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Title: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on October 08, 2018, 11:35:44 PM

The Omega Moment

Day 1 – a conflation of the beginning and the end.  An impossibility of two objects occupying the same space at the same time.  Two concepts that for moment combine like oil and water being shaken vigorously in a vessel only to separate and then collect within itself with its respective specific gravity.  To each its own.
 
An anomaly – at least for me, never having had a Day 1 in my life.  Not in the context of quitting, and certainly not how Day 1 is defined within the nebulous realm of KTC.  This strange, strange communal ethersphere of individuals somehow forming a bond over something as the end an addiction followed by the start of a collective rewiring.  This weirdness meshes into a familiarity while by some slow, tedious miracle our synapses are realigned and meticulously re-ordered and re-organized.  During this process, wires inevitably get crossed.

All that starts with Day 1.  Biblical in a way – this day.  “In the beginning.” One could say, Alpha.  The moment it began was the same moment it all ended.  A minor ripple that changes a person’s course in a major way. That moment was defined by another quitter while in the chat room.  Minutes before that, I was planning my funeral.
 
No shit. I thought I was gonna die at an intersection.  The anxiety was like nothing I had felt before.  ‘This is a fucking heart attack!”  I thought to myself.  I press my fingers against my jugular, trying to assess my heart condition, then put my hand to my chest.  Cold beads of sweat began to form on my forehead.  My hands were far from steady and I focused on deep breathing.  Probably the longest fucking red light I had ever been halted by.  I did a quick calculation, and figured my wife could survive modestly for about five years after having paid off the house after she collected on my life insurance.  Lord, I wish I had gotten more insurance!  Probably could have if only I would have not dipped for long enough prior to the underwriter’s exam.

The light turned green, and now I was even more panicked, as I made the turn and meandered my way through the thinning, evening commute.  Not only was I gonna fucking die within a minute if not now, but I was gonna keel over in a ol’ Chevy going 45 mph, and prolly wipe out the entire small gathering of protesters that frequently stand out in front of the Planned Parenthood with signs that read, “Abortion is Murder!” with a picture of fetus on there.  Just once I wished someone would hold up a sign that read, “Honk if You’re Horny!” outside of that place! But at the time I just wished I had more insurance.

I do indeed make it home to my surprise and relief.  Maybe I kissed the wife and hug the kids – I don’t remember.  But I’m soon in my bedroom with the door closed, and I log into the chat.  (I prolly would done this at the intersection, but I had to concentrate on keeping my heart from dropping dead, and subsequently myself from doing the same.)

I recounted that very incident with occupants of the chat room, and I’m sure they were all riveted and enthralled with my story while they glanced and responded during commercial breaks or in between downs.  Maybe blast out an ODAAT or EDD and “POP!” off.  Eventually the chat veered to where I describe my quit day, which was maybe three to four weeks prior.  One quitter on the chat responded matter-of-factly with, “that was your Omega moment.”

Omega…omega.  That was my Omega moment?  What the hell did that mean?  Omega?  It sounded biblical, though.  I shoulda paid attention in church.  Alpha / Omega, I thought.  Hm.  And I pondered on this for days and days and days.  “Omega.”  It was so familiar, but I couldn’t grasp its meaning.  Maybe its meaning was adrift in the fog, and I hadn’t quite stumbled my way into yet.  What did that have to do with quitting?  My Omega moment…?  I just didn’t understand it’s meaning, but felt the undercurrent of its significance.

October 8th of 2017 was a Saturday morning.  A morning much like this one coincidentally.  The leaves are starting to yellow around the edges and squirrels are harvesting acorns on the oak, littering the ground with hulls. The grass is now being speckled with turning leaves, and will soon be a collage of the autumnal hues of magentas, burnt oranges, yellows, and auburn browns.   I was up early that morning.  Not because I wanted to step out and be the first to breathe in a lungful of crisp fall air like I’m John fucking Denver, but because I had to.  I had to.

The day before I had acted bravely, like a liquored up bachelor at a college co-ed party.  I had done this countless times the previous twenty or more years.  I had mustered up all the phony courage I could possibly muster and tossed a near full tin out the driver’s side window.  THAT WAS FUCKING IT! And I left no doubt – well a little doubt – okay, I left some doubt because I tossed a near full can.  That meant I was vested.  Right?  So, no way!  I’m sick of it! I’m done!  I’m out!...  “Oh Shit!”…

…was my first thought the following morning.  It was just before 6 AM on the 8th of October, 2017.  My addict brain was panicked and pissed, asking me why the actual fuck I had tossed that tin the evening before.  Nag, nag, nag, nag, nag!  That addict brain shook me out of bed.  Annoyed but with robotic obedience, I rose and shuffled to the closet, slipped on my clothes, and like a ninja stealthily slipped out of the house while everyone was still asleep.  I was too tired to argue with my addict brain and frankly didn’t want to.  Too beaten down by the bitch to put up much resistance.  I drove to the gas station on the corner (not sure why I’d drive there, it’s like 3 blocks away) and bought a tin of Grizzly Straight, and a soda pop. 

I hop into my ol’ truck and dig my thumbnail into the paper wrapping and turn the tin with my nail in the crease.  I peel the lid off and take a big ol’ pinch and pop in a little extra this time.  My lip starts to sting as I squeeze my mouth and cheeks around that lipper, and my mouth is immediately filled with tobaccy juice.  Way more than I can gut.  I ponder just spitting into my Coke Zero, but instead I take a surreptitious look around like I’m about to tell an off-colored joke, open my door and glop out a spitter of dip juice as thick and as brown as syrup, except slick like oil.  It splatters right there on the white parking stripe.  I’m disgusted but used to it at this point.

I make my way home as slowly as I could, taking extra time at the one stop sign that separates my house from the gas station.  I don’t feel so shitty when I dip all by my lonesome; and it was early, and I didn’t want to feel shitty.  But I was going to anyways because I always do, I realize – and lonely, insecure, and empty, but mostly shitty.  I continue past my house and drive on a bit.  It’s still dark and everyone’s asleep.  I mosey around the neighborhood for a short while, prolly just thinking of stuff – more likely thinking about how much I hated dipping and how loathsome I felt because I always did.

I make my way home just at first light, and park beneath this big ol’ maple tree.  I get out and look up like I always do and look up at the canopy of leaves and know that it's about time to start raking.    It looks like a cauldron stirring with bats against the dark purple sky on this breezy morning.  Some of them break loose and fall silently, spinning clumsily during their decent to the lawn.  The breeze swells to a gust and the leaves crinkle and scuff as they blow across each other, and the trees let out a loud sigh as the wind exhales through the branches and leaves. I make a mental count on how many lawns bags I need to go buy to stuff all their dead in – prolly 35 of ‘em, like previous years.  I only hope the catalpas release their leaves before the snow falls.

The back door opens, and I level my gaze to see my wife standing there.  Where did you go this morning?  Out, I reply.  What should I have told her?  The truth?  Fuck that.  She knew anyways.  She closes the door without a word and disappears into the house.

At that moment, I begin to feel this crumbling inside, but not because of or for her.  Something in there was breaking.  My heart had become too hard, too cold and was beginning to crack.  I tried quitting for her earlier that year, but only stopped for 160 days.  She was not a good enough reason to quit, not even if she was 8-1/2 months pregnant at the time I did. 

In spite of the breeze, the tiny world around me became still and soundless while in my soul was a cacophony of guilt, shame, and sorrow - a stream of broken glass and debris being poured onto a tinny, metal slide.

I was sick.  I was tired.  I could no longer do this anymore.  I had weathered the storm for 30 years since I was a just a curious lad.  I could bear the weight of it no more.  The constant feeling of the struggle of failure was too exhausting.  My shoulders slumped, my head down, my feet heavy like bricks.  With that, I walked behind my detached garage and ripped off the lid as I walked past the garbage can.  I thought the act of dumping my final can would be more emphatic and symbolically binding if I dumped it into the ditch.  Just before I turned my wrist over I paused.  Just one more, she whispered, one last time.  She was convincing.  So I pinched out a fatty and stuffed it into my face, and unceremoniously dumped the fresh, hours’ old dip into the ditch.  Some of the shreds of tobacco clumped on some of the wild plants and weeds, and I kicked at 'em so I could scatter it to mitigate the temptation of running back there after an hour to find enough nuggets of chew to make a satisfying lipper.

I walked back around the garage and stood under that big ol’ maple, staring up at all the leaves of that and the other trees.  That cacophony began to rattle again – louder this time.  The breaking and shattering resumed, and when it all stopped after having stood there for about 10 minutes I felt something that I don’t know that I had felt before.  It was the void the devil suddenly left behind - sorrow.  Distilled, raw, exposed.  I had tossed dozens and dozens of cans over the years, and cigarettes, too.  Why would this time be any different?  I sure as fuck didn’t feel brave, strong, or determined.  And yet in that moment I finally discovered my reason to quit - me.

I knew what I had to do.  I scooped out that final fat lip turd and flung it amongst the fallen leaves on the grass and walked  inside the house as mindlessly as I had gotten dressed that morning.  I went to the computer, and reset my KTC password.  After logging on and fumbling through the forums a bit, I found where I thought was the place to post, the January 2018 group.  And I posted, “Rob W. – Day 1.” 

That was it.  One moment I was dipping, and the next moment I was quit.  Just like that, in an unremarkable moment, I turned and walked away; and knowing what was back there, I never turned back.

Day 1 – the day where the end rams head first in to the backside of the beginning.  And those two moments, seamless links on a circle, begin to separate, for they cannot exist at the same time in the space.  Alpha and Omega – the beginning and the end.  At that moment it had ended for me.  One year ago, on a crisp autumn morning, coincidentally like today. 

With nicotine addiction, it is not a fast break away or a clean cut.  But rather a slow tear that leaves raw, tender edges that give way to anxiety, melancholy, infinite guilt, lethargy, seething anger, and wounds to heal both mentally and physically.  It’s blindly navigating the labyrinth of that special kinda foggy hell we all must pass through to be quit. It’s constant mind-fuckery by the ever present nic bitch.  It’s the fog. It’s the suck. At times it’s like clinging to the rungs of the Jacob’s ladder that pulses and buzzes throughout our bodies and minds.  It’s ever present and the change is gradual – almost imperceptible, and certainly a test of resilience.  Time and distance from that final dip can only change all that.  You will heal, and you will change.

One thing that won’t change, though, is that I will always be an addict.  I will never be cured.  And I’m ok with that because I am quit for today.  I am quit today like I was on Day 1.  My only hope is that I am quit when that final breath wheezes out my lungs, my heart stops, and my conscience fades to black.  The living cannot occupy the same space and time as the dead – nor the quitter and the bitch.  When my soul and body separate, maybe then and only then will my addiction end.  Maybe that will truly be my Omega Moment.

(Thx to all you BAQ’s.  IQWYT.  ODAAT.  BMC -365)

Title: One Miserable Day at a Time, Until it's Miserable No More.
Post by: BluManChew on October 11, 2018, 11:38:09 AM

The first few weeks and months of my quit were fucking miserable, but I had to stick it out.  I'm not going to liquor this up any.  That was pure, unfiltered, unadulterated suck.  And boy did it suck!  I (we) had to endure one miserable day at a time - day after day -until the "miserable" faded away and it simply became One Day at a Time.

If you had asked me 369 days ago, "Can you quit for a whole year?"  My answer would have been a resounding, No FUCKING way, could I quit for a whole year!

"Can you quit for one solid month?"
~Not a chance.

"Can you quit for good week?"
~~Prolly not

"Then can you quit for one day?"
~~~Yes.  Yes I can quit for one day

368 days ago, I could quit for one day...Yes
...367 days ago, I could quit for one day...
......366 days ago, I could quit for one day...
.........One year ago, I could quit for one day...

And now ask me the same questions today.

"At 369 days, can you quit for another 365 days?"
~No way in hell.

"At 369 days, can you quit for another 30 days?"
~~Not happening

"At 369 days, can you quit for another 7 days?"
~~~I doubt it.

