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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Mack213 on January 09, 2018, 01:15:00 AM
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Hello quitters,
I am 7 minutes into day 2 of my quit. I'm 31, used the stupid shit for 17 years. I'm not really the type of person to ask for help, but I'm checking out the site and reading as much as I can, just trying to figure it out 1 day at a time. My self control feels like it's at an all time low. If there's anyone who ever needs help or someone to talk them out of buying a can or making a stupid decision, feel free to pm me and we can exchange numbers. Lord knows I'll need your help someday too. I wish i had something cool to say, but I don't. Let's just get to quitting.
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Hello quitters,
I am 7 minutes into day 2 of my quit. I'm 31, used the stupid shit for 17 years. I'm not really the type of person to ask for help, but I'm checking out the site and reading as much as I can, just trying to figure it out 1 day at a time. My self control feels like it's at an all time low. If there's anyone who ever needs help or someone to talk them out of buying a can or making a stupid decision, feel free to pm me and we can exchange numbers. Lord knows I'll need your help someday too. I wish i had something cool to say, but I don't. Let's just get to quitting.
Welcome. Get some digits and post roll. Seems simple but do it daily. Involve yourself in your quit group and read, read, read about what has made some rock star quitters here and why some are here for the 3rd time. Learn from all of it.
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Thank you.
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You got this Mack! Once you make the decision that nicotine/tobacco is off the table, then you will start thinking differently and find other things to do. No matter how bad it gets, I will not use tobacco today. Never Again For Any Reason. Live by it and you will be quit.
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Thanks Brian. It's lunchtime at work. Trigger central. I'm working put ways in my head to stay busy. Probably be on here just reading and killing the time till I can get back to work. It's gonna work. It has to. I'm only day 2, but I'm not giving in ever again. Thanks again for the words. They really do mean alot!
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Day 4 and im feeling great. My quit is strong right now. The reading, man some of it is down right scary. I've stopped in the past, up to about a month before just giving in for literally no reason. I just wanna say thanks to those who've reached out so far. I'm still building my quit arsenal, and as I get stronger with it, I'm going to be trying to reach out more to everyone in this group. Especially the new guys coming in and trying to get set up. But for now, just thanks April. Biggest group of fucking strangers that I'd help any damn time I could. Quit today with you. ODAAT!
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Day 4 and im feeling great. My quit is strong right now. The reading, man some of it is down right scary. I've stopped in the past, up to about a month before just giving in for literally no reason. I just wanna say thanks to those who've reached out so far. I'm still building my quit arsenal, and as I get stronger with it, I'm going to be trying to reach out more to everyone in this group. Especially the new guys coming in and trying to get set up. But for now, just thanks April. Biggest group of fucking strangers that I'd help any damn time I could. Quit today with you. ODAAT!
Your group are those you will be in the foxhole with; make sure you are there for them as they are for you. Keep putting your plan together to stave off the nic bitch and her whispers. The more you hate your addiction, the more likely your success.
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Day 7. Had my first headache of my quit, and I'm not so sure it's from not having any caffeine for the past day or two. Either way, I've felt like I've had it pretty easy during my quit so far. I've already spoke to some of my boys because I know someday she's gonna try and catch me during a weak point. So I'm getting ready for it. I pray the craves stay minimal like this, I'm sure there's people reading this thinking "Thanks for rubbing it in you asshole" but just trying to keep track of it all. So here's to 1 week. ODAAT!
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Day 7. Had my first headache of my quit, and I'm not so sure it's from not having any caffeine for the past day or two. Either way, I've felt like I've had it pretty easy during my quit so far. I've already spoke to some of my boys because I know someday she's gonna try and catch me during a weak point. So I'm getting ready for it. I pray the craves stay minimal like this, I'm sure there's people reading this thinking "Thanks for rubbing it in you asshole" but just trying to keep track of it all. So here's to 1 week. ODAAT!
One moment at a time. You never know, especially early in your quit, what may trigger an incessant urge to plunge back into your addiction. Keep building your walls and fortress around your quit. Guard it with your life because your life depends on it.
