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Title: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on January 20, 2021, 02:34:45 PM
Been more or less lurking on here since I decided to quit 28 days ago after close to 6 years of using. more or less been on cruise control since day 22. Visited the dentist around day 25 and aside from some cavities from drinking soda he had no concerns about my gums and such from. Praise the lord for small miracles.
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on January 20, 2021, 02:35:49 PM
Did notice a small sore on the corner of my mouth, but more than likely its from nervous biting or a symptom of the quit.
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: Thefranks5 on January 20, 2021, 05:04:26 PM
@macattack (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=19057) That is awesome you have gone 28 days on your own. Now head over here and post your promise daily, https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=16868.0 Follow the directions and you will do good. If you screw up don't worry somebody will fix it and point you in the right direction. We wupp here "wake up piss and post" and that way you won't forget your promise. Read up on the site and don't be nervous when people ask to swap digits. Having more then just a post is key to your quit. It takes a community to raise a child and it takes a community to keep us quit. If you want to swap digits only do it thru pms not here and if you want mine they are yours just ask. Welcome aboard and proud to be quit with you today.
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: SmokeyMountainExpress on January 20, 2021, 11:52:41 PM
@macattack (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=19057) Congrats on quitting.  I personally took around 50-60 days quit before I joined KTC.  I guarantee I would not of made it to where I am now if I didnt.  Do not let a couple of easy days fool you... Listen to Thefranks5 and join your group.  It’s only a matter of time before hard days come again, and your addict mind starts to play games.  The process here works... what do you have to lose?
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on February 17, 2021, 02:52:40 PM
@macattack (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=19057) Congrats on quitting.  I personally took around 50-60 days quit before I joined KTC.  I guarantee I would not of made it to where I am now if I didnt.  Do not let a couple of easy days fool you... Listen to Thefranks5 and join your group.  It’s only a matter of time before hard days come again, and your addict mind starts to play games.  The process here works... what do you have to lose?

Hopped on the train around day 45 and haven't looked back.
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on March 07, 2021, 09:56:10 AM
13 guests viewing the board, when are y’all going to man up and join the June 21 board. Rip that band aid off and quit today

https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=16943.msg8453974#new
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on March 07, 2021, 04:40:41 PM
12 guests lurking right now. What are y'all doing greasing your gators? Get in June 21 https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=16943.0 and stop being a slave to the nic b*tch
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on March 08, 2021, 08:42:03 AM
The funk has felt first for me than the first 10 days of my quit. Every symptom I had is 10x and I've had more cravings than carter has liver pills. Especially at 2am when  I can't sleep. I ended up ordering some Jake's Mint Chew last night just to give my mind some ease.

ODAAT
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: Keith0617 on March 08, 2021, 09:05:53 AM
The funk has felt first for me than the first 10 days of my quit. Every symptom I had is 10x and I've had more cravings than carter has liver pills. Especially at 2am when  I can't sleep. I ended up ordering some Jake's Mint Chew last night just to give my mind some ease.

ODAAT
@macattack (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=19057) it will get better. You body is just adjusting to the new you. The light will get brighter at the end of the tunnel. Just focus on today or maybe the next hour. You can do this. Reach out if I can help. Always happy to share digits.
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on March 08, 2021, 09:33:27 AM
The funk has felt first for me than the first 10 days of my quit. Every symptom I had is 10x and I've had more cravings than carter has liver pills. Especially at 2am when  I can't sleep. I ended up ordering some Jake's Mint Chew last night just to give my mind some ease.

ODAAT
@macattack (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=19057) it will get better. You body is just adjusting to the new you. The light will get brighter at the end of the tunnel. Just focus on today or maybe the next hour. You can do this. Reach out if I can help. Always happy to share digits.

Thanks @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) today is much better. last night was the first time I had cravings after midnight even with insomnia. Early on in my quit, it was the sore teeth and gums keeping me up all hours of the night
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: nick-Otine Free on March 08, 2021, 10:26:02 AM
The funk has felt first for me than the first 10 days of my quit. Every symptom I had is 10x and I've had more cravings than carter has liver pills. Especially at 2am when  I can't sleep. I ended up ordering some Jake's Mint Chew last night just to give my mind some ease.

ODAAT
@macattack (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=19057) it will get better. You body is just adjusting to the new you. The light will get brighter at the end of the tunnel. Just focus on today or maybe the next hour. You can do this. Reach out if I can help. Always happy to share digits.

Thanks @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) today is much better. last night was the first time I had cravings after midnight even with insomnia. Early on in my quit, it was the sore teeth and gums keeping me up all hours of the night
Keep on killing it brother, i have had all my symptoms since day 1 one my quit so maybe I'm just a little more use to it. it does get better everyday. less and less foggy days, sleeping is defiantly improving, but i struggle with hard craves every day and that awful headache and nausea in the morning is still at me. gum and the Fake have helped me so much. as has the wildcard section and reading on this site. APRIL STRONG !
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: 69franx on March 08, 2021, 11:19:59 AM
The funk has felt first for me than the first 10 days of my quit. Every symptom I had is 10x and I've had more cravings than carter has liver pills. Especially at 2am when  I can't sleep. I ended up ordering some Jake's Mint Chew last night just to give my mind some ease.

ODAAT
@macattack (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=19057) it will get better. You body is just adjusting to the new you. The light will get brighter at the end of the tunnel. Just focus on today or maybe the next hour. You can do this. Reach out if I can help. Always happy to share digits.

Thanks @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) today is much better. last night was the first time I had cravings after midnight even with insomnia. Early on in my quit, it was the sore teeth and gums keeping me up all hours of the night
Keep on killing it brother, i have had all my symptoms since day 1 one my quit so maybe I'm just a little more use to it. it does get better everyday. less and less foggy days, sleeping is defiantly improving, but i struggle with hard craves every day and that awful headache and nausea in the morning is still at me. gum and the Fake have helped me so much. as has the wildcard section and reading on this site. APRIL STRONG !
You got this Mac! Let us know what you think of the Jake's. I just picked more up again last month to deal with my cravings. I really like the cinnamon ones. I'd prefer the CBD pouches, but at over $12 per tin, no thanx
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on March 08, 2021, 11:30:32 AM
You got this Mac! Let us know what you think of the Jake's. I just picked more up again last month to deal with my cravings. I really like the cinnamon ones. I'd prefer the CBD pouches, but at over $12 per tin, no thanx

I picked up the mint pouches. I picked up the 30$ option. I think that's ten tins but I'm not entirely sure.  I used to use mint snus so hopefully this is comparable. I'll let you know!
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: 69franx on March 08, 2021, 03:35:31 PM
You got this Mac! Let us know what you think of the Jake's. I just picked more up again last month to deal with my cravings. I really like the cinnamon ones. I'd prefer the CBD pouches, but at over $12 per tin, no thanx

I picked up the mint pouches. I picked up the 30$ option. I think that's ten tins but I'm not entirely sure.  I used to use mint snus so hopefully this is comparable. I'll let you know!

