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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Radman on June 10, 2013, 08:46:00 AM
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When I joined this site back in 2010, I never posted an official intro. I just got busy reading and posting roll and never looked back. Today I reached a milestone that has up until even yesterday seemed unreachable. As an addict that had repeatedly failed at quit attempts, I never thought this was possible. Without KTC and all my brothers and sisters here, it wasn't.
The following is actually copied from my post to a social media site. I intended to make a very basic post, but it evolved as I typed. After some thought, I decided to also post it here for safekeeping. It isn't really an official introduction, but it tells y'all eveything you need to know about my quit.
1000 days nicotine free. I've been undecided about what to say on this milestone day. So, I'll try to explain the answer to a question that I don't think anybody has actually verbalized to me. Why did I quit? I figure nobody asked because most folks assume it was for my health or money. Nope, I wasn't strong enough to quit for either of those reasons. On September 15, 2010, one of my twins (2 years old then) spit by our feet and proudly said "like daddy". That was one of the worst moments of my life. After a flurry of scattered thoughts, I silently walked away in tears. I had dedicated my life to raising my children, and seemingly the only thing he had learned was that self-inflicting illness and disease must be cool because daddy does it. I had failed. There has not been any tobacco or nicotine in my body since that very minute, and hopefully my boys have better things to remember. I cannot control what my kids do with their life and health in the long run, but I can guarantee this: if they become addicts, it WILL NOT be because they are following an example that is being set by me. They know my story. They know how much hatred I harbor for everything related to tobacco. I will continue to explain things to them that I wish I new 25 years ago. It is a destructive drug, and my body has thanked me repeatedly for quitting. Hopefully one day my three sons will thank me as well. If they steer clear of the addiction themselves, that'll be thanks enough.
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When I joined this site back in 2010, I never posted an official intro. I just got busy reading and posting roll and never looked back. Today I reached a milestone that has up until even yesterday seemed unreachable. As an addict that had repeatedly failed at quit attempts, I never thought this was possible. Without KTC and all my brothers and sisters here, it wasn't.
The following is actually copied from my post to a social media site. I intended to make a very basic post, but it evolved as I typed. After some thought, I decided to also post it here for safekeeping. It isn't really an official introduction, but it tells y'all eveything you need to know about my quit.
1000 days nicotine free. I've been undecided about what to say on this milestone day. So, I'll try to explain the answer to a question that I don't think anybody has actually verbalized to me. Why did I quit? I figure nobody asked because most folks assume it was for my health or money. Nope, I wasn't strong enough to quit for either of those reasons. On September 15, 2010, one of my twins (2 years old then) spit by our feet and proudly said "like daddy". That was one of the worst moments of my life. After a flurry of scattered thoughts, I silently walked away in tears. I had dedicated my life to raising my children, and seemingly the only thing he had learned was that self-inflicting illness and disease must be cool because daddy does it. I had failed. There has not been any tobacco or nicotine in my body since that very minute, and hopefully my boys have better things to remember. I cannot control what my kids do with their life and health in the long run, but I can guarantee this: if they become addicts, it WILL NOT be because they are following an example that is being set by me. They know my story. They know how much hatred I harbor for everything related to tobacco. I will continue to explain things to them that I wish I new 25 years ago. It is a destructive drug, and my body has thanked me repeatedly for quitting. Hopefully one day my three sons will thank me as well. If they steer clear of the addiction themselves, that'll be thanks enough.
Just awesome , awesome , awesome... You are the inspiration thats needed on this site. Just yesterday, while riding our golfcart around the property, my 2 year old daughter leaned off to the side and spit. I was using the hooche fake dip and she was replicating what i was doing. I told her spitting was disgusting and we shouldnt do it. She has asked many times before, what dat in your mouf diddy,
Im glad i am quit with you today.
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When I joined this site back in 2010, I never posted an official intro. I just got busy reading and posting roll and never looked back. Today I reached a milestone that has up until even yesterday seemed unreachable. As an addict that had repeatedly failed at quit attempts, I never thought this was possible. Without KTC and all my brothers and sisters here, it wasn't.Â
The following is actually copied from my post to a social media site. I intended to make a very basic post, but it evolved as I typed. After some thought, I decided to also post it here for safekeeping. It isn't really an official introduction, but it tells y'all eveything you need to know about my quit.
1000 days nicotine free. I've been undecided about what to say on this milestone day. So, I'll try to explain the answer to a question that I don't think anybody has actually verbalized to me. Why did I quit? I figure nobody asked because most folks assume it was for my health or money. Nope, I wasn't strong enough to quit for either of those reasons. On September 15, 2010, one of my twins (2 years old then) spit by our feet and proudly said "like daddy". That was one of the worst moments of my life. After a flurry of scattered thoughts, I silently walked away in tears. I had dedicated my life to raising my children, and seemingly the only thing he had learned was that self-inflicting illness and disease must be cool because daddy does it. I had failed. There has not been any tobacco or nicotine in my body since that very minute, and hopefully my boys have better things to remember. I cannot control what my kids do with their life and health in the long run, but I can guarantee this: if they become addicts, it WILL NOT be because they are following an example that is being set by me. They know my story. They know how much hatred I harbor for everything related to tobacco. I will continue to explain things to them that I wish I new 25 years ago. It is a destructive drug, and my body has thanked me repeatedly for quitting. Hopefully one day my three sons will thank me as well. If they steer clear of the addiction themselves, that'll be thanks enough.
Just awesome , awesome , awesome... You are the inspiration thats needed on this site. Just yesterday, while riding our golfcart around the property, my 2 year old daughter leaned off to the side and spit. I was using the hooche fake dip and she was replicating what i was doing. I told her spitting was disgusting and we shouldnt do it. She has asked many times before, what dat in your mouf diddy,
Im glad i am quit with you today.
Thinks radman. Always enjoy reading your posts. You have helped me stay quit another day. Glad to be quit with you.
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When I joined this site back in 2010, I never posted an official intro. I just got busy reading and posting roll and never looked back. Today I reached a milestone that has up until even yesterday seemed unreachable. As an addict that had repeatedly failed at quit attempts, I never thought this was possible. Without KTC and all my brothers and sisters here, it wasn't.Â
The following is actually copied from my post to a social media site. I intended to make a very basic post, but it evolved as I typed. After some thought, I decided to also post it here for safekeeping. It isn't really an official introduction, but it tells y'all eveything you need to know about my quit.
1000 days nicotine free. I've been undecided about what to say on this milestone day. So, I'll try to explain the answer to a question that I don't think anybody has actually verbalized to me. Why did I quit? I figure nobody asked because most folks assume it was for my health or money. Nope, I wasn't strong enough to quit for either of those reasons. On September 15, 2010, one of my twins (2 years old then) spit by our feet and proudly said "like daddy". That was one of the worst moments of my life. After a flurry of scattered thoughts, I silently walked away in tears. I had dedicated my life to raising my children, and seemingly the only thing he had learned was that self-inflicting illness and disease must be cool because daddy does it. I had failed. There has not been any tobacco or nicotine in my body since that very minute, and hopefully my boys have better things to remember. I cannot control what my kids do with their life and health in the long run, but I can guarantee this: if they become addicts, it WILL NOT be because they are following an example that is being set by me. They know my story. They know how much hatred I harbor for everything related to tobacco. I will continue to explain things to them that I wish I new 25 years ago. It is a destructive drug, and my body has thanked me repeatedly for quitting. Hopefully one day my three sons will thank me as well. If they steer clear of the addiction themselves, that'll be thanks enough.
Just awesome , awesome , awesome... You are the inspiration thats needed on this site. Just yesterday, while riding our golfcart around the property, my 2 year old daughter leaned off to the side and spit. I was using the hooche fake dip and she was replicating what i was doing. I told her spitting was disgusting and we shouldnt do it. She has asked many times before, what dat in your mouf diddy,
Im glad i am quit with you today.
Thinks radman. Always enjoy reading your posts. You have helped me stay quit another day. Glad to be quit with you.
^^^ YES ^^^
Congrats Rad. I bumped along here doing the minimum (posting roll) until I began to realize this site was working. I was humbled and started to develop a "pay it forward" mentality. Radman was one those familiar who inspired me to do more than the minimum. I hope my words help others. But I KNOW my activity has helped me. And that is due, in large part, to Rad.
(Don't get cocky...I still think you're a dick way down in my heart).
