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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: TheSweetness on November 21, 2012, 08:44:00 PM
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May 25, 2002 - that's when my buddy Dave gave my dip for the first time back when I was 16. It was Skoal Berry Blend and it made me so wonderfully dizzy that I couldn't believe something like that could be bad for me. I tried smoking a few times after but hated the side-effects (lungs, taste, smell). But dip - that was my own secret high.
Dave gave me a half a tin of Skoal straight and told me to dip in the shower - I did it and it was incredible. I remember asking my older sister (who hated me) to buy me a tin of Cherry Skoal at a Hess Mart because she was 18 and I was afraid I'd be carded. I remember trying to dip in chemistry class. "Dooping" - dipping on the can in High School - Skoal Spearmint, my favorite. Then I got into Kodiak and tamed the wild beast known as Kodiak Ice. I knew people were disgusted by it so I hid it.
I stopped for 8 months and went to college. I noticed the cool kids (who I desperately wanted to be like) were dipping at orientation and so I picked it back up to hang with them. We'd dip on Sunday nights and watch shitty MTV shows - making an event out of it made it that much more fun (as I'm sure anybody reading this knows). Movies. Long drives. Nights home solo after the bar. Dip gave me something to look forward to.
I remember getting cheated on by a girl I was dating in college and running to 7-11 to buy a tin of Skoal Mint to throw in and ease the pain.
I remember switching to pouches in order to ease my gums 2 years ago. Tins where I lived at the time costed $8. A "dip" was 8 pouches for me - 4 up top, 4 below. Most tins are 15 pouches though some are 16, if you're lucky. $4 a dip. 1 tin a day. Every day.
I remember the last 2 years dating a woman I want to marry. She has no clue I dip. We've lived together almost a year now. She has no clue. I "run to 7-11 for a candy bar" while we're out at bars. I sit in the bathroom and let her know ahead of time that "I gotta take a huge shit" (maybe a little more eloquently than that). Read that again: I'd rather my girlfriend think I'm some weirdo who leaves a party to run to 7-11 and would rather have her think I'm taking some huge shit every day after work so i can get my fix.
I remember all of those things because I've dipped in secret for over 10 years. Cancer scares. Money pissed away. All of it.
I'm sick of being a slave to this. I'm sick of leaving my home each day knowing I'm going to spend $5 first thing on a new tin. I'm sick of dipping at work. I'm sick of having to plan EVERYTHING around "can I sneak away to buy a tin or take a dip". I'm sick of worrying if I'm going to get cancer. I'm sick of not arguing the idea that I take huge shits at party because I don't want anybody to know that I'm hiding in the bathroom with a hooch in. I'm sick of realizing I'll lose what I've come to think is a pretty nice looking face!
My name is Ryan. My ID is the name of my first "Dipping Song". I'm 10.5 years dipping and quitting on March 25. I'm ready.
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Look at you. Planned quits are so cute. Guess what, though...
IT DOESN'T FUCKING WORK
If you plan a quit, you fail. Period. You'll find a "reason" between then and now not to quit. It's what addicts do.
Now quit acting like a puddle of pussy juice and dump your fucking dip out. Go mash it into the dirt. Wash it down the sink. Flush it. Whatever you have to do. All of it. Then grab your balls, give them a manly tug, and post day 1 in Pre HOF February 2013. I see a lot of talk about freedom, but it's as worthless as the fart I just blasted into my couch cushion until you back it up with some actions.
Tomorrow never comes. Today is what you have. Your move, Sally.
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Look at you. Planned quits are so cute. Guess what, though...
IT DOESN'T FUCKING WORK
If you plan a quit, you fail. Period. You'll find a "reason" between then and now not to quit. It's what addicts do.
Now quit acting like a puddle of pussy juice and dump your fucking dip out. Go mash it into the dirt. Wash it down the sink. Flush it. Whatever you have to do. All of it. Then grab your balls, give them a manly tug, and post day 1 in Pre HOF February 2013. I see a lot of talk about freedom, but it's as worthless as the fart I just blasted into my couch cushion until you back it up with some actions.
Tomorrow never comes. Today is what you have. Your move, Sally.
Sweetness_ Payne is right.
Do yourself a favor and re-read the post you made (and took the time to edit) and ask yourself why you are not dumping your shit right now. You already acknowledge it is fucking up your life why would you waste another day?
Come on! Make the move now!
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Look at you. Planned quits are so cute. Guess what, though...
IT DOESN'T FUCKING WORK
If you plan a quit, you fail. Period. You'll find a "reason" between then and now not to quit. It's what addicts do.
