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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: gorilla1 on October 25, 2012, 04:35:00 PM
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Alright guys I'm pushing along through and am now at Day 9, thanks to the help I'm getting here. Posting RC really does help :) My cynicism kept me away from this site for a while after I found it, but now I seem to be here quite a bit. Looking shit up, reading and trying to find some direction.
So far its been okay and the physical hasn't held me in a state of constant torment like it has many times before, but the mental game won't quit. It's very subtle and quiet and kinda nice whispering to me about having just one. Especially now when I'm trying to write and get some creative stuff done. It keeps telling me that this is the time that I need it and to just have one. I've been chewing licorice root all day and have it wadded up in my gums just sucking on it.
I don't wanna cave and am here to introduce myself. I'm Tony and I'm quit today.
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Fuck yea tony. Keep your quit strong and your licorice root close. Don't get comfortable. The bitch alternates physicality with mind games in an effort to break you down completely. Buckle down and bring your A-game.
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Good shit right there. Welcome brother.
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Hey Gorilla,
Way to go man. I'm in your quit group. PM me if you need anything. You're doing awesome.
Eastmarion
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I read your post today and it reminded me of a post that Scowick65 who has been quit for 600+ days wrote. It makes sense to what you are going thru. Sorry for stealin it Sco but I didnt know how else to get it in a post for him to read.
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Diffusing the Nic BitchÂ’s narrative
You will likely hear whispers from the Nic Bitch. The Nic Bitch is ONLY effective if you do not understand HER. Knowledge crushes HER.
Realize the whispers in your head are not “you”. It is your addiction speaking - the nic bitch. She will disguise herself as “you” because she understands “you” are the decision maker, not her. The only way she gets her hit of nicotine is if she can convince “you”, it is a great idea to plan, obtain, and ingest nicotine. She has no choices available to her.
ONLY YOU HAVE THE POWER OF CHOICE.
The nic bitch must fool you to get nicotine. Therefore, she is cunning. Her whispers will sound like “you”. She will create the illusion that it is your voice speaking. She will exploit. She knows your weaknesses. So, think about your weaknesses and recognize them. She knows if you like to celebrate with nic, drink with nic, drive, mow, relieve stress…whatever. In summary, she is an addiction cloaked as a person.
Next time she whispers, you will understand it is the nic bitch and not you that came up with whatever hair-brained scheme that just floated through your mind. Some stupid internal conversation. Talk back to her and diffuse her narrative. “Yea, bitch, I just heard you. I know it is you and not me that wants nicotine today. I made a promise not to use nicotine today, so fuck you.” Then punch her in the face.
Me, I like to laugh at her. Ridicule is a very effective weapon.
This post has been edited by Scowick65 on Oct 17, 2012, 3:27 pm
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I read your post today and it reminded me of a post that Scowick65 who has been quit for 600+ days wrote. It makes sense to what you are going thru. Sorry for stealin it Sco but I didnt know how else to get it in a post for him to read.
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Diffusing the Nic BitchÂ’s narrative
You will likely hear whispers from the Nic Bitch. The Nic Bitch is ONLY effective if you do not understand HER. Knowledge crushes HER.
Realize the whispers in your head are not “you”. It is your addiction speaking - the nic bitch. She will disguise herself as “you” because she understands “you” are the decision maker, not her. The only way she gets her hit of nicotine is if she can convince “you”, it is a great idea to plan, obtain, and ingest nicotine. She has no choices available to her.
ONLY YOU HAVE THE POWER OF CHOICE.
The nic bitch must fool you to get nicotine. Therefore, she is cunning. Her whispers will sound like “you”. She will create the illusion that it is your voice speaking. She will exploit. She knows your weaknesses. So, think about your weaknesses and recognize them. She knows if you like to celebrate with nic, drink with nic, drive, mow, relieve stress…whatever. In summary, she is an addiction cloaked as a person.
Next time she whispers, you will understand it is the nic bitch and not you that came up with whatever hair-brained scheme that just floated through your mind. Some stupid internal conversation. Talk back to her and diffuse her narrative. “Yea, bitch, I just heard you. I know it is you and not me that wants nicotine today. I made a promise not to use nicotine today, so fuck you.” Then punch her in the face.
Me, I like to laugh at her. Ridicule is a very effective weapon.
This post has been edited by Scowick65 on Oct 17, 2012, 3:27 pm
She is full of lies. As you hone your quit skills she becomes weak. Focus on 1 day at a time.
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Last October I was able to quit dipping one day at a time through the help of this site. I was lazy at best about posting roll call and getting in touch with people. I fell off the site after about 2 months. Life was better. I didn't have any more cravings. I was feeling healthy again. I could taste! Anyway, I stayed on through the winter dip free even while working with some dudes who were getting after it pretty heavy. A friend of mine came to visit in February and I smoked a bit of a cigarette with him. Nothing happened. I didn't really think about it, but soon after I started getting the idea that I wanted to have a dip. Just peripheral thoughts; little bugs in my ear. Somehow that shit took hold and started to grow and I was having some serious mental bouts with the obsession to dip again. I started a small business during this time and took on some great new clients. I realized that one of the property managers I was working for had a dip in and I asked him what he was gnawing on. He was surprised at me calling him out, but then I knew that if i wanted one that's where I could go. It was only a matter of time. I finally asked him for a dip. And of course I told myself that I could stick to just one. That if I just bummed one off of him that I'd be okay. Well the one day turned into two and two into three and now I'm back in the fold of fucking dipping daily! Snuck up on me. I've continued to be that annoying dude to ask for a dip and so my pride has kept me from having more than one a day, but the truth is that shit has got me again. I'm just as addicted as ever and still have that peculiar mental twist that tells me I can have just one. I've fallen victim to this bullshit way of thinking many times before. So here I am starting over again. I was lucky enough to have a dudes number in my phone from doing this thing before and I texted and asked for help. He told me to get back on KTC, post roll, and answer some questions here. I don't want to live a slave to the can and cut short this awesome life I've been given. So I'm looking for help fellas. Thanks. Tony Bedell aka Gorilla1
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One is too many, a thousand aren't enough.
What happened?
Why did it happen?
What are you going to do different?
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You didn't learn DICK last time, at least you didn't follow through on any of it. Why should we believe this time will be different?
You gonna grow a set of balls or what?
If not, there's a bad ass marine who found a "better" site where they'd suckle your nards when you cave.
Perhaps you would be better off there?
Seriously dude. Man the fuck up.
I don't care if Snyder from "One day at a Time" is dipping. That's the weakest excuse I ever heard.
Your "pride" has kept you from having more than one a day?
No dude. You're pride done gone flew out the window the minute you went lone wolf and ended up puffing on that lung dart. The second you put your lips around that heater you opened the door for the nic bitch and she walked right in.
Her stank ass has owned your nuts ever since.
You were smart enough to come crawling back to get your sack back but will you be smart enough to actually do it this time?
Only time will tell. But you certainly don't deserve the benefit of the doubt.
Post up let's see if you cant get your scrotum back. Nothing pains me more then seeing a eunuch roaming the halls of ktc.
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Quitting nicotine is the hardest thing I've ever done and it has been made easy by doing it the KTC way. (1 day at a time). I'm not strong enough to battle the bitch alone. My 1 year anniversary of HOF is just a few days away and I'm still a at-risk-addict. I don't know if I'll ever be able to rely on my promise to myself. That doesn't matter now because I quit 1 day at a time with my promise to my July 2012 family! Your recognition that you were a half assed poster is good as long as you commit to changing that. You need to commit to your new group to post 100% at least to HOF and better yet 1 year. Get lots of #'s and get to know other quitters that are on a similar time frame as you. You can do this if you want it bad enough and like diesel said let those balls grow. You have my number don't be afraid to use it. This stupid addict knows all the excuses and stupid reasons to cave. The difference now for me is I'm beginning to recognize how foolish I was for 40+ years and I'm laughing at the occasional whispers of my addicted mind. Get with it and earn our respect and support.
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Last October I was able to quit dipping one day at a time through the help of this site. I was lazy at best about posting roll call and getting in touch with people. I fell off the site after about 2 months. Life was better. I didn't have any more cravings. I was feeling healthy again. I could taste! Anyway, I stayed on through the winter dip free even while working with some dudes who were getting after it pretty heavy. A friend of mine came to visit in February and I smoked a bit of a cigarette with him. Nothing happened. I didn't really think about it, but soon after I started getting the idea that I wanted to have a dip. Just peripheral thoughts; little bugs in my ear. Somehow that shit took hold and started to grow and I was having some serious mental bouts with the obsession to dip again. I started a small business during this time and took on some great new clients. I realized that one of the property managers I was working for had a dip in and I asked him what he was gnawing on. He was surprised at me calling him out, but then I knew that if i wanted one that's where I could go. It was only a matter of time. I finally asked him for a dip. And of course I told myself that I could stick to just one. That if I just bummed one off of him that I'd be okay. Well the one day turned into two and two into three and now I'm back in the fold of fucking dipping daily! Snuck up on me. I've continued to be that annoying dude to ask for a dip and so my pride has kept me from having more than one a day, but the truth is that shit has got me again. I'm just as addicted as ever and still have that peculiar mental twist that tells me I can have just one. I've fallen victim to this bullshit way of thinking many times before. So here I am starting over again. I was lucky enough to have a dudes number in my phone from doing this thing before and I texted and asked for help. He told me to get back on KTC, post roll, and answer some questions here. I don't want to live a slave to the can and cut short this awesome life I've been given. So I'm looking for help fellas. Thanks. Tony Bedell aka Gorilla1
Gorilla - I say this with the upmost support and goodwill: The first half of your post is dripping with ignorance and justification; I can give specific examples if you're too blind to see it. Repeat after me: "I, gorilla1, never quit. My so called pride is truly cowardice. I know jack shit about how to quit and I am willing to engage in this community by offering support and actively listening to the advice of others. I will seek out wisdom by investing time reading the words of wisdom and older quit groups. I, gorilla1, haven't learned a fucking thing. But, I'm ready."
good luck sailor.
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Last October I was able to quit dipping one day at a time through the help of this site. I was lazy at best about posting roll call and getting in touch with people. I fell off the site after about 2 months. Life was better. I didn't have any more cravings. I was feeling healthy again. I could taste! Anyway, I stayed on through the winter dip free even while working with some dudes who were getting after it pretty heavy. A friend of mine came to visit in February and I smoked a bit of a cigarette with him. Nothing happened. I didn't really think about it, but soon after I started getting the idea that I wanted to have a dip. Just peripheral thoughts; little bugs in my ear. Somehow that shit took hold and started to grow and I was having some serious mental bouts with the obsession to dip again. I started a small business during this time and took on some great new clients. I realized that one of the property managers I was working for had a dip in and I asked him what he was gnawing on. He was surprised at me calling him out, but then I knew that if i wanted one that's where I could go. It was only a matter of time. I finally asked him for a dip. And of course I told myself that I could stick to just one. That if I just bummed one off of him that I'd be okay. Well the one day turned into two and two into three and now I'm back in the fold of fucking dipping daily! Snuck up on me. I've continued to be that annoying dude to ask for a dip and so my pride has kept me from having more than one a day, but the truth is that shit has got me again. I'm just as addicted as ever and still have that peculiar mental twist that tells me I can have just one. I've fallen victim to this bullshit way of thinking many times before. So here I am starting over again. I was lucky enough to have a dudes number in my phone from doing this thing before and I texted and asked for help. He told me to get back on KTC, post roll, and answer some questions here. I don't want to live a slave to the can and cut short this awesome life I've been given. So I'm looking for help fellas. Thanks. Tony Bedell aka Gorilla1
Gorilla - I say this with the upmost support and goodwill: The first half of your post is dripping with ignorance and justification; I can give specific examples if you're too blind to see it. Repeat after me: "I, gorilla1, never quit. My so called pride is truly cowardice. I know jack shit about how to quit and I am willing to engage in this community by offering support and actively listening to the advice of others. I will seek out wisdom by investing time reading the words of wisdom and older quit groups. I, gorilla1, haven't learned a fucking thing. But, I'm ready."
good luck sailor.
Luck?
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Smokeys right I never quit before. I'm quit now.
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Smokeys right I never quit before. I'm quit now.
Freedom brother. Smell it. Taste it. This freedoms going to cost you a little, but it is so worth it. One day at a time my friend. I'll quit with you today,, I got nothin better to do.
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Smokeys right I never quit before. I'm quit now.
Freedom brother. Smell it. Taste it. This freedoms going to cost you a little, but it is so worth it. One day at a time my friend. I'll quit with you today,, I got nothin better to do.
READREAD (http://www.killthecan.org/robs/law.asp)
Do you really like poison? Come on, you know better.
It would help if you learn to see what nictoine really is...POISON.
Til then, you and everyone else will continue to 'romanticize' the poison.
Wanna dance with the ugly cancer causing whore again? take off the blinders dude. 'Crazy'
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What happened?
Why did it happen?
What are you going to do different?
Explain yourself and post it in Oct 13 and Jan 13 who you turned your back on!
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You need a serious check up from the neck up.
Quitting is not a spectator sport. Participation IS required!
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Last October I was able to quit dipping one day at a time through the help of this site. I was lazy at best about posting roll call and getting in touch with people. I fell off the site after about 2 months. Life was better. I didn't have any more cravings. I was feeling healthy again. I could taste! Anyway, I stayed on through the winter dip free even while working with some dudes who were getting after it pretty heavy. A friend of mine came to visit in February and I smoked a bit of a cigarette with him. Nothing happened. I didn't really think about it, but soon after I started getting the idea that I wanted to have a dip. Just peripheral thoughts; little bugs in my ear. Somehow that shit took hold and started to grow and I was having some serious mental bouts with the obsession to dip again. I started a small business during this time and took on some great new clients. I realized that one of the property managers I was working for had a dip in and I asked him what he was gnawing on. He was surprised at me calling him out, but then I knew that if i wanted one that's where I could go. It was only a matter of time. I finally asked him for a dip. And of course I told myself that I could stick to just one. That if I just bummed one off of him that I'd be okay. Well the one day turned into two and two into three and now I'm back in the fold of fucking dipping daily! Snuck up on me. I've continued to be that annoying dude to ask for a dip and so my pride has kept me from having more than one a day, but the truth is that shit has got me again. I'm just as addicted as ever and still have that peculiar mental twist that tells me I can have just one. I've fallen victim to this bullshit way of thinking many times before. So here I am starting over again. I was lucky enough to have a dudes number in my phone from doing this thing before and I texted and asked for help. He told me to get back on KTC, post roll, and answer some questions here. I don't want to live a slave to the can and cut short this awesome life I've been given. So I'm looking for help fellas. Thanks. Tony Bedell aka Gorilla1
Gorilla - I say this with the upmost support and goodwill: The first half of your post is dripping with ignorance and justification; I can give specific examples if you're too blind to see it. Repeat after me: "I, gorilla1, never quit. My so called pride is truly cowardice. I know jack shit about how to quit and I am willing to engage in this community by offering support and actively listening to the advice of others. I will seek out wisdom by investing time reading the words of wisdom and older quit groups. I, gorilla1, haven't learned a fucking thing. But, I'm ready."
good luck sailor.
Luck?
Irony?
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There comes a time in a mans life there Gorilla where you need to look yourself in that proverbial mirror.
You have just enlisted into the Oct13 group, the first one there, the one who will be there the 'longest' when compared to the rest of the group.
Now is the time for you to look and understand what you need to do to be quit. Be honest with yourself and get to those 3 educated questions. Then follow the path that we have before you as you will be looked upon as one of the leaders of that Oct13 group so you need to be as strong as you can be for yourself and for them (and smart to at times).
Alot of people are looking over your shoulder to see your next steps. Let them be wise and ones you would want others to follow.
:ph43r: from Oct12
SirDerek and the rest of the madmen
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Gorilla,
I merged your old intro thread with this one. When you first starting posting it was with Jan 2013 (Jackwagins), the group I'm in. There are still about 30 of us that post every day. Why don't you do some soul seaching and answer the three questions from the heart this time, and please also post your answers HERE (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=7170).
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What happened?
Why did it happen?
What are you going to do different?
Explain yourself and post it in Oct 13 and Jan 13 who you turned your back on!
