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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Steelers on March 25, 2014, 03:58:00 PM
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A few have asked for this so here it is. This is what I posted in the July 14 and April 10 groups yesterday.
First, I want to apologize to my April 2010 quit brothers and all the others who helped me through the journey. I let you all down.
Yes, I am back posting a day 1. Yes, I made it to the HOF. Yes, I wrote the speech as well. So, knowing how this place works I owe everyone an explanation as to why I am back at day 1.
The main reason I am back posting at day 1 again is because I am an addict plain and simple. I know it. When I quit nicotine I supplanted it with alcohol. Started using it more and more, I did recognize I was doing this and started posting about it well past the HOF. Started posting day 1 with no alcohol etc...while still clean with the nicotine.
Well, I caved with the alcohol shortly thereafter and within a few months did the same with the dreaded nicotine. I was using both and not feeling good about myself at all.
A common statement is what your plan is and what is going to be different this time. My plan is to not use fake, alcohol or anything else my addict mind wants to find to fill in for the nicotine. I need to learn to be clean and not use substitutes with the exception of exercise and this site.
I humbly come before this group and ask you to accept me again. Many here may remember me. This is where I am
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A few have asked for this so here it is. This is what I posted in the July 14 and April 10 groups yesterday.
First, I want to apologize to my April 2010 quit brothers and all the others who helped me through the journey. I let you all down.
Yes, I am back posting a day 1. Yes, I made it to the HOF. Yes, I wrote the speech as well. So, knowing how this place works I owe everyone an explanation as to why I am back at day 1.
The main reason I am back posting at day 1 again is because I am an addict plain and simple. I know it. When I quit nicotine I supplanted it with alcohol. Started using it more and more, I did recognize I was doing this and started posting about it well past the HOF. Started posting day 1 with no alcohol etc...while still clean with the nicotine.
Well, I caved with the alcohol shortly thereafter and within a few months did the same with the dreaded nicotine. I was using both and not feeling good about myself at all.
A common statement is what your plan is and what is going to be different this time. My plan is to not use fake, alcohol or anything else my addict mind wants to find to fill in for the nicotine. I need to learn to be clean and not use substitutes with the exception of exercise and this site.
I humbly come before this group and ask you to accept me again. Many here may remember me. This is where I amÂ…
Another prime example of why I have posted every day to 330 days and why I will post my promise til I die or this site is no more, whichever one comes first. Don't get me wrong I believe in the ODAAT, but this quit is for good. I have made my mind up, if post every day I will remain quit for life. If it worked for 100 days why the fuck stop?????????? It's like 2 minutes for Gods sake.
I see it all the time, "oh don't worrying about me, I am just too busy or it reminds me of my addiction or bla bla bla". Then iiiiiiiBAM!!!!!!! Day one post. Often these are folks I am close to and have gotten to know and care about.
I rant all this to say I hope when you get past your day 100, you not only continue to post but you post forever. Then more importantly you reach out and share this story with others you see drifting.
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A few have asked for this so here it is. This is what I posted in the July 14 and April 10 groups yesterday.
First, I want to apologize to my April 2010 quit brothers and all the others who helped me through the journey. I let you all down.
Yes, I am back posting a day 1. Yes, I made it to the HOF. Yes, I wrote the speech as well. So, knowing how this place works I owe everyone an explanation as to why I am back at day 1.
The main reason I am back posting at day 1 again is because I am an addict plain and simple. I know it. When I quit nicotine I supplanted it with alcohol. Started using it more and more, I did recognize I was doing this and started posting about it well past the HOF. Started posting day 1 with no alcohol etc...while still clean with the nicotine.
Well, I caved with the alcohol shortly thereafter and within a few months did the same with the dreaded nicotine. I was using both and not feeling good about myself at all.
A common statement is what your plan is and what is going to be different this time. My plan is to not use fake, alcohol or anything else my addict mind wants to find to fill in for the nicotine. I need to learn to be clean and not use substitutes with the exception of exercise and this site.
I humbly come before this group and ask you to accept me again. Many here may remember me. This is where I amÂ…
Another prime example of why I have posted every day to 330 days and why I will post my promise til I die or this site is no more, whichever one comes first. Don't get me wrong I believe in the ODAAT, but this quit is for good. I have made my mind up, if post every day I will remain quit for life. If it worked for 100 days why the fuck stop?????????? It's like 2 minutes for Gods sake.