Now quit acting like a puddle of pussy juice and dump your fucking dip out. Go mash it into the dirt. Wash it down the sink. Flush it. Whatever you have to do. All of it. Then grab your balls, give them a manly tug, and post day 1 in Pre HOF February 2013. I see a lot of talk about freedom, but it's as worthless as the fart I just blasted into my couch cushion until you back it up with some actions.
Tomorrow never comes. Today is what you have. Your move, Sally.
Sweetness_ Payne is right.
Do yourself a favor and re-read the post you made (and took the time to edit) and ask yourself why you are not dumping your shit right now. You already acknowledge it is fucking up your life why would you waste another day?
Come on! Make the move now!
March 25 what fucking year?! You don't fool me addict. Nic has you by the nuts and you are her slave.
Do you want to be free? Dump your shit now before she talks you out of it. You can do it if you make quitting the number one priority in your life.
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Look at you. Planned quits are so cute. Guess what, though...
IT DOESN'T FUCKING WORK
If you plan a quit, you fail. Period. You'll find a "reason" between then and now not to quit. It's what addicts do.
Now quit acting like a puddle of pussy juice and dump your fucking dip out. Go mash it into the dirt. Wash it down the sink. Flush it. Whatever you have to do. All of it. Then grab your balls, give them a manly tug, and post day 1 in Pre HOF February 2013. I see a lot of talk about freedom, but it's as worthless as the fart I just blasted into my couch cushion until you back it up with some actions.
Tomorrow never comes. Today is what you have. Your move, Sally.
Sweetness_ Payne is right.
Do yourself a favor and re-read the post you made (and took the time to edit) and ask yourself why you are not dumping your shit right now. You already acknowledge it is fucking up your life why would you waste another day?
Come on! Make the move now!
March 25 what fucking year?! You don't fool me addict. Nic has you by the nuts and you are her slave.
Do you want to be free? Dump your shit now before she talks you out of it. You can do it if you make quitting the number one priority in your life.
I quit (paused) on March 25th one year! I'm sure of that because for nearly 40 years I was going to quit the next day, week, month, year and my favorite Monday! If you have a serious bone in your body about quitting you had better quit glamorizing any part of your addiction. Prove me wrong but I smell troll and don't expect we will see you again!
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Ryan,
I'd say ignore the haters, but they're 100% correct (and they're not really haters). You have to understand that nicotine is the bane of everyone's existence around here so anyone coming up in our 'hood while still using in ANY capacity is going to be harassed.
I'm taking "March" to be a major typo and assume that your planned quit date is November 25, 2012 as the title of your OP states. We'd rather see you throw that shit away RIGHT FUCKING NOW, but if that's the best you can do then I hope to see you post roll this Sunday. I promise you'll get a better reception then :P
I know I'll be here and will pledge to quit with you that day
May 25, 2002 - that's when my buddy Dave gave my dip for the first time back when I was 16. It was Skoal Berry Blend and it made me so wonderfully dizzy that I couldn't believe something like that could be bad for me. I tried smoking a few times after but hated the side-effects (lungs, taste, smell). But dip - that was my own secret high.
Dave gave me a half a tin of Skoal straight and told me to dip in the shower - I did it and it was incredible. I remember asking my older sister (who hated me) to buy me a tin of Cherry Skoal at a Hess Mart because she was 18 and I was afraid I'd be carded. I remember trying to dip in chemistry class. "Dooping" - dipping on the can in High School - Skoal Spearmint, my favorite. Then I got into Kodiak and tamed the wild beast known as Kodiak Ice. I knew people were disgusted by it so I hid it.
I stopped for 8 months and went to college. I noticed the cool kids (who I desperately wanted to be like) were dipping at orientation and so I picked it back up to hang with them. We'd dip on Sunday nights and watch shitty MTV shows - making an event out of it made it that much more fun (as I'm sure anybody reading this knows). Movies. Long drives. Nights home solo after the bar. Dip gave me something to look forward to.
I remember getting cheated on by a girl I was dating in college and running to 7-11 to buy a tin of Skoal Mint to throw in and ease the pain.
I remember switching to pouches in order to ease my gums 2 years ago. Tins where I lived at the time costed $8. A "dip" was 8 pouches for me - 4 up top, 4 below. Most tins are 15 pouches though some are 16, if you're lucky. $4 a dip. 1 tin a day. Every day.
