
Dude you are a daily inspiration. A bad ass whose words resonate with noobs and vets alike. The definition of accountability, of brotherhood, and a friend. Raising a glass of Laphroig in your honor tonight.
Soak this achievement in. This one is big.
AJ - One thousand days of kicking ass, staying quit and being a rock for so many others both here and at home. Very proud to be part of your journey.
congrats AJ ON THAT COMMA
YES! Brother, you are one of the baddest-ass quitters I know. Strait shooter, no fluff quitter; one that I have the utmost respect and so glad to have as a rock in my quit foundation. Congratulations on that comma!
Brother Shane! Nice job and congrats on that dangle. I hope you have time to take it for a walk because it, truly is large... 'embarrassed' Just don't hit anyone with it 'winker'
Thanks for being a major part of my quit I would have found it very difficult to have stayed quit. I'm sure I'm not the only one that will say that! Quitting with you every day brother!
Shane, you are a huge part of my quit too. Thanks for all the support you give all of us! What a great day!
Congrats on your comma!
,
'oh yeah'
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1,000!
Dude you are a daily inspiration. A bad ass whose words resonate with noobs and vets alike. The definition of accountability, of brotherhood, and a friend. Raising a glass of Laphroig in your honor tonight.
Soak this achievement in. This one is big.
AJ - One thousand days of kicking ass, staying quit and being a rock for so many others both here and at home. Very proud to be part of your journey.
congrats AJ ON THAT COMMA
YES! Brother, you are one of the baddest-ass quitters I know. Strait shooter, no fluff quitter; one that I have the utmost respect and so glad to have as a rock in my quit foundation. Congratulations on that comma!
Brother Shane! Nice job and congrats on that dangle. I hope you have time to take it for a walk because it, truly is large... 'embarrassed' Just don't hit anyone with it 'winker'
Thanks for being a major part of my quit I would have found it very difficult to have stayed quit. I'm sure I'm not the only one that will say that! Quitting with you every day brother!
Shane, you are a huge part of my quit too. Thanks for all the support you give all of us! What a great day!
Congrats on your comma!
,
'oh yeah'
You deserve huge accolades bro-- you're huge to an awful lot of quitters (including me, of course)! keep it up, and take today to breathe in some serious accomplishment-- we're not going back there to where we were before, and you've paved the way and put major distance behind you, and are still armed and ready to fight that bitch poison addiction any time, any place. Keep up the exemplary quit and the helping others fight too. Cant say thanks enough!
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1,000!
Dude you are a daily inspiration. A bad ass whose words resonate with noobs and vets alike. The definition of accountability, of brotherhood, and a friend. Raising a glass of Laphroig in your honor tonight.
Soak this achievement in. This one is big.
AJ - One thousand days of kicking ass, staying quit and being a rock for so many others both here and at home. Very proud to be part of your journey.
congrats AJ ON THAT COMMA
YES! Brother, you are one of the baddest-ass quitters I know. Strait shooter, no fluff quitter; one that I have the utmost respect and so glad to have as a rock in my quit foundation. Congratulations on that comma!
Brother Shane! Nice job and congrats on that dangle. I hope you have time to take it for a walk because it, truly is large... 'embarrassed' Just don't hit anyone with it 'winker'
Thanks for being a major part of my quit I would have found it very difficult to have stayed quit. I'm sure I'm not the only one that will say that! Quitting with you every day brother!
Shane, you are a huge part of my quit too. Thanks for all the support you give all of us! What a great day!
Congrats on your comma!
,
'oh yeah'
You deserve huge accolades bro-- you're huge to an awful lot of quitters (including me, of course)! keep it up, and take today to breathe in some serious accomplishment-- we're not going back there to where we were before, and you've paved the way and put major distance behind you, and are still armed and ready to fight that bitch poison addiction any time, any place. Keep up the exemplary quit and the helping others fight too. Cant say thanks enough!
Congratulations on a wonderful milestone. One to be very proud of as just another indication of the strength of person you have learned you can be, and one to lead to many more as you continue you life clean of nicotine.
all the best to you.
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1,000!
Dude you are a daily inspiration. A bad ass whose words resonate with noobs and vets alike. The definition of accountability, of brotherhood, and a friend. Raising a glass of Laphroig in your honor tonight.
Soak this achievement in. This one is big.
AJ - One thousand days of kicking ass, staying quit and being a rock for so many others both here and at home. Very proud to be part of your journey.
congrats AJ ON THAT COMMA
YES! Brother, you are one of the baddest-ass quitters I know. Strait shooter, no fluff quitter; one that I have the utmost respect and so glad to have as a rock in my quit foundation. Congratulations on that comma!
Brother Shane! Nice job and congrats on that dangle. I hope you have time to take it for a walk because it, truly is large... 'embarrassed' Just don't hit anyone with it 'winker'
Thanks for being a major part of my quit I would have found it very difficult to have stayed quit. I'm sure I'm not the only one that will say that! Quitting with you every day brother!
Shane, you are a huge part of my quit too. Thanks for all the support you give all of us! What a great day!
Congrats on your comma!
,
'oh yeah'
You deserve huge accolades bro-- you're huge to an awful lot of quitters (including me, of course)! keep it up, and take today to breathe in some serious accomplishment-- we're not going back there to where we were before, and you've paved the way and put major distance behind you, and are still armed and ready to fight that bitch poison addiction any time, any place. Keep up the exemplary quit and the helping others fight too. Cant say thanks enough!
Congratulations on a wonderful milestone. One to be very proud of as just another indication of the strength of person you have learned you can be, and one to lead to many more as you continue you life clean of nicotine.
all the best to you.
Congrats on your 1,000! that is bad ass quit.
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Whoa! I had no intention of this slipping by without a "thanks" to this place and you people! Ungrateful, I am NOT!
I'll be honest... my comma would have come and gone without my noticing had it not been for my July 13 bros and my other randomly ghey text group (Worktowin, Rdad, CJ, Brett, and Pab). Not because I didn't care, nope. It was life. Been a helluva 2 month stretch for my family.
My uncle had a massive stroke in December... passed away the next day.
My mom (50 year smoker) went back in the hospital (new years day) for the 3rd time in a year and a half. The consequences of so many years of smoking has just ripped her body apart.
The day after my mom went in the hospital... my grandad passed away from stage 4 lung cancer.
So, yeah... life.
I guess the beauty of it all, in relation to my quit, is that I'm no longer at a point where I'm managing any of it. I did that already and I'm reaping the benefit of all that work... freedom. Thankfully I'm cured of my need for it. I, however, will never be cured and... that's ok. It's why I'm here. 30 seconds to copy, cut, paste, type "Shane", followed by a number (with a comma in it!), is a stupid small price to pay.
Without this place I'd still be on the fast track to killing myself.
Rock on, all my vet bros...
Power through, all you noobs...
Life... is good.
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Whoa! I had no intention of this slipping by without a "thanks" to this place and you people! Ungrateful, I am NOT!
I'll be honest... my comma would have come and gone without my noticing had it not been for my July 13 bros and my other randomly ghey text group (Worktowin, Rdad, CJ, Brett, and Pab). Not because I didn't care, nope. It was life. Been a helluva 2 month stretch for my family.
My uncle had a massive stroke in December... passed away the next day.
My mom (50 year smoker) went back in the hospital (new years day) for the 3rd time in a year and a half. The consequences of so many years of smoking has just ripped her body apart.
The day after my mom went in the hospital... my grandad passed away from stage 4 lung cancer.
So, yeah... life.
I guess the beauty of it all, in relation to my quit, is that I'm no longer at a point where I'm managing any of it. I did that already and I'm reaping the benefit of all that work... freedom. Thankfully I'm cured of my need for it. I, however, will never be cured and... that's ok. It's why I'm here. 30 seconds to copy, cut, paste, type "Shane", followed by a number (with a comma in it!), is a stupid small price to pay.
Without this place I'd still be on the fast track to killing myself.
Rock on, all my vet bros...
Power through, all you noobs...
Life... is good.
Powerful message here for newbies, in fact I urge newbies to read this thread. This is how a quitter gets to a comma. I quit with you bro!!
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Whoa! I had no intention of this slipping by without a "thanks" to this place and you people! Ungrateful, I am NOT!
I'll be honest... my comma would have come and gone without my noticing had it not been for my July 13 bros and my other randomly ghey text group (Worktowin, Rdad, CJ, Brett, and Pab). Not because I didn't care, nope. It was life. Been a helluva 2 month stretch for my family.
My uncle had a massive stroke in December... passed away the next day.
My mom (50 year smoker) went back in the hospital (new years day) for the 3rd time in a year and a half. The consequences of so many years of smoking has just ripped her body apart.
The day after my mom went in the hospital... my grandad passed away from stage 4 lung cancer.
So, yeah... life.
I guess the beauty of it all, in relation to my quit, is that I'm no longer at a point where I'm managing any of it. I did that already and I'm reaping the benefit of all that work... freedom. Thankfully I'm cured of my need for it. I, however, will never be cured and... that's ok. It's why I'm here. 30 seconds to copy, cut, paste, type "Shane", followed by a number (with a comma in it!), is a stupid small price to pay.
Without this place I'd still be on the fast track to killing myself.
Rock on, all my vet bros...
Power through, all you noobs...
Life... is good.
Powerful message here for newbies, in fact I urge newbies to read this thread. This is how a quitter gets to a comma. I quit with you bro!!
WOW, congrats! And thanks for the words of encouragement!! I'm with ya, I wouldn't be at 128 days quit without this site, and I plan on being here 1,000 days and more; whatever it takes to stay quit!! Thank you, and quit on!
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Whoa! I had no intention of this slipping by without a "thanks" to this place and you people! Ungrateful, I am NOT!
I'll be honest... my comma would have come and gone without my noticing had it not been for my July 13 bros and my other randomly ghey text group (Worktowin, Rdad, CJ, Brett, and Pab). Not because I didn't care, nope. It was life. Been a helluva 2 month stretch for my family.
My uncle had a massive stroke in December... passed away the next day.
My mom (50 year smoker) went back in the hospital (new years day) for the 3rd time in a year and a half. The consequences of so many years of smoking has just ripped her body apart.
The day after my mom went in the hospital... my grandad passed away from stage 4 lung cancer.
So, yeah... life.
I guess the beauty of it all, in relation to my quit, is that I'm no longer at a point where I'm managing any of it. I did that already and I'm reaping the benefit of all that work... freedom. Thankfully I'm cured of my need for it. I, however, will never be cured and... that's ok. It's why I'm here. 30 seconds to copy, cut, paste, type "Shane", followed by a number (with a comma in it!), is a stupid small price to pay.
Without this place I'd still be on the fast track to killing myself.
Rock on, all my vet bros...
Power through, all you noobs...
Life... is good.
Powerful message here for newbies, in fact I urge newbies to read this thread. This is how a quitter gets to a comma. I quit with you bro!!
WOW, congrats! And thanks for the words of encouragement!! I'm with ya, I wouldn't be at 128 days quit without this site, and I plan on being here 1,000 days and more; whatever it takes to stay quit!! Thank you, and quit on!
AJ, you da man!
Proud to be at a site where we are a collected effort of a brotherhood to help quitters.
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Good stuff. Hoping 2016 is all you want it to be!
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Congrats on 3 years AppleJack!
Great example of a strong quit.
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Congrats on 3 years AppleJack!
Great example of a strong quit.
Fuckin'-A Shane! This is so damn cool. What a milestone. You are the mortar in my quit wall brother! Thank you for all you do for us. Have a damn great day. Congrats. 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' ;Ironman:
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Congrats on 3 awesome years!
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Congrats on 3 awesome years!
Well... technically it's tomorrow since it's a leap year ;)
But, I'll take a kudo for any +1, any time!
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Congrats on 3 awesome years!
Well... technically it's tomorrow since it's a leap year ;)
But, I'll take a kudo for any +1, any time!
Screw the leap year and celebrate twice AJ! Proud to be quit with you. 3 yrs is an awesome achievement! Well done.
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Congrats on 3 awesome years!
Well... technically it's tomorrow since it's a leap year ;)
But, I'll take a kudo for any +1, any time!
Screw the leap year and celebrate twice AJ! Proud to be quit with you. 3 yrs is an awesome achievement! Well done.
3 years deserves a picture! Congratulations!!!!
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Congrats on 3 awesome years!
Well... technically it's tomorrow since it's a leap year ;)
But, I'll take a kudo for any +1, any time!
Screw the leap year and celebrate twice AJ! Proud to be quit with you. 3 yrs is an awesome achievement! Well done.
3 years deserves a picture! Congratulations!!!!
pure. cornerstone. of. my. quit.
Thanks! Congrats! Close you're eyes, Michael has his phone out!
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Congrats on 3 awesome years!
Well... technically it's tomorrow since it's a leap year ;)
But, I'll take a kudo for any +1, any time!
Screw the leap year and celebrate twice AJ! Proud to be quit with you. 3 yrs is an awesome achievement! Well done.
3 years deserves a picture! Congratulations!!!!
pure. cornerstone. of. my. quit.
Thanks! Congrats! Close you're eyes, Michael has his phone out!
You have come along way from that guy who locked himself in his basement while the withdrawal was talking place I am proud to call you my friend CONGRATS on 3 years pillar of our site.
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Congrats on 3 awesome years!
Well... technically it's tomorrow since it's a leap year ;)
But, I'll take a kudo for any +1, any time!
Screw the leap year and celebrate twice AJ! Proud to be quit with you. 3 yrs is an awesome achievement! Well done.
3 years deserves a picture! Congratulations!!!!
pure. cornerstone. of. my. quit.
Thanks! Congrats! Close you're eyes, Michael has his phone out!
You have come along way from that guy who locked himself in his basement while the withdrawal was talking place I am proud to call you my friend CONGRATS on 3 years pillar of our site.
Leader, supporter, and friend. That's why I fortify my quit foundation with guys like this. Congrats brotha
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Congrats on 3 awesome years!
Well... technically it's tomorrow since it's a leap year ;)
But, I'll take a kudo for any +1, any time!
Screw the leap year and celebrate twice AJ! Proud to be quit with you. 3 yrs is an awesome achievement! Well done.
3 years deserves a picture! Congratulations!!!!
pure. cornerstone. of. my. quit.
Thanks! Congrats! Close you're eyes, Michael has his phone out!
You have come along way from that guy who locked himself in his basement while the withdrawal was talking place I am proud to call you my friend CONGRATS on 3 years pillar of our site.
Leader, supporter, and friend. That's why I fortify my quit foundation with guys like this. Congrats brotha
Technically, congrats on 3 years ?
Thanks for support and leading the way.
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Congrats on 3 awesome years!
Well... technically it's tomorrow since it's a leap year ;)
But, I'll take a kudo for any +1, any time!
Screw the leap year and celebrate twice AJ! Proud to be quit with you. 3 yrs is an awesome achievement! Well done.
3 years deserves a picture! Congratulations!!!!
pure. cornerstone. of. my. quit.
Thanks! Congrats! Close you're eyes, Michael has his phone out!
You have come along way from that guy who locked himself in his basement while the withdrawal was talking place I am proud to call you my friend CONGRATS on 3 years pillar of our site.
Leader, supporter, and friend. That's why I fortify my quit foundation with guys like this. Congrats brotha
Technically, congrats on 3 years ?
Thanks for support and leading the way.
I'm with Chick Dip. Happy technical 3 years. I wasted all my posting juju a day early yesterday. Anyway, congrats again my left coast brother.
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3,100 miles.
That was the sum total of driving on the latest family road trip.
Holy. Shit.
I barely sit still for an entire movie so, yeah, epic feat for me to sit on my ass, in a car, all day, and... drive! 3ish years ago the mere thought of a few weeks on the road would've freaked me out. Big. I would have found, or made, some secret compartment in the car to stash as many cans as I thought necessary. Some of you know exaaaactly what I'm talking about! It was just sad and a total waste of energy y'know?
Pathetic.
Anyway... I gots no real nugget of wisdom to lay down here. Just a reminder to myself and an encouragement to anyone else... noob or vet... freedom is soooo much more than just "not chewing". It's a truly untethered life, man. It's not even the "I don't think about it anymore" stage because, dammit, I still do on occasion. Especially a 10 hr day on the road! Nah... freedom is that stage where even having the occasional crave doesn't matter because it has no more power over you. None. Fear and shame and all the other bullshit our addiction saddled us with goes away. We win. Guys/gals... if you own this... really own the decision to Quit... addiction will eventually be seen in the rearview mirror. It won't ever completely disappear but you'll be so damn far ahead of it, it won't matter. Do what we teach/preach/beseech... it works. Ask me how I know...
AJ... 1,183 days of freedom.
