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Title: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on October 24, 2018, 12:34:10 PM
Here is the history from the old site.  I'm not transferring it over since so much of what made me who I am today wasn't in my posts, but in the responses of the KTC brotherhood.  I will make comments from here forward as time passes. 

https://www.tapatalk.com/groups/qs_xtreme/2nd-time-retread-t12211.html

Today is my day 502.  500 came and went like a wildfire, with a lot of atta boys and congratulations, and I'm still here posting one day at a time.  I've thought about leaving.  Especially with the new format, it would have been easy to fade out just as many did during that time.  500 is a big milestone, it would be easy to fade out after that too.  Yet, I'm still here and still involved.  Why?  I've been doing some thinking about that as I watched yet another brother pull away from the site last night. 

I'm here for the friends that I've made.  I'm here for the friends I've yet to make.  I'm here for the newbies and the vets and the comrades and the old timers.  I love the quit meets and seeing other people that have made the conscious effort to kick nicotine right in the teeth, to stare at death and tell it to fuck off.  KTC has become a big part of my life.  Not the macro though.  It's the micro.  It's the call in the middle of the night to talk somebody off the ledge.  It's the last minute meatup with a quitter I've talked to for a year but never met in person.  It's the life sharing, the relationships, the thought that my jacked up story might just help somebody else somewhere down the road.  So here I am at day 502 with every intention of staying around long term and slaying nicotine in every way imaginable. 
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on October 24, 2018, 02:05:29 PM
It took me a long time to figure it out, but there is no end of the road.  There is only today.  I used to look forward to day 100.  It came and went, and the fanfare went with it.  More daily grind.  Then day 200 came and went, and more grind.  Day 365 was a huge one for me, but it also passed and I posted a 366 afterward.  I just passed 500, with 501 and 502 following.  Now I no longer look for the milestones, but I look for today.

How can I positively affect my life and those around me TODAY?  The past is past.  I can learn from it, but I can't relive it.  I can plan for the future, but I can't live it yet.  Today, this very moment I can choose.  And today I chose not only not to dip but to do everything I can to help others have the strength not to use.  The power of living in the present is huge.  We flippantly say ODAAT,  but to really sit back and understand the ramifications and to live that life is life changing.  It's a deal game changer.  Today I will not buy that can, I will not take that dip, and I will help you do the same.  Quit. 
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: 69franx on October 24, 2018, 02:59:27 PM
Kick ass brother, so glad you're sticking around!
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on November 07, 2018, 07:50:48 AM
This past weekend in a nutshell....all I can say is wow. 

I went to a quitter meet up.  This wasn't my first quitter meet up, but for some reason this meet impacted me on multiple levels.  If you've never gone to a quit meet, you owe it to yourself and your quit to check one out.  I've met about 40 of the fine people on this site and have never left a meet as less than friends.  I've met people that I had issues at one time on the boards that in person, blew me away.  This meet was a three day weekend of awesomeness that I'll never forget.  I flew to Cleveland, Ohio to meet up with a bunch of people that I had never met in person.  Let that sink in.  I had never met these people in person, yet they felt closer to me than most of my family.  A couple of them, I had chatted with every damn day and was on a very personal basis with.  The rest, not as much but this weekend solidified a friendship with every one of them.  So off I flew to Cleveland. 

Clemte - what a masshole!  Great to finally meet this badass in person.  He'd been instrumental to my early quit and his poking and prodding probably pushed me to where I am today more than anything. 

69Franx - brother from another mother!  This top notch quitter has been an inspiration to me for a long time and was great to finally meet in person.  Amazing guy with an amazing girlfriend and family.

BillW - the man that set this whole thing in motion.  I honestly thought Bill was in his 60's for some damn reason.  Maybe it's the level of maturity he shows.  He's actually a year older than me and a man of great integrity.  Great to meet him!

CleAlt -we had gotten sideways a couple times on the board, but this dude is an amazing quitter and great to get to know him.  He showed me  how to do things in a Browns way, but I had to remind him that quitting was a win.  j/k

Cleveland Fan - what a host.  grilling burgers and brats, refilling brews, got me a new text buddy even if he did steal my girlfriend.  And his wife might even be cooler than he is!

Miker - I was prepared to really hate this asshole, and I couldn't have been more wrong.  His insight and words of wisdom and encouragement were amazing and we had a really great conversation toward the end of my stay.

Chewie - The guy that made all this possible.  By keeping the site open, that's the only reason I met all these people, the only reason most of us are quit, the only reason that Cleveland fan now has a blow up sheep.  He literally may have saved our lives, and is a huge example of how people should live life.  Kindness, humility, manliness...Chewie is top notch. 

I ate meals, drank drinks, had convo, and made friends that impacted me and will continue to impact me for a long time.  I watched the Chiefs kick the hell out of the Browns, but I saw some Browns traditions and fans that were awesome hosts.  Love that place!  I spent too much and took a day off work that I really shouldn't have, but in the end, the memories and impact of this weekend will last long after those issues are gone.  Love all these guys, and can't wait to do it again.

IQWYT.  Broc 516

Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on January 24, 2019, 10:12:40 AM
Day 594...

Why the hell am I not waiting till 600 to post this.  Well...because Milestones.

Milestones make me crave a dip so bad.  It's the nic bitch lying in wait, and my brain thinking, shit..I deserve a reward for making it this far.  Just one won't hurt me.  Maybe just a can for when things are rough.  Why not?  So, I'm standing there at the new C-store by my house a couple days ago, scanning the cancer wall.  I'm not sure why I still scan the cancer wall, but I often find myself doing just that.  I'm over a freaking year and a half quit!  And here I am looking at the wall of cancer, telling myself not now, not today.  Well at the new QT, lo and behold, they stock Smoky Mountain in 3 flavors!  So I bought a can.  I haven't done fake in quite a while, but there it is...this is milestone week and I'm craving, and I'll be damned if I'm going to go back to slavery!  Like my buddy Miker says, don't sweat the small shit like fake...keep the main thing the main thing.  I agree.

6 days till 600, and that day will come and go, and  then 601, 602, 603...that little voice will start to still and maybe die off a little....but it'll wait and be back in my head around day 690....and I'll be standing in line with the same decision to be made.  All that to say this, I made my promise, I'm quit for today.  Let tomorrow take care of itself.  And never let that guard down.  I'm quit and I'm proud to be quit with all you quitters. 
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: worktowin on January 24, 2019, 04:08:50 PM
Day 594...

Why the hell am I not waiting till 600 to post this.  Well...because Milestones.

Milestones make me crave a dip so bad.  It's the nic bitch lying in wait, and my brain thinking, shit..I deserve a reward for making it this far.  Just one won't hurt me.  Maybe just a can for when things are rough.  Why not?  So, I'm standing there at the new C-store by my house a couple days ago, scanning the cancer wall.  I'm not sure why I still scan the cancer wall, but I often find myself doing just that.  I'm over a freaking year and a half quit!  And here I am looking at the wall of cancer, telling myself not now, not today.  Well at the new QT, lo and behold, they stock Smoky Mountain in 3 flavors!  So I bought a can.  I haven't done fake in quite a while, but there it is...this is milestone week and I'm craving, and I'll be damned if I'm going to go back to slavery!  Like my buddy Miker says, don't sweat the small shit like fake...keep the main thing the main thing.  I agree.

6 days till 600, and that day will come and go, and  then 601, 602, 603...that little voice will start to still and maybe die off a little....but it'll wait and be back in my head around day 690....and I'll be standing in line with the same decision to be made.  All that to say this, I made my promise, I'm quit for today.  Let tomorrow take care of itself.  And never let that guard down.  I'm quit and I'm proud to be quit with all you quitters.

594 days ago you were a certified basket case.  A complete wreck.  Almost as if someone had a chain tied to each arm, each leg, and that other really small appendage and those chains were hooked up to individual tow trucks (see what I did there, Broc?) going in 4 big and 1 really small different directions.  Now, you are free.  Craves are reminders of the win, my friend.  Enjoy them, because they do become much less frequent, and some of us really enjoy the reflection of winning.

It is an honor to quit with you.
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Rick Jr on January 26, 2019, 11:19:09 AM
Such an awesome Story to read! Thanks for sharing and congrats! Proud to be Quit with you Today!
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: SRains918 on January 30, 2019, 08:11:10 AM
600...

Holy shit dude...

600...

I'm usually pretty good at puking semi-profound thoughts through my keyboard, but I'm tired this morning. Congrats on 6th floor brother. I'm proud AF to be quit with you today and every other day, and you need to know that it's unlikely I'd be here at this point without your support along the way. Thank you for all you do, even the shit that's annoying!!!

 'Bow' 'clap' :rustaf1: 'hit it' 'Finger' roflmao
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: 69franx on February 12, 2019, 01:45:43 PM
I know I'm late here for the 600, but congrats again. Keep doing what you've been doing brother
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on February 13, 2019, 05:19:23 PM
Day 614

I've been reflecting a lot today about what this site has done for me.  It's kept me quit, that's for sure.  But it's more...it's lots more.  There's people that are here just to quit and that's ok.  Take what you need and leave the rest.  But then, there's people like me, living life one day at a time with no real direction, not a lot super positive going my way.  I had a wonderful daughter, but limited friends, users and takers, fuck buddies, day to day finances, day to day life decisions....etc.  I was one slip away from a day 1 in my quit and a couple slips away from slipping back into depression, emptiness, walking out of good things just because I didn't feel I deserved them. 

On this site, I developed friendships that are deeper than anything I have in my day to day life.  I've got people here that I can talk to about absolutely anything.  I've got mentors and friends and occasionally I get to help somebody out myself.  And I find myself recently filled with new drive, new passion, new opportunities that I'm excited to grab by the horns.  I feel like I'm better able to show my daughter what a man should be like, to set that example for her.  If I trace it back, I think I owe it to this site, to this simple quitting nicotine one day at a time site where I forged some of the deepest friendships I've ever had.  So thanks to everybody here.  The ones that dished out the tough love, the ones that took time out of their days to talk to me, the ones that cared enough to get involved.  I really appreciate all of you guys (and a few ladies) much more than you could ever know.  Quit on!
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Batdad on February 13, 2019, 06:43:03 PM
Hell yeah!! It’s amazing how we can grow one day at a time! Thanks for being a part of so many lives!!
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: SRains918 on February 13, 2019, 07:02:04 PM
Proud AF to be quit with you young man, and I’m excited for you!
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: 69franx on February 13, 2019, 10:11:36 PM
Awesome stuff brother! Having direction and purpose keeps a man sane, and happy. You seem to be finding all of that now. Now keep at it and don't forget it, don't take it for granted and you can be happy and successful for life. Keep spreading the word and touching lives here. As you know, it helps you and whomever you reach out to. Damn proud to quit with you today and looking forward to quitting with you again tomorrow
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Gas on February 13, 2019, 11:36:20 PM
Love you brother
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: worktowin on February 14, 2019, 03:24:05 PM
This is what this site is really all about.  Brotherhood.  Accountability.  Winning together instead of losing alone.

Quitting nicotine hurts more than anyone that hasn't done it could possibly understand.  But the personal growth that we attain through the process of learning how to win is the real reward.

Along the way, a lot of us have gained some lifelong friends.  I'm honored to call Bryan one of those friends.

Congratulations, man.  You've earned this.
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Athan on February 15, 2019, 12:00:14 PM
If you were a banker you would be called Barclay's-Saurus and you would throw around hunert dollar bills like fun coupons. And I would be your most favored and trusted friend.
I love you
bye
Title: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on July 23, 2015, 04:31:00 PM
I've been a can a day dipper of cope wintergreen for 10 years. Smoked a cigar a day for 4 years before that. I just turned 37 years old and been nic free since 9pm on Saturday night, July 18th, so I'm 114 hours without a dip in my mouth. I've been going through a phase where I'd throw one in for about 10 or 15 min, then spit it out cause I was so sick of it. Decided enough was enough and quit cold turkey, no dip, no fake dip, no seeds, no nothing. I'm very active in the crossfit community, and do a WOD 3-4 times a week, staying busy at work, and eating a strict diet of macros, set amount of protein, carbs, fats. Yesterday, I felt great with no dip in my mouth, but today it's like I'm back at day 1. Cold sweats, foggy head, exhausted. But can't sleep at night. And all my thoughts have been really disjointed so sorry if this has been hard to read. Looking forward to workout tonight. And I'm not buying or putting any of that shit in my mouth either.

Bryan in Texas
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on July 23, 2015, 04:33:00 PM
Yeah, and obviously, I joined Aug of 2012, and never have posted. That's about how long I've been trying to quit. This right here is the second longest I've ever been so far, but it will last. I'm not going to cave. I'm better than that nic bitch.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: QuitInCA on July 23, 2015, 05:06:00 PM
bdunn, Welcome

Go through everything you own, and flush every last remnant of nic down the toilet. Cigars, cigs, dip, snuff, whatever, flush it. After that, get involved on this site. This is one of the best decisions you will ever make in your life. I look forward to seeing you around

Head here for your quit group and post your promise to the group that you will not dip today: Pre-HOF October 2015 Group topic/11203031/ (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/11203031/)

-QuitInCA Day 319 without nicotine
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: normjr88 on July 23, 2015, 05:20:00 PM
Welcome bdunn, I've been dipping almost as long as you've been alive. Some bad ass quitters in the October group. Introduce yourself and enjoy the ride. It's gonna suck until it doesn't. One day at a time and post roll every damn day.

Also a Texan 'oh yeah'
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Joliver on July 23, 2015, 05:38:00 PM
Congrats on getting to the point of being sick of the shit enough to toss it.

I found that working out is easier without dip, once the nicotine is out of your system your body isn't stressed during the workout making the workout more effective, just something to look forward too.

Keep up the fight man.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Joliver on July 23, 2015, 05:38:00 PM
Oh, and welcome to the October FUN BAGS!
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on July 23, 2015, 06:47:00 PM
I posted roll. Think I did it correctly, but might have gotten my name mixed with the old timers. I'll try to figure it out in the morning. About to go get a workout. I'm really excited to see if my workout times get better when I get all the nicotine out of my system. Thanks for the support. I came here because I need a little push sometimes and I don't want to fail.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: KingNothing on July 23, 2015, 07:15:00 PM
Welcome BD. Take it one day at a time, post roll everyday and you will do it. Quit with you today man!
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: geis2597 on July 23, 2015, 07:38:00 PM
Welcome Bryan!

Glad to have you on board. I'm Brian from Oklahoma. Bout to go mow the lawn w/o dip which is a lot easier in this July heat without dry mouth.

Anyhow, badass COLD TURKEY is the only way to quit. I'm convinced because I've "tried" all the other ways. No "trying" here on KYC. We DO here. We QUIT here. Our daily decision is not whether we are or are not going to use nic, but to figure out what we're going to do to cope and make it through the day. Using is NOT an option. Once you let it be an option again that's where you cave.

Stay strong. You're not in this alone.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: pab1964 on July 23, 2015, 07:53:00 PM
Bryan my friend as you can tell already this shits tough. But if you post roll EDD and choose not to give in to the mental suck of the quit you will succeed! Being fee from the olé bitch is awesome. Everything you do without dip is so much better. Remember the mind will be rewiring for awhile so go with it and don't freak out. The fog will come and go ,just drink plenty of water. Get numbers from your quit brothers and sisters, you may need them,most of us did. You will also be an angry asshole, so be prepared, don't take it out on the family, they didn't put the shit in your mouth, you did. Walk away come in here post your angry ass messages we've all done that also but it's much better cuss,fuss, bitch and scream here than home or work! Quit on! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend!
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on July 24, 2015, 10:42:00 AM
today's not too bad. I posted roll this morning, correctly this time and I will not use nicotine products today. I'm pretty excited, I added 20 pounds to my overhead squat max, as well as 20 pounds to my power snatch last night! I'm sure some of that was quitting dip related. Physically from getting that crap out of my system, and mentally from believing in myself. This is day 6, and by 9pm tonight, I will be 144 days dip free. Love the support here.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: quark on July 24, 2015, 02:27:00 PM
Quote from: bdunn
today's not too bad. I posted roll this morning, correctly this time and I will not use nicotine products today. I'm pretty excited, I added 20 pounds to my overhead squat max, as well as 20 pounds to my power snatch last night! I'm sure some of that was quitting dip related. Physically from getting that crap out of my system, and mentally from believing in myself. This is day 6, and by 9pm tonight, I will be 144 days dip free. Love the support here.
Once I added cardio to my lifting routine, I craved less: started running again and added an extra day of biking. Definitely agree with you about the mental aspect: when you know deep down you are a slave to a drug and too cowardly to give it up, it makes you see yourself as small and limited.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on July 25, 2015, 02:10:00 PM
I've actually been craving running lately!
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: pab1964 on July 25, 2015, 02:21:00 PM
Quote from: bdunn
I've actually been craving running lately!
My brother I'm afraid there's a chance you may always crave. I'm on day 210 and craved mowing grass today. So what, let's do this! That's the addict in us, not caving to it is the ktc in us! Quit on!
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: ChickDip on July 25, 2015, 02:56:00 PM
Quote from: pab1964
Quote from: bdunn
I've actually been craving running lately!
My brother I'm afraid there's a chance you may always crave. I'm on day 210 and craved mowing grass today. So what, let's do this! That's the addict in us, not caving to it is the ktc in us! Quit on!
glad you came in again today with your promise, I'm watching you dunndunn. hehe

~the chick
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on July 26, 2015, 06:31:00 PM
Craved hard at the rodeo last night. So many people with a fat lip of turd in. But I resisted the urge I had to bum a dip off a complete stranger. I keep thinking about the last time I quit and caved at day 20. 14 months ago to the day. If I hadn't been a pussy and caved, I'd be 415 days quit, and $1800 richer, prob wouldn't have this jacked up tooth cavity in my mouth. I'm strong today because I'm a strong motherfucker, and that nic bitch isn't going to overpower my resolve to stay quit.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Grievous Angel on July 26, 2015, 08:15:00 PM
Quote from: bdunn
Yeah, and obviously, I joined Aug of 2012, and never have posted. That's about how long I've been trying to quit. This right here is the second longest I've ever been so far, but it will last. I'm not going to cave. I'm better than that nic bitch.
LOL! I did the same thing but it was around six months before--not three years. HA!

Talk about getting up the nerve.

Well I'm glad you did. But now you've put your pen to paper. If you were like me you looked around and saw this place was pretty serious about quitting, accountability, brotherhood, and SUCCESS. I gotta be honest--I don't think I was ready. Or I was chickenshit. Or just not quite disgusted enough with my pathetic self.

Well I'm glad you finally worked up to posting up. You've done it now--don't let us down.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on July 12, 2017, 03:05:00 PM
So I couldn't find any intro here that I had done in the past. I guess it would be cool to see something old and odd that I had posted for perspective, but I just don't know how that would help me now. I've been here twice before. I don't even remember my first quit group. I flamed out super fast. In my second, I damn near made it to HOF and I regret that cave oh so much. That was the Dumpster Fire Oct16. BSR, one of my mentors is celebrating a year quit today, and here I am on day 33 due to being a pussy and caving. As far as reasons for caving other than putting nicotine in my mouth, I let myself get uninvolved with the site. Work got crazy and I put it was ahead of a quit. I smoked a cigar with buddies, and came back here proclaiming that it was just a cigar and it wasn't a gateway to get back to dipping. Man, I was just indignant about peoples reaction to it. I left on horrible terms. And they were all right of course. Within a couple weeks, I was back to finger fucking a can. And within 2 months, my consumption had gone UP. I spent the next few months dipping a can and a half a day.

My reasons for quitting this time are more pure. A lot of the reason is health issues that I've been worried about. My throat was chronically sore. I gutted all my spit. Never had a spitter at all. Occasionally, I'd spit the first couple times on a new dip, and gut the rest. I started thinking more and more about throat cancer, stomach cancer, etc, and getting scared. And I have an 8 year old daughter. She's my world and her momma isn't exactly great parenting material. If I die, her mom is about all she'd have and her chances of being a productive member of society would be about gone. And all those issues for a fix, for a high, for a weed. So I came back here, faced my past transgressions, and started posting again.

I'm at Day 33 now. I'm quit hard with a great group of quitters in Sept17. I'm ready to face those demons daily for my health, and for my little bitty family. In the first week of my quit, I had a talk with my daughter about my dip habit, nicotine, what it does to you, and why she should never start. Never too soon to have that convo. I was never that ninja dipper that I hear about on here. My family, coworkers, friends, etc all knew I dipped. My kiddo just thought it was "dirt stuff". Well she knows what it is now. I'm sad I ever tried it, but I'm glad I'm on this site with you great people.

I started dipping 10 years ago on a freaking dare when I was 28 years old! But I'm quit now. 33 days and going. I'm going to use this intro to post updates on my quit journey.

Bryan
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: imBushe on July 12, 2017, 04:49:00 PM
I applaud you for talking with your daughter. It is hard to admit to somebody who thinks you hung the moon, that you are not as perfect as they think you are. I know what it is like to go so far and cave. You can do this if you want to. Be here every day. Give your number to complete strangers and let them harass you non stop like it is something they enjoy. I guarantee this will piss you off, but guess what, you will love them for it in the end!!!!! Come hang out with us in June17. We like people.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Thumblewort on July 13, 2017, 09:26:00 AM
Not a habit, it's an addiction, no wonder you can't quit. Don't you have an original intro somewhere?
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: PhuctUp on July 13, 2017, 04:07:00 PM
Quote from: Thumblewort
Not a habit, it's an addiction, no wonder you can't quit. Don't you have an original intro somewhere?
Not speaking for Brocc, but if you're going to be that negative, why not save your insults for people NOT quitting so damn hard right now. And in the FIRST sentence, he said he couldn't find an intro that he'd done.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: sfurze76 on July 13, 2017, 04:10:00 PM
]PROUD to quit with you brother
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on July 13, 2017, 04:43:00 PM
Quote from: Thumblewort
Not a habit, it's an addiction, no wonder you can't quit. Don't you have an original intro somewhere?
Man I'm glad I'm not you, negative nancy.

She understands habits...she doesn't understand the difference between that and addiction yet. I'm sure we'll have other convos. And I can quit. I am Quit. 34 days of quit now, asswipe.

If you care about my original intro so much, why don't you find it, then PM a mod to merge these two? Or just ask a question that I've already provided the answer to, that seems easier.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on July 13, 2017, 04:51:00 PM
Here ya go. Feel free to kick me in the nuts all you want.

topic/11249272/1/ (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/11249272/1/)
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Bulldog0311 on July 13, 2017, 06:46:00 PM
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Here ya go. Feel free to kick me in the nuts all you want.

topic/11249272/1/ (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/11249272/1/)
Ok.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Bulldog0311 on July 13, 2017, 07:00:00 PM
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: Thumblewort
Not a habit, it's an addiction, no wonder you can't quit. Don't you have an original intro somewhere?
Man I'm glad I'm not you, negative nancy.

She understands habits...she doesn't understand the difference between that and addiction yet. I'm sure we'll have other convos. And I can quit. I am Quit. 34 days of quit now, asswipe.

If you care about my original intro so much, why don't you find it, then PM a mod to merge these two? Or just ask a question that I've already provided the answer to, that seems easier.
Wow. Just fucking wow.

You'd hate to be Thumblewort?

You should be honored to be Thumblewort. He has a three year legendary quit and has helped hundreds of addicts get quit while you were caving. Twice.

To be honest with you as a two time caver you should expect the vets to kick your balls around a bit. For as an innocuous a comment as Thumblewort made for you to start calling him names really pissed me off. You yourself said you got indignant and caved back in the day. I think you're getting indignant again. Maybe you need to look at that.

His comment wasn't even that harsh man. With two caves under your belt it's reasonable to assume you may not be getting it. When you called this a habit I thought the same thing, "Maybe this dude can't admit he's an addict." Thumblewort's response was low key man and you shit on him. Maybe you should look at his quit and ask him for advice instead of putting your granny panties on and calling people names for telling you the truth.

My .02 cents.

Take it or leave it. Use it or don't. My suspicion is I'm talking to the addict inside broccoli-saurus and that dude can kiss my ass. I hope the quitter in Broccoli-Saurus will get the message and understand it. Stay quit man.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: AppleJack on July 13, 2017, 09:27:00 PM
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: Thumblewort
Not a habit, it's an addiction, no wonder you can't quit. Don't you have an original intro somewhere?
Man I'm glad I'm not you, negative nancy.

She understands habits...she doesn't understand the difference between that and addiction yet. I'm sure we'll have other convos. And I can quit. I am Quit. 34 days of quit now, asswipe.

If you care about my original intro so much, why don't you find it, then PM a mod to merge these two? Or just ask a question that I've already provided the answer to, that seems easier.
Hey... 3rd time around boy... STFU.

Thumble owned his shit the first time. He's a stud.
I owned my shit the first time. I'm a stud.

Ya feel me?
The. First. Time.

You're trying.
Again.
For the 3rd time.

If it were up to me you'd be gone because of your weak taint.

Keep your head down.
Quit.
Keep your false bravado to yourself.
Quit.
Own it this time.
Quit.

One and done. That's how real Quitters do it.
You have to prove yourself to us true vets.
Until you do... STFU.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: sfurze76 on July 13, 2017, 10:52:00 PM
Quote from: AppleJack
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: Thumblewort
Not a habit, it's an addiction, no wonder you can't quit. Don't you have an original intro somewhere?
Man I'm glad I'm not you, negative nancy.

She understands habits...she doesn't understand the difference between that and addiction yet. I'm sure we'll have other convos. And I can quit. I am Quit. 34 days of quit now, asswipe.

If you care about my original intro so much, why don't you find it, then PM a mod to merge these two? Or just ask a question that I've already provided the answer to, that seems easier.
Hey... 3rd time around boy... STFU.

Thumble owned his shit the first time. He's a stud.
I owned my shit the first time. I'm a stud.

Ya feel me?
The. First. Time.

You're trying.
Again.
For the 3rd time.

If it were up to me you'd be gone because of your weak taint.

Keep your head down.
Quit.
Keep your false bravado to yourself.
Quit.
Own it this time.
Quit.

One and done. That's how real Quitters do it.
You have to prove yourself to us true vets.
Until you do... STFU.



hey Applejacks nice name a fruity cerel

i quit a few times come shit on my intro

you are a big man one and done ( that's what she said)

Broc admits he caved before unlike some that are probably still posting they are quit and have caved but don't have the balls to admit it cause they are to weak to face they caved

i am glad to quit with Broc and glad he is in my group cause we are a strong group and we got each others back unlike other groups that have a lot of in fighting and nothing anyone says can take that away from us

so take your green and pink sprinkled name and post on someone who thinks your words mean something
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on July 13, 2017, 11:03:00 PM
Quote from: AppleJack
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: Thumblewort
Not a habit, it's an addiction, no wonder you can't quit. Don't you have an original intro somewhere?
Man I'm glad I'm not you, negative nancy.

She understands habits...she doesn't understand the difference between that and addiction yet. I'm sure we'll have other convos. And I can quit. I am Quit. 34 days of quit now, asswipe.

If you care about my original intro so much, why don't you find it, then PM a mod to merge these two? Or just ask a question that I've already provided the answer to, that seems easier.
Hey... 3rd time around boy... STFU.

Thumble owned his shit the first time. He's a stud.
I owned my shit the first time. I'm a stud.

Ya feel me?
The. First. Time.

You're trying.
Again.
For the 3rd time.

If it were up to me you'd be gone because of your weak taint.

Keep your head down.
Quit.
Keep your false bravado to yourself.
Quit.
Own it this time.
Quit.

One and done. That's how real Quitters do it.
You have to prove yourself to us true vets.
Until you do... STFU.



I'm proud of you and your accomplishments. I haven't had them...yet. However, there's plenty of people that have failed and came back from it. Here's some in the business world.

https://www.entrepreneur.com/slideshow/219445 (https://www.entrepreneur.com/slideshow/219445)

There's a few in the quit world too. Medic from October16 is a name that comes to mind.

So don't trash me...you don't know me and you have no idea what I'm capable of.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on July 13, 2017, 11:05:00 PM
Quote from: Bulldog0311
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: Thumblewort
Not a habit, it's an addiction, no wonder you can't quit. Don't you have an original intro somewhere?
Man I'm glad I'm not you, negative nancy.

She understands habits...she doesn't understand the difference between that and addiction yet. I'm sure we'll have other convos. And I can quit. I am Quit. 34 days of quit now, asswipe.

If you care about my original intro so much, why don't you find it, then PM a mod to merge these two? Or just ask a question that I've already provided the answer to, that seems easier.
Wow. Just fucking wow.

You'd hate to be Thumblewort?

You should be honored to be Thumblewort. He has a three year legendary quit and has helped hundreds of addicts get quit while you were caving. Twice.

To be honest with you as a two time caver you should expect the vets to kick your balls around a bit. For as an innocuous a comment as Thumblewort made for you to start calling him names really pissed me off. You yourself said you got indignant and caved back in the day. I think you're getting indignant again. Maybe you need to look at that.

His comment wasn't even that harsh man. With two caves under your belt it's reasonable to assume you may not be getting it. When you called this a habit I thought the same thing, "Maybe this dude can't admit he's an addict." Thumblewort's response was low key man and you shit on him. Maybe you should look at his quit and ask him for advice instead of putting your granny panties on and calling people names for telling you the truth.

My .02 cents.

Take it or leave it. Use it or don't. My suspicion is I'm talking to the addict inside broccoli-saurus and that dude can kiss my ass. I hope the quitter in Broccoli-Saurus will get the message and understand it. Stay quit man.
He said I can't quit.

In reality I am quit. In the past, I have failed, but that doesn't define who I am today.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: AppleJack on July 13, 2017, 11:13:00 PM
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: AppleJack
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: Thumblewort
Not a habit, it's an addiction, no wonder you can't quit. Don't you have an original intro somewhere?
Man I'm glad I'm not you, negative nancy.

She understands habits...she doesn't understand the difference between that and addiction yet. I'm sure we'll have other convos. And I can quit. I am Quit. 34 days of quit now, asswipe.

If you care about my original intro so much, why don't you find it, then PM a mod to merge these two? Or just ask a question that I've already provided the answer to, that seems easier.
Hey... 3rd time around boy... STFU.

Thumble owned his shit the first time. He's a stud.
I owned my shit the first time. I'm a stud.

Ya feel me?
The. First. Time.

You're trying.
Again.
For the 3rd time.

If it were up to me you'd be gone because of your weak taint.

Keep your head down.
Quit.
Keep your false bravado to yourself.
Quit.
Own it this time.
Quit.

One and done. That's how real Quitters do it.
You have to prove yourself to us true vets.
Until you do... STFU.



I'm proud of you and your accomplishments. I haven't had them...yet. However, there's plenty of people that have failed and came back from it. Here's some in the business world.

https://www.entrepreneur.com/slideshow/219445 (https://www.entrepreneur.com/slideshow/219445)

There's a few in the quit world too. Medic from October16 is a name that comes to mind.

So don't trash me...you don't know me and you have no idea what I'm capable of.
My Quit track record... perfection.

Yours... not so much. A few times over.

Clam your bravado and prove yourself.

You have a ways to go.
Get 'er done.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on July 14, 2017, 08:43:00 AM
Quote from: AppleJack
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: AppleJack
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: Thumblewort
Not a habit, it's an addiction, no wonder you can't quit. Don't you have an original intro somewhere?
Man I'm glad I'm not you, negative nancy.

She understands habits...she doesn't understand the difference between that and addiction yet. I'm sure we'll have other convos. And I can quit. I am Quit. 34 days of quit now, asswipe.

If you care about my original intro so much, why don't you find it, then PM a mod to merge these two? Or just ask a question that I've already provided the answer to, that seems easier.
Hey... 3rd time around boy... STFU.

Thumble owned his shit the first time. He's a stud.
I owned my shit the first time. I'm a stud.

Ya feel me?
The. First. Time.

You're trying.
Again.
For the 3rd time.

If it were up to me you'd be gone because of your weak taint.

Keep your head down.
Quit.
Keep your false bravado to yourself.
Quit.
Own it this time.
Quit.

One and done. That's how real Quitters do it.
You have to prove yourself to us true vets.
Until you do... STFU.



I'm proud of you and your accomplishments. I haven't had them...yet. However, there's plenty of people that have failed and came back from it. Here's some in the business world.

https://www.entrepreneur.com/slideshow/219445 (https://www.entrepreneur.com/slideshow/219445)

There's a few in the quit world too. Medic from October16 is a name that comes to mind.

So don't trash me...you don't know me and you have no idea what I'm capable of.
My Quit track record... perfection.

Yours... not so much. A few times over.

Clam your bravado and prove yourself.

You have a ways to go.
Get 'er done.
So you're telling me that you've never tried to quit, even before KTC? Because most people try to throw that can out on their own, before realizing that they might need a little accountability or something. You're saying you dipped for X number of years, then decided to quit, and googled best ways to quit, found KTC, and this was your very FIRST attempt at quitting, thus making you perfect?

Look, I'm glad you're proud of what you've done. I'm happy for you. And you can stand up there on your pedestal screaming look at me, look at what I've done. I came back here, hat in hand, with humility when I found my group. I answered the questions and they accepted my sorry caving ass back into the fold. I have 35 days quit and I promise with you today, AppleJackOff....I will not use today.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: JRan on July 14, 2017, 09:20:00 AM
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: AppleJack
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: AppleJack
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: Thumblewort
Not a habit, it's an addiction, no wonder you can't quit. Don't you have an original intro somewhere?
Man I'm glad I'm not you, negative nancy.

She understands habits...she doesn't understand the difference between that and addiction yet. I'm sure we'll have other convos. And I can quit. I am Quit. 34 days of quit now, asswipe.

If you care about my original intro so much, why don't you find it, then PM a mod to merge these two? Or just ask a question that I've already provided the answer to, that seems easier.
Hey... 3rd time around boy... STFU.

Thumble owned his shit the first time. He's a stud.
I owned my shit the first time. I'm a stud.

Ya feel me?
The. First. Time.

You're trying.
Again.
For the 3rd time.

If it were up to me you'd be gone because of your weak taint.

Keep your head down.
Quit.
Keep your false bravado to yourself.
Quit.
Own it this time.
Quit.

One and done. That's how real Quitters do it.
You have to prove yourself to us true vets.
Until you do... STFU.



I'm proud of you and your accomplishments. I haven't had them...yet. However, there's plenty of people that have failed and came back from it. Here's some in the business world.

https://www.entrepreneur.com/slideshow/219445 (https://www.entrepreneur.com/slideshow/219445)

There's a few in the quit world too. Medic from October16 is a name that comes to mind.

So don't trash me...you don't know me and you have no idea what I'm capable of.
My Quit track record... perfection.

Yours... not so much. A few times over.

Clam your bravado and prove yourself.

You have a ways to go.
Get 'er done.
So you're telling me that you've never tried to quit, even before KTC? Because most people try to throw that can out on their own, before realizing that they might need a little accountability or something. You're saying you dipped for X number of years, then decided to quit, and googled best ways to quit, found KTC, and this was your very FIRST attempt at quitting, thus making you perfect?

Look, I'm glad you're proud of what you've done. I'm happy for you. And you can stand up there on your pedestal screaming look at me, look at what I've done. I came back here, hat in hand, with humility when I found my group. I answered the questions and they accepted my sorry caving ass back into the fold. I have 35 days quit and I promise with you today, AppleJackOff....I will not use today.
Pride comes before the fall. What I have learned from this site is that the only quit that is "perfection" is to quit today. It doesn't matter whether you are 40 days or 400 days or 4,000 days...a cave is possible because this is an addiction and there is no cure. Congrats on your perfection, AppleJack. I think I speak for everyone when I say that we all hope to someday be as perfect as you are.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: AppleJack on July 14, 2017, 10:29:00 AM
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: AppleJack
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: AppleJack
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: Thumblewort
Not a habit, it's an addiction, no wonder you can't quit. Don't you have an original intro somewhere?
Man I'm glad I'm not you, negative nancy.

