KillTheCan.org Accountability Forum
Community => Introductions => Topic started by: MN_Engineer on October 23, 2018, 03:54:00 PM
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Hey all. My name is Jared and I am new to this site. I started chewing 5 years ago in college to survive the late nights of endless homework and projects. I have tried quitting on my own literally countless times, but can't seem to ever make it longer than 2 or 3 weeks. I have my first child on the way and need to get this addiction eradicated from my life once and for all. My new quit date is May 1st, 2016 and I'm hoping the support from this community will help me make this time a success! Thank you for your support.
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FROM RICHARD K:
Why are you going to wait until May 1st??? Why not now???
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Richard K - you are right! Why not make it today?! This is exactly the support I was hoping for and need to be successful. Thank you!
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FROM RICHARD K:
Just throw everything away, start now, ensure you post roll in Aug 16. That will be your group. People will help you out. Pm sent with my number.
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FROM MonsterEMT:
Flush whatever dip you have left. Take away the opportunity to go back to the nic bitch.
Post roll and honor your word. That's all it takes here. But, we don't frolic through the meadow, holding hands and "trying" to quit. We go balls to the wall and quit like badasses every damn day. Wake up, piss, post roll. As long as you can do that and be a man of your word, you'll do just fine here.
Reach out to members of your group (there may not be many as it just opened up, but when there are, do it) and exchange phone numbers. It's really important to have someone you can reach out to when cravings get tough and that person knows exactly what you're going through.
Proud to have you with us and proud to quit with you.
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FROM QUITCONSTRUCT:
You can do this!
It is a fight, and you will find the tools and support here you need to quit, one piece of advice that is invaluable to me: You get what you put in!
Reach out to as many people as you need to!
I am still looking for your Day 1, and looking forward to being Quit with you!
Take back your freedom!
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Thank you everyone for the quick outpouring of support. I have thrown everything out and am excited for my Day 1 tomorrow!
I don't want to try to be a hero, but I really don't want to use nicotine gum/patches/etc. in the quitting process. I bought some Grinds to hopefully help. What is everyone's recommendations?
I am proud to be quitting with all of you. Stay strong.
Peace.
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FROM MATTLOCK:
Thank you everyone for the quick outpouring of support. I have thrown everything out and am excited for my Day 1 tomorrow!
I don't want to try to be a hero, but I really don't want to use nicotine gum/patches/etc. in the quitting process. I bought some Grinds to hopefully help. What is everyone's recommendations?
I am proud to be quitting with all of you. Stay strong.
Peace.
First, this is a nicotine free site period. Nicotine in any form, patches, gum, lozenges as well as traditional tobacco is verboten. Fake chew (Hooch, Smokey Mountain, Baccoff) is allowed as long as there is no nicotine in it at all. I use Smokey Mountain and it helped me get through the first couple of weeks. The day you quit is your day 1. We post roll and make the promise that in the next 24 hours we will not use nicotine in any form. Keep your word for 24 hours and that's the recipe for success. It's simple in practice but can be difficult. That's where your brothers and sisters in your quit group come in, to help when the time gets difficult. The more involved you are in your group, the easier it will be in the long run.
Proud to quit with you!
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FROM KINGNOTHING:
Hey all. My name is Jared and I am new to this site. I started chewing 5 years ago in college to survive the late nights of endless homework and projects. I have tried quitting on my own literally countless times, but can't seem to ever make it longer than 2 or 3 weeks. I have my first child on the way and need to get this addiction eradicated from my life once and for all. My new quit date is May 1st, 2016 and I'm hoping the support from this community will help me make this time a success! Thank you for your support.
Welcome to the party Jared. The above bad asses have steered you in the right direction, so in that regard I don't have a whole lot to add. One thing I did want to mention, however, is you will never ever ever rid yourself of your addiction. This is a very tough pill to swallow at first, but you will always be a nicotine addict. You can not have an "occasional dip" or a celebratory cigar with your buddies on a bachelor party. The gravity of this situation is very real, but that's why we only commit to quitting one day at a time (ODAAT). Forever is too big a chunk to bite off.
There will not be a magical day where you no longer are addicted to nicotine. There will come a day when you don't constantly think about nicotine. There may even come a day when you don't think about nicotine at all. You are not cured. Embrace the addiction. Embrace the fact that you are quit today and your addiction no longer controls your every move. Embrace the fact that you are no longer actively poisoning yourself and that your kids will grow up without watching you slobber all over an empty water bottle trying to spit that brown sludge.
You can do this and this site can help you get there. Post roll, be a man of your word. That simple.
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Thank you mattlock and king. I am committed to diving in cold turkey and definitely will be taking it one day at a time. I am almost through Day 1 with no nicotine and appreciate the solid words of support and advice.
Peace.
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FROM EYEHATECOPE:
Doing things the KTC way, you don't simply hope. You man/woman up and take it one day at a time. You post roll, exchange numbers, make friends and later figure out there is a brother/sister or 2 or more. I support u I just want to make sure u understand hope won't cut it, do it! Every day one day at a time.
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FROM RDAD:
I won't wish you good luck for your first softball game tonight. We don't do luck. You posted your promise to us so you will tackle this first quit hurdle like the badass quitter you are. Get your seeds, fake dip, gum, whatever.....your quit tools and have a great time playing ball clean and free. You got this. See you tomorrow on roll.
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rdad - You are most certainly right and thanks for setting me straight. I don't need luck because luck ain't going to keep me off the can. I made my promise today and I damn well plan to keep it. Peace.
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FROM RAWLS:
rdad - You are most certainly right and thanks for setting me straight. I don't need luck because luck ain't going to keep me off the can. I made my promise today and I damn well plan to keep it. Peace.
The Quit may be strong in this one!
"There is no victory without a battle."
And there is no freedom without once being a slave!
I quit with you.
Rawls 526
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Day 10 - First and foremost I want to thank all my brothers and sisters of quit for your support this last week and a half. You have been there to help me in my struggles and share in my victories. Many thanks!
Some reflections quick:
1.) Posting roll as early as possible every day is super critical. Thanks to all who encouraged this habit from my Day 1 and steered me on the straight and narrow from the beginning.
2.) ODAAT. I never realized how much I psyched myself out in the past when I tried to quit by telling myself I needed to quit for a month, two months, six months and I would be fine. This is a battle minute to minute, hour to hour, day to day. Focusing on the here and now takes away the stress and anxiety of trying to attain some numeric goal. Yes, I get excited thinking about staying quit for 100 days, 1,000 days and 10,000+ days. But I do believe this can only be achieved by confronting the addiction ODAAT.
3.) The freedom is more amazing that I thought. No more staying up super late to get in those few more dips. No more taking super long trips to the toilet; no more lying to myself and my loved ones. Without the nic controlling every aspect of my life, I feel liberated and my mood has improved. I've discovered this mental improvement helps me optimistically take this journey ODAAT.
My two cents - Form a support circle with your fellow brothers and sisters of quit, remain steadfast and humble, persevere in the face of struggle, and most importantly, STAY QUIT!! May the 4th be with you. Peace.
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FROM GRIEVOUS ANGEL:
Day 10 - First and foremost I want to thank all my brothers and sisters of quit for your support this last week and a half. You have been there to help me in my struggles and share in my victories. Many thanks!
Some reflections quick:
1.) Posting roll as early as possible every day is super critical. Thanks to all who encouraged this habit from my Day 1 and steered me on the straight and narrow from the beginning.
2.) ODAAT. I never realized how much I psyched myself out in the past when I tried to quit by telling myself I needed to quit for a month, two months, six months and I would be fine. This is a battle minute to minute, hour to hour, day to day. Focusing on the here and now takes away the stress and anxiety of trying to attain some numeric goal. Yes, I get excited thinking about staying quit for 100 days, 1,000 days and 10,000+ days. But I do believe this can only be achieved by confronting the addiction ODAAT.
3.) The freedom is more amazing that I thought. No more staying up super late to get in those few more dips. No more taking super long trips to the toilet; no more lying to myself and my loved ones. Without the nic controlling every aspect of my life, I feel liberated and my mood has improved. I've discovered this mental improvement helps me optimistically take this journey ODAAT.
My two cents - Form a support circle with your fellow brothers and sisters of quit, remain steadfast and humble, persevere in the face of struggle, and most importantly, STAY QUIT!! May the 4th be with you. Peace.
Quick reflections?
Shit. You just about distilled everything we're about about as concisely as it could be done.
Well said. Very well said. Make sure you share this in your group.
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Day 26 - Mini Reflections
I have been so focused on taking this shit ODAAT, I barely realized that I am just over 25% of the way to 100 days and the HOF! While I have been a strong proponent of focusing on this quit journey in the here and now, I also have realized the importance of looking forward to future milestones. There is an excitement factor associated with these milestones that helps continue to motivate; however, our focus must remain with today.
I had an opportunity this week to meet some fellow Minnesota quitters (Natro, MN_Ben, Jenahen) in person for dinner. I encourage everyone to try to find people in their area to meet face to face. For me it helped solidify the accountability and gave me a renewed vigor in my quit.
I want to share the importance of getting digits. I have been able to help discourage fellow quitters from buying a can of cat shit and in return, they have helped me through various moments of weakness and cravings. Building a strong support network is key.
Finally, complacency can NOT take root when overcoming an addiction. I am proud of my success! But I have come to terms with the fact that I will have to remain vigilant for the rest of my life so I don't let the nic bitch rear her ugly head.
Thank you to everyone for the support and encouragement these past 26 days and I am proud to be quitting with all of you one day at a time!
Jared
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FROM WILDIRISH317:
You are on the right track. Lean on this site hard, as much as you need to, and you will need to. The next challenge you will face is PAWS (post acute withdrawal symptoms). You'll think you had an injection of estrogen. See my signature link for details.
Bravo son, bravo!
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FROM RAWLS:
Day 26 - Mini Reflections
I have been so focused on taking this shit ODAAT, I barely realized that I am just over 25% of the way to 100 days and the HOF! While I have been a strong proponent of focusing on this quit journey in the here and now, I also have realized the importance of looking forward to future milestones. There is an excitement factor associated with these milestones that helps continue to motivate; however, our focus must remain with today.
I had an opportunity this week to meet some fellow Minnesota quitters (Natro, MN_Ben, Jenahen) in person for dinner. I encourage everyone to try to find people in their area to meet face to face. For me it helped solidify the accountability and gave me a renewed vigor in my quit.
I want to share the importance of getting digits. I have been able to help discourage fellow quitters from buying a can of cat shit and in return, they have helped me through various moments of weakness and cravings. Building a strong support network is key.
Finally, complacency can NOT take root when overcoming an addiction. I am proud of my success! But I have come to terms with the fact that I will have to remain vigilant for the rest of my life so I don't let the nic bitch rear her ugly head.
Thank you to everyone for the support and encouragement these past 26 days and I am proud to be quitting with all of you one day at a time!
Jared
Dang....betting that was a great dinner.
Adding blood and a heart beat to your QUIT.
Thanks for sharing.
I Quit with you MN.
Let those seeds grow roots.
EDD ODAAT.
Rawls 550
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FROM FMBM707:
Day 26 - Mini Reflections
I have been so focused on taking this shit ODAAT, I barely realized that I am just over 25% of the way to 100 days and the HOF! While I have been a strong proponent of focusing on this quit journey in the here and now, I also have realized the importance of looking forward to future milestones. There is an excitement factor associated with these milestones that helps continue to motivate; however, our focus must remain with today.
I had an opportunity this week to meet some fellow Minnesota quitters (Natro, MN_Ben, Jenahen) in person for dinner. I encourage everyone to try to find people in their area to meet face to face. For me it helped solidify the accountability and gave me a renewed vigor in my quit.
I want to share the importance of getting digits. I have been able to help discourage fellow quitters from buying a can of cat shit and in return, they have helped me through various moments of weakness and cravings. Building a strong support network is key.
Finally, complacency can NOT take root when overcoming an addiction. I am proud of my success! But I have come to terms with the fact that I will have to remain vigilant for the rest of my life so I don't let the nic bitch rear her ugly head.
Thank you to everyone for the support and encouragement these past 26 days and I am proud to be quitting with all of you one day at a time!
Jared
Dang....betting that was a great dinner.
Adding blood and a heart beat to your QUIT.
Thanks for sharing.
I Quit with you MN.
Let those seeds grow roots.
EDD ODAAT.
Rawls 550
Keep up the solid quit MN. Keep journaling your experiences and thoughts in here. It helps others and it will also benefit you in the long run.
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FROM PKY1520:
Happy HOF Day Jared! You've worked hard and earned this. You've personally helped me through some very challenging situations and I know you've done the same for others.
This is just the first floor, you'll be on the second and beyond before you know it! The best thing is that your daughter will never have to know her dad as a slave to some useless drug.
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FROM PMILS:
Happy HOF Day Jared! You've worked hard and earned this. You've personally helped me through some very challenging situations and I know you've done the same for others.
This is just the first floor, you'll be on the second and beyond before you know it! The best thing is that your daughter will never have to know her dad as a slave to some useless drug.
Congrats my man on HOF!
I echo what pky said... you have helped me in my quit as well. I know I can count on you, thanks for your support!
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FROM BERT75:
Congrat on the HOF from one MN dude to another!! Nice work!
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Congrat on the HOF from one MN dude to another!! Nice work!
Thanks man! Proud to be quit with you today!
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Happy HOF Day Jared! You've worked hard and earned this. You've personally helped me through some very challenging situations and I know you've done the same for others.
This is just the first floor, you'll be on the second and beyond before you know it! The best thing is that your daughter will never have to know her dad as a slave to some useless drug.
Congrats my man on HOF!
I echo what pky said... you have helped me in my quit as well. I know I can count on you, thanks for your support!
I'm humbled to know I've had such an influence on you guys and other fellow quitters. I have certainly been helped through some dark times by both of you and many others. That is what makes this place work! QUIT ON!!!!
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"Remember, today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday." - Dale Carnegie
It's incredible how events - however brief or seemingly insignificant - in a person's life can leave a lasting and vivid mental impression that will most likely remain forever engraved on our brains. On a frigid Fargo winter night my sophomore year of college, I was partying in one of my resident's rooms and he offered me a tin of Grizzly Wintergreen. I immediately declined despite my compromised and inebriated state. Understand I grew up in a super conservative/sheltered household where we were obviously taught the dangers of such things as drugs and tobacco - especially dip where they put shards of fiberglass in it to cut your lip and get you addicted. This "knowledge" was what kept me away from ever throwing in a lipper - that is, until that fateful night. Undeterred by my vehement refusal, he passed around the can after liberally helping himself to a huge cat turd. Once the room had significantly finger banged the living snot out of the can, I was again offered to participate in the orgy. The first guy offered to show me how and after about 19 seconds of an instant high, I was sputtering the contents of my lip all over the side of his dorm room garbage can. This was early 2010.
Believe it or not, my next encounter with dip would not occur until Fall 2011. I started driving back and forth from central Minnesota to Fargo almost every weekend since I took the Fall 2011 semester off to gain some experience at an extended internship about 3 hours away from NDSU. Due to my grueling internship work schedule and all the extended freeway miles I needed to find a way to stay awake. I tried everything and had still almost crashed multiple times. One weekend, before heading up to Fargo, I stopped at a Holiday station store and bought my first tin - Camel Snus Frost. I knew tobacco was not good for me but I told myself I would just use it to stay awake. Better dip than risk my own life and the lives of others by falling asleep at the wheel going 75 mph, right?? In addition, I could stop whenever I wanted. Those were the first of countless lies I convinced myself to believe.
I resumed my college education Spring of 2012 and my can of Skoal and my Xbox became inseparable friends - a friendship that would hinder my attempts to quit for years. The late nights and countless hours spent on senior design led me to scrape up money for tin after tin on an already tight college budget. It was then where I half admitted to myself that I might have a nicotine/tobacco problem. So I decided I would quit after graduation before things got out of hand.
After graduating Magna Cum Laude with a Mechanical Engineering degree in May of 2013, I landed a job as a plant engineer at a local coal fired generation plant. Most everyone at the plant dipped so I continued right along. A fellow plant engineer and I would go to lunch almost every day and then drive around for an hour dipping and shooting the bull. One day an instrumentation technician at the site saw me throw in a pouch and told me to quit. Said he had a buddy with only half a face and that I was too young to ruin my life. I didn't really know this guy. The fact that he cared about me enough to offer a warning touched me but my addict brain at this point was on all-out assault mode against inclinations to quit. At this point my fiancee and I had a wedding date set for October of the same year. So I decided I would quit when I got married.
The ceremony was beautiful! The reception was a grand old time. Cancun was a magical 8 days of wedding bliss free from the can. We got home and settled back into the daily grind...and the can. After getting back from Mexico I continued to ninja dip a can per day. After 6 months of marriage we decided to start looking for a house and give up the townhome style of living. It was buyers' market and we were set to close on our new house in May of 2014. So I decided I would quit when we moved in to the new place.
In my opinion, moving sucks. But we eventually got all settled in and in no time I was spending all my time mowing the lawn and staring helplessly at the honey-do list. I tried a little harder this time and managed to quit for about 21 days. I had a co-worker at the plant helping keep me accountable but I was forced to change jobs in July 2014 and quickly resumed my intimate relationship with the poison in the plastic and metal cylinder. I convinced myself that the stress of switching jobs required dip in mass quantities. Despite my new company's strict no tobacco policies, I continued to stealth dip in my cubicle. It was at this point that the feelings of self-loathing, despair and helplessness reached a pinnacle. My marriage was taking a hit since I would stay up almost every night to sneak in that last dip or five while playing Xbox. I wanted desperately to quit but I played too much Xbox to terminate such an intimate relationship. I ultimately came to terms that if I wanted to be successful in my quit, I would have to stop playing Xbox for an indeterminate amount of time until I could get my tobacco addiction under control. So I decided I would quit during Lent.
Well I made it halfway through Lent before caving. (Anyone catching the trend here?) I'll help you out; I simply was sunk into this addiction way over my head and could not quit on my own. My oral fixation has always been extremely strong. I needed a fake that mimicked pouches to help me in my quitting process. I found Smokey Mountain but I always dipped pouches so the SM was gross to me and did not help. I then realized SM had pouches but was disappointed to find they were tiny, dry and did nothing to help. Chewing gum made my jaw sore after two days and seeds worked for about three. Since none of these options worked as I hoped, I decided to confess to my wife and end this slavery once and for all.
I ended up having a conversation with my wife on Labor Day 2015. I sat there on the couch balling my eyes out and sobbing uncontrollably while she tried to tell me it was ok and that we would work to overcome the issue. She was disappointed but supportive - which frankly was more than I deserved or thought I would get. But surprise! Even this confession was not enough. I tried to share my struggles with her but she didn't understand and I got tired of lashing out at her in my nicotine deprived rage. I slowly snuck back to the old crafty nic bitch and before I knew it I was ninja dipping a tin per day. Again. I was tired of trying to quit. I was exhausted attempting to overcome something that seemed like an impossibility to my addict brain. I wanted to give up. I felt like I was out of options and that I would die a slow painful death with Harvey Dent like features.