I see it all the time, "oh don't worrying about me, I am just too busy or it reminds me of my addiction or bla bla bla". Then iiiiiiiBAM!!!!!!! Day one post. Often these are folks I am close to and have gotten to know and care about.
I rant all this to say I hope when you get past your day 100, you not only continue to post but you post forever. Then more importantly you reach out and share this story with others you see drifting.
I'm with you steelers..i too caved...it wasn't booze for me but i did cave...and i came back and i'm on day 7. I made past the HOF and quit quitting...its tough...you're going to catch holy hell from some folk and you're going to catch a lot of support and you'll get somewhere in the middle...but you need to listen to erussell...as do i. We need to take heed and hold on for dear life...i can't help you on the drinking stuff, i'm sure there's guys here that can, but you know how this works...one day at a time my friend. Apply it to both. I quit with you
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A few have asked for this so here it is. This is what I posted in the July 14 and April 10 groups yesterday.
First, I want to apologize to my April 2010 quit brothers and all the others who helped me through the journey. I let you all down.
Yes, I am back posting a day 1. Yes, I made it to the HOF. Yes, I wrote the speech as well. So, knowing how this place works I owe everyone an explanation as to why I am back at day 1.
The main reason I am back posting at day 1 again is because I am an addict plain and simple. I know it. When I quit nicotine I supplanted it with alcohol. Started using it more and more, I did recognize I was doing this and started posting about it well past the HOF. Started posting day 1 with no alcohol etc...while still clean with the nicotine.
Well, I caved with the alcohol shortly thereafter and within a few months did the same with the dreaded nicotine. I was using both and not feeling good about myself at all.
A common statement is what your plan is and what is going to be different this time. My plan is to not use fake, alcohol or anything else my addict mind wants to find to fill in for the nicotine. I need to learn to be clean and not use substitutes with the exception of exercise and this site.
I humbly come before this group and ask you to accept me again. Many here may remember me. This is where I amÂ…
Another prime example of why I have posted every day to 330 days and why I will post my promise til I die or this site is no more, whichever one comes first. Don't get me wrong I believe in the ODAAT, but this quit is for good. I have made my mind up, if post every day I will remain quit for life. If it worked for 100 days why the fuck stop?????????? It's like 2 minutes for Gods sake.
I see it all the time, "oh don't worrying about me, I am just too busy or it reminds me of my addiction or bla bla bla". Then iiiiiiiBAM!!!!!!! Day one post. Often these are folks I am close to and have gotten to know and care about.
I rant all this to say I hope when you get past your day 100, you not only continue to post but you post forever. Then more importantly you reach out and share this story with others you see drifting.
I'm with you steelers..i too caved...it wasn't booze for me but i did cave...and i came back and i'm on day 7. I made past the HOF and quit quitting...its tough...you're going to catch holy hell from some folk and you're going to catch a lot of support and you'll get somewhere in the middle...but you need to listen to erussell...as do i. We need to take heed and hold on for dear life...i can't help you on the drinking stuff, i'm sure there's guys here that can, but you know how this works...one day at a time my friend. Apply it to both. I quit with you
remember that the plan moving forward should be something that you not only have written down, but specific tasks that you will follow to ensure that you will not fall back again.
steps can include: contact at least 3 of the members of your group, maybe 3 or more others here on the site, print out and sign the contract to give up after you read it, telling a loved one that you are going back to poisoning yourself....
make it a good list. one that you will promise to follow (just like posting your word in here every day).
and remember, this time live your quit, this is a community, make your friends here and take them outside of the site. If you do that you will be better off for it.
Accountability + Brotherhood = Success
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A few have asked for this so here it is. This is what I posted in the July 14 and April 10 groups yesterday.
First, I want to apologize to my April 2010 quit brothers and all the others who helped me through the journey. I let you all down.
Yes, I am back posting a day 1. Yes, I made it to the HOF. Yes, I wrote the speech as well. So, knowing how this place works I owe everyone an explanation as to why I am back at day 1.
The main reason I am back posting at day 1 again is because I am an addict plain and simple. I know it. When I quit nicotine I supplanted it with alcohol. Started using it more and more, I did recognize I was doing this and started posting about it well past the HOF. Started posting day 1 with no alcohol etc...while still clean with the nicotine.