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Day 18. Holy hell I want a chew right now. It's bad. The worst crave I've had since I quit. But it won't be a quit if I don't hold to my word that i gave to my brothers and sisters in April 18. I'm sitting in the break room at work just focusing on typing this so I don't hop in my truck and drive to the kwik shop. I was so strong for the first 2 weeks, knowing this time would be coming. My brain literally starts to say, you know your worthless, just give up and take one. I keep telling myself when this passes it will be better, but they seem to be coming stronger and stronger each time. All this to say I end up getting mad at myself for ever letting it get this far. I'm staying quit, but my jacked up brain is making me think i dont want to today.
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Day 27. I'm 1 day away from 4 weeks, or a month. That sounds great. Feeling physically good. Craves still hit once in a while. And while mostly, they are easy to deal with, a couple times they have gotten pretty intense. But I'm finding that my brain wants to tell me to forget why I'm quit when the craving gets bad. It's amazing how much damage we've done to our mental health. How sad is it that we've chose to make a habit of trying to use something to kill ourselves quicker. My biggest problem now is that the guilt of wondering if I have made choices that will cut my time short with my family, my kids. I hate myself for making such a selfish choice, and although at the time, I didn't think about it, it's no excuse. I guess I thought I'd be feeling this great sense of accomplishment at this point, but i dont. I just want time. One day at a time, and to appreciate my family every second that the good Lord blesses me with. I will not take it for granted ever again.
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Day 27. I'm 1 day away from 4 weeks, or a month. That sounds great. Feeling physically good. Craves still hit once in a while. And while mostly, they are easy to deal with, a couple times they have gotten pretty intense. But I'm finding that my brain wants to tell me to forget why I'm quit when the craving gets bad. It's amazing how much damage we've done to our mental health. How sad is it that we've chose to make a habit of trying to use something to kill ourselves quicker. My biggest problem now is that the guilt of wondering if I have made choices that will cut my time short with my family, my kids. I hate myself for making such a selfish choice, and although at the time, I didn't think about it, it's no excuse. I guess I thought I'd be feeling this great sense of accomplishment at this point, but i dont. I just want time. One day at a time, and to appreciate my family every second that the good Lord blesses me with. I will not take it for granted ever again.
Your quit is the first step toward more meaning in your life. Use your addictive tendency to become addicted to becoming a better version of yourself.
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Day 39. Not much new to report. Just trying to find the way. Letting my brain rewire. It's easy, yet difficult. Helps checking in on my group and knowing my quit is helping their quit. Just gonna stay the course.
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Day 39. Not much new to report. Just trying to find the way. Letting my brain rewire. It's easy, yet difficult. Helps checking in on my group and knowing my quit is helping their quit. Just gonna stay the course.
You have to post up your promise every day. It may not seem like much when the days are going good. There will be many times in your quit that you will need your group to get you through the low spots. Every quit has lulls and times where you just need to grind it out. That is where the brotherhood and accountability come in .
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Day 39. Not much new to report. Just trying to find the way. Letting my brain rewire. It's easy, yet difficult. Helps checking in on my group and knowing my quit is helping their quit. Just gonna stay the course.
You have to post up your promise every day. It may not seem like much when the days are going good. There will be many times in your quit that you will need your group to get you through the low spots. Every quit has lulls and times where you just need to grind it out. That is where the brotherhood and accountability come in .
I appreciate all your help, and I'm proud to quit with you! On day 44 now and I just got off the phone with Athan who helped me off the ledge. This place and the people are amazing. I see your quit date and that's just extreme bad assness. I hope in some way, your words to me are strengthening your own quit too! Because they have helped me out more than you know!
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Day 39. Not much new to report. Just trying to find the way. Letting my brain rewire. It's easy, yet difficult. Helps checking in on my group and knowing my quit is helping their quit. Just gonna stay the course.
You have to post up your promise every day. It may not seem like much when the days are going good. There will be many times in your quit that you will need your group to get you through the low spots. Every quit has lulls and times where you just need to grind it out. That is where the brotherhood and accountability come in .
