I've been a slave to nicotine for 30 years. I've tried numerous times to quit, the longest 47 days, and always listen to those little voices saying, "Go ahead, just one dip won't get you started back." I'm here to say that ONE DIP IS STARTING BACK!!!!
I don't have to tell any of you that nicotine is evil. I just have to keep telling myself. I recently tried unsuccesfully to quit. Although I went 42 days, I listened to that voice of reasoning again and was right where I started in no time. Ashamed to tell anyone, I was sneaking it. I even turned down sex with my wife one night, just so I could stay up and sneak another dip. How pathetic is that?
I've had friends and relatives with adictions to drugs and alchohol. I would observe them as they would devise sneaky ways and tell lies to avoid being caught and chastised. I would shake my head and think, "how pathetic."
Well, I finally looked myself in the mirror and said to myself, "how pathetic". I didn't like who I saw and saw myself in the grip of a monster. I am going to do it this time. I need accountability for this. Yes, I'm an adict.