I remember the last 2 years dating a woman I want to marry. She has no clue I dip. We've lived together almost a year now. She has no clue. I "run to 7-11 for a candy bar" while we're out at bars. I sit in the bathroom and let her know ahead of time that "I gotta take a huge shit" (maybe a little more eloquently than that). Read that again: I'd rather my girlfriend think I'm some weirdo who leaves a party to run to 7-11 and would rather have her think I'm taking some huge shit every day after work so i can get my fix.
I remember all of those things because I've dipped in secret for over 10 years. Cancer scares. Money pissed away. All of it.
I'm sick of being a slave to this. I'm sick of leaving my home each day knowing I'm going to spend $5 first thing on a new tin. I'm sick of dipping at work. I'm sick of having to plan EVERYTHING around "can I sneak away to buy a tin or take a dip". I'm sick of worrying if I'm going to get cancer. I'm sick of not arguing the idea that I take huge shits at party because I don't want anybody to know that I'm hiding in the bathroom with a hooch in. I'm sick of realizing I'll lose what I've come to think is a pretty nice looking face!
My name is Ryan. My ID is the name of my first "Dipping Song". I'm 10.5 years dipping and quitting on March 25. I'm ready.
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Look at you. Planned quits are so cute. Guess what, though...
IT DOESN'T FUCKING WORK
If you plan a quit, you fail. Period. You'll find a "reason" between then and now not to quit. It's what addicts do.
Now quit acting like a puddle of pussy juice and dump your fucking dip out. Go mash it into the dirt. Wash it down the sink. Flush it. Whatever you have to do. All of it. Then grab your balls, give them a manly tug, and post day 1 in Pre HOF February 2013. I see a lot of talk about freedom, but it's as worthless as the fart I just blasted into my couch cushion until you back it up with some actions.
Tomorrow never comes. Today is what you have. Your move, Sally.
Sweetness_ Payne is right.
Do yourself a favor and re-read the post you made (and took the time to edit) and ask yourself why you are not dumping your shit right now. You already acknowledge it is fucking up your life why would you waste another day?
Come on! Make the move now!
March 25 what fucking year?! You don't fool me addict. Nic has you by the nuts and you are her slave.
Do you want to be free? Dump your shit now before she talks you out of it. You can do it if you make quitting the number one priority in your life.
I quit (paused) on March 25th one year! I'm sure of that because for nearly 40 years I was going to quit the next day, week, month, year and my favorite Monday! If you have a serious bone in your body about quitting you had better quit glamorizing any part of your addiction. Prove me wrong but I smell troll and don't expect we will see you again!
March has to be a missprint. Its gotta be November 25th, which is Sunday? Surprised its not the 26th...the infamous Monday quit.
I can relate to a lot of your story but I can tell you're kind of a pussy.
The 25th...I see you working. No way you could quit on thanksgiving, that would be too hard, nobody quits on turkey day. Black Friday??? Nah, that will be too hard too I'm gonna watch football and chilax and dip away, its the start of the weekend I cant quit now. Saturday??? No way I can start a quit on a Saturday. That's my party day, that would be too hard. Sunday...NOW I'm gonna get tough and quit, I'm not gonna be one of those MONDAY quitters, I'm gonna quit on SUNDAY.
Ill bet my ass you dip Sunday and talk yourself into a Monday quit and we never hear from you again. I think you're a pussy bro. I hope you prove me wrong but I doubt it. Quit RIGHT FUCKING NOW if you've got any sack at all.
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Look at you. Planned quits are so cute. Guess what, though...
IT DOESN'T FUCKING WORK
If you plan a quit, you fail. Period. You'll find a "reason" between then and now not to quit. It's what addicts do.
Now quit acting like a puddle of pussy juice and dump your fucking dip out. Go mash it into the dirt. Wash it down the sink. Flush it. Whatever you have to do. All of it. Then grab your balls, give them a manly tug, and post day 1 in Pre HOF February 2013. I see a lot of talk about freedom, but it's as worthless as the fart I just blasted into my couch cushion until you back it up with some actions.
Tomorrow never comes. Today is what you have. Your move, Sally.
Sweetness_ Payne is right.
Do yourself a favor and re-read the post you made (and took the time to edit) and ask yourself why you are not dumping your shit right now. You already acknowledge it is fucking up your life why would you waste another day?
Come on! Make the move now!
March 25 what fucking year?! You don't fool me addict. Nic has you by the nuts and you are her slave.
Do you want to be free? Dump your shit now before she talks you out of it. You can do it if you make quitting the number one priority in your life.
I quit (paused) on March 25th one year! I'm sure of that because for nearly 40 years I was going to quit the next day, week, month, year and my favorite Monday! If you have a serious bone in your body about quitting you had better quit glamorizing any part of your addiction. Prove me wrong but I smell troll and don't expect we will see you again!
