Reminders - Those annoying things that have plagued us through our quits, eventually they transform into reminders of victory. It's been a year since I quit. Early on seeing others still dipping would mess with my mind, but now I'm just thankful. After leaving the gym yesterday I was craving a banana.. The quick stop is right next door. I completely forgot, but I used to buy my dip there. When I went inside holy shit it was the same kid I told a year ago that I was going to quit. At that time he laughed and said I heard that before. Anyway I was glad to see him! Got my banana headed to the cashier, and told him I had just made my year. He remembered me but looked awkward. He said man I need to quit smoking. I told him the freedom is priceless, and he said he can't quit because he's always around it. It reminded me of those addict excuses.
Excuses - I was told to repair my gums 3 years ago by my dentist. I never did because I thought why fix them if I still dip? That was my excuse. Well the excuses are gone. Yesterday at the dentist I told him I'm doing the procedure. He asked why now. I said because now I'm ready. I don't dip anymore. He said you're done? I said yes. It felt so fucking good to finally say that, and mean it.
The spots he was concerned about came back negative. The rest will just be repairs. He said everything should go well, and he's glad to see me finally taking care of myself. Next week will be painful, but pain reminds you that you're alive.
bring it on I'm ready, and I'm QUIT! peace B)