I appreciate all your help, and I'm proud to quit with you! On day 44 now and I just got off the phone with Athan who helped me off the ledge. This place and the people are amazing. I see your quit date and that's just extreme bad assness. I hope in some way, your words to me are strengthening your own quit too! Because they have helped me out more than you know!
Every new quitter and their journey serve as a reference point for all quitters, regardless of the length of our quit. We were there. Those memories are renewed when seeing someone struggle in the early stages. It's one of the reasons some of us choose to linger and offer some amount of perspective. Anyone choosing to better themselves is an inspiration in our lives. I'm glad you are still here, quitting everyday.
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Day 61
I feel good. STRONG. Just sent my email to help with the SSOA for my group. Gotta help and try to give back to this place that's given me so much more than I can repay. I look forward to the day when I can grab a beer with a few fellow quitters..
I'm not turning back ever again. But all I can worry about is today. Make no mistake I'm a full blown addict. But I've learned the nic bitches tricks. She's always got more to throw at me, but I keep having this vision/dream, and one day...I don't know when....But she dies. And I don't care what anyone thinks about signs, or whatever you wanna call it. Something about that thought makes me feel so good, and my quit so strong. I wish everyone could have it. Until then, I gotta help my people. Proud to quit with you if your reading this, no matter the day or circumstance.
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Day 61
I feel good. STRONG. Just sent my email to help with the SSOA for my group. Gotta help and try to give back to this place that's given me so much more than I can repay. I look forward to the day when I can grab a beer with a few fellow quitters..
I'm not turning back ever again. But all I can worry about is today. Make no mistake I'm a full blown addict. But I've learned the nic bitches tricks. She's always got more to throw at me, but I keep having this vision/dream, and one day...I don't know when....But she dies. And I don't care what anyone thinks about signs, or whatever you wanna call it. Something about that thought makes me feel so good, and my quit so strong. I wish everyone could have it. Until then, I gotta help my people. Proud to quit with you if your reading this, no matter the day or circumstance.
I want that dream, where the nic bitch dies
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There are so many ways each day to strengthen your quit. Reading practically anything on here, from intros to HOF speeches, ANYTHING really.
We emphasize reaching out and getting digits for a reason. Your held EVEN MORE accountable when the numbers in your phone are not strangers on the internet anymore. They are faces, people, going through the SAME shit you are....right now!
Then, as you take your quit even more seriously, you start to see things...like, people who post the wrong day #, people who don't post at fucking all...people not quite getting the picture that their quit is a life and death decision.
I recently took a step to be more active in the group, and it brought me to my knees almost at the pure happiness I have knowing what my group actually looks like! There are faces, personalities, that you can't get or see by just floating along posting roll.
Make absolutely no mistake tho, if your posting roll and holding your word. You are bad ass. And I'm proud to quit with you.
But for those of you looking for something, feeling like it's just not enough right now, "what else can I do", "what can take my mind off this damn chew".....
Look here....drink the kool aid. Let yourself be apart of it. You won't regret it.
There's been SO many times within my measly 66 days quit that I've thought about chewing. Then I say, "grab some seeds, and log on to KTC" , and it works, but not all the time, so then "text Athan, ReWire, you name them" , then a conversation can take you right through that crave. That's not enough? Ask what else you can do. Someone will answer you. And you won't regret where it takes you.
I just want this to soak into one person, if they hear it and it helps them, then I've done ok in my book.
I'm proud to be in April 18. And proud to quit with all of you
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Hey Mack, only day 11 here. Been going smooth until today. We had one of our first nice days here in MO and got outside with my kids and grilled. Extreme trigger hanging outside. So needless to say it was a tough one and I probably looked like the only idiot around with a frown on such a beautiful day. Finally couldnÂ’t take it so I jumped on my harley and tore up some back roads for some wind therapy. Anyways, soon as it got dark I hopped on here and saw your posts. Really digging your upbeat attitude and it really helps. LetÂ’s me know things will get better even though today sucks ass. Thanks for being a positive guy.
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There are so many ways each day to strengthen your quit. Reading practically anything on here, from intros to HOF speeches, ANYTHING really.