She understands habits...she doesn't understand the difference between that and addiction yet. I'm sure we'll have other convos. And I can quit. I am Quit. 34 days of quit now, asswipe.

If you care about my original intro so much, why don't you find it, then PM a mod to merge these two? Or just ask a question that I've already provided the answer to, that seems easier.
Hey... 3rd time around boy... STFU.

Thumble owned his shit the first time. He's a stud.
I owned my shit the first time. I'm a stud.

Ya feel me?
The. First. Time.

You're trying.
Again.
For the 3rd time.

If it were up to me you'd be gone because of your weak taint.

Keep your head down.
Quit.
Keep your false bravado to yourself.
Quit.
Own it this time.
Quit.

One and done. That's how real Quitters do it.
You have to prove yourself to us true vets.
Until you do... STFU.



I'm proud of you and your accomplishments. I haven't had them...yet. However, there's plenty of people that have failed and came back from it. Here's some in the business world.

https://www.entrepreneur.com/slideshow/219445 (https://www.entrepreneur.com/slideshow/219445)

There's a few in the quit world too. Medic from October16 is a name that comes to mind.

So don't trash me...you don't know me and you have no idea what I'm capable of.
My Quit track record... perfection.

Yours... not so much. A few times over.

Clam your bravado and prove yourself.

You have a ways to go.
Get 'er done.
So you're telling me that you've never tried to quit, even before KTC? Because most people try to throw that can out on their own, before realizing that they might need a little accountability or something. You're saying you dipped for X number of years, then decided to quit, and googled best ways to quit, found KTC, and this was your very FIRST attempt at quitting, thus making you perfect?

Look, I'm glad you're proud of what you've done. I'm happy for you. And you can stand up there on your pedestal screaming look at me, look at what I've done. I came back here, hat in hand, with humility when I found my group. I answered the questions and they accepted my sorry caving ass back into the fold. I have 35 days quit and I promise with you today, AppleJackOff....I will not use today.
Well, bub, believe me or not, that's exactly what I'm telling you...

I chewed for 25 years and never, NEVER, tried to quit. Ever. I was the worst kinda junkie. My wife texted me a link to the site one day and, yeah, this place was what I needed. Quit. Once.

Right or wrong, I have zero patience for the multi try mentality. One cave?... I can understand (I will still holler "bs"). This shit IS hard. After that?... nope. Take that weak sauce somewhere else. IMO you don't belong here. Do I have a superiority complex? Abso-Fuckin'-Lutely, and I will not apologize for it. A hard line on battling addiction needs to be drawn and NO give on that line should be allowed. It means some people will be left behind because they can't handle it. So be it. So... agree with me or not... make noise in my general direction... take pot shots at my name (you have room to talk!?!)... I don't really care. Despite your track record and my well earned opinion of it, I hope like hell you make this work, man. I really freakin' do...
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Thumblewort on July 14, 2017, 10:46:00 AM
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: Bulldog0311
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: Thumblewort
Not a habit, it's an addiction, no wonder you can't quit. Don't you have an original intro somewhere?
Man I'm glad I'm not you, negative nancy.

She understands habits...she doesn't understand the difference between that and addiction yet. I'm sure we'll have other convos. And I can quit. I am Quit. 34 days of quit now, asswipe.

If you care about my original intro so much, why don't you find it, then PM a mod to merge these two? Or just ask a question that I've already provided the answer to, that seems easier.
Wow. Just fucking wow.

You'd hate to be Thumblewort?

You should be honored to be Thumblewort. He has a three year legendary quit and has helped hundreds of addicts get quit while you were caving. Twice.

To be honest with you as a two time caver you should expect the vets to kick your balls around a bit. For as an innocuous a comment as Thumblewort made for you to start calling him names really pissed me off. You yourself said you got indignant and caved back in the day. I think you're getting indignant again. Maybe you need to look at that.

His comment wasn't even that harsh man. With two caves under your belt it's reasonable to assume you may not be getting it. When you called this a habit I thought the same thing, "Maybe this dude can't admit he's an addict." Thumblewort's response was low key man and you shit on him. Maybe you should look at his quit and ask him for advice instead of putting your granny panties on and calling people names for telling you the truth.

My .02 cents.

Take it or leave it. Use it or don't. My suspicion is I'm talking to the addict inside broccoli-saurus and that dude can kiss my ass. I hope the quitter in Broccoli-Saurus will get the message and understand it. Stay quit man.
He said I can't quit.

In reality I am quit. In the past, I have failed, but that doesn't define who I am today.
Why are you using the word habit? It's a big step calling yourself an addict - I know I had a hard time doing so, but in the end realizing we are helpless to nicotine makes the quit easier. There are people who smoke and drink on "special " occasions, and then do not use for weeks or months. I can't do that, I'm an addict.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on July 14, 2017, 10:55:00 AM
Quote from: Thumblewort
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: Bulldog0311
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: Thumblewort
Not a habit, it's an addiction, no wonder you can't quit. Don't you have an original intro somewhere?
Man I'm glad I'm not you, negative nancy.

She understands habits...she doesn't understand the difference between that and addiction yet. I'm sure we'll have other convos. And I can quit. I am Quit. 34 days of quit now, asswipe.

If you care about my original intro so much, why don't you find it, then PM a mod to merge these two? Or just ask a question that I've already provided the answer to, that seems easier.
Wow. Just fucking wow.

You'd hate to be Thumblewort?

You should be honored to be Thumblewort. He has a three year legendary quit and has helped hundreds of addicts get quit while you were caving. Twice.

To be honest with you as a two time caver you should expect the vets to kick your balls around a bit. For as an innocuous a comment as Thumblewort made for you to start calling him names really pissed me off. You yourself said you got indignant and caved back in the day. I think you're getting indignant again. Maybe you need to look at that.

His comment wasn't even that harsh man. With two caves under your belt it's reasonable to assume you may not be getting it. When you called this a habit I thought the same thing, "Maybe this dude can't admit he's an addict." Thumblewort's response was low key man and you shit on him. Maybe you should look at his quit and ask him for advice instead of putting your granny panties on and calling people names for telling you the truth.

My .02 cents.

Take it or leave it. Use it or don't. My suspicion is I'm talking to the addict inside broccoli-saurus and that dude can kiss my ass. I hope the quitter in Broccoli-Saurus will get the message and understand it. Stay quit man.
He said I can't quit.

In reality I am quit. In the past, I have failed, but that doesn't define who I am today.
Why are you using the word habit? It's a big step calling yourself an addict - I know I had a hard time doing so, but in the end realizing we are helpless to nicotine makes the quit easier. There are people who smoke and drink on "special " occasions, and then do not use for weeks or months. I can't do that, I'm an addict.
You're absolutely correct, and it is hard for me to jump to calling myself an addict. It seems like such a terrible failing of personal character. I'll work on drilling it into my thick skull.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Thumblewort on July 14, 2017, 10:59:00 AM
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: Thumblewort
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: Bulldog0311
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: Thumblewort
Not a habit, it's an addiction, no wonder you can't quit. Don't you have an original intro somewhere?
Man I'm glad I'm not you, negative nancy.

She understands habits...she doesn't understand the difference between that and addiction yet. I'm sure we'll have other convos. And I can quit. I am Quit. 34 days of quit now, asswipe.

If you care about my original intro so much, why don't you find it, then PM a mod to merge these two? Or just ask a question that I've already provided the answer to, that seems easier.
Wow. Just fucking wow.

You'd hate to be Thumblewort?

You should be honored to be Thumblewort. He has a three year legendary quit and has helped hundreds of addicts get quit while you were caving. Twice.

To be honest with you as a two time caver you should expect the vets to kick your balls around a bit. For as an innocuous a comment as Thumblewort made for you to start calling him names really pissed me off. You yourself said you got indignant and caved back in the day. I think you're getting indignant again. Maybe you need to look at that.

His comment wasn't even that harsh man. With two caves under your belt it's reasonable to assume you may not be getting it. When you called this a habit I thought the same thing, "Maybe this dude can't admit he's an addict." Thumblewort's response was low key man and you shit on him. Maybe you should look at his quit and ask him for advice instead of putting your granny panties on and calling people names for telling you the truth.

My .02 cents.

Take it or leave it. Use it or don't. My suspicion is I'm talking to the addict inside broccoli-saurus and that dude can kiss my ass. I hope the quitter in Broccoli-Saurus will get the message and understand it. Stay quit man.
He said I can't quit.

In reality I am quit. In the past, I have failed, but that doesn't define who I am today.
Why are you using the word habit? It's a big step calling yourself an addict - I know I had a hard time doing so, but in the end realizing we are helpless to nicotine makes the quit easier. There are people who smoke and drink on "special " occasions, and then do not use for weeks or months. I can't do that, I'm an addict.
You're absolutely correct, and it is hard for me to jump to calling myself an addict. It seems like such a terrible failing of personal character. I'll work on drilling it into my thick skull.
Addiction is NOT a failing, it's a disease. That's all I need to hear from you, is that you will work on it. If you want my digits, PM me, I send weird texts as well as life saving ones. No dick pics, I swear.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: imBushe on July 14, 2017, 11:07:00 AM
So many big swinging dicks in here it is amazing any Quit happens at all.

Obviously, he struggled with his quit the first half dozen times, but I understand why he took offense to the first thing said to him when he came in here.

Applejack - Who gives a fuck if you quit the first time? Congrats. Plenty of good men and women quit the second or the third. You are in no way superior to any of them for quitting the first time. If you think you are, then you are missing the point. If you want to be the bigger man, be the bigger man. Tell Broccoli why the reaction to what Thumblewort said was wrong, don't shit on him for being ignorant.

Broccoli - Awesome that you are here. I don't care that you failed before. Don't fail this time. Thumblewort pointed out a flaw in your thinking. Accept that, or be prepared to fail again. The addition of pointing out your previous attempts is the way to emphasize how you thinking led to your mistakes. Take it as constructive criticism. You have an addiction and you have a habit of losing to it. If you cannot accept that, you will be here again. Like I said before, come hang out in June. Give your number out. If you are mad and want to scream at something, find me! I can handle it.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Thumblewort on July 14, 2017, 11:17:00 AM
Part of being an addict is knowing that I am one bad decision away from stopping at the gas station and throwing 3 years away. I built a network of quitters that I'd have to ask permission to use dip again before I did that. They have become my friends, and I fear their disappointment more than I would my wife and kids, that's how strong my bonds are with them. If I don't post roll by noon (Eastern) I would have 5 - 10 texts looking in on me, most of which would be in line of "post roll asshole" or "what's wrong pussy". Subsequently, it's been well over a year since that has happened because I believe in the system and it works. The negativity doesn't work for all, but I know it did for me.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on July 14, 2017, 11:21:00 AM
Thanks guys, I'm about to PM both of you my digits, and I'll work on telling myself I'm an addict.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: worktowin on July 14, 2017, 12:27:00 PM
Quote from: imBushe
So many big swinging dicks in here it is amazing any Quit happens at all.

Obviously, he struggled with his quit the first half dozen times, but I understand why he took offense to the first thing said to him when he came in here.

Applejack - Who gives a fuck if you quit the first time? Congrats. Plenty of good men and women quit the second or the third. You are in no way superior to any of them for quitting the first time. If you think you are, then you are missing the point. If you want to be the bigger man, be the bigger man. Tell Broccoli why the reaction to what Thumblewort said was wrong, don't shit on him for being ignorant.

Broccoli - Awesome that you are here. I don't care that you failed before. Don't fail this time. Thumblewort pointed out a flaw in your thinking. Accept that, or be prepared to fail again. The addition of pointing out your previous attempts is the way to emphasize how you thinking led to your mistakes. Take it as constructive criticism. You have an addiction and you have a habit of losing to it. If you cannot accept that, you will be here again. Like I said before, come hang out in June. Give your number out. If you are mad and want to scream at something, find me! I can handle it.
Please stop recognizing my BSD. It is making the lesser among us feel uncomfortable.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: imBushe on July 14, 2017, 01:51:00 PM
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: imBushe
So many big swinging dicks in here it is amazing any Quit happens at all.

Obviously, he struggled with his quit the first half dozen times, but I understand why he took offense to the first thing said to him when he came in here.

Applejack - Who gives a fuck if you quit the first time? Congrats. Plenty of good men and women quit the second or the third. You are in no way superior to any of them for quitting the first time. If you think you are, then you are missing the point. If you want to be the bigger man, be the bigger man. Tell Broccoli why the reaction to what Thumblewort said was wrong, don't shit on him for being ignorant.

Broccoli - Awesome that you are here. I don't care that you failed before. Don't fail this time. Thumblewort pointed out a flaw in your thinking. Accept that, or be prepared to fail again. The addition of pointing out your previous attempts is the way to emphasize how you thinking led to your mistakes. Take it as constructive criticism. You have an addiction and you have a habit of losing to it. If you cannot accept that, you will be here again. Like I said before, come hang out in June. Give your number out. If you are mad and want to scream at something, find me! I can handle it.
Please stop recognizing my BSD. It is making the lesser among us feel uncomfortable.
It is like Highlander, we can sense each other, but there can BE ONLY ONE!!!!!!!!
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: worktowin on July 14, 2017, 02:08:00 PM
Quote from: imBushe
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: imBushe
So many big swinging dicks in here it is amazing any Quit happens at all.

Obviously, he struggled with his quit the first half dozen times, but I understand why he took offense to the first thing said to him when he came in here.

Applejack - Who gives a fuck if you quit the first time? Congrats. Plenty of good men and women quit the second or the third. You are in no way superior to any of them for quitting the first time. If you think you are, then you are missing the point. If you want to be the bigger man, be the bigger man. Tell Broccoli why the reaction to what Thumblewort said was wrong, don't shit on him for being ignorant.

Broccoli - Awesome that you are here. I don't care that you failed before. Don't fail this time. Thumblewort pointed out a flaw in your thinking. Accept that, or be prepared to fail again. The addition of pointing out your previous attempts is the way to emphasize how you thinking led to your mistakes. Take it as constructive criticism. You have an addiction and you have a habit of losing to it. If you cannot accept that, you will be here again. Like I said before, come hang out in June. Give your number out. If you are mad and want to scream at something, find me! I can handle it.
Please stop recognizing my BSD. It is making the lesser among us feel uncomfortable.
It is like Highlander, we can sense each other, but there can BE ONLY ONE!!!!!!!!
For a little biography on my non-BSD features.... I promised myself almost every single day for about 25 years that "today I will quit." I threw out probably 2,000 or more half fullcans of kodiak, only to stop at the gas station first thing the next morning to buy another can. Every day I lied to and failed myself. In addition to the monumental BSD Referenced to and admired lovingly in this thread... I'm pretty, on paper, successful. I have a great job. Hot wife. I like to win, and I work to win. But every day for over 9,000 days I failed myself. Every day I worked to win, and yet there was a big pattern of fail at only one thing...

Until 1,664 days ago. That's when I found this place. I have my word, and I kept it. I cried, I shook with anxiety and fear, but I reached out to my brothers here on ktc, and together we won. My pattern of fail became a win together. I will not fail my team, haven't missed a day and won't.

My group started with iver 200 members. On a good day we now have 8. Retreads pop up now and then and we scream at them and smack them around, they need to recognize that their failure hurt our team. And that in order to come back the have to endure a well deserved hazing of sorts. Clearly the mindset that they had didn't work. I believe my mindset does.

I hope this long winded diatribe helps. it is my opinion that no one is swinging their (smaller than mine) BSD around to be an ass. They are doing it to help in a way that has worked so many times here. Post roll. Every fucking day. As soon as your eyeballs open. Keep your word. If you are a liar or sociopath, leave... this place isn't for you. Reach out for help... there are thousands of us that will stop whatever we are doing to help a newbie quit. Keep your word! Do the same thing tomorrow.

Worktowin drops the ?
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Thumblewort on July 14, 2017, 02:10:00 PM
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: imBushe
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: imBushe
So many big swinging dicks in here it is amazing any Quit happens at all.

Obviously, he struggled with his quit the first half dozen times, but I understand why he took offense to the first thing said to him when he came in here.

Applejack - Who gives a fuck if you quit the first time? Congrats. Plenty of good men and women quit the second or the third. You are in no way superior to any of them for quitting the first time. If you think you are, then you are missing the point. If you want to be the bigger man, be the bigger man. Tell Broccoli why the reaction to what Thumblewort said was wrong, don't shit on him for being ignorant.

Broccoli - Awesome that you are here. I don't care that you failed before. Don't fail this time. Thumblewort pointed out a flaw in your thinking. Accept that, or be prepared to fail again. The addition of pointing out your previous attempts is the way to emphasize how you thinking led to your mistakes. Take it as constructive criticism. You have an addiction and you have a habit of losing to it. If you cannot accept that, you will be here again. Like I said before, come hang out in June. Give your number out. If you are mad and want to scream at something, find me! I can handle it.
Please stop recognizing my BSD. It is making the lesser among us feel uncomfortable.
It is like Highlander, we can sense each other, but there can BE ONLY ONE!!!!!!!!
For a little biography on my non-BSD features.... I promised myself almost every single day for about 25 years that "today I will quit." I threw out probably 2,000 or more half fullcans of kodiak, only to stop at the gas station first thing the next morning to buy another can. Every day I lied to and failed myself. In addition to the monumental BSD Referenced to and admired lovingly in this thread... I'm pretty, on paper, successful. I have a great job. Hot wife. I like to win, and I work to win. But every day for over 9,000 days I failed myself. Every day I worked to win, and yet there was a big pattern of fail at only one thing...

Until 1,664 days ago. That's when I found this place. I have my word, and I kept it. I cried, I shook with anxiety and fear, but I reached out to my brothers here on ktc, and together we won. My pattern of fail became a win together. I will not fail my team, haven't missed a day and won't.

My group started with iver 200 members. On a good day we now have 8. Retreads pop up now and then and we scream at them and smack them around, they need to recognize that their failure hurt our team. And that in order to come back the have to endure a well deserved hazing of sorts. Clearly the mindset that they had didn't work. I believe my mindset does.

I hope this long winded diatribe helps. it is my opinion that no one is swinging their (smaller than mine) BSD around to be an ass. They are doing it to help in a way that has worked so many times here. Post roll. Every fucking day. As soon as your eyeballs open. Keep your word. If you are a liar or sociopath, leave... this place isn't for you. Reach out for help... there are thousands of us that will stop whatever we are doing to help a newbie quit. Keep your word! Do the same thing tomorrow.

Worktowin drops the ?
This HSD applauds the BSD.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: imBushe on July 14, 2017, 02:43:00 PM
Quote from: Thumblewort
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: imBushe
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: imBushe
So many big swinging dicks in here it is amazing any Quit happens at all.

Obviously, he struggled with his quit the first half dozen times, but I understand why he took offense to the first thing said to him when he came in here.

Applejack - Who gives a fuck if you quit the first time? Congrats. Plenty of good men and women quit the second or the third. You are in no way superior to any of them for quitting the first time. If you think you are, then you are missing the point. If you want to be the bigger man, be the bigger man. Tell Broccoli why the reaction to what Thumblewort said was wrong, don't shit on him for being ignorant.

Broccoli - Awesome that you are here. I don't care that you failed before. Don't fail this time. Thumblewort pointed out a flaw in your thinking. Accept that, or be prepared to fail again. The addition of pointing out your previous attempts is the way to emphasize how you thinking led to your mistakes. Take it as constructive criticism. You have an addiction and you have a habit of losing to it. If you cannot accept that, you will be here again. Like I said before, come hang out in June. Give your number out. If you are mad and want to scream at something, find me! I can handle it.
Please stop recognizing my BSD. It is making the lesser among us feel uncomfortable.
It is like Highlander, we can sense each other, but there can BE ONLY ONE!!!!!!!!
For a little biography on my non-BSD features.... I promised myself almost every single day for about 25 years that "today I will quit." I threw out probably 2,000 or more half fullcans of kodiak, only to stop at the gas station first thing the next morning to buy another can. Every day I lied to and failed myself. In addition to the monumental BSD Referenced to and admired lovingly in this thread... I'm pretty, on paper, successful. I have a great job. Hot wife. I like to win, and I work to win. But every day for over 9,000 days I failed myself. Every day I worked to win, and yet there was a big pattern of fail at only one thing...

Until 1,664 days ago. That's when I found this place. I have my word, and I kept it. I cried, I shook with anxiety and fear, but I reached out to my brothers here on ktc, and together we won. My pattern of fail became a win together. I will not fail my team, haven't missed a day and won't.

My group started with iver 200 members. On a good day we now have 8. Retreads pop up now and then and we scream at them and smack them around, they need to recognize that their failure hurt our team. And that in order to come back the have to endure a well deserved hazing of sorts. Clearly the mindset that they had didn't work. I believe my mindset does.

I hope this long winded diatribe helps. it is my opinion that no one is swinging their (smaller than mine) BSD around to be an ass. They are doing it to help in a way that has worked so many times here. Post roll. Every fucking day. As soon as your eyeballs open. Keep your word. If you are a liar or sociopath, leave... this place isn't for you. Reach out for help... there are thousands of us that will stop whatever we are doing to help a newbie quit. Keep your word! Do the same thing tomorrow.

Worktowin drops the ?
This HSD applauds the BSD.
HSD is horribly small right?

The best thing about this place is that people can be quick to forgive and move on. The guy you just called a PoS may be the first person to respond when you need somebody, and that is what acceptance is.

With all the SDs in here, big and small, I'm amazed nobody has started filming. BTW that wasn't a mic you dropped....
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: worktowin on July 14, 2017, 02:49:00 PM
Quote from: imBushe
Quote from: Thumblewort
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: imBushe
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: imBushe
So many big swinging dicks in here it is amazing any Quit happens at all.

Obviously, he struggled with his quit the first half dozen times, but I understand why he took offense to the first thing said to him when he came in here.

Applejack - Who gives a fuck if you quit the first time? Congrats. Plenty of good men and women quit the second or the third. You are in no way superior to any of them for quitting the first time. If you think you are, then you are missing the point. If you want to be the bigger man, be the bigger man. Tell Broccoli why the reaction to what Thumblewort said was wrong, don't shit on him for being ignorant.

Broccoli - Awesome that you are here. I don't care that you failed before. Don't fail this time. Thumblewort pointed out a flaw in your thinking. Accept that, or be prepared to fail again. The addition of pointing out your previous attempts is the way to emphasize how you thinking led to your mistakes. Take it as constructive criticism. You have an addiction and you have a habit of losing to it. If you cannot accept that, you will be here again. Like I said before, come hang out in June. Give your number out. If you are mad and want to scream at something, find me! I can handle it.
Please stop recognizing my BSD. It is making the lesser among us feel uncomfortable.
It is like Highlander, we can sense each other, but there can BE ONLY ONE!!!!!!!!
For a little biography on my non-BSD features.... I promised myself almost every single day for about 25 years that "today I will quit." I threw out probably 2,000 or more half fullcans of kodiak, only to stop at the gas station first thing the next morning to buy another can. Every day I lied to and failed myself. In addition to the monumental BSD Referenced to and admired lovingly in this thread... I'm pretty, on paper, successful. I have a great job. Hot wife. I like to win, and I work to win. But every day for over 9,000 days I failed myself. Every day I worked to win, and yet there was a big pattern of fail at only one thing...

Until 1,664 days ago. That's when I found this place. I have my word, and I kept it. I cried, I shook with anxiety and fear, but I reached out to my brothers here on ktc, and together we won. My pattern of fail became a win together. I will not fail my team, haven't missed a day and won't.

My group started with iver 200 members. On a good day we now have 8. Retreads pop up now and then and we scream at them and smack them around, they need to recognize that their failure hurt our team. And that in order to come back the have to endure a well deserved hazing of sorts. Clearly the mindset that they had didn't work. I believe my mindset does.

I hope this long winded diatribe helps. it is my opinion that no one is swinging their (smaller than mine) BSD around to be an ass. They are doing it to help in a way that has worked so many times here. Post roll. Every fucking day. As soon as your eyeballs open. Keep your word. If you are a liar or sociopath, leave... this place isn't for you. Reach out for help... there are thousands of us that will stop whatever we are doing to help a newbie quit. Keep your word! Do the same thing tomorrow.

Worktowin drops the ?
This HSD applauds the BSD.
HSD is horribly small right?

The best thing about this place is that people can be quick to forgive and move on. The guy you just called a PoS may be the first person to respond when you need somebody, and that is what acceptance is.

With all the SDs in here, big and small, I'm amazed nobody has started filming. BTW that wasn't a mic you dropped....
You want pics?????
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: imBushe on July 14, 2017, 02:53:00 PM
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: imBushe
Quote from: Thumblewort
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: imBushe
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: imBushe
So many big swinging dicks in here it is amazing any Quit happens at all.

Obviously, he struggled with his quit the first half dozen times, but I understand why he took offense to the first thing said to him when he came in here.

Applejack - Who gives a fuck if you quit the first time? Congrats. Plenty of good men and women quit the second or the third. You are in no way superior to any of them for quitting the first time. If you think you are, then you are missing the point. If you want to be the bigger man, be the bigger man. Tell Broccoli why the reaction to what Thumblewort said was wrong, don't shit on him for being ignorant.

Broccoli - Awesome that you are here. I don't care that you failed before. Don't fail this time. Thumblewort pointed out a flaw in your thinking. Accept that, or be prepared to fail again. The addition of pointing out your previous attempts is the way to emphasize how you thinking led to your mistakes. Take it as constructive criticism. You have an addiction and you have a habit of losing to it. If you cannot accept that, you will be here again. Like I said before, come hang out in June. Give your number out. If you are mad and want to scream at something, find me! I can handle it.
Please stop recognizing my BSD. It is making the lesser among us feel uncomfortable.
It is like Highlander, we can sense each other, but there can BE ONLY ONE!!!!!!!!
For a little biography on my non-BSD features.... I promised myself almost every single day for about 25 years that "today I will quit." I threw out probably 2,000 or more half fullcans of kodiak, only to stop at the gas station first thing the next morning to buy another can. Every day I lied to and failed myself. In addition to the monumental BSD Referenced to and admired lovingly in this thread... I'm pretty, on paper, successful. I have a great job. Hot wife. I like to win, and I work to win. But every day for over 9,000 days I failed myself. Every day I worked to win, and yet there was a big pattern of fail at only one thing...

Until 1,664 days ago. That's when I found this place. I have my word, and I kept it. I cried, I shook with anxiety and fear, but I reached out to my brothers here on ktc, and together we won. My pattern of fail became a win together. I will not fail my team, haven't missed a day and won't.

My group started with iver 200 members. On a good day we now have 8. Retreads pop up now and then and we scream at them and smack them around, they need to recognize that their failure hurt our team. And that in order to come back the have to endure a well deserved hazing of sorts. Clearly the mindset that they had didn't work. I believe my mindset does.

I hope this long winded diatribe helps. it is my opinion that no one is swinging their (smaller than mine) BSD around to be an ass. They are doing it to help in a way that has worked so many times here. Post roll. Every fucking day. As soon as your eyeballs open. Keep your word. If you are a liar or sociopath, leave... this place isn't for you. Reach out for help... there are thousands of us that will stop whatever we are doing to help a newbie quit. Keep your word! Do the same thing tomorrow.

Worktowin drops the ?
This HSD applauds the BSD.
HSD is horribly small right?

The best thing about this place is that people can be quick to forgive and move on. The guy you just called a PoS may be the first person to respond when you need somebody, and that is what acceptance is.

With all the SDs in here, big and small, I'm amazed nobody has started filming. BTW that wasn't a mic you dropped....
You want pics?????
I only exchange.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Thumblewort on July 15, 2017, 02:16:00 PM
Quote from: imBushe
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: imBushe
Quote from: Thumblewort
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: imBushe
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: imBushe
So many big swinging dicks in here it is amazing any Quit happens at all.

Obviously, he struggled with his quit the first half dozen times, but I understand why he took offense to the first thing said to him when he came in here.

Applejack - Who gives a fuck if you quit the first time? Congrats. Plenty of good men and women quit the second or the third. You are in no way superior to any of them for quitting the first time. If you think you are, then you are missing the point. If you want to be the bigger man, be the bigger man. Tell Broccoli why the reaction to what Thumblewort said was wrong, don't shit on him for being ignorant.

Broccoli - Awesome that you are here. I don't care that you failed before. Don't fail this time. Thumblewort pointed out a flaw in your thinking. Accept that, or be prepared to fail again. The addition of pointing out your previous attempts is the way to emphasize how you thinking led to your mistakes. Take it as constructive criticism. You have an addiction and you have a habit of losing to it. If you cannot accept that, you will be here again. Like I said before, come hang out in June. Give your number out. If you are mad and want to scream at something, find me! I can handle it.
Please stop recognizing my BSD. It is making the lesser among us feel uncomfortable.
It is like Highlander, we can sense each other, but there can BE ONLY ONE!!!!!!!!
For a little biography on my non-BSD features.... I promised myself almost every single day for about 25 years that "today I will quit." I threw out probably 2,000 or more half fullcans of kodiak, only to stop at the gas station first thing the next morning to buy another can. Every day I lied to and failed myself. In addition to the monumental BSD Referenced to and admired lovingly in this thread... I'm pretty, on paper, successful. I have a great job. Hot wife. I like to win, and I work to win. But every day for over 9,000 days I failed myself. Every day I worked to win, and yet there was a big pattern of fail at only one thing...

Until 1,664 days ago. That's when I found this place. I have my word, and I kept it. I cried, I shook with anxiety and fear, but I reached out to my brothers here on ktc, and together we won. My pattern of fail became a win together. I will not fail my team, haven't missed a day and won't.

My group started with iver 200 members. On a good day we now have 8. Retreads pop up now and then and we scream at them and smack them around, they need to recognize that their failure hurt our team. And that in order to come back the have to endure a well deserved hazing of sorts. Clearly the mindset that they had didn't work. I believe my mindset does.

I hope this long winded diatribe helps. it is my opinion that no one is swinging their (smaller than mine) BSD around to be an ass. They are doing it to help in a way that has worked so many times here. Post roll. Every fucking day. As soon as your eyeballs open. Keep your word. If you are a liar or sociopath, leave... this place isn't for you. Reach out for help... there are thousands of us that will stop whatever we are doing to help a newbie quit. Keep your word! Do the same thing tomorrow.

Worktowin drops the ?
This HSD applauds the BSD.
HSD is horribly small right?

The best thing about this place is that people can be quick to forgive and move on. The guy you just called a PoS may be the first person to respond when you need somebody, and that is what acceptance is.

With all the SDs in here, big and small, I'm amazed nobody has started filming. BTW that wasn't a mic you dropped....
You want pics?????
I only exchange.
You run cock's R us, amirite? BTW, I forgot my password...
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on July 19, 2017, 10:51:00 AM
Day 40 Update.

This is the first week that I really feel good. I mean, I had some good days in there, but last week was constant fog, cravings, and irritability. I retained a fraction of the irritability, but the fog is gone for now. I do have a recurring sore mouth/throat. It goes away for a few days, then it returns for a couple. I'm really hoping it's just the healing process and not an indication of something a lot worse. I'm staying active on my quit group and on KTC in general, jacking with march any chance possible, and making April's title have truth to it. Crossfit is going well, and I'm starting to get a bit better in my workouts. I started a zone clean type diet this week, and will transition to Rennisance Periodization next week. Pretty stoked about that. I'm about 40-50 pounds overweight, 15 of that coming by way of my first month of quit. Ready to knock it down some.

I'm also very aware that this is coming up to the time that I got complacent in my quit last time and caved. I'm being proactive here, staying involved, staying aware, and keeping in a lot closer contact with my BIQ. They are my lifeline and a few of us have been texting a lot about the group, our individual quits and struggles, and everyday life. It's good to be building those relationships.

There's one group member that I took under my wing early on that caved this week. He reminded me a lot of last years version of me. He wasn't serious about his quit, like I wasn't serious about my quit. He caved and it strengthened my resolve to see this through. ODAAT, but I'm looking forward to seeing my grandchildren grow up years from now without a dip in my lip.

I quit with all of KTC today.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: worktowin on July 19, 2017, 09:01:00 PM
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Day 40 Update.

This is the first week that I really feel good. I mean, I had some good days in there, but last week was constant fog, cravings, and irritability. I retained a fraction of the irritability, but the fog is gone for now. I do have a recurring sore mouth/throat. It goes away for a few days, then it returns for a couple. I'm really hoping it's just the healing process and not an indication of something a lot worse. I'm staying active on my quit group and on KTC in general, jacking with march any chance possible, and making April's title have truth to it. Crossfit is going well, and I'm starting to get a bit better in my workouts. I started a zone clean type diet this week, and will transition to Rennisance Periodization next week. Pretty stoked about that. I'm about 40-50 pounds overweight, 15 of that coming by way of my first month of quit. Ready to knock it down some.

I'm also very aware that this is coming up to the time that I got complacent in my quit last time and caved. I'm being proactive here, staying involved, staying aware, and keeping in a lot closer contact with my BIQ. They are my lifeline and a few of us have been texting a lot about the group, our individual quits and struggles, and everyday life. It's good to be building those relationships.

There's one group member that I took under my wing early on that caved this week. He reminded me a lot of last years version of me. He wasn't serious about his quit, like I wasn't serious about my quit. He caved and it strengthened my resolve to see this through. ODAAT, but I'm looking forward to seeing my grandchildren grow up years from now without a dip in my lip.

I quit with all of KTC today.
How did his cave make you feel bro? Did it make you angry? Were you pissed about the time and effort you wasted on him? Did you feel let down by his actions?
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on July 20, 2017, 11:47:00 AM
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Day 40 Update.

This is the first week that I really feel good. I mean, I had some good days in there, but last week was constant fog, cravings, and irritability. I retained a fraction of the irritability, but the fog is gone for now. I do have a recurring sore mouth/throat. It goes away for a few days, then it returns for a couple. I'm really hoping it's just the healing process and not an indication of something a lot worse. I'm staying active on my quit group and on KTC in general, jacking with march any chance possible, and making April's title have truth to it. Crossfit is going well, and I'm starting to get a bit better in my workouts. I started a zone clean type diet this week, and will transition to Rennisance Periodization next week. Pretty stoked about that. I'm about 40-50 pounds overweight, 15 of that coming by way of my first month of quit. Ready to knock it down some.

I'm also very aware that this is coming up to the time that I got complacent in my quit last time and caved. I'm being proactive here, staying involved, staying aware, and keeping in a lot closer contact with my BIQ. They are my lifeline and a few of us have been texting a lot about the group, our individual quits and struggles, and everyday life. It's good to be building those relationships.

There's one group member that I took under my wing early on that caved this week. He reminded me a lot of last years version of me. He wasn't serious about his quit, like I wasn't serious about my quit. He caved and it strengthened my resolve to see this through. ODAAT, but I'm looking forward to seeing my grandchildren grow up years from now without a dip in my lip.

I quit with all of KTC today.
How did his cave make you feel bro? Did it make you angry? Were you pissed about the time and effort you wasted on him? Did you feel let down by his actions?
It did make me angry and I was let down. And it made me think about what bdsqueeze, Big Shot Rob, Edward, and some of the other dumpster fire guys probably thought of me. I'm here now though, and I think in the end I'll make them proud. I think about their commitment to me and to the group sometimes. Wish I had made it different, but I didn't.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: worktowin on July 20, 2017, 02:25:00 PM
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Day 40 Update.

