Hitting Home
On July 15, 2013 I made a conscious decision to quit. That decision was all mine to make and I did just that, I have enjoyed meeting and helping others in their quit journey along the way; however, for some reason here of late I have done just the minimums of posting roll and hell some days I just plain forget all together to even do that. I can't really explain it other than to said I became complacent. No I have not caved nor is that even an option but I have missed roll and that is my daily promise also rule #1 around here. I am still an addict, I may always be an addict. I need to be better at reinvesting the few minutes a day to KTC and all of my fellow quitters here, I say that not as a selfless act but also as a selfish act because I need this more than I thought I did.
I also want to state that two days ago I lost a childhood friend of mine to a heart attack. I am not yet 40 years old nor was he but he is gone and gone in a flash without a sign. This is the first ever friend of mine to die of natural causes; so it hits me especially hard. I have buried many a friend and soldier along the way but this well frankly it scares the living shit out of me. A little over a year ago I decided to start chasing my new addiction triathlons and since I have completed one full distance Ironman and 5 half Ironman races along with a few other races. I sign up for 10 and 15k run for training and expect to finish them strong each time. I eat better, I train, I work out and I listen to what my body is trying to tell me.
Now that may all sound great but what I have done is failed to be a real friend to others. With a busy work and travel schedule, a heavy training regimen and kids it is nearly impossible to be a friend too. Well fuck that today is the day that I am taking back some of my time and working to become a better man, a better friend and a better brother. Though I am a firm believe in the one act of kindness a day ploy I think this should just be the normal for all Americans. Not today, today for me is all about calling one old friend a day just to say hello. Nothing really to share or talk about, no agenda, no plan just simply hello. Not a text message, not a Facebook post, not a #tweet, not a Instagram image, not a Meme...simply "hello" hell, maybe even a "thank you". Now for those of you from KTC whose phone number I have I should warn you I have a new number for myself but I still have yours so when you see an unknown number show up it just might be me, just calling to say hello.
If I don't call you...well I don't have your number or my list of contacts is so deep that you are on the waiting list. So with the later being of a high likelihood, I will at a minimum make a KTC Post to say hello to all my brothers and sisters in quit. Without you assholes I would not have posted 1,256 days quit today so hello and thank you!
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