Well this story does have hope, I promise. One random day in April while perusing the old book of face (Facebook), I saw a distant college "friend" post something about Cowboy Coffee Chew. Desperate to find a fake substitute I started some research and also stumbled on Grinds coffee pouches. I ordered a can of Cowboy and some Grinds off Amazon and the Grinds were the pouch substitute I had been searching for and needed. Plus I drink coffee like an old man so the flavor was perfect and welcomed.
Somewhere in my research of the Coffee Chew and the Grinds I must have stumbled on a link to KTC. I remember poking around and ended up leaving the page open on my phone. A day or two later on April 24th 2016, I signed up and posted a six sentence intro titled "Hoping to Quit for Good" stating my quit date would be May 1st, 2016. Richard K was the first to reach out and quickly, yet kindly, informed me that the site was nic free, there was no "hoping", to flush what I had left and quit right away. I was surprised with the prompt support but I knew I had to jump in head first. I posted my Day 1 on April 25, 2016. I will be eternally grateful to Richard K for the extra 7 days I am quit thanks to him and the KTC site. Who knows, maybe those 7 days and him reaching out saved my life.
If you are still with me, thanks for reading this far. Time to reflect on my last 100 days on Kill The Can. I bought in 100% from Day 1. I posted that Day 1 and haven't missed a day yet. Nor do I plan to ever stop posting roll every damn day. Why you ask? Well my parents taught me the importance of honoring your word and keeping your promises. If I promise to not use nicotine that day, my chances of caving within that next 24 hours goes from improbable to impossible. Once I give my word, I am not willing to jeopardize my integrity for something that is trying to kill me. And while this journey is about MY quit and MY health, I understand the idea of posting roll to also extend beyond myself. My fellow quitters depend on my word and me staying quit to help them in their journey. If they know they have a rock to lean on in hard times, it will prompt them to reach out for support in their struggles confident that I will be quit and ready to guide them through whatever crave or issue they are experiencing. And for me, helping my fellow KTC folks stay quit strengths my quit more than words can describe. This idea of posting roll every damn day was just one nugget of advice offered by the vets but I soaked up everything they posted. I am a technically minded mechanical engineer. As such, it is my job to think outside the box and innovate. But it is also my job to recognize when a process or design has reached its optimal efficiency and not waste time re-inventing the wheel. Thus, after joining the KTC community, I immediately respected the process. Instead of seeing how much I could buck the system, I invested in my group and sought to put more into the group than I took from it. But at the end of the day, the process works despite the fact that it is incredibly and almost laughably simple.
When compared to some of the people on KTC, being a dipper for five years does not seem like very long. Hell, a lot of these people dipped longer than I have been alive. Does my five years of stupid decisions make my quit any less significant? Yeah, I never had jaw pain, headaches or any length of debilitating fog. The rage was an issue but I have a short temper to begin with so I was used to suppressing and dealing with my anger. The constipation was probably the most challenging side effect and honestly what made most of my previous solo quit attempts fail. But no matter how long you have dipped the fact remains that we are all addicts and must fight EACH AND EVERY DAY to remain quit. This isn't some petty habit; habits can be broken. Addictions require ongoing effort and constant vigilance.
Since joining KTC I have learned a slew of things that have definitely contributed to my past 100 days of success.
1. Dipping was my decision. We were responsible for putting that crap in our faces; we must admit our mistakes and now own our quit.
2. Be a man of my word. If you can't keep your word or even think that breaking your promise is an option the KTC process simply will not work.
3. Wake up, piss, post EVERY DAMN DAY - This is so critical!
4. Truly focusing one day at a time. The wisdom and necessity of this cannot be expressed strongly enough.
5. Become invested, share digits and actually use those digits to rage, share struggles and celebrate victories.
6. Call fellow quitters on the phone! It can seem awkward but helps further solidify the accountability.
7. Hold people accountable and let people hold you accountable.
8. Get involved with the spreadsheet of accountability.
9. Have a plan for known and latent triggers. Always be prepared!
10. RESPECT THE VETS AND TRUST THE PROCESS.
At one point in my quit I found a pipe with some pipe tobacco at home that I had bought back in the summer of 2013. I literally took one look at it, grabbed my dead blow hammer from the garage and smashed the living daylights out of it. This victory and others were made possible by the brotherhood and accountability of KTC. I plan to continue to use and contribute to KTC as it very well has saved my life. I will forever be in its debt and I pledge to remain close to the site to help as many people as possible be successful in this daily battle of addiction. In war, the Vikings would urge each other forward to victory by yelling "Skol!" to one another. Thus, in the spirit of these valiant and ruthless warriors, as we battle our addictions each and every day, I continue to urge you all forward - SKOL!
Jared (MNxEngineer314) - August Annihilator 2016
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FROM NOMORE1959:
That is an execellent quit story! Congratulations on Hall of Fame! Stick around, it
keeps getting better.
Nomore1959 August 15 A-Team
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FROM WILDIRISH317:
"laughably simple", that should be the title of your HOF essay. Brilliant!!!
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Last night I bummed a dip off a stranger without a second thought. Didn't bother texting my accountability brothers. In a matter of seconds I was spewing it out all over the place dreading the gauntlet of criticism I would receive from everyone on here. I was enraged that I had compromised the progress I've made and was depressed to have to start all over again.
But then I woke up. I've had a couple vivid dip dreams previously but this one was different. The dreams before I fought with myself. I argued with the nic bitch. I thought about the consequences. The dream last night was disturbing because I disregarded the consequences with a "fuck it all" attitude. Be assured, this is not the mindset I have regarding my quit. But it reminded me that complacency kills. That complacency will contribute absolutely nothing to the success of your quit. This is an ongoing battle with an addiction that requires constant vigilance.
Today is Day 151 and I'm proud of every minute I have stayed quit. The freedom is freaking awesome and I am proud to be quit with you all today. Peace.
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FROM APPLEJACK:
Last night I bummed a dip off a stranger without a second thought. Didn't bother texting my accountability brothers. In a matter of seconds I was spewing it out all over the place dreading the gauntlet of criticism I would receive from everyone on here. I was enraged that I had compromised the progress I've made and was depressed to have to start all over again.
But then I woke up. I've had a couple vivid dip dreams previously but this one was different. The dreams before I fought with myself. I argued with the nic bitch. I thought about the consequences. The dream last night was disturbing because I disregarded the consequences with a "fuck it all" attitude. Be assured, this is not the mindset I have regarding my quit. But it reminded me that complacency kills. That complacency will contribute absolutely nothing to the success of your quit. This is an ongoing battle with an addiction that requires constant vigilance.
Today is Day 151 and I'm proud of every minute I have stayed quit. The freedom is freaking awesome and I am proud to be quit with you all today. Peace.
Whew.
I feel ya.
I've had a few that were so real that I had to sit in bed and logic my way through whether I actually caved or not! Rock on, man. These help to keep you grounded and moving forward.
AJ... 1,255 days of amazing freedom.
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FROM PAB1964:
Last night I bummed a dip off a stranger without a second thought. Didn't bother texting my accountability brothers. In a matter of seconds I was spewing it out all over the place dreading the gauntlet of criticism I would receive from everyone on here. I was enraged that I had compromised the progress I've made and was depressed to have to start all over again.
But then I woke up. I've had a couple vivid dip dreams previously but this one was different. The dreams before I fought with myself. I argued with the nic bitch. I thought about the consequences. The dream last night was disturbing because I disregarded the consequences with a "fuck it all" attitude. Be assured, this is not the mindset I have regarding my quit. But it reminded me that complacency kills. That complacency will contribute absolutely nothing to the success of your quit. This is an ongoing battle with an addiction that requires constant vigilance.
Today is Day 151 and I'm proud of every minute I have stayed quit. The freedom is freaking awesome and I am proud to be quit with you all today. Peace.
Whew.
I feel ya.
I've had a few that were so real that I had to sit in bed and logic my way through whether I actually caved or not! Rock on, man. These help to keep you grounded and moving forward.
AJ... 1,255 days of amazing freedom.
Damn mnx as I was reading that I was getting pissed till I read it was a dream. See you gotta understand there's guy's and gals you watch and you go, this person here gets it! So you read an intro or post here and there from them and it strengthens your quit because you had them pegged as a quitter not a maybe or no frigging way. It's quitters, newbs vets it doesn't matter, I feed off of them, it makes my day easier. We all struggle, I talk to guy's with 4,5 years under there belts, still crave. Mind you not near as intense or as long but she's still blowing a little kiss. So just remember someone is watching and maybe even looking for that one little post to make it through today and I will say you have got me through a few! Thanks damn proud to be quit with you!
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Last night I bummed a dip off a stranger without a second thought. Didn't bother texting my accountability brothers. In a matter of seconds I was spewing it out all over the place dreading the gauntlet of criticism I would receive from everyone on here. I was enraged that I had compromised the progress I've made and was depressed to have to start all over again.
But then I woke up. I've had a couple vivid dip dreams previously but this one was different. The dreams before I fought with myself. I argued with the nic bitch. I thought about the consequences. The dream last night was disturbing because I disregarded the consequences with a "fuck it all" attitude. Be assured, this is not the mindset I have regarding my quit. But it reminded me that complacency kills. That complacency will contribute absolutely nothing to the success of your quit. This is an ongoing battle with an addiction that requires constant vigilance.
Today is Day 151 and I'm proud of every minute I have stayed quit. The freedom is freaking awesome and I am proud to be quit with you all today. Peace.
Whew.
I feel ya.
I've had a few that were so real that I had to sit in bed and logic my way through whether I actually caved or not! Rock on, man. These help to keep you grounded and moving forward.
AJ... 1,255 days of amazing freedom.
Damn mnx as I was reading that I was getting pissed till I read it was a dream. See you gotta understand there's guy's and gals you watch and you go, this person here gets it! So you read an intro or post here and there from them and it strengthens your quit because you had them pegged as a quitter not a maybe or no frigging way. It's quitters, newbs vets it doesn't matter, I feed off of them, it makes my day easier. We all struggle, I talk to guy's with 4,5 years under there belts, still crave. Mind you not near as intense or as long but she's still blowing a little kiss. So just remember someone is watching and maybe even looking for that one little post to make it through today and I will say you have got me through a few! Thanks damn proud to be quit with you!
It humbles me to hear that. I completely agree though. We are in this together and there are days where I am frantically searching through the quit groups searching for that nugget of advice or support to power me through that day. And to reciprocate I try to leave a breadcrumb trail of encouragement for other people to pick up and carry them through. This is what makes KTC work and why I am (and will remain!) QUIT.
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FROM FISHFLORIDA:
Last night I bummed a dip off a stranger without a second thought. Didn't bother texting my accountability brothers. In a matter of seconds I was spewing it out all over the place dreading the gauntlet of criticism I would receive from everyone on here. I was enraged that I had compromised the progress I've made and was depressed to have to start all over again.
But then I woke up. I've had a couple vivid dip dreams previously but this one was different. The dreams before I fought with myself. I argued with the nic bitch. I thought about the consequences. The dream last night was disturbing because I disregarded the consequences with a "fuck it all" attitude. Be assured, this is not the mindset I have regarding my quit. But it reminded me that complacency kills. That complacency will contribute absolutely nothing to the success of your quit. This is an ongoing battle with an addiction that requires constant vigilance.
Today is Day 151 and I'm proud of every minute I have stayed quit. The freedom is freaking awesome and I am proud to be quit with you all today. Peace.
Whew.
I feel ya.
I've had a few that were so real that I had to sit in bed and logic my way through whether I actually caved or not! Rock on, man. These help to keep you grounded and moving forward.
AJ... 1,255 days of amazing freedom.
Damn mnx as I was reading that I was getting pissed till I read it was a dream. See you gotta understand there's guy's and gals you watch and you go, this person here gets it! So you read an intro or post here and there from them and it strengthens your quit because you had them pegged as a quitter not a maybe or no frigging way. It's quitters, newbs vets it doesn't matter, I feed off of them, it makes my day easier. We all struggle, I talk to guy's with 4,5 years under there belts, still crave. Mind you not near as intense or as long but she's still blowing a little kiss. So just remember someone is watching and maybe even looking for that one little post to make it through today and I will say you have got me through a few! Thanks damn proud to be quit with you!
It humbles me to hear that. I completely agree though. We are in this together and there are days where I am frantically searching through the quit groups searching for that nugget of advice or support to power me through that day. And to reciprocate I try to leave a breadcrumb trail of encouragement for other people to pick up and carry them through. This is what makes KTC work and why I am (and will remain!) QUIT.
I almost just puked on my computer. I thought I was gonna have to fly to MN and take a flamethrower with me. Dip dreams are worse than those kissin' yer' sister dreams.
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FROM PMILS:
Last night I bummed a dip off a stranger without a second thought. Didn't bother texting my accountability brothers. In a matter of seconds I was spewing it out all over the place dreading the gauntlet of criticism I would receive from everyone on here. I was enraged that I had compromised the progress I've made and was depressed to have to start all over again.
But then I woke up. I've had a couple vivid dip dreams previously but this one was different. The dreams before I fought with myself. I argued with the nic bitch. I thought about the consequences. The dream last night was disturbing because I disregarded the consequences with a "fuck it all" attitude. Be assured, this is not the mindset I have regarding my quit. But it reminded me that complacency kills. That complacency will contribute absolutely nothing to the success of your quit. This is an ongoing battle with an addiction that requires constant vigilance.
Today is Day 151 and I'm proud of every minute I have stayed quit. The freedom is freaking awesome and I am proud to be quit with you all today. Peace.
Whew.
I feel ya.
I've had a few that were so real that I had to sit in bed and logic my way through whether I actually caved or not! Rock on, man. These help to keep you grounded and moving forward.
AJ... 1,255 days of amazing freedom.
Damn mnx as I was reading that I was getting pissed till I read it was a dream. See you gotta understand there's guy's and gals you watch and you go, this person here gets it! So you read an intro or post here and there from them and it strengthens your quit because you had them pegged as a quitter not a maybe or no frigging way. It's quitters, newbs vets it doesn't matter, I feed off of them, it makes my day easier. We all struggle, I talk to guy's with 4,5 years under there belts, still crave. Mind you not near as intense or as long but she's still blowing a little kiss. So just remember someone is watching and maybe even looking for that one little post to make it through today and I will say you have got me through a few! Thanks damn proud to be quit with you!
It humbles me to hear that. I completely agree though. We are in this together and there are days where I am frantically searching through the quit groups searching for that nugget of advice or support to power me through that day. And to reciprocate I try to leave a breadcrumb trail of encouragement for other people to pick up and carry them through. This is what makes KTC work and why I am (and will remain!) QUIT.
I almost just puked on my computer. I thought I was gonna have to fly to MN and take a flamethrower with me. Dip dreams are worse than those kissin' yer' sister dreams.
^^^ Holy shit ... you little engineer geek ... had me sweatin...FLA I woulda helped you... We should start calling those dip nightmares(they are far from dreamy)
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Well folks, today is Day 183. Since 2016 is/was a leap year, that means I have been tobacco free for exactly HALF OF A CALENDAR YEAR!!! I have to be honest, I joined this site with a weak determination (determination no less but hey!) but bought in thinking I'd better give things a sincere try. I remember flushing my last dip and while watching it swirl to its watery grave I thought to myself "That won't be my last one. I'll probably fail within a couple weeks." Well KTC doesn't allow shit like that so here I am 6 months later with the definitive knowledge that that dip back on April 23rd was in fact my last dip. EVER.
The freedom is incredible. If you are lurking around the site and happen to be reading this right now (maybe with a lip full of cat turd) SPIT THAT SHIT OUT AND SIGN UP. It will be the best decision you have ever make. It may seem impossible to you like trying to pick up a turd by the clean end but I thought the same thing and here I am, 183 days clean and hating nicotine with every fiber of my being.
Just an quick recent example of the progress I've made. Yesterday I went golfing with my uncle and cousin. I told myself before I left the house to remember to grab my can of fake and throw it in my golf bag. Well I completely forgot about grabbing it until I was half way to the golf course and literally said screw it, I don't need it today. We golfed the entire 18 holes and I don't think I even thought about it once. It's great.
Such a heartfelt thanks to my August brothers and the folks from all groups, new and old that have supported me in this journey. You guys are life savers and I'm proud to be in this fight with you all! While my focus will always remain ODAAT, I am looking forward to that second floor and the next 6 months! QLAMF ODAAT!!
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FROM PAB1964:
Well folks, today is Day 183. Since 2016 is/was a leap year, that means I have been tobacco free for exactly HALF OF A CALENDAR YEAR!!! I have to be honest, I joined this site with a weak determination (determination no less but hey!) but bought in thinking I'd better give things a sincere try. I remember flushing my last dip and while watching it swirl to its watery grave I thought to myself "That won't be my last one. I'll probably fail within a couple weeks." Well KTC doesn't allow shit like that so here I am 6 months later with the definitive knowledge that that dip back on April 23rd was in fact my last dip. EVER.
The freedom is incredible. If you are lurking around the site and happen to be reading this right now (maybe with a lip full of cat turd) SPIT THAT SHIT OUT AND SIGN UP. It will be the best decision you have ever make. It may seem impossible to you like trying to pick up a turd by the clean end but I thought the same thing and here I am, 183 days clean and hating nicotine with every fiber of my being.
Just an quick recent example of the progress I've made. Yesterday I went golfing with my uncle and cousin. I told myself before I left the house to remember to grab my can of fake and throw it in my golf bag. Well I completely forgot about grabbing it until I was half way to the golf course and literally said screw it, I don't need it today. We golfed the entire 18 holes and I don't think I even thought about it once. It's great.
Such a heartfelt thanks to my August brothers and the folks from all groups, new and old that have supported me in this journey. You guys are life savers and I'm proud to be in this fight with you all! While my focus will always remain ODAAT, I am looking forward to that second floor and the next 6 months! QLAMF ODAAT!!
Stay strong, keep doing what your doing it obviously works! Damn proud to be quit with you!
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FROM FISHFLORIDA:
Well folks, today is Day 183. Since 2016 is/was a leap year, that means I have been tobacco free for exactly HALF OF A CALENDAR YEAR!!! I have to be honest, I joined this site with a weak determination (determination no less but hey!) but bought in thinking I'd better give things a sincere try. I remember flushing my last dip and while watching it swirl to its watery grave I thought to myself "That won't be my last one. I'll probably fail within a couple weeks." Well KTC doesn't allow shit like that so here I am 6 months later with the definitive knowledge that that dip back on April 23rd was in fact my last dip. EVER.
The freedom is incredible. If you are lurking around the site and happen to be reading this right now (maybe with a lip full of cat turd) SPIT THAT SHIT OUT AND SIGN UP. It will be the best decision you have ever make. It may seem impossible to you like trying to pick up a turd by the clean end but I thought the same thing and here I am, 183 days clean and hating nicotine with every fiber of my being.
