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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: nomosko on February 08, 2011, 02:51:00 PM
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Simple as this been chewing a can a day for 30 years. If I am awake I have a chew in my mouth. Have tried to quit several times before. Used nicotine replacement and never really kicked the addiction. Shamefully at one point I quit chew for about 3 years. That was 8 years ago and this is the first time I have gone without nicotine. Into my 3rd day now. Every bit as much fun as I hoped it would be. I promise to myself "I will not have nicotine".
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Welcome. Check your (Inbox 1) upper right corner of your screen. Just in case you were wondering, this be a no nic site.
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Welcome to the site. Day 3 is a bitch but it gets better. If you quit for that long you know it will get better. It is going to be a long road but we can get through it Together. Why don't you go over to May and Post roll...Make that promise to not dip today.
David
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Welcome. It's gonna suck...but you know that. If you want to quit (and stay quit) you will. It is all up to you.
But we're here to help every step of the way. Post roll, keep your word, and live free.
3 days is huge, btw...keep it going!
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You have been there done that. So have I for that matter. This is my second quit, but the first time on this site and the first time taking the quit seriously. Lets post every single day and hold each other accountable.
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Welcome Chuck....Keep coming back to the site, it will keep you honest with yourself, post roll and keep that shit out of your lip.
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I am on day 4 here. Here is a random thought. Watched the new Clash of the Titans last night. As if not having nicotine wasn't enough punishment. Anyway when the Kraken was released it made me start thinking. The Kraken is like my nicotine addiction. It is huge monster right behind me screaming to be fed. The mere size of it makes it seem impossible to defeat. The noise it is making in head right now is almost unbearable. I know how to make it shut up. However, I refuse to cave. Caving will not make it go away. It will just shut the damn thing up momentarily. I see other people on this site that are fighting the Kraken. I think it will get a little bit smaller every day but will always be right behind me. You men in the HOF are awsome. Men at 200,300,400 etc. are stronger than I can imagine at this point. KTC thanks for having a site where I can ramble.
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I am on day 4 here. Here is a random thought. Watched the new Clash of the Titans last night. As if not having nicotine wasn't enough punishment. Anyway when the Kraken was released it made me start thinking. The Kraken is like my nicotine addiction. It is huge monster right behind me screaming to be fed. The mere size of it makes it seem impossible to defeat. The noise it is making in head right now is almost unbearable. I know how to make it shut up. However, I refuse to cave. Caving will not make it go away. It will just shut the damn thing up momentarily. I see other people on this site that are fighting the Kraken. I think it will get a little bit smaller every day but will always be right behind me. You men in the HOF are awsome. Men at 200,300,400 etc. are stronger than I can imagine at this point. KTC thanks for having a site where I can ramble.
LOOT'S meat is kinda like the kraken as well.
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haha, but you can say no to both the kraken and LOOTs mangy meat.
Come on in and start learning. There's plenty of stuff to read and many supporters here to help you stay quit.
Join in, all the cool kids are.
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I am on day 4 here. Here is a random thought. Watched the new Clash of the Titans last night. As if not having nicotine wasn't enough punishment. Anyway when the Kraken was released it made me start thinking. The Kraken is like my nicotine addiction. It is huge monster right behind me screaming to be fed. The mere size of it makes it seem impossible to defeat. The noise it is making in head right now is almost unbearable. I know how to make it shut up. However, I refuse to cave. Caving will not make it go away. It will just shut the damn thing up momentarily. I see other people on this site that are fighting the Kraken. I think it will get a little bit smaller every day but will always be right behind me. You men in the HOF are awsome. Men at 200,300,400 etc. are stronger than I can imagine at this point. KTC thanks for having a site where I can ramble.
Yep you gotta respect the HOFers but as somebody (just starting my 4th week) that can still remember day 4 you are accomplishing more than they are today or I was in many ways. You are fighting the battle very much on faith and it probably still looks like a losing fight. Couple weeks from now you'll be more comfortable and that brings it's own danger. If you ain't dipping today you have won the most important battle you could fight.
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Okay days 8 and 9 sucked and by that I mean HOLY SHIT WHAT AM I DOING I CANT THINK I CANT SEE I CANT BREATH I AM REALLY PISSED OFF SUCK. I have read this site for the last two days. I kind of got stuck in the HOF speeches. So many people just like me that are fighting the same battle I am. I read so many that I can't give credit to the person that wrote this but these words helped me greatly. Maybe they can also help someone else.