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3,100 miles.
That was the sum total of driving on the latest family road trip.
Holy. Shit.
I barely sit still for an entire movie so, yeah, epic feat for me to sit on my ass, in a car, all day, and... drive! 3ish years ago the mere thought of a few weeks on the road would've freaked me out. Big. I would have found, or made, some secret compartment in the car to stash as many cans as I thought necessary. Some of you know exaaaactly what I'm talking about! It was just sad and a total waste of energy y'know?
Pathetic.
Anyway... I gots no real nugget of wisdom to lay down here. Just a reminder to myself and an encouragement to anyone else... noob or vet... freedom is soooo much more than just "not chewing". It's a truly untethered life, man. It's not even the "I don't think about it anymore" stage because, dammit, I still do on occasion. Especially a 10 hr day on the road! Nah... freedom is that stage where even having the occasional crave doesn't matter because it has no more power over you. None. Fear and shame and all the other bullshit our addiction saddled us with goes away. We win. Guys/gals... if you own this... really own the decision to Quit... addiction will eventually be seen in the rearview mirror. It won't ever completely disappear but you'll be so damn far ahead of it, it won't matter. Do what we teach/preach/beseech... it works. Ask me how I know...
AJ... 1,183 days of freedom.
Right on Shane. There are a lot of badass quitters on this site and you are at the top of that list. I'm so thankful for our freedom too. You said it perfectly. Untethered!
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3,100 miles.
That was the sum total of driving on the latest family road trip.
Holy. Shit.
I barely sit still for an entire movie so, yeah, epic feat for me to sit on my ass, in a car, all day, and... drive! 3ish years ago the mere thought of a few weeks on the road would've freaked me out. Big. I would have found, or made, some secret compartment in the car to stash as many cans as I thought necessary. Some of you know exaaaactly what I'm talking about! It was just sad and a total waste of energy y'know?
Pathetic.
Anyway... I gots no real nugget of wisdom to lay down here. Just a reminder to myself and an encouragement to anyone else... noob or vet... freedom is soooo much more than just "not chewing". It's a truly untethered life, man. It's not even the "I don't think about it anymore" stage because, dammit, I still do on occasion. Especially a 10 hr day on the road! Nah... freedom is that stage where even having the occasional crave doesn't matter because it has no more power over you. None. Fear and shame and all the other bullshit our addiction saddled us with goes away. We win. Guys/gals... if you own this... really own the decision to Quit... addiction will eventually be seen in the rearview mirror. It won't ever completely disappear but you'll be so damn far ahead of it, it won't matter. Do what we teach/preach/beseech... it works. Ask me how I know...
AJ... 1,183 days of freedom.
Right on Shane. There are a lot of badass quitters on this site and you are at the top of that list. I'm so thankful for our freedom too. You said it perfectly. Untethered!
True. All that!!
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3,100 miles.
That was the sum total of driving on the latest family road trip.
Holy. Shit.
I barely sit still for an entire movie so, yeah, epic feat for me to sit on my ass, in a car, all day, and... drive! 3ish years ago the mere thought of a few weeks on the road would've freaked me out. Big. I would have found, or made, some secret compartment in the car to stash as many cans as I thought necessary. Some of you know exaaaactly what I'm talking about! It was just sad and a total waste of energy y'know?
Pathetic.
Anyway... I gots no real nugget of wisdom to lay down here. Just a reminder to myself and an encouragement to anyone else... noob or vet... freedom is soooo much more than just "not chewing". It's a truly untethered life, man. It's not even the "I don't think about it anymore" stage because, dammit, I still do on occasion. Especially a 10 hr day on the road! Nah... freedom is that stage where even having the occasional crave doesn't matter because it has no more power over you. None. Fear and shame and all the other bullshit our addiction saddled us with goes away. We win. Guys/gals... if you own this... really own the decision to Quit... addiction will eventually be seen in the rearview mirror. It won't ever completely disappear but you'll be so damn far ahead of it, it won't matter. Do what we teach/preach/beseech... it works. Ask me how I know...
AJ... 1,183 days of freedom.
Right on Shane. There are a lot of badass quitters on this site and you are at the top of that list. I'm so thankful for our freedom too. You said it perfectly. Untethered!
True. All that!!
Right there with you, the things I used to do to sneak the poison into my lip.... so much easier being free, proud to quit with you!
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3,100 miles.
That was the sum total of driving on the latest family road trip.
Holy. Shit.
I barely sit still for an entire movie so, yeah, epic feat for me to sit on my ass, in a car, all day, and... drive! 3ish years ago the mere thought of a few weeks on the road would've freaked me out. Big. I would have found, or made, some secret compartment in the car to stash as many cans as I thought necessary. Some of you know exaaaactly what I'm talking about! It was just sad and a total waste of energy y'know?
Pathetic.
Anyway... I gots no real nugget of wisdom to lay down here. Just a reminder to myself and an encouragement to anyone else... noob or vet... freedom is soooo much more than just "not chewing". It's a truly untethered life, man. It's not even the "I don't think about it anymore" stage because, dammit, I still do on occasion. Especially a 10 hr day on the road! Nah... freedom is that stage where even having the occasional crave doesn't matter because it has no more power over you. None. Fear and shame and all the other bullshit our addiction saddled us with goes away. We win. Guys/gals... if you own this... really own the decision to Quit... addiction will eventually be seen in the rearview mirror. It won't ever completely disappear but you'll be so damn far ahead of it, it won't matter. Do what we teach/preach/beseech... it works. Ask me how I know...
AJ... 1,183 days of freedom.
Right on Shane. There are a lot of badass quitters on this site and you are at the top of that list. I'm so thankful for our freedom too. You said it perfectly. Untethered!
True. All that!!
Right there with you, the things I used to do to sneak the poison into my lip.... so much easier being free, proud to quit with you!
Great post AJ! I do know exactly what you are talking about and you just described a transformation that I am still working to achieve. But I have confidence, one day at a time, that I will get there.
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3,100 miles.
That was the sum total of driving on the latest family road trip.
Holy. Shit.
I barely sit still for an entire movie so, yeah, epic feat for me to sit on my ass, in a car, all day, and... drive! 3ish years ago the mere thought of a few weeks on the road would've freaked me out. Big. I would have found, or made, some secret compartment in the car to stash as many cans as I thought necessary. Some of you know exaaaactly what I'm talking about! It was just sad and a total waste of energy y'know?
Pathetic.
Anyway... I gots no real nugget of wisdom to lay down here. Just a reminder to myself and an encouragement to anyone else... noob or vet... freedom is soooo much more than just "not chewing". It's a truly untethered life, man. It's not even the "I don't think about it anymore" stage because, dammit, I still do on occasion. Especially a 10 hr day on the road! Nah... freedom is that stage where even having the occasional crave doesn't matter because it has no more power over you. None. Fear and shame and all the other bullshit our addiction saddled us with goes away. We win. Guys/gals... if you own this... really own the decision to Quit... addiction will eventually be seen in the rearview mirror. It won't ever completely disappear but you'll be so damn far ahead of it, it won't matter. Do what we teach/preach/beseech... it works. Ask me how I know...
AJ... 1,183 days of freedom.
Right on Shane. There are a lot of badass quitters on this site and you are at the top of that list. I'm so thankful for our freedom too. You said it perfectly. Untethered!
True. All that!!
Right there with you, the things I used to do to sneak the poison into my lip.... so much easier being free, proud to quit with you!
Great post AJ! I do know exactly what you are talking about and you just described a transformation that I am still working to achieve. But I have confidence, one day at a time, that I will get there.
Yes sir, congrats on being free AJ and thank you for supporting me for being the same.
Chris
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3,100 miles.
That was the sum total of driving on the latest family road trip.
Holy. Shit.
I barely sit still for an entire movie so, yeah, epic feat for me to sit on my ass, in a car, all day, and... drive! 3ish years ago the mere thought of a few weeks on the road would've freaked me out. Big. I would have found, or made, some secret compartment in the car to stash as many cans as I thought necessary. Some of you know exaaaactly what I'm talking about! It was just sad and a total waste of energy y'know?
Pathetic.
Anyway... I gots no real nugget of wisdom to lay down here. Just a reminder to myself and an encouragement to anyone else... noob or vet... freedom is soooo much more than just "not chewing". It's a truly untethered life, man. It's not even the "I don't think about it anymore" stage because, dammit, I still do on occasion. Especially a 10 hr day on the road! Nah... freedom is that stage where even having the occasional crave doesn't matter because it has no more power over you. None. Fear and shame and all the other bullshit our addiction saddled us with goes away. We win. Guys/gals... if you own this... really own the decision to Quit... addiction will eventually be seen in the rearview mirror. It won't ever completely disappear but you'll be so damn far ahead of it, it won't matter. Do what we teach/preach/beseech... it works. Ask me how I know...
AJ... 1,183 days of freedom.
Right on Shane. There are a lot of badass quitters on this site and you are at the top of that list. I'm so thankful for our freedom too. You said it perfectly. Untethered!
True. All that!!
Right there with you, the things I used to do to sneak the poison into my lip.... so much easier being free, proud to quit with you!
Great post AJ! I do know exactly what you are talking about and you just described a transformation that I am still working to achieve. But I have confidence, one day at a time, that I will get there.
Yes sir, congrats on being free AJ and thank you for supporting me for being the same.
Chris
This is some more REAL wisdom. Thanks bro.
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3,100 miles.
That was the sum total of driving on the latest family road trip.
Holy. Shit.
I barely sit still for an entire movie so, yeah, epic feat for me to sit on my ass, in a car, all day, and... drive! 3ish years ago the mere thought of a few weeks on the road would've freaked me out. Big. I would have found, or made, some secret compartment in the car to stash as many cans as I thought necessary. Some of you know exaaaactly what I'm talking about! It was just sad and a total waste of energy y'know?
Pathetic.
Anyway... I gots no real nugget of wisdom to lay down here. Just a reminder to myself and an encouragement to anyone else... noob or vet... freedom is soooo much more than just "not chewing". It's a truly untethered life, man. It's not even the "I don't think about it anymore" stage because, dammit, I still do on occasion. Especially a 10 hr day on the road! Nah... freedom is that stage where even having the occasional crave doesn't matter because it has no more power over you. None. Fear and shame and all the other bullshit our addiction saddled us with goes away. We win. Guys/gals... if you own this... really own the decision to Quit... addiction will eventually be seen in the rearview mirror. It won't ever completely disappear but you'll be so damn far ahead of it, it won't matter. Do what we teach/preach/beseech... it works. Ask me how I know...
AJ... 1,183 days of freedom.
Right on Shane. There are a lot of badass quitters on this site and you are at the top of that list. I'm so thankful for our freedom too. You said it perfectly. Untethered!
True. All that!!
Right there with you, the things I used to do to sneak the poison into my lip.... so much easier being free, proud to quit with you!
Great post AJ! I do know exactly what you are talking about and you just described a transformation that I am still working to achieve. But I have confidence, one day at a time, that I will get there.
Yes sir, congrats on being free AJ and thank you for supporting me for being the same.
Chris
This is some more REAL wisdom. Thanks bro.
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3,100 miles.
That was the sum total of driving on the latest family road trip.
Holy. Shit.
I barely sit still for an entire movie so, yeah, epic feat for me to sit on my ass, in a car, all day, and... drive! 3ish years ago the mere thought of a few weeks on the road would've freaked me out. Big. I would have found, or made, some secret compartment in the car to stash as many cans as I thought necessary. Some of you know exaaaactly what I'm talking about! It was just sad and a total waste of energy y'know?
Pathetic.
Anyway... I gots no real nugget of wisdom to lay down here. Just a reminder to myself and an encouragement to anyone else... noob or vet... freedom is soooo much more than just "not chewing". It's a truly untethered life, man. It's not even the "I don't think about it anymore" stage because, dammit, I still do on occasion. Especially a 10 hr day on the road! Nah... freedom is that stage where even having the occasional crave doesn't matter because it has no more power over you. None. Fear and shame and all the other bullshit our addiction saddled us with goes away. We win. Guys/gals... if you own this... really own the decision to Quit... addiction will eventually be seen in the rearview mirror. It won't ever completely disappear but you'll be so damn far ahead of it, it won't matter. Do what we teach/preach/beseech... it works. Ask me how I know...
AJ... 1,183 days of freedom.
Right on Shane. There are a lot of badass quitters on this site and you are at the top of that list. I'm so thankful for our freedom too. You said it perfectly. Untethered!
True. All that!!
Right there with you, the things I used to do to sneak the poison into my lip.... so much easier being free, proud to quit with you!
Great post AJ! I do know exactly what you are talking about and you just described a transformation that I am still working to achieve. But I have confidence, one day at a time, that I will get there.
Yes sir, congrats on being free AJ and thank you for supporting me for being the same.
Chris
This is some more REAL wisdom. Thanks bro.
Hits home AJ!
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3,100 miles.
That was the sum total of driving on the latest family road trip.
Holy. Shit.
I barely sit still for an entire movie so, yeah, epic feat for me to sit on my ass, in a car, all day, and... drive! 3ish years ago the mere thought of a few weeks on the road would've freaked me out. Big. I would have found, or made, some secret compartment in the car to stash as many cans as I thought necessary. Some of you know exaaaactly what I'm talking about! It was just sad and a total waste of energy y'know?
Pathetic.
Anyway... I gots no real nugget of wisdom to lay down here. Just a reminder to myself and an encouragement to anyone else... noob or vet... freedom is soooo much more than just "not chewing". It's a truly untethered life, man. It's not even the "I don't think about it anymore" stage because, dammit, I still do on occasion. Especially a 10 hr day on the road! Nah... freedom is that stage where even having the occasional crave doesn't matter because it has no more power over you. None. Fear and shame and all the other bullshit our addiction saddled us with goes away. We win. Guys/gals... if you own this... really own the decision to Quit... addiction will eventually be seen in the rearview mirror. It won't ever completely disappear but you'll be so damn far ahead of it, it won't matter. Do what we teach/preach/beseech... it works. Ask me how I know...
AJ... 1,183 days of freedom.
Right on Shane. There are a lot of badass quitters on this site and you are at the top of that list. I'm so thankful for our freedom too. You said it perfectly. Untethered!
True. All that!!
Right there with you, the things I used to do to sneak the poison into my lip.... so much easier being free, proud to quit with you!
Great post AJ! I do know exactly what you are talking about and you just described a transformation that I am still working to achieve. But I have confidence, one day at a time, that I will get there.
Yes sir, congrats on being free AJ and thank you for supporting me for being the same.
Chris
This is some more REAL wisdom. Thanks bro.
Hits home AJ!
That's what you get for living way out thataway AJ.. Thanks for being a true quitter. Means a lot what you do around here sir!!
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3,100 miles.
That was the sum total of driving on the latest family road trip.
Holy. Shit.
I barely sit still for an entire movie so, yeah, epic feat for me to sit on my ass, in a car, all day, and... drive! 3ish years ago the mere thought of a few weeks on the road would've freaked me out. Big. I would have found, or made, some secret compartment in the car to stash as many cans as I thought necessary. Some of you know exaaaactly what I'm talking about! It was just sad and a total waste of energy y'know?
Pathetic.
Anyway... I gots no real nugget of wisdom to lay down here. Just a reminder to myself and an encouragement to anyone else... noob or vet... freedom is soooo much more than just "not chewing". It's a truly untethered life, man. It's not even the "I don't think about it anymore" stage because, dammit, I still do on occasion. Especially a 10 hr day on the road! Nah... freedom is that stage where even having the occasional crave doesn't matter because it has no more power over you. None. Fear and shame and all the other bullshit our addiction saddled us with goes away. We win. Guys/gals... if you own this... really own the decision to Quit... addiction will eventually be seen in the rearview mirror. It won't ever completely disappear but you'll be so damn far ahead of it, it won't matter. Do what we teach/preach/beseech... it works. Ask me how I know...
AJ... 1,183 days of freedom.
Right on Shane. There are a lot of badass quitters on this site and you are at the top of that list. I'm so thankful for our freedom too. You said it perfectly. Untethered!
True. All that!!
Right there with you, the things I used to do to sneak the poison into my lip.... so much easier being free, proud to quit with you!
Great post AJ! I do know exactly what you are talking about and you just described a transformation that I am still working to achieve. But I have confidence, one day at a time, that I will get there.
Yes sir, congrats on being free AJ and thank you for supporting me for being the same.
Chris
This is some more REAL wisdom. Thanks bro.
Hits home AJ!
That's what you get for living way out thataway AJ.. Thanks for being a true quitter. Means a lot what you do around here sir!!
Yes! Nice AJ!!
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3,100 miles.
That was the sum total of driving on the latest family road trip.