I was a grizzly wintergreen pouch user, but the cinnamon pouches take care of any crave I feel
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on March 08, 2021, 05:48:24 PM
12 guests lurking right now. What are y'all doing greasing your gators? Get in June 21 https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=16943.0 and stop being a slave to the nic b*tch

14 guests right now. There’s no better time to quit than now. Are would you rather wait for the cancer diagnosis to quit?
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on March 08, 2021, 09:34:35 PM
12 guests lurking right now. What are y'all doing greasing your gators? Get in June 21 https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=16943.0 and stop being a slave to the nic b*tch

14 guests right now. There’s no better time to quit than now. Or would you rather wait for the cancer diagnosis to quit?
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on March 09, 2021, 09:08:23 AM
11 lurkers right now....you are not here by accident. Get in the June 21 group https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=16943.0 and stop killing yourself
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on March 09, 2021, 01:04:32 PM
the nic b*tch is sneaky. all kinds of anxiety going on, thanks @nick-Otine Free (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=19005) for being there to text. The funk seems to worse than the first 3 days for me.
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on March 09, 2021, 02:10:32 PM
kiss my pasty white a$$ nic b*tch. you aren't winning this battle.

This too shall pass
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on March 09, 2021, 03:18:38 PM
kiss my pasty white a$$ nic b*tch. you aren't winning this battle.

This too shall pass



'Finger' nic b*tch
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: EXBEARHAG on March 09, 2021, 08:36:14 PM
kiss my pasty white a$$ nic b*tch. you aren't winning this battle.

This too shall pass



'Finger' nic b*tch

Hang in there Mac.  Challenging minutes, hours, days, will come and go.  I too struggled for several months...and still have tough moments.  One thing I'm absolutely sure of:  It gets easier!!  Slowly.  But the light gets brighter.  Stick with your routine and reach out before you really need to.  You've got this and we'll be here, shoulder to shoulder, to hold the line with you.

Pleasure and an honor to be quit with you my friend.

~HAG
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on March 09, 2021, 11:09:19 PM
kiss my pasty white a$$ nic b*tch. you aren't winning this battle.

This too shall pass



'Finger' nic b*tch

Hang in there Mac.  Challenging minutes, hours, days, will come and go.  I too struggled for several months...and still have tough moments.  One thing I'm absolutely sure of:  It gets easier!!  Slowly.  But the light gets brighter.  Stick with your routine and reach out before you really need to.  You've got this and we'll be here, shoulder to shoulder, to hold the line with you.

Pleasure and an honor to be quit with you my friend.

~HAG

Thanks Hag,

I am finally having a bright spot before I go to bed. This was definitely one of my tougher days in my quit. Especially since the first week feels like an eternity ago. I held the line though and didn't give into the nic tho. I made a promise of NNT and what is a man without is word. Nothing if you ask me.
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: nick-Otine Free on March 10, 2021, 07:01:25 AM
kiss my pasty white a$$ nic b*tch. you aren't winning this battle.

This too shall pass



'Finger' nic b*tch

Hang in there Mac.  Challenging minutes, hours, days, will come and go.  I too struggled for several months...and still have tough moments.  One thing I'm absolutely sure of:  It gets easier!!  Slowly.  But the light gets brighter.  Stick with your routine and reach out before you really need to.  You've got this and we'll be here, shoulder to shoulder, to hold the line with you.

Pleasure and an honor to be quit with you my friend.

~HAG

Thanks Hag,

I am finally having a bright spot before I go to bed. This was definitely one of my tougher days in my quit. Especially since the first week feels like an eternity ago. I held the line though and didn't give into the nic tho. I made a promise of NNT and what is a man without is word. Nothing if you ask me.

Quote from:  MY BROTHER!! you got that straight and damn happy were on this journey of sobriety together! Its a honor to be quitting with you EDD! LTBE [/quote
and what is a man without is word. Nothing if you ask me.
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on March 10, 2021, 11:40:32 AM
Better day today. No anxiety, but have a tension headache going on in the back of my head. Jakes Chew is supposed to arrive today. Looking forward to that.
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: nick-Otine Free on March 10, 2021, 11:52:02 AM
Better day today. No anxiety, but have a tension headache going on in the back of my head. Jakes Chew is supposed to arrive today. Looking forward to that.
hope that headache pass by brother ive had it for awhile , lucky its only the first 15 min of every morn
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on March 10, 2021, 04:01:16 PM
jakes mint finally made it. threw one in and it did not disappoint
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: nick-Otine Free on March 10, 2021, 06:02:34 PM
jakes mint finally made it. threw one in and it did not disappoint
sweet release , sometimes it’s just what ya need to get you out of your crave! It’s the little things
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: 69franx on March 11, 2021, 05:51:48 PM
jakes mint finally made it. threw one in and it did not disappoint
sweet release , sometimes it’s just what ya need to get you out of your crave! It’s the little things
Never be scared to use whatever you need to beat down a crave
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on March 15, 2021, 10:09:37 AM
11 lurkers right now....you are not here by accident. Get in the June 21 group https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=16943.0 and stop killing yourself

12 lurkers this morning
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: Athan on March 15, 2021, 10:40:04 AM
Glad you’re here macattack. I get the feeling you’d make cleaning outhouses fun.
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on March 15, 2021, 01:53:52 PM
Glad you’re here macattack. I get the feeling you’d make cleaning outhouses fun.

you can make the best of it or the worst of it. I always try to make the best of it
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on March 16, 2021, 01:00:41 PM
I want to rip my jaw off on day 84 so that's fun. Fake dip seems to be alleviating the cravings, but wowza
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: JeffH4257 on March 16, 2021, 01:25:10 PM
I want to rip my jaw off on day 84 so that's fun. Fake dip seems to be alleviating the cravings, but wowza

Yeah, you are in the shit my man.  The 80's were bad for me.  But guess what?  It really does get better.  ODAAT.
I still pound water when I feel a crave, which are subsiding each and every day. 

Also a change of scenery helps too.  Get outside if possible.  During my lunch I either walk or jog sometimes.  Helps me a lot.

Anyway, Proud to be quit with you mac.

-Jeff
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: oldschool on March 16, 2021, 01:30:57 PM
I want to rip my jaw off on day 84 so that's fun. Fake dip seems to be alleviating the cravings, but wowza

Yep!  You will have good weeks of smooth sailing, and bad weeks of "I can't believe I'm still going through this shit".  The one thing I can tell you is it does get better.  It might not happen immediately like we all want it to, but it will happen gradually over time.  I'm 891 quit today, and last week was one of the shittiest weeks I have had in quite awhile.  I told my wife, "I can't believe it I have been on cruise control for months and now this!". 

Keep blogging it out, and reach out when you need someone to help you get through it.

oldschool
quit and free
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on March 17, 2021, 11:36:21 AM
the hold this addiction and the nic b*tch has on you is amazing....I feel like I have more cravings now than I did when I first quit. The fog might have been a factor then, but the last two weeks I've had cravings what feels like every two days
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on March 17, 2021, 11:45:21 AM
the hold this addiction and the nic b*tch has on you is amazing....I feel like I have more cravings now than I did when I first quit. The fog might have been a factor then, but the last two weeks I've had cravings what feels like every two days
Also what I thought cravings would be like and what they are actually like are two different things. I thought they’d be more mental (at times they can be) but I’ve had a lot of physical cravings of my mouth feeling off until I throw fake dip in and then things feel fine afterwards
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: Hill_Monkey on March 17, 2021, 12:01:39 PM
the hold this addiction and the nic b*tch has on you is amazing....I feel like I have more cravings now than I did when I first quit. The fog might have been a factor then, but the last two weeks I've had cravings what feels like every two days
Also what I thought cravings would be like and what they are actually like are two different things. I thought they’d be more mental (at times they can be) but I’ve had a lot of physical cravings of my mouth feeling off until I throw fake dip in and then things feel fine afterwards


I'm 158 days in and my mouth is still fucky. I don't get why.
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on March 17, 2021, 12:59:58 PM
the hold this addiction and the nic b*tch has on you is amazing....I feel like I have more cravings now than I did when I first quit. The fog might have been a factor then, but the last two weeks I've had cravings what feels like every two days
Also what I thought cravings would be like and what they are actually like are two different things. I thought they’d be more mental (at times they can be) but I’ve had a lot of physical cravings of my mouth feeling off until I throw fake dip in and then things feel fine afterwards
I'm 158 days in and my mouth is still fucky. I don't get why.

