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Title: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 02, 2020, 01:16:44 AM
Hello all,

So this is not my first time quitting, far from it to be honest. The thing about this time is that it will be my LAST quit and the one I truly follow through with. I've followed this website for awhile, but since I wasn't as serious about quitting as I needed to be, I refrained from posting or officially joining the site. 18 months ago my youngest daughter was born and I told my wife that I would quit. I didn't want this stuff to be around her or them to think that tobacco was okay. It's now been 18 months later and I'm just now starting my quit. I just returned from a two year tour overseas in Germany away from the family and I was trying to refrain from adding more stress to me coming home and us moving to Kentucky, but the wife and I talked and I decided now is the only time. If I don't choose to quit now, I probably never would.

I have been in the Army for 7 years now and this stuff has been around me more times than I can count or even remember, so it's definitely not going to be easy for me, but I really feel like this group can really help me stay on track on those tougher days. To anyone in the April quit group, I am here, whenever you need someone to talk to, or you need a distraction away from this crap, and i hope i can expect the same from you. To everyone else here, my name is Aaron Green, and today I become a quitter. Hope to get to know you all a lot better over the course of these next 100 days and further beyond that.

A-aron

P.S. If anyone watches Key and Peele, yes I respond to being called A-Aron...It's my favorite nickname lmao
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Athan on January 02, 2020, 01:30:47 AM
Hello all,

So this is not my first time quitting, far from it to be honest. The thing about this time is that it will be my LAST quit and the one I truly follow through with. I've followed this website for awhile, but since I wasn't as serious about quitting as I needed to be, I refrained from posting or officially joining the site. 18 months ago my youngest daughter was born and I told my wife that I would quit. I didn't want this stuff to be around her or them to think that tobacco was okay. It's now been 18 months later and I'm just now starting my quit. I just returned from a two year tour overseas in Germany away from the family and I was trying to refrain from adding more stress to me coming home and us moving to Kentucky, but the wife and I talked and I decided now is the only time. If I don't choose to quit now, I probably never would.

I have been in the Army for 7 years now and this stuff has been around me more times than I can count or even remember, so it's definitely not going to be easy for me, but I really feel like this group can really help me stay on track on those tougher days. To anyone in the April quit group, I am here, whenever you need someone to talk to, or you need a distraction away from this crap, and i hope i can expect the same from you. To everyone else here, my name is Aaron Green, and today I become a quitter. Hope to get to know you all a lot better over the course of these next 100 days and further beyond that.

A-aron

P.S. If anyone watches Key and Peele, yes I respond to being called A-Aron...It's my favorite nickname lmao
Welcome aboard A-aron! I was Navy. Smoking/chewing is darn near synonymous with service (as is drinking). Great decision and you're right about now being the time; tomorrow never comes. Got some links in my signature about nicotine addiction. Educate yourself. Knowledge is power, ignorance is terribly expensive.
Make you way on over to April 2020 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=16165.msg7680683#new) and post your promise to stay clean.
Blog the quit out here, it's very therapeutic. Also, rage in here and not at home on your family or your job. Love that you've involved your bride, it's important that she knows what you're up against. There's even some information  here  (https://www.killthecan.org/community/spousal-support/) for her.
There's already some folks in your group. Exchange digits and start building a web of accountability - it's your lifeline when you get tight.
Athan
IQWYT
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: EXBEARHAG on January 02, 2020, 09:14:49 AM
Hello all,

So this is not my first time quitting, far from it to be honest. The thing about this time is that it will be my LAST quit and the one I truly follow through with. I've followed this website for awhile, but since I wasn't as serious about quitting as I needed to be, I refrained from posting or officially joining the site. 18 months ago my youngest daughter was born and I told my wife that I would quit. I didn't want this stuff to be around her or them to think that tobacco was okay. It's now been 18 months later and I'm just now starting my quit. I just returned from a two year tour overseas in Germany away from the family and I was trying to refrain from adding more stress to me coming home and us moving to Kentucky, but the wife and I talked and I decided now is the only time. If I don't choose to quit now, I probably never would.

I have been in the Army for 7 years now and this stuff has been around me more times than I can count or even remember, so it's definitely not going to be easy for me, but I really feel like this group can really help me stay on track on those tougher days. To anyone in the April quit group, I am here, whenever you need someone to talk to, or you need a distraction away from this crap, and i hope i can expect the same from you. To everyone else here, my name is Aaron Green, and today I become a quitter. Hope to get to know you all a lot better over the course of these next 100 days and further beyond that.

A-aron

P.S. If anyone watches Key and Peele, yes I respond to being called A-Aron...It's my favorite nickname lmao
Welcome aboard A-aron! I was Navy. Smoking/chewing is darn near synonymous with service (as is drinking). Great decision and you're right about now being the time; tomorrow never comes. Got some links in my signature about nicotine addiction. Educate yourself. Knowledge is power, ignorance is terribly expensive.
Make you way on over to April 2020 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=16165.msg7680683#new) and post your promise to stay clean.
Blog the quit out here, it's very therapeutic. Also, rage in here and not at home on your family or your job. Love that you've involved your bride, it's important that she knows what you're up against. There's even some information  here  (https://www.killthecan.org/community/spousal-support/) for her.
There's already some folks in your group. Exchange digits and start building a web of accountability - it's your lifeline when you get tight.
Athan
IQWYT

Welcome @AaronLGreen (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16449).  Thank you for your service to this great country.  You've made a great decision.  This place will help you stay clean.  Follow the advice of the vets on this site such as Athan above.  They've been there and felt what you are feeling.  Let me know if you'd like my digits for added accountability.  It's an honor to be quit with you today sir. 

~HAG
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Falcon67 on January 02, 2020, 11:35:47 AM
Hello all,

So this is not my first time quitting, far from it to be honest. The thing about this time is that it will be my LAST quit and the one I truly follow through with. I've followed this website for awhile, but since I wasn't as serious about quitting as I needed to be, I refrained from posting or officially joining the site. 18 months ago my youngest daughter was born and I told my wife that I would quit. I didn't want this stuff to be around her or them to think that tobacco was okay. It's now been 18 months later and I'm just now starting my quit. I just returned from a two year tour overseas in Germany away from the family and I was trying to refrain from adding more stress to me coming home and us moving to Kentucky, but the wife and I talked and I decided now is the only time. If I don't choose to quit now, I probably never would.

I have been in the Army for 7 years now and this stuff has been around me more times than I can count or even remember, so it's definitely not going to be easy for me, but I really feel like this group can really help me stay on track on those tougher days. To anyone in the April quit group, I am here, whenever you need someone to talk to, or you need a distraction away from this crap, and i hope i can expect the same from you. To everyone else here, my name is Aaron Green, and today I become a quitter. Hope to get to know you all a lot better over the course of these next 100 days and further beyond that.

A-aron

P.S. If anyone watches Key and Peele, yes I respond to being called A-Aron...It's my favorite nickname lmao
Welcome aboard A-aron! I was Navy. Smoking/chewing is darn near synonymous with service (as is drinking). Great decision and you're right about now being the time; tomorrow never comes. Got some links in my signature about nicotine addiction. Educate yourself. Knowledge is power, ignorance is terribly expensive.
Make you way on over to April 2020 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=16165.msg7680683#new) and post your promise to stay clean.
Blog the quit out here, it's very therapeutic. Also, rage in here and not at home on your family or your job. Love that you've involved your bride, it's important that she knows what you're up against. There's even some information  here  (https://www.killthecan.org/community/spousal-support/) for her.
There's already some folks in your group. Exchange digits and start building a web of accountability - it's your lifeline when you get tight.
Athan
IQWYT

Welcome @AaronLGreen (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16449).  Thank you for your service to this great country.  You've made a great decision.  This place will help you stay clean.  Follow the advice of the vets on this site such as Athan above.  They've been there and felt what you are feeling.  Let me know if you'd like my digits for added accountability.  It's an honor to be quit with you today sir. 

~HAG

@AaronLGreen (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16449) First Thank you for your service -- it means a lot to me.

Second Congrats on making the BEST decision of your life -- this site and members made all of the difference to me being an addict that was a slave to my addiction to now being an addict in control of my addiction.  Posting roll EDD (every damn day) is the price of admission here -- keep that daily promise and post and you will learn to control the Nic Bitch and get your life back.

I love Key and Peele and had my fingers crossed when I saw your name that you were referring to that -- NICE!!
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 02, 2020, 01:27:20 PM
Hello all,

So this is not my first time quitting, far from it to be honest. The thing about this time is that it will be my LAST quit and the one I truly follow through with. I've followed this website for awhile, but since I wasn't as serious about quitting as I needed to be, I refrained from posting or officially joining the site. 18 months ago my youngest daughter was born and I told my wife that I would quit. I didn't want this stuff to be around her or them to think that tobacco was okay. It's now been 18 months later and I'm just now starting my quit. I just returned from a two year tour overseas in Germany away from the family and I was trying to refrain from adding more stress to me coming home and us moving to Kentucky, but the wife and I talked and I decided now is the only time. If I don't choose to quit now, I probably never would.

I have been in the Army for 7 years now and this stuff has been around me more times than I can count or even remember, so it's definitely not going to be easy for me, but I really feel like this group can really help me stay on track on those tougher days. To anyone in the April quit group, I am here, whenever you need someone to talk to, or you need a distraction away from this crap, and i hope i can expect the same from you. To everyone else here, my name is Aaron Green, and today I become a quitter. Hope to get to know you all a lot better over the course of these next 100 days and further beyond that.

A-aron

P.S. If anyone watches Key and Peele, yes I respond to being called A-Aron...It's my favorite nickname lmao
Welcome aboard A-aron! I was Navy. Smoking/chewing is darn near synonymous with service (as is drinking). Great decision and you're right about now being the time; tomorrow never comes. Got some links in my signature about nicotine addiction. Educate yourself. Knowledge is power, ignorance is terribly expensive.
Make you way on over to April 2020 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=16165.msg7680683#new) and post your promise to stay clean.
Blog the quit out here, it's very therapeutic. Also, rage in here and not at home on your family or your job. Love that you've involved your bride, it's important that she knows what you're up against. There's even some information  here  (https://www.killthecan.org/community/spousal-support/) for her.
There's already some folks in your group. Exchange digits and start building a web of accountability - it's your lifeline when you get tight.
Athan
IQWYT

Welcome @AaronLGreen (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16449).  Thank you for your service to this great country.  You've made a great decision.  This place will help you stay clean.  Follow the advice of the vets on this site such as Athan above.  They've been there and felt what you are feeling.  Let me know if you'd like my digits for added accountability.  It's an honor to be quit with you today sir. 

~HAG

@AaronLGreen (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16449) First Thank you for your service -- it means a lot to me.

Second Congrats on making the BEST decision of your life -- this site and members made all of the difference to me being an addict that was a slave to my addiction to now being an addict in control of my addiction.  Posting roll EDD (every damn day) is the price of admission here -- keep that daily promise and post and you will learn to control the Nic Bitch and get your life back.

I love Key and Peele and had my fingers crossed when I saw your name that you were referring to that -- NICE!!



Hey all! Figured I’d give a little update on my own post with how today has been going. Woke up this morning and I could already tell the cravings were coming lol. So far the wife has been supportive, although she keeps making jokes about the cravings and addict I am  lol. Yesterday was still a decision I can’t believe I finally made. I took the 3 cans I had left, and dumped them in the trash. And today, I have to say, I’m already feeling good about this. My little girl woke me up this morning and to just know that I’m making this not only for me, but her, makes it worth it. Sorry for the rambling lol. Makes me feel good to have somewhere to post my thoughts.


Also: to those of you that have replied so far, thank you for your kind words and encouragement! I am almost always available when someone needs me, so if you’d like my digits, PM me!
A-Aron
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: olcpo on January 02, 2020, 03:00:58 PM
Hello all,

So this is not my first time quitting, far from it to be honest. The thing about this time is that it will be my LAST quit and the one I truly follow through with. I've followed this website for awhile, but since I wasn't as serious about quitting as I needed to be, I refrained from posting or officially joining the site. 18 months ago my youngest daughter was born and I told my wife that I would quit. I didn't want this stuff to be around her or them to think that tobacco was okay. It's now been 18 months later and I'm just now starting my quit. I just returned from a two year tour overseas in Germany away from the family and I was trying to refrain from adding more stress to me coming home and us moving to Kentucky, but the wife and I talked and I decided now is the only time. If I don't choose to quit now, I probably never would.

I have been in the Army for 7 years now and this stuff has been around me more times than I can count or even remember, so it's definitely not going to be easy for me, but I really feel like this group can really help me stay on track on those tougher days. To anyone in the April quit group, I am here, whenever you need someone to talk to, or you need a distraction away from this crap, and i hope i can expect the same from you. To everyone else here, my name is Aaron Green, and today I become a quitter. Hope to get to know you all a lot better over the course of these next 100 days and further beyond that.

A-aron

P.S. If anyone watches Key and Peele, yes I respond to being called A-Aron...It's my favorite nickname lmao
Welcome aboard A-aron! I was Navy. Smoking/chewing is darn near synonymous with service (as is drinking). Great decision and you're right about now being the time; tomorrow never comes. Got some links in my signature about nicotine addiction. Educate yourself. Knowledge is power, ignorance is terribly expensive.
Make you way on over to April 2020 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=16165.msg7680683#new) and post your promise to stay clean.
Blog the quit out here, it's very therapeutic. Also, rage in here and not at home on your family or your job. Love that you've involved your bride, it's important that she knows what you're up against. There's even some information  here  (https://www.killthecan.org/community/spousal-support/) for her.
There's already some folks in your group. Exchange digits and start building a web of accountability - it's your lifeline when you get tight.
Athan
IQWYT

Welcome @AaronLGreen (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16449).  Thank you for your service to this great country.  You've made a great decision.  This place will help you stay clean.  Follow the advice of the vets on this site such as Athan above.  They've been there and felt what you are feeling.  Let me know if you'd like my digits for added accountability.  It's an honor to be quit with you today sir. 

~HAG

@AaronLGreen (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16449) First Thank you for your service -- it means a lot to me.

Second Congrats on making the BEST decision of your life -- this site and members made all of the difference to me being an addict that was a slave to my addiction to now being an addict in control of my addiction.  Posting roll EDD (every damn day) is the price of admission here -- keep that daily promise and post and you will learn to control the Nic Bitch and get your life back.

I love Key and Peele and had my fingers crossed when I saw your name that you were referring to that -- NICE!!



Hey all! Figured I’d give a little update on my own post with how today has been going. Woke up this morning and I could already tell the cravings were coming lol. So far the wife has been supportive, although she keeps making jokes about the cravings and addict I am  lol. Yesterday was still a decision I can’t believe I finally made. I took the 3 cans I had left, and dumped them in the trash. And today, I have to say, I’m already feeling good about this. My little girl woke me up this morning and to just know that I’m making this not only for me, but her, makes it worth it. Sorry for the rambling lol. Makes me feel good to have somewhere to post my thoughts.


Also: to those of you that have replied so far, thank you for your kind words and encouragement! I am almost always available when someone needs me, so if you’d like my digits, PM me!
A-Aron

Ramble on A-Aron! Lord knows I do and it does help. Welcome aboard. I think its great you woke up feeling different. Not necessarily good, but different. Feeling different is the beginning of the end. Pay attention to the changes, good and bad. For me it shows how deep the addiction went/goes. When the fog clears and the craves are less, you will notice and that is progress. When it is at its worst, know that it will get better. Be kind to yourself, breathe, back off, allow space. Change things up, stay busy. Exercise helped when the fog and squirrely stuff was strong. Physically tired helped get reasonable sleep. Know that it is a ride and an adventure. Enjoy, grit and enjoy. PM for digits if you want or if I can help. A hundred years ago I was 13E and 13F, I appreciate what you are doing.
PTQWYT  Olcpo
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 03, 2020, 08:14:35 PM
Hello all,

So this is not my first time quitting, far from it to be honest. The thing about this time is that it will be my LAST quit and the one I truly follow through with. I've followed this website for awhile, but since I wasn't as serious about quitting as I needed to be, I refrained from posting or officially joining the site. 18 months ago my youngest daughter was born and I told my wife that I would quit. I didn't want this stuff to be around her or them to think that tobacco was okay. It's now been 18 months later and I'm just now starting my quit. I just returned from a two year tour overseas in Germany away from the family and I was trying to refrain from adding more stress to me coming home and us moving to Kentucky, but the wife and I talked and I decided now is the only time. If I don't choose to quit now, I probably never would.

I have been in the Army for 7 years now and this stuff has been around me more times than I can count or even remember, so it's definitely not going to be easy for me, but I really feel like this group can really help me stay on track on those tougher days. To anyone in the April quit group, I am here, whenever you need someone to talk to, or you need a distraction away from this crap, and i hope i can expect the same from you. To everyone else here, my name is Aaron Green, and today I become a quitter. Hope to get to know you all a lot better over the course of these next 100 days and further beyond that.