Someone wrote in their HOF speech
Will I ever chew again? I don't know
Will I chew today? I will not
That hit me. I don't have to worry about making the HOF. I don't have to worry about moving up in stories. I don't have to worry about the comma. All I have to worry about is day 10. I will not use nicotine today. Currently I am 9 and 0 against nicotine. I am kicking its ass. Nicotine is putting up one hell of a fight. All I have to do is win today.
This site is helping me win.
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Awesome nomo!! Glad to see you pitching the shut out against the nic bitch! Are you posting roll in May? Check your inbox!
Welcome! Another thing you may or may not have read. This site works, take what you can out of it, but if you do the basics, it will help you quit.
tarp
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Someone wrote in their HOF speech
Will I ever chew again? I don't know
Will I chew today? I will not
Awesome!! Just worry about today man, each battle gets a little easier to grind thru.
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Awesome nomo!! Glad to see you pitching the shut out against the nic bitch! Are you posting roll in May? Check your inbox!
Welcome! Another thing you may or may not have read. This site works, take what you can out of it, but if you do the basics, it will help you quit.
tarp
Yes I am posting in may. Sorry for my ignorance but I am not sure how to check my inbox.
nomosko
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Just a question for the vets. I have been nicotine free for 26 days. While I am proud that I have been able to quit for one day 26 times in a row, I do have a concern. I can't say that I am chew free. I have been chewing Hooch Spitfire at a rate of a can every three days. This is less than my tobacco habit was but it is still a nasty thing to do. Now here is my question. Is it going to be just as hard for me to quit the fake chew when I get around to it? If you have been through this I would like to hear from.
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Just a question for the vets. I have been nicotine free for 26 days. While I am proud that I have been able to quit for one day 26 times in a row, I do have a concern. I can't say that I am chew free. I have been chewing Hooch Spitfire at a rate of a can every three days. This is less than my tobacco habit was but it is still a nasty thing to do. Now here is my question. Is it going to be just as hard for me to quit the fake chew when I get around to it? If you have been through this I would like to hear from.
Not a vet, but dude, I was EXACTLY where you are. I used Spitfire like it was my job. I think I actually used the Hooch more than I dipped 'Hagen. I even went through some 'withdrawals' when I would run out of it. I was like this up through the second floor.
One day, I just kind of forgot to put one in. Next thing I know, it's afternoon. And I didn't feel like having one. Then it was occasionally I'd have a bite of Hooch. Now, if I get a crave (usually when driving) I put one in. I keep a can in my truck, but it's been a few weeks I'll bet since I've had any.
I'll bet that at some point, you'll just not 'desire' it any more. In the meantime, if it's keeping the real shit outta your face, I say go to it!
NOLAQ - 353
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Just a question for the vets. I have been nicotine free for 26 days. While I am proud that I have been able to quit for one day 26 times in a row, I do have a concern. I can't say that I am chew free. I have been chewing Hooch Spitfire at a rate of a can every three days. This is less than my tobacco habit was but it is still a nasty thing to do. Now here is my question. Is it going to be just as hard for me to quit the fake chew when I get around to it? If you have been through this I would like to hear from.
Not a vet, but dude, I was EXACTLY where you are. I used Spitfire like it was my job. I think I actually used the Hooch more than I dipped 'Hagen. I even went through some 'withdrawals' when I would run out of it. I was like this up through the second floor.
One day, I just kind of forgot to put one in. Next thing I know, it's afternoon. And I didn't feel like having one. Then it was occasionally I'd have a bite of Hooch. Now, if I get a crave (usually when driving) I put one in. I keep a can in my truck, but it's been a few weeks I'll bet since I've had any.
I'll bet that at some point, you'll just not 'desire' it any more. In the meantime, if it's keeping the real shit outta your face, I say go to it!
NOLAQ - 353
My .02 on fake.
I used it pretty much daily for the first 180 maybe 200 days. Dipped it just like I did the real shit. Like NOLAQ I just stopped using it. Gradually at first, I would just forget to take it with me or whatever. Then I just carried it with me " in case" I ran into a situation where my weak willed ass woud cave.
I have not had a dip of fake in so long I cannot remember, still have some in my truck and in my briefcase just "in case" but the urge or desire to have it is gone. There is nothing in the fake to addict you and you will walk away from it eventually. If it helps you stay off the real shit then I am all for it.
To each his own... Carry on.
