So...... 6 days quit -- and getting out of the fog (kind of - not as bad as it was this weekend). I'm slowly adjusting to no shit in my lip, and all is going along sorta good. Still have the few episodes where it just seems pointless and you want to cave, but then start thinking of a few things: Getting email from you guys about being a pussy and not a man of my word, getting shit from my friends who have been supportive, etc., and then I realize it's just the bitch trying to get a free ride again. Once I snap out of the few second haze, life is good. Til about 30 minutes ago......
Stopped at a local gas station to rebuild my sunflower seed stash, and go to the counter to pay. As I throw the seeds on the counter - I look up and see many, many bitch cans staring at me, calling my name. Of course there was 1 row of cans that had a light coming from it - like it was being sent from heaven - and was destined to get in my pocket! I knew I had the cash to purchase a can (or more) and stared hard at the tin.
The cashier rang me up, looked at me and said "2.48 please". I gave him a $5, grabbed my change and left as soon as I could.
I will not let the bitch get me! I am a quitter.