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Re: I quit again
« Reply #430 on: November 14, 2023, 12:23:15 PM »
Day 156. Anxiety still has its iron grip on me. Fear and dread.
I will not dip today.
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worktowin 3,978.  Headed to the grocery store to buy some stuff for thanksgiving.  Ugh.
If this pattern holds true then I should start to feel better in about a week. I have been getting about 2 weeks of absolute agony and then a couple to a few days of low to almost no symptoms. What really fucks with me is that I start to feel better each day and suddenly I get the carpet yanked out from under me and it’s a couple to a few weeks back in fucking hell on earth again. I’m absolutely shell shocked from this. Fuck, let this end soon. In a good way.
It's easy for me to say but know that it WILL end. A time will come (hopefully soon) that this will be in the rear view mirror. Use that as motivation as you power through the rough valleys.
Quit: 04.25.16 | HOF: 08.02.16 | 2nd FL: 11.10.16 | 3rd FL: 02.18.17 | 4th FL: 05.29.17 | 5th FL: 09.06.17 | 6th FL: 12.15.17 | 7th FL: 03.25.18 |
8th FL: 07.03.18 | 9th FL: 10.11.18 | Comma: 01.19.19 | 11th FL: 04.29.19 | 12th FL: 08.07.19 | 13th FL: 11.15.19 | 14th FL: 02.23.20 |
15th FL: 06.02.20 | 16th FL: 09.10.20 | 17th FL: 12.19.20 | 18th FL: 03.29.21 | 19th FL: 07.07.21 | Comma 2x: 10.15.21 | 21st FL: 01.23.22 |
22nd FL: 05.03.22 | 23rd FL: 08.11.22 | 24th FL: 11.19.22 | 25th FL: 02.27.23 | 26th FL: 06.07.23 | 27th FL: 09.15.23 | 28th FL: 12.24.23 |
29th FL: 04.02.24 |

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Re: I quit again
« Reply #429 on: November 14, 2023, 11:56:25 AM »
Day 156. Anxiety still has its iron grip on me. Fear and dread.
I will not dip today.
Keith0617 1867 ODAAT. Find something to celebrate today. Something that makes you happy and then focus on that for the rest of the day.
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worktowin 3,978.  Headed to the grocery store to buy some stuff for thanksgiving.  Ugh.
If this pattern holds true then I should start to feel better in about a week. I have been getting about 2 weeks of absolute agony and then a couple to a few days of low to almost no symptoms. What really fucks with me is that I start to feel better each day and suddenly I get the carpet yanked out from under me and it’s a couple to a few weeks back in fucking hell on earth again. I’m absolutely shell shocked from this. Fuck, let this end soon. In a good way.

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Re: I quit again
« Reply #428 on: November 14, 2023, 11:39:04 AM »
Day 156. Anxiety still has its iron grip on me. Fear and dread.
I will not dip today.
Keith0617 1867 ODAAT. Find something to celebrate today. Something that makes you happy and then focus on that for the rest of the day.
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worktowin 3,978.  Headed to the grocery store to buy some stuff for thanksgiving.  Ugh.

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Re: I quit again
« Reply #427 on: November 14, 2023, 10:37:00 AM »
Day 156. Anxiety still has its iron grip on me. Fear and dread.
I will not dip today.
Keith0617 1867 ODAAT. Find something to celebrate today. Something that makes you happy and then focus on that for the rest of the day.
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Quit: 04.25.16 | HOF: 08.02.16 | 2nd FL: 11.10.16 | 3rd FL: 02.18.17 | 4th FL: 05.29.17 | 5th FL: 09.06.17 | 6th FL: 12.15.17 | 7th FL: 03.25.18 |
8th FL: 07.03.18 | 9th FL: 10.11.18 | Comma: 01.19.19 | 11th FL: 04.29.19 | 12th FL: 08.07.19 | 13th FL: 11.15.19 | 14th FL: 02.23.20 |
15th FL: 06.02.20 | 16th FL: 09.10.20 | 17th FL: 12.19.20 | 18th FL: 03.29.21 | 19th FL: 07.07.21 | Comma 2x: 10.15.21 | 21st FL: 01.23.22 |
22nd FL: 05.03.22 | 23rd FL: 08.11.22 | 24th FL: 11.19.22 | 25th FL: 02.27.23 | 26th FL: 06.07.23 | 27th FL: 09.15.23 | 28th FL: 12.24.23 |
29th FL: 04.02.24 |