We emphasize reaching out and getting digits for a reason. Your held EVEN MORE accountable when the numbers in your phone are not strangers on the internet anymore. They are faces, people, going through the SAME shit you are....right now!
Then, as you take your quit even more seriously, you start to see things...like, people who post the wrong day #, people who don't post at fucking all...people not quite getting the picture that their quit is a life and death decision.
I recently took a step to be more active in the group, and it brought me to my knees almost at the pure happiness I have knowing what my group actually looks like! There are faces, personalities, that you can't get or see by just floating along posting roll.
Make absolutely no mistake tho, if your posting roll and holding your word. You are bad ass. And I'm proud to quit with you.
But for those of you looking for something, feeling like it's just not enough right now, "what else can I do", "what can take my mind off this damn chew".....
Look here....drink the kool aid. Let yourself be apart of it. You won't regret it.
There's been SO many times within my measly 66 days quit that I've thought about chewing. Then I say, "grab some seeds, and log on to KTC" , and it works, but not all the time, so then "text Athan, ReWire, you name them" , then a conversation can take you right through that crave. That's not enough? Ask what else you can do. Someone will answer you. And you won't regret where it takes you.
I just want this to soak into one person, if they hear it and it helps them, then I've done ok in my book.
I'm proud to be in April 18. And proud to quit with all of you
Solid....
You helped my quit today sir.
Great Intro.
You need digits.. Let me know.
I quit with you today.
Rawls 1214
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Day 75......3/4 of the way to HOF. That feels good to think about for the moment. I'm proud of it.
Just yesterday I was reminded of a few things that I needed to put in here for later reference.
I woke up yesterday with knowing that after work (5:30p.m.) I would have to drive 3.5 hrs back home on the other side of the state.
This would be my first "road trip" if you will, since my quit date began. And I felt the anxiety almost immediately after I WUPP that morning.
So the work day goes on, and at about 3 pm, I start digging into my bag of KTC tools. I text my very best brother in quit Athan and ask of he'll be around his phone at 6 pm central time, because I know I'll be filling up my truck and getting on the road. And that convenience shop (kwik shop) is my trigger. And for some reason, it's almost haunting me just thinking about what's to come.
So my bro Athan, the man that he is, which is a bad ass quitter and just stand up man of everything good in life, calls me and we make arrangements for me to call him AS I'm pulling up to the gas station and before i even exit my truck to pump gas.
The next thing that happens makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. The phone rings at around 4:30 and Athan says "i just wanted to make sure my phone reception works where im at because this is where ill be when you call".....so I confirm I can hear him loud and clear....then he says "excellent, ok, love you, goodbye"
That made me laugh my ass off in front of co-workers who will never understand. And I love that. With KTC, I found a complete stranger who has my same sense of humor, and knows truly what it means to help someone. And not just Athan, there's so many in just my group alone (APRIL 18 baby!!!)
So 6 pm rolls around and the call is made. I buy some red bull, gum, get my truck filled and Athan was with me the whole time. I never thought on day 74, i would still have my brain telling me that i wanted to buy a can of copenhagen. But with a brothers help, and me knowing damn well just how little self control I can have at times, I made it through this hurdle in my mind. I drove the 3.5 hours thinking about how I've changed and I hope it's all for the better.
I want to stay on this quit thing forever, but for now, I'm just gonna focus on today.
75 days ago I wouldn't have had this knowledge, these tools. There are 25 other phone numbers in my phone I could reach out to at any given time. It's powerful to think about.
So I'll be out in BFE Kansas for the weekend, gotta hike up a hill about 1/4 mile each day to ï¹°Wï¹°Uï¹°Pï¹°P, but it won't affect me being here bright and fucking early each morning, welcoming the challenge my former self has presented me with.
I'm proud to be quit today, and if you just read this damn novel, I'm even more proud to quit with you today.
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Day 75......3/4 of the way to HOF. That feels good to think about for the moment. I'm proud of it.
Just yesterday I was reminded of a few things that I needed to put in here for later reference.
I woke up yesterday with knowing that after work (5:30p.m.) I would have to drive 3.5 hrs back home on the other side of the state.
