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Re: Worktowin's road to winning
« Reply #685 on: August 18, 2021, 10:33:27 AM »
Day 3,159.


I'm so thankful and honored to be a part of this elite group.  Right now, as the world continues to go through waves of "fucked up beyond absolutely all belief" on a daily basis - sooooooooo many people are feeding their addictions at an escalating rate - and I'm one of the lucky ones that gets to enjoy freedom.

Since March:

I moved my mom from assisted living to the care center.  I put her on hospice.  30 days later I said goodbye to her for the last time on this earth.  For a month before and up to the end, the covid-madness took a brief reprieve, and we were able to visit her in person like we used to do.  My brother and I were blessed to be at her side when she left us.

My brother finished his treatment plans for oral cancer and was given preliminary good results.  My mom knew that before she passed away.

Wife and I went to LV for a week and were able to do so again between waves of shutdown/masking/etc, and feel like a normal getaway.  Met Traumagnet's wife and her new friend to celebrate her 50th birthday while we were there.

Traumagnet left us 5 years ago this week.

Last week, my brother got news that his oral cancer has spread, rapidly and aggressively, throughout his large bones.  Pelvis, collarbone, spine, femurs, etc.  The prognosis is grim, and we all know it.  This guy never chewed a minute in his life and is the kindest, most gentle and caring person I know.  He is an Episcopalian priest who has given his life to help others. 

It would be easy to make excuses and cave, like I always did in the past.  To say....  you know what, Steven never chewed and he still got cancer.  Its gonna get me one way or another, so why not?  But thanks to you guys, that's not an option.

This is not a great time for many of us.  Life isn't always fair.  This message isn't uplifting or cheery, but it is my reality right now.  Times will change, but good times or bad - I'm here for the long haul.

Thanks for your continued support.  God Bless all of you on this journey.
Proud to quit with you today @worktowin . You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Thoughts and prayers for your brother, you and your family.  Proud as hell to quit with you EDD!!!
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Re: Worktowin's road to winning
« Reply #684 on: August 17, 2021, 01:26:38 PM »
Day 3,159.


I'm so thankful and honored to be a part of this elite group.  Right now, as the world continues to go through waves of "fucked up beyond absolutely all belief" on a daily basis - sooooooooo many people are feeding their addictions at an escalating rate - and I'm one of the lucky ones that gets to enjoy freedom.

Since March:

I moved my mom from assisted living to the care center.  I put her on hospice.  30 days later I said goodbye to her for the last time on this earth.  For a month before and up to the end, the covid-madness took a brief reprieve, and we were able to visit her in person like we used to do.  My brother and I were blessed to be at her side when she left us.

My brother finished his treatment plans for oral cancer and was given preliminary good results.  My mom knew that before she passed away.

Wife and I went to LV for a week and were able to do so again between waves of shutdown/masking/etc, and feel like a normal getaway.  Met Traumagnet's wife and her new friend to celebrate her 50th birthday while we were there.

Traumagnet left us 5 years ago this week.

Last week, my brother got news that his oral cancer has spread, rapidly and aggressively, throughout his large bones.  Pelvis, collarbone, spine, femurs, etc.  The prognosis is grim, and we all know it.  This guy never chewed a minute in his life and is the kindest, most gentle and caring person I know.  He is an Episcopalian priest who has given his life to help others. 

It would be easy to make excuses and cave, like I always did in the past.  To say....  you know what, Steven never chewed and he still got cancer.  Its gonna get me one way or another, so why not?  But thanks to you guys, that's not an option.

This is not a great time for many of us.  Life isn't always fair.  This message isn't uplifting or cheery, but it is my reality right now.  Times will change, but good times or bad - I'm here for the long haul.

Thanks for your continued support.  God Bless all of you on this journey.
Proud to quit with you today @worktowin . You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Thoughts and prayers for your brother, you and your family.  Proud as hell to quit with you EDD!!!
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Re: Worktowin's road to winning
« Reply #683 on: August 17, 2021, 12:28:23 PM »
Day 3,159.


I'm so thankful and honored to be a part of this elite group.  Right now, as the world continues to go through waves of "fucked up beyond absolutely all belief" on a daily basis - sooooooooo many people are feeding their addictions at an escalating rate - and I'm one of the lucky ones that gets to enjoy freedom.

Since March:

I moved my mom from assisted living to the care center.  I put her on hospice.  30 days later I said goodbye to her for the last time on this earth.  For a month before and up to the end, the covid-madness took a brief reprieve, and we were able to visit her in person like we used to do.  My brother and I were blessed to be at her side when she left us.

My brother finished his treatment plans for oral cancer and was given preliminary good results.  My mom knew that before she passed away.

Wife and I went to LV for a week and were able to do so again between waves of shutdown/masking/etc, and feel like a normal getaway.  Met Traumagnet's wife and her new friend to celebrate her 50th birthday while we were there.

Traumagnet left us 5 years ago this week.

Last week, my brother got news that his oral cancer has spread, rapidly and aggressively, throughout his large bones.  Pelvis, collarbone, spine, femurs, etc.  The prognosis is grim, and we all know it.  This guy never chewed a minute in his life and is the kindest, most gentle and caring person I know.  He is an Episcopalian priest who has given his life to help others. 

It would be easy to make excuses and cave, like I always did in the past.  To say....  you know what, Steven never chewed and he still got cancer.  Its gonna get me one way or another, so why not?  But thanks to you guys, that's not an option.

This is not a great time for many of us.  Life isn't always fair.  This message isn't uplifting or cheery, but it is my reality right now.  Times will change, but good times or bad - I'm here for the long haul.

Thanks for your continued support.  God Bless all of you on this journey.
Proud to quit with you today @worktowin . You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.
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Re: Worktowin's road to winning
« Reply #682 on: August 17, 2021, 10:40:35 AM »
Day 3,159.


I'm so thankful and honored to be a part of this elite group.  Right now, as the world continues to go through waves of "fucked up beyond absolutely all belief" on a daily basis - sooooooooo many people are feeding their addictions at an escalating rate - and I'm one of the lucky ones that gets to enjoy freedom.

Since March:

I moved my mom from assisted living to the care center.  I put her on hospice.  30 days later I said goodbye to her for the last time on this earth.  For a month before and up to the end, the covid-madness took a brief reprieve, and we were able to visit her in person like we used to do.  My brother and I were blessed to be at her side when she left us.

My brother finished his treatment plans for oral cancer and was given preliminary good results.  My mom knew that before she passed away.

Wife and I went to LV for a week and were able to do so again between waves of shutdown/masking/etc, and feel like a normal getaway.  Met Traumagnet's wife and her new friend to celebrate her 50th birthday while we were there.

Traumagnet left us 5 years ago this week.

