D-Day H-Hour

[Sajax]

I've reached out to my support group and haven't heard back yet, but I could use someone to talk to. I'm in the live chat if anyone is around.

This has been sorted. I want to give a hearty thanks to group that reached out. You guys and gals are rock-stars!

[Sajax]

I've reached out to my support group and haven't heard back yet, but I could use someone to talk to. I'm in the live chat if anyone is around.

[BazookaJoe]

Reading through this whole thing again. I don't remember any of it  but I do want to recognize the folks who took time out of their day to help a lost, drama-queen, no good addict enough that when I got my life back to an even keel I knew KTC was the place to go for support.

I spend my time here fussing with people. I went through the thread of a fellow quitter who passed away and saw all the people who that quitter had impacted in a positive way. (Rest in Peace @traumagnet )

Have I helped anyone's quit? I don't think so. Not in any significant way. I think I would do best by looking for ways to help others like I said I wanted to at the start. Maybe I need to sign another promise every morning to put others first.

I got a lot of help my first time through here, and paid it back by caving. I want to personally apologize to the following quitters:

@Tuco
@Doc2quit4good
@Grizzlyhasclaws
@Mupig
@CavMan83
@redtrain14
@Nolaq
@Doc Chewfree
@slug.go
@ChristopherJ
@deerman
and yes @RAZD611

Everyone of you took time to find a lost addict and make sure he came home. I give my promise to stay nic-free and to also look for ways to help. That way your efforts weren't wasted and every person's life I help change for the better is because you all helped me.

Quit. Stay quit. That’s all WE care about here. The rest is your personal challenge. We will quit with you every day, your other obstacles will also require your full attention, too.
Glad you’re well.

Keep quitting with us one day at a time. We can’t change the past and no need to worry about the future. Ignore the noise and enjoy being nicotine free today.

Just stay quit this time Sajax. After going through what we went through in late 2014, you’d have to be as crazy as a shithouse rat to put yourself through all that crap again. But here you are. You’re better off here though. It’s a lot gentler and kind. You’ll do well in your current group with all you know about stopping. Best of luck and remember to burn your boat this time.

[Keith0617]

Reading through this whole thing again. I don't remember any of it  but I do want to recognize the folks who took time out of their day to help a lost, drama-queen, no good addict enough that when I got my life back to an even keel I knew KTC was the place to go for support.

I spend my time here fussing with people. I went through the thread of a fellow quitter who passed away and saw all the people who that quitter had impacted in a positive way. (Rest in Peace @traumagnet )

Have I helped anyone's quit? I don't think so. Not in any significant way. I think I would do best by looking for ways to help others like I said I wanted to at the start. Maybe I need to sign another promise every morning to put others first.

I got a lot of help my first time through here, and paid it back by caving. I want to personally apologize to the following quitters:

@Tuco
@Doc2quit4good
@Grizzlyhasclaws
@Mupig
@CavMan83
@redtrain14
@Nolaq
@Doc Chewfree
@slug.go
@ChristopherJ
@deerman
and yes @RAZD611

Everyone of you took time to find a lost addict and make sure he came home. I give my promise to stay nic-free and to also look for ways to help. That way your efforts weren't wasted and every person's life I help change for the better is because you all helped me.

Quit. Stay quit. That’s all WE care about here. The rest is your personal challenge. We will quit with you every day, your other obstacles will also require your full attention, too.
Glad you’re well.

Keep quitting with us one day at a time. We can’t change the past and no need to worry about the future. Ignore the noise and enjoy being nicotine free today.

[slug.go]

Reading through this whole thing again. I don't remember any of it  but I do want to recognize the folks who took time out of their day to help a lost, drama-queen, no good addict enough that when I got my life back to an even keel I knew KTC was the place to go for support.

I spend my time here fussing with people. I went through the thread of a fellow quitter who passed away and saw all the people who that quitter had impacted in a positive way. (Rest in Peace @traumagnet )

Have I helped anyone's quit? I don't think so. Not in any significant way. I think I would do best by looking for ways to help others like I said I wanted to at the start. Maybe I need to sign another promise every morning to put others first.

I got a lot of help my first time through here, and paid it back by caving. I want to personally apologize to the following quitters:

@Tuco
@Doc2quit4good
@Grizzlyhasclaws
@Mupig
@CavMan83
@redtrain14
@Nolaq
@Doc Chewfree
@slug.go
@ChristopherJ
@deerman
and yes @RAZD611

Everyone of you took time to find a lost addict and make sure he came home. I give my promise to stay nic-free and to also look for ways to help. That way your efforts weren't wasted and every person's life I help change for the better is because you all helped me.