Greg
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Just a question for the vets. I have been nicotine free for 26 days. While I am proud that I have been able to quit for one day 26 times in a row, I do have a concern. I can't say that I am chew free. I have been chewing Hooch Spitfire at a rate of a can every three days. This is less than my tobacco habit was but it is still a nasty thing to do. Now here is my question. Is it going to be just as hard for me to quit the fake chew when I get around to it? If you have been through this I would like to hear from.
I guess you can ignore me since I'm no vet, but I have two cents to share too.
I bought the fake stuff and started using it heavily, literally eating it. I went through 3 cans in 2 days. Then I realized that I was using it for exactly the same reason I would chew - to prevent withdrawal. Obviously, it can't do that and that's sinking in, now. I'm still "addicted" to it, but only in a psychologically-dependent sense - and when I think about it, even this dependence is tied to fear of what will happen if I don't use it. I know it can't hurt me that way, and yet it's taking a little time to convince myself of that.
I've been finishing off the can I have now for the last however-many-days. Yesterday, I forgot to take a dip of fake until I got off work. The day before that I had the same plug in for the whole day because I forgot to bring a lunch. When this can is gone I don't think I'll need another one, but it makes sense to keep one around. I can see that sometimes I need a thumb, a security blanket, a binky, or a plug of fake chew. Damn that's pitiful. But it's not nic and that's what matters.
Ninereasons - 17 day vet
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Just a question for the vets. I have been nicotine free for 26 days. While I am proud that I have been able to quit for one day 26 times in a row, I do have a concern. I can't say that I am chew free. I have been chewing Hooch Spitfire at a rate of a can every three days. This is less than my tobacco habit was but it is still a nasty thing to do. Now here is my question. Is it going to be just as hard for me to quit the fake chew when I get around to it? If you have been through this I would like to hear from.
Not a vet, but dude, I was EXACTLY where you are. I used Spitfire like it was my job. I think I actually used the Hooch more than I dipped 'Hagen. I even went through some 'withdrawals' when I would run out of it. I was like this up through the second floor.
One day, I just kind of forgot to put one in. Next thing I know, it's afternoon. And I didn't feel like having one. Then it was occasionally I'd have a bite of Hooch. Now, if I get a crave (usually when driving) I put one in. I keep a can in my truck, but it's been a few weeks I'll bet since I've had any.
I'll bet that at some point, you'll just not 'desire' it any more. In the meantime, if it's keeping the real shit outta your face, I say go to it!
NOLAQ - 353
My .02 on fake.
I used it pretty much daily for the first 180 maybe 200 days. Dipped it just like I did the real shit. Like NOLAQ I just stopped using it. Gradually at first, I would just forget to take it with me or whatever. Then I just carried it with me " in case" I ran into a situation where my weak willed ass woud cave.
I have not had a dip of fake in so long I cannot remember, still have some in my truck and in my briefcase just "in case" but the urge or desire to have it is gone. There is nothing in the fake to addict you and you will walk away from it eventually. If it helps you stay off the real shit then I am all for it.
To each his own... Carry on.
Greg
nomo...about the fake. Clear your conscience, bro. Use it with abandon, like I did in the beginning. Nothing wrong with it whatsoever. Like everybody else who's been quit a long time I'll tell you this...you'll eventually just lose interest in it...no withdrawals, no nothing. I have yet to meet a single long term quitter who still uses it with any regularity. And that's not because they made a conscience decision to 'quit' the fake. It's because they eventually just get tired of it.
It has no nicotine! Go to town on that chit! Nom nom nom...
theo - 947
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Just a question for the vets. I have been nicotine free for 26 days. While I am proud that I have been able to quit for one day 26 times in a row, I do have a concern. I can't say that I am chew free. I have been chewing Hooch Spitfire at a rate of a can every three days. This is less than my tobacco habit was but it is still a nasty thing to do. Now here is my question. Is it going to be just as hard for me to quit the fake chew when I get around to it? If you have been through this I would like to hear from.
Not a vet, but dude, I was EXACTLY where you are. I used Spitfire like it was my job. I think I actually used the Hooch more than I dipped 'Hagen. I even went through some 'withdrawals' when I would run out of it. I was like this up through the second floor.
One day, I just kind of forgot to put one in. Next thing I know, it's afternoon. And I didn't feel like having one. Then it was occasionally I'd have a bite of Hooch. Now, if I get a crave (usually when driving) I put one in. I keep a can in my truck, but it's been a few weeks I'll bet since I've had any.