Last week, my brother got news that his oral cancer has spread, rapidly and aggressively, throughout his large bones.  Pelvis, collarbone, spine, femurs, etc.  The prognosis is grim, and we all know it.  This guy never chewed a minute in his life and is the kindest, most gentle and caring person I know.  He is an Episcopalian priest who has given his life to help others. 

It would be easy to make excuses and cave, like I always did in the past.  To say....  you know what, Steven never chewed and he still got cancer.  Its gonna get me one way or another, so why not?  But thanks to you guys, that's not an option.

This is not a great time for many of us.  Life isn't always fair.  This message isn't uplifting or cheery, but it is my reality right now.  Times will change, but good times or bad - I'm here for the long haul.

Thanks for your continued support.  God Bless all of you on this journey.


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Re: Worktowin's road to winning
« Reply #681 on: March 11, 2021, 11:15:19 PM »
Time to dust this intro off again, and celebrate 3,000 days of winning!

Yep, 3,000!  Honestly, I can't believe it.  I can't believe it, because for over 20 years I tried damn near every day to quit.  I threw out literally thousands of partially full cans of Kodiak Wintergreen.  And the next day I shamefully would return to the closed possible gas station in a near panic to get my fix on my way to work.  I hid shamefully from my family, from my friends... I made every excuse in the book for the endless showers that weren't about getting clean, or the long escapes during the weekend in the car where I'd drive around alone or park in some parking lot like I was scoring crack.  And then.... I went to see my doctor.  And he told me that I was too fat, with too many results in the "off the charts" category in all the wrong way, and here are a bunch of prescriptions that you need to start on NOW, but also, you might want to brush up on your life insurance.

Well, I was around 40 at the time.  And my dad, a physically fit small dude that liked his pipe tobacco way too well, well he died at 52 all of the sudden, and it hit me that I had to quit.  Had to!  So, I did.  And on Day 16 I woke up in a very dark place, the darkest of my life.  I was shaking, crying like a baby uncontrollably, and just lost and completely hopeless.  And I got on the internet and found this place.  I was schooled QUICKLY that this wasn't a habit, it is an addiction.  That I will post every day or I'll fail.  That I'm not alone.  That other people had done every single thing I had done and felt every single feeling I had.  And that quitting is possible, but you gotta do it right.  And, I listened.

3,000 days later, I am so quit that it is ridiculous.  And it is sooooooooooooo easy now.  Everyone said, this will get easy.  Well, it did.  Not in 50 days, or 100.  By a year, it wasn't hard, but there were still days.  I still remember cravings in the 500s, but day by day, it got easier.  I made friends along the way, and I mean good friends.  I was best man in a wedding of a quitter in Calgary that I talk to every day.... and now I'm spending a lot of time talking him through his divorce.  I text about 20 guys a day, and literally I feel about most of them like they are my own brothers.  And of course, Todd... who died way too soon, but left behind a great wife and son that my wife and I talk to almost daily, and we see in person at least once a year, even in these times of Covid. 

I'm a much better person than I was 3,000 days ago.  I'm honest, I'm direct, and I'm engaged.  I'm not trying to escape.  My marriage is better, and my wife is happier.  My income has multiplied and my responsibilities for my employer have as well.  I'm a better son to a mother that demands and deserves a lot of attention. I'm a better friend.  And overall, I'm just so much happier than I ever imagined I could be.  There was always an underlying anger, tension.... that I think was low level withdrawal always on the cusp of breaking through.  Well, that is gone now.

I've gone through some of the roughest points in my life in the past 3,000 days.  My wife ending up in ICU from a diabetic crisis.  A really kind boss getting fired... I was handed her job.... her suing us and me being smack in the middle of it.  My mom having her leg amputated unexpectedly and having to move her to an assisted living facility - and learning how to deal with not only a severe disability as also the constant management of "institutional care" that is necessary.  And in just the past couple of weeks, my brother learning of his Stage 4 oral cancer.... the kind that those of use that used tobacco for 20+ years fear.... but someone like him that never touched tobacco in his life.  His journey with massive chemotherapy and radiation begins on Monday, and deep down I'm scared, but also feel a sense of guilt that I know I shouldn't, but I do anyway.  Why is my brother, the kindest person I know, going through this when I "asked for it" for over 20 years?  Life is full of challenges, but together, we push ahead.

Through all of these events, my online family has been by my side.  In 3,000 days everyone has their own stories, and I'm so honored to have this support system in place.  Because, any of these events would have easily triggered a cave in my past life.... but now, ain't no way I'm letting anyone down.

This is a long post, and for that I apologize.  But I find it helpful to look back over time and see where I was, and where I am.  I feel like Iron Man this morning when it comes to nicotine.  It is a joke, and it won't control me today.  I'll post roll.  I'll text by brothers.  And I'll win again today.


From the bottom of my heart, I thank all of you.  For those of you just joining this process..... guys if some fat ass unhealthy crying dude like me can do this, I can promise you that you can as well.  Post your promise.  Keep your word.  Reach out for help.  And make connections.

God Bless KTC and the KTC family,

worktowin/3,000
Thanks for all you do brother ! you have been instrumental in my quit a debit i dont no if a can repay its a honor to call you a friend and brother!
Awesome. Badass triple comma.
You are also one who proves there's no excuse to go back. Proud to quit with you!

Way to go 3,,,000!!!
Congrats brother!! 3K is some impressive work.  'shots'

Congrads on 3k milestone!! You are an inspiration!!
Amazing journey sir, amazing strength of will. Congrats and keep on being the badass quitter that you are!

Thank you for all you have done. I pray that one day I will see those numbers behind my name, only 2628 days to go. You sir are an inspiration to all.

Congrats my friend!  You have impacted countless lives here including mine and I will pray for your brother's swift recovery.  Let's take this one day at a time and I quit with you today!   :)

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Re: Worktowin's road to winning
« Reply #680 on: March 11, 2021, 05:31:07 PM »
Time to dust this intro off again, and celebrate 3,000 days of winning!

Yep, 3,000!  Honestly, I can't believe it.  I can't believe it, because for over 20 years I tried damn near every day to quit.  I threw out literally thousands of partially full cans of Kodiak Wintergreen.  And the next day I shamefully would return to the closed possible gas station in a near panic to get my fix on my way to work.  I hid shamefully from my family, from my friends... I made every excuse in the book for the endless showers that weren't about getting clean, or the long escapes during the weekend in the car where I'd drive around alone or park in some parking lot like I was scoring crack.  And then.... I went to see my doctor.  And he told me that I was too fat, with too many results in the "off the charts" category in all the wrong way, and here are a bunch of prescriptions that you need to start on NOW, but also, you might want to brush up on your life insurance.

