"Every thing I do.......I do it for chew"

[dr_jones_25]

Today sucked. I have been thinking all day "what if if cave. What are the consequences if I cave? What if I buy some chew now, and just take a quick dip.....what do I have to do to get back on track?"

ALL of these thoughts I am having are the wrong thoughts. I need to change the way I am thinking, or I will cave. I HATE this feeling!! My wife is on board, my daughter noticed today that I actually ate breakfast with her, and didn't have a chew in my mouth. I can't go back, so how do I stay on track? Well, here it is. Tomorrow I am reaching out to the members that have reached out to me. Wt57, Roam Country, and MThomas, I will be talking to all of you tomorrow. I will be reaching out, because I NEED accountability. I have always been an ACCOUNTABLE person, so that is what I need. Accountability. I need all of you to hold me accountable to what I committed to in the first place. I have all of your numbers in my phone, so be expecting a text from me tomorrow, I will be reaching out.

I am going to admit, I am getting nervous. I am afraid of caving. I have an interview on Thursday in Minnesota. I am flying in on Wednesday, and my interview is on Thursday. I am meeting with the presidents of the company. I have my suit all dry cleaned and pressed, my hair is cut, my resume polished. What am I nervous about? I am nervous that I am going to be a fucking mess for the interview. I have been a sweaty, clumsy, foggy person for the last 5 days, and I don't know how I am going to get through this interview. I did, however, talk with my brother today, and we both agreed that God can help. I am not a religious Nazi by any means (no offense Mark), but there is a time and a place where you need answers, and there is only one person you can ask the question. Lot's of emotions going through my head, but I have already posted roll for Wednesday, so I will quit today.

Reason #4 - For my dog Roger. He needs a best friend :)

[dr_jones_25]

Short and sweet today. Yesterday was much better. Still a little sweaty, and probably ate more than I should have, but less than the day before. Not as irritable, but could tell all it would take is something small. Still in the "Fog". Hope that goes away soon....not a fan. It was a good day!

Reason #3 - My wife (Mthomas's sister....hehehehe) says I have gorgeous, kissable lips. Sounds like a good reason to me!!!

[eric71]

Dr. Jones, stay the course!  No going back now.  Yes this post...you are embracing the suck! 

Now stay pissed at tobacco!  Vent and rage here!  Soon your burden of quit will become light, your problems will still be there but you will face them head on. 

You are about to open up a can of whoop ass on life.  Just worry about quit today.  Other issues can be shelved but solutions will present themselves to a sober mind. 

I quit with you.  This may be the most difficult fight you have but you already racked up 3 wins and zero losses to the nic bitch!  You are still undefeated!  You are hurting but isn't succeeding at quit a great buzz?  Keep your record undefeated by wining your match today.  No opponent you face tomorrow matters...until you win today! 

You puked up the poison and lie.  Most the nic will be out of your body.  Don't be like a dog and return to your vomit!  Go forward.  Not today, I am quit and I am a man of my word!  

There once was a man from Nantucket...err

Don't forgett, you are winning!  You are taking control vs. being controlled.

I love it!!!   'dance'  here is a victory dance just for you.

Dr. Jones, stay the course! No going back now. Yes this post...you are embracing the suck!

It does feel good! I hope I am not being too negative on here, but I want to be honest with myself for the times when I come back to read this, I will understand why.

Yes I will quit today. I made roll call, and I am a man of my word as well. I stopped at 7-eleven last night on my way home from work at about 3:30. I picked up two large bags of seeds, and ate seeds till 5:00 this morning. Although I am feeling a lot of weird feelings, I didn't even think to buy a can last night. Not an option......

Awesome, man that's the ticket. Eat those seeds, drink the water and Kool-Aid. I'm keeping my promise as well to keep this buried in the past.

nice job.

Keep on quittin' on, Oct12 is here for you! One never knows when we may need to lean on you for support, that is why this works. Hit me up and I'll get you my info. See you at roll call in the AM.

QLAFM

[SirDerek]

Dr. Jones, stay the course!  No going back now.  Yes this post...you are embracing the suck! 