Holy. Shit.
I barely sit still for an entire movie so, yeah, epic feat for me to sit on my ass, in a car, all day, and... drive! 3ish years ago the mere thought of a few weeks on the road would've freaked me out. Big. I would have found, or made, some secret compartment in the car to stash as many cans as I thought necessary. Some of you know exaaaactly what I'm talking about! It was just sad and a total waste of energy y'know?
Pathetic.
Anyway... I gots no real nugget of wisdom to lay down here. Just a reminder to myself and an encouragement to anyone else... noob or vet... freedom is soooo much more than just "not chewing". It's a truly untethered life, man. It's not even the "I don't think about it anymore" stage because, dammit, I still do on occasion. Especially a 10 hr day on the road! Nah... freedom is that stage where even having the occasional crave doesn't matter because it has no more power over you. None. Fear and shame and all the other bullshit our addiction saddled us with goes away. We win. Guys/gals... if you own this... really own the decision to Quit... addiction will eventually be seen in the rearview mirror. It won't ever completely disappear but you'll be so damn far ahead of it, it won't matter. Do what we teach/preach/beseech... it works. Ask me how I know...
AJ... 1,183 days of freedom.
Right on Shane. There are a lot of badass quitters on this site and you are at the top of that list. I'm so thankful for our freedom too. You said it perfectly. Untethered!
True. All that!!
Right there with you, the things I used to do to sneak the poison into my lip.... so much easier being free, proud to quit with you!
Great post AJ! I do know exactly what you are talking about and you just described a transformation that I am still working to achieve. But I have confidence, one day at a time, that I will get there.
Yes sir, congrats on being free AJ and thank you for supporting me for being the same.
Chris
This is some more REAL wisdom. Thanks bro.
Hits home AJ!
That's what you get for living way out thataway AJ.. Thanks for being a true quitter. Means a lot what you do around here sir!!
Yes! Nice AJ!!
Quitting with guys like you is easy! Thanks!
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3,100 miles.
That was the sum total of driving on the latest family road trip.
Holy. Shit.
I barely sit still for an entire movie so, yeah, epic feat for me to sit on my ass, in a car, all day, and... drive! 3ish years ago the mere thought of a few weeks on the road would've freaked me out. Big. I would have found, or made, some secret compartment in the car to stash as many cans as I thought necessary. Some of you know exaaaactly what I'm talking about! It was just sad and a total waste of energy y'know?
Pathetic.
Anyway... I gots no real nugget of wisdom to lay down here. Just a reminder to myself and an encouragement to anyone else... noob or vet... freedom is soooo much more than just "not chewing". It's a truly untethered life, man. It's not even the "I don't think about it anymore" stage because, dammit, I still do on occasion. Especially a 10 hr day on the road! Nah... freedom is that stage where even having the occasional crave doesn't matter because it has no more power over you. None. Fear and shame and all the other bullshit our addiction saddled us with goes away. We win. Guys/gals... if you own this... really own the decision to Quit... addiction will eventually be seen in the rearview mirror. It won't ever completely disappear but you'll be so damn far ahead of it, it won't matter. Do what we teach/preach/beseech... it works. Ask me how I know...
AJ... 1,183 days of freedom.
Right on Shane. There are a lot of badass quitters on this site and you are at the top of that list. I'm so thankful for our freedom too. You said it perfectly. Untethered!
True. All that!!
Right there with you, the things I used to do to sneak the poison into my lip.... so much easier being free, proud to quit with you!
Great post AJ! I do know exactly what you are talking about and you just described a transformation that I am still working to achieve. But I have confidence, one day at a time, that I will get there.
Yes sir, congrats on being free AJ and thank you for supporting me for being the same.
Chris
This is some more REAL wisdom. Thanks bro.
Hits home AJ!
That's what you get for living way out thataway AJ.. Thanks for being a true quitter. Means a lot what you do around here sir!!
Yes! Nice AJ!!
Quitting with guys like you is easy! Thanks!
the nuggets of wisdom are in the words you say, "freedom is soooo much more than just "not chewing". It's a truly untethered life, " and only starts with those.
well done on your trip but a much more well done in learning more and more each day about yourself and life.
keep it up AJ.
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Welcome to 1,200 !!!! Congratulations and thanks for your leadership and friendship.
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Congrats on 1,200 bro! Well earned for sure!
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Congratulations 12th floor badass quitter!!!
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Welcome to 1,200 !!!! Congratulations and thanks for your leadership and friendship.
Awesome milestone AJ keep up the solid work
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Welcome to 1,200 !!!! Congratulations and thanks for your leadership and friendship.
Awesome milestone AJ keep up the solid work
What a view for such a badass quitter! Congratulations bro!
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Welcome to 1,200 !!!! Congratulations and thanks for your leadership and friendship.
Awesome milestone AJ keep up the solid work
What a view for such a badass quitter! Congratulations bro!
Damn straight. such a kick ass achievement. Accountability and leadership.
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Welcome to 1,200 !!!! Congratulations and thanks for your leadership and friendship.
Awesome milestone AJ keep up the solid work
What a view for such a badass quitter! Congratulations bro!
Damn straight. such a kick ass achievement. Accountability and leadership.
Way to go brother. Proud to be quit with you!
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Welcome to 1,200 !!!! Congratulations and thanks for your leadership and friendship.
Awesome milestone AJ keep up the solid work
What a view for such a badass quitter! Congratulations bro!
Damn straight. such a kick ass achievement. Accountability and leadership.
Way to go brother. Proud to be quit with you!
12th floor kudos BAQ! You were one of the first people here to help me Shane, and I will never forget it :) Keep leading the way for me brother.
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Every +1 is a milestone.
The OCD part of me likes today...
AJ... 1,234
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Every +1 is a milestone.
The OCD part of me likes today...
AJ... 1,234
Like you AJ I like every plus 1 that goes beside my name, means we're doing it right! I was just as proud at day 14 as I am at 614! Be proud of every plus 1 and make damn sure it goes right beside your name. I use to look at guy's like AJ's days earlier on in my quit and wish that was me but now I'm glad I've went through every damn day that I have behind me. It's a great honor to yourself for every day you defeat this horrible addiction. Guy's and gals on here with all these big numbers, deserve your respect as you can tell early in your quit its hard and most of them leaned on someone to get far as they have. Thanks vets and thanks AJ because it just reminds me how special every day I'm quit is!
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Every +1 is a milestone.
The OCD part of me likes today...
AJ... 1,234
Like you AJ I like every plus 1 that goes beside my name, means we're doing it right! I was just as proud at day 14 as I am at 614! Be proud of every plus 1 and make damn sure it goes right beside your name. I use to look at guy's like AJ's days earlier on in my quit and wish that was me but now I'm glad I've went through every damn day that I have behind me. It's a great honor to yourself for every day you defeat this horrible addiction. Guy's and gals on here with all these big numbers, deserve your respect as you can tell early in your quit its hard and most of them leaned on someone to get far as they have. Thanks vets and thanks AJ because it just reminds me how special every day I'm quit is!
Cool number, Great leader.
Congrats AJ
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Every +1 is a milestone.
The OCD part of me likes today...
AJ... 1,234
Like you AJ I like every plus 1 that goes beside my name, means we're doing it right! I was just as proud at day 14 as I am at 614! Be proud of every plus 1 and make damn sure it goes right beside your name. I use to look at guy's like AJ's days earlier on in my quit and wish that was me but now I'm glad I've went through every damn day that I have behind me. It's a great honor to yourself for every day you defeat this horrible addiction. Guy's and gals on here with all these big numbers, deserve your respect as you can tell early in your quit its hard and most of them leaned on someone to get far as they have. Thanks vets and thanks AJ because it just reminds me how special every day I'm quit is!
Cool number, Great leader.
Congrats AJ
I should send a pic to commemorate this OCD number...!
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Every +1 is a milestone.
The OCD part of me likes today...
AJ... 1,234
Like you AJ I like every plus 1 that goes beside my name, means we're doing it right! I was just as proud at day 14 as I am at 614! Be proud of every plus 1 and make damn sure it goes right beside your name. I use to look at guy's like AJ's days earlier on in my quit and wish that was me but now I'm glad I've went through every damn day that I have behind me. It's a great honor to yourself for every day you defeat this horrible addiction. Guy's and gals on here with all these big numbers, deserve your respect as you can tell early in your quit its hard and most of them leaned on someone to get far as they have. Thanks vets and thanks AJ because it just reminds me how special every day I'm quit is!
Cool number, Great leader.
Congrats AJ
I should send a pic to commemorate this OCD number...!
This OCD moment brought to you by the president of Spaceballs and his luggage combination.....
no man congrats and keep it climbing
learn and say no each and every day
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Every +1 is a milestone.
The OCD part of me likes today...
AJ... 1,234
Like you AJ I like every plus 1 that goes beside my name, means we're doing it right! I was just as proud at day 14 as I am at 614! Be proud of every plus 1 and make damn sure it goes right beside your name. I use to look at guy's like AJ's days earlier on in my quit and wish that was me but now I'm glad I've went through every damn day that I have behind me. It's a great honor to yourself for every day you defeat this horrible addiction. Guy's and gals on here with all these big numbers, deserve your respect as you can tell early in your quit its hard and most of them leaned on someone to get far as they have. Thanks vets and thanks AJ because it just reminds me how special every day I'm quit is!
Cool number, Great leader.
Congrats AJ
I should send a pic to commemorate this OCD number...!
This OCD moment brought to you by the president of Spaceballs and his luggage combination.....
no man congrats and keep it climbing
learn and say no each and every day
Cool number my friend!
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Happy 1,300 Shane.
you are a great friend, a great leader, and a model quitter.
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Happy 1,300 Shane.
you are a great friend, a great leader, and a model quitter.
Huge congrats on the 13th floor AJ
That's for the support, always
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Congrats on the 13th Floor. That is awesome.
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Happy 1,300 Shane.
you are a great friend, a great leader, and a model quitter.
Huge congrats on the 13th floor AJ
That's for the support, always
Enjoy the day, you rock!
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Happy 1,300 Shane.
you are a great friend, a great leader, and a model quitter.
Huge congrats on the 13th floor AJ
That's for the support, always
Enjoy the day, you rock!
Congrats on the 13th floor Shane! That's awesome. And thanks for all the advice and all you do around here. Proud to quit with you today brother!
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Happy 1,300 Shane.
you are a great friend, a great leader, and a model quitter.
Huge congrats on the 13th floor AJ
That's for the support, always
Enjoy the day, you rock!
Congrats on the 13th floor Shane! That's awesome. And thanks for all the advice and all you do around here. Proud to quit with you today brother!
yea brotha! You've been quit for 185 hump days!!!
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Happy 1,300 Shane.
you are a great friend, a great leader, and a model quitter.
Huge congrats on the 13th floor AJ
That's for the support, always
Enjoy the day, you rock!
Congrats on the 13th floor Shane! That's awesome. And thanks for all the advice and all you do around here. Proud to quit with you today brother!
yea brotha! You've been quit for 185 hump days!!!
Congratulations and thanks AJ! You have a way of getting right to the point with new quitters. :)
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:o 13th? Isn't that unlucky? No, that's freaking awesome!
'oh yeah' "You're the reason in my QUIT, you're my INSPIRATION" (drops mike) "Sorry, Mike"
(drops mic)
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Happy 1,300 Shane.
you are a great friend, a great leader, and a model quitter.
Huge congrats on the 13th floor AJ
That's for the support, always
Enjoy the day, you rock!
Congrats on the 13th floor Shane! That's awesome. And thanks for all the advice and all you do around here. Proud to quit with you today brother!
yea brotha! You've been quit for 185 hump days!!!
Congratulations and thanks AJ! You have a way of getting right to the point with new quitters. :)
Congrats on rockin 1300 days of quit Shane! Very proud to be quit with you my friend.
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Happy 1,300 Shane.
you are a great friend, a great leader, and a model quitter.
Huge congrats on the 13th floor AJ
That's for the support, always
Enjoy the day, you rock!
Congrats on the 13th floor Shane! That's awesome. And thanks for all the advice and all you do around here. Proud to quit with you today brother!
yea brotha! You've been quit for 185 hump days!!!
Congratulations and thanks AJ! You have a way of getting right to the point with new quitters. :)
Congrats on rockin 1300 days of quit Shane! Very proud to be quit with you my friend.
Nice work AJ. 1300 is bad ass and thanks for leading the way.
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Happy 1,300 Shane.
you are a great friend, a great leader, and a model quitter.
Huge congrats on the 13th floor AJ
That's for the support, always
Enjoy the day, you rock!
Congrats on the 13th floor Shane! That's awesome. And thanks for all the advice and all you do around here. Proud to quit with you today brother!
yea brotha! You've been quit for 185 hump days!!!
Congratulations and thanks AJ! You have a way of getting right to the point with new quitters. :)
Congrats on rockin 1300 days of quit Shane! Very proud to be quit with you my friend.
Nice work AJ. 1300 is bad ass and thanks for leading the way.
Great job Shane. Proud to have you in my corner as a friend!
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Happy 1,300 Shane.
you are a great friend, a great leader, and a model quitter.
Huge congrats on the 13th floor AJ
That's for the support, always
Enjoy the day, you rock!
Congrats on the 13th floor Shane! That's awesome. And thanks for all the advice and all you do around here. Proud to quit with you today brother!
yea brotha! You've been quit for 185 hump days!!!
Congratulations and thanks AJ! You have a way of getting right to the point with new quitters. :)
Congrats on rockin 1300 days of quit Shane! Very proud to be quit with you my friend.
Nice work AJ. 1300 is bad ass and thanks for leading the way.
Great job Shane. Proud to have you in my corner as a friend!
13 floors, hopefully you have an elevator! You're a badass. Thanks for being a friend and brother Edd!
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Congratulations on 14 floors of bad ass straight up in yo face quit! Enjoy this win, bro!
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Congratulations on 14 floors of bad ass straight up in yo face quit! Enjoy this win, bro!
Awesome job Shane! Congrats on 1400 brother. That's huge! Almost 4 years! Proud to Quit with you every day!
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Congratulations on 14 floors of bad ass straight up in yo face quit! Enjoy this win, bro!
Awesome job Shane! Congrats on 1400 brother. That's huge! Almost 4 years! Proud to Quit with you every day!
Crank it up to 14, put some distortion on, and let er rip! Congratulations on this awesome victory
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Congratulations on 14 floors of bad ass straight up in yo face quit! Enjoy this win, bro!
Awesome job Shane! Congrats on 1400 brother. That's huge! Almost 4 years! Proud to Quit with you every day!
Crank it up to 14, put some distortion on, and let er rip! Congratulations on this awesome victory
FREE BIRD!!! you da man brotha
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Congratulations on 14 floors of bad ass straight up in yo face quit! Enjoy this win, bro!
Awesome job Shane! Congrats on 1400 brother. That's huge! Almost 4 years! Proud to Quit with you every day!
Crank it up to 14, put some distortion on, and let er rip! Congratulations on this awesome victory
FREE BIRD!!! you da man brotha
Modern Day Warrior! Way to be Shane.
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Congratulations on 14 floors of bad ass straight up in yo face quit! Enjoy this win, bro!
Awesome job Shane! Congrats on 1400 brother. That's huge! Almost 4 years! Proud to Quit with you every day!
Crank it up to 14, put some distortion on, and let er rip! Congratulations on this awesome victory
FREE BIRD!!! you da man brotha
Modern Day Warrior! Way to be Shane.
Congrats Shane on 14th floor!
PNW badassery!
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Congratulations on 14 floors of bad ass straight up in yo face quit! Enjoy this win, bro!
Awesome job Shane! Congrats on 1400 brother. That's huge! Almost 4 years! Proud to Quit with you every day!
Crank it up to 14, put some distortion on, and let er rip! Congratulations on this awesome victory
FREE BIRD!!! you da man brotha
Modern Day Warrior! Way to be Shane.
Congrats Shane on 14th floor!
PNW badassery!
Nicely Done. Dedication to quit = Freedom. Congrats man
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Congratulations on 14 floors of bad ass straight up in yo face quit! Enjoy this win, bro!
Awesome job Shane! Congrats on 1400 brother. That's huge! Almost 4 years! Proud to Quit with you every day!
Crank it up to 14, put some distortion on, and let er rip! Congratulations on this awesome victory
FREE BIRD!!! you da man brotha
Modern Day Warrior! Way to be Shane.
Congrats Shane on 14th floor!
PNW badassery!
Nicely Done. Dedication to quit = Freedom. Congrats man
Congrats Shane - keep knocking down those milestones. Proud to quit with you each day.
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Congratulations on 14 floors of bad ass straight up in yo face quit! Enjoy this win, bro!