Well, I caved with the alcohol shortly thereafter and within a few months did the same with the dreaded nicotine. I was using both and not feeling good about myself at all.
A common statement is what your plan is and what is going to be different this time. My plan is to not use fake, alcohol or anything else my addict mind wants to find to fill in for the nicotine. I need to learn to be clean and not use substitutes with the exception of exercise and this site.
I humbly come before this group and ask you to accept me again. Many here may remember me. This is where I amÂ…
Another prime example of why I have posted every day to 330 days and why I will post my promise til I die or this site is no more, whichever one comes first. Don't get me wrong I believe in the ODAAT, but this quit is for good. I have made my mind up, if post every day I will remain quit for life. If it worked for 100 days why the fuck stop?????????? It's like 2 minutes for Gods sake.
I see it all the time, "oh don't worrying about me, I am just too busy or it reminds me of my addiction or bla bla bla". Then iiiiiiiBAM!!!!!!! Day one post. Often these are folks I am close to and have gotten to know and care about.
I rant all this to say I hope when you get past your day 100, you not only continue to post but you post forever. Then more importantly you reach out and share this story with others you see drifting.
I'm with you steelers..i too caved...it wasn't booze for me but i did cave...and i came back and i'm on day 7. I made past the HOF and quit quitting...its tough...you're going to catch holy hell from some folk and you're going to catch a lot of support and you'll get somewhere in the middle...but you need to listen to erussell...as do i. We need to take heed and hold on for dear life...i can't help you on the drinking stuff, i'm sure there's guys here that can, but you know how this works...one day at a time my friend. Apply it to both. I quit with you
remember that the plan moving forward should be something that you not only have written down, but specific tasks that you will follow to ensure that you will not fall back again.
steps can include: contact at least 3 of the members of your group, maybe 3 or more others here on the site, print out and sign the contract to give up after you read it, telling a loved one that you are going back to poisoning yourself....
make it a good list. one that you will promise to follow (just like posting your word in here every day).
and remember, this time live your quit, this is a community, make your friends here and take them outside of the site. If you do that you will be better off for it.
Accountability + Brotherhood = Success
I hope that you stick with it this time. Posts like this remind me why I quit one day at a time and post roll daily so that I keep my commitment to quit.
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A few have asked for this so here it is. This is what I posted in the July 14 and April 10 groups yesterday.
First, I want to apologize to my April 2010 quit brothers and all the others who helped me through the journey. I let you all down.
Yes, I am back posting a day 1. Yes, I made it to the HOF. Yes, I wrote the speech as well. So, knowing how this place works I owe everyone an explanation as to why I am back at day 1.
The main reason I am back posting at day 1 again is because I am an addict plain and simple. I know it. When I quit nicotine I supplanted it with alcohol. Started using it more and more, I did recognize I was doing this and started posting about it well past the HOF. Started posting day 1 with no alcohol etc...while still clean with the nicotine.
Well, I caved with the alcohol shortly thereafter and within a few months did the same with the dreaded nicotine. I was using both and not feeling good about myself at all.
A common statement is what your plan is and what is going to be different this time. My plan is to not use fake, alcohol or anything else my addict mind wants to find to fill in for the nicotine. I need to learn to be clean and not use substitutes with the exception of exercise and this site.
I humbly come before this group and ask you to accept me again. Many here may remember me. This is where I amÂ…
Another prime example of why I have posted every day to 330 days and why I will post my promise til I die or this site is no more, whichever one comes first. Don't get me wrong I believe in the ODAAT, but this quit is for good. I have made my mind up, if post every day I will remain quit for life. If it worked for 100 days why the fuck stop?????????? It's like 2 minutes for Gods sake.
I see it all the time, "oh don't worrying about me, I am just too busy or it reminds me of my addiction or bla bla bla". Then iiiiiiiBAM!!!!!!! Day one post. Often these are folks I am close to and have gotten to know and care about.
I rant all this to say I hope when you get past your day 100, you not only continue to post but you post forever. Then more importantly you reach out and share this story with others you see drifting.