Now stay pissed at tobacco!  Vent and rage here!  Soon your burden of quit will become light, your problems will still be there but you will face them head on. 

You are about to open up a can of whoop ass on life.  Just worry about quit today.  Other issues can be shelved but solutions will present themselves to a sober mind. 

I quit with you.  This may be the most difficult fight you have but you already racked up 3 wins and zero losses to the nic bitch!  You are still undefeated!  You are hurting but isn't succeeding at quit a great buzz?  Keep your record undefeated by wining your match today.  No opponent you face tomorrow matters...until you win today! 

You puked up the poison and lie.  Most the nic will be out of your body.  Don't be like a dog and return to your vomit!  Go forward.  Not today, I am quit and I am a man of my word! 

There once was a man from Nantucket...err

Don't forgett, you are winning!  You are taking control vs. being controlled.

I love it!!!  'dance'  here is a victory dance just for you.

Dr. Jones, stay the course! No going back now. Yes this post...you are embracing the suck!

It does feel good! I hope I am not being too negative on here, but I want to be honest with myself for the times when I come back to read this, I will understand why.

Yes I will quit today. I made roll call, and I am a man of my word as well. I stopped at 7-eleven last night on my way home from work at about 3:30. I picked up two large bags of seeds, and ate seeds till 5:00 this morning. Although I am feeling a lot of weird feelings, I didn't even think to buy a can last night. Not an option......

Awesome, man that's the ticket. Eat those seeds, drink the water and Kool-Aid. I'm keeping my promise as well to keep this buried in the past.

nice job.

[dr_jones_25]

Dr. Jones, stay the course! No going back now. Yes this post...you are embracing the suck!

Now stay pissed at tobacco! Vent and rage here! Soon your burden of quit will become light, your problems will still be there but you will face them head on.

You are about to open up a can of whoop ass on life. Just worry about quit today. Other issues can be shelved but solutions will present themselves to a sober mind.

I quit with you. This may be the most difficult fight you have but you already racked up 3 wins and zero losses to the nic bitch! You are still undefeated! You are hurting but isn't succeeding at quit a great buzz? Keep your record undefeated by wining your match today. No opponent you face tomorrow matters...until you win today!

You puked up the poison and lie. Most the nic will be out of your body. Don't be like a dog and return to your vomit! Go forward. Not today, I am quit and I am a man of my word!

There once was a man from Nantucket...err

Don't forgett, you are winning! You are taking control vs. being controlled.

I love it!!! 'dance' here is a victory dance just for you.

Dr. Jones, stay the course! No going back now. Yes this post...you are embracing the suck!

It does feel good! I hope I am not being too negative on here, but I want to be honest with myself for the times when I come back to read this, I will understand why.

Yes I will quit today. I made roll call, and I am a man of my word as well. I stopped at 7-eleven last night on my way home from work at about 3:30. I picked up two large bags of seeds, and ate seeds till 5:00 this morning. Although I am feeling a lot of weird feelings, I didn't even think to buy a can last night. Not an option......

[Mthomas3824]

Dr. Jones, stay the course! No going back now. Yes this post...you are embracing the suck!

Now stay pissed at tobacco! Vent and rage here! Soon your burden of quit will become light, your problems will still be there but you will face them head on.

You are about to open up a can of whoop ass on life. Just worry about quit today. Other issues can be shelved but solutions will present themselves to a sober mind.

I quit with you. This may be the most difficult fight you have but you already racked up 3 wins and zero losses to the nic bitch! You are still undefeated! You are hurting but isn't succeeding at quit a great buzz? Keep your record undefeated by wining your match today. No opponent you face tomorrow matters...until you win today!

You puked up the poison and lie. Most the nic will be out of your body. Don't be like a dog and return to your vomit! Go forward. Not today, I am quit and I am a man of my word!

There once was a man from Nantucket...err

Don't forgett, you are winning! You are taking control vs. being controlled.

I love it!!! 'dance' here is a victory dance just for you.