I'll bet that at some point, you'll just not 'desire' it any more. In the meantime, if it's keeping the real shit outta your face, I say go to it!
NOLAQ - 353
My .02 on fake.
I used it pretty much daily for the first 180 maybe 200 days. Dipped it just like I did the real shit. Like NOLAQ I just stopped using it. Gradually at first, I would just forget to take it with me or whatever. Then I just carried it with me " in case" I ran into a situation where my weak willed ass woud cave.
I have not had a dip of fake in so long I cannot remember, still have some in my truck and in my briefcase just "in case" but the urge or desire to have it is gone. There is nothing in the fake to addict you and you will walk away from it eventually. If it helps you stay off the real shit then I am all for it.
To each his own... Carry on.
Greg
nomo...about the fake. Clear your conscience, bro. Use it with abandon, like I did in the beginning. Nothing wrong with it whatsoever. Like everybody else who's been quit a long time I'll tell you this...you'll eventually just lose interest in it...no withdrawals, no nothing. I have yet to meet a single long term quitter who still uses it with any regularity. And that's not because they made a conscience decision to 'quit' the fake. It's because they eventually just get tired of it.
It has no nicotine! Go to town on that chit! Nom nom nom...
theo - 947
this is some good advice, I had the same experience, one day I just got bored with fake and stopped using it. It isn't different from gum in my opinion.I had to beat the nicotine addiction into submission first and THEN deal with the oral fixation.
I dipped the fake close to a year.
Your fighting one of the most addictive substances in the world, do whatever it takes to stay quit. Fake is just a tool.
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Nom nom nom...
I spit Mt Dew all over my screen when I read that...tff
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Just a question for the vets. I have been nicotine free for 26 days. While I am proud that I have been able to quit for one day 26 times in a row, I do have a concern. I can't say that I am chew free. I have been chewing Hooch Spitfire at a rate of a can every three days. This is less than my tobacco habit was but it is still a nasty thing to do. Now here is my question. Is it going to be just as hard for me to quit the fake chew when I get around to it? If you have been through this I would like to hear from.
Not a vet, but dude, I was EXACTLY where you are. I used Spitfire like it was my job. I think I actually used the Hooch more than I dipped 'Hagen. I even went through some 'withdrawals' when I would run out of it. I was like this up through the second floor.
One day, I just kind of forgot to put one in. Next thing I know, it's afternoon. And I didn't feel like having one. Then it was occasionally I'd have a bite of Hooch. Now, if I get a crave (usually when driving) I put one in. I keep a can in my truck, but it's been a few weeks I'll bet since I've had any.
I'll bet that at some point, you'll just not 'desire' it any more. In the meantime, if it's keeping the real shit outta your face, I say go to it!
NOLAQ - 353
My .02 on fake.
I used it pretty much daily for the first 180 maybe 200 days. Dipped it just like I did the real shit. Like NOLAQ I just stopped using it. Gradually at first, I would just forget to take it with me or whatever. Then I just carried it with me " in case" I ran into a situation where my weak willed ass woud cave.
I have not had a dip of fake in so long I cannot remember, still have some in my truck and in my briefcase just "in case" but the urge or desire to have it is gone. There is nothing in the fake to addict you and you will walk away from it eventually. If it helps you stay off the real shit then I am all for it.
To each his own... Carry on.
Greg
nomo...about the fake. Clear your conscience, bro. Use it with abandon, like I did in the beginning. Nothing wrong with it whatsoever. Like everybody else who's been quit a long time I'll tell you this...you'll eventually just lose interest in it...no withdrawals, no nothing. I have yet to meet a single long term quitter who still uses it with any regularity. And that's not because they made a conscience decision to 'quit' the fake. It's because they eventually just get tired of it.
It has no nicotine! Go to town on that chit! Nom nom nom...
theo - 947
this is some good advice, I had the same experience, one day I just got bored with fake and stopped using it. It isn't different from gum in my opinion.I had to beat the nicotine addiction into submission first and THEN deal with the oral fixation.
I dipped the fake close to a year.
Your fighting one of the most addictive substances in the world, do whatever it takes to stay quit. Fake is just a tool.
