Hey y'all. Didn't think I really had much to say (lying to myself, I love to talk (especially in () lol)) so I put off my intro, but I realised this morning that I was being irrational. At any rate, that is certainly no way to enter the brotherhood. Anyways, I'm on day 5, and have posted roll for my August group twice consecutively now. I'm 22, underweight at 115 lbs from my metabolism/lifestyle and a true dipper of about 6 years, my first one came at 14 but I didn't start using it regularly until junior year in high school (graduated at 17.) I'm sick of having no energy when I'm supposed to have youthful vigor. Between a can and a pack a day, 4 energy drinks a day, not eating right, and the copious intake of thc, I couldn't hold a stable mood, had terrible sleeping habits, and was underperforming in almost every aspect of my life. This was my reasoning to quit, everyone around me smokes and I want to set the example and show them it's possible. But I also want to quit to be a better version of myself. I already have much higher energy and my mood hasn't been so bipolar except for the nic rage on night #3. I've stopped for months before in the past, but I fell victim to the 80 day funk, did the celebratory cigar smoke, pretty much all of the typical tricks I didn't know existed. This time is different because this time, I have all of you, and the knowledge of how She will try to get me back. Well, I'm 5 days free of the nic bitch (love the term,) 11 days free of the canned crack and ganja, broke from all the food I'm eating now, and feeling holistically better. The headaches and such don't really faze me, I constantly had them anyways. Only being in the fog sucks, but it really feels like the fog is lifting. Tbh, I feel like I was in the fog that whole time, and now I'm finally getting lucid again. I used to score top levels in school, but I didn't care to finish college cause I was too busy getting fucked up. I had some ulterior motives for starting my bad habits and should you get to know me a little better, I'm sure we will talk about it in the future. This is already lengthy by my intro standard. As there is not a section for the body, that will have to come out in pieces over many conversations, and I hope my conclusion is far, far away. May the 4th be with you.
Glad to be here,
The_Bink