I'm with you steelers..i too caved...it wasn't booze for me but i did cave...and i came back and i'm on day 7. I made past the HOF and quit quitting...its tough...you're going to catch holy hell from some folk and you're going to catch a lot of support and you'll get somewhere in the middle...but you need to listen to erussell...as do i. We need to take heed and hold on for dear life...i can't help you on the drinking stuff, i'm sure there's guys here that can, but you know how this works...one day at a time my friend. Apply it to both. I quit with you
remember that the plan moving forward should be something that you not only have written down, but specific tasks that you will follow to ensure that you will not fall back again.
steps can include: contact at least 3 of the members of your group, maybe 3 or more others here on the site, print out and sign the contract to give up after you read it, telling a loved one that you are going back to poisoning yourself....
make it a good list. one that you will promise to follow (just like posting your word in here every day).
and remember, this time live your quit, this is a community, make your friends here and take them outside of the site. If you do that you will be better off for it.
Accountability + Brotherhood = Success
I hope that you stick with it this time. Posts like this remind me why I quit one day at a time and post roll daily so that I keep my commitment to quit.
Do or Do Not, There is No Try, period
Nicotine is poison.
I am an addict of nicotine.
I post roll everyday because I am an addict.
I keep my word today, because when I dipped I was a liar.
When my feet hit the floor in the a.m. I do it all over again.
ODAAT and NAFAR, period
I am quit. I will not dip today.
The men of KTC saved my life.
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A few have asked for this so here it is. This is what I posted in the July 14 and April 10 groups yesterday.
First, I want to apologize to my April 2010 quit brothers and all the others who helped me through the journey. I let you all down.
Yes, I am back posting a day 1. Yes, I made it to the HOF. Yes, I wrote the speech as well. So, knowing how this place works I owe everyone an explanation as to why I am back at day 1.
The main reason I am back posting at day 1 again is because I am an addict plain and simple. I know it. When I quit nicotine I supplanted it with alcohol. Started using it more and more, I did recognize I was doing this and started posting about it well past the HOF. Started posting day 1 with no alcohol etc...while still clean with the nicotine.
Well, I caved with the alcohol shortly thereafter and within a few months did the same with the dreaded nicotine. I was using both and not feeling good about myself at all.
A common statement is what your plan is and what is going to be different this time. My plan is to not use fake, alcohol or anything else my addict mind wants to find to fill in for the nicotine. I need to learn to be clean and not use substitutes with the exception of exercise and this site.
I humbly come before this group and ask you to accept me again. Many here may remember me. This is where I amÂ…
Another prime example of why I have posted every day to 330 days and why I will post my promise til I die or this site is no more, whichever one comes first. Don't get me wrong I believe in the ODAAT, but this quit is for good. I have made my mind up, if post every day I will remain quit for life. If it worked for 100 days why the fuck stop?????????? It's like 2 minutes for Gods sake.
I see it all the time, "oh don't worrying about me, I am just too busy or it reminds me of my addiction or bla bla bla". Then iiiiiiiBAM!!!!!!! Day one post. Often these are folks I am close to and have gotten to know and care about.
I rant all this to say I hope when you get past your day 100, you not only continue to post but you post forever. Then more importantly you reach out and share this story with others you see drifting.
I'm with you steelers..i too caved...it wasn't booze for me but i did cave...and i came back and i'm on day 7. I made past the HOF and quit quitting...its tough...you're going to catch holy hell from some folk and you're going to catch a lot of support and you'll get somewhere in the middle...but you need to listen to erussell...as do i. We need to take heed and hold on for dear life...i can't help you on the drinking stuff, i'm sure there's guys here that can, but you know how this works...one day at a time my friend. Apply it to both. I quit with you
remember that the plan moving forward should be something that you not only have written down, but specific tasks that you will follow to ensure that you will not fall back again.
steps can include: contact at least 3 of the members of your group, maybe 3 or more others here on the site, print out and sign the contract to give up after you read it, telling a loved one that you are going back to poisoning yourself....
make it a good list. one that you will promise to follow (just like posting your word in here every day).
and remember, this time live your quit, this is a community, make your friends here and take them outside of the site. If you do that you will be better off for it.
Accountability + Brotherhood = Success
I hope that you stick with it this time. Posts like this remind me why I quit one day at a time and post roll daily so that I keep my commitment to quit.
Do or Do Not, There is No Try, period
Nicotine is poison.