[Grizzly25]

Very honest and from the heart brother!!!

But you will also need some stiff backbone and tough resolve to get thru the suck period!

I say your on the right track and have the right atitude I also want to see some determination and grit!

Stay close to the site  drink a ton of water, also when the urge hits to want to hit somebody or something....dont!!! Take a jog or come to the site and write it down!

Make this quit for and about you nobody else! Let all those around you benefit from you being quit and being around you know like not sneaking away to have a fatty or doing all you can to hide it or even the worst (like me) just chewing as often as I wanted exposing my wife and kids to my habit all the time without regard to what I was showing them!!!!

QUIT FOR YOU!!!!!

PM me if you need anything brother!

[Wt57]

Wow! So honest. So sincere. Dave you won't cave if You are honest to yourself and us and continue to post early every day! Hey if those late nights get to you and you are afraid to wake someone screw it!! I'm hardly ever asleep, (I was awake when you got home I was posting my promise) call me! You are beginning to feel the suck!!'

[dr_jones_25]

So, it is 3:30 a.m. and I just got home from work. I would normally take this time to check out some porn (i might need Kill the Porn when done with this chew stuff!!) and drink some adult beverages (might need Kill the booze also!!) All jokes aside, I am here posting on this website. I couldn't wait to get home and post how my day has been. As you might have noticed, I posted roll at 12:01 for Sunday, and added that "This Sucks". Not lying, this sucks!!! I will have to find another vice to keep me occupied. I am sure that I cleared the 3000 calorie mark with Werthers, butterscotch candy, Jolly Ranchers, and more. I am a little sick from all that candy. Might have to consider that Mountain chew stuff, for now. I have been drinking a ton of water. Probably drank a gallon, and sweated out a gallon and a half!! The reason I posted roll so quickly for Sunday, is because I have been thinking about chew about every 3 seconds, and for some reason, committing to quitting for a day makes it easier. So I had to get on quickly from my iPhone at work and commit to today. I will also admit, today was not easy hiding my frustration. I manage over 100 people a day, and keeping my cool was not an easy task. I need to remind myself to go back and apologize to Rachel, Steve A., Landon, Micheal, and Samantha.....not to mention my wife Michelle and daughter Berlyn. I know that my rages had a lot to do with the way I talked to them, and was uncalled for. Anyways, I would be lying to everyone to say that I didn't think about going and buying a can, and not telling anyone. Just continuing on and pretending it didn't happen. But, what would that solve? A temporary fix, and once again, I would be lying and deceiving everyone just like as if I didn't begin this journey. So, I didn't. I am going to keep posting what I am thinking and going through so that I can look back and remember what it was like, and know that I don't want to do this again. I posted yesterday about my daughter imitating me spitting, and I am going to post another reason I am quitting today. Once again, not for sympathy, but so "I" remember why I am doing this.


Reason #2 - In the past 8 months, my family has gone through a lot. I lost my job, was unemployed for some time, and accepted a job making significant amount of money less than I was. Through this, my family has remained united. We keep positive, and we love each other more each day. But, we are currently in the process of losing our home. We have lost our car already, and we continue down this downward spiral of financial burdens. But, how many times in the last 8 months did I go without a can of chew? How many times did I say to myself "we can't afford this?" NEVER!! I never went without my stupid habit so that I could afford things like a car or a home!!! What an insane thought process!! I can afford to spend $40 a week on something so selfish as chew, but we can not afford our car. Well, this is another reason I came to this site, and will commit to quitting for today.

Like Mthomas, I do think comedy is a great remedy to get through some desperate and dark times, so I am going to end on a little poem. Not a real, heartfelt poem, so a little stupid improv thing.

"There once was a man named Dave,
who never considered himself a slave,
Now he has chosen to quit,
all he wants is to spit,
and hoping to hell he doesn't cave"

[Souliman]

Tell me....how many times am I going to reach down in my pocket before I realize my can isn't there??

Many, just so long as you keep coming up empty handed ;) Glad to have you on board dave, check your inbox.

