33 days in

[RDB]

My youngest son has cerebral palsy and epilepsy. I brought him, alone, to a Detroit area hospital 1.75 hours away for a scheduled EEG (brain scan). My wife stayed back to take care of our other kids.

My son has several Detroit area medical visits each year. I drive him to most of them.

I'm in waiting right now. The entire drive here, waiting during the procedure, the drive back home. No dip. A first.

Prayers that the scans go alright.

And what an awesome victory!

I found it took me well over a year to get all my "firsts" out of the way. Each time I'd get the crazy joneses for dip and it would always take me a while to figure out what triggered it. Always nice to slay another dragon. Keep quitting and best of luck with the health of your kid.

Thanks for the words of encouragement. The EEG was routine. He gets one each year so his neurologist can keep track of his brain activity. Everything went fine.

And I'm still quit.

[Dagranger]

My youngest son has cerebral palsy and epilepsy. I brought him, alone, to a Detroit area hospital 1.75 hours away for a scheduled EEG (brain scan). My wife stayed back to take care of our other kids.

My son has several Detroit area medical visits each year. I drive him to most of them.

I'm in waiting right now. The entire drive here, waiting during the procedure, the drive back home. No dip. A first.

Prayers that the scans go alright.

And what an awesome victory!

I found it took me well over a year to get all my "firsts" out of the way. Each time I'd get the crazy joneses for dip and it would always take me a while to figure out what triggered it. Always nice to slay another dragon. Keep quitting and best of luck with the health of your kid.

[MonsterMedic]

My youngest son has cerebral palsy and epilepsy. I brought him, alone, to a Detroit area hospital 1.75 hours away for a scheduled EEG (brain scan). My wife stayed back to take care of our other kids.

My son has several Detroit area medical visits each year. I drive him to most of them.

I'm in waiting right now. The entire drive here, waiting during the procedure, the drive back home. No dip. A first.

Prayers that the scans go alright.

And what an awesome victory!

[RDB]

My youngest son has cerebral palsy and epilepsy. I brought him, alone, to a Detroit area hospital 1.75 hours away for a scheduled EEG (brain scan). My wife stayed back to take care of our other kids.

My son has several Detroit area medical visits each year. I drive him to most of them.

I'm in waiting right now. The entire drive here, waiting during the procedure, the drive back home. No dip. A first.

[eyehatecope]

My thread has been resurrected, so I'll go with it. I had my first extremely vivid cave dream last night. I woke up sure that I had caved. I was working on going out to my pick up to dump my can when I realized it was a dream.

I've read of others describing these vivid cave dreams; I guess it was my turn. Hope it doesn't happen again.

Day 226 here. I had a the most realistic dip dream a few weeks ago, I woke up in tears. They seem and feel real as life itself but, they aren't nothing but the nic trying to tempt/trick us into returning. I quit with you today.

[RDB]

My thread has been resurrected, so I'll go with it. I had my first extremely vivid cave dream last night. I woke up sure that I had caved. I was working on going out to my pick up to dump my can when I realized it was a dream.

I've read of others describing these vivid cave dreams; I guess it was my turn. Hope it doesn't happen again.

[worktowin]

I can't believe it took me 33 days in to find this section in the forums. It's pretty much what I've been looking for.

Here I am more than a month in to my quit. I'm ready to start using KTC to its fullest by involving myself more. I had a weird start. I'm a member of the April pre-HOF group, but when I started I was posting in May, then finally got in with April late. I finally took the initiative of getting digits from 5 members of my group.

Now that I have been posting in Roll regularly, it is the first thing I think of when I wake up. It's just a matter of whether I post from my phone right away, or from my computer after I've gotten to work. It's a lot easier from the computer, but I'm getting better doing it from my phone.

As far as introductions - RDB1972 - RDB are my initials. The R stands for Robert, but I go by Bob. 1972 is my birth year. I had dipped for nearly 25 years. Copenhagen - Kodiak - Grizzly long cut wintergreen. I made the switch from Kodiak to Grizzly when Kodiak hit $5 a can in Michigan. I had been thinking that was about 2006, but I did some looking, and realized it must have been 2004 when the state raised tobacco taxes to make up for a budget shortfall. I'm angered about a lot of things with my addiction, and that just reminded me to be angry about my disproportionate role in helping the state of Michigan cover it budget shortfall. Hopefully now that I've stopped my contribution, they can make ends meet.