"At 369 days, can you quit for just today?"
~~~~Hell yes, I can quit for today!

Today might be miserable, today might be badass, or today might be somewhere in between.  Either way, it is only one day; and I (we) can quit for just one measly day.

If you're reading this, ask yourself if you can quit for today and today only.  It's really the only question that matters. You're probably wondering when the misery ends.  You'll find out, but you gotta stick it out.

ODAAT.

BMC - 369

Title: Re: 381 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on October 24, 2018, 11:02:51 AM

381 Days Later

Gents, ladies, let me be 69franx with you.  I'm going to tell you something straight up.  From the cavernous labyrinth of my soul - let me tell you something from a dope who  dipped straight but never dipped Cope. 

I measure my sordid, masochistic, insidious love affair with the bitch in decades.

How I made as far as I have I cannot tell you.  And how I've made from there to here I certainly can - Choice.  The Epiphainein event leading up this point 381 days  later came down to a simple choice.

A choice that for one reason or another I hadn't ever made - I mean really, really had never made that choice.  But I made that choice decades after I knew that I should.  But I bought the lie that came with every tin, every pack.  It told me time and time again that I never could.

Then one day, I made the easiest choice I ever had - I walked away.  As simple as that.  One moment I was dipping and the next I was not.  It wasn’t always easy, though.

Sometimes I had to run and I had to run like hell - run like my hair's on fire.  And I walked, stumbled, sprinted, jogged, dragged and crawled and clawed my way.  Kicking and screaming - dragging myself onward.  Day after God damned day, every damn day, day after day after day. 

Yet, here I am.  381 days later.  Three hundred and eighty one days since day number one.  That means something.  That’s something worth protecting. 

I'll guard my quit like I guard my balls.  Always, ALWAYS, always be on the ready for a surprise, phantom kick by the bitch of a passing flick-of-the wrist directed toward your groin. – (hands crossed over crotch, lift one foot off the ground, bend raised knee, and quarter turn away from the assailant.)  Works every fucking time.

I'm quick like that.

So, let me tell you all something besides all that sobby shit.

Ready?  No, seriously? Okay....

...being quit is awesome.  No, glorious some days in fact.  I cannot begin to tell you how much life will be better.  In every way - whatever the circumstances.  I can’t tell you.  I wish I could tell you, but I can’t.  I can’t tell you how healthy it feels, how good it feels; how good it feels to have the weight and burden of constant self-reproach cast from my once slumped shoulders.   I can focus.  Music is better.  I can breathe.  I call smile.  I can kiss. I can care now. And me telling you all these things doesn’t tell the full story.  So, I’m sorry for that.

Fuck, guys.  I'm really sorry.  I'm sorry I couldn't tell you about being quit and all.  Damn, man.

I can't tell you because you're going to have to experience it for yourselves.  "One day at a time". That’s not a slogan. That's how it’s done.  It's a choice that needs to made daily.  ODAAT. 

Just sayin’.

BMC 381.

Title: 8)
Post by: BluManChew on December 20, 2018, 06:41:44 PM

 8)

Title: A Bro-ment in Time
Post by: BluManChew on January 09, 2019, 10:41:50 AM

So I go to the c-store yesterday during lunch to grab a soda pop and Clear Eyes.  The glass door has this bell attached that clangs when you open it, and the 1st thing I heard was the gal behind the counter repeat back to the customer, Grizzly Wintergreen? 

Well it got my attention.  What really got my attention was the customer.  She was tall and skinny, with shoulder length chestnut brown hair that swept enough to conceal her face.  She was wearing this wintergreen, down ski jacket – just like the one my wife wanted. 

Why would a woman like that chew?  I kinda faked like I was looking for what I needed, and waited for her to turn so I could just get a glance at this tall, lovely creature who had such an ugly habit.  The cashier rang her up, and she slipped the can into the right front pocket of her wintergreen jacket as she was turning. 

Now’s my chance! I look up and the first thing I see is a full beard!  I made eye contact with this dude, then casually glance away as if I only looked up reflexively because I spied something move out in the periphery.  I hope I played it cool enough and just gave him a simple "bro" nod.  You know, like bros do?

I get behind another customer who has a stack of two tins of SNUS and a can of dip.  I make certain that the customer was indeed a guy, so no need to gawk.  I’ll count that as a win.

BMC 459

Title: Ode to March 2019 - Posted Some Time Ago
Post by: BluManChew on January 09, 2019, 04:39:44 PM

So, here are all you newbs and retreads.  Lots of action in the short, short, improvised car-chase scene that is March 2019.   

So, an honest question:  What's it like to cave?  I don't mean pre-KTC where you stopped for a period of time (like we all have).  I mean like when you count on a few - if not several - quit sis' and bros, and they count on you, for daily and sometimes hourly support.  I mean, people here lean on eachother when they don't feel like theirs backs won't break by the fatigue of an early bombardment. 

An assault of crave after crave after nag after bitch after nag that is meant for nothing but to demoralize.  But only if it gains ground and wins and only if you let it happen.  The choice to lose or win this battle is entirely yours.

But in choosing this path to quit-dom, we thereby open ourselves up to an uncomfortable humility that all but forbids us to simply ask for help.  To ask for accountability from you and thus ask to have your trust in this battle.  You let me take your six.  You let me take your quit rage.  You call me at 3AM if you have to.  You can trust me.

By engaging in this forum you are asking for trust and at the same time to be trusted.  This isn't some fucking cult like many have said here before they ghosted.  This is a group of men and women who came to a realization they their lives and the lives of the ones that cared for them are negatively impacted in more ways to count.  This is a group of men and women who entered asking "can i trust you?" to "you can trust me."

Cavers here violate that trust.  Many of you newbs wonder about the harsh treatment retreads get.  And even say the b-b-b-b-b-b-b-b-bully word.  If your underwear is not twisting on a flag pole, you are not being bullied.  If you not upside down having the coins shaken out of your pockets, you are not being bullied.

Here you are being held accountable.  This is what it looks like.  Like it or not, it always will

Title: You Are a Fucktard
Post by: BluManChew on January 15, 2019, 01:48:40 PM

That's right.  If you have a wad of cat shit jammed in your face, then you are without question a complete, thorough fucktard. 

DISCLAIMER:Just so we're clear here, there is a huge difference between wanting to quit, and being quit.  Just so we're clearer, using some form of NRT instead of dip does not count as quit.  You do not get a pass, or a pat on the ass.  There is no moral victory there

You want to quit.  It's why your here.  (or your spouse dips?) Did you Google it?  Nah, I'll betcha you old hipster fucks Fire Foxed it is my guess.  But here you are because you searched out "how to quit dipping." or some variation thereof and landed in this site.   Maybe you're a caver logged in as "Guest" show.  That would be rich!

Nonetheless, I don't believe that you would disagree.  You prolly feel like a fucktard every time you bolt to the c-store like your hair is on fire 2 hours after you emphatically toss that can and say, you're done for good!  You ever flush full can down the toilet and immediately thought, OH SHIT!??!! Haha, silly fucking addict!  I'll betcha dollars to donuts that you've done something similar of not the exact thing!  You ever stuff your can in your sock under your pant leg to hide it?  You ever go down to the...well, i'm sure you have because that's that kinda shit that addicts do.  What's the most regrettable thing you ever do to get a can of dip?  Do tell!

So there you are with a wad of catshit right in your face and you are reading this right now, saying, "I'm not ready to quit"  That's prolly you, you poor desperate bastard.  I've seen that look before.  I'll show a dipper my coin and he'll
:o

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on February 28, 2019, 03:22:33 PM

 :-X

Title: Re: You Are a Fucktard
Post by: Athan on March 17, 2019, 06:10:52 AM

Quote from: BluManChew on January 15, 2019, 01:48:40 PM

That's right.  If you have a wad of cat shit jammed in your face, then you are without question a complete, thorough fucktard. 

DISCLAIMER:Just so we're clear here, there is a huge difference between wanting to quit, and being quit.  Just so we're clearer, using some form of NRT instead of dip does not count as quit.  You do not get a pass, or a pat on the ass.  There is no moral victory there

You want to quit.  It's why your here.  (or your spouse dips?) Did you Google it?  Nah, I'll betcha you old hipster fucks Fire Foxed it is my guess.  But here you are because you searched out "how to quit dipping." or some variation thereof and landed in this site.   Maybe you're a caver logged in as "Guest" show.  That would be rich!

Nonetheless, I don't believe that you would disagree.  You prolly feel like a fucktard every time you bolt to the c-store like your hair is on fire 2 hours after you emphatically toss that can and say, you're done for good!  You ever flush full can down the toilet and immediately thought, OH SHIT!??!! Haha, silly fucking addict!  I'll betcha dollars to donuts that you've done something similar of not the exact thing!  You ever stuff your can in your sock under your pant leg to hide it?  You ever go down to the...well, i'm sure you have because that's that kinda shit that addicts do.  What's the most regrettable thing you ever do to get a can of dip?  Do tell!

So there you are with a wad of catshit right in your face and you are reading this right now, saying, "I'm not ready to quit"  That's prolly you, you poor desperate bastard.  I've seen that look before.  I'll show a dipper my coin and he'll
:o

That was quit gold there - I really thought it was amazing!

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on June 04, 2019, 08:19:44 PM

Textual Chocolates:

Keep your head on a swivel.  The bitch is a sneaky temptress and always there, lurking about the blur of the periphery.  An insationable Demoness, she is. ODAAT 6/3 Fuck nicotine and her deceitful whispering nonsense. I'm quit today because of quitters who had my back when she was fucking with my head early in quit.  ~~ Croakenhagen 6/6 The great thing abut KTC is that it exposes - raw and unapologetically - our weakness.  Addiction, the Bitch, the Poison, the Lipper, the Cat Turd. Call it what you will bc the devil goes by many names but is a devil nonetheless 4/16

TBC

Title: Re: You Are a Fucktard
Post by: BluManChew on June 05, 2019, 10:01:43 AM

 ;)

Title: Re: You Are a Fucktard
Post by: BluManChew on June 05, 2019, 10:04:33 AM

Quote from: Athan on March 17, 2019, 06:10:52 AM

Quote from: BluManChew on January 15, 2019, 01:48:40 PM

That's right.  If you have a wad of cat shit jammed in your face, then you are without question a complete, thorough fucktard. 

DISCLAIMER:Just so we're clear here, there is a huge difference between wanting to quit, and being quit.  Just so we're clearer, using some form of NRT instead of dip does not count as quit.  You do not get a pass, or a pat on the ass.  There is no moral victory there

You want to quit.  It's why your here.  (or your spouse dips?) Did you Google it?  Nah, I'll betcha you old hipster fucks Fire Foxed it is my guess.  But here you are because you searched out "how to quit dipping." or some variation thereof and landed in this site.   Maybe you're a caver logged in as "Guest" show.  That would be rich!

Nonetheless, I don't believe that you would disagree.  You prolly feel like a fucktard every time you bolt to the c-store like your hair is on fire 2 hours after you emphatically toss that can and say, you're done for good!  You ever flush full can down the toilet and immediately thought, OH SHIT!??!! Haha, silly fucking addict!  I'll betcha dollars to donuts that you've done something similar of not the exact thing!  You ever stuff your can in your sock under your pant leg to hide it?  You ever go down to the...well, i'm sure you have because that's that kinda shit that addicts do.  What's the most regrettable thing you ever do to get a can of dip?  Do tell!

So there you are with a wad of catshit right in your face and you are reading this right now, saying, "I'm not ready to quit"  That's prolly you, you poor desperate bastard.  I've seen that look before.  I'll show a dipper my coin and he'll
:o[/s]

That was quit gold there - I really thought it was amazing!

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on June 05, 2019, 10:18:25 AM

Quote from: BluManChew on June 04, 2019, 08:19:44 PM

Textual Chocolates:

Keep your head on a swivel.  The bitch is a sneaky temptress and always there, lurking about the blur of the periphery.  An insationable Demoness, she is. ODAAT 6/3 Fuck nicotine and her deceitful whispering nonsense. I'm quit today because of quitters who had my back when she was fucking with my head early in quit.  ~~ Croakenhagen 6/6 The great thing abut KTC is that it exposes - raw and unapologetically - our weakness.  Addiction, the Bitch, the Poison, the Lipper, the Cat Turd. Call it what you will bc the devil goes by many names but is a devil nonetheless 4/16 508. Onward and onward.  Day after damn day.  Pulled unceasingly by a single desire - to be and stay QUIT.  At all times, all damn day, every damn day. 2/27

TBC

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on June 12, 2019, 12:59:40 PM

 ;)

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on June 12, 2019, 01:01:04 PM

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Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on June 12, 2019, 01:01:35 PM

Textual Chocolates:

~~~Keep your head on a swivel.  The bitch is a sneaky temptress and always there, lurking about the blur of the periphery.  An insationable Demoness, she is. ODAAT 6/3

~~~Fuck nicotine and her deceitful whispering nonsense. I'm quit today because of quitters who had my back when she was fucking with my head early in quit.  ~~ Croakenhagen 6/6

~~~The great thing abut KTC is that it exposes - raw and unapologetically - our weakness.  Addiction, the Bitch, the Poison, the Lipper, the Cat Turd. Call it what you will bc the devil goes by many names but is a devil still the same 4/16

~~~508. Onward and onward.  Day after damn day.  Pulled unceasingly by a single desire - to be and stay QUIT.  At all times, all damn day, every damn day. 2/27

~~~I'm to the point where I've nearly forgotten what it was really like to dip.  It's almost foreign and unrelatable to me.  Yet, the awareness and knowledge that I'm an addict and that I'm just a single choice away from reliving all of that shit is always present.  NAFAR.  PTBQWYT. 5/24

~~~532 and quit.  I've decided that I may be the only person in all if Idaho who has quit dip.  There was a dude in my group who was from here but he caved.  A long long time ago.   I wonder if he and other cavers count the days since they caved.  Like scratching line by side by line in the damp brick with their finger nails.  Day after day In the cell of there choosing, of their own creation.  I choose to quit.  I choose that for today and today only. 3/23

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on June 12, 2019, 08:24:01 PM

Textual Chocolates:

~~~365 PTBQWYT ~~ Arrakisdq 4/29

~~~Keep your head on a swivel.  The bitch is a sneaky temptress and always there, lurking about the blur of the periphery.  An insationable Demoness, she is. ODAAT 6/3

~~~Fuck nicotine and her deceitful whispering nonsense. I'm quit today because of quitters who had my back when she was fucking with my head early in quit.  ~~ Croakenhagen 6/6

~~~The great thing abut KTC is that it exposes - raw and unapologetically - our weakness.  Addiction, the Bitch, the Poison, the Lipper, the Cat Turd. Call it what you will bc the devil goes by many names but is a devil still the same 4/16

~~~508. Onward and onward.  Day after damn day.  Pulled unceasingly by a single desire - to be and stay QUIT.  At all times, all damn day, every damn day. 2/27

~~~I'm to the point where I've nearly forgotten what it was really like to dip.  It's almost foreign and unrelatable to me.  Yet, the awareness and knowledge that I'm an addict and that I'm just a single choice away from reliving all of that shit is always present.  NAFAR.  PTBQWYT. 5/24

~~~532 and quit.  I've decided that I may be the only person in all if Idaho who has quit dip.  There was a dude in my group who was from here but he caved.  A long long time ago.   I wonder if he and other cavers count the days since they caved.  Like scratching line by side by line in the damp brick with their finger nails.  Day after day In the cell of there choosing, of their own creation.  I choose to quit.  I choose that for today and today only. 3/23

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: 69franx on June 12, 2019, 09:55:57 PM

??? What changed brother???

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: RAZD611 on June 13, 2019, 12:29:44 PM

if your struggling, just holler. That is why we are here.

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on June 13, 2019, 09:07:42 PM

Quote from: BluManChew on June 12, 2019, 08:24:01 PM

Textual Chocolates:

~~~365 PTBQWYT ~~ Arrakisdq 4/29

~~~Keep your head on a swivel.  The bitch is a sneaky temptress and always there, lurking about the blur of the periphery.  An insationable Demoness, she is. ODAAT 6/3

~~~Fuck nicotine and her deceitful whispering nonsense. I'm quit today because of quitters who had my back when she was fucking with my head early in quit.  ~~ Croakenhagen 6/6

~~~The great thing abut KTC is that it exposes - raw and unapologetically - our weakness.  Addiction, the Bitch, the Poison, the Lipper, the Cat Turd. Call it what you will bc the devil goes by many names but is a devil still the same 4/16

~~~508. Onward and onward.  Day after damn day.  Pulled unceasingly by a single desire - to be and stay QUIT.  At all times, all damn day, every damn day. 2/27

~~~I'm to the point where I've nearly forgotten what it was really like to dip.  It's almost foreign and unrelatable to me.  Yet, the awareness and knowledge that I'm an addict and that I'm just a single choice away from reliving all of that shit is always present.  NAFAR.  PTBQWYT. 5/24

~~~532 and quit.  I've decided that I may be the only person in all if Idaho who has quit dip.  There was a dude in my group who was from here but he caved.  A long long time ago.   I wonder if he and other cavers count the days since they caved.  Like scratching line by side by line in the damp brick with their finger nails.  Day after day In the cell of there choosing, of their own creation.  I choose to quit.  I choose that for today and today only. 3/23

~~~ Quitting is winning.  Quitting is becoming a habit.  Quitting requires active participation.  Quitting is not a leisurley activity.  Quitters cannot be passive.  Congrats on quitting.  That's a big deal; that's badass.  Quitters are badass.  610 ~~  06/09

~~~ 256 fixin to eat with momma quit ~~ Boovie
467. What's on the menu?  Something stereotypically Southern, In hope.
~~Chicken pie and cornbread... ~~ Boovie
~~Outstanding!  I love Southern food.  I was raised on grits.
~~I'm baking a chocolate velvet bundt cake, as gay as that sounds.
~~Yes it sounds delicious....and gay.~~Boovie 01/17

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on June 13, 2019, 09:12:24 PM

 :)

Title: Re: Excuses, Excuses
Post by: Athan on June 17, 2019, 05:36:52 PM

Quote from: BluManChew on June 17, 2019, 01:30:26 PM

What exuses to you have for chewing today?  Please add to this list!   ;D  Would love to know what you came up with ;)

1.) I have so much money I just don't know what to do with it so I'm giving it to the US Tobacco Company
2.) Chicks dig it!
3.) I'm not satisfied with natural background radiation, I need the extra Polonium-210
4.) I just love the way it makes my breath smell
5.) I'm working towards that billboard smile and it whitens my teeth
6.) I don't want my children to learn this from someone else!
7.) I've heard that gum grafts are one of the most erotic things to have done to you
8.) I love it when my three year old/wife/mom chugs warm copenhagen spit from my bottle
9.) I love to sneeze it all over my dash and interior
10.) If you gotta die, at least go out with only half a face.


BMC 619

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on June 27, 2019, 03:20:05 PM

Quote from: BluManChew on June 12, 2019, 08:24:01 PM

Textual Chocolates:

~~~365 PTBQWYT ~~ Arrakisdq 4/29

~~~Keep your head on a swivel.  The bitch is a sneaky temptress and always there, lurking about the blur of the periphery.  An insationable Demoness, she is. ODAAT 6/3

~~~Fuck nicotine and her deceitful whispering nonsense. I'm quit today because of quitters who had my back when she was fucking with my head early in quit.  ~~ Croakenhagen 6/6

~~~The great thing abut KTC is that it exposes - raw and unapologetically - our weakness.  Addiction, the Bitch, the Poison, the Lipper, the Cat Turd. Call it what you will bc the devil goes by many names but is a devil still the same 4/16

~~~508. Onward and onward.  Day after damn day.  Pulled unceasingly by a single desire - to be and stay QUIT.  At all times, all damn day, every damn day. 2/27

~~~I'm to the point where I've nearly forgotten what it was really like to dip.  It's almost foreign and unrelatable to me.  Yet, the awareness and knowledge that I'm an addict and that I'm just a single choice away from reliving all of that shit is always present.  NAFAR.  PTBQWYT. 5/24

~~~532 and quit.  I've decided that I may be the only person in all if Idaho who has quit dip.  There was a dude in my group who was from here but he caved.  A long long time ago.   I wonder if he and other cavers count the days since they caved.  Like scratching line by side by line in the damp brick with their finger nails.  Day after day In the cell of there choosing, of their own creation.  I choose to quit.  I choose that for today and today only. 3/23

~~~ Quitting is winning.  Quitting is becoming a habit.  Quitting requires active participation.  Quitting is not a leisurley activity.  Quitters cannot be passive.  Congrats on quitting.  That's a big deal; that's badass.  Quitters are badass.  610 ~~  06/09

~~~ 256 fixin to eat with momma quit ~~ Boovie
467. What's on the menu?  Something stereotypically Southern, I hope.
~~Chicken pie and cornbread... ~~ Boovie
~~Outstanding!  I love Southern food.  I was raised on grits.
~~I'm baking a chocolate velvet bundt cake, as gay as that sounds.
~~Yes it sounds delicious....and gay.~~Boovie 01/17

~~37 and ready to knock the day out without shit in my lip! ~~ CDA-rj 6/25

~~Dude.  I can't tell you how great life is sans dip, brother.  You'll have to experience that for yourself, and you do that one day at a time.  628

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: 69franx on June 27, 2019, 09:30:32 PM

I'm loving where this is going brother!

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on July 01, 2019, 07:17:02 AM

Quote from: BluManChew on June 12, 2019, 08:24:01 PM

Textual Chocolates:

~~~365 PTBQWYT ~~ Arrakisdq 4/29

~~~Keep your head on a swivel.  The bitch is a sneaky temptress and always there, lurking about the blur of the periphery.  An insationable Demoness, she is. ODAAT 6/3

~~~Fuck nicotine and her deceitful whispering nonsense. I'm quit today because of quitters who had my back when she was fucking with my head early in quit.  ~~ Croakenhagen 6/6

~~~The great thing abut KTC is that it exposes - raw and unapologetically - our weakness.  Addiction, the Bitch, the Poison, the Lipper, the Cat Turd. Call it what you will bc the devil goes by many names but is a devil still the same 4/16

~~~508. Onward and onward.  Day after damn day.  Pulled unceasingly by a single desire - to be and stay QUIT.  At all times, all damn day, every damn day. 2/27

~~~I'm to the point where I've nearly forgotten what it was really like to dip.  It's almost foreign and unrelatable to me.  Yet, the awareness and knowledge that I'm an addict and that I'm just a single choice away from reliving all of that shit is always present.  NAFAR.  PTBQWYT. 5/24

~~~532 and quit.  I've decided that I may be the only person in all if Idaho who has quit dip.  There was a dude in my group who was from here but he caved.  A long long time ago.   I wonder if he and other cavers count the days since they caved.  Like scratching line by side by line in the damp brick with their finger nails.  Day after day In the cell of there choosing, of their own creation.  I choose to quit.  I choose that for today and today only. 3/23

~~~ Quitting is winning.  Quitting is becoming a habit.  Quitting requires active participation.  Quitting is not a leisurley activity.  Quitters cannot be passive.  Congrats on quitting.  That's a big deal; that's badass.  Quitters are badass.  610 ~~  06/09

~~~ 256 fixin to eat with momma quit ~~ Boovie
467. What's on the menu?  Something stereotypically Southern, I hope.
~~Chicken pie and cornbread... ~~ Boovie
~~Outstanding!  I love Southern food.  I was raised on grits.
~~I'm baking a chocolate velvet bundt cake, as gay as that sounds.
~~Yes it sounds delicious....and gay.~~Boovie 01/17

~~~37 and ready to knock the day out without shit in my lip! ~~ CDA-rj 6/25

~~~Dude.  I can't tell you how great life is sans dip, brother.  You'll have to experience that for yourself, and you do that one day at a time.  628

~~~It's going to be a fucking great Saturday.  Why?  Because we are quit today and will make the day so. 616 ~~ 6/15

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: 69franx on August 22, 2019, 10:05:40 PM

Quote from: BluManChew on August 22, 2019, 06:41:20 PM

Textual Chocolates:

~~~365 PTBQWYT ~~ Arrakisdq 4/29

~~~Keep your head on a swivel.  The bitch is a sneaky temptress and always there, lurking about the blur of the periphery.  An insationable Demoness, she is. ODAAT 6/3

~~~Fuck nicotine and her deceitful whispering nonsense. I'm quit today because of quitters who had my back when she was fucking with my head early in quit.  ~~ Croakenhagen 6/6

~~~The great thing abut KTC is that it exposes - raw and unapologetically - our weakness.  Addiction, the Bitch, the Poison, the Lipper, the Cat Turd. Call it what you will bc the devil goes by many names but is a devil still the same 4/16

~~~508. Onward and onward.  Day after damn day.  Pulled unceasingly by a single desire - to be and stay QUIT.  At all times, all damn day, every damn day. 2/27