Just an quick recent example of the progress I've made. Yesterday I went golfing with my uncle and cousin. I told myself before I left the house to remember to grab my can of fake and throw it in my golf bag. Well I completely forgot about grabbing it until I was half way to the golf course and literally said screw it, I don't need it today. We golfed the entire 18 holes and I don't think I even thought about it once. It's great.
Such a heartfelt thanks to my August brothers and the folks from all groups, new and old that have supported me in this journey. You guys are life savers and I'm proud to be in this fight with you all! While my focus will always remain ODAAT, I am looking forward to that second floor and the next 6 months! QLAMF ODAAT!!
Stay strong, keep doing what your doing it obviously works! Damn proud to be quit with you!
Congrats on 2nd floor brother! It's an honor to be quit with you. August rules! 'oh yeah'
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FROM FISHFLORIDA:
Congrats on 2nd floor brother! It's an honor to be quit with you. August rules! 'oh yeah'
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FROM CHICKDIP:
Congrats on 2nd floor brother! It's an honor to be quit with you. August rules! 'oh yeah'
Congrats on 200 MXeng
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FROM FLLIPOUT:
Congrats on reaching the 2nd floor!!!
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FROM PAB1964:
Congrats on reaching the 2nd floor!!!
Aww the sweet smell of the second floor! Congratulations my friend!
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Congrats on reaching the 2nd floor!!!
Aww the sweet smell of the second floor! Congratulations my friend!
THANK YOU EVERYONE!!!! I'm honored and humbled by all the support I have received on this site - both from close August brethren to people I have never even shared digits with. 200 days is something I never thought possible. But thanks to the accountability and simple process here at KTC, I am confident I can stay quit FOREVER by honoring my daily promise and taking things simply one day at a time.
QUIT ON!!! 'oh yeah'
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FROM PKY1520:
Third floor today for this absolute beast of a quitter! Congratulations on posting 300 and thank you for being such a strong leader, reliable administrator and genuine friend.
'Bow'
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FROM CHICKDIP:
Third floor today for this absolute beast of a quitter! Congratulations on posting 300 and thank you for being such a strong leader, reliable administrator and genuine friend.
'Bow'
Congrats on 300 days quit!
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FROM BERT75:
Third floor today for this absolute beast of a quitter! Congratulations on posting 300 and thank you for being such a strong leader, reliable administrator and genuine friend.
'Bow'
Congrats on 300 days quit!
Congrats on hitting 300. Nice work man!
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FROM BACKWOODS901:
Third floor today for this absolute beast of a quitter! Congratulations on posting 300 and thank you for being such a strong leader, reliable administrator and genuine friend.
'Bow'
Congrats on 300 days quit!
Congrats on hitting 300. Nice work man!
Congrats on the third floor!!!!
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FROM PAB1964:
Third floor today for this absolute beast of a quitter! Congratulations on posting 300 and thank you for being such a strong leader, reliable administrator and genuine friend.
'Bow'
Congrats on 300 days quit!
Congrats on hitting 300. Nice work man!
Congrats on the third floor!!!!
Congratulations you badass!
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FROM FLLIPOUT:
Third floor today for this absolute beast of a quitter! Congratulations on posting 300 and thank you for being such a strong leader, reliable administrator and genuine friend.
'Bow'
Congrats on 300 days quit!
Congrats on hitting 300. Nice work man!
Congrats on the third floor!!!!
Congratulations you badass!
Great job, MNx!!!
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Third floor today for this absolute beast of a quitter! Congratulations on posting 300 and thank you for being such a strong leader, reliable administrator and genuine friend.
'worship'
Congrats on 300 days quit!
Congrats on hitting 300. Nice work man!
Congrats on the third floor!!!!
Congratulations you badass!
Great job, MNx!!!
I wanted to post something this past Saturday which was my Day 300 but my little one got baptized over the weekend and it was a focking whirlwind!
It's hard to pinpoint exactly why but 300 is an incredible milestone for me. Back when I would try to quit on my own, I only ever made it about 3 weeks. 300 days seemed like a gargantuan number when I posted my Day 1 and still seemed like a fantasy at the HOF. But focusing one day at a time makes the time fly! And as they say, time flies like an arrow and fruit flies like bananas. But I digress. Posting 300+ days now makes me feel like a quit god but then there are folks like WCG over in July 2010 posting a day 2,500 today. But if you are a new quitter reading this, there is no competition here; we are all addicts posting a promise EDD, stacking the +1's ODAAT.
I have been humbled with an incredible support network here and I know that has contributed to my continued success. Thank you all and I am proud to be quit with you all TODAY.
#QUITLIFE
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So a mini reflection I wasn't planning on writing but wanted to share in the hopes that someone will find it helpful/inspiring.
Yesterday I was on day 309. And yesterday evening I was craving harder than I have since probably the mid 100's. I had posted yesterday morning so caving wasn't an option but man was that nic bitch trying every last trick in her hat. I texted a few guys and before I knew it I was getting tons of other texts from guys that went something to the extent of "Hey! *Insert BAQ name here* told me you were having a rough time. How can I support you?"
It was humbling and powerful and helpful all at the same time. The accountability/brotherhood network I have been creating since joining this site 310 days ago came through for me in a way that was perfectly overwhelming. I never doubt the support of my fellow brothers and sisters of quit; but seeing it come through in such a critical moment and in such a powerful way brought tears to my eyes and sent the nic bitch crying away with her tail between her legs.
If you are a new quitter reading this or maybe someone thinking about joining this site, KTC will work for you if you put forth the time and effort to use it as it is intended. I wanted to cave so hard yesterday. But I had posted roll yesterday morning and for those that know me on here, I will NEVER compromise the integrity of my word. But when moments like that sneak up, you NEED a support base that is 1000% percent solid. It seemed weird giving my digits out to such a variety of people but it's these guys that remind me of that promise and carry me through the tough times.
I don't pretend to be unaware that a fair amount of people on here look up to me and rely heavily on me. This knowledge is super humbling but know I am still human. I am (and will) be that rock solid support for people to lean on but I will also crave and have moments where I need to be the one doing the leaning. And that is ok. These moments of vulnerability strengthen the brotherhood and the accountability because it is a reminder that we all need each other and are in this fight together.
Final thought - a lot of people look to the HOF as the end goal. And while the HOF is a commendable milestone it is merely the beginning. If you are reading this with a couple hundred days under your belt and considering leaving KTC, I would strongly encourage you to reconsider. Posting roll every damn day, keeping your word and having that accountability network WORKS. If I had been off on my own away from KTC yesterday I don't know if I would have caved. But since I was still here and active, I have the privilege and opportunity to post a Day 310 today. And of that, I am incredibly proud.
#QUITLIFE
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FROM J-HEFF:
So a mini reflection I wasn't planning on writing but wanted to share in the hopes that someone will find it helpful/inspiring.
Yesterday I was on day 309. And yesterday evening I was craving harder than I have since probably the mid 100's. I had posted yesterday morning so caving wasn't an option but man was that nic bitch trying every last trick in her hat. I texted a few guys and before I knew it I was getting tons of other texts from guys that went something to the extent of "Hey! *Insert BAQ name here* told me you were having a rough time. How can I support you?"
It was humbling and powerful and helpful all at the same time. The accountability/brotherhood network I have been creating since joining this site 310 days ago came through for me in a way that was perfectly overwhelming. I never doubt the support of my fellow brothers and sisters of quit; but seeing it come through in such a critical moment and in such a powerful way brought tears to my eyes and sent the nic bitch crying away with her tail between her legs.
If you are a new quitter reading this or maybe someone thinking about joining this site, KTC will work for you if you put forth the time and effort to use it as it is intended. I wanted to cave so hard yesterday. But I had posted roll yesterday morning and for those that know me on here, I will NEVER compromise the integrity of my word. But when moments like that sneak up, you NEED a support base that is 1000% percent solid. It seemed weird giving my digits out to such a variety of people but it's these guys that remind me of that promise and carry me through the tough times.
I don't pretend to be unaware that a fair amount of people on here look up to me and rely heavily on me. This knowledge is super humbling but know I am still human. I am (and will) be that rock solid support for people to lean on but I will also crave and have moments where I need to be the one doing the leaning. And that is ok. These moments of vulnerability strengthen the brotherhood and the accountability because it is a reminder that we all need each other and are in this fight together.
Final thought - a lot of people look to the HOF as the end goal. And while the HOF is a commendable milestone it is merely the beginning. If you are reading this with a couple hundred days under your belt and considering leaving KTC, I would strongly encourage you to reconsider. Posting roll every damn day, keeping your word and having that accountability network WORKS. If I had been off on my own away from KTC yesterday I don't know if I would have caved. But since I was still here and active, I have the privilege and opportunity to post a Day 310 today. And of that, I am incredibly proud.
#QUITLIFE
MNX,
I am one of those quitters who has relied on you and your support. Your always there when I need a little boost or support in a hairy, edge-of-the-cliff moment. Although we have not yet met in person, I consider you a friend and a quitter who has been instrumental in KTC brotherhood. Congrats on your 300 days! I will see you at 365, 400, and beyond!!!!
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FROM PAB1964:
So a mini reflection I wasn't planning on writing but wanted to share in the hopes that someone will find it helpful/inspiring.
Yesterday I was on day 309. And yesterday evening I was craving harder than I have since probably the mid 100's. I had posted yesterday morning so caving wasn't an option but man was that nic bitch trying every last trick in her hat. I texted a few guys and before I knew it I was getting tons of other texts from guys that went something to the extent of "Hey! *Insert BAQ name here* told me you were having a rough time. How can I support you?"
It was humbling and powerful and helpful all at the same time. The accountability/brotherhood network I have been creating since joining this site 310 days ago came through for me in a way that was perfectly overwhelming. I never doubt the support of my fellow brothers and sisters of quit; but seeing it come through in such a critical moment and in such a powerful way brought tears to my eyes and sent the nic bitch crying away with her tail between her legs.
If you are a new quitter reading this or maybe someone thinking about joining this site, KTC will work for you if you put forth the time and effort to use it as it is intended. I wanted to cave so hard yesterday. But I had posted roll yesterday morning and for those that know me on here, I will NEVER compromise the integrity of my word. But when moments like that sneak up, you NEED a support base that is 1000% percent solid. It seemed weird giving my digits out to such a variety of people but it's these guys that remind me of that promise and carry me through the tough times.
I don't pretend to be unaware that a fair amount of people on here look up to me and rely heavily on me. This knowledge is super humbling but know I am still human. I am (and will) be that rock solid support for people to lean on but I will also crave and have moments where I need to be the one doing the leaning. And that is ok. These moments of vulnerability strengthen the brotherhood and the accountability because it is a reminder that we all need each other and are in this fight together.
Final thought - a lot of people look to the HOF as the end goal. And while the HOF is a commendable milestone it is merely the beginning. If you are reading this with a couple hundred days under your belt and considering leaving KTC, I would strongly encourage you to reconsider. Posting roll every damn day, keeping your word and having that accountability network WORKS. If I had been off on my own away from KTC yesterday I don't know if I would have caved. But since I was still here and active, I have the privilege and opportunity to post a Day 310 today. And of that, I am incredibly proud.
#QUITLIFE
MNX,
I am one of those quitters who has relied on you and your support. Your always there when I need a little boost or support in a hairy, edge-of-the-cliff moment. Although we have not yet met in person, I consider you a friend and a quitter who has been instrumental in KTC brotherhood. Congrats on your 300 days! I will see you at 365, 400, and beyond!!!!
That is what ktc is all about but it want work if people don't let it. Great job
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FROM FISHFLORIDA:
So a mini reflection I wasn't planning on writing but wanted to share in the hopes that someone will find it helpful/inspiring.
Yesterday I was on day 309. And yesterday evening I was craving harder than I have since probably the mid 100's. I had posted yesterday morning so caving wasn't an option but man was that nic bitch trying every last trick in her hat. I texted a few guys and before I knew it I was getting tons of other texts from guys that went something to the extent of "Hey! *Insert BAQ name here* told me you were having a rough time. How can I support you?"
It was humbling and powerful and helpful all at the same time. The accountability/brotherhood network I have been creating since joining this site 310 days ago came through for me in a way that was perfectly overwhelming. I never doubt the support of my fellow brothers and sisters of quit; but seeing it come through in such a critical moment and in such a powerful way brought tears to my eyes and sent the nic bitch crying away with her tail between her legs.
If you are a new quitter reading this or maybe someone thinking about joining this site, KTC will work for you if you put forth the time and effort to use it as it is intended. I wanted to cave so hard yesterday. But I had posted roll yesterday morning and for those that know me on here, I will NEVER compromise the integrity of my word. But when moments like that sneak up, you NEED a support base that is 1000% percent solid. It seemed weird giving my digits out to such a variety of people but it's these guys that remind me of that promise and carry me through the tough times.
I don't pretend to be unaware that a fair amount of people on here look up to me and rely heavily on me. This knowledge is super humbling but know I am still human. I am (and will) be that rock solid support for people to lean on but I will also crave and have moments where I need to be the one doing the leaning. And that is ok. These moments of vulnerability strengthen the brotherhood and the accountability because it is a reminder that we all need each other and are in this fight together.
Final thought - a lot of people look to the HOF as the end goal. And while the HOF is a commendable milestone it is merely the beginning. If you are reading this with a couple hundred days under your belt and considering leaving KTC, I would strongly encourage you to reconsider. Posting roll every damn day, keeping your word and having that accountability network WORKS. If I had been off on my own away from KTC yesterday I don't know if I would have caved. But since I was still here and active, I have the privilege and opportunity to post a Day 310 today. And of that, I am incredibly proud.
#QUITLIFE
MNX,
I am one of those quitters who has relied on you and your support. Your always there when I need a little boost or support in a hairy, edge-of-the-cliff moment. Although we have not yet met in person, I consider you a friend and a quitter who has been instrumental in KTC brotherhood. Congrats on your 300 days! I will see you at 365, 400, and beyond!!!!
That is what ktc is all about but it want work if people don't let it. Great job
MNX,
Man, you where one of the first to reach out to me. It was you who unknowingly convinced me it was safe to exchange digits. Those digits saved my life. You and the HEFF-a-Nator have been a pilar of strength for me and I can't thank you enough.
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FROM CHICKDIP:
MNx, congrats on your 1 year quit. Great quit, thanks for paying it forward.
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FROM RICHARD K:
MNx, congrats on your 1 year quit. Great quit, thanks for paying it forward.
Seems like only yesterday you and I were talking about you quitting and not waiting. Great job brother!!! Keep up the quit!!
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FROM BERT75:
Congrats on 1 year MNx! Nice work. Keep on truckin!
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FROM PAB1964:
MNx, congrats on your 1 year quit. Great quit, thanks for paying it forward.
Seems like only yesterday you and I were talking about you quitting and not waiting. Great job brother!!! Keep up the quit!!
Congratulations on the trip around the sun! Badass
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FROM BASEBALLBRETT:
MNx, congrats on your 1 year quit. Great quit, thanks for paying it forward.
Seems like only yesterday you and I were talking about you quitting and not waiting. Great job brother!!! Keep up the quit!!
Congratulations on the trip around the sun! Badass
Keep being a BAQ. Proud to quit with you everyday.
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FROM SCOTTLUDWIG:
MNx, congrats on your 1 year quit. Great quit, thanks for paying it forward.
Seems like only yesterday you and I were talking about you quitting and not waiting. Great job brother!!! Keep up the quit!!
Congratulations on the trip around the sun! Badass
Keep being a BAQ. Proud to quit with you everyday.
Thank you for spending the last year saving yourself and others each day.
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MNx, congrats on your 1 year quit. Great quit, thanks for paying it forward.
Seems like only yesterday you and I were talking about you quitting and not waiting. Great job brother!!! Keep up the quit!!
Congratulations on the trip around the sun! Badass
Keep being a BAQ. Proud to quit with you everyday.
Thank you for spending the last year saving yourself and others each day.
Hey everyone!! Thank you so much for the support and encouragement!! Richard - it does seem like yesterday you wrote in my intro something to the extent of "why wait until next week; start today!". My quit is a testament to this site and the process here at KTC. When I stop to think about it, I start to laugh at how simple it really is:
1.) Post early every single focking day. NO EXCEPTIONS.
2.) Keep your word for the next 24 hours.
3.) Exchange digits and use them daily!
4.) Let tomorrow take care of itself.
I am beyond blessed with the support from you all. Often times at the end of the day, I will go into August 16 and just look at the support post section and see the huge list of BAQ's quitting "with MNx". It makes me misty eyed to think how I have impacted these people (you all!) and how this accountability network has transformed (and most likely) saved my life.
Thank you all again for your support over the past year. I am proud to be quitting with each of you EVERY DAMN DAY!
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To the new quitter lurking around wondering what you are getting yourself into, take a few moments and keep reading.
Today marks my 500th day of freedom from a dead, poisonous plant. When I stop and think about it, I never imagined in my wildest dreams that I could live a life free from nicotine. Go read my HOF speech; I was to a point where I almost gave up, resolved to die a premature, tobacco related death. But then by the grace of God I found KTC and started to create a new life free from nicotine and dip.
I am an addict. I will be for life. Once I accepted this fact, I was able to realize I could never again have "just one". I developed a hatred for nicotine/tobacco and all the lies associated with dipping. It stole my freedom, my money, my health and injured my relationships. Never again would I embrace something that was literally killing me.
The last 500 days have not been a walk in the park. There are been family deaths, the birth of our first child, two softball seasons, a job change and countless other events. But it was all faced with a clear mind and without a cat turd in my lip. My brothers and sisters of quit here on KTC have been there for support and encouragement along the way. Some of the folks on here have become solid friends and I have yet to meet them face to face. But we have walked side by side, noses to the grindstone and come out victorious one day at a time. We share the struggles and rejoice in the victories. I am so proud of how far I have come but a majority of the credit must go to the brotherhood of KTC and the power of accountability.
500 days quit = 500 daily promises not to use nicotine. Post every damn day and let tomorrow take care of itself. Share digits and help encourage others! Trust me, your quit will be strengthened by helping and supporting fellow quitters.
Thank you to everyone who has supported me in this journey especially my fellow August 2016 Trauma-tizers and those that post support in our group daily! I am proud to be fighting this battle alongside of you and even more proud to be quit with you all today!! QLAMF ODAAT!!
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FROM THUMBLEWORT:
To the new quitter lurking around wondering what you are getting yourself into, take a few moments and keep reading.
Today marks my 500th day of freedom from a dead, poisonous plant. When I stop and think about it, I never imagined in my wildest dreams that I could live a life free from nicotine. Go read my HOF speech; I was to a point where I almost gave up, resolved to die a premature, tobacco related death. But then by the grace of God I found KTC and started to create a new life free from nicotine and dip.
I am an addict. I will be for life. Once I accepted this fact, I was able to realize I could never again have "just one". I developed a hatred for nicotine/tobacco and all the lies associated with dipping. It stole my freedom, my money, my health and injured my relationships. Never again would I embrace something that was literally killing me.