March has to be a missprint. Its gotta be November 25th, which is Sunday? Surprised its not the 26th...the infamous Monday quit.
I can relate to a lot of your story but I can tell you're kind of a pussy.
The 25th...I see you working. No way you could quit on thanksgiving, that would be too hard, nobody quits on turkey day. Black Friday??? Nah, that will be too hard too I'm gonna watch football and chilax and dip away, its the start of the weekend I cant quit now. Saturday??? No way I can start a quit on a Saturday. That's my party day, that would be too hard. Sunday...NOW I'm gonna get tough and quit, I'm not gonna be one of those MONDAY quitters, I'm gonna quit on SUNDAY.
Ill bet my ass you dip Sunday and talk yourself into a Monday quit and we never hear from you again. I think you're a pussy bro. I hope you prove me wrong but I doubt it. Quit RIGHT FUCKING NOW if you've got any sack at all.
Lol, this is a joke right? He's kidding? This is a troll that slipped through the cracks?
'B.S.'
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Well...today's the 25th, how's the quit going, Sweetness? Oh what's that no word from you and no role post? Just as we thought, you're a fucking pussy full of nothing but TALK.
Get your ass back in here and prove us wrong if you have an ounce of sack at all. My guess is you have a big fat vagina and are probably planning a Jan 1 quit now. Pathetic.
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Well...today's the 25th, how's the quit going, Sweetness? Oh what's that no word from you and no role post? Just as we thought, you're a fucking pussy full of nothing but TALK.
Get your ass back in here and prove us wrong if you have an ounce of sack at all. My guess is you have a big fat vagina and are probably planning a Jan 1 quit now. Pathetic.
It's just too hard man. He's gotta keep stuffing that shit in his face for a few more days or hours - gotta finish that can bro!
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Well...today's the 25th, how's the quit going, Sweetness? Oh what's that no word from you and no role post? Just as we thought, you're a fucking pussy full of nothing but TALK.
Get your ass back in here and prove us wrong if you have an ounce of sack at all. My guess is you have a big fat vagina and are probably planning a Jan 1 quit now. Pathetic.
It's just too hard man. He's gotta keep stuffing that shit in his face for a few more days or hours - gotta finish that can bro!
Seriously, what kind of PUSSY writes that long of intro and says they're gonna quit then disappears???? I guess nic not only rules his life but took his balls. Sad.
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Sorry for the no reply - not a function of being a "sack of pussy juice" or anything similar, just have been in transit. I've tried quitting plenty of times without a support group and failed, kind of shocked at the reception I've received thus far - jesus, guys. I wasn't planning ahead to make excuses and chicken out - I was planning ahead to ensure I was logging on each day which was impossible due to Thanksgiving travel! I also was under the impression that you were supposed to plan ahead a few days when deciding to quit, it wasn't some BS I was trying to fly by. Regardless, I'm as committed today as I was yesterday and the day I posted.
Regarding the important stuff: I am on Day 2. I have plenty of gum and some seeds within arms legnth as well as lots of water. Stress triggers haven't pushed me and I avoided beer during football yesterday just to give myself an easier time - (still trying to figure out how to post - I'm internet retarded.)
I know the flaming I got was a function of you guys not wanting bullshitters sullying up this board so I understand it. I thought I was doing the right thing but I guess not!
Anyway, the important thing is I am on day 2...
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Sorry for the no reply - not a function of being a "sack of pussy juice" or anything similar, just have been in transit. I've tried quitting plenty of times without a support group and failed, kind of shocked at the reception I've received thus far - jesus, guys. I wasn't planning ahead to make excuses and chicken out - I was planning ahead to ensure I was logging on each day which was impossible due to Thanksgiving travel! I also was under the impression that you were supposed to plan ahead a few days when deciding to quit, it wasn't some BS I was trying to fly by. Regardless, I'm as committed today as I was yesterday and the day I posted.
Regarding the important stuff: I am on Day 2. I have plenty of gum and some seeds within arms legnth as well as lots of water. Stress triggers haven't pushed me and I avoided beer during football yesterday just to give myself an easier time - (still trying to figure out how to post - I'm internet retarded.)
I know the flaming I got was a function of you guys not wanting bullshitters sullying up this board so I understand it. I thought I was doing the right thing but I guess not!
Anyway, the important thing is I am on day 2...
Atta boy. Honestly never figured you'd be back. There's a lot of fly by quitters that out up posts like your original one.
Visit the salmon colored Welcome Center in the upper left hand of the page. There you'll find roll posting instructions. Read and post up day 2 in your quit group.