This is the first week that I really feel good. I mean, I had some good days in there, but last week was constant fog, cravings, and irritability. I retained a fraction of the irritability, but the fog is gone for now. I do have a recurring sore mouth/throat. It goes away for a few days, then it returns for a couple. I'm really hoping it's just the healing process and not an indication of something a lot worse. I'm staying active on my quit group and on KTC in general, jacking with march any chance possible, and making April's title have truth to it. Crossfit is going well, and I'm starting to get a bit better in my workouts. I started a zone clean type diet this week, and will transition to Rennisance Periodization next week. Pretty stoked about that. I'm about 40-50 pounds overweight, 15 of that coming by way of my first month of quit. Ready to knock it down some.

I'm also very aware that this is coming up to the time that I got complacent in my quit last time and caved. I'm being proactive here, staying involved, staying aware, and keeping in a lot closer contact with my BIQ. They are my lifeline and a few of us have been texting a lot about the group, our individual quits and struggles, and everyday life. It's good to be building those relationships.

There's one group member that I took under my wing early on that caved this week. He reminded me a lot of last years version of me. He wasn't serious about his quit, like I wasn't serious about my quit. He caved and it strengthened my resolve to see this through. ODAAT, but I'm looking forward to seeing my grandchildren grow up years from now without a dip in my lip.

I quit with all of KTC today.
How did his cave make you feel bro? Did it make you angry? Were you pissed about the time and effort you wasted on him? Did you feel let down by his actions?
It did make me angry and I was let down. And it made me think about what bdsqueeze, Big Shot Rob, Edward, and some of the other dumpster fire guys probably thought of me. I'm here now though, and I think in the end I'll make them proud. I think about their commitment to me and to the group sometimes. Wish I had made it different, but I didn't.
Nice answer. I think you are on the right path bro.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Thumblewort on July 21, 2017, 07:03:00 AM
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Day 40 Update.

This is the first week that I really feel good. I mean, I had some good days in there, but last week was constant fog, cravings, and irritability. I retained a fraction of the irritability, but the fog is gone for now. I do have a recurring sore mouth/throat. It goes away for a few days, then it returns for a couple. I'm really hoping it's just the healing process and not an indication of something a lot worse. I'm staying active on my quit group and on KTC in general, jacking with march any chance possible, and making April's title have truth to it. Crossfit is going well, and I'm starting to get a bit better in my workouts. I started a zone clean type diet this week, and will transition to Rennisance Periodization next week. Pretty stoked about that. I'm about 40-50 pounds overweight, 15 of that coming by way of my first month of quit. Ready to knock it down some.

I'm also very aware that this is coming up to the time that I got complacent in my quit last time and caved. I'm being proactive here, staying involved, staying aware, and keeping in a lot closer contact with my BIQ. They are my lifeline and a few of us have been texting a lot about the group, our individual quits and struggles, and everyday life. It's good to be building those relationships.

There's one group member that I took under my wing early on that caved this week. He reminded me a lot of last years version of me. He wasn't serious about his quit, like I wasn't serious about my quit. He caved and it strengthened my resolve to see this through. ODAAT, but I'm looking forward to seeing my grandchildren grow up years from now without a dip in my lip.

I quit with all of KTC today.
How did his cave make you feel bro? Did it make you angry? Were you pissed about the time and effort you wasted on him? Did you feel let down by his actions?
It did make me angry and I was let down. And it made me think about what bdsqueeze, Big Shot Rob, Edward, and some of the other dumpster fire guys probably thought of me. I'm here now though, and I think in the end I'll make them proud. I think about their commitment to me and to the group sometimes. Wish I had made it different, but I didn't.
Nice answer. I think you are on the right path bro.
All that matters is YOUR quit, not mine, not their caves, just you. Be selfish with your quit, I know I am. I have seen 1000+ dudes cave - that only makes me stronger.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on August 01, 2017, 02:58:00 PM
I posted this in September, but I didn't want to lose the thoughts, so I'm putting them here too.


Sometimes, it's necessary to take a look at the past to remember who you used to be, what you did that you want to change. Sometimes, it helps to really analyze that shit. Lately, I've been a little bored with this site. Ever since April and March came over here to fuck with us, it's just seemed dead. And then new rules were put in place about messing with roll headers and such. The infighting was fun because it gave me an outlet. Now I feel like I have none, and I want to pull away from the site. Work is ramping way up again like it did last year. I feel as if it gives me a good excuse to back off and become a post and ghoster. But it also reminds me of the way I was last year about this time in my quit. I was lethargic about my quit. I used work as a huge excuse. I had guys texting me daily to try to find me to post promise. And then one day I just didn't post a promise. I had a planned cave, and then I came on here defending it, romanticizing it, making it sound ok, because hey it wasn't dip, and it wouldn't lead to me dipping. But then it did lead to me dipping, and it led to me upping my usage to about a can and a half a day for another 9 months before I'd decide to quit, and quit for good. All forms of nicotine. I spent another $2,000 on dip during that time. I hid that shit from my daughter. I flaunted it everywhere else cause i wasn't going to live in the closet. People would know I dipped, like it had some inherent nobility about it. Two grand. Hiding. Looking like an idiot. Nasty bottles in my truck, falling asleep with a dip in and waking up to that shit all over the sheets, always jonesing, preplaning time with my daughter and trips around rolls I had, etc etc.

What I'm saying is I don't want to go back there. I'm still posting my promise daily. I need something to keep me connected here besides just being an asshole. I don't want to fade away. I was an arrogant prick, and I know I have it in me to be that way again. I don't want to...I don't want to justify a fucking cave. I'm scared that I will, that this is a freaking pattern. Last time, I smoked that cigar, and then started dipping again because I was bored with my quit. Truthfully, that's why it was. I wasn't craving that bad, it wasn't insurmountable. It was boredom. A new challenge. See if I could become a social nicotine user. I couldn't. But that doesn't stop the nic bitch from seductively whispering in my ear. So I need something here. Maybe a primer and access to the SSOA. Maybe something else. But I need an escape from life's pressure somehow. Or maybe I don't...maybe I need to finally learn how to be a fucking man, stare that shit in the eye, not back down, but not give in either. I'm searching...what the fuck am I searching for?


For reference...this was my stupid son of a bitch ass last year:
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Hey guys, I didn't post a promise today, and this is why. I came to KTC to kill the can of death that I carried in my pocket for 8 years. I have done so, and frankly, have no desire to take another dip. Well I do, but I keep that shit at bay with my teaza and my unwillingness to waver from my commitment that I made to myself not to dip. I'm not dipping, and I have no desire to return to that way of life. However, last night, I went out to watch football with some friends and one of the guys brought cigars. I've always liked an occasional cigar, going back way before my dipping days. I smoked a sublime tatuaje and watched the game.

Now, I know that's not kosher with KTC and I believe I must now be kicked out of the group as a dirty lowlife caver. I have not caved in my promise to myself and I will not, with or without the site. Cigars will not be my gateway to dip. I won't start smoking a cigar or two daily. I'm not going to start chain smoking lucky strikes. I'd have more of a chance of sprouting wings and popping a unicorn out of my ass when I try to let out a silent fart. Not gonna happen. BSR texted me about my promise today and asked if I was going to post a day 1 in January. I am not going to post a day 1 and I'm not answering any 3 questions because my commitment to quit dip has not wavered. I want you guys to know that I'm proud of every single damn one of you and I thank you for your support through this.

Carry on October. Y'all are fucking awesome!
You know, in the past I would attack you and call you all sorts of nasty names, but I am not gonna. There is little point, you won't listen and frankly you don't give a shit about your word. Carry on with your life, if and when you actually want to quit...you can answer the questions.
'Popcorn' 'Popcorn' 'Popcorn' 'Popcorn'
Addict talk. You ingested nic. You sucked the brown cancer cock. This may be kill the can but the basis of this site is NIC free and keeping your word. You did neither. If you choose to quit answer with reflection in this group and show some guts in January. That's a good but young group and they don't need more mind fucked.

Most would say cigar, you romanticized it by personal name. I've seen this many times reading through history here. Either regain trust and work at this as priority 1 or don't waste these fine quitters time.
No. Fuck this bullshit. Not on the eve of the Dumpster Fire reaching the HOF.

Brocc, bottom line here is that you KNEW what you were doing wasn't kosher at KTC, and yet you chose to do it anyway. Rationalize it anyway you'd like, just do it somewhere else. Do it here at KTC, do it in your bedroom, do it in your car, I don't care...just take it somewhere else. Don't waltz in here on what should be a celebratory time for us, and act like you don't give a shit, because somehow in your twisted addict brain, you DIDN'T fuck up. Normally, I'm pretty easygoing with cavers...hell, I AM one, but coming in here with that cavalier attitude, man, fuck off. We're celebrating, and I'm not gonna give this bullshit another thought. Good luck, but with your attitude, you don't need luck, because you've got this all figured out.
This from his "interests" line on his profile page:

"Fuck that nicotine crap. I'm done with letting it rule my life."

Guess he didn't know that cigars contained nicotine......
Dude what you get bored with the intern or something? Come in here like we are wrong.... your the one that can not read the header under which you posted your "promise". New Bad-Ass Quitters: Place your name and promise NOT to use nicotine in any form today below here: But i guess you know better than us anyways, because cigars arent a gateway just like dumpstet fires arent awesome.
Add complete lack of integrity to his resume....

He posted yesterday at 3:25pm according to the timestamp.....the game started what, at 8:00pm? didn't even make it six hours between posting the promise and sucking on a nicotine log.....

Yeah he just needs to go away and this is my last posting about it. Pathetic is one useful adjective here....
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: worktowin on August 01, 2017, 10:47:00 PM
Great update!

Well, sir, we are all much more similar than it would seem. It was smart to reach out here. I reached the same point where you are, but it took me a little longer. I seriously, and I mean seriously, considered leaving. Instead, I came to the intros and I read and read. And when I found a dude that I could relate to, I posted on their intro. I picked a couple of guys a month for the next couple of years and I dumped everything I had into keeping them quit. I texted them. I met several in person across the country. I posted in their intros. I know their kids names, their joys and their sadness, and in the process made some very very good friends. I had disappointments along the way, but they were few in number and i learned from each one.

These men i would trust with my life. And in the process of helping them, they helped me even more. The heart of this lesson... I failed myself for 25 years. But the thought of having to tell... Andy, Scott, Jerry, Brett, Ryan,Nick, Ron, Tiffany, Eric, Ross, Dave, Dwayne, Bryan, Todd, Shane, Alvin, Mike, Christopher... (you get the idea) that I just dont care about the battle we fought together, so I caved... Is not a conversation that I can imagine ever having. These men (Tiffany is bad ass so im sure she has balls) and i fought together, win together, and i will not fail them.

You have a gift with words. You can help some guys, and help yourself too. At this point in your quit there is more to gain from giving than there is from taking.... This is my advice to you.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: PhuctUp on August 02, 2017, 12:23:00 AM
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Great update!

Well, sir, we are all much more similar than it would seem. It was smart to reach out here. I reached the same point where you are, but it took me a little longer. I seriously, and I mean seriously, considered leaving. Instead, I came to the intros and I read and read. And when I found a dude that I could relate to, I posted on their intro. I picked a couple of guys a month for the next couple of years and I dumped everything I had into keeping them quit. I texted them. I met several in person across the country. I posted in their intros. I know their kids names, their joys and their sadness, and in the process made some very very good friends. I had disappointments along the way, but they were few in number and i learned from each one.

These men i would trust with my life. And in the process of helping them, they helped me even more. The heart of this lesson... I failed myself for 25 years. But the thought of having to tell... Andy, Scott, Jerry, Brett, Ryan,Nick, Ron, Tiffany, Eric, Ross, Dave, Dwayne, Bryan, Todd, Shane, Alvin, Mike, Christopher... (you get the idea) that I just dont care about the battle we fought together, so I caved... Is not a conversation that I can imagine ever having. These men (Tiffany is bad ass so im sure she has balls) and i fought together, win together, and i will not fail them.

You have a gift with words. You can help some guys, and help yourself too. At this point in your quit there is more to gain from giving than there is from taking.... This is my advice to you.
I needed to read this and, as he called it on text today, Brocc's "rambling sob shit." We've kinda hit a wall it seems at the same time. The site isn't that much fun right now, there's no in-fighting that kept it fun for several weeks, we're at that point where we're on deck for HOF but it's just a lull. There is such a rush with this place the first month or so, where you're learning how to live without dip, all the highs and lows of life, the comings and goings of the guys who will be your quit brothers and sisters, and just the whole fog and hourly battle of it. Now we're just in a place where we are basically trying to reinvent, rebrand, and reinvigorate ourselves in life without dip (and Brocc and I now have alcohol in common, at least for his little hiatus.) It's just a dead period, and I have felt it, too. WTW, I appreciate your insight into what you did at the same juncture in your quit.

And Brocc, when you find what you're searching for, let me know. I ain't found it either. But I'll quit with you again tomorrow and the next day until we find it.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: worktowin on August 02, 2017, 07:18:00 AM
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Great update!

Well, sir, we are all much more similar than it would seem. It was smart to reach out here. I reached the same point where you are, but it took me a little longer. I seriously, and I mean seriously, considered leaving. Instead, I came to the intros and I read and read. And when I found a dude that I could relate to, I posted on their intro. I picked a couple of guys a month for the next couple of years and I dumped everything I had into keeping them quit. I texted them. I met several in person across the country. I posted in their intros. I know their kids names, their joys and their sadness, and in the process made some very very good friends. I had disappointments along the way, but they were few in number and i learned from each one.

These men i would trust with my life. And in the process of helping them, they helped me even more. The heart of this lesson... I failed myself for 25 years. But the thought of having to tell... Andy, Scott, Jerry, Brett, Ryan,Nick, Ron, Tiffany, Eric, Ross, Dave, Dwayne, Bryan, Todd, Shane, Alvin, Mike, Christopher... (you get the idea) that I just dont care about the battle we fought together, so I caved... Is not a conversation that I can imagine ever having. These men (Tiffany is bad ass so im sure she has balls) and i fought together, win together, and i will not fail them.

You have a gift with words. You can help some guys, and help yourself too. At this point in your quit there is more to gain from giving than there is from taking.... This is my advice to you.
I needed to read this and, as he called it on text today, Brocc's "rambling sob shit." We've kinda hit a wall it seems at the same time. The site isn't that much fun right now, there's no in-fighting that kept it fun for several weeks, we're at that point where we're on deck for HOF but it's just a lull. There is such a rush with this place the first month or so, where you're learning how to live without dip, all the highs and lows of life, the comings and goings of the guys who will be your quit brothers and sisters, and just the whole fog and hourly battle of it. Now we're just in a place where we are basically trying to reinvent, rebrand, and reinvigorate ourselves in life without dip (and Brocc and I now have alcohol in common, at least for his little hiatus.) It's just a dead period, and I have felt it, too. WTW, I appreciate your insight into what you did at the same juncture in your quit.

And Brocc, when you find what you're searching for, let me know. I ain't found it either. But I'll quit with you again tomorrow and the next day until we find it.
Guys I have one more suggestion. This will be a mental one...

Right now you are fighting a battle. I referenced this in my earlier reply also, but each day is a fight where you win the battle - but the fight is wearing you out. If you adjust your mindset to focusing on the winning, celebrating your X days of win after X days of loss... The mental aspect of this gets easier. Sounds nutty, but focusing on how great you are doing instead of how hard this is will give you that extra push.

This gets so much better guys. Keep the faith. One foot in front of the other. There is greatness ahead.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on August 04, 2017, 04:54:00 PM
I just read these words now, and I'm glad to see them. I'm working hard at being less of an asshole and more of a support on here. Thanks worktowin for taking the time to respond when I need it. I'm not going to let dip win this fight, so whatever it takes.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Thumblewort on August 07, 2017, 08:51:00 AM
I always liked helping the new quitters when the drama died down. Don't worry, there will always be new drama. Until then stay strong!
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on August 09, 2017, 08:39:00 PM
I always thought dipping was reserved for only country boys and girls, rednecks, cowboys, etc. I'm kinda redneck country. Since getting to know a lot of these fine folks though, I see that stupid nicotine bullshit in a little can has garnered the attention of all walks of life. Oh well...past is past. I'm glad to be quit with all you guys.

Broc.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: worktowin on August 09, 2017, 09:05:00 PM
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I always thought dipping was reserved for only country boys and girls, rednecks, cowboys, etc. I'm kinda redneck country. Since getting to know a lot of these fine folks though, I see that stupid nicotine bullshit in a little can has garnered the attention of all walks of life. Oh well...past is past. I'm glad to be quit with all you guys.

Broc.
Hahaha! Good one! I always thought that too. Except for me. I'm about as non redneck as it gets. I'm more like Frazier than the Marlboro man. But Broc... I chewed 9,000 cans of Kodiak and sucked as much nicotine out as I could. This addiction affects all walks of life.

Nice work helping out the new group btw... feels pretty good, right?
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on August 09, 2017, 11:41:00 PM
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I always thought dipping was reserved for only country boys and girls, rednecks, cowboys, etc. I'm kinda redneck country. Since getting to know a lot of these fine folks though, I see that stupid nicotine bullshit in a little can has garnered the attention of all walks of life. Oh well...past is past. I'm glad to be quit with all you guys.

Broc.
Hahaha! Good one! I always thought that too. Except for me. I'm about as non redneck as it gets. I'm more like Frazier than the Marlboro man. But Broc... I chewed 9,000 cans of Kodiak and sucked as much nicotine out as I could. This addiction affects all walks of life.

Nice work helping out the new group btw... feels pretty good, right?
It feels really good man.

Here's a fun fact. Assuming a can of dip is 0.9" tall (I looked on reddit), 9000 cans stacked on top of each other would be 675' tall, just shy of the 700 ft tall met life building in NYC...take a gander.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Metropo ... pany_Tower (https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Metropolitan_Life_Insurance_Company_Tower)

I'm glad you quit when you did, brother.
And I'm glad I'm quit too. 328', just shy of this.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Manhatt ... e_Building (https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Manhattan_Life_Insurance_Building)

Both life insurance buildings by utter coincidence. Something we were both on track to need earlier than our non tobacco using friends!

'oh yeah'
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: worktowin on August 10, 2017, 07:08:00 AM
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Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
I always thought dipping was reserved for only country boys and girls, rednecks, cowboys, etc. I'm kinda redneck country. Since getting to know a lot of these fine folks though, I see that stupid nicotine bullshit in a little can has garnered the attention of all walks of life. Oh well...past is past. I'm glad to be quit with all you guys.

Broc.
Hahaha! Good one! I always thought that too. Except for me. I'm about as non redneck as it gets. I'm more like Frazier than the Marlboro man. But Broc... I chewed 9,000 cans of Kodiak and sucked as much nicotine out as I could. This addiction affects all walks of life.

Nice work helping out the new group btw... feels pretty good, right?
It feels really good man.

Here's a fun fact. Assuming a can of dip is 0.9" tall (I looked on reddit), 9000 cans stacked on top of each other would be 675' tall, just shy of the 700 ft tall met life building in NYC...take a gander.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Metropo ... pany_Tower (https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Metropolitan_Life_Insurance_Company_Tower)

I'm glad you quit when you did, brother.
And I'm glad I'm quit too. 328', just shy of this.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Manhatt ... e_Building (https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Manhattan_Life_Insurance_Building)

Both life insurance buildings by utter coincidence. Something we were both on track to need earlier than our non tobacco using friends!

'oh yeah'
Thank you for posting this.

Wow.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on August 10, 2017, 09:31:00 AM
I thought it was an interesting perspective. Currently running numbers and getting comps for all the guys on my morning text list. lol
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: worktowin on August 10, 2017, 05:32:00 PM
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
I thought it was an interesting perspective. Currently running numbers and getting comps for all the guys on my morning text list. lol
I bet mine is bigger. LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on August 14, 2017, 11:30:00 AM
Some truth bombs and thoughts I dropped in my group, but I kinda like to paste them in here too. Using this as somewhat of a quit diary at this point. If i ever need a quick reference to why I'm doing this shit, I'm not sorting through 6 bazillion pages.

ON QUIT COMPLACENCY AND BOREDOM (MY ACHILLES HEEL):

It's also what I dealt with last year when I caved. Listen to my experience and learn from it. The nic bitch started seducing me with shit like, "ok we know you've got this addiction beat, but one dip now and then won't hurt. Remember the rush you got from a dip and the way it tasted in your mouth? It's all easily attainable, just down the street, go at lunch, get a can, a dip a day or a dip a week won't hurt and your're cured!"

And here's what really happened:

I shrugged her off, said fuck the nic bitch. I had a cigar instead. I tried to justify it, saying it wasn't dip, and it wouldn't lead me to dip. I got kicked out of my quit group. I stayed good for maybe a month, then she started whispering again, I wasn't posting daily promises, I had no real reason to not "just have one". I bought a can. I had one dip that day for sure, and threw the rest of the can away. That dip was disappointing as fuck. The perfect rush, the burn, the high...that shit just wasn't there. The familiar feeling was though. I waited a couple days, then bought another can. Dipped all afternoon out of that one, chunked it when it was half full. Said I can't go back. But she already put roots down. Within a month of battling with myself internally, I was dipping a can a day again and sometimes more. I was full on right where I started and it all started from "just one" and "I think I have this shit beat".

I didn't. You don't. Never take just one. Just one leads to full on addiction again and that shit ain't worth it.

I was day 76 when I caved last time. Right about where I am now. And that thought is in my head more than the nic bitch is. I'm pushing back and I'm choosing life over slavery.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on August 14, 2017, 11:32:00 AM
ON LAST WEEKEND:

Broke up with the girlfriend Saturday. Went a little crazy Saturday night and put myself in a situation that I don't care to ever be in again. It was flat out scary and I'm still shaken up by it. But I know that I need to get more than just nicotine right with my life. I did not dip or use nicotine in any form. I used a bit of alcohol, but I wasn't even hardly buzzed. This situation was more of a piss poor live choice that was right on the edge of undermining everything I've been working my ass off to achieve, from owning my own business, to having stature in the community, to getting my daughter more. It was right on that line of taking all that away from me. For what? One stupid decision that led to a string of events that could have altered my life forever.

So I implore all of you guys to weigh your decisions as men. It could have happened to me, it could happen to you. Not taking that next dip, not taking that next drink, not getting in that car, not making that choice that can make you lose everything for a tiny little contact high. Think about it...I know I am. Stay quit and rock on fellas.

I will never forget this night as long as I live. I will learn from it. Hope to never make a path of decisions that lead me like that again.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on August 23, 2017, 02:58:00 PM
Day 75. Day 75 was my last full day of quit last year. I caved on Day 76. 25 more days to HOF. Many more days after that, but for now, one day at a time. I will not use nicotine in any form today.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: worktowin on August 23, 2017, 09:15:00 PM
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Day 75. Day 75 was my last full day of quit last year. I caved on Day 76. 25 more days to HOF. Many more days after that, but for now, one day at a time. I will not use nicotine in any form today.
Some really good days ahead. A little glimpse at what is ahead. Nice work.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on September 12, 2017, 12:05:00 PM
Welp, I'm up to day 95 and almost at the HOF. By no means do I think I'm about to be cured. I still get cravings, but they have become easier to squash when they crop up. I spent last weekend in south texas helping with flood cleanup. I think it changed me a little. I didn't use fake shit the whole time I was down there because I didn't even think about it. I have used some since I've been back. But the change is more intrinsic to who I am. I've felt like a whole lot less asshole and a bit more compassionate. I'm not sure if this is temporary or for how long, but it feels good to have some of my old personality back. Not the while dipping one, but even before that. I'm looking forward to HOF. I hope they have some ice cream sandwiches on that train.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: CavMan83 on September 17, 2017, 02:09:00 PM
Congrats on that HUNNERT!!! Awesome job, truck boy! See you on roll tomorrow!
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: worktowin on September 17, 2017, 03:16:00 PM
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Congrats on that HUNNERT!!! Awesome job, truck boy! See you on roll tomorrow!
Proud to quit with you on day 100, man! You've come a long way... and the road ahead is full of a lot more greatness.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: jeffw on September 17, 2017, 09:01:00 PM
congrats on 100
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on October 06, 2017, 11:54:00 AM
I'm not sure how this all happened, except for the fact that I knew I had to be larger than life on this board in order to make it. I had to be known, I had to be abrasive, I had to be full of life, full of piss and vinegar, and occupy these boards for a while to get over the hump and quit this shit. However, it's gotten to be too much. I have the board persona of being a pure asshole and that's not who I want to be. My plan worked, but now it's time to move to a different phase. I'll be on the boards and will continue to post roll. I'll continue to post support and talk to those people I've gotten to know via text and groupme. But I'm going to take a few steps back from the front...let some of this newer quit rage flame brighter and I'm going to work on positivity and stopping to smell the roses instead of setting them on fire.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Jeff W on October 06, 2017, 01:12:00 PM
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
I'm not sure how this all happened, except for the fact that I knew I had to be larger than life on this board in order to make it. I had to be known, I had to be abrasive, I had to be full of life, full of piss and vinegar, and occupy these boards for a while to get over the hump and quit this shit. However, it's gotten to be too much. I have the board persona of being a pure asshole and that's not who I want to be. My plan worked, but now it's time to move to a different phase. I'll be on the boards and will continue to post roll. I'll continue to post support and talk to those people I've gotten to know via text and groupme. But I'm going to take a few steps back from the front...let some of this newer quit rage flame brighter and I'm going to work on positivity and stopping to smell the roses instead of setting them on fire.
Hey man, I get it and maybe because I'm far enough along in my quit I could see the humor and the joking in your posts. Foggy new guys have a hard time with that sometimes. Don't you dare leave KTC, that would be a bitch move. Part of my strategy has been be a big enough asshole / cocky bastard that there is no way in hell I could ever cave because I wouldn't be able to face down one person here. It's been part of my quit strategy. I have also tried to be a little more positive so I think that's a good idea but you don't have to get all soft and shit. It takes all personalities to make this family fire on all cylinders. See you on roll in the AM fucker! 'Finger'
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Thumblewort on October 11, 2017, 02:01:00 PM
Quote from: Jeff
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
I'm not sure how this all happened, except for the fact that I knew I had to be larger than life on this board in order to make it. I had to be known, I had to be abrasive, I had to be full of life, full of piss and vinegar, and occupy these boards for a while to get over the hump and quit this shit. However, it's gotten to be too much. I have the board persona of being a pure asshole and that's not who I want to be. My plan worked, but now it's time to move to a different phase. I'll be on the boards and will continue to post roll. I'll continue to post support and talk to those people I've gotten to know via text and groupme. But I'm going to take a few steps back from the front...let some of this newer quit rage flame brighter and I'm going to work on positivity and stopping to smell the roses instead of setting them on fire.
Hey man, I get it and maybe because I'm far enough along in my quit I could see the humor and the joking in your posts. Foggy new guys have a hard time with that sometimes. Don't you dare leave KTC, that would be a bitch move. Part of my strategy has been be a big enough asshole / cocky bastard that there is no way in hell I could ever cave because I wouldn't be able to face down one person here. It's been part of my quit strategy. I have also tried to be a little more positive so I think that's a good idea but you don't have to get all soft and shit. It takes all personalities to make this family fire on all cylinders. See you on roll in the AM fucker! 'Finger'
I'm an asshole and proud of it Brocc, keep being who you are!
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: wastepanel on October 11, 2017, 02:07:00 PM
Quote from: Thumblewort
Quote from: Jeff
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
I'm not sure how this all happened, except for the fact that I knew I had to be larger than life on this board in order to make it. I had to be known, I had to be abrasive, I had to be full of life, full of piss and vinegar, and occupy these boards for a while to get over the hump and quit this shit. However, it's gotten to be too much. I have the board persona of being a pure asshole and that's not who I want to be. My plan worked, but now it's time to move to a different phase. I'll be on the boards and will continue to post roll. I'll continue to post support and talk to those people I've gotten to know via text and groupme. But I'm going to take a few steps back from the front...let some of this newer quit rage flame brighter and I'm going to work on positivity and stopping to smell the roses instead of setting them on fire.
Hey man, I get it and maybe because I'm far enough along in my quit I could see the humor and the joking in your posts. Foggy new guys have a hard time with that sometimes. Don't you dare leave KTC, that would be a bitch move. Part of my strategy has been be a big enough asshole / cocky bastard that there is no way in hell I could ever cave because I wouldn't be able to face down one person here. It's been part of my quit strategy. I have also tried to be a little more positive so I think that's a good idea but you don't have to get all soft and shit. It takes all personalities to make this family fire on all cylinders. See you on roll in the AM fucker! 'Finger'
I'm an asshole and proud of it Brocc, keep being who you are!
Always build quit first of all. It's easy to be an asshole. It's legendary to tell hard truths.

Secondly, post roll and be content in your quit. You don't need to live here. Just be here. Remember...we're not personas. Be yourself. Only you can do that.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: worktowin on October 11, 2017, 10:22:00 PM
Quote from: wastepanel
Quote from: Thumblewort
Quote from: Jeff
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
I'm not sure how this all happened, except for the fact that I knew I had to be larger than life on this board in order to make it. I had to be known, I had to be abrasive, I had to be full of life, full of piss and vinegar, and occupy these boards for a while to get over the hump and quit this shit. However, it's gotten to be too much. I have the board persona of being a pure asshole and that's not who I want to be. My plan worked, but now it's time to move to a different phase. I'll be on the boards and will continue to post roll. I'll continue to post support and talk to those people I've gotten to know via text and groupme. But I'm going to take a few steps back from the front...let some of this newer quit rage flame brighter and I'm going to work on positivity and stopping to smell the roses instead of setting them on fire.
Hey man, I get it and maybe because I'm far enough along in my quit I could see the humor and the joking in your posts. Foggy new guys have a hard time with that sometimes. Don't you dare leave KTC, that would be a bitch move. Part of my strategy has been be a big enough asshole / cocky bastard that there is no way in hell I could ever cave because I wouldn't be able to face down one person here. It's been part of my quit strategy. I have also tried to be a little more positive so I think that's a good idea but you don't have to get all soft and shit. It takes all personalities to make this family fire on all cylinders. See you on roll in the AM fucker! 'Finger'
I'm an asshole and proud of it Brocc, keep being who you are!
Always build quit first of all. It's easy to be an asshole. It's legendary to tell hard truths.

Secondly, post roll and be content in your quit. You don't need to live here. Just be here. Remember...we're not personas. Be yourself. Only you can do that.
This site serves different purposes for all of us. We are all different. Our needs are different. Youve come a long, long way dude. Things get a lot better from where you are now.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on November 01, 2017, 11:45:00 AM
Some thoughts today:

There are good cops and there are bad cops. That game is played everywhere including here. Everybody here has the same end goal to tell nicotine to fuck off and help others do so. However, some people are gentle and some are abrasive. Some are assholes just to be assholes. Some coddle the newbies. Some jack up roll on purpose, and some fix it. ThereÂ’s a method to the madness. Different people respond to different things, and we sure offer many types of personalities here. But they all want the same thing. Accountability and people that stay quit. Nobody wants anybody to fail here. We donÂ’t want you to give another nickel to the tobacco companies. We want you to keep your jaw. We want you to grow and stay nicotine free, and give back to other quitters. So when tough love is getting dished out, keep that in mind. The best way a caring attitude is shown is by getting involved. To the vets here that get involved and stay involved, theyÂ’re saving lives, theyÂ’re paying it forward so you can get strong, so that I could get strong and help the next person.

I've got another thought that I'm gonna lay on the newer groups too, but gotta get it typed out. Didn't want to lose this one that I started a week or so ago. 'Crazy'
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on November 01, 2017, 12:14:00 PM
Here goes....gonna drop this in newer groups.

Some thoughts on building relationships:

I think IÂ’ve been here long enough and been involved enough to see some trends here. Everybody stresses the importance of getting phone numbers but never really tells you what to do with those numbers. I text 37 quitters my promise every day. Of those, I get into other conversations with maybe 20 of them from time to time. Of those, I get into deeper conversations with 10-12 of them at least weekly. Of those, there are 6 that I would feel comfortable calling at any hour of the day/night, and 2 that I have done that with. Those relationships keep me quit. ItÂ’s easy to make a promise to a bunch of nameless, faceless strangers that are a little difficult to imagine as actually existing in real life. When you text your promise to somebody that youÂ’ve shared life challenges with, somebody that youÂ’ve seen pics of and pics of their family, and know what they go through on a regular basis, youÂ’re telling a friend that you wonÂ’t dip that day. We arenÂ’t trading numbers just to enhance our rolodex. We should be building relationships with these people so when you need them, you wonÂ’t be apprehensive about calling them.

I was on my second week of quit, around day 12. I had been out to dinner with a lady friend and was driving home. I stopped at a gas station for a Dr.Pepper, and when I went to the counter, I also bought a can. It was muscle memory. I opened the can and smelled it. It was absolutely divine, but I had given my promise and I had relationships made. I felt I needed to announce my intentions so I could keep my word as a man. I texted Casus Belli. What made me pick him, I have no idea. He wasnÂ’t even in my group. He was August, but he reached out to me early in my quit and he was one of my few numbers. I was on the verge. I had bought a can, opened a can, and smelled that shit. There were only two more steps to take, and IÂ’d be a caver AGAIN, posting a new day 1. What Casus did after I texted him saved my quit. He didnÂ’t text back. He freaking CALLED me. And he talked to me for probably 15 minutes about the chemicals in dip, his story, hell I canÂ’t remember what all he talked to me about. But in that time, I decided to walk to the toilet and dump this brand new can of cancer that I had just paid $5 for not 30 minutes earlier. His actions were a result of our relationship, and that saved my quit.

Fast forward to day 77. At this point in my quit, I felt like I had things whipped pretty good. One day, I went to the gas station on my lunch break at work to grab a drink and a burger from the fry cook. As soon as I pulled in the lot, I felt a deep crave out of nowhere. I was right on the verge of going in and buying a can. Once again, I had made my promise early and I had relationships. I texted a brother, then I realized text is too slow, probably exactly what Casus realized that day 2 months earlier. I decided to call Phuctup. He answered, and I kept him on the phone the whole time I was in the store. If I had him on the line, I couldnÂ’t very well order a can of dip without him coming to Texas and kicking me in the nuts. RelationshipsÂ…

Develop these relationships guys. I just posted a 145 day promise, and I could easily have a crave so solid that I need to make a call. I have multiple people that I wouldnÂ’t hesitate to pick up the phone and do that with. I have people that I really want to meet and I would drive hours to do so. I have made friends here. If anybody here needs digits, mine are a PM away, but IÂ’ll want yours too, and a daily text promise at a minimum. The people that donÂ’t have those relationships are much more likely to cave on the site. This is no joke and itÂ’s life and death. DonÂ’t you think you should do everything you can to stay quit?
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: CavMan83 on November 01, 2017, 07:31:00 PM
Had absolutely NO idea you were that smart. That was exactly what new quitters needed to hear, bubba. I knew I supported your arse for a good reason! Keep doin' what you're doin'.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: ChickDip on November 01, 2017, 11:19:00 PM
Quote from: CavMan83
Had absolutely NO idea you were that smart. That was exactly what new quitters needed to hear, bubba. I knew I supported your arse for a good reason! Keep doin' what you're doin'.
What that BAQ said^^^ and that's Awesome Dino.....
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on November 03, 2017, 12:53:00 PM
Quote from: ChickDip
Quote from: CavMan83
Had absolutely NO idea you were that smart. That was exactly what new quitters needed to hear, bubba. I knew I supported your arse for a good reason! Keep doin' what you're doin'.
What that BAQ said^^^ and that's Awesome Dino.....
I really look up to you both! Thanks for the kind words. I feel as if it's time to start paying it forward.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: worktowin on November 03, 2017, 10:46:00 PM
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: ChickDip
Quote from: CavMan83
Had absolutely NO idea you were that smart. That was exactly what new quitters needed to hear, bubba. I knew I supported your arse for a good reason! Keep doin' what you're doin'.
What that BAQ said^^^ and that's Awesome Dino.....
I really look up to you both! Thanks for the kind words. I feel as if it's time to start paying it forward.
Giving back will take you to the next level.