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Rad, you are just that...RAD!!! Nice, tenth floor.
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When I joined this site back in 2010, I never posted an official intro. I just got busy reading and posting roll and never looked back. Today I reached a milestone that has up until even yesterday seemed unreachable. As an addict that had repeatedly failed at quit attempts, I never thought this was possible. Without KTC and all my brothers and sisters here, it wasn't.Â
The following is actually copied from my post to a social media site. I intended to make a very basic post, but it evolved as I typed. After some thought, I decided to also post it here for safekeeping. It isn't really an official introduction, but it tells y'all eveything you need to know about my quit.
1000 days nicotine free. I've been undecided about what to say on this milestone day. So, I'll try to explain the answer to a question that I don't think anybody has actually verbalized to me. Why did I quit? I figure nobody asked because most folks assume it was for my health or money. Nope, I wasn't strong enough to quit for either of those reasons. On September 15, 2010, one of my twins (2 years old then) spit by our feet and proudly said "like daddy". That was one of the worst moments of my life. After a flurry of scattered thoughts, I silently walked away in tears. I had dedicated my life to raising my children, and seemingly the only thing he had learned was that self-inflicting illness and disease must be cool because daddy does it. I had failed. There has not been any tobacco or nicotine in my body since that very minute, and hopefully my boys have better things to remember. I cannot control what my kids do with their life and health in the long run, but I can guarantee this: if they become addicts, it WILL NOT be because they are following an example that is being set by me. They know my story. They know how much hatred I harbor for everything related to tobacco. I will continue to explain things to them that I wish I new 25 years ago. It is a destructive drug, and my body has thanked me repeatedly for quitting. Hopefully one day my three sons will thank me as well. If they steer clear of the addiction themselves, that'll be thanks enough.
Just awesome , awesome , awesome... You are the inspiration thats needed on this site. Just yesterday, while riding our golfcart around the property, my 2 year old daughter leaned off to the side and spit. I was using the hooche fake dip and she was replicating what i was doing. I told her spitting was disgusting and we shouldnt do it. She has asked many times before, what dat in your mouf diddy,
Im glad i am quit with you today.
Thinks radman. Always enjoy reading your posts. You have helped me stay quit another day. Glad to be quit with you.
^^^ YES ^^^
Congrats Rad. I bumped along here doing the minimum (posting roll) until I began to realize this site was working. I was humbled and started to develop a "pay it forward" mentality. Radman was one those familiar who inspired me to do more than the minimum. I hope my words help others. But I KNOW my activity has helped me. And that is due, in large part, to Rad.
(Don't get cocky...I still think you're a dick way down in my heart).
I was 'all in' about posting and will be as long as I have a heartbeat . I even dabbled around in the paying forward part of the quit but it was meeting kdip, rocketman, bruce the ghey, you and greg5280 shortly after hitting the Hall that got me paying it backward as well. Thanks for helping plow the row!!!
Noobs- spend some time w guys like this watch your quit grow .......
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Thanks to all of you. Everybody works together here, from the vets far beyond me, right down to the newest quitters. Every member brings something to the table.
Well, except maybe Bean, who is just a smartass. You know I'm kidding, bro.... see you on roll tomorrow.
CBird makes a good point. Spread the accountability path as wide as possible. Those guys made time in their schedules to welcome me to Dallas. They didn't do anything about that 112 degree heat, though.
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The vets on this site humble me.
Amazing work Rad. I'm so honored to be here and quit with guys like you.
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Congrats on a Huge Milestone Rad!!! Hope your back is getting better too!.
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Thank you for taking the time to post this, it is all inspiring. congratulations!
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Thanks for the replies. If a few folks got some good out of it, that is all I really hoped for.
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Thanks to all of you. Everybody works together here, from the vets far beyond me, right down to the newest quitters. Every member brings something to the table.
Well, except maybe Bean, who is just a smartass. You know I'm kidding, bro.... see you on roll tomorrow.
CBird makes a good point. Spread the accountability path as wide as possible. Those guys made time in their schedules to welcome me to Dallas. They didn't do anything about that 112 degree heat, though.
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Welcome to Commaville...
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Radman! First congrats, second thanks for paying it forward. Without your advice, and support my early days would of been even harder and I may have not made it. I'll never forget your help and I am damn proud to quit with you.
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Rad, you are a rockstar! congrats on the comma, my friend.
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a milestone surpassed.
i'm more impressed with your +1 today.
i do appreciate you being here- i know your words have helped me along the way, brother.
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Reading back through this thread always reminds me why I'm here and what we're all about. Support and brotherhood.
Anyway.... on to the reason I was gonna post here today:
Day 1077. No drama in my quit lately. Life is wonderful. Then today I find out for sure that running has been deleted from my future due to the recent knee surgery. First thought: "No problem, I'll just get me a bike and peddle my happy ass back into shape.". A couple hours after that, nicotine reminded me just how sneaky it can be. The thought actually popped into my head that if my body is already falling apart, what difference would it make if I was still dipping. Really? Ya gotta be kidding me.
Times like these remind me why it's important to stay active here. Man, I got some good friends on KTC. No way will they accept a weak excuse like that. Anyway, I was prepared to brush that thought off in rapid fashion thanks to what I've learned here.
So, I'm posting this as a reminder to myself as well as to the rest of y'all. Never forget just how tricky and persistent this addiction is.
NAFAR.
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Reading back through this thread always reminds me why I'm here and what we're all about. Support and brotherhood.
Anyway.... on to the reason I was gonna post here today:
Day 1077. No drama in my quit lately. Life is wonderful. Then today I find out for sure that running has been deleted from my future due to the recent knee surgery. First thought: "No problem, I'll just get me a bike and peddle my happy ass back into shape.". A couple hours after that, nicotine reminded me just how sneaky it can be. The thought actually popped into my head that if my body is already falling apart, what difference would it make if I was still dipping. Really? Ya gotta be kidding me.
Times like these remind me why it's important to stay active here. Man, I got some good friends on KTC. No way will they accept a weak excuse like that. Anyway, I was prepared to brush that thought off in rapid fashion thanks to what I've learned here.
So, I'm posting this as a reminder to myself as well as to the rest of y'all. Never forget just how tricky and persistent this addiction is.
NAFAR.
Thanks for being here each and every day.
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Reading back through this thread always reminds me why I'm here and what we're all about. Support and brotherhood.
Anyway.... on to the reason I was gonna post here today:
Day 1077. No drama in my quit lately. Life is wonderful. Then today I find out for sure that running has been deleted from my future due to the recent knee surgery. First thought: "No problem, I'll just get me a bike and peddle my happy ass back into shape.". A couple hours after that, nicotine reminded me just how sneaky it can be. The thought actually popped into my head that if my body is already falling apart, what difference would it make if I was still dipping. Really? Ya gotta be kidding me.
Times like these remind me why it's important to stay active here. Man, I got some good friends on KTC. No way will they accept a weak excuse like that. Anyway, I was prepared to brush that thought off in rapid fashion thanks to what I've learned here.Â
So, I'm posting this as a reminder to myself as well as to the rest of y'all. Never forget just how tricky and persistent this addiction is.Â
NAFAR.
Thanks for being here each and every day.
That's money stuff Rad... Thank you bro.
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Reading back through this thread always reminds me why I'm here and what we're all about. Support and brotherhood.
Anyway.... on to the reason I was gonna post here today:
Day 1077. No drama in my quit lately. Life is wonderful. Then today I find out for sure that running has been deleted from my future due to the recent knee surgery. First thought: "No problem, I'll just get me a bike and peddle my happy ass back into shape.". A couple hours after that, nicotine reminded me just how sneaky it can be. The thought actually popped into my head that if my body is already falling apart, what difference would it make if I was still dipping. Really? Ya gotta be kidding me.
Times like these remind me why it's important to stay active here. Man, I got some good friends on KTC. No way will they accept a weak excuse like that. Anyway, I was prepared to brush that thought off in rapid fashion thanks to what I've learned here.Â
So, I'm posting this as a reminder to myself as well as to the rest of y'all. Never forget just how tricky and persistent this addiction is.Â
NAFAR.
Thanks for being here each and every day.
I'm sorry to hear about the knee problem brother. I count myself as one of them friends and your correct. You know where i stand with the poison.
A can of poison doesn't even deserve to be in the same room as you brother. Hell, when you walk into a convenient store they should have clear all the shelves of poison until you leave. Glad to be quit with you.