Quit. Stay quit. That’s all WE care about here. The rest is your personal challenge. We will quit with you every day, your other obstacles will also require your full attention, too.
Glad you’re well.

[deerman]

Yeah, same here. I’m here to quit with people that understand. Even if I don’t know them personally, they understand what it takes, like nobody else. Not your wife, not tour friends not your parents. And that’s the power here. It’s simple. All else is superfluous. The drama, the grandstanding, the rage.it isn’t about you or me, how we feel, what we don’t feel how we fail or succeed. It is just about being nic free for today. It all falls away if you just come here one day at a time. There is no magic. Just willpower and determination.
So, in that sense, @Sajax, welcome back. Will you make it this time?

See you tomorrow

Deerman.

[RAZD611]

Reading through this whole thing again. I don't remember any of it  but I do want to recognize the folks who took time out of their day to help a lost, drama-queen, no good addict enough that when I got my life back to an even keel I knew KTC was the place to go for support.

I spend my time here fussing with people. I went through the thread of a fellow quitter who passed away and saw all the people who that quitter had impacted in a positive way. (Rest in Peace @traumagnet )

Have I helped anyone's quit? I don't think so. Not in any significant way. I think I would do best by looking for ways to help others like I said I wanted to at the start. Maybe I need to sign another promise every morning to put others first.

I got a lot of help my first time through here, and paid it back by caving. I want to personally apologize to the following quitters:

@Tuco
@Doc2quit4good
@Grizzlyhasclaws
@Mupig
@CavMan83
@redtrain14
@Nolaq
@Doc Chewfree
@slug.go
@ChristopherJ
@deerman
and yes @RAZD611

Everyone of you took time to find a lost addict and make sure he came home. I give my promise to stay nic-free and to also look for ways to help. That way your efforts weren't wasted and every person's life I help change for the better is because you all helped me.

The only thing you own me is your word everyday. (handjobs are nice too  .

I am the way I am for a reason. I hope you see that now. Addicts have never had anyone sit them down and tell them the way it is, Addict are always coddled, asked nicely, patted on the ass with an atta boy, its ok, you'll get em next time. Thats great if failure is an option. It is not an option here. I will always be here for anyone that needs accountbility and makes an attempt at being quit.

Keep your ass on that horse even if you have to tie your hands to the horn and glue your ass to the saddle.

[Sajax]

Reading through this whole thing again. I don't remember any of it  but I do want to recognize the folks who took time out of their day to help a lost, drama-queen, no good addict enough that when I got my life back to an even keel I knew KTC was the place to go for support.

I spend my time here fussing with people. I went through the thread of a fellow quitter who passed away and saw all the people who that quitter had impacted in a positive way. (Rest in Peace @traumagnet )

Have I helped anyone's quit? I don't think so. Not in any significant way. I think I would do best by looking for ways to help others like I said I wanted to at the start. Maybe I need to sign another promise every morning to put others first.

I got a lot of help my first time through here, and paid it back by caving. I want to personally apologize to the following quitters:

@Tuco
@Doc2quit4good
@Grizzlyhasclaws
@Mupig
@CavMan83
@redtrain14
@Nolaq
@Doc Chewfree
@slug.go
@ChristopherJ
@deerman
and yes @RAZD611

Everyone of you took time to find a lost addict and make sure he came home. I give my promise to stay nic-free and to also look for ways to help. That way your efforts weren't wasted and every person's life I help change for the better is because you all helped me.

[Athan]

... But never let the side topics consume you or become a detriment to your quit.

What a great statement. Glad you've thrown of the shackles of addiction Sajax. Always nice to see a man striving to be that which he was created to be. This great big quilt of quit is woven with the threads of each quitter. We all add our own flavor to the context. Some like the post and ghost still add to the fabric. Others add more variety and color. To be here is to contribute. I'm glad that you're here.

[MN_Engineer]

I've been slowly working my way into some topics or posts that go beyond posting roll every day. I believe that being connected firms up the commitment to the process. I really really appreciate seeing some of my original peers posting support of me. It doesn't take much to type but that little "with sajax" makes more difference than I could've guessed.

Thank you: @Sir Nopenhagen @Mupig @ChristopherJ You guys rock.

This wasn't a good idea. I'm not good at interacting with others on the internet.

Edit: I, like many other here (I would assume) have a bit of an all or nothing personality. It sucks that a little off-topic nonsense completely unrelated to my goals or hope for posting roll with like minded quitters is making me want to pack in trying to be here at KTC.

"Keep the quit forget the rest." Yeah, I know. Sigh. Post roll and ghost? That fucking sucks too. What do compatriots? What do?