YouÂ’ve come a long long way dude. Keep it up!
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: FLLipOut on November 04, 2017, 09:17:00 PM
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: ChickDip
Quote from: CavMan83
Had absolutely NO idea you were that smart. That was exactly what new quitters needed to hear, bubba. I knew I supported your arse for a good reason! Keep doin' what you're doin'.
What that BAQ said^^^ and that's Awesome Dino.....
I really look up to you both! Thanks for the kind words. I feel as if it's time to start paying it forward.
Giving back will take you to the next level.

YouÂ’ve come a long long way dude. Keep it up!
Great insight, Brocc. Happy to see your name below the line supporting the Dumpster Fire too!
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: FLLipOut on December 26, 2017, 11:48:00 AM
200!!!

Congratulations - 2ND FLOOR!!! Nice quit there, Brocc!!!

'party2' 'party2' 'party2'
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: DonkeyMN on December 26, 2017, 11:59:00 AM
Quote from: FLLipOut
200!!!

Congratulations - 2ND FLOOR!!! Nice quit there, Brocc!!!

'party2' 'party2' 'party2'
Keep quitting hard bro! Welcome to the 2nd floor Dino!
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: worktowin on December 26, 2017, 03:52:00 PM
Quote from: DonkeyMN
Quote from: FLLipOut
200!!!

Congratulations - 2ND FLOOR!!! Nice quit there, Brocc!!!

'party2' 'party2' 'party2'
Keep quitting hard bro! Welcome to the 2nd floor Dino!
Congratulations on another big win, dude!
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: pab1964 on December 26, 2017, 04:06:00 PM
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: DonkeyMN
Quote from: FLLipOut
200!!!

Congratulations - 2ND FLOOR!!! Nice quit there, Brocc!!!

'party2' 'party2' 'party2'
Keep quitting hard bro! Welcome to the 2nd floor Dino!
Congratulations on another big win, dude!
Attaboy! Keep stacking them
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: CavMan83 on December 26, 2017, 07:47:00 PM
Quote from: pab1964
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: DonkeyMN
Quote from: FLLipOut
200!!!

Congratulations - 2ND FLOOR!!! Nice quit there, Brocc!!!

'party2' 'party2' 'party2'
Keep quitting hard bro! Welcome to the 2nd floor Dino!
Congratulations on another big win, dude!
Attaboy! Keep stacking them
Man, they'll let ANYONE off on the second floor!!!! 'no' Awesome job bubba! Keep at it!
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Thumblewort on December 27, 2017, 09:15:00 AM
Quote from: CavMan83
Quote from: pab1964
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: DonkeyMN
Quote from: FLLipOut
200!!!

Congratulations - 2ND FLOOR!!! Nice quit there, Brocc!!!

'party2' 'party2' 'party2'
Keep quitting hard bro! Welcome to the 2nd floor Dino!
Congratulations on another big win, dude!
Attaboy! Keep stacking them
Man, they'll let ANYONE off on the second floor!!!! 'no' Awesome job bubba! Keep at it!
well done!
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: BrianG on March 24, 2018, 12:43:00 AM
Big win for Tech over the Boilermakers...Big Fan!!
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on March 29, 2018, 05:12:00 PM
Quote from: BrianG
Big win for Tech over the Boilermakers...Big Fan!!
Hahahahaha..that's next level shit right there!

Wish we could have gone all the way! (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WzW_bSG78js)


I'm proud to be quit with you, Brian.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: ChickDip on April 05, 2018, 11:21:00 AM
Congrats on your 300 days quit Dino!
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: worktowin on April 06, 2018, 07:28:00 AM
Quote from: ChickDip
Congrats on your 300 days quit Dino!
YouÂ’ve turned into a bad ass brother. Nicely done on 300.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: worktowin on June 09, 2018, 07:52:00 PM
One year of giving and keeping your word. Onevyesr of solid winning.

Onevyesr of freedom.

Congratulations sir. It keeps getting better from here.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Candoit on June 09, 2018, 09:20:00 PM
Quote from: worktowin
One year of giving and keeping your word. Onevyesr of solid winning.

Onevyesr of freedom.

Congratulations sir. It keeps getting better from here.
Well done! Looking forward to seeing your promise again tomorrow.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: FLLipOut on June 09, 2018, 10:49:00 PM
Quote from: Candoit
Quote from: worktowin
One year of giving and keeping your word. Onevyesr of solid winning.

Onevyesr of freedom.

Congratulations sir. It keeps getting better from here.
Well done! Looking forward to seeing your promise again tomorrow.
'party' Congratulations, Brocc!!! 'party'
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: ChickDip on June 10, 2018, 01:59:00 AM
Quote from: FLLipOut
Quote from: Candoit
Quote from: worktowin
One year of giving and keeping your word. Onevyesr of solid winning.

Onevyesr of freedom.

Congratulations sir. It keeps getting better from here.
Well done! Looking forward to seeing your promise again tomorrow.
'party' Congratulations, Brocc!!! 'party'
Way to go Dino!! Well earned.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: JB65 on June 11, 2018, 04:51:00 PM
Quote from: ChickDip
Quote from: FLLipOut
Quote from: Candoit
Quote from: worktowin
One year of giving and keeping your word. Onevyesr of solid winning.

Onevyesr of freedom.

Congratulations sir. It keeps getting better from here.
Well done! Looking forward to seeing your promise again tomorrow.
'party' Congratulations, Brocc!!! 'party'
Way to go Dino!! Well earned.
Good stuff!!! Congrats :)
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: 69franx on June 11, 2018, 08:02:00 PM
Quote from: JB65
Quote from: ChickDip
Quote from: FLLipOut
Quote from: Candoit
Quote from: worktowin
One year of giving and keeping your word. Onevyesr of solid winning.

Onevyesr of freedom.

Congratulations sir. It keeps getting better from here.
Well done! Looking forward to seeing your promise again tomorrow.
'party' Congratulations, Brocc!!! 'party'
Way to go Dino!! Well earned.
Good stuff!!! Congrats :)
Hey brother, not sure how I never looked into this before today but now I've read your intro. You just passed your anniversary and come off as a completely different kind of animal than you did in August-November. You are a bad ass and an inspiration. Can't wait for November 4th. Keep killing it brother, I'll quit with you any day!
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on June 12, 2018, 10:28:00 AM
Thanks guys, I appreciate that and I'm glad I can call each of you my friend!

A question has been on our board for our year celebration and I thought I'd post that info here too. Way TMI, so if you don't like TMI, stop reading now.


What events made you want to quit nicotine a year ago?

Two things. First, I gutted all my spit and I was experiencing some stomach issues. Nothing I saw my doctor about because I'm not a doctor kinda guy, but I knew that it was at least partially to blame from the tobacco juice I was ingesting constantly. Second, my libido was down, doc wanted me to continue TRT shots and I was tired of that bullshit. It's a cop out, being medicated for something you can control with dicipline and I read that nicotine decreases testosterone and actually contributes to ED. That and being fat. I kicked the nic, and now focusing hard on losing some weight. I'm happy to report that at a year quit, stomach issues are gone, and my penis works as it should. Now I've gotta lose the FUPA so it looks bigger. TMI? Maybe...but I've always been real with you guys. I love every one of you for the support, threats of violence, and caring that you've shown me. Here's to many more!


I also want to say that I had two texts last night from two quitters marveling at the changes in my demeanor. I was a wreck until about day 50. Then I was pissed at the world until about day 300. After the 300, or somewhere thereabouts, I felt the anger dissolve. I'm no longer ready to kill people. I'm a lot less about the why than I am about the fix. I've mellowed out to where I was pre-nicotine. I love it. It's positivity. It's solutions. It's love. My brain did rewire itself and I'm sure it's still happening. It was a miserable 300 days, but I can see sunny days on the horizon.

Thank you all for the support over this year. I know I was a tornado on KTC for my first couple hundred days. I was the cause of 2 moderator announcements, I've been warned a few times by admin, and of course board functionality was lost. I'm sorry for all that but I needed it, needed that outlet, needed the site so bad. I couldn't have done it without this site, and you have become my closest friends. Thanks for that, thanks for all of it, you saved my life.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: 69franx on June 12, 2018, 11:40:00 AM
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Thanks guys, I appreciate that and I'm glad I can call each of you my friend!

A question has been on our board for our year celebration and I thought I'd post that info here too. Way TMI, so if you don't like TMI, stop reading now.


What events made you want to quit nicotine a year ago?

Two things. First, I gutted all my spit and I was experiencing some stomach issues. Nothing I saw my doctor about because I'm not a doctor kinda guy, but I knew that it was at least partially to blame from the tobacco juice I was ingesting constantly. Second, my libido was down, doc wanted me to continue TRT shots and I was tired of that bullshit. It's a cop out, being medicated for something you can control with dicipline and I read that nicotine decreases testosterone and actually contributes to ED. That and being fat. I kicked the nic, and now focusing hard on losing some weight. I'm happy to report that at a year quit, stomach issues are gone, and my penis works as it should. Now I've gotta lose the FUPA so it looks bigger. TMI? Maybe...but I've always been real with you guys. I love every one of you for the support, threats of violence, and caring that you've shown me. Here's to many more!


I also want to say that I had two texts last night from two quitters marveling at the changes in my demeanor. I was a wreck until about day 50. Then I was pissed at the world until about day 300. After the 300, or somewhere thereabouts, I felt the anger dissolve. I'm no longer ready to kill people. I'm a lot less about the why than I am about the fix. I've mellowed out to where I was pre-nicotine. I love it. It's positivity. It's solutions. It's love. My brain did rewire itself and I'm sure it's still happening. It was a miserable 300 days, but I can see sunny days on the horizon.

Thank you all for the support over this year. I know I was a tornado on KTC for my first couple hundred days. I was the cause of 2 moderator announcements, I've been warned a few times by admin, and of course board functionality was lost. I'm sorry for all that but I needed it, needed that outlet, needed the site so bad. I couldn't have done it without this site, and you have become my closest friends. Thanks for that, thanks for all of it, you saved my life.
The admissions you make in your final paragraph are really BIG of you to admit. Love you brother
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on June 12, 2018, 12:35:00 PM
Quote from: 69Franx
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Thanks guys, I appreciate that and I'm glad I can call each of you my friend!

A question has been on our board for our year celebration and I thought I'd post that info here too. Way TMI, so if you don't like TMI, stop reading now.


What events made you want to quit nicotine a year ago?

Two things. First, I gutted all my spit and I was experiencing some stomach issues. Nothing I saw my doctor about because I'm not a doctor kinda guy, but I knew that it was at least partially to blame from the tobacco juice I was ingesting constantly. Second, my libido was down, doc wanted me to continue TRT shots and I was tired of that bullshit. It's a cop out, being medicated for something you can control with dicipline and I read that nicotine decreases testosterone and actually contributes to ED. That and being fat. I kicked the nic, and now focusing hard on losing some weight. I'm happy to report that at a year quit, stomach issues are gone, and my penis works as it should. Now I've gotta lose the FUPA so it looks bigger. TMI? Maybe...but I've always been real with you guys. I love every one of you for the support, threats of violence, and caring that you've shown me. Here's to many more!


I also want to say that I had two texts last night from two quitters marveling at the changes in my demeanor. I was a wreck until about day 50. Then I was pissed at the world until about day 300. After the 300, or somewhere thereabouts, I felt the anger dissolve. I'm no longer ready to kill people. I'm a lot less about the why than I am about the fix. I've mellowed out to where I was pre-nicotine. I love it. It's positivity. It's solutions. It's love. My brain did rewire itself and I'm sure it's still happening. It was a miserable 300 days, but I can see sunny days on the horizon.

Thank you all for the support over this year. I know I was a tornado on KTC for my first couple hundred days. I was the cause of 2 moderator announcements, I've been warned a few times by admin, and of course board functionality was lost. I'm sorry for all that but I needed it, needed that outlet, needed the site so bad. I couldn't have done it without this site, and you have become my closest friends. Thanks for that, thanks for all of it, you saved my life.
The admissions you make in your final paragraph are really BIG of you to admit. Love you brother
Why'd you single that paragraph out? You don't want to talk about my penis?
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: 69franx on June 12, 2018, 12:46:00 PM
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: 69Franx
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Thanks guys, I appreciate that and I'm glad I can call each of you my friend!

A question has been on our board for our year celebration and I thought I'd post that info here too. Way TMI, so if you don't like TMI, stop reading now.


What events made you want to quit nicotine a year ago?

Two things. First, I gutted all my spit and I was experiencing some stomach issues. Nothing I saw my doctor about because I'm not a doctor kinda guy, but I knew that it was at least partially to blame from the tobacco juice I was ingesting constantly. Second, my libido was down, doc wanted me to continue TRT shots and I was tired of that bullshit. It's a cop out, being medicated for something you can control with dicipline and I read that nicotine decreases testosterone and actually contributes to ED. That and being fat. I kicked the nic, and now focusing hard on losing some weight. I'm happy to report that at a year quit, stomach issues are gone, and my penis works as it should. Now I've gotta lose the FUPA so it looks bigger. TMI? Maybe...but I've always been real with you guys. I love every one of you for the support, threats of violence, and caring that you've shown me. Here's to many more!


I also want to say that I had two texts last night from two quitters marveling at the changes in my demeanor. I was a wreck until about day 50. Then I was pissed at the world until about day 300. After the 300, or somewhere thereabouts, I felt the anger dissolve. I'm no longer ready to kill people. I'm a lot less about the why than I am about the fix. I've mellowed out to where I was pre-nicotine. I love it. It's positivity. It's solutions. It's love. My brain did rewire itself and I'm sure it's still happening. It was a miserable 300 days, but I can see sunny days on the horizon.

Thank you all for the support over this year. I know I was a tornado on KTC for my first couple hundred days. I was the cause of 2 moderator announcements, I've been warned a few times by admin, and of course board functionality was lost. I'm sorry for all that but I needed it, needed that outlet, needed the site so bad. I couldn't have done it without this site, and you have become my closest friends. Thanks for that, thanks for all of it, you saved my life.
The admissions you make in your final paragraph are really BIG of you to admit. Love you brother
Why'd you single that paragraph out? You don't want to talk about my penis?
Nope, especially not if we are talking about the BIG changes you've made
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on June 12, 2018, 12:50:00 PM
Quote from: 69Franx
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: 69Franx
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Thanks guys, I appreciate that and I'm glad I can call each of you my friend!

A question has been on our board for our year celebration and I thought I'd post that info here too. Way TMI, so if you don't like TMI, stop reading now.


What events made you want to quit nicotine a year ago?

Two things. First, I gutted all my spit and I was experiencing some stomach issues. Nothing I saw my doctor about because I'm not a doctor kinda guy, but I knew that it was at least partially to blame from the tobacco juice I was ingesting constantly. Second, my libido was down, doc wanted me to continue TRT shots and I was tired of that bullshit. It's a cop out, being medicated for something you can control with dicipline and I read that nicotine decreases testosterone and actually contributes to ED. That and being fat. I kicked the nic, and now focusing hard on losing some weight. I'm happy to report that at a year quit, stomach issues are gone, and my penis works as it should. Now I've gotta lose the FUPA so it looks bigger. TMI? Maybe...but I've always been real with you guys. I love every one of you for the support, threats of violence, and caring that you've shown me. Here's to many more!


I also want to say that I had two texts last night from two quitters marveling at the changes in my demeanor. I was a wreck until about day 50. Then I was pissed at the world until about day 300. After the 300, or somewhere thereabouts, I felt the anger dissolve. I'm no longer ready to kill people. I'm a lot less about the why than I am about the fix. I've mellowed out to where I was pre-nicotine. I love it. It's positivity. It's solutions. It's love. My brain did rewire itself and I'm sure it's still happening. It was a miserable 300 days, but I can see sunny days on the horizon.

Thank you all for the support over this year. I know I was a tornado on KTC for my first couple hundred days. I was the cause of 2 moderator announcements, I've been warned a few times by admin, and of course board functionality was lost. I'm sorry for all that but I needed it, needed that outlet, needed the site so bad. I couldn't have done it without this site, and you have become my closest friends. Thanks for that, thanks for all of it, you saved my life.
The admissions you make in your final paragraph are really BIG of you to admit. Love you brother
Why'd you single that paragraph out? You don't want to talk about my penis?
Nope, especially not if we are talking about the BIG changes you've made
Thanks for the inspiration to get rid of the FUPA!
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: worktowin on June 12, 2018, 01:11:00 PM
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: 69Franx
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: 69Franx
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Thanks guys, I appreciate that and I'm glad I can call each of you my friend!

A question has been on our board for our year celebration and I thought I'd post that info here too. Way TMI, so if you don't like TMI, stop reading now.


What events made you want to quit nicotine a year ago?

Two things. First, I gutted all my spit and I was experiencing some stomach issues. Nothing I saw my doctor about because I'm not a doctor kinda guy, but I knew that it was at least partially to blame from the tobacco juice I was ingesting constantly. Second, my libido was down, doc wanted me to continue TRT shots and I was tired of that bullshit. It's a cop out, being medicated for something you can control with dicipline and I read that nicotine decreases testosterone and actually contributes to ED. That and being fat. I kicked the nic, and now focusing hard on losing some weight. I'm happy to report that at a year quit, stomach issues are gone, and my penis works as it should. Now I've gotta lose the FUPA so it looks bigger. TMI? Maybe...but I've always been real with you guys. I love every one of you for the support, threats of violence, and caring that you've shown me. Here's to many more!


I also want to say that I had two texts last night from two quitters marveling at the changes in my demeanor. I was a wreck until about day 50. Then I was pissed at the world until about day 300. After the 300, or somewhere thereabouts, I felt the anger dissolve. I'm no longer ready to kill people. I'm a lot less about the why than I am about the fix. I've mellowed out to where I was pre-nicotine. I love it. It's positivity. It's solutions. It's love. My brain did rewire itself and I'm sure it's still happening. It was a miserable 300 days, but I can see sunny days on the horizon.

Thank you all for the support over this year. I know I was a tornado on KTC for my first couple hundred days. I was the cause of 2 moderator announcements, I've been warned a few times by admin, and of course board functionality was lost. I'm sorry for all that but I needed it, needed that outlet, needed the site so bad. I couldn't have done it without this site, and you have become my closest friends. Thanks for that, thanks for all of it, you saved my life.
The admissions you make in your final paragraph are really BIG of you to admit. Love you brother
Why'd you single that paragraph out? You don't want to talk about my penis?
Nope, especially not if we are talking about the BIG changes you've made
Thanks for the inspiration to get rid of the FUPA!
The dick talk was a very small part of what you talked about. Very very small. Inconsequential.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on June 12, 2018, 01:18:00 PM
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: 69Franx
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: 69Franx
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Thanks guys, I appreciate that and I'm glad I can call each of you my friend!

A question has been on our board for our year celebration and I thought I'd post that info here too. Way TMI, so if you don't like TMI, stop reading now.


What events made you want to quit nicotine a year ago?

Two things. First, I gutted all my spit and I was experiencing some stomach issues. Nothing I saw my doctor about because I'm not a doctor kinda guy, but I knew that it was at least partially to blame from the tobacco juice I was ingesting constantly. Second, my libido was down, doc wanted me to continue TRT shots and I was tired of that bullshit. It's a cop out, being medicated for something you can control with dicipline and I read that nicotine decreases testosterone and actually contributes to ED. That and being fat. I kicked the nic, and now focusing hard on losing some weight. I'm happy to report that at a year quit, stomach issues are gone, and my penis works as it should. Now I've gotta lose the FUPA so it looks bigger. TMI? Maybe...but I've always been real with you guys. I love every one of you for the support, threats of violence, and caring that you've shown me. Here's to many more!


I also want to say that I had two texts last night from two quitters marveling at the changes in my demeanor. I was a wreck until about day 50. Then I was pissed at the world until about day 300. After the 300, or somewhere thereabouts, I felt the anger dissolve. I'm no longer ready to kill people. I'm a lot less about the why than I am about the fix. I've mellowed out to where I was pre-nicotine. I love it. It's positivity. It's solutions. It's love. My brain did rewire itself and I'm sure it's still happening. It was a miserable 300 days, but I can see sunny days on the horizon.

Thank you all for the support over this year. I know I was a tornado on KTC for my first couple hundred days. I was the cause of 2 moderator announcements, I've been warned a few times by admin, and of course board functionality was lost. I'm sorry for all that but I needed it, needed that outlet, needed the site so bad. I couldn't have done it without this site, and you have become my closest friends. Thanks for that, thanks for all of it, you saved my life.
The admissions you make in your final paragraph are really BIG of you to admit. Love you brother
Why'd you single that paragraph out? You don't want to talk about my penis?
Nope, especially not if we are talking about the BIG changes you've made
Thanks for the inspiration to get rid of the FUPA!
The dick talk was a very small part of what you talked about. Very very small. Inconsequential.
I thought I heard a peeping tom outside my trailer at midwest meet!
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: worktowin on June 12, 2018, 01:33:00 PM
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: 69Franx
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: 69Franx
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Thanks guys, I appreciate that and I'm glad I can call each of you my friend!

A question has been on our board for our year celebration and I thought I'd post that info here too. Way TMI, so if you don't like TMI, stop reading now.


What events made you want to quit nicotine a year ago?

Two things. First, I gutted all my spit and I was experiencing some stomach issues. Nothing I saw my doctor about because I'm not a doctor kinda guy, but I knew that it was at least partially to blame from the tobacco juice I was ingesting constantly. Second, my libido was down, doc wanted me to continue TRT shots and I was tired of that bullshit. It's a cop out, being medicated for something you can control with dicipline and I read that nicotine decreases testosterone and actually contributes to ED. That and being fat. I kicked the nic, and now focusing hard on losing some weight. I'm happy to report that at a year quit, stomach issues are gone, and my penis works as it should. Now I've gotta lose the FUPA so it looks bigger. TMI? Maybe...but I've always been real with you guys. I love every one of you for the support, threats of violence, and caring that you've shown me. Here's to many more!


I also want to say that I had two texts last night from two quitters marveling at the changes in my demeanor. I was a wreck until about day 50. Then I was pissed at the world until about day 300. After the 300, or somewhere thereabouts, I felt the anger dissolve. I'm no longer ready to kill people. I'm a lot less about the why than I am about the fix. I've mellowed out to where I was pre-nicotine. I love it. It's positivity. It's solutions. It's love. My brain did rewire itself and I'm sure it's still happening. It was a miserable 300 days, but I can see sunny days on the horizon.

Thank you all for the support over this year. I know I was a tornado on KTC for my first couple hundred days. I was the cause of 2 moderator announcements, I've been warned a few times by admin, and of course board functionality was lost. I'm sorry for all that but I needed it, needed that outlet, needed the site so bad. I couldn't have done it without this site, and you have become my closest friends. Thanks for that, thanks for all of it, you saved my life.
The admissions you make in your final paragraph are really BIG of you to admit. Love you brother
Why'd you single that paragraph out? You don't want to talk about my penis?
Nope, especially not if we are talking about the BIG changes you've made
Thanks for the inspiration to get rid of the FUPA!
The dick talk was a very small part of what you talked about. Very very small. Inconsequential.
I thought I heard a peeping tom outside my trailer at midwest meet!
Dude, you drank too much Purple Passion while you were there and sent everyone a very very very small picture. The picture is floating all over the interwebs.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on June 12, 2018, 01:59:00 PM
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: 69Franx
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: 69Franx
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Thanks guys, I appreciate that and I'm glad I can call each of you my friend!

A question has been on our board for our year celebration and I thought I'd post that info here too. Way TMI, so if you don't like TMI, stop reading now.


What events made you want to quit nicotine a year ago?

Two things. First, I gutted all my spit and I was experiencing some stomach issues. Nothing I saw my doctor about because I'm not a doctor kinda guy, but I knew that it was at least partially to blame from the tobacco juice I was ingesting constantly. Second, my libido was down, doc wanted me to continue TRT shots and I was tired of that bullshit. It's a cop out, being medicated for something you can control with dicipline and I read that nicotine decreases testosterone and actually contributes to ED. That and being fat. I kicked the nic, and now focusing hard on losing some weight. I'm happy to report that at a year quit, stomach issues are gone, and my penis works as it should. Now I've gotta lose the FUPA so it looks bigger. TMI? Maybe...but I've always been real with you guys. I love every one of you for the support, threats of violence, and caring that you've shown me. Here's to many more!


I also want to say that I had two texts last night from two quitters marveling at the changes in my demeanor. I was a wreck until about day 50. Then I was pissed at the world until about day 300. After the 300, or somewhere thereabouts, I felt the anger dissolve. I'm no longer ready to kill people. I'm a lot less about the why than I am about the fix. I've mellowed out to where I was pre-nicotine. I love it. It's positivity. It's solutions. It's love. My brain did rewire itself and I'm sure it's still happening. It was a miserable 300 days, but I can see sunny days on the horizon.

Thank you all for the support over this year. I know I was a tornado on KTC for my first couple hundred days. I was the cause of 2 moderator announcements, I've been warned a few times by admin, and of course board functionality was lost. I'm sorry for all that but I needed it, needed that outlet, needed the site so bad. I couldn't have done it without this site, and you have become my closest friends. Thanks for that, thanks for all of it, you saved my life.
The admissions you make in your final paragraph are really BIG of you to admit. Love you brother
Why'd you single that paragraph out? You don't want to talk about my penis?
Nope, especially not if we are talking about the BIG changes you've made
Thanks for the inspiration to get rid of the FUPA!
The dick talk was a very small part of what you talked about. Very very small. Inconsequential.
I thought I heard a peeping tom outside my trailer at midwest meet!
Dude, you drank too much Purple Passion while you were there and sent everyone a very very very small picture. The picture is floating all over the interwebs.
This explains so much. Thank you for this explanation man.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: SRains918 on June 12, 2018, 03:40:00 PM
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: 69Franx
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: 69Franx
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Thanks guys, I appreciate that and I'm glad I can call each of you my friend!

A question has been on our board for our year celebration and I thought I'd post that info here too. Way TMI, so if you don't like TMI, stop reading now.


What events made you want to quit nicotine a year ago?

Two things. First, I gutted all my spit and I was experiencing some stomach issues. Nothing I saw my doctor about because I'm not a doctor kinda guy, but I knew that it was at least partially to blame from the tobacco juice I was ingesting constantly. Second, my libido was down, doc wanted me to continue TRT shots and I was tired of that bullshit. It's a cop out, being medicated for something you can control with dicipline and I read that nicotine decreases testosterone and actually contributes to ED. That and being fat. I kicked the nic, and now focusing hard on losing some weight. I'm happy to report that at a year quit, stomach issues are gone, and my penis works as it should. Now I've gotta lose the FUPA so it looks bigger. TMI? Maybe...but I've always been real with you guys. I love every one of you for the support, threats of violence, and caring that you've shown me. Here's to many more!


I also want to say that I had two texts last night from two quitters marveling at the changes in my demeanor. I was a wreck until about day 50. Then I was pissed at the world until about day 300. After the 300, or somewhere thereabouts, I felt the anger dissolve. I'm no longer ready to kill people. I'm a lot less about the why than I am about the fix. I've mellowed out to where I was pre-nicotine. I love it. It's positivity. It's solutions. It's love. My brain did rewire itself and I'm sure it's still happening. It was a miserable 300 days, but I can see sunny days on the horizon.

Thank you all for the support over this year. I know I was a tornado on KTC for my first couple hundred days. I was the cause of 2 moderator announcements, I've been warned a few times by admin, and of course board functionality was lost. I'm sorry for all that but I needed it, needed that outlet, needed the site so bad. I couldn't have done it without this site, and you have become my closest friends. Thanks for that, thanks for all of it, you saved my life.
The admissions you make in your final paragraph are really BIG of you to admit. Love you brother
Why'd you single that paragraph out? You don't want to talk about my penis?
Nope, especially not if we are talking about the BIG changes you've made
Thanks for the inspiration to get rid of the FUPA!
The dick talk was a very small part of what you talked about. Very very small. Inconsequential.
I thought I heard a peeping tom outside my trailer at midwest meet!
Dude, you drank too much Purple Passion while you were there and sent everyone a very very very small picture. The picture is floating all over the interwebs.
This explains so much. Thank you for this explanation man.
Damn... I'm sorry I missed that!

I'm gonna shut up now because Broc knows too much... Way too much...

Get your ass out here so we can go have fun!!!
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on June 12, 2018, 03:53:00 PM
Quote from: srains918
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: 69Franx
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: 69Franx
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Thanks guys, I appreciate that and I'm glad I can call each of you my friend!

A question has been on our board for our year celebration and I thought I'd post that info here too. Way TMI, so if you don't like TMI, stop reading now.


What events made you want to quit nicotine a year ago?

Two things. First, I gutted all my spit and I was experiencing some stomach issues. Nothing I saw my doctor about because I'm not a doctor kinda guy, but I knew that it was at least partially to blame from the tobacco juice I was ingesting constantly. Second, my libido was down, doc wanted me to continue TRT shots and I was tired of that bullshit. It's a cop out, being medicated for something you can control with dicipline and I read that nicotine decreases testosterone and actually contributes to ED. That and being fat. I kicked the nic, and now focusing hard on losing some weight. I'm happy to report that at a year quit, stomach issues are gone, and my penis works as it should. Now I've gotta lose the FUPA so it looks bigger. TMI? Maybe...but I've always been real with you guys. I love every one of you for the support, threats of violence, and caring that you've shown me. Here's to many more!


I also want to say that I had two texts last night from two quitters marveling at the changes in my demeanor. I was a wreck until about day 50. Then I was pissed at the world until about day 300. After the 300, or somewhere thereabouts, I felt the anger dissolve. I'm no longer ready to kill people. I'm a lot less about the why than I am about the fix. I've mellowed out to where I was pre-nicotine. I love it. It's positivity. It's solutions. It's love. My brain did rewire itself and I'm sure it's still happening. It was a miserable 300 days, but I can see sunny days on the horizon.

Thank you all for the support over this year. I know I was a tornado on KTC for my first couple hundred days. I was the cause of 2 moderator announcements, I've been warned a few times by admin, and of course board functionality was lost. I'm sorry for all that but I needed it, needed that outlet, needed the site so bad. I couldn't have done it without this site, and you have become my closest friends. Thanks for that, thanks for all of it, you saved my life.
The admissions you make in your final paragraph are really BIG of you to admit. Love you brother
Why'd you single that paragraph out? You don't want to talk about my penis?
Nope, especially not if we are talking about the BIG changes you've made
Thanks for the inspiration to get rid of the FUPA!
The dick talk was a very small part of what you talked about. Very very small. Inconsequential.
I thought I heard a peeping tom outside my trailer at midwest meet!
Dude, you drank too much Purple Passion while you were there and sent everyone a very very very small picture. The picture is floating all over the interwebs.
This explains so much. Thank you for this explanation man.
Damn... I'm sorry I missed that!

I'm gonna shut up now because Broc knows too much... Way too much....

Get your ass out here so we can go have fun!!!
I'm not sure if I should be scared. The convo was about penis, then you want me to get my ass out there...sounds like a setup.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: SRains918 on June 12, 2018, 06:32:00 PM
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: srains918
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: 69Franx
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: 69Franx
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Thanks guys, I appreciate that and I'm glad I can call each of you my friend!

A question has been on our board for our year celebration and I thought I'd post that info here too. Way TMI, so if you don't like TMI, stop reading now.


What events made you want to quit nicotine a year ago?

Two things. First, I gutted all my spit and I was experiencing some stomach issues. Nothing I saw my doctor about because I'm not a doctor kinda guy, but I knew that it was at least partially to blame from the tobacco juice I was ingesting constantly. Second, my libido was down, doc wanted me to continue TRT shots and I was tired of that bullshit. It's a cop out, being medicated for something you can control with dicipline and I read that nicotine decreases testosterone and actually contributes to ED. That and being fat. I kicked the nic, and now focusing hard on losing some weight. I'm happy to report that at a year quit, stomach issues are gone, and my penis works as it should. Now I've gotta lose the FUPA so it looks bigger. TMI? Maybe...but I've always been real with you guys. I love every one of you for the support, threats of violence, and caring that you've shown me. Here's to many more!


I also want to say that I had two texts last night from two quitters marveling at the changes in my demeanor. I was a wreck until about day 50. Then I was pissed at the world until about day 300. After the 300, or somewhere thereabouts, I felt the anger dissolve. I'm no longer ready to kill people. I'm a lot less about the why than I am about the fix. I've mellowed out to where I was pre-nicotine. I love it. It's positivity. It's solutions. It's love. My brain did rewire itself and I'm sure it's still happening. It was a miserable 300 days, but I can see sunny days on the horizon.

Thank you all for the support over this year. I know I was a tornado on KTC for my first couple hundred days. I was the cause of 2 moderator announcements, I've been warned a few times by admin, and of course board functionality was lost. I'm sorry for all that but I needed it, needed that outlet, needed the site so bad. I couldn't have done it without this site, and you have become my closest friends. Thanks for that, thanks for all of it, you saved my life.
The admissions you make in your final paragraph are really BIG of you to admit. Love you brother
Why'd you single that paragraph out? You don't want to talk about my penis?
Nope, especially not if we are talking about the BIG changes you've made
Thanks for the inspiration to get rid of the FUPA!
The dick talk was a very small part of what you talked about. Very very small. Inconsequential.
I thought I heard a peeping tom outside my trailer at midwest meet!
Dude, you drank too much Purple Passion while you were there and sent everyone a very very very small picture. The picture is floating all over the interwebs.
This explains so much. Thank you for this explanation man.
Damn... I'm sorry I missed that!

I'm gonna shut up now because Broc knows too much... Way too much....

Get your ass out here so we can go have fun!!!
I'm not sure if I should be scared. The convo was about penis, then you want me to get my ass out there...sounds like a setup.
Fish will be out here in August and we all know he's always stocked with lube... Maybe wait until then???
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on June 12, 2018, 06:50:00 PM
Quote from: srains918
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: srains918
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: worktowin
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: 69Franx
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: 69Franx
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Thanks guys, I appreciate that and I'm glad I can call each of you my friend!

A question has been on our board for our year celebration and I thought I'd post that info here too. Way TMI, so if you don't like TMI, stop reading now.


What events made you want to quit nicotine a year ago?

Two things. First, I gutted all my spit and I was experiencing some stomach issues. Nothing I saw my doctor about because I'm not a doctor kinda guy, but I knew that it was at least partially to blame from the tobacco juice I was ingesting constantly. Second, my libido was down, doc wanted me to continue TRT shots and I was tired of that bullshit. It's a cop out, being medicated for something you can control with dicipline and I read that nicotine decreases testosterone and actually contributes to ED. That and being fat. I kicked the nic, and now focusing hard on losing some weight. I'm happy to report that at a year quit, stomach issues are gone, and my penis works as it should. Now I've gotta lose the FUPA so it looks bigger. TMI? Maybe...but I've always been real with you guys. I love every one of you for the support, threats of violence, and caring that you've shown me. Here's to many more!


I also want to say that I had two texts last night from two quitters marveling at the changes in my demeanor. I was a wreck until about day 50. Then I was pissed at the world until about day 300. After the 300, or somewhere thereabouts, I felt the anger dissolve. I'm no longer ready to kill people. I'm a lot less about the why than I am about the fix. I've mellowed out to where I was pre-nicotine. I love it. It's positivity. It's solutions. It's love. My brain did rewire itself and I'm sure it's still happening. It was a miserable 300 days, but I can see sunny days on the horizon.