Awesome job Shane! Congrats on 1400 brother. That's huge! Almost 4 years! Proud to Quit with you every day!
Crank it up to 14, put some distortion on, and let er rip! Congratulations on this awesome victory
FREE BIRD!!! you da man brotha
Modern Day Warrior! Way to be Shane.
Congrats Shane on 14th floor!
PNW badassery!
Nicely Done. Dedication to quit = Freedom. Congrats man
Congrats Shane - keep knocking down those milestones. Proud to quit with you each day.
Gratz you big meanie!
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Congratulations on 14 floors of bad ass straight up in yo face quit! Enjoy this win, bro!
Awesome job Shane! Congrats on 1400 brother. That's huge! Almost 4 years! Proud to Quit with you every day!
Crank it up to 14, put some distortion on, and let er rip! Congratulations on this awesome victory
FREE BIRD!!! you da man brotha
Modern Day Warrior! Way to be Shane.
Congrats Shane on 14th floor!
PNW badassery!
Nicely Done. Dedication to quit = Freedom. Congrats man
Congrats Shane - keep knocking down those milestones. Proud to quit with you each day.
Gratz you big meanie!
Congratulations on 14th!
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Woooow
1,406 today.
I relish typing that comma every day. And, unlike some, I will ALWAYS type that comma because I fecking earned that shit!
Something funny... even +1000 your Quit and your mind keeps evolving into this new you. It's amazing and it further shows me just how much I was owned by nicotine.
So, right around 1,000, I thought I'd revisit the whole idea of being involved here. Not log on daily... post roll occasionally... fade out a bit and... enjoy being Quit. I earned it right? 1,000 days and 100% roll gave me the right to decide I could relax a bit, right? Well... sure. I'm a big boy. I can do what I want.
But...
Left to my own devices, for 25 years I stuffed my face full of tobacco all day long, every day. To the tune of 2 cans a day the last 10 years or so.
My track record is shit.
So... who the hell cares if I end up posting roll the rest of my life? Do I need it?... No. Not really, but that 15-20 seconds it takes to do it, is an easy, and stark, reminder of how deep I was trapped. Never again, man. I thought it was a burden for awhile but now... I see it for what it is... freedom. Every day I post roll is another day I crush my addiction. This place doesn't make me "still think about chew". No. Hell no. I owned that I was Quit from day 1. At this point... I almost never think about a dip. Days/weeks go by. No joke. This place is such a part of life now and that's ok. It helped me to find freedom. It works. Why the hell would I fuck that up by fading off?
Again... my track record is shit.
1,400 days vs 25 years... my Quit isn't close to even. So... I'll stay.
And post roll.
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Woooow
1,406 today.
I relish typing that comma every day. And, unlike some, I will ALWAYS type that comma because I fecking earned that shit!
Something funny... even +1000 your Quit and your mind keeps evolving into this new you. It's amazing and it further shows me just how much I was owned by nicotine.
So, right around 1,000, I thought I'd revisit the whole idea of being involved here. Not log on daily... post roll occasionally... fade out a bit and... enjoy being Quit. I earned it right? 1,000 days and 100% roll gave me the right to decide I could relax a bit, right? Well... sure. I'm a big boy. I can do what I want.
But...
Left to my own devices, for 25 years I stuffed my face full of tobacco all day long, every day. To the tune of 2 cans a day the last 10 years or so.
My track record is shit.
So... who the hell cares if I end up posting roll the rest of my life? Do I need it?... No. Not really, but that 15-20 seconds it takes to do it, is an easy, and stark, reminder of how deep I was trapped. Never again, man. I thought it was a burden for awhile but now... I see it for what it is... freedom. Every day I post roll is another day I crush my addiction. This place doesn't make me "still think about chew". No. Hell no. I owned that I was Quit from day 1. At this point... I almost never think about a dip. Days/weeks go by. No joke. This place is such a part of life now and that's ok. It helped me to find freedom. It works. Why the hell would I fuck that up by fading off?
Again... my track record is shit.
1,400 days vs 25 years... my Quit isn't close to even. So... I'll stay.
And post roll.
Hmmmm. To the outsider or newbie, one may construe that AJ pondered the significance of roll at day 1,000.. But, if you did that, then you'd be gravely wrong. Roll ...a simple, possibly stupid and mundane task, is the essence. No matter your number, it's a promise to yourself ...for you, that you will not be a victim, anymore. It's also a promise to those who ride the quit train with you ...that you continue to be coal in their fires. At times we might think that we got this...and we don't need it any more. But should you succumb to that thought, then the addict has prevailed and you've likely forgotten the meaning of roll. Never forget the meaning of roll. AJ, my brother, knows the meaning of roll.
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This is for all of you fresh into your quit...
Today I'm sitting on 1,441 days Quit. Damn close to 4 years.
Today I'm hanging out on the ground floor of a vacation rental during family vacay #5 since I Quit.
Today I'm only on KTC because, as usual, I'm waiting for the girls to get their asses ready to go do something fun and "vacationy". (Clothing and makeup and hair, oh my!)
4 years ago I would have been in an extra bathroom or outside on the deck with a big fat dip in... OR... I would have "gone for coffee"... and a desperate scavenger hunt for dip in an unfamiliar city with asinine prices.
Today?
Nope.
Not. Even.
Even being on KTC doesn't make me think of having a dip like some weak minded fools state.
I'm free of all that shit.
Let me drive that home for all you new peeps...
At this point... I don't think about it, I don't crave it, and I don't work at it.
Truth.
Own it. Put in your time to build it. Do what it takes to secure it... Quit.
Freedom.
It's so fucking cool.
And... You. Can. Do. This.
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This is for all of you fresh into your quit...
Today I'm sitting on 1,441 days Quit. Damn close to 4 years.
Today I'm hanging out on the ground floor of a vacation rental during family vacay #5 since I Quit.
Today I'm only on KTC because, as usual, I'm waiting for the girls to get their asses ready to go do something fun and "vacationy". (Clothing and makeup and hair, oh my!)
4 years ago I would have been in an extra bathroom or outside on the deck with a big fat dip in... OR... I would have "gone for coffee"... and a desperate scavenger hunt for dip in an unfamiliar city with asinine prices.
Today?
Nope.
Not. Even.
Even being on KTC doesn't make me think of having a dip like some weak minded fools state.
I'm free of all that shit.
Let me drive that home for all you new peeps...
At this point, I don't think about it, I don't crave it, and I don't work at it.
Truth.
Own it. Put in your time to build it. Do what it takes to secure it... Quit.
Freedom.
It's so fucking cool.
And... You. Can. Do. This.
Truth.
I second these sentiments, except I'm at work today instead of a vacation rental. All truth.
Worktowin 1,555
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This is for all of you fresh into your quit...
Today I'm sitting on 1,441 days Quit. Damn close to 4 years.
Today I'm hanging out on the ground floor of a vacation rental during family vacay #5 since I Quit.
Today I'm only on KTC because, as usual, I'm waiting for the girls to get their asses ready to go do something fun and "vacationy". (Clothing and makeup and hair, oh my!)
4 years ago I would have been in an extra bathroom or outside on the deck with a big fat dip in... OR... I would have "gone for coffee"... and a desperate scavenger hunt for dip in an unfamiliar city with asinine prices.
Today?
Nope.
Not. Even.
Even being on KTC doesn't make me think of having a dip like some weak minded fools state.
I'm free of all that shit.
Let me drive that home for all you new peeps...
At this point, I don't think about it, I don't crave it, and I don't work at it.
Truth.
Own it. Put in your time to build it. Do what it takes to secure it... Quit.
Freedom.
It's so fucking cool.
And... You. Can. Do. This.
Truth.
I second these sentiments, except I'm at work today instead of a vacation rental. All truth.
Worktowin 1,555
Awesome post AJ! And in those moments when we are not out searching for dip, etc., sometimes the most important things in life happen, and you are there. Or, they happen because you are there.
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4 years today. Congratulations bro!
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4 years today. Congratulations bro!
Congrats on 4 years Shane. That's awesome.
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4 years today. Congratulations bro!
Congrats on 4 years Shane. That's awesome.
4 years! Impressive young Jedi!
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4 years today. Congratulations bro!
Congrats on 4 years Shane. That's awesome.
4 years! Impressive young Jedi!
Congrats brother! Proud to be a small part of your quit. Keep on quitting on.
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4 years today. Congratulations bro!
Congrats on 4 years Shane. That's awesome.
4 years! Impressive young Jedi!
Congrats brother! Proud to be a small part of your quit. Keep on quitting on.
Truly Badass my Brother! You are mucho appreciated here! Keep ploughing the road for us.
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4 years today. Congratulations bro!
Congrats on 4 years Shane. That's awesome.
4 years! Impressive young Jedi!
Congrats brother! Proud to be a small part of your quit. Keep on quitting on.
Truly Badass my Brother! You are mucho appreciated here! Keep ploughing the road for us.
Mr. AJ
Outstanding 4 years quit my July brother!
Thank you for hanging around here and showing us the way.
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4 years today. Congratulations bro!
Congrats on 4 years Shane. That's awesome.
4 years! Impressive young Jedi!
Congrats brother! Proud to be a small part of your quit. Keep on quitting on.
Truly Badass my Brother! You are mucho appreciated here! Keep ploughing the road for us.
Mr. AJ
Outstanding 4 years quit my July brother!
Thank you for hanging around here and showing us the way.
Kick ass on 4 yrs! Thank you for keeping the path worn.
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Thanks for paving the way! You're one badass quitter!
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4 years.
Four. Years!
Man, I'm freakin' proud of that!
I also realize that compared to 25 years of use... my ratio is still deficit.
So... roll today. Roll tomorrow. And the next... and the next... and...
Doesn't cost me a damn thing and... it paid for my freedom.
Worth it...
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4 years.
Four. Years!
Man, I'm freakin' proud of that!
I also realize that compared to 25 years of use... my ratio is still deficit.
So... roll today. Roll tomorrow. And the next... and the next... and...
Doesn't cost me a damn thing and... it paid for my freedom.
Worth it...
If that ain't the truth. Congrats man. Well done. Many years of freedom. Be damn proud of that and celebrate, it is a victory. I'll see you tomorrow
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4 years.
Four. Years!
Man, I'm freakin' proud of that!
I also realize that compared to 25 years of use... my ratio is still deficit.
So... roll today. Roll tomorrow. And the next... and the next... and...
Doesn't cost me a damn thing and... it paid for my freedom.
Worth it...
If that ain't the truth. Congrats man. Well done. Many years of freedom. Be damn proud of that and celebrate, it is a victory. I'll see you tomorrow
Fuck ratios Shane. You are one of the main pillars of my quit foundation. 4 years bro! Fantastic! Celebrate this milestone. I can never thank you enough for your friendship and support.
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4 years.
Four. Years!
Man, I'm freakin' proud of that!
I also realize that compared to 25 years of use... my ratio is still deficit.
So... roll today. Roll tomorrow. And the next... and the next... and...
Doesn't cost me a damn thing and... it paid for my freedom.
Worth it...
If that ain't the truth. Congrats man. Well done. Many years of freedom. Be damn proud of that and celebrate, it is a victory. I'll see you tomorrow
Fuck ratios Shane. You are one of the main pillars of my quit foundation. 4 years bro! Fantastic! Celebrate this milestone. I can never thank you enough for your friendship and support.
Im late to the party...but had to stop by and thank you for still being here...leading the way and being a great PNW and July brother!
Congrats on your 4 years!
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4 years.
Four. Years!
Man, I'm freakin' proud of that!
I also realize that compared to 25 years of use... my ratio is still deficit.
So... roll today. Roll tomorrow. And the next... and the next... and...
Doesn't cost me a damn thing and... it paid for my freedom.
Worth it...
If that ain't the truth. Congrats man. Well done. Many years of freedom. Be damn proud of that and celebrate, it is a victory. I'll see you tomorrow
Fuck ratios Shane. You are one of the main pillars of my quit foundation. 4 years bro! Fantastic! Celebrate this milestone. I can never thank you enough for your friendship and support.
Im late to the party...but had to stop by and thank you for still being here...leading the way and being a great PNW and July brother!
Congrats on your 4 years!
Happy belated 4 years quit!!!! Badassery!!!
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4 years.
Four. Years!
Man, I'm freakin' proud of that!
I also realize that compared to 25 years of use... my ratio is still deficit.
So... roll today. Roll tomorrow. And the next... and the next... and...
Doesn't cost me a damn thing and... it paid for my freedom.
Worth it...
If that ain't the truth. Congrats man. Well done. Many years of freedom. Be damn proud of that and celebrate, it is a victory. I'll see you tomorrow
Fuck ratios Shane. You are one of the main pillars of my quit foundation. 4 years bro! Fantastic! Celebrate this milestone. I can never thank you enough for your friendship and support.
Im late to the party...but had to stop by and thank you for still being here...leading the way and being a great PNW and July brother!
Congrats on your 4 years!
Happy belated 4 years quit!!!! Badassery!!!
How did I miss this! Damn .... congratulations my friend!
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Congrats on 1,500 days of freedom!
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Congrats on 1,500 days of freedom!
Awesome job AJ. Congrats on 1500!
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Congrats on 1,500 days of freedom!
Awesome job AJ. Congrats on 1500!
Way to be Shane!
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Congrats on 1,500 days of freedom!
Awesome job AJ. Congrats on 1500!
Way to be Shane!
Congrats Shane on 1500! ?
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Congrats on 1,500 days of freedom!
Awesome job AJ. Congrats on 1500!
Way to be Shane!
Congrats Shane on 1500! ?
congrats Shane proud to quit with you
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Congrats on 1,500 days of freedom!
Awesome job AJ. Congrats on 1500!
Way to be Shane!
Congrats Shane on 1500! ?
congrats Shane proud to quit with you
Congratulations on the 15th floor!
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Congrats on 1,500 days of freedom!
Awesome job AJ. Congrats on 1500!
Way to be Shane!
Congrats Shane on 1500! ?
congrats Shane proud to quit with you
Congratulations on the 15th floor!
Congrats on 1500 Shane my brother! So great to see your successes and know that you have my back every day.
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Congrats on 1,500 days of freedom!
Awesome job AJ. Congrats on 1500!
Way to be Shane!
Congrats Shane on 1500! ?
congrats Shane proud to quit with you
Congratulations on the 15th floor!
Congrats on 1500 Shane my brother! So great to see your successes and know that you have my back every day.
As usual, I'm a few days late with a "thanks!".
As an encouragement to any new peeps that read this...
It does get better. So much better.
It does get easier. I hesitate to say that after a point it becomes effortless but......
Do the work.
Own it.
Get involved and STAY involved.
Freeedom kicks ass!
AJ... 1,505
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Congrats on 1,500 days of freedom!
Awesome job AJ. Congrats on 1500!
Way to be Shane!
Congrats Shane on 1500! ?
congrats Shane proud to quit with you
Congratulations on the 15th floor!
Congrats on 1500 Shane my brother! So great to see your successes and know that you have my back every day.
As usual, I'm a few days late with a "thanks!".
As an encouragement to any new peeps that read this...
It does get better. So much better.
It does get easier. I hesitate to say that after a point it becomes effortless but......
Do the work.
Own it.
Get involved and STAY involved.
Freeedom kicks ass!
AJ... 1,505
Was away for the long weekend and missed the 1.5 dangle milestone. Congrats homie...you're as badass as they come.
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Congrats on 1,500 days of freedom!
Awesome job AJ. Congrats on 1500!
Way to be Shane!
Congrats Shane on 1500! ?
congrats Shane proud to quit with you
Congratulations on the 15th floor!
Congrats on 1500 Shane my brother! So great to see your successes and know that you have my back every day.
As usual, I'm a few days late with a "thanks!".
As an encouragement to any new peeps that read this...
It does get better. So much better.
It does get easier. I hesitate to say that after a point it becomes effortless but......
Do the work.
Own it.
Get involved and STAY involved.
Freeedom kicks ass!
AJ... 1,505
Was away for the long weekend and missed the 1.5 dangle milestone. Congrats homie...you're as badass as they come.
What Andy said....always there with words of encouragement and straight up honest assessment of quitters! Awesome job sir!
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Ok... Family Vacay #4 (5? 6?) since I Quit. I dunno. Road trips numb my memory (and my ass).
Here's what I did and endured:
3200+ miles
4 states
National parks on the 4th of July shudder
Weather hotter than Satan's Asshole
Cave spelunking
Roller coasters
Bourbon and Moonshine "samples" (seconds please)
Relatives I love... Relatives I want to punch in the throat
Mind numbing road miles. Seriously Idaho. Wtf? You have nothing to look at, and the smell!?!