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Thanks, guys.
Srans makes a good point. I think I'll tell them that the next time I stop to get $85 worth of gas.
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Radman rocks! Just sayin . . . .
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Much love Rob. I hope you are recovering from your knee surgery well!
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Radman is a badass quitter. Much respect sir.
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Woke up yesterday in quite a funk. Strangely enough, I wasn't sure why. Just felt troubled for some reason. Took me a bit to recall a dip dream I'd had during the night.
I guess "dip dream" isn't the best term. It was more of a looseleaf dream, I suppose. In the dream, I was driving along and casually grabbed a pack of Golden Blend and took a chew. Then I recall cruising along for a few miles thinking "at least I'm not dipping". Then it hit me (as if by surprise) that this is NOT acceptable - nicotine is nicotine. Apparently I had been started back chewing for a while and thought it was ok.
1133 days and this shit is still messing with my head. NAFAR.
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Woke up yesterday in quite a funk. Strangely enough, I wasn't sure why. Just felt troubled for some reason. Took me a bit to recall a dip dream I'd had during the night.
I guess "dip dream" isn't the best term. It was more of a looseleaf dream, I suppose. In the dream, I was driving along and casually grabbed a pack of Golden Blend and took a chew. Then I recall cruising along for a few miles thinking "at least I'm not dipping". Then it hit me (as if by surprise) that this is NOT acceptable - nicotine is nicotine. Apparently I had been started back chewing for a while and thought it was ok.
1133 days and this shit is still messing with my head. NAFAR.
Oh boy. Something to look forward to. Lol.
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Woke up yesterday in quite a funk. Strangely enough, I wasn't sure why. Just felt troubled for some reason. Took me a bit to recall a dip dream I'd had during the night.
I guess "dip dream" isn't the best term. It was more of a looseleaf dream, I suppose. In the dream, I was driving along and casually grabbed a pack of Golden Blend and took a chew. Then I recall cruising along for a few miles thinking "at least I'm not dipping". Then it hit me (as if by surprise) that this is NOT acceptable - nicotine is nicotine. Apparently I had been started back chewing for a while and thought it was ok.
1133 days and this shit is still messing with my head. NAFAR.
Oh boy. Something to look forward to. Lol.
Sorry, Diesel. Don't happen much nowadays. Probably been 6 months.
Honestly, I hope the dreams never go away. They serve a purpose. The feeling of betrayal and failure were strong enough to rekindle my fight.
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Woke up yesterday in quite a funk. Strangely enough, I wasn't sure why. Just felt troubled for some reason. Took me a bit to recall a dip dream I'd had during the night.
I guess "dip dream" isn't the best term. It was more of a looseleaf dream, I suppose. In the dream, I was driving along and casually grabbed a pack of Golden Blend and took a chew. Then I recall cruising along for a few miles thinking "at least I'm not dipping". Then it hit me (as if by surprise) that this is NOT acceptable - nicotine is nicotine. Apparently I had been started back chewing for a while and thought it was ok.
1133 days and this shit is still messing with my head. NAFAR.
Oh boy. Something to look forward to. Lol.
Sorry, Diesel. Don't happen much nowadays. Probably been 6 months.
Honestly, I hope the dreams never go away. They serve a purpose. The feeling of betrayal and failure were strong enough to rekindle my fight.
I know, just messing with ya. I'm at 505 and still looking for some stuff, like going a few days without thinking about it. In due time, I'm sure...
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Woke up yesterday in quite a funk. Strangely enough, I wasn't sure why. Just felt troubled for some reason. Took me a bit to recall a dip dream I'd had during the night.
I guess "dip dream" isn't the best term. It was more of a looseleaf dream, I suppose. In the dream, I was driving along and casually grabbed a pack of Golden Blend and took a chew. Then I recall cruising along for a few miles thinking "at least I'm not dipping". Then it hit me (as if by surprise) that this is NOT acceptable - nicotine is nicotine. Apparently I had been started back chewing for a while and thought it was ok.
1133 days and this shit is still messing with my head. NAFAR.
Oh boy. Something to look forward to. Lol.
Sorry, Diesel. Don't happen much nowadays. Probably been 6 months.
Honestly, I hope the dreams never go away. They serve a purpose. The feeling of betrayal and failure were strong enough to rekindle my fight.
Wow, almost 3 years a dream can still come back around?? But then I shouldn't be surprised, like I've been told already, this isn't a sprint, it's a marathon you're in for life.
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Woke up yesterday in quite a funk. Strangely enough, I wasn't sure why. Just felt troubled for some reason. Took me a bit to recall a dip dream I'd had during the night.
I guess "dip dream" isn't the best term. It was more of a looseleaf dream, I suppose. In the dream, I was driving along and casually grabbed a pack of Golden Blend and took a chew. Then I recall cruising along for a few miles thinking "at least I'm not dipping". Then it hit me (as if by surprise) that this is NOT acceptable - nicotine is nicotine. Apparently I had been started back chewing for a while and thought it was ok.
1133 days and this shit is still messing with my head. NAFAR.
Oh boy. Something to look forward to. Lol.
Sorry, Diesel. Don't happen much nowadays. Probably been 6 months.
Honestly, I hope the dreams never go away. They serve a purpose. The feeling of betrayal and failure were strong enough to rekindle my fight.
Wow, almost 3 years a dream can still come back around?? But then I shouldn't be surprised, like I've been told already, this isn't a sprint, it's a marathon you're in for life.
Actually a month past 3 years, but who's counting, right?
I like your point - it's definitely not a sprint.
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Woke up yesterday in quite a funk. Strangely enough, I wasn't sure why. Just felt troubled for some reason. Took me a bit to recall a dip dream I'd had during the night.
I guess "dip dream" isn't the best term. It was more of a looseleaf dream, I suppose. In the dream, I was driving along and casually grabbed a pack of Golden Blend and took a chew. Then I recall cruising along for a few miles thinking "at least I'm not dipping". Then it hit me (as if by surprise) that this is NOT acceptable - nicotine is nicotine. Apparently I had been started back chewing for a while and thought it was ok.
1133 days and this shit is still messing with my head. NAFAR.
Oh boy. Something to look forward to. Lol.
Sorry, Diesel. Don't happen much nowadays. Probably been 6 months.
Honestly, I hope the dreams never go away. They serve a purpose. The feeling of betrayal and failure were strong enough to rekindle my fight.
Wow, almost 3 years a dream can still come back around?? But then I shouldn't be surprised, like I've been told already, this isn't a sprint, it's a marathon you're in for life.
Actually a month past 3 years, but who's counting, right?
I like your point - it's definitely not a sprint.
Rad... Thanks for your continued presence bro. This quit is long term ~ you help bring that home. Thank you m'man.
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1000 days nicotine free. I've been undecided about what to say on this milestone day. So, I'll try to explain the answer to a question that I don't think anybody has actually verbalized to me. Why did I quit? I figure nobody asked because most folks assume it was for my health or money. Nope, I wasn't strong enough to quit for either of those reasons. On September 15, 2010, one of my twins (2 years old then) spit by our feet and proudly said "like daddy". That was one of the worst moments of my life. After a flurry of scattered thoughts, I silently walked away in tears. I had dedicated my life to raising my children, and seemingly the only thing he had learned was that self-inflicting illness and disease must be cool because daddy does it. I had failed. There has not been any tobacco or nicotine in my body since that very minute, and hopefully my boys have better things to remember. I cannot control what my kids do with their life and health in the long run, but I can guarantee this: if they become addicts, it WILL NOT be because they are following an example that is being set by me. They know my story. They know how much hatred I harbor for everything related to tobacco. I will continue to explain things to them that I wish I new 25 years ago. It is a destructive drug, and my body has thanked me repeatedly for quitting. Hopefully one day my three sons will thank me as well. If they steer clear of the addiction themselves, that'll be thanks enough.
As a relativley new guy to the quit (23 days thank you very much) I look at the veterans on the site and think that 1000 days, 1 year, hell, even 100 days is amazing. When I first joined this site I started reading everything I could and I would think " why are these dudes still here after years of being quit"? I soon realized that for an addict, staying quit is a lifelong battle.
I look at my own boy and Im glad that Im quitting before he gets old enough to realize what it is that Im doing. He's only 2 but he spits like I do and that hurts. Thank you for posting that.
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Woke up yesterday in quite a funk. Strangely enough, I wasn't sure why. Just felt troubled for some reason. Took me a bit to recall a dip dream I'd had during the night.