Well, I was around 40 at the time.  And my dad, a physically fit small dude that liked his pipe tobacco way too well, well he died at 52 all of the sudden, and it hit me that I had to quit.  Had to!  So, I did.  And on Day 16 I woke up in a very dark place, the darkest of my life.  I was shaking, crying like a baby uncontrollably, and just lost and completely hopeless.  And I got on the internet and found this place.  I was schooled QUICKLY that this wasn't a habit, it is an addiction.  That I will post every day or I'll fail.  That I'm not alone.  That other people had done every single thing I had done and felt every single feeling I had.  And that quitting is possible, but you gotta do it right.  And, I listened.

3,000 days later, I am so quit that it is ridiculous.  And it is sooooooooooooo easy now.  Everyone said, this will get easy.  Well, it did.  Not in 50 days, or 100.  By a year, it wasn't hard, but there were still days.  I still remember cravings in the 500s, but day by day, it got easier.  I made friends along the way, and I mean good friends.  I was best man in a wedding of a quitter in Calgary that I talk to every day.... and now I'm spending a lot of time talking him through his divorce.  I text about 20 guys a day, and literally I feel about most of them like they are my own brothers.  And of course, Todd... who died way too soon, but left behind a great wife and son that my wife and I talk to almost daily, and we see in person at least once a year, even in these times of Covid. 

I'm a much better person than I was 3,000 days ago.  I'm honest, I'm direct, and I'm engaged.  I'm not trying to escape.  My marriage is better, and my wife is happier.  My income has multiplied and my responsibilities for my employer have as well.  I'm a better son to a mother that demands and deserves a lot of attention. I'm a better friend.  And overall, I'm just so much happier than I ever imagined I could be.  There was always an underlying anger, tension.... that I think was low level withdrawal always on the cusp of breaking through.  Well, that is gone now.

I've gone through some of the roughest points in my life in the past 3,000 days.  My wife ending up in ICU from a diabetic crisis.  A really kind boss getting fired... I was handed her job.... her suing us and me being smack in the middle of it.  My mom having her leg amputated unexpectedly and having to move her to an assisted living facility - and learning how to deal with not only a severe disability as also the constant management of "institutional care" that is necessary.  And in just the past couple of weeks, my brother learning of his Stage 4 oral cancer.... the kind that those of use that used tobacco for 20+ years fear.... but someone like him that never touched tobacco in his life.  His journey with massive chemotherapy and radiation begins on Monday, and deep down I'm scared, but also feel a sense of guilt that I know I shouldn't, but I do anyway.  Why is my brother, the kindest person I know, going through this when I "asked for it" for over 20 years?  Life is full of challenges, but together, we push ahead.

Through all of these events, my online family has been by my side.  In 3,000 days everyone has their own stories, and I'm so honored to have this support system in place.  Because, any of these events would have easily triggered a cave in my past life.... but now, ain't no way I'm letting anyone down.

This is a long post, and for that I apologize.  But I find it helpful to look back over time and see where I was, and where I am.  I feel like Iron Man this morning when it comes to nicotine.  It is a joke, and it won't control me today.  I'll post roll.  I'll text by brothers.  And I'll win again today.


From the bottom of my heart, I thank all of you.  For those of you just joining this process..... guys if some fat ass unhealthy crying dude like me can do this, I can promise you that you can as well.  Post your promise.  Keep your word.  Reach out for help.  And make connections.

God Bless KTC and the KTC family,

worktowin/3,000
Thanks for all you do brother ! you have been instrumental in my quit a debit i dont no if a can repay its a honor to call you a friend and brother!
Awesome. Badass triple comma.
You are also one who proves there's no excuse to go back. Proud to quit with you!

Way to go 3,,,000!!!
Congrats brother!! 3K is some impressive work.  'shots'

Congrads on 3k milestone!! You are an inspiration!!
Amazing journey sir, amazing strength of will. Congrats and keep on being the badass quitter that you are!

Thank you for all you have done. I pray that one day I will see those numbers behind my name, only 2628 days to go. You sir are an inspiration to all.

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Re: Worktowin's road to winning
« Reply #679 on: March 11, 2021, 12:52:05 PM »
Time to dust this intro off again, and celebrate 3,000 days of winning!

Yep, 3,000!  Honestly, I can't believe it.  I can't believe it, because for over 20 years I tried damn near every day to quit.  I threw out literally thousands of partially full cans of Kodiak Wintergreen.  And the next day I shamefully would return to the closed possible gas station in a near panic to get my fix on my way to work.  I hid shamefully from my family, from my friends... I made every excuse in the book for the endless showers that weren't about getting clean, or the long escapes during the weekend in the car where I'd drive around alone or park in some parking lot like I was scoring crack.  And then.... I went to see my doctor.  And he told me that I was too fat, with too many results in the "off the charts" category in all the wrong way, and here are a bunch of prescriptions that you need to start on NOW, but also, you might want to brush up on your life insurance.

Well, I was around 40 at the time.  And my dad, a physically fit small dude that liked his pipe tobacco way too well, well he died at 52 all of the sudden, and it hit me that I had to quit.  Had to!  So, I did.  And on Day 16 I woke up in a very dark place, the darkest of my life.  I was shaking, crying like a baby uncontrollably, and just lost and completely hopeless.  And I got on the internet and found this place.  I was schooled QUICKLY that this wasn't a habit, it is an addiction.  That I will post every day or I'll fail.  That I'm not alone.  That other people had done every single thing I had done and felt every single feeling I had.  And that quitting is possible, but you gotta do it right.  And, I listened.

3,000 days later, I am so quit that it is ridiculous.  And it is sooooooooooooo easy now.  Everyone said, this will get easy.  Well, it did.  Not in 50 days, or 100.  By a year, it wasn't hard, but there were still days.  I still remember cravings in the 500s, but day by day, it got easier.  I made friends along the way, and I mean good friends.  I was best man in a wedding of a quitter in Calgary that I talk to every day.... and now I'm spending a lot of time talking him through his divorce.  I text about 20 guys a day, and literally I feel about most of them like they are my own brothers.  And of course, Todd... who died way too soon, but left behind a great wife and son that my wife and I talk to almost daily, and we see in person at least once a year, even in these times of Covid. 

I'm a much better person than I was 3,000 days ago.  I'm honest, I'm direct, and I'm engaged.  I'm not trying to escape.  My marriage is better, and my wife is happier.  My income has multiplied and my responsibilities for my employer have as well.  I'm a better son to a mother that demands and deserves a lot of attention. I'm a better friend.  And overall, I'm just so much happier than I ever imagined I could be.  There was always an underlying anger, tension.... that I think was low level withdrawal always on the cusp of breaking through.  Well, that is gone now.

I've gone through some of the roughest points in my life in the past 3,000 days.  My wife ending up in ICU from a diabetic crisis.  A really kind boss getting fired... I was handed her job.... her suing us and me being smack in the middle of it.  My mom having her leg amputated unexpectedly and having to move her to an assisted living facility - and learning how to deal with not only a severe disability as also the constant management of "institutional care" that is necessary.  And in just the past couple of weeks, my brother learning of his Stage 4 oral cancer.... the kind that those of use that used tobacco for 20+ years fear.... but someone like him that never touched tobacco in his life.  His journey with massive chemotherapy and radiation begins on Monday, and deep down I'm scared, but also feel a sense of guilt that I know I shouldn't, but I do anyway.  Why is my brother, the kindest person I know, going through this when I "asked for it" for over 20 years?  Life is full of challenges, but together, we push ahead.