And... the list goes on.
Here's what I didn't do:
Plan for dip
Pack dip
hide dip
Sneak dip
And most important...
Think about dip.
Not. Once.
No shit.
Not. Once.
Freedom changes and gets better with each passing day y'all.
Quit.
Own it... work it... enjoy it.
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Ok... Family Vacay #4 (5? 6?) since I Quit. I dunno. Road trips numb my memory (and my ass).
Here's what I did and endured:
3200+ miles
4 states
National parks on the 4th of July shudder
Weather hotter than Satan's Asshole
Cave spelunking
Roller coasters
Bourbon and Moonshine "samples" (seconds please)
Relatives I love... Relatives I want to punch in the throat
Mind numbing road miles. Seriously Idaho. Wtf? You have nothing to look at, and the smell!?!
And... the list goes on.
Here's what I didn't do:
Plan for dip
Pack dip
hide dip
Sneak dip
And most important...
Think about dip.
Not. Once.
No shit.
Not. Once.
Freedom changes and gets better with each passing day y'all.
Quit.
Own it... work it... enjoy it.
HELL YES.
Newbies, this is all truth. This is the reward that is ahead. The battle is worth it.
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Ok... Family Vacay #4 (5? 6?) since I Quit. I dunno. Road trips numb my memory (and my ass).
Here's what I did and endured:
3200+ miles
4 states
National parks on the 4th of July shudder
Weather hotter than Satan's Asshole
Cave spelunking
Roller coasters
Bourbon and Moonshine "samples" (seconds please)
Relatives I love... Relatives I want to punch in the throat
Mind numbing road miles. Seriously Idaho. Wtf? You have nothing to look at, and the smell!?!
And... the list goes on.
Here's what I didn't do:
Plan for dip
Pack dip
hide dip
Sneak dip
And most important...
Think about dip.
Not. Once.
No shit.
Not. Once.
Freedom changes and gets better with each passing day y'all.
Quit.
Own it... work it... enjoy it.
HELL YES.
Newbies, this is all truth. This is the reward that is ahead. The battle is worth it.
awesome AJ!
Battles fought, battles won daily.
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Ok... Family Vacay #4 (5? 6?) since I Quit. I dunno. Road trips numb my memory (and my ass).
Here's what I did and endured:
3200+ miles
4 states
National parks on the 4th of July shudder
Weather hotter than Satan's Asshole
Cave spelunking
Roller coasters
Bourbon and Moonshine "samples" (seconds please)
Relatives I love... Relatives I want to punch in the throat
Mind numbing road miles. Seriously Idaho. Wtf? You have nothing to look at, and the smell!?!
And... the list goes on.
Here's what I didn't do:
Plan for dip
Pack dip
hide dip
Sneak dip
And most important...
Think about dip.
Not. Once.
No shit.
Not. Once.
Freedom changes and gets better with each passing day y'all.
Quit.
Own it... work it... enjoy it.
Great post AppleJack. New quitters this is what you have to look forward to. Being off that motherfucking leash. Freedom.
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Ok... Family Vacay #4 (5? 6?) since I Quit. I dunno. Road trips numb my memory (and my ass).
Here's what I did and endured:
3200+ miles
4 states
National parks on the 4th of July shudder
Weather hotter than Satan's Asshole
Cave spelunking
Roller coasters
Bourbon and Moonshine "samples" (seconds please)
Relatives I love... Relatives I want to punch in the throat
Mind numbing road miles. Seriously Idaho. Wtf? You have nothing to look at, and the smell!?!
And... the list goes on.
Here's what I didn't do:
Plan for dip
Pack dip
hide dip
Sneak dip
And most important...
Think about dip.
Not. Once.
No shit.
Not. Once.
Freedom changes and gets better with each passing day y'all.
Quit.
Own it... work it... enjoy it.
Great post AppleJack. New quitters this is what you have to look forward to. Being off that motherfucking leash. Freedom.
Good point, bro.
I should have specified a Quit time frame...
AJ... 1,549 days.
Freedom is my norm.
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Vacations without dip? Priceless. Thanks for being a quitter to look up too!
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Poof
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Poof
You do magic now as well?
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Poof
You do magic now as well?
After 1,500 your Quit power starts to manifest. I can poof like a mo fo now.
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Poof
You do magic now as well?
After 1,500 your Quit power starts to manifest. I can poof like a mo fo now.
Super poofer, bro.
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Ok... Family Vacay #4 (5? 6?) since I Quit. I dunno. Road trips numb my memory (and my ass).
Here's what I did and endured:
3200+ miles
4 states
National parks on the 4th of July shudder
Weather hotter than Satan's Asshole
Cave spelunking
Roller coasters
Bourbon and Moonshine "samples" (seconds please)
Relatives I love... Relatives I want to punch in the throat
Mind numbing road miles. Seriously Idaho. Wtf? You have nothing to look at, and the smell!?!
And... the list goes on.
Here's what I didn't do:
Plan for dip
Pack dip
hide dip
Sneak dip
And most important...
Think about dip.
Not. Once.
No shit.
Not. Once.
Freedom changes and gets better with each passing day y'all.
Quit.
Own it... work it... enjoy it.
I like everything you said except the Idaho part that states awesome. But i do live in California lol
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Congrats on 16,bro.
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Congrats on 16,bro.
X2 Shane! Well done. And thanks for your support everyday.
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Congrats on 16,bro.
X2 Shane! Well done. And thanks for your support everyday.
Congrats on 1600 days quit Shane â¤
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Congrats on 16,bro.
X2 Shane! Well done. And thanks for your support everyday.
Congrats on 1600 days quit Shane â¤
At this point I'm truly amazed at how quick these milestones rack up!
That first 100?... damn. Just... damn. It took everything... it WAS everything.
At this point they just happen because I'm living my life and not quitting anymore. Let me make that a little more clear...
When you own this decision to quit, making it THE most important thing in your life, making it the ONLY priority... at some point you cease to work at it and it becomes your norm.
Now... that's freedom.
The equation is simple. So damn simple...
Post roll. Do it every day.
Get involved and stay involved.
It's how I got from 1 to 1,601.
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Congrats on 16,bro.
X2 Shane! Well done. And thanks for your support everyday.
Congrats on 1600 days quit Shane â¤
At this point I'm truly amazed at how quick these milestones rack up!
That first 100?... damn. Just... damn. It took everything... it WAS everything.
At this point they just happen because I'm living my life and not quitting anymore. Let me make that a little more clear...
When you own this decision to quit, making it THE most important thing in your life, making it the ONLY priority... at some point you cease to work at it and it becomes your norm.
Now... that's freedom.
The equation is simple. So damn simple...
Post roll. Do it every day.
Get involved and stay involved.
It's how I got from 1 to 1,601.
For anyone out there who really wants to know why this place works, read the above post.
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Congrats on 16,bro.
X2 Shane! Well done. And thanks for your support everyday.
Congrats on 1600 days quit Shane â¤
At this point I'm truly amazed at how quick these milestones rack up!
That first 100?... damn. Just... damn. It took everything... it WAS everything.
At this point they just happen because I'm living my life and not quitting anymore. Let me make that a little more clear...
When you own this decision to quit, making it THE most important thing in your life, making it the ONLY priority... at some point you cease to work at it and it becomes your norm.
Now... that's freedom.
The equation is simple. So damn simple...
Post roll. Do it every day.
Get involved and stay involved.
It's how I got from 1 to 1,601.
For anyone out there who really wants to know why this place works, read the above post.
Badass quitter spreading the quit gospel! Get you a badass quitter like him in your corner. Trust me it's nice. Congratulations my brother and friend. Thanks for helping me Edd!
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Congrats on 16,bro.
X2 Shane! Well done. And thanks for your support everyday.
Congrats on 1600 days quit Shane â¤
At this point I'm truly amazed at how quick these milestones rack up!
That first 100?... damn. Just... damn. It took everything... it WAS everything.
At this point they just happen because I'm living my life and not quitting anymore. Let me make that a little more clear...
When you own this decision to quit, making it THE most important thing in your life, making it the ONLY priority... at some point you cease to work at it and it becomes your norm.
Now... that's freedom.
The equation is simple. So damn simple...
Post roll. Do it every day.
Get involved and stay involved.
It's how I got from 1 to 1,601.
For anyone out there who really wants to know why this place works, read the above post.
Badass quitter spreading the quit gospel! Get you a badass quitter like him in your corner. Trust me it's nice. Congratulations my brother and friend. Thanks for helping me Edd!
Congrats on 1600 AJ! (late - first time on my computer in 10 days. ) You continue to show us how to quit with heart and logic! Thanks brother.
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Congrats on 16,bro.
X2 Shane! Well done. And thanks for your support everyday.
Congrats on 1600 days quit Shane â¤
At this point I'm truly amazed at how quick these milestones rack up!
That first 100?... damn. Just... damn. It took everything... it WAS everything.
At this point they just happen because I'm living my life and not quitting anymore. Let me make that a little more clear...
When you own this decision to quit, making it THE most important thing in your life, making it the ONLY priority... at some point you cease to work at it and it becomes your norm.
Now... that's freedom.
The equation is simple. So damn simple...
Post roll. Do it every day.
Get involved and stay involved.
It's how I got from 1 to 1,601.
For anyone out there who really wants to know why this place works, read the above post.
Badass quitter spreading the quit gospel! Get you a badass quitter like him in your corner. Trust me it's nice. Congratulations my brother and friend. Thanks for helping me Edd!
Congrats on 1600 AJ! (late - first time on my computer in 10 days. ) You continue to show us how to quit with heart and logic! Thanks brother.
Awesome job AJ! Congrats on 1600. Keep up the great work, and thanks for all you do.
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Congrats on 16,bro.
X2 Shane! Well done. And thanks for your support everyday.
Congrats on 1600 days quit Shane â¤
At this point I'm truly amazed at how quick these milestones rack up!
That first 100?... damn. Just... damn. It took everything... it WAS everything.
At this point they just happen because I'm living my life and not quitting anymore. Let me make that a little more clear...
When you own this decision to quit, making it THE most important thing in your life, making it the ONLY priority... at some point you cease to work at it and it becomes your norm.
Now... that's freedom.
The equation is simple. So damn simple...
Post roll. Do it every day.
Get involved and stay involved.
It's how I got from 1 to 1,601.
For anyone out there who really wants to know why this place works, read the above post.
Badass quitter spreading the quit gospel! Get you a badass quitter like him in your corner. Trust me it's nice. Congratulations my brother and friend. Thanks for helping me Edd!
Congrats on 1600 AJ! (late - first time on my computer in 10 days. ) You continue to show us how to quit with heart and logic! Thanks brother.
Awesome job AJ! Congrats on 1600. Keep up the great work, and thanks for all you do.
yep yep, rockstar quitter alert!
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Congrats on the 17th floor Shane!!
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Congrats on the 17th floor Shane!!
Congrats on 1700 Shane. Impressive!
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Congrats on the 17th floor Shane!!
Congrats on 1700 Shane. Impressive!
Dang! 17th floor - thats killer! Rock on baby 'oh yeah'
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Congrats on the 17th floor Shane!!
Congrats on 1700 Shane. Impressive!
Dang! 17th floor - thats killer! Rock on baby 'oh yeah'
Sweet quit there brother Shane! Nothing but a thing now, just rolling up on these floors. Quitting with you EDD!
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Congrats on the 17th floor Shane!!
Congrats on 1700 Shane. Impressive!
Dang! 17th floor - thats killer! Rock on baby 'oh yeah'
Sweet quit there brother Shane! Nothing but a thing now, just rolling up on these floors. Quitting with you EDD!
1700 strong Shane!
Proud to quit with you. ?
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Congrats on the 17th floor Shane!!
Congrats on 1700 Shane. Impressive!
Dang! 17th floor - thats killer! Rock on baby 'oh yeah'
Sweet quit there brother Shane! Nothing but a thing now, just rolling up on these floors. Quitting with you EDD!
1700 strong Shane!
Proud to quit with you. ?
Shane - congratulations on another outstanding additive to your quit collection.
You are the definition of why this place works. Thank you for your support and friendship along the way.
Whip that quit out and show it to everyone!
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Congrats on the 17th floor Shane!!
Congrats on 1700 Shane. Impressive!
Dang! 17th floor - thats killer! Rock on baby 'oh yeah'
Sweet quit there brother Shane! Nothing but a thing now, just rolling up on these floors. Quitting with you EDD!
1700 strong Shane!
Proud to quit with you. ?
Shane - congratulations on another outstanding additive to your quit collection.
You are the definition of why this place works. Thank you for your support and friendship along the way.
Whip that quit out and show it to everyone!
Congratulations to my friend and brother on the 17th floor penthouse! DonÂ’t look under the bed Michael stayed in the exact same one!
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Congrats on the 17th floor Shane!!
Congrats on 1700 Shane. Impressive!
Dang! 17th floor - thats killer! Rock on baby 'oh yeah'
Sweet quit there brother Shane! Nothing but a thing now, just rolling up on these floors. Quitting with you EDD!
1700 strong Shane!
Proud to quit with you. ?
Shane - congratulations on another outstanding additive to your quit collection.
You are the definition of why this place works. Thank you for your support and friendship along the way.
Whip that quit out and show it to everyone!
Congratulations to my friend and brother on the 17th floor penthouse! DonÂ’t look under the bed Michael stayed in the exact same one!
congrats Shane!
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Congrats on the 17th floor Shane!!
Congrats on 1700 Shane. Impressive!
Dang! 17th floor - thats killer! Rock on baby 'oh yeah'
Sweet quit there brother Shane! Nothing but a thing now, just rolling up on these floors. Quitting with you EDD!
1700 strong Shane!
Proud to quit with you. ?
Shane - congratulations on another outstanding additive to your quit collection.
You are the definition of why this place works. Thank you for your support and friendship along the way.
Whip that quit out and show it to everyone!
Congratulations to my friend and brother on the 17th floor penthouse! DonÂ’t look under the bed Michael stayed in the exact same one!
congrats Shane!
Helluva a job. 1700 days free. Well done!
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Congrats on the 17th floor Shane!!
Congrats on 1700 Shane. Impressive!
Dang! 17th floor - thats killer! Rock on baby 'oh yeah'
Sweet quit there brother Shane! Nothing but a thing now, just rolling up on these floors. Quitting with you EDD!
1700 strong Shane!
Proud to quit with you. ?
Shane - congratulations on another outstanding additive to your quit collection.
You are the definition of why this place works. Thank you for your support and friendship along the way.
Whip that quit out and show it to everyone!
Congratulations to my friend and brother on the 17th floor penthouse! DonÂ’t look under the bed Michael stayed in the exact same one!
congrats Shane!
Helluva a job. 1700 days free. Well done!
Dammit! I let a “thank you” slip away again!
Thanks!
I had a fellow quitter ask me a few weeks ago why I still post roll and continue to be active. Good question because itÂ’s the one topic that crops up and crosses everyoneÂ’s mind a little/ a lot. ItÂ’s an easy answer...
Because it works.
Period.
Does it ACTUALLY keep me Quit? No. I keep me Quit.
But... as an addict itÂ’s a vital action I need to maintain. Roll and what it represents is the ONLY thing that put a halt to 25 years of slavery. ItÂ’s takes me 15 or 20 seconds to do. Dude... itÂ’s a small price to pay! IÂ’ll gladly do it for... however long. Freedom is too sweet and roll reminds me that I earned this freedom. Every damn day of the last 1,711.
See ya tomorrow.
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Welcome to the 18th floor, bro!!
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Welcome to the 18th floor, bro!!
Congrats Shane!
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Welcome to the 18th floor, bro!!
Congrats Shane!
The BA Baracus of quit
BAMF (https://www.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://www.writeups.org/wp-content/uploads/BA-Barracus-A-Team-Mister-T.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.writeups.org/ba-baracus-mister-t-a-team/&h=668&w=500&tbnid=CE7hq1W82wxmVM:&tbnh=186&tbnw=139&usg=__rmWjekYLGlwa_SofaMEPbv1z3DQ%3D&vet=10ahUKEwjAwKe2g4DaAhVjw1kKHb5GAjYQ_B0I1QEwEw..i&docid=-9SCuKCtaiGy4M&itg=1&hl=en&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwjAwKe2g4DaAhVjw1kKHb5GAjYQ_B0I1QEwEw)
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Welcome to the 18th floor, bro!!
Congrats Shane!