I would assume that our mouth/mind still isn't used to not doing something we did for years/decades. Plenty of veterans attest it does get better. I'm just amazed and how my body has reacted. I always assumed in the past, quitting would entail being stronger than a mental urge but its been so much more than that
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: JeffH4257 on March 17, 2021, 04:00:10 PM
the hold this addiction and the nic b*tch has on you is amazing....I feel like I have more cravings now than I did when I first quit. The fog might have been a factor then, but the last two weeks I've had cravings what feels like every two days
Also what I thought cravings would be like and what they are actually like are two different things. I thought they’d be more mental (at times they can be) but I’ve had a lot of physical cravings of my mouth feeling off until I throw fake dip in and then things feel fine afterwards
I'm 158 days in and my mouth is still fucky. I don't get why.

I would assume that our mouth/mind still isn't used to not doing something we did for years/decades. Plenty of veterans attest it does get better. I'm just amazed and how my body has reacted. I always assumed in the past, quitting would entail being stronger than a mental urge but its been so much more than that

Just don't go wandering off into the woods for 3 days like WrestlingAddiction did. 

I will tell you that the years of damage we did to our mouths and bodies is going to take a hell of a lot longer to correct than 100, 200 days.  I would bet that there is a mathematical formula for it. 

Way to keep holding the line Mac!  You are a beacon of light for all of us quitters.  We all feel/felt those same pains.

It gets better.  Trust me.  PTBQWYT.

-Jeff
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: Thefranks5 on March 17, 2021, 06:03:39 PM
the hold this addiction and the nic b*tch has on you is amazing....I feel like I have more cravings now than I did when I first quit. The fog might have been a factor then, but the last two weeks I've had cravings what feels like every two days
Also what I thought cravings would be like and what they are actually like are two different things. I thought they’d be more mental (at times they can be) but I’ve had a lot of physical cravings of my mouth feeling off until I throw fake dip in and then things feel fine afterwards
I'm 158 days in and my mouth is still fucky. I don't get why.

I would assume that our mouth/mind still isn't used to not doing something we did for years/decades. Plenty of veterans attest it does get better. I'm just amazed and how my body has reacted. I always assumed in the past, quitting would entail being stronger than a mental urge but its been so much more than that

Just don't go wandering off into the woods for 3 days like WrestlingAddiction did. 

I will tell you that the years of damage we did to our mouths and bodies is going to take a hell of a lot longer to correct than 100, 200 days.  I would bet that there is a mathematical formula for it. 

Way to keep holding the line Mac!  You are a beacon of light for all of us quitters.  We all feel/felt those same pains.

It gets better.  Trust me.  PTBQWYT.

-Jeff
378 days for me and I still feel that way with the mouth. I had actually quit fake for a month in my early 200's to get my reflux in check and that was just as bad as first 30 days. I like to have the fake but it does instigate my reflux from either the cayenne in smokey mountain or the vinegar in baccoff. I had a vet in the comma club tell me he even has the fog and craves show up so it happens. It does get easier and I know because now I can fight thru even without the fake but it does make it better. Keep pushing thru knowing that it gets better and will be easier. Keep posting here and don't be afraid to reach out to others if you have their digits. Find an outlet even if it distracts you for a few minutes and set goals for yourself. I drive alot for my job and I had set mileage goals the first year because staring at that windshield really sucked for distractions. We have some great people here that are willing to help and if you need anything let me know. Now I will copy what Jeff did and put my name below which I like as its more personal that way.

Doug
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: nick-Otine Free on March 17, 2021, 06:52:51 PM
the hold this addiction and the nic b*tch has on you is amazing....I feel like I have more cravings now than I did when I first quit. The fog might have been a factor then, but the last two weeks I've had cravings what feels like every two days
Also what I thought cravings would be like and what they are actually like are two different things. I thought they’d be more mental (at times they can be) but I’ve had a lot of physical cravings of my mouth feeling off until I throw fake dip in and then things feel fine afterwards
I'm 158 days in and my mouth is still fucky. I don't get why.

I would assume that our mouth/mind still isn't used to not doing something we did for years/decades. Plenty of veterans attest it does get better. I'm just amazed and how my body has reacted. I always assumed in the past, quitting would entail being stronger than a mental urge but its been so much more than that

Just don't go wandering off into the woods for 3 days like WrestlingAddiction did. 

I will tell you that the years of damage we did to our mouths and bodies is going to take a hell of a lot longer to correct than 100, 200 days.  I would bet that there is a mathematical formula for it. 

Way to keep holding the line Mac!  You are a beacon of light for all of us quitters.  We all feel/felt those same pains.

It gets better.  Trust me.  PTBQWYT.

-Jeff
378 days for me and I still feel that way with the mouth. I had actually quit fake for a month in my early 200's to get my reflux in check and that was just as bad as first 30 days. I like to have the fake but it does instigate my reflux from either the cayenne in smokey mountain or the vinegar in baccoff. I had a vet in the comma club tell me he even has the fog and craves show up so it happens. It does get easier and I know because now I can fight thru even without the fake but it does make it better. Keep pushing thru knowing that it gets better and will be easier. Keep posting here and don't be afraid to reach out to others if you have their digits. Find an outlet even if it distracts you for a few minutes and set goals for yourself. I drive alot for my job and I had set mileage goals the first year because staring at that windshield really sucked for distractions. We have some great people here that are willing to help and if you need anything let me know. Now I will copy what Jeff did and put my name below which I like as its more personal that way.

Doug
y’all are some badass quitters , we in the suck and that’s sucks #suckon Mac suckon!                                   -nick-
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: AppleJack on March 18, 2021, 10:34:26 AM
the hold this addiction and the nic b*tch has on you is amazing....I feel like I have more cravings now than I did when I first quit. The fog might have been a factor then, but the last two weeks I've had cravings what feels like every two days
Also what I thought cravings would be like and what they are actually like are two different things. I thought they’d be more mental (at times they can be) but I’ve had a lot of physical cravings of my mouth feeling off until I throw fake dip in and then things feel fine afterwards
I'm 158 days in and my mouth is still fucky. I don't get why.

I would assume that our mouth/mind still isn't used to not doing something we did for years/decades. Plenty of veterans attest it does get better. I'm just amazed and how my body has reacted. I always assumed in the past, quitting would entail being stronger than a mental urge but its been so much more than that

Just don't go wandering off into the woods for 3 days like WrestlingAddiction did. 

I will tell you that the years of damage we did to our mouths and bodies is going to take a hell of a lot longer to correct than 100, 200 days.  I would bet that there is a mathematical formula for it. 

Way to keep holding the line Mac!  You are a beacon of light for all of us quitters.  We all feel/felt those same pains.

It gets better.  Trust me.  PTBQWYT.