Through all of these events, my online family has been by my side.  In 3,000 days everyone has their own stories, and I'm so honored to have this support system in place.  Because, any of these events would have easily triggered a cave in my past life.... but now, ain't no way I'm letting anyone down.

This is a long post, and for that I apologize.  But I find it helpful to look back over time and see where I was, and where I am.  I feel like Iron Man this morning when it comes to nicotine.  It is a joke, and it won't control me today.  I'll post roll.  I'll text by brothers.  And I'll win again today.


From the bottom of my heart, I thank all of you.  For those of you just joining this process..... guys if some fat ass unhealthy crying dude like me can do this, I can promise you that you can as well.  Post your promise.  Keep your word.  Reach out for help.  And make connections.

God Bless KTC and the KTC family,

worktowin/3,000
Thanks for all you do brother ! you have been instrumental in my quit a debit i dont no if a can repay its a honor to call you a friend and brother!
Awesome. Badass triple comma.
You are also one who proves there's no excuse to go back. Proud to quit with you!

Way to go 3,,,000!!!
Congrats brother!! 3K is some impressive work.  'shots'

Congrads on 3k milestone!! You are an inspiration!!
Amazing journey sir, amazing strength of will. Congrats and keep on being the badass quitter that you are!
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Re: Worktowin's road to winning
« Reply #678 on: March 11, 2021, 12:37:41 PM »
Time to dust this intro off again, and celebrate 3,000 days of winning!

Yep, 3,000!  Honestly, I can't believe it.  I can't believe it, because for over 20 years I tried damn near every day to quit.  I threw out literally thousands of partially full cans of Kodiak Wintergreen.  And the next day I shamefully would return to the closed possible gas station in a near panic to get my fix on my way to work.  I hid shamefully from my family, from my friends... I made every excuse in the book for the endless showers that weren't about getting clean, or the long escapes during the weekend in the car where I'd drive around alone or park in some parking lot like I was scoring crack.  And then.... I went to see my doctor.  And he told me that I was too fat, with too many results in the "off the charts" category in all the wrong way, and here are a bunch of prescriptions that you need to start on NOW, but also, you might want to brush up on your life insurance.

Well, I was around 40 at the time.  And my dad, a physically fit small dude that liked his pipe tobacco way too well, well he died at 52 all of the sudden, and it hit me that I had to quit.  Had to!  So, I did.  And on Day 16 I woke up in a very dark place, the darkest of my life.  I was shaking, crying like a baby uncontrollably, and just lost and completely hopeless.  And I got on the internet and found this place.  I was schooled QUICKLY that this wasn't a habit, it is an addiction.  That I will post every day or I'll fail.  That I'm not alone.  That other people had done every single thing I had done and felt every single feeling I had.  And that quitting is possible, but you gotta do it right.  And, I listened.

3,000 days later, I am so quit that it is ridiculous.  And it is sooooooooooooo easy now.  Everyone said, this will get easy.  Well, it did.  Not in 50 days, or 100.  By a year, it wasn't hard, but there were still days.  I still remember cravings in the 500s, but day by day, it got easier.  I made friends along the way, and I mean good friends.  I was best man in a wedding of a quitter in Calgary that I talk to every day.... and now I'm spending a lot of time talking him through his divorce.  I text about 20 guys a day, and literally I feel about most of them like they are my own brothers.  And of course, Todd... who died way too soon, but left behind a great wife and son that my wife and I talk to almost daily, and we see in person at least once a year, even in these times of Covid. 

I'm a much better person than I was 3,000 days ago.  I'm honest, I'm direct, and I'm engaged.  I'm not trying to escape.  My marriage is better, and my wife is happier.  My income has multiplied and my responsibilities for my employer have as well.  I'm a better son to a mother that demands and deserves a lot of attention. I'm a better friend.  And overall, I'm just so much happier than I ever imagined I could be.  There was always an underlying anger, tension.... that I think was low level withdrawal always on the cusp of breaking through.  Well, that is gone now.

I've gone through some of the roughest points in my life in the past 3,000 days.  My wife ending up in ICU from a diabetic crisis.  A really kind boss getting fired... I was handed her job.... her suing us and me being smack in the middle of it.  My mom having her leg amputated unexpectedly and having to move her to an assisted living facility - and learning how to deal with not only a severe disability as also the constant management of "institutional care" that is necessary.  And in just the past couple of weeks, my brother learning of his Stage 4 oral cancer.... the kind that those of use that used tobacco for 20+ years fear.... but someone like him that never touched tobacco in his life.  His journey with massive chemotherapy and radiation begins on Monday, and deep down I'm scared, but also feel a sense of guilt that I know I shouldn't, but I do anyway.  Why is my brother, the kindest person I know, going through this when I "asked for it" for over 20 years?  Life is full of challenges, but together, we push ahead.

Through all of these events, my online family has been by my side.  In 3,000 days everyone has their own stories, and I'm so honored to have this support system in place.  Because, any of these events would have easily triggered a cave in my past life.... but now, ain't no way I'm letting anyone down.

This is a long post, and for that I apologize.  But I find it helpful to look back over time and see where I was, and where I am.  I feel like Iron Man this morning when it comes to nicotine.  It is a joke, and it won't control me today.  I'll post roll.  I'll text by brothers.  And I'll win again today.


From the bottom of my heart, I thank all of you.  For those of you just joining this process..... guys if some fat ass unhealthy crying dude like me can do this, I can promise you that you can as well.  Post your promise.  Keep your word.  Reach out for help.  And make connections.

God Bless KTC and the KTC family,

worktowin/3,000
Thanks for all you do brother ! you have been instrumental in my quit a debit i dont no if a can repay its a honor to call you a friend and brother!
Awesome. Badass triple comma.
You are also one who proves there's no excuse to go back. Proud to quit with you!

Way to go 3,,,000!!!
Congrats brother!! 3K is some impressive work.  'shots'

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Re: Worktowin's road to winning
« Reply #677 on: March 11, 2021, 12:34:12 PM »
Time to dust this intro off again, and celebrate 3,000 days of winning!

Yep, 3,000!  Honestly, I can't believe it.  I can't believe it, because for over 20 years I tried damn near every day to quit.  I threw out literally thousands of partially full cans of Kodiak Wintergreen.  And the next day I shamefully would return to the closed possible gas station in a near panic to get my fix on my way to work.  I hid shamefully from my family, from my friends... I made every excuse in the book for the endless showers that weren't about getting clean, or the long escapes during the weekend in the car where I'd drive around alone or park in some parking lot like I was scoring crack.  And then.... I went to see my doctor.  And he told me that I was too fat, with too many results in the "off the charts" category in all the wrong way, and here are a bunch of prescriptions that you need to start on NOW, but also, you might want to brush up on your life insurance.