Thank you all for the support over this year. I know I was a tornado on KTC for my first couple hundred days. I was the cause of 2 moderator announcements, I've been warned a few times by admin, and of course board functionality was lost. I'm sorry for all that but I needed it, needed that outlet, needed the site so bad. I couldn't have done it without this site, and you have become my closest friends. Thanks for that, thanks for all of it, you saved my life.
The admissions you make in your final paragraph are really BIG of you to admit. Love you brother
Why'd you single that paragraph out? You don't want to talk about my penis?
Nope, especially not if we are talking about the BIG changes you've made
Thanks for the inspiration to get rid of the FUPA!
The dick talk was a very small part of what you talked about. Very very small. Inconsequential.
I thought I heard a peeping tom outside my trailer at midwest meet!
Dude, you drank too much Purple Passion while you were there and sent everyone a very very very small picture. The picture is floating all over the interwebs.
This explains so much. Thank you for this explanation man.
Damn... I'm sorry I missed that!

I'm gonna shut up now because Broc knows too much... Way too much....

Get your ass out here so we can go have fun!!!
I'm not sure if I should be scared. The convo was about penis, then you want me to get my ass out there...sounds like a setup.
Fish will be out here in August and we all know he's always stocked with lube... Maybe wait until then???
I thought Gas drove a KY tanker?
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on July 09, 2018, 10:33:00 AM
Back to work today after a 10 day vacation and when put into perspective of quitting dipping, the contrast in things is very stark. Last year on vacation, I left with 16 days of fresh quit under my belt and climbed into an Amtrak train with about 20 packs of gum and about 10 plastic thingys of Teaza. A 18 hour train ride turned into 28 hours and I was craving a dip nearly the whole time. I knocked down a sore throat with about 10 Advil every day. There was hardly a 30 minute window anywhere that didn't have me thinking about dipping. Heck, only 17 days before, I was knocking down a can and a half a day, dipping all day long if I wasn't eating, swallowing the juice, even dipping in my sleep. This Amtrak trip likely both solidified and saved my quit because caving was not an option and new coping skills were developed. And the week that followed was solid craves and checking myself. Fast forward to this year...

This year was an entirely different type of vacation. The laid back vacation in Mena Arkansas with my 9 year old daughter. Just me and her, riding four wheelers, swimming, mining crystals, and hanging out. The sheer responsibility of that made me crave a couple times as instinct of coping with things, but both times, it was easily fought off. Two hard craves vs 200 hard craves the year before. Think about that. We will never be cured and will always be addicts. However, ODAAT adds up quicker than you'd think. And a year down the road, if you can cut your craves that you have now by 99%, isn't the suck you're going through right now worth it?

Stick with it, stay strong, stay committed, use your tools, and kick this addiction right in the taint. No excuse to ever have one is ever good enough. Keep the quit, and rock on!


Oh and by the way....40 years old yesterday. It doesn't seem possible. WTF, but at least I'm quit at 40 unlike the dumbass at the gas station in front of me today, buying his daily can of Grizz green. I wanted to smack him but until you're really ready to suck it up and be a man, nothing will change...stand up and fight!
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on July 09, 2018, 05:53:00 PM
I really wish I could change the name of this fucking intro.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: SRains918 on July 10, 2018, 11:51:00 AM
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
I really wish I could change the name of this fucking intro.
Why?

Embrace who you are, where you come from, and what you've experienced. Good AND bad. It makes you who you are - a badass quitter that likes to have fun. One that I'm incredibly proud to call my friend (no matter how much shit I give you via text or chasing you around the site).

Remember these words of wisdom (author unknown):

Everything I've done up to this
point in my life has led me to
where I am today; and I'm pretty
fucking happy about it. All of my
decisions, both good and bad, got
me here. I regret nothing.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: ChickDip on July 14, 2018, 01:37:00 PM
Congrats on 400 days quit Dino!!
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: FLLipOut on July 14, 2018, 07:08:00 PM
Quote from: ChickDip
Congrats on 400 days quit Dino!!
Way to go, Brocc! 'party' And a BIG congratulations on 400!!!
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: 69franx on July 15, 2018, 12:00:00 AM
Quote from: FLLipOut
Quote from: ChickDip
Congrats on 400 days quit Dino!!
Way to go, Brocc! 'party' And a BIG congratulations on 400!!!
Congrats again brother on that 400!
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on July 16, 2018, 11:28:00 AM
Quote from: srains918
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
I really wish I could change the name of this fucking intro.
Why?

Embrace who you are, where you come from, and what you've experienced. Good AND bad. It makes you who you are - a badass quitter that likes to have fun. One that I'm incredibly proud to call my friend (no matter how much shit I give you via text or chasing you around the site).

Remember these words of wisdom (author unknown):

Everything I've done up to this
point in my life has led me to
where I am today; and I'm pretty
fucking happy about it. All of my
decisions, both good and bad, got
me here. I regret nothing.
Thanks all for the happy 40/400 wishes. Sometimes I feel like the numbers are flopped, but it's all the same. I'm QLF, and time marches on. ODAAT.

Stephen, thanks for always being in my corner buddy.

Taking a step forward and getting back into a keto/paleo diet today, so just one more thing to track...but I want to be svelte again (hmmm....was I ever svelte?) Anyway, quit dip, quit sugar, 402/1. IQWYT.
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: 69franx on July 16, 2018, 04:12:00 PM
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: srains918
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
I really wish I could change the name of this fucking intro.
Why?

Embrace who you are, where you come from, and what you've experienced. Good AND bad. It makes you who you are - a badass quitter that likes to have fun. One that I'm incredibly proud to call my friend (no matter how much shit I give you via text or chasing you around the site).

Remember these words of wisdom (author unknown):

Everything I've done up to this
point in my life has led me to
where I am today; and I'm pretty
fucking happy about it. All of my
decisions, both good and bad, got
me here. I regret nothing.
Thanks all for the happy 40/400 wishes. Sometimes I feel like the numbers are flopped, but it's all the same. I'm QLF, and time marches on. ODAAT.

Stephen, thanks for always being in my corner buddy.

Taking a step forward and getting back into a keto/paleo diet today, so just one more thing to track...but I want to be svelte again (hmmm....was I ever svelte?) Anyway, quit dip, quit sugar, 402/1. IQWYT.
Have fun and good luck with the Keto brother. the wife has me doing a 21 day Herbalife mostly shake diet. Hoping to drop 10# or so in those 3 weeks
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: SRains918 on July 16, 2018, 04:24:00 PM
Quote from: 69Franx
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
Quote from: srains918
Quote from: Broccoli-saurus
I really wish I could change the name of this fucking intro.
Why?

Embrace who you are, where you come from, and what you've experienced. Good AND bad. It makes you who you are - a badass quitter that likes to have fun. One that I'm incredibly proud to call my friend (no matter how much shit I give you via text or chasing you around the site).

Remember these words of wisdom (author unknown):

Everything I've done up to this
point in my life has led me to
where I am today; and I'm pretty
fucking happy about it. All of my
decisions, both good and bad, got
me here. I regret nothing.
Thanks all for the happy 40/400 wishes. Sometimes I feel like the numbers are flopped, but it's all the same. I'm QLF, and time marches on. ODAAT.

Stephen, thanks for always being in my corner buddy.

Taking a step forward and getting back into a keto/paleo diet today, so just one more thing to track...but I want to be svelte again (hmmm....was I ever svelte?) Anyway, quit dip, quit sugar, 402/1. IQWYT.
Have fun and good luck with the Keto brother. the wife has me doing a 21 day Herbalife mostly shake diet. Hoping to drop 10# or so in those 3 weeks
There's something in the air... I started this morning too.

I (finally) bought a scale... I gained forty-five pounds quitting dip... I was a fat fuck to start with, so that's REALLY not good.

Patty and I set one of the spare bedrooms up as a simple home gym over the weekend (treadmill, elliptical with a bike seat attachment, stereo, tv). I think it cost us a total of about $75. I cancelled my gym membership that I haven't been using, so that'll pay for the stuff we got for the house pretty quick (two months or so).

My goal is to lose the extra person that I'm carrying around right now... Fuck...
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Doofus on July 31, 2018, 07:06:00 PM
Double WUPP time for 200, proud to be quit wit u
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Doofus on August 23, 2018, 10:18:00 AM
Getting close to un chartered quit waters.....never been past 7 months in 30 years....222 qlf
Title: Re: 2nd time retread
Post by: Doofus on September 07, 2018, 07:15:00 PM
Poof
Title: I had an intro but now I can't find that motherfucker, so here's a new one.
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on March 15, 2019, 11:45:00 AM
FU @skol
FU @leo

FU@batdad

Title: Re: I had an intro but now I can't find that motherfucker, so here's a new one.
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on March 15, 2019, 11:59:53 AM
FU @Batdad again.
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Batdad on March 15, 2019, 12:08:58 PM
bump
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on March 15, 2019, 12:13:14 PM
bump

FU @Batdad
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on March 15, 2019, 12:15:20 PM
Day 644...Kinda getting the blues on KTC and need a jolt of something to keep me back online.  Hoping the Midwest Meet provides that like it did in the past.  Btw, did you hear about the midwest meet?  It's linked down there in my sig.  Basically it's one badass weekend with other quitters in a similar ODAAT mindset.  People from all walks of life and with all day counts imaginable.  Great convo, great food, fun activities, camping if you wanna....if you're close, you're crazy not to go.  If you're not, you should start checking for flights. 

here's a quick synopsis of the lost days before 644.

Day 1 - Fuck this sucks, somebody shoot me
Day 3 - Why the fuck does everybody hate me?  Oh well...I'll become the biggest dick ever.
Day 14 - Fuck this Clemte and Batdad and B-Rad and Gas, what a bunch of douche nozzles
Day 22 - Stuck on an Amtrak for 22 hours.  Can't get dip, I want dip, can't get it......learning self control
Day 50 - Why did I just get half a pic of a half naked guy texted to me 15 times?
Day 75 - I think I'll quit today
Day 85 - Woot, one day more than the last time!
Day 94 - Drummathon.  Meet cbird, briang, bbj!
Day 100 - Ain't cured yet!
Day 128 - I wonder how big I can actually make text?  Is there a limit?
Day 130 - Bunch of apologies
Day 150 - Still not cured
Day 200 - Major crave, back to Smokey Mountain
Day 221 - Midwest Meet.  Meet big bird, mater, wire, mpg, nomo, bronc, bunch of other guys
Day 250 - Fuck I'm fat, maybe start losing weight
Day 251 - Eat all the worst shit ever
Day 300 - Another milestone, another can of Smokey
Day 365 - Fuck ODAAT added up fast!
Day 379 - Life isn't feeling so bad anymore.
Day 400 - Another Milestone
Day 500 - Half comma, yadda yadda, nother can of smokey, not cured.
Day 600 - see above. 
Day 644 - in a funk with KTC.

Dates may be way out of whack.  I don't know, because I CAN'T FIND MY ORIGINAL 2ND DRAFT OF MY ORIGINAL INTRO.

But it's fucking fine cause we do the best we know how to with what we have to work with.  Edit:  FU@Batdad with your super mod powers.

And btw, on the new forum, the answer is 99pt.
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Batdad on March 15, 2019, 12:36:22 PM
bump

FU @Batdad

  'fuz'
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Batdad on March 15, 2019, 12:39:14 PM
Day 644...Kinda getting the blues on KTC and need a jolt of something to keep me back online.  Hoping the Midwest Meet provides that like it did in the past.  Btw, did you hear about the midwest meet?  It's linked down there in my sig.  Basically it's one badass weekend with other quitters in a similar ODAAT mindset.  People from all walks of life and with all day counts imaginable.  Great convo, great food, fun activities, camping if you wanna....if you're close, you're crazy not to go.  If you're not, you should start checking for flights. 

here's a quick synopsis of the lost days before 644.

Day 1 - Fuck this sucks, somebody shoot me
Day 3 - Why the fuck does everybody hate me?  Oh well...I'll become the biggest dick ever.
Day 14 - Fuck this Clemte and Batdad and B-Rad and Gas, what a bunch of douche nozzles
Day 22 - Stuck on an Amtrak for 22 hours.  Can't get dip, I want dip, can't get it......learning self control
Day 50 - Why did I just get half a pic of a half naked guy texted to me 15 times?
Day 75 - I think I'll quit today
Day 85 - Woot, one day more than the last time!
Day 94 - Drummathon.  Meet cbird, briang, bbj!
Day 100 - Ain't cured yet!
Day 128 - I wonder how big I can actually make text?  Is there a limit?
Day 130 - Bunch of apologies
Day 150 - Still not cured
Day 200 - Major crave, back to Smokey Mountain
Day 221 - Midwest Meet.  Meet big bird, mater, wire, mpg, nomo, bronc, bunch of other guys
Day 250 - Fuck I'm fat, maybe start losing weight
Day 251 - Eat all the worst shit ever
Day 300 - Another milestone, another can of Smokey
Day 365 - Fuck ODAAT added up fast!
Day 379 - Life isn't feeling so bad anymore.
Day 400 - Another Milestone
Day 500 - Half comma, yadda yadda, nother can of smokey, not cured.
Day 600 - see above. 
Day 644 - in a funk with KTC.

Dates may be way out of whack.  I don't know, because I CAN'T FIND MY ORIGINAL 2ND DRAFT OF MY ORIGINAL INTRO.

But it's fucking fine cause we do the best we know how to with what we have to work with.  Edit:  FU@Batdad with your super mod powers.

And btw, on the new forum, the answer is 99pt.

This is good shit man... step back and you can see the cycle of loving your quit, and just surviving it.. the ebb and flow is longer in between cycles... I'm sure guys with more days can shed some light, but I hope those ebb and flows continue to slow down a bit
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: walterwhite on March 15, 2019, 01:29:02 PM
Day 644...Kinda getting the blues on KTC and need a jolt of something to keep me back online.  Hoping the Midwest Meet provides that like it did in the past.  Btw, did you hear about the midwest meet?  It's linked down there in my sig.  Basically it's one badass weekend with other quitters in a similar ODAAT mindset.  People from all walks of life and with all day counts imaginable.  Great convo, great food, fun activities, camping if you wanna....if you're close, you're crazy not to go.  If you're not, you should start checking for flights. 

here's a quick synopsis of the lost days before 644.

Day 1 - Fuck this sucks, somebody shoot me
Day 3 - Why the fuck does everybody hate me?  Oh well...I'll become the biggest dick ever.
Day 14 - Fuck this Clemte and Batdad and B-Rad and Gas, what a bunch of douche nozzles
Day 22 - Stuck on an Amtrak for 22 hours.  Can't get dip, I want dip, can't get it......learning self control
Day 50 - Why did I just get half a pic of a half naked guy texted to me 15 times?
Day 75 - I think I'll quit today
Day 85 - Woot, one day more than the last time!
Day 94 - Drummathon.  Meet cbird, briang, bbj!
Day 100 - Ain't cured yet!
Day 128 - I wonder how big I can actually make text?  Is there a limit?
Day 130 - Bunch of apologies
Day 150 - Still not cured
Day 200 - Major crave, back to Smokey Mountain
Day 221 - Midwest Meet.  Meet big bird, mater, wire, mpg, nomo, bronc, bunch of other guys
Day 250 - Fuck I'm fat, maybe start losing weight
Day 251 - Eat all the worst shit ever
Day 300 - Another milestone, another can of Smokey
Day 365 - Fuck ODAAT added up fast!
Day 379 - Life isn't feeling so bad anymore.
Day 400 - Another Milestone
Day 500 - Half comma, yadda yadda, nother can of smokey, not cured.
Day 600 - see above. 
Day 644 - in a funk with KTC.

Dates may be way out of whack.  I don't know, because I CAN'T FIND MY ORIGINAL 2ND DRAFT OF MY ORIGINAL INTRO.

But it's fucking fine cause we do the best we know how to with what we have to work with.  Edit:  FU@Batdad with your super mod powers.

And btw, on the new forum, the answer is 99pt.

This is good shit man... step back and you can see the cycle of loving your quit, and just surviving it.. the ebb and flow is longer in between cycles... I'm sure guys with more days can shed some light, but I hope those ebb and flows continue to slow down a bit
I just looked at my introductions and I posted about a major funk around day 631.  We all go through them, they all suck but they all come to an end.  When they are over...you forget how bad they were and we go back to loving being nic free.  I sometimes ask myself how long will I post roll at KTC.  What I keep coming back to is just quit one day at a time.  Today I want to be quit...so I will post roll...because it works. 
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on March 26, 2019, 08:50:05 AM
Is KTC all that different, or have I changed that much?  Lately, all I do is post and ghost.  I hate being lukewarm!  I want to be all in or all out, it's just my personality.  I just don't seem to have it in me anymore.  Everything seems soft.  It seems like every group is just a rehash of cavers from the past 6 months or so.  What happened to the groups that were 50 strong?  What happened to people staying quit?  I've got friends that have left and I've made a few more, but haven't really gotten involved with a new group in a while.  Why not?  I think it's because I just don't care as much as I did.  Fucking Bsarmo posted his newest gonna try this again day 1 post today.  A year ago, I would have blown him up, now I just blow it off.  I don't want to be this version of me that just hangs on out of duty.  Why?  I posted roll today, and I probably won't post jack shit to Bsarmo cause what good has it ever done? 

So which has changed?  Me?  KTC?  I miss what I thought it once was...so many friends gone.  So many dynamics changed.  I posted today....tomorrow, who knows. 

Broc
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: ES on March 26, 2019, 09:23:03 AM
Is KTC all that different, or have I changed that much?  Lately, all I do is post and ghost.  I hate being lukewarm!  I want to be all in or all out, it's just my personality.  I just don't seem to have it in me anymore.  Everything seems soft.  It seems like every group is just a rehash of cavers from the past 6 months or so.  What happened to the groups that were 50 strong?  What happened to people staying quit?  I've got friends that have left and I've made a few more, but haven't really gotten involved with a new group in a while.  Why not?  I think it's because I just don't care as much as I did.  Fucking Bsarmo posted his newest gonna try this again day 1 post today.  A year ago, I would have blown him up, now I just blow it off.  I don't want to be this version of me that just hangs on out of duty.  Why?  I posted roll today, and I probably won't post jack shit to Bsarmo cause what good has it ever done? 

So which has changed?  Me?  KTC?  I miss what I thought it once was...so many friends gone.  So many dynamics changed.  I posted today....tomorrow, who knows. 

Broc

1. Don't leave.
2. Rip Bsarno a new asshole, cuz it'll make you feel better and it sounds like he has it coming.
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: worktowin on March 26, 2019, 11:28:30 AM
Is KTC all that different, or have I changed that much?  Lately, all I do is post and ghost.  I hate being lukewarm!  I want to be all in or all out, it's just my personality.  I just don't seem to have it in me anymore.  Everything seems soft.  It seems like every group is just a rehash of cavers from the past 6 months or so.  What happened to the groups that were 50 strong?  What happened to people staying quit?  I've got friends that have left and I've made a few more, but haven't really gotten involved with a new group in a while.  Why not?  I think it's because I just don't care as much as I did.  Fucking Bsarmo posted his newest gonna try this again day 1 post today.  A year ago, I would have blown him up, now I just blow it off.  I don't want to be this version of me that just hangs on out of duty.  Why?  I posted roll today, and I probably won't post jack shit to Bsarmo cause what good has it ever done? 

So which has changed?  Me?  KTC?  I miss what I thought it once was...so many friends gone.  So many dynamics changed.  I posted today....tomorrow, who knows. 

Broc

1. Don't leave.
2. Rip Bsarno a new asshole, cuz it'll make you feel better and it sounds like he has it coming.

Quitting is a personal journey, and is a cycle.  Sometimes we need to reach out and help others, sometimes we need to focus inward.  But we ALWAYS need to post in our individual groups every day.  I used to spend a dozen hours a day on this website.  I feel like that time helped others, but I know it helped me.  In the end, this ride is all about helping each of us win, but also win together in our group.  Because... the first and most certain step to caving is to stop posting.

I'll phrase this a different way, if you stop posting, you'll have the wrath of this bad ass street fighter to contend with.  We win together, we fail alone.  While this is a personal journey, you must post daily.  Forget the feelings about KTC - like all organizations - this one is going through a phase of change.  In the end, without it, you and I would be chewing up a storm. 

See you in a few weeks, bro.

Michael
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on March 26, 2019, 10:24:41 PM
An epiphany: I think it’s just KTC transitioning from my main focus to a peripheral.  Eventually, you have to learn to rebalance life.  For almost 2 years KTC has been my center.  But things change.  Focus changes.  I’ll keep posting in my home group, but I’m recentering myself for now.  Some things are becoming more focused.  Daughter, job, friendships, girlfriend, God...KTC moves to outer ring.   And that’s ok.   Life is fluid.   See y’all at roll in the morning.   
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: 69franx on March 26, 2019, 10:37:39 PM
An epiphany: I think it’s just KTC transitioning from my main focus to a peripheral.  Eventually, you have to learn to rebalance life.  For almost 2 years KTC has been my center.  But things change.  Focus changes.  I’ll keep posting in my home group, but I’m recentering myself for now.  Some things are becoming more focused.  Daughter, job, friendships, girlfriend, God...KTC moves to outer ring.   And that’s ok.   Life is fluid.   See y’all at roll in the morning.
I'm pretty sure that is the answer brother. Back in the day I had a boss who told me he knew my job was not priority one. He did not expect it to be. He said your priorities should be:
1) Health
2) Family
3) Friday's
Oops I wasn't supposed to call them out.
The meaning is you have to balance things. You can't enjoy 1&2 if you skip number 3(KTC for example) but you have to take care of 1&2 first and foremost or number 3 doesn't matter.
It's a bit of a catch-22, so fucking keep posting!
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on April 15, 2019, 09:30:43 AM
Happiness is...


Brothers and Sisters in Quit, I am happier today than I have been in a long time.  Today is 675 days dip free.  That's huge, I mean huge.
Lots of changes in my life this year.  I've battled off and on depression, going through another stint of it that recently ended.  I don't ever know when I'm in it, but it is crazy when the fog of it lifts and I see the world for what it can be...beautiful and full of opportunity.  I think I'm a naturally laid back and half glass full kind of guy, so when I can express that freely, I'm at my best.  Nicotine was also a fog that added to it, whether I realized it or not.  Looking back, I was shoveling Copenhagen into my mouth to cover for things that I hadn't addressed in my life.  It was a celebration and a pain killer.  All things led back to dip.  And no more. 

My recovery has been vicious.  I went through probably a full year of anger, hate, quick flash temper, etc, most of which I took out on KTC as directed to do.  I caused the admins here much grief I'm sure, and I know there were rule(s) and board announcements made just because of me.  I'm not sure how I never got banned or even as much as previewed, but I thank the Admod crew of KTC, past and present because you've saved my life.  Not only from cancer or having my jaw rot off.  But it's even bigger than that.  Some of the best friends I have are KTC guys/gals.  I text with probably 40 people every day, and 20 of those are deeper than day counts.  This place has not only saved my life, but revolutionized it as well. 

It feels like I'm starting to find center.  I'm still active here, but not as active.  I still like to pull some shenanigans from time to time, but they're not anger based.  I'm starting to operate out of love more and not out of being a douchebag.  I've made some other life changes as well that I'm sure contribute to this shift.  Met a girl at a park on Super Bowl sunday that I fell for hard.  Put God back into the center of my life.  But those are recent developments and I'm not sure they are actually possible if I didn't have KTC.  What beautiful girl wants a guy that dips a can of day?  How can God be more important than dip?  I sure couldn't live without it (I thought)...it was my idol, it was my savior, it was my best friend. 

I've replaced that false idol with so many great things...and I did it with you guys, because of you guys, sometimes even for you guys when I didn't want to.  I love what KTC is and what it was.  I look forward to helping others, and I quit with you today. 

Broc
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Rick Jr on April 22, 2019, 09:31:02 PM
Happiness is...


Brothers and Sisters in Quit, I am happier today than I have been in a long time.  Today is 675 days dip free.  That's huge, I mean huge.
Lots of changes in my life this year.  I've battled off and on depression, going through another stint of it that recently ended.  I don't ever know when I'm in it, but it is crazy when the fog of it lifts and I see the world for what it can be...beautiful and full of opportunity.  I think I'm a naturally laid back and half glass full kind of guy, so when I can express that freely, I'm at my best.  Nicotine was also a fog that added to it, whether I realized it or not.  Looking back, I was shoveling Copenhagen into my mouth to cover for things that I hadn't addressed in my life.  It was a celebration and a pain killer.  All things led back to dip.  And no more. 

My recovery has been vicious.  I went through probably a full year of anger, hate, quick flash temper, etc, most of which I took out on KTC as directed to do.  I caused the admins here much grief I'm sure, and I know there were rule(s) and board announcements made just because of me.  I'm not sure how I never got banned or even as much as previewed, but I thank the Admod crew of KTC, past and present because you've saved my life.  Not only from cancer or having my jaw rot off.  But it's even bigger than that.  Some of the best friends I have are KTC guys/gals.  I text with probably 40 people every day, and 20 of those are deeper than day counts.  This place has not only saved my life, but revolutionized it as well. 

It feels like I'm starting to find center.  I'm still active here, but not as active.  I still like to pull some shenanigans from time to time, but they're not anger based.  I'm starting to operate out of love more and not out of being a douchebag.  I've made some other life changes as well that I'm sure contribute to this shift.  Met a girl at a park on Super Bowl sunday that I fell for hard.  Put God back into the center of my life.  But those are recent developments and I'm not sure they are actually possible if I didn't have KTC.  What beautiful girl wants a guy that dips a can of day?  How can God be more important than dip?  I sure couldn't live without it (I thought)...it was my idol, it was my savior, it was my best friend. 

I've replaced that false idol with so many great things...and I did it with you guys, because of you guys, sometimes even for you guys when I didn't want to.  I love what KTC is and what it was.  I look forward to helping others, and I quit with you today. 

Broc

Broc, You are a Bad ass quitter. Thanks for giving us hell and bringing us together, I mean that Brother. I am honored to be here with you at KTC, Keep up the wins and the ass kicking, Proud to call you a Brother!
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on April 23, 2019, 11:50:32 AM
Happiness is...


Brothers and Sisters in Quit, I am happier today than I have been in a long time.  Today is 675 days dip free.  That's huge, I mean huge.
Lots of changes in my life this year.  I've battled off and on depression, going through another stint of it that recently ended.  I don't ever know when I'm in it, but it is crazy when the fog of it lifts and I see the world for what it can be...beautiful and full of opportunity.  I think I'm a naturally laid back and half glass full kind of guy, so when I can express that freely, I'm at my best.  Nicotine was also a fog that added to it, whether I realized it or not.  Looking back, I was shoveling Copenhagen into my mouth to cover for things that I hadn't addressed in my life.  It was a celebration and a pain killer.  All things led back to dip.  And no more. 

My recovery has been vicious.  I went through probably a full year of anger, hate, quick flash temper, etc, most of which I took out on KTC as directed to do.  I caused the admins here much grief I'm sure, and I know there were rule(s) and board announcements made just because of me.  I'm not sure how I never got banned or even as much as previewed, but I thank the Admod crew of KTC, past and present because you've saved my life.  Not only from cancer or having my jaw rot off.  But it's even bigger than that.  Some of the best friends I have are KTC guys/gals.  I text with probably 40 people every day, and 20 of those are deeper than day counts.  This place has not only saved my life, but revolutionized it as well. 

It feels like I'm starting to find center.  I'm still active here, but not as active.  I still like to pull some shenanigans from time to time, but they're not anger based.  I'm starting to operate out of love more and not out of being a douchebag.  I've made some other life changes as well that I'm sure contribute to this shift.  Met a girl at a park on Super Bowl sunday that I fell for hard.  Put God back into the center of my life.  But those are recent developments and I'm not sure they are actually possible if I didn't have KTC.  What beautiful girl wants a guy that dips a can of day?  How can God be more important than dip?  I sure couldn't live without it (I thought)...it was my idol, it was my savior, it was my best friend. 

I've replaced that false idol with so many great things...and I did it with you guys, because of you guys, sometimes even for you guys when I didn't want to.  I love what KTC is and what it was.  I look forward to helping others, and I quit with you today. 

Broc

Broc, You are a Bad ass quitter. Thanks for giving us hell and bringing us together, I mean that Brother. I am honored to be here with you at KTC, Keep up the wins and the ass kicking, Proud to call you a Brother!

You're way to kind man.  I'm just here doing this thing ODAAT like you guys.  And what I did in your group was what others did for me...Batdad, Clemte, et al.  Just keep adding and stacking, that's what this is all about.  Proud to be quit with you too bro, HOF is coming soon.  Man the time flies, you kids grow up fast these days!   roflmao
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on April 29, 2019, 12:04:53 PM
Day 688 and I'm quit.

Just got home from the Midwest Meet, and man, what an eye opening, life changing thing for me.  I brought my girlfriend who I've been dating for 3 months.  I brought an open mind, open heart, and hunger for fellowship.  I was not disappointed.  I almost didn't go.  If Amber hadn't already made arrangements for her kids way in advance, I might have bailed.  But she did, and we didn't.  A lot of people did bail.  It was a small meetup.  And it was exactly what I needed.  I got to know a handful of quitters on a much deeper level.  I got closer to God.  It sealed my thoughts on Amber as the one that was meant for me.  I got to know Rewire deeper than just as a casual acquaintance and we formed a bond through our walk with Christ.  I got closer to Brad and Kent and two Michael's and John.   And Pickles.  Amber found a soul sister in Rewire's wife.  It was a perfect weekend on a lot of levels and my heart is full.  I have a few takeaways that I'd like to jot down here. 

1.  When you feel that call to go, do, open up, call somebody, take a trip, whatever, do it.  There may be a pot of gold at the end of that rainbow that you'd totally miss out on if you didn't. 

2.  God is very alive in my life now...I'm a changed and much different person than I was even a couple months ago.  A LOT different than I was at the last Midwest meet.  This isn't a bad thing.  I'm alive and happy.

3.  We all came to KTC to get better.  Nicotine might have been the first step in this process or it may have been one of the last.  Nicotine is a powerful drug that we all need accountability to fight, but we never know where that other person is on their walk with beating the demons in their life.  I've been known to operate out of malice and rage in the past which has probably pushed people away, but when we walk as Christ did and we operate out of love, we do the most good.  It's hard to do when we're in the fog and in the suck and far from me to tell others what to do...but that's the route I want to take.

4.  Nicotine was the start for me.  Going to work on my weight next.  Quitting drinking for a while.  Deleted Groupme because it was just a drain on my free time.  Strengthing my relationship with the living God.  Bonding harder with Amber and her kids, and blending them into my and Zoe's life.  Figuring out how to heal, get stronger, and become fulfilled in all ways. 

I'm not leaving KTC, but I'm stepping back a little.  It's these new guys time to jump in there and rile people up.  I might from time to time, but I'm a lot more interested in forging deep relationships with a few quitters than jumping on the war horse and riding into battle.  Above all else on KTC, quit means everything.  No matter how you go about it, it's the end result that matters.  I'm not sure I'll ever quit posting roll, so see y'all on the boards. 
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on May 07, 2019, 12:35:48 PM
Damn, I quit sugar yesterday and today it feels like I'm right back in the fog.  Foggy, light headache, irratible.  Reminds me of day 2 of nicotine quit.  Oh well....I got through that, I can get through this.  I wanna be a street fighter like Work Towin. 
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Skolvikings on May 07, 2019, 02:32:56 PM
Damn, I quit sugar yesterday and today it feels like I'm right back in the fog.  Foggy, light headache, irratible.  Reminds me of day 2 of nicotine quit.  Oh well....I got through that, I can get through this.  I wanna be a street fighter like Work Towin.

You trying to tell me THIS GUY (https://imgur.com/a/uvw0LT3) is a street fighter??
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: worktowin on May 07, 2019, 03:34:42 PM
Damn, I quit sugar yesterday and today it feels like I'm right back in the fog.  Foggy, light headache, irratible.  Reminds me of day 2 of nicotine quit.  Oh well....I got through that, I can get through this.  I wanna be a street fighter like Work Towin.

You trying to tell me THIS GUY (https://imgur.com/a/uvw0LT3) is a street fighter??

Ah yes, Richard and the Worktowin Street Fighter family.... a family photo! 
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on May 10, 2019, 09:21:48 AM
700/70/12/5
Nic/Sex/Alcohol/Sugar

If you can believe that.  Only one of those is forever, hopefully.  But as of now, I'm being cleansed and it actually makes me pretty happy.  Day 700 doesn't fell a lot different than 699, but it's a milestone so I'm happy to have climbed another floor!  Love ya guys

Broc
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: mayfly on May 10, 2019, 10:58:56 AM
Just wanted to say what a badass quitter you are Broc!  Keep it going and never forget why you quit!  PTQWYT
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: SRains918 on May 10, 2019, 11:18:56 AM
Bryan - You've been many things to many people in your time here at KTC. Sometimes that's been good, sometimes you've pushed the limits, but through it all you've been an incredibly fierce supporter to all of those you connect with and I appreciate you for that. It's hard to play the "what if" game, but there have been many times along the way in my own journey that I know for a fact you have kept me quit and here to post another day. I'm proud AF to be quit with you and call you my brother!

Congrats on 7 badass floors of quit Broc. Thank you for everything you've done for me as well as the rest of KTC.
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: ES on May 10, 2019, 11:58:08 AM
Keep climbin' those floors, Broc. You're leaving a ladder of quit motivation behind you for others to follow. You've impacted my quit several times and certainly will again. Keep it up, brother. Proud of your milestone today.
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on May 10, 2019, 05:06:50 PM
You fuckers should write Hallmark cards...or maybe movies. 

Thanks for the kind words, guys.
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Athan on May 10, 2019, 08:38:24 PM
Holmes - can't thank you enough for being part of my quit.  You've made the journey less arduous, even pleasant at times.
The future is ours to shape.  Walking with you my man!
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Leonidas on May 10, 2019, 10:33:59 PM
Hello Newman...
Hate you.
Love you.
Depends on what day it is.
Congratulations!!
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: BrianG on May 11, 2019, 02:54:33 PM
Congrats Broc!!  They just keep adding up...
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: 69franx on May 11, 2019, 10:03:49 PM
Hey brother, so glad you are nailing down some different things in your life. Health, Family, KTC(TGIF). That came from an old boss at TGIF. Getting yourself straight, and taking care of family are top priorities. You are working on yourself, you are working on interpersonal and family relationships. Keep knocking down those walls, posting roll here, and whatever else you can here. I know you are happy with your involvement here, but I'll tell you my brother: your words all over the site are making a difference every day (except maybe the newest topic in Open Forum)
Love you brother, keep kicking ass
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Rick Jr on May 12, 2019, 08:40:06 AM
Hey Brother, Yes that you are. You have kicked my ass, made my Blood pressure rise, but you Made me better by doing so! So glad things are working out for you and you are changing more about your life. You get it now and you are taking the steps needed. Proud of you Brother! Keep up the great work, and again Thank you! I know we will see you around!
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on July 03, 2019, 10:06:02 AM
A letter to my group, posted first there:

I feel like I need to apologize for not posting lately.  I had issues with the admin of the site and debated leaving KTC on principle.   After stewing and contemplating, I would like to be back in group.  After all, you guys are the ones that have kept me quit.  You guys are my brothers and this site as a whole has kept me in a good place.   My life in general has improved significantly, and I’m not going to let small minded insecure pricks like that get me down.   Someday, I’ll probably go out in a blaze of a site showdown, but hopefully that day is far in the future.  As for today, I quit with all you guys!   
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: 69franx on July 03, 2019, 11:00:10 AM
A letter to my group, posted first there:

I feel like I need to apologize for not posting lately.  I had issues with the admin of the site and debated leaving KTC on principle.   After stewing and contemplating, I would like to be back in group.  After all, you guys are the ones that have kept me quit.  You guys are my brothers and this site as a whole has kept me in a good place.   My life in general has improved significantly, and I’m not going to let small minded insecure pricks like that get me down.   Someday, I’ll probably go out in a blaze of a site showdown, but hopefully that day is far in the future.  As for today, I quit with all you guys!
I like this, but from my old computer, I cannot "Like" this
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on July 03, 2019, 11:02:49 AM
A letter to my group, posted first there:

I feel like I need to apologize for not posting lately.  I had issues with the admin of the site and debated leaving KTC on principle.   After stewing and contemplating, I would like to be back in group.  After all, you guys are the ones that have kept me quit.  You guys are my brothers and this site as a whole has kept me in a good place.   My life in general has improved significantly, and I’m not going to let small minded insecure pricks like that get me down.   Someday, I’ll probably go out in a blaze of a site showdown, but hopefully that day is far in the future.  As for today, I quit with all you guys!
I like this, but from my old computer, I cannot "Like" this
Aren’t you part of the aristocracy?   Get a new damn computer, slacker. 
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: SRains918 on July 03, 2019, 12:42:05 PM
A letter to my group, posted first there:

I feel like I need to apologize for not posting lately.  I had issues with the admin of the site and debated leaving KTC on principle.   After stewing and contemplating, I would like to be back in group.  After all, you guys are the ones that have kept me quit.  You guys are my brothers and this site as a whole has kept me in a good place.   My life in general has improved significantly, and I’m not going to let small minded insecure pricks like that get me down.   Someday, I’ll probably go out in a blaze of a site showdown, but hopefully that day is far in the future.  As for today, I quit with all you guys!
I like this, but from my old computer, I cannot "Like" this
Aren’t you part of the aristocracy?   Get a new damn computer, slacker.
We used our per diem on strippers and... Ummm, I'm not sure I was supposed to say that...