A-aron

P.S. If anyone watches Key and Peele, yes I respond to being called A-Aron...It's my favorite nickname lmao
Quote
So, the rambling continues because this fees therapeutic in some sort of weird way. Today is practically the end of day 2, and it’s really brought some things to light in my life. I NEVER realized just how much I dipped or what part of the day I dipped most until today. Today i noticed everything, when the cravings hit, around what times they were stronger, and so on and so forth. It’s disgusting just how quickly after a meal right now that I want to put one in. But the good news is, I’m still going strong. I kept my promise of quitting today, and I’m going to WUPP EDD until the day I take my last breathe. Posting roll here has already done something for me, looking at the quit group and seeing the encouragement and words of wisdom from the vets helps me out a lot. Hell, Reading Skol’s HOF speech is a big motivation for me right now, and I’ve read it at least 3 times already lol.

I truly am an addict, but from now on, I’m a quitter. It’s been wonderful to reach other to my brothers and sisters and exchange digits with the few I have already. Bring able to have people to ask questions to and get answers is just amazing. 2 years ago i tried to do this thinking I could do it alone, but boy was I a foolish 23 year old.

Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Bug Guy on January 04, 2020, 02:47:10 AM
Was 31A so I know what you mean about a plethora of chew amongst the ranks. But the good thing is, you chose to come here and say FUCK YOU nic bitch! There is no better time than now. So stick with it, grab up as many digits along the way to keep your ass ACCOUNTABLE, and keep pushing through. It's definitely worth it! But shit, you need to hit up @AWright2262 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1860) , he's Army too and also a Kentucky hillbilly lol. PTBQWTB
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: AWright2262 on January 04, 2020, 10:15:40 AM
Was 31A so I know what you mean about a plethora of chew amongst the ranks. But the good thing is, you chose to come here and say FUCK YOU nic bitch! There is no better time than now. So stick with it, grab up as many digits along the way to keep your ass ACCOUNTABLE, and keep pushing through. It's definitely worth it! But shit, you need to hit up @AWright2262 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1860) , he's Army too and also a Kentucky hillbilly lol. PTBQWTB

Yes I am a Kentucky hillbilly and in the Army LOL. He told you the truth. It’s one day at a time brother we’re all in this together and accountability is key. Leaning on people to better your quit is a good thing to this day I still need someone to talk to and I’m at day 346!!!
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 05, 2020, 01:44:02 PM
Was 31A so I know what you mean about a plethora of chew amongst the ranks. But the good thing is, you chose to come here and say FUCK YOU nic bitch! There is no better time than now. So stick with it, grab up as many digits along the way to keep your ass ACCOUNTABLE, and keep pushing through. It's definitely worth it! But shit, you need to hit up @AWright2262 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1860) , he's Army too and also a Kentucky hillbilly lol. PTBQWTB

@Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866) and @AWright2262 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1860)
Thank you guys for the support and some words of wisdom lol. First off, I gotta talk some shit to Bug....really, OSU fan? Gotta pick a better team than that lmao(I’m a Husker Fan, go Easy on me) lol. But seriously, means a lot to have words of encouragement daily from you guys!
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 05, 2020, 01:47:22 PM
Hello all,

So this is not my first time quitting, far from it to be honest. The thing about this time is that it will be my LAST quit and the one I truly follow through with. I've followed this website for awhile, but since I wasn't as serious about quitting as I needed to be, I refrained from posting or officially joining the site. 18 months ago my youngest daughter was born and I told my wife that I would quit. I didn't want this stuff to be around her or them to think that tobacco was okay. It's now been 18 months later and I'm just now starting my quit. I just returned from a two year tour overseas in Germany away from the family and I was trying to refrain from adding more stress to me coming home and us moving to Kentucky, but the wife and I talked and I decided now is the only time. If I don't choose to quit now, I probably never would.

I have been in the Army for 7 years now and this stuff has been around me more times than I can count or even remember, so it's definitely not going to be easy for me, but I really feel like this group can really help me stay on track on those tougher days. To anyone in the April quit group, I am here, whenever you need someone to talk to, or you need a distraction away from this crap, and i hope i can expect the same from you. To everyone else here, my name is Aaron Green, and today I become a quitter. Hope to get to know you all a lot better over the course of these next 100 days and further beyond that.

A-aron

P.S. If anyone watches Key and Peele, yes I respond to being called A-Aron...It's my favorite nickname lmao
Quote
So, the rambling continues because this fees therapeutic in some sort of weird way. Today is practically the end of day 2, and it’s really brought some things to light in my life. I NEVER realized just how much I dipped or what part of the day I dipped most until today. Today i noticed everything, when the cravings hit, around what times they were stronger, and so on and so forth. It’s disgusting just how quickly after a meal right now that I want to put one in. But the good news is, I’m still going strong. I kept my promise of quitting today, and I’m going to WUPP EDD until the day I take my last breathe. Posting roll here has already done something for me, looking at the quit group and seeing the encouragement and words of wisdom from the vets helps me out a lot. Hell, Reading Skol’s HOF speech is a big motivation for me right now, and I’ve read it at least 3 times already lol.

I truly am an addict, but from now on, I’m a quitter. It’s been wonderful to reach other to my brothers and sisters and exchange digits with the few I have already. Bring able to have people to ask questions to and get answers is just amazing. 2 years ago i tried to do this thinking I could do it alone, but boy was I a foolish 23 year old.

Alright, so today marks Day 4 of my quit. It’s official that the Nic Bitch is officially out of my system. I can’t quite say how I feel, because I can’t put it into words yet. Still pretty foggy over these last 2 days, but it’s starting to clear for me finally. Today my dad and stepmom came through on their way back to Illinois. Got to see the grand babies and myself(since i just got back from Germany). Dad was pretty proud to find out I’m on day 4 of no tobacco and that shit wasn’t in my mouth. That mans words alone mean more to me than most people can imagine. Well, glad to be onto better days, now if my stomach could just cooperate with me, that’d be great.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Bug Guy on January 05, 2020, 02:06:13 PM
Was 31A so I know what you mean about a plethora of chew amongst the ranks. But the good thing is, you chose to come here and say FUCK YOU nic bitch! There is no better time than now. So stick with it, grab up as many digits along the way to keep your ass ACCOUNTABLE, and keep pushing through. It's definitely worth it! But shit, you need to hit up @AWright2262 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1860) , he's Army too and also a Kentucky hillbilly lol. PTBQWTB

@Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866) and @AWright2262 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1860)
Thank you guys for the support and some words of wisdom lol. First off, I gotta talk some shit to Bug....really, OSU fan? Gotta pick a better team than that lmao(I’m a Husker Fan, go Easy on me) lol. But seriously, means a lot to have words of encouragement daily from you guys!
Oh ffs! Shit on the buckeye fan cuz we got jobbed by the sec officials. Shit i didn't even know Nebraska still had a football team. I thought for sure they pulled the sport from their athletic department lol. Anyways, there's always basketball.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 05, 2020, 07:09:29 PM
Was 31A so I know what you mean about a plethora of chew amongst the ranks. But the good thing is, you chose to come here and say FUCK YOU nic bitch! There is no better time than now. So stick with it, grab up as many digits along the way to keep your ass ACCOUNTABLE, and keep pushing through. It's definitely worth it! But shit, you need to hit up @AWright2262 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1860) , he's Army too and also a Kentucky hillbilly lol. PTBQWTB

@Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866) and @AWright2262 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1860)
Thank you guys for the support and some words of wisdom lol. First off, I gotta talk some shit to Bug....really, OSU fan? Gotta pick a better team than that lmao(I’m a Husker Fan, go Easy on me) lol. But seriously, means a lot to have words of encouragement daily from you guys!
Oh ffs! Shit on the buckeye fan cuz we got jobbed by the sec officials. Shit i didn't even know Nebraska still had a football team. I thought for sure they pulled the sport from their athletic department lol. Anyways, there's always basketball.

Hey, I’m just glad you went easy on me @Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866) lmao. We’ve had a rough couple of years, but we’ve finally got a head coach worth a damn, just need a little more talent on the field. Good to see another B1G fan on here, we’re few and sparse sometimes lol. Hey, at least we got volleyball for Nebraska lol
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 06, 2020, 10:33:51 PM
So, at the end of Day 5 almost into Day 6. This hasn’t been nearly as bad as last time, but I think part of it is because I’m more motivated and I feel like some people depend on quitting daily with me, that I’m afraid to let anyone or myself down. I’m proud to have my daily quits. I know this sounds bad, but I wish I experienced things the way others are so I can help them through the tough moments. I’ve had a few bad cravings here and there, a few moments of fog, but all in all, it hasn’t been too bad. I’ve noticed I’m eating a LOT more than before, makes me question just how much food I skipped to dip instead. Sleeping is the rough part for me though, and I LOVE my sleep. The first few nights weren’t so bad, but I’ve had trouble these last two nights sleeping, so I’ve definitely gotta find someway to help remedy that. Anyway, that’s all for today’s update.

A-Aron
WUPP EDD
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Keith0617 on January 06, 2020, 11:34:42 PM
So, at the end of Day 5 almost into Day 6. This hasn’t been nearly as bad as last time, but I think part of it is because I’m more motivated and I feel like some people depend on quitting daily with me, that I’m afraid to let anyone or myself down. I’m proud to have my daily quits. I know this sounds bad, but I wish I experienced things the way others are so I can help them through the tough moments. I’ve had a few bad cravings here and there, a few moments of fog, but all in all, it hasn’t been too bad. I’ve noticed I’m eating a LOT more than before, makes me question just how much food I skipped to dip instead. Sleeping is the rough part for me though, and I LOVE my sleep. The first few nights weren’t so bad, but I’ve had trouble these last two nights sleeping, so I’ve definitely gotta find someway to help remedy that. Anyway, that’s all for today’s update.

A-Aron
WUPP EDD
@A-Aron (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16449) you got this. Pm me digits if you want support. WYPP EDD and let the days add up. You can do this and we are here to help.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Skolvikings on January 07, 2020, 12:07:35 PM
Was 31A so I know what you mean about a plethora of chew amongst the ranks. But the good thing is, you chose to come here and say FUCK YOU nic bitch! There is no better time than now. So stick with it, grab up as many digits along the way to keep your ass ACCOUNTABLE, and keep pushing through. It's definitely worth it! But shit, you need to hit up @AWright2262 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1860) , he's Army too and also a Kentucky hillbilly lol. PTBQWTB

@Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866) and @AWright2262 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1860)
Thank you guys for the support and some words of wisdom lol. First off, I gotta talk some shit to Bug....really, OSU fan? Gotta pick a better team than that lmao(I’m a Husker Fan, go Easy on me) lol. But seriously, means a lot to have words of encouragement daily from you guys!
Oh ffs! Shit on the buckeye fan cuz we got jobbed by the sec officials. Shit i didn't even know Nebraska still had a football team. I thought for sure they pulled the sport from their athletic department lol. Anyways, there's always basketball.

Hey, I’m just glad you went easy on me @Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866) lmao. We’ve had a rough couple of years, but we’ve finally got a head coach worth a damn, just need a little more talent on the field. Good to see another B1G fan on here, we’re few and sparse sometimes lol. Hey, at least we got volleyball for Nebraska lol

GO BIG RED!!!!!
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 07, 2020, 04:35:03 PM
Was 31A so I know what you mean about a plethora of chew amongst the ranks. But the good thing is, you chose to come here and say FUCK YOU nic bitch! There is no better time than now. So stick with it, grab up as many digits along the way to keep your ass ACCOUNTABLE, and keep pushing through. It's definitely worth it! But shit, you need to hit up @AWright2262 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1860) , he's Army too and also a Kentucky hillbilly lol. PTBQWTB

@Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866) and @AWright2262 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1860)
Thank you guys for the support and some words of wisdom lol. First off, I gotta talk some shit to Bug....really, OSU fan? Gotta pick a better team than that lmao(I’m a Husker Fan, go Easy on me) lol. But seriously, means a lot to have words of encouragement daily from you guys!
Oh ffs! Shit on the buckeye fan cuz we got jobbed by the sec officials. Shit i didn't even know Nebraska still had a football team. I thought for sure they pulled the sport from their athletic department lol. Anyways, there's always basketball.

Hey, I’m just glad you went easy on me @Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866) lmao. We’ve had a rough couple of years, but we’ve finally got a head coach worth a damn, just need a little more talent on the field. Good to see another B1G fan on here, we’re few and sparse sometimes lol. Hey, at least we got volleyball for Nebraska lol

GO BIG RED!!!!!

@Skolvikings (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=70) please tell me your a Nebraska fan too. I assume it’s yes with the GBR, but I gotta be sure
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Skolvikings on January 07, 2020, 05:29:28 PM
Was 31A so I know what you mean about a plethora of chew amongst the ranks. But the good thing is, you chose to come here and say FUCK YOU nic bitch! There is no better time than now. So stick with it, grab up as many digits along the way to keep your ass ACCOUNTABLE, and keep pushing through. It's definitely worth it! But shit, you need to hit up @AWright2262 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1860) , he's Army too and also a Kentucky hillbilly lol. PTBQWTB

@Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866) and @AWright2262 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1860)
Thank you guys for the support and some words of wisdom lol. First off, I gotta talk some shit to Bug....really, OSU fan? Gotta pick a better team than that lmao(I’m a Husker Fan, go Easy on me) lol. But seriously, means a lot to have words of encouragement daily from you guys!
Oh ffs! Shit on the buckeye fan cuz we got jobbed by the sec officials. Shit i didn't even know Nebraska still had a football team. I thought for sure they pulled the sport from their athletic department lol. Anyways, there's always basketball.

Hey, I’m just glad you went easy on me @Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866) lmao. We’ve had a rough couple of years, but we’ve finally got a head coach worth a damn, just need a little more talent on the field. Good to see another B1G fan on here, we’re few and sparse sometimes lol. Hey, at least we got volleyball for Nebraska lol

GO BIG RED!!!!!

@Skolvikings (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=70) please tell me your a Nebraska fan too. I assume it’s yes with the GBR, but I gotta be sure

@A-Aron (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16449) Read my interests below my name homie.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 08, 2020, 12:11:06 AM
Alright! Update time! I’m an hour shy of day 7, one week. I can’t believe it’s already been that long, but it feels like nothing to me honestly. The cravings have gone down like crazy, don’t have mood swings *too* often, but the sleeping and the oral fixations suck. I finally broke down today and bought a can of the fake stuff, not bad, long as it keeps me away from the bad shit. Sunflower seeds have definitely been helping me, just hate the leather jaw from them. Hopefully soon I’ll get back to sleeping like a bear in hibernation, this waking up every 1-2 hours fucking sucks. I’ve made some really good friends so far on here that I’m able to message and get help from. @Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866) @Skolvikings (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=70) @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) @jack_smiff1 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=12074) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) are just some of the people I’ve exchanged digits with so far. You guys have made this easier, appreciate the check-ins guys. That’s all I got for todays update, see y’all soon.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Athan on January 08, 2020, 03:05:37 AM
Alright! Update time! I’m an hour shy of day 7, one week. I can’t believe it’s already been that long, but it feels like nothing to me honestly. The cravings have gone down like crazy, don’t have mood swings *too* often, but the sleeping and the oral fixations suck. I finally broke down today and bought a can of the fake stuff, not bad, long as it keeps me away from the bad shit. Sunflower seeds have definitely been helping me, just hate the leather jaw from them. Hopefully soon I’ll get back to sleeping like a bear in hibernation, this waking up every 1-2 hours fucking sucks. I’ve made some really good friends so far on here that I’m able to message and get help from. @Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866) @Skolvikings (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=70) @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) @jack_smiff1 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=12074) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) are just some of the people I’ve exchanged digits with so far. You guys have made this easier, appreciate the check-ins guys. That’s all I got for todays update, see y’all soon.
Check it out folks - that's what winning looks like. Brother has digits, he's got a plan, he's got heart and he's committed. Hooah
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: jack_smiff1 on January 08, 2020, 10:55:06 AM
Alright! Update time! I’m an hour shy of day 7, one week. I can’t believe it’s already been that long, but it feels like nothing to me honestly. The cravings have gone down like crazy, don’t have mood swings *too* often, but the sleeping and the oral fixations suck. I finally broke down today and bought a can of the fake stuff, not bad, long as it keeps me away from the bad shit. Sunflower seeds have definitely been helping me, just hate the leather jaw from them. Hopefully soon I’ll get back to sleeping like a bear in hibernation, this waking up every 1-2 hours fucking sucks. I’ve made some really good friends so far on here that I’m able to message and get help from. @Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866) @Skolvikings (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=70) @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) @jack_smiff1 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=12074) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) are just some of the people I’ve exchanged digits with so far. You guys have made this easier, appreciate the check-ins guys. That’s all I got for todays update, see y’all soon.