The last 500 days have not been a walk in the park. There are been family deaths, the birth of our first child, two softball seasons, a job change and countless other events. But it was all faced with a clear mind and without a cat turd in my lip. My brothers and sisters of quit here on KTC have been there for support and encouragement along the way. Some of the folks on here have become solid friends and I have yet to meet them face to face. But we have walked side by side, noses to the grindstone and come out victorious one day at a time. We share the struggles and rejoice in the victories. I am so proud of how far I have come but a majority of the credit must go to the brotherhood of KTC and the power of accountability.
500 days quit = 500 daily promises not to use nicotine. Post every damn day and let tomorrow take care of itself. Share digits and help encourage others! Trust me, your quit will be strengthened by helping and supporting fellow quitters.
Thank you to everyone who has supported me in this journey especially my fellow August 2016 Trauma-tizers and those that post support in our group daily! I am proud to be fighting this battle alongside of you and even more proud to be quit with you all today!! QLAMF ODAAT!!
Well said, see you tomorrow!
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FROM PKY1520:
To the new quitter lurking around wondering what you are getting yourself into, take a few moments and keep reading.
Today marks my 500th day of freedom from a dead, poisonous plant. When I stop and think about it, I never imagined in my wildest dreams that I could live a life free from nicotine. Go read my HOF speech; I was to a point where I almost gave up, resolved to die a premature, tobacco related death. But then by the grace of God I found KTC and started to create a new life free from nicotine and dip.
I am an addict. I will be for life. Once I accepted this fact, I was able to realize I could never again have "just one". I developed a hatred for nicotine/tobacco and all the lies associated with dipping. It stole my freedom, my money, my health and injured my relationships. Never again would I embrace something that was literally killing me.
The last 500 days have not been a walk in the park. There are been family deaths, the birth of our first child, two softball seasons, a job change and countless other events. But it was all faced with a clear mind and without a cat turd in my lip. My brothers and sisters of quit here on KTC have been there for support and encouragement along the way. Some of the folks on here have become solid friends and I have yet to meet them face to face. But we have walked side by side, noses to the grindstone and come out victorious one day at a time. We share the struggles and rejoice in the victories. I am so proud of how far I have come but a majority of the credit must go to the brotherhood of KTC and the power of accountability.
500 days quit = 500 daily promises not to use nicotine. Post every damn day and let tomorrow take care of itself. Share digits and help encourage others! Trust me, your quit will be strengthened by helping and supporting fellow quitters.
Thank you to everyone who has supported me in this journey especially my fellow August 2016 Trauma-tizers and those that post support in our group daily! I am proud to be fighting this battle alongside of you and even more proud to be quit with you all today!! QLAMF ODAAT!!
Well said, see you tomorrow!
Congrats on your half dangle MnX! Proud to have been there step by step with you!
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FROM TRIGERHAPY:
To the new quitter lurking around wondering what you are getting yourself into, take a few moments and keep reading.
Today marks my 500th day of freedom from a dead, poisonous plant. When I stop and think about it, I never imagined in my wildest dreams that I could live a life free from nicotine. Go read my HOF speech; I was to a point where I almost gave up, resolved to die a premature, tobacco related death. But then by the grace of God I found KTC and started to create a new life free from nicotine and dip.
I am an addict. I will be for life. Once I accepted this fact, I was able to realize I could never again have "just one". I developed a hatred for nicotine/tobacco and all the lies associated with dipping. It stole my freedom, my money, my health and injured my relationships. Never again would I embrace something that was literally killing me.
The last 500 days have not been a walk in the park. There are been family deaths, the birth of our first child, two softball seasons, a job change and countless other events. But it was all faced with a clear mind and without a cat turd in my lip. My brothers and sisters of quit here on KTC have been there for support and encouragement along the way. Some of the folks on here have become solid friends and I have yet to meet them face to face. But we have walked side by side, noses to the grindstone and come out victorious one day at a time. We share the struggles and rejoice in the victories. I am so proud of how far I have come but a majority of the credit must go to the brotherhood of KTC and the power of accountability.
500 days quit = 500 daily promises not to use nicotine. Post every damn day and let tomorrow take care of itself. Share digits and help encourage others! Trust me, your quit will be strengthened by helping and supporting fellow quitters.
Thank you to everyone who has supported me in this journey especially my fellow August 2016 Trauma-tizers and those that post support in our group daily! I am proud to be fighting this battle alongside of you and even more proud to be quit with you all today!! QLAMF ODAAT!!
Well said, see you tomorrow!
Congrats on your half dangle MnX! Proud to have been there step by step with you!
Congrats on 500 days man!
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FROM CHICKDIP:
To the new quitter lurking around wondering what you are getting yourself into, take a few moments and keep reading.
Today marks my 500th day of freedom from a dead, poisonous plant. When I stop and think about it, I never imagined in my wildest dreams that I could live a life free from nicotine. Go read my HOF speech; I was to a point where I almost gave up, resolved to die a premature, tobacco related death. But then by the grace of God I found KTC and started to create a new life free from nicotine and dip.
I am an addict. I will be for life. Once I accepted this fact, I was able to realize I could never again have "just one". I developed a hatred for nicotine/tobacco and all the lies associated with dipping. It stole my freedom, my money, my health and injured my relationships. Never again would I embrace something that was literally killing me.
The last 500 days have not been a walk in the park. There are been family deaths, the birth of our first child, two softball seasons, a job change and countless other events. But it was all faced with a clear mind and without a cat turd in my lip. My brothers and sisters of quit here on KTC have been there for support and encouragement along the way. Some of the folks on here have become solid friends and I have yet to meet them face to face. But we have walked side by side, noses to the grindstone and come out victorious one day at a time. We share the struggles and rejoice in the victories. I am so proud of how far I have come but a majority of the credit must go to the brotherhood of KTC and the power of accountability.
500 days quit = 500 daily promises not to use nicotine. Post every damn day and let tomorrow take care of itself. Share digits and help encourage others! Trust me, your quit will be strengthened by helping and supporting fellow quitters.
Thank you to everyone who has supported me in this journey especially my fellow August 2016 Trauma-tizers and those that post support in our group daily! I am proud to be fighting this battle alongside of you and even more proud to be quit with you all today!! QLAMF ODAAT!!
Well said, see you tomorrow!
Congrats on your half dangle MnX! Proud to have been there step by step with you!
Congrats on 500 days man!
Mnx, congrats on your 500 days quit!
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The weather has been shitty as hell here in Minnesota this month - cloudly, dark and just downright gloomy 95% of the time. Having been born and raised here, I never remember it bothering me before. But this year, I find myself in the mid-floor slump between 500 and 600 without having seen the sun in a couple weeks and I needed a little motivation.
So I read through my entire intro here. It's incredible the transformation that has occurred since I took the plunge 572 days ago. I committed from Day 1 but didn't believe I could do it. But now I kick nicotine's ass every single day and enjoy doing it. I revel in the freedom of living each day without tobacco. And I truly find joy in helping others achieve the freedom they did not think was possible either.
So just a random post to say 'thank you' to KTC and all you folks who support me in this journey. I am proud to be quit with you all today! Cheers!
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FROM DONKEYMN:
Congrats to you buddy on the 6th Floor. You just keep galvanizing that steel quit bro! IQWYT!
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FROM FLLIPOUT:
Congrats to you buddy on the 6th Floor. You just keep galvanizing that steel quit bro! IQWYT!
600!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Congratulations MR. 6-HUNDO!!!!!
'party2' 'party2' 'party2'
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FROM PAB1964:
Congrats to you buddy on the 6th Floor. You just keep galvanizing that steel quit bro! IQWYT!
[size=100]600!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!![/size]
Congratulations MR. 6-HUNDO!!!!!
'party2' 'party2' 'party2'
Congratulations to a badass quitter! 6th floor is awesome. Thanks for letting me be a part of your journey
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FROM WILDIRISH317:
Congrats to you buddy on the 6th Floor. You just keep galvanizing that steel quit bro! IQWYT!
[size=100]600!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!![/size]
Congratulations MR. 6-HUNDO!!!!!
'party2' 'party2' 'party2'
Congratulations to a badass quitter! 6th floor is awesome. Thanks for letting me be a part of your journey
MN, you are a fockin' rock.
Pity you live on a glacier.
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FROM CHICKDIP:
Congrats to you buddy on the 6th Floor. You just keep galvanizing that steel quit bro! IQWYT!
[size=100]600!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!![/size]
Congratulations MR. 6-HUNDO!!!!!
'party2' 'party2' 'party2'
Congratulations to a badass quitter! 6th floor is awesome. Thanks for letting me be a part of your journey
MN, you are a fockin' rock.
Pity you live on a glacier.
Congrats on your 600 days quit Mnx!!
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Congrats to you buddy on the 6th Floor. You just keep galvanizing that steel quit bro! IQWYT!
[size=100]600!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!![/size]
Congratulations MR. 6-HUNDO!!!!!
'party2' 'party2' 'party2'
Congratulations to a badass quitter! 6th floor is awesome. Thanks for letting me be a part of your journey
MN, you are a fockin' rock.
Pity you live on a glacier.
Congrats on your 600 days quit Mnx!!
Thank you everyone!!! My success has hinged on the unwavering support of so many BAQ’s, for which I will be forever grateful. If you are a new quitter reading this, KTC works.
ODAAT!!
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FROM CHICKDIP:
congrats on teaching the 7th floor MNx!
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FROM FLLIPOUT:
congrats on teaching the 7th floor MNx!
'Bow'
Congrats on 7 MNx!!!
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congrats on teaching the 7th floor MNx!
'Bow'
Congrats on 7 MNx!!!
Thank you ladies!!! It's an honor to be quit with you TODAY!
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FROM FLLIPOUT:
2 YEARS!!!
Can you believe it?! Congratulations - keep crushing it, MNx!!!
'party2'
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FROM BATDAD:
[size=100] 2 YEARS!!! [/size]
Can you believe it?! Congratulations - keep crushing it, MNx!!!
'party2'
Hell yeah!!! Way to go on the 2 years brother!
'40'
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FROM CHICKDIP:
[size=100] 2 YEARS!!! [/size]
Can you believe it?! Congratulations - keep crushing it, MNx!!!
'party2'
Hell yeah!!! Way to go on the 2 years brother!
'40'
Happy 2 year quit Mnx! (But happy quitversary tomorrow ?)
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FROM SKOLVIKINGS:
Congrats brother, thank you for showing the way.
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Congrats brother, thank you for showing the way.
It's an honor brother. Thank you for your support as well!
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[size=100] 2 YEARS!!! [/size]
Can you believe it?! Congratulations - keep crushing it, MNx!!!
'party2'
Hell yeah!!! Way to go on the 2 years brother!
'40'
Happy 2 year quit Mnx! (But happy quitversary tomorrow ?)
Thanks everyone! I'm truly humbled by the continued outpouring of support.
Cheers to the next trip around the sun!
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FROM BERT75:
Congrats on 2 years!! That's some serious quittin!
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FROM JB65:
Congrats on 2 years!! That's some serious quittin!
Congtrats awesome quitter!
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FROM DONKEYMN:
Congrats on 2 years!! That's some serious quittin!
Congtrats awesome quitter!
2 YEARS ago, you made a fricken great decision. Well done and enjoy the rewards you may reap!
WTG brother! 'oh yeah'
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FROM PAB1964:
Congrats on 2 years!! That's some serious quittin!
Congtrats awesome quitter!
2 YEARS ago, you made a fricken great decision. Well done and enjoy the rewards you may reap!
WTG brother! 'oh yeah'
Wow! 2 years, now that my friend is badass! Congratulations
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Whew!!
It may look like my introduction up to this point is a conversation that only involves myself, but that is just due to the fact that I moved every single intro post over from CrapaTalk individually. There was too much history and humbling support over the past 2.5 years to let it waste away. I hope some of you newer quitters take the time to read through my introduction here and absorb any quit knowledge that other have so gracious bestowed on me over the past couple years.
Thursday of this week, (10/25) marks my 2.5 year quit anniversary. It has been an incredible journey and I am super excited to push toward that comma ODAAT. A huge thank you to everyone who has supported me and continues to support me on this daily journey.
Proud to be quit with you all today!
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Work has been super stressful, my wife is due with our second child a week from today and the Holidays are fast approaching. In hopefully a week or less, add a post-partum wife and newborn to the mix and you can bet your ass I will be pulling my hair out.
The best part about it though? I won't be feeding an addiction. After 2.5 years (964 days to be exact) this is why this site remains very near and dear to my heart. I have developed and acquired so many tools over the years to help me through the next couple weeks/months if the nic bitch comes knocking. I didn't miss posting when our first daughter was born and I sure as fuck won't miss a day of roll this time around either.
To anyone reading this who may be on the fence about quitting, do it now. You will never regret being QUIT but I can guarantee that you will regret continually feeding your nicotine addiction by shoving a dead plant in your face. This site is filled with incredible people who know how to help. Dive in and don't look back.
This was definitely not my most coherent post but life is nuts at the moment and my brain is all scrambled up too. Damn proud to be quit with you all today!
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Hey all. My name is Jared and I am new to this site. I started chewing 5 years ago in college to survive the late nights of endless homework and projects. I have tried quitting on my own literally countless times, but can't seem to ever make it longer than 2 or 3 weeks. I have my first child on the way and need to get this addiction eradicated from my life once and for all. My new quit date is May 1st, 2016 and I'm hoping the support from this community will help me make this time a success! Thank you for your support.
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Why are you going to wait until May 1st??? Why not now???
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Richard K - you are right! Why not make it today?! This is exactly the support I was hoping for and need to be successful. Thank you!
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Just throw everything away, start now, ensure you post roll in Aug 16. That will be your group. People will help you out. Pm sent with my number.
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Flush whatever dip you have left. Take away the opportunity to go back to the nic bitch.
Post roll and honor your word. That's all it takes here. But, we don't frolic through the meadow, holding hands and "trying" to quit. We go balls to the wall and quit like badasses every damn day. Wake up, piss, post roll. As long as you can do that and be a man of your word, you'll do just fine here.
Reach out to members of your group (there may not be many as it just opened up, but when there are, do it) and exchange phone numbers. It's really important to have someone you can reach out to when cravings get tough and that person knows exactly what you're going through.
Proud to have you with us and proud to quit with you.
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You can do this!
It is a fight, and you will find the tools and support here you need to quit, one piece of advice that is invaluable to me: You get what you put in!
Reach out to as many people as you need to!
I am still looking for your Day 1, and looking forward to being Quit with you!
Take back your freedom!
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Thank you everyone for the quick outpouring of support. I have thrown everything out and am excited for my Day 1 tomorrow!
I don't want to try to be a hero, but I really don't want to use nicotine gum/patches/etc. in the quitting process. I bought some Grinds to hopefully help. What is everyone's recommendations?
I am proud to be quitting with all of you. Stay strong.
Peace.
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Thank you everyone for the quick outpouring of support. I have thrown everything out and am excited for my Day 1 tomorrow!
I don't want to try to be a hero, but I really don't want to use nicotine gum/patches/etc. in the quitting process. I bought some Grinds to hopefully help. What is everyone's recommendations?
I am proud to be quitting with all of you. Stay strong.
Peace.
First, this is a nicotine free site period. Nicotine in any form, patches, gum, lozenges as well as traditional tobacco is verboten. Fake chew (Hooch, Smokey Mountain, Baccoff) is allowed as long as there is no nicotine in it at all. I use Smokey Mountain and it helped me get through the first couple of weeks. The day you quit is your day 1. We post roll and make the promise that in the next 24 hours we will not use nicotine in any form. Keep your word for 24 hours and that's the recipe for success. It's simple in practice but can be difficult. That's where your brothers and sisters in your quit group come in, to help when the time gets difficult. The more involved you are in your group, the easier it will be in the long run.
Proud to quit with you!
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Hey all. My name is Jared and I am new to this site. I started chewing 5 years ago in college to survive the late nights of endless homework and projects. I have tried quitting on my own literally countless times, but can't seem to ever make it longer than 2 or 3 weeks. I have my first child on the way and need to get this addiction eradicated from my life once and for all. My new quit date is May 1st, 2016 and I'm hoping the support from this community will help me make this time a success! Thank you for your support.
Welcome to the party Jared. The above bad asses have steered you in the right direction, so in that regard I don't have a whole lot to add. One thing I did want to mention, however, is you will never ever ever rid yourself of your addiction. This is a very tough pill to swallow at first, but you will always be a nicotine addict. You can not have an "occasional dip" or a celebratory cigar with your buddies on a bachelor party. The gravity of this situation is very real, but that's why we only commit to quitting one day at a time (ODAAT). Forever is too big a chunk to bite off.
There will not be a magical day where you no longer are addicted to nicotine. There will come a day when you don't constantly think about nicotine. There may even come a day when you don't think about nicotine at all. You are not cured. Embrace the addiction. Embrace the fact that you are quit today and your addiction no longer controls your every move. Embrace the fact that you are no longer actively poisoning yourself and that your kids will grow up without watching you slobber all over an empty water bottle trying to spit that brown sludge.
You can do this and this site can help you get there. Post roll, be a man of your word. That simple.
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Thank you mattlock and king. I am committed to diving in cold turkey and definitely will be taking it one day at a time. I am almost through Day 1 with no nicotine and appreciate the solid words of support and advice.
Peace.
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Doing things the KTC way, you don't simply hope. You man/woman up and take it one day at a time. You post roll, exchange numbers, make friends and later figure out there is a brother/sister or 2 or more. I support u I just want to make sure u understand hope won't cut it, do it! Every day one day at a time.
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I won't wish you good luck for your first softball game tonight. We don't do luck. You posted your promise to us so you will tackle this first quit hurdle like the badass quitter you are. Get your seeds, fake dip, gum, whatever.....your quit tools and have a great time playing ball clean and free. You got this. See you tomorrow on roll.
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rdad - You are most certainly right and thanks for setting me straight. I don't need luck because luck ain't going to keep me off the can. I made my promise today and I damn well plan to keep it. Peace.
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rdad - You are most certainly right and thanks for setting me straight. I don't need luck because luck ain't going to keep me off the can. I made my promise today and I damn well plan to keep it. Peace.
The Quit may be strong in this one!
"There is no victory without a battle."
And there is no freedom without once being a slave!
I quit with you.
Rawls 526
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Day 10 - First and foremost I want to thank all my brothers and sisters of quit for your support this last week and a half. You have been there to help me in my struggles and share in my victories. Many thanks!
Some reflections quick:
1.) Posting roll as early as possible every day is super critical. Thanks to all who encouraged this habit from my Day 1 and steered me on the straight and narrow from the beginning.
2.) ODAAT. I never realized how much I psyched myself out in the past when I tried to quit by telling myself I needed to quit for a month, two months, six months and I would be fine. This is a battle minute to minute, hour to hour, day to day. Focusing on the here and now takes away the stress and anxiety of trying to attain some numeric goal. Yes, I get excited thinking about staying quit for 100 days, 1,000 days and 10,000+ days. But I do believe this can only be achieved by confronting the addiction ODAAT.