I lost touch with this site. I stopped posting roll call and stopped reaching out to some folks who were good enough to lend me their support. I thought I had it licked. I thought I could roll on my own. And frankly I didn't care for some of things I read here. I judged some of you. It was bullshit lies to keep me separate and different and special. I'm not. I'm sorry for that and the truth is that folks here know how to STAY quit and I don't. I believed the lie. The lie that I was different. The lie that I could have just one. The lie that I had control over what I was doing. I lost control over that shit a long time ago and it's never coming back. Even before I took that first dip this last time I had lost control. I gave it up. I didn't own my quit and wasn't serious about it. That's why I'm back. I'm serious about quitting. I will read and listen and stay quit from that black dog shit that wants me dead. I'm asking for numbers and getting in touch with a few dudes already. As for my Jan13 Jackwaggins, I"m sorry I deserted you all and let you down. For all those coming after in Oct13 I won't do that again. Quit.
I lost touch with this site. I stopped posting roll call and stopped reaching out to some folks who were good enough to lend me their support. I thought I had it licked. I thought I could roll on my own. And frankly I didn't care for some of things I read here. I judged some of you. It was bullshit lies to keep me separate and different and special. I'm not. I'm sorry for that and the truth is that folks here know how to STAY quit and I don't. I believed the lie. The lie that I was different. The lie that I could have just one. The lie that I had control over what I was doing. I lost control over that shit a long time ago and it's never coming back. Even before I took that first dip this last time I had lost control. I gave it up. I didn't own my quit and wasn't serious about it. That's why I'm back. I'm serious about quitting. I will read and listen and stay quit from that black dog shit that wants me dead. I'm asking for numbers and getting in touch with a few dudes already. As for my Jan13 Jackwaggins, I"m sorry I deserted you all and let you down. For all those coming after in Oct13 I won't do that again. Quit.
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What happened?
Why did it happen?
What are you going to do different?
Explain yourself and post it in Oct 13 and Jan 13 who you turned your back on!
I lost touch with this site. I stopped posting roll call and stopped reaching out to some folks who were good enough to lend me their support. I thought I had it licked. I thought I could roll on my own. And frankly I didn't care for some of things I read here. I judged some of you. It was bullshit lies to keep me separate and different and special. I'm not. I'm sorry for that and the truth is that folks here know how to STAY quit and I don't. I believed the lie. The lie that I was different. The lie that I could have just one. The lie that I had control over what I was doing. I lost control over that shit a long time ago and it's never coming back. Even before I took that first dip this last time I had lost control. I gave it up. I didn't own my quit and wasn't serious about it. That's why I'm back. I'm serious about quitting. I will read and listen and stay quit from that black dog shit that wants me dead. I'm asking for numbers and getting in touch with a few dudes already. As for my Jan13 Jackwaggins, I"m sorry I deserted you all and let you down. For all those coming after in Oct13 I won't do that again. Quit.
I lost touch with this site. I stopped posting roll call and stopped reaching out to some folks who were good enough to lend me their support. I thought I had it licked. I thought I could roll on my own. And frankly I didn't care for some of things I read here. I judged some of you. It was bullshit lies to keep me separate and different and special. I'm not. I'm sorry for that and the truth is that folks here know how to STAY quit and I don't. I believed the lie. The lie that I was different. The lie that I could have just one. The lie that I had control over what I was doing. I lost control over that shit a long time ago and it's never coming back. Even before I took that first dip this last time I had lost control. I gave it up. I didn't own my quit and wasn't serious about it. That's why I'm back. I'm serious about quitting. I will read and listen and stay quit from that black dog shit that wants me dead. I'm asking for numbers and getting in touch with a few dudes already. As for my Jan13 Jackwaggins, I"m sorry I deserted you all and let you down. For all those coming after in Oct13 I won't do that again. Quit.
Your beginning to sound like a quitter if you truly mean everything you say. A lot of us can be real dicks but usually it's because we care more about a cavers quit than they do. Why? I'm not sure our reasons are the same. For me having someone cave made me feel vulnerable for a long time. Now I want to kick some ass because I know that if you truly want to quit and are committed you can quit, just look at me one of the biggest pussy addicts out there. I never could quit before because deep down 'I didn't really want to quit' unless it was painless. Make posting roll a #1 priority, do it EARLY and put the same effort forth that you did to always have a can.
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Thanks wt. Posted roll today. Early as you suggested. I am committed and quit today.
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Feeling like I'm bobbing around on the open sea right now without a lot of direction. I feel kinda lost. The physical shit is gone and I'm no longer in the fog, but my mind won't stop chewing on me. Damn. I'm quit and I'm resolved to stay that way for today...
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Feeling like I'm bobbing around on the open sea right now without a lot of direction. I feel kinda lost. The physical shit is gone and I'm no longer in the fog, but my mind won't stop chewing on me. Damn. I'm quit and I'm resolved to stay that way for today...
Good job gorilla. Your darn right, your bobbing in the sea. You jumped in the ocean of quit. Lot of us are swimming with you. It's a lot better than being on land in Canville. I was tired of the rules there. Costed me 1000,s and never gave me anything but high blood pressure.
I like where I'm at right now. My blood pressure is down. I can go to the store and buy 5 bucks of whatever i want. I like bobbing up and down with my freedom and integrity. Let's keep swimming bro. The water is nice.
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Feeling like I'm bobbing around on the open sea right now without a lot of direction. I feel kinda lost. The physical shit is gone and I'm no longer in the fog, but my mind won't stop chewing on me. Damn. I'm quit and I'm resolved to stay that way for today...
Good job gorilla. Your darn right, your bobbing in the sea. You jumped in the ocean of quit. Lot of us are swimming with you. It's a lot better than being on land in Canville. I was tired of the rules there. Costed me 1000,s and never gave me anything but high blood pressure.
I like where I'm at right now. My blood pressure is down. I can go to the store and buy 5 bucks of whatever i want. I like bobbing up and down with my freedom and integrity. Let's keep swimming bro. The water is nice.
I am only on day 11 of quit, but it seems to me that as long as you can step back from your brain and recognize that it is playing games, as you have, it is easier. I get a perverse kind of joy from watching my "chew brain" try to attack my resolve. It is empowering to hear the caged killer pleading to get out but seeing what it is doing and leaving it in there to wither and die.
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Gorilla1,
NOT SO FAST
What happened?
Why did it happen?
What are you going to do different?
Sorry dude cost of admission you don't get to bump and run.
You have splaining to do before this gets any better for you. You have obviously tried it your way several times and has not worked. I am glad you want to stop but do you want to quit? NO MORE STOPS sack up.
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Gorilla1,
NOT SO FAST
What happened?
Why did it happen?
What are you going to do different?
Sorry dude cost of admission you don't get to bump and run.
You have splaining to do before this gets any better for you. You have obviously tried it your way several times and has not worked. I am glad you want to stop but do you want to quit? NO MORE STOPS sack up.
Serial caving going on - exactly how many times does it take??
Jan 13
Oct 13
you gonna give it another 'try' this time or put on your big boy pants and frickin drink the Kool-Aid.
Post roll every damn day and own this shit or GTFO
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Gorilla1,
NOT SO FAST
What happened?
Why did it happen?
What are you going to do different?
Sorry dude cost of admission you don't get to bump and run.
You have splaining to do before this gets any better for you. You have obviously tried it your way several times and has not worked. I am glad you want to stop but do you want to quit? NO MORE STOPS sack up.
Serial caving going on - exactly how many times does it take??
Jan 13
Oct 13
you gonna give it another 'try' this time or put on your big boy pants and frickin drink the Kool-Aid.
Post roll every damn day and own this shit or GTFO
It looks to me like you actually logged in oct 2012 for the first time. Man,, you don't want to quit. Stop wasting cyber space.
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Gorilla1,
NOT SO FAST
What happened?
Why did it happen?
What are you going to do different?
Sorry dude cost of admission you don't get to bump and run.
You have splaining to do before this gets any better for you. You have obviously tried it your way several times and has not worked. I am glad you want to stop but do you want to quit? NO MORE STOPS sack up.
Serial caving going on - exactly how many times does it take??
Jan 13
Oct 13
you gonna give it another 'try' this time or put on your big boy pants and frickin drink the Kool-Aid.
Post roll every damn day and own this shit or GTFO
It looks to me like you actually logged in oct 2012 for the first time. Man,, you don't want to quit. Stop wasting cyber space.
'Popcorn'
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Gorilla1,
NOT SO FAST
What happened?
Why did it happen?
What are you going to do different?
Sorry dude cost of admission you don't get to bump and run.
You have splaining to do before this gets any better for you. You have obviously tried it your way several times and has not worked. I am glad you want to stop but do you want to quit? NO MORE STOPS sack up.
Serial caving going on - exactly how many times does it take??
Jan 13
Oct 13
you gonna give it another 'try' this time or put on your big boy pants and frickin drink the Kool-Aid.
Post roll every damn day and own this shit or GTFO
It looks to me like you actually logged in oct 2012 for the first time. Man,, you don't want to quit. Stop wasting cyber space.
'Popcorn'
Great job posting day 2. Still want to know why we had a day 1 yesterday. 'Popcorn'
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Gorilla1,
NOT SO FAST
What happened?
Why did it happen?
What are you going to do different?
Sorry dude cost of admission you don't get to bump and run.
You have splaining to do before this gets any better for you. You have obviously tried it your way several times and has not worked. I am glad you want to stop but do you want to quit? NO MORE STOPS sack up.
Serial caving going on - exactly how many times does it take??
Jan 13
Oct 13
you gonna give it another 'try' this time or put on your big boy pants and frickin drink the Kool-Aid.
Post roll every damn day and own this shit or GTFO
It looks to me like you actually logged in oct 2012 for the first time. Man,, you don't want to quit. Stop wasting cyber space.
'Popcorn'
Great job posting day 2. Still want to know why we had a day 1 yesterday. 'Popcorn'
'Popcorn' This dude is either a special butterfly or simply hasn't spent enough time on the site to read anything...
Answering the questions is really meant for you to think through why you have failed in the past. What are you going to do differently? So far you are doing the same things that led to caves, hardly a ringing endorsement that you really want to quit...
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Gorilla1,
NOT SO FAST
What happened?
Why did it happen?
What are you going to do different?
Sorry dude cost of admission you don't get to bump and run.
You have splaining to do before this gets any better for you. You have obviously tried it your way several times and has not worked. I am glad you want to stop but do you want to quit? NO MORE STOPS sack up.
Serial caving going on - exactly how many times does it take??
Jan 13
Oct 13
you gonna give it another 'try' this time or put on your big boy pants and frickin drink the Kool-Aid.
Post roll every damn day and own this shit or GTFO
It looks to me like you actually logged in oct 2012 for the first time. Man,, you don't want to quit. Stop wasting cyber space.
'Popcorn'
Great job posting day 2. Still want to know why we had a day 1 yesterday. 'Popcorn'
'Popcorn' This dude is either a special butterfly or simply hasn't spent enough time on the site to read anything...
Answering the questions is really meant for you to think through why you have failed in the past. What are you going to do differently? So far you are doing the same things that led to caves, hardly a ringing endorsement that you really want to quit...
bump...again. Either you are avoiding these questions or you spend so little time on this site that you don't know these questions exist. It might explain your success rate.
'Popcorn'
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Gorilla1,
NOT SO FAST
What happened?
Why did it happen?
What are you going to do different?
Sorry dude cost of admission you don't get to bump and run.
You have splaining to do before this gets any better for you. You have obviously tried it your way several times and has not worked. I am glad you want to stop but do you want to quit? NO MORE STOPS sack up.
Serial caving going on - exactly how many times does it take??
Jan 13
Oct 13
you gonna give it another 'try' this time or put on your big boy pants and frickin drink the Kool-Aid.
Post roll every damn day and own this shit or GTFO
It looks to me like you actually logged in oct 2012 for the first time. Man,, you don't want to quit. Stop wasting cyber space.
'Popcorn'
Great job posting day 2. Still want to know why we had a day 1 yesterday. 'Popcorn'
'Popcorn' This dude is either a special butterfly or simply hasn't spent enough time on the site to read anything...
Answering the questions is really meant for you to think through why you have failed in the past. What are you going to do differently? So far you are doing the same things that led to caves, hardly a ringing endorsement that you really want to quit...
bump...again. Either you are avoiding these questions or you spend so little time on this site that you don't know these questions exist. It might explain your success rate.
'Popcorn'
Vegas is currently taking no action on Gheyrilla. The over - under is 36.5 days. 'Popcorn'
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Gorilla1,
NOT SO FAST
What happened?
Why did it happen?
What are you going to do different?
Sorry dude cost of admission you don't get to bump and run.
You have splaining to do before this gets any better for you. You have obviously tried it your way several times and has not worked. I am glad you want to stop but do you want to quit? NO MORE STOPS sack up.
Serial caving going on - exactly how many times does it take??
Jan 13
Oct 13
you gonna give it another 'try' this time or put on your big boy pants and frickin drink the Kool-Aid.
Post roll every damn day and own this shit or GTFO
It looks to me like you actually logged in oct 2012 for the first time. Man,, you don't want to quit. Stop wasting cyber space.
'Popcorn'
Great job posting day 2. Still want to know why we had a day 1 yesterday. 'Popcorn'
'Popcorn' This dude is either a special butterfly or simply hasn't spent enough time on the site to read anything...
Answering the questions is really meant for you to think through why you have failed in the past. What are you going to do differently? So far you are doing the same things that led to caves, hardly a ringing endorsement that you really want to quit...
bump...again. Either you are avoiding these questions or you spend so little time on this site that you don't know these questions exist. It might explain your success rate.
'Popcorn'
Vegas is currently taking no action on Gheyrilla. The over - under is 36.5 days. 'Popcorn'
I will keep bumping until this shit is resolved. November 2013, you ok with this? 'finger point'
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Listen, the reason I caved is because I"m a fucking addict. When I put that shit in my body I have a physical compulsion to keep adding more. That's quite simple with addictive substances and if it were the only component of my illness than the simple answer would be to just not dip. Put it down, sweat it out and then never take another. I also have a mental obsession with the shit that continues to last longer than the period of physical addiction which, even when totally free from the chemical clutches of nicotine, calls my name like a siren. And I pick it up again based on a lie that I can handle it, that it will be different this time.
There ya go, that's what happens to me every fucking time.
I've been in some communication with some guys from this site and they've been very helpful and supportive. I'll stick with them. So if you've got some pearls of wisdom about being a pussy or taking up space here or some other pathological projection for me please can it and save it for another guy.
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Listen, the reason I caved is because I"m a fucking addict.
No credit for partially correct answers.
You caved because you chose not to post roll that day
OR
You caved because you posted roll and chose to make your promises worthless
AND/OR
You caved because you failed to reach out to your fellow quitters for help in times of weakness.
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Listen, the reason I caved is because I"m a fucking addict. When I put that shit in my body I have a physical compulsion to keep adding more. That's quite simple with addictive substances and if it were the only component of my illness than the simple answer would be to just not dip. Put it down, sweat it out and then never take another. I also have a mental obsession with the shit that continues to last longer than the period of physical addiction which, even when totally free from the chemical clutches of nicotine, calls my name like a siren. And I pick it up again based on a lie that I can handle it, that it will be different this time.
There ya go, that's what happens to me every fucking time.
I've been in some communication with some guys from this site and they've been very helpful and supportive. I'll stick with them. So if you've got some pearls of wisdom about being a pussy or taking up space here or some other pathological projection for me please can it and save it for another guy.
You know, I don't usually post in on this type of thing but brother just quit. Look at the pictures on this site and read the materials here about those who battle cancer and have battled cancer. That should get your mind right real quick. If it doesn't then perhaps you need further help. We all at some point have gone through this and we all think or have thought we are special butterflies and there is something magical about a little round can with $hit in it and it keeps drawing us back. Dude, it's always going to be that way and the quicker you learn that, the better off you will be and the quicker you can quit.
Post roll every day, promise not to use nicotine in any form, repeat the next day. It's really not a difficult process. I had to get up off my ass and do this every day and I will continue to do this everyday. You need to do the same because you and I are special butterflies and think we can control the magical $hit in a little round can.
PM me if you need my digits and I'll be happy to support you EDD (Every Damn Day)
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Listen, the reason I caved is because I"m a fucking addict. When I put that shit in my body I have a physical compulsion to keep adding more. That's quite simple with addictive substances and if it were the only component of my illness than the simple answer would be to just not dip. Put it down, sweat it out and then never take another. I also have a mental obsession with the shit that continues to last longer than the period of physical addiction which, even when totally free from the chemical clutches of nicotine, calls my name like a siren. And I pick it up again based on a lie that I can handle it, that it will be different this time.