~~~I'm to the point where I've nearly forgotten what it was really like to dip.  It's almost foreign and unrelatable to me.  Yet, the awareness and knowledge that I'm an addict and that I'm just a single choice away from reliving all of that shit is always present.  NAFAR.  PTBQWYT. 5/24

~~~532 and quit.  I've decided that I may be the only person in all if Idaho who has quit dip.  There was a dude in my group who was from here but he caved.  A long long time ago.   I wonder if he and other cavers count the days since they caved.  Like scratching line by side by line in the damp brick with their finger nails.  Day after day In the cell of there choosing, of their own creation.  I choose to quit.  I choose that for today and today only. 3/23

~~~ Quitting is winning.  Quitting is becoming a habit.  Quitting requires active participation.  Quitting is not a leisurley activity.  Quitters cannot be passive.  Congrats on quitting.  That's a big deal; that's badass.  Quitters are badass.  610 ~~  06/09

~~~ 256 fixin to eat with momma quit ~~ Boovie
467. What's on the menu?  Something stereotypically Southern, I hope.
~~Chicken pie and cornbread... ~~ Boovie
~~Outstanding!  I love Southern food.  I was raised on grits.
~~I'm baking a chocolate velvet bundt cake, as gay as that sounds.
~~Yes it sounds delicious....and gay.~~Boovie 01/17

~~~37 and ready to knock the day out without shit in my lip! ~~ CDA-rj 6/25

~~~Dude.  I can't tell you how great life is sans dip, brother.  You'll have to experience that for yourself, and you do that one day at a time.  628

~~~It's going to be a fucking great Saturday.  Why?  Because we are quit today and will make the day so. 616 ~~ 6/15

~~~86 and in a good place.  Not emotionally, I’m in line at a taco truck so I’m in a good place this morning. CDA-rj 8/13

Loved that last one when I got it from CDA!

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: Athan on September 07, 2019, 08:17:43 AM

700
speech!

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: Skolvikings on September 07, 2019, 03:56:27 PM

Hell yeah!!!!

Great job Bro, thanks for paying it forward.

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: 69franx on September 07, 2019, 04:45:47 PM

Congrats brother, 700 is pretty damn cool. Keep up the great things you've been doing

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on October 07, 2019, 09:41:03 PM

2 years ago, on October 08, 2017 I quit chewing.  That put me in the Jan 18 Quit Group.

During those 1st days and weeks, the idea of quitting for 2 whole fucking years was impossible.  Hell, it was.

And so it is impossible to quit for 2 years, like it is impossible to quit for 100 days, 1 month, or even 1 week. 

Not even a time machine could thrust me into a future of having been 2 years quit because as I stated before, quitting for more than any time but the present is simply impossible.

And you can't bend time on itself or warp into the 4th dimension of quit, dork, because I know that's what you're thinking.  I thought the same thing myself when I was at your quarky stage of quit.

So when we quit, we can only do the POSSIBLE which is quitting for today and today only.  And by doing the possible every fucking day, day after damn day fucking every day, all damn fucking day, can you achieve the impossible.

So while you can't quit for 2 years at a time, you can quit for One Fucking Day at a Time.  OFDAAT. 

To get from there to here requires very simple actions repeated daily...
WUPP ASAFP ODAAT ADD EDD and before you know it, two years quit will go from impossible to possible seemingly in the time it took you to fling out that last wad of shit.  For me, that happened 2 years ago on a day much like today.

BMC.  730

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: 69franx on October 08, 2019, 03:51:38 PM

Quote from: BluManChew on October 07, 2019, 09:41:03 PM

2 years ago, on October 08, 2017 I quit chewing.  That put me in the Jan 18 Quit Group.

During those 1st days and weeks, the idea of quitting for 2 whole fucking years was impossible.  Hell, it was.

And so it is impossible to quit for 2 years, like it is impossible to quit for 100 days, 1 month, or even 1 week. 

Not even a time machine could thrust me into a future of having been 2 years quit because as I stated before, quitting for more than any time but the present is simply impossible.

And you can't bend time on itself or warp into the 4th dimension of quit, dork, because I know that's what you're thinking.  I thought the same thing myself when I was at your quarky stage of quit.

So when we quit, we can only do the POSSIBLE which is quitting for today and today only.  And by doing the possible every fucking day, day after damn day fucking every day, all damn fucking day, can you achieve the impossible.

So while you can't quit for 2 years at a time, you can quit for One Fucking Day at a Time.  OFDAAT. 

To get from there to here requires very simple actions repeated daily...
WUPP ASAFP ODAAT ADD EDD and before you know it, two years quit will go from impossible to possible seemingly in the time it took you to fling out that last wad of shit.  For me, that happened 2 years ago on a day much like today.

BMC.  730

@BluManChew (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=34) , great stuff here brother. Damn proud to have quit with you daily for so much of the last 2 years

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on October 08, 2019, 06:19:22 PM

Quote from: 69franx on October 08, 2019, 03:51:38 PM

Quote from: BluManChew on October 07, 2019, 09:41:03 PM

2 years ago, on October 08, 2017 I quit chewing.  That put me in the Jan 18 Quit Group.

During those 1st days and weeks, the idea of quitting for 2 whole fucking years was impossible.  Hell, it was.

And so it is impossible to quit for 2 years, like it is impossible to quit for 100 days, 1 month, or even 1 week. 

Not even a time machine could thrust me into a future of having been 2 years quit because as I stated before, quitting for more than any time but the present is simply impossible.

And you can't bend time on itself or warp into the 4th dimension of quit, dork, because I know that's what you're thinking.  I thought the same thing myself when I was at your quarky stage of quit.

So when we quit, we can only do the POSSIBLE which is quitting for today and today only.  And by doing the possible every fucking day, day after damn day fucking every day, all damn fucking day, can you achieve the impossible.

So while you can't quit for 2 years at a time, you can quit for One Fucking Day at a Time.  OFDAAT. 

To get from there to here requires very simple actions repeated daily...
WUPP ASAFP ODAAT ADD EDD and before you know it, two years quit will go from impossible to possible seemingly in the time it took you to fling out that last wad of shit.  For me, that happened 2 years ago on a day much like today.

BMC.  730

@BluManChew (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=34) , great stuff here brother. Damn proud to have quit with you daily for so much of the last 2 years

Likewise @69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26) Thanks for being apart of my quit!  The last 2 years has been full of ups and downs and life in general, and quit thru all of it.

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on November 04, 2019, 10:26:51 AM

Textual Chocolates:

~~~365 PTBQWYT ~~ Arrakisdq 4/29

~~~Keep your head on a swivel.  The bitch is a sneaky temptress and always there, lurking about the blur of the periphery.  An insationable Demoness, she is. ODAAT 6/3

~~~Fuck nicotine and her deceitful whispering nonsense. I'm quit today because of quitters who had my back when she was fucking with my head early in quit.  ~~ Croakenhagen 6/6

~~~The great thing abut KTC is that it exposes - raw and unapologetically - our weakness.  Addiction, the Bitch, the Poison, the Lipper, the Cat Turd. Call it what you will bc the devil goes by many names but is a devil still the same 4/16

~~~508. Onward and onward.  Day after damn day.  Pulled unceasingly by a single desire - to be and stay QUIT.  At all times, all damn day, every damn day. 2/27

~~~I'm to the point where I've nearly forgotten what it was really like to dip.  It's almost foreign and unrelatable to me.  Yet, the awareness and knowledge that I'm an addict and that I'm just a single choice away from reliving all of that shit is always present.  NAFAR.  PTBQWYT. 5/24

~~~532 and quit.  I've decided that I may be the only person in all if Idaho who has quit dip.  There was a dude in my group who was from here but he caved.  A long long time ago.   I wonder if he and other cavers count the days since they caved.  Like scratching line by side by line in the damp brick with their finger nails.  Day after day In the cell of there choosing, of their own creation.  I choose to quit.  I choose that for today and today only. 3/23

~~~ Quitting is winning.  Quitting is becoming a habit.  Quitting requires active participation.  Quitting is not a leisurley activity.  Quitters cannot be passive.  Congrats on quitting.  That's a big deal; that's badass.  Quitters are badass.  610 ~~  06/09

~~~ 256 fixin to eat with momma quit ~~ Boovie
467. What's on the menu?  Something stereotypically Southern, I hope.
~~Chicken pie and cornbread... ~~ Boovie
~~Outstanding!  I love Southern food.  I was raised on grits.
~~I'm baking a chocolate velvet bundt cake, as gay as that sounds.
~~Yes it sounds delicious....and gay.~~Boovie 01/17

~~~37 and ready to knock the day out without shit in my lip! ~~ CDA-rj 6/25

~~~Dude.  I can't tell you how great life is sans dip, brother.  You'll have to experience that for yourself, and you do that one day at a time.  628

~~~It's going to be a fucking great Saturday.  Why?  Because we are quit today and will make the day so. 616 ~~ 6/15

~~~86 and in a good place.  Not emotionally, I’m in line at a taco truck so I’m in a good place this morning. ~~ CDA-rj 8/13

~~~That fleeting idea that you could buy a tin and then you remember how nasty it was, all the spit bottles everywhere, the constant need to step away so you could throw one in,l because you’re ashamed, the smell of it, that ammonia smell that is filled with cancer causing chemicals including uranium and THEN you realize you’re NOT a slave anymore and how thankful you are to have folks on your side daily that helped you get to where you are.  ~~ Croakenhaagen 11/4

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on November 22, 2019, 05:02:04 PM

Textual Chocolates:

~~~365 PTBQWYT ~~ Arrakisdq 4/29

~~~Keep your head on a swivel.  The bitch is a sneaky temptress and always there, lurking about the blur of the periphery.  An insationable Demoness, she is. ODAAT 6/3

~~~Fuck nicotine and her deceitful whispering nonsense. I'm quit today because of quitters who had my back when she was fucking with my head early in quit.  ~~ Croakenhagen 6/6

~~~The great thing abut KTC is that it exposes - raw and unapologetically - our weakness.  Addiction, the Bitch, the Poison, the Lipper, the Cat Turd. Call it what you will bc the devil goes by many names but is a devil still the same 4/16

~~~508. Onward and onward.  Day after damn day.  Pulled unceasingly by a single desire - to be and stay QUIT.  At all times, all damn day, every damn day. 2/27

~~~I'm to the point where I've nearly forgotten what it was really like to dip.  It's almost foreign and unrelatable to me.  Yet, the awareness and knowledge that I'm an addict and that I'm just a single choice away from reliving all of that shit is always present.  NAFAR.  PTBQWYT. 5/24

~~~532 and quit.  I've decided that I may be the only person in all if Idaho who has quit dip.  There was a dude in my group who was from here but he caved.  A long long time ago.   I wonder if he and other cavers count the days since they caved.  Like scratching line by side by line in the damp brick with their finger nails.  Day after day In the cell of there choosing, of their own creation.  I choose to quit.  I choose that for today and today only. 3/23

~~~ Quitting is winning.  Quitting is becoming a habit.  Quitting requires active participation.  Quitting is not a leisurley activity.  Quitters cannot be passive.  Congrats on quitting.  That's a big deal; that's badass.  Quitters are badass.  610 ~~  06/09

~~~ 256 fixin to eat with momma quit ~~ Boovie
467. What's on the menu?  Something stereotypically Southern, I hope.
~~Chicken pie and cornbread... ~~ Boovie
~~Outstanding!  I love Southern food.  I was raised on grits.
~~I'm baking a chocolate velvet bundt cake, as gay as that sounds.
~~Yes it sounds delicious....and gay.~~Boovie 01/17

~~~37 and ready to knock the day out without shit in my lip! ~~ CDA-rj 6/25

~~~Dude.  I can't tell you how great life is sans dip, brother.  You'll have to experience that for yourself, and you do that one day at a time.  628

~~~It's going to be a fucking great Saturday.  Why?  Because we are quit today and will make the day so. 616 ~~ 6/15