3.) The freedom is more amazing that I thought. No more staying up super late to get in those few more dips. No more taking super long trips to the toilet; no more lying to myself and my loved ones. Without the nic controlling every aspect of my life, I feel liberated and my mood has improved. I've discovered this mental improvement helps me optimistically take this journey ODAAT.
My two cents - Form a support circle with your fellow brothers and sisters of quit, remain steadfast and humble, persevere in the face of struggle, and most importantly, STAY QUIT!! May the 4th be with you. Peace.
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Day 10 - First and foremost I want to thank all my brothers and sisters of quit for your support this last week and a half. You have been there to help me in my struggles and share in my victories. Many thanks!
Some reflections quick:
1.) Posting roll as early as possible every day is super critical. Thanks to all who encouraged this habit from my Day 1 and steered me on the straight and narrow from the beginning.
2.) ODAAT. I never realized how much I psyched myself out in the past when I tried to quit by telling myself I needed to quit for a month, two months, six months and I would be fine. This is a battle minute to minute, hour to hour, day to day. Focusing on the here and now takes away the stress and anxiety of trying to attain some numeric goal. Yes, I get excited thinking about staying quit for 100 days, 1,000 days and 10,000+ days. But I do believe this can only be achieved by confronting the addiction ODAAT.
3.) The freedom is more amazing that I thought. No more staying up super late to get in those few more dips. No more taking super long trips to the toilet; no more lying to myself and my loved ones. Without the nic controlling every aspect of my life, I feel liberated and my mood has improved. I've discovered this mental improvement helps me optimistically take this journey ODAAT.
My two cents - Form a support circle with your fellow brothers and sisters of quit, remain steadfast and humble, persevere in the face of struggle, and most importantly, STAY QUIT!! May the 4th be with you. Peace.
Quick reflections?
Shit. You just about distilled everything we're about about as concisely as it could be done.
Well said. Very well said. Make sure you share this in your group.
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Day 26 - Mini Reflections
I have been so focused on taking this shit ODAAT, I barely realized that I am just over 25% of the way to 100 days and the HOF! While I have been a strong proponent of focusing on this quit journey in the here and now, I also have realized the importance of looking forward to future milestones. There is an excitement factor associated with these milestones that helps continue to motivate; however, our focus must remain with today.
I had an opportunity this week to meet some fellow Minnesota quitters (Natro, MN_Ben, Jenahen) in person for dinner. I encourage everyone to try to find people in their area to meet face to face. For me it helped solidify the accountability and gave me a renewed vigor in my quit.
I want to share the importance of getting digits. I have been able to help discourage fellow quitters from buying a can of cat shit and in return, they have helped me through various moments of weakness and cravings. Building a strong support network is key.
Finally, complacency can NOT take root when overcoming an addiction. I am proud of my success! But I have come to terms with the fact that I will have to remain vigilant for the rest of my life so I don't let the nic bitch rear her ugly head.
Thank you to everyone for the support and encouragement these past 26 days and I am proud to be quitting with all of you one day at a time!
Jared
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You are on the right track. Lean on this site hard, as much as you need to, and you will need to. The next challenge you will face is PAWS (post acute withdrawal symptoms). You'll think you had an injection of estrogen. See my signature link for details.
Bravo son, bravo!
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Day 26 - Mini Reflections
I have been so focused on taking this shit ODAAT, I barely realized that I am just over 25% of the way to 100 days and the HOF! While I have been a strong proponent of focusing on this quit journey in the here and now, I also have realized the importance of looking forward to future milestones. There is an excitement factor associated with these milestones that helps continue to motivate; however, our focus must remain with today.
I had an opportunity this week to meet some fellow Minnesota quitters (Natro, MN_Ben, Jenahen) in person for dinner. I encourage everyone to try to find people in their area to meet face to face. For me it helped solidify the accountability and gave me a renewed vigor in my quit.
I want to share the importance of getting digits. I have been able to help discourage fellow quitters from buying a can of cat shit and in return, they have helped me through various moments of weakness and cravings. Building a strong support network is key.
Finally, complacency can NOT take root when overcoming an addiction. I am proud of my success! But I have come to terms with the fact that I will have to remain vigilant for the rest of my life so I don't let the nic bitch rear her ugly head.
Thank you to everyone for the support and encouragement these past 26 days and I am proud to be quitting with all of you one day at a time!
Jared
Dang....betting that was a great dinner.
Adding blood and a heart beat to your QUIT.
Thanks for sharing.
I Quit with you MN.
Let those seeds grow roots.
EDD ODAAT.
Rawls 550
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Day 26 - Mini Reflections
I have been so focused on taking this shit ODAAT, I barely realized that I am just over 25% of the way to 100 days and the HOF! While I have been a strong proponent of focusing on this quit journey in the here and now, I also have realized the importance of looking forward to future milestones. There is an excitement factor associated with these milestones that helps continue to motivate; however, our focus must remain with today.
I had an opportunity this week to meet some fellow Minnesota quitters (Natro, MN_Ben, Jenahen) in person for dinner. I encourage everyone to try to find people in their area to meet face to face. For me it helped solidify the accountability and gave me a renewed vigor in my quit.
I want to share the importance of getting digits. I have been able to help discourage fellow quitters from buying a can of cat shit and in return, they have helped me through various moments of weakness and cravings. Building a strong support network is key.
Finally, complacency can NOT take root when overcoming an addiction. I am proud of my success! But I have come to terms with the fact that I will have to remain vigilant for the rest of my life so I don't let the nic bitch rear her ugly head.
Thank you to everyone for the support and encouragement these past 26 days and I am proud to be quitting with all of you one day at a time!
Jared
Dang....betting that was a great dinner.
Adding blood and a heart beat to your QUIT.
Thanks for sharing.
I Quit with you MN.
Let those seeds grow roots.
EDD ODAAT.
Rawls 550
Keep up the solid quit MN. Keep journaling your experiences and thoughts in here. It helps others and it will also benefit you in the long run.
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Happy HOF Day Jared! You've worked hard and earned this. You've personally helped me through some very challenging situations and I know you've done the same for others.
This is just the first floor, you'll be on the second and beyond before you know it! The best thing is that your daughter will never have to know her dad as a slave to some useless drug.
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Happy HOF Day Jared! You've worked hard and earned this. You've personally helped me through some very challenging situations and I know you've done the same for others.
This is just the first floor, you'll be on the second and beyond before you know it! The best thing is that your daughter will never have to know her dad as a slave to some useless drug.
Congrats my man on HOF!
I echo what pky said... you have helped me in my quit as well. I know I can count on you, thanks for your support!
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Congrat on the HOF from one MN dude to another!! Nice work!
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Congrat on the HOF from one MN dude to another!! Nice work!
Thanks man! Proud to be quit with you today!
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Happy HOF Day Jared! You've worked hard and earned this. You've personally helped me through some very challenging situations and I know you've done the same for others.
This is just the first floor, you'll be on the second and beyond before you know it! The best thing is that your daughter will never have to know her dad as a slave to some useless drug.
Congrats my man on HOF!
I echo what pky said... you have helped me in my quit as well. I know I can count on you, thanks for your support!
I'm humbled to know I've had such an influence on you guys and other fellow quitters. I have certainly been helped through some dark times by both of you and many others. That is what makes this place work! QUIT ON!!!!
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"Remember, today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday." - Dale Carnegie
It's incredible how events - however brief or seemingly insignificant - in a person's life can leave a lasting and vivid mental impression that will most likely remain forever engraved on our brains. On a frigid Fargo winter night my sophomore year of college, I was partying in one of my resident's rooms and he offered me a tin of Grizzly Wintergreen. I immediately declined despite my compromised and inebriated state. Understand I grew up in a super conservative/sheltered household where we were obviously taught the dangers of such things as drugs and tobacco - especially dip where they put shards of fiberglass in it to cut your lip and get you addicted. This "knowledge" was what kept me away from ever throwing in a lipper - that is, until that fateful night. Undeterred by my vehement refusal, he passed around the can after liberally helping himself to a huge cat turd. Once the room had significantly finger banged the living snot out of the can, I was again offered to participate in the orgy. The first guy offered to show me how and after about 19 seconds of an instant high, I was sputtering the contents of my lip all over the side of his dorm room garbage can. This was early 2010.
Believe it or not, my next encounter with dip would not occur until Fall 2011. I started driving back and forth from central Minnesota to Fargo almost every weekend since I took the Fall 2011 semester off to gain some experience at an extended internship about 3 hours away from NDSU. Due to my grueling internship work schedule and all the extended freeway miles I needed to find a way to stay awake. I tried everything and had still almost crashed multiple times. One weekend, before heading up to Fargo, I stopped at a Holiday station store and bought my first tin - Camel Snus Frost. I knew tobacco was not good for me but I told myself I would just use it to stay awake. Better dip than risk my own life and the lives of others by falling asleep at the wheel going 75 mph, right?? In addition, I could stop whenever I wanted. Those were the first of countless lies I convinced myself to believe.
I resumed my college education Spring of 2012 and my can of Skoal and my Xbox became inseparable friends - a friendship that would hinder my attempts to quit for years. The late nights and countless hours spent on senior design led me to scrape up money for tin after tin on an already tight college budget. It was then where I half admitted to myself that I might have a nicotine/tobacco problem. So I decided I would quit after graduation before things got out of hand.
After graduating Magna Cum Laude with a Mechanical Engineering degree in May of 2013, I landed a job as a plant engineer at a local coal fired generation plant. Most everyone at the plant dipped so I continued right along. A fellow plant engineer and I would go to lunch almost every day and then drive around for an hour dipping and shooting the bull. One day an instrumentation technician at the site saw me throw in a pouch and told me to quit. Said he had a buddy with only half a face and that I was too young to ruin my life. I didn't really know this guy. The fact that he cared about me enough to offer a warning touched me but my addict brain at this point was on all-out assault mode against inclinations to quit. At this point my fiancee and I had a wedding date set for October of the same year. So I decided I would quit when I got married.
The ceremony was beautiful! The reception was a grand old time. Cancun was a magical 8 days of wedding bliss free from the can. We got home and settled back into the daily grind...and the can. After getting back from Mexico I continued to ninja dip a can per day. After 6 months of marriage we decided to start looking for a house and give up the townhome style of living. It was buyers' market and we were set to close on our new house in May of 2014. So I decided I would quit when we moved in to the new place.
In my opinion, moving sucks. But we eventually got all settled in and in no time I was spending all my time mowing the lawn and staring helplessly at the honey-do list. I tried a little harder this time and managed to quit for about 21 days. I had a co-worker at the plant helping keep me accountable but I was forced to change jobs in July 2014 and quickly resumed my intimate relationship with the poison in the plastic and metal cylinder. I convinced myself that the stress of switching jobs required dip in mass quantities. Despite my new company's strict no tobacco policies, I continued to stealth dip in my cubicle. It was at this point that the feelings of self-loathing, despair and helplessness reached a pinnacle. My marriage was taking a hit since I would stay up almost every night to sneak in that last dip or five while playing Xbox. I wanted desperately to quit but I played too much Xbox to terminate such an intimate relationship. I ultimately came to terms that if I wanted to be successful in my quit, I would have to stop playing Xbox for an indeterminate amount of time until I could get my tobacco addiction under control. So I decided I would quit during Lent.
Well I made it halfway through Lent before caving. (Anyone catching the trend here?) I'll help you out; I simply was sunk into this addiction way over my head and could not quit on my own. My oral fixation has always been extremely strong. I needed a fake that mimicked pouches to help me in my quitting process. I found Smokey Mountain but I always dipped pouches so the SM was gross to me and did not help. I then realized SM had pouches but was disappointed to find they were tiny, dry and did nothing to help. Chewing gum made my jaw sore after two days and seeds worked for about three. Since none of these options worked as I hoped, I decided to confess to my wife and end this slavery once and for all.
I ended up having a conversation with my wife on Labor Day 2015. I sat there on the couch balling my eyes out and sobbing uncontrollably while she tried to tell me it was ok and that we would work to overcome the issue. She was disappointed but supportive - which frankly was more than I deserved or thought I would get. But surprise! Even this confession was not enough. I tried to share my struggles with her but she didn't understand and I got tired of lashing out at her in my nicotine deprived rage. I slowly snuck back to the old crafty nic bitch and before I knew it I was ninja dipping a tin per day. Again. I was tired of trying to quit. I was exhausted attempting to overcome something that seemed like an impossibility to my addict brain. I wanted to give up. I felt like I was out of options and that I would die a slow painful death with Harvey Dent like features.
Well this story does have hope, I promise. One random day in April while perusing the old book of face (Facebook), I saw a distant college "friend" post something about Cowboy Coffee Chew. Desperate to find a fake substitute I started some research and also stumbled on Grinds coffee pouches. I ordered a can of Cowboy and some Grinds off Amazon and the Grinds were the pouch substitute I had been searching for and needed. Plus I drink coffee like an old man so the flavor was perfect and welcomed.
Somewhere in my research of the Coffee Chew and the Grinds I must have stumbled on a link to KTC. I remember poking around and ended up leaving the page open on my phone. A day or two later on April 24th 2016, I signed up and posted a six sentence intro titled "Hoping to Quit for Good" stating my quit date would be May 1st, 2016. Richard K was the first to reach out and quickly, yet kindly, informed me that the site was nic free, there was no "hoping", to flush what I had left and quit right away. I was surprised with the prompt support but I knew I had to jump in head first. I posted my Day 1 on April 25, 2016. I will be eternally grateful to Richard K for the extra 7 days I am quit thanks to him and the KTC site. Who knows, maybe those 7 days and him reaching out saved my life.
If you are still with me, thanks for reading this far. Time to reflect on my last 100 days on Kill The Can. I bought in 100% from Day 1. I posted that Day 1 and haven't missed a day yet. Nor do I plan to ever stop posting roll every damn day. Why you ask? Well my parents taught me the importance of honoring your word and keeping your promises. If I promise to not use nicotine that day, my chances of caving within that next 24 hours goes from improbable to impossible. Once I give my word, I am not willing to jeopardize my integrity for something that is trying to kill me. And while this journey is about MY quit and MY health, I understand the idea of posting roll to also extend beyond myself. My fellow quitters depend on my word and me staying quit to help them in their journey. If they know they have a rock to lean on in hard times, it will prompt them to reach out for support in their struggles confident that I will be quit and ready to guide them through whatever crave or issue they are experiencing. And for me, helping my fellow KTC folks stay quit strengths my quit more than words can describe. This idea of posting roll every damn day was just one nugget of advice offered by the vets but I soaked up everything they posted. I am a technically minded mechanical engineer. As such, it is my job to think outside the box and innovate. But it is also my job to recognize when a process or design has reached its optimal efficiency and not waste time re-inventing the wheel. Thus, after joining the KTC community, I immediately respected the process. Instead of seeing how much I could buck the system, I invested in my group and sought to put more into the group than I took from it. But at the end of the day, the process works despite the fact that it is incredibly and almost laughably simple.
When compared to some of the people on KTC, being a dipper for five years does not seem like very long. Hell, a lot of these people dipped longer than I have been alive. Does my five years of stupid decisions make my quit any less significant? Yeah, I never had jaw pain, headaches or any length of debilitating fog. The rage was an issue but I have a short temper to begin with so I was used to suppressing and dealing with my anger. The constipation was probably the most challenging side effect and honestly what made most of my previous solo quit attempts fail. But no matter how long you have dipped the fact remains that we are all addicts and must fight EACH AND EVERY DAY to remain quit. This isn't some petty habit; habits can be broken. Addictions require ongoing effort and constant vigilance.
Since joining KTC I have learned a slew of things that have definitely contributed to my past 100 days of success.
1. Dipping was my decision. We were responsible for putting that crap in our faces; we must admit our mistakes and now own our quit.
2. Be a man of my word. If you can't keep your word or even think that breaking your promise is an option the KTC process simply will not work.
3. Wake up, piss, post EVERY DAMN DAY - This is so critical!
4. Truly focusing one day at a time. The wisdom and necessity of this cannot be expressed strongly enough.
5. Become invested, share digits and actually use those digits to rage, share struggles and celebrate victories.
6. Call fellow quitters on the phone! It can seem awkward but helps further solidify the accountability.
7. Hold people accountable and let people hold you accountable.
8. Get involved with the spreadsheet of accountability.
9. Have a plan for known and latent triggers. Always be prepared!
10. RESPECT THE VETS AND TRUST THE PROCESS.
At one point in my quit I found a pipe with some pipe tobacco at home that I had bought back in the summer of 2013. I literally took one look at it, grabbed my dead blow hammer from the garage and smashed the living daylights out of it. This victory and others were made possible by the brotherhood and accountability of KTC. I plan to continue to use and contribute to KTC as it very well has saved my life. I will forever be in its debt and I pledge to remain close to the site to help as many people as possible be successful in this daily battle of addiction. In war, the Vikings would urge each other forward to victory by yelling "Skol!" to one another. Thus, in the spirit of these valiant and ruthless warriors, as we battle our addictions each and every day, I continue to urge you all forward - SKOL!
Jared (MNxEngineer314) - August Annihilator 2016
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That is an execellent quit story! Congratulations on Hall of Fame! Stick around, it
keeps getting better.
Nomore1959 August 15 A-Team
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"laughably simple", that should be the title of your HOF essay. Brilliant!!!
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Last night I bummed a dip off a stranger without a second thought. Didn't bother texting my accountability brothers. In a matter of seconds I was spewing it out all over the place dreading the gauntlet of criticism I would receive from everyone on here. I was enraged that I had compromised the progress I've made and was depressed to have to start all over again.
But then I woke up. I've had a couple vivid dip dreams previously but this one was different. The dreams before I fought with myself. I argued with the nic bitch. I thought about the consequences. The dream last night was disturbing because I disregarded the consequences with a "fuck it all" attitude. Be assured, this is not the mindset I have regarding my quit. But it reminded me that complacency kills. That complacency will contribute absolutely nothing to the success of your quit. This is an ongoing battle with an addiction that requires constant vigilance.
Today is Day 151 and I'm proud of every minute I have stayed quit. The freedom is freaking awesome and I am proud to be quit with you all today. Peace.
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Last night I bummed a dip off a stranger without a second thought. Didn't bother texting my accountability brothers. In a matter of seconds I was spewing it out all over the place dreading the gauntlet of criticism I would receive from everyone on here. I was enraged that I had compromised the progress I've made and was depressed to have to start all over again.
But then I woke up. I've had a couple vivid dip dreams previously but this one was different. The dreams before I fought with myself. I argued with the nic bitch. I thought about the consequences. The dream last night was disturbing because I disregarded the consequences with a "fuck it all" attitude. Be assured, this is not the mindset I have regarding my quit. But it reminded me that complacency kills. That complacency will contribute absolutely nothing to the success of your quit. This is an ongoing battle with an addiction that requires constant vigilance.
Today is Day 151 and I'm proud of every minute I have stayed quit. The freedom is freaking awesome and I am proud to be quit with you all today. Peace.
Whew.
