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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Souliman on February 17, 2011, 02:18:00 PM
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I don't think I followed protocol. I never introduced myself and I'm 80 days into my quit. I'm 37 and I was a 24 year tin day Cope guy. Its always been about extreme quantities with me. Drink more, smoke more, take more, chew more than the other guy. It was easier to stop drinking whiskey everyday than chewing for me. Sitting here today I'm grateful to you tough bastards. You guys putting your word down to say you quit and forcing the rest of us to do the same. The eye opener for me was I wasn't alone, I stand behind my word and I made a commitment to you folks. One fucking day at a time. A sincere thanks from me, my wife and two boys. My friends call me Soul.
-Chris
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Good job Brother.
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I don't think I followed protocol. I never introduced myself and I'm 80 days into my quit. I'm 37 and I was a 24 year tin day Cope guy. Its always been about extreme quantities with me. Drink more, smoke more, take more, chew more than the other guy. It was easier to stop drinking whiskey everyday than chewing for me. Sitting here today I'm grateful to you tough bastards. You guys putting your word down to say you quit and forcing the rest of us to do the same. The eye opener for me was I wasn't alone, I stand behind my word and I made a commitment to you folks. One fucking day at a time. A sincere thanks from me, my wife and two boys. My friends call me Soul.
-Chris
There's no protocol. Unless you're a toolbox.
For your boys' sake, I'm glad you're here, Soul. For mine, too.
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Thanks guys. This is good stuff going on here. I think about all the guys I introduced to Copenhagen and I want to get as many back from the dark side as I can now. With the people, the commitment, stories and information I'm certain I can be successful here and help others with the fight.
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Welcome to the battle. Try to help as many as you can but remember you cannot make someone quit.
Protect your quit at all costs. Glad to have you with us...
Never again
Greg
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I fucking hate the nic bitch. I'm so fucking angry I wish it were right in front of me so I put one center mass. Too long that whore sucked the life out of me. So angry but happy I'm crawling to freedom day by day. 85 clean.
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Good job bro!! I was also a tin a day cope guy and am now 233 days free from that bitch.
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That's how it's done, Soul....one day at a time. Congrats and proud to be quit with you today.
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Soul, proud to be in the same quit group as you! Keep up the good work man,we are in this together!
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Thanks for empowering me guys.
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Fighting the NB bad this week. Really the hardest since I've been clean. Lots of stress. Lots of driving. Lots of bullshit. The driving got to be the toughest part. Father of little ones, crazy wife refusing to cook, boss that's a few tools short in his toolbox, the car is a fucking paradise.
Good to see all the quitting going on here.
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Fighting the NB bad this week. Really the hardest since I've been clean. Lots of stress. Lots of driving. Lots of bullshit. The driving got to be the toughest part. Father of little ones, crazy wife refusing to cook, boss that's a few tools short in his toolbox, the car is a fucking paradise.
Good to see all the quitting going on here.
Keep it going Soul! I am fighting the Nic bitch pretty hard this week too. Back on assignment in the Middle East, being around a lot of abusers and getting more and more pissed off/stressed each day. What helps me keep going is the fact that this is my choice, my fight and most important my quit! Don't let outside shit try to cloud your brain and influence ANYTHING to do with YOUR QUIT! Protect it at all costs. Thank you for being here, you make my quit stronger. Proud to quit with you!
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Working crazy hours with little sleep. Fighting the nic bitch. Fighting her...and winning.
Pick a rock. Grab a sword. Aim your pistol. Whatever it takes. Fight that demon off.
FU NB. You're mine. I own you today. You won't win.
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171 - Just echoing my thanks to you folks here. its one day at a time for me. and seeing guys post day after day beyond your first hundred is keeping me on the path. especially to the heavy hitting quitters in March 11. you bastards bring the quit. cheers.
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"One day at a time"
"Its simple but it ain't easy"
"This isn't an ATTEMPT at quitting...you are now quit."
"You put your word down with the rest of us...you give your word."
"I am not a unique and special butterfly. I am an addict."
Just the words I look for when I'm feeling the nic bitch pulling at my lip. Almost 200 days in and still have the fucking desire to stop and grab a tin? Its not everyday but its often enough. I hate being an addict. I fucking hate it. Just need to vent a little. I'm still quit. Just need to get back on top of it. Back on top of my quit.
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"One day at a time"
"Its simple but it ain't easy"
"This isn't an ATTEMPT at quitting...you are now quit."
"You put your word down with the rest of us...you give your word."
"I am not a unique and special butterfly. I am an addict."
Just the words I look for when I'm feeling the nic bitch pulling at my lip. Almost 200 days in and still have the fucking desire to stop and grab a tin? Its not everyday but its often enough. I hate being an addict. I fucking hate it. Just need to vent a little. I'm still quit. Just need to get back on top of it. Back on top of my quit.
Is there a 'Like' button on this Intrduction thing?
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Soul - 25 year dipper. Started out with Cope when I was 14, hanging out with my friends, thinking I was cool. If I knew then what I know now. Sadly, I can't get those years back. But fortunately, I might have a few ahead, and it won't be with Nic the Bitch at my side. I will not dip, I will not cave. This is the only time in my life where I welcome being called a "quitter." Proud to be quit with you. Thanks for the post.
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B's lose. 12 pack of guinness going down. Flipping around and see someone fire up a smoke and...BOOM. fucking crave for a lip anchor.
Its easy to cave. Takes a backbone to fight the NB. Its a fuckload easier after giving my word to sco, capt, wv, sore, dynasty, and the rest of 3-11. I mother fucking quit today bitches. Cheers.m
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I just ratted out the 14 year old across the street after catching him with a turd in his mouth with his buddies. I hope his Sicilian mother was kidding about "killing him". Tough telling a parent their kid is killing themselves. He's a good kid.
Too bad no one ratted me out when I was that age. I did the right thing I would say.
-Soul
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Just some thoughts on what I'm experiencing here with you folks.
The longer I'm here, the more I understand about addiction (mine...ours). The past week I saw two members post intros describing their "tomorrow plan" and witnessed a pack of borderline psychotic wolves descend upon them.
I got two things out of this. One being a better understanding of when an addict can quit; and two being another understanding of what we're doing here.