-Jeff
378 days for me and I still feel that way with the mouth. I had actually quit fake for a month in my early 200's to get my reflux in check and that was just as bad as first 30 days. I like to have the fake but it does instigate my reflux from either the cayenne in smokey mountain or the vinegar in baccoff. I had a vet in the comma club tell me he even has the fog and craves show up so it happens. It does get easier and I know because now I can fight thru even without the fake but it does make it better. Keep pushing thru knowing that it gets better and will be easier. Keep posting here and don't be afraid to reach out to others if you have their digits. Find an outlet even if it distracts you for a few minutes and set goals for yourself. I drive alot for my job and I had set mileage goals the first year because staring at that windshield really sucked for distractions. We have some great people here that are willing to help and if you need anything let me know. Now I will copy what Jeff did and put my name below which I like as its more personal that way.

Doug
y’all are some badass quitters , we in the suck and that’s sucks #suckon Mac suckon!                                   -nick-
I’m kinda diggin’ this little convo. It 100% reminds us old heads of that part of quitting we do NOT want to have to deal with again!

Funks suck.
Healing sucks.
White knuckling sucks.

But as has been said... if you want freedom from this you have to pay the price. What you guys are going through is forging your quit for the rest of your lives and... your personality in a way that will constantly be revealing itself. Each quitters timeline is so different. I wish there WAS a sharply defined timeline we could get out there... it certainly would feel better than just a “hang in there” sometimes but... life ain’t tidy like that.

It gets better.
It really does.
And in ways that will surprise you.

I finally felt solid close to the time I hit 500ish. Like... ok, yeah, this is easy. This is goooood. I’m about a HOF away from 3,000 right now and let me tell ya... it’s no effort to be quit. I’m done “quitting”... I’m Quit. Easy is the wrong word anymore because, like you guys are doing now, I put in the work and I mucked through the suck and I owned it. Easy? Nah... normal. The new normal, I guess.

Anyway... I ramble. Rock on, bros. QLF.
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on March 18, 2021, 10:52:14 AM
the hold this addiction and the nic b*tch has on you is amazing....I feel like I have more cravings now than I did when I first quit. The fog might have been a factor then, but the last two weeks I've had cravings what feels like every two days
Also what I thought cravings would be like and what they are actually like are two different things. I thought they’d be more mental (at times they can be) but I’ve had a lot of physical cravings of my mouth feeling off until I throw fake dip in and then things feel fine afterwards
I'm 158 days in and my mouth is still fucky. I don't get why.

I would assume that our mouth/mind still isn't used to not doing something we did for years/decades. Plenty of veterans attest it does get better. I'm just amazed and how my body has reacted. I always assumed in the past, quitting would entail being stronger than a mental urge but its been so much more than that

Just don't go wandering off into the woods for 3 days like WrestlingAddiction did. 

I will tell you that the years of damage we did to our mouths and bodies is going to take a hell of a lot longer to correct than 100, 200 days.  I would bet that there is a mathematical formula for it. 

Way to keep holding the line Mac!  You are a beacon of light for all of us quitters.  We all feel/felt those same pains.

It gets better.  Trust me.  PTBQWYT.

-Jeff
378 days for me and I still feel that way with the mouth. I had actually quit fake for a month in my early 200's to get my reflux in check and that was just as bad as first 30 days. I like to have the fake but it does instigate my reflux from either the cayenne in smokey mountain or the vinegar in baccoff. I had a vet in the comma club tell me he even has the fog and craves show up so it happens. It does get easier and I know because now I can fight thru even without the fake but it does make it better. Keep pushing thru knowing that it gets better and will be easier. Keep posting here and don't be afraid to reach out to others if you have their digits. Find an outlet even if it distracts you for a few minutes and set goals for yourself. I drive alot for my job and I had set mileage goals the first year because staring at that windshield really sucked for distractions. We have some great people here that are willing to help and if you need anything let me know. Now I will copy what Jeff did and put my name below which I like as its more personal that way.

Doug
y’all are some badass quitters , we in the suck and that’s sucks #suckon Mac suckon!                                   -nick-
I’m kinda diggin’ this little convo. It 100% reminds us old heads of that part of quitting we do NOT want to have to deal with again!

Funks suck.
Healing sucks.
White knuckling sucks.

But as has been said... if you want freedom from this you have to pay the price. What you guys are going through is forging your quit for the rest of your lives and... your personality in a way that will constantly be revealing itself. Each quitters timeline is so different. I wish there WAS a sharply defined timeline we could get out there... it certainly would feel better than just a “hang in there” sometimes but... life ain’t tidy like that.

It gets better.
It really does.
And in ways that will surprise you.

I finally felt solid close to the time I hit 500ish. Like... ok, yeah, this is easy. This is goooood. I’m about a HOF away from 3,000 right now and let me tell ya... it’s no effort to be quit. I’m done “quitting”... I’m Quit. Easy is the wrong word anymore because, like you guys are doing now, I put in the work and I mucked through the suck and I owned it. Easy? Nah... normal. The new normal, I guess.

Anyway... I ramble. Rock on, bros. QLF.

Some days are better than others. But that's how life is in general. I'm still adjusting to the new normal and adjusting to it. glad to be apart of this brotherhood. for sure don't ever want to have to deal with this ever again and I am still in the midst of it.
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: GS9502 on March 18, 2021, 01:19:14 PM
the hold this addiction and the nic b*tch has on you is amazing....I feel like I have more cravings now than I did when I first quit. The fog might have been a factor then, but the last two weeks I've had cravings what feels like every two days
Also what I thought cravings would be like and what they are actually like are two different things. I thought they’d be more mental (at times they can be) but I’ve had a lot of physical cravings of my mouth feeling off until I throw fake dip in and then things feel fine afterwards
I'm 158 days in and my mouth is still fucky. I don't get why.

I would assume that our mouth/mind still isn't used to not doing something we did for years/decades. Plenty of veterans attest it does get better. I'm just amazed and how my body has reacted. I always assumed in the past, quitting would entail being stronger than a mental urge but its been so much more than that

Just don't go wandering off into the woods for 3 days like WrestlingAddiction did. 

I will tell you that the years of damage we did to our mouths and bodies is going to take a hell of a lot longer to correct than 100, 200 days.  I would bet that there is a mathematical formula for it. 

Way to keep holding the line Mac!  You are a beacon of light for all of us quitters.  We all feel/felt those same pains.

It gets better.  Trust me.  PTBQWYT.

-Jeff
378 days for me and I still feel that way with the mouth. I had actually quit fake for a month in my early 200's to get my reflux in check and that was just as bad as first 30 days. I like to have the fake but it does instigate my reflux from either the cayenne in smokey mountain or the vinegar in baccoff. I had a vet in the comma club tell me he even has the fog and craves show up so it happens. It does get easier and I know because now I can fight thru even without the fake but it does make it better. Keep pushing thru knowing that it gets better and will be easier. Keep posting here and don't be afraid to reach out to others if you have their digits. Find an outlet even if it distracts you for a few minutes and set goals for yourself. I drive alot for my job and I had set mileage goals the first year because staring at that windshield really sucked for distractions. We have some great people here that are willing to help and if you need anything let me know. Now I will copy what Jeff did and put my name below which I like as its more personal that way.

Doug
y’all are some badass quitters , we in the suck and that’s sucks #suckon Mac suckon!                                   -nick-
I’m kinda diggin’ this little convo. It 100% reminds us old heads of that part of quitting we do NOT want to have to deal with again!

Funks suck.
Healing sucks.
White knuckling sucks.