LETS GO!!
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 08, 2020, 09:14:03 PM
So, I’m updating a little earlier than normal. Today is officially a week strong with the nic dick in my system. And I couldn’t be happier honestly. My body feels a hell of a lot better, and my sleep is finally starting to get back to normal(less wakeups). Talked to my Dad today, sent him this thread as a URL so he could at least read my thoughts/trials and tribulations I go through on this wicked awesome journey of quitting. I also sent it to my best friend, because he’s been curious, but he won’t accept the the link. He said if he’s going to read this and help me stay quit, then he wants to quit as well. I told him, as long as it’s his decision to quit, I’ll support him all the way. Hopefully he’ll be getting registered tomorrow or Friday. I can’t force this upon him, but I know it’s helping me, and I’ll be right there helping him too. It feels good to have a positive influence in life and be able to help give my friends one too! That’s all for today folks, WUPP EDD!!
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: pab1964 on January 08, 2020, 10:44:37 PM
Hey Aron. Keep on telling everyone you know that dips. I always said if I can convince 1 out of a 1,000 it was worth my time. KTC is the only reason I’m still quit alone with some great vets here. I remember being right where you are now. I was so damn foggy couldn’t remember how many days I had been quit. Hell half time I thought I had posted roll until one of my friends would be like hey you gonna post? Anyway this is your quit. You control your own destiny. Own your quit and remember it’s a helluva lot easier with help. So don’t try chewing your arm off when craving make sure you have plenty of contacts, I can promise you someday maybe not tomorrow or even next month but someday you gonna need help. Shoot me a pm I’ll be glad to help that’s how I made 1838 day’s!
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 09, 2020, 12:16:50 AM
It’s night like this when I can’t sleep that I come to the threads. Spent the last 15-20 mins scrolling through @olcpo (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16159) thread. Man you honestly should write a book, tour wording and sentence structure just had me wanting to read more, was pretty relaxing! I love reading my fellow quitters posts and threads, makes me feel not so alone in this fight. My wife doesn’t understand anything of what I’m going through, she’s never had any bad habits(except shopping at target) lol. So it’s been a bit tough for me, she’s supportive by all means, but, she doesn’t understand, and I can’t talk things through with her. I started pondering today and got lost in my own thoughts, and I had what I guess some would call my first dip dream. I dozed off on the couch for a bit, but I dreamt i was playing Xbox like normal with a fat lip in, and my first reaction was anger and anxiety. I was angry that I caved, and anxious because I’d have to message Steve and Bryce to tell them I fucked up. But thankfully, once I woke up, I realized it was but a dream. I start work tomorrow, and I’m anxious as hell. I haven’t been to work in 29 days(took leave), so this will be the first time around other nicotine users since I quit. Wish me luck all. I’m proud to be apart of KTC, and I’m proud to quit with you all today. Thanks guys!
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: olcpo on January 09, 2020, 09:03:32 AM
Hey @A-Aron (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16449)  - Thank you for the kind words. Keep blogging it out on here it really helps me to get it down somewhere. Almost like I have permission to let go of it once written. I'm glad my rambles were of some use.

I remember times in the field when chew was my perceived "only friend", the only "pleasure" allowed. I am thinking of you as you crawl back into uniform as a quitter. You can do this. I would think you will have to make it different. I remember when I quit smoking in the Navy, I had to be in a different place, mentally and physically. A smoke break was my reward, nobody messed with me when lit. Without that I had to find a different routine to make up for the missing cigarette, walks, something new with work, I took on a different more intense job. Mixed it up. It had to be different. It worked. Didn't start chewing til I got out of the nav...another story.

Hang in there. You got this. You have dug deep before or you wouldn't still be in uniform. Keep talking to your wife even though she hasn't walked in your shoes. You need to verbalize, write talk shout whatever. Look to the next level at work or physically fit, challenge yourself. I am Proud to quit with you, Brother. One Second at a Time.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 10, 2020, 12:59:06 AM
Hey @A-Aron (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16449)  - Thank you for the kind words. Keep blogging it out on here it really helps me to get it down somewhere. Almost like I have permission to let go of it once written. I'm glad my rambles were of some use.

I remember times in the field when chew was my perceived "only friend", the only "pleasure" allowed. I am thinking of you as you crawl back into uniform as a quitter. You can do this. I would think you will have to make it different. I remember when I quit smoking in the Navy, I had to be in a different place, mentally and physically. A smoke break was my reward, nobody messed with me when lit. Without that I had to find a different routine to make up for the missing cigarette, walks, something new with work, I took on a different more intense job. Mixed it up. It had to be different. It worked. Didn't start chewing til I got out of the nav...another story.

Hang in there. You got this. You have dug deep before or you wouldn't still be in uniform. Keep talking to your wife even though she hasn't walked in your shoes. You need to verbalize, write talk shout whatever. Look to the next level at work or physically fit, challenge yourself. I am Proud to quit with you, Brother. One Second at a Time.
@olcpo (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16159) you’re definitely right about needing to do things different getting back into the uniform. It’s a different feeling wearing that than anything else. You see a group go to the smoke pit for a break, you join them, whether you’re smoked or dipped. Now I don’t have my break I used to give myself, and I’ll have to find other ways to bide my time when I’m frustrated. Honestly, I think that’s what makes this fun to quit, and I hate to put it into those words, but yeah. It’s a challenge in life for me to overcome, just like the millions of others that have come before. This time, it’s doing it without the nic bitch guiding me, for the first time, I’m guiding myself. I think this new transition with where I’m working/what I’ll be doing will be just the kick I need to keep myself busy as well. Thanks for the kind words, proud to stay quit with you today as well.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 10, 2020, 02:48:34 AM
Well,
Little bad side of updates. Currently in the ER. Don’t think it’s anything *too* major, been having stomach pains all afternoon mixed with bathroom trips and nausea. Will update more with what they say, but this shit sucks! Still, reached day 9 today, and I’m still going strong!
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Athan on January 10, 2020, 05:05:54 AM
Well,
Little bad side of updates. Currently in the ER. Don’t think it’s anything *too* major, been having stomach pains all afternoon mixed with bathroom trips and nausea. Will update more with what they say, but this shit sucks! Still, reached day 9 today, and I’m still going strong!
I hope it's just compacted bowels and everything comes out OK
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 10, 2020, 05:07:59 AM
Well,
Little bad side of updates. Currently in the ER. Don’t think it’s anything *too* major, been having stomach pains all afternoon mixed with bathroom trips and nausea. Will update more with what they say, but this shit sucks! Still, reached day 9 today, and I’m still going strong!
I hope it's just compacted bowels and everything comes out OK

The main problem is that everything is coming out too much lmao. They said I got a stomach bug, have some meds and fluids. All should be well within a day or two hopefully!
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Keith0617 on January 10, 2020, 08:52:05 AM
Well,
Little bad side of updates. Currently in the ER. Don’t think it’s anything *too* major, been having stomach pains all afternoon mixed with bathroom trips and nausea. Will update more with what they say, but this shit sucks! Still, reached day 9 today, and I’m still going strong!
I hope it's just compacted bowels and everything comes out OK

The main problem is that everything is coming out too much lmao. They said I got a stomach bug, have some meds and fluids. All should be well within a day or two hopefully!
Guess we can’t say you are full of shit!! :D
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 10, 2020, 09:43:52 AM
Well,
Little bad side of updates. Currently in the ER. Don’t think it’s anything *too* major, been having stomach pains all afternoon mixed with bathroom trips and nausea. Will update more with what they say, but this shit sucks! Still, reached day 9 today, and I’m still going strong!
I hope it's just compacted bowels and everything comes out OK

The main problem is that everything is coming out too much lmao. They said I got a stomach bug, have some meds and fluids. All should be well within a day or two hopefully!
Guess we can’t say you are full of shit!! :D
LMAO that’s a GREAT way to look at it :D
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Bug Guy on January 10, 2020, 02:04:36 PM
Jeez brotha, i hope you're feeling better. Get some rest and take care of yourself.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 10, 2020, 10:24:47 PM
Day 9...Such a wonderful feeling. Tomorrow if officially DOUBLE DIGITS!!! 10 Days, 10 days without dipping is something I thought was so far away for me. The more I read the vets of this page and their trials/tribulations, it makes me feel like anything is possible. I can't really say that this quit has been hard/bad for me. I've had a few rough days/patches, but the cravings haven't been near as bad this time as they were last time. I no longer think of dip first thing in the morning. The funny part is, 10 days in, I actually come to the forum first....waiting to see roll posted by everyone, and also to see that notification on my phone telling me I have a personal message. It's the little things that add up for me that I love so much, so thank you, everyone, for being here on this forum, and everyone in the April '20 group, thank you for helping keep me accountable so far.


Thanks for coming to my TED Talk,
Aaron
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 11, 2020, 07:45:35 PM
Well today is day 10, DOUBLE DIGITS BABY! In these 10 days I’ve learned a lot about myself and this thing we call the nic bitch. I Never realized just how much of a grasp the nic bitch had on me, but I absolutely am glad I’m free now. There’s so many times in these last 10 days that I’ve thought, fuck the quit, you can just stop at that gas station there, but I didn’t. I beat my own mindset of thinking like that. I’ve realized what times in life i dipped the most, because that’s when my cravings are the worst, for instance driving and doing schoolwork at night, cravings are the worst. But, I just throw some seeds in and call it a day. I’m proud of where I’ve gotten to in these 10 days and the friends and Brothers I’ve made so far with the April group. I’m hoping to become sort of a leader for the April group, help keep pushing everyone to better themselves, and make sure they’re staying committed to themselves and their quit. Idk, maybe it’s just a fantasy I have, who knows lol. Anyway, that’s it for the update for today, till next time.

Aaron
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 14, 2020, 12:07:37 PM
Alright day 13! It’s been a hell of a road so far, right now everyday seems to get easier and easier for me to keep my promise of NNT. The cravings are pretty minimal for me, the dog has cleared for a bit, thankful for however long that lasts, and my body feels like it’s back to regular again. Sleeping is getting much better, haven’t been waking up as much throughout the night these last few nights. Two weeks tomorrow, can’t believe I’ve made it this far already!
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: MN_Engineer on January 14, 2020, 12:13:52 PM
Alright day 13! It’s been a hell of a road so far, right now everyday seems to get easier and easier for me to keep my promise of NNT. The cravings are pretty minimal for me, the dog has cleared for a bit, thankful for however long that lasts, and my body feels like it’s back to regular again. Sleeping is getting much better, haven’t been waking up as much throughout the night these last few nights. Two weeks tomorrow, can’t believe I’ve made it this far already!
Tremendous accomplishments! Congrats @A-Aron (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16449)!!

I always like to tell you newer quitters to enjoy the smooth patches but prepare and always be ready for a rough patch to hit. Fighting the nic bitch every damn day is like a roller coaster. There will be peaks and valleys of varying degrees throughout your journey, especially in the first 100 days. This is why we focus one day at a time and always nurture our accountability network. Cause no matter how easy or hard today is, we honor our word for 24 hours and then repeat.

Keep up the solid quit!
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 14, 2020, 01:25:13 PM
Alright day 13! It’s been a hell of a road so far, right now everyday seems to get easier and easier for me to keep my promise of NNT. The cravings are pretty minimal for me, the dog has cleared for a bit, thankful for however long that lasts, and my body feels like it’s back to regular again. Sleeping is getting much better, haven’t been waking up as much throughout the night these last few nights. Two weeks tomorrow, can’t believe I’ve made it this far already!
Tremendous accomplishments! Congrats @A-Aron (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16449)!!

I always like to tell you newer quitters to enjoy the smooth patches but prepare and always be ready for a rough patch to hit. Fighting the nic bitch every damn day is like a roller coaster. There will be peaks and valleys of varying degrees throughout your journey, especially in the first 100 days. This is why we focus one day at a time and always nurture our accountability network. Cause no matter how easy or hard today is, we honor our word for 24 hours and then repeat.

Keep up the solid quit!
Thanks @MNxEngineer314 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=21) It's definitely been a journey so far, and you're absolutely right, some days it is like a valley, many highs and lows. I'm always prepared for the low moments, but i'm going to enjoy these great moments so much because it's so nice to have a change of pace! I'm glad to have some vets like you behind all of us new quitters, it definitely helps me want to stay to my word and being quit!
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 14, 2020, 09:07:15 PM
Since I’ve joined KTC, everyone has told me that you can make it through all of life’s lessons without Nic. It seems like it’s my time to get tested on that. Tonight I just found out my Grandpa passed away due to his battle with cancer. Now let me be the first to say, i don’t feel like caving in the least little bit, but I say that after just finding out. Who knows how hard the Nic bitch is about to hit me, but I’m committed to my quit. I’m literally sitting here typing this with tears in my eyes still. This will be a testament of my will. I’m proud to be be quit with you all, and I may need to lean on you brothers.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: EXBEARHAG on January 14, 2020, 09:09:55 PM
Since I’ve joined KTC, everyone has told me that you can make it through all of life’s lessons without Nic. It seems like it’s my time to get tested on that. Tonight I just found out my Grandpa passed away due to his battle with cancer. Now let me be the first to say, i don’t feel like caving in the least little bit, but I say that after just finding out. Who knows how hard the Nic bitch is about to hit me, but I’m committed to my quit. I’m literally sitting here typing this with tears in my eyes still. This will be a testament of my will. I’m proud to be be quit with you all, and I may need to lean on you brothers.

Sorry to hear it brother.  Remember, nic never solved anything or made it easier.  Use your tools.  You got this.  We are all here to lean on.
PTBQWYT my friend
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 14, 2020, 09:22:49 PM
Since I’ve joined KTC, everyone has told me that you can make it through all of life’s lessons without Nic. It seems like it’s my time to get tested on that. Tonight I just found out my Grandpa passed away due to his battle with cancer. Now let me be the first to say, i don’t feel like caving in the least little bit, but I say that after just finding out. Who knows how hard the Nic bitch is about to hit me, but I’m committed to my quit. I’m literally sitting here typing this with tears in my eyes still. This will be a testament of my will. I’m proud to be be quit with you all, and I may need to lean on you brothers.

Sorry to hear it brother.  Remember, nic never solved anything or made it easier.  Use your tools.  You got this.  We are all here to lean on.
PTBQWYT my friend
Thank you. It’s pretty surreal right now, but I’m forever thankful right now to have my April brothers. I wouldn’t be okay right now if I didn’t.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: FoodBuzz on January 14, 2020, 09:48:12 PM
Since I’ve joined KTC, everyone has told me that you can make it through all of life’s lessons without Nic. It seems like it’s my time to get tested on that. Tonight I just found out my Grandpa passed away due to his battle with cancer. Now let me be the first to say, i don’t feel like caving in the least little bit, but I say that after just finding out. Who knows how hard the Nic bitch is about to hit me, but I’m committed to my quit. I’m literally sitting here typing this with tears in my eyes still. This will be a testament of my will. I’m proud to be be quit with you all, and I may need to lean on you brothers.

Sorry to hear it brother.  Remember, nic never solved anything or made it easier.  Use your tools.  You got this.  We are all here to lean on.
PTBQWYT my friend
Thank you. It’s pretty surreal right now, but I’m forever thankful right now to have my April brothers. I wouldn’t be okay right now if I didn’t.
One thing I’ve learned is that hardships will happen, and as a fix may feel good in the short term it has longer nastier effects. Not just physically but also mentally. It brings down our spirit to be that person we want to see in the mirror and that our friends and family need. I have gone through and continue to go through tough times with a daughter of mine. When it’s tough to see and feel I must remember I can only accept the things I can’t change.

Stay strong brother life will continue with hardship, face this and make it an example to to fight the ones to come and enjoy when life is sweet.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Keith0617 on January 15, 2020, 08:36:42 AM
Since I’ve joined KTC, everyone has told me that you can make it through all of life’s lessons without Nic. It seems like it’s my time to get tested on that. Tonight I just found out my Grandpa passed away due to his battle with cancer. Now let me be the first to say, i don’t feel like caving in the least little bit, but I say that after just finding out. Who knows how hard the Nic bitch is about to hit me, but I’m committed to my quit. I’m literally sitting here typing this with tears in my eyes still. This will be a testament of my will. I’m proud to be be quit with you all, and I may need to lean on you brothers.

Sorry to hear it brother.  Remember, nic never solved anything or made it easier.  Use your tools.  You got this.  We are all here to lean on.
PTBQWYT my friend
Thank you. It’s pretty surreal right now, but I’m forever thankful right now to have my April brothers. I wouldn’t be okay right now if I didn’t.
One thing I’ve learned is that hardships will happen, and as a fix may feel good in the short term it has longer nastier effects. Not just physically but also mentally. It brings down our spirit to be that person we want to see in the mirror and that our friends and family need. I have gone through and continue to go through tough times with a daughter of mine. When it’s tough to see and feel I must remember I can only accept the things I can’t change.

Stay strong brother life will continue with hardship, face this and make it an example to to fight the ones to come and enjoy when life is sweet.
Sorry for your loss. With that said, one problem + nicotine equals 2 problems. So the math works best to stay quit. Life will throw crap in your path, we are here to help you move it out of the way. Use your tools and keep focusing on ODAAT.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: olcpo on January 15, 2020, 09:28:07 AM
Since I’ve joined KTC, everyone has told me that you can make it through all of life’s lessons without Nic. It seems like it’s my time to get tested on that. Tonight I just found out my Grandpa passed away due to his battle with cancer. Now let me be the first to say, i don’t feel like caving in the least little bit, but I say that after just finding out. Who knows how hard the Nic bitch is about to hit me, but I’m committed to my quit. I’m literally sitting here typing this with tears in my eyes still. This will be a testament of my will. I’m proud to be be quit with you all, and I may need to lean on you brothers.