These "tomorrow never dies" quitters are trying to split hairs I think. Being quit is a massive undertaking to them in both size and time...a tractor trailer barreling down on them. Horns blowing. All the lights on. (Trailer for "Duel" (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5MtAMc4i8OA)) They have overcomplicated it. Its not all the anxiety of the truck coming. Its the moment when the truck hits. When that user is face to face with that grill...that moment is when "quit" happens. And I think it falls in line with the perpetual caver..."I was quit for 90 days". No. You didn't quit. You missed that moment when the truck hit you or you weren't even able to see it. To me, quit is being able to see your "addict ego" carried away by that truck grill while "you" watch. The two are separate. If you can visualize that, I think quit can happen. And the further away that truck takes the addict, the better. He'll always be there...trapped on that grill...and you'll know it...but he's further and further away each day. Gotta keep them separate.
I'm glad Smokey congratulates "tomorrow quitters" on dying. Its black and white. Its not splitting hairs. Its forcing the issue of an addict seeing that truck grill. Every day when I post roll, I feel that moment. I think as a group, that's what we're doing. We keep that moment right at our finger tips and we try to show it to every addict that wants in the pool. If you can't see it, you're not ready for the pool. The more of us in the pool, the more of us that can communicate that moment and the more concrete it becomes. I like it. It keeps me coming back each day to quit.
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That's good stuff. Thanks. Best comment IMHO is that you learn about addiction everyday.
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Just some thoughts on what I'm experiencing here with you folks.
The longer I'm here, the more I understand about addiction (mine...ours). The past week I saw two members post intros describing their "tomorrow plan" and witnessed a pack of borderline psychotic wolves descend upon them.
I got two things out of this. One being a better understanding of when an addict can quit; and two being another understanding of what we're doing here.
These "tomorrow never dies" quitters are trying to split hairs I think. Being quit is a massive undertaking to them in both size and time...a tractor trailer barreling down on them. Horns blowing. All the lights on. (Trailer for "Duel" (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5MtAMc4i8OA)) They have overcomplicated it. Its not all the anxiety of the truck coming. Its the moment when the truck hits. When that user is face to face with that grill...that moment is when "quit" happens. And I think it falls in line with the perpetual caver..."I was quit for 90 days". No. You didn't quit. You missed that moment when the truck hit you or you weren't even able to see it. To me, quit is being able to see your "addict ego" carried away by that truck grill while "you" watch. The two are separate. If you can visualize that, I think quit can happen. And the further away that truck takes the addict, the better. He'll always be there...trapped on that grill...and you'll know it...but he's further and further away each day. Gotta keep them separate.
I'm glad Smokey congratulates "tomorrow quitters" on dying. Its black and white. Its not splitting hairs. Its forcing the issue of an addict seeing that truck grill. Every day when I post roll, I feel that moment. I think as a group, that's what we're doing. We keep that moment right at our finger tips and we try to show it to every addict that wants in the pool. If you can't see it, you're not ready for the pool. The more of us in the pool, the more of us that can communicate that moment and the more concrete it becomes. I like it. It keeps me coming back each day to quit.
This is really good shit. I just want to get other's thoughts on the "addict ego" carried away. I think of that differently. I think of it as "shutting the door". It is a bit of an acceptance and is hard place to get to.
At the beginning of my quit I can remember "quitting forever" and what a long time that is. It overwhelmed me. I have slowly trained my self not to think of forever. Just today. 1 day at a time. I think that is the easiest way to help people quit? Thoughts?
Good shit Souliman.
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Just some thoughts on what I'm experiencing here with you folks.
The longer I'm here, the more I understand about addiction (mine...ours). The past week I saw two members post intros describing their "tomorrow plan" and witnessed a pack of borderline psychotic wolves descend upon them.
I got two things out of this. One being a better understanding of when an addict can quit; and two being another understanding of what we're doing here.
These "tomorrow never dies" quitters are trying to split hairs I think. Being quit is a massive undertaking to them in both size and time...a tractor trailer barreling down on them. Horns blowing. All the lights on. (Trailer for "Duel" (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5MtAMc4i8OA)) They have overcomplicated it. Its not all the anxiety of the truck coming. Its the moment when the truck hits. When that user is face to face with that grill...that moment is when "quit" happens. And I think it falls in line with the perpetual caver..."I was quit for 90 days". No. You didn't quit. You missed that moment when the truck hit you or you weren't even able to see it. To me, quit is being able to see your "addict ego" carried away by that truck grill while "you" watch. The two are separate. If you can visualize that, I think quit can happen. And the further away that truck takes the addict, the better. He'll always be there...trapped on that grill...and you'll know it...but he's further and further away each day. Gotta keep them separate.
I'm glad Smokey congratulates "tomorrow quitters" on dying. Its black and white. Its not splitting hairs. Its forcing the issue of an addict seeing that truck grill. Every day when I post roll, I feel that moment. I think as a group, that's what we're doing. We keep that moment right at our finger tips and we try to show it to every addict that wants in the pool. If you can't see it, you're not ready for the pool. The more of us in the pool, the more of us that can communicate that moment and the more concrete it becomes. I like it. It keeps me coming back each day to quit.
This is really good shit. I just want to get other's thoughts on the "addict ego" carried away. I think of that differently. I think of it as "shutting the door". It is a bit of an acceptance and is hard place to get to.
At the beginning of my quit I can remember "quitting forever" and what a long time that is. It overwhelmed me. I have slowly trained my self not to think of forever. Just today. 1 day at a time. I think that is the easiest way to help people quit? Thoughts?
Good shit Souliman.
Thanks sco. I think you're right. Its tough to visualize my scenario. I too came in thinking "i'm quitting forever". That's a long road for an addict to walk. Too many thoughts can happen between strides. I guess I'm trying to disassociate that "addict ego" from Souliman....keep the two as far apart as possible. I kind of look at the "addict ego" lives in a bunch of patterns. In the beginning (when the truck hit me), I tried to minimize the overlap of patterns the addict lived in and Souliman lived in...sort of keep the two energies away from each other. They both are aware of each other but don't want them to cross each other. The addict on the grill is just a way of thinking about the patterns and how they connect to Souliman. When that truck hit me, the patterns had to separate. There couldn't be quit for Souliman without the separation.
PS. Feel kind of funny talking about myself in the 3rd person
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I hate spewing into this thread sometimes. I hate being an addict. I hate having to answer the same fucking question everyday: will I use today? I'm not an idiot. I know that shit kills people...will kill me. Rips apart families. No matter how far I run its not far enough. It doesn't fade away. Its a yes or no. I am either quit or not quit. I either chose to kill myself or not. I'm so pissed I ever put myself in this position of having to answer that same fucking question everyday.
Sorry for being negative. Its usually not my way.