Well, I was around 40 at the time.  And my dad, a physically fit small dude that liked his pipe tobacco way too well, well he died at 52 all of the sudden, and it hit me that I had to quit.  Had to!  So, I did.  And on Day 16 I woke up in a very dark place, the darkest of my life.  I was shaking, crying like a baby uncontrollably, and just lost and completely hopeless.  And I got on the internet and found this place.  I was schooled QUICKLY that this wasn't a habit, it is an addiction.  That I will post every day or I'll fail.  That I'm not alone.  That other people had done every single thing I had done and felt every single feeling I had.  And that quitting is possible, but you gotta do it right.  And, I listened.

3,000 days later, I am so quit that it is ridiculous.  And it is sooooooooooooo easy now.  Everyone said, this will get easy.  Well, it did.  Not in 50 days, or 100.  By a year, it wasn't hard, but there were still days.  I still remember cravings in the 500s, but day by day, it got easier.  I made friends along the way, and I mean good friends.  I was best man in a wedding of a quitter in Calgary that I talk to every day.... and now I'm spending a lot of time talking him through his divorce.  I text about 20 guys a day, and literally I feel about most of them like they are my own brothers.  And of course, Todd... who died way too soon, but left behind a great wife and son that my wife and I talk to almost daily, and we see in person at least once a year, even in these times of Covid. 

I'm a much better person than I was 3,000 days ago.  I'm honest, I'm direct, and I'm engaged.  I'm not trying to escape.  My marriage is better, and my wife is happier.  My income has multiplied and my responsibilities for my employer have as well.  I'm a better son to a mother that demands and deserves a lot of attention. I'm a better friend.  And overall, I'm just so much happier than I ever imagined I could be.  There was always an underlying anger, tension.... that I think was low level withdrawal always on the cusp of breaking through.  Well, that is gone now.

I've gone through some of the roughest points in my life in the past 3,000 days.  My wife ending up in ICU from a diabetic crisis.  A really kind boss getting fired... I was handed her job.... her suing us and me being smack in the middle of it.  My mom having her leg amputated unexpectedly and having to move her to an assisted living facility - and learning how to deal with not only a severe disability as also the constant management of "institutional care" that is necessary.  And in just the past couple of weeks, my brother learning of his Stage 4 oral cancer.... the kind that those of use that used tobacco for 20+ years fear.... but someone like him that never touched tobacco in his life.  His journey with massive chemotherapy and radiation begins on Monday, and deep down I'm scared, but also feel a sense of guilt that I know I shouldn't, but I do anyway.  Why is my brother, the kindest person I know, going through this when I "asked for it" for over 20 years?  Life is full of challenges, but together, we push ahead.

Through all of these events, my online family has been by my side.  In 3,000 days everyone has their own stories, and I'm so honored to have this support system in place.  Because, any of these events would have easily triggered a cave in my past life.... but now, ain't no way I'm letting anyone down.

This is a long post, and for that I apologize.  But I find it helpful to look back over time and see where I was, and where I am.  I feel like Iron Man this morning when it comes to nicotine.  It is a joke, and it won't control me today.  I'll post roll.  I'll text by brothers.  And I'll win again today.


From the bottom of my heart, I thank all of you.  For those of you just joining this process..... guys if some fat ass unhealthy crying dude like me can do this, I can promise you that you can as well.  Post your promise.  Keep your word.  Reach out for help.  And make connections.

God Bless KTC and the KTC family,

worktowin/3,000
Thanks for all you do brother ! you have been instrumental in my quit a debit i dont no if a can repay its a honor to call you a friend and brother!
Awesome. Badass triple comma.
You are also one who proves there's no excuse to go back. Proud to quit with you!

Way to go 3,,,000!!!
Congrats brother!! 3K is some impressive work.  'shots'
Congrats @worktowin !! Even if you have written something previous for one of your other commas, I think you should submit your 3k post here to the Comma Club :)
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Re: Worktowin's road to winning
« Reply #676 on: March 11, 2021, 12:26:48 PM »
Time to dust this intro off again, and celebrate 3,000 days of winning!

Yep, 3,000!  Honestly, I can't believe it.  I can't believe it, because for over 20 years I tried damn near every day to quit.  I threw out literally thousands of partially full cans of Kodiak Wintergreen.  And the next day I shamefully would return to the closed possible gas station in a near panic to get my fix on my way to work.  I hid shamefully from my family, from my friends... I made every excuse in the book for the endless showers that weren't about getting clean, or the long escapes during the weekend in the car where I'd drive around alone or park in some parking lot like I was scoring crack.  And then.... I went to see my doctor.  And he told me that I was too fat, with too many results in the "off the charts" category in all the wrong way, and here are a bunch of prescriptions that you need to start on NOW, but also, you might want to brush up on your life insurance.

Well, I was around 40 at the time.  And my dad, a physically fit small dude that liked his pipe tobacco way too well, well he died at 52 all of the sudden, and it hit me that I had to quit.  Had to!  So, I did.  And on Day 16 I woke up in a very dark place, the darkest of my life.  I was shaking, crying like a baby uncontrollably, and just lost and completely hopeless.  And I got on the internet and found this place.  I was schooled QUICKLY that this wasn't a habit, it is an addiction.  That I will post every day or I'll fail.  That I'm not alone.  That other people had done every single thing I had done and felt every single feeling I had.  And that quitting is possible, but you gotta do it right.  And, I listened.

3,000 days later, I am so quit that it is ridiculous.  And it is sooooooooooooo easy now.  Everyone said, this will get easy.  Well, it did.  Not in 50 days, or 100.  By a year, it wasn't hard, but there were still days.  I still remember cravings in the 500s, but day by day, it got easier.  I made friends along the way, and I mean good friends.  I was best man in a wedding of a quitter in Calgary that I talk to every day.... and now I'm spending a lot of time talking him through his divorce.  I text about 20 guys a day, and literally I feel about most of them like they are my own brothers.  And of course, Todd... who died way too soon, but left behind a great wife and son that my wife and I talk to almost daily, and we see in person at least once a year, even in these times of Covid. 

I'm a much better person than I was 3,000 days ago.  I'm honest, I'm direct, and I'm engaged.  I'm not trying to escape.  My marriage is better, and my wife is happier.  My income has multiplied and my responsibilities for my employer have as well.  I'm a better son to a mother that demands and deserves a lot of attention. I'm a better friend.  And overall, I'm just so much happier than I ever imagined I could be.  There was always an underlying anger, tension.... that I think was low level withdrawal always on the cusp of breaking through.  Well, that is gone now.

