KillTheCan.org Accountability Forum
Community => Introductions => Topic started by: dalgyboy on December 14, 2012, 03:15:00 PM
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4:37pm on dec 11th I threw all my Kodiak and spit bottles etc away. Since then, I have been wandering all over this damn forum not quite sure what I was doing. I just kept hitting keys and see what happened.
I still have not figured out all the damn ctrl-V shit and i am sure the fog has got something to do with this. Posting roll in the morning takes me about an hour to figure out where and what to do.
I am 45 years old. Married. 3 kids.
I coach soccer at the NCAA Div I level. Dipping Kodiak for 18 years. I am from Scotland and came to the USA in 1989. Started dipping soon after.
Smokeless Tobacco is banned in Great Britain...mmm? there's a thouhgt??
Not one thing made me stop. Just had a fuckkitt moment.
I suck at typing.
I like to run.
Love to cook
I drink too much beer, and i am scared as shit that I will die from this.
I have been in denial for too long. This KTC site has been great. Stumbled on it. Read some posts and saw some pics and that was it.
I am struggling with this addiction but I will win this one. No doubt.
I was not sure what an introduction is/was, so this is why I am posting this on day 3. Dalgyboy is quit. Good luck to everyone and thanks for the support this far. I hope I can make it to tomorrow
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Glad to see you here with us. it is hard to figure this site out when u are in the fog of the first three days. you can do this. go to the top left of the page and click on the salmon colored welcome center and read up on posting roll call. you will be in the march quit group. post roll today as a promise to quit for today. then return tomorrow and do the same thing. one day at a time. any other questions pm me or ask any one of the vets on here they are all bad ass.
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Welcome. The withdrawls will have you confused on all types of things. Embrace the quit and let this site be your guide. Be careful with the beer. It can be a trigger, and if you let it, it may replace your nicotene addiction. Banning tobacco? With the decreasing of ethics and morality, we are approving of more drugs, marijuana, as a way to escape or enter into an alter state of being. Live a natural way of life, and you will be pleased with yourself.
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Hey Dalgyboy I've been watching you clusterfuck roll for the last few days. Quite enjoyable!!!! Don't worry about that - you'll figure it out as you go. The important thing right now is to start talking to some people in your group and laying the groundwork for your quit. Focus on today for now. Don't worry about tomorrow or a week from now. Quit by the day - by the hour or even minute if you have to. It isn't always gonna be easy but then nothing worth doing ever is correct? You've already made it a few days - that's the hardest part. The rest is hard as well, but you're past the worst part. Now it's up to you. How badly do you want to quit? If you half ass it, you're in the wrong place. If you continue to put all your balls and effort into it like I've seen so far, then the support and sense of community here is going to amaze you. Let me assure you that you CAN quit. Hundreds of people do it every day here on KTC including myself. When I first started, I didn't believe I could do it. Now I know better. I know you can as well. I'll be watching for you on roll call. PM (private message) me if you need anything or you want a phone number. Sounds strange huh? Giving some dude you don't know your phone number...well it happens all the time here because we hold each other accountable and we support one another. I have over 50 numbers. I consider some of these people - 99% of whom I will NEVER meet - my friends. Buckle up and post roll every day bro - it isn't optional. I'll quit with you.
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What's up bro! The roll instructions using "ctrl" was too difficult for me too. I just quote the last guy(black box in upper right hand corner), go down to the box with the role to left click--highlight everything--right click--cut then, cursor up to the empty reply box and right click--paste--find the end of the new quitter section (you can scroll down to look at the full version of the quote below if you need it for reference to who is last)--type in your response to the roll call.
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This video was very helpful to me:
video on how to post roll (http://www.killthecan.org/roll/)
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Hey! Glad to see you got your own intro
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So glad you found us
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Welcome to KTC. This site is a life saver, Sure saved mine and countless other's before me. I quit with you today. If you ever need anything at all just pm me.
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Thanks guys.