It is what it is... It's all nic free!
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: SRains918 on July 08, 2019, 12:05:16 PM
Happy Birthday you sexy MF'er!
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: chris2alaska on July 08, 2019, 02:09:47 PM
Happy Birthday you sexy MF'er!

'Birthday' HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROC  'Birthday'
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: 69franx on July 08, 2019, 03:06:56 PM
Happy Birthday brother!
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: 69franx on August 16, 2019, 03:00:14 PM
One more time your wise words are used to coach the newbies, sucks that it was over a cigar. Imagine though, when you wrote about that cave, you were then on day 284. Today you are close to having 3x as many days quit. Keep kicking ass my brother. Damn proud to call you friend, and damn proud to quit with you. Enjoy your retreat this weekend.
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on August 19, 2019, 03:46:56 PM
Well another milestone, but this one celebrated a bit differently...

This site has transformed a lot of lives through battling nicotine addiction.  Winning that fight daily has led many to tackle other issues in their lives as evidenced by the "getting my act together" group.  Everything from drugs to alcohol to weight loss to porn to all sorts of other daily struggles that many of us have.  We are here because we have addictive personalities and we have come to see that those addictions carry over to lots of aspects of our lives that we never realized.  I personally struggle with porn and lust like the neighborhood wino might struggle with his alcohol addiction.  I'm on the porn quit group and I'm over two months porn free.  I've lost about 40 pounds and have more in sight to lose.  But this weekend, I was hit over the head with something that would turn my whole life around.  And it all started on KTC.

April 2018, I drove to Midwest Meet at the @ReWire (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=403)  abode and never once thought about how this connection with this man would transform my life.  You see, I was going to a quit meet to meet up with some badass quitters.  Over 20 of the biggest and best in the quit business would be there, and I think there was over 60 years of quit represented, but to be fair, @Big Brother Jack (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2624) contributed to a lot of that.  Others in the big quit numbers group like @Kdip (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=165) @bronc (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=574) @Nomore1959 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=6) @Missouri Mike (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=312) @cbird65 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=105) @danojeno (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=39) @worktowin (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=436) and a whole host of others would be in attendance.  I had a cooler of beer and a badass attitude.  I brought my 4 wheeler and rode it around on the trails.  I got pretty drunk Saturday night.  As Reuben (rewire) told his brother this last weekend, they had to edit out all the pictures where I flipped the bird nearly every time somebody got a camera out.  It pains me to see that video of quit days in my first meet.  I was larger than life on the boards, and was really determined to prove that I was just the same in real life.  I was...full of craziness...and easily the most obnoxious person at that meet.  But I met Rewire and his family.  I rubbed elbows with some of the KTC greats and I maintained contact as my quit progressed. 

Two months before that meet up, Reuben had attended his first men's encounter.  I had no idea at the time what that was, but what I did know is that it must have been horrible because the Midwest meet went from a wild drinking party with skeet shooting and all kinds of craziness planned to a fairly tame event as it progressed.  I figured Men's encounter was some sort of crazy Christian cult but was glad that Reuben decided to go ahead with the meet up.  It was fun.  I think me and @Bgbdbrd (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=724) were the only ones that got drunk, but it was still fun.  That is what fun was to me at the time.  Oh man, what life has in store. 

Fast forward to Midwest Meet #2.  What a difference a year makes.  A lot of people bailed and there were only a handful of us that went.  I thought Reuben was Mormon, the same sort of fallacy that made me think that Michael was a tow truck driver.  I had been with the love of my life for a couple months, and she's a devout Christian.  She brought me back to the church, which I had denounced after my divorce back in 2014.  When I say denounced, I mean I really drove a stake into it.  I talked smack about Christianity and probably drove a fair amount of people away.  I know I didn't strengthen anybody in their walk with God.  So she brought me back to the light, but I was Christian Lite as I'd probably put it now.  I was still rowdy, still struggled with lust and with porn and with doing whatever I wanted whenever I wanted.  We slept in separate places.  Purity was important to her and I supported her in that.  We hung out with Reuben and his family.  They rubbed off a little and their life started to look pretty good.  Then on Sunday, when we were starting to get ready to leave, he started talking to me about this Men's Encounter thing. 

I was a little insulted and a little cold to the idea.  What in the world did Reuben see in me that would make him think I needed that?  I was already displaying purity and I knew a couple of bible verses.  I remembered his change from Men's Encounter the previous year and that frankly scared the heck out of me.  I was ready to go to church because church makes you feel good, but was I ready for real change?  The answer was no.  So over the next couple months, he'd send me a message now and then.  I'd blow him off.  And then his bride sent my girlfriend a message.  Now she was pushing me to go.  And so, reluctantly, I went.  I didn't even get on the website to see what it was all about.  I looked at the packing list, threw some stuff in a bag and went.  And on the drive up there, I decided that if I was going to drive 7 hours by myself in Nowhere, Missouri to a thing I knew nothing about, I was going to open my heart and milk it for everything it was worth. 

When I arrived, I knew Reuben and nobody else.  He sat with me while I ate and answered a few questions I had.  I went in blindly and was immediately staggered by the amount of men there.  There were 688 of us and we spent 48 hours in fellowship with each other.  We ate together, we bunked together, we shared things that I never thought I'd tell anybody.  I unpacked all the baggage I'd been storing in my life and nailed it to the cross of life.  I emptied myself out, and then I filled myself with truth and light.  I didn't want to leave when it was through.  I stuck around for another hour afterward and watched two men that I'd gotten to know get baptized.  And I rededicated my life to Christ.  I can see the spiritual warfare all around me now for what it is.  I can see all the obstacles that were put in my way that almost kept me away from Men's Encounter.  I can see all the God things too and how he pursued me when the time was right.  I can see all these things and so much more. 

So what's next?  Well the old Broc is gone, I can tell you that.  I've already started to make amends with those in my life and those on the boards.  I hope to be a light instead of well meaning darkness.  I have a song in my mouth and some truth on my tongue.  Daily worship, prayer, and learning is in the cards.  I met some great people that I will stay in contact with.  Loving people instead of driving them away.  And I will be at Men's Encounter Jan 24-26.  If you'd like to join me, say the word.  The verse of the weekend is Ephesians 5:1. 

"It is for freedom that Christ has set us free.  Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery"

It's what I wish for me, but it's also what I wish for each and every person reading this.  Find the light, and run toward it. 

Bryan
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: danojeno on August 19, 2019, 04:16:02 PM
Well another milestone, but this one celebrated a bit differently...

This site has transformed a lot of lives through battling nicotine addiction.  Winning that fight daily has led many to tackle other issues in their lives as evidenced by the "getting my act together" group.  Everything from drugs to alcohol to weight loss to porn to all sorts of other daily struggles that many of us have.  We are here because we have addictive personalities and we have come to see that those addictions carry over to lots of aspects of our lives that we never realized.  I personally struggle with porn and lust like the neighborhood wino might struggle with his alcohol addiction.  I'm on the porn quit group and I'm over two months porn free.  I've lost about 40 pounds and have more in sight to lose.  But this weekend, I was hit over the head with something that would turn my whole life around.  And it all started on KTC.

April 2018, I drove to Midwest Meet at the @ReWire (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=403)  abode and never once thought about how this connection with this man would transform my life.  You see, I was going to a quit meet to meet up with some badass quitters.  Over 20 of the biggest and best in the quit business would be there, and I think there was over 60 years of quit represented, but to be fair, @Big Brother Jack (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2624) contributed to a lot of that.  Others in the big quit numbers group like @Kdip (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=165) @bronc (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=574) @Nomore1959 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=6) @Missouri Mike (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=312) @cbird65 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=105) @danojeno (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=39) @worktowin (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=436) and a whole host of others would be in attendance.  I had a cooler of beer and a badass attitude.  I brought my 4 wheeler and rode it around on the trails.  I got pretty drunk Saturday night.  As Reuben (rewire) told his brother this last weekend, they had to edit out all the pictures where I flipped the bird nearly every time somebody got a camera out.  It pains me to see that video of quit days in my first meet.  I was larger than life on the boards, and was really determined to prove that I was just the same in real life.  I was...full of craziness...and easily the most obnoxious person at that meet.  But I met Rewire and his family.  I rubbed elbows with some of the KTC greats and I maintained contact as my quit progressed. 

Two months before that meet up, Reuben had attended his first men's encounter.  I had no idea at the time what that was, but what I did know is that it must have been horrible because the Midwest meet went from a wild drinking party with skeet shooting and all kinds of craziness planned to a fairly tame event as it progressed.  I figured Men's encounter was some sort of crazy Christian cult but was glad that Reuben decided to go ahead with the meet up.  It was fun.  I think me and @Bgbdbrd (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=724) were the only ones that got drunk, but it was still fun.  That is what fun was to me at the time.  Oh man, what life has in store. 

Fast forward to Midwest Meet #2.  What a difference a year makes.  A lot of people bailed and there were only a handful of us that went.  I thought Reuben was Mormon, the same sort of fallacy that made me think that Michael was a tow truck driver.  I had been with the love of my life for a couple months, and she's a devout Christian.  She brought me back to the church, which I had denounced after my divorce back in 2014.  When I say denounced, I mean I really drove a stake into it.  I talked smack about Christianity and probably drove a fair amount of people away.  I know I didn't strengthen anybody in their walk with God.  So she brought me back to the light, but I was Christian Lite as I'd probably put it now.  I was still rowdy, still struggled with lust and with porn and with doing whatever I wanted whenever I wanted.  We slept in separate places.  Purity was important to her and I supported her in that.  We hung out with Reuben and his family.  They rubbed off a little and their life started to look pretty good.  Then on Sunday, when we were starting to get ready to leave, he started talking to me about this Men's Encounter thing. 

I was a little insulted and a little cold to the idea.  What in the world did Reuben see in me that would make him think I needed that?  I was already displaying purity and I knew a couple of bible verses.  I remembered his change from Men's Encounter the previous year and that frankly scared the heck out of me.  I was ready to go to church because church makes you feel good, but was I ready for real change?  The answer was no.  So over the next couple months, he'd send me a message now and then.  I'd blow him off.  And then his bride sent my girlfriend a message.  Now she was pushing me to go.  And so, reluctantly, I went.  I didn't even get on the website to see what it was all about.  I looked at the packing list, threw some stuff in a bag and went.  And on the drive up there, I decided that if I was going to drive 7 hours by myself in Nowhere, Missouri to a thing I knew nothing about, I was going to open my heart and milk it for everything it was worth. 

When I arrived, I knew Reuben and nobody else.  He sat with me while I ate and answered a few questions I had.  I went in blindly and was immediately staggered by the amount of men there.  There were 688 of us and we spent 48 hours in fellowship with each other.  We ate together, we bunked together, we shared things that I never thought I'd tell anybody.  I unpacked all the baggage I'd been storing in my life and nailed it to the cross of life.  I emptied myself out, and then I filled myself with truth and light.  I didn't want to leave when it was through.  I stuck around for another hour afterward and watched two men that I'd gotten to know get baptized.  And I rededicated my life to Christ.  I can see the spiritual warfare all around me now for what it is.  I can see all the obstacles that were put in my way that almost kept me away from Men's Encounter.  I can see all the God things too and how he pursued me when the time was right.  I can see all these things and so much more. 

So what's next?  Well the old Broc is gone, I can tell you that.  I've already started to make amends with those in my life and those on the boards.  I hope to be a light instead of well meaning darkness.  I have a song in my mouth and some truth on my tongue.  Daily worship, prayer, and learning is in the cards.  I met some great people that I will stay in contact with.  Loving people instead of driving them away.  And I will be at Men's Encounter Jan 24-26.  If you'd like to join me, say the word.  The verse of the weekend is Ephesians 5:1. 

"It is for freedom that Christ has set us free.  Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery"

It's what I wish for me, but it's also what I wish for each and every person reading this.  Find the light, and run toward it. 

Bryan
I love hearing stories where the Quit has turned into positivity in other parts of people's lives.  Great to hear your story brother. 
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Judaculla on August 19, 2019, 04:38:01 PM
Man, that’s a very powerful story, and witness. I rode it hard for many years until I finally just wore out from the crap it was causing in my life, living to serve myself and the desires of the flesh, hurting my beautiful wife and family, etc. Saved in youth, fleed and rejected, but finally realized that I can’t do it any more, nor can I be good or righteous enough, so I fell to my knees one dark day and ask Jesus into my heart, to change me forever so that I serve his will and not my own. This was the best decision I have ever made and when I compare my life now, the joy and peace I feel, to the “happiness” of the old ways, there is no comparison. I’m praying for you brother, God bless you, man; great story.

Juda
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Athan on August 19, 2019, 05:57:36 PM
... I hope to be a light instead of well meaning darkness. ...
That's is profound in the extreme.  The love of Christ is liberating indeed; it is sin that leads to slavery and bondage.  So very pleased to be free with you today!
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: bronc on August 20, 2019, 09:03:10 AM
Well another milestone, but this one celebrated a bit differently...

This site has transformed a lot of lives through battling nicotine addiction.  Winning that fight daily has led many to tackle other issues in their lives as evidenced by the "getting my act together" group.  Everything from drugs to alcohol to weight loss to porn to all sorts of other daily struggles that many of us have.  We are here because we have addictive personalities and we have come to see that those addictions carry over to lots of aspects of our lives that we never realized.  I personally struggle with porn and lust like the neighborhood wino might struggle with his alcohol addiction.  I'm on the porn quit group and I'm over two months porn free.  I've lost about 40 pounds and have more in sight to lose.  But this weekend, I was hit over the head with something that would turn my whole life around.  And it all started on KTC.

April 2018, I drove to Midwest Meet at the @ReWire (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=403)  abode and never once thought about how this connection with this man would transform my life.  You see, I was going to a quit meet to meet up with some badass quitters.  Over 20 of the biggest and best in the quit business would be there, and I think there was over 60 years of quit represented, but to be fair, @Big Brother Jack (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2624) contributed to a lot of that.  Others in the big quit numbers group like @Kdip (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=165) @bronc (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=574) @Nomore1959 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=6) @Missouri Mike (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=312) @cbird65 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=105) @danojeno (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=39) @worktowin (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=436) and a whole host of others would be in attendance.  I had a cooler of beer and a badass attitude.  I brought my 4 wheeler and rode it around on the trails.  I got pretty drunk Saturday night.  As Reuben (rewire) told his brother this last weekend, they had to edit out all the pictures where I flipped the bird nearly every time somebody got a camera out.  It pains me to see that video of quit days in my first meet.  I was larger than life on the boards, and was really determined to prove that I was just the same in real life.  I was...full of craziness...and easily the most obnoxious person at that meet.  But I met Rewire and his family.  I rubbed elbows with some of the KTC greats and I maintained contact as my quit progressed. 

Two months before that meet up, Reuben had attended his first men's encounter.  I had no idea at the time what that was, but what I did know is that it must have been horrible because the Midwest meet went from a wild drinking party with skeet shooting and all kinds of craziness planned to a fairly tame event as it progressed.  I figured Men's encounter was some sort of crazy Christian cult but was glad that Reuben decided to go ahead with the meet up.  It was fun.  I think me and @Bgbdbrd (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=724) were the only ones that got drunk, but it was still fun.  That is what fun was to me at the time.  Oh man, what life has in store. 

Fast forward to Midwest Meet #2.  What a difference a year makes.  A lot of people bailed and there were only a handful of us that went.  I thought Reuben was Mormon, the same sort of fallacy that made me think that Michael was a tow truck driver.  I had been with the love of my life for a couple months, and she's a devout Christian.  She brought me back to the church, which I had denounced after my divorce back in 2014.  When I say denounced, I mean I really drove a stake into it.  I talked smack about Christianity and probably drove a fair amount of people away.  I know I didn't strengthen anybody in their walk with God.  So she brought me back to the light, but I was Christian Lite as I'd probably put it now.  I was still rowdy, still struggled with lust and with porn and with doing whatever I wanted whenever I wanted.  We slept in separate places.  Purity was important to her and I supported her in that.  We hung out with Reuben and his family.  They rubbed off a little and their life started to look pretty good.  Then on Sunday, when we were starting to get ready to leave, he started talking to me about this Men's Encounter thing. 

I was a little insulted and a little cold to the idea.  What in the world did Reuben see in me that would make him think I needed that?  I was already displaying purity and I knew a couple of bible verses.  I remembered his change from Men's Encounter the previous year and that frankly scared the heck out of me.  I was ready to go to church because church makes you feel good, but was I ready for real change?  The answer was no.  So over the next couple months, he'd send me a message now and then.  I'd blow him off.  And then his bride sent my girlfriend a message.  Now she was pushing me to go.  And so, reluctantly, I went.  I didn't even get on the website to see what it was all about.  I looked at the packing list, threw some stuff in a bag and went.  And on the drive up there, I decided that if I was going to drive 7 hours by myself in Nowhere, Missouri to a thing I knew nothing about, I was going to open my heart and milk it for everything it was worth. 

When I arrived, I knew Reuben and nobody else.  He sat with me while I ate and answered a few questions I had.  I went in blindly and was immediately staggered by the amount of men there.  There were 688 of us and we spent 48 hours in fellowship with each other.  We ate together, we bunked together, we shared things that I never thought I'd tell anybody.  I unpacked all the baggage I'd been storing in my life and nailed it to the cross of life.  I emptied myself out, and then I filled myself with truth and light.  I didn't want to leave when it was through.  I stuck around for another hour afterward and watched two men that I'd gotten to know get baptized.  And I rededicated my life to Christ.  I can see the spiritual warfare all around me now for what it is.  I can see all the obstacles that were put in my way that almost kept me away from Men's Encounter.  I can see all the God things too and how he pursued me when the time was right.  I can see all these things and so much more. 

So what's next?  Well the old Broc is gone, I can tell you that.  I've already started to make amends with those in my life and those on the boards.  I hope to be a light instead of well meaning darkness.  I have a song in my mouth and some truth on my tongue.  Daily worship, prayer, and learning is in the cards.  I met some great people that I will stay in contact with.  Loving people instead of driving them away.  And I will be at Men's Encounter Jan 24-26.  If you'd like to join me, say the word.  The verse of the weekend is Ephesians 5:1. 

"It is for freedom that Christ has set us free.  Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery"

It's what I wish for me, but it's also what I wish for each and every person reading this.  Find the light, and run toward it. 

Bryan


Hey Broc!  Another awesome post!  Thank you for sharing!  One of the most important aspects of this place, is that men, real men, are open and honest with each other.  It is 100% true that the truth will set you free.  The integrity and honor that I find in this group of men, I truly believe God finds pleasing and will continue to bless.  I have marveled watching the transformation of men, right before my eyes.  The devotion to become better men surpassed the desire to quit nicotine and propelled the men and women in this place to be better humans.  Some have found their faith again, others, took their integrity and honor home and have dedicated themselves to be better husbands, fathers, and friends.  You, and the men like you, continue to inspire me to be a better man every single day.  It prevents me from being complacent. Overall, I am just so proud to get to be part of this place, with men like you.  I will be praying for this time of your life, and that God would continue to work in you and in us through you.  Have you read a Purpose Driven Life?  If not, I highly recommend it.  There's a 40 day devotional that I will do from time to time from that book and it never fails me. 

Psalm 133 - Behold, how good and how pleasant it is for brethren to dwell together in unity! 

Love you brother!  Noel (Bronc)
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Athan on August 20, 2019, 04:21:11 PM
Anyone seen Hundy?  I heard Broccoli-saurus ate him.  That's right, Broc ate hundy!
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: ReWire on August 22, 2019, 11:02:15 AM
Well another milestone, but this one celebrated a bit differently...

This site has transformed a lot of lives through battling nicotine addiction.  Winning that fight daily has led many to tackle other issues in their lives as evidenced by the "getting my act together" group.  Everything from drugs to alcohol to weight loss to porn to all sorts of other daily struggles that many of us have.  We are here because we have addictive personalities and we have come to see that those addictions carry over to lots of aspects of our lives that we never realized.  I personally struggle with porn and lust like the neighborhood wino might struggle with his alcohol addiction.  I'm on the porn quit group and I'm over two months porn free.  I've lost about 40 pounds and have more in sight to lose.  But this weekend, I was hit over the head with something that would turn my whole life around.  And it all started on KTC.

April 2018, I drove to Midwest Meet at the @ReWire (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=403)  abode and never once thought about how this connection with this man would transform my life.  You see, I was going to a quit meet to meet up with some badass quitters.  Over 20 of the biggest and best in the quit business would be there, and I think there was over 60 years of quit represented, but to be fair, @Big Brother Jack (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2624) contributed to a lot of that.  Others in the big quit numbers group like @Kdip (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=165) @bronc (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=574) @Nomore1959 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=6) @Missouri Mike (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=312) @cbird65 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=105) @danojeno (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=39) @worktowin (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=436) and a whole host of others would be in attendance.  I had a cooler of beer and a badass attitude.  I brought my 4 wheeler and rode it around on the trails.  I got pretty drunk Saturday night.  As Reuben (rewire) told his brother this last weekend, they had to edit out all the pictures where I flipped the bird nearly every time somebody got a camera out.  It pains me to see that video of quit days in my first meet.  I was larger than life on the boards, and was really determined to prove that I was just the same in real life.  I was...full of craziness...and easily the most obnoxious person at that meet.  But I met Rewire and his family.  I rubbed elbows with some of the KTC greats and I maintained contact as my quit progressed. 

Two months before that meet up, Reuben had attended his first men's encounter.  I had no idea at the time what that was, but what I did know is that it must have been horrible because the Midwest meet went from a wild drinking party with skeet shooting and all kinds of craziness planned to a fairly tame event as it progressed.  I figured Men's encounter was some sort of crazy Christian cult but was glad that Reuben decided to go ahead with the meet up.  It was fun.  I think me and @Bgbdbrd (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=724) were the only ones that got drunk, but it was still fun.  That is what fun was to me at the time.  Oh man, what life has in store. 

Fast forward to Midwest Meet #2.  What a difference a year makes.  A lot of people bailed and there were only a handful of us that went.  I thought Reuben was Mormon, the same sort of fallacy that made me think that Michael was a tow truck driver.  I had been with the love of my life for a couple months, and she's a devout Christian.  She brought me back to the church, which I had denounced after my divorce back in 2014.  When I say denounced, I mean I really drove a stake into it.  I talked smack about Christianity and probably drove a fair amount of people away.  I know I didn't strengthen anybody in their walk with God.  So she brought me back to the light, but I was Christian Lite as I'd probably put it now.  I was still rowdy, still struggled with lust and with porn and with doing whatever I wanted whenever I wanted.  We slept in separate places.  Purity was important to her and I supported her in that.  We hung out with Reuben and his family.  They rubbed off a little and their life started to look pretty good.  Then on Sunday, when we were starting to get ready to leave, he started talking to me about this Men's Encounter thing. 

I was a little insulted and a little cold to the idea.  What in the world did Reuben see in me that would make him think I needed that?  I was already displaying purity and I knew a couple of bible verses.  I remembered his change from Men's Encounter the previous year and that frankly scared the heck out of me.  I was ready to go to church because church makes you feel good, but was I ready for real change?  The answer was no.  So over the next couple months, he'd send me a message now and then.  I'd blow him off.  And then his bride sent my girlfriend a message.  Now she was pushing me to go.  And so, reluctantly, I went.  I didn't even get on the website to see what it was all about.  I looked at the packing list, threw some stuff in a bag and went.  And on the drive up there, I decided that if I was going to drive 7 hours by myself in Nowhere, Missouri to a thing I knew nothing about, I was going to open my heart and milk it for everything it was worth. 

When I arrived, I knew Reuben and nobody else.  He sat with me while I ate and answered a few questions I had.  I went in blindly and was immediately staggered by the amount of men there.  There were 688 of us and we spent 48 hours in fellowship with each other.  We ate together, we bunked together, we shared things that I never thought I'd tell anybody.  I unpacked all the baggage I'd been storing in my life and nailed it to the cross of life.  I emptied myself out, and then I filled myself with truth and light.  I didn't want to leave when it was through.  I stuck around for another hour afterward and watched two men that I'd gotten to know get baptized.  And I rededicated my life to Christ.  I can see the spiritual warfare all around me now for what it is.  I can see all the obstacles that were put in my way that almost kept me away from Men's Encounter.  I can see all the God things too and how he pursued me when the time was right.  I can see all these things and so much more. 

So what's next?  Well the old Broc is gone, I can tell you that.  I've already started to make amends with those in my life and those on the boards.  I hope to be a light instead of well meaning darkness.  I have a song in my mouth and some truth on my tongue.  Daily worship, prayer, and learning is in the cards.  I met some great people that I will stay in contact with.  Loving people instead of driving them away.  And I will be at Men's Encounter Jan 24-26.  If you'd like to join me, say the word.  The verse of the weekend is Ephesians 5:1. 

"It is for freedom that Christ has set us free.  Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery"

It's what I wish for me, but it's also what I wish for each and every person reading this.  Find the light, and run toward it. 

Bryan
Outstanding! It was an honor to have you join us for Men's Encounter. Even better to see the power of God moving in your life. So so so good... and it all started right here on KTC. Every day is new and exciting, kinda like when we were kids and trusted our daddy completely. Only now we see how good our heavenly Father is. If He is for us, who can be against us?

Next Men's Encounter is Oct 18-20, and it's for every man. I have been there with my pastor, also a quitter dude from Texas. We have a group that drives all the way from PA, last time they cam in 7 vehicles including several large vans.  We will sell out early, so get registered soon.

https://encounterministry.org/
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on November 11, 2019, 04:20:32 PM
Day 885.  115 to go for 1,000 but I know a thousand days isn't enough.  I haven't been involved nearly as much here as of late.  I'm glad I followed my own advice and built relationships.  Solid friendships that have withstood the test of time.  People like @69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26)  , @SRains918 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=134) , @David S (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=958)  , @Samrs (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=8) , @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) , @JohnSmallberries (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=43) , @FLLipOut (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=53) , @ChickDip (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=164) , @FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) , @Clevelandfan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=136) , @worktowin (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=436) @Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) , @Oliver88 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=146) , @B--rad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=602)  , all the guys in my group, everybody else I text daily, you know who you are.  People I can lay out life struggles with, pray with, get support from, support them.  Some of my best friends in the world have been forged on this site.  I still chat with a couple that have left too, no judgement from me, quit is what we're all after here.  Life has taken a turn as alluded to in the post above.  I started a couple of KTC group prayer texts and that's going well.  Doing phone post most Tuesdays is important.  Men's Encounter was great, and I'll go to the Jan one as well.  Getting a group started here in Texoma is paramount in my mind.  In short, things are changing with me, priorities are shifting. 

Closing on 900 days, posting roll sporadically, not spending time in new groups, etc.  I did all that over the first 700 or so days, but I've been fading in and out for a while now.  Not wavering in quit, mind you, but shifting focus from quit as my God to Jesus being my God.  It doesn't always jive with KTC.  That's why I'm forever grateful for my friendships created here.  Those friendships are what keeps me quit, my daily texts to people I don't want to let down for anything.  The deep conversations that drive me to be better.  It's amazing what this site can do to transform lives if you'll open up to it.  I'm going to hang around long enough to see my youngest quitter cross HOF.  Once @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) is on the other side though, there's more important work to do.  You guys that have my number, I'll text day counts.  Ol' Six is gonna have to continue the Johnny Cash songs.  Fish is gonna have to double down on the penis pics.  Reuben is still gonna have to put up with me at Midwest meet.  Jack is going to have to put up with me at Drummathon.  Things are just shifting a bit, priorities are being reorganized, that's all.  But my heart isn't in KTC like it once was.  Maybe again, but not right now.  I'll still be in and out, but it's break time for a minute.  I'm not going to just vanish like some people do.  Will always be around and always available to talk.  Quitting is tough work.  The minute you think you're strong, you find out you're not.  I for one will always reach out when I'm not strong.  You guys all rock, every single one of you that are in this fight, and especially those that do more than the minimum.  I owe it all to you!
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Leonidas on November 11, 2019, 05:15:29 PM
Day 885.  115 to go for 1,000 but I know a thousand days isn't enough.  I haven't been involved nearly as much here as of late.  I'm glad I followed my own advice and built relationships.  Solid friendships that have withstood the test of time.  People like @69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26)  , @SRains918 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=134) , @David S (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=958)  , @Samrs (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=8) , @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) , @JohnSmallberries (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=43) , @FLLipOut (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=53) , @ChickDip (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=164) , @FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) , @Clevelandfan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=136) , @worktowin (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=436) @Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) , @Oliver88 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=146) , @B--rad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=602)  , all the guys in my group, everybody else I text daily, you know who you are.  People I can lay out life struggles with, pray with, get support from, support them.  Some of my best friends in the world have been forged on this site.  I still chat with a couple that have left too, no judgement from me, quit is what we're all after here.  Life has taken a turn as alluded to in the post above.  I started a couple of KTC group prayer texts and that's going well.  Doing phone post most Tuesdays is important.  Men's Encounter was great, and I'll go to the Jan one as well.  Getting a group started here in Texoma is paramount in my mind.  In short, things are changing with me, priorities are shifting. 

Closing on 900 days, posting roll sporadically, not spending time in new groups, etc.  I did all that over the first 700 or so days, but I've been fading in and out for a while now.  Not wavering in quit, mind you, but shifting focus from quit as my God to Jesus being my God.  It doesn't always jive with KTC.  That's why I'm forever grateful for my friendships created here.  Those friendships are what keeps me quit, my daily texts to people I don't want to let down for anything.  The deep conversations that drive me to be better.  It's amazing what this site can do to transform lives if you'll open up to it.  I'm going to hang around long enough to see my youngest quitter cross HOF.  Once @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) is on the other side though, there's more important work to do.  You guys that have my number, I'll text day counts.  Ol' Six is gonna have to continue the Johnny Cash songs.  Fish is gonna have to double down on the penis pics.  Reuben is still gonna have to put up with me at Midwest meet.  Jack is going to have to put up with me at Drummathon.  Things are just shifting a bit, priorities are being reorganized, that's all.  But my heart isn't in KTC like it once was.  Maybe again, but not right now.  I'll still be in and out, but it's break time for a minute.  I'm not going to just vanish like some people do.  Will always be around and always available to talk.  Quitting is tough work.  The minute you think you're strong, you find out you're not.  I for one will always reach out when I'm not strong.  You guys all rock, every single one of you that are in this fight, and especially those that do more than the minimum.  I owe it all to you!
I hit 1000
No different than 885.
God Bless You
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: SixString on November 11, 2019, 05:23:32 PM
Day 885.  115 to go for 1,000 but I know a thousand days isn't enough.  I haven't been involved nearly as much here as of late.  I'm glad I followed my own advice and built relationships.  Solid friendships that have withstood the test of time.  People like @69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26)  , @SRains918 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=134) , @David S (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=958)  , @Samrs (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=8) , @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) , @JohnSmallberries (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=43) , @FLLipOut (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=53) , @ChickDip (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=164) , @FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) , @Clevelandfan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=136) , @worktowin (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=436) @Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) , @Oliver88 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=146) , @B--rad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=602)  , all the guys in my group, everybody else I text daily, you know who you are.  People I can lay out life struggles with, pray with, get support from, support them.  Some of my best friends in the world have been forged on this site.  I still chat with a couple that have left too, no judgement from me, quit is what we're all after here.  Life has taken a turn as alluded to in the post above.  I started a couple of KTC group prayer texts and that's going well.  Doing phone post most Tuesdays is important.  Men's Encounter was great, and I'll go to the Jan one as well.  Getting a group started here in Texoma is paramount in my mind.  In short, things are changing with me, priorities are shifting. 

Closing on 900 days, posting roll sporadically, not spending time in new groups, etc.  I did all that over the first 700 or so days, but I've been fading in and out for a while now.  Not wavering in quit, mind you, but shifting focus from quit as my God to Jesus being my God.  It doesn't always jive with KTC.  That's why I'm forever grateful for my friendships created here.  Those friendships are what keeps me quit, my daily texts to people I don't want to let down for anything.  The deep conversations that drive me to be better.  It's amazing what this site can do to transform lives if you'll open up to it.  I'm going to hang around long enough to see my youngest quitter cross HOF.  Once @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) is on the other side though, there's more important work to do.  You guys that have my number, I'll text day counts.  Ol' Six is gonna have to continue the Johnny Cash songs.  Fish is gonna have to double down on the penis pics.  Reuben is still gonna have to put up with me at Midwest meet.  Jack is going to have to put up with me at Drummathon.  Things are just shifting a bit, priorities are being reorganized, that's all.  But my heart isn't in KTC like it once was.  Maybe again, but not right now.  I'll still be in and out, but it's break time for a minute.  I'm not going to just vanish like some people do.  Will always be around and always available to talk.  Quitting is tough work.  The minute you think you're strong, you find out you're not.  I for one will always reach out when I'm not strong.  You guys all rock, every single one of you that are in this fight, and especially those that do more than the minimum.  I owe it all to you!

Powerful words broc. You wont be able to vanish because I'll be texting you everyday until I die. Even if it's just my promise. A lot of people wouldnt understand. But it is an honor that you trust me with the scrolls of johnny cash. It's crazy to think about how our first conversation started.And now look at us. You will always be one of the first people I call if I ever need anything. Your heart is always gonna be in KTC, it's just shown in different ways now. Everything you taught me I teach to the new guys, and they teach that to the newer guys. That cycle will always continue. I owe a lot of my quit to you.. you challenged me and open my eyes. Thank you
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Athan on November 11, 2019, 06:32:35 PM
...  But my heart isn't in KTC like it once was.  Maybe again, but not right now. ...
It was what it needed to be when it needed to be.  There is a season for everything. The beauty of this place is that the fire stays lit, it just does somehow.
I'm continually amazed at folks like Fish or Chick or Worktowin who are able to stick around and pay it forward for as long as they have.  I know only that I've benefited from it (as well as you).  Thanks for being a brick in my wall of quit!
See ya round!
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: worktowin on November 14, 2019, 03:18:27 PM
...  But my heart isn't in KTC like it once was.  Maybe again, but not right now. ...
It was what it needed to be when it needed to be.  There is a season for everything. The beauty of this place is that the fire stays lit, it just does somehow.
I'm continually amazed at folks like Fish or Chick or Worktowin who are able to stick around and pay it forward for as long as they have.  I know only that I've benefited from it (as well as you).  Thanks for being a brick in my wall of quit!
See ya round!
When you stop seeing my name on roll, something will be very wrong.  For 25 years I failed myself and my family every day.  For the past (almost) 7 years, I've posted every single day, and I've honored my word.  Am I as engaged as I used to be here?  No... and in some ways thats a good thing, and in some ways bad.  But I will always post daily with my home group.  I owe that to them, and most importantly I owe it to me.