There ya go, that's what happens to me every fucking time.
I've been in some communication with some guys from this site and they've been very helpful and supportive. I'll stick with them. So if you've got some pearls of wisdom about being a pussy or taking up space here or some other pathological projection for me please can it and save it for another guy.
You know, I don't usually post in on this type of thing but brother just quit. Look at the pictures on this site and read the materials here about those who battle cancer and have battled cancer. That should get your mind right real quick. If it doesn't then perhaps you need further help. We all at some point have gone through this and we all think or have thought we are special butterflies and there is something magical about a little round can with $hit in it and it keeps drawing us back. Dude, it's always going to be that way and the quicker you learn that, the better off you will be and the quicker you can quit.
Post roll every day, promise not to use nicotine in any form, repeat the next day. It's really not a difficult process. I had to get up off my ass and do this every day and I will continue to do this everyday. You need to do the same because you and I are special butterflies and think we can control the magical $hit in a little round can.
PM me if you need my digits and I'll be happy to support you EDD (Every Damn Day)
Why are you here? Really?
You are the guy that shows up on a 3rd cave avoids accountability. You finally respond and now I have to read your complaints because you do not get the type of support you want. You know the drill here and you tried to avoid it. Bogus.
Read this: Exemplify Humility and Intellectual Honesty. Constantly seek to understand and constructively deal with reality to create value and achieve personal improvement. Hold yourself and others accountable.
You caved because you are an addict? Shit we all are. I am. Fuck me.
Q: Do we all cave?
A: No.
I know you want a certain type of support for you are a unique and special butterfly. Here is some support. Drink the damn Kool-Aid. Quit being a drive by quitter.
I have no idea why you keep caving. None.
I have no idea why you are here. Really.
I have no idea why it will take for you to quit. None.
I have no idea how to support you in a meaningful way. None.
I have no idea if this quit will stick. None.
When you figure the shit out, write it. Then we will work on helping you to break your addiction.
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Listen, the reason I caved is because I"m a fucking addict. When I put that shit in my body I have a physical compulsion to keep adding more. That's quite simple with addictive substances and if it were the only component of my illness than the simple answer would be to just not dip. Put it down, sweat it out and then never take another. I also have a mental obsession with the shit that continues to last longer than the period of physical addiction which, even when totally free from the chemical clutches of nicotine, calls my name like a siren. And I pick it up again based on a lie that I can handle it, that it will be different this time.
There ya go, that's what happens to me every fucking time.
I've been in some communication with some guys from this site and they've been very helpful and supportive. I'll stick with them. So if you've got some pearls of wisdom about being a pussy or taking up space here or some other pathological projection for me please can it and save it for another guy.
You know, I don't usually post in on this type of thing but brother just quit. Look at the pictures on this site and read the materials here about those who battle cancer and have battled cancer. That should get your mind right real quick. If it doesn't then perhaps you need further help. We all at some point have gone through this and we all think or have thought we are special butterflies and there is something magical about a little round can with $hit in it and it keeps drawing us back. Dude, it's always going to be that way and the quicker you learn that, the better off you will be and the quicker you can quit.
Post roll every day, promise not to use nicotine in any form, repeat the next day. It's really not a difficult process. I had to get up off my ass and do this every day and I will continue to do this everyday. You need to do the same because you and I are special butterflies and think we can control the magical $hit in a little round can.
PM me if you need my digits and I'll be happy to support you EDD (Every Damn Day)
Hey gorilla... U just described the addiction that we are all dealing with in this post. It sucks. I hate it too. If u want to be quit what are u going to do different? Sounds like you are giving up. Don't do that. You had some success here. Figure out how to make the success stick.
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Listen, the reason I caved is because I"m a fucking addict. When I put that shit in my body I have a physical compulsion to keep adding more. That's quite simple with addictive substances and if it were the only component of my illness than the simple answer would be to just not dip. Put it down, sweat it out and then never take another. I also have a mental obsession with the shit that continues to last longer than the period of physical addiction which, even when totally free from the chemical clutches of nicotine, calls my name like a siren. And I pick it up again based on a lie that I can handle it, that it will be different this time.
There ya go, that's what happens to me every fucking time.
I've been in some communication with some guys from this site and they've been very helpful and supportive. I'll stick with them. So if you've got some pearls of wisdom about being a pussy or taking up space here or some other pathological projection for me please can it and save it for another guy.
You know, I don't usually post in on this type of thing but brother just quit. Look at the pictures on this site and read the materials here about those who battle cancer and have battled cancer. That should get your mind right real quick. If it doesn't then perhaps you need further help. We all at some point have gone through this and we all think or have thought we are special butterflies and there is something magical about a little round can with $hit in it and it keeps drawing us back. Dude, it's always going to be that way and the quicker you learn that, the better off you will be and the quicker you can quit.
Post roll every day, promise not to use nicotine in any form, repeat the next day. It's really not a difficult process. I had to get up off my ass and do this every day and I will continue to do this everyday. You need to do the same because you and I are special butterflies and think we can control the magical $hit in a little round can.
PM me if you need my digits and I'll be happy to support you EDD (Every Damn Day)
Hey gorilla... U just described the addiction that we are all dealing with in this post. It sucks. I hate it too. If u want to be quit what are u going to do different? Sounds like you are giving up. Don't do that. You had some success here. Figure out how to make the success stick.
Why are you here? Really?
You are the guy that shows up on a 3rd cave avoids accountability. You finally respond and now I have to read your complaints because you do not get the type of support you want. You know the drill here and you tried to avoid it. Bogus.
Read this: Exemplify Humility and Intellectual Honesty. Constantly seek to understand and constructively deal with reality to create value and achieve personal improvement. Hold yourself and others accountable.
You caved because you are an addict? Shit we all are. I am. Fuck me.
Q: Do we all cave?
A: No.
I know you want a certain type of support for you are a unique and special butterfly. Here is some support. Drink the damn Kool-Aid. Quit being a drive by quitter.
I have no idea why you keep caving. None.
I have no idea why you are here. Really.
I have no idea why it will take for you to quit. None.
I have no idea how to support you in a meaningful way. None.
I have no idea if this quit will stick. None.
When you figure the shit out, write it. Then we will work on helping you to break your addiction.
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Listen, the reason I caved is because I"m a fucking addict. When I put that shit in my body I have a physical compulsion to keep adding more. That's quite simple with addictive substances and if it were the only component of my illness than the simple answer would be to just not dip. Put it down, sweat it out and then never take another. I also have a mental obsession with the shit that continues to last longer than the period of physical addiction which, even when totally free from the chemical clutches of nicotine, calls my name like a siren. And I pick it up again based on a lie that I can handle it, that it will be different this time.
There ya go, that's what happens to me every fucking time.
I've been in some communication with some guys from this site and they've been very helpful and supportive. I'll stick with them. So if you've got some pearls of wisdom about being a pussy or taking up space here or some other pathological projection for me please can it and save it for another guy.
You know, I don't usually post in on this type of thing but brother just quit. Look at the pictures on this site and read the materials here about those who battle cancer and have battled cancer. That should get your mind right real quick. If it doesn't then perhaps you need further help. We all at some point have gone through this and we all think or have thought we are special butterflies and there is something magical about a little round can with $hit in it and it keeps drawing us back. Dude, it's always going to be that way and the quicker you learn that, the better off you will be and the quicker you can quit.
Post roll every day, promise not to use nicotine in any form, repeat the next day. It's really not a difficult process. I had to get up off my ass and do this every day and I will continue to do this everyday. You need to do the same because you and I are special butterflies and think we can control the magical $hit in a little round can.
PM me if you need my digits and I'll be happy to support you EDD (Every Damn Day)
Hey gorilla... U just described the addiction that we are all dealing with in this post. It sucks. I hate it too. If u want to be quit what are u going to do different? Sounds like you are giving up. Don't do that. You had some success here. Figure out how to make the success stick.
Why are you here? Really?
You are the guy that shows up on a 3rd cave avoids accountability. You finally respond and now I have to read your complaints because you do not get the type of support you want. You know the drill here and you tried to avoid it. Bogus.
Read this: Exemplify Humility and Intellectual Honesty. Constantly seek to understand and constructively deal with reality to create value and achieve personal improvement. Hold yourself and others accountable.
You caved because you are an addict? Shit we all are. I am. Fuck me.
Q: Do we all cave?
A: No.
I know you want a certain type of support for you are a unique and special butterfly. Here is some support. Drink the damn Kool-Aid. Quit being a drive by quitter.
I have no idea why you keep caving. None.
I have no idea why you are here. Really.
I have no idea why it will take for you to quit. None.
I have no idea how to support you in a meaningful way. None.
I have no idea if this quit will stick. None.
When you figure the shit out, write it. Then we will work on helping you to break your addiction.
^^^^^ Holy shit! I'm an addict? Fuck me!
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Listen, the reason I caved is because I"m a fucking addict. When I put that shit in my body I have a physical compulsion to keep adding more. That's quite simple with addictive substances and if it were the only component of my illness than the simple answer would be to just not dip. Put it down, sweat it out and then never take another. I also have a mental obsession with the shit that continues to last longer than the period of physical addiction which, even when totally free from the chemical clutches of nicotine, calls my name like a siren. And I pick it up again based on a lie that I can handle it, that it will be different this time.
There ya go, that's what happens to me every fucking time.
I've been in some communication with some guys from this site and they've been very helpful and supportive. I'll stick with them. So if you've got some pearls of wisdom about being a pussy or taking up space here or some other pathological projection for me please can it and save it for another guy.
You know, I don't usually post in on this type of thing but brother just quit. Look at the pictures on this site and read the materials here about those who battle cancer and have battled cancer. That should get your mind right real quick. If it doesn't then perhaps you need further help. We all at some point have gone through this and we all think or have thought we are special butterflies and there is something magical about a little round can with $hit in it and it keeps drawing us back. Dude, it's always going to be that way and the quicker you learn that, the better off you will be and the quicker you can quit.
Post roll every day, promise not to use nicotine in any form, repeat the next day. It's really not a difficult process. I had to get up off my ass and do this every day and I will continue to do this everyday. You need to do the same because you and I are special butterflies and think we can control the magical $hit in a little round can.
PM me if you need my digits and I'll be happy to support you EDD (Every Damn Day)
Hey gorilla... U just described the addiction that we are all dealing with in this post. It sucks. I hate it too. If u want to be quit what are u going to do different? Sounds like you are giving up. Don't do that. You had some success here. Figure out how to make the success stick.
I second all that. Your description aout the mental side of the addiction fits me to a T. I also fits every other nicotine addict... If it was just a matter of the physical addiction a nic addict could just get locked up for 3-5 days and never look back, but the mental aspect of the addiction is the real problem all nic addicts need to overcome EDD. That is why this site is the key for so many of us. Post roll every day as soon as you get up; make a promise not to use for one day and keep your word. Get involved with people through live chat or reading posting on intro threads so you make real connections with some bad ass quitters. Get phone numbers so you can call or txt for help when it gets bad. I have done this in the past and it saved my quit. Read my intro if you want more on that. Stop remembering the poison fondly and start building up a hate and revulsion for all the wrongs done to you by U.S. Tobacco and their super addictive and utterly deadly poisons. Read srans intro for a crash coarse on hateing the poison. PM me if you want my # or need anything. I hope you read everything on KTC and start drinking the Kool-aid.
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Listen, the reason I caved is because I"m a fucking addict. When I put that shit in my body I have a physical compulsion to keep adding more. That's quite simple with addictive substances and if it were the only component of my illness than the simple answer would be to just not dip. Put it down, sweat it out and then never take another. I also have a mental obsession with the shit that continues to last longer than the period of physical addiction which, even when totally free from the chemical clutches of nicotine, calls my name like a siren. And I pick it up again based on a lie that I can handle it, that it will be different this time.
There ya go, that's what happens to me every fucking time.
I've been in some communication with some guys from this site and they've been very helpful and supportive. I'll stick with them. So if you've got some pearls of wisdom about being a pussy or taking up space here or some other pathological projection for me please can it and save it for another guy.
You know, I don't usually post in on this type of thing but brother just quit. Look at the pictures on this site and read the materials here about those who battle cancer and have battled cancer. That should get your mind right real quick. If it doesn't then perhaps you need further help. We all at some point have gone through this and we all think or have thought we are special butterflies and there is something magical about a little round can with $hit in it and it keeps drawing us back. Dude, it's always going to be that way and the quicker you learn that, the better off you will be and the quicker you can quit.
Post roll every day, promise not to use nicotine in any form, repeat the next day. It's really not a difficult process. I had to get up off my ass and do this every day and I will continue to do this everyday. You need to do the same because you and I are special butterflies and think we can control the magical $hit in a little round can.
PM me if you need my digits and I'll be happy to support you EDD (Every Damn Day)
Hey gorilla... U just described the addiction that we are all dealing with in this post. It sucks. I hate it too. If u want to be quit what are u going to do different? Sounds like you are giving up. Don't do that. You had some success here. Figure out how to make the success stick.
Why are you here? Really?
You are the guy that shows up on a 3rd cave avoids accountability. You finally respond and now I have to read your complaints because you do not get the type of support you want. You know the drill here and you tried to avoid it. Bogus.
Read this: Exemplify Humility and Intellectual Honesty. Constantly seek to understand and constructively deal with reality to create value and achieve personal improvement. Hold yourself and others accountable.
You caved because you are an addict? Shit we all are. I am. Fuck me.
Q: Do we all cave?
A: No.
I know you want a certain type of support for you are a unique and special butterfly. Here is some support. Drink the damn Kool-Aid. Quit being a drive by quitter.
I have no idea why you keep caving. None.
I have no idea why you are here. Really.
I have no idea why it will take for you to quit. None.
I have no idea how to support you in a meaningful way. None.
I have no idea if this quit will stick. None.
When you figure the shit out, write it. Then we will work on helping you to break your addiction.
^^^^^ Holy shit! I'm an addict? Fuck me!
I'm sorry, i Threw my last can away in february, so canning it is impossible. The question remains if your last can has been thrown out??
Your 3 answers suck at best, just like your restarts. I'm sill thinking your taking up valuable cyber space. Prove me wrong! I love being wrong when it comes to someone i believe can't make it a week.
You know, if you turn that anger towards the poison you might make it more than a week before the siren starts calling you again. That's your words, not mine. Mine would go something like this. It ordered you back like a slave. You went running so fast you almost tripped.
How pissed are you now??
I hope your so pissed you stay quit. Prove me wrong! I'll dance around a tree...
'dance' 'dance'
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Listen, the reason I caved is because I"m a fucking addict. When I put that shit in my body I have a physical compulsion to keep adding more. That's quite simple with addictive substances and if it were the only component of my illness than the simple answer would be to just not dip. Put it down, sweat it out and then never take another. I also have a mental obsession with the shit that continues to last longer than the period of physical addiction which, even when totally free from the chemical clutches of nicotine, calls my name like a siren. And I pick it up again based on a lie that I can handle it, that it will be different this time.
There ya go, that's what happens to me every fucking time.
I've been in some communication with some guys from this site and they've been very helpful and supportive. I'll stick with them. So if you've got some pearls of wisdom about being a pussy or taking up space here or some other pathological projection for me please can it and save it for another guy.
You know, I don't usually post in on this type of thing but brother just quit. Look at the pictures on this site and read the materials here about those who battle cancer and have battled cancer. That should get your mind right real quick. If it doesn't then perhaps you need further help. We all at some point have gone through this and we all think or have thought we are special butterflies and there is something magical about a little round can with $hit in it and it keeps drawing us back. Dude, it's always going to be that way and the quicker you learn that, the better off you will be and the quicker you can quit.
Post roll every day, promise not to use nicotine in any form, repeat the next day. It's really not a difficult process. I had to get up off my ass and do this every day and I will continue to do this everyday. You need to do the same because you and I are special butterflies and think we can control the magical $hit in a little round can.
PM me if you need my digits and I'll be happy to support you EDD (Every Damn Day)
Why are you here? Really?
You are the guy that shows up on a 3rd cave avoids accountability. You finally respond and now I have to read your complaints because you do not get the type of support you want. You know the drill here and you tried to avoid it. Bogus.