I guess "dip dream" isn't the best term. It was more of a looseleaf dream, I suppose. In the dream, I was driving along and casually grabbed a pack of Golden Blend and took a chew. Then I recall cruising along for a few miles thinking "at least I'm not dipping". Then it hit me (as if by surprise) that this is NOT acceptable - nicotine is nicotine. Apparently I had been started back chewing for a while and thought it was ok.
1133 days and this shit is still messing with my head. NAFAR.
Oh boy. Something to look forward to. Lol.
Sorry, Diesel. Don't happen much nowadays. Probably been 6 months.
Honestly, I hope the dreams never go away. They serve a purpose. The feeling of betrayal and failure were strong enough to rekindle my fight.
Wow, almost 3 years a dream can still come back around?? But then I shouldn't be surprised, like I've been told already, this isn't a sprint, it's a marathon you're in for life.
Actually a month past 3 years, but who's counting, right?
I like your point - it's definitely not a sprint.
Rad... Thanks for your continued presence bro. This quit is long term ~ you help bring that home. Thank you m'man.
It seems you get the funk as Savannah gets closer. :) NAFAR! I quit with the Radman.
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Woke up yesterday in quite a funk. Strangely enough, I wasn't sure why. Just felt troubled for some reason. Took me a bit to recall a dip dream I'd had during the night.
I guess "dip dream" isn't the best term. It was more of a looseleaf dream, I suppose. In the dream, I was driving along and casually grabbed a pack of Golden Blend and took a chew. Then I recall cruising along for a few miles thinking "at least I'm not dipping". Then it hit me (as if by surprise) that this is NOT acceptable - nicotine is nicotine. Apparently I had been started back chewing for a while and thought it was ok.
1133 days and this shit is still messing with my head. NAFAR.
Oh boy. Something to look forward to. Lol.
Sorry, Diesel. Don't happen much nowadays. Probably been 6 months.
Honestly, I hope the dreams never go away. They serve a purpose. The feeling of betrayal and failure were strong enough to rekindle my fight.
Wow, almost 3 years a dream can still come back around?? But then I shouldn't be surprised, like I've been told already, this isn't a sprint, it's a marathon you're in for life.
Actually a month past 3 years, but who's counting, right?
I like your point - it's definitely not a sprint.
It was either Derk or Srans who posted that in my intro when they thought I was getting ahead of myself in wanting to be healed reminding me to keep it ODAAT. Oops sorry I wasn't really doing the math, but either way it's ALOT of +1's to congratulate you for doing!
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Woke up yesterday in quite a funk. Strangely enough, I wasn't sure why. Just felt troubled for some reason. Took me a bit to recall a dip dream I'd had during the night.
I guess "dip dream" isn't the best term. It was more of a looseleaf dream, I suppose. In the dream, I was driving along and casually grabbed a pack of Golden Blend and took a chew. Then I recall cruising along for a few miles thinking "at least I'm not dipping". Then it hit me (as if by surprise) that this is NOT acceptable - nicotine is nicotine. Apparently I had been started back chewing for a while and thought it was ok.
1133 days and this shit is still messing with my head. NAFAR.
Oh boy. Something to look forward to. Lol.
Sorry, Diesel. Don't happen much nowadays. Probably been 6 months.
Honestly, I hope the dreams never go away. They serve a purpose. The feeling of betrayal and failure were strong enough to rekindle my fight.
Wow, almost 3 years a dream can still come back around?? But then I shouldn't be surprised, like I've been told already, this isn't a sprint, it's a marathon you're in for life.
Actually a month past 3 years, but who's counting, right?
I like your point - it's definitely not a sprint.
Rad... Thanks for your continued presence bro. This quit is long term ~ you help bring that home. Thank you m'man.
It seems you get the funk as Savannah gets closer. :) NAFAR! I quit with the Radman.
Maybe my subconcious is trying to tell me something. 'Crazy'
See you there, sir.
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1000 days nicotine free. I've been undecided about what to say on this milestone day. So, I'll try to explain the answer to a question that I don't think anybody has actually verbalized to me. Why did I quit? I figure nobody asked because most folks assume it was for my health or money. Nope, I wasn't strong enough to quit for either of those reasons. On September 15, 2010, one of my twins (2 years old then) spit by our feet and proudly said "like daddy". That was one of the worst moments of my life. After a flurry of scattered thoughts, I silently walked away in tears. I had dedicated my life to raising my children, and seemingly the only thing he had learned was that self-inflicting illness and disease must be cool because daddy does it. I had failed. There has not been any tobacco or nicotine in my body since that very minute, and hopefully my boys have better things to remember. I cannot control what my kids do with their life and health in the long run, but I can guarantee this: if they become addicts, it WILL NOT be because they are following an example that is being set by me. They know my story. They know how much hatred I harbor for everything related to tobacco. I will continue to explain things to them that I wish I new 25 years ago. It is a destructive drug, and my body has thanked me repeatedly for quitting. Hopefully one day my three sons will thank me as well. If they steer clear of the addiction themselves, that'll be thanks enough.
As a relativley new guy to the quit (23 days thank you very much) I look at the veterans on the site and think that 1000 days, 1 year, hell, even 100 days is amazing. When I first joined this site I started reading everything I could and I would think " why are these dudes still here after years of being quit"? I soon realized that for an addict, staying quit is a lifelong battle.
I look at my own boy and Im glad that Im quitting before he gets old enough to realize what it is that Im doing. He's only 2 but he spits like I do and that hurts. Thank you for posting that.
I've posted that about my son a few different places since I've been here. It's the absolute truth, and I can barely recall that day without getting emotional. I'm sort of a "tough country boy" type, and don't wear outward emotions very often, but that was a tough day for me. Still sucks to remember it.
Congrats on 3+ weeks quit, man. Enjoy every single milestone. Stick to the +1 theory, but savor the big milestones: 1 month, HOF, year, etc. It's tricky to not look too far ahead, but we gotta stick to that. The trap is that you'll hit a funk just after some of them. For instance, in the week or so after I hit HOF, I had a few tough days because of the "so...... what now?" thoughts in my head.
Lastly..... I remember wondering why the old farts hang around here. Yeah, I think I still need to +1 every day with my GUARD brothers (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=3770), but that's not the only reason we're here. I have made friends here. Never thought it would happen, but it did. I was skeptical of on-line relationships when I came here, but KTC folks share a brotherhood like no other I've experienced. I've met a couple dozen quitters face-to-face, and I come here to keep in touch with them. No different than any other social media site. Stay involved.... build the accountability. It works.
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1000 days nicotine free. I've been undecided about what to say on this milestone day. So, I'll try to explain the answer to a question that I don't think anybody has actually verbalized to me. Why did I quit? I figure nobody asked because most folks assume it was for my health or money. Nope, I wasn't strong enough to quit for either of those reasons. On September 15, 2010, one of my twins (2 years old then) spit by our feet and proudly said "like daddy". That was one of the worst moments of my life. After a flurry of scattered thoughts, I silently walked away in tears. I had dedicated my life to raising my children, and seemingly the only thing he had learned was that self-inflicting illness and disease must be cool because daddy does it. I had failed. There has not been any tobacco or nicotine in my body since that very minute, and hopefully my boys have better things to remember. I cannot control what my kids do with their life and health in the long run, but I can guarantee this: if they become addicts, it WILL NOT be because they are following an example that is being set by me. They know my story. They know how much hatred I harbor for everything related to tobacco. I will continue to explain things to them that I wish I new 25 years ago. It is a destructive drug, and my body has thanked me repeatedly for quitting. Hopefully one day my three sons will thank me as well. If they steer clear of the addiction themselves, that'll be thanks enough.
As a relativley new guy to the quit (23 days thank you very much) I look at the veterans on the site and think that 1000 days, 1 year, hell, even 100 days is amazing. When I first joined this site I started reading everything I could and I would think " why are these dudes still here after years of being quit"? I soon realized that for an addict, staying quit is a lifelong battle.
I look at my own boy and Im glad that Im quitting before he gets old enough to realize what it is that Im doing. He's only 2 but he spits like I do and that hurts. Thank you for posting that.
I've posted that about my son a few different places since I've been here. It's the absolute truth, and I can barely recall that day without getting emotional. I'm sort of a "tough country boy" type, and don't wear outward emotions very often, but that was a tough day for me. Still sucks to remember it.