Sorry to hear it brother.  Remember, nic never solved anything or made it easier.  Use your tools.  You got this.  We are all here to lean on.
PTBQWYT my friend
Thank you. It’s pretty surreal right now, but I’m forever thankful right now to have my April brothers. I wouldn’t be okay right now if I didn’t.
One thing I’ve learned is that hardships will happen, and as a fix may feel good in the short term it has longer nastier effects. Not just physically but also mentally. It brings down our spirit to be that person we want to see in the mirror and that our friends and family need. I have gone through and continue to go through tough times with a daughter of mine. When it’s tough to see and feel I must remember I can only accept the things I can’t change.

Stay strong brother life will continue with hardship, face this and make it an example to to fight the ones to come and enjoy when life is sweet.
Sorry for your loss. With that said, one problem + nicotine equals 2 problems. So the math works best to stay quit. Life will throw crap in your path, we are here to help you move it out of the way. Use your tools and keep focusing on ODAAT.
Thinking of You, Brother. There is no emptier feeling. Like the Quit, It will never go away but it will get better. Proud to quit with you Today.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 15, 2020, 12:11:37 PM
So, I’ve done some self reflecting today. I’ve been thinking back on the words my dad passed along to me from my grandfather. I’ve been worried since yesterday about trying to make it back home to at least be with the family, but they said no. Grandpa was retired AirForce, so he knows the struggles of moving constantly and the financial struggles that come with the Military moving us. He would rather me spend time with my wife and kids since I was gone for 2 years and not stress, than try to figure out a way home and stress about money/driving 9 hours home. It’s amazing to me that even in his final battle with cancer, he’s still thinking more about me and my family than himself. Once I can get a copy of his obituary, I want to post it for everyone to see the man he was/will always be. RIP grandpa, I’ll always love you and cherish the asswhoopings lmao. I can’t say that this didn’t hit my resolve to stay quit today or yesterday, but I do feel more strengthened in my resolve to remain quit. I’ve gone 2 weeks without dip, without nicotine, and I feel great. I don’t think he would be happy to know his death caused a relapse for me, and for that, I’ve got to keep going. Thank you all for the kind words and thoughts so far, It truly means more than you know.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: MN_Engineer on January 15, 2020, 12:33:15 PM
So, I’ve done some self reflecting today. I’ve been thinking back on the words my dad passed along to me from my grandfather. I’ve been worried since yesterday about trying to make it back home to at least be with the family, but they said no. Grandpa was retired AirForce, so he knows the struggles of moving constantly and the financial struggles that come with the Military moving us. He would rather me spend time with my wife and kids since I was gone for 2 years and not stress, than try to figure out a way home and stress about money/driving 9 hours home. It’s amazing to me that even in his final battle with cancer, he’s still thinking more about me and my family than himself. Once I can get a copy of his obituary, I want to post it for everyone to see the man he was/will always be. RIP grandpa, I’ll always love you and cherish the asswhoopings lmao. I can’t say that this didn’t hit my resolve to stay quit today or yesterday, but I do feel more strengthened in my resolve to remain quit. I’ve gone 2 weeks without dip, without nicotine, and I feel great. I don’t think he would be happy to know his death caused a relapse for me, and for that, I’ve got to keep going. Thank you all for the kind words and thoughts so far, It truly means more than you know.
Your grandfather sounds like an incredible man. I'm sure he will be missed but there is no doubt he will continue to live on in your heart. Prayers for comfort in your time of loss and sadness. Proud to be quit with you today.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: chitownsnus on January 15, 2020, 03:47:59 PM
So, I’ve done some self reflecting today. I’ve been thinking back on the words my dad passed along to me from my grandfather. I’ve been worried since yesterday about trying to make it back home to at least be with the family, but they said no. Grandpa was retired AirForce, so he knows the struggles of moving constantly and the financial struggles that come with the Military moving us. He would rather me spend time with my wife and kids since I was gone for 2 years and not stress, than try to figure out a way home and stress about money/driving 9 hours home. It’s amazing to me that even in his final battle with cancer, he’s still thinking more about me and my family than himself. Once I can get a copy of his obituary, I want to post it for everyone to see the man he was/will always be. RIP grandpa, I’ll always love you and cherish the asswhoopings lmao. I can’t say that this didn’t hit my resolve to stay quit today or yesterday, but I do feel more strengthened in my resolve to remain quit. I’ve gone 2 weeks without dip, without nicotine, and I feel great. I don’t think he would be happy to know his death caused a relapse for me, and for that, I’ve got to keep going. Thank you all for the kind words and thoughts so far, It truly means more than you know.
Your grandfather sounds like an incredible man. I'm sure he will be missed but there is no doubt he will continue to live on in your heart. Prayers for comfort in your time of loss and sadness. Proud to be quit with you today.
Sorry for your loss. Thoughts and prayers coming your way. Proud to be quit with you today.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: chris2alaska on January 15, 2020, 08:30:04 PM
So, I’ve done some self reflecting today. I’ve been thinking back on the words my dad passed along to me from my grandfather. I’ve been worried since yesterday about trying to make it back home to at least be with the family, but they said no. Grandpa was retired AirForce, so he knows the struggles of moving constantly and the financial struggles that come with the Military moving us. He would rather me spend time with my wife and kids since I was gone for 2 years and not stress, than try to figure out a way home and stress about money/driving 9 hours home. It’s amazing to me that even in his final battle with cancer, he’s still thinking more about me and my family than himself. Once I can get a copy of his obituary, I want to post it for everyone to see the man he was/will always be. RIP grandpa, I’ll always love you and cherish the asswhoopings lmao. I can’t say that this didn’t hit my resolve to stay quit today or yesterday, but I do feel more strengthened in my resolve to remain quit. I’ve gone 2 weeks without dip, without nicotine, and I feel great. I don’t think he would be happy to know his death caused a relapse for me, and for that, I’ve got to keep going. Thank you all for the kind words and thoughts so far, It truly means more than you know.
Your grandfather sounds like an incredible man. I'm sure he will be missed but there is no doubt he will continue to live on in your heart. Prayers for comfort in your time of loss and sadness. Proud to be quit with you today.
Sorry for your loss. Thoughts and prayers coming your way. Proud to be quit with you today.
Your Grandpa can now look down on you with pride as you continue your journey to freedom from nicotine.  He sounds like an amazing man and a great Grandfather.  Prayers be with you and your family.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 15, 2020, 11:23:05 PM
So, I’ve done some self reflecting today. I’ve been thinking back on the words my dad passed along to me from my grandfather. I’ve been worried since yesterday about trying to make it back home to at least be with the family, but they said no. Grandpa was retired AirForce, so he knows the struggles of moving constantly and the financial struggles that come with the Military moving us. He would rather me spend time with my wife and kids since I was gone for 2 years and not stress, than try to figure out a way home and stress about money/driving 9 hours home. It’s amazing to me that even in his final battle with cancer, he’s still thinking more about me and my family than himself. Once I can get a copy of his obituary, I want to post it for everyone to see the man he was/will always be. RIP grandpa, I’ll always love you and cherish the asswhoopings lmao. I can’t say that this didn’t hit my resolve to stay quit today or yesterday, but I do feel more strengthened in my resolve to remain quit. I’ve gone 2 weeks without dip, without nicotine, and I feel great. I don’t think he would be happy to know his death caused a relapse for me, and for that, I’ve got to keep going. Thank you all for the kind words and thoughts so far, It truly means more than you know.
Your grandfather sounds like an incredible man. I'm sure he will be missed but there is no doubt he will continue to live on in your heart. Prayers for comfort in your time of loss and sadness. Proud to be quit with you today.
Sorry for your loss. Thoughts and prayers coming your way. Proud to be quit with you today.
Your Grandpa can now look down on you with pride as you continue your journey to freedom from nicotine.  He sounds like an amazing man and a great Grandfather.  Prayers be with you and your family.
Thank you for the kind words Chris. I definitely am proud to continue to carry on his legacy, and definitely am glad he'll be watching me.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 16, 2020, 05:39:50 AM
Taken from the official obituary for anyone to read:


 
Sumter, SC…Howard James “Jim” Austin, age 71, passed away on Tuesday, January 14, 2020, surrounded by family at his home, after a long battle with cancer.

Born March 14, 1948, in Omaha, NE, to the late Howard James Austin Sr. and Evelyn Cecilia Austin.  Raised and educated in Plattsmouth, NE, high school class of 1966.  In 1967 he enlisted in the Air Force to start a distinguished career in Law Enforcement.  Retiring November 1987 as a Security Police Master Sergeant.  Jim continued his career in Sumter, retiring November 2011 as a Lieutenant with the Sumter County Sheriff’s Office.

Jim is survived by his loving wife, Margaret "Maggie" Austin; two sons, Howard J. "Howie" Austin III and Douglas L. Austin and his wife Kathy, both of Sumter; two daughters, Erin C. Austin of Sumter and Shannon C. Vanderhoef and her husband Mike of Travis AFB, CA; two granddaughters, Andrea Austin and Ashtyn Austin of Pueblo, CO; one grandson, Michael Austin of Sumter and a very special son and daughter-in-law, Nathan and Sharon Williams of MD.

A memorial service will be held on Saturday, January 18, 2020 at 5:00 pm in the Bullock Funeral Home Chapel with Steve Shugart officiating.  Final honors will follow the service provided by the Shaw AFB Honor Guard and the Sumter County Sheriff’s Department Honor Guard.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Athan on January 16, 2020, 05:48:45 AM
Ain't got the words A-Aron.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: chris2alaska on January 16, 2020, 11:11:46 AM
Rest In Peace Master Sargent.

You will be missed
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Skolvikings on January 16, 2020, 11:35:55 AM
RIP Mr. Austin and thank you for your service.

God bless, your work is done.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Keith0617 on January 16, 2020, 12:10:30 PM
RIP Mr. Austin

Thank you for all the years of service.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Bug Guy on January 16, 2020, 03:07:37 PM
God bless you Mr. Austin, the world was a better place with you in it. Be free now and fly high with the angels of heaven.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 19, 2020, 03:33:43 AM
Day 18 has officially begun. This journey has proven to be one tough son of a bitch. I’ve had some good days, and I’ve had some bad days. So hard to keep my anger under control some days, still learning to harness the random rage. Wife is finally starting to truly support my quit and proud of how invested in this page I am. These last few days have been tough though, been sick since Thursday. Me and the oldest child got sick together, been kicking our asses too. Well, that’s all I really have for today.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 22, 2020, 10:21:29 PM
Hey all,
Time for another life update and quit update! Well, today marks 21 days quit...feels like a lifetime ago since I started this journey on day 1. I’m by no means saying this is stupid easy or I’m good to go, but it’s getting easier. Everyday feels like a breath of fresh air and it’s wonderful to feel the way I do. I just wish I could finish getting over this stupid flu. Work has finally kicked up for me a bit so I’m keeping myself busy, so that helps.


Now, I never like getting personal, but because I’m quit, I need my thoughts laid out so I can focus. My wife and I found out that she’s pregnant a few days ago, and I want to be happy, but I’m scared. This will be baby #4, our last, but because of what happened to the last pregnancy, I’m worried. What happens if it happens again? I don’t know, but what I do now, I won’t have to turn to the can to make it through. I won’t have to scrape the bottom of that horrible green colored tin for that last pinch wondering when my next fix will be. I’m not sure how I’ll handle this, but If I can make it through my grandfathers passing, if this goes horrible again, I can make it through this. Now, by no means am I wishing or hoping the pregnancy goes bad again, I’m just worried, scared, and trying to prepare myself for the worst, but hope for the best. Anyway, that’s all for today. Thanks to everyone for the support so far, it’s been amazing being here. Proud to quit with you all today!
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: olcpo on January 23, 2020, 09:28:19 AM
Hey all,
Time for another life update and quit update! Well, today marks 21 days quit...feels like a lifetime ago since I started this journey on day 1. I’m by no means saying this is stupid easy or I’m good to go, but it’s getting easier. Everyday feels like a breath of fresh air and it’s wonderful to feel the way I do. I just wish I could finish getting over this stupid flu. Work has finally kicked up for me a bit so I’m keeping myself busy, so that helps.


Now, I never like getting personal, but because I’m quit, I need my thoughts laid out so I can focus. My wife and I found out that she’s pregnant a few days ago, and I want to be happy, but I’m scared. This will be baby #4, our last, but because of what happened to the last pregnancy, I’m worried. What happens if it happens again? I don’t know, but what I do now, I won’t have to turn to the can to make it through. I won’t have to scrape the bottom of that horrible green colored tin for that last pinch wondering when my next fix will be. I’m not sure how I’ll handle this, but If I can make it through my grandfathers passing, if this goes horrible again, I can make it through this. Now, by no means am I wishing or hoping the pregnancy goes bad again, I’m just worried, scared, and trying to prepare myself for the worst, but hope for the best. Anyway, that’s all for today. Thanks to everyone for the support so far, it’s been amazing being here. Proud to quit with you all today!
"ONE DAY AT A TIME" Make it the best day possible. Yesterday is no more. Tomorrow is not ours yet. All we have is this moment. Love her, support her and look for the good in all things. You've got this! Whatever happens, chew won't fix it.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Keith0617 on January 23, 2020, 10:14:11 AM
Hey all,
Time for another life update and quit update! Well, today marks 21 days quit...feels like a lifetime ago since I started this journey on day 1. I’m by no means saying this is stupid easy or I’m good to go, but it’s getting easier. Everyday feels like a breath of fresh air and it’s wonderful to feel the way I do. I just wish I could finish getting over this stupid flu. Work has finally kicked up for me a bit so I’m keeping myself busy, so that helps.


Now, I never like getting personal, but because I’m quit, I need my thoughts laid out so I can focus. My wife and I found out that she’s pregnant a few days ago, and I want to be happy, but I’m scared. This will be baby #4, our last, but because of what happened to the last pregnancy, I’m worried. What happens if it happens again? I don’t know, but what I do now, I won’t have to turn to the can to make it through. I won’t have to scrape the bottom of that horrible green colored tin for that last pinch wondering when my next fix will be. I’m not sure how I’ll handle this, but If I can make it through my grandfathers passing, if this goes horrible again, I can make it through this. Now, by no means am I wishing or hoping the pregnancy goes bad again, I’m just worried, scared, and trying to prepare myself for the worst, but hope for the best. Anyway, that’s all for today. Thanks to everyone for the support so far, it’s been amazing being here. Proud to quit with you all today!
"ONE DAY AT A TIME" Make it the best day possible. Yesterday is no more. Tomorrow is not ours yet. All we have is this moment. Love her, support her and look for the good in all things. You've got this! Whatever happens, chew won't fix it.
You can do this. Focus ODAAT. I can relate to the pregnancy issue as my wife and I had to deal with an issue. But we also ended up with a great son with our next pregnancy. If you focus on anything too long you can make it negative. Celebrate life - your achievements. Be it the pregnancy, being nic free for another day, having a great family - take time to smile. It will be ok. Feel free to pm me if you want to chat. Enjoy today, worry about what you can control, and never forget that one problem + nicotine equals 2 problems.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 24, 2020, 11:49:55 PM
23 days down...I finally started back at work today, and lemme tell you, trying to quit dip in the military is like trying not to suck dick in the Navy, it’s hard. Everywhere I look somebody had a dip in, and it’s like fuck man, I don’t wanna think about it. Now, this doesn’t mean I’m craving a dip, or wanting to cave, just noticing more things and just how many people dip. I still find it repulsing time want to dip again and I haven’t been having dip dreams or cravings lately, so I’m doing just fine. But , it’s the constant reminder that’s hurting me. Idk, the rambles are strong tonight, lots of random thoughts on the brain.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Athan on January 25, 2020, 03:36:44 AM
trying to quit dip in the military is like trying not to suck dick in the Navy, it’s hard.
Awww, it wasn't so bad.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Bug Guy on January 27, 2020, 07:07:36 PM
trying to quit dip in the military is like trying not to suck dick in the Navy, it’s hard.
Awww, it wasn't so bad.
And you still haven't quit Athan!  ;)
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 27, 2020, 09:45:16 PM
Day 26

Feeling pretty complacent right now and idk why. I can’t say it’s fog really because I don’t feel clouded or anything. I started work late last week, and so far it’s kept me pretty busy. I’m still super committed to my quit and staying good on my promise to my April group, but I haven't felt like being on here near as much talking to people. Idk, maybe it’s just the shock of being back at work on a set schedule or something that’s got me in a funk. Hell, even Steve texted me asking if I’m okay lately, haven’t really been myself. Who knows but hopefully this shit goes by soon enough, tired of this feeling of not wanting to talk to my brothers and sisters in quit.

Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 27, 2020, 09:51:40 PM
Also.