I've gone through some of the roughest points in my life in the past 3,000 days.  My wife ending up in ICU from a diabetic crisis.  A really kind boss getting fired... I was handed her job.... her suing us and me being smack in the middle of it.  My mom having her leg amputated unexpectedly and having to move her to an assisted living facility - and learning how to deal with not only a severe disability as also the constant management of "institutional care" that is necessary.  And in just the past couple of weeks, my brother learning of his Stage 4 oral cancer.... the kind that those of use that used tobacco for 20+ years fear.... but someone like him that never touched tobacco in his life.  His journey with massive chemotherapy and radiation begins on Monday, and deep down I'm scared, but also feel a sense of guilt that I know I shouldn't, but I do anyway.  Why is my brother, the kindest person I know, going through this when I "asked for it" for over 20 years?  Life is full of challenges, but together, we push ahead.

Through all of these events, my online family has been by my side.  In 3,000 days everyone has their own stories, and I'm so honored to have this support system in place.  Because, any of these events would have easily triggered a cave in my past life.... but now, ain't no way I'm letting anyone down.

This is a long post, and for that I apologize.  But I find it helpful to look back over time and see where I was, and where I am.  I feel like Iron Man this morning when it comes to nicotine.  It is a joke, and it won't control me today.  I'll post roll.  I'll text by brothers.  And I'll win again today.


From the bottom of my heart, I thank all of you.  For those of you just joining this process..... guys if some fat ass unhealthy crying dude like me can do this, I can promise you that you can as well.  Post your promise.  Keep your word.  Reach out for help.  And make connections.

God Bless KTC and the KTC family,

worktowin/3,000
Thanks for all you do brother ! you have been instrumental in my quit a debit i dont no if a can repay its a honor to call you a friend and brother!
Awesome. Badass triple comma.
You are also one who proves there's no excuse to go back. Proud to quit with you!

Way to go 3,,,000!!!
Congrats brother!! 3K is some impressive work.  'shots'
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Re: Worktowin's road to winning
« Reply #675 on: March 11, 2021, 12:00:28 PM »
Time to dust this intro off again, and celebrate 3,000 days of winning!

Yep, 3,000!  Honestly, I can't believe it.  I can't believe it, because for over 20 years I tried damn near every day to quit.  I threw out literally thousands of partially full cans of Kodiak Wintergreen.  And the next day I shamefully would return to the closed possible gas station in a near panic to get my fix on my way to work.  I hid shamefully from my family, from my friends... I made every excuse in the book for the endless showers that weren't about getting clean, or the long escapes during the weekend in the car where I'd drive around alone or park in some parking lot like I was scoring crack.  And then.... I went to see my doctor.  And he told me that I was too fat, with too many results in the "off the charts" category in all the wrong way, and here are a bunch of prescriptions that you need to start on NOW, but also, you might want to brush up on your life insurance.

Well, I was around 40 at the time.  And my dad, a physically fit small dude that liked his pipe tobacco way too well, well he died at 52 all of the sudden, and it hit me that I had to quit.  Had to!  So, I did.  And on Day 16 I woke up in a very dark place, the darkest of my life.  I was shaking, crying like a baby uncontrollably, and just lost and completely hopeless.  And I got on the internet and found this place.  I was schooled QUICKLY that this wasn't a habit, it is an addiction.  That I will post every day or I'll fail.  That I'm not alone.  That other people had done every single thing I had done and felt every single feeling I had.  And that quitting is possible, but you gotta do it right.  And, I listened.

3,000 days later, I am so quit that it is ridiculous.  And it is sooooooooooooo easy now.  Everyone said, this will get easy.  Well, it did.  Not in 50 days, or 100.  By a year, it wasn't hard, but there were still days.  I still remember cravings in the 500s, but day by day, it got easier.  I made friends along the way, and I mean good friends.  I was best man in a wedding of a quitter in Calgary that I talk to every day.... and now I'm spending a lot of time talking him through his divorce.  I text about 20 guys a day, and literally I feel about most of them like they are my own brothers.  And of course, Todd... who died way too soon, but left behind a great wife and son that my wife and I talk to almost daily, and we see in person at least once a year, even in these times of Covid. 

I'm a much better person than I was 3,000 days ago.  I'm honest, I'm direct, and I'm engaged.  I'm not trying to escape.  My marriage is better, and my wife is happier.  My income has multiplied and my responsibilities for my employer have as well.  I'm a better son to a mother that demands and deserves a lot of attention. I'm a better friend.  And overall, I'm just so much happier than I ever imagined I could be.  There was always an underlying anger, tension.... that I think was low level withdrawal always on the cusp of breaking through.  Well, that is gone now.

I've gone through some of the roughest points in my life in the past 3,000 days.  My wife ending up in ICU from a diabetic crisis.  A really kind boss getting fired... I was handed her job.... her suing us and me being smack in the middle of it.  My mom having her leg amputated unexpectedly and having to move her to an assisted living facility - and learning how to deal with not only a severe disability as also the constant management of "institutional care" that is necessary.  And in just the past couple of weeks, my brother learning of his Stage 4 oral cancer.... the kind that those of use that used tobacco for 20+ years fear.... but someone like him that never touched tobacco in his life.  His journey with massive chemotherapy and radiation begins on Monday, and deep down I'm scared, but also feel a sense of guilt that I know I shouldn't, but I do anyway.  Why is my brother, the kindest person I know, going through this when I "asked for it" for over 20 years?  Life is full of challenges, but together, we push ahead.

Through all of these events, my online family has been by my side.  In 3,000 days everyone has their own stories, and I'm so honored to have this support system in place.  Because, any of these events would have easily triggered a cave in my past life.... but now, ain't no way I'm letting anyone down.

This is a long post, and for that I apologize.  But I find it helpful to look back over time and see where I was, and where I am.  I feel like Iron Man this morning when it comes to nicotine.  It is a joke, and it won't control me today.  I'll post roll.  I'll text by brothers.  And I'll win again today.


From the bottom of my heart, I thank all of you.  For those of you just joining this process..... guys if some fat ass unhealthy crying dude like me can do this, I can promise you that you can as well.  Post your promise.  Keep your word.  Reach out for help.  And make connections.

God Bless KTC and the KTC family,

worktowin/3,000
Thanks for all you do brother ! you have been instrumental in my quit a debit i dont no if a can repay its a honor to call you a friend and brother!
Awesome. Badass triple comma.
You are also one who proves there's no excuse to go back. Proud to quit with you!

Way to go 3,,,000!!!
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Re: Worktowin's road to winning
« Reply #674 on: March 11, 2021, 11:36:32 AM »
Time to dust this intro off again, and celebrate 3,000 days of winning!