~~~86 and in a good place.  Not emotionally, I’m in line at a taco truck so I’m in a good place this morning. ~~ CDA-rj 8/13

~~~That fleeting idea that you could buy a tin and then you remember how nasty it was, all the spit bottles everywhere, the constant need to step away so you could throw one in,l because you’re ashamed, the smell of it, that ammonia smell that is filled with cancer causing chemicals including uranium and THEN you realize you’re NOT a slave anymore and how thankful you are to have folks on your side daily that helped you get to where you are.  ~~ Croakenhaagen 11/4

~~~Keep up the quit! 775
~~989 - One more day. One thing is for certain...no nic today. ~~ Zeus
~~~Come hell or high water.
~~That's right! ~~ Zeus
'nhl'
~~~That's what being quit feels like.
~~~Lol
~~I know the feeling ~~ Zeus
~~~Not me.  Goalies never score
~~~I've only scored 4 times, but I suspect the fourth time may have been an assist until the paternity test results come back.  The play is still under review
~~Haha. ~~ Zeus 11/21/19
 10:15 AM
~~990 Quit like Oedipus ~~ Zeus
~~~You know he doinked his own mother, don't you?
~~~Not that I'm judging
~~I think doinking part was a rumor started by Sidmund Freud, the sick bastard. Until then he merely killed his father and married his mother, accidently  ~~ Zeus
~~Still 990 and quit like a motherfucker. ~~ Zeus
~~~Motherfucker...very apropo...lol. 776
~~~Maurice Povich or Dr Phil need to get to the bottom of it
~~Lol. ~~ Zeus 11/22/19


~

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on November 22, 2019, 05:08:37 PM

 ;)

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on November 22, 2019, 05:09:52 PM

Quote from: BluManChew on November 22, 2019, 05:02:04 PM

Textual Chocolates:

~~~365 PTBQWYT ~~ Arrakisdq 4/29

~~~Keep your head on a swivel.  The bitch is a sneaky temptress and always there, lurking about the blur of the periphery.  An insationable Demoness, she is. ODAAT 6/3

~~~Fuck nicotine and her deceitful whispering nonsense. I'm quit today because of quitters who had my back when she was fucking with my head early in quit.  ~~ Croakenhagen 6/6

~~~The great thing abut KTC is that it exposes - raw and unapologetically - our weakness.  Addiction, the Bitch, the Poison, the Lipper, the Cat Turd. Call it what you will bc the devil goes by many names but is a devil still the same 4/16

~~~508. Onward and onward.  Day after damn day.  Pulled unceasingly by a single desire - to be and stay QUIT.  At all times, all damn day, every damn day. 2/27

~~~I'm to the point where I've nearly forgotten what it was really like to dip.  It's almost foreign and unrelatable to me.  Yet, the awareness and knowledge that I'm an addict and that I'm just a single choice away from reliving all of that shit is always present.  NAFAR.  PTBQWYT. 5/24

~~~532 and quit.  I've decided that I may be the only person in all if Idaho who has quit dip.  There was a dude in my group who was from here but he caved.  A long long time ago.   I wonder if he and other cavers count the days since they caved.  Like scratching line by side by line in the damp brick with their finger nails.  Day after day In the cell of there choosing, of their own creation.  I choose to quit.  I choose that for today and today only. 3/23

~~~ Quitting is winning.  Quitting is becoming a habit.  Quitting requires active participation.  Quitting is not a leisurley activity.  Quitters cannot be passive.  Congrats on quitting.  That's a big deal; that's badass.  Quitters are badass.  610 ~~  06/09

~~~ 256 fixin to eat with momma quit ~~ Boovie
467. What's on the menu?  Something stereotypically Southern, I hope.
~~Chicken pie and cornbread... ~~ Boovie
~~Outstanding!  I love Southern food.  I was raised on grits.
~~I'm baking a chocolate velvet bundt cake, as gay as that sounds.
~~Yes it sounds delicious....and gay.~~Boovie 01/17

~~~37 and ready to knock the day out without shit in my lip! ~~ CDA-rj 6/25

~~~Dude.  I can't tell you how great life is sans dip, brother.  You'll have to experience that for yourself, and you do that one day at a time.  628

~~~It's going to be a fucking great Saturday.  Why?  Because we are quit today and will make the day so. 616 ~~ 6/15

~~~86 and in a good place.  Not emotionally, I’m in line at a taco truck so I’m in a good place this morning. ~~ CDA-rj 8/13

~~~That fleeting idea that you could buy a tin and then you remember how nasty it was, all the spit bottles everywhere, the constant need to step away so you could throw one in,l because you’re ashamed, the smell of it, that ammonia smell that is filled with cancer causing chemicals including uranium and THEN you realize you’re NOT a slave anymore and how thankful you are to have folks on your side daily that helped you get to where you are.  ~~ Croakenhaagen 11/4

~~~Keep up the quit! 775
~~989 - One more day. One thing is for certain...no nic today. ~~ Zeus
~~~Come hell or high water.
~~That's right! ~~ Zeus
'nhl'
~~~That's what being quit feels like.
~~~Lol
~~I know the feeling ~~ Zeus
~~~Not me.  Goalies never score
~~~I've only scored 4 times, but I suspect the fourth time may have been an assist until the paternity test results come back.  The play is still under review
~~Haha. ~~ Zeus 11/21/19
 10:15 AM
~~990 Quit like Oedipus ~~ Zeus
~~~You know he doinked his own mother, don't you?
~~~Not that I'm judging
~~I think doinking part was a rumor started by Sidmund Freud, the sick bastard. Until then he merely killed his father and married his mother, accidently  ~~ Zeus
~~Still 990 and quit like a motherfucker. ~~ Zeus
~~~Motherfucker...very apropo...lol. 776
~~~Maurice Povich or Dr Phil need to get to the bottom of it
~~Lol. ~~ Zeus 11/22/19


~~~

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on December 06, 2019, 10:52:33 AM

Textual Chocolates:

~~It used to be that my eyes would pop open first thing, and I'd be gasping for a dip, as I if had surfaced from the water after having gone deeper than my lung capacity would allow.

That dip is the breath that keeps the addict alive.  The addict "needs" it otherwise it suffocates.  It feels the same fear I would if I knew I were drowning.

While still an addict, it literally had been years since I stuffed tobacco into my face

Now, instead of breathing in Poison first thing, I breath In clean air, and freedom from dip.  With that freedom comes life, and with life opportunity.

Stay quit, fuckers.  Keep your heads above the water.

790 ODAAT - 12/06/19 ~~

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on December 15, 2019, 01:21:31 PM

Last night (12/14/19) I was at a work retreat dinner high up in the Idaho mountains when I stepped outside to get some fresh, zero degree night air.

As it happens couple of smokers came out as well.  I overhear one of my work buddies, talking about how he is getting on chantix and quitting in two weeks. 

Since it was quit talk, I listened a little closer and something about what he said about why was quitting caught my attention.  I wander over there and ask 'so, Tony, why are you quitting?'. And he goes something like, 'aw, I gotta quit for my wife and my kids. They want me to quit.'. And he says this sincerely wanting to quit for them.

And I get to thinking about why we preach here that if you are going to be successful, you must quit for yourself and ONLY yourself.

Think about it - all the withdrawals of quitting like the fog, the anxiety, quick anger, the depression, the grind, the lack of motivation, the agony and the utter misery you feel while quitting will be placed at the feet of those you are quitting for.

This will cause resentment and contempt - and possibly you'll rage against those you care for because in your twisted addict brain you'll blame them for the misery.

You must quit for you.  This is your quit and no one else's.  This is your trial and no one else's.  You dug the hole you are in and you must climb your way out.

It is not easy but quitters before you know the way out.  That is why brotherhood is important here

Since this is your quit, remember that you are in the driver's seat.  Also know that you can do this because you have the power.

So, go ahead and be a badass today. Walk a little taller.  Hold your head up high.  You're quit now, and you are doing it for yourself and for yourself only.

And if you are a guest reading this, quit for YOU and you only.  That there is the best reason to quit.

BMC 799 ODAAT.

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: ankape on December 16, 2019, 04:39:59 PM

 8)
BMC to the 8th floor!!!

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: Athan on December 16, 2019, 06:58:43 PM

Anyone seen Hundy? I heard BMC ate 'im.  That's right, BMC ate Hundy!!

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: 69franx on December 16, 2019, 07:30:10 PM

Quote from: Athan on December 16, 2019, 06:58:43 PM

Anyone seen Hundy? I heard BMC ate 'im.  That's right, BMC ate Hundy!!

Congrats brother!

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on December 17, 2019, 04:47:07 PM

Quote from: 69franx on December 16, 2019, 07:30:10 PM

Quote from: Athan on December 16, 2019, 06:58:43 PM

Anyone seen Hundy? I heard BMC ate 'im.  That's right, BMC ate Hundy!!

Congrats brother!

Thx @69franx (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=26) ! & @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) !

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: Nomore1959 on December 17, 2019, 05:29:54 PM

Day late congrats on 800! 

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on March 16, 2020, 04:04:54 PM

Textual Chocolates:

~~~Ah the economy of a crisis.

~~~This is the Walmart near my house. Had to stop for some cokes and Robitussin. They TP isle was empty and so was most of the medicine isle. It was ridiculous ~~~ Croak

~~~Hahaha.  And to make matters worse Alex Jones went to jail for a DUI


~~~Not Surprised there~~~Croak.

~~~What a fucking clown fiesta this is.

~~~Fucking ridiculous~~~Croak.

~~~Rick Grimes thinks we're all a bunch of overreacting pussies