It is the best 20 seconds I spend on myself every day.
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Athan on November 26, 2019, 09:12:24 AM
900
SPEECH!
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: 69franx on November 26, 2019, 11:44:09 AM
900
SPEECH!
900 sweet days of quit.
900 days of kicking ass.
900 days of wreaking havoc (well, almos900)
Love you brother
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: chris2alaska on November 26, 2019, 12:10:29 PM
900
SPEECH!
900 sweet days of quit.
900 days of kicking ass.
900 days of wreaking havoc (well, almos900)
Love you brother

CONGRATS Broccoli Sore Ass!!! 
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on November 26, 2019, 12:41:19 PM
900
SPEECH!
900 sweet days of quit.
900 days of kicking ass.
900 days of wreaking havoc (well, almos900)
Love you brother

CONGRATS Broccoli Sore Ass!!!

Speech:

Well I screwed up.  I took two more quitters that'll need to cross HOF first.  Maybe after that. 

@Redwood (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=14631) @JJG009 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15604) I reckon I'll stick around another 40 days or so to see you guys cross, then maybe I'll feel like sticking around for my comma.  Who knows.  It's so hard to leave totally, not sure I ever will.  Time will tell.  900 feels like a comfortable pair of boots.  Fits well and feels like home. 
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: walterwhite on November 26, 2019, 12:54:32 PM
900
SPEECH!
900 sweet days of quit.
900 days of kicking ass.
900 days of wreaking havoc (well, almos900)
Love you brother

CONGRATS Broccoli Sore Ass!!!

Speech:

Well I screwed up.  I took two more quitters that'll need to cross HOF first.  Maybe after that. 

@Redwood (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=14631) @JJG009 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15604) I reckon I'll stick around another 40 days or so to see you guys cross, then maybe I'll feel like sticking around for my comma.  Who knows.  It's so hard to leave totally, not sure I ever will.  Time will tell.  900 feels like a comfortable pair of boots.  Fits well and feels like home.
Congrats on 900! 

If I may give you some advice…don’t worry about tomorrow or when you will be leaving.  Put your focus on today.  Today I want to be quit so I will post roll.  It’s that simple.  Don’t overthink something to a point that you create more a mess.  That is what addicts always do…we look for an out.  We blame others for our issues.  We make excuses.  We did this to ourselves and we can fix it.  We just have to do it one day at a time.
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: MN_Engineer on November 26, 2019, 01:59:34 PM
900
SPEECH!
900 sweet days of quit.
900 days of kicking ass.
900 days of wreaking havoc (well, almos900)
Love you brother

CONGRATS Broccoli Sore Ass!!!

Speech:

Well I screwed up.  I took two more quitters that'll need to cross HOF first.  Maybe after that. 

@Redwood (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=14631) @JJG009 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15604) I reckon I'll stick around another 40 days or so to see you guys cross, then maybe I'll feel like sticking around for my comma.  Who knows.  It's so hard to leave totally, not sure I ever will.  Time will tell.  900 feels like a comfortable pair of boots.  Fits well and feels like home.
Congrats on 900! 

If I may give you some advice…don’t worry about tomorrow or when you will be leaving.  Put your focus on today.  Today I want to be quit so I will post roll.  It’s that simple.  Don’t overthink something to a point that you create more a mess.  That is what addicts always do…we look for an out.  We blame others for our issues.  We make excuses.  We did this to ourselves and we can fix it.  We just have to do it one day at a time.
^^Some wise words here by the great Heisenburg.

I'll be honest. When I joined KTC I never imagined I would still be here today. But after posting every damn day for 1,311 days, I do not want to leave anymore. I love this place; I want each and every one here to succeed. I want to be a part of their quit journey. Sometimes that is just posting my promise and ghosting. Other days that involves posting support in multiple groups and getting down and dirty in the trenches of a new pre-HOF group. Find a balance!

Congrats on 9th floor!
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: DonkeyMN on November 26, 2019, 04:11:30 PM
900
SPEECH!
900 sweet days of quit.
900 days of kicking ass.
900 days of wreaking havoc (well, almos900)
Love you brother

CONGRATS Broccoli Sore Ass!!!

Speech:

Well I screwed up.  I took two more quitters that'll need to cross HOF first.  Maybe after that. 

@Redwood (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=14631) @JJG009 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15604) I reckon I'll stick around another 40 days or so to see you guys cross, then maybe I'll feel like sticking around for my comma.  Who knows.  It's so hard to leave totally, not sure I ever will.  Time will tell.  900 feels like a comfortable pair of boots.  Fits well and feels like home.
Congrats on 900! 

If I may give you some advice…don’t worry about tomorrow or when you will be leaving.  Put your focus on today.  Today I want to be quit so I will post roll.  It’s that simple.  Don’t overthink something to a point that you create more a mess.  That is what addicts always do…we look for an out.  We blame others for our issues.  We make excuses.  We did this to ourselves and we can fix it.  We just have to do it one day at a time.
^^Some wise words here by the great Heisenburg.

I'll be honest. When I joined KTC I never imagined I would still be here today. But after posting every damn day for 1,311 days, I do not want to leave anymore. I love this place; I want each and every one here to succeed. I want to be a part of their quit journey. Sometimes that is just posting my promise and ghosting. Other days that involves posting support in multiple groups and getting down and dirty in the trenches of a new pre-HOF group. Find a balance!

Congrats on 9th floor!
Congrats on that 9th floor Broc!
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: ChickDip on November 26, 2019, 04:30:52 PM
900
SPEECH!
900 sweet days of quit.
900 days of kicking ass.
900 days of wreaking havoc (well, almos900)
Love you brother

CONGRATS Broccoli Sore Ass!!!

Speech:

Well I screwed up.  I took two more quitters that'll need to cross HOF first.  Maybe after that. 

@Redwood (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=14631) @JJG009 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15604) I reckon I'll stick around another 40 days or so to see you guys cross, then maybe I'll feel like sticking around for my comma.  Who knows.  It's so hard to leave totally, not sure I ever will.  Time will tell.  900 feels like a comfortable pair of boots.  Fits well and feels like home.
Congrats on 900! 

If I may give you some advice…don’t worry about tomorrow or when you will be leaving.  Put your focus on today.  Today I want to be quit so I will post roll.  It’s that simple.  Don’t overthink something to a point that you create more a mess.  That is what addicts always do…we look for an out.  We blame others for our issues.  We make excuses.  We did this to ourselves and we can fix it.  We just have to do it one day at a time.
^^Some wise words here by the great Heisenburg.

I'll be honest. When I joined KTC I never imagined I would still be here today. But after posting every damn day for 1,311 days, I do not want to leave anymore. I love this place; I want each and every one here to succeed. I want to be a part of their quit journey. Sometimes that is just posting my promise and ghosting. Other days that involves posting support in multiple groups and getting down and dirty in the trenches of a new pre-HOF group. Find a balance!

Congrats on 9th floor!
Congrats on that 9th floor Broc!
Awesome Quit and quitter here! Keep it up and huge congrats on the big 9 Dino!
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: worktowin on November 26, 2019, 04:40:36 PM
900
SPEECH!
900 sweet days of quit.
900 days of kicking ass.
900 days of wreaking havoc (well, almos900)
Love you brother

CONGRATS Broccoli Sore Ass!!!

Speech:

Well I screwed up.  I took two more quitters that'll need to cross HOF first.  Maybe after that. 

@Redwood (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=14631) @JJG009 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15604) I reckon I'll stick around another 40 days or so to see you guys cross, then maybe I'll feel like sticking around for my comma.  Who knows.  It's so hard to leave totally, not sure I ever will.  Time will tell.  900 feels like a comfortable pair of boots.  Fits well and feels like home.
Congrats on 900! 

If I may give you some advice…don’t worry about tomorrow or when you will be leaving.  Put your focus on today.  Today I want to be quit so I will post roll.  It’s that simple.  Don’t overthink something to a point that you create more a mess.  That is what addicts always do…we look for an out.  We blame others for our issues.  We make excuses.  We did this to ourselves and we can fix it.  We just have to do it one day at a time.
^^Some wise words here by the great Heisenburg.

I'll be honest. When I joined KTC I never imagined I would still be here today. But after posting every damn day for 1,311 days, I do not want to leave anymore. I love this place; I want each and every one here to succeed. I want to be a part of their quit journey. Sometimes that is just posting my promise and ghosting. Other days that involves posting support in multiple groups and getting down and dirty in the trenches of a new pre-HOF group. Find a balance!

Congrats on 9th floor!
Congrats on that 9th floor Broc!
Awesome Quit and quitter here! Keep it up and huge congrats on the big 9 Dino!

Talk of leaving on day 900 of winning makes about as much sense as eating a kale salad.

Congratulations on another huge accomplishment.  You've come a long way in 900 days.  Go back and read your first few posts.  Past performance is frequently an indicator of future performance.  I look forward to congratulating you on many future accomplishments.
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Batdad on November 26, 2019, 07:10:16 PM
900
SPEECH!
900 sweet days of quit.
900 days of kicking ass.
900 days of wreaking havoc (well, almos900)
Love you brother

CONGRATS Broccoli Sore Ass!!!

Speech:

Well I screwed up.  I took two more quitters that'll need to cross HOF first.  Maybe after that. 

@Redwood (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=14631) @JJG009 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15604) I reckon I'll stick around another 40 days or so to see you guys cross, then maybe I'll feel like sticking around for my comma.  Who knows.  It's so hard to leave totally, not sure I ever will.  Time will tell.  900 feels like a comfortable pair of boots.  Fits well and feels like home.
Congrats on 900! 

If I may give you some advice…don’t worry about tomorrow or when you will be leaving.  Put your focus on today.  Today I want to be quit so I will post roll.  It’s that simple.  Don’t overthink something to a point that you create more a mess.  That is what addicts always do…we look for an out.  We blame others for our issues.  We make excuses.  We did this to ourselves and we can fix it.  We just have to do it one day at a time.
^^Some wise words here by the great Heisenburg.

I'll be honest. When I joined KTC I never imagined I would still be here today. But after posting every damn day for 1,311 days, I do not want to leave anymore. I love this place; I want each and every one here to succeed. I want to be a part of their quit journey. Sometimes that is just posting my promise and ghosting. Other days that involves posting support in multiple groups and getting down and dirty in the trenches of a new pre-HOF group. Find a balance!

Congrats on 9th floor!
Congrats on that 9th floor Broc!
Awesome Quit and quitter here! Keep it up and huge congrats on the big 9 Dino!

Talk of leaving on day 900 of winning makes about as much sense as eating a kale salad.

Congratulations on another huge accomplishment.  You've come a long way in 900 days.  Go back and read your first few posts.  Past performance is frequently an indicator of future performance.  I look forward to congratulating you on many future accomplishments.
Congrats on the 9th floor. See you on roll tomorrow.
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: FLLipOut on November 26, 2019, 09:26:02 PM
900
SPEECH!
900 sweet days of quit.
900 days of kicking ass.
900 days of wreaking havoc (well, almos900)
Love you brother

CONGRATS Broccoli Sore Ass!!!

Speech:

Well I screwed up.  I took two more quitters that'll need to cross HOF first.  Maybe after that. 

@Redwood (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=14631) @JJG009 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15604) I reckon I'll stick around another 40 days or so to see you guys cross, then maybe I'll feel like sticking around for my comma.  Who knows.  It's so hard to leave totally, not sure I ever will.  Time will tell.  900 feels like a comfortable pair of boots.  Fits well and feels like home.
Congrats on 900! 

If I may give you some advice…don’t worry about tomorrow or when you will be leaving.  Put your focus on today.  Today I want to be quit so I will post roll.  It’s that simple.  Don’t overthink something to a point that you create more a mess.  That is what addicts always do…we look for an out.  We blame others for our issues.  We make excuses.  We did this to ourselves and we can fix it.  We just have to do it one day at a time.
^^Some wise words here by the great Heisenburg.

I'll be honest. When I joined KTC I never imagined I would still be here today. But after posting every damn day for 1,311 days, I do not want to leave anymore. I love this place; I want each and every one here to succeed. I want to be a part of their quit journey. Sometimes that is just posting my promise and ghosting. Other days that involves posting support in multiple groups and getting down and dirty in the trenches of a new pre-HOF group. Find a balance!

Congrats on 9th floor!
Congrats on that 9th floor Broc!
Awesome Quit and quitter here! Keep it up and huge congrats on the big 9 Dino!

Talk of leaving on day 900 of winning makes about as much sense as eating a kale salad.

Congratulations on another huge accomplishment.  You've come a long way in 900 days.  Go back and read your first few posts.  Past performance is frequently an indicator of future performance.  I look forward to congratulating you on many future accomplishments.
Congrats on the 9th floor. See you on roll tomorrow.
Love you Broc...congrats on that 9th floor.  Face it, we are all just too damn adorable to leave!!!
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: oldschool on December 01, 2019, 09:56:44 AM
900
SPEECH!
900 sweet days of quit.
900 days of kicking ass.
900 days of wreaking havoc (well, almos900)
Love you brother

CONGRATS Broccoli Sore Ass!!!

Speech:

Well I screwed up.  I took two more quitters that'll need to cross HOF first.  Maybe after that. 

@Redwood (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=14631) @JJG009 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15604) I reckon I'll stick around another 40 days or so to see you guys cross, then maybe I'll feel like sticking around for my comma.  Who knows.  It's so hard to leave totally, not sure I ever will.  Time will tell.  900 feels like a comfortable pair of boots.  Fits well and feels like home.
Congrats on 900! 

If I may give you some advice…don’t worry about tomorrow or when you will be leaving.  Put your focus on today.  Today I want to be quit so I will post roll.  It’s that simple.  Don’t overthink something to a point that you create more a mess.  That is what addicts always do…we look for an out.  We blame others for our issues.  We make excuses.  We did this to ourselves and we can fix it.  We just have to do it one day at a time.
^^Some wise words here by the great Heisenburg.

I'll be honest. When I joined KTC I never imagined I would still be here today. But after posting every damn day for 1,311 days, I do not want to leave anymore. I love this place; I want each and every one here to succeed. I want to be a part of their quit journey. Sometimes that is just posting my promise and ghosting. Other days that involves posting support in multiple groups and getting down and dirty in the trenches of a new pre-HOF group. Find a balance!

Congrats on 9th floor!
Congrats on that 9th floor Broc!
Awesome Quit and quitter here! Keep it up and huge congrats on the big 9 Dino!

Talk of leaving on day 900 of winning makes about as much sense as eating a kale salad.

Congratulations on another huge accomplishment.  You've come a long way in 900 days.  Go back and read your first few posts.  Past performance is frequently an indicator of future performance.  I look forward to congratulating you on many future accomplishments.
Congrats on the 9th floor. See you on roll tomorrow.
Love you Broc...congrats on that 9th floor.  Face it, we are all just too damn adorable to leave!!!
Congrats on 9th floor, Broc!  I hope you stick around.  You have positively influenced my quit as well as countless others.  Sometimes it just takes a little mentorship from one vet to keep a new quitter going...
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on December 24, 2019, 10:26:46 AM
 Luke 1:26-38
The Birth of Jesus Foretold

26 In the sixth month of Elizabeth’s pregnancy, God sent the angel Gabriel to Nazareth, a town in Galilee, 27 to a virgin pledged to be married to a man named Joseph, a descendant of David. The virgin’s name was Mary. 28 The angel went to her and said, “Greetings, you who are highly favored! The Lord is with you.”

29 Mary was greatly troubled at his words and wondered what kind of greeting this might be. 30 But the angel said to her, “Do not be afraid, Mary; you have found favor with God. 31 You will conceive and give birth to a son, and you are to call him Jesus. 32 He will be great and will be called the Son of the Most High. The Lord God will give him the throne of his father David, 33 and he will reign over Jacob’s descendants forever; his kingdom will never end.”

34 “How will this be,” Mary asked the angel, “since I am a virgin?”

35 The angel answered, “The Holy Spirit will come on you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you. So the holy one to be born will be called[a] the Son of God. 36 Even Elizabeth your relative is going to have a child in her old age, and she who was said to be unable to conceive is in her sixth month. 37 For no word from God will ever fail.”

38 “I am the Lord’s servant,” Mary answered. “May your word to me be fulfilled.” Then the angel left her.



What great faith she had.  What great faith Joseph also had!  May I have such great faith, as it has been restored to me, and I look forward to ending this year and beginning a new one nicotine free, but also free of the chains that bind us to slavery of all kinds.  Freedom in Christ, freedom in quit, freedom from bondage.  Servants of heart.  Bless you guys, have a Merry Christmas, and turn your eyes to Him who sets us free. 
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on March 05, 2020, 09:54:52 AM
Day 1000

What a ride it's been.  My testimony on the site, just as in life, would be long and convoluted.  I came here broken, a slave to nicotine and I did not deal with withdrawals well.  I ranted, raved, shouted insults, got in meaningless board wars, caused rule changes, got a bunch of admod love notes, basically begged to get banned with some of my antics. 

Today, I'd like to think I'm a bit more level headed and even tempered.  I try to think before I react, and think some more if my reply seems like it'll be caustic.  I have come to know the Lord Jesus Christ in the last year, and that has changed me even more.  And that change in me took a huge leap because of my friendship with a member of this site actually.  A lot has changed in the past 33 months here.  The site has changed somewhat, but I have changed as a man tremendously.  1000 days is a long time, but only a drop in the bucket of life.  Life of a man and eternal life in heaven.  I am also 39 days porn and immoral thoughts cleansed, which is the most I've been in my entire life.  39 days doesn't seem like a lot, but that number may mean more to me than my 1000 days quit from dip.  The truth is that one positive, embraced life change led to others.  I still have a lot of work to do, but looking back at where I was, I'm excited for what will come in the future.  The change is drastic, and God is molding me to be what he wants one day, one hour, one spoken word at a time. 

I'd like to personally thank everybody on this site that has helped me along the way, but there's over a hundred names in that list.  I will however, address some of those that drastically helped change my shift in direction toward good instead of evil.  I'll miss people in this, so do not be upset if it happens.  Everybody that we cross paths with will affect us in some way.  Everybody that we interact with shapes us to some small degree.  Sometimes, it's to a large degree.  To me, KTC is not just a quit site.  It has grown to be much more than that.  It's a home, it's where friends are, it's a place where I can be myself.  It always has been, and I thank each of you for letting this happen. 

@chewie (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1) I thank you for creating this site and giving us a place to develop these friendships in a common goal.  I'm glad I got to meet you, a living legend. 
@cbird65 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=105) One of the first quitters I've met, and one that I've seen the most.  Such a leader, and also a friend that I'm proud to call a mentor of sorts.
@Big Brother Jack (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2624) the quit king of all....your story is amazing, your outlook is refreshing, and I'm glad to call you a friend
@worktowin (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=436) Dude, you've been there for me through all of it...I feel like I've done life with you.  Can't wait to meet up this summer again!
@ReWire (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=403) the guy that pushed and prodded me to go to Men's Encounter, which totally reshaped my walk with Christ.  Can't say enough about this.
@rocketman (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=89) I just feel a bond through shared experiences here, and pray for you all the time, brother.  Always great to meet up and swap banter.
@69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26) One of the strongest quitters I know.  Glad to have met you, glad to call you friend.
@FLLipOut (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=53) One amazing lady quitter who supported me through two groups and always believed in me.
@FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) Flipp's sidekick in quit.  Like Robin to her Batman...we have a ton in common and you have been a huge strength to me in many areas of life.
@B--rad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=602) whom I share all kinds of interests with and talk with daily
@David S (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=958) You have become one of my best friends, and I can't believe you friended me in the first place.  Thanks for being true to the kingdom, my friend
@Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) who never hesitates to pick up a phone and call a brother when he's down with encouragement
@JohnSmallberries (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=43) One of the most eclectic, friendly, wonderful guys ever
@Miker0351 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=241) Another that I met, was prepared to hate, and ended up being strengthened by your words.  Love you brother.
@ChickDip (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=164) who has always been in my corner
@Oliver88 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=146) Who I didn't get to know until later, but is a stalwart man of Christ and builds some amazing stuff, always inspirational.
@harvestgirl (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=98) who always has time to help, offer friendship, and words of encouragement.
@Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) who actually has feelings, which I just found out.  Great guy, glad to call him a brother.
@Croakenhagen (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=18) my east Texas buddy who has been a friend since around his day 1. 
@Law1358 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=929) who I also met, and was part of the 2.0 GM back when it was active.  Inspiring how unabashed he is in his love of Christ.

To the handful of members of Sept '17 that still remain, to the guys and gals in the KTC prayer groups and that post in the chapel to strengthen each other daily, to the amazing quitters in Oct '16 who showed me what it meant to really quit even though I was amazingly slow to learn it.  To the 50+ quitters I've met, you all have strengthened me more than you could imagine.  Yes, even you, @Brick (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=700) !  To all those that I text with daily, and those that I text with occasionally.  To those that I've never spoken to, but are out there doing life, posting one day at a time, stacking days...you are amazing.  Keep up the good work, build friendships, brotherhood, and accountability, and never give up.  This site will change you if you'll let it.  I know it changed me. 
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: 69franx on March 05, 2020, 10:00:53 AM
Day 1000

What a ride it's been.  My testimony on the site, just as in life, would be long and convoluted.  I came here broken, a slave to nicotine and I did not deal with withdrawals well.  I ranted, raved, shouted insults, got in meaningless board wars, caused rule changes, got a bunch of admod love notes, basically begged to get banned with some of my antics. 

Today, I'd like to think I'm a bit more level headed and even tempered.  I try to think before I react, and think some more if my reply seems like it'll be caustic.  I have come to know the Lord Jesus Christ in the last year, and that has changed me even more.  And that change in me took a huge leap because of my friendship with a member of this site actually.  A lot has changed in the past 33 months here.  The site has changed somewhat, but I have changed as a man tremendously.  1000 days is a long time, but only a drop in the bucket of life.  Life of a man and eternal life in heaven.  I am also 39 days porn and immoral thoughts cleansed, which is the most I've been in my entire life.  39 days doesn't seem like a lot, but that number may mean more to me than my 1000 days quit from dip.  The truth is that one positive, embraced life change led to others.  I still have a lot of work to do, but looking back at where I was, I'm excited for what will come in the future.  The change is drastic, and God is molding me to be what he wants one day, one hour, one spoken word at a time. 

I'd like to personally thank everybody on this site that has helped me along the way, but there's over a hundred names in that list.  I will however, address some of those that drastically helped change my shift in direction toward good instead of evil.  I'll miss people in this, so do not be upset if it happens.  Everybody that we cross paths with will affect us in some way.  Everybody that we interact with shapes us to some small degree.  Sometimes, it's to a large degree.  To me, KTC is not just a quit site.  It has grown to be much more than that.  It's a home, it's where friends are, it's a place where I can be myself.  It always has been, and I thank each of you for letting this happen. 

@chewie (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1) I thank you for creating this site and giving us a place to develop these friendships in a common goal.  I'm glad I got to meet you, a living legend. 
@cbird65 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=105) One of the first quitters I've met, and one that I've seen the most.  Such a leader, and also a friend that I'm proud to call a mentor of sorts.
@Big Brother Jack (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2624) the quit king of all....your story is amazing, your outlook is refreshing, and I'm glad to call you a friend
@worktowin (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=436) Dude, you've been there for me through all of it...I feel like I've done life with you.  Can't wait to meet up this summer again!
@ReWire (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=403) the guy that pushed and prodded me to go to Men's Encounter, which totally reshaped my walk with Christ.  Can't say enough about this.
@rocketman (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=89) I just feel a bond through shared experiences here, and pray for you all the time, brother.  Always great to meet up and swap banter.
@69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26) One of the strongest quitters I know.  Glad to have met you, glad to call you friend.
@FLLipOut (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=53) One amazing lady quitter who supported me through two groups and always believed in me.
@FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) Flipp's sidekick in quit.  Like Robin to her Batman...we have a ton in common and you have been a huge strength to me in many areas of life.
@B--rad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=602) whom I share all kinds of interests with and talk with daily
@David S (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=958) You have become one of my best friends, and I can't believe you friended me in the first place.  Thanks for being true to the kingdom, my friend
@Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) who never hesitates to pick up a phone and call a brother when he's down with encouragement
@JohnSmallberries (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=43) One of the most eclectic, friendly, wonderful guys ever
@Miker0351 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=241) Another that I met, was prepared to hate, and ended up being strengthened by your words.  Love you brother.
@ChickDip (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=164) who has always been in my corner
@Oliver88 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=146) Who I didn't get to know until later, but is a stalwart man of Christ and builds some amazing stuff, always inspirational.
@harvestgirl (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=98) who always has time to help, offer friendship, and words of encouragement.
@Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) who actually has feelings, which I just found out.  Great guy, glad to call him a brother.
@Croakenhagen (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=18) my east Texas buddy who has been a friend since around his day 1. 
@Law1358 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=929) who I also met, and was part of the 2.0 GM back when it was active.  Inspiring how unabashed he is in his love of Christ.

To the handful of members of Sept '17 that still remain, to the guys and gals in the KTC prayer groups and that post in the chapel to strengthen each other daily, to the amazing quitters in Oct '16 who showed me what it meant to really quit even though I was amazingly slow to learn it.  To the 50+ quitters I've met, you all have strengthened me more than you could imagine.  Yes, even you, @Brick (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=700) !  To all those that I text with daily, and those that I text with occasionally.  To those that I've never spoken to, but are out there doing life, posting one day at a time, stacking days...you are amazing.  Keep up the good work, build friendships, brotherhood, and accountability, and never give up.  This site will change you if you'll let it.  I know it changed me.

Amazing stuff here brother. So proud of all you have accomplished in 1000 days and so thankful for your friendship and daily support. We shall meet again, hopefully sooner than later
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on March 05, 2020, 10:18:57 AM
And to those that have gone other ways, but I still text with and do life with...still quit, but gone for some reason or another.  I love all of them the same, they are still my brothers.  So here's to Casus_Belli, Stains918, Leonidas, Addict Architect, Sand44, and all the Jan '18 rebellion.  Love you guys, even though you'll likely never see this, you're still stuck with me. 
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: FISHFLORIDA on March 05, 2020, 10:45:22 AM
Day 1000

What a ride it's been.  My testimony on the site, just as in life, would be long and convoluted.  I came here broken, a slave to nicotine and I did not deal with withdrawals well.  I ranted, raved, shouted insults, got in meaningless board wars, caused rule changes, got a bunch of admod love notes, basically begged to get banned with some of my antics. 

Today, I'd like to think I'm a bit more level headed and even tempered.  I try to think before I react, and think some more if my reply seems like it'll be caustic.  I have come to know the Lord Jesus Christ in the last year, and that has changed me even more.  And that change in me took a huge leap because of my friendship with a member of this site actually.  A lot has changed in the past 33 months here.  The site has changed somewhat, but I have changed as a man tremendously.  1000 days is a long time, but only a drop in the bucket of life.  Life of a man and eternal life in heaven.  I am also 39 days porn and immoral thoughts cleansed, which is the most I've been in my entire life.  39 days doesn't seem like a lot, but that number may mean more to me than my 1000 days quit from dip.  The truth is that one positive, embraced life change led to others.  I still have a lot of work to do, but looking back at where I was, I'm excited for what will come in the future.  The change is drastic, and God is molding me to be what he wants one day, one hour, one spoken word at a time. 

I'd like to personally thank everybody on this site that has helped me along the way, but there's over a hundred names in that list.  I will however, address some of those that drastically helped change my shift in direction toward good instead of evil.  I'll miss people in this, so do not be upset if it happens.  Everybody that we cross paths with will affect us in some way.  Everybody that we interact with shapes us to some small degree.  Sometimes, it's to a large degree.  To me, KTC is not just a quit site.  It has grown to be much more than that.  It's a home, it's where friends are, it's a place where I can be myself.  It always has been, and I thank each of you for letting this happen. 

@chewie (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1) I thank you for creating this site and giving us a place to develop these friendships in a common goal.  I'm glad I got to meet you, a living legend. 
@cbird65 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=105) One of the first quitters I've met, and one that I've seen the most.  Such a leader, and also a friend that I'm proud to call a mentor of sorts.
@Big Brother Jack (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2624) the quit king of all....your story is amazing, your outlook is refreshing, and I'm glad to call you a friend
@worktowin (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=436) Dude, you've been there for me through all of it...I feel like I've done life with you.  Can't wait to meet up this summer again!
@ReWire (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=403) the guy that pushed and prodded me to go to Men's Encounter, which totally reshaped my walk with Christ.  Can't say enough about this.
@rocketman (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=89) I just feel a bond through shared experiences here, and pray for you all the time, brother.  Always great to meet up and swap banter.
@69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26) One of the strongest quitters I know.  Glad to have met you, glad to call you friend.
@FLLipOut (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=53) One amazing lady quitter who supported me through two groups and always believed in me.
@FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) Flipp's sidekick in quit.  Like Robin to her Batman...we have a ton in common and you have been a huge strength to me in many areas of life.
@B--rad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=602) whom I share all kinds of interests with and talk with daily
@David S (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=958) You have become one of my best friends, and I can't believe you friended me in the first place.  Thanks for being true to the kingdom, my friend
@Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) who never hesitates to pick up a phone and call a brother when he's down with encouragement
@JohnSmallberries (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=43) One of the most eclectic, friendly, wonderful guys ever
@Miker0351 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=241) Another that I met, was prepared to hate, and ended up being strengthened by your words.  Love you brother.
@ChickDip (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=164) who has always been in my corner
@Oliver88 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=146) Who I didn't get to know until later, but is a stalwart man of Christ and builds some amazing stuff, always inspirational.
@harvestgirl (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=98) who always has time to help, offer friendship, and words of encouragement.
@Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) who actually has feelings, which I just found out.  Great guy, glad to call him a brother.
@Croakenhagen (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=18) my east Texas buddy who has been a friend since around his day 1. 
@Law1358 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=929) who I also met, and was part of the 2.0 GM back when it was active.  Inspiring how unabashed he is in his love of Christ.

To the handful of members of Sept '17 that still remain, to the guys and gals in the KTC prayer groups and that post in the chapel to strengthen each other daily, to the amazing quitters in Oct '16 who showed me what it meant to really quit even though I was amazingly slow to learn it.  To the 50+ quitters I've met, you all have strengthened me more than you could imagine.  Yes, even you, @Brick (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=700) !  To all those that I text with daily, and those that I text with occasionally.  To those that I've never spoken to, but are out there doing life, posting one day at a time, stacking days...you are amazing.  Keep up the good work, build friendships, brotherhood, and accountability, and never give up.  This site will change you if you'll let it.  I know it changed me.

Amazing stuff here brother. So proud of all you have accomplished in 1000 days and so thankful for your friendship and daily support. We shall meet again, hopefully sooner than later
Proud to be quit with you Bryan.  We've all grown in so many ways and have helped each other along the way.
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: FLLipOut on March 05, 2020, 11:06:39 AM
Day 1000

What a ride it's been.  My testimony on the site, just as in life, would be long and convoluted.  I came here broken, a slave to nicotine and I did not deal with withdrawals well.  I ranted, raved, shouted insults, got in meaningless board wars, caused rule changes, got a bunch of admod love notes, basically begged to get banned with some of my antics. 

Today, I'd like to think I'm a bit more level headed and even tempered.  I try to think before I react, and think some more if my reply seems like it'll be caustic.  I have come to know the Lord Jesus Christ in the last year, and that has changed me even more.  And that change in me took a huge leap because of my friendship with a member of this site actually.  A lot has changed in the past 33 months here.  The site has changed somewhat, but I have changed as a man tremendously.  1000 days is a long time, but only a drop in the bucket of life.  Life of a man and eternal life in heaven.  I am also 39 days porn and immoral thoughts cleansed, which is the most I've been in my entire life.  39 days doesn't seem like a lot, but that number may mean more to me than my 1000 days quit from dip.  The truth is that one positive, embraced life change led to others.  I still have a lot of work to do, but looking back at where I was, I'm excited for what will come in the future.  The change is drastic, and God is molding me to be what he wants one day, one hour, one spoken word at a time. 

I'd like to personally thank everybody on this site that has helped me along the way, but there's over a hundred names in that list.  I will however, address some of those that drastically helped change my shift in direction toward good instead of evil.  I'll miss people in this, so do not be upset if it happens.  Everybody that we cross paths with will affect us in some way.  Everybody that we interact with shapes us to some small degree.  Sometimes, it's to a large degree.  To me, KTC is not just a quit site.  It has grown to be much more than that.  It's a home, it's where friends are, it's a place where I can be myself.  It always has been, and I thank each of you for letting this happen. 

@chewie (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1) I thank you for creating this site and giving us a place to develop these friendships in a common goal.  I'm glad I got to meet you, a living legend. 
@cbird65 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=105) One of the first quitters I've met, and one that I've seen the most.  Such a leader, and also a friend that I'm proud to call a mentor of sorts.
@Big Brother Jack (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2624) the quit king of all....your story is amazing, your outlook is refreshing, and I'm glad to call you a friend
@worktowin (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=436) Dude, you've been there for me through all of it...I feel like I've done life with you.  Can't wait to meet up this summer again!
@ReWire (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=403) the guy that pushed and prodded me to go to Men's Encounter, which totally reshaped my walk with Christ.  Can't say enough about this.
@rocketman (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=89) I just feel a bond through shared experiences here, and pray for you all the time, brother.  Always great to meet up and swap banter.
@69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26) One of the strongest quitters I know.  Glad to have met you, glad to call you friend.
@FLLipOut (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=53) One amazing lady quitter who supported me through two groups and always believed in me.
@FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) Flipp's sidekick in quit.  Like Robin to her Batman...we have a ton in common and you have been a huge strength to me in many areas of life.
@B--rad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=602) whom I share all kinds of interests with and talk with daily
@David S (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=958) You have become one of my best friends, and I can't believe you friended me in the first place.  Thanks for being true to the kingdom, my friend
@Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) who never hesitates to pick up a phone and call a brother when he's down with encouragement
@JohnSmallberries (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=43) One of the most eclectic, friendly, wonderful guys ever
@Miker0351 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=241) Another that I met, was prepared to hate, and ended up being strengthened by your words.  Love you brother.
@ChickDip (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=164) who has always been in my corner
@Oliver88 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=146) Who I didn't get to know until later, but is a stalwart man of Christ and builds some amazing stuff, always inspirational.
@harvestgirl (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=98) who always has time to help, offer friendship, and words of encouragement.
@Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) who actually has feelings, which I just found out.  Great guy, glad to call him a brother.
@Croakenhagen (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=18) my east Texas buddy who has been a friend since around his day 1. 
@Law1358 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=929) who I also met, and was part of the 2.0 GM back when it was active.  Inspiring how unabashed he is in his love of Christ.

