Welcome AJ,
NotDead got you going...click on the Welcome Center Link, learn how to post roll. That is the key. Then give your word that you won't have anything to do with nicotine today. Read all you can. "One day at a time" is your new focus. Don't worry about tomorrow, next week or whatever...we'll deal with those things when they get here. Today is the only thing that matters. And anybody can go one day, right?
You took the first step. We've got your back the rest of the way. Rage, rant, do whatever you have to...but no more nicotine. Embrace the suck. That shitty feeling is actually wonderful...it is the feeling of freedom!
Cold turkey is the way to go. YOU CAN DO THIS, brother!!!