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I hate spewing into this thread sometimes. I hate being an addict. I hate having to answer the same fucking question everyday: will I use today? I'm not an idiot. I know that shit kills people...will kill me. Rips apart families. No matter how far I run its not far enough. It doesn't fade away. Its a yes or no. I am either quit or not quit. I either chose to kill myself or not. I'm so pissed I ever put myself in this position of having to answer that same fucking question everyday.
Sorry for being negative. Its usually not my way.
I'm still angry too Souliman.
I'm pissed at myself. At USTobacco. At the government. At the NRT apologists.
I'm angry at anything to do with nicotine and this damn addiction. Unfortunately I can't just forget I'm an addict and frankly, I don't want to. The minute I do, I'll be posting a day one.
This shit just grinds on me but I continue to post that +1 and go through another day. I try to be positive all of the time but some of the time it's just me pretending to be over it. I hope to one day be able to close that mythical door.
You're doing a great job here and we all appreciate your contributions. I like reading your shit...we're both crazy.
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I hate spewing into this thread sometimes. I hate being an addict. I hate having to answer the same fucking question everyday: will I use today? I'm not an idiot. I know that shit kills people...will kill me. Rips apart families. No matter how far I run its not far enough. It doesn't fade away. Its a yes or no. I am either quit or not quit. I either chose to kill myself or not. I'm so pissed I ever put myself in this position of having to answer that same fucking question everyday.
Sorry for being negative. Its usually not my way.
I'm still angry too Souliman.
I'm pissed at myself. At USTobacco. At the government. At the NRT apologists.
I'm angry at anything to do with nicotine and this damn addiction. Unfortunately I can't just forget I'm an addict and frankly, I don't want to. The minute I do, I'll be posting a day one.
This shit just grinds on me but I continue to post that +1 and go through another day. I try to be positive all of the time but some of the time it's just me pretending to be over it. I hope to one day be able to close that mythical door.
You're doing a great job here and we all appreciate your contributions. I like reading your shit...we're both crazy.
I snapped a few weeks ago as well. 'Finger' nic
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My new boilerplate. I wanted to put this in a few new quitters intro but held off.
"Are you a man of your word? I get a sense that we just push anyone through the door to post roll that day and I wonder if they know what they are getting themselves into. This is no bullshit here. You put your word down, you damn better stick to it. If you don't have the conviction or the balls or the gusto or the "true belief" that you can do it...that you have had your last dip...that you are quit...think twice about putting your word down that you are quit today. All you are doing is pissing in the pool otherwise. And the folks here treading water while they get to quit nirvana don't like a "warm patch" near them. I certainly don't. And I like some folks here and I don't want them having to swim through a warm patch either. So when someone calls you out, you better have your head straight. You better have your balls in one hand and a fist in the other because you gotta fight to be quit. Its not just typing "JoeBlowALoot +1" and rainbows and unicorns come prancing out of your pockets. Its 99% you and 1% us because in your hour of need, it will be your hand going for the keys to the car as you hurry down the quickie mart before they close. You are the one quitting. All we can do is try to help."
Greg said something that stuck with me. I'm sure its his boilerplate but this shit is bible to me.
"Try to help as many as you can but remember you cannot make someone quit."
"Protect your quit at all costs."
I'm sure there is an argument for "blind support", that anyone wanting to quit we should encourage. I offer a "fuck that" to that mentality. This is not going to work for everyone. Everyone can quit and everyone can cave. And I think that its possible to spot folks that this isn't their best method to quit (titling your intro as "FAILURE" is a sign that this may not be right for you). I look at this as protecting my quit. And yours.
Welcome to the battle. Try to help as many as you can but remember you cannot make someone quit.Â
Protect your quit at all costs. Glad to have you with us...
Never again
Greg
I know I'm open to criticism here. Just putting down my thoughts.
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Its that time of the year when I start stretching out my runs. It was hot today in NE with low 90s and humidity (I know you southern guys who run think I'm a ruffled panty wearing pussy thinking that's hot...but I grew up on the Canadian border and that shit is jungle in Jamaica hot to me). Mrs. Soul took the kids to the beach for the afternoon which used to mean a massive dip binge. Today I wanted to run 17 easy. I knew from the start I was not feeling good as I put too many miles on this week.
And that's when I met the NB's cousin. Actually, I'd met the dbag before but didn't know they were related. Its that negative nancy voice I refer to as "Soulfucker"....my nemesis. It started in around mile 10.
"Just slow down a little...its hot."
"Souliman...take a break. You're tired."
"Come on man...lets go home."
That was the battle. Relentless. Pissing me off. I picture the fucker nose to nose with me saying this shit. Totally ruined my run and my afternoon. I recognized that voice. Sounded like the NB.
"You can have a small one...tiny pinch."
"It was a shitty day. You need to relax. Put in a lip anchor."
"Fuck it. Horseshoe that shit."
I now realize why fighting off the voice of the bitch has been harder than fighting off the fucker. I had an answer to the fucker. I knew what I wanted. And what happened when that fucker started in? I picked up my pace. I stretched out those strides. I literally say "FUCK YOU. I'M GOING" out loud.
It took me a while to find something to say back to the bitch. Magnum posted something somewhere this week (in Taz's or oz's intro I think) that hit me. When you're standing in line at the quickie mart and you see those slots of snuff sitting there...give it a "fuck you" out loud. He suggested doing it soft. I honestly think saying it loud enough for someone to hear you is better for your quit. Someone is going to ask and you tell them "Leave me alone. I'm talking to the cans." God damn straight you were talking to those cans.
This all came from something syndrome posted on July 5, 2011
Syndrome (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=1951&hl=)
It was a quote from a running guru. Its possible it was overlooked due to his thick East European accent. I'll paraphrase. I interpret it as
"Know your enemy".
I think Magnum is right in suggesting you personify it. That's what I did in creating my nemesis. I needed to be able to visualize the same thing with the nic bitch. Personify it as something I dislike and something that I knew I wasn't. Soulfucker is lame and weak and gives up under adverse conditions. Souliman is not. He's the opposite. Without personifying the nic bitch, I didn't even know who I was talking to. Being able to have a dialogue with an enemy only helps to polarize your position. You become more grounded in what you want. You see more clearly who you are by looking at something you know you're not.
This is the battle. That is the front line. You better have something to say back to that voice because its at that instant that you have to answer the questions: who are you and what do you want. You need to know the answers so find them.
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My new boilerplate. I wanted to put this in a few new quitters intro but held off.