Time for a rant, because I literally have nowhere else to express my feelings of content. I’m sorry if this is tough, but this thread feels like my safe place for my thoughts. Today one of my closest military buddies and his wife had their baby boy. I’m trying my best to be so freaking happy for them, but all I feel is sadness. After July, I’ve thought eventually things will be okay, and they just haven’t been. Even after my wife announced 2 weeks ago that she was pregnant, I couldn’t help but be terrified again. Hell, my friend in Germany that’s friends with Panda too, they are expecting. I want to be so damn happy for them, and I truly am, but I’m also so damn sad. Even knowing I have one on the way, idk how to escape these feelings pent up inside of me. Idk if anyone on here has gone through a miscarriage, but this is just a rough day for me, it’s the due date for our lost little one, and I’m just not doing okay.

Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Redwood on January 27, 2020, 10:05:57 PM
Also.


Time for a rant, because I literally have nowhere else to express my feelings of content. I’m sorry if this is tough, but this thread feels like my safe place for my thoughts. Today one of my closest military buddies and his wife had their baby boy. I’m trying my best to be so freaking happy for them, but all I feel is sadness. After July, I’ve thought eventually things will be okay, and they just haven’t been. Even after my wife announced 2 weeks ago that she was pregnant, I couldn’t help but be terrified again. Hell, my friend in Germany that’s friends with Panda too, they are expecting. I want to be so damn happy for them, and I truly am, but I’m also so damn sad. Even knowing I have one on the way, idk how to escape these feelings pent up inside of me. Idk if anyone on here has gone through a miscarriage, but this is just a rough day for me, it’s the due date for our lost little one, and I’m just not doing okay.
I have experienced this a couple of times.  Nothing makes it easier. I felt the same way as I watched my friends have kids. I wanted to be happy, and I tried, but it still hurt. My wife and I prayed a lot and finally it all worked out.
I don’t have a great answer.
Just remember that you are not alone in this and that it is okay to feel the way you do. You will make it through.
PTQWYT
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 27, 2020, 10:11:23 PM
Also.


Time for a rant, because I literally have nowhere else to express my feelings of content. I’m sorry if this is tough, but this thread feels like my safe place for my thoughts. Today one of my closest military buddies and his wife had their baby boy. I’m trying my best to be so freaking happy for them, but all I feel is sadness. After July, I’ve thought eventually things will be okay, and they just haven’t been. Even after my wife announced 2 weeks ago that she was pregnant, I couldn’t help but be terrified again. Hell, my friend in Germany that’s friends with Panda too, they are expecting. I want to be so damn happy for them, and I truly am, but I’m also so damn sad. Even knowing I have one on the way, idk how to escape these feelings pent up inside of me. Idk if anyone on here has gone through a miscarriage, but this is just a rough day for me, it’s the due date for our lost little one, and I’m just not doing okay.
I have experienced this a couple of times.  Nothing makes it easier. I felt the same way as I watched my friends have kids. I wanted to be happy, and I tried, but it still hurt. My wife and I prayed a lot and finally it all worked out.
I don’t have a great answer.
Just remember that you are not alone in this and that it is okay to feel the way you do. You will make it through.
PTQWYT
Thank you for the kind words. Not sure anything really can help anyone feel better in this situation, but it’s just nice to know I’m not alone, because damn do I feel that way.
PTQWY
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Dawgs on January 27, 2020, 10:12:42 PM
Also.


Time for a rant, because I literally have nowhere else to express my feelings of content. I’m sorry if this is tough, but this thread feels like my safe place for my thoughts. Today one of my closest military buddies and his wife had their baby boy. I’m trying my best to be so freaking happy for them, but all I feel is sadness. After July, I’ve thought eventually things will be okay, and they just haven’t been. Even after my wife announced 2 weeks ago that she was pregnant, I couldn’t help but be terrified again. Hell, my friend in Germany that’s friends with Panda too, they are expecting. I want to be so damn happy for them, and I truly am, but I’m also so damn sad. Even knowing I have one on the way, idk how to escape these feelings pent up inside of me. Idk if anyone on here has gone through a miscarriage, but this is just a rough day for me, it’s the due date for our lost little one, and I’m just not doing okay.
I have experienced this a couple of times.  Nothing makes it easier. I felt the same way as I watched my friends have kids. I wanted to be happy, and I tried, but it still hurt. My wife and I prayed a lot and finally it all worked out.
I don’t have a great answer.
Just remember that you are not alone in this and that it is okay to feel the way you do. You will make it through.
PTQWYT
Thank you for the kind words. Not sure anything really can help anyone feel better in this situation, but it’s just nice to know I’m not alone, because damn do I feel that way.
PTQWY
@A-Aron (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16449) ....I’ll be honest and say I haven’t read through all of your posts, but this one I k ow a little about. My wife and I have been there. Our first 2 ended in miscarriage. When she told me she was pregnant with number 3, I cried. I cried to try and get the pain out ahead of time cause I knew how it would end. But, I was wrong. Yes, I was scared for her entire pregnancy. Every day of it was hell because of what was going on in my head. I was dipping then so that “helped” a little. And by “helped”, I mean I was fooled in to thinking it made things easier. I couldn’t imagine having gone through that relatively early in my quit. Fast forward 10 years. I now have a 10 and 7 year old. 2 beautiful girls. It sounds cliche, but things happen for a reason, and for me, I think it was to teach me to appreciate what I have. And I do, I love my girls more than anything. It’s ok to be scared. It’s ok be nervous. To be hesitant. To be reserved. You name it. It’s ok. The only thing is don’t be quiet. We guys can really suck at talking sometimes. Keep doing what you are doing. It’s the best medicine for you. PM me if you need to talk. I’ve been there and know the feelings well. Hang tough brother.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 30, 2020, 09:55:46 PM
Update:

Still alive and kicking. I’m just a few hours shy of day 30....one whole month. I can’t believe how fast this month has gone, but at the same time, it’s felt like a lifetime ago. I started back at work this week, which has been a huge pain in the ass for my quit. Almost every other person I work with dips, I’m surrounded by it. My resolve has never been stronger, but those lingering thoughts of, just grab a can for the range, or grab a can for the field keep popping up in the back of my head. I’ve been pretty distant from the site these last couple days. Posted roll, had a few onesie or twosie commments, but nothing major. I don’t feel complacent or down about my quit, just in a weird place in my feelings I guess. I haven’t wanted to talk to people much and at the same time, I’ve never wanted to talk more. Idk, maybe this is one of those foggy moments In the quit where I’m just stumbling through blindly. I’m just so exhausted lately, not much else has been on my mind than sleeping. Well, all I got this time for an update. See ya in a few days.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Bug Guy on January 31, 2020, 02:02:30 AM
Update:

Still alive and kicking. I’m just a few hours shy of day 30....one whole month. I can’t believe how fast this month has gone, but at the same time, it’s felt like a lifetime ago. I started back at work this week, which has been a huge pain in the ass for my quit. Almost every other person I work with dips, I’m surrounded by it. My resolve has never been stronger, but those lingering thoughts of, just grab a can for the range, or grab a can for the field keep popping up in the back of my head. I’ve been pretty distant from the site these last couple days. Posted roll, had a few onesie or twosie commments, but nothing major. I don’t feel complacent or down about my quit, just in a weird place in my feelings I guess. I haven’t wanted to talk to people much and at the same time, I’ve never wanted to talk more. Idk, maybe this is one of those foggy moments In the quit where I’m just stumbling through blindly. I’m just so exhausted lately, not much else has been on my mind than sleeping. Well, all I got this time for an update. See ya in a few days.
You're doing great brother. Even at 30 days you are so far ahead of your last can, but still have a lot to go through at the same time. The 1st hundred and even the 2nd can be hell. One moment you are riding some highs you haven't felt in a long time. These are those times you reach out and help others and do as much as you possibly can to be engaged. Then in other moments, feels like day 1 again. Foggy headed, tired, dreading each upcoming minute. These are the times where you focus inward, make it minute by minute, hour by hour. Reach out for help to drag you through. Can't say it enough though, as each wave goes by, it gets so much better. Each period of suck becomes less frequent and less intense. Keep pushing my brother, you've got this.

Ps. Sorry I missed your post on the 27th. As much as I'm on here, I don't always make it into every room. But just wanted to tell you that I'm sorry. Pretty sure I've told you before but I'll say it here too. My wife and I went through the same thing prior to my daughter being born. She miscarried and it was devastating. We had even waited several months before telling anyone. And then BAM! Like a ton of bricks. It would be a year n half later before she got pregnant again. I was scared shitless. For all the same reasons you have described. Terrified for another miscarriage and just how hard that would be to deal with again. Then I had another level of fear. My ex, my son's mom, took off with my son when he was 2 and it would be a year before I saw him again. My wife is nothing like her, but yet I had this fear of her doing something similar. In hindsight it was stupid and selfish to feel that way towards my wife, but there I was. So now that I've rambled on long enough.... the point is, just as Dawgs said, everything happens for a reason. It may suck or not make any sense at the time, but it's life you know. And being nic free for 30 days doesn't help with the mood/feelings. But sure shit beats suckin in a cat turd!
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on February 05, 2020, 07:38:05 PM
Day 35.

Today’s was one for the books. Definitely felt the pressure of being quit today and having to resist the thoughts the nic bitch was telling me. Had to reach out and call a brother to distract myself for a bit, thanks for that one @Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866). All in all, not bad for 5 weeks in, still feel like I have a lifetime to go before I feel like this is truly manageable, but we’ll just take it slowly one day at a time. Been really in a funk lately, my mood has been shitty as fuck, and not even for a good reason. I hate it because people are straying from talking to me because I’m just kind of an asshole right now. I don’t mean it at all, I’m just not trying to use my quit as an excuse as to why I’m an asshole sometimes. Let’s see how this next week goes, it’s nice to have my week marks on the same day my college week starts, every Wednesday.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Bug Guy on February 05, 2020, 08:44:02 PM
Day 35.

Today’s was one for the books. Definitely felt the pressure of being quit today and having to resist the thoughts the nic bitch was telling me. Had to reach out and call a brother to distract myself for a bit, thanks for that one @Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866). All in all, not bad for 5 weeks in, still feel like I have a lifetime to go before I feel like this is truly manageable, but we’ll just take it slowly one day at a time. Been really in a funk lately, my mood has been shitty as fuck, and not even for a good reason. I hate it because people are straying from talking to me because I’m just kind of an asshole right now. I don’t mean it at all, I’m just not trying to use my quit as an excuse as to why I’m an asshole sometimes. Let’s see how this next week goes, it’s nice to have my week marks on the same day my college week starts, every Wednesday.
Face it, you're an asshole
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on February 05, 2020, 08:51:31 PM
Day 35.

Today’s was one for the books. Definitely felt the pressure of being quit today and having to resist the thoughts the nic bitch was telling me. Had to reach out and call a brother to distract myself for a bit, thanks for that one @Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866). All in all, not bad for 5 weeks in, still feel like I have a lifetime to go before I feel like this is truly manageable, but we’ll just take it slowly one day at a time. Been really in a funk lately, my mood has been shitty as fuck, and not even for a good reason. I hate it because people are straying from talking to me because I’m just kind of an asshole right now. I don’t mean it at all, I’m just not trying to use my quit as an excuse as to why I’m an asshole sometimes. Let’s see how this next week goes, it’s nice to have my week marks on the same day my college week starts, every Wednesday.
Face it, you're an asshole
Awe. I love you too  ::) :D
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Bug Guy on February 06, 2020, 09:24:34 AM
Day 35.

Today’s was one for the books. Definitely felt the pressure of being quit today and having to resist the thoughts the nic bitch was telling me. Had to reach out and call a brother to distract myself for a bit, thanks for that one @Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866). All in all, not bad for 5 weeks in, still feel like I have a lifetime to go before I feel like this is truly manageable, but we’ll just take it slowly one day at a time. Been really in a funk lately, my mood has been shitty as fuck, and not even for a good reason. I hate it because people are straying from talking to me because I’m just kind of an asshole right now. I don’t mean it at all, I’m just not trying to use my quit as an excuse as to why I’m an asshole sometimes. Let’s see how this next week goes, it’s nice to have my week marks on the same day my college week starts, every Wednesday.
Face it, you're an asshole
Awe. I love you too  ::) :D
Love you brother  :-*
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on February 11, 2020, 09:57:17 PM
41 Down, 42 tomorrow.

6 weeks

6 weeks ago I dumped a log of grizzly wintergreen and never looked back. 6 weeks ago I made the best decision I could have made, but it brought on the bumpiest ride of my life. My last post was 5 weeks down, and honestly, so much has happened in this last week, it's made up for the last few weeks of not really feeling down about my quit. I can't say I've had any real bad days of my quit until this past week, between work, school, and just everything going on, the Nic bitch caught me slipping a bit. I did not cave though, I was able to reach out and phone a fellow quitter, and distract myself. That moment was the toughest craving I have had so far these last 41 days and it came outta nowhere. I actually am sitting here on the bed doing schoolwork and typing this out, all while having a pinch of Smokey Mountain in my lip to help calm the cravings from the long day I've had today. I can't imagine what life will be like when I'm hitting HoF status, but I do know that I'll be looking back at these posts and laughing at how weak I have been some days. The one thing that keeps me going is that I have roughly 15-20 KTC brothers in quit in my phone, and I know that before I can even think about caving, I have to call each and every single one of them. That's a LOT of vets who would go to hell and back to make sure I stay on my quit journey. I have to thank @olcpo (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16159) for his thread, because reading his, makes some days I have feel like nothing. Also, I have to shoutout @Hunter4life (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15792) because His daily promise to me means a lot, and I've made sure I send mine back. Proud to have you two in my quit circle. I think that's all I really have for the update this week, here's to 6 weeks down, and almost half HoF.

Aaron
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: EXBEARHAG on February 11, 2020, 10:24:04 PM
41 Down, 42 tomorrow.

6 weeks

6 weeks ago I dumped a log of grizzly wintergreen and never looked back. 6 weeks ago I made the best decision I could have made, but it brought on the bumpiest ride of my life. My last post was 5 weeks down, and honestly, so much has happened in this last week, it's made up for the last few weeks of not really feeling down about my quit. I can't say I've had any real bad days of my quit until this past week, between work, school, and just everything going on, the Nic bitch caught me slipping a bit. I did not cave though, I was able to reach out and phone a fellow quitter, and distract myself. That moment was the toughest craving I have had so far these last 41 days and it came outta nowhere. I actually am sitting here on the bed doing schoolwork and typing this out, all while having a pinch of Smokey Mountain in my lip to help calm the cravings from the long day I've had today. I can't imagine what life will be like when I'm hitting HoF status, but I do know that I'll be looking back at these posts and laughing at how weak I have been some days. The one thing that keeps me going is that I have roughly 15-20 KTC brothers in quit in my phone, and I know that before I can even think about caving, I have to call each and every single one of them. That's a LOT of vets who would go to hell and back to make sure I stay on my quit journey. I have to thank @olcpo (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16159) for his thread, because reading his, makes some days I have feel like nothing. Also, I have to shoutout @Hunter4life (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15792) because His daily promise to me means a lot, and I've made sure I send mine back. Proud to have you two in my quit circle. I think that's all I really have for the update this week, here's to 6 weeks down, and almost half HoF.

Aaron

Congrats on 6 weeks @A-Aron (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16449) .  You are a BA quitter man.  Keep doing what you are doing and you'll be post HOF before you know it.  Hold the lin brother.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Athan on February 11, 2020, 11:24:45 PM
...so much has happened in this last week, it's made up for the last few weeks of not really feeling down about my quit. I can't say I've had any real bad days of my quit until this past week, between work, school, and just everything going on, the Nic bitch caught me slipping a bit. ..... That moment was the toughest craving I have had so far these last 41 days and it came outta nowhere.
It was a bright day in the hall when you chose to throw away the weed and join our ranks. I don't lament your struggles; they steel your resolve. I do laud your victories as they're well earned and edifying to all who read them. Keep on plugging A-Aron, you're my hero!
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Hunter4life on February 12, 2020, 12:24:12 AM
41 Down, 42 tomorrow.

6 weeks

6 weeks ago I dumped a log of grizzly wintergreen and never looked back. 6 weeks ago I made the best decision I could have made, but it brought on the bumpiest ride of my life. My last post was 5 weeks down, and honestly, so much has happened in this last week, it's made up for the last few weeks of not really feeling down about my quit. I can't say I've had any real bad days of my quit until this past week, between work, school, and just everything going on, the Nic bitch caught me slipping a bit. I did not cave though, I was able to reach out and phone a fellow quitter, and distract myself. That moment was the toughest craving I have had so far these last 41 days and it came outta nowhere. I actually am sitting here on the bed doing schoolwork and typing this out, all while having a pinch of Smokey Mountain in my lip to help calm the cravings from the long day I've had today. I can't imagine what life will be like when I'm hitting HoF status, but I do know that I'll be looking back at these posts and laughing at how weak I have been some days. The one thing that keeps me going is that I have roughly 15-20 KTC brothers in quit in my phone, and I know that before I can even think about caving, I have to call each and every single one of them. That's a LOT of vets who would go to hell and back to make sure I stay on my quit journey. I have to thank @olcpo (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16159) for his thread, because reading his, makes some days I have feel like nothing. Also, I have to shoutout @Hunter4life (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15792) because His daily promise to me means a lot, and I've made sure I send mine back. Proud to have you two in my quit circle. I think that's all I really have for the update this week, here's to 6 weeks down, and almost half HoF.