I feel ya.
I've had a few that were so real that I had to sit in bed and logic my way through whether I actually caved or not! Rock on, man. These help to keep you grounded and moving forward.
AJ... 1,255 days of amazing freedom.
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Last night I bummed a dip off a stranger without a second thought. Didn't bother texting my accountability brothers. In a matter of seconds I was spewing it out all over the place dreading the gauntlet of criticism I would receive from everyone on here. I was enraged that I had compromised the progress I've made and was depressed to have to start all over again.
But then I woke up. I've had a couple vivid dip dreams previously but this one was different. The dreams before I fought with myself. I argued with the nic bitch. I thought about the consequences. The dream last night was disturbing because I disregarded the consequences with a "fuck it all" attitude. Be assured, this is not the mindset I have regarding my quit. But it reminded me that complacency kills. That complacency will contribute absolutely nothing to the success of your quit. This is an ongoing battle with an addiction that requires constant vigilance.
Today is Day 151 and I'm proud of every minute I have stayed quit. The freedom is freaking awesome and I am proud to be quit with you all today. Peace.
Whew.
I feel ya.
I've had a few that were so real that I had to sit in bed and logic my way through whether I actually caved or not! Rock on, man. These help to keep you grounded and moving forward.
AJ... 1,255 days of amazing freedom.
Damn mnx as I was reading that I was getting pissed till I read it was a dream. See you gotta understand there's guy's and gals you watch and you go, this person here gets it! So you read an intro or post here and there from them and it strengthens your quit because you had them pegged as a quitter not a maybe or no frigging way. It's quitters, newbs vets it doesn't matter, I feed off of them, it makes my day easier. We all struggle, I talk to guy's with 4,5 years under there belts, still crave. Mind you not near as intense or as long but she's still blowing a little kiss. So just remember someone is watching and maybe even looking for that one little post to make it through today and I will say you have got me through a few! Thanks damn proud to be quit with you!
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Last night I bummed a dip off a stranger without a second thought. Didn't bother texting my accountability brothers. In a matter of seconds I was spewing it out all over the place dreading the gauntlet of criticism I would receive from everyone on here. I was enraged that I had compromised the progress I've made and was depressed to have to start all over again.
But then I woke up. I've had a couple vivid dip dreams previously but this one was different. The dreams before I fought with myself. I argued with the nic bitch. I thought about the consequences. The dream last night was disturbing because I disregarded the consequences with a "fuck it all" attitude. Be assured, this is not the mindset I have regarding my quit. But it reminded me that complacency kills. That complacency will contribute absolutely nothing to the success of your quit. This is an ongoing battle with an addiction that requires constant vigilance.
Today is Day 151 and I'm proud of every minute I have stayed quit. The freedom is freaking awesome and I am proud to be quit with you all today. Peace.
Whew.
I feel ya.
I've had a few that were so real that I had to sit in bed and logic my way through whether I actually caved or not! Rock on, man. These help to keep you grounded and moving forward.
AJ... 1,255 days of amazing freedom.
Damn mnx as I was reading that I was getting pissed till I read it was a dream. See you gotta understand there's guy's and gals you watch and you go, this person here gets it! So you read an intro or post here and there from them and it strengthens your quit because you had them pegged as a quitter not a maybe or no frigging way. It's quitters, newbs vets it doesn't matter, I feed off of them, it makes my day easier. We all struggle, I talk to guy's with 4,5 years under there belts, still crave. Mind you not near as intense or as long but she's still blowing a little kiss. So just remember someone is watching and maybe even looking for that one little post to make it through today and I will say you have got me through a few! Thanks damn proud to be quit with you!
It humbles me to hear that. I completely agree though. We are in this together and there are days where I am frantically searching through the quit groups searching for that nugget of advice or support to power me through that day. And to reciprocate I try to leave a breadcrumb trail of encouragement for other people to pick up and carry them through. This is what makes KTC work and why I am (and will remain!) QUIT.
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Last night I bummed a dip off a stranger without a second thought. Didn't bother texting my accountability brothers. In a matter of seconds I was spewing it out all over the place dreading the gauntlet of criticism I would receive from everyone on here. I was enraged that I had compromised the progress I've made and was depressed to have to start all over again.
But then I woke up. I've had a couple vivid dip dreams previously but this one was different. The dreams before I fought with myself. I argued with the nic bitch. I thought about the consequences. The dream last night was disturbing because I disregarded the consequences with a "fuck it all" attitude. Be assured, this is not the mindset I have regarding my quit. But it reminded me that complacency kills. That complacency will contribute absolutely nothing to the success of your quit. This is an ongoing battle with an addiction that requires constant vigilance.
Today is Day 151 and I'm proud of every minute I have stayed quit. The freedom is freaking awesome and I am proud to be quit with you all today. Peace.
Whew.
I feel ya.
I've had a few that were so real that I had to sit in bed and logic my way through whether I actually caved or not! Rock on, man. These help to keep you grounded and moving forward.
AJ... 1,255 days of amazing freedom.
Damn mnx as I was reading that I was getting pissed till I read it was a dream. See you gotta understand there's guy's and gals you watch and you go, this person here gets it! So you read an intro or post here and there from them and it strengthens your quit because you had them pegged as a quitter not a maybe or no frigging way. It's quitters, newbs vets it doesn't matter, I feed off of them, it makes my day easier. We all struggle, I talk to guy's with 4,5 years under there belts, still crave. Mind you not near as intense or as long but she's still blowing a little kiss. So just remember someone is watching and maybe even looking for that one little post to make it through today and I will say you have got me through a few! Thanks damn proud to be quit with you!
It humbles me to hear that. I completely agree though. We are in this together and there are days where I am frantically searching through the quit groups searching for that nugget of advice or support to power me through that day. And to reciprocate I try to leave a breadcrumb trail of encouragement for other people to pick up and carry them through. This is what makes KTC work and why I am (and will remain!) QUIT.
I almost just puked on my computer. I thought I was gonna have to fly to MN and take a flamethrower with me. Dip dreams are worse than those kissin' yer' sister dreams.
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Last night I bummed a dip off a stranger without a second thought. Didn't bother texting my accountability brothers. In a matter of seconds I was spewing it out all over the place dreading the gauntlet of criticism I would receive from everyone on here. I was enraged that I had compromised the progress I've made and was depressed to have to start all over again.
But then I woke up. I've had a couple vivid dip dreams previously but this one was different. The dreams before I fought with myself. I argued with the nic bitch. I thought about the consequences. The dream last night was disturbing because I disregarded the consequences with a "fuck it all" attitude. Be assured, this is not the mindset I have regarding my quit. But it reminded me that complacency kills. That complacency will contribute absolutely nothing to the success of your quit. This is an ongoing battle with an addiction that requires constant vigilance.
Today is Day 151 and I'm proud of every minute I have stayed quit. The freedom is freaking awesome and I am proud to be quit with you all today. Peace.
Whew.
I feel ya.
I've had a few that were so real that I had to sit in bed and logic my way through whether I actually caved or not! Rock on, man. These help to keep you grounded and moving forward.
AJ... 1,255 days of amazing freedom.
Damn mnx as I was reading that I was getting pissed till I read it was a dream. See you gotta understand there's guy's and gals you watch and you go, this person here gets it! So you read an intro or post here and there from them and it strengthens your quit because you had them pegged as a quitter not a maybe or no frigging way. It's quitters, newbs vets it doesn't matter, I feed off of them, it makes my day easier. We all struggle, I talk to guy's with 4,5 years under there belts, still crave. Mind you not near as intense or as long but she's still blowing a little kiss. So just remember someone is watching and maybe even looking for that one little post to make it through today and I will say you have got me through a few! Thanks damn proud to be quit with you!
It humbles me to hear that. I completely agree though. We are in this together and there are days where I am frantically searching through the quit groups searching for that nugget of advice or support to power me through that day. And to reciprocate I try to leave a breadcrumb trail of encouragement for other people to pick up and carry them through. This is what makes KTC work and why I am (and will remain!) QUIT.
I almost just puked on my computer. I thought I was gonna have to fly to MN and take a flamethrower with me. Dip dreams are worse than those kissin' yer' sister dreams.
^^^ Holy shit ... you little engineer geek ... had me sweatin...FLA I woulda helped you... We should start calling those dip nightmares(they are far from dreamy)
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Well folks, today is Day 183. Since 2016 is/was a leap year, that means I have been tobacco free for exactly HALF OF A CALENDAR YEAR!!! I have to be honest, I joined this site with a weak determination (determination no less but hey!) but bought in thinking I'd better give things a sincere try. I remember flushing my last dip and while watching it swirl to its watery grave I thought to myself "That won't be my last one. I'll probably fail within a couple weeks." Well KTC doesn't allow shit like that so here I am 6 months later with the definitive knowledge that that dip back on April 23rd was in fact my last dip. EVER.
The freedom is incredible. If you are lurking around the site and happen to be reading this right now (maybe with a lip full of cat turd) SPIT THAT SHIT OUT AND SIGN UP. It will be the best decision you have ever make. It may seem impossible to you like trying to pick up a turd by the clean end but I thought the same thing and here I am, 183 days clean and hating nicotine with every fiber of my being.
Just an quick recent example of the progress I've made. Yesterday I went golfing with my uncle and cousin. I told myself before I left the house to remember to grab my can of fake and throw it in my golf bag. Well I completely forgot about grabbing it until I was half way to the golf course and literally said screw it, I don't need it today. We golfed the entire 18 holes and I don't think I even thought about it once. It's great.
Such a heartfelt thanks to my August brothers and the folks from all groups, new and old that have supported me in this journey. You guys are life savers and I'm proud to be in this fight with you all! While my focus will always remain ODAAT, I am looking forward to that second floor and the next 6 months! QLAMF ODAAT!!
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Well folks, today is Day 183. Since 2016 is/was a leap year, that means I have been tobacco free for exactly HALF OF A CALENDAR YEAR!!! I have to be honest, I joined this site with a weak determination (determination no less but hey!) but bought in thinking I'd better give things a sincere try. I remember flushing my last dip and while watching it swirl to its watery grave I thought to myself "That won't be my last one. I'll probably fail within a couple weeks." Well KTC doesn't allow shit like that so here I am 6 months later with the definitive knowledge that that dip back on April 23rd was in fact my last dip. EVER.
The freedom is incredible. If you are lurking around the site and happen to be reading this right now (maybe with a lip full of cat turd) SPIT THAT SHIT OUT AND SIGN UP. It will be the best decision you have ever make. It may seem impossible to you like trying to pick up a turd by the clean end but I thought the same thing and here I am, 183 days clean and hating nicotine with every fiber of my being.
Just an quick recent example of the progress I've made. Yesterday I went golfing with my uncle and cousin. I told myself before I left the house to remember to grab my can of fake and throw it in my golf bag. Well I completely forgot about grabbing it until I was half way to the golf course and literally said screw it, I don't need it today. We golfed the entire 18 holes and I don't think I even thought about it once. It's great.
Such a heartfelt thanks to my August brothers and the folks from all groups, new and old that have supported me in this journey. You guys are life savers and I'm proud to be in this fight with you all! While my focus will always remain ODAAT, I am looking forward to that second floor and the next 6 months! QLAMF ODAAT!!
Stay strong, keep doing what your doing it obviously works! Damn proud to be quit with you!
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Well folks, today is Day 183. Since 2016 is/was a leap year, that means I have been tobacco free for exactly HALF OF A CALENDAR YEAR!!! I have to be honest, I joined this site with a weak determination (determination no less but hey!) but bought in thinking I'd better give things a sincere try. I remember flushing my last dip and while watching it swirl to its watery grave I thought to myself "That won't be my last one. I'll probably fail within a couple weeks." Well KTC doesn't allow shit like that so here I am 6 months later with the definitive knowledge that that dip back on April 23rd was in fact my last dip. EVER.
The freedom is incredible. If you are lurking around the site and happen to be reading this right now (maybe with a lip full of cat turd) SPIT THAT SHIT OUT AND SIGN UP. It will be the best decision you have ever make. It may seem impossible to you like trying to pick up a turd by the clean end but I thought the same thing and here I am, 183 days clean and hating nicotine with every fiber of my being.
Just an quick recent example of the progress I've made. Yesterday I went golfing with my uncle and cousin. I told myself before I left the house to remember to grab my can of fake and throw it in my golf bag. Well I completely forgot about grabbing it until I was half way to the golf course and literally said screw it, I don't need it today. We golfed the entire 18 holes and I don't think I even thought about it once. It's great.
Such a heartfelt thanks to my August brothers and the folks from all groups, new and old that have supported me in this journey. You guys are life savers and I'm proud to be in this fight with you all! While my focus will always remain ODAAT, I am looking forward to that second floor and the next 6 months! QLAMF ODAAT!!
Stay strong, keep doing what your doing it obviously works! Damn proud to be quit with you!
Congrats on 2nd floor brother! It's an honor to be quit with you. August rules! 'oh yeah'
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Congrats on 2nd floor brother! It's an honor to be quit with you. August rules! 'oh yeah'
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Congrats on 2nd floor brother! It's an honor to be quit with you. August rules! 'oh yeah'
Congrats on 200 MXeng
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Congrats on reaching the 2nd floor!!!
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Congrats on reaching the 2nd floor!!!
Aww the sweet smell of the second floor! Congratulations my friend!
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Congrats on reaching the 2nd floor!!!
Aww the sweet smell of the second floor! Congratulations my friend!
THANK YOU EVERYONE!!!! I'm honored and humbled by all the support I have received on this site - both from close August brethren to people I have never even shared digits with. 200 days is something I never thought possible. But thanks to the accountability and simple process here at KTC, I am confident I can stay quit FOREVER by honoring my daily promise and taking things simply one day at a time.
QUIT ON!!! 'oh yeah'
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Third floor today for this absolute beast of a quitter! Congratulations on posting 300 and thank you for being such a strong leader, reliable administrator and genuine friend.
'worship'
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Third floor today for this absolute beast of a quitter! Congratulations on posting 300 and thank you for being such a strong leader, reliable administrator and genuine friend.
'worship'
Congrats on 300 days quit!
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Third floor today for this absolute beast of a quitter! Congratulations on posting 300 and thank you for being such a strong leader, reliable administrator and genuine friend.
'worship'
Congrats on 300 days quit!
Congrats on hitting 300. Nice work man!
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Third floor today for this absolute beast of a quitter! Congratulations on posting 300 and thank you for being such a strong leader, reliable administrator and genuine friend.
'worship'
Congrats on 300 days quit!
Congrats on hitting 300. Nice work man!
Congrats on the third floor!!!!
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Third floor today for this absolute beast of a quitter! Congratulations on posting 300 and thank you for being such a strong leader, reliable administrator and genuine friend.
'worship'
Congrats on 300 days quit!
Congrats on hitting 300. Nice work man!
Congrats on the third floor!!!!
Congratulations you badass!
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Third floor today for this absolute beast of a quitter! Congratulations on posting 300 and thank you for being such a strong leader, reliable administrator and genuine friend.
'worship'
Congrats on 300 days quit!
Congrats on hitting 300. Nice work man!
Congrats on the third floor!!!!
Congratulations you badass!
Great job, MNx!!!
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Third floor today for this absolute beast of a quitter! Congratulations on posting 300 and thank you for being such a strong leader, reliable administrator and genuine friend.
'worship'
Congrats on 300 days quit!
Congrats on hitting 300. Nice work man!
Congrats on the third floor!!!!
Congratulations you badass!
Great job, MNx!!!
I wanted to post something this past Saturday which was my Day 300 but my little one got baptized over the weekend and it was a focking whirlwind!
It's hard to pinpoint exactly why but 300 is an incredible milestone for me. Back when I would try to quit on my own, I only ever made it about 3 weeks. 300 days seemed like a gargantuan number when I posted my Day 1 and still seemed like a fantasy at the HOF. But focusing one day at a time makes the time fly! And as they say, time flies like an arrow and fruit flies like bananas. But I digress. Posting 300+ days now makes me feel like a quit god but then there are folks like WCG over in July 2010 posting a day 2,500 today. But if you are a new quitter reading this, there is no competition here; we are all addicts posting a promise EDD, stacking the +1's ODAAT.
I have been humbled with an incredible support network here and I know that has contributed to my continued success. Thank you all and I am proud to be quit with you all TODAY.
#QUITLIFE
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So a mini reflection I wasn't planning on writing but wanted to share in the hopes that someone will find it helpful/inspiring.
Yesterday I was on day 309. And yesterday evening I was craving harder than I have since probably the mid 100's. I had posted yesterday morning so caving wasn't an option but man was that nic bitch trying every last trick in her hat. I texted a few guys and before I knew it I was getting tons of other texts from guys that went something to the extent of "Hey! *Insert BAQ name here* told me you were having a rough time. How can I support you?"
It was humbling and powerful and helpful all at the same time. The accountability/brotherhood network I have been creating since joining this site 310 days ago came through for me in a way that was perfectly overwhelming. I never doubt the support of my fellow brothers and sisters of quit; but seeing it come through in such a critical moment and in such a powerful way brought tears to my eyes and sent the nic bitch crying away with her tail between her legs.
If you are a new quitter reading this or maybe someone thinking about joining this site, KTC will work for you if you put forth the time and effort to use it as it is intended. I wanted to cave so hard yesterday. But I had posted roll yesterday morning and for those that know me on here, I will NEVER compromise the integrity of my word. But when moments like that sneak up, you NEED a support base that is 1000% percent solid. It seemed weird giving my digits out to such a variety of people but it's these guys that remind me of that promise and carry me through the tough times.
I don't pretend to be unaware that a fair amount of people on here look up to me and rely heavily on me. This knowledge is super humbling but know I am still human. I am (and will) be that rock solid support for people to lean on but I will also crave and have moments where I need to be the one doing the leaning. And that is ok. These moments of vulnerability strengthen the brotherhood and the accountability because it is a reminder that we all need each other and are in this fight together.
Final thought - a lot of people look to the HOF as the end goal. And while the HOF is a commendable milestone it is merely the beginning. If you are reading this with a couple hundred days under your belt and considering leaving KTC, I would strongly encourage you to reconsider. Posting roll every damn day, keeping your word and having that accountability network WORKS. If I had been off on my own away from KTC yesterday I don't know if I would have caved. But since I was still here and active, I have the privilege and opportunity to post a Day 310 today. And of that, I am incredibly proud.
#QUITLIFE
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So a mini reflection I wasn't planning on writing but wanted to share in the hopes that someone will find it helpful/inspiring.
Yesterday I was on day 309. And yesterday evening I was craving harder than I have since probably the mid 100's. I had posted yesterday morning so caving wasn't an option but man was that nic bitch trying every last trick in her hat. I texted a few guys and before I knew it I was getting tons of other texts from guys that went something to the extent of "Hey! *Insert BAQ name here* told me you were having a rough time. How can I support you?"