Read this: Exemplify Humility and Intellectual Honesty. Constantly seek to understand and constructively deal with reality to create value and achieve personal improvement. Hold yourself and others accountable.
You caved because you are an addict? Shit we all are. I am. Fuck me.
Q: Do we all cave?
A: No.
I know you want a certain type of support for you are a unique and special butterfly. Here is some support. Drink the damn Kool-Aid. Quit being a drive by quitter.
I have no idea why you keep caving. None.
I have no idea why you are here. Really.
I have no idea why it will take for you to quit. None.
I have no idea how to support you in a meaningful way. None.
I have no idea if this quit will stick. None.
When you figure the shit out, write it. Then we will work on helping you to break your addiction.
Listen to this guy ^^^, he knows what he is talking about.
Not all addicts are doomed to cave. We are here because we chose to quit. We choose every day to not use tobacco.
Your logic is totally addict babble, lame words attempting to excuse the fact that you chose to be weak and cave.
Own your cave, own your quit. Or be a slave. These are all choices.
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Listen, the reason I caved is because I"m a fucking addict. When I put that shit in my body I have a physical compulsion to keep adding more. That's quite simple with addictive substances and if it were the only component of my illness than the simple answer would be to just not dip. Put it down, sweat it out and then never take another. I also have a mental obsession with the shit that continues to last longer than the period of physical addiction which, even when totally free from the chemical clutches of nicotine, calls my name like a siren. And I pick it up again based on a lie that I can handle it, that it will be different this time.
There ya go, that's what happens to me every fucking time.
I've been in some communication with some guys from this site and they've been very helpful and supportive. I'll stick with them. So if you've got some pearls of wisdom about being a pussy or taking up space here or some other pathological projection for me please can it and save it for another guy.
You know, I don't usually post in on this type of thing but brother just quit. Look at the pictures on this site and read the materials here about those who battle cancer and have battled cancer. That should get your mind right real quick. If it doesn't then perhaps you need further help. We all at some point have gone through this and we all think or have thought we are special butterflies and there is something magical about a little round can with $hit in it and it keeps drawing us back. Dude, it's always going to be that way and the quicker you learn that, the better off you will be and the quicker you can quit.
Post roll every day, promise not to use nicotine in any form, repeat the next day. It's really not a difficult process. I had to get up off my ass and do this every day and I will continue to do this everyday. You need to do the same because you and I are special butterflies and think we can control the magical $hit in a little round can.
PM me if you need my digits and I'll be happy to support you EDD (Every Damn Day)
Why are you here? Really?
You are the guy that shows up on a 3rd cave avoids accountability. You finally respond and now I have to read your complaints because you do not get the type of support you want. You know the drill here and you tried to avoid it. Bogus.
Read this: Exemplify Humility and Intellectual Honesty. Constantly seek to understand and constructively deal with reality to create value and achieve personal improvement. Hold yourself and others accountable.
You caved because you are an addict? Shit we all are. I am. Fuck me.
Q: Do we all cave?
A: No.
I know you want a certain type of support for you are a unique and special butterfly. Here is some support. Drink the damn Kool-Aid. Quit being a drive by quitter.
I have no idea why you keep caving. None.
I have no idea why you are here. Really.
I have no idea why it will take for you to quit. None.
I have no idea how to support you in a meaningful way. None.
I have no idea if this quit will stick. None.
When you figure the shit out, write it. Then we will work on helping you to break your addiction.
Listen to this guy ^^^, he knows what he is talking about.
Not all addicts are doomed to cave. We are here because we chose to quit. We choose every day to not use tobacco.
Your logic is totally addict babble, lame words attempting to excuse the fact that you chose to be weak and cave.
Own your cave, own your quit. Or be a slave. These are all choices.
Caving is a choice! Remaining quit is a choice! I have done both and today I have chosen to remain free! Which choice will you make? It is only for one day after all! Simple!
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Listen, the reason I caved is because I"m a fucking addict. When I put that shit in my body I have a physical compulsion to keep adding more. That's quite simple with addictive substances and if it were the only component of my illness than the simple answer would be to just not dip. Put it down, sweat it out and then never take another. I also have a mental obsession with the shit that continues to last longer than the period of physical addiction which, even when totally free from the chemical clutches of nicotine, calls my name like a siren. And I pick it up again based on a lie that I can handle it, that it will be different this time.
There ya go, that's what happens to me every fucking time.
I've been in some communication with some guys from this site and they've been very helpful and supportive. I'll stick with them. So if you've got some pearls of wisdom about being a pussy or taking up space here or some other pathological projection for me please can it and save it for another guy.
You know, I don't usually post in on this type of thing but brother just quit. Look at the pictures on this site and read the materials here about those who battle cancer and have battled cancer. That should get your mind right real quick. If it doesn't then perhaps you need further help. We all at some point have gone through this and we all think or have thought we are special butterflies and there is something magical about a little round can with $hit in it and it keeps drawing us back. Dude, it's always going to be that way and the quicker you learn that, the better off you will be and the quicker you can quit.
Post roll every day, promise not to use nicotine in any form, repeat the next day. It's really not a difficult process. I had to get up off my ass and do this every day and I will continue to do this everyday. You need to do the same because you and I are special butterflies and think we can control the magical $hit in a little round can.
PM me if you need my digits and I'll be happy to support you EDD (Every Damn Day)
Why are you here? Really?
You are the guy that shows up on a 3rd cave avoids accountability. You finally respond and now I have to read your complaints because you do not get the type of support you want. You know the drill here and you tried to avoid it. Bogus.
Read this: Exemplify Humility and Intellectual Honesty. Constantly seek to understand and constructively deal with reality to create value and achieve personal improvement. Hold yourself and others accountable.
You caved because you are an addict? Shit we all are. I am. Fuck me.
Q: Do we all cave?
A: No.
I know you want a certain type of support for you are a unique and special butterfly. Here is some support. Drink the damn Kool-Aid. Quit being a drive by quitter.
I have no idea why you keep caving. None.
I have no idea why you are here. Really.
I have no idea why it will take for you to quit. None.
I have no idea how to support you in a meaningful way. None.
I have no idea if this quit will stick. None.
When you figure the shit out, write it. Then we will work on helping you to break your addiction.
Listen to this guy ^^^, he knows what he is talking about.
Not all addicts are doomed to cave. We are here because we chose to quit. We choose every day to not use tobacco.
Your logic is totally addict babble, lame words attempting to excuse the fact that you chose to be weak and cave.
Own your cave, own your quit. Or be a slave. These are all choices.
Caving is a choice! Remaining quit is a choice! I have done both and today I have chosen to remain free! Which choice will you make? It is only for one day after all! Simple!
Well fuck me...and here I thought I was the only addict on KTC. Good to know there are others....
Special butterflies need not apply. :scowick:
p.s. I find it ironic that this smilie is called "scowick"
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I also have a mental obsession with the shit that continues to last longer than the period of physical addiction which, even when totally free from the chemical clutches of nicotine, calls my name like a siren.
Nicotine addiction is a physiological and mental state of compulsion. You are no different than any other nicotine addict.
The nic bitch sings a Siren's song, no doubt. But as you pointed out it's a melody of lies that tries to lure you to disaster.
It takes balls to own up to a cave and get back on track. I would know.
Don't worry about agreeing with 100% of these quitters or these principles. Just do the following and worry about 'today' everyday:
1. Make a promise by posting roll.
2. Don't use any nicotine that day. Not Any For Any Reason (my version of NAFAR).
It's not easy, but it's simple and it WORKS.
Man up.
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I also have a mental obsession with the shit that continues to last longer than the period of physical addiction which, even when totally free from the chemical clutches of nicotine, calls my name like a siren.
Nicotine addiction is a physiological and mental state of compulsion. You are no different than any other nicotine addict.
The nic bitch sings a Siren's song, no doubt. But as you pointed out it's a melody of lies that tries to lure you to disaster.
It takes balls to own up to a cave and get back on track. I would know.
Don't worry about agreeing with 100% of these quitters or these principles. Just do the following and worry about 'today' everyday:
1. Make a promise by posting roll.
2. Don't use any nicotine that day. Not Any For Any Reason (my version of NAFAR).
It's not easy, but it's simple and it WORKS.
Man up.
Well put Minny you got some quit wood growing here...you have come a long way your mindset has changed I am very proud of you. I quit with you today.
Gorilla lots of good quit wood in your thread drink up. Not abstract concepts at all here just plain and simple quit going on.
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I also have a mental obsession with the shit that continues to last longer than the period of physical addiction which, even when totally free from the chemical clutches of nicotine, calls my name like a siren.
Nicotine addiction is a physiological and mental state of compulsion. You are no different than any other nicotine addict.
The nic bitch sings a Siren's song, no doubt. But as you pointed out it's a melody of lies that tries to lure you to disaster.
It takes balls to own up to a cave and get back on track. I would know.
Don't worry about agreeing with 100% of these quitters or these principles. Just do the following and worry about 'today' everyday:
1. Make a promise by posting roll.
2. Don't use any nicotine that day. Not Any For Any Reason (my version of NAFAR).
It's not easy, but it's simple and it WORKS.
Man up.
Well put Minny you got some quit wood growing here...you have come a long way your mindset has changed I am very proud of you. I quit with you today.
Gorilla lots of good quit wood in your thread drink up. Not abstract concepts at all here just plain and simple quit going on.
Gorilla.... You are getting a lot of good feedback here. I hope you take it for what it is worth. We all want to see you succeed. First you must own your quit!
Minny.... I've watched your posts recently and I gotta tell you that I like what I have seen. I doubted you in the past but I have seen some strong quit going on. Well done. Gorilla... Listen to him.
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Day 4. I had a lot of feedback and support from a lot of people on here today. I was blessed to have some guys to text with during the work day who hadn't yet given up on even though perhaps they should have. Thank you for that. I stayed quit today. My belligerence seems to be lightening as the days pass as well and I find myself more willing to listen and absorb some of the stuff here. Not any for any reason for this guy. Rain or shine, win or lose, she leaves or stays, whatever. There is no reason to put that poison in me. There is no reason to change my perception of this experience. Remembering that seems to be the hardest thing. It's like I've got a built in forgetter. One of the reasons this site helps is that it facilitates that faculty for me. Thanks.
Tony
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Day 4. I had a lot of feedback and support from a lot of people on here today. I was blessed to have some guys to text with during the work day who hadn't yet given up on even though perhaps they should have. Thank you for that. I stayed quit today. My belligerence seems to be lightening as the days pass as well and I find myself more willing to listen and absorb some of the stuff here. Not any for any reason for this guy. Rain or shine, win or lose, she leaves or stays, whatever. There is no reason to put that poison in me. There is no reason to change my perception of this experience. Remembering that seems to be the hardest thing. It's like I've got a built in forgetter. One of the reasons this site helps is that it facilitates that faculty for me. Thanks.
Tony
NAFAR Tony never again for ANY reason ....this is your masterpiece our last QUIT. It does seem like you are beginning to drink the koolaid. Keep adding the +1's. I won't lie to you this isn't easy there is no cure follow the teachings of the site do what is asked of you and press on.
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Day 4. I had a lot of feedback and support from a lot of people on here today. I was blessed to have some guys to text with during the work day who hadn't yet given up on even though perhaps they should have. Thank you for that. I stayed quit today. My belligerence seems to be lightening as the days pass as well and I find myself more willing to listen and absorb some of the stuff here. Not any for any reason for this guy. Rain or shine, win or lose, she leaves or stays, whatever. There is no reason to put that poison in me. There is no reason to change my perception of this experience. Remembering that seems to be the hardest thing. It's like I've got a built in forgetter. One of the reasons this site helps is that it facilitates that faculty for me. Thanks.
Tony
NAFAR Tony never again for ANY reason ....this is your masterpiece our last QUIT. It does seem like you are beginning to drink the koolaid. Keep adding the +1's. I won't lie to you this isn't easy there is no cure follow the teachings of the site do what is asked of you and press on.
I'm seeing some of the tony coming forth. This is good. Tony is the one i want to help.
You see I don't really like The one that's been leading tony around. The one that has had tony bound. The one that causes Tony to question his dignity and lose sight of his purpose here.
Reach deep man. I like the words trauma used. Make this your masterpiece, your final quit. That was great words from a great quitter. With him in your corner you can't go wrong.
Its time tony, no more!! You want this,, you have to take it! The poison is not going to just give it to you.
I know you can do this. We all want you to succeed. I know I've been hard with my words, but i was trying to piss you off a bit. Get pissed off at the poison. Look what its, done to us man. We are worth more than being slaves. We are worth more than letting a can of dirt run our lives. Freedom brother. Learn to hate the poison and quitting will get easier.
Need some more digits let me know. Quit with you.
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Day 4. I had a lot of feedback and support from a lot of people on here today. I was blessed to have some guys to text with during the work day who hadn't yet given up on even though perhaps they should have. Thank you for that. I stayed quit today. My belligerence seems to be lightening as the days pass as well and I find myself more willing to listen and absorb some of the stuff here. Not any for any reason for this guy. Rain or shine, win or lose, she leaves or stays, whatever. There is no reason to put that poison in me. There is no reason to change my perception of this experience. Remembering that seems to be the hardest thing. It's like I've got a built in forgetter. One of the reasons this site helps is that it facilitates that faculty for me. Thanks.
Tony
NAFAR Tony never again for ANY reason ....this is your masterpiece our last QUIT. It does seem like you are beginning to drink the koolaid. Keep adding the +1's. I won't lie to you this isn't easy there is no cure follow the teachings of the site do what is asked of you and press on.
I'm seeing some of the tony coming forth. This is good. Tony is the one i want to help.
You see I don't really like The one that's been leading tony around. The one that has had tony bound. The one that causes Tony to question his dignity and lose sight of his purpose here.
Reach deep man. I like the words trauma used. Make this your masterpiece, your final quit. That was great words from a great quitter. With him in your corner you can't go wrong.
Its time tony, no more!! You want this,, you have to take it! The poison is not going to just give it to you.
I know you can do this. We all want you to succeed. I know I've been hard with my words, but i was trying to piss you off a bit. Get pissed off at the poison. Look what its, done to us man. We are worth more than being slaves. We are worth more than letting a can of dirt run our lives. Freedom brother. Learn to hate the poison and quitting will get easier.
Need some more digits let me know. Quit with you.
Feeling humbled and uplifted this morning. Lotta love from these dudes in my corner. Taking my freedom back today. We are quit together. Alone I'm worthless. Thank you.
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Somehow I fucked that post up. Can I get a little help here?
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Day 4. I had a lot of feedback and support from a lot of people on here today. I was blessed to have some guys to text with during the work day who hadn't yet given up on even though perhaps they should have. Thank you for that. I stayed quit today. My belligerence seems to be lightening as the days pass as well and I find myself more willing to listen and absorb some of the stuff here. Not any for any reason for this guy. Rain or shine, win or lose, she leaves or stays, whatever. There is no reason to put that poison in me. There is no reason to change my perception of this experience. Remembering that seems to be the hardest thing. It's like I've got a built in forgetter. One of the reasons this site helps is that it facilitates that faculty for me. Thanks.
Tony
NAFAR Tony never again for ANY reason ....this is your masterpiece our last QUIT. It does seem like you are beginning to drink the koolaid. Keep adding the +1's. I won't lie to you this isn't easy there is no cure follow the teachings of the site do what is asked of you and press on.
I'm seeing some of the tony coming forth. This is good. Tony is the one i want to help.
You see I don't really like The one that's been leading tony around. The one that has had tony bound. The one that causes Tony to question his dignity and lose sight of his purpose here.
Reach deep man. I like the words trauma used. Make this your masterpiece, your final quit. That was great words from a great quitter. With him in your corner you can't go wrong.
Its time tony, no more!! You want this,, you have to take it! The poison is not going to just give it to you.
I know you can do this. We all want you to succeed. I know I've been hard with my words, but i was trying to piss you off a bit. Get pissed off at the poison. Look what its, done to us man. We are worth more than being slaves. We are worth more than letting a can of dirt run our lives. Freedom brother. Learn to hate the poison and quitting will get easier.
Need some more digits let me know. Quit with you.