"Are you a man of your word? I get a sense that we just push anyone through the door to post roll that day and I wonder if they know what they are getting themselves into. This is no bullshit here. You put your word down, you damn better stick to it. If you don't have the conviction or the balls or the gusto or the "true belief" that you can do it...that you have had your last dip...that you are quit...think twice about putting your word down that you are quit today. All you are doing is pissing in the pool otherwise. And the folks here treading water while they get to quit nirvana don't like a "warm patch" near them. I certainly don't. And I like some folks here and I don't want them having to swim through a warm patch either. So when someone calls you out, you better have your head straight. You better have your balls in one hand and a fist in the other because you gotta fight to be quit. Its not just typing "JoeBlowALoot +1" and rainbows and unicorns come prancing out of your pockets. Its 99% you and 1% us because in your hour of need, it will be your hand going for the keys to the car as you hurry down the quickie mart before they close. You are the one quitting. All we can do is try to help."
Greg said something that stuck with me. I'm sure its his boilerplate but this shit is bible to me.
"Try to help as many as you can but remember you cannot make someone quit."
"Protect your quit at all costs."
I'm sure there is an argument for "blind support", that anyone wanting to quit we should encourage. I offer a "fuck that" to that mentality. This is not going to work for everyone. Everyone can quit and everyone can cave. And I think that its possible to spot folks that this isn't their best method to quit (titling your intro as "FAILURE" is a sign that this may not be right for you). I look at this as protecting my quit. And yours.
Welcome to the battle. Try to help as many as you can but remember you cannot make someone quit.Â
Protect your quit at all costs. Glad to have you with us...
Never again
Greg
I know I'm open to criticism here. Just putting down my thoughts.
I was thinking about this post while posting on a newbie intro with a lackluster desire to quit. Keep writing, I like to read your stuff.
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This is an absolute coincidence that Dante posted what he did this morning.
I can imagine that in the event of a nuclear apocalypse Dante has a blue folder with red lettering titled "SURVIVE" that he opens and begins executing clear and tangible objectives that allow him and his quit to witness the end of time. The man has a Plan of Defense for sure.
I have been here not long but long enough to welcome a few quitters and get to see them proceed through the very stages of withdrawal that we all have either grown to cherish or deplore. When they cave, I get pissed. No one's perfect...sure. When I read their excuse for allowing their spines to turn to wet panties it usually comes down to a lack or bad execution of a Plan of Defense.
did you get on the site?
did you post roll today?
did you get on the site and read?
did you get on the site and hit the chat room?
did you PM a quit brother or sister?
did you PM anyone?
did you text a brother or sister?
did you call a brother or sister?
did you stuff anything else in your mouth besides cancer candy?
did you reach out to anyone?
If you don't follow this plan or a similar plan en route to your cave, I think you have a deeper problem. You do not want to quit. These are part of the tools of this site. And executing any one of them isn't asking much at all. If you are not willing to do whatever it takes to save your life, you have a deeper problem indeed. So the next time you are sensing your "hour of need" and before you run down to the ole cancer supply hut to grab a can of poison, have this list in hand. Did you do whatever you could to save your life?
Fuck on-line etiquette. Fuck cell phone etiquette. I'm certain that if you are in need and contact a brother or sister through the site, they would rise to the occasion. If you got someone's digits, they gave it to you expecting your call. Wanting your call only to help a brother or sister out while strengthening their quit at the same time. There is no excuse not doing whatever you can to save your own life.
What does this do for you? I see two things.
First it keeps nicotine out of your body as best as 'we' can.
Second it puts you in 'rational mind'. You have a sequential list of actions. If one fails, you move on to the next until success. This is instinctual. As an addict our minds don't really exist in a causal framework. No one would put poison or something that causes cancer in their body without thinking twice but that's what I did for more than two decades and I'm refusing to believe I'm an idiot. And I can recall when I first started dipping, I had to make the 'decision' to put a lip anchor in. We've blended the whole cause and effect chain of processing in our mind so that its synchronous or inseparable. I think there was a period that I would not take a dump without cancer candy in my lip. This is not rational. Just like the drive to work didn't really happen without a lipper. Or that the end of the day could not happen without a lipper.
And it has taken me a while to slow things down and look at the smaller impulses leading from stimulus to crave. That's what the Plan of Defense is doing. Its slowing your mind down from this synchronous acausal framework to a rational causal framework where 'you' can make decisions about each impulse and really isolate the weak points in your thoughts.
Just putting down my thoughts. I'm on some exploratory adventure through the depths of my being to find 'quit nirvana', that's all. Not looking for anything else.
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Cereal. Job. Car. Bad day yesterday. I haven't craved like that since I quit. Hearing there's no paycheck puts you into a hyper-something state. I don't know. All I know is that feeling of all my nerves on end reminds of the next step being I put in a lipper. Didn't happen. I spent all day on the site reading. Really calmed me down.
From Prada88 intro. I didn't want to lose this if she's a fly-by.
Prada I've been trying communicate to new quitters what the mental fight is. What you are fighting and who you are fighting. Its difficult to do. To me it sounds like you're not on the right page with your planning, and substitutes and whatnot. I put a shit load of time into my quit because it is my priority. I have cultivated it. I own it. One day my quit will be able to talk to God - that's the voodoo magic strength my quit's gonna have. =for my benefit...my goal
This is how I picture the fight...
Picture yourself in the room with your co-workers. Everyone of them has a dip in and there are nasty spitters all around. Just standing all around you throughout the room. Another person you don't know is present. You can't really make out who it is at first but that person becomes more visible as the co-workers fade away. The more and more visible this person is the less visible your co-workers until finally the person is completely visible and your co-workers and the room are gone.
When you look at this person, you see that it looks like you. Its a bigger you...stronger...with an expression of pleasureful contempt on her face. She has a giant dip in and spit is dripping down her chin. Her skin is blotchy and her hair a mess. Her fists are clenched. She looks like she would take pleasure in doing you harm. And she definitely intends to harm you.
When you finally realize who she is, she's standing right in front of you. She's Prada Devil or "Pradevil". Nose to nose. Not more than an inch away. You can smell the dip on her breath. If you blink, she's going to rip your throat out and scream when she does. Only one of you can live. This is the fight.
You are already fighting this fight. This Pradevil has been kicking your ass for years. Now, you have to engage in that fight. If you can kick her ass and you are the one left standing, that's quit. Its got nothing to do with substitutes or what day of the week you quit or where you quit or WHEN you quit. That enemy will always be there. Its there now.
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Just some notes on some stuff I'm reading. I'm not an attention whore I'm just real into staying quit the past few days. Can't sleep again. Three nights in a row. Sleep deprivation leads to bad thoughts and lends towards being in emotional mind and that's where I have made bad decisions in the past.
"The addict is double-minded because he cannot really and truly desire recovery until he already has it. "
Its from some fuckstick I'm reading.