It was humbling and powerful and helpful all at the same time. The accountability/brotherhood network I have been creating since joining this site 310 days ago came through for me in a way that was perfectly overwhelming. I never doubt the support of my fellow brothers and sisters of quit; but seeing it come through in such a critical moment and in such a powerful way brought tears to my eyes and sent the nic bitch crying away with her tail between her legs.
If you are a new quitter reading this or maybe someone thinking about joining this site, KTC will work for you if you put forth the time and effort to use it as it is intended. I wanted to cave so hard yesterday. But I had posted roll yesterday morning and for those that know me on here, I will NEVER compromise the integrity of my word. But when moments like that sneak up, you NEED a support base that is 1000% percent solid. It seemed weird giving my digits out to such a variety of people but it's these guys that remind me of that promise and carry me through the tough times.
I don't pretend to be unaware that a fair amount of people on here look up to me and rely heavily on me. This knowledge is super humbling but know I am still human. I am (and will) be that rock solid support for people to lean on but I will also crave and have moments where I need to be the one doing the leaning. And that is ok. These moments of vulnerability strengthen the brotherhood and the accountability because it is a reminder that we all need each other and are in this fight together.
Final thought - a lot of people look to the HOF as the end goal. And while the HOF is a commendable milestone it is merely the beginning. If you are reading this with a couple hundred days under your belt and considering leaving KTC, I would strongly encourage you to reconsider. Posting roll every damn day, keeping your word and having that accountability network WORKS. If I had been off on my own away from KTC yesterday I don't know if I would have caved. But since I was still here and active, I have the privilege and opportunity to post a Day 310 today. And of that, I am incredibly proud.
#QUITLIFE
MNX,
I am one of those quitters who has relied on you and your support. Your always there when I need a little boost or support in a hairy, edge-of-the-cliff moment. Although we have not yet met in person, I consider you a friend and a quitter who has been instrumental in KTC brotherhood. Congrats on your 300 days! I will see you at 365, 400, and beyond!!!!
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So a mini reflection I wasn't planning on writing but wanted to share in the hopes that someone will find it helpful/inspiring.
Yesterday I was on day 309. And yesterday evening I was craving harder than I have since probably the mid 100's. I had posted yesterday morning so caving wasn't an option but man was that nic bitch trying every last trick in her hat. I texted a few guys and before I knew it I was getting tons of other texts from guys that went something to the extent of "Hey! *Insert BAQ name here* told me you were having a rough time. How can I support you?"
It was humbling and powerful and helpful all at the same time. The accountability/brotherhood network I have been creating since joining this site 310 days ago came through for me in a way that was perfectly overwhelming. I never doubt the support of my fellow brothers and sisters of quit; but seeing it come through in such a critical moment and in such a powerful way brought tears to my eyes and sent the nic bitch crying away with her tail between her legs.
If you are a new quitter reading this or maybe someone thinking about joining this site, KTC will work for you if you put forth the time and effort to use it as it is intended. I wanted to cave so hard yesterday. But I had posted roll yesterday morning and for those that know me on here, I will NEVER compromise the integrity of my word. But when moments like that sneak up, you NEED a support base that is 1000% percent solid. It seemed weird giving my digits out to such a variety of people but it's these guys that remind me of that promise and carry me through the tough times.
I don't pretend to be unaware that a fair amount of people on here look up to me and rely heavily on me. This knowledge is super humbling but know I am still human. I am (and will) be that rock solid support for people to lean on but I will also crave and have moments where I need to be the one doing the leaning. And that is ok. These moments of vulnerability strengthen the brotherhood and the accountability because it is a reminder that we all need each other and are in this fight together.
Final thought - a lot of people look to the HOF as the end goal. And while the HOF is a commendable milestone it is merely the beginning. If you are reading this with a couple hundred days under your belt and considering leaving KTC, I would strongly encourage you to reconsider. Posting roll every damn day, keeping your word and having that accountability network WORKS. If I had been off on my own away from KTC yesterday I don't know if I would have caved. But since I was still here and active, I have the privilege and opportunity to post a Day 310 today. And of that, I am incredibly proud.
#QUITLIFE
MNX,
I am one of those quitters who has relied on you and your support. Your always there when I need a little boost or support in a hairy, edge-of-the-cliff moment. Although we have not yet met in person, I consider you a friend and a quitter who has been instrumental in KTC brotherhood. Congrats on your 300 days! I will see you at 365, 400, and beyond!!!!
That is what ktc is all about but it want work if people don't let it. Great job
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So a mini reflection I wasn't planning on writing but wanted to share in the hopes that someone will find it helpful/inspiring.
Yesterday I was on day 309. And yesterday evening I was craving harder than I have since probably the mid 100's. I had posted yesterday morning so caving wasn't an option but man was that nic bitch trying every last trick in her hat. I texted a few guys and before I knew it I was getting tons of other texts from guys that went something to the extent of "Hey! *Insert BAQ name here* told me you were having a rough time. How can I support you?"
It was humbling and powerful and helpful all at the same time. The accountability/brotherhood network I have been creating since joining this site 310 days ago came through for me in a way that was perfectly overwhelming. I never doubt the support of my fellow brothers and sisters of quit; but seeing it come through in such a critical moment and in such a powerful way brought tears to my eyes and sent the nic bitch crying away with her tail between her legs.
If you are a new quitter reading this or maybe someone thinking about joining this site, KTC will work for you if you put forth the time and effort to use it as it is intended. I wanted to cave so hard yesterday. But I had posted roll yesterday morning and for those that know me on here, I will NEVER compromise the integrity of my word. But when moments like that sneak up, you NEED a support base that is 1000% percent solid. It seemed weird giving my digits out to such a variety of people but it's these guys that remind me of that promise and carry me through the tough times.
I don't pretend to be unaware that a fair amount of people on here look up to me and rely heavily on me. This knowledge is super humbling but know I am still human. I am (and will) be that rock solid support for people to lean on but I will also crave and have moments where I need to be the one doing the leaning. And that is ok. These moments of vulnerability strengthen the brotherhood and the accountability because it is a reminder that we all need each other and are in this fight together.
Final thought - a lot of people look to the HOF as the end goal. And while the HOF is a commendable milestone it is merely the beginning. If you are reading this with a couple hundred days under your belt and considering leaving KTC, I would strongly encourage you to reconsider. Posting roll every damn day, keeping your word and having that accountability network WORKS. If I had been off on my own away from KTC yesterday I don't know if I would have caved. But since I was still here and active, I have the privilege and opportunity to post a Day 310 today. And of that, I am incredibly proud.
#QUITLIFE
MNX,
I am one of those quitters who has relied on you and your support. Your always there when I need a little boost or support in a hairy, edge-of-the-cliff moment. Although we have not yet met in person, I consider you a friend and a quitter who has been instrumental in KTC brotherhood. Congrats on your 300 days! I will see you at 365, 400, and beyond!!!!
That is what ktc is all about but it want work if people don't let it. Great job
MNX,
Man, you where one of the first to reach out to me. It was you who unknowingly convinced me it was safe to exchange digits. Those digits saved my life. You and the HEFF-a-Nator have been a pilar of strength for me and I can't thank you enough.
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MNx, congrats on your 1 year quit. Great quit, thanks for paying it forward.
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MNx, congrats on your 1 year quit. Great quit, thanks for paying it forward.
Seems like only yesterday you and I were talking about you quitting and not waiting. Great job brother!!! Keep up the quit!!
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Congrats on 1 year MNx! Nice work. Keep on truckin!
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MNx, congrats on your 1 year quit. Great quit, thanks for paying it forward.
Seems like only yesterday you and I were talking about you quitting and not waiting. Great job brother!!! Keep up the quit!!
Congratulations on the trip around the sun! Badass
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MNx, congrats on your 1 year quit. Great quit, thanks for paying it forward.
Seems like only yesterday you and I were talking about you quitting and not waiting. Great job brother!!! Keep up the quit!!
Congratulations on the trip around the sun! Badass
Keep being a BAQ. Proud to quit with you everyday.
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MNx, congrats on your 1 year quit. Great quit, thanks for paying it forward.
Seems like only yesterday you and I were talking about you quitting and not waiting. Great job brother!!! Keep up the quit!!
Congratulations on the trip around the sun! Badass
Keep being a BAQ. Proud to quit with you everyday.
Thank you for spending the last year saving yourself and others each day.
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MNx, congrats on your 1 year quit. Great quit, thanks for paying it forward.
Seems like only yesterday you and I were talking about you quitting and not waiting. Great job brother!!! Keep up the quit!!
Congratulations on the trip around the sun! Badass
Keep being a BAQ. Proud to quit with you everyday.
Thank you for spending the last year saving yourself and others each day.
Hey everyone!! Thank you so much for the support and encouragement!! Richard - it does seem like yesterday you wrote in my intro something to the extent of "why wait until next week; start today!". My quit is a testament to this site and the process here at KTC. When I stop to think about it, I start to laugh at how simple it really is:
1.) Post early every single focking day. NO EXCEPTIONS.
2.) Keep your word for the next 24 hours.
3.) Exchange digits and use them daily!
4.) Let tomorrow take care of itself.
I am beyond blessed with the support from you all. Often times at the end of the day, I will go into August 16 and just look at the support post section and see the huge list of BAQ's quitting "with MNx". It makes me misty eyed to think how I have impacted these people (you all!) and how this accountability network has transformed (and most likely) saved my life.
Thank you all again for your support over the past year. I am proud to be quitting with each of you EVERY DAMN DAY!
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To the new quitter lurking around wondering what you are getting yourself into, take a few moments and keep reading.
Today marks my 500th day of freedom from a dead, poisonous plant. When I stop and think about it, I never imagined in my wildest dreams that I could live a life free from nicotine. Go read my HOF speech; I was to a point where I almost gave up, resolved to die a premature, tobacco related death. But then by the grace of God I found KTC and started to create a new life free from nicotine and dip.
I am an addict. I will be for life. Once I accepted this fact, I was able to realize I could never again have "just one". I developed a hatred for nicotine/tobacco and all the lies associated with dipping. It stole my freedom, my money, my health and injured my relationships. Never again would I embrace something that was literally killing me.
The last 500 days have not been a walk in the park. There are been family deaths, the birth of our first child, two softball seasons, a job change and countless other events. But it was all faced with a clear mind and without a cat turd in my lip. My brothers and sisters of quit here on KTC have been there for support and encouragement along the way. Some of the folks on here have become solid friends and I have yet to meet them face to face. But we have walked side by side, noses to the grindstone and come out victorious one day at a time. We share the struggles and rejoice in the victories. I am so proud of how far I have come but a majority of the credit must go to the brotherhood of KTC and the power of accountability.
500 days quit = 500 daily promises not to use nicotine. Post every damn day and let tomorrow take care of itself. Share digits and help encourage others! Trust me, your quit will be strengthened by helping and supporting fellow quitters.
Thank you to everyone who has supported me in this journey especially my fellow August 2016 Trauma-tizers and those that post support in our group daily! I am proud to be fighting this battle alongside of you and even more proud to be quit with you all today!! QLAMF ODAAT!!
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To the new quitter lurking around wondering what you are getting yourself into, take a few moments and keep reading.
Today marks my 500th day of freedom from a dead, poisonous plant. When I stop and think about it, I never imagined in my wildest dreams that I could live a life free from nicotine. Go read my HOF speech; I was to a point where I almost gave up, resolved to die a premature, tobacco related death. But then by the grace of God I found KTC and started to create a new life free from nicotine and dip.
I am an addict. I will be for life. Once I accepted this fact, I was able to realize I could never again have "just one". I developed a hatred for nicotine/tobacco and all the lies associated with dipping. It stole my freedom, my money, my health and injured my relationships. Never again would I embrace something that was literally killing me.
The last 500 days have not been a walk in the park. There are been family deaths, the birth of our first child, two softball seasons, a job change and countless other events. But it was all faced with a clear mind and without a cat turd in my lip. My brothers and sisters of quit here on KTC have been there for support and encouragement along the way. Some of the folks on here have become solid friends and I have yet to meet them face to face. But we have walked side by side, noses to the grindstone and come out victorious one day at a time. We share the struggles and rejoice in the victories. I am so proud of how far I have come but a majority of the credit must go to the brotherhood of KTC and the power of accountability.
500 days quit = 500 daily promises not to use nicotine. Post every damn day and let tomorrow take care of itself. Share digits and help encourage others! Trust me, your quit will be strengthened by helping and supporting fellow quitters.
Thank you to everyone who has supported me in this journey especially my fellow August 2016 Trauma-tizers and those that post support in our group daily! I am proud to be fighting this battle alongside of you and even more proud to be quit with you all today!! QLAMF ODAAT!!
Well said, see you tomorrow!
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To the new quitter lurking around wondering what you are getting yourself into, take a few moments and keep reading.
Today marks my 500th day of freedom from a dead, poisonous plant. When I stop and think about it, I never imagined in my wildest dreams that I could live a life free from nicotine. Go read my HOF speech; I was to a point where I almost gave up, resolved to die a premature, tobacco related death. But then by the grace of God I found KTC and started to create a new life free from nicotine and dip.
I am an addict. I will be for life. Once I accepted this fact, I was able to realize I could never again have "just one". I developed a hatred for nicotine/tobacco and all the lies associated with dipping. It stole my freedom, my money, my health and injured my relationships. Never again would I embrace something that was literally killing me.
The last 500 days have not been a walk in the park. There are been family deaths, the birth of our first child, two softball seasons, a job change and countless other events. But it was all faced with a clear mind and without a cat turd in my lip. My brothers and sisters of quit here on KTC have been there for support and encouragement along the way. Some of the folks on here have become solid friends and I have yet to meet them face to face. But we have walked side by side, noses to the grindstone and come out victorious one day at a time. We share the struggles and rejoice in the victories. I am so proud of how far I have come but a majority of the credit must go to the brotherhood of KTC and the power of accountability.
500 days quit = 500 daily promises not to use nicotine. Post every damn day and let tomorrow take care of itself. Share digits and help encourage others! Trust me, your quit will be strengthened by helping and supporting fellow quitters.
Thank you to everyone who has supported me in this journey especially my fellow August 2016 Trauma-tizers and those that post support in our group daily! I am proud to be fighting this battle alongside of you and even more proud to be quit with you all today!! QLAMF ODAAT!!
Well said, see you tomorrow!
Congrats on your half dangle MnX! Proud to have been there step by step with you!
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To the new quitter lurking around wondering what you are getting yourself into, take a few moments and keep reading.
Today marks my 500th day of freedom from a dead, poisonous plant. When I stop and think about it, I never imagined in my wildest dreams that I could live a life free from nicotine. Go read my HOF speech; I was to a point where I almost gave up, resolved to die a premature, tobacco related death. But then by the grace of God I found KTC and started to create a new life free from nicotine and dip.
I am an addict. I will be for life. Once I accepted this fact, I was able to realize I could never again have "just one". I developed a hatred for nicotine/tobacco and all the lies associated with dipping. It stole my freedom, my money, my health and injured my relationships. Never again would I embrace something that was literally killing me.
The last 500 days have not been a walk in the park. There are been family deaths, the birth of our first child, two softball seasons, a job change and countless other events. But it was all faced with a clear mind and without a cat turd in my lip. My brothers and sisters of quit here on KTC have been there for support and encouragement along the way. Some of the folks on here have become solid friends and I have yet to meet them face to face. But we have walked side by side, noses to the grindstone and come out victorious one day at a time. We share the struggles and rejoice in the victories. I am so proud of how far I have come but a majority of the credit must go to the brotherhood of KTC and the power of accountability.
500 days quit = 500 daily promises not to use nicotine. Post every damn day and let tomorrow take care of itself. Share digits and help encourage others! Trust me, your quit will be strengthened by helping and supporting fellow quitters.
Thank you to everyone who has supported me in this journey especially my fellow August 2016 Trauma-tizers and those that post support in our group daily! I am proud to be fighting this battle alongside of you and even more proud to be quit with you all today!! QLAMF ODAAT!!
Well said, see you tomorrow!
Congrats on your half dangle MnX! Proud to have been there step by step with you!
Congrats on 500 days man!
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To the new quitter lurking around wondering what you are getting yourself into, take a few moments and keep reading.
Today marks my 500th day of freedom from a dead, poisonous plant. When I stop and think about it, I never imagined in my wildest dreams that I could live a life free from nicotine. Go read my HOF speech; I was to a point where I almost gave up, resolved to die a premature, tobacco related death. But then by the grace of God I found KTC and started to create a new life free from nicotine and dip.
I am an addict. I will be for life. Once I accepted this fact, I was able to realize I could never again have "just one". I developed a hatred for nicotine/tobacco and all the lies associated with dipping. It stole my freedom, my money, my health and injured my relationships. Never again would I embrace something that was literally killing me.
The last 500 days have not been a walk in the park. There are been family deaths, the birth of our first child, two softball seasons, a job change and countless other events. But it was all faced with a clear mind and without a cat turd in my lip. My brothers and sisters of quit here on KTC have been there for support and encouragement along the way. Some of the folks on here have become solid friends and I have yet to meet them face to face. But we have walked side by side, noses to the grindstone and come out victorious one day at a time. We share the struggles and rejoice in the victories. I am so proud of how far I have come but a majority of the credit must go to the brotherhood of KTC and the power of accountability.
500 days quit = 500 daily promises not to use nicotine. Post every damn day and let tomorrow take care of itself. Share digits and help encourage others! Trust me, your quit will be strengthened by helping and supporting fellow quitters.
Thank you to everyone who has supported me in this journey especially my fellow August 2016 Trauma-tizers and those that post support in our group daily! I am proud to be fighting this battle alongside of you and even more proud to be quit with you all today!! QLAMF ODAAT!!
Well said, see you tomorrow!
Congrats on your half dangle MnX! Proud to have been there step by step with you!
Congrats on 500 days man!
Mnx, congrats on your 500 days quit!
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The weather has been shitty as hell here in Minnesota this month - cloudly, dark and just downright gloomy 95% of the time. Having been born and raised here, I never remember it bothering me before. But this year, I find myself in the mid-floor slump between 500 and 600 without having seen the sun in a couple weeks and I needed a little motivation.
So I read through my entire intro here. It's incredible the transformation that has occurred since I took the plunge 572 days ago. I committed from Day 1 but didn't believe I could do it. But now I kick nicotine's ass every single day and enjoy doing it. I revel in the freedom of living each day without tobacco. And I truly find joy in helping others achieve the freedom they did not think was possible either.
So just a random post to say 'thank you' to KTC and all you folks who support me in this journey. I am proud to be quit with you all today! 'Cheers'
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Congrats to you buddy on the 6th Floor. You just keep galvanizing that steel quit bro! IQWYT!
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Congrats to you buddy on the 6th Floor. You just keep galvanizing that steel quit bro! IQWYT!
600!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Congratulations MR. 6-HUNDO!!!!!
'party2' 'party2' 'party2'
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Congrats to you buddy on the 6th Floor. You just keep galvanizing that steel quit bro! IQWYT!
600!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Congratulations MR. 6-HUNDO!!!!!