I am an addict of nicotine.
I post roll everyday because I am an addict.
I keep my word today, because when I dipped I was a liar.
When my feet hit the floor in the a.m. I do it all over again.
ODAAT and NAFAR, period
I am quit. I will not dip today.
The men of KTC saved my life.
When I joined KTC 31 days ago, I thought the 100 day mark, HOF, was the finish line, the grand prize of my quit. Make it to 100 days, write a fancy, inspiring speech and muddle around the site a bit. Man was I wrong! Early in our quits posting roll EDD and making contacts may seem a bit monotonous, boring and repetitive if you will. But it's absolutely the key for beating this bitch of an addiction.
I sit here 31 days quit and realize, I like posting roll EDD! I like reading what other people are going through in their quits! I like offering some help and encouragement to a brother or sister who's struggling. Just like we all brush our teeth in the morning, EDD for the rest of our lives. We need to post roll EDD for the rest of our lives. Otherwise who are we accountable to? We risk failure EDD that we spend away from this place. I quit w/you. Show July how to quit and be that rock for first time quitters.
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Having a hard day today. Day 19 feels like day 1 all over again. Reading WC's post just made me madder. This is a journal right? I will look back on this and remember the bad times right? Just a damn sucky day!
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Having a hard day today. Day 19 feels like day 1 all over again. Reading WC's post just made me madder. This is a journal right? I will look back on this and remember the bad times right? Just a damn sucky day!
You got this man...don't let a jack ass like that fuck with you....he's not real. you are real....you are quit and you are a bad ass.
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Having a hard day today. Day 19 feels like day 1 all over again. Reading WC's post just made me madder. This is a journal right? I will look back on this and remember the bad times right? Just a damn sucky day!
You are hitting a three week funk, some of us have called it the fuck-it week. Similar to the fog, yet anger is a bigger player?
Power through, drink more water and exercise when you get a craving or just feel blah!
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Even though your football team dresses like retarted honey bees sometimes YOU are still a badass quitter, and I quit with you today and hope your quarterback doesn't try to hump my lag.
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Having a hard day today. Day 19 feels like day 1 all over again. Reading WC's post just made me madder. This is a journal right? I will look back on this and remember the bad times right? Just a damn sucky day!
You are hitting a three week funk, some of us have called it the fuck-it week. Similar to the fog, yet anger is a bigger player?
Power through, drink more water and exercise when you get a craving or just feel blah!
You've got this Steeler. 19 days is feakin awesome. There are ups and downs...just try not to make the peaks and valleys to high or low.
Focus on now and the shit will pass.
Remember that it will pass without nic but will be back if you use.
Here for you if you need me send me a PM.
Quit with you today
Doc
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Even though your football team dresses like retarted honey bees sometimes YOU are still a badass quitter, and I quit with you today and hope your quarterback doesn't try to hump my lag.
LOL, I assume that is support :D
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Even though your football team dresses like retarted honey bees sometimes YOU are still a badass quitter, and I quit with you today and hope your quarterback doesn't try to hump my lag.
LOL, I assume that is support :D
I am still trying to figure out what "retarted honey" looks like, a google search generated a variety of results that were not black or yellow, much less black yellow.
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Even though your football team dresses like retarted honey bees sometimes YOU are still a badass quitter, and I quit with you today and hope your quarterback doesn't try to hump my lag.
LOL, I assume that is support :D
I am still trying to figure out what "retarted honey" looks like, a google search generated a variety of results that were not black or yellow, much less black yellow.
Where is your lag? :o
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Even though your football team dresses like retarted honey bees sometimes YOU are still a badass quitter, and I quit with you today and hope your quarterback doesn't try to hump my lag.
LOL, I assume that is support :D
I am still trying to figure out what "retarted honey" looks like, a google search generated a variety of results that were not black or yellow, much less black yellow.
This article explains the honey be reference. Makes you DIZZY looking at them!
http://www.nfl.com/news/story/0ap100000 ... e-uniforms (http://www.nfl.com/news/story/0ap1000000085962/article/pittsburgh-steelers-react-to-bumblebee-uniforms) 'zombie'
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Even though your football team dresses like retarted honey bees sometimes YOU are still a badass quitter, and I quit with you today and hope your quarterback doesn't try to hump my lag.
