DonkeyMN ---- Run!

[Athan]

I'm routinely amazed and saddened by those who try to escape but either can't or won't. The pleasure of that second pinch having faded so long ago, driven now only by addiction, each subsequent pinch only staving off a cave yet never satisfying. And freedom is so very close for them - but one decision away. 
So very pleased that you are free my brother - and thank-you for sticking around and providing a context within which myself and others could find the path to freedom.
Indebted to you.
IQWYT

[DonkeyMN]

Day 1,018

I feel a bit of a renewed vigor for this site and community.  I had a co-worker try to quit and get to day 5 before caving like a little bitch.  His 3rd attempt since I have killed the can.  It's funny, how he is 25, no kids, not married.  He knows it is terrible for him, but the extra reasons just aren't there to push him to stick with it.  Life is full of could have / should haves

Thank you to all the people that have stuck around, with me whether you knew it or not.  Funny, a thousand days seems like such a huge number but when you live it and look back... its a blink. 

ODAAT we live this life of misery, happiness, weakness, strength, hate and love.  Don't need nicotine for any of it.  Nope.

[DonkeyMN]

Day 905 --

Hi all, just wanted to put this here.  We are trying to get this out everywhere to ease the cost of what has suddenly become a very short notice trip to Florida for my sons 11 year old baseball team.  They play Cal Ripken league 70 major association, and after last weekend they won their regional and have qualified for the National tournament in Treasure Coast FL !!!

My kiddo scored the winning run, sliding under the tag in the championship game from a base hit up the middle!

https://www.gofundme.com/f/wpbr-11u-going-to-the-world-series?utm_source=customer&utm_medium=copy_link&utm_campaign=p_cp+share-sheet

Whether anyone donates or not, I just wanted to share this and my boy is the little smiler on the far left.  Life is good brothers, and it is only amplified not having any distractions like nicotine.

[DonkeyMN]

Day 574-

When asked if the craves ever stop by a quitter around 200 days, I responded and this should go in here

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Well, that depends on who you ask. For myself, it has not. I will go weeks, sometimes even a couple months now, and nothing. No thoughts, craves, whatever.... Then sometimes things hit you. I will share a story with you that happened only 2 weeks ago.

My 11 year old son whom I have played baseball with since he was 2 years old, coached him the last 5 years in the local small town league wanted to "step it up" to the big league, a travel team. This means he needed to attend a tryout. Well, parents were explicitly NOT ALLOWED at the 1.5 hr tryout. I didn't see it coming, but let me tell you.... when my boy walked away from me, into that complex to play ball without me.... I fucking lost it. I sat there lonely as you all felt on day 3. I didn't really have a plan for the next 1.5 hours. I went to the local sports store and fucked around for a half hour, but then, I drove around. I ended up back at the park and across the road was a C-store. I have not wanted to go get my ol' buddy Grizzly as bad as then, in the past 300 days.

I put in a stick of gum, and pulled out the phone and tried to pass time on KTC. If it would have been any worse, I would have made the texts / call to any other quitter. I was not prepared.

Sometimes you need to get some water, do some pushups, all the same things we did in those first 30 days just to get by. And you know what? It's ok to keep doing that. There is no shame. There is no shame in reminding yourself you need some help, because nicotine is still a naggy bitch.

Nice win!!

How did your boy do?

Sorry about not answering this, with the conversion and all, this was left in the dust.  Thank you to the Admin that moved this over from the old space!

There were 50 kids trying out and they made 3 teams - A, AA, AAA

He was good enough to make the AAA travel team.  We are ecstatic, and now realizing our summer is going to be dedicated to tournaments in various cities. 

[Batdad]

Day 574-

When asked if the craves ever stop by a quitter around 200 days, I responded and this should go in here

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Well, that depends on who you ask. For myself, it has not. I will go weeks, sometimes even a couple months now, and nothing. No thoughts, craves, whatever.... Then sometimes things hit you. I will share a story with you that happened only 2 weeks ago.

My 11 year old son whom I have played baseball with since he was 2 years old, coached him the last 5 years in the local small town league wanted to "step it up" to the big league, a travel team. This means he needed to attend a tryout. Well, parents were explicitly NOT ALLOWED at the 1.5 hr tryout. I didn't see it coming, but let me tell you.... when my boy walked away from me, into that complex to play ball without me.... I fucking lost it. I sat there lonely as you all felt on day 3. I didn't really have a plan for the next 1.5 hours. I went to the local sports store and fucked around for a half hour, but then, I drove around. I ended up back at the park and across the road was a C-store. I have not wanted to go get my ol' buddy Grizzly as bad as then, in the past 300 days.

I put in a stick of gum, and pulled out the phone and tried to pass time on KTC. If it would have been any worse, I would have made the texts / call to any other quitter. I was not prepared.

Sometimes you need to get some water, do some pushups, all the same things we did in those first 30 days just to get by. And you know what? It's ok to keep doing that. There is no shame. There is no shame in reminding yourself you need some help, because nicotine is still a naggy bitch.

Nice win!!

How did your boy do?

[DonkeyMN]

Day 574-

When asked if the craves ever stop by a quitter around 200 days, I responded and this should go in here

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Well, that depends on who you ask. For myself, it has not. I will go weeks, sometimes even a couple months now, and nothing. No thoughts, craves, whatever.... Then sometimes things hit you. I will share a story with you that happened only 2 weeks ago.