Of course, I am very happy to provide some amusement to my more computer savvy brethern last few days.
every little text/message I have received so far have saved me....even if they have had some fun with my "fog"
4 days no nicotine!
I drive a lot and yesterday I had about a 4 hour drive on a lonely, monotonous Interstate. as a (former) dipper, you guys know that the long drive is a "must have a dip" time.
I wavered a few times and then started calling myself a pussy. Started yelling at myself...passing cars would think I was singing.
I need to reach out to others and will do so very soon. I need to get to the point where stuffing brown poison in my lip is no longer a craving. I am quit.
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To all the strangers who have reached out. Thank you! You are saving my life one dip-free day at a time
I keep reading stuff on here and feel compelled to post. read...post....read...post
On day 5 now and it feels so powerful that I have gone 5 days without a dip. I know all you vets are very aware of what this feels like, and I also know there is a long way to go.
2 things have helped a lot.
First, knowing there is a bunch of guys like you out there who know exactly what it feels like to drive, cut grass, watch sports, dip after lunch, have a beer etc. WITH a dip. And, in turn, know what it feels like to face all these small events WITHOUT a dip.
When you sit back and think about it, it was quite pathetic and sad. I still get the urge and know that may never go away, but also know that I would be a sad and pathetic litte prick if I cave.
Second, telling everyone! this has been great. I even tell people that I do not know that well. A few things have amazed me. Many people did not even know that I dipped. So, I guess I was a Ninja dipper. Next, many of my closer friends have said "about fuckin time you idiot" And, "remind me to stay out of our way for a wee while"
I choose to be quit.
Never Again
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To all the strangers who have reached out. Thank you! You are saving my life one dip-free day at a time
I keep reading stuff on here and feel compelled to post. read...post....read...post
On day 5 now and it feels so powerful that I have gone 5 days without a dip. I know all you vets are very aware of what this feels like, and I also know there is a long way to go.
2 things have helped a lot.
First, knowing there is a bunch of guys like you out there who know exactly what it feels like to drive, cut grass, watch sports, dip after lunch, have a beer etc. WITH a dip. And, in turn, know what it feels like to face all these small events WITHOUT a dip.
When you sit back and think about it, it was quite pathetic and sad. I still get the urge and know that may never go away, but also know that I would be a sad and pathetic litte prick if I cave.
Second, telling everyone! this has been great. I even tell people that I do not know that well. A few things have amazed me. Many people did not even know that I dipped. So, I guess I was a Ninja dipper. Next, many of my closer friends have said "about fuckin time you idiot" And, "remind me to stay out of our way for a wee while"
I choose to be quit.
Never Again
This whole post gave me quit wood. Damn :wub:
I'm with you man. The part where I said, "Fuck it. No more of this shit..." was easy. It was learning to do everything all over again that was hard. You, me, and almost everyone else here have never done anything in our adult lives without a lip full of death. It seems like every day, some new little thing I've never done without a dip pops up and I have to just cringe, bite the bullet, and muddle through it. Once I've been through it that first time, the worst part is over. Every time after that is significantly easier. I know eventually, I'll have tackled almost everything I used dip as a crutch for, and my life and myself will be better for it.
What helped me the most with this was making a couple of lists. I made one of things I ALWAYS had a chaw in my cheek for and checked them off as I tackled them without. My other list is one for all the BADAZZ SHIZNIT i've done that I never did with a dip. That list is my favorite. It's full of some awesome shit and it gets longer and better every day. Eventually, I'll probably stop keeping track. For now, it's a great help to me as I quit.
On the other note, telling everyone is awesome. That's first hand, real life accountability. I started from day 1 telling fucking EVERYBODY about quitting. My motive? I hate looking like an idiot. I knew if I fucked up, I'd feel like a moron and the guys I work with would never let me live it down. That's been one of the best things I've done for my quit to date.
Sorry to hijack your intro with a novel. Carry on with that awesome quit of yours!