Aaron

@A-Aron (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16449)

Believe it or not brother, your daily promise helps keep me quit too. Those days will come and go. Just don’t ever give in. I can assure you that after 121 days, I still get em. They might not be as strong, but they’re there. I even had a dip dream night before last. We’re addicts. This will be a lifelong fight. But it does get easier. The thought of cancer hits a little too close to home for me, so I fight on with you. Stick with it!!
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: olcpo on February 12, 2020, 11:10:44 AM
41 Down, 42 tomorrow.

6 weeks

6 weeks ago I dumped a log of grizzly wintergreen and never looked back. 6 weeks ago I made the best decision I could have made, but it brought on the bumpiest ride of my life. My last post was 5 weeks down, and honestly, so much has happened in this last week, it's made up for the last few weeks of not really feeling down about my quit. I can't say I've had any real bad days of my quit until this past week, between work, school, and just everything going on, the Nic bitch caught me slipping a bit. I did not cave though, I was able to reach out and phone a fellow quitter, and distract myself. That moment was the toughest craving I have had so far these last 41 days and it came outta nowhere. I actually am sitting here on the bed doing schoolwork and typing this out, all while having a pinch of Smokey Mountain in my lip to help calm the cravings from the long day I've had today. I can't imagine what life will be like when I'm hitting HoF status, but I do know that I'll be looking back at these posts and laughing at how weak I have been some days. The one thing that keeps me going is that I have roughly 15-20 KTC brothers in quit in my phone, and I know that before I can even think about caving, I have to call each and every single one of them. That's a LOT of vets who would go to hell and back to make sure I stay on my quit journey. I have to thank @olcpo (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16159) for his thread, because reading his, makes some days I have feel like nothing. Also, I have to shoutout @Hunter4life (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15792) because His daily promise to me means a lot, and I've made sure I send mine back. Proud to have you two in my quit circle. I think that's all I really have for the update this week, here's to 6 weeks down, and almost half HoF.

Aaron
Sorry you are having a rough time/bump, BUT you've got this! It's obvious! You are handling it! Know that it is a "Moment" and it will pass. Prepare for it to get better! Proud To Quit With You Brother!! Keep On Keepin' on! One Day At A time!
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Keith0617 on February 12, 2020, 12:49:23 PM
41 Down, 42 tomorrow.

6 weeks

6 weeks ago I dumped a log of grizzly wintergreen and never looked back. 6 weeks ago I made the best decision I could have made, but it brought on the bumpiest ride of my life. My last post was 5 weeks down, and honestly, so much has happened in this last week, it's made up for the last few weeks of not really feeling down about my quit. I can't say I've had any real bad days of my quit until this past week, between work, school, and just everything going on, the Nic bitch caught me slipping a bit. I did not cave though, I was able to reach out and phone a fellow quitter, and distract myself. That moment was the toughest craving I have had so far these last 41 days and it came outta nowhere. I actually am sitting here on the bed doing schoolwork and typing this out, all while having a pinch of Smokey Mountain in my lip to help calm the cravings from the long day I've had today. I can't imagine what life will be like when I'm hitting HoF status, but I do know that I'll be looking back at these posts and laughing at how weak I have been some days. The one thing that keeps me going is that I have roughly 15-20 KTC brothers in quit in my phone, and I know that before I can even think about caving, I have to call each and every single one of them. That's a LOT of vets who would go to hell and back to make sure I stay on my quit journey. I have to thank @olcpo (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16159) for his thread, because reading his, makes some days I have feel like nothing. Also, I have to shoutout @Hunter4life (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15792) because His daily promise to me means a lot, and I've made sure I send mine back. Proud to have you two in my quit circle. I think that's all I really have for the update this week, here's to 6 weeks down, and almost half HoF.

Aaron
Sorry you are having a rough time/bump, BUT you've got this! It's obvious! You are handling it! Know that it is a "Moment" and it will pass. Prepare for it to get better! Proud To Quit With You Brother!! Keep On Keepin' on! One Day At A time!

@A-Aron (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16449) brother you aren't weak. You badass has been quit for 6 weeks. Keep quitting ODAAT and let the days add up. The light gets brighter on the other side of HOF. Shoot me your digits if I can help with accountability or support. I believe in you.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: chris2alaska on February 12, 2020, 06:01:59 PM
41 Down, 42 tomorrow.

6 weeks

6 weeks ago I dumped a log of grizzly wintergreen and never looked back. 6 weeks ago I made the best decision I could have made, but it brought on the bumpiest ride of my life. My last post was 5 weeks down, and honestly, so much has happened in this last week, it's made up for the last few weeks of not really feeling down about my quit. I can't say I've had any real bad days of my quit until this past week, between work, school, and just everything going on, the Nic bitch caught me slipping a bit. I did not cave though, I was able to reach out and phone a fellow quitter, and distract myself. That moment was the toughest craving I have had so far these last 41 days and it came outta nowhere. I actually am sitting here on the bed doing schoolwork and typing this out, all while having a pinch of Smokey Mountain in my lip to help calm the cravings from the long day I've had today. I can't imagine what life will be like when I'm hitting HoF status, but I do know that I'll be looking back at these posts and laughing at how weak I have been some days. The one thing that keeps me going is that I have roughly 15-20 KTC brothers in quit in my phone, and I know that before I can even think about caving, I have to call each and every single one of them. That's a LOT of vets who would go to hell and back to make sure I stay on my quit journey. I have to thank @olcpo (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16159) for his thread, because reading his, makes some days I have feel like nothing. Also, I have to shoutout @Hunter4life (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15792) because His daily promise to me means a lot, and I've made sure I send mine back. Proud to have you two in my quit circle. I think that's all I really have for the update this week, here's to 6 weeks down, and almost half HoF.

Aaron
Sorry you are having a rough time/bump, BUT you've got this! It's obvious! You are handling it! Know that it is a "Moment" and it will pass. Prepare for it to get better! Proud To Quit With You Brother!! Keep On Keepin' on! One Day At A time!

@A-Aron (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16449) brother you aren't weak. You badass has been quit for 6 weeks. Keep quitting ODAAT and let the days add up. The light gets brighter on the other side of HOF. Shoot me your digits if I can help with accountability or support. I believe in you.


NOOOOOOOO @A-Aron (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16449) , don't do it!! Don't give @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) your digits!!  He will call you and text you at all hours of the day, hounding you to be quit.  Oh the agony of it all. roflmao roflmao

Just kidding, Keith is one of the best guys I know.  If you have him in your corner, you are golden.  By all means share your digits with him.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on February 21, 2020, 10:08:45 PM
Well, I’m officially over halfway to HoF. I’ve been pretty busy this last week and a half, so I’ve barely any time to post and chat like usual. Today though, was a huge milestone in my quit, although I still don’t know how to feel about it. One of the hardest things for me in the Army was doing our field problems for X amount of days. It’s stressful, it’s tiring, it’s gruesome and makes you wanna reach out and grab somebody by their neck. I always relied on that green little tin can in my pocket for relief. Today, I of course naturally felt myself urging for a dip, solely based off muscle memory. My coworkers dip, a couple of them pretty heavily, but they never push it on me to pick it back up or anything. Today I felt no urge to ask for one, instead i threw my seeds in, used my Smokey Mountain, and trucked through my day. It felt like a win for me because the first day of the field setup is the most stressful day for me. Although, I wasn’t too happy about going through a can of the fake stuff, I’d rather it be fake stuff than the shit. It also helps when I won’t cave partially because I don’t even know how I would text my vets telling them I fucked up. So, @Hunter4life (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15792) @Skolvikings (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=70) @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) @olcpo (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16159) @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) and @Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866) thanks for investing in a new quitter like myself, y’all give me strength to stay quit, even when I’m not actively asking for advice/calling to avoid a bad decision.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Keith0617 on February 21, 2020, 10:12:09 PM
Well, I’m officially over halfway to HoF. I’ve been pretty busy this last week and a half, so I’ve barely any time to post and chat like usual. Today though, was a huge milestone in my quit, although I still don’t know how to feel about it. One of the hardest things for me in the Army was doing our field problems for X amount of days. It’s stressful, it’s tiring, it’s gruesome and makes you wanna reach out and grab somebody by their neck. I always relied on that green little tin can in my pocket for relief. Today, I of course naturally felt myself urging for a dip, solely based off muscle memory. My coworkers dip, a couple of them pretty heavily, but they never push it on me to pick it back up or anything. Today I felt no urge to ask for one, instead i threw my seeds in, used my Smokey Mountain, and trucked through my day. It felt like a win for me because the first day of the field setup is the most stressful day for me. Although, I wasn’t too happy about going through a can of the fake stuff, I’d rather it be fake stuff than the shit. It also helps when I won’t cave partially because I don’t even know how I would text my vets telling them I fucked up. So, @Hunter4life (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15792) @Skolvikings (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=70) @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) @olcpo (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16159) @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) and @Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866) thanks for investing in a new quitter like myself, y’all give me strength to stay quit, even when I’m not actively asking for advice/calling to avoid a bad decision.

@A-Aron (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16449) you got this you big stud.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Bug Guy on February 21, 2020, 10:44:52 PM
Well, I’m officially over halfway to HoF. I’ve been pretty busy this last week and a half, so I’ve barely any time to post and chat like usual. Today though, was a huge milestone in my quit, although I still don’t know how to feel about it. One of the hardest things for me in the Army was doing our field problems for X amount of days. It’s stressful, it’s tiring, it’s gruesome and makes you wanna reach out and grab somebody by their neck. I always relied on that green little tin can in my pocket for relief. Today, I of course naturally felt myself urging for a dip, solely based off muscle memory. My coworkers dip, a couple of them pretty heavily, but they never push it on me to pick it back up or anything. Today I felt no urge to ask for one, instead i threw my seeds in, used my Smokey Mountain, and trucked through my day. It felt like a win for me because the first day of the field setup is the most stressful day for me. Although, I wasn’t too happy about going through a can of the fake stuff, I’d rather it be fake stuff than the shit. It also helps when I won’t cave partially because I don’t even know how I would text my vets telling them I fucked up. So, @Hunter4life (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15792) @Skolvikings (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=70) @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) @olcpo (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16159) @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) and @Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866) thanks for investing in a new quitter like myself, y’all give me strength to stay quit, even when I’m not actively asking for advice/calling to avoid a bad decision.
You're a bad motha sucka my dude! I've got your back just as much as you have mine. Proud to be quit with you my brother.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Skolvikings on February 21, 2020, 11:13:32 PM
Well, I’m officially over halfway to HoF. I’ve been pretty busy this last week and a half, so I’ve barely any time to post and chat like usual. Today though, was a huge milestone in my quit, although I still don’t know how to feel about it. One of the hardest things for me in the Army was doing our field problems for X amount of days. It’s stressful, it’s tiring, it’s gruesome and makes you wanna reach out and grab somebody by their neck. I always relied on that green little tin can in my pocket for relief. Today, I of course naturally felt myself urging for a dip, solely based off muscle memory. My coworkers dip, a couple of them pretty heavily, but they never push it on me to pick it back up or anything. Today I felt no urge to ask for one, instead i threw my seeds in, used my Smokey Mountain, and trucked through my day. It felt like a win for me because the first day of the field setup is the most stressful day for me. Although, I wasn’t too happy about going through a can of the fake stuff, I’d rather it be fake stuff than the shit. It also helps when I won’t cave partially because I don’t even know how I would text my vets telling them I fucked up. So, @Hunter4life (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15792) @Skolvikings (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=70) @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) @olcpo (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16159) @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) and @Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866) thanks for investing in a new quitter like myself, y’all give me strength to stay quit, even when I’m not actively asking for advice/calling to avoid a bad decision.
You're a bad motha sucka my dude! I've got your back just as much as you have mine. Proud to be quit with you my brother.

Motha sucka…. WTF..... sorry this heathen is in your intro Aaron. 


Keep doing what you are doing.... lots of us are damn proud of you.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Athan on February 22, 2020, 12:19:59 AM
Well, I’m officially over halfway to HoF. I’ve been pretty busy this last week and a half, so I’ve barely any time to post and chat like usual. Today though, was a huge milestone in my quit, although I still don’t know how to feel about it. One of the hardest things for me in the Army was doing our field problems for X amount of days. It’s stressful, it’s tiring, it’s gruesome and makes you wanna reach out and grab somebody by their neck. I always relied on that green little tin can in my pocket for relief. Today, I of course naturally felt myself urging for a dip, solely based off muscle memory. My coworkers dip, a couple of them pretty heavily, but they never push it on me to pick it back up or anything. Today I felt no urge to ask for one, instead i threw my seeds in, used my Smokey Mountain, and trucked through my day. It felt like a win for me because the first day of the field setup is the most stressful day for me. Although, I wasn’t too happy about going through a can of the fake stuff, I’d rather it be fake stuff than the shit. It also helps when I won’t cave partially because I don’t even know how I would text my vets telling them I fucked up. So, @Hunter4life (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15792) @Skolvikings (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=70) @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) @olcpo (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16159) @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) and @Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866) thanks for investing in a new quitter like myself, y’all give me strength to stay quit, even when I’m not actively asking for advice/calling to avoid a bad decision.
You're a bad motha sucka my dude! I've got your back just as much as you have mine. Proud to be quit with you my brother.

Motha sucka…. WTF..... sorry this heathen is in your intro Aaron. 


Keep doing what you are doing.... lots of us are damn proud of you.
WOW! That's quite the lineup on the support group. I figure nine, maybe ten guys in the whole world got lineup like that!
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Hunter4life on February 22, 2020, 07:08:12 AM
Well, I’m officially over halfway to HoF. I’ve been pretty busy this last week and a half, so I’ve barely any time to post and chat like usual. Today though, was a huge milestone in my quit, although I still don’t know how to feel about it. One of the hardest things for me in the Army was doing our field problems for X amount of days. It’s stressful, it’s tiring, it’s gruesome and makes you wanna reach out and grab somebody by their neck. I always relied on that green little tin can in my pocket for relief. Today, I of course naturally felt myself urging for a dip, solely based off muscle memory. My coworkers dip, a couple of them pretty heavily, but they never push it on me to pick it back up or anything. Today I felt no urge to ask for one, instead i threw my seeds in, used my Smokey Mountain, and trucked through my day. It felt like a win for me because the first day of the field setup is the most stressful day for me. Although, I wasn’t too happy about going through a can of the fake stuff, I’d rather it be fake stuff than the shit. It also helps when I won’t cave partially because I don’t even know how I would text my vets telling them I fucked up. So, @Hunter4life (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15792) @Skolvikings (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=70) @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) @olcpo (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16159) @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) and @Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866) thanks for investing in a new quitter like myself, y’all give me strength to stay quit, even when I’m not actively asking for advice/calling to avoid a bad decision.

You’ve got this man. I was the same way. Just knowing that the support group is there and not wanting to let them down was enough for me.  Stay quit brotha!
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: olcpo on February 22, 2020, 11:39:03 AM
Well, I’m officially over halfway to HoF. I’ve been pretty busy this last week and a half, so I’ve barely any time to post and chat like usual. Today though, was a huge milestone in my quit, although I still don’t know how to feel about it. One of the hardest things for me in the Army was doing our field problems for X amount of days. It’s stressful, it’s tiring, it’s gruesome and makes you wanna reach out and grab somebody by their neck. I always relied on that green little tin can in my pocket for relief. Today, I of course naturally felt myself urging for a dip, solely based off muscle memory. My coworkers dip, a couple of them pretty heavily, but they never push it on me to pick it back up or anything. Today I felt no urge to ask for one, instead i threw my seeds in, used my Smokey Mountain, and trucked through my day. It felt like a win for me because the first day of the field setup is the most stressful day for me. Although, I wasn’t too happy about going through a can of the fake stuff, I’d rather it be fake stuff than the shit. It also helps when I won’t cave partially because I don’t even know how I would text my vets telling them I fucked up. So, @Hunter4life (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15792) @Skolvikings (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=70) @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) @olcpo (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16159) @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) and @Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866) thanks for investing in a new quitter like myself, y’all give me strength to stay quit, even when I’m not actively asking for advice/calling to avoid a bad decision.
You are doing it! The field is what we were afraid of and you beat it. The field is relentless. The waiting piled with urgency. Waiting for some O to make a decision, troops looking at you for answers you can't give, hours dragging by yet not enough time, waiting for others to do their job so you can do yours, when's Chow? MRE's and iodine water. Wanna get busy? Just pour water in the MRE heater and some shavetail will show up with "work" just cuz you're sittin around... With all that a chew never changed, fixed, hurried up or slowed down anything. Now you are on the other side and YOU beat the NIC Demon. PTQWY Brother! Keep Stompin'!
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on March 03, 2020, 10:05:52 PM
Day 62

Well, today is the very end of day 62 and almost the beginning of day 63. 9 weeks. 9 weeks ago I poured out 4 cans of grizzly and swore to never again put that shit in my mouth. I can say that through these 9 weeks, I have experienced just about everything that could possibly stress somebody out enough to want to cave, but I haven't so far. I've survived death in the family, the stress of my wife being pregnant again(which is going absolutely amazing this time around, for us...for her, not so much. morning sickness is a bitch LMAO), and almost losing my life. That near-death experience was the event that almost made me cave, I was freaking out that night. If it weren't for @ThtPanda25 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16546) I promise you guys, I would've caved. I know it sounds like a bitch thing to do, but fuck man, that wasn't something I could prepare my quit for. ANYWAY, enough with the depressing boring bullshit...onto why day 63 is the most special day of my quit. Tomorrow will be more special than any floor or HoF, and here's why...I turn 26. I can officially say I'm 26, I quit nicotine, and I quit drinking. There are not many people around me that I work with that can say that, but I'm proud of myself for it. Although the closer I creep to 30, the more grey hairs I'm finding in my beard and my hair...unfortunately. Well, I guess I've rambled enough for today, thanks for tuning into this week's Ted Talk.

Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Keith0617 on March 04, 2020, 08:33:54 AM
Day 62

Well, today is the very end of day 62 and almost the beginning of day 63. 9 weeks. 9 weeks ago I poured out 4 cans of grizzly and swore to never again put that shit in my mouth. I can say that through these 9 weeks, I have experienced just about everything that could possibly stress somebody out enough to want to cave, but I haven't so far. I've survived death in the family, the stress of my wife being pregnant again(which is going absolutely amazing this time around, for us...for her, not so much. morning sickness is a bitch LMAO), and almost losing my life. That near-death experience was the event that almost made me cave, I was freaking out that night. If it weren't for @ThtPanda25 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16546) I promise you guys, I would've caved. I know it sounds like a bitch thing to do, but fuck man, that wasn't something I could prepare my quit for. ANYWAY, enough with the depressing boring bullshit...onto why day 63 is the most special day of my quit. Tomorrow will be more special than any floor or HoF, and here's why...I turn 26. I can officially say I'm 26, I quit nicotine, and I quit drinking. There are not many people around me that I work with that can say that, but I'm proud of myself for it. Although the closer I creep to 30, the more grey hairs I'm finding in my beard and my hair...unfortunately. Well, I guess I've rambled enough for today, thanks for tuning into this week's Ted Talk.

@A-Aron (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16449) sounds like you have experienced a bunch of wins through 62 days. Life is going to keep happening. Remember to use your tools and reach out to your brothers and sisters here in times of need. The brotherhood is a major factor in keeping us all quit.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on March 07, 2020, 09:02:00 PM
Today’s a pretty special day, and not because of me quitting dip. Today marks 66 days since I quit dipping, BUT it also marks 100 days since I’ve been sober. I decided after Thanksgiving I was going to stop drinking. I’ve put enough alcohol in my system these last 2 years, that I just have no desire to drink anymore. So yeah, I’m proud of myself. 10 weeks coming up soon, pretty proud of myself there too. Wife’s finally starting to jump onboard with my quit now that she truly sees I’m serious about quitting this time.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on March 09, 2020, 02:36:31 PM
Well, day 68. Been a weird one lately on the site, and it’s definitely made me question some things. HOWEVER, I jus repost and ghost. I hate all the BS that happens on the groups about why someone posted late, or why they did this, or yada yada yada. I hate seeing people pushed out of the site because they don’t meet someone else’s standard. I get it, WUPP is a thing for a reason, BUT, just because they post late, doesn’t mean they automatically stuck shit back in their mouth and are fucking with the group. I don’t understand why we harass and push these people to the point they quit the site. I mean, that’s why I’m mainly on the site to show support to my group and post my daily promise, my 100% posting for 2020, and those groups I have people I’m supporting. I’m just going to continue my PAG and strive on.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: olcpo on March 09, 2020, 08:29:53 PM
Well, day 68. Been a weird one lately on the site, and it’s definitely made me question some things. HOWEVER, I jus repost and ghost. I hate all the BS that happens on the groups about why someone posted late, or why they did this, or yada yada yada. I hate seeing people pushed out of the site because they don’t meet someone else’s standard. I get it, WUPP is a thing for a reason, BUT, just because they post late, doesn’t mean they automatically stuck shit back in their mouth and are fucking with the group. I don’t understand why we harass and push these people to the point they quit the site. I mean, that’s why I’m mainly on the site to show support to my group and post my daily promise, my 100% posting for 2020, and those groups I have people I’m supporting. I’m just going to continue my PAG and strive on.
Heavy on the "Strive on" part, A-aron PTQWYB
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Athan on March 09, 2020, 09:54:13 PM
Well, day 68. Been a weird one lately on the site, and it’s definitely made me question some things. HOWEVER, I jus repost and ghost. I hate all the BS that happens on the groups about why someone posted late, or why they did this, or yada yada yada. I hate seeing people pushed out of the site because they don’t meet someone else’s standard. I get it, WUPP is a thing for a reason, BUT, just because they post late, doesn’t mean they automatically stuck shit back in their mouth and are fucking with the group. I don’t understand why we harass and push these people to the point they quit the site. I mean, that’s why I’m mainly on the site to show support to my group and post my daily promise, my 100% posting for 2020, and those groups I have people I’m supporting. I’m just going to continue my PAG and strive on.
Take what you need, leave the rest. You came here to be free and by golly you're on the path. Stay the course my brother. You add to my quit and edify me.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on March 19, 2020, 09:42:11 AM
Day 78

Finally after 3 excruciatingly annoying weeks, I’m back to full health again. It feels amazing that every time I go to the Doctor and they ask if I use tobacco, that I can say no. 8 years I dipped, and 7 of those years I’ve been in the Army, at the doctor, saying yes to tobacco. I feel like a weight is lifted off of me every time I answer no to that question, it’s weird. But anyway, just shy of 3 weeks out from HoF. I’ve been trying to think of what I want to say in my HoF speech, but the words just aren’t there yet. The realization that I’m truly quit from nicotine every damn day just hasn’t really sunken in well enough for me yet. It’s cool to see my March brethren hitting their HoFs finally, and now it’s gonna be time for my April group soon. I want to be more engaged in the group and in new quitters, but idk, I’ve just felt so distant these last 2-3 weeks. I post my promise, and I message my people daily promises, but that’s about it. I haven’t really contributed much to my group or anything. Maybe this funk will change soon, or rather, hopefully this funk will change soon. That’s about it for now, I’ll be back to update before HoF....maybe lol.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Athan on March 19, 2020, 09:54:25 AM
...It feels amazing that every time I go to the Doctor and they ask if I use tobacco, that I can say no. 8 years I dipped, and 7 of those years I’ve been in the Army, at the doctor, saying yes to tobacco. I feel like a weight is lifted off of me every time I answer no to that question,...
THAT, my boy, is HOF speech material if ever there was any! Hoooah!
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on March 19, 2020, 12:47:18 PM
...It feels amazing that every time I go to the Doctor and they ask if I use tobacco, that I can say no. 8 years I dipped, and 7 of those years I’ve been in the Army, at the doctor, saying yes to tobacco. I feel like a weight is lifted off of me every time I answer no to that question,...
THAT, my boy, is HOF speech material if ever there was any! Hoooah!
Thanks @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) it truly does feel amazing to say no. Even being able to be working in a profession that normalizes dipping, I can say no and I don’t need it anymore. Thanks for always being in my corner my friend! Here’s to many more days!
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on March 27, 2020, 11:20:31 PM
86

It’s hard to believe that 86 days ago I did the best thing I could ever do, which was sign up for this website and throw my cans away. I was highly skeptical at first on whether this quit would work this time, or if I would cave like normal whenever I “tried” to quit. But it’s funny how the first 3 people that hit me up on this site @Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866) @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) and @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) made me realize right off the back that this was the right decision and place to be. Athan my friend, there’s so much I want to say to you, but I honestly want to save that for my HoF speech I’m building. Steve, dear god, the same could be said about you and also Chris. You guys have added a lot to my quit, bunch of badass vets backing a little newbie like myself.

I’ve been really reflecting these last few days about what this site does for people, watching the little dramas, and watching the brotherhood build. I love KTC and what it stands for. I love the brotherhood and accountability and I look forward to being that “vet” that invests in a newbie and shows them that even though it seems impossible, they too can be quit and free of the Nic bitch. I may be one of the youngest people on KTC currently besides ole @jack_smiff1 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=12074) but that okay, we’ve learned a lot and I feel like I fit right on with these old quit mofos on here. Proud to be quit with you all, see you all on HoF. Maybe before, it depends on if I feel like posting before then.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: chris2alaska on March 28, 2020, 01:36:07 AM
86

It’s hard to believe that 86 days ago I did the best thing I could ever do, which was sign up for this website and throw my cans away. I was highly skeptical at first on whether this quit would work this time, or if I would cave like normal whenever I “tried” to quit. But it’s funny how the first 3 people that hit me up on this site @Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866) @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) and @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) made me realize right off the back that this was the right decision and place to be. Athan my friend, there’s so much I want to say to you, but I honestly want to save that for my HoF speech I’m building. Steve, dear god, the same could be said about you and also Chris. You guys have added a lot to my quit, bunch of badass vets backing a little newbie like myself.

I’ve been really reflecting these last few days about what this site does for people, watching the little dramas, and watching the brotherhood build. I love KTC and what it stands for. I love the brotherhood and accountability and I look forward to being that “vet” that invests in a newbie and shows them that even though it seems impossible, they too can be quit and free of the Nic bitch. I may be one of the youngest people on KTC currently besides ole @jack_smiff1 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=12074) but that okay, we’ve learned a lot and I feel like I fit right on with these old quit mofos on here. Proud to be quit with you all, see you all on HoF. Maybe before, it depends on if I feel like posting before then.

Aaron,

You make me proud to call you my brother everyday.  To the new months just starting up, you are already a quit god.  Stay strong and ever vigilante in your quit.

Proud as hell to quit with you,

Chris
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Athan on March 28, 2020, 06:00:16 AM
...I look forward to being that “vet” that invests in a newbie and shows them that even though it seems impossible, they too can be quit and free of the Nic bitch.
You already are!! Too cool. I remember feeling that way after Samrs took my call and walked me through filling up the truck with gas, or reading Wildirish's intro. I remember the realization that it really was possible to be free of it forever. Helping others is addictive; it truly is better to give than to receive.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: jack_smiff1 on March 29, 2020, 09:21:51 AM
86

It’s hard to believe that 86 days ago I did the best thing I could ever do, which was sign up for this website and throw my cans away. I was highly skeptical at first on whether this quit would work this time, or if I would cave like normal whenever I “tried” to quit. But it’s funny how the first 3 people that hit me up on this site @Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866) @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) and @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) made me realize right off the back that this was the right decision and place to be. Athan my friend, there’s so much I want to say to you, but I honestly want to save that for my HoF speech I’m building. Steve, dear god, the same could be said about you and also Chris. You guys have added a lot to my quit, bunch of badass vets backing a little newbie like myself.

I’ve been really reflecting these last few days about what this site does for people, watching the little dramas, and watching the brotherhood build. I love KTC and what it stands for. I love the brotherhood and accountability and I look forward to being that “vet” that invests in a newbie and shows them that even though it seems impossible, they too can be quit and free of the Nic bitch. I may be one of the youngest people on KTC currently besides ole @jack_smiff1 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=12074) but that okay, we’ve learned a lot and I feel like I fit right on with these old quit mofos on here. Proud to be quit with you all, see you all on HoF. Maybe before, it depends on if I feel like posting before then.

Aaron,

You make me proud to call you my brother everyday.  To the new months just starting up, you are already a quit god.  Stay strong and ever vigilante in your quit.

Proud as hell to quit with you,

Chris

Aye aaron the young guns have a special quit tho! Our margin for error is way higher, we have a longer road and quite a bit more peer pressure. Quit with you forever brother
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Bug Guy on March 31, 2020, 09:15:36 PM
86

It’s hard to believe that 86 days ago I did the best thing I could ever do, which was sign up for this website and throw my cans away. I was highly skeptical at first on whether this quit would work this time, or if I would cave like normal whenever I “tried” to quit. But it’s funny how the first 3 people that hit me up on this site @Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866) @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) and @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) made me realize right off the back that this was the right decision and place to be. Athan my friend, there’s so much I want to say to you, but I honestly want to save that for my HoF speech I’m building. Steve, dear god, the same could be said about you and also Chris. You guys have added a lot to my quit, bunch of badass vets backing a little newbie like myself.

I’ve been really reflecting these last few days about what this site does for people, watching the little dramas, and watching the brotherhood build. I love KTC and what it stands for. I love the brotherhood and accountability and I look forward to being that “vet” that invests in a newbie and shows them that even though it seems impossible, they too can be quit and free of the Nic bitch. I may be one of the youngest people on KTC currently besides ole @jack_smiff1 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=12074) but that okay, we’ve learned a lot and I feel like I fit right on with these old quit mofos on here. Proud to be quit with you all, see you all on HoF. Maybe before, it depends on if I feel like posting before then.

Aaron,

You make me proud to call you my brother everyday.  To the new months just starting up, you are already a quit god.  Stay strong and ever vigilante in your quit.

Proud as hell to quit with you,

Chris

Aye aaron the young guns have a special quit tho! Our margin for error is way higher, we have a longer road and quite a bit more peer pressure. Quit with you forever brother
Damn proud of you kid brother. And even though I'm the better looking one in the family, I still love you  :-*
Proud to see you reaching the HoF, despite all the stuff that has happened along the way. You may not know it, but you've been an inspiration to me. To go through all that you have, and to keep such an amazing attitude, is remarkable. Thank you for being a friend and a brother. I will always be here for you as you have been for me.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on April 03, 2020, 02:39:00 AM
Day 93

Here it is. Probably final update before HoF. I’ve started to get more writing done on my HoF speech. The only downfall I’m having is fear it’s too long lmao. I’ve just had so many experiences here on KTC already in just under my first 100 days, it’s too much to talk about. But what’s the most important other than writing that speech is what I received in the mail yesterday afternoon, I got my HoF coin in the mail. Wow, I know right? A week early.....but you see, it’s not just any HoF coin and it’s early for a reason. See, the other day I was talking with @Skolvikings (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=70) about HoF and how excited I am about reaching this first goal, and mentioned I still need to buy my coin. What came next I wasn’t expecting, but he offered to send me his HoF coin he’s carried for SEVEN HUNDRED AND NINETEEN DAYS!! That’s an incredible journey for that coin and so many memories with it. I’m proud as hell to have that coin sitting in my dresser waiting to go into my wallet, because I can’t carry it with me for 7 more days. If anyone of you out there are reading this and wondering if you can actually quit and do it this time, I’m here to tell you, you can. 93 days ago I threw away 4 brand new cans of dip and started this journey with my quit brothers and sisters. The brotherhood and accountability work, but ONLY if you buy into the system and drink the koolaid a bit. Now, @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) might try to spike the koolaid just a bit, but I promise, we’re all right here, with you all. Proud to quit with you all, yesterday, today, and tomorrow. HoF, here I come!!
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Athan on April 03, 2020, 06:48:01 AM
Day 93

Here it is. Probably final update before HoF. I’ve started to get more writing done on my HoF speech. The only downfall I’m having is fear it’s too long lmao. I’ve just had so many experiences here on KTC already in just under my first 100 days, it’s too much to talk about. But what’s the most important other than writing that speech is what I received in the mail yesterday afternoon, I got my HoF coin in the mail. Wow, I know right? A week early.....but you see, it’s not just any HoF coin and it’s early for a reason. See, the other day I was talking with @Skolvikings (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=70) about HoF and how excited I am about reaching this first goal, and mentioned I still need to buy my coin. What came next I wasn’t expecting, but he offered to send me his HoF coin he’s carried for SEVEN HUNDRED AND NINETEEN DAYS!! That’s an incredible journey for that coin and so many memories with it. I’m proud as hell to have that coin sitting in my dresser waiting to go into my wallet, because I can’t carry it with me for 7 more days. If anyone of you out there are reading this and wondering if you can actually quit and do it this time, I’m here to tell you, you can. 93 days ago I threw away 4 brand new cans of dip and started this journey with my quit brothers and sisters. The brotherhood and accountability work, but ONLY if you buy into the system and drink the koolaid a bit. Now, @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) might try to spike the koolaid just a bit, but I promise, we’re all right here, with you all. Proud to quit with you all, yesterday, today, and tomorrow. HoF, here I come!!
Hey - What's life without a little spice?!
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Skolvikings on April 03, 2020, 11:07:19 AM
Day 93

Here it is. Probably final update before HoF. I’ve started to get more writing done on my HoF speech. The only downfall I’m having is fear it’s too long lmao. I’ve just had so many experiences here on KTC already in just under my first 100 days, it’s too much to talk about. But what’s the most important other than writing that speech is what I received in the mail yesterday afternoon, I got my HoF coin in the mail. Wow, I know right? A week early.....but you see, it’s not just any HoF coin and it’s early for a reason. See, the other day I was talking with @Skolvikings (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=70) about HoF and how excited I am about reaching this first goal, and mentioned I still need to buy my coin. What came next I wasn’t expecting, but he offered to send me his HoF coin he’s carried for SEVEN HUNDRED AND NINETEEN DAYS!! That’s an incredible journey for that coin and so many memories with it. I’m proud as hell to have that coin sitting in my dresser waiting to go into my wallet, because I can’t carry it with me for 7 more days. If anyone of you out there are reading this and wondering if you can actually quit and do it this time, I’m here to tell you, you can. 93 days ago I threw away 4 brand new cans of dip and started this journey with my quit brothers and sisters. The brotherhood and accountability work, but ONLY if you buy into the system and drink the koolaid a bit. Now, @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) might try to spike the koolaid just a bit, but I promise, we’re all right here, with you all. Proud to quit with you all, yesterday, today, and tomorrow. HoF, here I come!!

