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Title: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on October 02, 2019, 09:45:36 PM
I quit Monday night, and have been chewing for 32 years since I first went into the Army.  This is gonna suck but I am tired of chewing.  Using baccoff right now to help with cravings and habit. 
Title: Re: D
Post by: Judaculla on October 03, 2019, 12:43:23 AM
I quit Monday night, and have been chewing for 32 years since I first went into the Army.  This is gonna suck but I am tired of chewing.  Using baccoff right now to help with cravings and habit.

Hey @jsjohnson (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15659) you have made a wise choice to join KTC as there are many veterans here in different stages of quit with good hearts that want to hold you accountable and help you quit, forever breaking the chains of nic addiction. This is not going to be easy, but I promise it gets better the longer you stay quit. That’s where we come in... always feel open to ask us any questions from medical to hobbies, if you’ve had a terrible quit day, grumpy wanting a dip, and  pissed off at the world then we bring it us, we’ll fight with you and let you blow off some steam before doing it at your family, etc. we’re home away from home, but with only a few rules 1) role is sacred and you never lie on role or mess with someone else’s role post.. 2) no nic or nic replacement products may be used 3) helping others and giving back to the site helps to strengthen everyone’s quit. The daily  process is pretty simple, just post role in your home group daily by—- Wake Up Piss and Post (WUPP) as soon as possible Every Damn Day (EDD).your group is January, link is below, and we have saved you a spot. Please PM me for my digits if you have any questions or need help posting. 78 QWY Judaculla

https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=15899.0
 
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on October 03, 2019, 06:45:51 PM
Ok on Day 3...eating a ton of seeds.  I am not feeling very bad...I guess I am just tired of feeling like crap because of Nicotine.  I also am a little confused on how to do things here....where to post and such. 
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: chris2alaska on October 03, 2019, 06:59:34 PM
Ok on Day 3...eating a ton of seeds.  I am not feeling very bad...I guess I am just tired of feeling like crap because of Nicotine.  I also am a little confused on how to do things here....where to post and such.

Hey @jsjohnson (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15659) ,

You can find your group HERE (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=15899.570) <---- Just click the link.

Once you are in the January quit group, go to the 1st page and the top post.  It should be the roll post.  IF not, just scroll down a little until you find it.  Once you find it, hit "Quote" in the top right and scroll down in the text box until you see where someone placed a place marker for you.  Type your screen name, day count and promise there and then hit "Post" in the bottom right.

The process is simple:

1. Wake Up, Piss, Post your promise (WUPP)
2. Keep your word for the next 24 hours
3. Repeat Every Damn Day (EDD)

Start exchanging phone numbers with other quitters through private message.  Those phone numbers are your lifeline for when it gets bad.  Use those numbers and reach out for help.  There is no embarrassment in asking for help when you need it.  Those numbers also are a start on your web of accountability and brotherhood.  Remember, accountability is a two-way street so if you receive digits, give digits.  If you would like mine, please send me a PM and I would be happy to oblige.

You can do this.  It will be hard for a while until it is not anymore.  The freedom is well worth the effort to get you there.  Use your intro here to document your quit process.  You can look back on it later and it will help you.  It will also help anyone else reading it.

Proud to quit with you today,

chris2alaska 624 and QLF (Quit Like Fuck)
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on October 03, 2019, 07:43:29 PM
Thanks a ton for the help Chris, I sure appreciate it bud. 
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Keith0617 on October 03, 2019, 08:23:27 PM
Thanks a ton for the help Chris, I sure appreciate it bud.

Check you messages as fellow quitters are offering support. It is common as Chris said to exchange digits but only do through personal messages “pm”. You can do this. It sucks fow a while but then it doesn’t.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on October 04, 2019, 12:01:00 PM
got up pissed...telling myself not today and did my roll...still tired and want to go back to bed lol.  Talked to Keith last night and feel encouraged.  I still have not been hit by a big crave....I surround my self with fake dip and seeds...so far that has been the trick.  Still a bit confused on the roll...hope I did it right.  I think my wife is a little shocked i have made it 4 days....I keep telling her I am done...I dont want to be a slave anymore. 
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: campbellmi13 on October 04, 2019, 12:14:36 PM
got up pissed...telling myself not today and did my roll...still tired and want to go back to bed lol.  Talked to Keith last night and feel encouraged.  I still have not been hit by a big crave....I surround my self with fake dip and seeds...so far that has been the trick.  Still a bit confused on the roll...hope I did it right.  I think my wife is a little shocked i have made it 4 days....I keep telling her I am done...I dont want to be a slave anymore.
Congrats on staying quit! The first couple of weeks suck big time. Remember these days for those times in the future that the nic bitch whispers in your ear trying to get you to cave. You do not want to have to go through this again.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on October 05, 2019, 11:18:06 AM
day 5...still going well...getting a little scared because no big craves have hit me.  Again maybe my desire to just be done with this shit is higher than the tobacco talking to me.  I want to throw a  shout out to chris, keith, kuda and all the others who have sent support via messages or texts.  Ill add more later but need to go make the wife some breakfast.  peace out.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: KD2 on October 05, 2019, 03:03:53 PM
day 5...still going well...getting a little scared because no big craves have hit me.  Again maybe my desire to just be done with this shit is higher than the tobacco talking to me.  I want to throw a  shout out to chris, keith, kuda and all the others who have sent support via messages or texts.  Ill add more later but need to go make the wife some breakfast.  peace out.

It’s like a anti nicotine Adrenalin that kicks in...it’s like a mindset that lets it out, a want, a hunger, roar of life that takes over. In my 36 days so far that intensity has waxed and waned but the fire continues to be lit to be quit with all the BAQ in here no matter what ODAAT. Proud to be quit with you.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on October 05, 2019, 05:21:17 PM
I went to the corner store today.  Yep the same one I have been going to for years for buying snuff.  I got a weird ass look from the clerk when I walked up to the counter with 3 bags of Old bay seasoning seeds.  He was automatically getting ready to ring up a roll of Grizzly when I told him no, just the seeds.  He said no Grizzly, and I replied not today...I quit. 
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on October 06, 2019, 12:02:51 PM
Still hanging in there.  I think I had a few urges yesterday while watching football, but just threw in some fake stuff and moved on.  I keep telling myself in my head why do I think I need nicotine....I dont...I think the habit part is worse for me....and that I treat with seeds and fake stuff.  I have been reading alot in forums in the past couple of days and info on stayquit.com.  Everyday for me I go to Todd Garcia's post and read and re-read to keep me motivated.  I am still a little spooked I havnt been hit with a big urge...but ODAAT.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Dawgs on October 06, 2019, 01:38:13 PM
Still hanging in there.  I think I had a few urges yesterday while watching football, but just threw in some fake stuff and moved on.  I keep telling myself in my head why do I think I need nicotine....I dont...I think the habit part is worse for me....and that I treat with seeds and fake stuff.  I have been reading alot in forums in the past couple of days and info on stayquit.com.  Everyday for me I go to Todd Garcia's post and read and re-read to keep me motivated.  I am still a little spooked I havnt been hit with a big urge...but ODAAT.
Remember..you are learning to live all over again now. Learning to live without this crap that we used for EVERYTHING. Each day, you retrain your brain just a little bit more. Hang in there. You may never get hit with a huge urge, but most likely, you will and it will be later when you think you have everything under control. Those are the most scary ones. Never let your guard down. Not for one second.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on October 06, 2019, 06:57:10 PM
Ok so kinda rough afternoon...not really craving, but i keep getting the sweats...and I am just sitting in my chair watching football.  Did anyone have reactions like this...6 days out or further.  I think I am gonna go back and read what to expect again.  No I am not giving in...I am quit...bout to put in a handfull of seeds.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Judaculla on October 06, 2019, 07:28:43 PM
Ok so kinda rough afternoon...not really craving, but i keep getting the sweats...and I am just sitting in my chair watching football.  Did anyone have reactions like this...6 days out or further.  I think I am gonna go back and read what to expect again.  No I am not giving in...I am quit...bout to put in a handfull of seeds.

Make sure you’re drinking plenty of water and getting exercise.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Keith0617 on October 06, 2019, 08:18:46 PM
Ok so kinda rough afternoon...not really craving, but i keep getting the sweats...and I am just sitting in my chair watching football.  Did anyone have reactions like this...6 days out or further.  I think I am gonna go back and read what to expect again.  No I am not giving in...I am quit...bout to put in a handfull of seeds.
Consider posting this stuff in jan20 so everyone could benefit. Instead of hitting quote just hit reply. @jsjohnson (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15659)
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: AppleJack on October 07, 2019, 09:27:13 AM
Ok so kinda rough afternoon...not really craving, but i keep getting the sweats...and I am just sitting in my chair watching football.  Did anyone have reactions like this...6 days out or further.  I think I am gonna go back and read what to expect again.  No I am not giving in...I am quit...bout to put in a handfull of seeds.
Consider posting this stuff in jan20 so everyone could benefit. Instead of hitting quote just hit reply. @jsjohnson (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15659)
Everyone benefits here too... keep posting in intros as well.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on October 07, 2019, 12:47:03 PM
Day 7....yesterday afternoon kinda sucked...texted some of my quiters for support and they came in strong.  My body is doing some weird shit with no nic.  I mean my armpits are itchy as hell.  A little bit about me.  I turned 50 last month, and have been dipping since 17 years old....so 33 years I have been chewing tobacco.   I quit because I was just tired of it...tired of waking up thinking about it...just tired of it.  I reasoned with myself...why couldnt I just suck on mint leafs instead of the shit that contains nic.  Anyhow I figure my body is gonna have some weird reactions after 7 days of no nic when it had been use to it for 33 years.  Hell even my daughter was worried for me to quit...thinking my heart might stop lol.  That tells you how ingrained it was in my life. 
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: chris2alaska on October 07, 2019, 12:55:41 PM
Day 7....yesterday afternoon kinda sucked...texted some of my quiters for support and they came in strong.  My body is doing some weird shit with no nic.  I mean my armpits are itchy as hell.  A little bit about me.  I turned 50 last month, and have been dipping since 17 years old....so 33 years I have been chewing tobacco.   I quit because I was just tired of it...tired of waking up thinking about it...just tired of it.  I reasoned with myself...why couldnt I just suck on mint leafs instead of the shit that contains nic.  Anyhow I figure my body is gonna have some weird reactions after 7 days of no nic when it had been use to it for 33 years.  Hell even my daughter was worried for me to quit...thinking my heart might stop lol.  That tells you how ingrained it was in my life.

Awesome job reaching out JsJ,

That is exactly why we exchange digits with each other.  Your body and your brain are going through and will continue to go through changes for quite some time.  Some of those changes you won't even notice, others will smack you right in the face.  You just need to continue being aware of your surroundings never get complacent.

Congrats on your first full week of freedom and making it through your first weekend.

You are on your way brother.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on October 08, 2019, 01:23:03 PM
Day 8 ....stayed up half the night reading oldschool and wildirish stuff.  Got a bit triggered last night...watching peaky blinders...all the smoking in that show...bugging the shit out of sixstring at 2 am lol.  My boy @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311)  is at 50 today, @KD2 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15299) at 39,  @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356)  is at 369, @JJG009 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15604) is at 13, @Finoc1984 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15673) at 6, and @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) is at 629...ptqwyt !!!!!!!  Today i feel pretty good...I got up late but no sweats or itchyness today so far (although I am waiting for them to come). 
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: chris2alaska on October 08, 2019, 01:29:43 PM
Day 8 ....stayed up half the night reading oldschool and wildirish stuff.  Got a bit triggered last night...watching peaky blinders...all the smoking in that show...bugging the shit out of sixstring at 2 am lol.  My boy @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311)  is at 50 today, @KD2 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15299) at 39,  @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356)  is at 369, @JJG009 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15604) is at 13, @Finoc1984 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15673) at 6, and @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) is at 629...ptqwyt !!!!!!!  Today i feel pretty good...I got up late but no sweats or itchyness today so far (although I am waiting for them to come).

If you anticipate the itch and sweats coming, then they will probably come but if you just move on and forget about them, they may stay at bay.

PTQWYTT
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: SixString on October 08, 2019, 01:36:32 PM
Day 8 ....stayed up half the night reading oldschool and wildirish stuff.  Got a bit triggered last night...watching peaky blinders...all the smoking in that show...bugging the shit out of sixstring at 2 am lol.  My boy @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311)  is at 50 today, @KD2 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15299) at 39,  @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356)  is at 369, @JJG009 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15604) is at 13, @Finoc1984 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15673) at 6, and @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) is at 629...ptqwyt !!!!!!!  Today i feel pretty good...I got up late but no sweats or itchyness today so far (although I am waiting for them to come).
^^ you keep this up and I promise you your quit will become easier to manage. Proud to call you my brother. Trust me when I say you are a million times stronger than me. Remeber sometimes we got to take it one second at a time. I have complete faith and trust in you to overcome your addiction. Also dont forget to call me today to chat it up.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: KD2 on October 08, 2019, 02:33:51 PM
Day 8 ....stayed up half the night reading oldschool and wildirish stuff.  Got a bit triggered last night...watching peaky blinders...all the smoking in that show...bugging the shit out of sixstring at 2 am lol.  My boy @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311)  is at 50 today, @KD2 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15299) at 39,  @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356)  is at 369, @JJG009 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15604) is at 13, @Finoc1984 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15673) at 6, and @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) is at 629...ptqwyt !!!!!!!  Today i feel pretty good...I got up late but no sweats or itchyness today so far (although I am waiting for them to come).
^^ you keep this up and I promise you your quit will become easier to manage. Proud to call you my brother. Trust me when I say you are a million times stronger than me. Remeber sometimes we got to take it one second at a time. I have complete faith and trust in you to overcome your addiction. Also dont forget to call me today to chat it up.
That a boy js day 8 is huge breaking into the new week. When’s the last time you’ve been nic free for over a week? I went back and read my post on my day 7 and remembering I couldn’t see or think through the thick fog clouding my face. The fact that you are facing these thoughts and reaching out winning the little (and big) battles that’s what it’s about getting through that movie that after meal crave and getting to bed so you can WUPP and be free one more day!
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on October 09, 2019, 12:38:53 AM
I was talking to @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) earlier...and had to share this I thought this was funny as hell.