"From Skoal to Skol!" My HOF Speech HERE!
"There is no victory without a battle."
"Cave = losing an argument to a dead plant in a plastic can. You are smarter than a dead plant." - Candoit
"The truth is the truth even if no one believes it, and a lie is a lie, even if everyone believes it." - Bishop Fulton J. Sheen

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Re: I quit again
« Reply #426 on: November 14, 2023, 09:06:24 AM »
Day 156. Anxiety still has its iron grip on me. Fear and dread.
I will not dip today.
Keith0617 1867 ODAAT. Find something to celebrate today. Something that makes you happy and then focus on that for the rest of the day.
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Re: I quit again
« Reply #425 on: November 14, 2023, 07:01:00 AM »
Day 156. Anxiety still has its iron grip on me. Fear and dread.
I will not dip today.
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Re: I quit again
« Reply #424 on: November 13, 2023, 01:48:14 PM »
Day 155. Feel like I’m full of adrenaline since 4:00 am. Absolutely impossible to relax mentally and physically. My body is exhausted but my mind is going 1000 mph. Anyone else experience this during withdrawal?
Yesterday was pure torture with anxiety and a head pressure headache, tingling and the occasional brain zap. Fees like today will be more of the same. Sleep when I can get it is the great escape from the nic bitch torment. Just can’t believe this process takes so long to get over. My clueless doctor is saying that it’s impossible for nicotine withdrawal to last for more than a few weeks and that I have something else going on. That’s odd because I never had these symptoms until I quit. Clueless bastard.
I promise not to dip today.
Keith0617 1866 ODAAt with all of you
worktowin 3,977.  Hope today calms down for you bro!
MN/2,759 - not that it's much consolation but I'd wager to say that what you are describing is much more normal than your previous stoppages which had almost non-existent symptoms/withdrawals. As debilitating as your current situation is, I've observed a handful of folks over my 7.5 years here that also had a really rough go for quite an extended period of time, like yourself. Keep that focus on TODAY.
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8th FL: 07.03.18 | 9th FL: 10.11.18 | Comma: 01.19.19 | 11th FL: 04.29.19 | 12th FL: 08.07.19 | 13th FL: 11.15.19 | 14th FL: 02.23.20 |
15th FL: 06.02.20 | 16th FL: 09.10.20 | 17th FL: 12.19.20 | 18th FL: 03.29.21 | 19th FL: 07.07.21 | Comma 2x: 10.15.21 | 21st FL: 01.23.22 |
22nd FL: 05.03.22 | 23rd FL: 08.11.22 | 24th FL: 11.19.22 | 25th FL: 02.27.23 | 26th FL: 06.07.23 | 27th FL: 09.15.23 | 28th FL: 12.24.23 |
29th FL: 04.02.24 |

"From Skoal to Skol!" My HOF Speech HERE!
"There is no victory without a battle."
"Cave = losing an argument to a dead plant in a plastic can. You are smarter than a dead plant." - Candoit
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Re: I quit again
« Reply #423 on: November 13, 2023, 09:27:22 AM »
Day 155. Feel like I’m full of adrenaline since 4:00 am. Absolutely impossible to relax mentally and physically. My body is exhausted but my mind is going 1000 mph. Anyone else experience this during withdrawal?
Yesterday was pure torture with anxiety and a head pressure headache, tingling and the occasional brain zap. Fees like today will be more of the same. Sleep when I can get it is the great escape from the nic bitch torment. Just can’t believe this process takes so long to get over. My clueless doctor is saying that it’s impossible for nicotine withdrawal to last for more than a few weeks and that I have something else going on. That’s odd because I never had these symptoms until I quit. Clueless bastard.
I promise not to dip today.
Keith0617 1866 ODAAt with all of you
worktowin 3,977.  Hope today calms down for you bro!