~~~I'm going to make a shirt that says," it's okay to shake my hand I just washed my testicles"


~~~Yes, I'll take one of those lmfao ~~~Croak


BMC 891

Title: Re: Ode to March 2019 - Posted Some Time Ago
Post by: BluManChew on March 16, 2020, 08:27:45 PM

So, for all you newbs and retreads who have butt hurt tendencies. (original written to March 19

So, an honest question:  What's it like to cave?  I don't mean pre-KTC where you stopped for a period of time (like we all have).  I mean like when you count on a few - if not several - quit sis' and bros, and they count on you, for daily and sometimes hourly support.  I mean, people here lean on eachother when they don't feel like theirs backs won't break by the fatigue of an early bombardment. 

An assault of crave after crave after nag after bitch after nag that is meant for nothing but to demoralize.  But only if it gains ground and wins and only if you let it happen.  The choice to lose or win this battle is entirely yours.

But in choosing this path to quit-dom, we thereby open ourselves up to an uncomfortable humility that all but forbids us to simply ask for help.  To ask for accountability from you and thus ask to have your trust in this battle.  You let me take your six.  You let me take your quit rage.  You call me at 3AM if you have to.  You can trust me.

By engaging in this forum you are asking for trust and at the same time to be trusted.  This isn't some fucking cult like many have said here before they ghosted.  This is a group of men and women who came to a realization they their lives and the lives of the ones that cared for them are negatively impacted in more ways to count.  This is a group of men and women who entered asking "can i trust you?" to "you can trust me."

Cavers here violate that trust.  Many of you newbs wonder about the harsh treatment retreads get.  And even say the b-b-b-b-b-b-b-b-bully word.  If your underwear is not twisting on a flag pole, you are not being bullied.  If you not upside down having the coins shaken out of your pockets, you are not being bullied.

Here you are being held accountable.  This is what it looks like.  Like it or not, it always will

Title: Re: Ode to March 2019 - Posted Some Time Ago
Post by: Daviddim on March 16, 2020, 11:04:49 PM

Quote from: BluManChew on March 16, 2020, 08:27:45 PM

So, for all you newbs and retreads who have butt hurt tendencies. (original written to March 19

So, an honest question:  What's it like to cave?  I don't mean pre-KTC where you stopped for a period of time (like we all have).  I mean like when you count on a few - if not several - quit sis' and bros, and they count on you, for daily and sometimes hourly support.  I mean, people here lean on eachother when they don't feel like theirs backs won't break by the fatigue of an early bombardment. 

An assault of crave after crave after nag after bitch after nag that is meant for nothing but to demoralize.  But only if it gains ground and wins and only if you let it happen.  The choice to lose or win this battle is entirely yours.

But in choosing this path to quit-dom, we thereby open ourselves up to an uncomfortable humility that all but forbids us to simply ask for help.  To ask for accountability from you and thus ask to have your trust in this battle.  You let me take your six.  You let me take your quit rage.  You call me at 3AM if you have to.  You can trust me.

By engaging in this forum you are asking for trust and at the same time to be trusted.  This isn't some fucking cult like many have said here before they ghosted.  This is a group of men and women who came to a realization they their lives and the lives of the ones that cared for them are negatively impacted in more ways to count.  This is a group of men and women who entered asking "can i trust you?" to "you can trust me."

Cavers here violate that trust.  Many of you newbs wonder about the harsh treatment retreads get.  And even say the b-b-b-b-b-b-b-b-bully word.  If your underwear is not twisting on a flag pole, you are not being bullied.  If you not upside down having the coins shaken out of your pockets, you are not being bullied.

Here you are being held accountable.  This is what it looks like.  Like it or not, it always will

I’ll tell you what, you spew a lot of overconfidence and you should watch yourself, because my cave wasn’t so transparent. I left this site with a strong quit and no intention on going back, but I look back on it and see nothing but an arrogant asswipe. Who thought he was impenetrable. Nicotine didn’t come back into my life easily, I fought it, it wasn’t a moment where Nicotine opened my door and said HEY MIND IF I COME IN?? It was so much more subtle, it was so sneaky and I had no suspicion that it would even be relevant to me ever again.

Slowly the door opened more and more and I didn’t even know who it was.... I just kept watching the creeping door slowly open.... not knowing who was doing it.

Part of me let it open, part of me wanted to see if I was truly as impenetrable as I felt, I felt bullet proof. Looking back on it all, I realize it was me opening that door and no one else. I was allowing everything that happened to happen. Here I am, back at it again. A retreat in my opinion is somewhat honorable, it takes a very intelligent human being to be able to fail forward. Not saying you should be okay with failure at all, but if you do, do you just give up?

There’s another thing to be said about someone who has never failed in their entire life.... and that’s called fiction.

But also I had no accountability.... this site was nothing but a bunch of numbers online to me at 1200 days. Don’t let it become that, and even if you do decide to leave this site. Take some numbers and contacts with you....

Title: Re: Ode to March 2019 - Posted Some Time Ago
Post by: BluManChew on March 18, 2020, 06:54:30 PM

Quote from: Daviddim on March 16, 2020, 11:04:49 PM

Quote from: BluManChew on March 16, 2020, 08:27:45 PM

So, for all you newbs and retreads who have butt hurt tendencies. (original written to March 19

So, an honest question:  What's it like to cave?  I don't mean pre-KTC where you stopped for a period of time (like we all have).  I mean like when you count on a few - if not several - quit sis' and bros, and they count on you, for daily and sometimes hourly support.  I mean, people here lean on eachother when they don't feel like theirs backs won't break by the fatigue of an early bombardment. 

An assault of crave after crave after nag after bitch after nag that is meant for nothing but to demoralize.  But only if it gains ground and wins and only if you let it happen.  The choice to lose or win this battle is entirely yours.

But in choosing this path to quit-dom, we thereby open ourselves up to an uncomfortable humility that all but forbids us to simply ask for help.  To ask for accountability from you and thus ask to have your trust in this battle.  You let me take your six.  You let me take your quit rage.  You call me at 3AM if you have to.  You can trust me.

By engaging in this forum you are asking for trust and at the same time to be trusted.  This isn't some fucking cult like many have said here before they ghosted.  This is a group of men and women who came to a realization they their lives and the lives of the ones that cared for them are negatively impacted in more ways to count.  This is a group of men and women who entered asking "can i trust you?" to "you can trust me."

Cavers here violate that trust.  Many of you newbs wonder about the harsh treatment retreads get.  And even say the b-b-b-b-b-b-b-b-bully word.  If your underwear is not twisting on a flag pole, you are not being bullied.  If you not upside down having the coins shaken out of your pockets, you are not being bullied.

Here you are being held accountable.  This is what it looks like.  Like it or not, it always will

I’ll tell you what, you spew a lot of overconfidence and you should watch yourself, because my cave wasn’t so transparent. I left this site with a strong quit and no intention on going back, but I look back on it and see nothing but an arrogant asswipe. Who thought he was impenetrable. Nicotine didn’t come back into my life easily, I fought it, it wasn’t a moment where Nicotine opened my door and said HEY MIND IF I COME IN?? It was so much more subtle, it was so sneaky and I had no suspicion that it would even be relevant to me ever again.

Slowly the door opened more and more and I didn’t even know who it was.... I just kept watching the creeping door slowly open.... not knowing who was doing it.

Part of me let it open, part of me wanted to see if I was truly as impenetrable as I felt, I felt bullet proof. Looking back on it all, I realize it was me opening that door and no one else. I was allowing everything that happened to happen. Here I am, back at it again. A retreat in my opinion is somewhat honorable, it takes a very intelligent human being to be able to fail forward. Not saying you should be okay with failure at all, but if you do, do you just give up?

There’s another thing to be said about someone who has never failed in their entire life.... and that’s called fiction.

But also I had no accountability.... this site was nothing but a bunch of numbers online to me at 1200 days. Don’t let it become that, and even if you do decide to leave this site. Take some numbers and contacts with you....

Very well stated, @Daviddim (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=10040) , and i appreciate your in site and forthrightness in your struggle to stay quit even at 1,200 Days.

It's an eye opener to guys like me who are approaching 900 days quit, and i am painfully aware that one bad choice and all that goes away. I am fully aware that any thought about dip is a choice.  Right now, dip is nothing to me, and mostly don't even notice it when i'm at the store buying gum or something.

Anyways, keep up the quit and don't let a cave get you down, rather use that a fuel to push through day by god damned day every god damned day.

PTBQWY, my friend.

BMC 893

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: Athan on March 19, 2020, 09:07:46 PM

How many reasons to continue dipping can you list off?

1) Chicks dig it - Nothing says panties off like smokeless tobacco and a mullet
2) Everybody's gotta die of something - I wanna go out with half my face rotting off
3) I've so much cash I just don't know what to do with it - blowing it on carcinogens seems like a great investment

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: Athan on March 25, 2020, 06:51:10 PM

Anyone seen Hundy? I heard BluManChew Nine Hundy?

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: Athan on March 25, 2020, 06:52:08 PM

Quote from: Athan on March 25, 2020, 06:51:10 PM

Anyone seen Hundy? I heard BluManChew Nine Hundy?

Wait...Well...OK...so that doesn't really work at all. Anyway, Congratulations!

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: Skolvikings on March 25, 2020, 07:10:41 PM

Quote from: Athan on March 25, 2020, 06:52:08 PM

Quote from: Athan on March 25, 2020, 06:51:10 PM

Anyone seen Hundy? I heard BluManChew Nine Hundy?

Wait...Well...OK...so that doesn't really work at all. Anyway, Congratulations!

Way to kick ass Rob, proud to be in your corner!!

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on March 29, 2020, 09:42:18 AM

Quote from: Skolvikings on March 25, 2020, 07:10:41 PM

Quote from: Athan on March 25, 2020, 06:52:08 PM

Quote from: Athan on March 25, 2020, 06:51:10 PM

Anyone seen Hundy? I heard BluManChew Nine Hundy?

Wait...Well...OK...so that doesn't really work at all. Anyway, Congratulations!

Way to kick ass Rob, proud to be in your corner!!

Thx @Skolvikings (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=70) ! 

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: ChickDip on March 29, 2020, 04:38:23 PM

Quote from: BluManChew on March 29, 2020, 09:42:18 AM

Quote from: Skolvikings on March 25, 2020, 07:10:41 PM

Quote from: Athan on March 25, 2020, 06:52:08 PM

Quote from: Athan on March 25, 2020, 06:51:10 PM

Anyone seen Hundy? I heard BluManChew Nine Hundy?

Wait...Well...OK...so that doesn't really work at all. Anyway, Congratulations!

Way to kick ass Rob, proud to be in your corner!!

Thx @Skolvikings (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=70) !

C9ngratulations BMC !!! Badassery

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: Croakenhagen on March 30, 2020, 12:20:55 AM

Quote from: ChickDip on March 29, 2020, 04:38:23 PM

Quote from: BluManChew on March 29, 2020, 09:42:18 AM

Quote from: Skolvikings on March 25, 2020, 07:10:41 PM

Quote from: Athan on March 25, 2020, 06:52:08 PM

Quote from: Athan on March 25, 2020, 06:51:10 PM

Anyone seen Hundy? I heard BluManChew Nine Hundy?

Wait...Well...OK...so that doesn't really work at all. Anyway, Congratulations!

Way to kick ass Rob, proud to be in your corner!!

Thx @Skolvikings (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=70) !

C9ngratulations BMC !!! Badassery

Congrats man on 900! Well deserved and PTBQWYT!

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on June 28, 2020, 09:37:03 PM

For you guest and lurkers, a short reading from a post in Oct 20 group on placing appropriate purpose on why we quit - why we really quit.
(W/ some minor edits)
BMC 995


Welcome mtrentin.   

Just a quick comment about your day 2 post.  Make sure you are quitting for the right reason.  While sacrificing your own needs for your family or others is a noble endeavor, it may not serve a purpose when it comes to quitting dip. 

Your wife and children or loved ones will not be the ones who have to suffer the withdrawals, are not the ones who drove to the c-store 4 hours after you swore off dipping, they are not the ones who stuffed cat shit in your face.

They are not the ones who will crawl and slog through the gaunlet of anxiety, depression, sleeplessness, over eating, mind-fuckery, the shakes, and the obstacles and challenges that are associated with quitting.  They will not be the ones seeking clarity in the fog.  They will not be the ones who'll want to sink in the mire when the bitch puts a death grip around your ankles and pulls you down.

Nor will it be your family who needs to text a fellow quitter in a far off land somewhere across the country when you need a little support.  It will not be your family who feels the subtle and cautious pride of a hundred days quit.  It will not be your family who writes your HOF speech, or advances t the 2nd floor, or getting that solid year of quit in the rear view.  It will not be your family who wants - at times - to say fuck it while you search for a higher resolution when MEANING and truth become pixelated.

It will be YOU.

BMC 992 - Father of 4, one on the way, 15 years married.

I quit for none of them. 

I stay quit for none of them. 

My quit is my own.

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on June 29, 2020, 10:22:12 AM

Quote from: BluManChew on June 28, 2020, 09:37:03 PM

For you guest and lurkers, a short reading from a post in Oct 20 group on placing appropriate purpose on why we quit - why we really quit.
(W/ some minor edits)
BMC 995


Welcome mtrentin.   

Just a quick comment about your day 2 post.  Make sure you are quitting for the right reason.  While sacrificing your own needs for your family or others is a noble endeavor, it may not serve a purpose when it comes to quitting dip. 