The BA Baracus of quit
BAMF (https://www.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://www.writeups.org/wp-content/uploads/BA-Barracus-A-Team-Mister-T.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.writeups.org/ba-baracus-mister-t-a-team/&h=668&w=500&tbnid=CE7hq1W82wxmVM:&tbnh=186&tbnw=139&usg=__rmWjekYLGlwa_SofaMEPbv1z3DQ%3D&vet=10ahUKEwjAwKe2g4DaAhVjw1kKHb5GAjYQ_B0I1QEwEw..i&docid=-9SCuKCtaiGy4M&itg=1&hl=en&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwjAwKe2g4DaAhVjw1kKHb5GAjYQ_B0I1QEwEw)
congrats Shane!
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Welcome to the 18th floor, bro!!
Congrats Shane!
The BA Baracus of quit
BAMF (https://www.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://www.writeups.org/wp-content/uploads/BA-Barracus-A-Team-Mister-T.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.writeups.org/ba-baracus-mister-t-a-team/&h=668&w=500&tbnid=CE7hq1W82wxmVM:&tbnh=186&tbnw=139&usg=__rmWjekYLGlwa_SofaMEPbv1z3DQ%3D&vet=10ahUKEwjAwKe2g4DaAhVjw1kKHb5GAjYQ_B0I1QEwEw..i&docid=-9SCuKCtaiGy4M&itg=1&hl=en&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwjAwKe2g4DaAhVjw1kKHb5GAjYQ_B0I1QEwEw)
congrats Shane!
Congrats Shane on 1800!
Thanks for the support and brotherhood.
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Welcome to the 18th floor, bro!!
Congrats Shane!
The BA Baracus of quit
BAMF (https://www.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://www.writeups.org/wp-content/uploads/BA-Barracus-A-Team-Mister-T.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.writeups.org/ba-baracus-mister-t-a-team/&h=668&w=500&tbnid=CE7hq1W82wxmVM:&tbnh=186&tbnw=139&usg=__rmWjekYLGlwa_SofaMEPbv1z3DQ%3D&vet=10ahUKEwjAwKe2g4DaAhVjw1kKHb5GAjYQ_B0I1QEwEw..i&docid=-9SCuKCtaiGy4M&itg=1&hl=en&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwjAwKe2g4DaAhVjw1kKHb5GAjYQ_B0I1QEwEw)
congrats Shane!
Congrats Shane on 1800!
Thanks for the support and brotherhood.
Gratz Shave
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My July PNW brother..
Congrats on your 5 years quit Shane!
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My July PNW brother..
Congrats on your 5 years quit Shane!
Congratulations on a day that 5 years ago seemed absolutely impossible. But now it seems so obvious. You are the man!
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My July PNW brother..
Congrats on your 5 years quit Shane!
Congratulations on a day that 5 years ago seemed absolutely impossible. But now it seems so obvious. You are the man!
Congratulations on passing though another giant milestone Shane! Your commitment to KTC and your quit is unmatched. Proud to quit with you everyday
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My July PNW brother..
Congrats on your 5 years quit Shane!
Congratulations on a day that 5 years ago seemed absolutely impossible. But now it seems so obvious. You are the man!
Congratulations on passing though another giant milestone Shane! Your commitment to KTC and your quit is unmatched. Proud to quit with you everyday
Fantastic dude!
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My July PNW brother..
Congrats on your 5 years quit Shane!
Congratulations on a day that 5 years ago seemed absolutely impossible. But now it seems so obvious. You are the man!
Congratulations on passing though another giant milestone Shane! Your commitment to KTC and your quit is unmatched. Proud to quit with you everyday
Fantastic dude!
Thank you for showing the way Big Bro.
Fucking proud of you.
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My July PNW brother..
Congrats on your 5 years quit Shane!
Congratulations on a day that 5 years ago seemed absolutely impossible. But now it seems so obvious. You are the man!
Congratulations on passing though another giant milestone Shane! Your commitment to KTC and your quit is unmatched. Proud to quit with you everyday
Fantastic dude!
Thank you for showing the way Big Bro.
Fucking proud of you.
Congrats on 5 years quit! keep doing what you do!!
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My July PNW brother..
Congrats on your 5 years quit Shane!
Congratulations on a day that 5 years ago seemed absolutely impossible. But now it seems so obvious. You are the man!
Congratulations on passing though another giant milestone Shane! Your commitment to KTC and your quit is unmatched. Proud to quit with you everyday
Fantastic dude!
Thank you for showing the way Big Bro.
Fucking proud of you.
Congrats on 5 years quit! keep doing what you do!!
Stud.
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My July PNW brother..
Congrats on your 5 years quit Shane!
Congratulations on a day that 5 years ago seemed absolutely impossible. But now it seems so obvious. You are the man!
Congratulations on passing though another giant milestone Shane! Your commitment to KTC and your quit is unmatched. Proud to quit with you everyday
Fantastic dude!
Thank you for showing the way Big Bro.
Fucking proud of you.
Congrats on 5 years quit! keep doing what you do!!
Stud.
Congrats on 5 years of freedom!
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My July PNW brother..
Congrats on your 5 years quit Shane!
Congratulations on a day that 5 years ago seemed absolutely impossible. But now it seems so obvious. You are the man!
Congratulations on passing though another giant milestone Shane! Your commitment to KTC and your quit is unmatched. Proud to quit with you everyday
Fantastic dude!
Thank you for showing the way Big Bro.
Fucking proud of you.
Congrats on 5 years quit! keep doing what you do!!
Stud.
Congrats on 5 years of freedom!
Sorry I missed this. To a badass friend and brother in quit. Thanks for being with me
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I decided to stop dipping. As of 10 am yesterday I put it behind me. Lots of gum and staying busy. Not looking forward to the days to come, but IÂ’m ready to stop this jazz. For me.
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I decided to stop dipping. As of 10 am yesterday I put it behind me. Lots of gum and staying busy. Not looking forward to the days to come, but IÂ’m ready to stop this jazz. For me.
I love this right here!
A foggy newb takes back his freedom and does it in my intro :D
ThatÂ’s badass.
Brother, I hope you find your way back to this and take the next step... posting roll in your quit group.
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I decided to stop dipping. As of 10 am yesterday I put it behind me. Lots of gum and staying busy. Not looking forward to the days to come, but IÂ’m ready to stop this jazz. For me.
I love this right here!
A foggy newb takes back his freedom and does it in my intro :D
ThatÂ’s badass.
Brother, I hope you find your way back to this and take the next step... posting roll in your quit group.
It was meant to be!
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Congrats AJ on #5!
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Congrats Big Bro on the big 19th floor, you are an inspiration, thank you for all you've done for me.
Cheers to many more milestones quit together!
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Congratulations AJ!
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Congrats Big Bro on the big 19th floor, you are an inspiration, thank you for all you've done for me.
Cheers to many more milestones quit together!
Congrats on 1900 Shane! �
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Congrats Big Bro on the big 19th floor, you are an inspiration, thank you for all you've done for me.
Cheers to many more milestones quit together!
Congrats on 1900 Shane! �
I quit with you every day, Shane. You are the man.
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Congrats Big Bro on the big 19th floor, you are an inspiration, thank you for all you've done for me.
Cheers to many more milestones quit together!
Congrats on 1900 Shane! �
I quit with you every day, Shane. You are the man.
Congrats to a multitalented musical quitter on hitting the 19th floor!
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Weird little milestones renew my Quit.
They are a tiny reminder for me to rage against complacency.
TodayÂ’s milestone?...
Born: 1970
Quit: 1,970 days
Even if nobody but me gets a little quit chub... who cares!?!
That is some good shiz right there.
Still 100% poster.
Still here everyday... nowhere near as rabid as I used to be but... still here and STILL grateful for this site and the badass people I connect with every damn day.
Still moving away from the addict mindset.
Still owning this.
Still discovering new freedom.
Get involved... stay involved.
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Weird little milestones renew my Quit.
They are a tiny reminder for me to rage against complacency.
TodayÂ’s milestone?...
Born: 1970
Quit: 1,970 days
Even if nobody but me gets a little quit chub... who cares!?!
That is some good shiz right there.
Still 100% poster.
Still here everyday... nowhere near as rabid as I used to be but... still here and STILL grateful for this site and the badass people I connect with every damn day.
Still moving away from the addict mindset.
Still owning this.
Still discovering new freedom.
Get involved... stay involved.
YOU ARE THE FUCKING MAN.....
You are a HUGE part of my quit and I am thankful for that EDD!!
I truly hope you know how much it means to have a badass like you in my corner.
Proud as hell of you brother!
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Weird little milestones renew my Quit.
They are a tiny reminder for me to rage against complacency.
TodayÂ’s milestone?...
Born: 1970
Quit: 1,970 days
Even if nobody but me gets a little quit chub... who cares!?!
That is some good shiz right there.
Still 100% poster.
Still here everyday... nowhere near as rabid as I used to be but... still here and STILL grateful for this site and the badass people I connect with every damn day.
Still moving away from the addict mindset.
Still owning this.
Still discovering new freedom.
Get involved... stay involved.
Wow!!! 1970 is unreal brother... But, ODAAT got you there. 100% poster at 1970 days is inspirational! Proud to quit with you today and EDD!!!
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Weird little milestones renew my Quit.
They are a tiny reminder for me to rage against complacency.
TodayÂ’s milestone?...
Born: 1970
Quit: 1,970 days
Even if nobody but me gets a little quit chub... who cares!?!
That is some good shiz right there.
Still 100% poster.
Still here everyday... nowhere near as rabid as I used to be but... still here and STILL grateful for this site and the badass people I connect with every damn day.
Still moving away from the addict mindset.
Still owning this.
Still discovering new freedom.
Get involved... stay involved.
Wow!!! 1970 is unreal brother... But, ODAAT got you there. 100% poster at 1970 days is inspirational! Proud to quit with you today and EDD!!!
Let me know when you hit 1971. Real men were born in 1971...
Nice work brother! proud be quit with you.
Actually.. Old men were born pre 1971.
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Weird little milestones renew my Quit.
They are a tiny reminder for me to rage against complacency.
TodayÂ’s milestone?...
Born: 1970
Quit: 1,970 days
Even if nobody but me gets a little quit chub... who cares!?!
That is some good shiz right there.
Still 100% poster.
Still here everyday... nowhere near as rabid as I used to be but... still here and STILL grateful for this site and the badass people I connect with every damn day.
Still moving away from the addict mindset.
Still owning this.
Still discovering new freedom.
Get involved... stay involved.
Wow!!! 1970 is unreal brother... But, ODAAT got you there. 100% poster at 1970 days is inspirational! Proud to quit with you today and EDD!!!
Let me know when you hit 1971. Real men were born in 1971...
Nice work brother! proud be quit with you.
Actually.. Old men were born pre 1971.
poof
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Weird little milestones renew my Quit.
They are a tiny reminder for me to rage against complacency.
TodayÂ’s milestone?...
Born: 1970
Quit: 1,970 days
Even if nobody but me gets a little quit chub... who cares!?!
That is some good shiz right there.
Still 100% poster.
Still here everyday... nowhere near as rabid as I used to be but... still here and STILL grateful for this site and the badass people I connect with every damn day.
Still moving away from the addict mindset.
Still owning this.
Still discovering new freedom.
Get involved... stay involved.
Wow!!! 1970 is unreal brother... But, ODAAT got you there. 100% poster at 1970 days is inspirational! Proud to quit with you today and EDD!!!
Let me know when you hit 1971. Real men were born in 1971...
Nice work brother! proud be quit with you.
Actually.. Old men were born pre 1971.
poof
You were one of the first to reach out to me AppleJack. Congrats on your milestone. You are an Inspiration
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Weird little milestones renew my Quit.
They are a tiny reminder for me to rage against complacency.
TodayÂ’s milestone?...
Born: 1970
Quit: 1,970 days
Even if nobody but me gets a little quit chub... who cares!?!
That is some good shiz right there.
Still 100% poster.
Still here everyday... nowhere near as rabid as I used to be but... still here and STILL grateful for this site and the badass people I connect with every damn day.
Still moving away from the addict mindset.
Still owning this.
Still discovering new freedom.
Get involved... stay involved.
Wow!!! 1970 is unreal brother... But, ODAAT got you there. 100% poster at 1970 days is inspirational! Proud to quit with you today and EDD!!!
Let me know when you hit 1971. Real men were born in 1971...
Nice work brother! proud be quit with you.
Actually.. Old men were born pre 1971.
poof
You were one of the first to reach out to me AppleJack. Congrats on your milestone. You are an Inspiration
CONGRATS Shane! Awesome!
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Weird little milestones renew my Quit.
They are a tiny reminder for me to rage against complacency.
TodayÂ’s milestone?...
Born: 1970
Quit: 1,970 days
Even if nobody but me gets a little quit chub... who cares!?!
That is some good shiz right there.
Still 100% poster.
Still here everyday... nowhere near as rabid as I used to be but... still here and STILL grateful for this site and the badass people I connect with every damn day.
Still moving away from the addict mindset.
Still owning this.
Still discovering new freedom.
Get involved... stay involved.
Wow!!! 1970 is unreal brother... But, ODAAT got you there. 100% poster at 1970 days is inspirational! Proud to quit with you today and EDD!!!
Let me know when you hit 1971. Real men were born in 1971...
Nice work brother! proud be quit with you.
Actually.. Old men were born pre 1971.
poof
You were one of the first to reach out to me AppleJack. Congrats on your milestone. You are an Inspiration
CONGRATS Shane! Awesome!
Congrats A.J. keep rocking that quit
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Wow.
I thought this intro was just going to get moldy and fade into oblivion.
It does my Quit enormous good to see all/most of the KTC history and wisdom all in one place again! I (and others, for sure) gave Admin some serious shit when we moved over to this site.
For me... almost 6 years have passed since I first typed in this intro and posted roll for the first time. This is stuff I don’t want to forget... ever. That’s why I’m still here and still a 100% poster. To forget is to fail. Do I need to post roll anymore?... Pro’ly not. BUT... addiction isn’t ever cured... it’s just managed. At this point I’m really damn good at it. Being quit isn’t an effort anymore... the work I put in at the beginning let me move Quitting as something I was doing to Being Quit as something I am.
Profound difference.
Anyway... blah, blah, blah.
Loving my freedom more every damn day.
AJ... 2,145
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Wow.
I thought this intro was just going to get moldy and fade into oblivion.
It does my Quit enormous good to see all/most of the KTC history and wisdom all in one place again! I (and others, for sure) gave Admin some serious shit when we moved over to this site.
For me... almost 6 years have passed since I first typed in this intro and posted roll for the first time. This is stuff I don’t want to forget... ever. That’s why I’m still here and still a 100% poster. To forget is to fail. Do I need to post roll anymore?... Pro’ly not. BUT... addiction isn’t ever cured... it’s just managed. At this point I’m really damn good at it. Being quit isn’t an effort anymore... the work I put in at the beginning let me move Quitting as something I was doing to Being Quit as something I am.
Profound difference.
Anyway... blah, blah, blah.
Loving my freedom more every damn day.
AJ... 2,145
Posting roll is a system. It's a system that works. If it ain't broke, don't "fix" it. I've enjoyed our interactions in Wildcard.
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6 freaking years you Rock Star, I still remember the day we first interacted, you were and still are a quit God.
You are an inspiration to myself and many others, thanks for leading the way.
Skol 471 days with my brudda Shane
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6 freaking years you Rock Star, I still remember the day we first interacted, you were and still are a quit God.
You are an inspiration to myself and many others, thanks for leading the way.
Skol 471 days with my brudda Shane
Thanks, man! ;D
6 years ago today I did the most important thing I’ve ever done in my entire 48 years here on earth.
More important than getting married.
More important than my daughter being born.
More important than any job.
More important than... “x”.
I typed 3 words on some weird website... with people I don’t know and will probably never meet... with the expectation that I type a variant of those 3 words each and every damn day until... whenever:
AppleJack... Day 1
(I still don’t know what the hell that name means or what the hell I was thinking when I signed up under that. Fog? Oh, hell yes.)
It was the scariest thing I have ever done.
It was/is the most empowering thing I have ever done AND will ever do. Period.
I say it was more important than anything because I took my life back. Took it back so that all the other important things in life will never again be tainted by my addiction or take a back seat to it.
Never. Again.
6 years. 100% poster still and... will continue to be. 10-20 seconds each day to remind me of my freedom?
Gladly.
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6 freaking years you Rock Star, I still remember the day we first interacted, you were and still are a quit God.
You are an inspiration to myself and many others, thanks for leading the way.
Skol 471 days with my brudda Shane
Thanks, man! ;D
6 years ago today I did the most important thing I’ve ever done in my entire 48 years here on earth.
More important than getting married.
More important than my daughter being born.
More important than any job.
More important than... “x”.