This guy's an idiot. That's fucking ridiculous. He's clearly never experienced addiction.
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Just some notes on some stuff I'm reading. I'm not an attention whore I'm just real into staying quit the past few days. Can't sleep again. Three nights in a row. Sleep deprivation leads to bad thoughts and lends towards being in emotional mind and that's where I have made bad decisions in the past.
"The addict is double-minded because he cannot really and truly desire recovery until he already has it. "
Its from some fuckstick I'm reading.
This guy's an idiot. That's fucking ridiculous. He's clearly never experienced addiction.
Whoever wrote that is a fucking douchebag who clearly never quit anything he was addicted to.
Soul- why would posting two days in a row make you an attention whore? This space is your house. Post here every hour if you want. We can choose not to enter. .
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Just some notes on some stuff I'm reading. I'm not an attention whore I'm just real into staying quit the past few days. Can't sleep again. Three nights in a row. Sleep deprivation leads to bad thoughts and lends towards being in emotional mind and that's where I have made bad decisions in the past.
"The addict is double-minded because he cannot really and truly desire recovery until he already has it. "
Its from some fuckstick I'm reading.
This guy's an idiot. That's fucking ridiculous. He's clearly never experienced addiction.
Whoever wrote that is a fucking douchebag who clearly never quit anything he was addicted to.
Soul- why would posting two days in a row make you an attention whore? This space is your house. Post here every hour if you want. We can choose not to enter. .
Thanks Per. Not really thinking clearly with the lack of sleep the past few days. That's exactly what I was saying there. Living in an emotional mindset right now. Little dangerous. Not rational.
What's fucked up is the guy is an 'addiction specialist'.
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Just some notes on some stuff I'm reading. I'm not an attention whore I'm just real into staying quit the past few days. Can't sleep again. Three nights in a row. Sleep deprivation leads to bad thoughts and lends towards being in emotional mind and that's where I have made bad decisions in the past.
"The addict is double-minded because he cannot really and truly desire recovery until he already has it. "
Its from some fuckstick I'm reading.
This guy's an idiot. That's fucking ridiculous. He's clearly never experienced addiction.
Whoever wrote that is a fucking douchebag who clearly never quit anything he was addicted to.
Soul- why would posting two days in a row make you an attention whore? This space is your house. Post here every hour if you want. We can choose not to enter. .
Thanks Per. Not really thinking clearly with the lack of sleep the past few days. That's exactly what I was saying there. Living in an emotional mindset right now. Little dangerous. Not rational.
What's fucked up is the guy is an 'addiction specialist'.
You running Souliman? Can make you tired. Particularly if you run in the morning.
P.S. Dear nic bitch, keeping us awake to get in our head will not work. We just stay on KTC more to steal more victims from your grasp.
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Just some notes on some stuff I'm reading. I'm not an attention whore I'm just real into staying quit the past few days. Can't sleep again. Three nights in a row. Sleep deprivation leads to bad thoughts and lends towards being in emotional mind and that's where I have made bad decisions in the past.
"The addict is double-minded because he cannot really and truly desire recovery until he already has it. "
Its from some fuckstick I'm reading.
This guy's an idiot. That's fucking ridiculous. He's clearly never experienced addiction.
Whoever wrote that is a fucking douchebag who clearly never quit anything he was addicted to.
Soul- why would posting two days in a row make you an attention whore? This space is your house. Post here every hour if you want. We can choose not to enter. .
Thanks Per. Not really thinking clearly with the lack of sleep the past few days. That's exactly what I was saying there. Living in an emotional mindset right now. Little dangerous. Not rational.
What's fucked up is the guy is an 'addiction specialist'.
You running Souliman? Can make you tired. Particularly if you run in the morning.
P.S. Dear nic bitch, keeping us awake to get in our head will not work. We just stay on KTC more to steal more victims from your grasp.
I'm running like I stole someone's watch right now Sco. Its not working. I'm certain running today and tomorrow will end this bout. The heat will will wear me out.
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Just some notes on some stuff I'm reading. I'm not an attention whore I'm just real into staying quit the past few days. Can't sleep again. Three nights in a row. Sleep deprivation leads to bad thoughts and lends towards being in emotional mind and that's where I have made bad decisions in the past.
"The addict is double-minded because he cannot really and truly desire recovery until he already has it. "
Its from some fuckstick I'm reading.
This guy's an idiot. That's fucking ridiculous. He's clearly never experienced addiction.
Whoever wrote that is a fucking douchebag who clearly never quit anything he was addicted to.
Soul- why would posting two days in a row make you an attention whore? This space is your house. Post here every hour if you want. We can choose not to enter. .
Thanks Per. Not really thinking clearly with the lack of sleep the past few days. That's exactly what I was saying there. Living in an emotional mindset right now. Little dangerous. Not rational.
What's fucked up is the guy is an 'addiction specialist'.
You running Souliman? Can make you tired. Particularly if you run in the morning.
P.S. Dear nic bitch, keeping us awake to get in our head will not work. We just stay on KTC more to steal more victims from your grasp.
I'm running like I stole someone's watch right now Sco. Its not working. I'm certain running today and tomorrow will end this bout. The heat will will wear me out.
Well then, join us on the endurance tread. Are we long lost brothers?
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Just some notes on some stuff I'm reading. I'm not an attention whore I'm just real into staying quit the past few days. Can't sleep again. Three nights in a row. Sleep deprivation leads to bad thoughts and lends towards being in emotional mind and that's where I have made bad decisions in the past.
"The addict is double-minded because he cannot really and truly desire recovery until he already has it. "
Its from some fuckstick I'm reading.
This guy's an idiot. That's fucking ridiculous. He's clearly never experienced addiction.
Whoever wrote that is a fucking douchebag who clearly never quit anything he was addicted to.
Soul- why would posting two days in a row make you an attention whore? This space is your house. Post here every hour if you want. We can choose not to enter. .
Thanks Per. Not really thinking clearly with the lack of sleep the past few days. That's exactly what I was saying there. Living in an emotional mindset right now. Little dangerous. Not rational.
What's fucked up is the guy is an 'addiction specialist'.
You running Souliman? Can make you tired. Particularly if you run in the morning.
P.S. Dear nic bitch, keeping us awake to get in our head will not work. We just stay on KTC more to steal more victims from your grasp.
I'm running like I stole someone's watch right now Sco. Its not working. I'm certain running today and tomorrow will end this bout. The heat will will wear me out.
Well then, join us on the endurance tread. Are we long lost brothers?
Starting to look that way...