'Cheers'
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To all the strangers who have reached out. Thank you! You are saving my life one dip-free day at a time
I keep reading stuff on here and feel compelled to post. read...post....read...post
On day 5 now and it feels so powerful that I have gone 5 days without a dip. I know all you vets are very aware of what this feels like, and I also know there is a long way to go.
2 things have helped a lot.
First, knowing there is a bunch of guys like you out there who know exactly what it feels like to drive, cut grass, watch sports, dip after lunch, have a beer etc. WITH a dip. And, in turn, know what it feels like to face all these small events WITHOUT a dip.
When you sit back and think about it, it was quite pathetic and sad. I still get the urge and know that may never go away, but also know that I would be a sad and pathetic litte prick if I cave.
Second, telling everyone! this has been great. I even tell people that I do not know that well. A few things have amazed me. Many people did not even know that I dipped. So, I guess I was a Ninja dipper. Next, many of my closer friends have said "about fuckin time you idiot" And, "remind me to stay out of our way for a wee while"
I choose to be quit.
Never Again
This whole post gave me quit wood. Damn :wub:
I'm with you man. The part where I said, "Fuck it. No more of this shit..." was easy. It was learning to do everything all over again that was hard. You, me, and almost everyone else here have never done anything in our adult lives without a lip full of death. It seems like every day, some new little thing I've never done without a dip pops up and I have to just cringe, bite the bullet, and muddle through it. Once I've been through it that first time, the worst part is over. Every time after that is significantly easier. I know eventually, I'll have tackled almost everything I used dip as a crutch for, and my life and myself will be better for it.
What helped me the most with this was making a couple of lists. I made one of things I ALWAYS had a chaw in my cheek for and checked them off as I tackled them without. My other list is one for all the BADAZZ SHIZNIT i've done that I never did with a dip. That list is my favorite. It's full of some awesome shit and it gets longer and better every day. Eventually, I'll probably stop keeping track. For now, it's a great help to me as I quit.
On the other note, telling everyone is awesome. That's first hand, real life accountability. I started from day 1 telling fucking EVERYBODY about quitting. My motive? I hate looking like an idiot. I knew if I fucked up, I'd feel like a moron and the guys I work with would never let me live it down. That's been one of the best things I've done for my quit to date.
Sorry to hijack your intro with a novel. Carry on with that awesome quit of yours!
'Cheers'
Well said dalgyboy. Proud to be quit with you man.
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Thanks guys.
Of course, I am very happy to provide some amusement to my more computer savvy brethern last few days.
every little text/message I have received so far have saved me....even if they have had some fun with my "fog"
4 days no nicotine!
I drive a lot and yesterday I had about a 4 hour drive on a lonely, monotonous Interstate. as a (former) dipper, you guys know that the long drive is a "must have a dip" time.
I wavered a few times and then started calling myself a pussy. Started yelling at myself...passing cars would think I was singing.
I need to reach out to others and will do so very soon. I need to get to the point where stuffing brown poison in my lip is no longer a craving. I am quit.
It took you 1 post to star in your own 'short' narrative. That's got to be some kind of record. Anyways, I believe you owe Bruce a new Tony Romo fathead since you scribbled all over his.
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Thanks guys.
Of course, I am very happy to provide some amusement to my more computer savvy brethern last few days.
every little text/message I have received so far have saved me....even if they have had some fun with my "fog"
4 days no nicotine!
I drive a lot and yesterday I had about a 4 hour drive on a lonely, monotonous Interstate. as a (former) dipper, you guys know that the long drive is a "must have a dip" time.
I wavered a few times and then started calling myself a pussy. Started yelling at myself...passing cars would think I was singing.
I need to reach out to others and will do so very soon. I need to get to the point where stuffing brown poison in my lip is no longer a craving. I am quit.
It took you 1 post to star in your own 'short' narrative. That's got to be some kind of record. Anyways, I believe you owe Bruce a new Tony Romo fathead since you scribbled all over his.
'crackup'