Your wife and children or loved ones will not be the ones who have to suffer the withdrawals, are not the ones who drove to the c-store 4 hours after you swore off dipping, they are not the ones who stuffed cat shit in your face.

They are not the ones who will crawl and slog through the gaunlet of anxiety, depression, sleeplessness, over eating, mind-fuckery, the shakes, and the obstacles and challenges that are associated with quitting.  They will not be the ones seeking clarity in the fog.  They will not be the ones who'll want to sink in the mire when the bitch puts a death grip around your ankles and pulls you down.

Nor will it be your family who needs to text a fellow quitter in a far off land somewhere across the country when you need a little support.  It will not be your family who feels the subtle and cautious pride of a hundred days quit.  It will not be your family who writes your HOF speech, or advances t the 2nd floor, or getting that solid year of quit in the rear view.  It will not be your family who wants - at times - to say fuck it while you search for a higher resolution when MEANING and truth become pixelated.

It will be YOU.

BMC 992 - Father of 4, one on the way, 15 years married.

I quit for none of them. 

I stay quit for none of them. 

My quit is my own.

For some fucking reason i decided to go back and read some of my own stuff,and came across this post from 7 months ago.  It's related to the "why" of quitting.

To update you, i talked to the guy last week.  He still smokes, and he still talks about Chantix. [/i]

(Posted from 12/15/19)

Last night (12/14/19) I was at a work retreat dinner high up in the Idaho mountains when I stepped outside to get some fresh, zero degree night air.

As it happens couple of smokers came out as well.  I overhear one of my work buddies, talking about how he is getting on chantix and quitting in two weeks. 

Since it was quit talk, I listened a little closer and something about what he said about why was quitting caught my attention.  I wander over there and ask 'so, Tony, why are you quitting?'. And he goes something like, 'aw, I gotta quit for my wife and my kids. They want me to quit.'. And he says this sincerely wanting to quit for them.

And I get to thinking about why we preach here that if you are going to be successful, you must quit for yourself and ONLY yourself.

Think about it - all the withdrawals of quitting like the fog, the anxiety, quick anger, the depression, the grind, the lack of motivation, the agony and the utter misery you feel while quitting will be placed at the feet of those you are quitting for.

This will cause resentment and contempt - and possibly you'll rage against those you care for because in your twisted addict brain you'll blame them for the misery.

You must quit for you.  This is your quit and no one else's.  This is your trial and no one else's.  You dug the hole you are in and you must climb your way out.

It is not easy but quitters before you know the way out.  That is why brotherhood is important here

Since this is your quit, remember that you are in the driver's seat.  Also know that you can do this because you have the power.

So, go ahead and be a badass today. Walk a little taller.  Hold your head up high.  You're quit now, and you are doing it for yourself and for yourself only.

And if you are a guest reading this, quit for YOU and you only.  That there is the best reason to quit.

BMC 799 ODAAT.

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: Athan on June 29, 2020, 06:14:13 PM

Quote from: BluManChew on June 29, 2020, 10:22:12 AM

...This will cause resentment and contempt - and possibly you'll rage against those you care for because in your twisted addict brain you'll blame them for the misery.

and that's how the addict brain works. It is the epitome of narcissism. The victim mentality - it's someone else's fault. It's a back door emergency escape route and a planned cave to quit for someone else.

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on July 03, 2020, 10:34:46 AM

Whelp, today marks 1,000 days.  All I can say is that 1,000 days ago I flung out that final wad of catshit and said fuck it and walked away.

Not saying it was ever easy, bc it wasn't, but it sure as hell was worth it

If you think you don't have the power to overcome that nasty addiction, think again.   What you have the power over is choice.  This isn't a matter of can not or will not, but a matter choose to or choose not to quit .

If you are a guest reading this, quitting NOW will be the best choice you can make.  It's a choice I've made every moment for the past 1,000 days.

BMC 1,000

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: Keith0617 on July 03, 2020, 02:32:00 PM

Quote from: BluManChew on July 03, 2020, 10:34:46 AM

Whelp, today marks 1,000 days.  All I can say is that 1,000 days ago I flung out that final wad of catshit and said fuck it and walked away.

Not saying it was ever easy, bc it wasn't, but it sure as hell was worth it

If you think you don't have the power to overcome that nasty addiction, think again.   What you have the power over is choice.  This isn't a matter of can not or will not, but a matter choose to or choose not to quit .

If you are a guest reading this, quitting NOW will be the best choice you can make.  It's a choice I've made every moment for the past 1,000 days.

BMC 1,000

Congrats brother on a 1k badass days.

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: Athan on July 03, 2020, 05:03:48 PM

Quote from: Keith0617 on July 03, 2020, 02:32:00 PM

Quote from: BluManChew on July 03, 2020, 10:34:46 AM

Whelp, today marks 1,000 days.  All I can say is that 1,000 days ago I flung out that final wad of catshit and said fuck it and walked away.

Not saying it was ever easy, bc it wasn't, but it sure as hell was worth it

If you think you don't have the power to overcome that nasty addiction, think again.   What you have the power over is choice.  This isn't a matter of can not or will not, but a matter choose to or choose not to quit .

If you are a guest reading this, quitting NOW will be the best choice you can make.  It's a choice I've made every moment for the past 1,000 days.

BMC 1,000

Congrats brother on a 1k badass days.

Dude!

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on July 03, 2020, 07:26:38 PM

Quote from: Athan on July 03, 2020, 05:03:48 PM

Quote from: Keith0617 on July 03, 2020, 02:32:00 PM

Quote from: BluManChew on July 03, 2020, 10:34:46 AM

Whelp, today marks 1,000 days.  All I can say is that 1,000 days ago I flung out that final wad of catshit and said fuck it and walked away.

Not saying it was ever easy, bc it wasn't, but it sure as hell was worth it

If you think you don't have the power to overcome that nasty addiction, think again.   What you have the power over is choice.  This isn't a matter of can not or will not, but a matter choose to or choose not to quit .

If you are a guest reading this, quitting NOW will be the best choice you can make.  It's a choice I've made every moment for the past 1,000 days.

BMC 1,000

Congrats brother on a 1k badass days.

Dude!

Thx @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) and @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) !  One thing I didn't mention above, is that those 1,000 days are attributable to all the other quitters who have to grind it out. 

Brotherhood + Accountability = Success

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: 69franx on July 03, 2020, 09:25:33 PM

Quote from: BluManChew on July 03, 2020, 07:26:38 PM

Quote from: Athan on July 03, 2020, 05:03:48 PM

Quote from: Keith0617 on July 03, 2020, 02:32:00 PM

Quote from: BluManChew on July 03, 2020, 10:34:46 AM

Whelp, today marks 1,000 days.  All I can say is that 1,000 days ago I flung out that final wad of catshit and said fuck it and walked away.

Not saying it was ever easy, bc it wasn't, but it sure as hell was worth it

If you think you don't have the power to overcome that nasty addiction, think again.   What you have the power over is choice.  This isn't a matter of can not or will not, but a matter choose to or choose not to quit .

If you are a guest reading this, quitting NOW will be the best choice you can make.  It's a choice I've made every moment for the past 1,000 days.

BMC 1,000

Congrats brother on a 1k badass days.

Dude!

Thx @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) and @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) !  One thing I didn't mention above, is that those 1,000 days are attributable to all the other quitters who have to grind it out. 

Brotherhood + Accountability = Success

Such an awesome point in time: BMC@1,000! Keep the faith brother and keep being a badass spreading the word!

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: Thefranks5 on July 04, 2020, 07:01:13 AM

Dude that is totally awesome “think little kid from the incredibles in driveway”. Thanks @BluManChew (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=34) for sticking around and posting still. One day with Gods help I pray that I could post 1000 days. It is people like you that keep inspiring everybody. Yrs, it is totally awesome!!

QUIT FOREVER 3/5/2020

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: ankape on July 04, 2020, 06:52:42 PM

Quote from: 69franx on July 03, 2020, 09:25:33 PM

Quote from: BluManChew on July 03, 2020, 07:26:38 PM

Quote from: Athan on July 03, 2020, 05:03:48 PM

Quote from: Keith0617 on July 03, 2020, 02:32:00 PM

Quote from: BluManChew on July 03, 2020, 10:34:46 AM

Whelp, today marks 1,000 days.  All I can say is that 1,000 days ago I flung out that final wad of catshit and said fuck it and walked away.

Not saying it was ever easy, bc it wasn't, but it sure as hell was worth it

If you think you don't have the power to overcome that nasty addiction, think again.   What you have the power over is choice.  This isn't a matter of can not or will not, but a matter choose to or choose not to quit .

If you are a guest reading this, quitting NOW will be the best choice you can make.  It's a choice I've made every moment for the past 1,000 days.

BMC 1,000

Congrats brother on a 1k badass days.

Dude!

Thx @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) and @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) !  One thing I didn't mention above, is that those 1,000 days are attributable to all the other quitters who have to grind it out. 

Brotherhood + Accountability = Success

Such an awesome point in time: BMC@1,000! Keep the faith brother and keep being a badass spreading the word!

Congratulations BMC!! You’re a true badass!

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: KD2 on July 07, 2020, 10:57:44 PM

Quote from: ankape on July 04, 2020, 06:52:42 PM

Quote from: 69franx on July 03, 2020, 09:25:33 PM

Quote from: BluManChew on July 03, 2020, 07:26:38 PM

Quote from: Athan on July 03, 2020, 05:03:48 PM

Quote from: Keith0617 on July 03, 2020, 02:32:00 PM

Quote from: BluManChew on July 03, 2020, 10:34:46 AM

Whelp, today marks 1,000 days.  All I can say is that 1,000 days ago I flung out that final wad of catshit and said fuck it and walked away.

Not saying it was ever easy, bc it wasn't, but it sure as hell was worth it

If you think you don't have the power to overcome that nasty addiction, think again.   What you have the power over is choice.  This isn't a matter of can not or will not, but a matter choose to or choose not to quit .

If you are a guest reading this, quitting NOW will be the best choice you can make.  It's a choice I've made every moment for the past 1,000 days.

BMC 1,000

Congrats brother on a 1k badass days.

Dude!

Thx @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) and @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) !  One thing I didn't mention above, is that those 1,000 days are attributable to all the other quitters who have to grind it out. 

Brotherhood + Accountability = Success

Such an awesome point in time: BMC@1,000! Keep the faith brother and keep being a badass spreading the word!

Congratulations BMC!! You’re a true badass!

Congrats BMC! A comma and then some is what we’re all in here for...to not look back and enjoy what we’re getting done...you’re inspiring. Thanks.

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on July 11, 2020, 07:10:10 PM

Quote from: KD2 on July 07, 2020, 10:57:44 PM

Quote from: ankape on July 04, 2020, 06:52:42 PM

Quote from: 69franx on July 03, 2020, 09:25:33 PM

Quote from: BluManChew on July 03, 2020, 07:26:38 PM

Quote from: Athan on July 03, 2020, 05:03:48 PM

Quote from: Keith0617 on July 03, 2020, 02:32:00 PM

Quote from: BluManChew on July 03, 2020, 10:34:46 AM

Whelp, today marks 1,000 days.  All I can say is that 1,000 days ago I flung out that final wad of catshit and said fuck it and walked away.

Not saying it was ever easy, bc it wasn't, but it sure as hell was worth it

If you think you don't have the power to overcome that nasty addiction, think again.   What you have the power over is choice.  This isn't a matter of can not or will not, but a matter choose to or choose not to quit .

If you are a guest reading this, quitting NOW will be the best choice you can make.  It's a choice I've made every moment for the past 1,000 days.

BMC 1,000

Congrats brother on a 1k badass days.

Dude!

Thx @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) and @Keith0617 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=1356) !  One thing I didn't mention above, is that those 1,000 days are attributable to all the other quitters who have to grind it out. 

Brotherhood + Accountability = Success

Such an awesome point in time: BMC@1,000! Keep the faith brother and keep being a badass spreading the word!

Congratulations BMC!! You’re a true badass!

Congrats BMC! A comma and then some is what we’re all in here for...to not look back and enjoy what we’re getting done...you’re inspiring. Thanks.

Thx @KD2 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=15299) .  PTQWYT.

Title: Re: 381 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on July 12, 2020, 09:34:56 AM

Quote from: BluManChew on October 24, 2018, 11:02:51 AM

381 Days Later

Gents, ladies, let me be 69franx with you.  I'm going to tell you something straight up.  From the cavernous labyrinth of my soul - let me tell you something from a dope who  dipped straight but never dipped Cope. 

I measure my sordid, masochistic, insidious love affair with the bitch in decades.

How I made as far as I have I cannot tell you.  And how I've made from there to here I certainly can - Choice.  The Epiphainein event leading up this point 381 days  later came down to a simple choice.

A choice that for one reason or another I hadn't ever made - I mean really, really had never made that choice.  But I made that choice decades after I knew that I should.  But I bought the lie that came with every tin, every pack.  It told me time and time again that I never could.

Then one day, I made the easiest choice I ever had - I walked away.  As simple as that.  One moment I was dipping and the next I was not.  It wasn’t always easy, though.

Sometimes I had to run and I had to run like hell - run like my hair's on fire.  And I walked, stumbled, sprinted, jogged, dragged and crawled and clawed my way.  Kicking and screaming - dragging myself onward.  Day after God damned day, every damn day, day after day after day. 

