Day 81 and I am as angry as I was on day 2!!
I just want to walk up to someone and jack them in the face. Not really sure why or for what reason, besides the fact that I am straight up pissed the %$#@ off!!
Nicotine is one nasty drug, the withdrawal and healing for it has been and continues to be absolutely insane!!!
Just stay the course this too will pass. Beware of the 120s some folks have a return of the fog
You've been victorious over nicotine for 81 days and have been a help in quit for other quitters. Hold on to that.
I quit with you today.
Every one of us is behind you Brown. The rage came and went for me for most of a year. Probably around day 270 I started to get back to even keel a little more. This rage is nothing like you'd feel if you caved and got yourself cancer. You can do this big fella.
Yep these guys are right. Comes on quick, stealthily, and without warning. You'll get a few funks and rages along this journey. You're doing the right thing, posting what your going through and reaching out.
Hang in there Brown. As said above, some challenges are still ahead of you. You can get through each one, it does get better.
We all use to hide behind our dip. Now we face it head on like a man! I still have those days, seems like when I'm driving behind some dumbass texting going down the road is when I want to rip someone a new asshole. Walking away works but sometimes I have to vent and most of the time it's the smart asses I work with that gets the brunt of the rage! Quit on brown your doing great! Damn proud to be quit with you!
Nobody said this would be easy, and I'm not saying you did either. At 80+ days, you've earned it, we recognize that, and we've been there before. Hence the vortex of support.
I just past the 1000 day mark...that bitch, still whispers to me. Point is, she'll always be there - we're addicts. And we have to live with that. But the addiction doesn't own me anymore; I own it. Keep crushin' it Brown.
Thank you to all of you. It is a long journey, and I know that thanks to all the wisdom on this site. Sometimes, just sometimes though, I wish there was a cure.
There will never be a cure, and I did this to myself, so I will continue to fight and battle. And when I think I am too weak and want to cave, I will reach out and lean on my brothers and sisters so that I cannot fail. That is my promise.
Yeah Brownie, you are right on track man.
For me days 100-150 were the hardest. Sort of a let down after HOF... Guess i thought around 100 i was going to feel some sort of new eureka moment... life changing.
Only thing I did around 150 was realize that this will be with me the rest of my life - the 'whispers', the mind tricks, the tricky nic bitch... just less frequent - but always lurking.
At that point - 150 days or so - i decided to sack up and face it like a man. There are people out there with sick kids, missing limbs, no money or job, fucked up lives...
And all i gotta do is quit tobacco?
Easy! No problem.
Keep the faith brother, I'm quitting with you today - JB
