The price of re-admission is truthfully answering the three questions that have been proferred to all who have caved and attempted a comeback. You need to answer all three and post the responses in your old group and in Feb. '14, your new group. Be honest in your answers and try to learn something about yourself.
(1) What happened to make you cave?
(2) Why did it happen?
(3) What are you gonna do differently in this quit, to avoid the same thing from happening again?
$1.99, Your attitude seems great. You feel like shit. Good, that feeling will do you well at this stage but won't last forever. You expect to be shit on. Good, that will probably happen. There are those here that have been itching for a target for their nic rage. It will also pass. You said that "I've thrown away everything I've worked for". I think that overlooks one major thing. You've worked to break some of the triggers. You've re-trained your brain to recognize that it can survive without nicotine. You've created connections that will (if you allow it) last for a lifetime. You were once a member of the Sky Divers. You may have shifted to another group but I think it's safe to speak for the rest of the group here when I say, You are a Sky Diver for life (as long as you are posting roll). That doesn't mean that you post roll with us anymore, but I would be disappointed if you don't post support with us on a regular basis if not every day. I mean, you have my phone number and you can always call or text any time. I would expect EVERY member of our group to feel the same way. Take your lumps, give serious thought to the questions and answer them when you have truly given them the thought they deserve, and
post roll every damn day. There is a mindset that is created when you don't give yourself the freedom to miss a day. It creates a mindset of "never let your guard down" and you could have used that recently. Posting every day will help you get into that frame of mind. I want you to cross your HOF date as a 100% poster. I will post roll for you any day you need help. Ask around, I do that for about 15 different people in our group and I'll do that for you in your new group (just remind me so I don't accidentally post in Nov 13.
I said on our wall that I'm pissed at you and I am but I'm also damn proud of you. You didn't make excuses, you simply stated the facts. You came back to us and explained what happened so that everyone here can learn from your mistake. You posted day 1 because you know it's the right thing to do and you aren't sulking and going back to the tit that you sucked on for so many years. I am more proud of that than anything else and today, I quit with you. Now, continue to get your head out of your ass..... drink (but NEVER get drunk) with those that you can't trust to protect your quit..... and post roll every damn day.