Feeling humbled and uplifted this morning. Lotta love from these dudes in my corner. Taking my freedom back today. We are quit together. Alone I'm worthless. Thank you.
see if that works
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Day 4. I had a lot of feedback and support from a lot of people on here today. I was blessed to have some guys to text with during the work day who hadn't yet given up on even though perhaps they should have. Thank you for that. I stayed quit today. My belligerence seems to be lightening as the days pass as well and I find myself more willing to listen and absorb some of the stuff here. Not any for any reason for this guy. Rain or shine, win or lose, she leaves or stays, whatever. There is no reason to put that poison in me. There is no reason to change my perception of this experience. Remembering that seems to be the hardest thing. It's like I've got a built in forgetter. One of the reasons this site helps is that it facilitates that faculty for me. Thanks.
Tony
NAFAR Tony never again for ANY reason ....this is your masterpiece our last QUIT. It does seem like you are beginning to drink the koolaid. Keep adding the +1's. I won't lie to you this isn't easy there is no cure follow the teachings of the site do what is asked of you and press on.
I'm seeing some of the tony coming forth. This is good. Tony is the one i want to help.
You see I don't really like The one that's been leading tony around. The one that has had tony bound. The one that causes Tony to question his dignity and lose sight of his purpose here.
Reach deep man. I like the words trauma used. Make this your masterpiece, your final quit. That was great words from a great quitter. With him in your corner you can't go wrong.
Its time tony, no more!! You want this,, you have to take it! The poison is not going to just give it to you.
I know you can do this. We all want you to succeed. I know I've been hard with my words, but i was trying to piss you off a bit. Get pissed off at the poison. Look what its, done to us man. We are worth more than being slaves. We are worth more than letting a can of dirt run our lives. Freedom brother. Learn to hate the poison and quitting will get easier.
Need some more digits let me know. Quit with you.
Feeling humbled and uplifted this morning. Lotta love from these dudes in my corner. Taking my freedom back today. We are quit together. Alone I'm worthless. Thank you.
see if that works
:)
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Day 4. I had a lot of feedback and support from a lot of people on here today. I was blessed to have some guys to text with during the work day who hadn't yet given up on even though perhaps they should have. Thank you for that. I stayed quit today. My belligerence seems to be lightening as the days pass as well and I find myself more willing to listen and absorb some of the stuff here. Not any for any reason for this guy. Rain or shine, win or lose, she leaves or stays, whatever. There is no reason to put that poison in me. There is no reason to change my perception of this experience. Remembering that seems to be the hardest thing. It's like I've got a built in forgetter. One of the reasons this site helps is that it facilitates that faculty for me. Thanks.
Tony
NAFAR Tony never again for ANY reason ....this is your masterpiece our last QUIT. It does seem like you are beginning to drink the koolaid. Keep adding the +1's. I won't lie to you this isn't easy there is no cure follow the teachings of the site do what is asked of you and press on.
I'm seeing some of the tony coming forth. This is good. Tony is the one i want to help.
You see I don't really like The one that's been leading tony around. The one that has had tony bound. The one that causes Tony to question his dignity and lose sight of his purpose here.
Reach deep man. I like the words trauma used. Make this your masterpiece, your final quit. That was great words from a great quitter. With him in your corner you can't go wrong.
Its time tony, no more!! You want this,, you have to take it! The poison is not going to just give it to you.
I know you can do this. We all want you to succeed. I know I've been hard with my words, but i was trying to piss you off a bit. Get pissed off at the poison. Look what its, done to us man. We are worth more than being slaves. We are worth more than letting a can of dirt run our lives. Freedom brother. Learn to hate the poison and quitting will get easier.
Need some more digits let me know. Quit with you.
Feeling humbled and uplifted this morning. Lotta love from these dudes in my corner. Taking my freedom back today. We are quit together. Alone I'm worthless. Thank you.
see if that works
:)
I sent you a PM with my info. Please use it. This is your freedom man, and freedom never comes without a cost, stay the coarse and i bet you will be out of hell before the devil even knows your there! Its hell, we know, but your are winning! I will quit with you every day and I will do it as hard as I can or as hard as you need me too, whichever is the greater! Erussell
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Day 5 still alive. Kept in touch with several people all day via text. Good quit and support and I even got to give that back to some people. Who would have thought? Still have a long way to go, but the last several days have witnessed being connected to something much bigger than myself which, in my belief, is what I need to beat this thing. . . Back beast!
Peace
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Day 5 still alive. Kept in touch with several people all day via text. Good quit and support and I even got to give that back to some people. Who would have thought? Still have a long way to go, but the last several days have witnessed being connected to something much bigger than myself which, in my belief, is what I need to beat this thing. . . Back beast!
Peace
Keep rolling with it NAFAR in your head all day long you got it. Nice you are learning keep close to site and peeps today.
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Day 5 still alive. Kept in touch with several people all day via text. Good quit and support and I even got to give that back to some people. Who would have thought? Still have a long way to go, but the last several days have witnessed being connected to something much bigger than myself which, in my belief, is what I need to beat this thing. . . Back beast!
Peace
Keep rolling with it NAFAR in your head all day long you got it. Nice you are learning keep close to site and peeps today.
Don't think about the "long way to go"... your only focus needs to be on staying quit today. Don't even think about anything but today and being quit today. Nothing else but today matters. I am quit with you today gorilla... keep on this quit!
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Day 5 still alive. Kept in touch with several people all day via text. Good quit and support and I even got to give that back to some people. Who would have thought? Still have a long way to go, but the last several days have witnessed being connected to something much bigger than myself which, in my belief, is what I need to beat this thing. . . Back beast!
Peace
Keep rolling with it NAFAR in your head all day long you got it. Nice you are learning keep close to site and peeps today.
Don't think about the "long way to go"... your only focus needs to be on staying quit today. Don't even think about anything but today and being quit today. Nothing else but today matters. I am quit with you today gorilla... keep on this quit!
Derk hit on one of the tenants of this site.....One day at a time. Don't worry about a camping trip this weekend, or a 4 hour drive to visit in-laws, or a baseball game, or fishing, or whatever it was that you used to do with a dip in. Focus on what you have to do today and know that you can do it w/o a dip in your mouth.
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Day 5 still alive. Kept in touch with several people all day via text. Good quit and support and I even got to give that back to some people. Who would have thought? Still have a long way to go, but the last several days have witnessed being connected to something much bigger than myself which, in my belief, is what I need to beat this thing. . . Back beast!
Best post I have read. Perfect.
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Day 5 still alive. Kept in touch with several people all day via text. Good quit and support and I even got to give that back to some people. Who would have thought? Still have a long way to go, but the last several days have witnessed being connected to something much bigger than myself which, in my belief, is what I need to beat this thing. . . Back beast!
Best post I have read. Perfect.
I'm glade to hear this gorilla. Keep it up brother. Quit with you.
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Hit the mountains last night for some camping with friends. Looking up at the continental divide dip free. It was mostly a good experience although I was experiencing some cravings. Too far back in the woods to go for dip or call any of you. Turned in, got prayerful, soldiered on. Today I woke up in an alpine meadow in a hammock between two trees feeling peaceful. No compulsion.
Quit.
Peace.
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That's bad ass! And all without that Nic bitch... I'm up here in ft Collins quitting with you ODAAT brotha.
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Day 9. . .
It's been a strange day for me. No craves, no dip, no nadda. I'm feeling strong about it, but cautious as well.
Since I was a kid I've used just about everything under the sun to not have to deal with reality, to not feel. Here I am feeling a little stuck. Feeling a little sad and sorry for myself or something. It's not an unknown feeling to me, but now I've got nothing to forget about it or distract myself with. I've been texting with some brothers here and reaching out, seeing how they are doing, rather than thinking about myself. That seems to help, but there is some sorta loneliness creeping around inside. I know this is all very touchy feely shit, but I don't care.
Tonight I'm going to work on some divorce paperwork with my soon to be ex-wife and I'm feeling kinda fucked up about that as well. I know there's gotta be some dudes in here with experience with that as well. Any wise words for me?
I have no intention to cave. It's not an option. I'm dealing with the pain of living on the big dirty ball without that shit and just hoped that airing it out might bring about a little solace.
Still in it.
Peace.
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Day 9. . .
It's been a strange day for me. No craves, no dip, no nadda. I'm feeling strong about it, but cautious as well.
Since I was a kid I've used just about everything under the sun to not have to deal with reality, to not feel. Here I am feeling a little stuck. Feeling a little sad and sorry for myself or something. It's not an unknown feeling to me, but now I've got nothing to forget about it or distract myself with. I've been texting with some brothers here and reaching out, seeing how they are doing, rather than thinking about myself. That seems to help, but there is some sorta loneliness creeping around inside. I know this is all very touchy feely shit, but I don't care.
Tonight I'm going to work on some divorce paperwork with my soon to be ex-wife and I'm feeling kinda fucked up about that as well. I know there's gotta be some dudes in here with experience with that as well. Any wise words for me?
I have no intention to cave. It's not an option. I'm dealing with the pain of living on the big dirty ball without that shit and just hoped that airing it out might bring about a little solace.
Still in it.
Peace.
hey gorilla,
I am not sure I have the input your looking for but I do recognize some of myself in your words. No, I am not divorced but actually happily married. I am not familiar with your situation but I assume it is painful even if you totally don't want to admit it. But again, I am not familiar with your situation.
As to not wanting to feel and dealing with the sense of loneliness. That is where I find myself at times. Actually, I feel this way quite often. I find myself searching for something to help me deal with the anxiety of not adding up. It could be not adding up as a husband, a father, a coworker, a brother, a KTC quitter, a student (Masters classes), or whatever. We are going through a time of huge adjustment. Our brains are trying to wake up and re-wire. We are trying to grieve (many won't admit this) loosing a best friend. Grant it, the NIC is a piece of Crap best friend that promises everything and then takes all it promised plus everything else by the time we realize, "Oh crap!"
None the less, it is a companion that we have had to decide we were no longer letting it use us. This can cause a sense of loneliness, anger, denial, and even depression in some.
Furthermore, addiction is selfishness! When we start to separate from the addiction and our mind begins to get clear it is common for the addict to look at their life and think, "What the heck!" It can be a roller coaster of emotions.
I find myself struggling in many areas since I have quit 48days ago. The longer I am quit the more I have understood how the addiction impacted my thinking in all aspects of life but mostly my relationships. I lied to myself and others for so long that I find myself questioning my own word and not trusting myself. I thought I valued integrity and thought I was a man of integrity until I Quit. It makes sense to me but it is not something I am proud to admit.
Now I look and see integrity in the mirror because I am actually behaving with it. But that produces some shame and guilt within as well. I am trying to work through this now with a clear head that is not drug influenced. I am learning to deal with my feelings with out the drug but I often need to force myself to do it without my coping mechanism of 20yrs. This is a struggle but I have Christ in my corner and he knows these struggles. His grace amazes me! It is always enough!
I didn't realize how selfish my addiction made me. I was so blind that obvious things I see now could have smacked me in the face and I would have blamed someone around me.
Anyway, I guess what I want to really say or the advice I have for you is to EMBRACE this suck. Helping others is good but don't allow it to be your new distraction. By letting yourself suffer then you are uncovering parts of you and empowering yourself to deal with them. That strengthens your quit and guides you towards a life of peace/solace. I think many of us try to lie about being broken. We try to find some fake finite stuff to fill a void within because we don't want to admit we are broken. However, I continue to find out the more I accept I am broken the more I actually become whole as I allow God's grace to heal me.
Well, even if you don't believe in the things I do I hope you can still see how the thinking applies. Understanding our limitations empowers us. It guides to opportunities of success and growth. If we don't understand our limits then we enter some opportunities expecting to much. These situations no longer become and opportunity of growth but actually failure, dissatisfaction, and a hindrance because our perspective was messed up from the start.
Okay, I have written enough for now. Thanks for your words as they prompted these thoughts. I am going to copy this and paste it in my thread just to have for future. I hope there is something in this you find beneficial.
I quit with you today Gorilla!
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Day 9. . .
It's been a strange day for me. No craves, no dip, no nadda. I'm feeling strong about it, but cautious as well.
Since I was a kid I've used just about everything under the sun to not have to deal with reality, to not feel. Here I am feeling a little stuck. Feeling a little sad and sorry for myself or something. It's not an unknown feeling to me, but now I've got nothing to forget about it or distract myself with. I've been texting with some brothers here and reaching out, seeing how they are doing, rather than thinking about myself. That seems to help, but there is some sorta loneliness creeping around inside. I know this is all very touchy feely shit, but I don't care.
Tonight I'm going to work on some divorce paperwork with my soon to be ex-wife and I'm feeling kinda fucked up about that as well. I know there's gotta be some dudes in here with experience with that as well. Any wise words for me?
I have no intention to cave. It's not an option. I'm dealing with the pain of living on the big dirty ball without that shit and just hoped that airing it out might bring about a little solace.
Still in it.
Peace.
You are reinventing what it is to be you. The REAL you. This is an adventure that is well worth the pursuit. I am sorry to hear about the break up though. Stay strong. My observations of your quit have changed tremondously over the past days. Well done. Very well done.
One day at a time.
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Day 9. . .
It's been a strange day for me. No craves, no dip, no nadda. I'm feeling strong about it, but cautious as well.
Since I was a kid I've used just about everything under the sun to not have to deal with reality, to not feel. Here I am feeling a little stuck. Feeling a little sad and sorry for myself or something. It's not an unknown feeling to me, but now I've got nothing to forget about it or distract myself with. I've been texting with some brothers here and reaching out, seeing how they are doing, rather than thinking about myself. That seems to help, but there is some sorta loneliness creeping around inside. I know this is all very touchy feely shit, but I don't care.
Tonight I'm going to work on some divorce paperwork with my soon to be ex-wife and I'm feeling kinda fucked up about that as well. I know there's gotta be some dudes in here with experience with that as well. Any wise words for me?
I have no intention to cave. It's not an option. I'm dealing with the pain of living on the big dirty ball without that shit and just hoped that airing it out might bring about a little solace.
Still in it.
Peace.
hey gorilla,
I am not sure I have the input your looking for but I do recognize some of myself in your words. No, I am not divorced but actually happily married. I am not familiar with your situation but I assume it is painful even if you totally don't want to admit it. But again, I am not familiar with your situation.
As to not wanting to feel and dealing with the sense of loneliness. That is where I find myself at times. Actually, I feel this way quite often. I find myself searching for something to help me deal with the anxiety of not adding up. It could be not adding up as a husband, a father, a coworker, a brother, a KTC quitter, a student (Masters classes), or whatever. We are going through a time of huge adjustment. Our brains are trying to wake up and re-wire. We are trying to grieve (many won't admit this) loosing a best friend. Grant it, the NIC is a piece of Crap best friend that promises everything and then takes all it promised plus everything else by the time we realize, "Oh crap!"
None the less, it is a companion that we have had to decide we were no longer letting it use us. This can cause a sense of loneliness, anger, denial, and even depression in some.
Furthermore, addiction is selfishness! When we start to separate from the addiction and our mind begins to get clear it is common for the addict to look at their life and think, "What the heck!" It can be a roller coaster of emotions.
I find myself struggling in many areas since I have quit 48days ago. The longer I am quit the more I have understood how the addiction impacted my thinking in all aspects of life but mostly my relationships. I lied to myself and others for so long that I find myself questioning my own word and not trusting myself. I thought I valued integrity and thought I was a man of integrity until I Quit. It makes sense to me but it is not something I am proud to admit.
Now I look and see integrity in the mirror because I am actually behaving with it. But that produces some shame and guilt within as well. I am trying to work through this now with a clear head that is not drug influenced. I am learning to deal with my feelings with out the drug but I often need to force myself to do it without my coping mechanism of 20yrs. This is a struggle but I have Christ in my corner and he knows these struggles. His grace amazes me! It is always enough!
I didn't realize how selfish my addiction made me. I was so blind that obvious things I see now could have smacked me in the face and I would have blamed someone around me.
Anyway, I guess what I want to really say or the advice I have for you is to EMBRACE this suck. Helping others is good but don't allow it to be your new distraction. By letting yourself suffer then you are uncovering parts of you and empowering yourself to deal with them. That strengthens your quit and guides you towards a life of peace/solace. I think many of us try to lie about being broken. We try to find some fake finite stuff to fill a void within because we don't want to admit we are broken. However, I continue to find out the more I accept I am broken the more I actually become whole as I allow God's grace to heal me.