Yep, 3,000!  Honestly, I can't believe it.  I can't believe it, because for over 20 years I tried damn near every day to quit.  I threw out literally thousands of partially full cans of Kodiak Wintergreen.  And the next day I shamefully would return to the closed possible gas station in a near panic to get my fix on my way to work.  I hid shamefully from my family, from my friends... I made every excuse in the book for the endless showers that weren't about getting clean, or the long escapes during the weekend in the car where I'd drive around alone or park in some parking lot like I was scoring crack.  And then.... I went to see my doctor.  And he told me that I was too fat, with too many results in the "off the charts" category in all the wrong way, and here are a bunch of prescriptions that you need to start on NOW, but also, you might want to brush up on your life insurance.

Well, I was around 40 at the time.  And my dad, a physically fit small dude that liked his pipe tobacco way too well, well he died at 52 all of the sudden, and it hit me that I had to quit.  Had to!  So, I did.  And on Day 16 I woke up in a very dark place, the darkest of my life.  I was shaking, crying like a baby uncontrollably, and just lost and completely hopeless.  And I got on the internet and found this place.  I was schooled QUICKLY that this wasn't a habit, it is an addiction.  That I will post every day or I'll fail.  That I'm not alone.  That other people had done every single thing I had done and felt every single feeling I had.  And that quitting is possible, but you gotta do it right.  And, I listened.

3,000 days later, I am so quit that it is ridiculous.  And it is sooooooooooooo easy now.  Everyone said, this will get easy.  Well, it did.  Not in 50 days, or 100.  By a year, it wasn't hard, but there were still days.  I still remember cravings in the 500s, but day by day, it got easier.  I made friends along the way, and I mean good friends.  I was best man in a wedding of a quitter in Calgary that I talk to every day.... and now I'm spending a lot of time talking him through his divorce.  I text about 20 guys a day, and literally I feel about most of them like they are my own brothers.  And of course, Todd... who died way too soon, but left behind a great wife and son that my wife and I talk to almost daily, and we see in person at least once a year, even in these times of Covid. 

I'm a much better person than I was 3,000 days ago.  I'm honest, I'm direct, and I'm engaged.  I'm not trying to escape.  My marriage is better, and my wife is happier.  My income has multiplied and my responsibilities for my employer have as well.  I'm a better son to a mother that demands and deserves a lot of attention. I'm a better friend.  And overall, I'm just so much happier than I ever imagined I could be.  There was always an underlying anger, tension.... that I think was low level withdrawal always on the cusp of breaking through.  Well, that is gone now.

I've gone through some of the roughest points in my life in the past 3,000 days.  My wife ending up in ICU from a diabetic crisis.  A really kind boss getting fired... I was handed her job.... her suing us and me being smack in the middle of it.  My mom having her leg amputated unexpectedly and having to move her to an assisted living facility - and learning how to deal with not only a severe disability as also the constant management of "institutional care" that is necessary.  And in just the past couple of weeks, my brother learning of his Stage 4 oral cancer.... the kind that those of use that used tobacco for 20+ years fear.... but someone like him that never touched tobacco in his life.  His journey with massive chemotherapy and radiation begins on Monday, and deep down I'm scared, but also feel a sense of guilt that I know I shouldn't, but I do anyway.  Why is my brother, the kindest person I know, going through this when I "asked for it" for over 20 years?  Life is full of challenges, but together, we push ahead.

Through all of these events, my online family has been by my side.  In 3,000 days everyone has their own stories, and I'm so honored to have this support system in place.  Because, any of these events would have easily triggered a cave in my past life.... but now, ain't no way I'm letting anyone down.

This is a long post, and for that I apologize.  But I find it helpful to look back over time and see where I was, and where I am.  I feel like Iron Man this morning when it comes to nicotine.  It is a joke, and it won't control me today.  I'll post roll.  I'll text by brothers.  And I'll win again today.


From the bottom of my heart, I thank all of you.  For those of you just joining this process..... guys if some fat ass unhealthy crying dude like me can do this, I can promise you that you can as well.  Post your promise.  Keep your word.  Reach out for help.  And make connections.

God Bless KTC and the KTC family,

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Thanks for all you do brother ! you have been instrumental in my quit a debit i dont no if a can repay its a honor to call you a friend and brother!
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Re: Worktowin's road to winning
« Reply #673 on: March 11, 2021, 08:30:23 AM »
Time to dust this intro off again, and celebrate 3,000 days of winning!

Yep, 3,000!  Honestly, I can't believe it.  I can't believe it, because for over 20 years I tried damn near every day to quit.  I threw out literally thousands of partially full cans of Kodiak Wintergreen.  And the next day I shamefully would return to the closed possible gas station in a near panic to get my fix on my way to work.  I hid shamefully from my family, from my friends... I made every excuse in the book for the endless showers that weren't about getting clean, or the long escapes during the weekend in the car where I'd drive around alone or park in some parking lot like I was scoring crack.  And then.... I went to see my doctor.  And he told me that I was too fat, with too many results in the "off the charts" category in all the wrong way, and here are a bunch of prescriptions that you need to start on NOW, but also, you might want to brush up on your life insurance.

Well, I was around 40 at the time.  And my dad, a physically fit small dude that liked his pipe tobacco way too well, well he died at 52 all of the sudden, and it hit me that I had to quit.  Had to!  So, I did.  And on Day 16 I woke up in a very dark place, the darkest of my life.  I was shaking, crying like a baby uncontrollably, and just lost and completely hopeless.  And I got on the internet and found this place.  I was schooled QUICKLY that this wasn't a habit, it is an addiction.  That I will post every day or I'll fail.  That I'm not alone.  That other people had done every single thing I had done and felt every single feeling I had.  And that quitting is possible, but you gotta do it right.  And, I listened.

3,000 days later, I am so quit that it is ridiculous.  And it is sooooooooooooo easy now.  Everyone said, this will get easy.  Well, it did.  Not in 50 days, or 100.  By a year, it wasn't hard, but there were still days.  I still remember cravings in the 500s, but day by day, it got easier.  I made friends along the way, and I mean good friends.  I was best man in a wedding of a quitter in Calgary that I talk to every day.... and now I'm spending a lot of time talking him through his divorce.  I text about 20 guys a day, and literally I feel about most of them like they are my own brothers.  And of course, Todd... who died way too soon, but left behind a great wife and son that my wife and I talk to almost daily, and we see in person at least once a year, even in these times of Covid. 

I'm a much better person than I was 3,000 days ago.  I'm honest, I'm direct, and I'm engaged.  I'm not trying to escape.  My marriage is better, and my wife is happier.  My income has multiplied and my responsibilities for my employer have as well.  I'm a better son to a mother that demands and deserves a lot of attention. I'm a better friend.  And overall, I'm just so much happier than I ever imagined I could be.  There was always an underlying anger, tension.... that I think was low level withdrawal always on the cusp of breaking through.  Well, that is gone now.