Check your PM inbox too. You've got mail.
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Sorry for the no reply - not a function of being a "sack of pussy juice" or anything similar, just have been in transit. I've tried quitting plenty of times without a support group and failed, kind of shocked at the reception I've received thus far - jesus, guys. I wasn't planning ahead to make excuses and chicken out - I was planning ahead to ensure I was logging on each day which was impossible due to Thanksgiving travel! I also was under the impression that you were supposed to plan ahead a few days when deciding to quit, it wasn't some BS I was trying to fly by. Regardless, I'm as committed today as I was yesterday and the day I posted.
Regarding the important stuff: I am on Day 2. I have plenty of gum and some seeds within arms legnth as well as lots of water. Stress triggers haven't pushed me and I avoided beer during football yesterday just to give myself an easier time - (still trying to figure out how to post - I'm internet retarded.)
I know the flaming I got was a function of you guys not wanting bullshitters sullying up this board so I understand it. I thought I was doing the right thing but I guess not!
Anyway, the important thing is I am on day 2...
Atta boy. Honestly never figured you'd be back. There's a lot of fly by quitters that out up posts like your original one.
Visit the salmon colored Welcome Center in the upper left hand of the page. There you'll find roll posting instructions. Read and post up day 2 in your quit group.
Check your PM inbox too. You've got mail.
Get some #'s! There is NO excuse for not posting roll you can always have someone post for you. All it takes is a simple text or call to have a co-quitter post for you!
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Sounds good - I've got 1 phone number from epayne.
If anybody else cares to share their number, please PM me. I'm happy to return the favor and provide support if they're wavering.
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Sounds good - I've got 1 phone number from epayne.
If anybody else cares to share their number, please PM me. I'm happy to return the favor and provide support if they're wavering.
You are new, so you are not used to our hard truths.
We can sound like assholes sometimes because we are addicts. We know (as addicts do) that we have lied to ourselves and to others in our efforts to "quit" with no success. We know that grey areas mean a way out when times get tough. We know that when we are given an inch, we will take a mile. We know because we once were taken aback by the tones here as well.
The success of this program is all on you. There is a 3 step rule to stay quit here:
Post roll-promise that you won't use nicotine today. This is your proclamation to the world and to yourself that you are a quitter as well as your cry for help to assist you in this endeavour.
Keep your word-Do whatever it takes. Call the numbers you get here. Text them. Post here. Read here. Lock yourself in a room and barricade the entrance. I don't care what you do. Just stay quit. Do not leave nicotine as an option.
Repeat-When you wake up tomorrow, just do what worked for you yesterday. We can't quit forever, but we can quit everday.
You can do this.
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Sorry for the no reply - not a function of being a "sack of pussy juice" or anything similar, just have been in transit. I've tried quitting plenty of times without a support group and failed, kind of shocked at the reception I've received thus far - jesus, guys. I wasn't planning ahead to make excuses and chicken out - I was planning ahead to ensure I was logging on each day which was impossible due to Thanksgiving travel! I also was under the impression that you were supposed to plan ahead a few days when deciding to quit, it wasn't some BS I was trying to fly by. Regardless, I'm as committed today as I was yesterday and the day I posted.
Regarding the important stuff: I am on Day 2. I have plenty of gum and some seeds within arms legnth as well as lots of water. Stress triggers haven't pushed me and I avoided beer during football yesterday just to give myself an easier time - (still trying to figure out how to post - I'm internet retarded.)
I know the flaming I got was a function of you guys not wanting bullshitters sullying up this board so I understand it. I thought I was doing the right thing but I guess not!
Anyway, the important thing is I am on day 2...
Glad you're back. Ive seen too many fly by quitters.
You're right the important thing is you're on day 2. I'm here to support you anytime you need it. You ever have any questions or need anything feel free to pm me anytime.
You'll get the hang of role. Everyone fucks it up at first.
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Figured Day 24 was a good day to BUMP this bad boy and reflect a bit.
I look back at my introduction and I see a lot of the weakness that I've been able to shed with the help of KTC. I remember typing that not really thinking any differently than all the other times I TRIED to quit...which, of course, is another way to say I didn't really want to.
I am BUMPing this because the last few days, March has been hit hard with cavers. I look at the language in my intro and I see the same flimsy, noncommittal bullshit language that I used when I typed my intro with a dip in my mouth and 3 tins in a suitcase that I had for the upcoming trip I "couldn't quit during".
I was weak but my friends at Kill The Can have made me strong. If you're not putting in, you're not getting everything you can out of this site.
