I quit again

[Dipchit]

Day 111
Still very depressed but I’m still not going to dip today and that is my promise. BTW we haven’t seen the sun here for a week. Nothing but doom and gloom with rain. We have flood warnings  and beach hazards posted for this area of northern Minnesota. Here’s to another day of depression

Worktowin 3,933

You can do this. If I can, I know you can.

Keith0617 1822 ODAAT

still struggling with depression. Really bad day but I’m still clean. It’s so hard but the day is almost done thank goodness. I never ever thought this shit would still be going for this long. This is insane. I’m really reaching deep within for the strength to keep going. Glad you quitters are here with me. See you all in the morning. No dip tonight for me.

[Keith0617]

Day 111
Still very depressed but I’m still not going to dip today and that is my promise. BTW we haven’t seen the sun here for a week. Nothing but doom and gloom with rain. We have flood warnings  and beach hazards posted for this area of northern Minnesota. Here’s to another day of depression

Worktowin 3,933

You can do this. If I can, I know you can.

Keith0617 1822 ODAAT

[worktowin]

Day 111
Still very depressed but I’m still not going to dip today and that is my promise. BTW we haven’t seen the sun here for a week. Nothing but doom and gloom with rain. We have flood warnings  and beach hazards posted for this area of northern Minnesota. Here’s to another day of depression

Worktowin 3,933

You can do this. If I can, I know you can.

[Dipchit]

Day 111
Still very depressed but I’m still not going to dip today and that is my promise. BTW we haven’t seen the sun here for a week. Nothing but doom and gloom with rain. We have flood warnings  and beach hazards posted for this area of northern Minnesota. Here’s to another day of depression

[Dipchit]

The funk.
Does anyone remember the funk? What were your symptoms and what days in your quit did they happen.
I had a wonderful window of virtually zero symptoms for the first 2 weeks of September. I thought I was done with withdrawal and everyday would get better. Boy was I wrong. I woke up that Saturday morning 2 weeks later and I could feel the dread, anxiety and depression come roaring back like the past 2 weeks never happened. I believe they were days 70 something to close to 90. It’s now Friday evening and I usually feel pretty excited for a weekend full of activities and of course dipping but now all I feel is depression. That nic bitch is one powerful bitch. I’ll never fuck her again. She’s to ugly. I’ll see you quitters in the morning.

[Dipchit]

Day 110
Although I feel good about myself and my decision to not dip, I feel like shit due to the never ending withdrawals. 110 days and still in withdrawal? Never in a million years would I have believed it if someone told me that it could go on that long. This is insane. I have promised myself that I will not dip today.

I’m no medical pro…
I’m no psychiatrist…
I’m no psychologist…
I have ZERO credentials to spout off a diagnosis of ANY sort.

Just gettin’ that out there!

I gotta wonder at this point, how much of this is a mental detox for you. A rewire of your thinking and perceptions and connections and actions is an undertaking of MONUMENTAL proportions. Nicotine was the driver of all of those things for all of us. It decided all of it. It controlled all of it. For how many years? 110 days to undo YEARS of neurological damage and conditioning isn’t all that surprising. I’m not downplaying your current trauma… just trying to help with a bit of perspective. You’ve had good to great days in this process so, y’know what?

It’s possible, brother.
It’s there for you.
You’re getting there.
Own this shit!
The path to freedom can be painful but, duuuuude… it’s worth it.
You. Got. This.

AJ… 3,818

Thanks AJ. I need to stop comparing my other stops to my latest. I dipped for years and stopped 3 times with years in between with virtually no issues but this last time has been hell.
ODAAT.

Keith0617 1821 ODAAT

MN/2,714 speaking from experience and helping others through similar, the mental games can happen for quite some time. It took me years to enjoy mowing the lawn without a dip for example. So I was grumpy a lot just pissed I couldn't poison myself doing the things I had linked to dipping. I know you've said your previous attempts didn't result in this challenge but maybe that's because in the back of your mind, you always had it made up you weren't going to quit "for good". So you brain was like "ok, I'll wait". This time, your resolve (while focusing one day at a time) may be different because this is your first and final QUIT. Not trying to project or diagnose; just something to consider.