I've gone through some of the roughest points in my life in the past 3,000 days.  My wife ending up in ICU from a diabetic crisis.  A really kind boss getting fired... I was handed her job.... her suing us and me being smack in the middle of it.  My mom having her leg amputated unexpectedly and having to move her to an assisted living facility - and learning how to deal with not only a severe disability as also the constant management of "institutional care" that is necessary.  And in just the past couple of weeks, my brother learning of his Stage 4 oral cancer.... the kind that those of use that used tobacco for 20+ years fear.... but someone like him that never touched tobacco in his life.  His journey with massive chemotherapy and radiation begins on Monday, and deep down I'm scared, but also feel a sense of guilt that I know I shouldn't, but I do anyway.  Why is my brother, the kindest person I know, going through this when I "asked for it" for over 20 years?  Life is full of challenges, but together, we push ahead.

Through all of these events, my online family has been by my side.  In 3,000 days everyone has their own stories, and I'm so honored to have this support system in place.  Because, any of these events would have easily triggered a cave in my past life.... but now, ain't no way I'm letting anyone down.

This is a long post, and for that I apologize.  But I find it helpful to look back over time and see where I was, and where I am.  I feel like Iron Man this morning when it comes to nicotine.  It is a joke, and it won't control me today.  I'll post roll.  I'll text by brothers.  And I'll win again today.


From the bottom of my heart, I thank all of you.  For those of you just joining this process..... guys if some fat ass unhealthy crying dude like me can do this, I can promise you that you can as well.  Post your promise.  Keep your word.  Reach out for help.  And make connections.

God Bless KTC and the KTC family,

worktowin/3,000
Thanks for all you do brother ! you have been instrumental in my quit a debit i dont no if a can repay its a honor to call you a friend and brother!
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Re: Worktowin's road to winning
« Reply #672 on: March 11, 2021, 08:16:21 AM »
Time to dust this intro off again, and celebrate 3,000 days of winning!

Yep, 3,000!  Honestly, I can't believe it.  I can't believe it, because for over 20 years I tried damn near every day to quit.  I threw out literally thousands of partially full cans of Kodiak Wintergreen.  And the next day I shamefully would return to the closed possible gas station in a near panic to get my fix on my way to work.  I hid shamefully from my family, from my friends... I made every excuse in the book for the endless showers that weren't about getting clean, or the long escapes during the weekend in the car where I'd drive around alone or park in some parking lot like I was scoring crack.  And then.... I went to see my doctor.  And he told me that I was too fat, with too many results in the "off the charts" category in all the wrong way, and here are a bunch of prescriptions that you need to start on NOW, but also, you might want to brush up on your life insurance.

Well, I was around 40 at the time.  And my dad, a physically fit small dude that liked his pipe tobacco way too well, well he died at 52 all of the sudden, and it hit me that I had to quit.  Had to!  So, I did.  And on Day 16 I woke up in a very dark place, the darkest of my life.  I was shaking, crying like a baby uncontrollably, and just lost and completely hopeless.  And I got on the internet and found this place.  I was schooled QUICKLY that this wasn't a habit, it is an addiction.  That I will post every day or I'll fail.  That I'm not alone.  That other people had done every single thing I had done and felt every single feeling I had.  And that quitting is possible, but you gotta do it right.  And, I listened.

3,000 days later, I am so quit that it is ridiculous.  And it is sooooooooooooo easy now.  Everyone said, this will get easy.  Well, it did.  Not in 50 days, or 100.  By a year, it wasn't hard, but there were still days.  I still remember cravings in the 500s, but day by day, it got easier.  I made friends along the way, and I mean good friends.  I was best man in a wedding of a quitter in Calgary that I talk to every day.... and now I'm spending a lot of time talking him through his divorce.  I text about 20 guys a day, and literally I feel about most of them like they are my own brothers.  And of course, Todd... who died way too soon, but left behind a great wife and son that my wife and I talk to almost daily, and we see in person at least once a year, even in these times of Covid. 

I'm a much better person than I was 3,000 days ago.  I'm honest, I'm direct, and I'm engaged.  I'm not trying to escape.  My marriage is better, and my wife is happier.  My income has multiplied and my responsibilities for my employer have as well.  I'm a better son to a mother that demands and deserves a lot of attention. I'm a better friend.  And overall, I'm just so much happier than I ever imagined I could be.  There was always an underlying anger, tension.... that I think was low level withdrawal always on the cusp of breaking through.  Well, that is gone now.

I've gone through some of the roughest points in my life in the past 3,000 days.  My wife ending up in ICU from a diabetic crisis.  A really kind boss getting fired... I was handed her job.... her suing us and me being smack in the middle of it.  My mom having her leg amputated unexpectedly and having to move her to an assisted living facility - and learning how to deal with not only a severe disability as also the constant management of "institutional care" that is necessary.  And in just the past couple of weeks, my brother learning of his Stage 4 oral cancer.... the kind that those of use that used tobacco for 20+ years fear.... but someone like him that never touched tobacco in his life.  His journey with massive chemotherapy and radiation begins on Monday, and deep down I'm scared, but also feel a sense of guilt that I know I shouldn't, but I do anyway.  Why is my brother, the kindest person I know, going through this when I "asked for it" for over 20 years?  Life is full of challenges, but together, we push ahead.

Through all of these events, my online family has been by my side.  In 3,000 days everyone has their own stories, and I'm so honored to have this support system in place.  Because, any of these events would have easily triggered a cave in my past life.... but now, ain't no way I'm letting anyone down.

This is a long post, and for that I apologize.  But I find it helpful to look back over time and see where I was, and where I am.  I feel like Iron Man this morning when it comes to nicotine.  It is a joke, and it won't control me today.  I'll post roll.  I'll text by brothers.  And I'll win again today.


From the bottom of my heart, I thank all of you.  For those of you just joining this process..... guys if some fat ass unhealthy crying dude like me can do this, I can promise you that you can as well.  Post your promise.  Keep your word.  Reach out for help.  And make connections.

God Bless KTC and the KTC family,

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Re: Worktowin's road to winning
« Reply #671 on: December 31, 2020, 10:12:04 PM »
8 years ago today, 2,923 days, I quit.

16 days later, an emotional weak almost suicidal version of myself found this place.

You all have helped me accomplished the one thing that I couldn’t win at alone. That I failed at day, after day, after day.... for 20+ years. That failure defined me more than I knew, and the values and friendships I’ve gained here have made me a much better person than I used to be. A better friend. Spouse. Son. Employee. Citizen.

I thank all of you, the team here at KTC, for your part in helping me.  We are a big family here, and we win together.

God Bless, and Merry Christmas.

Michael
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Keep leading the way brother. Proud to quit with you today.
This is awesome! Thanx for all you do and have done here. KTC wouldn't be the same without you
you da man Michael! Thanks for all you do to help others! Congratulations!
Happy to follow in your footsteps. You have been an exemplary member of our quit grp and this site. I congratulate you and wish you nothing but the best.
Thank-you Michael
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