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Re: I quit again
« Reply #422 on: November 13, 2023, 06:30:35 AM »
Day 155. Feel like I’m full of adrenaline since 4:00 am. Absolutely impossible to relax mentally and physically. My body is exhausted but my mind is going 1000 mph. Anyone else experience this during withdrawal?
Yesterday was pure torture with anxiety and a head pressure headache, tingling and the occasional brain zap. Fees like today will be more of the same. Sleep when I can get it is the great escape from the nic bitch torment. Just can’t believe this process takes so long to get over. My clueless doctor is saying that it’s impossible for nicotine withdrawal to last for more than a few weeks and that I have something else going on. That’s odd because I never had these symptoms until I quit. Clueless bastard.
I promise not to dip today.
Keith0617 1866 ODAAt with all of you
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Re: I quit again
« Reply #421 on: November 13, 2023, 06:17:37 AM »
Day 155. Feel like I’m full of adrenaline since 4:00 am. Absolutely impossible to relax mentally and physically. My body is exhausted but my mind is going 1000 mph. Anyone else experience this during withdrawal?
Yesterday was pure torture with anxiety and a head pressure headache, tingling and the occasional brain zap. Fees like today will be more of the same. Sleep when I can get it is the great escape from the nic bitch torment. Just can’t believe this process takes so long to get over. My clueless doctor is saying that it’s impossible for nicotine withdrawal to last for more than a few weeks and that I have something else going on. That’s odd because I never had these symptoms until I quit. Clueless bastard.
I promise not to dip today.

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Re: I quit again
« Reply #420 on: November 12, 2023, 03:42:00 PM »
Day 154. Anxiety
I promise not to dip today.
Worktowin 3,976. Headed out to get bagels the put up outside Christmas stuff. I quit with you sir.
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Only one way to describe today. Torture!!!!!!!

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Re: I quit again
« Reply #419 on: November 12, 2023, 10:54:45 AM »
Day 154. Anxiety
I promise not to dip today.
Worktowin 3,976. Headed out to get bagels the put up outside Christmas stuff. I quit with you sir.
Keith0617 1865 ODAAT with all of you
MN/2,758 - none for me TODAY
Quit: 04.25.16 | HOF: 08.02.16 | 2nd FL: 11.10.16 | 3rd FL: 02.18.17 | 4th FL: 05.29.17 | 5th FL: 09.06.17 | 6th FL: 12.15.17 | 7th FL: 03.25.18 |
8th FL: 07.03.18 | 9th FL: 10.11.18 | Comma: 01.19.19 | 11th FL: 04.29.19 | 12th FL: 08.07.19 | 13th FL: 11.15.19 | 14th FL: 02.23.20 |
15th FL: 06.02.20 | 16th FL: 09.10.20 | 17th FL: 12.19.20 | 18th FL: 03.29.21 | 19th FL: 07.07.21 | Comma 2x: 10.15.21 | 21st FL: 01.23.22 |
22nd FL: 05.03.22 | 23rd FL: 08.11.22 | 24th FL: 11.19.22 | 25th FL: 02.27.23 | 26th FL: 06.07.23 | 27th FL: 09.15.23 | 28th FL: 12.24.23 |
29th FL: 04.02.24 |

"From Skoal to Skol!" My HOF Speech HERE!
"There is no victory without a battle."
"Cave = losing an argument to a dead plant in a plastic can. You are smarter than a dead plant." - Candoit
"The truth is the truth even if no one believes it, and a lie is a lie, even if everyone believes it." - Bishop Fulton J. Sheen

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Re: I quit again
« Reply #418 on: November 12, 2023, 09:40:20 AM »
Day 154. Anxiety
I promise not to dip today.
Worktowin 3,976. Headed out to get bagels the put up outside Christmas stuff. I quit with you sir.
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Re: I quit again
« Reply #417 on: November 12, 2023, 09:33:06 AM »
Day 154. Anxiety
I promise not to dip today.
Worktowin 3,976. Headed out to get bagels the put up outside Christmas stuff. I quit with you sir.

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Re: I quit again
« Reply #416 on: November 12, 2023, 06:28:03 AM »
Day 154. Anxiety
I promise not to dip today.