So I guess I had a bit of a trigger...I have ordered some smoky mountain and it has not arrived yet.  I am down to my last can of bacoff and I started to panick for a minute...then I realized its fucking mint leaves LOL.  It is funny to think of the shit I have seen and done in over 26 years of Law enforcement and I am fucking scared of running out of fake dip...lol ...that is just fucking sad.  Six prolly thinks im idiot now lol. 
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: SixString on October 09, 2019, 09:32:30 AM
I was talking to @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) earlier...and had to share this I thought this was funny as hell.

So I guess I had a bit of a trigger...I have ordered some smoky mountain and it has not arrived yet.  I am down to my last can of bacoff and I started to panick for a minute...then I realized its fucking mint leaves LOL.  It is funny to think of the shit I have seen and done in over 26 years of Law enforcement and I am fucking scared of running out of fake dip...lol ...that is just fucking sad.  Six prolly thinks im idiot now lol.
To add to this story. When I first read his text I didn't realize that he mentioned his trigger.  So respond with what caused your trigger? Was it a long day work? And JS replies. Noo I'm down to to my last can...hahaha I'm the worst supporter ever.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on October 11, 2019, 01:32:15 PM
Day 11....Doing pretty good...have not had sweats or itchiness for a few days so that is good.  Depressing to see some of my peeps in my group cave or disappear, but inspiring to see many others succeed.  For me I choose to succeed one day at a time. 
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: campbellmi13 on October 11, 2019, 06:30:31 PM
Day 11....Doing pretty good...have not had sweats or itchiness for a few days so that is good.  Depressing to see some of my peeps in my group cave or disappear, but inspiring to see many others succeed.  For me I choose to succeed one day at a time.
Glad to hear it - it does get better and better over time, just be prepared to experience some days where you feel like you are going backward. it does suck to see members of your group cave, but remember you can't quit for somebody else. Provide as much support as you can, but don't taking somebody caving as a reflection on you.
Title: ODAAT
Post by: Athan on October 12, 2019, 03:02:22 PM
... For me I choose to succeed one day at a time.
Brother you are so far ahead of the pack with that statement right there.  Great job making it to double digits.
There ain't nothing like freedom and ain't nothing life can throw at you to make it worth being a slave again.
PTBQWYT
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on October 14, 2019, 11:55:29 AM
Day 14, Feeling pretty good...had some little urges last night watching the Astros but I just ate a shit ton of seeds and texted with @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) who has been there every single day for the past 14 days as some others have also been there.  I am still waking up with the attitude I don't need nic today.  I believe my urges are out of habit more than wanting nic.  Had some new firsts...made it through nightshift without wanting it....went to a fall festival with my family without wanting it.  All I can say is finding this site was one of the best things that could have happen too me.  Oh and if you ever click on @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) signature, pack a lunch....lol these vets could write a book on the quit. 
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: SixString on October 14, 2019, 12:06:57 PM
Day 14, Feeling pretty good...had some little urges last night watching the Astros but I just ate a shit ton of seeds and texted with @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) who has been there every single day for the past 14 days as some others have also been there.  I am still waking up with the attitude I don't need nic today.  I believe my urges are out of habit more than wanting nic.  Had some new firsts...made it through nightshift without wanting it....went to a fall festival with my family without wanting it.  All I can say is finding this site was one of the best things that could have happen too me.  Oh and if you ever click on @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) signature, pack a lunch....lol these vets could write a book on the quit.
Glad to call you my brother. You inspire to me be the best damn quitter i can possibly be. Its awesome to hear you checking off things that you have done without quit. Really proud of you man. Lets tackle this day and make it our bitch. Congrats on two weeks. Heres a virtual blowjob.
 'bj'
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Athan on October 14, 2019, 02:49:46 PM
Had some new firsts...made it through nightshift without wanting it....
If there was ever a crucible of quit...that would be it.  I rolled off of shift work a few years before I rolled off the can.  Now I'm preparing to start it again and I have to be honest here - I shudder to think of the 3 am wall without nicotine.  You're made of stern stuff brother.  Thanks for blazing the trail.  I'll have to ping on you when the time comes.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on October 15, 2019, 04:07:26 AM
Day 14...let me say started out great.  It ended badly.  *****DO NOT READ ANY FURTHER IF YOU ARE OFFENDED BY HARSH LANGUAGE****

I triggered and I triggered fucking hard.  I had went to the grocery store with my daughter and bought 2 filet's and a ribeye.  I marinate my steaks in meat tenderizer.  So I go to the container cabinet and get a container to marinate the steaks....this is what i text @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) a few minutes later.....:  Trying to marinate steaks...and cant find the fucking lid to the fucking piece of shit container the meat is in...going here (coming to him with text) and not going off on my wife...and no Im not caving but I got a big fucking wad of fake chew in right now.   My boy Six replies...Send your anger all this way brother.  Fucking lids.   Lol this shit would be comical if you could see it happening.  I told Six...I was having a good day and a fucking Tupperware Lid triggers me of all things.    To add to this the store didnt have the steamable potatoes so I ended up with runny mashed potatoes, and in the middle of cooking steaks my freaking propane grill runs out of propane (thankfully I had a spare in the garage).  Then the day ends with a bang..My father in law calls my wife at 930pm in pain telling her that he is in the er at one of the hospitals near here.  I grab my fake snuff and seeds and head to the hospital.....so I head to the ER and we are at the hospital until about 2am ( he has a 5 mm kidney stone).   

So yea I triggered....and had a bad day...I had my support...had Six not answered..I would had vented on Kd2 or I have a list of peeps I would have blown up on because they care about my quit. 

not one time ....not one time did I think about heading for the can with the fucking nicotine whore....yes I ate my seeds and dipped my fake chew...and vented on my brother Six..but I did not think for a second about caving. 
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: SixString on October 15, 2019, 09:21:03 AM
Day 14...let me say started out great.  It ended badly.  *****DO NOT READ ANY FURTHER IF YOU ARE OFFENDED BY HARSH LANGUAGE****

I triggered and I triggered fucking hard.  I had went to the grocery store with my daughter and bought 2 filet's and a ribeye.  I marinate my steaks in meat tenderizer.  So I go to the container cabinet and get a container to marinate the steaks....this is what i text @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) a few minutes later.....:  Trying to marinate steaks...and cant find the fucking lid to the fucking piece of shit container the meat is in...going here (coming to him with text) and not going off on my wife...and no Im not caving but I got a big fucking wad of fake chew in right now.   My boy Six replies...Send your anger all this way brother.  Fucking lids.   Lol this shit would be comical if you could see it happening.  I told Six...I was having a good day and a fucking Tupperware Lid triggers me of all things.    To add to this the store didnt have the steamable potatoes so I ended up with runny mashed potatoes, and in the middle of cooking steaks my freaking propane grill runs out of propane (thankfully I had a spare in the garage).  Then the day ends with a bang..My father in law calls my wife at 930pm in pain telling her that he is in the er at one of the hospitals near here.  I grab my fake snuff and seeds and head to the hospital.....so I head to the ER and we are at the hospital until about 2am ( he has a 5 mm kidney stone).   

So yea I triggered....and had a bad day...I had my support...had Six not answered..I would had vented on Kd2 or I have a list of peeps I would have blown up on because they care about my quit. 

not one time ....not one time did I think about heading for the can with the fucking nicotine whore....yes I ate my seeds and dipped my fake chew...and vented on my brother Six..but I did not think for a second about caving.
^^^ This. This right here is the definition of someone who is taking his quit fucking serious. VENT AWAY BROTHER. I always got your back. Your commitment says alot about who you are as a quitter. And im damn proud to call you my brother. When we first started talking i told you ill be there for when you need me. Thanks for trusting me. Thanks for letting us create a bond thats becoming more unbreakable everyday. Im not gonna stop reminding you how much you inspire me to be the best damn quitter i can be. Stay strong stay quit. Looking forward to our conversation later today. Sorry to hear about your father in law. Kidney stones suckkkkk
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: KD2 on October 15, 2019, 11:58:10 PM
Day 14...let me say started out great.  It ended badly.  *****DO NOT READ ANY FURTHER IF YOU ARE OFFENDED BY HARSH LANGUAGE****

I triggered and I triggered fucking hard.  I had went to the grocery store with my daughter and bought 2 filet's and a ribeye.  I marinate my steaks in meat tenderizer.  So I go to the container cabinet and get a container to marinate the steaks....this is what i text @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) a few minutes later.....:  Trying to marinate steaks...and cant find the fucking lid to the fucking piece of shit container the meat is in...going here (coming to him with text) and not going off on my wife...and no Im not caving but I got a big fucking wad of fake chew in right now.   My boy Six replies...Send your anger all this way brother.  Fucking lids.   Lol this shit would be comical if you could see it happening.  I told Six...I was having a good day and a fucking Tupperware Lid triggers me of all things.    To add to this the store didnt have the steamable potatoes so I ended up with runny mashed potatoes, and in the middle of cooking steaks my freaking propane grill runs out of propane (thankfully I had a spare in the garage).  Then the day ends with a bang..My father in law calls my wife at 930pm in pain telling her that he is in the er at one of the hospitals near here.  I grab my fake snuff and seeds and head to the hospital.....so I head to the ER and we are at the hospital until about 2am ( he has a 5 mm kidney stone).   

So yea I triggered....and had a bad day...I had my support...had Six not answered..I would had vented on Kd2 or I have a list of peeps I would have blown up on because they care about my quit. 

not one time ....not one time did I think about heading for the can with the fucking nicotine whore....yes I ate my seeds and dipped my fake chew...and vented on my brother Six..but I did not think for a second about caving.
^^^ This. This right here is the definition of someone who is taking his quit fucking serious. VENT AWAY BROTHER. I always got your back. Your commitment says alot about who you are as a quitter. And im damn proud to call you my brother. When we first started talking i told you ill be there for when you need me. Thanks for trusting me. Thanks for letting us create a bond thats becoming more unbreakable everyday. Im not gonna stop reminding you how much you inspire me to be the best damn quitter i can be. Stay strong stay quit. Looking forward to our conversation later today. Sorry to hear about your father in law. Kidney stones suckkkkk
Reading your win here made my day. Your strength to wrangle the reaction to these seemingly small to quite significant events and channel that nic venom out of your system to evaporate is how we build on our existing quit minute by minute. Dig it deep and keep digging little shovel at a time.

Now that we know we’re basically minutes away from each other makes this support we have for each other that much realer! You have a lot of credibility with me...your promise every day is what I look for every morning...JS! Go astros!
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on October 16, 2019, 12:10:28 AM
Day 14...let me say started out great.  It ended badly.  *****DO NOT READ ANY FURTHER IF YOU ARE OFFENDED BY HARSH LANGUAGE****

I triggered and I triggered fucking hard.  I had went to the grocery store with my daughter and bought 2 filet's and a ribeye.  I marinate my steaks in meat tenderizer.  So I go to the container cabinet and get a container to marinate the steaks....this is what i text @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) a few minutes later.....:  Trying to marinate steaks...and cant find the fucking lid to the fucking piece of shit container the meat is in...going here (coming to him with text) and not going off on my wife...and no Im not caving but I got a big fucking wad of fake chew in right now.   My boy Six replies...Send your anger all this way brother.  Fucking lids.   Lol this shit would be comical if you could see it happening.  I told Six...I was having a good day and a fucking Tupperware Lid triggers me of all things.    To add to this the store didnt have the steamable potatoes so I ended up with runny mashed potatoes, and in the middle of cooking steaks my freaking propane grill runs out of propane (thankfully I had a spare in the garage).  Then the day ends with a bang..My father in law calls my wife at 930pm in pain telling her that he is in the er at one of the hospitals near here.  I grab my fake snuff and seeds and head to the hospital.....so I head to the ER and we are at the hospital until about 2am ( he has a 5 mm kidney stone).   

So yea I triggered....and had a bad day...I had my support...had Six not answered..I would had vented on Kd2 or I have a list of peeps I would have blown up on because they care about my quit. 

not one time ....not one time did I think about heading for the can with the fucking nicotine whore....yes I ate my seeds and dipped my fake chew...and vented on my brother Six..but I did not think for a second about caving.
^^^ This. This right here is the definition of someone who is taking his quit fucking serious. VENT AWAY BROTHER. I always got your back. Your commitment says alot about who you are as a quitter. And im damn proud to call you my brother. When we first started talking i told you ill be there for when you need me. Thanks for trusting me. Thanks for letting us create a bond thats becoming more unbreakable everyday. Im not gonna stop reminding you how much you inspire me to be the best damn quitter i can be. Stay strong stay quit. Looking forward to our conversation later today. Sorry to hear about your father in law. Kidney stones suckkkkk
Reading your win here made my day. Your strength to wrangle the reaction to these seemingly small to quite significant events and channel that nic venom out of your system to evaporate is how we build on our existing quit minute by minute. Dig it deep and keep digging little shovel at a time.

Now that we know we’re basically minutes away from each other makes this support we have for each other that much realer! You have a lot of credibility with me...your promise every day is what I look for every morning...JS! Go astros!

Man @KD2 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15299) , your words mean alot to me...I strive and quit one day at a time, but I also look at my older quit brothers like you and @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) and see the inspiration.  If a team ever would want you to go back to the nic bitch it might be the astros.....lol I ate must have ate about 2 bags of seeds on the second game that went 12 innings lol. 
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on October 16, 2019, 12:26:05 AM
Feeling pretty good today...especially after last night.  I have no desire to hit the can....I do however still have the little urges like after you eat....I took my bike to the dealership today to get an inspection done...I had one of those urges hit me...and I told myself why in the hell would this be an urge...it had always been a hinderance....you cant spit off a motorcycle at 70 mph...I told myself this is a positive and a win...I can now ride without that particular worry.  I did however throw in a lil fake snuff just to satisfy the lip.  A shout out to my peeps in Jan 20 quit group...