Thanks guys. 24 down and 76 to go until I'm in the KTC HOF. Then a lifetime beyond that. But as always, I'll focus on simply not havign a dip today and then we'll deal with tomorrow at sun-up.
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Figured Day 24 was a good day to BUMP this bad boy and reflect a bit.
I look back at my introduction and I see a lot of the weakness that I've been able to shed with the help of KTC. I remember typing that not really thinking any differently than all the other times I TRIED to quit...which, of course, is another way to say I didn't really want to.
I am BUMPing this because the last few days, March has been hit hard with cavers. I look at the language in my intro and I see the same flimsy, noncommittal bullshit language that I used when I typed my intro with a dip in my mouth and 3 tins in a suitcase that I had for the upcoming trip I "couldn't quit during".
I was weak but my friends at Kill The Can have made me strong. If you're not putting in, you're not getting everything you can out of this site.
Thanks guys. 24 down and 76 to go until I'm in the KTC HOF. Then a lifetime beyond that. But as always, I'll focus on simply not havign a dip today and then we'll deal with tomorrow at sun-up.
Proud to be quit with you brother. Don't let the caves worry you, our quits are strong. March on!
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Figured Day 24 was a good day to BUMP this bad boy and reflect a bit.
I look back at my introduction and I see a lot of the weakness that I've been able to shed with the help of KTC. I remember typing that not really thinking any differently than all the other times I TRIED to quit...which, of course, is another way to say I didn't really want to.
I am BUMPing this because the last few days, March has been hit hard with cavers. I look at the language in my intro and I see the same flimsy, noncommittal bullshit language that I used when I typed my intro with a dip in my mouth and 3 tins in a suitcase that I had for the upcoming trip I "couldn't quit during".
I was weak but my friends at Kill The Can have made me strong. If you're not putting in, you're not getting everything you can out of this site.
Thanks guys. 24 down and 76 to go until I'm in the KTC HOF. Then a lifetime beyond that. But as always, I'll focus on simply not havign a dip today and then we'll deal with tomorrow at sun-up.
Good Stuff Sweetness!
Never again for any reason!
ONE day at a time and your daze will stack up...I PROMISE YOU!
Decide everyday for yourself that NICOTINE is OFF the table for that day!
Close the door every a.m. to that Nic bitch!
Nictoine makes NOTHING better!
I QUIT with YOU today! 'bang head'
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Figured Day 24 was a good day to BUMP this bad boy and reflect a bit.
I look back at my introduction and I see a lot of the weakness that I've been able to shed with the help of KTC. I remember typing that not really thinking any differently than all the other times I TRIED to quit...which, of course, is another way to say I didn't really want to.
I am BUMPing this because the last few days, March has been hit hard with cavers. I look at the language in my intro and I see the same flimsy, noncommittal bullshit language that I used when I typed my intro with a dip in my mouth and 3 tins in a suitcase that I had for the upcoming trip I "couldn't quit during".
I was weak but my friends at Kill The Can have made me strong. If you're not putting in, you're not getting everything you can out of this site.
Thanks guys. 24 down and 76 to go until I'm in the KTC HOF. Then a lifetime beyond that. But as always, I'll focus on simply not havign a dip today and then we'll deal with tomorrow at sun-up.
Good Stuff Sweetness!
Never again for any reason!
ONE day at a time and your daze will stack up...I PROMISE YOU!
Decide everyday for yourself that NICOTINE is OFF the table for that day!
Close the door every a.m. to that Nic bitch!
Nictoine makes NOTHING better!
I QUIT with YOU today! 'bang head'
Great Job Sweetie! Dont sweat the guys that talk tough about quitting for a few days and then disappear. Every group has quite a few of those. They dont really want to quit, they want to talk about quitting. While I would love to say that we can save them all, the truth is we cannot. You must want to quit first and thats when we can help. Your group will close soon, when it does that is it, those are the men/women in your group. Those are the ones that you need to concentrate on and dont accept absence from roll call, BS addict talk, or anything else. Invest yourself in those guys and hold them to their word. See you in the HOF.
MOA
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Figured Day 24 was a good day to BUMP this bad boy and reflect a bit.
I look back at my introduction and I see a lot of the weakness that I've been able to shed with the help of KTC. I remember typing that not really thinking any differently than all the other times I TRIED to quit...which, of course, is another way to say I didn't really want to.
I am BUMPing this because the last few days, March has been hit hard with cavers. I look at the language in my intro and I see the same flimsy, noncommittal bullshit language that I used when I typed my intro with a dip in my mouth and 3 tins in a suitcase that I had for the upcoming trip I "couldn't quit during".