Yet, here I am.  381 days later.  Three hundred and eighty one days since day number one.  That means something.  That’s something worth protecting. 

I'll guard my quit like I guard my balls.  Always, ALWAYS, always be on the ready for a surprise, phantom kick by the bitch of a passing flick-of-the wrist directed toward your groin. – (hands crossed over crotch, lift one foot off the ground, bend raised knee, and quarter turn away from the assailant.)  Works every fucking time.

I'm quick like that.

So, let me tell you all something besides all that sobby shit.

Ready?  No, seriously? Okay....

...being quit is awesome.  No, glorious some days in fact.  I cannot begin to tell you how much life will be better.  In every way - whatever the circumstances.  I can’t tell you.  I wish I could tell you, but I can’t.  I can’t tell you how healthy it feels, how good it feels; how good it feels to have the weight and burden of constant self-reproach cast from my once slumped shoulders.   I can focus.  Music is better.  I can breathe.  I call smile.  I can kiss. I can care now. And me telling you all these things doesn’t tell the full story.  So, I’m sorry for that.

Fuck, guys.  I'm really sorry.  I'm sorry I couldn't tell you about being quit and all.  Damn, man.

I can't tell you because you're going to have to experience it for yourselves.  "One day at a time". That’s not a slogan. That's how it’s done.  It's a choice that needs to made daily.  ODAAT. 

Just sayin’.

BMC 381.

628 after that...

BMC 1,009

Title: Re: 381 Days Later
Post by: 69franx on July 12, 2020, 10:36:52 PM

Quote from: BluManChew on July 12, 2020, 09:34:56 AM

Quote from: BluManChew on October 24, 2018, 11:02:51 AM

381 Days Later

Gents, ladies, let me be 69franx with you.  I'm going to tell you something straight up.  From the cavernous labyrinth of my soul - let me tell you something from a dope who  dipped straight but never dipped Cope. 

I measure my sordid, masochistic, insidious love affair with the bitch in decades.

How I made as far as I have I cannot tell you.  And how I've made from there to here I certainly can - Choice.  The Epiphainein event leading up this point 381 days  later came down to a simple choice.

A choice that for one reason or another I hadn't ever made - I mean really, really had never made that choice.  But I made that choice decades after I knew that I should.  But I bought the lie that came with every tin, every pack.  It told me time and time again that I never could.

Then one day, I made the easiest choice I ever had - I walked away.  As simple as that.  One moment I was dipping and the next I was not.  It wasn’t always easy, though.

Sometimes I had to run and I had to run like hell - run like my hair's on fire.  And I walked, stumbled, sprinted, jogged, dragged and crawled and clawed my way.  Kicking and screaming - dragging myself onward.  Day after God damned day, every damn day, day after day after day. 

Yet, here I am.  381 days later.  Three hundred and eighty one days since day number one.  That means something.  That’s something worth protecting. 

I'll guard my quit like I guard my balls.  Always, ALWAYS, always be on the ready for a surprise, phantom kick by the bitch of a passing flick-of-the wrist directed toward your groin. – (hands crossed over crotch, lift one foot off the ground, bend raised knee, and quarter turn away from the assailant.)  Works every fucking time.

I'm quick like that.

So, let me tell you all something besides all that sobby shit.

Ready?  No, seriously? Okay....

...being quit is awesome.  No, glorious some days in fact.  I cannot begin to tell you how much life will be better.  In every way - whatever the circumstances.  I can’t tell you.  I wish I could tell you, but I can’t.  I can’t tell you how healthy it feels, how good it feels; how good it feels to have the weight and burden of constant self-reproach cast from my once slumped shoulders.   I can focus.  Music is better.  I can breathe.  I call smile.  I can kiss. I can care now. And me telling you all these things doesn’t tell the full story.  So, I’m sorry for that.

Fuck, guys.  I'm really sorry.  I'm sorry I couldn't tell you about being quit and all.  Damn, man.

I can't tell you because you're going to have to experience it for yourselves.  "One day at a time". That’s not a slogan. That's how it’s done.  It's a choice that needs to made daily.  ODAAT. 

Just sayin’.

BMC 381.

628 after that...

BMC 1,009

Damn man, has it really almost been 2 years since you posted this nugget, I mean Boulder of knowledge? Thanx for reposting

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on July 16, 2020, 04:39:39 PM

Textual Chocolates

~1010. Hi Annette. How is everything with your quit? Just been perusing the intros. Looks like you may be struggling a bit?

263 hey Rob! I had a bit of a breakdown last week but I'm doing great now. Thank you! How are you and your fam? ~~ ankape

~Glad you're doing great now.

~So....um...did you lose your shit and go psycho?

~hahaha

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on July 16, 2020, 04:59:28 PM

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Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: ankape on July 16, 2020, 06:08:42 PM

Quote from: BluManChew on July 16, 2020, 04:39:39 PM

Textual Chocolates

~1010. Hi Annette. How is everything with your quit? Just been perusing the intros. Looks like you may be struggling a bit?

263 hey Rob! I had a bit of a breakdown last week but I'm doing great now. Thank you! How are you and your fam? ~~ ankape

~Glad you're doing great now.

~So....um...did you lose your shit and go psycho?

~hahaha

(Uhhgg...Wow thanks Rob,...ok, what the hell why not...)
“Well I got really frustrated with myself and my fuckin pity party and took my bike out hard and then some turkey vultures started circling and I laughed at myself like (well, shit I guess it's not THAT bad)“ ~ankape

“Oh, I wish I was more like you!” ~BMC
 :P

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on September 15, 2020, 03:22:32 PM

Now that our guy SixString has had a moment to vent, let me address what it is he is referring to:

I was invited to join Quitting Dip, and on a whim, I did.  I said, "why the fuck not? Some of my other buddies post there as well."  Some of those guys left KTC all together.

I did indeed post twice on QD, but not today.  There was this nagging doubt about the site - not the site in and of itself, but rather if i could make a full commitment to QD, and still make a full commitment to KTC.  The answer to that was, no.  I could not be actively involved in QD as is required there, and at the same time be actively involved here.

Since my choice could not be both, my choice then is to post here and here only.  My choice then is to do my best as a mod here, to better hold others accountable, to share quit wisdom, to offer encouragement, and to, in some way, help you be a better man by ridding yourself of the addict mentality and to help fortify your choice at a better life.  KTC and the brotherhood HERE provided a pathway for me to become quit.

I stumbled upon this site like many of you and I know how harmful dip was to my mind, body, and my soul - as you probably do to.

So, you can form your own opinions, as Mr. Six has.  And maybe you wanna know more about me as BluManChew - it's all here in these forums - i laid it all out there - good, bad, stupid, ill timed, funny, assholish - its all there.

Regardless of where anyone chooses to post - quit is quit.  And I can respect that.

BMC 1070

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: Keith0617 on September 15, 2020, 08:35:59 PM

Quote from: BluManChew on September 15, 2020, 03:22:32 PM

Now that our guy SixString has had a moment to vent, let me address what it is he is referring to:

I was invited to join Quitting Dip, and on a whim, I did.  I said, "why the fuck not? Some of my other buddies post there as well."  Some of those guys left KTC all together.

I did indeed post twice on QD, but not today.  There was this nagging doubt about the site - not the site in and of itself, but rather if i could make a full commitment to QD, and still make a full commitment to KTC.  The answer to that was, no.  I could not be actively involved in QD as is required there, and at the same time be actively involved here.

Since my choice could not be both, my choice then is to post here and here only.  My choice then is to do my best as a mod here, to better hold others accountable, to share quit wisdom, to offer encouragement, and to, in some way, help you be a better man by ridding yourself of the addict mentality and to help fortify your choice at a better life.  KTC and the brotherhood HERE provided a pathway for me to become quit.

I stumbled upon this site like many of you and I know how harmful dip was to my mind, body, and my soul - as you probably do to.

So, you can form your own opinions, as Mr. Six has.  And maybe you wanna know more about me as BluManChew - it's all here in these forums - i laid it all out there - good, bad, stupid, ill timed, funny, assholish - its all there.

Regardless of where anyone chooses to post - quit is quit.  And I can respect that.

BMC 1070

Quit on brother!

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: Stranger999 on September 16, 2020, 12:25:38 AM

Quote from: Keith0617 on September 15, 2020, 08:35:59 PM

Quote from: BluManChew on September 15, 2020, 03:22:32 PM

Now that our guy SixString has had a moment to vent, let me address what it is he is referring to:

I was invited to join Quitting Dip, and on a whim, I did.  I said, "why the fuck not? Some of my other buddies post there as well."  Some of those guys left KTC all together.

I did indeed post twice on QD, but not today.  There was this nagging doubt about the site - not the site in and of itself, but rather if i could make a full commitment to QD, and still make a full commitment to KTC.  The answer to that was, no.  I could not be actively involved in QD as is required there, and at the same time be actively involved here.

Since my choice could not be both, my choice then is to post here and here only.  My choice then is to do my best as a mod here, to better hold others accountable, to share quit wisdom, to offer encouragement, and to, in some way, help you be a better man by ridding yourself of the addict mentality and to help fortify your choice at a better life.  KTC and the brotherhood HERE provided a pathway for me to become quit.

I stumbled upon this site like many of you and I know how harmful dip was to my mind, body, and my soul - as you probably do to.

So, you can form your own opinions, as Mr. Six has.  And maybe you wanna know more about me as BluManChew - it's all here in these forums - i laid it all out there - good, bad, stupid, ill timed, funny, assholish - its all there.

Regardless of where anyone chooses to post - quit is quit.  And I can respect that.

BMC 1070

Quit on brother!

The first person in my quit network who actually called me on the phone left KTC for QD a long time ago.  The last time I checked he was still posting roll there.  I never had hard feelings.  I think everyone who wants to quit needs to do whatever they need to do to stay quit today.  The important thing is being quit.   8)

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: Athan on September 16, 2020, 03:38:14 PM

Quote from: BluManChew on September 15, 2020, 03:22:32 PM

Now that our guy SixString has had a moment to vent, let me address what it is he is referring to:

I was invited to join Quitting Dip, and on a whim, I did.  I said, "why the fuck not? Some of my other buddies post there as well."  Some of those guys left KTC all together.

I did indeed post twice on QD, but not today.  There was this nagging doubt about the site - not the site in and of itself, but rather if i could make a full commitment to QD, and still make a full commitment to KTC.  The answer to that was, no.  I could not be actively involved in QD as is required there, and at the same time be actively involved here.

Since my choice could not be both, my choice then is to post here and here only.  My choice then is to do my best as a mod here, to better hold others accountable, to share quit wisdom, to offer encouragement, and to, in some way, help you be a better man by ridding yourself of the addict mentality and to help fortify your choice at a better life.  KTC and the brotherhood HERE provided a pathway for me to become quit.

I stumbled upon this site like many of you and I know how harmful dip was to my mind, body, and my soul - as you probably do to.

So, you can form your own opinions, as Mr. Six has.  And maybe you wanna know more about me as BluManChew - it's all here in these forums - i laid it all out there - good, bad, stupid, ill timed, funny, assholish - its all there.

Regardless of where anyone chooses to post - quit is quit.  And I can respect that.

BMC 1070

bro, you add spice to the quit. I looked at it, but why forsake my first love to dance with a stranger? Sticking around.

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on October 22, 2020, 04:19:37 PM

I see all these guests lurking about.  Do you even want to quit?  If so, do so now and walk away from that shit for good - NOW.

Unless of course you truly enjoy being a slave to the can, sneaking out to the garage to stuff cat shit in your face.  Or maybe you think the chicks really dig ass-breath.  Perhaps you've invested so much time, money, and emotional capital in giving yourself face cancer, that it would be a waste to give up now.  I know, your dentist loves that you dip because they pulling your teeth puts their kids thru college.

Really, tho.  If you want to quit you would make it a priority.  If you currently have a wad of chaw in your lip, then that is your priority - above all else.

If you are chewing you are choosing a dead weed over your health, your significant other, your kids, money, being cool, clean teeth, honesty, self satisfaction, and equally significant - your freedom.  And that is a very, very short list of things you are placing beneath dip.

Face it - if you are dipping right now, than that is your most important priority.

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on September 02, 2021, 12:45:35 AM

And still quit.  After all these days - 1424.  6 weeks shy of 4 years.

And you fucking people are still on the fence on this?  This quitting thing? 

Like, you pathetic pieces of shit still have half a tin in your pocket?

Or maybe you've been thinking about quitting for a really, really, really long time.  And you find a way to congratulate yourselves for having had that desire for that long.  And yet somehow some way you find a way to battle it out each day with the bitch. She kicks your ass every day and you know it.  You chews it. Self flagellation, like some martyr.  "look at me set an example by punishing myself and i'll save you from a similar fate!"  L-O-Fucking-L!

Please, bitch, may have some more?

Good luck with that.  I mean that sincerely, you slobby, drooly fucktard.


BMC 1424

Title: Re: The Omega Moment - 365 Days Later
Post by: BluManChew on January 07, 2023, 10:21:26 PM

Feeling like I just stumbled out of a vortex. 1918. QAF