I've been contributing to the blog at quit4today.com . I invite you to follow along, but I especially invite you to start your own quitter blog there. I've been posting an entry most days for the past 2 1/2 weeks or so.

As I've mentioned a few times in my blog, this is my fourth serious attempt at a quit. At 33 days, I'm about close to or beyond my previous longest quit. Honestly, this quit feels different. I'm more mature now. I'm ready to be done with it. I felt no outside pressure to stop this time. I'm doing it for myself. Period.

But, I've been reading some of the HOF speeches, and threads here. It looks like many well intentioned quits were caved on day 50, 160, 200, or more. I've finally realized that whether this quit feels different or not, I'm just one bad decision away from ending it all. I need to maintain my confidence in this quit, without becoming arrogant or comfortable.

That's where daily involvement in KTC comes in. I've finally realized that! At first, this site for me was basically a source of information. I posted Roll, but that was basically just to play along. I found the blogs. I already mentioned this in one of my blog posts, but back in 2010, I was up to my eyeballs in credit card debt. I found a personal finance site, and joined. I found the forums there to be really helpful in helping me get out of debt, but it was in the blog section of the site where I really organized my thoughts and developed a plan.

I'm taking the same approach here at KTC. The blogs at quit4today help me keep a more or less unified thought process. I force myself to organize my thoughts, and get them written down. For me it worked in getting out of debt, and it seems to be working keeping me off nicotine.

But I've spent a little more time here in the forums, and see that it's actual people that keep each other accountable to one another. So, I'm ready to become part of that group more now.

I'm going to keep blogging as well, and I really do hope a few of you join me.

Thanks for reading if you got this far.

Bob

RDB,
Hey man, I have been following your blog, you are good writer and way to channel the quitting energy towards a positive outlet.
I agree that your self reflection is good make sure to engage your fellow quitters, you will need their support one day and and they will definitely need yours.
Proud to quit with you and keep it up
Idaho Spuds 555 days free!

Hi Bob.

You are going this the right way. I've seen you replying to a lot of intros and making a lot of connections. That is the best way to build accountability.

Your story and mine are similar, except I never switched to Grizzly. 25 years Kodiak here. How you physically and mentally feel now is not the new normal. Brighter days are ahead. Every day is a giant win, and soon the results of those wins will be apparent. The craves you are feeling now are reminders of winning after 25 years of losing. The new Bob will be happier, healthier, and able to devote more time to family, friends, work... Whatever drives you... And none to maintaining an addiction.

It is an honor to quit with you today sir.

[Idaho Spuds]

I can't believe it took me 33 days in to find this section in the forums. It's pretty much what I've been looking for.

Here I am more than a month in to my quit. I'm ready to start using KTC to its fullest by involving myself more. I had a weird start. I'm a member of the April pre-HOF group, but when I started I was posting in May, then finally got in with April late. I finally took the initiative of getting digits from 5 members of my group.

Now that I have been posting in Roll regularly, it is the first thing I think of when I wake up. It's just a matter of whether I post from my phone right away, or from my computer after I've gotten to work. It's a lot easier from the computer, but I'm getting better doing it from my phone.

As far as introductions - RDB1972 - RDB are my initials. The R stands for Robert, but I go by Bob. 1972 is my birth year. I had dipped for nearly 25 years. Copenhagen - Kodiak - Grizzly long cut wintergreen. I made the switch from Kodiak to Grizzly when Kodiak hit $5 a can in Michigan. I had been thinking that was about 2006, but I did some looking, and realized it must have been 2004 when the state raised tobacco taxes to make up for a budget shortfall. I'm angered about a lot of things with my addiction, and that just reminded me to be angry about my disproportionate role in helping the state of Michigan cover it budget shortfall. Hopefully now that I've stopped my contribution, they can make ends meet.

I've been contributing to the blog at quit4today.com . I invite you to follow along, but I especially invite you to start your own quitter blog there. I've been posting an entry most days for the past 2 1/2 weeks or so.

As I've mentioned a few times in my blog, this is my fourth serious attempt at a quit. At 33 days, I'm about close to or beyond my previous longest quit. Honestly, this quit feels different. I'm more mature now. I'm ready to be done with it. I felt no outside pressure to stop this time. I'm doing it for myself. Period.