I was weak but my friends at Kill The Can have made me strong. If you're not putting in, you're not getting everything you can out of this site.
Thanks guys. 24 down and 76 to go until I'm in the KTC HOF. Then a lifetime beyond that. But as always, I'll focus on simply not havign a dip today and then we'll deal with tomorrow at sun-up.
Well slap my ass and call me Charlie. You're still quit...FUCK YEAH BRO!!!!! I thought you were one of the pussies who fell through the cracks. Glad I was wrong.
Shits getting real and people in your group are caving. Way to be strong!!! Let those cavers be an inspiration for you and also a lesson.
Keep reading, keep posting roll, get more active on the site, build up a true hatred for nic by educating yourself on how it works. Get to know your enemy inside and out so you can fucking destroy it!!!
You get stuck, hit some rough spots, have some questions, need ANYTHING...turn to us. We will help.
I'm pumped you're still quit. Keep it rolling bro. I can tell you as I approach 200 days its worth it. It just keeps getting better. There are still bumps but they aren't as jagged and rough. The freedom I feel now is unreal. I ain't bullshitting you either. If it still sucked id fucking tell you.
Keep it up.
Diesel
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Figured Day 24 was a good day to BUMP this bad boy and reflect a bit.
I look back at my introduction and I see a lot of the weakness that I've been able to shed with the help of KTC. I remember typing that not really thinking any differently than all the other times I TRIED to quit...which, of course, is another way to say I didn't really want to.
I am BUMPing this because the last few days, March has been hit hard with cavers. I look at the language in my intro and I see the same flimsy, noncommittal bullshit language that I used when I typed my intro with a dip in my mouth and 3 tins in a suitcase that I had for the upcoming trip I "couldn't quit during".
I was weak but my friends at Kill The Can have made me strong. If you're not putting in, you're not getting everything you can out of this site.
Thanks guys. 24 down and 76 to go until I'm in the KTC HOF. Then a lifetime beyond that. But as always, I'll focus on simply not havign a dip today and then we'll deal with tomorrow at sun-up.
Well slap my ass and call me Charlie. You're still quit...FUCK YEAH BRO!!!!! I thought you were one of the pussies who fell through the cracks. Glad I was wrong.
Shits getting real and people in your group are caving. Way to be strong!!! Let those cavers be an inspiration for you and also a lesson.
Keep reading, keep posting roll, get more active on the site, build up a true hatred for nic by educating yourself on how it works. Get to know your enemy inside and out so you can fucking destroy it!!!
You get stuck, hit some rough spots, have some questions, need ANYTHING...turn to us. We will help.
I'm pumped you're still quit. Keep it rolling bro. I can tell you as I approach 200 days its worth it. It just keeps getting better. There are still bumps but they aren't as jagged and rough. The freedom I feel now is unreal. I ain't bullshitting you either. If it still sucked id fucking tell you.
Keep it up.
Diesel
Great recovery Sweetness in that last line of the statement " I'll focus on simply not havign a dip today and then we'll deal with tomorrow at sun-up. "
Never look too far ahead. Remember do not think of quitting forever cause guess what, you ain't gonna live that long and neither will I.
I quit with you today and I will give you my word when I wake in the morning.
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October:
I am not new here - I was part of the March Mad Men and was 188 days quit before caving. I posted this in my old group but you should see it too to find out more about me and my cave:
What happened: I had a friend from college visiting, one I hadn't seen in years. He and I went out drinking and he brought a tin wiht him. I had told him all about KTC, how quit I was, how I'd gotten to 6 months without and I didn't want it. He asked again around 2am as we were sitting on my balcony and I figured "ehh, what's 1 gonna do? I've been quit for 6 months." I woke up the next morning fully ashamed and dreaded the thought of having to post day 1 and start over and take this beating. I knew I would never lie and continue posting the same quit number as if nothing had happened - but I didn't know what to do. So I left. Of course "may as well finish the tin he left"..."may as well just dip not that I broke my quit"...I was hooked again like I had never been quit. So what happened? I was weak. Didn't protect my quit. Chose to dip and risk cancer. Then I was a pussy and just kept going because it was easier than explaining myself.
Why did it happen: I started to peter off from KTC. stopped really contributing. My quit went to autopilot and I didn't take it seriously. I believed "one won't kill you" and let the nic bitch in. I took my quit and KTC for granted and chose to be an asshole who would rather have cancer.