Congrats on 3+ weeks quit, man. Enjoy every single milestone. Stick to the +1 theory, but savor the big milestones: 1 month, HOF, year, etc. It's tricky to not look too far ahead, but we gotta stick to that. The trap is that you'll hit a funk just after some of them. For instance, in the week or so after I hit HOF, I had a few tough days because of the "so...... what now?" thoughts in my head.
Lastly..... I remember wondering why the old farts hang around here. Yeah, I think I still need to +1 every day with my GUARD brothers (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=3770), but that's not the only reason we're here. I have made friends here. Never thought it would happen, but it did. I was skeptical of on-line relationships when I came here, but KTC folks share a brotherhood like no other I've experienced. I've met a couple dozen quitters face-to-face, and I come here to keep in touch with them. No different than any other social media site. Stay involved.... build the accountability. It works.
Rad you are an amazing quitter and a great example for all of us. I am glad that you like other share these personal stories because every word just adds to the KTC mountain of quit.
I appreciate all that you do and I decided that the best way I can pay you back is post a comment on your wall, so you can see in my avatar how the ape brain operates.
Pinched
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I can relate to your story man. My 4 year old son told me that when he grows up he wants to "eat copenhagen like daddy".... now he wants to eat sunflower seeds like daddy.
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I can relate to your story man. My 4 year old son told me that when he grows up he wants to "eat copenhagen like daddy".... now he wants to eat sunflower seeds like daddy.
Dig it. Don't recall hearing about anyone being killed by a sunflower.
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I can relate to your story man. My 4 year old son told me that when he grows up he wants to "eat copenhagen like daddy".... now he wants to eat sunflower seeds like daddy.
Reminds me of my dad and i... he chewed skoal longcut for 17 yrs. Weirdly tho i remember being grossed out by it when i was a kid..
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1150.
Wish I had been more diligent with keeping up with milestones early in my quit.
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1150.
Wish I had been more diligent with keeping up with milestones early in my quit.
Look at Rad...breaking out the Abacus today to post up some epic quit numbers!
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1150.
Wish I had been more diligent with keeping up with milestones early in my quit.
Look at Rad...breaking out the Abacus today to post up some epic quit numbers!
Slide rule.
Cause that's how real engineers roll.
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Day 1380
I haven't posted in my intro for quite some time. I haven't supported others in their intros as I should, but you can gurantee I'm here..... posting roll. Because it works, and because I have friends here that need support.
There has been much drama here recently, which has bred negativity and hostility. That's not what intros should be. I pulled mine back up to review the great support that I got when I finally posted an intro. Upon reading it, I thought maybe some positivity needs to come to the top here. I pledge to be more active in this section (as I once was), and invite any of you to shoot me a PM if I can help y'all in any way at all.
Rad +1
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Day 1380
I haven't posted in my intro for quite some time. I haven't supported others in their intros as I should, but you can gurantee I'm here..... posting roll. Because it works, and because I have friends here that need support.
There has been much drama here recently, which has bred negativity and hostility. That's not what intros should be. I pulled mine back up to review the great support that I got when I finally posted an intro. Upon reading it, I thought maybe some positivity needs to come to the top here. I pledge to be more active in this section (as I once was), and invite any of you to shoot me a PM if I can help y'all in any way at all.
Rad +1
Good stuff, Rad. +1 with you.
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Day 1380
I haven't posted in my intro for quite some time. I haven't supported others in their intros as I should, but you can gurantee I'm here..... posting roll. Because it works, and because I have friends here that need support.
There has been much drama here recently, which has bred negativity and hostility. That's not what intros should be. I pulled mine back up to review the great support that I got when I finally posted an intro. Upon reading it, I thought maybe some positivity needs to come to the top here. I pledge to be more active in this section (as I once was), and invite any of you to shoot me a PM if I can help y'all in any way at all.
Rad +1
nice quit ya got there my friend.....
always glad to quit with you brother.
you'se a big ole stone in my own quit.
Thank you
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Day 1380
I haven't posted in my intro for quite some time. I haven't supported others in their intros as I should, but you can gurantee I'm here..... posting roll. Because it works, and because I have friends here that need support.
There has been much drama here recently, which has bred negativity and hostility. That's not what intros should be. I pulled mine back up to review the great support that I got when I finally posted an intro. Upon reading it, I thought maybe some positivity needs to come to the top here. I pledge to be more active in this section (as I once was), and invite any of you to shoot me a PM if I can help y'all in any way at all.
Rad +1
nice quit ya got there my friend.....
always glad to quit with you brother.
you'se a big ole stone in my own quit.
Thank you
Always good to see the quitters with commas refresh their intros, good stuff!
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Thanks for the positive input, guys.
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Thanks for the positive input, guys.
Dang, I really appreciated reading through this. That fueled me today. Thanks Radman!
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Bear with me, y'all. This is about as nostalgic as ole Rad ever gets. I also posted this over in the Random thread, but I felt like updating my mental battle here concerning my friend's field near my house. This tobacco field is maturing rapidly as I drive by it every day. It's hard to put into words for any who didn't grow up in a rural setting, but this is my therapy for today.
Today is Friday, and I was in a particularly good mood as I left home. Comfortable temp, nice tunes on the XM, cold OJ in hand, truck windows down, V8 rumbling happily as I began the 18 mile rural commute to work. Everything was right. They just topped this young patch, so the smell of the fresh buds wafted through the truck as I approached. Nostalgia from my youth gripped me and before I knew it, I had parked and was just standing there in the field. I leaned on the truck bumper, stood there in the calm morning air, and watched the sun rise over this field of deep green. It was quite a beautiful thing.
The devil in disguise. (http://i1244.photobucket.com/albums/gg580/Radman74/NCM_0302_zps899cd47e.jpg)
I recalled the carefree summer mornings as an early teenager when I'd experience these same senses before starting the harvesting day. It was a simpler time. No worries except making a few bucks. No responsibility. Lots of laughs. Serveral friends by my side. Worked hard, played hard. Then the current reality came back to me. No matter how serene and beautiful, that right there is my fiercest enemy. I was staring peacefully at a field of deadly plants that poison, kill, and wreak havoc on the human body. It has taken dear family members from me, and ruined my own health for near 20 years. It threatens to draw in my children.
Love, hate, beauty, serenity, nostalgia, relaxation, fear, pride, shame......... all of them were there.
Thanks for the memories, but 'Finger' .
NAFAR.
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Bear with me, y'all. This is about as nostalgic as ole Rad ever gets. I also posted this over in the Random thread, but I felt like updating my mental battle here concerning my friend's field near my house. This tobacco field is maturing rapidly as I drive by it every day. It's hard to put into words for any who didn't grow up in a rural setting, but this is my therapy for today.
Today is Friday, and I was in a particularly good mood as I left home. Comfortable temp, nice tunes on the XM, cold OJ in hand, truck windows down, V8 rumbling happily as I began the 18 mile rural commute to work. Everything was right. They just topped this young patch, so the smell of the fresh buds wafted through the truck as I approached. Nostalgia from my youth gripped me and before I knew it, I had parked and was just standing there in the field. I leaned on the truck bumper, stood there in the calm morning air, and watched the sun rise over this field of deep green. It was quite a beautiful thing.
The devil in disguise. (http://i1244.photobucket.com/albums/gg580/Radman74/NCM_0302_zps899cd47e.jpg)
I recalled the carefree summer mornings as an early teenager when I'd experience these same senses before starting the harvesting day. It was a simpler time. No worries except making a few bucks. No responsibility. Lots of laughs. Serveral friends by my side. Worked hard, played hard. Then the current reality came back to me. No matter how serene and beautiful, that right there is my fiercest enemy. I was staring peacefully at a field of deadly plants that poison, kill, and wreak havoc on the human body. It has taken dear family members from me, and ruined my own health for near 20 years. It threatens to draw in my children.
Love, hate, beauty, serenity, nostalgia, relaxation, fear, pride, shame......... all of them were there.
Thanks for the memories, but 'Finger' .
NAFAR.
Excellent perspective bro... Thanks.
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4 years. I am quit.
I'm still wondering how long I'll stay here at KTC. I honestly..... VERY honestly...... didn't think it would be this long. I remember thinking up front that once I hit 100 days nobody would be able to tell me a dang thing about quitting, so I wouldn't need this place. I sure as hell wouldn't need to post roll anymore. Experience and age certainly bring wisdom.