LOL, I assume that is support :D
I am still trying to figure out what "retarted honey" looks like, a google search generated a variety of results that were not black or yellow, much less black yellow.
This article explains the honey be reference. Makes you DIZZY looking at them!
http://www.nfl.com/news/story/0ap100000 ... e-uniforms (http://www.nfl.com/news/story/0ap1000000085962/article/pittsburgh-steelers-react-to-bumblebee-uniforms) 'zombie'
You just had to find them didn't you? I think these are the 2nd most ugly uniforms ever. The Packers have these beat though....I will see if I can find the throwbacks they wore a few years ago.
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And they beat my beloved Lions with those uni's on........that was a bad afternoon.
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Here we go Steelers, here we go!
I got a feeling; Pittsburgh's going to the super bowl!
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Yes, because each NFL player gets 2 free tickets!
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Yes, because each NFL player gets 2 free tickets!
Damn, and I was just starting to like you after reading your intro today 'finger point'
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Well, you'll really hate me if the Wings play the Pens in the first round next week....quit on bro, just watch out for octopus slime.
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Well, you'll really hate me if the Wings play the Pens in the first round next week....quit on bro, just watch out for octopus slime.
Looks like we don't have to worry about that right now...Columbus first!
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THansen posted, "When I joined KTC 31 days ago, I thought the 100 day mark, HOF, was the finish line, the grand prize of my quit. Make it to 100 days, write a fancy, inspiring speech and muddle around the site a bit. Man was I wrong! Early in our quits posting roll EDD and making contacts may seem a bit monotonous, boring and repetitive if you will. But it's absolutely the key for beating this bitch of an addiction.
"I sit here 31 days quit and realize, I like posting roll EDD! I like reading what other people are going through in their quits! I like offering some help and encouragement to a brother or sister who's struggling. Just like we all brush our teeth in the morning, EDD for the rest of our lives. We need to post roll EDD for the rest of our lives. Otherwise who are we accountable to? We risk failure EDD that we spend away from this place. I quit w/you. Show July how to quit and be that rock for first time quitters."
Steelers, I am glad that you are still quit and are accepted into an earlier group to post roll. Is that your original quit group? Anyhow, I could also use less drama in the July 14 quit group. But I will keep posting roll there because I believe it helps my quit. I wish you the best.
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Glad you posted in July 14 Steelers. Big Ben can use my lag for anything he wants!
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Steelers, I am glad that you are still quit and are accepted into an earlier group to post roll. Is that your original quit group? Anyhow, I could also use less drama in the July 14 quit group. But I will keep posting roll there because I believe it helps my quit. I wish you the best.
There are a lot of groups that you can get involved with. At the bottom of each quit group you see "support from bad ass quitters" or something to that extent. I have been posting in the August roll for the last 10 days or so. I have adopted a couple of their members there just like some folks have adopted me. I have sent them my phone number and I make sure that they know I am part of their support circle.
See KTC is a lot more than just posting roll EDD, it is a pivotal part of the KTC system, but there is more. When you get involved with others, and you take a personal interest in their quit, like someone did for you, then you start to see the true underpinnings of the system. I know that there are days I couldn't have made it through without someone's digits, and I know that there are people who have texted me in the same situation. See, KTC is about building a support system. Now that you have a support system in place, and you are getting more confident in your quit, it is time for you to reach out and help support someone in August or soon September that you can reach out too. KTC is all about networking and succeeding from that network. I suggest, as I have, to find another group to post with so that you can strengthen not only your own quit, but also the quit of someone else. It is a million times harder to cave when you know that you are going to be letting someone besides yourself down.
Just some advice, I'm not a vet by any means, but the networking has sure made life much better for me.
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Bottom line...you're still quit. Keep posting roll and being successful.
Quit with you.
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You guys have all been great. Thanks for all the support and encouragement. I have certainly learned something new and plan to utilize that to help others. I also plan to post in July again now and forever.
BTW, my original quit group was April 2010. I let them down but still receive encouragement from some of the members who are still active.
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Congrats on the 2nd floor brother! Very proud to quit with you every damn day, and I hope to see you around July for a long, long time! 'oh yeah'
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Gratz Steelers!
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Rob, HUGE congrats on the 500 brother!! Now go do it again!! 'clap' 'dance'