What will be different this time: I will be the member I was at the beginning - offering my phone number. checking in on newbies. Not just a visitor but a member here. I also understand something I had dreaded to admit - this urge never goes away. This addiction doesn't stop. I had had no problem walking into 7-11 and seeing dip. i thought I was "cured". But I always looked at it. I always noticed it was there. Saw what new flavors there were. I wasn't cured - there is no cure. I'm always going to be addicted - I choose to be addicted to being quit now. And I realize there will never be "just one more".
I'm very happy to be quit with you all -- I'm pissed at myself for my cave and letting the group down but I did that to myself. Please PM me numbers and I will return with mine.
This place absolutely works - you will be quit if you stay. Don't make my mistake and don't allow yourself to let your quit become a casual afterthought.
Proud to be quit with you all.
Complancency sucks. As OIB said, one moment of it is the difference between being a user and a quitter.
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October:
I am not new here - I was part of the March Mad Men and was 188 days quit before caving. I posted this in my old group but you should see it too to find out more about me and my cave:
What happened: I had a friend from college visiting, one I hadn't seen in years. He and I went out drinking and he brought a tin wiht him. I had told him all about KTC, how quit I was, how I'd gotten to 6 months without and I didn't want it. He asked again around 2am as we were sitting on my balcony and I figured "ehh, what's 1 gonna do? I've been quit for 6 months." I woke up the next morning fully ashamed and dreaded the thought of having to post day 1 and start over and take this beating. I knew I would never lie and continue posting the same quit number as if nothing had happened - but I didn't know what to do. So I left. Of course "may as well finish the tin he left"..."may as well just dip not that I broke my quit"...I was hooked again like I had never been quit. So what happened? I was weak. Didn't protect my quit. Chose to dip and risk cancer. Then I was a pussy and just kept going because it was easier than explaining myself.
Why did it happen: I started to peter off from KTC. stopped really contributing. My quit went to autopilot and I didn't take it seriously. I believed "one won't kill you" and let the nic bitch in. I took my quit and KTC for granted and chose to be an asshole who would rather have cancer.
What will be different this time: I will be the member I was at the beginning - offering my phone number. checking in on newbies. Not just a visitor but a member here. I also understand something I had dreaded to admit - this urge never goes away. This addiction doesn't stop. I had had no problem walking into 7-11 and seeing dip. i thought I was "cured". But I always looked at it. I always noticed it was there. Saw what new flavors there were. I wasn't cured - there is no cure. I'm always going to be addicted - I choose to be addicted to being quit now. And I realize there will never be "just one more".
I'm very happy to be quit with you all -- I'm pissed at myself for my cave and letting the group down but I did that to myself. Please PM me numbers and I will return with mine.
This place absolutely works - you will be quit if you stay. Don't make my mistake and don't allow yourself to let your quit become a casual afterthought.
Proud to be quit with you all.
Complancency sucks. As OIB said, one moment of it is the difference between being a user and a quitter.
I had to take that quote and put in on my signature thanks EVIL and OIB. I think that statement alone is what happens when caves happen. Dust yourself off Sweetness and get your quit on.
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I am jumping on that Quote fan wagon too! Smart statement. I know that was true for me when I caved after 3yrs of being stopped. I became complacent and comfortable, arrogant, cocky. I hope you all don;t mind if I add that to my signature as well.
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Figured Day 24 was a good day to BUMP this bad boy and reflect a bit.
I look back at my introduction and I see a lot of the weakness that I've been able to shed with the help of KTC. I remember typing that not really thinking any differently than all the other times I TRIED to quit...which, of course, is another way to say I didn't really want to.
I am BUMPing this because the last few days, March has been hit hard with cavers. I look at the language in my intro and I see the same flimsy, noncommittal bullshit language that I used when I typed my intro with a dip in my mouth and 3 tins in a suitcase that I had for the upcoming trip I "couldn't quit during".
I was weak but my friends at Kill The Can have made me strong. If you're not putting in, you're not getting everything you can out of this site.
Thanks guys. 24 down and 76 to go until I'm in the KTC HOF. Then a lifetime beyond that. But as always, I'll focus on simply not havign a dip today and then we'll deal with tomorrow at sun-up.
I figured I would bump this up for you.....Wasnt hard to find since it was still on your first page.....That's a Problem.......Use your Intro to make sure you never forget where you came from!!
Next time your buddy offers a can to you, do what Syndrome preaches....
1. Accept the tin Graciously.
2. Open the lid and Smile.
3. Commence Dumping it out on the ground.
4. Take foot and grind the poison into the ground.
5. (Optional...) Pull out Penis and piss on poison for good measure or effect.
No more problem...... :)