I'll start mixing it up in that thread. Thanks man.
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I got the chance to hang out with some good folks this past weekend from this site. I came away feeling humbled by the comma chips and hearing the stories and the commitment to quit from those around me. Good folks giving it their best. That's just about perfect I'd say. This is what we did: hung out and shot the shit on the back porch on a Saturday afternoon without the wives around, there were a few cocktails (I was SoberSouli...I am SoberSouli), played some lawn games (badminton at which I would say BC has previously trained with the German woman's Olympic team), had a huge incredible feast and capped the evening sitting around listening to some live music. It was an eye opener that 'hell yeah...I can do all that shit without a turd in my mouth and have a great time'.
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I'm an addict on both good days and bad days. 2010-2011 is my year of change. I'm feeling worn out.
How about some words of encouragement? Someone lay some justice on me. The more f-bombs and 'wet panties' comments the better. Who's got their A-game tonight?
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I'm an addict on both good days and bad days. 2010-2011 is my year of change. I'm feeling worn out.
How about some words of encouragement? Someone lay some justice on me. The more f-bombs and 'wet panties' comments the better. Who's got their A-game tonight?
265 days....must be fuckin nice. Im ready to kick the shit outta this habit.
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I'm an addict on both good days and bad days. 2010-2011 is my year of change. I'm feeling worn out.
How about some words of encouragement? Someone lay some justice on me. The more f-bombs and 'wet panties' comments the better. Who's got their A-game tonight?
265 days....must be fuckin nice. Im ready to kick the shit outta this habit.
Soul, get the sand out of your fukin' sloppy wet hair pie and help jlasling understand that this is a fukin' addiction, not a fukin' bad habit. If this was a habit, ol' soul here wouldn't be asking for encouragement after 265 clean ones.
Soul, summers eve your nasty tuna taco and tell the nic bitch to go get bent.
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I will gladly lend my two cents worth: Let me tell you something you fucking junkie. You saved my life about ten days ago with words that mortified me and filled me with more rage than I believe I've ever experienced. Then, when I basically told you to fuck off and I was done with this "KTC shit", you said, "Don't leave!" It hit me like a ton of bricks. I ripped a Nicoderm CQ patch off of my arm and decided to join this community for real.
You are an amazing guy tackling several demons. One of which I'm sure I will be following you up on. At this point Souli, to me, you, quite simply are da fuckin man!
I'm really glad I am quit with you. Keep it going. Quit with me today.
whsii
day fucking ten!!
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I just rubbed one out while staring at your avatar.
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Soul,
That sounds like "Souless" talking not SouliMAN. Who is this Souless talking? All these fucking quitters riding on your back and you cry out "my vagina hurts"---Man UP before I find another horse to ride!
Bring back SOULIMAN! The monster Quitter!
I suppport YOU brother!
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I'm an addict on both good days and bad days. 2010-2011 is my year of change. I'm feeling worn out.
How about some words of encouragement? Someone lay some justice on me. The more f-bombs and 'wet panties' comments the better. Who's got their A-game tonight?
265 days....must be fuckin nice. Im ready to kick the shit outta this habit.
Listen to Gmann above. The addiction is the thing we are fighting.
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Thank you. I needed that. I really believe in anger getting past nicotine addiction. JLas, Gmann, Whsii (you quit bud...I just asked you to do it), Parputt and LLC thank you for the time and effort. While I'm at work today, I will dwell on the teachings of this site. The first response I got from a post on this site was from NOLAQ and it was something like "Don't bring that weak ass shit in here. Get your fucking head straight." I needed a kick in the balls to get my fucking head straight.
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I will gladly lend my two cents worth: Let me tell you something you fucking junkie. You saved my life about ten days ago with words that mortified me and filled me with more rage than I believe I've ever experienced. Then, when I basically told you to fuck off and I was done with this "KTC shit", you said, "Don't leave!" It hit me like a ton of bricks. I ripped a Nicoderm CQ patch off of my arm and decided to join this community for real.
You are an amazing guy tackling several demons. One of which I'm sure I will be following you up on. At this point Souli, to me, you, quite simply are da fuckin man!
I'm really glad I am quit with you. Keep it going. Quit with me today.
whsii
day fucking ten!!
I will echo what this dude says. Soul, you were one of the first to rally around me on my quit day 1. For that, you are da man and will not be forgotten by Phil4. You, sir, are an inspirational quitter.
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I'm an addict on both good days and bad days. 2010-2011 is my year of change. I'm feeling worn out.
How about some words of encouragement? Someone lay some justice on me. The more f-bombs and 'wet panties' comments the better. Who's got their A-game tonight?
265 days....must be fuckin nice. Im ready to kick the shit outta this habit.
Listen to Gmann above. The addiction is the thing we are fighting.
Souli,
You had me at f-bombs and wet panties. You quit-plete me.
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Today I see the addict on the grill. He's far away but I can feel him. I got a big run in today and now I'm having my big quit. I struggle. Its not just nicotine but other things as well but its just being an addict. Accepting that each day I have to get up and set the table right. Get up and say I won't use today. I'm a huge proponent of the power of words. Choosing the right ones, really scrutinizing how you express yourself. Whether its thoughts or interacting with folks in real life or here, words frame reality. So when I get up and say I quit today, I'm framing my reality. Same as when I say I won't drink today. Or I'm going to run 20 miles. I'm defining my world. I'm organizing what is important and making it my reality. I'm starting to think about this as "making my own prophecy". When I think about what a prophecy is, it has aspects of things that should be in this world, things that could be in this world, things you can't be certain will happen, and I'm not sure if they are necessarily good or bad. The way I make my prophecy is to get up and quit today. Set the table for today. See those things in front of me and someday when the clock is running out, those same things will be sitting on the table right where I put them. Just as I did all those days before.
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Goo goo stuff Souli, as usual.
A successful quitter BEGINS each day with the End in Mind: I will not use nicotine today, etc.
This is based on the principle that all things are created twice. There is a mental (first) creation and then a physical (second) creation. The physical creation follows the mental, just as a building follows a blueprint. Begin with the End in Mind means to begin each day with a clear vision of your desired direction. You create your own destiny and secure the future you envision.
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I feel good today. No deep thoughts. No searching for the deeper meaning of being quit. Just a little diversion.
My favorite ad campaign of all time - "Terrible" Terry Tate.