JJG009 - 3 Weeks

Finoc1984 - 2 Weeks

Nursefarmer - 2 Weeks

KGO85 - 10 Days

johnnybub - 1 Weeks

Byoo882151 - 1 Weeks"


Good job Peeps....keep on quiting.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on October 16, 2019, 11:58:00 PM
I would like to make a public apology to @oldschool (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1411)  .  I was frustrated by some of the posting going on my Jan 20 group earlier this evening and he text me to trying to give me support.  I text him back talking about another person, but upon rereading the text it looked like I was talking to him.  For that miscommunication I apologize.  @oldschool (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1411) had been nothing but supportive of me and our Jan 20 quit group from the beginning.  Again I apologize bud, hope you can forgive me. 
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: oldschool on October 17, 2019, 07:41:30 AM
I would like to make a public apology to @oldschool (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1411)  .  I was frustrated by some of the posting going on my Jan 20 group earlier this evening and he text me to trying to give me support.  I text him back talking about another person, but upon rereading the text it looked like I was talking to him.  For that miscommunication I apologize.  @oldschool (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1411) had been nothing but supportive of me and our Jan 20 quit group from the beginning.  Again I apologize bud, hope you can forgive me.

@jsjohnson (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15659)  All good.  Thanks John!
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on October 17, 2019, 09:02:19 AM
Day 17...Feeling pretty good...I guess I was hypersensitive yesterday...I have a very short temper and tolerance for people not serious about their quit and my quit group.  This is the longest I have been without nicotine and tobacco in 33 years.  Thanks to my peeps for the support yall give me everyday.  I do this ONE DAY AT A TIME.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Keith0617 on October 17, 2019, 11:23:18 AM
Day 17...Feeling pretty good...I guess I was hypersensitive yesterday...I have a very short temper and tolerance for people not serious about their quit and my quit group.  This is the longest I have been without nicotine and tobacco in 33 years.  Thanks to my peeps for the support yall give me everyday.  I do this ONE DAY AT A TIME.

ODAAT is the only way to do this. Rage management does get easier as well. Keep doing what you are doing. 
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: chris2alaska on October 17, 2019, 04:03:53 PM
Day 17...Feeling pretty good...I guess I was hypersensitive yesterday...I have a very short temper and tolerance for people not serious about their quit and my quit group.  This is the longest I have been without nicotine and tobacco in 33 years.  Thanks to my peeps for the support yall give me everyday.  I do this ONE DAY AT A TIME.

Sounds like a normal reaction from a 17 day clean nicotine addict.  You are doing it right John.  Keep at it and keep your support close at hand.  We will be there if you need us.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Hunter4life on October 17, 2019, 05:17:30 PM
Day 17...Feeling pretty good...I guess I was hypersensitive yesterday...I have a very short temper and tolerance for people not serious about their quit and my quit group.  This is the longest I have been without nicotine and tobacco in 33 years.  Thanks to my peeps for the support yall give me everyday.  I do this ONE DAY AT A TIME.

I’m with you on that! I can’t stand to hear that someone caved, and I made it. It’s pissing off to say the least. Look man, I’m on day 4, bout to hit day 5. Fill me in on what you’ve noticed and what I need to look out for. So far, I haven’t seen rage and impatience. Only urges and thoughts. Believe it or not, you’re a role model for me. Stick with it. I’m depending on ya.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on October 17, 2019, 08:34:52 PM
Day 17...Feeling pretty good...I guess I was hypersensitive yesterday...I have a very short temper and tolerance for people not serious about their quit and my quit group.  This is the longest I have been without nicotine and tobacco in 33 years.  Thanks to my peeps for the support yall give me everyday.  I do this ONE DAY AT A TIME.

I’m with you on that! I can’t stand to hear that someone caved, and I made it. It’s pissing off to say the least. Look man, I’m on day 4, bout to hit day 5. Fill me in on what you’ve noticed and what I need to look out for. So far, I haven’t seen rage and impatience. Only urges and thoughts. Believe it or not, you’re a role model for me. Stick with it. I’m depending on ya.
I appreciate that @Hunter4life (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15792) , but you and everyone in this forum who keeps quit every day and battles on against the nic bitch are my role models.  What you are doing right now....reaching out...keep reaching out.  I had 2 blow ups in 17 days...last night and Monday.  Monday was just stupid...I was marinating some steak and I went to the cabinet where the tupperware is, and couldnt find a lid.  So my wife looked for the lid and she looked for the lid and then she told me she couldnt find it...I was like really....I stopped myself (I had to go back to the store) and left without going off on her.  I put in a big fat fake chew and commenced to going apeshit on @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) .  He just said bring it on and that he hates tupperware lids also lol. 

Last night was more of confusion and someone doubting my commitment to my quit.  Someone came to our quit group that I thought was trolling us in our group, He wouldnt answer questions...dont think he was gonna answer questions...long story short I really got bent, that someone would come into our quit group and troll us.  In the end the mods, administrators and vets took care of us.  Im quit with you bud...for me it is one day at a time, a shit ton of sunflower seeds and smokey mountain fake snuff. 
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Keith0617 on October 17, 2019, 08:46:44 PM
Day 17...Feeling pretty good...I guess I was hypersensitive yesterday...I have a very short temper and tolerance for people not serious about their quit and my quit group.  This is the longest I have been without nicotine and tobacco in 33 years.  Thanks to my peeps for the support yall give me everyday.  I do this ONE DAY AT A TIME.

I’m with you on that! I can’t stand to hear that someone caved, and I made it. It’s pissing off to say the least. Look man, I’m on day 4, bout to hit day 5. Fill me in on what you’ve noticed and what I need to look out for. So far, I haven’t seen rage and impatience. Only urges and thoughts. Believe it or not, you’re a role model for me. Stick with it. I’m depending on ya.
I appreciate that @Hunter4life (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15792) , but you and everyone in this forum who keeps quit every day and battles on against the nic bitch are my role models.  What you are doing right now....reaching out...keep reaching out.  I had 2 blow ups in 17 days...last night and Monday.  Monday was just stupid...I was marinating some steak and I went to the cabinet where the tupperware is, and couldnt find a lid.  So my wife looked for the lid and she looked for the lid and then she told me she couldnt find it...I was like really....I stopped myself (I had to go back to the store) and left without going off on her.  I put in a big fat fake chew and commenced to going apeshit on @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) .  He just said bring it on and that he hates tupperware lids also lol. 

Last night was more of confusion and someone doubting my commitment to my quit.  Someone came to our quit group that I thought was trolling us in our group, He wouldnt answer questions...dont think he was gonna answer questions...long story short I really got bent, that someone would come into our quit group and troll us.  In the end the mods, administrators and vets took care of us.  Im quit with you bud...for me it is one day at a time, a shit ton of sunflower seeds and smokey mountain fake snuff.

You guys are doing great. Hang in there. It really does get better. But you have to give it time. Celebrate the wins and understand your mind is being rewired right now. Keep reaching out in times of needs and offer support when you can. Hit me up whenever. I love a good talk. I’m proud to quit with you guys.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Hunter4life on October 17, 2019, 09:41:56 PM
Day 17...Feeling pretty good...I guess I was hypersensitive yesterday...I have a very short temper and tolerance for people not serious about their quit and my quit group.  This is the longest I have been without nicotine and tobacco in 33 years.  Thanks to my peeps for the support yall give me everyday.  I do this ONE DAY AT A TIME.

I’m with you on that! I can’t stand to hear that someone caved, and I made it. It’s pissing off to say the least. Look man, I’m on day 4, bout to hit day 5. Fill me in on what you’ve noticed and what I need to look out for. So far, I haven’t seen rage and impatience. Only urges and thoughts. Believe it or not, you’re a role model for me. Stick with it. I’m depending on ya.
I appreciate that @Hunter4life (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15792) , but you and everyone in this forum who keeps quit every day and battles on against the nic bitch are my role models.  What you are doing right now....reaching out...keep reaching out.  I had 2 blow ups in 17 days...last night and Monday.  Monday was just stupid...I was marinating some steak and I went to the cabinet where the tupperware is, and couldnt find a lid.  So my wife looked for the lid and she looked for the lid and then she told me she couldnt find it...I was like really....I stopped myself (I had to go back to the store) and left without going off on her.  I put in a big fat fake chew and commenced to going apeshit on @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) .  He just said bring it on and that he hates tupperware lids also lol. 

Last night was more of confusion and someone doubting my commitment to my quit.  Someone came to our quit group that I thought was trolling us in our group, He wouldnt answer questions...dont think he was gonna answer questions...long story short I really got bent, that someone would come into our quit group and troll us.  In the end the mods, administrators and vets took care of us.  Im quit with you bud...for me it is one day at a time, a shit ton of sunflower seeds and smokey mountain fake snuff.

@jsjohnson (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15659) , I hear you man. I don’t know if it’s too early or not to tell, but I’m having better luck not replacing the dip. In other words, I’ve been eating my own tongue up, so to speak. I’ve left the sunflower seeds alone and haven’t used the fake snuff. I’ve eaten the shit out of some beef jerky though while hunting these last few days. Holla if you need, and I’ll holla if I do. Thanks for the text today. Glad to know we’re on the same page.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: wildirish317 on October 17, 2019, 09:50:17 PM
Day 17...Feeling pretty good...I guess I was hypersensitive yesterday...I have a very short temper and tolerance for people not serious about their quit and my quit group.  This is the longest I have been without nicotine and tobacco in 33 years.  Thanks to my peeps for the support yall give me everyday.  I do this ONE DAY AT A TIME.

I’m with you on that! I can’t stand to hear that someone caved, and I made it. It’s pissing off to say the least. Look man, I’m on day 4, bout to hit day 5. Fill me in on what you’ve noticed and what I need to look out for. So far, I haven’t seen rage and impatience. Only urges and thoughts. Believe it or not, you’re a role model for me. Stick with it. I’m depending on ya.
I appreciate that @Hunter4life (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15792) , but you and everyone in this forum who keeps quit every day and battles on against the nic bitch are my role models.  What you are doing right now....reaching out...keep reaching out.  I had 2 blow ups in 17 days...last night and Monday.  Monday was just stupid...I was marinating some steak and I went to the cabinet where the tupperware is, and couldnt find a lid.  So my wife looked for the lid and she looked for the lid and then she told me she couldnt find it...I was like really....I stopped myself (I had to go back to the store) and left without going off on her.  I put in a big fat fake chew and commenced to going apeshit on @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) .  He just said bring it on and that he hates tupperware lids also lol. 

Last night was more of confusion and someone doubting my commitment to my quit.  Someone came to our quit group that I thought was trolling us in our group, He wouldnt answer questions...dont think he was gonna answer questions...long story short I really got bent, that someone would come into our quit group and troll us.  In the end the mods, administrators and vets took care of us.  Im quit with you bud...for me it is one day at a time, a shit ton of sunflower seeds and smokey mountain fake snuff.

@jsjohnson (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15659) , I hear you man. I don’t know if it’s too early or not to tell, but I’m having better luck not replacing the dip. In other words, I’ve been eating my own tongue up, so to speak. I’ve left the sunflower seeds alone and haven’t used the fake snuff. I’ve eaten the shit out of some beef jerky though while hunting these last few days. Holla if you need, and I’ll holla if I do. Thanks for the text today. Glad to know we’re on the same page.
Guys, this experience will take you into areas of your life that you should have cleaned up along the way, but just kept hiding in the closet.  I know, I've been there.  Take browse through my Intro. (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=805.msg125916#msg125916)  Most of what you are experiencing, is "normal".  It's a journey.  Embrace it.  Share it.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on October 18, 2019, 04:36:17 PM
Day 18..Feeling pretty good.  Some inconsistent sleep the past couple of days...I work 2pm to 10pm..usually get home about 1030 and stay up till about 2am and sleep until around 1030 am.  Lately I have been getting up at 6am.  Today I got up at 6am and had to take an ambien to get back to sleep , because  I have to work night shift (10pm to 6am) tonight.  Maybe it is just this crappy split shift I am on.  A bit disappointing in a couple of Jan 20 group members and super proud of all the others that choose to quit every day.  No Nic today....One day at a time. 
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Athan on October 18, 2019, 06:30:04 PM
Day 18..Feeling pretty good.  Some inconsistent sleep the past couple of days...I work 2pm to 10pm..usually get home about 1030 and stay up till about 2am and sleep until around 1030 am.  Lately I have been getting up at 6am.  Today I got up at 6am and had to take an ambien to get back to sleep , because  I have to work night shift (10pm to 6am) tonight.  Maybe it is just this crappy split shift I am on.  A bit disappointing in a couple of Jan 20 group members and super proud of all the others that choose to quit every day.  No Nic today....One day at a time.
Sleep deprivation is one of the biggest obstacles the quitter has to face. Few things are as demoralizing as sleep deprivation. The KGB actually used it effectively to coerce confessions. I struggled for a few weeks and started using an over the counter sleep aid.  Still use it from time to time. in the end, my circadian clock shifted back. I still sleep 6-7 hours a night, I just get up earlier so I go to bed earlier. Hurts to see a brother struggling with this and I hope you find your new normal soon.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Judaculla on October 18, 2019, 09:17:38 PM
Day 18..Feeling pretty good.  Some inconsistent sleep the past couple of days...I work 2pm to 10pm..usually get home about 1030 and stay up till about 2am and sleep until around 1030 am.  Lately I have been getting up at 6am.  Today I got up at 6am and had to take an ambien to get back to sleep , because  I have to work night shift (10pm to 6am) tonight.  Maybe it is just this crappy split shift I am on.  A bit disappointing in a couple of Jan 20 group members and super proud of all the others that choose to quit every day.  No Nic today....One day at a time.
Sleep deprivation is one of the biggest obstacles the quitter has to face. Few things are as demoralizing as sleep deprivation. The KGB actually used it effectively to coerce confessions. I struggled for a few weeks and started using an over the counter sleep aid.  Still use it from time to time. in the end, my circadian clock shifted back. I still sleep 6-7 hours a night, I just get up earlier so I go to bed earlier. Hurts to see a brother struggling with this and I hope you find your new normal soon.
Wise words from Athan, there. Been dealing with sleep issues too and can definitely relate. Ambien is tricky in that consistency in bedtime and arise-time is key to setting you up for a recurring sleep cycle. So I would guess that your split shift may be the source of your current troubles. Some weeks if I can get 4-5 hours per night, it’s a win, where 6-7 is typical. Good luck brother.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Keith0617 on October 18, 2019, 09:50:33 PM
Day 18..Feeling pretty good.  Some inconsistent sleep the past couple of days...I work 2pm to 10pm..usually get home about 1030 and stay up till about 2am and sleep until around 1030 am.  Lately I have been getting up at 6am.  Today I got up at 6am and had to take an ambien to get back to sleep , because  I have to work night shift (10pm to 6am) tonight.  Maybe it is just this crappy split shift I am on.  A bit disappointing in a couple of Jan 20 group members and super proud of all the others that choose to quit every day.  No Nic today....One day at a time.