Well, even if you don't believe in the things I do I hope you can still see how the thinking applies. Understanding our limitations empowers us. It guides to opportunities of success and growth. If we don't understand our limits then we enter some opportunities expecting to much. These situations no longer become and opportunity of growth but actually failure, dissatisfaction, and a hindrance because our perspective was messed up from the start.
Okay, I have written enough for now. Thanks for your words as they prompted these thoughts. I am going to copy this and paste it in my thread just to have for future. I hope there is something in this you find beneficial.
I quit with you today Gorilla!
First, sorry to hear about the break up. That sucks.
I can relate to what ur saying gorilla... I used to use the evil poison because I used to think that it filled a void for me. I used to use it when I was stressed, when I needed a little pick up, use it when _____ (fill in the blank)
What you need to come to grips with is that the poison did nothing for you... in fact, it made everything worse. You thought that it was filling a void, but it was actually killing u and you were not dealing with natural, everyday problems like a normal person does. You do not need the poison to live. It does not help your mood, it will not solve your problems, it does not make you feel better. That is all a lie.
I am still working thru this myself, but I have worked to fill that void for now with workouts, food, candy, gum, slowing my breathing, getting on this site to rant, getting in KTC chat, texting KTC buds, etc. After 52 days, I can say that I am starting to deal with my emotions better, but I still need to work hard at it. Bottom line is I am QLF I don;t want to go back to the BS lies from before. I do not want to be a slave to the Nic B. I love being quit.
Anyhow, quit with you gorilla!!! Stay on this thing bro!
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Day 9. . .
It's been a strange day for me. No craves, no dip, no nadda. I'm feeling strong about it, but cautious as well.
Since I was a kid I've used just about everything under the sun to not have to deal with reality, to not feel. Here I am feeling a little stuck. Feeling a little sad and sorry for myself or something. It's not an unknown feeling to me, but now I've got nothing to forget about it or distract myself with. I've been texting with some brothers here and reaching out, seeing how they are doing, rather than thinking about myself. That seems to help, but there is some sorta loneliness creeping around inside. I know this is all very touchy feely shit, but I don't care.
Tonight I'm going to work on some divorce paperwork with my soon to be ex-wife and I'm feeling kinda fucked up about that as well. I know there's gotta be some dudes in here with experience with that as well. Any wise words for me?
I have no intention to cave. It's not an option. I'm dealing with the pain of living on the big dirty ball without that shit and just hoped that airing it out might bring about a little solace.
Still in it.
Peace.
hey gorilla,
I am not sure I have the input your looking for but I do recognize some of myself in your words. No, I am not divorced but actually happily married. I am not familiar with your situation but I assume it is painful even if you totally don't want to admit it. But again, I am not familiar with your situation.
As to not wanting to feel and dealing with the sense of loneliness. That is where I find myself at times. Actually, I feel this way quite often. I find myself searching for something to help me deal with the anxiety of not adding up. It could be not adding up as a husband, a father, a coworker, a brother, a KTC quitter, a student (Masters classes), or whatever. We are going through a time of huge adjustment. Our brains are trying to wake up and re-wire. We are trying to grieve (many won't admit this) loosing a best friend. Grant it, the NIC is a piece of Crap best friend that promises everything and then takes all it promised plus everything else by the time we realize, "Oh crap!"
None the less, it is a companion that we have had to decide we were no longer letting it use us. This can cause a sense of loneliness, anger, denial, and even depression in some.
Furthermore, addiction is selfishness! When we start to separate from the addiction and our mind begins to get clear it is common for the addict to look at their life and think, "What the heck!" It can be a roller coaster of emotions.
I find myself struggling in many areas since I have quit 48days ago. The longer I am quit the more I have understood how the addiction impacted my thinking in all aspects of life but mostly my relationships. I lied to myself and others for so long that I find myself questioning my own word and not trusting myself. I thought I valued integrity and thought I was a man of integrity until I Quit. It makes sense to me but it is not something I am proud to admit.
Now I look and see integrity in the mirror because I am actually behaving with it. But that produces some shame and guilt within as well. I am trying to work through this now with a clear head that is not drug influenced. I am learning to deal with my feelings with out the drug but I often need to force myself to do it without my coping mechanism of 20yrs. This is a struggle but I have Christ in my corner and he knows these struggles. His grace amazes me! It is always enough!
I didn't realize how selfish my addiction made me. I was so blind that obvious things I see now could have smacked me in the face and I would have blamed someone around me.
Anyway, I guess what I want to really say or the advice I have for you is to EMBRACE this suck. Helping others is good but don't allow it to be your new distraction. By letting yourself suffer then you are uncovering parts of you and empowering yourself to deal with them. That strengthens your quit and guides you towards a life of peace/solace. I think many of us try to lie about being broken. We try to find some fake finite stuff to fill a void within because we don't want to admit we are broken. However, I continue to find out the more I accept I am broken the more I actually become whole as I allow God's grace to heal me.
Well, even if you don't believe in the things I do I hope you can still see how the thinking applies. Understanding our limitations empowers us. It guides to opportunities of success and growth. If we don't understand our limits then we enter some opportunities expecting to much. These situations no longer become and opportunity of growth but actually failure, dissatisfaction, and a hindrance because our perspective was messed up from the start.
Okay, I have written enough for now. Thanks for your words as they prompted these thoughts. I am going to copy this and paste it in my thread just to have for future. I hope there is something in this you find beneficial.
I quit with you today Gorilla!
First, sorry to hear about the break up. That sucks.
I can relate to what ur saying gorilla... I used to use the evil poison because I used to think that it filled a void for me. I used to use it when I was stressed, when I needed a little pick up, use it when _____ (fill in the blank)
What you need to come to grips with is that the poison did nothing for you... in fact, it made everything worse. You thought that it was filling a void, but it was actually killing u and you were not dealing with natural, everyday problems like a normal person does. You do not need the poison to live. It does not help your mood, it will not solve your problems, it does not make you feel better. That is all a lie.
I am still working thru this myself, but I have worked to fill that void for now with workouts, food, candy, gum, slowing my breathing, getting on this site to rant, getting in KTC chat, texting KTC buds, etc. After 52 days, I can say that I am starting to deal with my emotions better, but I still need to work hard at it. Bottom line is I am QLF I don;t want to go back to the BS lies from before. I do not want to be a slave to the Nic B. I love being quit.
Anyhow, quit with you gorilla!!! Stay on this thing bro!
Gorilla, I quit with you every day. You have given me encouragement and made my quit better. I see you struggle like every addict here. Here's one thing that no one has said. Great job coming back after 2 failed attempts. That does take balls in my book. That being said, I want to ask you publicly.... Do you fee the same as you did during your 2 failed attempts? See when I quit 10 days ago, I felt an absolute difference. My new favorite analogy is jumping out of a plane or bungee jumping. So far, you've been bungee jumping. Yeah, you feel free for a minute but you are never really free. It's an illusion. 10 days ago, I decided to jump out of the freaking plane. For me, there is no going back. There is no tether to where I was. There is only the future for me. I have 50+ guys making my decent a safer more controlled experience. It's a hell of a ride but I tell you what, so far, nothing beats it.
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To all of you who are quit today I salute you. And thank you for helping me stay honest and accountable.
This is Day 10. I'm feeling better. I'm still having insane thoughts roll around my head about the BDS (black dog shit), but am not believing in them. As for the divorce stuff, it wasn't so bad. A bunch of bureaucratic bullshit to wade through in order to end something that took about 1/50th of the time to make happen. This is the right thing. I trust that.
Something strange happened today though: I felt more authentically connected with this site and the people on it. Especially the dudes that I've been in constant communication with; a squad of sorts. All of a sudden you fuckers have become "real". I know that sounds absurd, but all this disembodied connection with people is tough to ground and integrate. I know you all are real people, but the connection was just like. hey, another random person. Now some of you are becoming my friends. And I feel as if I know you. Is this coming out sounding like a lunatic? Whatever. The connection of a common problem is strong, but the connection of a common solution is even stronger. I am feeling that. Thank you for sticking with me and bringing me into the middle this time. I'm gonna stay there. You know who you are.
Does that answer your question Dean?
Peace.
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Its how we roll here we got each others back it has to be we r only as strong as our weakest link not sound cliche but it is we r real here. We are just connected artificially by electronic medium. U send a text or pm n poof a real human responds in the form of the squad. Happy to see u are drinking the koolaid bro keep us close
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The connection of a common problem is strong, but the connection of a common solution is even stronger.
I love this line gorilla! So true. Lots of commonality amongst using nic addicts, but even more so amongst quit nic addicts. Keep quit!
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We haven't texted bub but I want to you to know your post is full of good quitter thinking. You have became more self aware and your blowin up barriers the weed has been building over the years. That is awesome! I can relate to your words regarding the squad and hard to think of the interaction being between "real" bros and sisters of Quit. I twas around day 10 or so that I made this connection. For me it was through "Live Chat". Since the interaction was more realistic (real time) it helped the connection blossom for me. Since then I have been bustin Nic Barriers every damn day.
The connection of a common problem is strong, but the connection of a common solution is even stronger.
That is great! I have never thought of it like this. I am stealing this for my Signature. Hope you don't mind. Glad to be Quit with you.
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Day 15. Feeling a bit testy today. Short with my kids a bit and generally irritated by all the assholes I come in contact with. They say if you meet more than three asšoles in a day then guess who it is. I'm okay with that. What is my part to play? I EXPECT the world to turn in accordance with my wishes and beliefs. Guess what? It doesn't! Expectation leads to disappointment and disappointment to me feeling sorry for myself. And then what? Not this time. The thought of a dip hardly occurred. I jumped on my phone and started looking through this simple little site finding strength and hope and brotherhood. People suffering just like me, but more importantly people through on the other side waving me over and having a good time. I'm grateful for that. Thank you to all those in my squad and reaching out to say hello. And thank you to all those reaching out to me; you're helping more than you know.
Status: quit.
Peace.
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Day 15. Feeling a bit testy today. Short with my kids a bit and generally irritated by all the assholes I come in contact with. They say if you meet more than three asšoles in a day then guess who it is. I'm okay with that. What is my part to play? I EXPECT the world to turn in accordance with my wishes and beliefs. Guess what? It doesn't! Expectation leads to disappointment and disappointment to me feeling sorry for myself. And then what? Not this time. The thought of a dip hardly occurred. I jumped on my phone and started looking through this simple little site finding strength and hope and brotherhood. People suffering just like me, but more importantly people through on the other side waving me over and having a good time. I'm grateful for that. Thank you to all those in my squad and reaching out to say hello. And thank you to all those reaching out to me; you're helping more than you know.
Status: quit.
Peace.
Awesome post man.
There's times when this is easy. There's times when it's not.
Enjoy the good times, and get through the bad.
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Day 15. Feeling a bit testy today. Short with my kids a bit and generally irritated by all the assholes I come in contact with. They say if you meet more than three asšoles in a day then guess who it is. I'm okay with that. What is my part to play? I EXPECT the world to turn in accordance with my wishes and beliefs. Guess what? It doesn't! Expectation leads to disappointment and disappointment to me feeling sorry for myself. And then what? Not this time. The thought of a dip hardly occurred. I jumped on my phone and started looking through this simple little site finding strength and hope and brotherhood. People suffering just like me, but more importantly people through on the other side waving me over and having a good time. I'm grateful for that. Thank you to all those in my squad and reaching out to say hello. And thank you to all those reaching out to me; you're helping more than you know.
Status: quit.
Peace.
Awesome post man.
There's times when this is easy. There's times when it's not.
Enjoy the good times, and get through the bad.
Your in to deep now bro. You've come to far. Might as well see where this life without poison takes you. Proud of you gorilla. Your adding them 1's and things will continue getting better.
I know dealing with daily problems and everything else that life throws at you sucks sometimes. Where you are right now in your quit makes it even worse. Eventually your going to start handling life's problems better than ever. I can't believe how different things are sometimes.
I use to think the poison helped me deal, but now I'm seeing first hand all the lies i believed. Its one thing for me to tell you how much things are better, but its another to experience it yourself. Keep adding them 1's brother,, it does get better,, a whole lot better. Glad to be quit with you.
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Day 15. Feeling a bit testy today. Short with my kids a bit and generally irritated by all the assholes I come in contact with. They say if you meet more than three asšoles in a day then guess who it is. I'm okay with that. What is my part to play? I EXPECT the world to turn in accordance with my wishes and beliefs. Guess what? It doesn't! Expectation leads to disappointment and disappointment to me feeling sorry for myself. And then what? Not this time. The thought of a dip hardly occurred. I jumped on my phone and started looking through this simple little site finding strength and hope and brotherhood. People suffering just like me, but more importantly people through on the other side waving me over and having a good time. I'm grateful for that. Thank you to all those in my squad and reaching out to say hello. And thank you to all those reaching out to me; you're helping more than you know.
Status: quit.
Peace.
Awesome post man.
There's times when this is easy. There's times when it's not.
Enjoy the good times, and get through the bad.
Your in to deep now bro. You've come to far. Might as well see where this life without poison takes you. Proud of you gorilla. Your adding them 1's and things will continue getting better.
I know dealing with daily problems and everything else that life throws at you sucks sometimes. Where you are right now in your quit makes it even worse. Eventually your going to start handling life's problems better than ever. I can't believe how different things are sometimes.
I use to think the poison helped me deal, but now I'm seeing first hand all the lies i believed. Its one thing for me to tell you how much things are better, but its another to experience it yourself. Keep adding them 1's brother,, it does get better,, a whole lot better. Glad to be quit with you.
Everything this ^^^^^ bad ass just said x 2. Quit with you man all damn day!
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Day 15. Feeling a bit testy today. Short with my kids a bit and generally irritated by all the assholes I come in contact with. They say if you meet more than three asšoles in a day then guess who it is. I'm okay with that. What is my part to play? I EXPECT the world to turn in accordance with my wishes and beliefs. Guess what? It doesn't! Expectation leads to disappointment and disappointment to me feeling sorry for myself. And then what? Not this time. The thought of a dip hardly occurred. I jumped on my phone and started looking through this simple little site finding strength and hope and brotherhood. People suffering just like me, but more importantly people through on the other side waving me over and having a good time. I'm grateful for that. Thank you to all those in my squad and reaching out to say hello. And thank you to all those reaching out to me; you're helping more than you know.
Status: quit.
Peace.
Awesome post man.
There's times when this is easy. There's times when it's not.
Enjoy the good times, and get through the bad.
Your in to deep now bro. You've come to far. Might as well see where this life without poison takes you. Proud of you gorilla. Your adding them 1's and things will continue getting better.
I know dealing with daily problems and everything else that life throws at you sucks sometimes. Where you are right now in your quit makes it even worse. Eventually your going to start handling life's problems better than ever. I can't believe how different things are sometimes.
I use to think the poison helped me deal, but now I'm seeing first hand all the lies i believed. Its one thing for me to tell you how much things are better, but its another to experience it yourself. Keep adding them 1's brother,, it does get better,, a whole lot better. Glad to be quit with you.
Everything this ^^^^^ bad ass just said x 2. Quit with you man all damn day!
Sounds to me like someone has their eye on the prize FREEDOM. Keep it up Betty(ask gorilla) you can do it ODAAT man.
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Day 22 - what an amazing weekend! Spent three days posted up on a cliff overlooking the ocean in Santa Cruz, supported and helped a friend getting married to a great girl, ate some amazing food and did it all without a dip. Never even thought one would be a good idea or improve my experience.
Even better this week I have continued to grow my squad of homies on this site and get involved in the quits of others. We are strong here. We are quit here.
Peace.
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Day 22 - what an amazing weekend! Spent three days posted up on a cliff overlooking the ocean in Santa Cruz, supported and helped a friend getting married to a great girl, ate some amazing food and did it all without a dip. Never even thought one would be a good idea or improve my experience.
Even better this week I have continued to grow my squad of homies on this site and get involved in the quits of others. We are strong here. We are quit here.
Peace.
Good job tony. Proud of you bro. :)
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Day 22 - what an amazing weekend! Spent three days posted up on a cliff overlooking the ocean in Santa Cruz, supported and helped a friend getting married to a great girl, ate some amazing food and did it all without a dip. Never even thought one would be a good idea or improve my experience.Â
Even better this week I have continued to grow my squad of homies on this site and get involved in the quits of others. We are strong here. We are quit here.
Peace.
Good job tony. Proud of you bro. :)
I agree with Srans. You keep up this fight bro! Your building a hell of a quit. I quit with you.