As I sit here today, I wonder if 4 years is long enough. Then I realize for the umpteenth time that this place is more than a quit site. It is a family. It is a brotherhood (with some sisters, too). Maybe a twisted, crazy brotherhood...... but still a brotherhood. I have too many friends here to go away.
I owe the 4 years of quit, and also my health, to KTC.
If you're reading this, you're part of my support network. I thank you.
I thank all of you.
Quit on.
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4 years. I am quit.
I'm still wondering how long I'll stay here at KTC. I honestly..... VERY honestly...... didn't think it would be this long. I remember thinking up front that once I hit 100 days nobody would be able to tell me a dang thing about quitting, so I wouldn't need this place. I sure as hell wouldn't need to post roll anymore. Experience and age certainly bring wisdom.
As I sit here today, I wonder if 4 years is long enough. Then I realize for the umpteenth time that this place is more than a quit site. It is a family. It is a brotherhood (with some sisters, too). Maybe a twisted, crazy brotherhood...... but still a brotherhood. I have too many friends here to go away.
I owe the 4 years of quit, and also my health, to KTC.
If you're reading this, you're part of my support network. I thank you.
I thank all of you.
Quit on.
congrats, that's awesome.
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4 years. I am quit.
I'm still wondering how long I'll stay here at KTC. I honestly..... VERY honestly...... didn't think it would be this long. I remember thinking up front that once I hit 100 days nobody would be able to tell me a dang thing about quitting, so I wouldn't need this place. I sure as hell wouldn't need to post roll anymore. Experience and age certainly bring wisdom.
As I sit here today, I wonder if 4 years is long enough. Then I realize for the umpteenth time that this place is more than a quit site. It is a family. It is a brotherhood (with some sisters, too). Maybe a twisted, crazy brotherhood...... but still a brotherhood. I have too many friends here to go away.
I owe the 4 years of quit, and also my health, to KTC.
If you're reading this, you're part of my support network. I thank you.
I thank all of you.
Quit on.
congrats, that's awesome.
Yah, that is awesome!
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4 years. I am quit.
I'm still wondering how long I'll stay here at KTC. I honestly..... VERY honestly...... didn't think it would be this long. I remember thinking up front that once I hit 100 days nobody would be able to tell me a dang thing about quitting, so I wouldn't need this place. I sure as hell wouldn't need to post roll anymore. Experience and age certainly bring wisdom.
As I sit here today, I wonder if 4 years is long enough. Then I realize for the umpteenth time that this place is more than a quit site. It is a family. It is a brotherhood (with some sisters, too). Maybe a twisted, crazy brotherhood...... but still a brotherhood. I have too many friends here to go away.
I owe the 4 years of quit, and also my health, to KTC.
If you're reading this, you're part of my support network. I thank you.
I thank all of you.
Quit on.
congrats, that's awesome.
Yah, that is awesome!
great job my friend
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4 years. I am quit.
I'm still wondering how long I'll stay here at KTC. I honestly..... VERY honestly...... didn't think it would be this long. I remember thinking up front that once I hit 100 days nobody would be able to tell me a dang thing about quitting, so I wouldn't need this place. I sure as hell wouldn't need to post roll anymore. Experience and age certainly bring wisdom.
As I sit here today, I wonder if 4 years is long enough. Then I realize for the umpteenth time that this place is more than a quit site. It is a family. It is a brotherhood (with some sisters, too). Maybe a twisted, crazy brotherhood...... but still a brotherhood. I have too many friends here to go away.
I owe the 4 years of quit, and also my health, to KTC.
If you're reading this, you're part of my support network. I thank you.
I thank all of you.
Quit on.
congrats, that's awesome.
Yah, that is awesome!
great job my friend
humbling. Thank you
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4 years. I am quit.
I'm still wondering how long I'll stay here at KTC. I honestly..... VERY honestly...... didn't think it would be this long. I remember thinking up front that once I hit 100 days nobody would be able to tell me a dang thing about quitting, so I wouldn't need this place. I sure as hell wouldn't need to post roll anymore. Experience and age certainly bring wisdom.
As I sit here today, I wonder if 4 years is long enough. Then I realize for the umpteenth time that this place is more than a quit site. It is a family. It is a brotherhood (with some sisters, too). Maybe a twisted, crazy brotherhood...... but still a brotherhood. I have too many friends here to go away.
I owe the 4 years of quit, and also my health, to KTC.
If you're reading this, you're part of my support network. I thank you.
I thank all of you.
Quit on.
congrats, that's awesome.
Yah, that is awesome!
great job my friend
humbling. Thank you
Congrats,rad
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4 years. I am quit.
I'm still wondering how long I'll stay here at KTC. I honestly..... VERY honestly...... didn't think it would be this long. I remember thinking up front that once I hit 100 days nobody would be able to tell me a dang thing about quitting, so I wouldn't need this place. I sure as hell wouldn't need to post roll anymore. Experience and age certainly bring wisdom.
As I sit here today, I wonder if 4 years is long enough. Then I realize for the umpteenth time that this place is more than a quit site. It is a family. It is a brotherhood (with some sisters, too). Maybe a twisted, crazy brotherhood...... but still a brotherhood. I have too many friends here to go away.
I owe the 4 years of quit, and also my health, to KTC.
If you're reading this, you're part of my support network. I thank you.
I thank all of you.
Quit on.
congrats, that's awesome.
Yah, that is awesome!
great job my friend
humbling. Thank you
Congrats,rad
Congrats.
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4 years. I am quit.
I'm still wondering how long I'll stay here at KTC. I honestly..... VERY honestly...... didn't think it would be this long. I remember thinking up front that once I hit 100 days nobody would be able to tell me a dang thing about quitting, so I wouldn't need this place. I sure as hell wouldn't need to post roll anymore. Experience and age certainly bring wisdom.
As I sit here today, I wonder if 4 years is long enough. Then I realize for the umpteenth time that this place is more than a quit site. It is a family. It is a brotherhood (with some sisters, too). Maybe a twisted, crazy brotherhood...... but still a brotherhood. I have too many friends here to go away.
I owe the 4 years of quit, and also my health, to KTC.
If you're reading this, you're part of my support network. I thank you.
I thank all of you.
Quit on.
congrats, that's awesome.
Yah, that is awesome!
great job my friend
humbling. Thank you
Congrats,rad
Congrats.
I wanna be like RadMan...Congratulations Rad on 4 years. Thanks for being here and making a difference.
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4 years. I am quit.
I'm still wondering how long I'll stay here at KTC. I honestly..... VERY honestly...... didn't think it would be this long. I remember thinking up front that once I hit 100 days nobody would be able to tell me a dang thing about quitting, so I wouldn't need this place. I sure as hell wouldn't need to post roll anymore. Experience and age certainly bring wisdom.
As I sit here today, I wonder if 4 years is long enough. Then I realize for the umpteenth time that this place is more than a quit site. It is a family. It is a brotherhood (with some sisters, too). Maybe a twisted, crazy brotherhood...... but still a brotherhood. I have too many friends here to go away.
I owe the 4 years of quit, and also my health, to KTC.
If you're reading this, you're part of my support network. I thank you.
I thank all of you.
Quit on.
congrats, that's awesome.
Yah, that is awesome!
great job my friend
humbling. Thank you
Congrats,rad
Congrats.
I wanna be like RadMan...Congratulations Rad on 4 years. Thanks for being here and making a difference.
Still need.... WANT that signature on my shirt
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4 years. I am quit.
I'm still wondering how long I'll stay here at KTC. I honestly..... VERY honestly...... didn't think it would be this long. I remember thinking up front that once I hit 100 days nobody would be able to tell me a dang thing about quitting, so I wouldn't need this place. I sure as hell wouldn't need to post roll anymore. Experience and age certainly bring wisdom.
As I sit here today, I wonder if 4 years is long enough. Then I realize for the umpteenth time that this place is more than a quit site. It is a family. It is a brotherhood (with some sisters, too). Maybe a twisted, crazy brotherhood...... but still a brotherhood. I have too many friends here to go away.
I owe the 4 years of quit, and also my health, to KTC.
If you're reading this, you're part of my support network. I thank you.
I thank all of you.
Quit on.
congrats, that's awesome.
Yah, that is awesome!
great job my friend
humbling. Thank you
Congrats,rad
Congrats.
I wanna be like RadMan...Congratulations Rad on 4 years. Thanks for being here and making a difference.