Remember what I told you. No nic means no stimulant so your body will need rest.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Hunter4life on October 19, 2019, 08:20:59 AM
Day 18..Feeling pretty good.  Some inconsistent sleep the past couple of days...I work 2pm to 10pm..usually get home about 1030 and stay up till about 2am and sleep until around 1030 am.  Lately I have been getting up at 6am.  Today I got up at 6am and had to take an ambien to get back to sleep , because  I have to work night shift (10pm to 6am) tonight.  Maybe it is just this crappy split shift I am on.  A bit disappointing in a couple of Jan 20 group members and super proud of all the others that choose to quit every day.  No Nic today....One day at a time.

I know the feeling. I work rotating shifts. Keep it up bud. You’ll adjust. Proud to be trailing the days behind you!
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on October 19, 2019, 03:53:07 PM
Day 19, It was a little rough last night during shift...just filled it with seeds and fake chew.  Physically I feel awesome...other than lack of sleep.  I go to sleep just fine...wake up in 3 hours and just toss and turn for the next 3.  I thought my sinuses would have gotten better it has not.  Well and the Dip dreams begin....I have already went into detail with @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) and @KD2 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15299) ...so short story short....I got chased by a can of my dip while in a toss and turn sleep this morning.  Funny shit right...50 year old man running from a little can of dip...to me it seemed like a piranha but never the less just as dumb lol.  Whatever...I am not going back to that shit....ONE DAY AT A TIME.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Nomore1959 on October 19, 2019, 06:32:57 PM
Day 19, It was a little rough last night during shift...just filled it with seeds and fake chew.  Physically I feel awesome...other than lack of sleep.  I go to sleep just fine...wake up in 3 hours and just toss and turn for the next 3.  I thought my sinuses would have gotten better it has not.  Well and the Dip dreams begin....I have already went into detail with @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) and @KD2 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15299) ...so short story short....I got chased by a can of my dip while in a toss and turn sleep this morning.  Funny shit right...50 year old man running from a little can of dip...to me it seemed like a piranha but never the less just as dumb lol.  Whatever...I am not going back to that shit....ONE DAY AT A TIME.
Quit dreams can be strange... but yours is spectacular.

Keep reaching out to your fellow quitters in the swamp.  Passing support forward strengthens your quit too.

Day 19.  That is bad ass!!!   It will get better.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on October 20, 2019, 09:57:52 PM
Day 20..Got some decent sleep this morning (nightshift).  We had 3 peeps from the quit group bail this past week ...pretty sad.  Super proud of everyone in my group for quiting ONE DAY AT A TIME.  I learn something everyday by coming to this site...if nothing more I learn about myself and my promise to myself to stay quit everyday.  I also feel the obligation to my quit group to stay quit with them.  No more nic for me, the though actually makes me a bit nauseous.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on October 21, 2019, 01:14:57 PM
Day 21 WOOOHOOO 3 WEEKS!  Feeling pretty good.  I must admit though I did not wupp today...and I was on the patio smoking.....a pork shoulder.  I started it last night and today is my day off so I slept as late as I wanted.  The probe alarm went off so I woke up and put the pork shoulder in a cooler...went and pissed and then post.  I hope I didnt make any people mad, but Pulled pork is serious lol.  A shout to all my peeps I appreciate yall having my back for 3 weeks and beyond @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) @KD2 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15299) @JJG009 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15604) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @NurseFarmer (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15672) @Hunter4life (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15792) @oldschool (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1411) @INKcogKNEEdough (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=205) @Finoc1984 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15673) @Tonifer (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=396) @Judaculla (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15048) I am quit with yall today.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: SixString on October 21, 2019, 01:56:06 PM
Day 21 WOOOHOOO 3 WEEKS!  Feeling pretty good.  I must admit though I did not wupp today...and I was on the patio smoking.....a pork shoulder.  I started it last night and today is my day off so I slept as late as I wanted.  The probe alarm went off so I woke up and put the pork shoulder in a cooler...went and pissed and then post.  I hope I didnt make any people mad, but Pulled pork is serious lol.  A shout to all my peeps I appreciate yall having my back for 3 weeks and beyond @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) @KD2 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15299) @JJG009 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15604) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @NurseFarmer (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15672) @Hunter4life (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15792) @oldschool (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1411) @INKcogKNEEdough (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=205) @Finoc1984 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15673) @Tonifer (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=396) @Judaculla (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15048) I am quit with yall today.
Nice healthy team of quitters you got there. New quitters should be paying attention to you. You are commited and you are about serious quitting.  Proud of you brother
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Judaculla on October 21, 2019, 03:48:31 PM
Day 21 WOOOHOOO 3 WEEKS!  Feeling pretty good.  I must admit though I did not wupp today...and I was on the patio smoking.....a pork shoulder.  I started it last night and today is my day off so I slept as late as I wanted.  The probe alarm went off so I woke up and put the pork shoulder in a cooler...went and pissed and then post.  I hope I didnt make any people mad, but Pulled pork is serious lol.  A shout to all my peeps I appreciate yall having my back for 3 weeks and beyond @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) @KD2 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15299) @JJG009 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15604) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @NurseFarmer (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15672) @Hunter4life (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15792) @oldschool (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1411) @INKcogKNEEdough (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=205) @Finoc1984 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15673) @Tonifer (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=396) @Judaculla (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15048) I am quit with yall today.
Nice healthy team of quitters you got there. New quitters should be paying attention to you. You are commited and you are about serious quitting.  Proud of you brother
Couldn’t agree more with Six, you and several of the quitters in January are killing it! None of us need to get cocky, though, cause the nic bitch is very cunning. ODAAT brothers and sisters!
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: INKcogKNEEdough on October 21, 2019, 07:28:53 PM
Day 21 WOOOHOOO 3 WEEKS!  Feeling pretty good.  I must admit though I did not wupp today...and I was on the patio smoking.....a pork shoulder.  I started it last night and today is my day off so I slept as late as I wanted.  The probe alarm went off so I woke up and put the pork shoulder in a cooler...went and pissed and then post.  I hope I didnt make any people mad, but Pulled pork is serious lol.  A shout to all my peeps I appreciate yall having my back for 3 weeks and beyond @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) @KD2 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15299) @JJG009 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15604) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @NurseFarmer (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15672) @Hunter4life (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15792) @oldschool (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1411) @INKcogKNEEdough (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=205) @Finoc1984 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15673) @Tonifer (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=396) @Judaculla (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15048) I am quit with yall today.
Nice healthy team of quitters you got there. New quitters should be paying attention to you. You are commited and you are about serious quitting.  Proud of you brother
Couldn’t agree more with Six, you and several of the quitters in January are killing it! None of us need to get cocky, though, cause the nic bitch is very cunning. ODAAT brothers and sisters!
You are killing it. Keep up the great work.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on October 22, 2019, 06:20:14 PM
Day 22  Still feeling pretty good.  It is true over time it gets a little better everyday.  Yesterday my 19 year old son found out that I had been quit for 21 days and was blown away ( he doesnt live with me).  He saw my fake snuff and asked if I had switched to a different dip.  My daughter replies that stuff is not real....dad has not dipped in 3 weeks.  It was good to hear coming from her mouth.  I am still killing the seeds though.  Today was the first day I didn't wake up and go straight for the fake stuff.  In fact it is 520pm and I still havnt put in a fake one.  ONE DAY AT A TIME!
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: chris2alaska on October 22, 2019, 06:44:13 PM
Day 22  Still feeling pretty good.  It is true over time it gets a little better everyday.  Yesterday my 19 year old son found out that I had been quit for 21 days and was blown away ( he doesnt live with me).  He saw my fake snuff and asked if I had switched to a different dip.  My daughter replies that stuff is not real....dad has not dipped in 3 weeks.  It was good to hear coming from her mouth.  I am still killing the seeds though.  Today was the first day I didn't wake up and go straight for the fake stuff.  In fact it is 520pm and I still havnt put in a fake one.  ONE DAY AT A TIME!

You'll get to a point where you don't need to put anything in your mouth.  Just let it come naturally.

Boy that last statement could really be taken out of context easily roflmao
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Keith0617 on October 22, 2019, 08:32:33 PM
Day 22  Still feeling pretty good.  It is true over time it gets a little better everyday.  Yesterday my 19 year old son found out that I had been quit for 21 days and was blown away ( he doesnt live with me).  He saw my fake snuff and asked if I had switched to a different dip.  My daughter replies that stuff is not real....dad has not dipped in 3 weeks.  It was good to hear coming from her mouth.  I am still killing the seeds though.  Today was the first day I didn't wake up and go straight for the fake stuff.  In fact it is 520pm and I still havnt put in a fake one.  ONE DAY AT A TIME!

You'll get to a point where you don't need to put anything in your mouth.  Just let it come naturally.

Boy that last statement could really be taken out of context easily roflmao
@jsjohnson (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15659)   something you need to tell us?  Lol
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on October 27, 2019, 12:24:56 AM
Day 26  Past couple of days sucked...had a 16 hour shift on friday to saturday.  Mind games are really trying to mess with me.  I have been restless for a few days...it feels like the days are so very long.  I am still hitting the seeds and fake dip (maybe once or twice a day).  It feels good to be free of nicotine, but I get those moments that just hit me...ohh i need a dip.  Then I am like where the hell did that come from.  It passes usually fast or while I'm texting some of my peeps. 
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Lady G on October 27, 2019, 06:46:10 PM
Day 26  Past couple of days sucked...had a 16 hour shift on friday to saturday.  Mind games are really trying to mess with me.  I have been restless for a few days...it feels like the days are so very long.  I am still hitting the seeds and fake dip (maybe once or twice a day).  It feels good to be free of nicotine, but I get those moments that just hit me...ohh i need a dip.  Then I am like where the hell did that come from.  It passes usually fast or while I'm texting some of my peeps.

Congrats on 26 days! That is huge!! This is how it is done. These feelings are totally normal....it comes in waves....sometimes ripples and sometimes it feels like a tidal wave that will just be too much to deal with....but you will and can....and you come here and scream or chat or text or call... all of those fight through tools you have.....
Keep going. It gets so so so much better!
~Lady G
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Cspence on October 31, 2019, 07:00:53 PM
JSJ I just read all your post from the start. Proud of you man and glad we have connected. I am right behind you in my quit and thanks for helping keep me accountable. I have stopped before but I was never accountable to anyone which was my problem.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on October 31, 2019, 07:24:48 PM
JSJ I just read all your post from the start. Proud of you man and glad we have connected. I am right behind you in my quit and thanks for helping keep me accountable. I have stopped before but I was never accountable to anyone which was my problem.
I hope my intro wasnt too boring Lol.  Proud to be quit with you @Cspence (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15898) , you are doing everything right...stay involved and post roll every damn day. 
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Cspence on October 31, 2019, 07:31:24 PM
JSJ I just read all your post from the start. Proud of you man and glad we have connected. I am right behind you in my quit and thanks for helping keep me accountable. I have stopped before but I was never accountable to anyone which was my problem.
I hope my intro wasnt too boring Lol.  Proud to be quit with you @Cspence (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15898) , you are doing everything right...stay involved and post roll every damn day.

Will do! I am feeling good but I know I will get some crave attacks. I am ready though.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on November 02, 2019, 08:23:30 AM
Day 33...what can I say..I am committed to my quit  one day at a time.  Recent days have been filled with firsts.  First time bathroom experience with no fake chew or any crutch.  First time road trip no nic...lots of seeds.  First time funeral..(supporting someone else loss).  I feel good...get some intense craves I just fill with seeds.  I still think about dip...I dont understand how anyone that dipped for any amount of time not thinking about it at some point.  The important this is I'm quit one day at a time.  Thanks to my support peeps @sixstring @KD2 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15299) @Bigdiesel90 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=14797) @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @jjg009 @Hunter4life (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15792) @INKcogKNEEdough (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=205) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) and a whole lot of others.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Keith0617 on November 02, 2019, 08:58:38 AM
Day 33...what can I say..I am committed to my quit  one day at a time.  Recent days have been filled with firsts.  First time bathroom experience with no fake chew or any crutch.  First time road trip no nic...lots of seeds.  First time funeral..(supporting someone else loss).  I feel good...get some intense craves I just fill with seeds.  I still think about dip...I dont understand how anyone that dipped for any amount of time not thinking about it at some point.  The important this is I'm quit one day at a time.  Thanks to my support peeps @sixstring @KD2 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15299) @Bigdiesel90 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=14797) @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @jjg009 @Hunter4life (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15792) @INKcogKNEEdough (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=205) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) and a whole lot of others.
Stay loyal to your routine. Great job.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Hunter4life on November 02, 2019, 09:20:19 AM
Day 33...what can I say..I am committed to my quit  one day at a time.  Recent days have been filled with firsts.  First time bathroom experience with no fake chew or any crutch.  First time road trip no nic...lots of seeds.  First time funeral..(supporting someone else loss).  I feel good...get some intense craves I just fill with seeds.  I still think about dip...I dont understand how anyone that dipped for any amount of time not thinking about it at some point.  The important this is I'm quit one day at a time.  Thanks to my support peeps @sixstring @KD2 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15299) @Bigdiesel90 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=14797) @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @jjg009 @Hunter4life (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15792) @INKcogKNEEdough (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=205) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) and a whole lot of others.