Day 26 for this guy so I'm definitely not a vet, but I ordered 6 cans of the Hooch wintergreen at first. Like most everybody else I used the hell out of it for the first few days, ended up ordering 12 more cans, and now I have 12 cans in my freezer. I keep one in my car as I drive at least 3hrs a day for work. When having a few of my homebrews 'Cheers' I've thrown a small pinch in too. I'd say I maybe use the fake once every couple of days now. I'll tag on with the..."if it keeps the real shit out of your mouth....use it!"
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Just a question for the vets. I have been nicotine free for 26 days. While I am proud that I have been able to quit for one day 26 times in a row, I do have a concern. I can't say that I am chew free. I have been chewing Hooch Spitfire at a rate of a can every three days. This is less than my tobacco habit was but it is still a nasty thing to do. Now here is my question. Is it going to be just as hard for me to quit the fake chew when I get around to it? If you have been through this I would like to hear from.
Not a vet, but dude, I was EXACTLY where you are. I used Spitfire like it was my job. I think I actually used the Hooch more than I dipped 'Hagen. I even went through some 'withdrawals' when I would run out of it. I was like this up through the second floor.
One day, I just kind of forgot to put one in. Next thing I know, it's afternoon. And I didn't feel like having one. Then it was occasionally I'd have a bite of Hooch. Now, if I get a crave (usually when driving) I put one in. I keep a can in my truck, but it's been a few weeks I'll bet since I've had any.
I'll bet that at some point, you'll just not 'desire' it any more. In the meantime, if it's keeping the real shit outta your face, I say go to it!
NOLAQ - 353
My .02 on fake.
I used it pretty much daily for the first 180 maybe 200 days. Dipped it just like I did the real shit. Like NOLAQ I just stopped using it. Gradually at first, I would just forget to take it with me or whatever. Then I just carried it with me " in case" I ran into a situation where my weak willed ass woud cave.
I have not had a dip of fake in so long I cannot remember, still have some in my truck and in my briefcase just "in case" but the urge or desire to have it is gone. There is nothing in the fake to addict you and you will walk away from it eventually. If it helps you stay off the real shit then I am all for it.
To each his own... Carry on.
Greg
nomo...about the fake. Clear your conscience, bro. Use it with abandon, like I did in the beginning. Nothing wrong with it whatsoever. Like everybody else who's been quit a long time I'll tell you this...you'll eventually just lose interest in it...no withdrawals, no nothing. I have yet to meet a single long term quitter who still uses it with any regularity. And that's not because they made a conscience decision to 'quit' the fake. It's because they eventually just get tired of it.
It has no nicotine! Go to town on that chit! Nom nom nom...
theo - 947
this is some good advice, I had the same experience, one day I just got bored with fake and stopped using it. It isn't different from gum in my opinion.I had to beat the nicotine addiction into submission first and THEN deal with the oral fixation.
I dipped the fake close to a year.
Your fighting one of the most addictive substances in the world, do whatever it takes to stay quit. Fake is just a tool.
Day 26 for this guy so I'm definitely not a vet, but I ordered 6 cans of the Hooch wintergreen at first. Like most everybody else I used the hell out of it for the first few days, ended up ordering 12 more cans, and now I have 12 cans in my freezer. I keep one in my car as I drive at least 3hrs a day for work. When having a few of my homebrews 'Cheers' I've thrown a small pinch in too. I'd say I maybe use the fake once every couple of days now. I'll tag on with the..."if it keeps the real shit out of your mouth....use it!"
Thanks for the responses. I quit with all of you today.
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This was a strange occurance for me and I just want to throw it out there. Today I have been quit for 69 days. Yesterday I went into a convenience store for the first time since Feb. 6. I didn't trust myself to go into a store before. I wanted a diet coke and decided I could go in there. It was like a dream going in there. I decided not to look behind the counter on my way to the fountain. You all know what was back there. Got my soda and got in line. Three people in front of me and every one of them bought a tobacco product. I decided to go ahead and look at the display. It was almost like they put a spot light on the tobacco. My old friend was there along with every thing else. I think I knew what was going to happen next. The nic bitch started screaming. Just one. Get it. You know you miss me. This was followed by the best experience of my quit so far. All the reading on this site kicked in almost like second nature. "You are an addict. You can't have just one. If you are going to cave, take the quit contract out of your wallet, read it, sign it, hand it to the dealer. You posted your promise to yourself and your may brothers. Do you really want to start over at day 1? Get permission to cave before you do." All the hall of fame speeches I have read, everything I have done to get to this point, all of it kind of flashed before me. I must have been staring at the chew display because the checker asked me if I wanted tobacco. "Nope, just the soda" was my reply. $1.39 was my bill and I had the soda I went in there for. I was really proud walking out of there with only a soda. The only confession I have to make is I purposely walked into the store with only 2 dollars but what I am proudest of is I wouldn't have bought the crap even if I would have had the money. I put myself in harms way and was strong enough to deal with it thanks to this site and the bad ass quitters here.