Fuck……. Anxiety is so bad today that my temples, neck and shoulders are burning. Overall feeling of fear is really Fuckin bad. 110 days out and still in the thick of it. Too bad I quit drinking 10 years ago. Couple shots of Crown would take care of this hell but I really don’t want to drink again. I’m getting close to the 36th floor with that. No cave today. I will not dip.

Alcohol doesn’t solve anything just like nicotine doesn’t. A problem + a drink or nic only leads to having 2 problems. You can do it. You did it yesterday so you can do it just for today

Yes I can. I can do this. It’s fuckin hard but I will not break my promise.

[Keith0617]

Day 110
Although I feel good about myself and my decision to not dip, I feel like shit due to the never ending withdrawals. 110 days and still in withdrawal? Never in a million years would I have believed it if someone told me that it could go on that long. This is insane. I have promised myself that I will not dip today.

I’m no medical pro…
I’m no psychiatrist…
I’m no psychologist…
I have ZERO credentials to spout off a diagnosis of ANY sort.

Just gettin’ that out there!

I gotta wonder at this point, how much of this is a mental detox for you. A rewire of your thinking and perceptions and connections and actions is an undertaking of MONUMENTAL proportions. Nicotine was the driver of all of those things for all of us. It decided all of it. It controlled all of it. For how many years? 110 days to undo YEARS of neurological damage and conditioning isn’t all that surprising. I’m not downplaying your current trauma… just trying to help with a bit of perspective. You’ve had good to great days in this process so, y’know what?

It’s possible, brother.
It’s there for you.
You’re getting there.
Own this shit!
The path to freedom can be painful but, duuuuude… it’s worth it.
You. Got. This.

AJ… 3,818

Thanks AJ. I need to stop comparing my other stops to my latest. I dipped for years and stopped 3 times with years in between with virtually no issues but this last time has been hell.
ODAAT.

Keith0617 1821 ODAAT

MN/2,714 speaking from experience and helping others through similar, the mental games can happen for quite some time. It took me years to enjoy mowing the lawn without a dip for example. So I was grumpy a lot just pissed I couldn't poison myself doing the things I had linked to dipping. I know you've said your previous attempts didn't result in this challenge but maybe that's because in the back of your mind, you always had it made up you weren't going to quit "for good". So you brain was like "ok, I'll wait". This time, your resolve (while focusing one day at a time) may be different because this is your first and final QUIT. Not trying to project or diagnose; just something to consider.

Fuck……. Anxiety is so bad today that my temples, neck and shoulders are burning. Overall feeling of fear is really Fuckin bad. 110 days out and still in the thick of it. Too bad I quit drinking 10 years ago. Couple shots of Crown would take care of this hell but I really don’t want to drink again. I’m getting close to the 36th floor with that. No cave today. I will not dip.

Alcohol doesn’t solve anything just like nicotine doesn’t. A problem + a drink or nic only leads to having 2 problems. You can do it. You did it yesterday so you can do it just for today

[Dipchit]

Day 110
Although I feel good about myself and my decision to not dip, I feel like shit due to the never ending withdrawals. 110 days and still in withdrawal? Never in a million years would I have believed it if someone told me that it could go on that long. This is insane. I have promised myself that I will not dip today.

I’m no medical pro…
I’m no psychiatrist…
I’m no psychologist…
I have ZERO credentials to spout off a diagnosis of ANY sort.

Just gettin’ that out there!

I gotta wonder at this point, how much of this is a mental detox for you. A rewire of your thinking and perceptions and connections and actions is an undertaking of MONUMENTAL proportions. Nicotine was the driver of all of those things for all of us. It decided all of it. It controlled all of it. For how many years? 110 days to undo YEARS of neurological damage and conditioning isn’t all that surprising. I’m not downplaying your current trauma… just trying to help with a bit of perspective. You’ve had good to great days in this process so, y’know what?

It’s possible, brother.
It’s there for you.
You’re getting there.
Own this shit!
The path to freedom can be painful but, duuuuude… it’s worth it.
You. Got. This.