'party2' 'party2' 'party2'
Congratulations to a badass quitter! 6th floor is awesome. Thanks for letting me be a part of your journey
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Congrats to you buddy on the 6th Floor. You just keep galvanizing that steel quit bro! IQWYT!
600!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Congratulations MR. 6-HUNDO!!!!!
'party2' 'party2' 'party2'
Congratulations to a badass quitter! 6th floor is awesome. Thanks for letting me be a part of your journey
MN, you are a fockin' rock.
Pity you live on a glacier.
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Congrats to you buddy on the 6th Floor. You just keep galvanizing that steel quit bro! IQWYT!
600!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Congratulations MR. 6-HUNDO!!!!!
'party2' 'party2' 'party2'
Congratulations to a badass quitter! 6th floor is awesome. Thanks for letting me be a part of your journey
MN, you are a fockin' rock.
Pity you live on a glacier.
Congrats on your 600 days quit Mnx!!
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Congrats to you buddy on the 6th Floor. You just keep galvanizing that steel quit bro! IQWYT!
600!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Congratulations MR. 6-HUNDO!!!!!
'party2' 'party2' 'party2'
Congratulations to a badass quitter! 6th floor is awesome. Thanks for letting me be a part of your journey
MN, you are a fockin' rock.
Pity you live on a glacier.
Congrats on your 600 days quit Mnx!!
Thank you everyone!!! My success has hinged on the unwavering support of so many BAQÂ’s, for which I will be forever grateful. If you are a new quitter reading this, KTC works.
ODAAT!!
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congrats on teaching the 7th floor MNx!
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congrats on teaching the 7th floor MNx!
'worship'
Congrats on 7 MNx!!!
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congrats on teaching the 7th floor MNx!
'worship'
Congrats on 7 MNx!!!
Thank you ladies!!! It's an honor to be quit with you TODAY!
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2 YEARS!!!
Can you believe it?! Congratulations - keep crushing it, MNx!!!
'party2'
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2 YEARS!!!
Can you believe it?! Congratulations - keep crushing it, MNx!!!
'party2'
Hell yeah!!! Way to go on the 2 years brother!
'40'
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2 YEARS!!!
Can you believe it?! Congratulations - keep crushing it, MNx!!!
'party2'
Hell yeah!!! Way to go on the 2 years brother!
'40'
Happy 2 year quit Mnx! (But happy quitversary tomorrow ?)
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Congrats brother, thank you for showing the way.
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Congrats brother, thank you for showing the way.
It's an honor brother. Thank you for your support as well!
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2 YEARS!!!
Can you believe it?! Congratulations - keep crushing it, MNx!!!
'party2'
Hell yeah!!! Way to go on the 2 years brother!
'40'
Happy 2 year quit Mnx! (But happy quitversary tomorrow ?)
Thanks everyone! I'm truly humbled by the continued outpouring of support.
Cheers to the next trip around the sun!
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Congrats on 2 years!! That's some serious quittin!
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Congrats on 2 years!! That's some serious quittin!
Congtrats awesome quitter!
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Congrats on 2 years!! That's some serious quittin!
Congtrats awesome quitter!
2 YEARS ago, you made a fricken great decision. Well done and enjoy the rewards you may reap!
WTG brother! 'oh yeah'
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Congrats on 2 years!! That's some serious quittin!
Congtrats awesome quitter!
2 YEARS ago, you made a fricken great decision. Well done and enjoy the rewards you may reap!
WTG brother! 'oh yeah'
Wow! 2 years, now that my friend is badass! Congratulations
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I just wanted to take a moment to log some milestones in my intro here. Just last week I hit 3 YEARS nicotine free and today marks my 11th floor (1,100 days).
When I joined this site 3 years ago, I had never been able to stop on my own for more than 21 days. I thought the nic bitch was too big of a monkey on my back that I would never be able to overcome. But through the accountability of this site and the method here of focusing 24 hours at a time, no matter how big that monkey on my back chooses to be that day, I can carry him 24 hours at a time. Some days I barely notice him; other days I reach the end of the day gasping for air, exhausted. But I win 24 hours at a time, bound by my word that I give to my quit brothers and sisters each and every morning. This method has worked for 1,100 days and I have zero intention of fixing what ain't broke.
If you are reading this as a someone contemplating whether or not to quit, do it. Bury all the fear of the unknown and let us help you. I feared success when I joined here more than failure. What if I did succeed day to day? What would my life be like without dip? Will I be able to function? How will I mow the lawn or play softball or play Xbox or take a shit without a lip full of dip? Well in fact, it is all more enjoyable than you remember and so we want to help you regain that lost freedom.
So I encourage you to take the plunge and never look back. You will never regret it. Proud to be quit with you all today!
MN/1,100
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I just wanted to take a moment to log some milestones in my intro here. Just last week I hit 3 YEARS nicotine free and today marks my 11th floor (1,100 days).
When I joined this site 3 years ago, I had never been able to stop on my own for more than 21 days. I thought the nic bitch was too big of a monkey on my back that I would never be able to overcome. But through the accountability of this site and the method here of focusing 24 hours at a time, no matter how big that monkey on my back chooses to be that day, I can carry him 24 hours at a time. Some days I barely notice him; other days I reach the end of the day gasping for air, exhausted. But I win 24 hours at a time, bound by my word that I give to my quit brothers and sisters each and every morning. This method has worked for 1,100 days and I have zero intention of fixing what ain't broke.
If you are reading this as a someone contemplating whether or not to quit, do it. Bury all the fear of the unknown and let us help you. I feared success when I joined here more than failure. What if I did succeed day to day? What would my life be like without dip? Will I be able to function? How will I mow the lawn or play softball or play Xbox or take a shit without a lip full of dip? Well in fact, it is all more enjoyable than you remember and so we want to help you regain that lost freedom.
So I encourage you to take the plunge and never look back. You will never regret it. Proud to be quit with you all today!
MN/1,100
Congratulations on 11th Floor MN
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I just wanted to take a moment to log some milestones in my intro here. Just last week I hit 3 YEARS nicotine free and today marks my 11th floor (1,100 days).
When I joined this site 3 years ago, I had never been able to stop on my own for more than 21 days. I thought the nic bitch was too big of a monkey on my back that I would never be able to overcome. But through the accountability of this site and the method here of focusing 24 hours at a time, no matter how big that monkey on my back chooses to be that day, I can carry him 24 hours at a time. Some days I barely notice him; other days I reach the end of the day gasping for air, exhausted. But I win 24 hours at a time, bound by my word that I give to my quit brothers and sisters each and every morning. This method has worked for 1,100 days and I have zero intention of fixing what ain't broke.
If you are reading this as a someone contemplating whether or not to quit, do it. Bury all the fear of the unknown and let us help you. I feared success when I joined here more than failure. What if I did succeed day to day? What would my life be like without dip? Will I be able to function? How will I mow the lawn or play softball or play Xbox or take a shit without a lip full of dip? Well in fact, it is all more enjoyable than you remember and so we want to help you regain that lost freedom.
So I encourage you to take the plunge and never look back. You will never regret it. Proud to be quit with you all today!
MN/1,100
Congratulations on 11th Floor MN
Congrats on both 3 years AND 11 Floors! Proud AF to be quit with you!
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I just wanted to take a moment to log some milestones in my intro here. Just last week I hit 3 YEARS nicotine free and today marks my 11th floor (1,100 days).
When I joined this site 3 years ago, I had never been able to stop on my own for more than 21 days. I thought the nic bitch was too big of a monkey on my back that I would never be able to overcome. But through the accountability of this site and the method here of focusing 24 hours at a time, no matter how big that monkey on my back chooses to be that day, I can carry him 24 hours at a time. Some days I barely notice him; other days I reach the end of the day gasping for air, exhausted. But I win 24 hours at a time, bound by my word that I give to my quit brothers and sisters each and every morning. This method has worked for 1,100 days and I have zero intention of fixing what ain't broke.
If you are reading this as a someone contemplating whether or not to quit, do it. Bury all the fear of the unknown and let us help you. I feared success when I joined here more than failure. What if I did succeed day to day? What would my life be like without dip? Will I be able to function? How will I mow the lawn or play softball or play Xbox or take a shit without a lip full of dip? Well in fact, it is all more enjoyable than you remember and so we want to help you regain that lost freedom.
So I encourage you to take the plunge and never look back. You will never regret it. Proud to be quit with you all today!
MN/1,100
Congratulations on 11th Floor MN
Congrats on both 3 years AND 11 Floors! Proud AF to be quit with you!
Can't thank you enough for sticking around and paying it forward!
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I just wanted to take a moment to log some milestones in my intro here. Just last week I hit 3 YEARS nicotine free and today marks my 11th floor (1,100 days).
When I joined this site 3 years ago, I had never been able to stop on my own for more than 21 days. I thought the nic bitch was too big of a monkey on my back that I would never be able to overcome. But through the accountability of this site and the method here of focusing 24 hours at a time, no matter how big that monkey on my back chooses to be that day, I can carry him 24 hours at a time. Some days I barely notice him; other days I reach the end of the day gasping for air, exhausted. But I win 24 hours at a time, bound by my word that I give to my quit brothers and sisters each and every morning. This method has worked for 1,100 days and I have zero intention of fixing what ain't broke.
If you are reading this as a someone contemplating whether or not to quit, do it. Bury all the fear of the unknown and let us help you. I feared success when I joined here more than failure. What if I did succeed day to day? What would my life be like without dip? Will I be able to function? How will I mow the lawn or play softball or play Xbox or take a shit without a lip full of dip? Well in fact, it is all more enjoyable than you remember and so we want to help you regain that lost freedom.
So I encourage you to take the plunge and never look back. You will never regret it. Proud to be quit with you all today!
MN/1,100
Congratulations on 11th Floor MN
Congrats on both 3 years AND 11 Floors! Proud AF to be quit with you!
Can't thank you enough for sticking around and paying it forward!
The title of this intro is just classic... like so many of us, you are winning at something that we used to view as impossible. Congratulations on another couple of huge milestones, brother. You are as rock solid as quit gets, and it is an honor to quit with a winner like you.
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I just wanted to take a moment to log some milestones in my intro here. Just last week I hit 3 YEARS nicotine free and today marks my 11th floor (1,100 days).
When I joined this site 3 years ago, I had never been able to stop on my own for more than 21 days. I thought the nic bitch was too big of a monkey on my back that I would never be able to overcome. But through the accountability of this site and the method here of focusing 24 hours at a time, no matter how big that monkey on my back chooses to be that day, I can carry him 24 hours at a time. Some days I barely notice him; other days I reach the end of the day gasping for air, exhausted. But I win 24 hours at a time, bound by my word that I give to my quit brothers and sisters each and every morning. This method has worked for 1,100 days and I have zero intention of fixing what ain't broke.
If you are reading this as a someone contemplating whether or not to quit, do it. Bury all the fear of the unknown and let us help you. I feared success when I joined here more than failure. What if I did succeed day to day? What would my life be like without dip? Will I be able to function? How will I mow the lawn or play softball or play Xbox or take a shit without a lip full of dip? Well in fact, it is all more enjoyable than you remember and so we want to help you regain that lost freedom.
So I encourage you to take the plunge and never look back. You will never regret it. Proud to be quit with you all today!
MN/1,100
Congratulations on 11th Floor MN
Congrats on both 3 years AND 11 Floors! Proud AF to be quit with you!
Can't thank you enough for sticking around and paying it forward!
The title of this intro is just classic... like so many of us, you are winning at something that we used to view as impossible. Congratulations on another couple of huge milestones, brother. You are as rock solid as quit gets, and it is an honor to quit with a winner like you.
This is a vortex of awesome Quittage! Proud to be quit with you every day, MNx!! Congrats on crushing all of these outstanding milestones and thanks for paying it forward like you do!
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CONGRATS ON A NEW FLOOR, MNx!!!!! 'party'
1200 !!!
'party2' 'party2' 'party2'
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*flicks on the light*
Holy fuck it's dusty in here. This intro hasn't seen any love in waaaayyyy too long.
Having crossed the half-decade threshold yesterday, I decided it was probably time to dig this tome out of the archives to share some thoughts and reflect on the past 5 years.
Some days, it doesn't feel that long ago I was smuggling cans using secret internal pockets in my work backpack. Times when I would be packing two pouches from the time I left for work until the moment I drove into the driveway. See at home it was more difficult - I was a ninja dipper and kept everything secret from my wife. The moment she went to bed, I'd be back to running dual pouches until I crashed myself, staying up way too late to nurture the love affair with the other woman in my life - the nic bitch.
I don't know why I kept her around. All she did was steal my money, my health and rob me of time I should have been spending with my wife. But thanks to KTC, that love affair ended abruptly on 4/25/16.
At first I didn't know if KTC was for me. I knew I was an addict but I was still blinded by the lie that I enjoyed doing something that was killing me. With the hardcore atmosphere around here, I actually wasn't scared about failing but rather, I was terrified of success. If I was quit, how would I take a shit? How would I mow the lawn? How would I drive anywhere again? How would I play softball or do any other of the millions things I had associated with a pouch or two squeezed between my gums and cheek?
But I jumped in and trusted the process. I knew with anything in life, it was going to be a learning process that would need to be developed. I started to realize I would have to learn to hate nicotine and the damage it did to my body and within my life. Each day I posted roll leaning on my brothers and sisters for support. I knew having my name on roll gave them motivation and their names next to mine solidified the brotherhood that is necessary in this daily battle.
In the 5 years I have been here, I have never missed roll once. Yeah, I'm bragging but I'm also going to make a point for any of the guests lurking who may read this. Roll is our promise not to use nicotine in ANY form today. As (perhaps) the most foundational aspect of KTC, I embraced this aspect and never let go. By making my promise early, every damn day, it takes nicotine completely off the table. Bound by my word which I am not willing to ever break, caving goes from an improbably to an impossibility.
Post roll, honor your word. It isn't always easy but it truly is that simple.
This is already way longer than I wanted so let me just say that without KTC my life would still be completely off the rails. This site has brought people and methods into my life that have been instrumental in re-shaping me as a person. I've been able to root out more demons than just nicotine with the most badass people at my side, many of which I'm honored to call my friends. My children have never known their dad as a slave to nicotine and that is a beautiful thing. While I continue to quit for myself, they are certainly a motivating factor.
If you are on the fence about quitting, my advice remains the same - jump in and trust the process. You don't need to be 100% ready to quit. I wasn't. But KTC can help reform your mindset and lay the foundation for freedom that is unparalleled to the slavery of a dead, poisonous plant in a plastic can.
Thank you KTC. Thank you to all those who have helped keep me on the straight and narrow. Looking forward to the next 5 years but until then, I'll be over in Aug 16 chugging along QLAMF ODAAT.
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~25 guests surfing around the site this morning.
What are you waiting for?!? It's easy to quit 'tomorrow'. We've all been there. Take the leap of faith and dive in. Make an account and head over to the September 2021 Group (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=17074.new#lastPost) and post your Day 1.
We don't quit forever here. We quit for TODAY. We focus on the present and quit tomorrow when it comes.
Stop being a slave to a nicotine. Take your life back. You won't regret it!
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~25 guests surfing around the site this morning.
What are you waiting for?!? It's easy to quit 'tomorrow'. We've all been there. Take the leap of faith and dive in. Make an account and head over to the September 2021 Group (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=17074.new#lastPost) and post your Day 1.
We don't quit forever here. We quit for TODAY. We focus on the present and quit tomorrow when it comes.
Stop being a slave to a nicotine. Take your life back. You won't regret it!
I read your post subject title and had to chuckle to myself. The MNx 5 years hence would have been all over that "hope" to quit nonsense.
Hey guest reader...you hope for things you don't have control over. You have 100% control over quitting. This is Yoda wisdom...Do. Or do not. There is no try.
Proud to quit with you and the boys of summer over there in Aug2016 every single day, MNx!
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Always important to quit ODAAT but I've got my sights set now on that double dangle!! ,,
Thanks to everyone who has supported me the past 1,900 days. And to any guest reading this and thinking this is unattainable for you - that was me. I was terrified at the thought of quitting. I was paralyzed by the impossible task of quitting "forever". But here we quit for 24 hours at a time which is completely manageable. Come join us, take your life back and starting enjoying the freedom that comes with being QUIT today!!
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1-9-0-0
Always important to quit ODAAT but I've got my sights set now on that double dangle!! ,,
Thanks to everyone who has supported me the past 1,900 days. And to any guest reading this and thinking this is unattainable for you - that was me. I was terrified at the thought of quitting. I was paralyzed by the impossible task of quitting "forever". But here we quit for 24 hours at a time which is completely manageable. Come join us, take your life back and starting enjoying the freedom that comes with being QUIT today!!
Congrats brother!! Great work!
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Always important to quit ODAAT but I've got my sights set now on that double dangle!! ,,
Thanks to everyone who has supported me the past 1,900 days. And to any guest reading this and thinking this is unattainable for you - that was me. I was terrified at the thought of quitting. I was paralyzed by the impossible task of quitting "forever". But here we quit for 24 hours at a time which is completely manageable. Come join us, take your life back and starting enjoying the freedom that comes with being QUIT today!!
Congrats brother!! Great work!
fine work good fellow!
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Craving hard lately after 1,957 days. Craves in the sense of romanticizing dip and not so much wanting to go out and buy a can. But damn, the nic bitch will wait as long as she needs to catch us in our weaker moments.
I don't say this to discourage any new or potentially new quitters. I say this to hopefully illustrate that we are never cured. We are addicts and must enter the battle each and every day. I'm quit like fuck today and will never break my word.
Each one of us is a few dollars and one bad decision away from a Day 1. If you need to expand your accountability network, hit me up. Let's crush the nic bitch ODAAT.
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Craving hard lately after 1,957 days. Craves in the sense of romanticizing dip and not so much wanting to go out and buy a can. But damn, the nic bitch will wait as long as she needs to catch us in our weaker moments.
I don't say this to discourage any new or potentially new quitters. I say this to hopefully illustrate that we are never cured. We are addicts and must enter the battle each and every day. I'm quit like fuck today and will never break my word.
Each one of us is a few dollars and one bad decision away from a Day 1. If you need to expand your accountability network, hit me up. Let's crush the nic bitch ODAAT.
Right there with ya my friend. 547 days and not a day goes by that I don’t get a crave. Usually a trigger from the past like going to my van for parts at work as I always keep my can in the van. It has been easier every day to walk away from the crave as the vets like you have said. Stay strong brother and thanks for all you have done for KTC, others and myself. PTBQWYT!!!!!
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2,700 days of making a promise and keeping my word; 2,700 days of freedom.
This place/method works folks. If you find yourself reading this and you are on the fence, chuck whatever you have left with a vehement rage and commit to taking your life back. You are stronger than a dead, poisonous plant in a plastic can.
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2,700 days of making a promise and keeping my word; 2,700 days of freedom.
This place/method works folks. If you find yourself reading this and you are on the fence, chuck whatever you have left with a vehement rage and commit to taking your life back. You are stronger than a dead, poisonous plant in a plastic can.
@MN_Engineer (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=21) speaks the truth. 1808 days with you.