But as has been said... if you want freedom from this you have to pay the price. What you guys are going through is forging your quit for the rest of your lives and... your personality in a way that will constantly be revealing itself. Each quitters timeline is so different. I wish there WAS a sharply defined timeline we could get out there... it certainly would feel better than just a “hang in there” sometimes but... life ain’t tidy like that.

It gets better.
It really does.
And in ways that will surprise you.

I finally felt solid close to the time I hit 500ish. Like... ok, yeah, this is easy. This is goooood. I’m about a HOF away from 3,000 right now and let me tell ya... it’s no effort to be quit. I’m done “quitting”... I’m Quit. Easy is the wrong word anymore because, like you guys are doing now, I put in the work and I mucked through the suck and I owned it. Easy? Nah... normal. The new normal, I guess.

Anyway... I ramble. Rock on, bros. QLF.

Some days are better than others. But that's how life is in general. I'm still adjusting to the new normal and adjusting to it. glad to be apart of this brotherhood. for sure don't ever want to have to deal with this ever again and I am still in the midst of it.
It does get better. We conditioned our bodies to want the dip, and the dip conditioned our minds to need the nicotine. Man, it's a wicked cycle. We do it because. I couldn't tell you the last time I got that good relaxed, almost buzzing feeling from dip. It was years, I'm sure, mainly because I never let myself go too long without a dip. Not even while I was asleep.

You may be in the midst of a royal mindfuck right now. The Nic bitch is crazy; she's whispering in your ear one minute, tickling your lip the next, and winding up to punch you in the skull when you don't give in.

Don't listen to the whisper. Ignore that tickle. Take that beating. With every daily promise, with every HOF speech read, with every text with a KTC brother or sister, you are getting stronger and solidifying your quit. You're right. Day 1 again? Fuck that. Be here, where you are, today. That's all that matters. PTBQWY.
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on March 18, 2021, 01:42:21 PM
the hold this addiction and the nic b*tch has on you is amazing....I feel like I have more cravings now than I did when I first quit. The fog might have been a factor then, but the last two weeks I've had cravings what feels like every two days
Also what I thought cravings would be like and what they are actually like are two different things. I thought they’d be more mental (at times they can be) but I’ve had a lot of physical cravings of my mouth feeling off until I throw fake dip in and then things feel fine afterwards
I'm 158 days in and my mouth is still fucky. I don't get why.

I would assume that our mouth/mind still isn't used to not doing something we did for years/decades. Plenty of veterans attest it does get better. I'm just amazed and how my body has reacted. I always assumed in the past, quitting would entail being stronger than a mental urge but its been so much more than that

Just don't go wandering off into the woods for 3 days like WrestlingAddiction did. 

I will tell you that the years of damage we did to our mouths and bodies is going to take a hell of a lot longer to correct than 100, 200 days.  I would bet that there is a mathematical formula for it. 

Way to keep holding the line Mac!  You are a beacon of light for all of us quitters.  We all feel/felt those same pains.

It gets better.  Trust me.  PTBQWYT.

-Jeff
378 days for me and I still feel that way with the mouth. I had actually quit fake for a month in my early 200's to get my reflux in check and that was just as bad as first 30 days. I like to have the fake but it does instigate my reflux from either the cayenne in smokey mountain or the vinegar in baccoff. I had a vet in the comma club tell me he even has the fog and craves show up so it happens. It does get easier and I know because now I can fight thru even without the fake but it does make it better. Keep pushing thru knowing that it gets better and will be easier. Keep posting here and don't be afraid to reach out to others if you have their digits. Find an outlet even if it distracts you for a few minutes and set goals for yourself. I drive alot for my job and I had set mileage goals the first year because staring at that windshield really sucked for distractions. We have some great people here that are willing to help and if you need anything let me know. Now I will copy what Jeff did and put my name below which I like as its more personal that way.

Doug
y’all are some badass quitters , we in the suck and that’s sucks #suckon Mac suckon!                                   -nick-
I’m kinda diggin’ this little convo. It 100% reminds us old heads of that part of quitting we do NOT want to have to deal with again!

Funks suck.
Healing sucks.
White knuckling sucks.

But as has been said... if you want freedom from this you have to pay the price. What you guys are going through is forging your quit for the rest of your lives and... your personality in a way that will constantly be revealing itself. Each quitters timeline is so different. I wish there WAS a sharply defined timeline we could get out there... it certainly would feel better than just a “hang in there” sometimes but... life ain’t tidy like that.

It gets better.
It really does.
And in ways that will surprise you.

I finally felt solid close to the time I hit 500ish. Like... ok, yeah, this is easy. This is goooood. I’m about a HOF away from 3,000 right now and let me tell ya... it’s no effort to be quit. I’m done “quitting”... I’m Quit. Easy is the wrong word anymore because, like you guys are doing now, I put in the work and I mucked through the suck and I owned it. Easy? Nah... normal. The new normal, I guess.

Anyway... I ramble. Rock on, bros. QLF.

Some days are better than others. But that's how life is in general. I'm still adjusting to the new normal and adjusting to it. glad to be apart of this brotherhood. for sure don't ever want to have to deal with this ever again and I am still in the midst of it.
It does get better. We conditioned our bodies to want the dip, and the dip conditioned our minds to need the nicotine. Man, it's a wicked cycle. We do it because. I couldn't tell you the last time I got that good relaxed, almost buzzing feeling from dip. It was years, I'm sure, mainly because I never let myself go too long without a dip. Not even while I was asleep.

You may be in the midst of a royal mindfuck right now. The Nic bitch is crazy; she's whispering in your ear one minute, tickling your lip the next, and winding up to punch you in the skull when you don't give in.

Don't listen to the whisper. Ignore that tickle. Take that beating. With every daily promise, with every HOF speech read, with every text with a KTC brother or sister, you are getting stronger and solidifying your quit. You're right. Day 1 again? Fuck that. Be here, where you are, today. That's all that matters. PTBQWY.

Fuck Day 1 100% Experiencing the quit so far has been enough to last me 100 lifetimes. I don't want to be a slave to the nic b*tch, a dead plant or experience any of that all over again
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: Hill_Monkey on March 18, 2021, 02:18:57 PM
the hold this addiction and the nic b*tch has on you is amazing....I feel like I have more cravings now than I did when I first quit. The fog might have been a factor then, but the last two weeks I've had cravings what feels like every two days
Also what I thought cravings would be like and what they are actually like are two different things. I thought they’d be more mental (at times they can be) but I’ve had a lot of physical cravings of my mouth feeling off until I throw fake dip in and then things feel fine afterwards
I'm 158 days in and my mouth is still fucky. I don't get why.

I would assume that our mouth/mind still isn't used to not doing something we did for years/decades. Plenty of veterans attest it does get better. I'm just amazed and how my body has reacted. I always assumed in the past, quitting would entail being stronger than a mental urge but its been so much more than that

Just don't go wandering off into the woods for 3 days like WrestlingAddiction did. 

I will tell you that the years of damage we did to our mouths and bodies is going to take a hell of a lot longer to correct than 100, 200 days.  I would bet that there is a mathematical formula for it. 

Way to keep holding the line Mac!  You are a beacon of light for all of us quitters.  We all feel/felt those same pains.

It gets better.  Trust me.  PTBQWYT.