To the handful of members of Sept '17 that still remain, to the guys and gals in the KTC prayer groups and that post in the chapel to strengthen each other daily, to the amazing quitters in Oct '16 who showed me what it meant to really quit even though I was amazingly slow to learn it.  To the 50+ quitters I've met, you all have strengthened me more than you could imagine.  Yes, even you, @Brick (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=700) !  To all those that I text with daily, and those that I text with occasionally.  To those that I've never spoken to, but are out there doing life, posting one day at a time, stacking days...you are amazing.  Keep up the good work, build friendships, brotherhood, and accountability, and never give up.  This site will change you if you'll let it.  I know it changed me.

Amazing stuff here brother. So proud of all you have accomplished in 1000 days and so thankful for your friendship and daily support. We shall meet again, hopefully sooner than later
Proud to be quit with you Bryan.  We've all grown in so many ways and have helped each other along the way.
It has been a privilege to share this journey with you, Bryan.  Love you bub.
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: ChickDip on March 05, 2020, 12:30:40 PM
Day 1000

What a ride it's been.  My testimony on the site, just as in life, would be long and convoluted.  I came here broken, a slave to nicotine and I did not deal with withdrawals well.  I ranted, raved, shouted insults, got in meaningless board wars, caused rule changes, got a bunch of admod love notes, basically begged to get banned with some of my antics. 

Today, I'd like to think I'm a bit more level headed and even tempered.  I try to think before I react, and think some more if my reply seems like it'll be caustic.  I have come to know the Lord Jesus Christ in the last year, and that has changed me even more.  And that change in me took a huge leap because of my friendship with a member of this site actually.  A lot has changed in the past 33 months here.  The site has changed somewhat, but I have changed as a man tremendously.  1000 days is a long time, but only a drop in the bucket of life.  Life of a man and eternal life in heaven.  I am also 39 days porn and immoral thoughts cleansed, which is the most I've been in my entire life.  39 days doesn't seem like a lot, but that number may mean more to me than my 1000 days quit from dip.  The truth is that one positive, embraced life change led to others.  I still have a lot of work to do, but looking back at where I was, I'm excited for what will come in the future.  The change is drastic, and God is molding me to be what he wants one day, one hour, one spoken word at a time. 

I'd like to personally thank everybody on this site that has helped me along the way, but there's over a hundred names in that list.  I will however, address some of those that drastically helped change my shift in direction toward good instead of evil.  I'll miss people in this, so do not be upset if it happens.  Everybody that we cross paths with will affect us in some way.  Everybody that we interact with shapes us to some small degree.  Sometimes, it's to a large degree.  To me, KTC is not just a quit site.  It has grown to be much more than that.  It's a home, it's where friends are, it's a place where I can be myself.  It always has been, and I thank each of you for letting this happen. 

@chewie (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1) I thank you for creating this site and giving us a place to develop these friendships in a common goal.  I'm glad I got to meet you, a living legend. 
@cbird65 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=105) One of the first quitters I've met, and one that I've seen the most.  Such a leader, and also a friend that I'm proud to call a mentor of sorts.
@Big Brother Jack (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2624) the quit king of all....your story is amazing, your outlook is refreshing, and I'm glad to call you a friend
@worktowin (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=436) Dude, you've been there for me through all of it...I feel like I've done life with you.  Can't wait to meet up this summer again!
@ReWire (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=403) the guy that pushed and prodded me to go to Men's Encounter, which totally reshaped my walk with Christ.  Can't say enough about this.
@rocketman (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=89) I just feel a bond through shared experiences here, and pray for you all the time, brother.  Always great to meet up and swap banter.
@69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26) One of the strongest quitters I know.  Glad to have met you, glad to call you friend.
@FLLipOut (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=53) One amazing lady quitter who supported me through two groups and always believed in me.
@FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) Flipp's sidekick in quit.  Like Robin to her Batman...we have a ton in common and you have been a huge strength to me in many areas of life.
@B--rad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=602) whom I share all kinds of interests with and talk with daily
@David S (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=958) You have become one of my best friends, and I can't believe you friended me in the first place.  Thanks for being true to the kingdom, my friend
@Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) who never hesitates to pick up a phone and call a brother when he's down with encouragement
@JohnSmallberries (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=43) One of the most eclectic, friendly, wonderful guys ever
@Miker0351 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=241) Another that I met, was prepared to hate, and ended up being strengthened by your words.  Love you brother.
@ChickDip (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=164) who has always been in my corner
@Oliver88 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=146) Who I didn't get to know until later, but is a stalwart man of Christ and builds some amazing stuff, always inspirational.
@harvestgirl (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=98) who always has time to help, offer friendship, and words of encouragement.
@Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) who actually has feelings, which I just found out.  Great guy, glad to call him a brother.
@Croakenhagen (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=18) my east Texas buddy who has been a friend since around his day 1. 
@Law1358 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=929) who I also met, and was part of the 2.0 GM back when it was active.  Inspiring how unabashed he is in his love of Christ.

To the handful of members of Sept '17 that still remain, to the guys and gals in the KTC prayer groups and that post in the chapel to strengthen each other daily, to the amazing quitters in Oct '16 who showed me what it meant to really quit even though I was amazingly slow to learn it.  To the 50+ quitters I've met, you all have strengthened me more than you could imagine.  Yes, even you, @Brick (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=700) !  To all those that I text with daily, and those that I text with occasionally.  To those that I've never spoken to, but are out there doing life, posting one day at a time, stacking days...you are amazing.  Keep up the good work, build friendships, brotherhood, and accountability, and never give up.  This site will change you if you'll let it.  I know it changed me.

Amazing stuff here brother. So proud of all you have accomplished in 1000 days and so thankful for your friendship and daily support. We shall meet again, hopefully sooner than later
Proud to be quit with you Bryan.  We've all grown in so many ways and have helped each other along the way.
It has been a privilege to share this journey with you, Bryan.  Love you bub.
From day 1 to ODAAT, Always going to be in your corner Dino. Proud to walk along side you brother.
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Sand44 on March 05, 2020, 04:03:51 PM
Day 1000

What a ride it's been.  My testimony on the site, just as in life, would be long and convoluted.  I came here broken, a slave to nicotine and I did not deal with withdrawals well.  I ranted, raved, shouted insults, got in meaningless board wars, caused rule changes, got a bunch of admod love notes, basically begged to get banned with some of my antics. 

Today, I'd like to think I'm a bit more level headed and even tempered.  I try to think before I react, and think some more if my reply seems like it'll be caustic.  I have come to know the Lord Jesus Christ in the last year, and that has changed me even more.  And that change in me took a huge leap because of my friendship with a member of this site actually.  A lot has changed in the past 33 months here.  The site has changed somewhat, but I have changed as a man tremendously.  1000 days is a long time, but only a drop in the bucket of life.  Life of a man and eternal life in heaven.  I am also 39 days porn and immoral thoughts cleansed, which is the most I've been in my entire life.  39 days doesn't seem like a lot, but that number may mean more to me than my 1000 days quit from dip.  The truth is that one positive, embraced life change led to others.  I still have a lot of work to do, but looking back at where I was, I'm excited for what will come in the future.  The change is drastic, and God is molding me to be what he wants one day, one hour, one spoken word at a time. 

I'd like to personally thank everybody on this site that has helped me along the way, but there's over a hundred names in that list.  I will however, address some of those that drastically helped change my shift in direction toward good instead of evil.  I'll miss people in this, so do not be upset if it happens.  Everybody that we cross paths with will affect us in some way.  Everybody that we interact with shapes us to some small degree.  Sometimes, it's to a large degree.  To me, KTC is not just a quit site.  It has grown to be much more than that.  It's a home, it's where friends are, it's a place where I can be myself.  It always has been, and I thank each of you for letting this happen. 

@chewie (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1) I thank you for creating this site and giving us a place to develop these friendships in a common goal.  I'm glad I got to meet you, a living legend. 
@cbird65 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=105) One of the first quitters I've met, and one that I've seen the most.  Such a leader, and also a friend that I'm proud to call a mentor of sorts.
@Big Brother Jack (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2624) the quit king of all....your story is amazing, your outlook is refreshing, and I'm glad to call you a friend
@worktowin (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=436) Dude, you've been there for me through all of it...I feel like I've done life with you.  Can't wait to meet up this summer again!
@ReWire (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=403) the guy that pushed and prodded me to go to Men's Encounter, which totally reshaped my walk with Christ.  Can't say enough about this.
@rocketman (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=89) I just feel a bond through shared experiences here, and pray for you all the time, brother.  Always great to meet up and swap banter.
@69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26) One of the strongest quitters I know.  Glad to have met you, glad to call you friend.
@FLLipOut (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=53) One amazing lady quitter who supported me through two groups and always believed in me.
@FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) Flipp's sidekick in quit.  Like Robin to her Batman...we have a ton in common and you have been a huge strength to me in many areas of life.
@B--rad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=602) whom I share all kinds of interests with and talk with daily
@David S (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=958) You have become one of my best friends, and I can't believe you friended me in the first place.  Thanks for being true to the kingdom, my friend
@Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) who never hesitates to pick up a phone and call a brother when he's down with encouragement
@JohnSmallberries (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=43) One of the most eclectic, friendly, wonderful guys ever
@Miker0351 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=241) Another that I met, was prepared to hate, and ended up being strengthened by your words.  Love you brother.
@ChickDip (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=164) who has always been in my corner
@Oliver88 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=146) Who I didn't get to know until later, but is a stalwart man of Christ and builds some amazing stuff, always inspirational.
@harvestgirl (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=98) who always has time to help, offer friendship, and words of encouragement.
@Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) who actually has feelings, which I just found out.  Great guy, glad to call him a brother.
@Croakenhagen (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=18) my east Texas buddy who has been a friend since around his day 1. 
@Law1358 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=929) who I also met, and was part of the 2.0 GM back when it was active.  Inspiring how unabashed he is in his love of Christ.

To the handful of members of Sept '17 that still remain, to the guys and gals in the KTC prayer groups and that post in the chapel to strengthen each other daily, to the amazing quitters in Oct '16 who showed me what it meant to really quit even though I was amazingly slow to learn it.  To the 50+ quitters I've met, you all have strengthened me more than you could imagine.  Yes, even you, @Brick (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=700) !  To all those that I text with daily, and those that I text with occasionally.  To those that I've never spoken to, but are out there doing life, posting one day at a time, stacking days...you are amazing.  Keep up the good work, build friendships, brotherhood, and accountability, and never give up.  This site will change you if you'll let it.  I know it changed me.

Amazing stuff here brother. So proud of all you have accomplished in 1000 days and so thankful for your friendship and daily support. We shall meet again, hopefully sooner than later
Proud to be quit with you Bryan.  We've all grown in so many ways and have helped each other along the way.
It has been a privilege to share this journey with you, Bryan.  Love you bub.
From day 1 to ODAAT, Always going to be in your corner Dino. Proud to walk along side you brother.
Well done Broc. Congrats.
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: worktowin on March 05, 2020, 08:00:02 PM
Day 1000

What a ride it's been.  My testimony on the site, just as in life, would be long and convoluted.  I came here broken, a slave to nicotine and I did not deal with withdrawals well.  I ranted, raved, shouted insults, got in meaningless board wars, caused rule changes, got a bunch of admod love notes, basically begged to get banned with some of my antics. 

Today, I'd like to think I'm a bit more level headed and even tempered.  I try to think before I react, and think some more if my reply seems like it'll be caustic.  I have come to know the Lord Jesus Christ in the last year, and that has changed me even more.  And that change in me took a huge leap because of my friendship with a member of this site actually.  A lot has changed in the past 33 months here.  The site has changed somewhat, but I have changed as a man tremendously.  1000 days is a long time, but only a drop in the bucket of life.  Life of a man and eternal life in heaven.  I am also 39 days porn and immoral thoughts cleansed, which is the most I've been in my entire life.  39 days doesn't seem like a lot, but that number may mean more to me than my 1000 days quit from dip.  The truth is that one positive, embraced life change led to others.  I still have a lot of work to do, but looking back at where I was, I'm excited for what will come in the future.  The change is drastic, and God is molding me to be what he wants one day, one hour, one spoken word at a time. 

I'd like to personally thank everybody on this site that has helped me along the way, but there's over a hundred names in that list.  I will however, address some of those that drastically helped change my shift in direction toward good instead of evil.  I'll miss people in this, so do not be upset if it happens.  Everybody that we cross paths with will affect us in some way.  Everybody that we interact with shapes us to some small degree.  Sometimes, it's to a large degree.  To me, KTC is not just a quit site.  It has grown to be much more than that.  It's a home, it's where friends are, it's a place where I can be myself.  It always has been, and I thank each of you for letting this happen. 

@chewie (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1) I thank you for creating this site and giving us a place to develop these friendships in a common goal.  I'm glad I got to meet you, a living legend. 
@cbird65 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=105) One of the first quitters I've met, and one that I've seen the most.  Such a leader, and also a friend that I'm proud to call a mentor of sorts.
@Big Brother Jack (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2624) the quit king of all....your story is amazing, your outlook is refreshing, and I'm glad to call you a friend
@worktowin (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=436) Dude, you've been there for me through all of it...I feel like I've done life with you.  Can't wait to meet up this summer again!
@ReWire (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=403) the guy that pushed and prodded me to go to Men's Encounter, which totally reshaped my walk with Christ.  Can't say enough about this.
@rocketman (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=89) I just feel a bond through shared experiences here, and pray for you all the time, brother.  Always great to meet up and swap banter.
@69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26) One of the strongest quitters I know.  Glad to have met you, glad to call you friend.
@FLLipOut (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=53) One amazing lady quitter who supported me through two groups and always believed in me.
@FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) Flipp's sidekick in quit.  Like Robin to her Batman...we have a ton in common and you have been a huge strength to me in many areas of life.
@B--rad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=602) whom I share all kinds of interests with and talk with daily
@David S (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=958) You have become one of my best friends, and I can't believe you friended me in the first place.  Thanks for being true to the kingdom, my friend
@Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) who never hesitates to pick up a phone and call a brother when he's down with encouragement
@JohnSmallberries (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=43) One of the most eclectic, friendly, wonderful guys ever
@Miker0351 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=241) Another that I met, was prepared to hate, and ended up being strengthened by your words.  Love you brother.
@ChickDip (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=164) who has always been in my corner
@Oliver88 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=146) Who I didn't get to know until later, but is a stalwart man of Christ and builds some amazing stuff, always inspirational.
@harvestgirl (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=98) who always has time to help, offer friendship, and words of encouragement.
@Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) who actually has feelings, which I just found out.  Great guy, glad to call him a brother.
@Croakenhagen (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=18) my east Texas buddy who has been a friend since around his day 1. 
@Law1358 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=929) who I also met, and was part of the 2.0 GM back when it was active.  Inspiring how unabashed he is in his love of Christ.

To the handful of members of Sept '17 that still remain, to the guys and gals in the KTC prayer groups and that post in the chapel to strengthen each other daily, to the amazing quitters in Oct '16 who showed me what it meant to really quit even though I was amazingly slow to learn it.  To the 50+ quitters I've met, you all have strengthened me more than you could imagine.  Yes, even you, @Brick (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=700) !  To all those that I text with daily, and those that I text with occasionally.  To those that I've never spoken to, but are out there doing life, posting one day at a time, stacking days...you are amazing.  Keep up the good work, build friendships, brotherhood, and accountability, and never give up.  This site will change you if you'll let it.  I know it changed me.

Amazing stuff here brother. So proud of all you have accomplished in 1000 days and so thankful for your friendship and daily support. We shall meet again, hopefully sooner than later
Proud to be quit with you Bryan.  We've all grown in so many ways and have helped each other along the way.
It has been a privilege to share this journey with you, Bryan.  Love you bub.
From day 1 to ODAAT, Always going to be in your corner Dino. Proud to walk along side you brother.
Well done Broc. Congrats.

Honored to quit with you every day. You are a great friend, and a great man. Thanks for letting me join you on this ride.
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Batdad on March 06, 2020, 07:48:59 AM
Day 1000

What a ride it's been.  My testimony on the site, just as in life, would be long and convoluted.  I came here broken, a slave to nicotine and I did not deal with withdrawals well.  I ranted, raved, shouted insults, got in meaningless board wars, caused rule changes, got a bunch of admod love notes, basically begged to get banned with some of my antics. 

Today, I'd like to think I'm a bit more level headed and even tempered.  I try to think before I react, and think some more if my reply seems like it'll be caustic.  I have come to know the Lord Jesus Christ in the last year, and that has changed me even more.  And that change in me took a huge leap because of my friendship with a member of this site actually.  A lot has changed in the past 33 months here.  The site has changed somewhat, but I have changed as a man tremendously.  1000 days is a long time, but only a drop in the bucket of life.  Life of a man and eternal life in heaven.  I am also 39 days porn and immoral thoughts cleansed, which is the most I've been in my entire life.  39 days doesn't seem like a lot, but that number may mean more to me than my 1000 days quit from dip.  The truth is that one positive, embraced life change led to others.  I still have a lot of work to do, but looking back at where I was, I'm excited for what will come in the future.  The change is drastic, and God is molding me to be what he wants one day, one hour, one spoken word at a time. 

I'd like to personally thank everybody on this site that has helped me along the way, but there's over a hundred names in that list.  I will however, address some of those that drastically helped change my shift in direction toward good instead of evil.  I'll miss people in this, so do not be upset if it happens.  Everybody that we cross paths with will affect us in some way.  Everybody that we interact with shapes us to some small degree.  Sometimes, it's to a large degree.  To me, KTC is not just a quit site.  It has grown to be much more than that.  It's a home, it's where friends are, it's a place where I can be myself.  It always has been, and I thank each of you for letting this happen. 

@chewie (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1) I thank you for creating this site and giving us a place to develop these friendships in a common goal.  I'm glad I got to meet you, a living legend. 
@cbird65 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=105) One of the first quitters I've met, and one that I've seen the most.  Such a leader, and also a friend that I'm proud to call a mentor of sorts.
@Big Brother Jack (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2624) the quit king of all....your story is amazing, your outlook is refreshing, and I'm glad to call you a friend
@worktowin (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=436) Dude, you've been there for me through all of it...I feel like I've done life with you.  Can't wait to meet up this summer again!
@ReWire (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=403) the guy that pushed and prodded me to go to Men's Encounter, which totally reshaped my walk with Christ.  Can't say enough about this.
@rocketman (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=89) I just feel a bond through shared experiences here, and pray for you all the time, brother.  Always great to meet up and swap banter.
@69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26) One of the strongest quitters I know.  Glad to have met you, glad to call you friend.
@FLLipOut (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=53) One amazing lady quitter who supported me through two groups and always believed in me.
@FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) Flipp's sidekick in quit.  Like Robin to her Batman...we have a ton in common and you have been a huge strength to me in many areas of life.
@B--rad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=602) whom I share all kinds of interests with and talk with daily
@David S (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=958) You have become one of my best friends, and I can't believe you friended me in the first place.  Thanks for being true to the kingdom, my friend
@Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) who never hesitates to pick up a phone and call a brother when he's down with encouragement
@JohnSmallberries (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=43) One of the most eclectic, friendly, wonderful guys ever
@Miker0351 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=241) Another that I met, was prepared to hate, and ended up being strengthened by your words.  Love you brother.
@ChickDip (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=164) who has always been in my corner
@Oliver88 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=146) Who I didn't get to know until later, but is a stalwart man of Christ and builds some amazing stuff, always inspirational.
@harvestgirl (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=98) who always has time to help, offer friendship, and words of encouragement.
@Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) who actually has feelings, which I just found out.  Great guy, glad to call him a brother.
@Croakenhagen (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=18) my east Texas buddy who has been a friend since around his day 1. 
@Law1358 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=929) who I also met, and was part of the 2.0 GM back when it was active.  Inspiring how unabashed he is in his love of Christ.

To the handful of members of Sept '17 that still remain, to the guys and gals in the KTC prayer groups and that post in the chapel to strengthen each other daily, to the amazing quitters in Oct '16 who showed me what it meant to really quit even though I was amazingly slow to learn it.  To the 50+ quitters I've met, you all have strengthened me more than you could imagine.  Yes, even you, @Brick (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=700) !  To all those that I text with daily, and those that I text with occasionally.  To those that I've never spoken to, but are out there doing life, posting one day at a time, stacking days...you are amazing.  Keep up the good work, build friendships, brotherhood, and accountability, and never give up.  This site will change you if you'll let it.  I know it changed me.

Amazing stuff here brother. So proud of all you have accomplished in 1000 days and so thankful for your friendship and daily support. We shall meet again, hopefully sooner than later
Proud to be quit with you Bryan.  We've all grown in so many ways and have helped each other along the way.
It has been a privilege to share this journey with you, Bryan.  Love you bub.
From day 1 to ODAAT, Always going to be in your corner Dino. Proud to walk along side you brother.
Well done Broc. Congrats.

Honored to quit with you every day. You are a great friend, and a great man. Thanks for letting me join you on this ride.
Proud to be quit with you.
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Keith0617 on March 06, 2020, 08:14:25 AM
Day 1000

What a ride it's been.  My testimony on the site, just as in life, would be long and convoluted.  I came here broken, a slave to nicotine and I did not deal with withdrawals well.  I ranted, raved, shouted insults, got in meaningless board wars, caused rule changes, got a bunch of admod love notes, basically begged to get banned with some of my antics. 

Today, I'd like to think I'm a bit more level headed and even tempered.  I try to think before I react, and think some more if my reply seems like it'll be caustic.  I have come to know the Lord Jesus Christ in the last year, and that has changed me even more.  And that change in me took a huge leap because of my friendship with a member of this site actually.  A lot has changed in the past 33 months here.  The site has changed somewhat, but I have changed as a man tremendously.  1000 days is a long time, but only a drop in the bucket of life.  Life of a man and eternal life in heaven.  I am also 39 days porn and immoral thoughts cleansed, which is the most I've been in my entire life.  39 days doesn't seem like a lot, but that number may mean more to me than my 1000 days quit from dip.  The truth is that one positive, embraced life change led to others.  I still have a lot of work to do, but looking back at where I was, I'm excited for what will come in the future.  The change is drastic, and God is molding me to be what he wants one day, one hour, one spoken word at a time. 

I'd like to personally thank everybody on this site that has helped me along the way, but there's over a hundred names in that list.  I will however, address some of those that drastically helped change my shift in direction toward good instead of evil.  I'll miss people in this, so do not be upset if it happens.  Everybody that we cross paths with will affect us in some way.  Everybody that we interact with shapes us to some small degree.  Sometimes, it's to a large degree.  To me, KTC is not just a quit site.  It has grown to be much more than that.  It's a home, it's where friends are, it's a place where I can be myself.  It always has been, and I thank each of you for letting this happen. 

@chewie (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1) I thank you for creating this site and giving us a place to develop these friendships in a common goal.  I'm glad I got to meet you, a living legend. 
@cbird65 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=105) One of the first quitters I've met, and one that I've seen the most.  Such a leader, and also a friend that I'm proud to call a mentor of sorts.
@Big Brother Jack (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2624) the quit king of all....your story is amazing, your outlook is refreshing, and I'm glad to call you a friend
@worktowin (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=436) Dude, you've been there for me through all of it...I feel like I've done life with you.  Can't wait to meet up this summer again!
@ReWire (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=403) the guy that pushed and prodded me to go to Men's Encounter, which totally reshaped my walk with Christ.  Can't say enough about this.
@rocketman (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=89) I just feel a bond through shared experiences here, and pray for you all the time, brother.  Always great to meet up and swap banter.
@69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26) One of the strongest quitters I know.  Glad to have met you, glad to call you friend.
@FLLipOut (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=53) One amazing lady quitter who supported me through two groups and always believed in me.
@FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) Flipp's sidekick in quit.  Like Robin to her Batman...we have a ton in common and you have been a huge strength to me in many areas of life.
@B--rad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=602) whom I share all kinds of interests with and talk with daily
@David S (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=958) You have become one of my best friends, and I can't believe you friended me in the first place.  Thanks for being true to the kingdom, my friend
@Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) who never hesitates to pick up a phone and call a brother when he's down with encouragement
@JohnSmallberries (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=43) One of the most eclectic, friendly, wonderful guys ever
@Miker0351 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=241) Another that I met, was prepared to hate, and ended up being strengthened by your words.  Love you brother.
@ChickDip (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=164) who has always been in my corner
@Oliver88 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=146) Who I didn't get to know until later, but is a stalwart man of Christ and builds some amazing stuff, always inspirational.
@harvestgirl (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=98) who always has time to help, offer friendship, and words of encouragement.
@Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) who actually has feelings, which I just found out.  Great guy, glad to call him a brother.
@Croakenhagen (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=18) my east Texas buddy who has been a friend since around his day 1. 
@Law1358 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=929) who I also met, and was part of the 2.0 GM back when it was active.  Inspiring how unabashed he is in his love of Christ.

To the handful of members of Sept '17 that still remain, to the guys and gals in the KTC prayer groups and that post in the chapel to strengthen each other daily, to the amazing quitters in Oct '16 who showed me what it meant to really quit even though I was amazingly slow to learn it.  To the 50+ quitters I've met, you all have strengthened me more than you could imagine.  Yes, even you, @Brick (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=700) !  To all those that I text with daily, and those that I text with occasionally.  To those that I've never spoken to, but are out there doing life, posting one day at a time, stacking days...you are amazing.  Keep up the good work, build friendships, brotherhood, and accountability, and never give up.  This site will change you if you'll let it.  I know it changed me.

Amazing stuff here brother. So proud of all you have accomplished in 1000 days and so thankful for your friendship and daily support. We shall meet again, hopefully sooner than later
Proud to be quit with you Bryan.  We've all grown in so many ways and have helped each other along the way.
It has been a privilege to share this journey with you, Bryan.  Love you bub.
From day 1 to ODAAT, Always going to be in your corner Dino. Proud to walk along side you brother.
Well done Broc. Congrats.

Honored to quit with you every day. You are a great friend, and a great man. Thanks for letting me join you on this ride.
Proud to be quit with you.
Congrats brother.
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Big Brother Jack on March 06, 2020, 09:30:11 AM
Day 1000

What a ride it's been.  My testimony on the site, just as in life, would be long and convoluted.  I came here broken, a slave to nicotine and I did not deal with withdrawals well.  I ranted, raved, shouted insults, got in meaningless board wars, caused rule changes, got a bunch of admod love notes, basically begged to get banned with some of my antics. 

Today, I'd like to think I'm a bit more level headed and even tempered.  I try to think before I react, and think some more if my reply seems like it'll be caustic.  I have come to know the Lord Jesus Christ in the last year, and that has changed me even more.  And that change in me took a huge leap because of my friendship with a member of this site actually.  A lot has changed in the past 33 months here.  The site has changed somewhat, but I have changed as a man tremendously.  1000 days is a long time, but only a drop in the bucket of life.  Life of a man and eternal life in heaven.  I am also 39 days porn and immoral thoughts cleansed, which is the most I've been in my entire life.  39 days doesn't seem like a lot, but that number may mean more to me than my 1000 days quit from dip.  The truth is that one positive, embraced life change led to others.  I still have a lot of work to do, but looking back at where I was, I'm excited for what will come in the future.  The change is drastic, and God is molding me to be what he wants one day, one hour, one spoken word at a time. 

I'd like to personally thank everybody on this site that has helped me along the way, but there's over a hundred names in that list.  I will however, address some of those that drastically helped change my shift in direction toward good instead of evil.  I'll miss people in this, so do not be upset if it happens.  Everybody that we cross paths with will affect us in some way.  Everybody that we interact with shapes us to some small degree.  Sometimes, it's to a large degree.  To me, KTC is not just a quit site.  It has grown to be much more than that.  It's a home, it's where friends are, it's a place where I can be myself.  It always has been, and I thank each of you for letting this happen. 

@chewie (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1) I thank you for creating this site and giving us a place to develop these friendships in a common goal.  I'm glad I got to meet you, a living legend. 
@cbird65 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=105) One of the first quitters I've met, and one that I've seen the most.  Such a leader, and also a friend that I'm proud to call a mentor of sorts.
@Big Brother Jack (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2624) the quit king of all....your story is amazing, your outlook is refreshing, and I'm glad to call you a friend
@worktowin (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=436) Dude, you've been there for me through all of it...I feel like I've done life with you.  Can't wait to meet up this summer again!
@ReWire (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=403) the guy that pushed and prodded me to go to Men's Encounter, which totally reshaped my walk with Christ.  Can't say enough about this.
@rocketman (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=89) I just feel a bond through shared experiences here, and pray for you all the time, brother.  Always great to meet up and swap banter.
@69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26) One of the strongest quitters I know.  Glad to have met you, glad to call you friend.
@FLLipOut (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=53) One amazing lady quitter who supported me through two groups and always believed in me.
@FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) Flipp's sidekick in quit.  Like Robin to her Batman...we have a ton in common and you have been a huge strength to me in many areas of life.
@B--rad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=602) whom I share all kinds of interests with and talk with daily
@David S (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=958) You have become one of my best friends, and I can't believe you friended me in the first place.  Thanks for being true to the kingdom, my friend
@Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) who never hesitates to pick up a phone and call a brother when he's down with encouragement
@JohnSmallberries (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=43) One of the most eclectic, friendly, wonderful guys ever
@Miker0351 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=241) Another that I met, was prepared to hate, and ended up being strengthened by your words.  Love you brother.
@ChickDip (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=164) who has always been in my corner
@Oliver88 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=146) Who I didn't get to know until later, but is a stalwart man of Christ and builds some amazing stuff, always inspirational.
@harvestgirl (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=98) who always has time to help, offer friendship, and words of encouragement.
@Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) who actually has feelings, which I just found out.  Great guy, glad to call him a brother.
@Croakenhagen (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=18) my east Texas buddy who has been a friend since around his day 1. 
@Law1358 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=929) who I also met, and was part of the 2.0 GM back when it was active.  Inspiring how unabashed he is in his love of Christ.

To the handful of members of Sept '17 that still remain, to the guys and gals in the KTC prayer groups and that post in the chapel to strengthen each other daily, to the amazing quitters in Oct '16 who showed me what it meant to really quit even though I was amazingly slow to learn it.  To the 50+ quitters I've met, you all have strengthened me more than you could imagine.  Yes, even you, @Brick (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=700) !  To all those that I text with daily, and those that I text with occasionally.  To those that I've never spoken to, but are out there doing life, posting one day at a time, stacking days...you are amazing.  Keep up the good work, build friendships, brotherhood, and accountability, and never give up.  This site will change you if you'll let it.  I know it changed me.

Amazing stuff here brother. So proud of all you have accomplished in 1000 days and so thankful for your friendship and daily support. We shall meet again, hopefully sooner than later
Proud to be quit with you Bryan.  We've all grown in so many ways and have helped each other along the way.
It has been a privilege to share this journey with you, Bryan.  Love you bub.
From day 1 to ODAAT, Always going to be in your corner Dino. Proud to walk along side you brother.
Well done Broc. Congrats.

Honored to quit with you every day. You are a great friend, and a great man. Thanks for letting me join you on this ride.
Proud to be quit with you.
Congrats brother.
Proud of all you have become my friend ... Oorah and I'll see you in Texas in October  , Pennsylvania in August and maybe even Savannah one of these years!
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on March 17, 2020, 03:02:00 PM
I'm just glad that I'm not trying to stockpile multiple rolls of dip for the Wuhan beer virus.  3 years ago, that would have been my number one priority! 
Thankful to be quit today.

"I will say of the Lord, "He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust""  Psalms 91:2
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on July 15, 2020, 04:02:09 PM
Adios and Vaya Con Dios

Romans 5:3-5
More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.

Ponder that when struggling with addiction, suffering leads to strength and the daily action of being accountable leads to being strong together, embracing life, and hopefully putting that energy into something more productive than being concerned with nicotine.  I'm proud to say I've made some amazing lifelong friends here.  I've also made a few enemies I'm sure, and for that, I apologize.  I truly hope that you can find it in your hearts to forgive my transgressions into your lives, whatever they may be.  Hope I helped some along the way as well.  KTC has truly saved my life, and the friendships forged here have strengthened me beyond anything I can explain in many ways.  I am admittedly hard headed in many ways, American and Texan to the core, a black and white kind of guy.  There is no gray, and I find myself engaging in arguments here over and over and it's not healthy.  It's not where I want to be.  Killed all social media at the first of the year and haven't regretted it.  It's time fellas...time to step away from KTC....time to push onward. 

Revelation 3:16
So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth.

It's not in my nature to be a fence rider.  I ponder a long time before making a choice, but when I do, I stick with it.  I've been lukewarm here for far too long.  Those of you that have my number, feel free to reach out anytime.  Those that I text with daily, I vow to keep posting my promise to you via text and accountability of friendships.  Those who I've not had the pleasure of communicating with, keep up the good fight.  One day at a time, it's all any of us can do.  I love you guys!

Bryan
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: 69franx on July 15, 2020, 06:54:57 PM
It's a sad day for sure to see you walk away. You know you have been a big part of my quit, virtually and in person. As long as you can remember and continue to practice NAFAR, and never forget where you were 1200 days ago and don't want to be again, you will continue to kick nicotine ass
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: EXBEARHAG on July 15, 2020, 09:23:31 PM
Sad day indeed, Broc!...but this is your story man. 

I can't say exactly when but I am positive that you had a substantial role in keeping me away from the c-store on more than one occasion.  You've touched many lives.  Godspeed my friend!
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: FLLipOut on July 15, 2020, 09:45:26 PM
Sad news, Bryan.  KTC will not be the same.  You mean a lot to many of us here. 

Keep the door open, come back from time to time. 
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Athan on July 16, 2020, 06:11:56 PM
A simple promise every day is such a small price to pay to keep slavery at bay.
You don't have to be in it up to your armpits brother, you just gotta post it daily. P&G isn't lukewarm; it's at the core of the method that wins.
I've had so many 'just one' moments to know not to wander. You penned "what's wrong with the occasional cigar". That cigar is still out there.
I do hope you call if you have a 'just one' moment.
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: ChickDip on July 17, 2020, 06:19:51 PM
If you have helped at least one person quit, you are invaluable.
If you've helped only 1 person from now on, once a week, once a month, once a year,
 there is nothing luke-warm about it.
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on October 12, 2020, 03:37:44 PM
If you have helped at least one person quit, you are invaluable.
If you've helped only 1 person from now on, once a week, once a month, once a year,
 there is nothing luke-warm about it.

Welp...

Apparently it's hard to stay away from friends, from those I care about.  I hope that I can affect change not only in quit, but also in life, in somebody's walk with Christ, in all these things that matter.  I have had a lot of true change since my beginnings on KTC, perhaps I can be that light in somebody else's life.  I'm back on but I'm staying out of those conversations that derail me from the things that matter most.  I wish each of you a blessed day. 
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: 69franx on October 12, 2020, 04:51:59 PM
Glad to see you recommit brother
Title: Re: I refuse to be defined by the chains that bound me...I am a quitter!
Post by: Broccoli-saurus on October 12, 2020, 04:58:35 PM
Posted this in one of the newer groups, thought I'd drop it here too. 

Being active on KTC led to me being quit for sure.  It also led to me finding a new relationship with Christ, thanks in no small part to Rewire (member here).  It led to meeting great people all over the country, both virtually and in person.  It led to a couple of KTC guys, @Bgbdbrd (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=724) (big bird) and @69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26) sitting around a campfire with me in my back yard 11 days ago.  It led to a bunch of people that would fly/drive in to kick me in the nuts at any time if I caved, but since I haven't, flying/driving in to celebrate my wedding with me.  It led to @ReWire (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=403) officiating this wedding.  It led to an amazing KTC meetup over beer at a local brewery and in attendance while I got hitched.  Those of you that know me before, and after, know that I have changed immensely in the last 3+ years on KTC.  And this site is what started that revolution.  It's worth it.  It's worth every bit of time that you spend here, and it's worth pouring back into.

Some food for thought.  This place is more than a simple quit site if you'll just let go and let it be more.

https://www.killthecan.org/903-brewers-and-a-ktc-wedding/