@jsjohnson (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15659) Keep up the good work! I challenged myself and found early on that the crutch only prolongs things, as far as oral fixation. The oral fixation was just as tough as the nicotine withdrawals. But so far, I’ve beat that too, so great news on releasing the crutch. I’ve been doing great as well with your support. I’m proud to be quit with you!!
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: SixString on November 02, 2019, 09:38:25 AM
Day 33...what can I say..I am committed to my quit  one day at a time.  Recent days have been filled with firsts.  First time bathroom experience with no fake chew or any crutch.  First time road trip no nic...lots of seeds.  First time funeral..(supporting someone else loss).  I feel good...get some intense craves I just fill with seeds.  I still think about dip...I dont understand how anyone that dipped for any amount of time not thinking about it at some point.  The important this is I'm quit one day at a time.  Thanks to my support peeps @sixstring @KD2 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15299) @Bigdiesel90 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=14797) @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @jjg009 @Hunter4life (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15792) @INKcogKNEEdough (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=205) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) and a whole lot of others.
John I got a story to tell you.. one day I was jogging and ran into a peanut store. It was a store full of nuts. They had small nuts, big nuts,and just regular size nuts. Some nuts were heavy, while other nuts were light as a feather. There were hairy nuts, and smooth nuts. But the craziest thing the owner of this nut shop was an elephant....What?? He told me he was a recovering sex addict. He told me that these nuts reminded him of the time he was a bull in a China shop.. there was a story about a bull in a china shop.... meh you know what?... you dont pay me enough to write these stories for you @jsjohnson (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15659) have a strong quit day today. Give the wife a kiss cheek for me.. I'll talk to you later @jsjohnson (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15659) gonna visit Narnia in my closet now. Later gator.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on November 06, 2019, 02:28:28 PM
Day 37   I think I will be putting out a petition soon to get my name changed to CrusherOfSeeds lol....because I am doing at least a bag of seeds a day.  I have actually been cutting back a bit on the seeds and rarely use the fake stuff.  I think everything has been pretty good...there has been some irritability.  I just have to think real hard about why and what I am getting irritable about.  I have been spending alot of time researching through some of the older HOF quit groups.  Recently has been July 13.  It is interesting to see how some of the old vets went through their days.  I am quit today and everyday one day at a time.   
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: 69franx on November 06, 2019, 07:17:55 PM
Day 37   I think I will be putting out a petition soon to get my name changed to CrusherOfSeeds lol....because I am doing at least a bag of seeds a day.  I have actually been cutting back a bit on the seeds and rarely use the fake stuff.  I think everything has been pretty good...there has been some irritability.  I just have to think real hard about why and what I am getting irritable about.  I have been spending alot of time researching through some of the older HOF quit groups.  Recently has been July 13.  It is interesting to see how some of the old vets went through their days.  I am quit today and everyday one day at a time.
Great stuff here JSJ. There is so much history here on the site. Once you start reading, you will likely start to see the patterns that pop up regularly on KTC. The bad boy group that fights back, the butterflies that have a better way, the late posters, the badass quitters that chase them down. Its kind of like Hollywood: there are no original stories here; we are all addicts with similar mind sets, same drives, same needs and same ways of acting out and seeking attention. If you are on roll, you're doing the right thing. Sending you a pm as well here soon.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on November 08, 2019, 03:09:09 PM
Well today was going good until @Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) , banned me from live chat for no reason what so ever.  @69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26) @FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @INKcogKNEEdough (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=205)
I have been nothing but a rule abiding member in this forum....why would I just suddenly get kicked out of live chat.  PLEASE PLEASE LET ME KNOW. 
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: FISHFLORIDA on November 08, 2019, 03:16:27 PM
Well today was going good until @Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) , banned me from live chat for no reason what so ever.  @69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26) @FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @INKcogKNEEdough (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=205)
I have been nothing but a rule abiding member in this forum....why would I just suddenly get kicked out of live chat.  PLEASE PLEASE LET ME KNOW.
Complete mistake.  working to get you back on.  Bat is trying to get in touch with you to let you know.  Nothin but love.  Please hold...
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Batdad on November 08, 2019, 04:09:22 PM
Well today was going good until @Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) , banned me from live chat for no reason what so ever.  @69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26) @FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @INKcogKNEEdough (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=205)
I have been nothing but a rule abiding member in this forum....why would I just suddenly get kicked out of live chat.  PLEASE PLEASE LET ME KNOW.
Complete mistake.  working to get you back on.  Bat is trying to get in touch with you to let you know.  Nothin but love.  Please hold...
Total fat finger on my part. I was aiming for the troll and hit you by mistake. I'm an idiot and super sorry man
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on November 08, 2019, 04:34:12 PM
Well today was going good until @Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) , banned me from live chat for no reason what so ever.  @69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26) @FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @INKcogKNEEdough (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=205)
I have been nothing but a rule abiding member in this forum....why would I just suddenly get kicked out of live chat.  PLEASE PLEASE LET ME KNOW.
Complete mistake.  working to get you back on.  Bat is trying to get in touch with you to let you know.  Nothin but love.  Please hold...
Total fat finger on my part. I was aiming for the troll and hit you by mistake. I'm an idiot and super sorry man
@Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) @FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) @Zeus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1968)
Its all good, I thought I had somehow did something wrong.  Figured you would at least approach me about what I had done before getting slapped by the ban sword.  It does not help that as I approach 40 days I am very Irritable.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on November 08, 2019, 06:18:38 PM
Well today was going good until @Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) , banned me from live chat for no reason what so ever.  @69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26) @FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @INKcogKNEEdough (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=205)
I have been nothing but a rule abiding member in this forum....why would I just suddenly get kicked out of live chat.  PLEASE PLEASE LET ME KNOW.
Complete mistake.  working to get you back on.  Bat is trying to get in touch with you to let you know.  Nothin but love.  Please hold...
Total fat finger on my part. I was aiming for the troll and hit you by mistake. I'm an idiot and super sorry man
@Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) @FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) @Zeus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1968)
Its all good, I thought I had somehow did something wrong.  Figured you would at least approach me about what I had done before getting slapped by the ban sword.  It does not help that as I approach 40 days I am very Irritable.
@FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) @Samrs (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=8) A life raft please....still not able to get into chat...and did not see @Samrs (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=8) response to putting KTC.ORG on dip cans as a warning lable....If no life raft...maybe a beer keg?
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Zeus on November 08, 2019, 06:23:14 PM
Well today was going good until @Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) , banned me from live chat for no reason what so ever.  @69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26) @FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @INKcogKNEEdough (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=205)
I have been nothing but a rule abiding member in this forum....why would I just suddenly get kicked out of live chat.  PLEASE PLEASE LET ME KNOW.
Complete mistake.  working to get you back on.  Bat is trying to get in touch with you to let you know.  Nothin but love.  Please hold...
Total fat finger on my part. I was aiming for the troll and hit you by mistake. I'm an idiot and super sorry man
@Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) @FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) @Zeus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1968)
Its all good, I thought I had somehow did something wrong.  Figured you would at least approach me about what I had done before getting slapped by the ban sword.  It does not help that as I approach 40 days I am very Irritable.
@FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) @Samrs (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=8) A life raft please....still not able to get into chat...and did not see @Samrs (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=8) response to putting KTC.ORG on dip cans as a warning lable....If no life raft...maybe a beer keg?
I think putting KTC.ORG on all dip cans is a great idea.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: SixString on November 08, 2019, 06:24:58 PM
Well today was going good until @Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) , banned me from live chat for no reason what so ever.  @69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26) @FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @INKcogKNEEdough (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=205)
I have been nothing but a rule abiding member in this forum....why would I just suddenly get kicked out of live chat.  PLEASE PLEASE LET ME KNOW.
Complete mistake.  working to get you back on.  Bat is trying to get in touch with you to let you know.  Nothin but love.  Please hold...
Total fat finger on my part. I was aiming for the troll and hit you by mistake. I'm an idiot and super sorry man
@Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) @FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) @Zeus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1968)
Its all good, I thought I had somehow did something wrong.  Figured you would at least approach me about what I had done before getting slapped by the ban sword.  It does not help that as I approach 40 days I am very Irritable.
@FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) @Samrs (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=8) A life raft please....still not able to get into chat...and did not see @Samrs (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=8) response to putting KTC.ORG on dip cans as a warning lable....If no life raft...maybe a beer keg?
I think putting KTC.ORG on all dip cans is a great idea.
#FREEMYMANJOHN
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: SixString on November 08, 2019, 06:26:31 PM
Well today was going good until @Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) , banned me from live chat for no reason what so ever.  @69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26) @FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @INKcogKNEEdough (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=205)
I have been nothing but a rule abiding member in this forum....why would I just suddenly get kicked out of live chat.  PLEASE PLEASE LET ME KNOW.
Complete mistake.  working to get you back on.  Bat is trying to get in touch with you to let you know.  Nothin but love.  Please hold...
Total fat finger on my part. I was aiming for the troll and hit you by mistake. I'm an idiot and super sorry man
@Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) @FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) @Zeus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1968)
Its all good, I thought I had somehow did something wrong.  Figured you would at least approach me about what I had done before getting slapped by the ban sword.  It does not help that as I approach 40 days I am very Irritable.
@FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) @Samrs (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=8) A life raft please....still not able to get into chat...and did not see @Samrs (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=8) response to putting KTC.ORG on dip cans as a warning lable....If no life raft...maybe a beer keg?
I think putting KTC.ORG on all dip cans is a great idea.
#FREEMYMANJOHN
#JUSTICEFORJOHN                lmao I love everyone in this post
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on November 08, 2019, 06:29:28 PM
Well today was going good until @Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) , banned me from live chat for no reason what so ever.  @69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26) @FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @INKcogKNEEdough (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=205)
I have been nothing but a rule abiding member in this forum....why would I just suddenly get kicked out of live chat.  PLEASE PLEASE LET ME KNOW.
Complete mistake.  working to get you back on.  Bat is trying to get in touch with you to let you know.  Nothin but love.  Please hold...
Total fat finger on my part. I was aiming for the troll and hit you by mistake. I'm an idiot and super sorry man
@Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) @FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) @Zeus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1968)
Its all good, I thought I had somehow did something wrong.  Figured you would at least approach me about what I had done before getting slapped by the ban sword.  It does not help that as I approach 40 days I am very Irritable.
@FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) @Samrs (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=8) A life raft please....still not able to get into chat...and did not see @Samrs (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=8) response to putting KTC.ORG on dip cans as a warning lable....If no life raft...maybe a beer keg?
I think putting KTC.ORG on all dip cans is a great idea.
#FREEMYMANJOHN
All I know...is that if @Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) walks in the room I am running and diving for the biggest hole possible ...cause when he swings the mighty sword.....heads will roll LOL.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Samrs on November 08, 2019, 09:00:51 PM
Well today was going good until @Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) , banned me from live chat for no reason what so ever.  @69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26) @FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @INKcogKNEEdough (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=205)
I have been nothing but a rule abiding member in this forum....why would I just suddenly get kicked out of live chat.  PLEASE PLEASE LET ME KNOW.
Complete mistake.  working to get you back on.  Bat is trying to get in touch with you to let you know.  Nothin but love.  Please hold...
Total fat finger on my part. I was aiming for the troll and hit you by mistake. I'm an idiot and super sorry man
@Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) @FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) @Zeus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1968)
Its all good, I thought I had somehow did something wrong.  Figured you would at least approach me about what I had done before getting slapped by the ban sword.  It does not help that as I approach 40 days I am very Irritable.
@FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) @Samrs (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=8) A life raft please....still not able to get into chat...and did not see @Samrs (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=8) response to putting KTC.ORG on dip cans as a warning lable....If no life raft...maybe a beer keg?
I think putting KTC.ORG on all dip cans is a great idea.
#FREEMYMANJOHN
All I know...is that if @Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) walks in the room I am running and diving for the biggest hole possible ...cause when he swings the mighty sword.....heads will roll LOL.
roflmao
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Samrs on November 08, 2019, 09:02:33 PM
Well today was going good until @Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) , banned me from live chat for no reason what so ever.  @69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26) @FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @INKcogKNEEdough (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=205)
I have been nothing but a rule abiding member in this forum....why would I just suddenly get kicked out of live chat.  PLEASE PLEASE LET ME KNOW.
Complete mistake.  working to get you back on.  Bat is trying to get in touch with you to let you know.  Nothin but love.  Please hold...
Total fat finger on my part. I was aiming for the troll and hit you by mistake. I'm an idiot and super sorry man
@Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) @FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) @Zeus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1968)
Its all good, I thought I had somehow did something wrong.  Figured you would at least approach me about what I had done before getting slapped by the ban sword.  It does not help that as I approach 40 days I am very Irritable.
@FISHFLORIDA (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=7) @Samrs (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=8) A life raft please....still not able to get into chat...and did not see @Samrs (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=8) response to putting KTC.ORG on dip cans as a warning lable....If no life raft...maybe a beer keg?
I think putting KTC.ORG on all dip cans is a great idea.
#FREEMYMANJOHN
All I know...is that if @Batdad (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=2) walks in the room I am running and diving for the biggest hole possible ...cause when he swings the mighty sword.....heads will roll LOL.
roflmao
We are looking at it, John.  I hope we can get it resolved soon.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on November 11, 2019, 05:08:30 PM
42 days...6 weeks  Feeling pretty good about it.  I have been irritable this past week had a couple of pretty strong craves that I beat off with seeds.  Got to meet up with some Heavy Hitter Quitter's last night.  Had a kick ass time with @bubblehed668 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1864) @UncleRico (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=208) @Kdip (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=165) @Gregor (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=348) , thanks a ton guys for letting me hang out with yall. 
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on November 19, 2019, 08:51:51 PM
Day 50  Not sure what to say.  Getting closer to my guys in my group of Jan 20, more and more of our quit group is getting involved.  I am feeling pretty good about my quit.  I have had to meet ups with some badass quitters in Houston Texas.  I am slowly trying to push away from crutches such as seeds and fake dip.  I have not used the fake dip in like 4 days, I guess I just carry the can around to make myself feel better lol.  I still hit the seeds but not as bad as in the first several weeks.  I will say without my peeps on this site this would have really sucked to the 50 day ....or sadly I would not have made it.  I still have not given a serious thought to a crave and dont plan too.  I still think my days drag on endlessly, but some of that may have to do with my shitty work schedule.  Anyhow....I am proud to be quit with you bad ass quitters today. 
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on November 29, 2019, 05:17:01 AM
Day 60   Things do get better one day at a time.  I have found myself not wanting seeds as much in the past few days and I cant remember when I put in a fake snuff.  I get a crave...I just push through it and forget about it in a minute or so.  I do feel like I am in a little bit of a funk, kinda bored with it all, but then I get to see good people like @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) hit his HOF, I start feeling better about it.  My wife tells me I am a little less grouchy, so I guess that is a win also.  Yesterday at Thanksgiving my Father in Law, asked me if I was still quit, I told him yup...59 days.  My brother in law just looked at me and said there is no fucking way he could do it.  I told him there was but he did not want to listen.  Later on when all the guys went outside for post dinner dip, I just popped a sugar free jolly rancher in and stayed in side with the kids lol.  One day at a time. 
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: ChickDip on November 29, 2019, 03:55:48 PM
Day 60   Things do get better one day at a time.  I have found myself not wanting seeds as much in the past few days and I cant remember when I put in a fake snuff.  I get a crave...I just push through it and forget about it in a minute or so.  I do feel like I am in a little bit of a funk, kinda bored with it all, but then I get to see good people like @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) hit his HOF, I start feeling better about it.  My wife tells me I am a little less grouchy, so I guess that is a win also.  Yesterday at Thanksgiving my Father in Law, asked me if I was still quit, I told him yup...59 days.  My brother in law just looked at me and said there is no fucking way he could do it.  I told him there was but he did not want to listen.  Later on when all the guys went outside for post dinner dip, I just popped a sugar free jolly rancher in and stayed in side with the kids lol.  One day at a time.
Amazing victories JS!
The road is long, but doable with people along for the ride.