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awesome job! way to stick to it!
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This was a strange occurance for me and I just want to throw it out there. Today I have been quit for 69 days. Yesterday I went into a convenience store for the first time since Feb. 6. I didn't trust myself to go into a store before. I wanted a diet coke and decided I could go in there. It was like a dream going in there. I decided not to look behind the counter on my way to the fountain. You all know what was back there. Got my soda and got in line. Three people in front of me and every one of them bought a tobacco product. I decided to go ahead and look at the display. It was almost like they put a spot light on the tobacco. My old friend was there along with every thing else. I think I knew what was going to happen next. The nic bitch started screaming. Just one. Get it. You know you miss me. This was followed by the best experience of my quit so far. All the reading on this site kicked in almost like second nature. "You are an addict. You can't have just one. If you are going to cave, take the quit contract out of your wallet, read it, sign it, hand it to the dealer. You posted your promise to yourself and your may brothers. Do you really want to start over at day 1? Get permission to cave before you do." All the hall of fame speeches I have read, everything I have done to get to this point, all of it kind of flashed before me. I must have been staring at the chew display because the checker asked me if I wanted tobacco. "Nope, just the soda" was my reply. $1.39 was my bill and I had the soda I went in there for. I was really proud walking out of there with only a soda. The only confession I have to make is I purposely walked into the store with only 2 dollars but what I am proudest of is I wouldn't have bought the crap even if I would have had the money. I put myself in harms way and was strong enough to deal with it thanks to this site and the bad ass quitters here.
Well done nomo! Way to give the bitch the one fingered salute!
'Finger' nic bitch!
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This was a strange occurance for me and I just want to throw it out there. Today I have been quit for 69 days. Yesterday I went into a convenience store for the first time since Feb. 6. I didn't trust myself to go into a store before. I wanted a diet coke and decided I could go in there. It was like a dream going in there. I decided not to look behind the counter on my way to the fountain. You all know what was back there. Got my soda and got in line. Three people in front of me and every one of them bought a tobacco product. I decided to go ahead and look at the display. It was almost like they put a spot light on the tobacco. My old friend was there along with every thing else. I think I knew what was going to happen next. The nic bitch started screaming. Just one. Get it. You know you miss me. This was followed by the best experience of my quit so far. All the reading on this site kicked in almost like second nature. "You are an addict. You can't have just one. If you are going to cave, take the quit contract out of your wallet, read it, sign it, hand it to the dealer. You posted your promise to yourself and your may brothers. Do you really want to start over at day 1? Get permission to cave before you do." All the hall of fame speeches I have read, everything I have done to get to this point, all of it kind of flashed before me. I must have been staring at the chew display because the checker asked me if I wanted tobacco. "Nope, just the soda" was my reply. $1.39 was my bill and I had the soda I went in there for. I was really proud walking out of there with only a soda. The only confession I have to make is I purposely walked into the store with only 2 dollars but what I am proudest of is I wouldn't have bought the crap even if I would have had the money. I put myself in harms way and was strong enough to deal with it thanks to this site and the bad ass quitters here.
I remember the first time that happened to me like that. It is definately a proud moment. Congrats.
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Great story, thanks for sharing!!
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Nicely done !! I remember the first time I went back to the store I bought my poison from daily. I had avoided it for over 200 days. I finally decided to stop there to buy some water.
I got a little dizzy while I was in there, but the feeling of going into that place, buying just the water, looking at the death display and walking out made me feel better than I had in years.
Great work quitter. One success in many more to come....
STAY QUIT
Greg
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Good job nomosko. Kinda like a booty call from the old girlfriend.
Girlfriend: "Hey nomosko, you look cute. I miss ya. Just one hookup. Get it. You know you miss me."
nomosko: "Ahhh, yea, no thanks. I think I have moved on. Later." (evil bitch, good riddance).
Freedom is the shit.
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Great story nomosko!
Its nice to face some of those old triggers and beat them. Its even better to have that stare down with the bitch and say "fuck you" to her face.