Dave I was shocked just the other day, I climbed into my pickup and the first thing I did was reach for my dip! That was after 100 days. I have learned so much here, not just about my addiction but about living. I have had to learn to do so many things without dip, since I never had an adult life without nicotine. The best experience for me is to truely have freedom! Stay close to the site and read all you can, learn from the experiences of others!!

Damn straight.

Its a rebirth. You see all your impulses without the cloud of nicotine hanging over you. You see the real man that's been dragged around on leash for too long. Its hard. Take it one day at a time. Take a breath when you're dealing with folks around you. No reason to take anything out on them.

[Wt57]

Tell me....how many times am I going to reach down in my pocket before I realize my can isn't there??

Many, just so long as you keep coming up empty handed ;) Glad to have you on board dave, check your inbox.

Dave I was shocked just the other day, I climbed into my pickup and the first thing I did was reach for my dip! That was after 100 days. I have learned so much here, not just about my addiction but about living. I have had to learn to do so many things without dip, since I never had an adult life without nicotine. The best experience for me is to truely have freedom! Stay close to the site and read all you can, learn from the experiences of others!!

[Roamcountry]

Tell me....how many times am I going to reach down in my pocket before I realize my can isn't there??

Many, just so long as you keep coming up empty handed ;) Glad to have you on board dave, check your inbox.

[Mthomas3824]

Just thought I would introduce myself. My name is Dave, and I came here to quit chewing. My brother in law came to this site first, and he highly encouraged me to come here. So.....here I am.

I have been chewing for about 19 years. I have quit a handful of times, once for 8 months. Then there is always that social setting that you believe you can have a social chew and you will be fine, and the next day you are at the store buying a can. I am a family man, and enjoy spending time with my beautiful wife and daughter. I began chewing in high school, probably like most on here. My friends and I made up a name for it. We called it Gummy Bears. We would always say stuff like "Hey guys, want some Gummy Bears for lunch?" and we would all get in one car, and sneak up in the hills for a nice dip for lunch, instead of actual food. Yesterday, my daughter looked at me and was intimidating herself playing baseball. She had a jolly rancher in her mouth (actually in the side of her mouth). She pretended to swing her bat, and then spit to the side. As much as I love my little girl, and how adorable and insanely intelligent and funny she is, this wasn't funny to me. Well, I am here to commit to quitting, and I look forward to meeting some of you. Tell me....how many times am I going to reach down in my pocket before I realize my can isn't there??

I am very glad to see you here! Listen and follow the vets with exactness.

Quitting and detox is hell but the quit plan is simple, safe and effective. I know you quit because you wanted to. Now everyday you quit for you, for M, little B and your brotherhood.

Welcome to hell bitch! Embrace the suck. Don't define what that means now. Experience it!

On day, I hope to see a post that defines what, "embrace the suck" means to you.

For now, you posted roll, keep your word, and get through today. If you wake up tomorrow, repeat.

Hey, oct please send digits, good quit bro here.

[dr_jones_25]

Just thought I would introduce myself. My name is Dave, and I came here to quit chewing. My brother in law came to this site first, and he highly encouraged me to come here. So.....here I am.

I have been chewing for about 19 years. I have quit a handful of times, once for 8 months. Then there is always that social setting that you believe you can have a social chew and you will be fine, and the next day you are at the store buying a can. I am a family man, and enjoy spending time with my beautiful wife and daughter. I began chewing in high school, probably like most on here. My friends and I made up a name for it. We called it Gummy Bears. We would always say stuff like "Hey guys, want some Gummy Bears for lunch?" and we would all get in one car, and sneak up in the hills for a nice dip for lunch, instead of actual food. Yesterday, my daughter looked at me and was intimidating herself playing baseball. She had a jolly rancher in her mouth (actually in the side of her mouth). She pretended to swing her bat, and then spit to the side. As much as I love my little girl, and how adorable and insanely intelligent and funny she is, this wasn't funny to me. Well, I am here to commit to quitting, and I look forward to meeting some of you. Tell me....how many times am I going to reach down in my pocket before I realize my can isn't there??