I quit again

[Keith0617]

Day 138. Some anxiety.
Less anxiety than yesterday at this time but still very uncomfortable to say the least. My promise today is not to dip.
ODAAT.

MN/2,742 with you today

Keith0617 1849 ODAAT

[MN_Engineer]

Day 138. Some anxiety.
Less anxiety than yesterday at this time but still very uncomfortable to say the least. My promise today is not to dip.
ODAAT.

MN/2,742 with you today

[Dipchit]

Day 138. Some anxiety.
Less anxiety than yesterday at this time but still very uncomfortable to say the least. My promise today is not to dip.
ODAAT.

[Keith0617]

Day 137. Anxiety
Woke up to the tingles and a case of the fear. Fear attached to everything. Fuck this is agonizing.
I promise not to dip today.

MN/2,741 proud to be quit with you TODAY

Rock n roll brother… with you today. Today… you will win.
AJ… 3,845

Keith0617 1848 ODAAT

[AppleJack]

Day 137. Anxiety
Woke up to the tingles and a case of the fear. Fear attached to everything. Fuck this is agonizing.
I promise not to dip today.

MN/2,741 proud to be quit with you TODAY

Rock n roll brother… with you today. Today… you will win.
AJ… 3,845

[MN_Engineer]

Day 137. Anxiety
Woke up to the tingles and a case of the fear. Fear attached to everything. Fuck this is agonizing.
I promise not to dip today.

MN/2,741 proud to be quit with you TODAY

[Dipchit]

Day 137. Anxiety
Woke up to the tingles and a case of the fear. Fear attached to everything. Fuck this is agonizing.
I promise not to dip today.

[worktowin]

Day 136. Anxiety
I quit with you all today. I promise not to dip.

7.5 years today (Day 2,740) - one foot in front of the other.

Keith0617 1847 ODAAT. Amazing how the days add up.

Congratulations on your 7.5 year milestone. That’s awesome. I can’t wait until I am that far out from dipping. BTW I’m having a massive crave today that just won’t let up. Maybe I’ll clean the shed to distract. ODAAT.

worktowin 3,958.  If you need a second shed to clean to help you with the anxiety, I'm here for ya bro.

[Dipchit]

Day 136. Anxiety
I quit with you all today. I promise not to dip.

7.5 years today (Day 2,740) - one foot in front of the other.

Keith0617 1847 ODAAT. Amazing how the days add up.

Congratulations on your 7.5 year milestone. That’s awesome. I can’t wait until I am that far out from dipping. BTW I’m having a massive crave today that just won’t let up. Maybe I’ll clean the shed to distract. ODAAT.

[Keith0617]

Day 136. Anxiety
I quit with you all today. I promise not to dip.

7.5 years today (Day 2,740) - one foot in front of the other.

Keith0617 1847 ODAAT. Amazing how the days add up.

[MN_Engineer]

Day 136. Anxiety
I quit with you all today. I promise not to dip.

7.5 years today (Day 2,740) - one foot in front of the other.

[Dipchit]

Day 136. Anxiety
I quit with you all today. I promise not to dip.

[Dipchit]

Day 135. Anxiety.
Anxiety will slowly go away as the brain heals and returns to homeostasis. No medications or talk therapy can heal the brain any faster. Time and only time take care of the symptoms of a cranky brain. Although I do believe in therapy when anxiety is being caused by an outstanding reason such as a death of a loved one or a cheating spouse or a physical attack etc. but no therapy can ever speed up the physical healing process. Although I really appreciate the suggestion I will just grit my teeth and move forward. I have been through Benzodiazepine withdrawal years ago that lasted nearly 4 years and it was agonizing. Severe depression and anxiety was the 2 symptoms that was the worst and all the doctors wanted to do was try this med or that med but I pressed on and once healed life was great. This withdrawal feels very similar but not quite as intense. Don’t get me wrong, nicotine addiction and withdrawal sucks but I will get over this in my own way and it is not going to include any medication or talk therapy because it simply won’t work in this situation. My life outside of nicotine withdrawal is good. I have a great paying job, beautiful wife, wonderful son and daughter in law and also a grandson who I spend lots of quality time with. Nothing in my life is causing anxiety other than a physical injury to my brain. If left alone the brain has amazing healing power.
My promise today is not to dip.

Keith0617 1846 ODAAT

MN/2,739 - I don't know what else to say other than I quit with you TODAY. Keep up the fight.