This would be my first "road trip" if you will, since my quit date began. And I felt the anxiety almost immediately after I WUPP that morning.
So the work day goes on, and at about 3 pm, I start digging into my bag of KTC tools. I text my very best brother in quit Athan and ask of he'll be around his phone at 6 pm central time, because I know I'll be filling up my truck and getting on the road. And that convenience shop (kwik shop) is my trigger. And for some reason, it's almost haunting me just thinking about what's to come.
So my bro Athan, the man that he is, which is a bad ass quitter and just stand up man of everything good in life, calls me and we make arrangements for me to call him AS I'm pulling up to the gas station and before i even exit my truck to pump gas.
The next thing that happens makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. The phone rings at around 4:30 and Athan says "i just wanted to make sure my phone reception works where im at because this is where ill be when you call".....so I confirm I can hear him loud and clear....then he says "excellent, ok, love you, goodbye"
That made me laugh my ass off in front of co-workers who will never understand. And I love that. With KTC, I found a complete stranger who has my same sense of humor, and knows truly what it means to help someone. And not just Athan, there's so many in just my group alone (APRIL 18 baby!!!)
So 6 pm rolls around and the call is made. I buy some red bull, gum, get my truck filled and Athan was with me the whole time. I never thought on day 74, i would still have my brain telling me that i wanted to buy a can of copenhagen. But with a brothers help, and me knowing damn well just how little self control I can have at times, I made it through this hurdle in my mind. I drove the 3.5 hours thinking about how I've changed and I hope it's all for the better.
I want to stay on this quit thing forever, but for now, I'm just gonna focus on today.
75 days ago I wouldn't have had this knowledge, these tools. There are 25 other phone numbers in my phone I could reach out to at any given time. It's powerful to think about.
So I'll be out in BFE Kansas for the weekend, gotta hike up a hill about 1/4 mile each day to ï¹°Wï¹°Uï¹°Pï¹°P, but it won't affect me being here bright and fucking early each morning, welcoming the challenge my former self has presented me with.
I'm proud to be quit today, and if you just read this damn novel, I'm even more proud to quit with you today.
Was time well spent, both ways!
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Day 75......3/4 of the way to HOF. That feels good to think about for the moment. I'm proud of it.
Just yesterday I was reminded of a few things that I needed to put in here for later reference.
I woke up yesterday with knowing that after work (5:30p.m.) I would have to drive 3.5 hrs back home on the other side of the state.
This would be my first "road trip" if you will, since my quit date began. And I felt the anxiety almost immediately after I WUPP that morning.
So the work day goes on, and at about 3 pm, I start digging into my bag of KTC tools. I text my very best brother in quit Athan and ask of he'll be around his phone at 6 pm central time, because I know I'll be filling up my truck and getting on the road. And that convenience shop (kwik shop) is my trigger. And for some reason, it's almost haunting me just thinking about what's to come.
So my bro Athan, the man that he is, which is a bad ass quitter and just stand up man of everything good in life, calls me and we make arrangements for me to call him AS I'm pulling up to the gas station and before i even exit my truck to pump gas.
The next thing that happens makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. The phone rings at around 4:30 and Athan says "i just wanted to make sure my phone reception works where im at because this is where ill be when you call".....so I confirm I can hear him loud and clear....then he says "excellent, ok, love you, goodbye"
That made me laugh my ass off in front of co-workers who will never understand. And I love that. With KTC, I found a complete stranger who has my same sense of humor, and knows truly what it means to help someone. And not just Athan, there's so many in just my group alone (APRIL 18 baby!!!)
So 6 pm rolls around and the call is made. I buy some red bull, gum, get my truck filled and Athan was with me the whole time. I never thought on day 74, i would still have my brain telling me that i wanted to buy a can of copenhagen. But with a brothers help, and me knowing damn well just how little self control I can have at times, I made it through this hurdle in my mind. I drove the 3.5 hours thinking about how I've changed and I hope it's all for the better.
I want to stay on this quit thing forever, but for now, I'm just gonna focus on today.