Complacency is a real thing all throughout, even after HOF, but keep that in your mind and don't let the boredom win.
Proud to quit with you today JS.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: SixString on November 29, 2019, 04:53:21 PM
Day 60   Things do get better one day at a time.  I have found myself not wanting seeds as much in the past few days and I cant remember when I put in a fake snuff.  I get a crave...I just push through it and forget about it in a minute or so.  I do feel like I am in a little bit of a funk, kinda bored with it all, but then I get to see good people like @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) hit his HOF, I start feeling better about it.  My wife tells me I am a little less grouchy, so I guess that is a win also.  Yesterday at Thanksgiving my Father in Law, asked me if I was still quit, I told him yup...59 days.  My brother in law just looked at me and said there is no fucking way he could do it.  I told him there was but he did not want to listen.  Later on when all the guys went outside for post dinner dip, I just popped a sugar free jolly rancher in and stayed in side with the kids lol.  One day at a time.
Amazing victories JS!
The road is long, but doable with people along for the ride.

Complacency is a real thing all throughout, even after HOF, but keep that in your mind and don't let the boredom win.
Proud to quit with you today JS.
This is a great victory. I'm proud of you john. ODAAT. And you sir are just straight killing it. I hope you had a smile on your face and flicked him off when you had a chance. Stay sexy john you are a sexy man
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Cspence on November 29, 2019, 05:36:27 PM
Day 60   Things do get better one day at a time.  I have found myself not wanting seeds as much in the past few days and I cant remember when I put in a fake snuff.  I get a crave...I just push through it and forget about it in a minute or so.  I do feel like I am in a little bit of a funk, kinda bored with it all, but then I get to see good people like @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) hit his HOF, I start feeling better about it.  My wife tells me I am a little less grouchy, so I guess that is a win also.  Yesterday at Thanksgiving my Father in Law, asked me if I was still quit, I told him yup...59 days.  My brother in law just looked at me and said there is no fucking way he could do it.  I told him there was but he did not want to listen.  Later on when all the guys went outside for post dinner dip, I just popped a sugar free jolly rancher in and stayed in side with the kids lol.  One day at a time.
Amazing victories JS!
The road is long, but doable with people along for the ride.

Complacency is a real thing all throughout, even after HOF, but keep that in your mind and don't let the boredom win.
Proud to quit with you today JS.
This is a great victory. I'm proud of you john. ODAAT. And you sir are just straight killing it. I hope you had a smile on your face and flicked him off when you had a chance. Stay sexy john you are a sexy man
Thank you JSJ for the words of encouragement. That had to be tough with everyone around you dipping like a bunch of fools. Proud of you man and happy for you. Guess your bro is just weak. Congrats on 60 days.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Athan on November 30, 2019, 08:22:18 AM
Day 60   Things do get better one day at a time.  I have found myself not wanting seeds as much in the past few days and I cant remember when I put in a fake snuff.  I get a crave...I just push through it and forget about it in a minute or so.  I do feel like I am in a little bit of a funk, kinda bored with it all, but then I get to see good people like @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) hit his HOF, I start feeling better about it.  My wife tells me I am a little less grouchy, so I guess that is a win also.  Yesterday at Thanksgiving my Father in Law, asked me if I was still quit, I told him yup...59 days.  My brother in law just looked at me and said there is no fucking way he could do it.  I told him there was but he did not want to listen.  Later on when all the guys went outside for post dinner dip, I just popped a sugar free jolly rancher in and stayed in side with the kids lol.  One day at a time.
You, Sir, are the real deal! Of seven boys I'm the only one clean.  Breaks my heart. You can't quit for them.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on December 09, 2019, 07:31:29 PM
Day 70  I guess I am in a funk, have been since last Thursday and got worse on Friday with all the group fighting.  I'm bored as hell, got craves like I have never had before, It is like things are real but not real, time drags on.  This sucks ass, I thought I should feel better at day 70.  I been beating down the craves with seeds and took a fake dip last night, was the first time in over 30 days.  I have no choice but to try and hunker down through this.  This really sucks.  I am still quit today though. 
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Keith0617 on December 09, 2019, 08:50:08 PM
Day 70  I guess I am in a funk, have been since last Thursday and got worse on Friday with all the group fighting.  I'm bored as hell, got craves like I have never had before, It is like things are real but not real, time drags on.  This sucks ass, I thought I should feel better at day 70.  I been beating down the craves with seeds and took a fake dip last night, was the first time in over 30 days.  I have no choice but to try and hunker down through this.  This really sucks.  I am still quit today though.

Just ride the wave big man. You got this. In a few days the funk will be over and it will be better. Before you know it the craves are less frequent and severe. Keep using your tools.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Athan on December 09, 2019, 09:06:22 PM
Day 70  I guess I am in a funk, have been since last Thursday and got worse on Friday with all the group fighting.  I'm bored as hell, got craves like I have never had before, It is like things are real but not real, time drags on.  This sucks ass, I thought I should feel better at day 70.  I been beating down the craves with seeds and took a fake dip last night, was the first time in over 30 days.  I have no choice but to try and hunker down through this.  This really sucks.  I am still quit today though.

Just ride the wave big man. You got this. In a few days the funk will be over and it will be better. Before you know it the craves are less frequent and severe. Keep using your tools.
Shoot I remember those.  Great job blogging it out. You edify me doing so and reminding me how fragile it can be.  PTBQWYT
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: chris2alaska on December 09, 2019, 09:08:39 PM
Day 70  I guess I am in a funk, have been since last Thursday and got worse on Friday with all the group fighting.  I'm bored as hell, got craves like I have never had before, It is like things are real but not real, time drags on.  This sucks ass, I thought I should feel better at day 70.  I been beating down the craves with seeds and took a fake dip last night, was the first time in over 30 days.  I have no choice but to try and hunker down through this.  This really sucks.  I am still quit today though.

Just ride the wave big man. You got this. In a few days the funk will be over and it will be better. Before you know it the craves are less frequent and severe. Keep using your tools.
Shoot I remember those.  Great job blogging it out. You edify me doing so and reminding me how fragile it can be.  PTBQWYT

Yes, you are in the Pre-HOF Funk.  It will be over in a few days.  There is another bad one that comes just after HOF, so be prepared.  Always have a plan and always have your phone and phone numbers with you.  Reach out if you need to, we are all here for you.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: EXBEARHAG on December 09, 2019, 10:16:38 PM
Day 70  I guess I am in a funk, have been since last Thursday and got worse on Friday with all the group fighting.  I'm bored as hell, got craves like I have never had before, It is like things are real but not real, time drags on.  This sucks ass, I thought I should feel better at day 70.  I been beating down the craves with seeds and took a fake dip last night, was the first time in over 30 days.  I have no choice but to try and hunker down through this.  This really sucks.  I am still quit today though.

Just ride the wave big man. You got this. In a few days the funk will be over and it will be better. Before you know it the craves are less frequent and severe. Keep using your tools.
Shoot I remember those.  Great job blogging it out. You edify me doing so and reminding me how fragile it can be.  PTBQWYT

Yes, you are in the Pre-HOF Funk.  It will be over in a few days.  There is another bad one that comes just after HOF, so be prepared.  Always have a plan and always have your phone and phone numbers with you.  Reach out if you need to, we are all here for you.

Hold the line JS.  Suck now...peace and freedom down the road.  You got this shit.
PTBQWYT my friend.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: dladd on December 10, 2019, 08:39:24 AM
Day 70  I guess I am in a funk, have been since last Thursday and got worse on Friday with all the group fighting.  I'm bored as hell, got craves like I have never had before, It is like things are real but not real, time drags on.  This sucks ass, I thought I should feel better at day 70.  I been beating down the craves with seeds and took a fake dip last night, was the first time in over 30 days.  I have no choice but to try and hunker down through this.  This really sucks.  I am still quit today though.


Just ride the wave big man. You got this. In a few days the funk will be over and it will be better. Before you know it the craves are less frequent and severe. Keep using your tools.
Shoot I remember those.  Great job blogging it out. You edify me doing so and reminding me how fragile it can be.  PTBQWYT

Yes, you are in the Pre-HOF Funk.  It will be over in a few days.  There is another bad one that comes just after HOF, so be prepared.  Always have a plan and always have your phone and phone numbers with you.  Reach out if you need to, we are all here for you.

Hold the line JS.  Suck now...peace and freedom down the road.  You got this shit.
PTBQWYT my friend.

jsjohnson

You and I are at exactly the same point in our quit, 71 days, and I am getting the same symptoms that you are.  I keep telling myself that if I were to cave I would fully regret it 2 seconds after.  While it seems like something I would really enjoy right at this second, I know that it would be the renewal of a lifelong curse that was never a positive in my life.  You have one of the strongest quits going in the January 2020 group and you WILL NOT blow this.  You've got my number and we are in this together.

dladd
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on January 02, 2020, 12:25:16 PM
Day 94   6 days and I board the HOF Train!   Man it has been a rough ride, but like the vets keep telling us...everything gets better one day at a time.  My January 20 group has lost alot of quitters in the first 100 days.  Saying that.......20 Bad Ass quitters are still with us.  I am proud of each and every one of my January 20 bad ass quitters.  I have had alot of firsts in the past 20 days.  The holidays dip free, traveling on vacation dip free and probaly the biggest, New Year's Eve dip free (and surrounded by family members that still use tobacco).  I remember going through my brother-in-law's garage to get a drink on New Year's eve and walking past his can laying on the work bench.  I just looked at it and told myself that dead plant in a plastic can no longer has control over me.  I know I stil have 6 more days until HOF, and know this is just the beginning for a tobacco free life, but I would like to thank all my peeps from my January 20 quit group, in particular @JJG009 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15604) and @Hunter4life (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15792) , I would also like to give special thanks to @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) and @KD2 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15299) who really carried me through my first 60 days of my quit.  I also would like to thank the vets that have supported me every day, @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) @INKcogKNEEdough (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=205) @UncleRico (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=208) @campbellmi13 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1410) @Broccoli-saurus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=10) @Tonifer (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=396) @oldschool (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1411) @Bigdiesel90 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=14797) and @69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26) .  Lots of support and ongoing support.  Posting roll every day, and quitting one day at a time are the keys to ongoing success. 
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: EXBEARHAG on January 02, 2020, 12:46:55 PM
Day 94   6 days and I board the HOF Train!   Man it has been a rough ride, but like the vets keep telling us...everything gets better one day at a time.  My January 20 group has lost alot of quitters in the first 100 days.  Saying that.......20 Bad Ass quitters are still with us.  I am proud of each and every one of my January 20 bad ass quitters.  I have had alot of firsts in the past 20 days.  The holidays dip free, traveling on vacation dip free and probaly the biggest, New Year's Eve dip free (and surrounded by family members that still use tobacco).  I remember going through my brother-in-law's garage to get a drink on New Year's eve and walking past his can laying on the work bench.  I just looked at it and told myself that dead plant in a plastic can no longer has control over me.  I know I stil have 6 more days until HOF, and know this is just the beginning for a tobacco free life, but I would like to thank all my peeps from my January 20 quit group, in particular @JJG009 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15604) and @Hunter4life (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15792) , I would also like to give special thanks to @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) and @KD2 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15299) who really carried me through my first 60 days of my quit.  I also would like to thank the vets that have supported me every day, @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) @INKcogKNEEdough (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=205) @UncleRico (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=208) @campbellmi13 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1410) @Broccoli-saurus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=10) @Tonifer (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=396) @oldschool (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1411) @Bigdiesel90 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=14797) and @69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26) .  Lots of support and ongoing support.  Posting roll every day, and quitting one day at a time are the keys to ongoing success.