Damn proud of you Aaron, I could tell you were a great person from the start.  Pay it forward like I know you will, that is what puts the final nails in the quit coffin.  It ain't the prettiest shiny coin around, but it has been through some battles and ready for more.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: ChickDip on April 03, 2020, 02:08:41 PM
Day 93

Here it is. Probably final update before HoF. I’ve started to get more writing done on my HoF speech. The only downfall I’m having is fear it’s too long lmao. I’ve just had so many experiences here on KTC already in just under my first 100 days, it’s too much to talk about. But what’s the most important other than writing that speech is what I received in the mail yesterday afternoon, I got my HoF coin in the mail. Wow, I know right? A week early.....but you see, it’s not just any HoF coin and it’s early for a reason. See, the other day I was talking with @Skolvikings (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=70) about HoF and how excited I am about reaching this first goal, and mentioned I still need to buy my coin. What came next I wasn’t expecting, but he offered to send me his HoF coin he’s carried for SEVEN HUNDRED AND NINETEEN DAYS!! That’s an incredible journey for that coin and so many memories with it. I’m proud as hell to have that coin sitting in my dresser waiting to go into my wallet, because I can’t carry it with me for 7 more days. If anyone of you out there are reading this and wondering if you can actually quit and do it this time, I’m here to tell you, you can. 93 days ago I threw away 4 brand new cans of dip and started this journey with my quit brothers and sisters. The brotherhood and accountability work, but ONLY if you buy into the system and drink the koolaid a bit. Now, @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) might try to spike the koolaid just a bit, but I promise, we’re all right here, with you all. Proud to quit with you all, yesterday, today, and tomorrow. HoF, here I come!!

Damn proud of you Aaron, I could tell you were a great person from the start.  Pay it forward like I know you will, that is what puts the final nails in the quit coffin.  It ain't the prettiest shiny coin around, but it has been through some battles and ready for more.
This guy gets it!
That is awesome about the coin AAron
He's never going to see the same day count again.
Quit Hard! Cheers to the hof day coming.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on April 06, 2020, 12:33:20 AM
Random thought here.

Was doing a bit of late night reading here as I tend to do oh so often. I can’t quite remember who’s intro thread I happened to be reading, but the thought finally occurred to me after 96 days. I my kids will never have to grow up asking what’s that shit in your mouth dad. My son, who looks to be like me in every way, will never have to look at me as a role model for the nic bitch. My unborn child, who I have no idea if it’s going to be girl #3 or boy #2, will never have to worry about my getting angry because I haven’t had that morning or nightly pinch of bullshit. I’ll never be broken of these addict chains that forever bind me, BUT, damn does it feel good to have them loosened, if even for a minute. I love my kids more than life itself and I’m proud to say, I QUIT NICOTINE TODAY!
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: ankape on April 06, 2020, 01:48:17 AM
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My unborn child, who I have no idea if it’s going to be girl #3 or boy #2, will never have to worry about my getting angry because I haven’t had that morning or nightly pinch of bullshit.
And you’re free from the guilt that comes with this. Beautiful. PTQWY
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on April 06, 2020, 09:13:34 AM
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My unborn child, who I have no idea if it’s going to be girl #3 or boy #2, will never have to worry about my getting angry because I haven’t had that morning or nightly pinch of bullshit.
And you’re free from the guilt that comes with this. Beautiful. PTQWY
And that right there I think is the greatest part of this realization of mine. No more guilt, no more planning trips to the gas station, no more ninja dipping.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: olcpo on April 06, 2020, 11:28:19 AM
Random thought here.

Was doing a bit of late night reading here as I tend to do oh so often. I can’t quite remember who’s intro thread I happened to be reading, but the thought finally occurred to me after 96 days. I my kids will never have to grow up asking what’s that shit in your mouth dad. My son, who looks to be like me in every way, will never have to look at me as a role model for the nic bitch. My unborn child, who I have no idea if it’s going to be girl #3 or boy #2, will never have to worry about my getting angry because I haven’t had that morning or nightly pinch of bullshit. I’ll never be broken of these addict chains that forever bind me, BUT, damn does it feel good to have them loosened, if even for a minute. I love my kids more than life itself and I’m proud to say, I QUIT NICOTINE TODAY!
You have crawled through the fog and found the true values of this life. You are a Blessed and Wealthy Man. PTQWYT.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Zeus on April 06, 2020, 11:33:01 AM
Random thought here.

Was doing a bit of late night reading here as I tend to do oh so often. I can’t quite remember who’s intro thread I happened to be reading, but the thought finally occurred to me after 96 days. I my kids will never have to grow up asking what’s that shit in your mouth dad. My son, who looks to be like me in every way, will never have to look at me as a role model for the nic bitch. My unborn child, who I have no idea if it’s going to be girl #3 or boy #2, will never have to worry about my getting angry because I haven’t had that morning or nightly pinch of bullshit. I’ll never be broken of these addict chains that forever bind me, BUT, damn does it feel good to have them loosened, if even for a minute. I love my kids more than life itself and I’m proud to say, I QUIT NICOTINE TODAY!
You have crawled through the fog and found the true values of this life. You are a Blessed and Wealthy Man. PTQWYT.
Hear that, @ResetMyLife45 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=17269) ?? ^^^ That is how you put priorities in the right order.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: EXBEARHAG on April 07, 2020, 09:17:49 PM
Random thought here.

Was doing a bit of late night reading here as I tend to do oh so often. I can’t quite remember who’s intro thread I happened to be reading, but the thought finally occurred to me after 96 days. I my kids will never have to grow up asking what’s that shit in your mouth dad. My son, who looks to be like me in every way, will never have to look at me as a role model for the nic bitch. My unborn child, who I have no idea if it’s going to be girl #3 or boy #2, will never have to worry about my getting angry because I haven’t had that morning or nightly pinch of bullshit. I’ll never be broken of these addict chains that forever bind me, BUT, damn does it feel good to have them loosened, if even for a minute. I love my kids more than life itself and I’m proud to say, I QUIT NICOTINE TODAY!
You have crawled through the fog and found the true values of this life. You are a Blessed and Wealthy Man. PTQWYT.
Hear that, @ResetMyLife45 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=17269) ?? ^^^ That is how you put priorities in the right order.

That may have been one of my intro posts @A-Aron (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16449), although I'm sure there are many of us .  I selfishly put that shit in my face in front of my 4 kids for years...and they were plenty old enough to know I was doing something I should not have been.  Most likely the biggest regret in my life...being a fraud to my children.  Past is past though.  They now know the power of addiction and walk my quit path with me daily.  Hopefully I can redeem myself over time and, more importantly, they will walk a different path and will not make the same mistakes I made. 

Hold the line Brother
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on April 07, 2020, 09:38:52 PM
Random thought here.

Was doing a bit of late night reading here as I tend to do oh so often. I can’t quite remember who’s intro thread I happened to be reading, but the thought finally occurred to me after 96 days. I my kids will never have to grow up asking what’s that shit in your mouth dad. My son, who looks to be like me in every way, will never have to look at me as a role model for the nic bitch. My unborn child, who I have no idea if it’s going to be girl #3 or boy #2, will never have to worry about my getting angry because I haven’t had that morning or nightly pinch of bullshit. I’ll never be broken of these addict chains that forever bind me, BUT, damn does it feel good to have them loosened, if even for a minute. I love my kids more than life itself and I’m proud to say, I QUIT NICOTINE TODAY!
You have crawled through the fog and found the true values of this life. You are a Blessed and Wealthy Man. PTQWYT.
Hear that, @ResetMyLife45 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=17269) ?? ^^^ That is how you put priorities in the right order.

That may have been one of my intro posts @A-Aron (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16449), although I'm sure there are many of us .  I selfishly put that shit in my face in front of my 4 kids for years...and they were plenty old enough to know I was doing something I should not have been.  Most likely the biggest regret in my life...being a fraud to my children.  Past is past though.  They now know the power of addiction and walk my quit path with me daily.  Hopefully I can redeem myself over time and, more importantly, they will walk a different path and will not make the same mistakes I made. 

Hold the line Brother
@EXBEARHAG (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=14879)
You’re not wrong brother, I’ve read yours, bug guys, skols, and many others intros/threads. It gives me a lot of inspiration. My daughter used to get ahold of my can and hand it to me so I can put whatever in my mouth. I can’t believe I left it where she could get it before. But that’s the past, and I’m looking forward now. My youngest and my little one on the way will never know what their dad used to do. I appreciate the support man. Proud to be quit with you.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Athan on April 08, 2020, 06:52:54 AM
...My daughter used to get ahold of my can and hand it to me....
made me cringe! Right there with you bro. Onward to being better as a husband, father, and a man!
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Keith0617 on April 08, 2020, 09:35:47 AM
...My daughter used to get ahold of my can and hand it to me....
made me cringe! Right there with you bro. Onward to being better as a husband, father, and a man!
You have a great teaching tool for when your daughter is older. Sure she will be impressed and proud of you.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Skolvikings on April 10, 2020, 12:16:40 PM
100 Days!!!!!!!!!

Damn proud of you bro, welcome to the HOF.  Pay it forward, many more to help.  Proud to be in your corner.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on May 04, 2020, 01:12:11 PM
Day 124

Been a few weeks since I updated, I think the euphoria of HoF finally dissipated about a week ago finally. I've been super busy between my Army school for promotion and starting up my final class for my Associates. One thing I've noticed is that I rarely have cravings anymore or really any triggers. Even when I do feel a small trigger/crave, I just tend to not think about it for a few moments and it passes. By no means am I saying I've found the recipe for quitting, but by the grace of life, I've found reasons to remain quit, no matter what. There is nothing else in life that can be thrown at me that can make me want to cave and throw away 120+ days of quitting. It's something about being quit that instills such pride in myself. I love carrying my wallet on me again mainly because I know my HoF coin is inside of it. Guess that's all I got for now, updates come and go from here on out.

Aaron
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Cspence on May 05, 2020, 08:04:44 PM
Day 124

Been a few weeks since I updated, I think the euphoria of HoF finally dissipated about a week ago finally. I've been super busy between my Army school for promotion and starting up my final class for my Associates. One thing I've noticed is that I rarely have cravings anymore or really any triggers. Even when I do feel a small trigger/crave, I just tend to not think about it for a few moments and it passes. By no means am I saying I've found the recipe for quitting, but by the grace of life, I've found reasons to remain quit, no matter what. There is nothing else in life that can be thrown at me that can make me want to cave and throw away 120+ days of quitting. It's something about being quit that instills such pride in myself. I love carrying my wallet on me again mainly because I know my HoF coin is inside of it. Guess that's all I got for now, updates come and go from here on out.

Aaron
Congrats man! Great update. Keep up the awesome quit. Love reading success stories like this. Makes me want to stay quit even more.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on June 23, 2020, 11:28:24 PM
Day 174(almost 175)

I figured I’d come and put up another status update on life. This years been a curious one. Between everything I’ve experienced personally, to everything going on throughout the world, nothing has made me waver from my quit. I’ve had some amazing wins over these last 6 months. We found out the wife is pregnant(baby Nathaniel is doing great, 14 weeks to go), I got promoted to Sergeant in the Army on June 1st, and I continue to get up everyday and keep nicotine off the agenda. I haven’t had any real urges over the last few weeks, hell I can barely remember these few weeks, they’ve gone by so quickly. Also, I’ve had the amazing pleasure of conducting the Renegades during their HOF month. This has been challenging a bit with my work schedule, kids, and school, but it’s been an amazing feeling helping these amazing people hit such a great milestone. The best thing that’s happened is today actually. I finally graduated. I set a goal 1.5 years ago to finish start/finish my Associates Degree, Summa Cum Laude. Today I achieved that goal. I turned in my final project today and it’s such an amazing feeling. Well anyway, that’s all i got this time.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Keith0617 on June 24, 2020, 08:49:19 AM
Day 174(almost 175)

I figured I’d come and put up another status update on life. This years been a curious one. Between everything I’ve experienced personally, to everything going on throughout the world, nothing has made me waver from my quit. I’ve had some amazing wins over these last 6 months. We found out the wife is pregnant(baby Nathaniel is doing great, 14 weeks to go), I got promoted to Sergeant in the Army on June 1st, and I continue to get up everyday and keep nicotine off the agenda. I haven’t had any real urges over the last few weeks, hell I can barely remember these few weeks, they’ve gone by so quickly. Also, I’ve had the amazing pleasure of conducting the Renegades during their HOF month. This has been challenging a bit with my work schedule, kids, and school, but it’s been an amazing feeling helping these amazing people hit such a great milestone. The best thing that’s happened is today actually. I finally graduated. I set a goal 1.5 years ago to finish start/finish my Associates Degree, Summa Cum Laude. Today I achieved that goal. I turned in my final project today and it’s such an amazing feeling. Well anyway, that’s all i got this time.
Congrats @A-Aron (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=16449) and well done.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: Athan on June 26, 2020, 04:51:06 PM
...I set a goal ....
A-Aron my brother, there's nothing you can't do! You inspire me my man.
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on December 29, 2020, 07:48:01 PM
Day 362.

Hey everyone,

Been a minute. While some may care, others probably won’t, this isn’t a permanent me coming back. But it’s me poking my head back in to say, I’m still here, and I’m still quit. I’ve never get more solid in my quit, actually, nowadays, I barely remember I even dipped. I’ve long since forgotten what it’s like to have that lip full, or to go to the store for a quick can. I’ve replaced my bad habits with family time.

BIG UPDATE!

Nathanial Isaiah Green was born on October 6, 2020 weighing 9lbs 11.9oz. The biggest and healthiest baby boy ever. Boy has he gotten big, little dude is about 19lbs now at almost 3 months old(never misses a meal). I’m glad I shared a lot of the pregnancy journey with you all, he’s doing wonderful and has brought such completeness to this family.


Much love everyone, I hope you’re all doing well. If you need me, you know how to get ahold of me.

Aaron
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on December 31, 2020, 07:57:29 PM
Last words I Have



To anyone out there wondering if this site is worth it and you read this, I’m here to tell you it does. Now, while I may be inactive anymore and not on the site, that doesn’t mean I don’t believe in what it’s about. I would not be here at 364 days quit without this site, hell probably wouldn’t have made it 100+ at the time. This place is a safe haven, where people here know and understand your moods/cravings, but don’t think it doesn’t come without a price. That price is promising to everyday stray from the nicotine demon. Sounds easy right? Well, it’s not always, and when those not so easy days happen, it’s your choice to still stay away from the can. You can make the choice, it’s not that hard.

Now, to the Other side of my story. I quit KTC back in August of 2020. That’s not to say I don’t believe in the site, or what everyone is preaching here. I had to stray away from the site to strengthen my quit even more so. I can say without a doubt these last 4 months have been the easiest moments of my quit. I haven’t thought about dipping, haven’t thought about how I’m quit, I just lived. Spent moments with my wife, my kids, got to welcome in my newborn with an unassisted home birth! These milestones were amazing to be there for, and I’m thankful I’ve quit so I can continue to make more memories with my family, and not have to worry when the big cancer scare will happen.

So, to answer any doubts out there that anyone may be having about this site, IT IS WORTH IT. Get in here, post up, throw the cans away, and start feeling better about yourself, your health, and your life. You can do this just like so many more before me have.

A-Aron signing off. I’ll still be around, but not really posting much anymore either. Thanks for everything!
Title: Re: Day 1 of the long Road
Post by: A-Aron on January 02, 2022, 12:51:33 PM
Hey everyone!!

Just wanted to pop in for a few words. Today marks 2 years, 731 days of quit for me. I can’t even begin to describe the feeling I have swelling inside of me today. I couldn’t have done this alone. Not without my wife, my friends, but of all people, you all here in this forum. I definitely want to give a special shout-out to @Skolvikings (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=70) @Bug Guy (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1866) and @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258). You gifs were the pinnacles during my quit journey when I started. Even when I decided to go solo, neither of you turned your backs on me and left me out. Hope you all have a wonderful new year, let’s keep adding to those numbers.