75 days ago I wouldn't have had this knowledge, these tools. There are 25 other phone numbers in my phone I could reach out to at any given time. It's powerful to think about.
So I'll be out in BFE Kansas for the weekend, gotta hike up a hill about 1/4 mile each day to ï¹°Wï¹°Uï¹°Pï¹°P, but it won't affect me being here bright and fucking early each morning, welcoming the challenge my former self has presented me with.
I'm proud to be quit today, and if you just read this damn novel, I'm even more proud to quit with you today.
Was time well spent, both ways!
Quit on bro, ODAT
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Do you know of my brother, Mack213?
In the halls of quit is where he is seen.
Of his exploits wondrous tales are told,
And heÂ’ll strengthen your quit a thousand fold.
Oh his slain are a mighty throng,
providing poets with ballad and song
OÂ’er the bitch will he cast a dark pall,
For my brother Mack is 10 feet tall!
He spins her legions off into chaos,
and lays waste to the can on a daily basis.
She flees before him, at the very sound of his voice,
as he informs all the addicts that they have a choice.
He takes them by the hand, he looks into their eyes,
“Come follow me brothers, just give it a try!”
IÂ’ve gone before you, IÂ’ve blazed the trail,
DonÂ’t let her beguile you, for that ship has sailed.
And so here he toils, day after day,
Finding new quitters to show them the way.
YouÂ’ll need his wise counsel when youÂ’re at wits end
And when you find him, youÂ’ve found a friend!
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Do you know of my brother, Mack213?
In the halls of quit is where he is seen.
Of his exploits wondrous tales are told,
And heÂ’ll strengthen your quit a thousand fold.
Oh his slain are a mighty throng,
providing poets with ballad and song
OÂ’er the bitch will he cast a dark pall,
For my brother Mack is 10 feet tall!
He spins her legions off into chaos,
and lays waste to the can on a daily basis.
She flees before him, at the very sound of his voice,
as he informs all the addicts that they have a choice.
He takes them by the hand, he looks into their eyes,
“Come follow me brothers, just give it a try!”
IÂ’ve gone before you, IÂ’ve blazed the trail,
DonÂ’t let her beguile you, for that ship has sailed.
And so here he toils, day after day,
Finding new quitters to show them the way.
YouÂ’ll need his wise counsel when youÂ’re at wits end
And when you find him, youÂ’ve found a friend!
I love you brother!
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I love you brother!
I....I...just wanna be friends.
Ok, I love you bye
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I love you brother!
I....I...just wanna be friends.
Ok, I love you bye
Gratz, Mack!
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I love you brother!
I....I...just wanna be friends.
Ok, I love you bye
Gratz, Mack!
Nice job Mack... Keep on quitting...
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I love you brother!
I....I...just wanna be friends.
Ok, I love you bye
Gratz, Mack!
Nice job Mack... Keep on quitting...
Right on my brother... proud as fuck of you.
Let's start stacking these days up bro.
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I love you brother!
I....I...just wanna be friends.
Ok, I love you bye
Gratz, Mack!
Thanks Work!
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I love you brother!
I....I...just wanna be friends.
Ok, I love you bye
Gratz, Mack!
Nice job Mack... Keep on quitting...
Right on my brother... proud as fuck of you.
Let's start stacking these days up bro.
I'll be right here fellas. I'm proud to be quit with you.
And we will stack it up! In the shade! You better believe it!!!!
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I love you brother!
I....I...just wanna be friends.
Ok, I love you bye
Gratz, Mack!
Nice job Mack... Keep on quitting...
Right on my brother... proud as fuck of you.
Let's start stacking these days up bro.
I'll be right here fellas. I'm proud to be quit with you.
And we will stack it up! In the shade! You better believe it!!!!
Great job Mack!
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Getting ready to roll into day 109...
Needing to find some positivity around here. Lately it seems like its basically cavers, and keyboard warriors. Neither of which help ANYONE.
Just like turning on the TV, its pretty easy to spot the asshole in a group who isn't here to help anyone but themselves. You could try to help them see their assholish ways,
but in the end its like the old saying "never argue with an idiot".