It’s all good engineer. You give good advice but I been down this similar path before with Benzodiazepines so I know I’ll be fine. Time is the best healer.
My anxiety is not as strong over all as it used to be. I feel that I want to feel normal so badly that any anxiety whether it’s strong or weak I think it’s bad. What I am struggling with is the ODAAT thing. I keep catching myself looking to the future such as planed events and telling myself that I’ll be fine by then and when that date comes and goes I’m still struggling I get really depressed. That I’m still working on. What really sucks is that as I type this I’m going through a major crave. This sucks.

3,957.   I'm with you today bro.

The 100's were some of the fiercest crave battles for me. You made that promise; find something to distract yourself and keep fighting.

Yes the craves are brutal. I never thought I’d still be craving this far out. My last stop 18 years ago my cravings were a thing of the past within 2 weeks. Rarely thought about it afterwards. Boy did I get lucky. Never even thought nicotine withdrawal was a thing. Crazy how hard I’m getting hit this time. Oh well. ODAAT.

[MN_Engineer]

Day 135. Anxiety.
Anxiety will slowly go away as the brain heals and returns to homeostasis. No medications or talk therapy can heal the brain any faster. Time and only time take care of the symptoms of a cranky brain. Although I do believe in therapy when anxiety is being caused by an outstanding reason such as a death of a loved one or a cheating spouse or a physical attack etc. but no therapy can ever speed up the physical healing process. Although I really appreciate the suggestion I will just grit my teeth and move forward. I have been through Benzodiazepine withdrawal years ago that lasted nearly 4 years and it was agonizing. Severe depression and anxiety was the 2 symptoms that was the worst and all the doctors wanted to do was try this med or that med but I pressed on and once healed life was great. This withdrawal feels very similar but not quite as intense. Don’t get me wrong, nicotine addiction and withdrawal sucks but I will get over this in my own way and it is not going to include any medication or talk therapy because it simply won’t work in this situation. My life outside of nicotine withdrawal is good. I have a great paying job, beautiful wife, wonderful son and daughter in law and also a grandson who I spend lots of quality time with. Nothing in my life is causing anxiety other than a physical injury to my brain. If left alone the brain has amazing healing power.
My promise today is not to dip.

Keith0617 1846 ODAAT

MN/2,739 - I don't know what else to say other than I quit with you TODAY. Keep up the fight.

It’s all good engineer. You give good advice but I been down this similar path before with Benzodiazepines so I know I’ll be fine. Time is the best healer.
My anxiety is not as strong over all as it used to be. I feel that I want to feel normal so badly that any anxiety whether it’s strong or weak I think it’s bad. What I am struggling with is the ODAAT thing. I keep catching myself looking to the future such as planed events and telling myself that I’ll be fine by then and when that date comes and goes I’m still struggling I get really depressed. That I’m still working on. What really sucks is that as I type this I’m going through a major crave. This sucks.

3,957.   I'm with you today bro.

The 100's were some of the fiercest crave battles for me. You made that promise; find something to distract yourself and keep fighting.

[worktowin]

Day 135. Anxiety.
Anxiety will slowly go away as the brain heals and returns to homeostasis. No medications or talk therapy can heal the brain any faster. Time and only time take care of the symptoms of a cranky brain. Although I do believe in therapy when anxiety is being caused by an outstanding reason such as a death of a loved one or a cheating spouse or a physical attack etc. but no therapy can ever speed up the physical healing process. Although I really appreciate the suggestion I will just grit my teeth and move forward. I have been through Benzodiazepine withdrawal years ago that lasted nearly 4 years and it was agonizing. Severe depression and anxiety was the 2 symptoms that was the worst and all the doctors wanted to do was try this med or that med but I pressed on and once healed life was great. This withdrawal feels very similar but not quite as intense. Don’t get me wrong, nicotine addiction and withdrawal sucks but I will get over this in my own way and it is not going to include any medication or talk therapy because it simply won’t work in this situation. My life outside of nicotine withdrawal is good. I have a great paying job, beautiful wife, wonderful son and daughter in law and also a grandson who I spend lots of quality time with. Nothing in my life is causing anxiety other than a physical injury to my brain. If left alone the brain has amazing healing power.
My promise today is not to dip.

Keith0617 1846 ODAAT

MN/2,739 - I don't know what else to say other than I quit with you TODAY. Keep up the fight.

It’s all good engineer. You give good advice but I been down this similar path before with Benzodiazepines so I know I’ll be fine. Time is the best healer.
My anxiety is not as strong over all as it used to be. I feel that I want to feel normal so badly that any anxiety whether it’s strong or weak I think it’s bad. What I am struggling with is the ODAAT thing. I keep catching myself looking to the future such as planed events and telling myself that I’ll be fine by then and when that date comes and goes I’m still struggling I get really depressed. That I’m still working on. What really sucks is that as I type this I’m going through a major crave. This sucks.

3,957.   I'm with you today bro.