AJ… 3,818

Thanks AJ. I need to stop comparing my other stops to my latest. I dipped for years and stopped 3 times with years in between with virtually no issues but this last time has been hell.
ODAAT.

Keith0617 1821 ODAAT

MN/2,714 speaking from experience and helping others through similar, the mental games can happen for quite some time. It took me years to enjoy mowing the lawn without a dip for example. So I was grumpy a lot just pissed I couldn't poison myself doing the things I had linked to dipping. I know you've said your previous attempts didn't result in this challenge but maybe that's because in the back of your mind, you always had it made up you weren't going to quit "for good". So you brain was like "ok, I'll wait". This time, your resolve (while focusing one day at a time) may be different because this is your first and final QUIT. Not trying to project or diagnose; just something to consider.

Fuck……. Anxiety is so bad today that my temples, neck and shoulders are burning. Overall feeling of fear is really Fuckin bad. 110 days out and still in the thick of it. Too bad I quit drinking 10 years ago. Couple shots of Crown would take care of this hell but I really don’t want to drink again. I’m getting close to the 36th floor with that. No cave today. I will not dip.

[MN_Engineer]

Day 110
Although I feel good about myself and my decision to not dip, I feel like shit due to the never ending withdrawals. 110 days and still in withdrawal? Never in a million years would I have believed it if someone told me that it could go on that long. This is insane. I have promised myself that I will not dip today.

I’m no medical pro…
I’m no psychiatrist…
I’m no psychologist…
I have ZERO credentials to spout off a diagnosis of ANY sort.

Just gettin’ that out there!

I gotta wonder at this point, how much of this is a mental detox for you. A rewire of your thinking and perceptions and connections and actions is an undertaking of MONUMENTAL proportions. Nicotine was the driver of all of those things for all of us. It decided all of it. It controlled all of it. For how many years? 110 days to undo YEARS of neurological damage and conditioning isn’t all that surprising. I’m not downplaying your current trauma… just trying to help with a bit of perspective. You’ve had good to great days in this process so, y’know what?

It’s possible, brother.
It’s there for you.
You’re getting there.
Own this shit!
The path to freedom can be painful but, duuuuude… it’s worth it.
You. Got. This.

AJ… 3,818

Thanks AJ. I need to stop comparing my other stops to my latest. I dipped for years and stopped 3 times with years in between with virtually no issues but this last time has been hell.
ODAAT.

Keith0617 1821 ODAAT

MN/2,714 speaking from experience and helping others through similar, the mental games can happen for quite some time. It took me years to enjoy mowing the lawn without a dip for example. So I was grumpy a lot just pissed I couldn't poison myself doing the things I had linked to dipping. I know you've said your previous attempts didn't result in this challenge but maybe that's because in the back of your mind, you always had it made up you weren't going to quit "for good". So you brain was like "ok, I'll wait". This time, your resolve (while focusing one day at a time) may be different because this is your first and final QUIT. Not trying to project or diagnose; just something to consider.

[Keith0617]

Day 110
Although I feel good about myself and my decision to not dip, I feel like shit due to the never ending withdrawals. 110 days and still in withdrawal? Never in a million years would I have believed it if someone told me that it could go on that long. This is insane. I have promised myself that I will not dip today.

I’m no medical pro…
I’m no psychiatrist…
I’m no psychologist…
I have ZERO credentials to spout off a diagnosis of ANY sort.

Just gettin’ that out there!

I gotta wonder at this point, how much of this is a mental detox for you. A rewire of your thinking and perceptions and connections and actions is an undertaking of MONUMENTAL proportions. Nicotine was the driver of all of those things for all of us. It decided all of it. It controlled all of it. For how many years? 110 days to undo YEARS of neurological damage and conditioning isn’t all that surprising. I’m not downplaying your current trauma… just trying to help with a bit of perspective. You’ve had good to great days in this process so, y’know what?

It’s possible, brother.
It’s there for you.
You’re getting there.
Own this shit!
The path to freedom can be painful but, duuuuude… it’s worth it.
You. Got. This.