There is definitely a post HOF funk, and Ive seemed to have found it. But its either give in to the negative and probably set yourself up for a cave later, or dig in and
help the next guy in line that needs it. I choose that route. Wasting your time even responding to some of the douche baggary around here can drive you nuts.
So I'll stick to what has worked so far. The Bros who you can count on know who they are, and if your wondering who those guys are....maybe your the asshole. 'arse'
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Getting ready to roll into day 109...
Needing to find some positivity around here. Lately it seems like its basically cavers, and keyboard warriors. Neither of which help ANYONE.
Just like turning on the TV, its pretty easy to spot the asshole in a group who isn't here to help anyone but themselves. You could try to help them see their assholish ways,
but in the end its like the old saying "never argue with an idiot".
There is definitely a post HOF funk, and Ive seemed to have found it. But its either give in to the negative and probably set yourself up for a cave later, or dig in and
help the next guy in line that needs it. I choose that route. Wasting your time even responding to some of the douche baggary around here can drive you nuts.
So I'll stick to what has worked so far. The Bros who you can count on know who they are, and if your wondering who those guys are....maybe your the asshole. 'arse'
And that's how we handle that....Well done Mack! Well done!
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Getting ready to roll into day 109...
Needing to find some positivity around here. Lately it seems like its basically cavers, and keyboard warriors. Neither of which help ANYONE.
Just like turning on the TV, its pretty easy to spot the asshole in a group who isn't here to help anyone but themselves. You could try to help them see their assholish ways,
but in the end its like the old saying "never argue with an idiot".
There is definitely a post HOF funk, and Ive seemed to have found it. But its either give in to the negative and probably set yourself up for a cave later, or dig in and
help the next guy in line that needs it. I choose that route. Wasting your time even responding to some of the douche baggary around here can drive you nuts.
So I'll stick to what has worked so far. The Bros who you can count on know who they are, and if your wondering who those guys are....maybe your the asshole. 'arse'
And that's how we handle that....Well done Mack! Well done!
Nothing abnormal with post HOV.
Take what works.... Leave the rest.
Can't be the whole chain.
Just don't be the missing link.
It gets better.
I quit with you today brother.
Rawls 1256
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Day 120. I have the day off from work.
1 mile run...50 pullups...100 pushups... 150 air squats...1 mile run.
Time - 35:42
Building up to full on Murph workouts. 1 per week mixed in with my weight routine.
I'm eating better, lifting, sleeping better, spending more time with my family, just happy.
On day 1 I wasnt thinking about how great I'd feel today being away from that stupid ass dead weed.
Get rid of that shit. Start working on making yourself the best version you can. It's like domino's falling, I promise. Sent one more up everyday and then knock that shit down!!!
Just the other day I had a weak feeling standing inside the gas station paying for a couple red bulls. I know, not healthy, but they were sugar free, so shut up.
But I looked up and saw my old nemesis (Cope pouches) had been marked down from $4.95 down to $2.95
Weird. Why is it so cheap? WTF? It bugged me FAR longer than it should have. So feeling the bullshit creeping up, I sent out the texts. One to my April brother Skol, and the other to a group of local brothers in quit.
They all know what to say to me. Why? Because they're my brothers, and they know what I need to hear. How so you ask? Because we've invested into each others quit. We talk about more than just day counts.
I just needed to write this down to remind myself that I'm a fucking force to be reckoned with. But I'm so much more powerful with my brothers behind me. I cant thank you guys enough. You know who you are.
This is just the beginning...
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Proud today bro
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124. How fast things can change. Looked at my last post, just 4 measly days ago and I was going strong. About day 122, thoughts crept in. "Just one, to show myself that it's nothing and I'll jump right back out"
That right there is a dangerous thought. I think back on that, and the ONLY reasons I did not cave were as follows.
I texted TONS of brothers. I read until my eyes hurt on the site. Still needing more I set out to talk to some vets, get some advice. Seeing my unbreakable, ridiculously quit, brother Skol post some words of wisdom, I read about reaching out to vets to strengthen your quit. So I talked with Pab1964, he gave me some great insight. We exchanged digits, and I have one more check of accountability and another resource to use when that whore tries to pull me away from my brothers.