-Jeff
378 days for me and I still feel that way with the mouth. I had actually quit fake for a month in my early 200's to get my reflux in check and that was just as bad as first 30 days. I like to have the fake but it does instigate my reflux from either the cayenne in smokey mountain or the vinegar in baccoff. I had a vet in the comma club tell me he even has the fog and craves show up so it happens. It does get easier and I know because now I can fight thru even without the fake but it does make it better. Keep pushing thru knowing that it gets better and will be easier. Keep posting here and don't be afraid to reach out to others if you have their digits. Find an outlet even if it distracts you for a few minutes and set goals for yourself. I drive alot for my job and I had set mileage goals the first year because staring at that windshield really sucked for distractions. We have some great people here that are willing to help and if you need anything let me know. Now I will copy what Jeff did and put my name below which I like as its more personal that way.

Doug
y’all are some badass quitters , we in the suck and that’s sucks #suckon Mac suckon!                                   -nick-
I’m kinda diggin’ this little convo. It 100% reminds us old heads of that part of quitting we do NOT want to have to deal with again!

Funks suck.
Healing sucks.
White knuckling sucks.

But as has been said... if you want freedom from this you have to pay the price. What you guys are going through is forging your quit for the rest of your lives and... your personality in a way that will constantly be revealing itself. Each quitters timeline is so different. I wish there WAS a sharply defined timeline we could get out there... it certainly would feel better than just a “hang in there” sometimes but... life ain’t tidy like that.

It gets better.
It really does.
And in ways that will surprise you.

I finally felt solid close to the time I hit 500ish. Like... ok, yeah, this is easy. This is goooood. I’m about a HOF away from 3,000 right now and let me tell ya... it’s no effort to be quit. I’m done “quitting”... I’m Quit. Easy is the wrong word anymore because, like you guys are doing now, I put in the work and I mucked through the suck and I owned it. Easy? Nah... normal. The new normal, I guess.

Anyway... I ramble. Rock on, bros. QLF.

Some days are better than others. But that's how life is in general. I'm still adjusting to the new normal and adjusting to it. glad to be apart of this brotherhood. for sure don't ever want to have to deal with this ever again and I am still in the midst of it.
It does get better. We conditioned our bodies to want the dip, and the dip conditioned our minds to need the nicotine. Man, it's a wicked cycle. We do it because. I couldn't tell you the last time I got that good relaxed, almost buzzing feeling from dip. It was years, I'm sure, mainly because I never let myself go too long without a dip. Not even while I was asleep.

You may be in the midst of a royal mindfuck right now. The Nic bitch is crazy; she's whispering in your ear one minute, tickling your lip the next, and winding up to punch you in the skull when you don't give in.

Don't listen to the whisper. Ignore that tickle. Take that beating. With every daily promise, with every HOF speech read, with every text with a KTC brother or sister, you are getting stronger and solidifying your quit. You're right. Day 1 again? Fuck that. Be here, where you are, today. That's all that matters. PTBQWY.

Good info, thanks for chiming in vets.
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on March 22, 2021, 08:51:29 AM
Allergies hitting me like a brick, congested head. On top of that I have been sleeping weird so my neck is super stiff aside from that going through a rainbow period in my quit.
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: nick-Otine Free on March 22, 2021, 09:10:32 AM
Allergies hitting me like a brick, congested head. On top of that I have been sleeping weird so my neck is super stiff aside from that going through a rainbow period in my quit.
Have your tried sleeping on your back?
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on March 22, 2021, 09:20:49 AM
Allergies hitting me like a brick, congested head. On top of that I have been sleeping weird so my neck is super stiff aside from that going through a rainbow period in my quit.
Have your tried sleeping on your back?

tried that last night. not so sore today. would just love a day where I feel like I'm 100%. Feel like my body is breaking down now that I am over 30
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on March 22, 2021, 03:25:58 PM
probably feeling right now the best I have felt in several days *knock on wood.
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: 69franx on March 22, 2021, 05:15:43 PM
Allergies hitting me like a brick, congested head. On top of that I have been sleeping weird so my neck is super stiff aside from that going through a rainbow period in my quit.
Have your tried sleeping on your back?

tried that last night. not so sore today. would just love a day where I feel like I'm 100%. Feel like my body is breaking down now that I am over 30
Wait till your 51 brother. 6 hours on my feet at Disney is essentially torture; and cruel and unusual punishment
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on March 23, 2021, 10:04:27 AM
Allergies hitting me like a brick, congested head. On top of that I have been sleeping weird so my neck is super stiff aside from that going through a rainbow period in my quit.
Have your tried sleeping on your back?

tried that last night. not so sore today. would just love a day where I feel like I'm 100%. Feel like my body is breaking down now that I am over 30
Wait till your 51 brother. 6 hours on my feet at Disney is essentially torture; and cruel and unusual punishment
I never realized how much worry and anxiety I had. Every little pain or itch I have my mind automatically goes to worst case scenario. I don't remember ever having this mindset pre-quit
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: Keith0617 on March 23, 2021, 11:26:16 AM
Allergies hitting me like a brick, congested head. On top of that I have been sleeping weird so my neck is super stiff aside from that going through a rainbow period in my quit.
Have your tried sleeping on your back?

tried that last night. not so sore today. would just love a day where I feel like I'm 100%. Feel like my body is breaking down now that I am over 30
Wait till your 51 brother. 6 hours on my feet at Disney is essentially torture; and cruel and unusual punishment
I never realized how much worry and anxiety I had. Every little pain or itch I have my mind automatically goes to worst case scenario. I don't remember ever having this mindset pre-quit
Your body is just adjusting to the new normal - it is a process. I know it is hard to hear, but give it time. The new you is going to be the best version ever. I still remember the times you are experiencing. That is why I WUPP EDD, I am never going back. The light will get brighter and the new norm will put a smile on your face. Just going to have to patience my brother and trust the process.

Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on March 23, 2021, 01:00:19 PM
Allergies hitting me like a brick, congested head. On top of that I have been sleeping weird so my neck is super stiff aside from that going through a rainbow period in my quit.
Have your tried sleeping on your back?

tried that last night. not so sore today. would just love a day where I feel like I'm 100%. Feel like my body is breaking down now that I am over 30
Wait till your 51 brother. 6 hours on my feet at Disney is essentially torture; and cruel and unusual punishment
I never realized how much worry and anxiety I had. Every little pain or itch I have my mind automatically goes to worst case scenario. I don't remember ever having this mindset pre-quit
Your body is just adjusting to the new normal - it is a process. I know it is hard to hear, but give it time. The new you is going to be the best version ever. I still remember the times you are experiencing. That is why I WUPP EDD, I am never going back. The light will get brighter and the new norm will put a smile on your face. Just going to have to patience my brother and trust the process.

I never am going back. all the stress I have now isn't worth it, there are also countless other reasons why I will never go back. I just never realized what healing would actually be like. The idea I had of what quitting would be like is totally different than what has happened over the past 91 days
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: Thefranks5 on March 23, 2021, 04:52:30 PM
Allergies hitting me like a brick, congested head. On top of that I have been sleeping weird so my neck is super stiff aside from that going through a rainbow period in my quit.
Have your tried sleeping on your back?

tried that last night. not so sore today. would just love a day where I feel like I'm 100%. Feel like my body is breaking down now that I am over 30
Wait till your 51 brother. 6 hours on my feet at Disney is essentially torture; and cruel and unusual punishment
I never realized how much worry and anxiety I had. Every little pain or itch I have my mind automatically goes to worst case scenario. I don't remember ever having this mindset pre-quit
Your body is just adjusting to the new normal - it is a process. I know it is hard to hear, but give it time. The new you is going to be the best version ever. I still remember the times you are experiencing. That is why I WUPP EDD, I am never going back. The light will get brighter and the new norm will put a smile on your face. Just going to have to patience my brother and trust the process.