But, I've been reading some of the HOF speeches, and threads here. It looks like many well intentioned quits were caved on day 50, 160, 200, or more. I've finally realized that whether this quit feels different or not, I'm just one bad decision away from ending it all. I need to maintain my confidence in this quit, without becoming arrogant or comfortable.

That's where daily involvement in KTC comes in. I've finally realized that! At first, this site for me was basically a source of information. I posted Roll, but that was basically just to play along. I found the blogs. I already mentioned this in one of my blog posts, but back in 2010, I was up to my eyeballs in credit card debt. I found a personal finance site, and joined. I found the forums there to be really helpful in helping me get out of debt, but it was in the blog section of the site where I really organized my thoughts and developed a plan.

I'm taking the same approach here at KTC. The blogs at quit4today help me keep a more or less unified thought process. I force myself to organize my thoughts, and get them written down. For me it worked in getting out of debt, and it seems to be working keeping me off nicotine.

But I've spent a little more time here in the forums, and see that it's actual people that keep each other accountable to one another. So, I'm ready to become part of that group more now.

I'm going to keep blogging as well, and I really do hope a few of you join me.

Thanks for reading if you got this far.

Bob

RDB,
Hey man, I have been following your blog, you are good writer and way to channel the quitting energy towards a positive outlet.
I agree that your self reflection is good make sure to engage your fellow quitters, you will need their support one day and and they will definitely need yours.
Proud to quit with you and keep it up
Idaho Spuds 555 days free!

[RDB]

I can't believe it took me 33 days in to find this section in the forums. It's pretty much what I've been looking for.

Here I am more than a month in to my quit. I'm ready to start using KTC to its fullest by involving myself more. I had a weird start. I'm a member of the April pre-HOF group, but when I started I was posting in May, then finally got in with April late. I finally took the initiative of getting digits from 5 members of my group.

Now that I have been posting in Roll regularly, it is the first thing I think of when I wake up. It's just a matter of whether I post from my phone right away, or from my computer after I've gotten to work. It's a lot easier from the computer, but I'm getting better doing it from my phone.

As far as introductions - RDB1972 - RDB are my initials. The R stands for Robert, but I go by Bob. 1972 is my birth year. I had dipped for nearly 25 years. Copenhagen - Kodiak - Grizzly long cut wintergreen. I made the switch from Kodiak to Grizzly when Kodiak hit $5 a can in Michigan. I had been thinking that was about 2006, but I did some looking, and realized it must have been 2004 when the state raised tobacco taxes to make up for a budget shortfall. I'm angered about a lot of things with my addiction, and that just reminded me to be angry about my disproportionate role in helping the state of Michigan cover it budget shortfall. Hopefully now that I've stopped my contribution, they can make ends meet.

I've been contributing to the blog at quit4today.com . I invite you to follow along, but I especially invite you to start your own quitter blog there. I've been posting an entry most days for the past 2 1/2 weeks or so.

As I've mentioned a few times in my blog, this is my fourth serious attempt at a quit. At 33 days, I'm about close to or beyond my previous longest quit. Honestly, this quit feels different. I'm more mature now. I'm ready to be done with it. I felt no outside pressure to stop this time. I'm doing it for myself. Period.

But, I've been reading some of the HOF speeches, and threads here. It looks like many well intentioned quits were caved on day 50, 160, 200, or more. I've finally realized that whether this quit feels different or not, I'm just one bad decision away from ending it all. I need to maintain my confidence in this quit, without becoming arrogant or comfortable.

That's where daily involvement in KTC comes in. I've finally realized that! At first, this site for me was basically a source of information. I posted Roll, but that was basically just to play along. I found the blogs. I already mentioned this in one of my blog posts, but back in 2010, I was up to my eyeballs in credit card debt. I found a personal finance site, and joined. I found the forums there to be really helpful in helping me get out of debt, but it was in the blog section of the site where I really organized my thoughts and developed a plan.

I'm taking the same approach here at KTC. The blogs at quit4today help me keep a more or less unified thought process. I force myself to organize my thoughts, and get them written down. For me it worked in getting out of debt, and it seems to be working keeping me off nicotine.

But I've spent a little more time here in the forums, and see that it's actual people that keep each other accountable to one another. So, I'm ready to become part of that group more now.

I'm going to keep blogging as well, and I really do hope a few of you join me.

Thanks for reading if you got this far.

Bob