Still need.... WANT that signature on my shirt
Very cool, bro! Thanks for sticking around and showing us all that never giving up is worth it!
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4 years. I am quit.
I'm still wondering how long I'll stay here at KTC. I honestly..... VERY honestly...... didn't think it would be this long. I remember thinking up front that once I hit 100 days nobody would be able to tell me a dang thing about quitting, so I wouldn't need this place. I sure as hell wouldn't need to post roll anymore. Experience and age certainly bring wisdom.
As I sit here today, I wonder if 4 years is long enough. Then I realize for the umpteenth time that this place is more than a quit site. It is a family. It is a brotherhood (with some sisters, too). Maybe a twisted, crazy brotherhood...... but still a brotherhood. I have too many friends here to go away.
I owe the 4 years of quit, and also my health, to KTC.
If you're reading this, you're part of my support network. I thank you.
I thank all of you.
Quit on.
congrats, that's awesome.
Yah, that is awesome!
great job my friend
humbling. Thank you
Congrats,rad
Congrats.
I wanna be like RadMan...Congratulations Rad on 4 years. Thanks for being here and making a difference.
Still need.... WANT that signature on my shirt
Very cool, bro! Thanks for sticking around and showing us all that never giving up is worth it!
'worship'
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1609 days quit.
OK, so I let the last few milestones slide by with no posts here, but this is noteworthy. When I first found KTC, I would have bet my next paycheck that this place would have been a distant memory by now, but here I am. IÂ’m still posting and still quit. If any newer folks are reading this and wondering what the future holds, stop wondering and just go with it. Post today and forget about tomorrow.
Do I still need to be here at this point? Isn’t my quit strong enough to make it alone? I don’t know for sure, and I don’t intend to find out. There has been a change in my mindset at this point. KTC isn’t just about quitting anymore. At this point, it’s like any other social media site. My friends are here. Their life events are here. They count on me to be here. Now, some people will argue that this place is just a virtual house and no “real” friends will ever come of it. That’s where you’re wrong. I can prove that with one picture.
Savannah 2015 - group photo (http://i1244.photobucket.com/albums/gg580/Radman74/Savannah%202015_zpsr5nvtrnl.jpg)
That photo was taken this past Saturday (my 1607th quit day) at the 4th annual Savannah, GA quitter get together. Every person in that photo is a KTC quitter, and every one of them is a friend. Some of them IÂ’ve known longer than others, and there are bonds that I never knew would form. That picture represents a total of 23,126 days of quit right there in one spot. Accountability does not exist in a stronger form than that.
Brothers and sisters, if you have not made real friends here, then you are not fully engaged. If you have not been to an organized meet to break bread with other quitters, then you are leaving some accountability on the table. Either way, you are missing out on part of what makes this place so great. I encourage all of you to build some bonds and make some waves on this site. I don’t use the word awesome very often, but I can honestly think of nothing else to describe it. To stand with 17 other folks from all walks of life and get along great due to the one common battle we’re fighting, to hear the similarities in the quit stories, to cast all differences aside, and to bond as brothers and sisters separated by thousands of miles – that is something that just cannot be explained.
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1609 days quit.
OK, so I let the last few milestones slide by with no posts here, but this is noteworthy. When I first found KTC, I would have bet my next paycheck that this place would have been a distant memory by now, but here I am. IÂ’m still posting and still quit. If any newer folks are reading this and wondering what the future holds, stop wondering and just go with it. Post today and forget about tomorrow.
Do I still need to be here at this point? Isn’t my quit strong enough to make it alone? I don’t know for sure, and I don’t intend to find out. There has been a change in my mindset at this point. KTC isn’t just about quitting anymore. At this point, it’s like any other social media site. My friends are here. Their life events are here. They count on me to be here. Now, some people will argue that this place is just a virtual house and no “real” friends will ever come of it. That’s where you’re wrong. I can prove that with one picture.
Savannah 2015 - group photo (http://i1244.photobucket.com/albums/gg580/Radman74/Savannah%202015_zpsr5nvtrnl.jpg)
That photo was taken this past Saturday (my 1607th quit day) at the 4th annual Savannah, GA quitter get together. Every person in that photo is a KTC quitter, and every one of them is a friend. Some of them IÂ’ve known longer than others, and there are bonds that I never knew would form. That picture represents a total of 23,126 days of quit right there in one spot. Accountability does not exist in a stronger form than that.
Brothers and sisters, if you have not made real friends here, then you are not fully engaged. If you have not been to an organized meet to break bread with other quitters, then you are leaving some accountability on the table. Either way, you are missing out on part of what makes this place so great. I encourage all of you to build some bonds and make some waves on this site. I don’t use the word awesome very often, but I can honestly think of nothing else to describe it. To stand with 17 other folks from all walks of life and get along great due to the one common battle we’re fighting, to hear the similarities in the quit stories, to cast all differences aside, and to bond as brothers and sisters separated by thousands of miles – that is something that just cannot be explained.
I'll say it...That IS AWESOME!!!!!! 'oh yeah'
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1609 days quit.
OK, so I let the last few milestones slide by with no posts here, but this is noteworthy. When I first found KTC, I would have bet my next paycheck that this place would have been a distant memory by now, but here I am. IÂ’m still posting and still quit. If any newer folks are reading this and wondering what the future holds, stop wondering and just go with it. Post today and forget about tomorrow.
Do I still need to be here at this point? Isn’t my quit strong enough to make it alone? I don’t know for sure, and I don’t intend to find out. There has been a change in my mindset at this point. KTC isn’t just about quitting anymore. At this point, it’s like any other social media site. My friends are here. Their life events are here. They count on me to be here. Now, some people will argue that this place is just a virtual house and no “real” friends will ever come of it. That’s where you’re wrong. I can prove that with one picture.
Savannah 2015 - group photo (http://i1244.photobucket.com/albums/gg580/Radman74/Savannah%202015_zpsr5nvtrnl.jpg)
That photo was taken this past Saturday (my 1607th quit day) at the 4th annual Savannah, GA quitter get together. Every person in that photo is a KTC quitter, and every one of them is a friend. Some of them IÂ’ve known longer than others, and there are bonds that I never knew would form. That picture represents a total of 23,126 days of quit right there in one spot. Accountability does not exist in a stronger form than that.
Brothers and sisters, if you have not made real friends here, then you are not fully engaged. If you have not been to an organized meet to break bread with other quitters, then you are leaving some accountability on the table. Either way, you are missing out on part of what makes this place so great. I encourage all of you to build some bonds and make some waves on this site. I don’t use the word awesome very often, but I can honestly think of nothing else to describe it. To stand with 17 other folks from all walks of life and get along great due to the one common battle we’re fighting, to hear the similarities in the quit stories, to cast all differences aside, and to bond as brothers and sisters separated by thousands of miles – that is something that just cannot be explained.
I'll say it...That IS AWESOME!!!!!! 'oh yeah'
When quitting becomes fun, quitting becomes who you are and what you want to be. I ceases to become an obligation, it becomes a connection to others.
This is a great post.
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1609 days quit.
OK, so I let the last few milestones slide by with no posts here, but this is noteworthy. When I first found KTC, I would have bet my next paycheck that this place would have been a distant memory by now, but here I am. IÂ’m still posting and still quit. If any newer folks are reading this and wondering what the future holds, stop wondering and just go with it. Post today and forget about tomorrow.
Do I still need to be here at this point? Isn’t my quit strong enough to make it alone? I don’t know for sure, and I don’t intend to find out. There has been a change in my mindset at this point. KTC isn’t just about quitting anymore. At this point, it’s like any other social media site. My friends are here. Their life events are here. They count on me to be here. Now, some people will argue that this place is just a virtual house and no “real” friends will ever come of it. That’s where you’re wrong. I can prove that with one picture.
Savannah 2015 - group photo (http://i1244.photobucket.com/albums/gg580/Radman74/Savannah%202015_zpsr5nvtrnl.jpg)
That photo was taken this past Saturday (my 1607th quit day) at the 4th annual Savannah, GA quitter get together. Every person in that photo is a KTC quitter, and every one of them is a friend. Some of them IÂ’ve known longer than others, and there are bonds that I never knew would form. That picture represents a total of 23,126 days of quit right there in one spot. Accountability does not exist in a stronger form than that.