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Day 22 - what an amazing weekend! Spent three days posted up on a cliff overlooking the ocean in Santa Cruz, supported and helped a friend getting married to a great girl, ate some amazing food and did it all without a dip. Never even thought one would be a good idea or improve my experience.
Even better this week I have continued to grow my squad of homies on this site and get involved in the quits of others. We are strong here. We are quit here.
Peace.
Sounds like a great weekend indeed!
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Day 22 - what an amazing weekend! Spent three days posted up on a cliff overlooking the ocean in Santa Cruz, supported and helped a friend getting married to a great girl, ate some amazing food and did it all without a dip. Never even thought one would be a good idea or improve my experience.Â
Even better this week I have continued to grow my squad of homies on this site and get involved in the quits of others. We are strong here. We are quit here.
Peace.
Good job tony. Proud of you bro. :)
I agree with Srans. You keep up this fight bro! Your building a hell of a quit. I quit with you.
NICE bro you are doing this keep vigilant proud of you man remember ODAAT
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Vegas is currently taking no action on Gheyrilla. The over - under is 36.5 days. 'Popcorn'
Gorilla
You're kicking some serious ass and helping out others like a true leader. I just wanted to let you know that I'm taking the OVER +life on your quit.
Keep it up, bro!
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Vegas is currently taking no action on Gheyrilla. The over - under is 36.5 days. 'Popcorn'
Gorilla
You're kicking some serious ass and helping out others like a true leader. I just wanted to let you know that I'm taking the OVER +life on your quit.
Keep it up, bro!
Having spoken to Gorilla recently and the fact that he posted day 33 today I can tell you, the brother will continue way past that date. He knows the true definition of quit now.
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Vegas is currently taking no action on Gheyrilla. The over - under is 36.5 days.  'Popcorn'
Gorilla
You're kicking some serious ass and helping out others like a true leader. I just wanted to let you know that I'm taking the OVER +life on your quit.
Keep it up, bro!
Having spoken to Gorilla recently and the fact that he posted day 33 today I can tell you, the brother will continue way past that date. He knows the true definition of quit now.
he has some jackwagin blood in him keep it up bro.
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Vegas is currently taking no action on Gheyrilla. The over - under is 36.5 days.  'Popcorn'
Gorilla
You're kicking some serious ass and helping out others like a true leader. I just wanted to let you know that I'm taking the OVER +life on your quit.
Keep it up, bro!
Having spoken to Gorilla recently and the fact that he posted day 33 today I can tell you, the brother will continue way past that date. He knows the true definition of quit now.
he has some jackwagin blood in him keep it up bro.
Kickin it.
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Vegas is currently taking no action on Gheyrilla. The over - under is 36.5 days.  'Popcorn'
Gorilla
You're kicking some serious ass and helping out others like a true leader. I just wanted to let you know that I'm taking the OVER +life on your quit.
Keep it up, bro!
Having spoken to Gorilla recently and the fact that he posted day 33 today I can tell you, the brother will continue way past that date. He knows the true definition of quit now.
he has some jackwagin blood in him keep it up bro.
Kickin it.
:ph43r:
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Vegas is currently taking no action on Gheyrilla. The over - under is 36.5 days.  'Popcorn'
Gorilla
You're kicking some serious ass and helping out others like a true leader. I just wanted to let you know that I'm taking the OVER +life on your quit.
Keep it up, bro!
Having spoken to Gorilla recently and the fact that he posted day 33 today I can tell you, the brother will continue way past that date. He knows the true definition of quit now.
he has some jackwagin blood in him keep it up bro.
Kickin it.
:ph43r:
I know this gorilla guy you speak of... he is a bada$$ quitter!
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Vegas is currently taking no action on Gheyrilla. The over - under is 36.5 days.  'Popcorn'
Gorilla
You're kicking some serious ass and helping out others like a true leader. I just wanted to let you know that I'm taking the OVER +life on your quit.
Keep it up, bro!
Having spoken to Gorilla recently and the fact that he posted day 33 today I can tell you, the brother will continue way past that date. He knows the true definition of quit now.
he has some jackwagin blood in him keep it up bro.
Kickin it.
:ph43r:
I know this gorilla guy you speak of... he is a bada$$ quitter!
No problem vouching for this quitter (http://youtu.be/p2_lJ2bGltE)
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Day 33
Thank you for helping me out. There is no way I could have gotten this far on my own. And, I'm sure, to continue on, I've got to keep growing this thing. Reaching out to new guys and vets and my peers in Nov13 has been helpful. I'm gonna keep that up cause I'm seeing what happens when you don't. We've been seeing some brothers drop off the radar in our group lately. As a chronic fucking cave dweller I"m not surprised. This quit business is not for the meek, it's not for the lazy and it's certainly not for those who need it. It is for those who WANT it. And I am quitting with those who WANT it. I'm not mad or frightened by those brothers or sisters who cave. There is no reason to fear a caver. They have reminded me of what not to do; of where I never wish to be again. I feel bad for them because they've got to continue to suffer under the deceitful tyranny of addiction. They've believed the lie. The lie of just one more or tomorrow or I've got this thing or insert bullshit reasoning of choice here. I will only ever use that shit again under the guile of a lie. I will not use again on the truth. Well, the problem with a guy like me is that I am forgetful. I've got a built-in fucking forgetter and need to be in contact with KTC and my crew in order to continue to hear the truth. The unity that I am experiencing here, building here with others is truly remarkable. I extend my hand to those who wanna join us in building that and discover what it means to really live.
Peace.
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Day 33
Thank you for helping me out. There is no way I could have gotten this far on my own. And, I'm sure, to continue on, I've got to keep growing this thing. Reaching out to new guys and vets and my peers in Nov13 has been helpful. I'm gonna keep that up cause I'm seeing what happens when you don't. We've been seeing some brothers drop off the radar in our group lately. As a chronic fucking cave dweller I"m not surprised. This quit business is not for the meek, it's not for the lazy and it's certainly not for those who need it. It is for those who WANT it. And I am quitting with those who WANT it. I'm not mad or frightened by those brothers or sisters who cave. There is no reason to fear a caver. They have reminded me of what not to do; of where I never wish to be again. I feel bad for them because they've got to continue to suffer under the deceitful tyranny of addiction. They've believed the lie. The lie of just one more or tomorrow or I've got this thing or insert bullshit reasoning of choice here. I will only ever use that shit again under the guile of a lie. I will not use again on the truth. Well, the problem with a guy like me is that I am forgetful. I've got a built-in fucking forgetter and need to be in contact with KTC and my crew in order to continue to hear the truth. The unity that I am experiencing here, building here with others is truly remarkable. I extend my hand to those who wanna join us in building that and discover what it means to really live.
Peace.
Some serious quit going on here. :rolleyes:
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Gorilla
You're kicking some serious ass and helping out others like a true leader. I just wanted to let you know that I'm taking the OVER +life on your quit.
Keep it up, bro!
Having spoken to Gorilla recently and the fact that he posted day 33 today I can tell you, the brother will continue way past that date. He knows the true definition of quit now.
he has some jackwagin blood in him keep it up bro.
Kickin it.
:ph43r:
I know this gorilla guy you speak of... he is a bada$$ quitter!
No problem vouching for this quitter (http://youtu.be/p2_lJ2bGltE)
He has put in the work taken his lumps has his ears pinned down and his thread entry speaks of the Kool Aid he has ingested. I will quit w this gorilla monsoon EDD.
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Day 33
Thank you for helping me out. There is no way I could have gotten this far on my own. And, I'm sure, to continue on, I've got to keep growing this thing. Reaching out to new guys and vets and my peers in Nov13 has been helpful. I'm gonna keep that up cause I'm seeing what happens when you don't. We've been seeing some brothers drop off the radar in our group lately. As a chronic fucking cave dweller I"m not surprised. This quit business is not for the meek, it's not for the lazy and it's certainly not for those who need it. It is for those who WANT it. And I am quitting with those who WANT it. I'm not mad or frightened by those brothers or sisters who cave. There is no reason to fear a caver. They have reminded me of what not to do; of where I never wish to be again. I feel bad for them because they've got to continue to suffer under the deceitful tyranny of addiction. They've believed the lie. The lie of just one more or tomorrow or I've got this thing or insert bullshit reasoning of choice here. I will only ever use that shit again under the guile of a lie. I will not use again on the truth. Well, the problem with a guy like me is that I am forgetful. I've got a built-in fucking forgetter and need to be in contact with KTC and my crew in order to continue to hear the truth. The unity that I am experiencing here, building here with others is truly remarkable. I extend my hand to those who wanna join us in building that and discover what it means to really live.
Peace.
Some serious quit going on here. :rolleyes:
yes sir this is a good read the realization that dip is nothing more than a pipedream, we thought for years it was necessary now we know it is not. Keep up your guard be vigilant.
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Day 33
Thank you for helping me out. There is no way I could have gotten this far on my own. And, I'm sure, to continue on, I've got to keep growing this thing. Reaching out to new guys and vets and my peers in Nov13 has been helpful. I'm gonna keep that up cause I'm seeing what happens when you don't. We've been seeing some brothers drop off the radar in our group lately. As a chronic fucking cave dweller I"m not surprised. This quit business is not for the meek, it's not for the lazy and it's certainly not for those who need it. It is for those who WANT it. And I am quitting with those who WANT it. I'm not mad or frightened by those brothers or sisters who cave. There is no reason to fear a caver. They have reminded me of what not to do; of where I never wish to be again. I feel bad for them because they've got to continue to suffer under the deceitful tyranny of addiction. They've believed the lie. The lie of just one more or tomorrow or I've got this thing or insert bullshit reasoning of choice here. I will only ever use that shit again under the guile of a lie. I will not use again on the truth. Well, the problem with a guy like me is that I am forgetful. I've got a built-in fucking forgetter and need to be in contact with KTC and my crew in order to continue to hear the truth. The unity that I am experiencing here, building here with others is truly remarkable. I extend my hand to those who wanna join us in building that and discover what it means to really live.
Peace.
+1 I still can't hardly believe the brotherhood on this site. It's truly incredible actually. But I like what Mookie told me on FB earlier, that a group of men working with a common purpose can achieve great things. I like it. I know there's no way I could've gotten this far without the group. So thankyou all too!
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Day 33
Thank you for helping me out. There is no way I could have gotten this far on my own. And, I'm sure, to continue on, I've got to keep growing this thing. Reaching out to new guys and vets and my peers in Nov13 has been helpful. I'm gonna keep that up cause I'm seeing what happens when you don't. We've been seeing some brothers drop off the radar in our group lately. As a chronic fucking cave dweller I"m not surprised. This quit business is not for the meek, it's not for the lazy and it's certainly not for those who need it. It is for those who WANT it. And I am quitting with those who WANT it. I'm not mad or frightened by those brothers or sisters who cave. There is no reason to fear a caver. They have reminded me of what not to do; of where I never wish to be again. I feel bad for them because they've got to continue to suffer under the deceitful tyranny of addiction. They've believed the lie. The lie of just one more or tomorrow or I've got this thing or insert bullshit reasoning of choice here. I will only ever use that shit again under the guile of a lie. I will not use again on the truth. Well, the problem with a guy like me is that I am forgetful. I've got a built-in fucking forgetter and need to be in contact with KTC and my crew in order to continue to hear the truth. The unity that I am experiencing here, building here with others is truly remarkable. I extend my hand to those who wanna join us in building that and discover what it means to really live.
Peace.
+1 I still can't hardly believe the brotherhood on this site. It's truly incredible actually. But I like what Mookie told me on FB earlier, that a group of men working with a common purpose can achieve great things. I like it. I know there's no way I could've gotten this far without the group. So thankyou all too!
the most important thing to remember is we're all the same. We understand what each other are going through. I told my sister in law when I hit 1 year nic free, her reply - wow that's great, hey where's helen at? Bless her heart she cares, but she doesn't understand. There's a certain breed that can achieve what we're doing, and we all do it together. we celebrate together, we get through the tough times together, this IS a special place. This place saved my life, This is where i belong, this is the ktc brotherhood, and it's my destiny..quit
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Hmmm....usually don't like being wrong. But I am this time. Your quit is gaining momentum gorilla and growing more erect every day. Proud to quit with you today.
Vadge 605
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Day 44. Damn if I am not feeling like shit the past few days. Cloudy. Sad. Can't seem to motivate myself wortha shit. Of course we've been under a pile of rain and flooding so can't go anywhere til now either. What is going on? I get so full of self-pity sometimes. I wanna cut myself off from the world. Stop giving a fuck. The lone wolf syndrome has kicked into high gear and there is a pain in me somewhere that I just can't seem to alleviate. I know this will pass, but I'm throwing it out there because I feel myself drifting from some of my brothers here and I'm attempting to get back in the middle of the pack. Don't want this bump in the road to be anything more than that- a bump.
Quit with you.
Peace.
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Day 44. Damn if I am not feeling like shit the past few days. Cloudy. Sad. Can't seem to motivate myself wortha shit. Of course we've been under a pile of rain and flooding so can't go anywhere til now either. What is going on? I get so full of self-pity sometimes. I wanna cut myself off from the world. Stop giving a fuck. The lone wolf syndrome has kicked into high gear and there is a pain in me somewhere that I just can't seem to alleviate. I know this will pass, but I'm throwing it out there because I feel myself drifting from some of my brothers here and I'm attempting to get back in the middle of the pack. Don't want this bump in the road to be anything more than that- a bump.
Quit with you.
Peace.
You got the "fuck its". Totally normal and totally sucks .
Shake your fucking self my man. You know going back to the bitch will do no good. You busted balls for 44 days, don't fuck it up.
Why the self pity? Why cut yourself off to the outside world? What are you gonna do, walk around your house in an oversized stained sweatshirt , eating ice cream right out of the tub like a fat chick who can't get a date?
Why?
You miss her? You miss the nic bitch? You miss the sore lip, achy gums, numb tongue, shit breath, spitting into a bottle, dwindling pocket book, and increased risk of cancer?
You want to go back to her for one more bang for old times sake?
You know there's no "one more", you know it will only lead to more and more and eventually your dick falling off.
I get you're feeling down and in a rut, but FIGHT God Dammit!!! Don't bitch out and throw yourself a pity party. Ain't nobody here want to hear that shit.
Get up off the mat. Get involved with your quit group, comment on 10 intros threads, help a newbie, read some shit, but KEEP MOVING!!!!
The nic bitch LOVES a sitting target, don't give her a chance...get off your ass!!!
You got this shit, bro. We are here for you, use us!
Quit on...
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Day 44. Damn if I am not feeling like shit the past few days. Cloudy. Sad. Can't seem to motivate myself wortha shit. Of course we've been under a pile of rain and flooding so can't go anywhere til now either. What is going on? I get so full of self-pity sometimes. I wanna cut myself off from the world. Stop giving a fuck. The lone wolf syndrome has kicked into high gear and there is a pain in me somewhere that I just can't seem to alleviate. I know this will pass, but I'm throwing it out there because I feel myself drifting from some of my brothers here and I'm attempting to get back in the middle of the pack. Don't want this bump in the road to be anything more than that- a bump.
Quit with you.
Peace.
You got the "fuck its". Totally normal and totally sucks .
Shake your fucking self my man. You know going back to the bitch will do no good. You busted balls for 44 days, don't fuck it up.
Why the self pity? Why cut yourself off to the outside world? What are you gonna do, walk around your house in an oversized stained sweatshirt , eating ice cream right out of the tub like a fat chick who can't get a date?
Why?
You miss her? You miss the nic bitch? You miss the sore lip, achy gums, numb tongue, shit breath, spitting into a bottle, dwindling pocket book, and increased risk of cancer?
You want to go back to her for one more bang for old times sake?
You know there's no "one more", you know it will only lead to more and more and eventually your dick falling off.
I get you're feeling down and in a rut, but FIGHT God Dammit!!! Don't bitch out and throw yourself a pity party. Ain't nobody here want to hear that shit.
Get up off the mat. Get involved with your quit group, comment on 10 intros threads, help a newbie, read some shit, but KEEP MOVING!!!!
The nic bitch LOVES a sitting target, don't give her a chance...get off your ass!!!
You got this shit, bro. We are here for you, use us!
Quit on...
Diesel is right, keep moving. Very good advice if taken literally. Go get some cardio, drink water. (not powerade, gatorade, koolaid, coke, redbull, coffee etc) water.