Great work JS.  I have had a special eye on you since I read your intro roughly 96 days ago.  We took different tests but we work in the same world and, I would imagine, have similar stressors and dependencies.  I don't have to tell you 96 days is a BIG deal.  I'm very happy for you.  My digits are always available if you like.  Congrats my friend.  Keep it up.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: 69franx on January 02, 2020, 01:10:01 PM
Day 94   6 days and I board the HOF Train!   Man it has been a rough ride, but like the vets keep telling us...everything gets better one day at a time.  My January 20 group has lost alot of quitters in the first 100 days.  Saying that.......20 Bad Ass quitters are still with us.  I am proud of each and every one of my January 20 bad ass quitters.  I have had alot of firsts in the past 20 days.  The holidays dip free, traveling on vacation dip free and probaly the biggest, New Year's Eve dip free (and surrounded by family members that still use tobacco).  I remember going through my brother-in-law's garage to get a drink on New Year's eve and walking past his can laying on the work bench.  I just looked at it and told myself that dead plant in a plastic can no longer has control over me.  I know I stil have 6 more days until HOF, and know this is just the beginning for a tobacco free life, but I would like to thank all my peeps from my January 20 quit group, in particular @JJG009 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15604) and @Hunter4life (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15792) , I would also like to give special thanks to @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) and @KD2 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15299) who really carried me through my first 60 days of my quit.  I also would like to thank the vets that have supported me every day, @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) @INKcogKNEEdough (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=205) @UncleRico (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=208) @campbellmi13 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1410) @Broccoli-saurus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=10) @Tonifer (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=396) @oldschool (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1411) @Bigdiesel90 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=14797) and @69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26) .  Lots of support and ongoing support.  Posting roll every day, and quitting one day at a time are the keys to ongoing success.

Great work JS.  I have had a special eye on you since I read your intro roughly 96 days ago.  We took different tests but we work in the same world and, I would imagine, have similar stressors and dependencies.  I don't have to tell you 96 days is a BIG deal.  I'm very happy for you.  My digits are always available if you like.  Congrats my friend.  Keep it up.
This looks like the beginning of a great HOF speech!
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: chris2alaska on January 02, 2020, 05:43:03 PM
Day 94   6 days and I board the HOF Train!   Man it has been a rough ride, but like the vets keep telling us...everything gets better one day at a time.  My January 20 group has lost alot of quitters in the first 100 days.  Saying that.......20 Bad Ass quitters are still with us.  I am proud of each and every one of my January 20 bad ass quitters.  I have had alot of firsts in the past 20 days.  The holidays dip free, traveling on vacation dip free and probaly the biggest, New Year's Eve dip free (and surrounded by family members that still use tobacco).  I remember going through my brother-in-law's garage to get a drink on New Year's eve and walking past his can laying on the work bench.  I just looked at it and told myself that dead plant in a plastic can no longer has control over me.  I know I stil have 6 more days until HOF, and know this is just the beginning for a tobacco free life, but I would like to thank all my peeps from my January 20 quit group, in particular @JJG009 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15604) and @Hunter4life (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15792) , I would also like to give special thanks to @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) and @KD2 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15299) who really carried me through my first 60 days of my quit.  I also would like to thank the vets that have supported me every day, @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) @INKcogKNEEdough (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=205) @UncleRico (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=208) @campbellmi13 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1410) @Broccoli-saurus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=10) @Tonifer (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=396) @oldschool (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1411) @Bigdiesel90 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=14797) and @69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26) .  Lots of support and ongoing support.  Posting roll every day, and quitting one day at a time are the keys to ongoing success.

Great work JS.  I have had a special eye on you since I read your intro roughly 96 days ago.  We took different tests but we work in the same world and, I would imagine, have similar stressors and dependencies.  I don't have to tell you 96 days is a BIG deal.  I'm very happy for you.  My digits are always available if you like.  Congrats my friend.  Keep it up.
This looks like the beginning of a great HOF speech!

I thought the same thing
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: UncleRico on January 02, 2020, 07:14:51 PM
Day 94   6 days and I board the HOF Train!   Man it has been a rough ride, but like the vets keep telling us...everything gets better one day at a time.  My January 20 group has lost alot of quitters in the first 100 days.  Saying that.......20 Bad Ass quitters are still with us.  I am proud of each and every one of my January 20 bad ass quitters.  I have had alot of firsts in the past 20 days.  The holidays dip free, traveling on vacation dip free and probaly the biggest, New Year's Eve dip free (and surrounded by family members that still use tobacco).  I remember going through my brother-in-law's garage to get a drink on New Year's eve and walking past his can laying on the work bench.  I just looked at it and told myself that dead plant in a plastic can no longer has control over me.  I know I stil have 6 more days until HOF, and know this is just the beginning for a tobacco free life, but I would like to thank all my peeps from my January 20 quit group, in particular @JJG009 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15604) and @Hunter4life (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15792) , I would also like to give special thanks to @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) and @KD2 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15299) who really carried me through my first 60 days of my quit.  I also would like to thank the vets that have supported me every day, @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) @INKcogKNEEdough (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=205) @UncleRico (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=208) @campbellmi13 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1410) @Broccoli-saurus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=10) @Tonifer (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=396) @oldschool (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1411) @Bigdiesel90 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=14797) and @69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26) .  Lots of support and ongoing support.  Posting roll every day, and quitting one day at a time are the keys to ongoing success.

Great work JS.  I have had a special eye on you since I read your intro roughly 96 days ago.  We took different tests but we work in the same world and, I would imagine, have similar stressors and dependencies.  I don't have to tell you 96 days is a BIG deal.  I'm very happy for you.  My digits are always available if you like.  Congrats my friend.  Keep it up.
This looks like the beginning of a great HOF speech!

I thought the same thing
Looking forward to raising a glass and eating some ribs in celebration. Glad our paths have crossed.  It will be done one day at a time
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: KD2 on January 02, 2020, 08:17:02 PM
Day 94   6 days and I board the HOF Train!   Man it has been a rough ride, but like the vets keep telling us...everything gets better one day at a time.  My January 20 group has lost alot of quitters in the first 100 days.  Saying that.......20 Bad Ass quitters are still with us.  I am proud of each and every one of my January 20 bad ass quitters.  I have had alot of firsts in the past 20 days.  The holidays dip free, traveling on vacation dip free and probaly the biggest, New Year's Eve dip free (and surrounded by family members that still use tobacco).  I remember going through my brother-in-law's garage to get a drink on New Year's eve and walking past his can laying on the work bench.  I just looked at it and told myself that dead plant in a plastic can no longer has control over me.  I know I stil have 6 more days until HOF, and know this is just the beginning for a tobacco free life, but I would like to thank all my peeps from my January 20 quit group, in particular @JJG009 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15604) and @Hunter4life (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15792) , I would also like to give special thanks to @SixString (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15311) and @KD2 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15299) who really carried me through my first 60 days of my quit.  I also would like to thank the vets that have supported me every day, @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) @INKcogKNEEdough (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=205) @UncleRico (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=208) @campbellmi13 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1410) @Broccoli-saurus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=10) @Tonifer (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=396) @oldschool (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1411) @Bigdiesel90 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=14797) and @69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26) .  Lots of support and ongoing support.  Posting roll every day, and quitting one day at a time are the keys to ongoing success.

Great work JS.  I have had a special eye on you since I read your intro roughly 96 days ago.  We took different tests but we work in the same world and, I would imagine, have similar stressors and dependencies.  I don't have to tell you 96 days is a BIG deal.  I'm very happy for you.  My digits are always available if you like.  Congrats my friend.  Keep it up.
This looks like the beginning of a great HOF speech!

I thought the same thing
Looking forward to raising a glass and eating some ribs in celebration. Glad our paths have crossed.  It will be done one day at a time
I like it Js. We’ll both have a coin next time we meet up! PTQWU
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on January 21, 2020, 04:24:19 PM
113  Well it has been a bit since I have been back here to my intro.  I been on the train partying it up with my people.  Every day does get better without nicotine.  I still believe that this site and the people in it help a lot of people stay quit, if you use it for that.  Unfortunately some just don't get it. 

On another note, I would like to know what the number of kills that @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) has.  I mean if you read the HOF speeches he is in a lot of them in directing people to the forum.  This guy has had to kill a shit ton of cans for the people he brought to the forum.  I personally believe he and @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) are working in tandem, because when I stumbled in here ..within minutes @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) had me posting roll and @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) was following up a couple of hours later with a phone call.  So I wanna know how many cans you both have been killing.  Yall might want to be careful,
Big Tobacco may attempt to put a bounty on both of yall lol.  Seriously thanks for what yall do. 
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: chris2alaska on January 21, 2020, 07:21:41 PM
113  Well it has been a bit since I have been back here to my intro.  I been on the train partying it up with my people.  Every day does get better without nicotine.  I still believe that this site and the people in it help a lot of people stay quit, if you use it for that.  Unfortunately some just don't get it. 

On another note, I would like to know what the number of kills that @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) has.  I mean if you read the HOF speeches he is in a lot of them in directing people to the forum.  This guy has had to kill a shit ton of cans for the people he brought to the forum.  I personally believe he and @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) are working in tandem, because when I stumbled in here ..within minutes @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) had me posting roll and @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) was following up a couple of hours later with a phone call.  So I wanna know how many cans you both have been killing.  Yall might want to be careful,
Big Tobacco may attempt to put a bounty on both of yall lol.  Seriously thanks for what yall do.

I personally have killed 2,203.75 tins since I quit @jsjohnson (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15659)
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Keith0617 on January 21, 2020, 08:17:53 PM
113  Well it has been a bit since I have been back here to my intro.  I been on the train partying it up with my people.  Every day does get better without nicotine.  I still believe that this site and the people in it help a lot of people stay quit, if you use it for that.  Unfortunately some just don't get it. 

On another note, I would like to know what the number of kills that @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) has.  I mean if you read the HOF speeches he is in a lot of them in directing people to the forum.  This guy has had to kill a shit ton of cans for the people he brought to the forum.  I personally believe he and @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) are working in tandem, because when I stumbled in here ..within minutes @chris2alaska (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=130) had me posting roll and @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) was following up a couple of hours later with a phone call.  So I wanna know how many cans you both have been killing.  Yall might want to be careful,
Big Tobacco may attempt to put a bounty on both of yall lol.  Seriously thanks for what yall do.

I personally have killed 2,203.75 tins since I quit @jsjohnson (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15659)

You are killing it @jsjohnson (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15659). Keep doing what you are doing. 
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on February 19, 2020, 11:38:19 AM
142    Second dip dream....I woke up with a dip in my mouth, first thing i asked myself was why?  Why the fuck would I do this, I dont even want it.  Then it dawned on me I have let all these people and myself down...what the fuck.  Then I was like ohhhhh nooo my people at KTC are gonna fucking kill me.  Then I really woke up.  Wheewww a dream.  I have read on here somewhere that these dreams are because the Nic bitch cant get you while you are awake, so that bitch will now attack your subconscious while you are sleeping.  Proud to be quit with you today!
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Keith0617 on February 19, 2020, 12:18:47 PM
142    Second dip dream....I woke up with a dip in my mouth, first thing i asked myself was why?  Why the fuck would I do this, I dont even want it.  Then it dawned on me I have let all these people and myself down...what the fuck.  Then I was like ohhhhh nooo my people at KTC are gonna fucking kill me.  Then I really woke up.  Wheewww a dream.  I have read on here somewhere that these dreams are because the Nic bitch cant get you while you are awake, so that bitch will now attack your subconscious while you are sleeping.  Proud to be quit with you today!
@jsjohnson (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15659)  They do SUCK!!!
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Athan on February 19, 2020, 06:52:04 PM
142    Second dip dream....I woke up with a dip in my mouth, first thing i asked myself was why?  Why the fuck would I do this, I dont even want it.  Then it dawned on me I have let all these people and myself down...what the fuck.  Then I was like ohhhhh nooo my people at KTC are gonna fucking kill me.  Then I really woke up.  Wheewww a dream.  I have read on here somewhere that these dreams are because the Nic bitch cant get you while you are awake, so that bitch will now attack your subconscious while you are sleeping.  Proud to be quit with you today!
@jsjohnson (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15659)  They do SUCK!!!
Two?! You've only had TWO?!!!
 
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Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Daviddim on February 20, 2020, 12:29:21 PM
142    Second dip dream....I woke up with a dip in my mouth, first thing i asked myself was why?  Why the fuck would I do this, I dont even want it.  Then it dawned on me I have let all these people and myself down...what the fuck.  Then I was like ohhhhh nooo my people at KTC are gonna fucking kill me.  Then I really woke up.  Wheewww a dream.  I have read on here somewhere that these dreams are because the Nic bitch cant get you while you are awake, so that bitch will now attack your subconscious while you are sleeping.  Proud to be quit with you today!
@jsjohnson (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15659)  They do SUCK!!!
Two?! You've only had TWO?!!!