Terry Tate - Office Linebacker (http://www.google.com/url?sa=t&source=web&cd=1&sqi=2&ved=0CC8QtwIwAA&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.youtube.com%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DRzToNo7A-94&rct=j&q=terrible%20terry%20tate&ei=E_t7Ts_2L4TTgQeuja2xAQ&usg=AFQjCNErQg-8XQ6jGtDBDbobprsZnwngTA&sig2=JrhIGLfiPF20Y55BCnLaVQ&cad=rja)
For the rest of the commercials: Return of Terry Tate (http://www.returnofterrytate.com/)
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I feel good today. No deep thoughts. No searching for the deeper meaning of being quit. Just a little diversion.
My favorite ad campaign of all time - "Terrible" Terry Tate.
Terry Tate - Office Linebacker (http://www.google.com/url?sa=t&source=web&cd=1&sqi=2&ved=0CC8QtwIwAA&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.youtube.com%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DRzToNo7A-94&rct=j&q=terrible%20terry%20tate&ei=E_t7Ts_2L4TTgQeuja2xAQ&usg=AFQjCNErQg-8XQ6jGtDBDbobprsZnwngTA&sig2=JrhIGLfiPF20Y55BCnLaVQ&cad=rja)
For the rest of the commercials: Return of Terry Tate (http://www.returnofterrytate.com/)
I look forward to your day 300 tomorrow!
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I feel good today. No deep thoughts. No searching for the deeper meaning of being quit. Just a little diversion.
My favorite ad campaign of all time - "Terrible" Terry Tate.
Terry Tate - Office Linebacker (http://www.google.com/url?sa=t&source=web&cd=1&sqi=2&ved=0CC8QtwIwAA&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.youtube.com%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DRzToNo7A-94&rct=j&q=terrible%20terry%20tate&ei=E_t7Ts_2L4TTgQeuja2xAQ&usg=AFQjCNErQg-8XQ6jGtDBDbobprsZnwngTA&sig2=JrhIGLfiPF20Y55BCnLaVQ&cad=rja)
For the rest of the commercials: Return of Terry Tate (http://www.returnofterrytate.com/)
I look forward to your day 300 tomorrow!
You should because I got a whole parade of misfits lining up to march past your house waiving banners saying "Thanks brother" on it.
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I feel good today. No deep thoughts. No searching for the deeper meaning of being quit. Just a little diversion.
My favorite ad campaign of all time - "Terrible" Terry Tate.
Terry Tate - Office Linebacker (http://www.google.com/url?sa=t&source=web&cd=1&sqi=2&ved=0CC8QtwIwAA&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.youtube.com%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DRzToNo7A-94&rct=j&q=terrible%20terry%20tate&ei=E_t7Ts_2L4TTgQeuja2xAQ&usg=AFQjCNErQg-8XQ6jGtDBDbobprsZnwngTA&sig2=JrhIGLfiPF20Y55BCnLaVQ&cad=rja)
For the rest of the commercials: Return of Terry Tate (http://www.returnofterrytate.com/)
I look forward to your day 300 tomorrow!
You should because I got a whole parade of misfits lining up to march past your house waiving banners saying "Thanks brother" on it.
They will blend in with the neighborhood. I will be :) tomorrow.
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I feel good today. No deep thoughts. No searching for the deeper meaning of being quit. Just a little diversion.
My favorite ad campaign of all time - "Terrible" Terry Tate.
Terry Tate - Office Linebacker (http://www.google.com/url?sa=t&source=web&cd=1&sqi=2&ved=0CC8QtwIwAA&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.youtube.com%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DRzToNo7A-94&rct=j&q=terrible%20terry%20tate&ei=E_t7Ts_2L4TTgQeuja2xAQ&usg=AFQjCNErQg-8XQ6jGtDBDbobprsZnwngTA&sig2=JrhIGLfiPF20Y55BCnLaVQ&cad=rja)
For the rest of the commercials: Return of Terry Tate (http://www.returnofterrytate.com/)
I look forward to your day 300 tomorrow!
You should because I got a whole parade of misfits lining up to march past your house waiving banners saying "Thanks brother" on it.
They will blend in with the neighborhood. I will be :) tomorrow.
Well Done Sir.
3rd floor and going up~
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I quit today. I feel good. Today I enjoy the fight. I enjoy knowing I am making a strong, conscious effort to change myself in that 300 days ago I was a different man. Show would ask how I did it. I did it one day at a time. There are all kinds of philosophies and euphemisms around here. Lord knows I've spread my share. What I get out of all of them is that we have the power to change ourselves. That you are strong enough to become the person you want to be. And that's not just with dip, that goes with anything. So do me a favor today. Take a look at yourself, all you fine quitters. Take a look and see if you are who you want to be. If you're not, take at least one step towards being that person today and then glance over your shoulder so you can see who you used to be.
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Great job Soul! I admire your QUIT. It is amazing what we can do when we make that conscious choice to do it. I also have found strength (through quitting nicotine) that I never knew I had. Life is good...
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I quit today. I feel good. Today I enjoy the fight. I enjoy knowing I am making a strong, conscious effort to change myself in that 300 days ago I was a different man. Show would ask how I did it. I did it one day at a time. There are all kinds of philosophies and euphemisms around here. Lord knows I've spread my share. What I get out of all of them is that we have the power to change ourselves. That you are strong enough to become the person you want to be. And that's not just with dip, that goes with anything. So do me a favor today. Take a look at yourself, all you fine quitters. Take a look and see if you are who you want to be. If you're not, take at least one step towards being that person today and then glance over your shoulder so you can see who you used to be.
:)
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I quit today. I feel good. Today I enjoy the fight. I enjoy knowing I am making a strong, conscious effort to change myself in that 300 days ago I was a different man. Show would ask how I did it. I did it one day at a time. There are all kinds of philosophies and euphemisms around here. Lord knows I've spread my share. What I get out of all of them is that we have the power to change ourselves. That you are strong enough to become the person you want to be. And that's not just with dip, that goes with anything. So do me a favor today. Take a look at yourself, all you fine quitters. Take a look and see if you are who you want to be. If you're not, take at least one step towards being that person today and then glance over your shoulder so you can see who you used to be.
'army'
Glad to be quit with you today!
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I quit today. I feel good. Today I enjoy the fight. I enjoy knowing I am making a strong, conscious effort to change myself in that 300 days ago I was a different man. Show would ask how I did it. I did it one day at a time. There are all kinds of philosophies and euphemisms around here. Lord knows I've spread my share. What I get out of all of them is that we have the power to change ourselves. That you are strong enough to become the person you want to be. And that's not just with dip, that goes with anything. So do me a favor today. Take a look at yourself, all you fine quitters. Take a look and see if you are who you want to be. If you're not, take at least one step towards being that person today and then glance over your shoulder so you can see who you used to be.