Getting some exercise will help you get out of the funk.
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Day 44. Damn if I am not feeling like shit the past few days. Cloudy. Sad. Can't seem to motivate myself wortha shit. Of course we've been under a pile of rain and flooding so can't go anywhere til now either. What is going on? I get so full of self-pity sometimes. I wanna cut myself off from the world. Stop giving a fuck. The lone wolf syndrome has kicked into high gear and there is a pain in me somewhere that I just can't seem to alleviate. I know this will pass, but I'm throwing it out there because I feel myself drifting from some of my brothers here and I'm attempting to get back in the middle of the pack. Don't want this bump in the road to be anything more than that- a bump.
Quit with you.
Peace.
You got the "fuck its". Totally normal and totally sucks .
Shake your fucking self my man. You know going back to the bitch will do no good. You busted balls for 44 days, don't fuck it up.
Why the self pity? Why cut yourself off to the outside world? What are you gonna do, walk around your house in an oversized stained sweatshirt , eating ice cream right out of the tub like a fat chick who can't get a date?
Why?
You miss her? You miss the nic bitch? You miss the sore lip, achy gums, numb tongue, shit breath, spitting into a bottle, dwindling pocket book, and increased risk of cancer?
You want to go back to her for one more bang for old times sake?
You know there's no "one more", you know it will only lead to more and more and eventually your dick falling off.
I get you're feeling down and in a rut, but FIGHT God Dammit!!! Don't bitch out and throw yourself a pity party. Ain't nobody here want to hear that shit.
Get up off the mat. Get involved with your quit group, comment on 10 intros threads, help a newbie, read some shit, but KEEP MOVING!!!!
The nic bitch LOVES a sitting target, don't give her a chance...get off your ass!!!
You got this shit, bro. We are here for you, use us!
Quit on...
Diesel is right, keep moving. Very good advice if taken literally. Go get some cardio, drink water. (not powerade, gatorade, koolaid, coke, redbull, coffee etc) water.
Getting some exercise will help you get out of the funk.
44 days is some good quitting gorilla. That is awesome work! Some difficult times out in your home state I bet very stressful. Stay safe out there!
- First, the old gorilla... the "addicted to nicotine gorilla" would not have recognized this was happening. He would have went back to old ways... the "new, quit gorilla" recognizes a rough patch and wants to get back in the game. That is how a quitter thinks. I am proud of you bro! Recognize, react hold that quit.
- Remember that just because you are quit... that does not stop the world around us. We are going to have good and bad times. Know that. The thing you go to remember is why you are here know that you will be quit during both good and bad times. The quit is you! Just like waking up in the morning, brushing your teeth, eating... you are quit! You are doing this!
- Everyone goes thru these rough patches. We build the relationships with folks on this site to help get thru exactly what you are going thru. When all is well... quitting is easy. It is days like these... when it is just off or we feel like garbage that the the true accountability starts. We lean on and support each other!
- As stated above... do something that will get your mind moving in the right direction. Exercise is great... but just about anything to get your mind moving in the right direction.
You are doing this brother! I am damn proud to be quit with you! Now, wake up and post roll for a day 45!
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Day 44. Damn if I am not feeling like shit the past few days. Cloudy. Sad. Can't seem to motivate myself wortha shit. Of course we've been under a pile of rain and flooding so can't go anywhere til now either. What is going on? I get so full of self-pity sometimes. I wanna cut myself off from the world. Stop giving a fuck. The lone wolf syndrome has kicked into high gear and there is a pain in me somewhere that I just can't seem to alleviate. I know this will pass, but I'm throwing it out there because I feel myself drifting from some of my brothers here and I'm attempting to get back in the middle of the pack. Don't want this bump in the road to be anything more than that- a bump.
Quit with you.
Peace.
You got the "fuck its". Totally normal and totally sucks .
Shake your fucking self my man. You know going back to the bitch will do no good. You busted balls for 44 days, don't fuck it up.
Why the self pity? Why cut yourself off to the outside world? What are you gonna do, walk around your house in an oversized stained sweatshirt , eating ice cream right out of the tub like a fat chick who can't get a date?
Why?
You miss her? You miss the nic bitch? You miss the sore lip, achy gums, numb tongue, shit breath, spitting into a bottle, dwindling pocket book, and increased risk of cancer?
You want to go back to her for one more bang for old times sake?
You know there's no "one more", you know it will only lead to more and more and eventually your dick falling off.
I get you're feeling down and in a rut, but FIGHT God Dammit!!! Don't bitch out and throw yourself a pity party. Ain't nobody here want to hear that shit.
Get up off the mat. Get involved with your quit group, comment on 10 intros threads, help a newbie, read some shit, but KEEP MOVING!!!!
The nic bitch LOVES a sitting target, don't give her a chance...get off your ass!!!
You got this shit, bro. We are here for you, use us!
Quit on...
Diesel is right, keep moving. Very good advice if taken literally. Go get some cardio, drink water. (not powerade, gatorade, koolaid, coke, redbull, coffee etc) water.
Getting some exercise will help you get out of the funk.
44 days is some good quitting gorilla. That is awesome work! Some difficult times out in your home state I bet very stressful. Stay safe out there!
- First, the old gorilla... the "addicted to nicotine gorilla" would not have recognized this was happening. He would have went back to old ways... the "new, quit gorilla" recognizes a rough patch and wants to get back in the game. That is how a quitter thinks. I am proud of you bro! Recognize, react hold that quit.
- Remember that just because you are quit... that does not stop the world around us. We are going to have good and bad times. Know that. The thing you go to remember is why you are here know that you will be quit during both good and bad times. The quit is you! Just like waking up in the morning, brushing your teeth, eating... you are quit! You are doing this!
- Everyone goes thru these rough patches. We build the relationships with folks on this site to help get thru exactly what you are going thru. When all is well... quitting is easy. It is days like these... when it is just off or we feel like garbage that the the true accountability starts. We lean on and support each other!
- As stated above... do something that will get your mind moving in the right direction. Exercise is great... but just about anything to get your mind moving in the right direction.
You are doing this brother! I am damn proud to be quit with you! Now, wake up and post roll for a day 45!
Your going through one of them there funks. Dig deep brother and turn that 44 into 45,,, That's how quitting is done. Turn that funk into being proud of where you are. Turn that funk into victory. I think them funks are your brain saying thank you. I think the brain just wants to take a few days off after working hard to fix what you screwed up for years.
Exercise, get some pushups, go for a walk/run and then go get a milk shake. I like smoothies,, as a matter of fact i'm going to get one of those for lunch,, yea! Thanks for the idea.
You got this tony,, just bide your time. Great things coming, get through the next door. You will like what's on the other side. Damn glad to be quit with you.
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Day 44. Damn if I am not feeling like shit the past few days. Cloudy. Sad. Can't seem to motivate myself wortha shit. Of course we've been under a pile of rain and flooding so can't go anywhere til now either. What is going on? I get so full of self-pity sometimes. I wanna cut myself off from the world. Stop giving a fuck. The lone wolf syndrome has kicked into high gear and there is a pain in me somewhere that I just can't seem to alleviate. I know this will pass, but I'm throwing it out there because I feel myself drifting from some of my brothers here and I'm attempting to get back in the middle of the pack. Don't want this bump in the road to be anything more than that- a bump.
Quit with you.
Peace.
You got the "fuck its". Totally normal and totally sucks .
Shake your fucking self my man. You know going back to the bitch will do no good. You busted balls for 44 days, don't fuck it up.
Why the self pity? Why cut yourself off to the outside world? What are you gonna do, walk around your house in an oversized stained sweatshirt , eating ice cream right out of the tub like a fat chick who can't get a date?
Why?
You miss her? You miss the nic bitch? You miss the sore lip, achy gums, numb tongue, shit breath, spitting into a bottle, dwindling pocket book, and increased risk of cancer?
You want to go back to her for one more bang for old times sake?
You know there's no "one more", you know it will only lead to more and more and eventually your dick falling off.
I get you're feeling down and in a rut, but FIGHT God Dammit!!! Don't bitch out and throw yourself a pity party. Ain't nobody here want to hear that shit.
Get up off the mat. Get involved with your quit group, comment on 10 intros threads, help a newbie, read some shit, but KEEP MOVING!!!!
The nic bitch LOVES a sitting target, don't give her a chance...get off your ass!!!
You got this shit, bro. We are here for you, use us!
Quit on...
Diesel is right, keep moving. Very good advice if taken literally. Go get some cardio, drink water. (not powerade, gatorade, koolaid, coke, redbull, coffee etc) water.
Getting some exercise will help you get out of the funk.
44 days is some good quitting gorilla. That is awesome work! Some difficult times out in your home state I bet very stressful. Stay safe out there!
- First, the old gorilla... the "addicted to nicotine gorilla" would not have recognized this was happening. He would have went back to old ways... the "new, quit gorilla" recognizes a rough patch and wants to get back in the game. That is how a quitter thinks. I am proud of you bro! Recognize, react hold that quit.
- Remember that just because you are quit... that does not stop the world around us. We are going to have good and bad times. Know that. The thing you go to remember is why you are here know that you will be quit during both good and bad times. The quit is you! Just like waking up in the morning, brushing your teeth, eating... you are quit! You are doing this!
- Everyone goes thru these rough patches. We build the relationships with folks on this site to help get thru exactly what you are going thru. When all is well... quitting is easy. It is days like these... when it is just off or we feel like garbage that the the true accountability starts. We lean on and support each other!
- As stated above... do something that will get your mind moving in the right direction. Exercise is great... but just about anything to get your mind moving in the right direction.
You are doing this brother! I am damn proud to be quit with you! Now, wake up and post roll for a day 45!
Your going through one of them there funks. Dig deep brother and turn that 44 into 45,,, That's how quitting is done. Turn that funk into being proud of where you are. Turn that funk into victory. I think them funks are your brain saying thank you. I think the brain just wants to take a few days off after working hard to fix what you screwed up for years.
Exercise, get some pushups, go for a walk/run and then go get a milk shake. I like smoothies,, as a matter of fact i'm going to get one of those for lunch,, yea! Thanks for the idea.
You got this tony,, just bide your time. Great things coming, get through the next door. You will like what's on the other side. Damn glad to be quit with you.
NAFAR...bro... you got a ton of quit in you I would agree with DERK the old Gorilla would have not recognized would not have reached out. The new Gorilla is using his tools reaching out understanding that you are not an island. You have a 15K of addicts that are there for you and you for them. Keep it up pin your ears down and kick her ass.
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Day 98 - It's been some time since I posted in my intro and I reckon that I will be posting in here again soon as the fabled HOF comes to fruition. However, yesterday, Day 97, was one of the most difficult and hard days yet. There has been a lot of crap going on with the ex-wife and I just wanted to escape the pain. there was nowhere to run except to KTC and the brothers I've made here. They helped me through the day and I made it, dip free. Another testament to the power of unity here at KTC. Thank you.
Peace.
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we stick together - lions and hyena prey on the game that stray from the heard - the survivors hang out in the middle of the heard - that's where I want to be. Jbob
Wise words bro listen to them. Hang in there it will suck til it don't then it won't...?sM
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Ok Magilla here's the deal.
Your hitting a funk. Your brain chemistry is literally rewiring. Having an epic case of the fuck its is a pretty good description of how it feels.
There is a fairly consistent pattern where quitters hit a rough patch around day 70 and again shortly after the Hof. Your right on track.
As for the escaping the " Pain"? , your looking down the wrong rabbit hole Alice.
Nicotine doesn't fix a broken heart, lost job, bad days, or anything else. Life is still throw you inside pitches and sometimes your gonna take one on the nose. Going back to dipping won't fix that.
Remember, while the hof is a fine accomplishment, but it isn't a finish line. You will not magically feel better on day 100. I will tell you that it still gets so much better. Just keep quitting ONE DAY AT A TIME.
Congrats on the Hof
sM
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gorilla1 – The train is now headed to Colorado to pick up a single father of two who spends his days as an Arborist. This former Copenhagen Longcut dipper has certainly had his ups and downs but stuck to his guns and kick some Nic Bitch ass. The craziest thing he has done included jumping off the bridge at Blue Hole in West Virginia (while playing the banjo?). Gorilla1 would like to thank Chad and Traumagnet for not giving up on him and pulling him back from the depths while he was in the thick fog. He also indicated that several people form KTC were vital in his quit, even including some of the knucklehead cavers that lacked the testicular fortitude to make it but shared their misfortune which in turn helped him see the light.
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gorilla1 – The train is now headed to Colorado to pick up a single father of two who spends his days as an Arborist. This former Copenhagen Longcut dipper has certainly had his ups and downs but stuck to his guns and kick some Nic Bitch ass. The craziest thing he has done included jumping off the bridge at Blue Hole in West Virginia (while playing the banjo?). Gorilla1 would like to thank Chad and Traumagnet for not giving up on him and pulling him back from the depths while he was in the thick fog. He also indicated that several people form KTC were vital in his quit, even including some of the knucklehead cavers that lacked the testicular fortitude to make it but shared their misfortune which in turn helped him see the light.
Congratulations, Tony Gorilla! Thank you for being instrumental in MY quit. You're 100 days closer to 101.
'oh yeah'
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gorilla1 – The train is now headed to Colorado to pick up a single father of two who spends his days as an Arborist. This former Copenhagen Longcut dipper has certainly had his ups and downs but stuck to his guns and kick some Nic Bitch ass. The craziest thing he has done included jumping off the bridge at Blue Hole in West Virginia (while playing the banjo?). Gorilla1 would like to thank Chad and Traumagnet for not giving up on him and pulling him back from the depths while he was in the thick fog. He also indicated that several people form KTC were vital in his quit, even including some of the knucklehead cavers that lacked the testicular fortitude to make it but shared their misfortune which in turn helped him see the light.
Congratulations, Tony Gorilla! Thank you for being instrumental in MY quit. You're 100 days closer to 101.
'oh yeah'
Great job tony. Proud of you.
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gorilla1 � The train is now headed to Colorado to pick up a single father of two who spends his days as an Arborist.� This former Copenhagen Longcut dipper has certainly had his ups and downs but stuck to his guns and kick some Nic Bitch ass.� The craziest thing he has done included jumping off the bridge at Blue Hole in West Virginia (while playing the banjo?).� Gorilla1 would like to thank Chad and Traumagnet for not giving up on him and pulling him back from the depths while he was in the thick fog.� He also indicated that several people form KTC were vital in his quit, even including some of the knucklehead cavers that lacked the testicular fortitude to make it but shared their misfortune which in turn helped him see the light.
Congratulations, Tony Gorilla! Thank you for being instrumental in MY quit. You're 100 days closer to 101.
'oh yeah'
Great job tony. Proud of you.
Tony, We've been walking the same path for the last 100 days. It's nice to board the train together. NAFAR brother.
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gorilla1 � The train is now headed to Colorado to pick up a single father of two who spends his days as an Arborist.� This former Copenhagen Longcut dipper has certainly had his ups and downs but stuck to his guns and kick some Nic Bitch ass.� The craziest thing he has done included jumping off the bridge at Blue Hole in West Virginia (while playing the banjo?).� Gorilla1 would like to thank Chad and Traumagnet for not giving up on him and pulling him back from the depths while he was in the thick fog.� He also indicated that several people form KTC were vital in his quit, even including some of the knucklehead cavers that lacked the testicular fortitude to make it but shared their misfortune which in turn helped him see the light.
Congratulations, Tony Gorilla! Thank you for being instrumental in MY quit. You're 100 days closer to 101.
'oh yeah'
Great job tony. Proud of you.
Tony, We've been walking the same path for the last 100 days. It's nice to board the train together. NAFAR brother.
Your a bad ass. This quitter Texted me almost every day for 100 days. I tried to help you but most of all you helped me. Quit with you.
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100 days of quit! Nice job brother! Let's keep er rollin!
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Welcome to the 2nd floor!!! 'clap'
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Welcome to the 2nd floor!!! 'clap'
Niiiiice!
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Welcome to the 2nd floor!!! 'clap'
Niiiiice!
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Welcome to the 2nd floor!!! 'clap'
Niiiiice!
Congrats on 200 bro! Keep it rolling today!
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Welcome to the 2nd floor!!! 'clap'
Niiiiice!
Congrats on 200 bro! Keep it rolling today!
200 wow u r here this is not the end this is a journey that has no finish line keep adding +1's