I never am going back. all the stress I have now isn't worth it, there are also countless other reasons why I will never go back. I just never realized what healing would actually be like. The idea I had of what quitting would be like is totally different than what has happened over the past 91 days
Quitting proved that I suffered from silent reflux which I finally have somewhat under control. I daily deal with the phlegm feeling with sinus congestion which also gives me a stick neck on the worst days. Not sure if that is something you might be dealing with or not. If you check out www.wipeoutreflux.com there is a test there that you can take that will help you figure out if you might suffer from it or not. I second Keith as you will go thru changes for a while as I had to also. Even at 384 days I have massive craves and anxiety attacks which I never had before. Wish you well my friend and will be praying for ya.

Doug
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on March 30, 2021, 09:04:38 AM
Day 98. Just two days until the HOF. starting my quit feels like it was a lifetime ago. Never day 1 again. This site has helped tremendously in my quit. I would easily be 1000x more anxious and miserable if not for KTC and the brotherhood that has helped me through it all
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: Athan on March 30, 2021, 09:44:33 AM
Day 98. Just two days until the HOF. starting my quit feels like it was a lifetime ago. Never day 1 again. This site has helped tremendously in my quit. I would easily be 1000x more anxious and miserable if not for KTC and the brotherhood that has helped me through it all
never day 1 again is right!!! With you all the way macattack
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: Bert75 on March 30, 2021, 09:47:27 AM
Day 98. Just two days until the HOF. starting my quit feels like it was a lifetime ago. Never day 1 again. This site has helped tremendously in my quit. I would easily be 1000x more anxious and miserable if not for KTC and the brotherhood that has helped me through it all
never day 1 again is right!!! With you all the way macattack

Way to keep it rolling macattack!  You got this!
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: JeffH4257 on March 30, 2021, 10:44:34 AM
Day 98. Just two days until the HOF. starting my quit feels like it was a lifetime ago. Never day 1 again. This site has helped tremendously in my quit. I would easily be 1000x more anxious and miserable if not for KTC and the brotherhood that has helped me through it all

You are crushing it my friend!!  Congrats on another +1 today!

NAFAR

-Jeff
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: Hill_Monkey on March 30, 2021, 12:20:18 PM
Day 98. Just two days until the HOF. starting my quit feels like it was a lifetime ago. Never day 1 again. This site has helped tremendously in my quit. I would easily be 1000x more anxious and miserable if not for KTC and the brotherhood that has helped me through it all

Awesome work, keep it up!
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on March 31, 2021, 01:21:45 PM
small canker sore on day 99..the nic bitch doesn't want to go down without a fight
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: Athan on March 31, 2021, 04:03:02 PM
small canker sore on day 99..the nic bitch doesn't want to go down without a fight
Put some Windex on it
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on March 31, 2021, 04:04:03 PM
small canker sore on day 99..the nic bitch doesn't want to go down without a fight
Put some Windex on it

I injected myself with bleach. if it cures covid it should take care of canker sores
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: Stranger999 on April 01, 2021, 01:05:30 AM
small canker sore on day 99..the nic bitch doesn't want to go down without a fight
Put some Windex on it

I injected myself with bleach. if it cures covid it should take care of canker sores

My mouth was a mess for most of the first year.  Early congrats on HOF mac - you are just starting on a great journey.  It gets better I promise.  :)
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: nick-Otine Free on April 01, 2021, 07:28:35 AM
    Congratulations on 100 days of freedom brother Mac, Remember to get the wheels rolling things must fire on all cylinders! you are the First spark. and it motivates the rest of us to kick it into gear. Birds of a feathers flock together. were still fresh but the future without nicotine is already looking brighter and it inspires me to be better! Kick ass work my friend and keep on firing away we got your back!

~Nick~
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: 69franx on April 01, 2021, 06:39:23 PM
Congrats Mac! Keep on pushing
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: Hill_Monkey on April 02, 2021, 08:46:48 AM
small canker sore on day 99..the nic bitch doesn't want to go down without a fight
Put some Windex on it

I injected myself with bleach. if it cures covid it should take care of canker sores

My mouth was a mess for most of the first year.  Early congrats on HOF mac - you are just starting on a great journey.  It gets better I promise.  :)

This is the biggest issue for me on day 174 without nicotine.
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on April 02, 2021, 11:25:28 AM

My mouth was a mess for most of the first year.  Early congrats on HOF mac - you are just starting on a great journey.  It gets better I promise.  :)

I have to remind myself almost every day that the years of abuse I put on my mouth isn't going to fix itself overnight
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: Thefranks5 on April 02, 2021, 04:29:21 PM

My mouth was a mess for most of the first year.  Early congrats on HOF mac - you are just starting on a great journey.  It gets better I promise.  :)

I have to remind myself almost every day that the years of abuse I put on my mouth isn't going to fix itself overnight
And any new issue will drive your anxiety over the wall. I get sores from driving and needing that fix due to driving is my worst trigger. So between fake, gum, seeds and jerky my poor mouth gets beat up and then my stupid brain takes over. An addicts mind is a mess for sure and to this day it amazes me that that my brain is that way. Odaat and nafar is my motto and I have way to many that would pluck out my toe nails if I caved. Keep up the great work Mac and keep blogging it out. It was the vets blogs that pulled me into KTC and really provided answers and support. Stay strong, stay quit and God bless.

Doug
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: EXBEARHAG on April 03, 2021, 08:17:43 PM

My mouth was a mess for most of the first year.  Early congrats on HOF mac - you are just starting on a great journey.  It gets better I promise.  :)

I have to remind myself almost every day that the years of abuse I put on my mouth isn't going to fix itself overnight
And any new issue will drive your anxiety over the wall. I get sores from driving and needing that fix due to driving is my worst trigger. So between fake, gum, seeds and jerky my poor mouth gets beat up and then my stupid brain takes over. An addicts mind is a mess for sure and to this day it amazes me that that my brain is that way. Odaat and nafar is my motto and I have way to many that would pluck out my toe nails if I caved. Keep up the great work Mac and keep blogging it out. It was the vets blogs that pulled me into KTC and really provided answers and support. Stay strong, stay quit and God bless.

Doug

Love that shit Frank!  You and me are brothers from other mothers!  Mac- Frank spews truths.  You are killing it.  Post roll, make some quality connections, stack days ODAAT...head down, shoulder to shoulder
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on April 09, 2021, 03:55:43 PM
another small canker sore in a different place......feels like I have had more canker sores since day 99 than in the first 98 days fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu*k
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: Athan on April 09, 2021, 04:54:54 PM
another small canker sore in a different place......feels like I have had more canker sores since day 99 than in the first 98 days fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu*k
Check it out - you're manstrating (https://facty.com/ailments/body/10-causes-of-canker-sores/10/). Seriously though bro, it's OK to see a doc about that. What some might think is herpes of the face is really just a vitamin deficiency  :). Or you could have herpes of the face.  :-\
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on April 09, 2021, 05:22:10 PM
another small canker sore in a different place......feels like I have had more canker sores since day 99 than in the first 98 days fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu*k
Check it out - you're manstrating (https://facty.com/ailments/body/10-causes-of-canker-sores/10/). Seriously though bro, it's OK to see a doc about that. What some might think is herpes of the face is really just a vitamin deficiency  :). Or you could have herpes of the face.  :-\