I typed 3 words on some weird website... with people I don’t know and will probably never meet... with the expectation that I type a variant of those 3 words each and every damn day until... whenever:
AppleJack... Day 1
(I still don’t know what the hell that name means or what the hell I was thinking when I signed up under that. Fog? Oh, hell yes.)
It was the scariest thing I have ever done.
It was/is the most empowering thing I have ever done AND will ever do. Period.
I say it was more important than anything because I took my life back. Took it back so that all the other important things in life will never again be tainted by my addiction or take a back seat to it.
Never. Again.
6 years. 100% poster still and... will continue to be. 10-20 seconds each day to remind me of my freedom?
Gladly.
Rock on Brother!
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6 freaking years you Rock Star, I still remember the day we first interacted, you were and still are a quit God.
You are an inspiration to myself and many others, thanks for leading the way.
Skol 471 days with my brudda Shane
Thanks, man! ;D
6 years ago today I did the most important thing I’ve ever done in my entire 48 years here on earth.
More important than getting married.
More important than my daughter being born.
More important than any job.
More important than... “x”.
I typed 3 words on some weird website... with people I don’t know and will probably never meet... with the expectation that I type a variant of those 3 words each and every damn day until... whenever:
AppleJack... Day 1
(I still don’t know what the hell that name means or what the hell I was thinking when I signed up under that. Fog? Oh, hell yes.)
It was the scariest thing I have ever done.
It was/is the most empowering thing I have ever done AND will ever do. Period.
I say it was more important than anything because I took my life back. Took it back so that all the other important things in life will never again be tainted by my addiction or take a back seat to it.
Never. Again.
6 years. 100% poster still and... will continue to be. 10-20 seconds each day to remind me of my freedom?
Gladly.
Rock on Brother!
Outstanding!! Thanks for showing the way!!
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6 freaking years you Rock Star, I still remember the day we first interacted, you were and still are a quit God.
You are an inspiration to myself and many others, thanks for leading the way.
Skol 471 days with my brudda Shane
Thanks, man! ;D
6 years ago today I did the most important thing I’ve ever done in my entire 48 years here on earth.
More important than getting married.
More important than my daughter being born.
More important than any job.
More important than... “x”.
I typed 3 words on some weird website... with people I don’t know and will probably never meet... with the expectation that I type a variant of those 3 words each and every damn day until... whenever:
AppleJack... Day 1
(I still don’t know what the hell that name means or what the hell I was thinking when I signed up under that. Fog? Oh, hell yes.)
It was the scariest thing I have ever done.
It was/is the most empowering thing I have ever done AND will ever do. Period.
I say it was more important than anything because I took my life back. Took it back so that all the other important things in life will never again be tainted by my addiction or take a back seat to it.
Never. Again.
6 years. 100% poster still and... will continue to be. 10-20 seconds each day to remind me of my freedom?
Gladly.
Rock on Brother!
Outstanding!! Thanks for showing the way!!
Great job man.
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6 freaking years you Rock Star, I still remember the day we first interacted, you were and still are a quit God.
You are an inspiration to myself and many others, thanks for leading the way.
Skol 471 days with my brudda Shane
Thanks, man! ;D
6 years ago today I did the most important thing I’ve ever done in my entire 48 years here on earth.
More important than getting married.
More important than my daughter being born.
More important than any job.
More important than... “x”.
I typed 3 words on some weird website... with people I don’t know and will probably never meet... with the expectation that I type a variant of those 3 words each and every damn day until... whenever:
AppleJack... Day 1
(I still don’t know what the hell that name means or what the hell I was thinking when I signed up under that. Fog? Oh, hell yes.)
It was the scariest thing I have ever done.
It was/is the most empowering thing I have ever done AND will ever do. Period.
I say it was more important than anything because I took my life back. Took it back so that all the other important things in life will never again be tainted by my addiction or take a back seat to it.
Never. Again.
6 years. 100% poster still and... will continue to be. 10-20 seconds each day to remind me of my freedom?
Gladly.
Rock on Brother!
Outstanding!! Thanks for showing the way!!
Great job man.
You. Are. The. Man.
Thanks Shane for being a great asset and mentor on this site, and a great friend. Congratulations on 6 years!
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6 freaking years you Rock Star, I still remember the day we first interacted, you were and still are a quit God.
You are an inspiration to myself and many others, thanks for leading the way.
Skol 471 days with my brudda Shane
Thanks, man! ;D
6 years ago today I did the most important thing I’ve ever done in my entire 48 years here on earth.
More important than getting married.
More important than my daughter being born.
More important than any job.
More important than... “x”.
I typed 3 words on some weird website... with people I don’t know and will probably never meet... with the expectation that I type a variant of those 3 words each and every damn day until... whenever:
AppleJack... Day 1
(I still don’t know what the hell that name means or what the hell I was thinking when I signed up under that. Fog? Oh, hell yes.)
It was the scariest thing I have ever done.
It was/is the most empowering thing I have ever done AND will ever do. Period.
I say it was more important than anything because I took my life back. Took it back so that all the other important things in life will never again be tainted by my addiction or take a back seat to it.
Never. Again.
6 years. 100% poster still and... will continue to be. 10-20 seconds each day to remind me of my freedom?
Gladly.
Rock on Brother!
Outstanding!! Thanks for showing the way!!
Great job man.
You. Are. The. Man.
Thanks Shane for being a great asset and mentor on this site, and a great friend. Congratulations on 6 years!
Impressive. Good for you sir.
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Damn. This intro is dusty as hell! Haha
This is life today. Check this out:
AJ... 2,500
Almost 7 years ago I was looking at a blinking cursor on my laptop screen, knowing that the next words I typed on this site were going to be epic. Life changing. Scary. Needed.
“AppleJack... Day 1”
(I still have no damn idea why I stuck with that stupid name.)
I have no special knowledge to impart today. This process is pretty damn easy. Make your decision. Own it. Work it. Get involved here. Stay involved here.
Done.
I’m not even close to the activity level I practiced during my first year or two after quitting. But... still here every day. Still 100% on daily roll. Don’t plan on changing that any time soon. The 10-20 seconds it takes to post up and strengthen my quit each day are gladly given. Gladly. It’s the cost of freedom but it’s NOTHING compared to the benefit of freedom.
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Damn. This intro is dusty as hell! Haha
This is life today. Check this out:
AJ... 2,500
Almost 7 years ago I was looking at a blinking cursor on my laptop screen, knowing that the next words I typed on this site were going to be epic. Life changing. Scary. Needed.
“AppleJack... Day 1”
(I still have no damn idea why I stuck with that stupid name.)
I have no special knowledge to impart today. This process is pretty damn easy. Make your decision. Own it. Work it. Get involved here. Stay involved here.
Done.
I’m not even close to the activity level I practiced during my first year or two after quitting. But... still here every day. Still 100% on daily roll. Don’t plan on changing that any time soon. The 10-20 seconds it takes to post up and strengthen my quit each day are gladly given. Gladly. It’s the cost of freedom but it’s NOTHING compared to the benefit of freedom.
Complete badass quitter here. Not easy but it's simple!
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Damn. This intro is dusty as hell! Haha
This is life today. Check this out:
AJ... 2,500
Almost 7 years ago I was looking at a blinking cursor on my laptop screen, knowing that the next words I typed on this site were going to be epic. Life changing. Scary. Needed.
“AppleJack... Day 1”
(I still have no damn idea why I stuck with that stupid name.)
I have no special knowledge to impart today. This process is pretty damn easy. Make your decision. Own it. Work it. Get involved here. Stay involved here.
Done.
I’m not even close to the activity level I practiced during my first year or two after quitting. But... still here every day. Still 100% on daily roll. Don’t plan on changing that any time soon. The 10-20 seconds it takes to post up and strengthen my quit each day are gladly given. Gladly. It’s the cost of freedom but it’s NOTHING compared to the benefit of freedom.
Complete badass quitter here. Not easy but it's simple!
Impressive and BADASS
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Damn. This intro is dusty as hell! Haha
This is life today. Check this out:
AJ... 2,500
Almost 7 years ago I was looking at a blinking cursor on my laptop screen, knowing that the next words I typed on this site were going to be epic. Life changing. Scary. Needed.
“AppleJack... Day 1”
(I still have no damn idea why I stuck with that stupid name.)
I have no special knowledge to impart today. This process is pretty damn easy. Make your decision. Own it. Work it. Get involved here. Stay involved here.
Done.
I’m not even close to the activity level I practiced during my first year or two after quitting. But... still here every day. Still 100% on daily roll. Don’t plan on changing that any time soon. The 10-20 seconds it takes to post up and strengthen my quit each day are gladly given. Gladly. It’s the cost of freedom but it’s NOTHING compared to the benefit of freedom.
Complete badass quitter here. Not easy but it's simple!
Impressive and BADASS
Thanks for your leadership over the past 7 years, Shane. We've seen a lot of stuff here... leaders come and go, drama out the wazoo, threats, platform changes, lost friends to cancer, seen divorces and health problems play out, but in the end... we keep following the plan that was laid out by KTC (post roll, keep your promise, brotherhood + accountability = success) and here we are - winning at something that seemed so damn impossible.
Thanks for being a leader, and a friend. Congratulations on another huge milestone - with many more to come.
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Geez.
This poor dusty thing was 11 pages down the intro waste bin. I should give it some love once in awhile.
Today, I posted up this number in my July ‘13 group:
2,800
I even typed that comma... I type it in every day. I earned that shit! Lol! Every new HOF number that rolls by gets me to thinking and reflecting and reinforces my deep gratitude for these halls. Without this place at ‘that’ time in April of 2013, I have a pretty good idea of the quality of life I’d be “enjoying”... stuck in an endless rut of lying and denial and fear and shame and ALL the various and similar garbage that this addiction saddles you with.
That’s not life, man.
Addiction over/hyper saturates the entirety of your life’s rhythm. It runs the show.
That’s not freedom, man.
This place...
This place gave me the tools to get strong and...
take back my life and...
do away with the need to lie and...
reverse the denial and...
conquer the fear and...
own the shame...
So that I could be free.
The freedom that exists in being able to face your addiction and tell it to “Fuck off” with complete authority is...
Life.
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Geez.
This poor dusty thing was 11 pages down the intro waste bin. I should give it some love once in awhile.
Today, I posted up this number in my July ‘13 group:
2,800
I even typed that comma... I type it in every day. I earned that shit! Lol! Every new HOF number that rolls by gets me to thinking and reflecting and reinforces my deep gratitude for these halls. Without this place at ‘that’ time in April of 2013, I have a pretty good idea of the quality of life I’d be “enjoying”... stuck in an endless rut of lying and denial and fear and shame and ALL the various and similar garbage that this addiction saddles you with.
That’s not life, man.
Addiction over/hyper saturates the entirety of your life’s rhythm. It runs the show.
That’s not freedom, man.
This place...
This place gave me the tools to get strong and...
take back my life and...
do away with the need to lie and...
reverse the denial and...
conquer the fear and...
own the shame...
So that I could be free.
The freedom that exists in being able to face your addiction and tell it to “Fuck off” with complete authority is...
Life.
Congratulations on the 2800 days free my brother.
PNW Power right here!
Thank you for still walking these halls and showing us the power of brotherhood and accountability.
We are or were all scared, scared of failing mainly, scared of dealing with things without the mask of the bitch nicotine.
I am proud to quit with you and your no-nonsense approach to the quit.
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Geez.
This poor dusty thing was 11 pages down the intro waste bin. I should give it some love once in awhile.
Today, I posted up this number in my July ‘13 group:
2,800
I even typed that comma... I type it in every day. I earned that shit! Lol! Every new HOF number that rolls by gets me to thinking and reflecting and reinforces my deep gratitude for these halls. Without this place at ‘that’ time in April of 2013, I have a pretty good idea of the quality of life I’d be “enjoying”... stuck in an endless rut of lying and denial and fear and shame and ALL the various and similar garbage that this addiction saddles you with.
That’s not life, man.
Addiction over/hyper saturates the entirety of your life’s rhythm. It runs the show.
That’s not freedom, man.
This place...
This place gave me the tools to get strong and...
take back my life and...
do away with the need to lie and...
reverse the denial and...
conquer the fear and...
own the shame...
So that I could be free.
The freedom that exists in being able to face your addiction and tell it to “Fuck off” with complete authority is...
Life.
Congratulations on the 2800 days free my brother.
PNW Power right here!
Thank you for still walking these halls and showing us the power of brotherhood and accountability.
We are or were all scared, scared of failing mainly, scared of dealing with things without the mask of the bitch nicotine.
I am proud to quit with you and your no-nonsense approach to the quit.
Good for you! Good for you! Tip of the cap on such a worthy number. Stay strong!
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Geez.
This poor dusty thing was 11 pages down the intro waste bin. I should give it some love once in awhile.
Today, I posted up this number in my July ‘13 group:
2,800
I even typed that comma... I type it in every day. I earned that shit! Lol! Every new HOF number that rolls by gets me to thinking and reflecting and reinforces my deep gratitude for these halls. Without this place at ‘that’ time in April of 2013, I have a pretty good idea of the quality of life I’d be “enjoying”... stuck in an endless rut of lying and denial and fear and shame and ALL the various and similar garbage that this addiction saddles you with.
That’s not life, man.
Addiction over/hyper saturates the entirety of your life’s rhythm. It runs the show.
That’s not freedom, man.
This place...
This place gave me the tools to get strong and...
take back my life and...
do away with the need to lie and...
reverse the denial and...
conquer the fear and...
own the shame...
So that I could be free.
The freedom that exists in being able to face your addiction and tell it to “Fuck off” with complete authority is...
Life.
Congratulations on the 2800 days free my brother.
PNW Power right here!
Thank you for still walking these halls and showing us the power of brotherhood and accountability.
We are or were all scared, scared of failing mainly, scared of dealing with things without the mask of the bitch nicotine.
I am proud to quit with you and your no-nonsense approach to the quit.
Good for you! Good for you! Tip of the cap on such a worthy number. Stay strong!
Many of quitters I’m sure owe you a Thank You! Personally I would like to say I appreciate you taking the time to comment and help a young quitter through the struggle. Keep on my friend!
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Congrats to my July Brother on the big 29th.
Still quittin here and telling it like it is, no quams coming from AJ.
I respect that so much and welcome the tough quit love you give out.
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Congrats to my July Brother on the big 29th.
Still quittin here and telling it like it is, no quams coming from AJ.
I respect that so much and welcome the tough quit love you give out.
Congrats sir, guess I missed that on roll this morning
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Here it is... day 1 of my quit. Been at this for 25 years, 2 cans a day at least. I'm tired, man. Tired of needing, tired of sneaking, tired of knowing my wife thinks just a li'l bit less of me, tired of hoping to be around for my daughter, tired of a ridiculous weed running my life... DONE!!!! Am I terrified? Yup.
8 years ago this morning, I sat and stared at my laptop wondering what to type to get this quit rolling. Well... it wasn’t brilliant but it WAS honest.
Fast forward full circle... I’m sitting in the same chair staring at a screen and wondering what to type.
I got nothin’. Lol
Practice what we preach:
One day at a time.
Get involved.
Stay involved.
Post your promise.
Keep your word.
Do it again tomorrow.
It works. Ask me how I know...
AJ... 2,923/8 years
(yeah, I quoted myself)
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Here it is... day 1 of my quit. Been at this for 25 years, 2 cans a day at least. I'm tired, man. Tired of needing, tired of sneaking, tired of knowing my wife thinks just a li'l bit less of me, tired of hoping to be around for my daughter, tired of a ridiculous weed running my life... DONE!!!! Am I terrified? Yup.
8 years ago this morning, I sat and stared at my laptop wondering what to type to get this quit rolling. Well... it wasn’t brilliant but it WAS honest.
Fast forward full circle... I’m sitting in the same chair staring at a screen and wondering what to type.
I got nothin’. Lol
Practice what we preach:
One day at a time.
Get involved.
Stay involved.
Post your promise.
Keep your word.
Do it again tomorrow.
It works. Ask me how I know...
AJ... 2,923/8 years
(yeah, I quoted myself)
congrats on 8 years Shane! You have a stake in my quitting weather you know it or not and I appreciate you! Thanks for all ya do!
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Here it is... day 1 of my quit. Been at this for 25 years, 2 cans a day at least. I'm tired, man. Tired of needing, tired of sneaking, tired of knowing my wife thinks just a li'l bit less of me, tired of hoping to be around for my daughter, tired of a ridiculous weed running my life... DONE!!!! Am I terrified? Yup.
8 years ago this morning, I sat and stared at my laptop wondering what to type to get this quit rolling. Well... it wasn’t brilliant but it WAS honest.
Fast forward full circle... I’m sitting in the same chair staring at a screen and wondering what to type.
I got nothin’. Lol
Practice what we preach:
One day at a time.