I then reached out to some in my very own group, which I'm ashamed to say, I just recently exchanged digits with. I feel like I should have them all by now, but I dont. I will though.
After all that, today i woke up with a pounding headache. Not quite a migraine, but I did end up puking my guts out at work. Not from my stomache, but my head spinning. I cant tell if its late fog, or what, but it finally let up this evening.
I didnt get to post support in all the groups I wanted, but came here instead. Trying to keep these days noted, so when I'm on day 5000 I can look back and say "shiiiiit, look how damn far I've come", "look what I went through to get here".
125 days ago, I didnt have this. I wasnt this strong. I just have to keep that in the forefront of my mind. I cant always do that on my own yet. But I'll get there. With my brothers. One. Day. At. A. Time.
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One thing we all have to learn is the The Law of Addiction (http://forum.killthecan.org/single/?p=9740764&t=11541810).
You can't have "just one". "Just one" rewires all of the receptors of your nicotine addiction, and you are back at being enslaved by the nicotine addiction.
Appreciate your freedom from this addiction. Concentrate on your days free from having to hide your addiction from your friends and loved ones.
The only way to stay quit is to stay quit. Once free, remain free.
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Day 162, enjoy reading laws of addiction....doing some quit reinforcement tonight
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Look at you.... you sexy beast you.
2nd floor looks great on you my brother.
You are a pillar in my quit and someone I would consider a great friend.
Cheers to the next hundo and hopefully someday are paths cross on this great Earth.
Love you brother, well freaking done.
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Look at you.... you sexy beast you.
2nd floor looks great on you my brother.
You are a pillar in my quit and someone I would consider a great friend.
Cheers to the next hundo and hopefully someday are paths cross on this great Earth.
Love you brother, well freaking done.
Congratulations on the 2hundo my brother
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Look at you.... you sexy beast you.
2nd floor looks great on you my brother.
You are a pillar in my quit and someone I would consider a great friend.
Cheers to the next hundo and hopefully someday are paths cross on this great Earth.
Love you brother, well freaking done.
Congratulations on the 2hundo my brother
My word. Who'd a thunk a scant two hunert days ago I'd still be throwing around the weights and jamming to tunes I got from a complete stranger.
You sir are a remarkable man; Skol said it best "a pillar" in the quit. If I'm going into quit combat, you're the soldier I want in my fox hole (that's fox hole, not bung hole).
Let's pile on another hundy, shall we!
Loving you Mack! Will be in touch soon for another long road trip to exercise our patented method of thumbing our nose at the bitch from the gas pump.
xooxxo
I love you
bye!
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Look at you.... you sexy beast you.
2nd floor looks great on you my brother.
You are a pillar in my quit and someone I would consider a great friend.
Cheers to the next hundo and hopefully someday are paths cross on this great Earth.
Love you brother, well freaking done.
Congratulations on the 2hundo my brother
My word. Who'd a thunk a scant two hunert days ago I'd still be throwing around the weights and jamming to tunes I got from a complete stranger.
You sir are a remarkable man; Skol said it best "a pillar" in the quit. If I'm going into quit combat, you're the soldier I want in my fox hole (that's fox hole, not bung hole).
Let's pile on another hundy, shall we!
Loving you Mack! Will be in touch soon for another long road trip to exercise our patented method of thumbing our nose at the bitch from the gas pump.
xooxxo
I love you
bye!
Well done Mack!
Rawls 1348
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500
Proud as hell of you everyday bro, happy to stack the days with you.
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500
Proud as hell of you everyday bro, happy to stack the days with you.
I imagine you climbing those towers and working those nacelles. I can imagine how the craves might come on at you. I'm sure there's boys in your crew that chew too. I love that your free, for your lady, for your children, for you. I still got that pic in my phone and it still makes me laugh. I don't call you as much as I'd like but I'm still quit with you 500 days into it. Love you Mack - you're a rock.
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Mack - you're a shooting star! (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0kEDa6bXnA8)
Love the 700 days of freedom!