I had many of those occasions because I have been in a store every day for my 59 days. Seeing the tobacco from day 1 has been a good thing for me each day because I feel great facing it and giving the big fuck you on a daily basis.
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'clap' 'clap' 'clap' Nice work nomoko!!! You stared down the cancer wall and watched all the poor addicts getting their shit ahead of you!!!! Feels good don't it!!!!
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You are a Bad Ass. Peace
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Totally agree. Is there any way a moderator can get rid of the topic title. It bothers me to see Fuck KTC.
nomosko
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Totally agree. Is there any way a moderator can get rid of the topic title. It bothers me to see Fuck KTC.
nomosko
Bump - or rename it 'crybaby rant' or some such shit
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Totally agree. Is there any way a moderator can get rid of the topic title. It bothers me to see Fuck KTC.
nomosko
Bump - or rename it 'crybaby rant' or some such shit
I agree with smokey on this one. But I'll never agree that vaginal sex is weird.
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I'm not sure what to make of smokey's latest portrait (http://awkwardfamilypetphotos.com/2011/05/17/the-giving-tree/) What ever keeps you quit.
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I am on day 4 here. Here is a random thought. Watched the new Clash of the Titans last night. As if not having nicotine wasn't enough punishment. Anyway when the Kraken was released it made me start thinking. The Kraken is like my nicotine addiction. It is huge monster right behind me screaming to be fed. The mere size of it makes it seem impossible to defeat. The noise it is making in head right now is almost unbearable. I know how to make it shut up. However, I refuse to cave. Caving will not make it go away. It will just shut the damn thing up momentarily. I see other people on this site that are fighting the Kraken. I think it will get a little bit smaller every day but will always be right behind me. You men in the HOF are awsome. Men at 200,300,400 etc. are stronger than I can imagine at this point. KTC thanks for having a site where I can ramble.
Yep you gotta respect the HOFers but as somebody (just starting my 4th week) that can still remember day 4 you are accomplishing more than they are today or I was in many ways. You are fighting the battle very much on faith and it probably still looks like a losing fight. Couple weeks from now you'll be more comfortable and that brings it's own danger. If you ain't dipping today you have won the most important battle you could fight.
Good stuff right here for noobs to read.
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I am on day 4 here. Here is a random thought. Watched the new Clash of the Titans last night. As if not having nicotine wasn't enough punishment. Anyway when the Kraken was released it made me start thinking. The Kraken is like my nicotine addiction. It is huge monster right behind me screaming to be fed. The mere size of it makes it seem impossible to defeat. The noise it is making in head right now is almost unbearable. I know how to make it shut up. However, I refuse to cave. Caving will not make it go away. It will just shut the damn thing up momentarily. I see other people on this site that are fighting the Kraken. I think it will get a little bit smaller every day but will always be right behind me. You men in the HOF are awsome. Men at 200,300,400 etc. are stronger than I can imagine at this point. KTC thanks for having a site where I can ramble.
Yep you gotta respect the HOFers but as somebody (just starting my 4th week) that can still remember day 4 you are accomplishing more than they are today or I was in many ways. You are fighting the battle very much on faith and it probably still looks like a losing fight. Couple weeks from now you'll be more comfortable and that brings it's own danger. If you ain't dipping today you have won the most important battle you could fight.
Good stuff right here for noobs to read. [/QUOTE
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I am on day 4 here. Here is a random thought. Watched the new Clash of the Titans last night. As if not having nicotine wasn't enough punishment. Anyway when the Kraken was released it made me start thinking. The Kraken is like my nicotine addiction. It is huge monster right behind me screaming to be fed. The mere size of it makes it seem impossible to defeat. The noise it is making in head right now is almost unbearable. I know how to make it shut up. However, I refuse to cave. Caving will not make it go away. It will just shut the damn thing up momentarily. I see other people on this site that are fighting the Kraken. I think it will get a little bit smaller every day but will always be right behind me. You men in the HOF are awsome. Men at 200,300,400 etc. are stronger than I can imagine at this point. KTC thanks for having a site where I can ramble.
Yep you gotta respect the HOFers but as somebody (just starting my 4th week) that can still remember day 4 you are accomplishing more than they are today or I was in many ways. You are fighting the battle very much on faith and it probably still looks like a losing fight. Couple weeks from now you'll be more comfortable and that brings it's own danger. If you ain't dipping today you have won the most important battle you could fight.
Good stuff right here for noobs to read.
Good stuff.