This article had a lot of good ideas, worth a read if you find yourself in a situation like mine feeling frustrated, angry and confused.

https://www.onewithnow.com/misunderstood-how-to-let-go-of-the-need-to-explain-yourself/

We are addicts man. Often we trade one addiction for another. For me, I have to actively keep myself in check in various aspects of my life simultaneously.

I used to get down in the weeds way more around here. Eventually, you have to either cut out all the non-quit related stuff altogether or practice self control which can be a learned process that takes time.

I don't know you personally so I don't know what will ultimately work best for you. But I will say this. KTC is a site to quit nicotine. If you find yourself getting sucked into other threads that are distracting you from your quit, that's typically when you need to pull back and focus on why you are here. There is a lot of extra noise around here and it's great to maybe distract from the occasional crave. But never let the side topics consume you or become a detriment to your quit.

[Sajax]

I've been slowly working my way into some topics or posts that go beyond posting roll every day. I believe that being connected firms up the commitment to the process. I really really appreciate seeing some of my original peers posting support of me. It doesn't take much to type but that little "with sajax" makes more difference than I could've guessed.

Thank you: @Sir Nopenhagen @Mupig @ChristopherJ You guys rock.

This wasn't a good idea. I'm not good at interacting with others on the internet.

Edit: I, like many other here (I would assume) have a bit of an all or nothing personality. It sucks that a little off-topic nonsense completely unrelated to my goals or hope for posting roll with like minded quitters is making me want to pack in trying to be here at KTC.

"Keep the quit forget the rest." Yeah, I know. Sigh. Post roll and ghost? That fucking sucks too. What do compatriots? What do?

This article had a lot of good ideas, worth a read if you find yourself in a situation like mine feeling frustrated, angry and confused.

https://www.onewithnow.com/misunderstood-how-to-let-go-of-the-need-to-explain-yourself/

[Sajax]

I've been slowly working my way into some topics or posts that go beyond posting roll every day. I believe that being connected firms up the commitment to the process. I really really appreciate seeing some of my original peers posting support of me. It doesn't take much to type but that little "with sajax" makes more difference than I could've guessed.

Thank you: @Sir Nopenhagen @Mupig @ChristopherJ You guys rock.

This wasn't a good idea. I'm not good at interacting with others on the internet.

Edit: I, like many other here (I would assume) have a bit of an all or nothing personality. It sucks that a little off-topic nonsense completely unrelated to my goals or hope for posting roll with like minded quitters is making me want to pack in trying to be here at KTC.

"Keep the quit forget the rest." Yeah, I know. Sigh. Post roll and ghost? That fucking sucks too. What do compatriots? What do?

[Sajax]

I've been slowly working my way into some topics or posts that go beyond posting roll every day. I believe that being connected firms up the commitment to the process. I really really appreciate seeing some of my original peers posting support of me. It doesn't take much to type but that little "with sajax" makes more difference than I could've guessed.

Thank you: @Sir Nopenhagen @Mupig @ChristopherJ You guys rock.

[Keith0617]

I am not sure where to begin. My time on this site previously taught me two things. The process here works; I was able to quit and stay quit. The second was that I am an asshole. No two ways about it.

My first journey ended with time in the mental hospital (issues unrelated to dip). I am much better now (and stable) but about a year or two ago I picked back up dip. I don't remember exactly when because some of my treatments cause memory issues, but I think I've been dipping again for about two years.

I don't want to dip any more. I want to quit.

I don't know what the etiquette prescribes for a person in my situation but I'm all ears and hoping I can join back in on the rolls and keep my big dumb mouth shut this time around (unless it is to share a kindness or encouragement).

-Sajax

@Sajax here is the link to take your freedom back https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=16776.0. You sure did throw a great down the shitter. Be prepared to answer the 3 questions in your new group and post them in your old group as well.
1. What happened?
2. Why did it happen?
3. What are you going to do differently this time to prevent caving?

[Sajax]

I am not sure where to begin. My time on this site previously taught me two things. The process here works; I was able to quit and stay quit. The second was that I am an asshole. No two ways about it.

My first journey ended with time in the mental hospital (issues unrelated to dip). I am much better now (and stable) but about a year or two ago I picked back up dip. I don't remember exactly when because some of my treatments cause memory issues, but I think I've been dipping again for about two years.

I don't want to dip any more. I want to quit.

I don't know what the etiquette prescribes for a person in my situation but I'm all ears and hoping I can join back in on the rolls and keep my big dumb mouth shut this time around (unless it is to share a kindness or encouragement).

-Sajax