Get involved.
Stay involved.
Post your promise.
Keep your word.
Do it again tomorrow.
It works. Ask me how I know...
AJ... 2,923/8 years
(yeah, I quoted myself)
congrats on 8 years Shane! You have a stake in my quitting weather you know it or not and I appreciate you! Thanks for all ya do!
Congrats AJ. We are lucky to have you!
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Here it is... day 1 of my quit. Been at this for 25 years, 2 cans a day at least. I'm tired, man. Tired of needing, tired of sneaking, tired of knowing my wife thinks just a li'l bit less of me, tired of hoping to be around for my daughter, tired of a ridiculous weed running my life... DONE!!!! Am I terrified? Yup.
8 years ago this morning, I sat and stared at my laptop wondering what to type to get this quit rolling. Well... it wasn’t brilliant but it WAS honest.
Fast forward full circle... I’m sitting in the same chair staring at a screen and wondering what to type.
I got nothin’. Lol
Practice what we preach:
One day at a time.
Get involved.
Stay involved.
Post your promise.
Keep your word.
Do it again tomorrow.
It works. Ask me how I know...
AJ... 2,923/8 years
(yeah, I quoted myself)
congrats on 8 years Shane! You have a stake in my quitting weather you know it or not and I appreciate you! Thanks for all ya do!
Congrats AJ. We are lucky to have you!
Congrats brother. Keep leading the way.
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Here it is... day 1 of my quit. Been at this for 25 years, 2 cans a day at least. I'm tired, man. Tired of needing, tired of sneaking, tired of knowing my wife thinks just a li'l bit less of me, tired of hoping to be around for my daughter, tired of a ridiculous weed running my life... DONE!!!! Am I terrified? Yup.
8 years ago this morning, I sat and stared at my laptop wondering what to type to get this quit rolling. Well... it wasn’t brilliant but it WAS honest.
Fast forward full circle... I’m sitting in the same chair staring at a screen and wondering what to type.
I got nothin’. Lol
Practice what we preach:
One day at a time.
Get involved.
Stay involved.
Post your promise.
Keep your word.
Do it again tomorrow.
It works. Ask me how I know...
AJ... 2,923/8 years
(yeah, I quoted myself)
congrats on 8 years Shane! You have a stake in my quitting weather you know it or not and I appreciate you! Thanks for all ya do!
Congrats AJ. We are lucky to have you!
Congrats brother. Keep leading the way.
Thank you for helping pave that path for all of us. Stay strong my friend.
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Here it is... day 1 of my quit. Been at this for 25 years, 2 cans a day at least. I'm tired, man. Tired of needing, tired of sneaking, tired of knowing my wife thinks just a li'l bit less of me, tired of hoping to be around for my daughter, tired of a ridiculous weed running my life... DONE!!!! Am I terrified? Yup.
8 years ago this morning, I sat and stared at my laptop wondering what to type to get this quit rolling. Well... it wasn’t brilliant but it WAS honest.
Fast forward full circle... I’m sitting in the same chair staring at a screen and wondering what to type.
I got nothin’. Lol
Practice what we preach:
One day at a time.
Get involved.
Stay involved.
Post your promise.
Keep your word.
Do it again tomorrow.
It works. Ask me how I know...
AJ... 2,923/8 years
(yeah, I quoted myself)
congrats on 8 years Shane! You have a stake in my quitting weather you know it or not and I appreciate you! Thanks for all ya do!
Congrats AJ. We are lucky to have you!
Congrats brother. Keep leading the way.
Thank you for helping pave that path for all of us. Stay strong my friend.
so very proud of you man.
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Here it is... day 1 of my quit. Been at this for 25 years, 2 cans a day at least. I'm tired, man. Tired of needing, tired of sneaking, tired of knowing my wife thinks just a li'l bit less of me, tired of hoping to be around for my daughter, tired of a ridiculous weed running my life... DONE!!!! Am I terrified? Yup.
8 years ago this morning, I sat and stared at my laptop wondering what to type to get this quit rolling. Well... it wasn’t brilliant but it WAS honest.
Fast forward full circle... I’m sitting in the same chair staring at a screen and wondering what to type.
I got nothin’. Lol
Practice what we preach:
One day at a time.
Get involved.
Stay involved.
Post your promise.
Keep your word.
Do it again tomorrow.
It works. Ask me how I know...
AJ... 2,923/8 years
(yeah, I quoted myself)
congrats on 8 years Shane! You have a stake in my quitting weather you know it or not and I appreciate you! Thanks for all ya do!
Congrats AJ. We are lucky to have you!
Congrats brother. Keep leading the way.
Thank you for helping pave that path for all of us. Stay strong my friend.
so very proud of you man.
8 freaking years!! congrats!!
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Here it is... day 1 of my quit. Been at this for 25 years, 2 cans a day at least. I'm tired, man. Tired of needing, tired of sneaking, tired of knowing my wife thinks just a li'l bit less of me, tired of hoping to be around for my daughter, tired of a ridiculous weed running my life... DONE!!!! Am I terrified? Yup.
8 years ago this morning, I sat and stared at my laptop wondering what to type to get this quit rolling. Well... it wasn’t brilliant but it WAS honest.
Fast forward full circle... I’m sitting in the same chair staring at a screen and wondering what to type.
I got nothin’. Lol
Practice what we preach:
One day at a time.
Get involved.
Stay involved.
Post your promise.
Keep your word.
Do it again tomorrow.
It works. Ask me how I know...
AJ... 2,923/8 years
(yeah, I quoted myself)
congrats on 8 years Shane! You have a stake in my quitting weather you know it or not and I appreciate you! Thanks for all ya do!
Congrats AJ. We are lucky to have you!
Congrats brother. Keep leading the way.
Thank you for helping pave that path for all of us. Stay strong my friend.
so very proud of you man.
8 freaking years!! congrats!!
Congrats sir! 8 years is one helluvan achievement. Damn proud to follow in your footsteps
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Here it is... day 1 of my quit. Been at this for 25 years, 2 cans a day at least. I'm tired, man. Tired of needing, tired of sneaking, tired of knowing my wife thinks just a li'l bit less of me, tired of hoping to be around for my daughter, tired of a ridiculous weed running my life... DONE!!!! Am I terrified? Yup.
8 years ago this morning, I sat and stared at my laptop wondering what to type to get this quit rolling. Well... it wasn’t brilliant but it WAS honest.
Fast forward full circle... I’m sitting in the same chair staring at a screen and wondering what to type.
I got nothin’. Lol
Practice what we preach:
One day at a time.
Get involved.
Stay involved.
Post your promise.
Keep your word.
Do it again tomorrow.
It works. Ask me how I know...
AJ... 2,923/8 years
(yeah, I quoted myself)
congrats on 8 years Shane! You have a stake in my quitting weather you know it or not and I appreciate you! Thanks for all ya do!
Congrats AJ. We are lucky to have you!
Congrats brother. Keep leading the way.
Thank you for helping pave that path for all of us. Stay strong my friend.
so very proud of you man.
8 freaking years!! congrats!!
Congrats sir! 8 years is one helluvan achievement. Damn proud to follow in your footsteps
Congrats on 8 years brother! 8)
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Here it is... day 1 of my quit. Been at this for 25 years, 2 cans a day at least. I'm tired, man. Tired of needing, tired of sneaking, tired of knowing my wife thinks just a li'l bit less of me, tired of hoping to be around for my daughter, tired of a ridiculous weed running my life... DONE!!!! Am I terrified? Yup.
8 years ago this morning, I sat and stared at my laptop wondering what to type to get this quit rolling. Well... it wasn’t brilliant but it WAS honest.
Fast forward full circle... I’m sitting in the same chair staring at a screen and wondering what to type.
I got nothin’. Lol
Practice what we preach:
One day at a time.
Get involved.
Stay involved.
Post your promise.
Keep your word.
Do it again tomorrow.
It works. Ask me how I know...
AJ... 2,923/8 years
(yeah, I quoted myself)
congrats on 8 years Shane! You have a stake in my quitting weather you know it or not and I appreciate you! Thanks for all ya do!
Congrats AJ. We are lucky to have you!
Congrats brother. Keep leading the way.
Thank you for helping pave that path for all of us. Stay strong my friend.
so very proud of you man.
8 freaking years!! congrats!!
Congrats sir! 8 years is one helluvan achievement. Damn proud to follow in your footsteps
Congrats on 8 years brother! 8)
My quit bro from another mother.
You are the real deal man.
Thank you for still being here.
For still telling it like it is.
You want quit hard ass realism?
Well then... Ask AJ
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3,000 days quit!!!
Well... 8 days ago, really. I was on vacay when the 3rd dangle dropped.
I'm lazy that way.
That number is crazy as hell to me! It was an absolute pipe dream when I first quit and the thought of it was almost anxiety inducing. I don't have much to type today other than this: Follow. The. Program.
The struggle of "one day at a time" becomes, at some point, something you don't have to work at anymore. The beginning of your quit is permeated by an optimistic "hope" to one day post up these big ol' numbers. Now? I fully expect to hit the next big milestone. Another 100 days... another year... the next comma. I am absolutely going to crush it. I owned this road to freedom the SECOND I typed "AppleJack... day 1".
Rock on and QLF.
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3,000 days quit!!!
Well... 8 days ago, really. I was on vacay when the 3rd dangle dropped.
I'm lazy that way.
That number is crazy as hell to me! It was an absolute pipe dream when I first quit and the thought of it was almost anxiety inducing. I don't have much to type today other than this: Follow. The. Program.
The struggle of "one day at a time" becomes, at some point, something you don't have to work at anymore. The beginning of your quit is permeated by an optimistic "hope" to one day post up these big ol' numbers. Now? I fully expect to hit the next big milestone. Another 100 days... another year... the next comma. I am absolutely going to crush it. I owned this road to freedom the SECOND I typed "AppleJack... day 1".
Rock on and QLF.
Congrats brother! Thanks for leading the way.
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3,000 days quit!!!
Well... 8 days ago, really. I was on vacay when the 3rd dangle dropped.
I'm lazy that way.
That number is crazy as hell to me! It was an absolute pipe dream when I first quit and the thought of it was almost anxiety inducing. I don't have much to type today other than this: Follow. The. Program.
The struggle of "one day at a time" becomes, at some point, something you don't have to work at anymore. The beginning of your quit is permeated by an optimistic "hope" to one day post up these big ol' numbers. Now? I fully expect to hit the next big milestone. Another 100 days... another year... the next comma. I am absolutely going to crush it. I owned this road to freedom the SECOND I typed "AppleJack... day 1".
Rock on and QLF.
Congrats brother! Thanks for leading the way.
Congrats sir, keep being the straight shooting badass that you are!
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Whoa.
Well over a year on this thread.
That makes me sad... a little. At almost 3,400 days I don't really need this thread but... others do. The noobs and the lurkers. When I first quit, without threads like this or, say, my friend worktowin's, I would have been lost and this shit would have been WAY harder. In fact, had KTC been then, what it is right now... I would have failed. This place was ALIVE! It was unique. We all needed that. Hell, we still need that. Yeah, it was bulky and a little clunky, but you earned that shit by buying into this community.
Now?
Discord was/is a stupid move.
It got sold well.
The party line was written, handed out, and then vomited on all of us.
There's an old adage that is SO true, yet so many people STILL try to buck its truth to justify stupid shit... "If it ain't broke, don't fix it".
It's obviously too late to roll back so take this as a grumpy old man's "Sunday morning sitting on my ass drinking coffee and musing out loud" post.
Quit on all you awesome people.
I'm obviously going down with this ship and I know there are others that feel that way too... cheers to you all!
AJ... 3,393 days QLF
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I’m not sure how you add a “like”, but I have to agree the old site was much preferred to Discord.
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I’m not sure how you add a “like”, but I have to agree the old site was much preferred to Discord.
I'm posting both here and on Discord. I remember when I quit that some folks had trouble posting in a forum. They just weren't that into computers. I'm sure these days younger quitters just want to use apps on their phones. For me this whole thing became real around day 19 when someone I shared my digits with actually called me - I picked up and we talked for over an hour. Hiding behind a screen is ok I guess but talking to people and getting out to meet them will multiply your quit mojo 1000 times. 8)
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I’m not sure how you add a “like”, but I have to agree the old site was much preferred to Discord.
I'm posting both here and on Discord. I remember when I quit that some folks had trouble posting in a forum. They just weren't that into computers. I'm sure these days younger quitters just want to use apps on their phones. For me this whole thing became real around day 19 when someone I shared my digits with actually called me - I picked up and we talked for over an hour. Hiding behind a screen is ok I guess but talking to people and getting out to meet them will multiply your quit mojo 1000 times. 8)
Amen brother - the forums are just a medium. Talking to a brother has helped me navigate a lot more than just overcoming addiction. IQWYT
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I’m not sure how you add a “like”, but I have to agree the old site was much preferred to Discord.
I'm posting both here and on Discord. I remember when I quit that some folks had trouble posting in a forum. They just weren't that into computers. I'm sure these days younger quitters just want to use apps on their phones. For me this whole thing became real around day 19 when someone I shared my digits with actually called me - I picked up and we talked for over an hour. Hiding behind a screen is ok I guess but talking to people and getting out to meet them will multiply your quit mojo 1000 times. 8)
Amen brother - the forums are just a medium. Talking to a brother has helped me navigate a lot more than just overcoming addiction. IQWYT
So true. The brother/sisterhood has been huge in my quit. I don’t want to let anyone down. It is also a hell of a lot easier to quit as part of a group than as an individual. Probably why we all failed on our own.
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Wow.
I got an auto-warning when I opened up my intro that’s it’s dusty af, likely forgotten, and maybe I should consider starting a new one! lol
Anyway.
It’s 7:30am and I’m sitting in the living room of a VRBO in Florence, Italy. It’s still the previous day for most folk. 10+ years ago… I seriously don’t know if I could have done this trip with my wife and, soon to be graduated from college, daughter. I really don’t think the level of my addiction would have allowed for that. Where the hell could I get that much dip hidden in my backpack or carry-on?! It sounds asinine to even say that but it’s true. I would likely have stayed up nights worrying about it or deep diving into Google until I was zombied out, trying to find ANY place that sold it.
That shit ruined my life on so many levels… there really are no words to describe it but… you all know.
No more, man.
No more.
I don’t think about it anymore.
I don’t care about it anymore.
I don’t worry about it anymore.
It doesn’t run the show anymore.
Freedom is SO damn cool.
Cheers, Quitters!
AJ… 3,900
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Wow.
I got an auto-warning when I opened up my intro that’s it’s dusty af, likely forgotten, and maybe I should consider starting a new one! lol
Anyway.
It’s 7:30am and I’m sitting in the living room of a VRBO in Florence, Italy. It’s still the previous day for most folk. 10+ years ago… I seriously don’t know if I could have done this trip with my wife and, soon to be graduated from college, daughter. I really don’t think the level of my addiction would have allowed for that. Where the hell could I get that much dip hidden in my backpack or carry-on?! It sounds asinine to even say that but it’s true. I would likely have stayed up nights worrying about it or deep diving into Google until I was zombied out, trying to find ANY place that sold it.
That shit ruined my life on so many levels… there really are no words to describe it but… you all know.
No more, man.
No more.
I don’t think about it anymore.
I don’t care about it anymore.
I don’t worry about it anymore.
It doesn’t run the show anymore.
Freedom is SO damn cool.
Cheers, Quitters!
AJ… 3,900
Huge congrats on the 39th @AppleJack (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=710). Keep kicking ass.
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Wow.
I got an auto-warning when I opened up my intro that’s it’s dusty af, likely forgotten, and maybe I should consider starting a new one! lol
Anyway.
It’s 7:30am and I’m sitting in the living room of a VRBO in Florence, Italy. It’s still the previous day for most folk. 10+ years ago… I seriously don’t know if I could have done this trip with my wife and, soon to be graduated from college, daughter. I really don’t think the level of my addiction would have allowed for that. Where the hell could I get that much dip hidden in my backpack or carry-on?! It sounds asinine to even say that but it’s true. I would likely have stayed up nights worrying about it or deep diving into Google until I was zombied out, trying to find ANY place that sold it.
That shit ruined my life on so many levels… there really are no words to describe it but… you all know.
No more, man.
No more.
I don’t think about it anymore.
I don’t care about it anymore.
I don’t worry about it anymore.
It doesn’t run the show anymore.
Freedom is SO damn cool.
Cheers, Quitters!
AJ… 3,900
Huge congrats on the 39th @AppleJack (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=710). Keep kicking ass.
'Bow' Congrats on 3900!! Thanks for continuing to blaze that path for the rest of us. Enjoy your trip!