It’s probably just a vitamin deficiency and or stress. I went to the doctor about a months and a half ago and was fine. I’m just being whiny
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on April 20, 2021, 02:11:58 PM
14 lurkers on here right now. what are you waiting for to quit? A cancer diagnosis? Throw that sh*t down the drain now and start your quit!
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: Aggies94 on April 20, 2021, 09:43:47 PM
14 lurkers on here right now. what are you waiting for to quit? A cancer diagnosis? Throw that sh*t down the drain now and start your quit!
Preach it mac! August is looking bare. Need some quitters to start filling it up!
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: Keith0617 on April 20, 2021, 09:59:25 PM
14 lurkers on here right now. what are you waiting for to quit? A cancer diagnosis? Throw that sh*t down the drain now and start your quit!
Preach it mac! August is looking bare. Need some quitters to start filling it up!
August will be open Saturday
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: Aggies94 on April 21, 2021, 08:18:10 AM
14 lurkers on here right now. what are you waiting for to quit? A cancer diagnosis? Throw that sh*t down the drain now and start your quit!
Preach it mac! August is looking bare. Need some quitters to start filling it up!
August will be open Saturday
Gotcha. Just saw that it was up. Didn't realize it was locked. New quitters keep filling up July!
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on April 27, 2021, 06:29:35 PM
11 lurkers right now, there’s no better time to quit than right now. Get into august 21 and start posting your promise.

https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=17044.0

What are you waiting for? A cancer diagnosis?
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on April 29, 2021, 09:17:50 AM
Day 128. My jaw is sore again. Like it has been many times throughout my quit. Two weeks of cruise control before a sore jaw. The farther I get along in my quit, the longer the better spans get. I am neither worried nor anxious about this. KTC has given me a brotherhood and a system to realize the nic b*tch is sneaky and is always for a crack in the door to sneak back in. NNT nor any day.
Title: Mid 100s funk
Post by: macattack on May 21, 2021, 12:43:49 PM
Day 150. The last several days I have been feeling some craves and fog I haven't felt since the 80s. Luckily it's not nearly as bad as it was early in my quit and KTC has provided me with the tools to stay quit.
Title: Re: Mid 100s funk
Post by: nick-Otine Free on May 21, 2021, 01:36:00 PM
Day 150. The last several days I have been feeling some craves and fog I haven't felt since the 80s. Luckily it's not nearly as bad as it was early in my quit and KTC has provided me with the tools to stay quit.
^^^^^ THIS DUDE IS A MF CHAMP!!! GET IN HERE  GUEST AND GET YOU SOME!!!!!! the pain of today is worth the freedom of tomorrow! nice work Mac and keep holding the line ODAAT
Title: Re: Mid 100s funk
Post by: MN_Engineer on May 21, 2021, 02:19:21 PM
Day 150. The last several days I have been feeling some craves and fog I haven't felt since the 80s. Luckily it's not nearly as bad as it was early in my quit and KTC has provided me with the tools to stay quit.
^^^^^ THIS DUDE IS A MF CHAMP!!! GET IN HERE  GUEST AND GET YOU SOME!!!!!! the pain of today is worth the freedom of tomorrow! nice work Mac and keep holding the line ODAAT
Periods like this come and go at all points in our quits. I was in a bit of a slump myself this week. It's why I keep logging in day after day and posting my promise early each morning.

Lots of support on here; reaching out to a new quitter when you are in a slump is a great way to distract yourself and power through the valley.
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on June 14, 2021, 10:00:11 AM
day 174, nearly three weeks since I posted in here. finding myself having my strongest bout of anxiety in quite some time. this too shall pass.
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: MN_Engineer on June 14, 2021, 11:45:06 AM
day 174, nearly three weeks since I posted in here. finding myself having my strongest bout of anxiety in quite some time. this too shall pass.
Hang in there man. I never dealt with anxiety until after I quit myself. Some was fairly bad but overall now, it's fairly mild and is pretty easy to manage. I've been taking daily CBD for a number a months now and it's helped a lot. Consult with your doctor; might be an option for you.
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: Thefranks5 on June 14, 2021, 06:02:13 PM
day 174, nearly three weeks since I posted in here. finding myself having my strongest bout of anxiety in quite some time. this too shall pass.
Hang in there man. I never dealt with anxiety until after I quit myself. Some was fairly bad but overall now, it's fairly mild and is pretty easy to manage. I've been taking daily CBD for a number a months now and it's helped a lot. Consult with your doctor; might be an option for you.
I agree with Mnx on anxiety as I never had issues either until my quit. I have been able to just keep pushing thru and dealing with it. Thank the Lord I have not needed meds but man if a person needs them then so be it. There are things out there lime Mnx said that might work for ya without a docs prescription but I would suggest trying and seeing if they help. Stay strong my friend you got this.
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: Keith0617 on June 15, 2021, 10:00:01 AM
day 174, nearly three weeks since I posted in here. finding myself having my strongest bout of anxiety in quite some time. this too shall pass.
Hang in there man. I never dealt with anxiety until after I quit myself. Some was fairly bad but overall now, it's fairly mild and is pretty easy to manage. I've been taking daily CBD for a number a months now and it's helped a lot. Consult with your doctor; might be an option for you.
I agree with Mnx on anxiety as I never had issues either until my quit. I have been able to just keep pushing thru and dealing with it. Thank the Lord I have not needed meds but man if a person needs them then so be it. There are things out there lime Mnx said that might work for ya without a docs prescription but I would suggest trying and seeing if they help. Stay strong my friend you got this.
It is funny how the anxiety and cravings flow like a roller coaster. Periods of time are great and then at times its like being slapped in the face. For me, having a couple of good conversations with fellow quitters always gives me a nudge in the correct direction. Don’t ever forget how strong the network of support here is for you. Hang in there Mac, things will soon return to normal.
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: CTF on June 16, 2021, 12:54:38 AM
day 174, nearly three weeks since I posted in here. finding myself having my strongest bout of anxiety in quite some time. this too shall pass.
Hang in there man. I never dealt with anxiety until after I quit myself. Some was fairly bad but overall now, it's fairly mild and is pretty easy to manage. I've been taking daily CBD for a number a months now and it's helped a lot. Consult with your doctor; might be an option for you.
I agree with Mnx on anxiety as I never had issues either until my quit. I have been able to just keep pushing thru and dealing with it. Thank the Lord I have not needed meds but man if a person needs them then so be it. There are things out there lime Mnx said that might work for ya without a docs prescription but I would suggest trying and seeing if they help. Stay strong my friend you got this.
It is funny how the anxiety and cravings flow like a roller coaster. Periods of time are great and then at times its like being slapped in the face. For me, having a couple of good conversations with fellow quitters always gives me a nudge in the correct direction. Don’t ever forget how strong the network of support here is for you. Hang in there Mac, things will soon return to normal.

@macattack (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=19057)
Hang in there man. You are right this time will pass. Keep on Keeping on and you will come out the other side all the better for it. Get whatever help you need and take care of yourself. I'll say a prayer for you tonight. You can do this. Stay strong.
Title: Re: Finally posting roll
Post by: macattack on November 17, 2021, 09:52:54 PM
Good golly, it’s been over 120 days since I posted in here.

At the local archery shop this evening, one of the workers there was an older gentlemen with his bottom teeth missing and unable to hold his chew in his lips. Yet there he was, and I was completely disgusted.

It’s been a long time since I’ve seen something and felt as repulsed as I did looking at that man