AJ… 3,818

Thanks AJ. I need to stop comparing my other stops to my latest. I dipped for years and stopped 3 times with years in between with virtually no issues but this last time has been hell.
ODAAT.

Keith0617 1821 ODAAT

[Dipchit]

Day 110
Although I feel good about myself and my decision to not dip, I feel like shit due to the never ending withdrawals. 110 days and still in withdrawal? Never in a million years would I have believed it if someone told me that it could go on that long. This is insane. I have promised myself that I will not dip today.

I’m no medical pro…
I’m no psychiatrist…
I’m no psychologist…
I have ZERO credentials to spout off a diagnosis of ANY sort.

Just gettin’ that out there!

I gotta wonder at this point, how much of this is a mental detox for you. A rewire of your thinking and perceptions and connections and actions is an undertaking of MONUMENTAL proportions. Nicotine was the driver of all of those things for all of us. It decided all of it. It controlled all of it. For how many years? 110 days to undo YEARS of neurological damage and conditioning isn’t all that surprising. I’m not downplaying your current trauma… just trying to help with a bit of perspective. You’ve had good to great days in this process so, y’know what?

It’s possible, brother.
It’s there for you.
You’re getting there.
Own this shit!
The path to freedom can be painful but, duuuuude… it’s worth it.
You. Got. This.

AJ… 3,818

Thanks AJ. I need to stop comparing my other stops to my latest. I dipped for years and stopped 3 times with years in between with virtually no issues but this last time has been hell.
ODAAT.

[AppleJack]

Day 110
Although I feel good about myself and my decision to not dip, I feel like shit due to the never ending withdrawals. 110 days and still in withdrawal? Never in a million years would I have believed it if someone told me that it could go on that long. This is insane. I have promised myself that I will not dip today.

I’m no medical pro…
I’m no psychiatrist…
I’m no psychologist…
I have ZERO credentials to spout off a diagnosis of ANY sort.

Just gettin’ that out there!

I gotta wonder at this point, how much of this is a mental detox for you. A rewire of your thinking and perceptions and connections and actions is an undertaking of MONUMENTAL proportions. Nicotine was the driver of all of those things for all of us. It decided all of it. It controlled all of it. For how many years? 110 days to undo YEARS of neurological damage and conditioning isn’t all that surprising. I’m not downplaying your current trauma… just trying to help with a bit of perspective. You’ve had good to great days in this process so, y’know what?

It’s possible, brother.
It’s there for you.
You’re getting there.
Own this shit!
The path to freedom can be painful but, duuuuude… it’s worth it.
You. Got. This.

AJ… 3,818

[Dipchit]

Day 110
Although I feel good about myself and my decision to not dip, I feel like shit due to the never ending withdrawals. 110 days and still in withdrawal? Never in a million years would I have believed it if someone told me that it could go on that long. This is insane. I have promised myself that I will not dip today.

[worktowin]

Day 109
I promise not to dip today

worktowin 3,931.  I typically used or threw out 1+ tin a day of Kodiak.  When I say threw out, I would use part of the tin and then be convinced that day was the last day, and throw the rest out, only to go to the gas station tail between legs the next day to restock.  So, Dipchit, how much does a tin of Kodiak cost these days?  I'm really not sure, guessing $5 or more?  3,931 X $5 = $19,655 that I've saved since joining this group of winners.  You included.  I think I'll go out for a nice lunch today.

$12.00 here.

Keith0617 1820 ODAAT

TWELVE DOLLARS!!!!!!!!!  OMG!

WOWZA

[Keith0617]

Day 109
I promise not to dip today

worktowin 3,931.  I typically used or threw out 1+ tin a day of Kodiak.  When I say threw out, I would use part of the tin and then be convinced that day was the last day, and throw the rest out, only to go to the gas station tail between legs the next day to restock.  So, Dipchit, how much does a tin of Kodiak cost these days?  I'm really not sure, guessing $5 or more?  3,931 X $5 = $19,655 that I've saved since joining this group of winners.  You included.  I think I'll go out for a nice lunch today.

$12.00 here.

Keith0617 1820 ODAAT