Brothers and sisters, if you have not made real friends here, then you are not fully engaged. If you have not been to an organized meet to break bread with other quitters, then you are leaving some accountability on the table. Either way, you are missing out on part of what makes this place so great. I encourage all of you to build some bonds and make some waves on this site. I don’t use the word awesome very often, but I can honestly think of nothing else to describe it. To stand with 17 other folks from all walks of life and get along great due to the one common battle we’re fighting, to hear the similarities in the quit stories, to cast all differences aside, and to bond as brothers and sisters separated by thousands of miles – that is something that just cannot be explained.
I'll say it...That IS AWESOME!!!!!! 'oh yeah'
When quitting becomes fun, quitting becomes who you are and what you want to be. I ceases to become an obligation, it becomes a connection to others.
This is a great post.
Gentlemen, I think quitting just became fun
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1609 days quit.
OK, so I let the last few milestones slide by with no posts here, but this is noteworthy. When I first found KTC, I would have bet my next paycheck that this place would have been a distant memory by now, but here I am. IÂ’m still posting and still quit. If any newer folks are reading this and wondering what the future holds, stop wondering and just go with it. Post today and forget about tomorrow.
Do I still need to be here at this point? Isn’t my quit strong enough to make it alone? I don’t know for sure, and I don’t intend to find out. There has been a change in my mindset at this point. KTC isn’t just about quitting anymore. At this point, it’s like any other social media site. My friends are here. Their life events are here. They count on me to be here. Now, some people will argue that this place is just a virtual house and no “real” friends will ever come of it. That’s where you’re wrong. I can prove that with one picture.
Savannah 2015 - group photo (http://i1244.photobucket.com/albums/gg580/Radman74/Savannah%202015_zpsr5nvtrnl.jpg)
That photo was taken this past Saturday (my 1607th quit day) at the 4th annual Savannah, GA quitter get together. Every person in that photo is a KTC quitter, and every one of them is a friend. Some of them IÂ’ve known longer than others, and there are bonds that I never knew would form. That picture represents a total of 23,126 days of quit right there in one spot. Accountability does not exist in a stronger form than that.
Brothers and sisters, if you have not made real friends here, then you are not fully engaged. If you have not been to an organized meet to break bread with other quitters, then you are leaving some accountability on the table. Either way, you are missing out on part of what makes this place so great. I encourage all of you to build some bonds and make some waves on this site. I don’t use the word awesome very often, but I can honestly think of nothing else to describe it. To stand with 17 other folks from all walks of life and get along great due to the one common battle we’re fighting, to hear the similarities in the quit stories, to cast all differences aside, and to bond as brothers and sisters separated by thousands of miles – that is something that just cannot be explained.
I'll say it...That IS AWESOME!!!!!! 'oh yeah'
When quitting becomes fun, quitting becomes who you are and what you want to be. I ceases to become an obligation, it becomes a connection to others.
This is a great post.
Gentlemen, I think quitting just became fun
'clap'
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1609 days quit.
OK, so I let the last few milestones slide by with no posts here, but this is noteworthy. When I first found KTC, I would have bet my next paycheck that this place would have been a distant memory by now, but here I am. IÂ’m still posting and still quit. If any newer folks are reading this and wondering what the future holds, stop wondering and just go with it. Post today and forget about tomorrow.
Do I still need to be here at this point? Isn’t my quit strong enough to make it alone? I don’t know for sure, and I don’t intend to find out. There has been a change in my mindset at this point. KTC isn’t just about quitting anymore. At this point, it’s like any other social media site. My friends are here. Their life events are here. They count on me to be here. Now, some people will argue that this place is just a virtual house and no “real” friends will ever come of it. That’s where you’re wrong. I can prove that with one picture.
Savannah 2015 - group photo (http://i1244.photobucket.com/albums/gg580/Radman74/Savannah%202015_zpsr5nvtrnl.jpg)
That photo was taken this past Saturday (my 1607th quit day) at the 4th annual Savannah, GA quitter get together. Every person in that photo is a KTC quitter, and every one of them is a friend. Some of them IÂ’ve known longer than others, and there are bonds that I never knew would form. That picture represents a total of 23,126 days of quit right there in one spot. Accountability does not exist in a stronger form than that.
Brothers and sisters, if you have not made real friends here, then you are not fully engaged. If you have not been to an organized meet to break bread with other quitters, then you are leaving some accountability on the table. Either way, you are missing out on part of what makes this place so great. I encourage all of you to build some bonds and make some waves on this site. I don’t use the word awesome very often, but I can honestly think of nothing else to describe it. To stand with 17 other folks from all walks of life and get along great due to the one common battle we’re fighting, to hear the similarities in the quit stories, to cast all differences aside, and to bond as brothers and sisters separated by thousands of miles – that is something that just cannot be explained.
I'll say it...That IS AWESOME!!!!!! 'oh yeah'
When quitting becomes fun, quitting becomes who you are and what you want to be. I ceases to become an obligation, it becomes a connection to others.
This is a great post.
Gentlemen, I think quitting just became fun
'clap'
Not being able come this year really left a void in me This week. Hoping for next years
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1609 days quit.
OK, so I let the last few milestones slide by with no posts here, but this is noteworthy. When I first found KTC, I would have bet my next paycheck that this place would have been a distant memory by now, but here I am. IÂ’m still posting and still quit. If any newer folks are reading this and wondering what the future holds, stop wondering and just go with it. Post today and forget about tomorrow.
Do I still need to be here at this point? Isn’t my quit strong enough to make it alone? I don’t know for sure, and I don’t intend to find out. There has been a change in my mindset at this point. KTC isn’t just about quitting anymore. At this point, it’s like any other social media site. My friends are here. Their life events are here. They count on me to be here. Now, some people will argue that this place is just a virtual house and no “real” friends will ever come of it. That’s where you’re wrong. I can prove that with one picture.
Savannah 2015 - group photo (http://i1244.photobucket.com/albums/gg580/Radman74/Savannah%202015_zpsr5nvtrnl.jpg)
That photo was taken this past Saturday (my 1607th quit day) at the 4th annual Savannah, GA quitter get together. Every person in that photo is a KTC quitter, and every one of them is a friend. Some of them IÂ’ve known longer than others, and there are bonds that I never knew would form. That picture represents a total of 23,126 days of quit right there in one spot. Accountability does not exist in a stronger form than that.
Brothers and sisters, if you have not made real friends here, then you are not fully engaged. If you have not been to an organized meet to break bread with other quitters, then you are leaving some accountability on the table. Either way, you are missing out on part of what makes this place so great. I encourage all of you to build some bonds and make some waves on this site. I don’t use the word awesome very often, but I can honestly think of nothing else to describe it. To stand with 17 other folks from all walks of life and get along great due to the one common battle we’re fighting, to hear the similarities in the quit stories, to cast all differences aside, and to bond as brothers and sisters separated by thousands of miles – that is something that just cannot be explained.
I'll say it...That IS AWESOME!!!!!! 'oh yeah'
When quitting becomes fun, quitting becomes who you are and what you want to be. I ceases to become an obligation, it becomes a connection to others.
This is a great post.
Gentlemen, I think quitting just became fun
'clap'
Not being able come this year really left a void in me This week. Hoping for next years
Missed you, Kdip. You focus on getting healed up. There will be another shidig next year.
But, you know we don't do "hoping" around here. Assuming there won't be another catastrophe, we'll see you next February, if not before.
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one seven zero zero
17th floor feels good.
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one seven zero zero
17th floor feels good.
Damn straight it does!
Congrats Rad!
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These stories are truly inspirational for newbies like me. Thanks for posting this Rad and someday 1,700 will be a reality and not some far off galaxy. ODAAT. Thanks again.
King
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These stories are truly inspirational for newbies like me. Thanks for posting this Rad and someday 1,700 will be a reality and not some far off galaxy. ODAAT. Thanks again.
King
You're most welcome.
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Exactly 5 years ago I made a decision. I've been checking the box for option 1 ever since.
1. Quit.
2. Not quit.
These are the two choices for every day of our lives.
1827 days. Thanks to all quitters on this site.
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Day 3286 - I quit with all of you today.
If you did the math, you already that two days from now will be 9 years quit for this ole boy. I couldn't have done it alone. I haven't spent much time here recently, but I also haven't forgotten where I came from. KTC saved me. I came here today to do a little soul searching, and refresh the memories of where I started. I'm reminded that I should spend more time here.
Radman -renewed humility today.
NAFAR