My 11 year old son whom I have played baseball with since he was 2 years old, coached him the last 5 years in the local small town league wanted to "step it up" to the big league, a travel team. This means he needed to attend a tryout. Well, parents were explicitly NOT ALLOWED at the 1.5 hr tryout. I didn't see it coming, but let me tell you.... when my boy walked away from me, into that complex to play ball without me.... I fucking lost it. I sat there lonely as you all felt on day 3. I didn't really have a plan for the next 1.5 hours. I went to the local sports store and fucked around for a half hour, but then, I drove around. I ended up back at the park and across the road was a C-store. I have not wanted to go get my ol' buddy Grizzly as bad as then, in the past 300 days.

I put in a stick of gum, and pulled out the phone and tried to pass time on KTC. If it would have been any worse, I would have made the texts / call to any other quitter. I was not prepared.

Sometimes you need to get some water, do some pushups, all the same things we did in those first 30 days just to get by. And you know what? It's ok to keep doing that. There is no shame. There is no shame in reminding yourself you need some help, because nicotine is still a naggy bitch.

[ChickDip]

Congrats on 5-0-0 days quit! Very well done sir!
Keep doing what you do and proud to quit with you!

Congrats Donkey!!

[FLLipOut]

Congratulations Donkey on that half dangling quit!!!

[Skolvikings]

Congrats Brother, proud to be in your corner.

[BrianG]

Congrats on 5-0-0 days quit! Very well done sir!
Keep doing what you do and proud to quit with you!

[DonkeyMN]

Day 451 -

I posted this in May18 yesterday and wanted to put it in here, as a reminder. Some stuff you write on here might not get seen, but I want to keep it where I can see it again.

This shit right here is why we need to be reminded we are addicts.

Does it get annoying or repetitive to put your screenname and a number down, day after day? Yes. No shit it does.

But I know myself. The weak lying to myself side. The whisper of, "well, I am strong now. I dont know why I need this...." Fucking addict speak, to quote WW.

It is part of the price to pay for being quit. A daily promise to others here but more importantly, TO YOURSELF. Being honest and keeping that weak ass, lying side in check where it belongs.

Quit fucking lying to yourself. Who is holding you accountable? Someone else, or your own brass balls?

What a glorious feeling it is to look back on an intro and read back your own words... like another person wrote them. I dont think about dip, unless I am here. And that is a good thing. Never forget what happened, learn from the past.

[ChickDip]

Day 366-

First I want to say thank you to all the people that messaged me either on the forum here or texting to congratulate me for a year of quit. (did you all hear that? A YEAR OF QUIT!)

I had no idea what I was walking into here when I signed up one calendar year ago. On this day one year ago exactly, I was sitting in my car after driving our turn for the kids' band carpool trying to figure out how to use this site on a smart phone. I remember it very clearly, almost as if it is an out of body experience now like I left the person I used to be and entered into a new mindset.

I try my best to help new quitters now. Lord knows I can't get to everyone, not even close. I wish I could but I am also a Husband, Father of 2, Cub Scout den leader, Baseball, Football, Basketball head coach, Fisherman, Hunter.... oh, and I am expected to work 40 hours a week. The most amazing part of all of that, is I learned to do it all without dipping. I have made it through all the tests.

Now, I have to do it again. I have read on here that the seasonal triggers will still be there, just not as bad. I believe it.

Here we go on year 2 'oh yeah'

Congrats again brother!! ODAAT

Ok! Donkey donkey ...congrats on your 1 year quitversary!!

[MN_Engineer]

Day 366-

First I want to say thank you to all the people that messaged me either on the forum here or texting to congratulate me for a year of quit. (did you all hear that? A YEAR OF QUIT!)

I had no idea what I was walking into here when I signed up one calendar year ago. On this day one year ago exactly, I was sitting in my car after driving our turn for the kids' band carpool trying to figure out how to use this site on a smart phone. I remember it very clearly, almost as if it is an out of body experience now like I left the person I used to be and entered into a new mindset.

I try my best to help new quitters now. Lord knows I can't get to everyone, not even close. I wish I could but I am also a Husband, Father of 2, Cub Scout den leader, Baseball, Football, Basketball head coach, Fisherman, Hunter.... oh, and I am expected to work 40 hours a week. The most amazing part of all of that, is I learned to do it all without dipping. I have made it through all the tests.

Now, I have to do it again. I have read on here that the seasonal triggers will still be there, just not as bad. I believe it.

Here we go on year 2 'oh yeah'

Congrats again brother!! ODAAT

[DonkeyMN]

Day 366-

First I want to say thank you to all the people that messaged me either on the forum here or texting to congratulate me for a year of quit. (did you all hear that? A YEAR OF QUIT!)

I had no idea what I was walking into here when I signed up one calendar year ago. On this day one year ago exactly, I was sitting in my car after driving our turn for the kids' band carpool trying to figure out how to use this site on a smart phone. I remember it very clearly, almost as if it is an out of body experience now like I left the person I used to be and entered into a new mindset.

I try my best to help new quitters now. Lord knows I can't get to everyone, not even close. I wish I could but I am also a Husband, Father of 2, Cub Scout den leader, Baseball, Football, Basketball head coach, Fisherman, Hunter.... oh, and I am expected to work 40 hours a week. The most amazing part of all of that, is I learned to do it all without dipping. I have made it through all the tests.

Now, I have to do it again. I have read on here that the seasonal triggers will still be there, just not as bad. I believe it.

Here we go on year 2 'oh yeah'

[mike2017a]

Congrats on 1 year! I hadn't read you intro before today, that's some great stuff!