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I FUCKIN HATEEEEE DIP DREAMS, it’s the most sinking feeling in the world. I had one literally last night as well, I remember finding a can in my dream and I was like oh just a tiny pinch won’t do anything. After I put it in in my dream I was like FUCK MY BROS AT KTC ARE GUNA EAT ME ALIVE, i actually aggressively dug that shit out of my cheek and threw it as hard as I could in my dream haha
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on February 20, 2020, 03:34:15 PM
142    Second dip dream....I woke up with a dip in my mouth, first thing i asked myself was why?  Why the fuck would I do this, I dont even want it.  Then it dawned on me I have let all these people and myself down...what the fuck.  Then I was like ohhhhh nooo my people at KTC are gonna fucking kill me.  Then I really woke up.  Wheewww a dream.  I have read on here somewhere that these dreams are because the Nic bitch cant get you while you are awake, so that bitch will now attack your subconscious while you are sleeping.  Proud to be quit with you today!
@jsjohnson (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15659)  They do SUCK!!!
Two?! You've only had TWO?!!!

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I FUCKIN HATEEEEE DIP DREAMS, it’s the most sinking feeling in the world. I had one literally last night as well, I remember finding a can in my dream and I was like oh just a tiny pinch won’t do anything. After I put it in in my dream I was like FUCK MY BROS AT KTC ARE GUNA EAT ME ALIVE, i actually aggressively dug that shit out of my cheek and threw it as hard as I could in my dream haha
#smfpackscodeAthan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258)
Jinxed me I had another that woke me up at 6am (I work evening shift) This one for some reason I was sitting in my truck I think waiting for my wife to get out of a store and I saw her walking to the parking lot and I was like holy shit I have a dip in, and I look down and there is an open can of copenhagen.  (which is weird cause i had not dipped cope in 15 years) I was scrambling to hide the can and spit out the fat nasty before my wife got in the truck.  She didnt notice anything, then I felt like shit because I was hiding it (I never ever hid dipping, my attitude was you dealt with it or just dont be around me).  Then again I was like my people at KTC are gonna kill me.  Then I woke up.  I sure hope this is not gonna go on every night, it is discouraging to go to bed now. 
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Athan on February 20, 2020, 05:55:21 PM
142    Second dip dream....I woke up with a dip in my mouth, first thing i asked myself was why?  Why the fuck would I do this, I dont even want it.  Then it dawned on me I have let all these people and myself down...what the fuck.  Then I was like ohhhhh nooo my people at KTC are gonna fucking kill me.  Then I really woke up.  Wheewww a dream.  I have read on here somewhere that these dreams are because the Nic bitch cant get you while you are awake, so that bitch will now attack your subconscious while you are sleeping.  Proud to be quit with you today!
@jsjohnson (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15659)  They do SUCK!!!
Two?! You've only had TWO?!!!

 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258)

I FUCKIN HATEEEEE DIP DREAMS, it’s the most sinking feeling in the world. I had one literally last night as well, I remember finding a can in my dream and I was like oh just a tiny pinch won’t do anything. After I put it in in my dream I was like FUCK MY BROS AT KTC ARE GUNA EAT ME ALIVE, i actually aggressively dug that shit out of my cheek and threw it as hard as I could in my dream haha
#smfpackscodeAthan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258)
Jinxed me I had another that woke me up at 6am (I work evening shift) This one for some reason I was sitting in my truck I think waiting for my wife to get out of a store and I saw her walking to the parking lot and I was like holy shit I have a dip in, and I look down and there is an open can of copenhagen.  (which is weird cause i had not dipped cope in 15 years) I was scrambling to hide the can and spit out the fat nasty before my wife got in the truck.  She didnt notice anything, then I felt like shit because I was hiding it (I never ever hid dipping, my attitude was you dealt with it or just dont be around me).  Then again I was like my people at KTC are gonna kill me.  Then I woke up.  I sure hope this is not gonna go on every night, it is discouraging to go to bed now.
/As bad as they are, few things cement the quit like a vivid dream. The sense of disappointment, the shame, etc. I don't EVER want to be there.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on September 16, 2020, 09:20:26 AM
coming up on a year.....2020 sucks major ass.  Depression sucks..but for the wife to ask ..where you going?....to get a can of snuff? After a year...still quit...not sure how tobacco would help with my depression other than make it worse.  This sucks.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Athan on September 16, 2020, 03:41:45 PM
coming up on a year.....2020 sucks major ass.  Depression sucks..but for the wife to ask ..where you going?....to get a can of snuff? After a year...still quit...not sure how tobacco would help with my depression other than make it worse.  This sucks.
1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems. Call me if you get tight.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on November 06, 2020, 04:52:30 PM
Well Day 403, I have not posted in my intro in a while and figured I would post today...................

Monday I went in for a Prostate biopsy and was told yesterday I have Prostate Cancer.  I am told it is treatable through surgery and radiation. So I will fight my way through this just like I have with Nicotine addiction. 

I will add that I do believe this is self inflicted through Nicotine use.  Some will argue that fact, but I will blame it on tobacco use.  There is absolutely no history in my family of prostate cancer.  So staying quit is the best thing you can do in your life. 
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: 69franx on November 06, 2020, 05:15:32 PM
Well Day 403, I have not posted in my intro in a while and figured I would post today...................

Monday I went in for a Prostate biopsy and was told yesterday I have Prostate Cancer.  I am told it is treatable through surgery and radiation. So I will fight my way through this just like I have with Nicotine addiction. 

I will add that I do believe this is self inflicted through Nicotine use.  Some will argue that fact, but I will blame it on tobacco use.  There is absolutely no history in my family of prostate cancer.  So staying quit is the best thing you can do in your life.
Sorry to hear this brother.  It's great that they caught it early enough to be confident in treatment though
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Aggies94 on November 06, 2020, 08:36:36 PM
Well Day 403, I have not posted in my intro in a while and figured I would post today...................

Monday I went in for a Prostate biopsy and was told yesterday I have Prostate Cancer.  I am told it is treatable through surgery and radiation. So I will fight my way through this just like I have with Nicotine addiction. 

I will add that I do believe this is self inflicted through Nicotine use.  Some will argue that fact, but I will blame it on tobacco use.  There is absolutely no history in my family of prostate cancer.  So staying quit is the best thing you can do in your life.
Sending prayers!
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: famous205 on November 06, 2020, 09:10:40 PM
Well Day 403, I have not posted in my intro in a while and figured I would post today...................

Monday I went in for a Prostate biopsy and was told yesterday I have Prostate Cancer.  I am told it is treatable through surgery and radiation. So I will fight my way through this just like I have with Nicotine addiction. 

I will add that I do believe this is self inflicted through Nicotine use.  Some will argue that fact, but I will blame it on tobacco use.  There is absolutely no history in my family of prostate cancer.  So staying quit is the best thing you can do in your life.

I’m sorry to hear that, man. I’m glad they were able to catch it early and I pray for a speedy recovery.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: EXBEARHAG on November 07, 2020, 09:28:54 PM
Well Day 403, I have not posted in my intro in a while and figured I would post today...................

Monday I went in for a Prostate biopsy and was told yesterday I have Prostate Cancer.  I am told it is treatable through surgery and radiation. So I will fight my way through this just like I have with Nicotine addiction. 

I will add that I do believe this is self inflicted through Nicotine use.  Some will argue that fact, but I will blame it on tobacco use.  There is absolutely no history in my family of prostate cancer.  So staying quit is the best thing you can do in your life.

We are with you brother.  Hold the line!
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Phxshadow on November 08, 2020, 12:35:42 AM
Well Day 403, I have not posted in my intro in a while and figured I would post today...................

Monday I went in for a Prostate biopsy and was told yesterday I have Prostate Cancer.  I am told it is treatable through surgery and radiation. So I will fight my way through this just like I have with Nicotine addiction. 

I will add that I do believe this is self inflicted through Nicotine use.  Some will argue that fact, but I will blame it on tobacco use.  There is absolutely no history in my family of prostate cancer.  So staying quit is the best thing you can do in your life.

Stay strong Brother. Will be praying for you.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: ChickDip on November 09, 2020, 12:41:21 PM
Well Day 403, I have not posted in my intro in a while and figured I would post today...................

Monday I went in for a Prostate biopsy and was told yesterday I have Prostate Cancer.  I am told it is treatable through surgery and radiation. So I will fight my way through this just like I have with Nicotine addiction. 

I will add that I do believe this is self inflicted through Nicotine use.  Some will argue that fact, but I will blame it on tobacco use.  There is absolutely no history in my family of prostate cancer.  So staying quit is the best thing you can do in your life.

Stay strong Brother. Will be praying for you.
Will be keeping you in my prayers every day JS
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: ankape on November 10, 2020, 05:14:40 PM
Well Day 403, I have not posted in my intro in a while and figured I would post today...................

Monday I went in for a Prostate biopsy and was told yesterday I have Prostate Cancer.  I am told it is treatable through surgery and radiation. So I will fight my way through this just like I have with Nicotine addiction. 

I will add that I do believe this is self inflicted through Nicotine use.  Some will argue that fact, but I will blame it on tobacco use.  There is absolutely no history in my family of prostate cancer.  So staying quit is the best thing you can do in your life.

Stay strong Brother. Will be praying for you.
Will be keeping you in my prayers every day JS
Prayers and strength to you Jsj.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: MN_Engineer on November 11, 2020, 11:41:23 AM
Well Day 403, I have not posted in my intro in a while and figured I would post today...................

Monday I went in for a Prostate biopsy and was told yesterday I have Prostate Cancer.  I am told it is treatable through surgery and radiation. So I will fight my way through this just like I have with Nicotine addiction. 

I will add that I do believe this is self inflicted through Nicotine use.  Some will argue that fact, but I will blame it on tobacco use.  There is absolutely no history in my family of prostate cancer.  So staying quit is the best thing you can do in your life.

Stay strong Brother. Will be praying for you.
Will be keeping you in my prayers every day JS
Prayers and strength to you Jsj.
Praying for healing during this time JS.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on January 26, 2021, 09:39:01 PM
Will be heading into surgery at 730 am for a radical prostectomy.  Hoping there will be no radiation or chemo following....will keep yall posted.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: EXBEARHAG on January 26, 2021, 11:18:38 PM
Will be heading into surgery at 730 am for a radical prostectomy.  Hoping there will be no radiation or chemo following....will keep yall posted.

Godspeed brother.  Thoughts and prayers headed your way!!
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: ChickDip on January 27, 2021, 01:47:32 AM
Will be heading into surgery at 730 am for a radical prostectomy.  Hoping there will be no radiation or chemo following....will keep yall posted.

Godspeed brother.  Thoughts and prayers headed your way!!
Prayers Will be going up now and many times tomorrow JS.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Keith0617 on January 27, 2021, 09:21:46 AM
Will be heading into surgery at 730 am for a radical prostectomy.  Hoping there will be no radiation or chemo following....will keep yall posted.

Godspeed brother.  Thoughts and prayers headed your way!!
Prayers Will be going up now and many times tomorrow JS.
Keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: MN_Engineer on January 27, 2021, 09:45:23 AM
Will be heading into surgery at 730 am for a radical prostectomy.  Hoping there will be no radiation or chemo following....will keep yall posted.

Godspeed brother.  Thoughts and prayers headed your way!!
Prayers Will be going up now and many times tomorrow JS.
Keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers
Prayers sir. Thanks for the update.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jbuck0506 on January 27, 2021, 10:48:27 AM
Will be heading into surgery at 730 am for a radical prostectomy.  Hoping there will be no radiation or chemo following....will keep yall posted.

Godspeed brother.  Thoughts and prayers headed your way!!
Prayers Will be going up now and many times tomorrow JS.
Keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers
Prayers sir. Thanks for the update.
Prayers for you JS.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: 69franx on January 27, 2021, 01:40:13 PM
Will be heading into surgery at 730 am for a radical prostectomy.  Hoping there will be no radiation or chemo following....will keep yall posted.

Godspeed brother.  Thoughts and prayers headed your way!!
Prayers Will be going up now and many times tomorrow JS.
Keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers
Prayers sir. Thanks for the update.
Prayers for you JS.
You're in our thought sir, here's hoping the surgery is successful and all that is needed
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Ampete on January 28, 2021, 08:45:04 PM
Will be heading into surgery at 730 am for a radical prostectomy.  Hoping there will be no radiation or chemo following....will keep yall posted.

Thoughts and prayers to you, your family, doctors and nurses.
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: ChickDip on January 30, 2021, 02:58:51 PM
Will be heading into surgery at 730 am for a radical prostectomy.  Hoping there will be no radiation or chemo following....will keep yall posted.

Godspeed brother.  Thoughts and prayers headed your way!!
Prayers Will be going up now and many times tomorrow JS.
Keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers
Prayers sir. Thanks for the update.
Prayers for you JS.
You're in our thought sir, here's hoping the surgery is successful and all that is needed
Thinking about you today. Been sending prayers up @jsjohnson (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15659)
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: jsjohnson on July 28, 2022, 03:17:39 PM
1032---It has been a year and half since my surgery for prostate cancer and I am still thankfully in remission/undetectable.  I don't think about dip or chew anymore and thankfully no dip dreams.  I do however get anxious when I do my blood tests to check for cancer.  I still believe one of the biggest kick in the nuts for me was being diagnosed with cancer after quitting this horrible addictive substance.  Just figured I would check in, stay quit!!!
Title: Re: Day 2
Post by: Hunter4life on July 30, 2022, 04:54:47 AM
1032---It has been a year and half since my surgery for prostate cancer and I am still thankfully in remission/undetectable.  I don't think about dip or chew anymore and thankfully no dip dreams.  I do however get anxious when I do my blood tests to check for cancer.  I still believe one of the biggest kick in the nuts for me was being diagnosed with cancer after quitting this horrible addictive substance.  Just figured I would check in, stay quit!!!

Glad you’re good brother!