Congratulations on your third floor! Your support for me has been one of the main things that keeps me motivated. The analogies you come up with are nothing short of brilliant...not to mention spot on. Keep it up, my brother. Proud to be quit with you today. 'archer'
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I quit today. I've been commuting up 128 to Waltham for a bit (anyone from the NE area must have an idea as to the hell that brings and the prime dipping condition that it creates). To fight the urge for the past month, when I see someone dipping or smoking, I roll down my window and yell "slave" as loud as I can, roll up my window and face forward. Yup. I'm that guy.
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I quit today. I've been commuting up 128 to Waltham for a bit (anyone from the NE area must have an idea as to the hell that brings and the prime dipping condition that it creates). To fight the urge for the past month, when I see someone dipping or smoking, I roll down my window and yell "slave" as loud as I can, roll up my window and face forward. Yup. I'm that guy.
Keep up the rock solid dedicated quit!! Proud to be quit with you! nico
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I quit today.
"If you don't want to slip, don't go to slippery places." - HKS
Meant to write this down a while ago bro. Thought it was solid advice on all fronts.
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I quit today. I've been commuting up 128 to Waltham for a bit (anyone from the NE area must have an idea as to the hell that brings and the prime dipping condition that it creates). To fight the urge for the past month, when I see someone dipping or smoking, I roll down my window and yell "slave" as loud as I can, roll up my window and face forward. Yup. I'm that guy.
Keep up the rock solid dedicated quit!! Proud to be quit with you! nico
Beuatiful, bro. Keep on being "That Guy"!
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I quit today. I've been commuting up 128 to Waltham for a bit (anyone from the NE area must have an idea as to the hell that brings and the prime dipping condition that it creates). To fight the urge for the past month, when I see someone dipping or smoking, I roll down my window and yell "slave" as loud as I can, roll up my window and face forward. Yup. I'm that guy.
Keep up the rock solid dedicated quit!! Proud to be quit with you! nico
Beuatiful, bro. Keep on being "That Guy"!
That is kick ass! Today I was on the Texas AM campus for the football game and stuck in traffic at one point I was just people watching - all the hot little coeds walking around shaking their thang. Anyway, there was this dude tailgating who looked to be probably in his early 40's or so - standing there talking to some gal and reached into his pocked and pinched out one of the biggest fatty dips I've ever seen. Freaking huge. Then of course he stuck it in his jaw. Anyway, I was thinking in my head of doing the exact same thing you've been doing, ha. Of course, my 10-year old son was in the back seat so I didn't but I was so tempted to yell at him and call him a douche bag. He looked like such a fucking tool. Seriously didn't even remotely give me a crave or desire for one - I just felt pity for his ass. Hm, come to think of it, it's 8:46 CST and I haven't had a crave all freaking day...good shit.
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I quit today.
"If you don't want to slip, don't go to slippery places." - HKS
Meant to write this down a while ago bro. Thought it was solid advice on all fronts.
Soul - I've had the fortune to have a couple "wise old men" in my life and that reminds me of one of their classic sayings. One in particular would say it all the time, "if you don't want a haircut, don't hang out at the barber shop". I'm sure there are thousands of variations on that but you sparked an old memory for me. A very wise saying indeed.
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I quit today. Just a couple things on my mind.
One is how fucking pumped I am about going to PA to meet a whole bunch of quitters. FUCK. I'm excited about that one.
Two I've got a shitty commute right now but it just don't seem to matter when I see "KTC Scowick" pop up on the phone. Good talking with you bro.
Three I was telling a story to Sco about how Friday night it was raining cats and dogs up here. I was heading north to VT and decided to get off the highway and grab a burrito at a place called Chipotle. Food was good but I generally go to taco places where I'm the only white guy in there and have to point to a picture of what I want. This place was too bright, too clean and the music too Gaga. I got me a huge gut bomb and grabbed the hot sauce and sat down next to the window away from everyone else. It was pouring, like the drains over flowing pouring. I looked at my plump pocket of pleasure and had a single thought "Damn...be nice to have a dip for the ride after this thing".
I have protected my quit with the utmost attention that I could for the past 323 days. In roughly 60 hours from that moment I was going to run a marathon. I'm clean and sober for the first time in 15+ years. I've changed my diet and lost a solid bunch of weight during this past year. All this and I'm still an addict. It doesn't go away.
What did I do? I followed my plan of defense. I busted out my phone and went through all the threads I could. I commented on the fuckers bringing the quit and called out the candy asses still looking for the teat. I went to my quit group and I looked at each one of those guys that put their name down and the numbers they had next to them. All 300+. I read through this introduction twice. Some funny shit in here and some shit that makes me think I spent too much time on tour with Phish. One thing keeps coming through though...I'm an addict. Some times the addict is right in my face, sometimes he's standing outside in pouring rain watching me eat a burrito.
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I quit today. Just a couple things on my mind.
One is how fucking pumped I am about going to PA to meet a whole bunch of quitters. FUCK. I'm excited about that one.
Two I've got a shitty commute right now but it just don't seem to matter when I see "KTC Scowick" pop up on the phone. Good talking with you bro.
Three I was telling a story to Sco about how Friday night it was raining cats and dogs up here. I was heading north to VT and decided to get off the highway and grab a burrito at a place called Chipotle. Food was good but I generally go to taco places where I'm the only white guy in there and have to point to a picture of what I want. This place was too bright, too clean and the music too Gaga. I got me a huge gut bomb and grabbed the hot sauce and sat down next to the window away from everyone else. It was pouring, like the drains over flowing pouring. I looked at my plump pocket of pleasure and had a single thought "Damn...be nice to have a dip for the ride after this thing".
I have protected my quit with the utmost attention that I could for the past 323 days. In roughly 60 hours from that moment I was going to run a marathon. I'm clean and sober for the first time in 15+ years. I've changed my diet and lost a solid bunch of weight during this past year. All this and I'm still an addict. It doesn't go away.
What did I do? I followed my plan of defense. I busted out my phone and went through all the threads I could. I commented on the fuckers bringing the quit and called out the candy asses still looking for the teat. I went to my quit group and I looked at each one of those guys that put their name down and the numbers they had next to them. All 300+. I read through this introduction twice. Some funny shit in here and some shit that makes me think I spent too much time on tour with Phish. One thing keeps coming through though...I'm an addict. Some times the addict is right in my face, sometimes he's standing outside in pouring rain watching me eat a burrito.
Only the nic bitch would hang out at a burrito shop in the rain waiting for hit. Whore. Instead, Souli deals some zen on KTC gives her the finger. 'Finger'
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I quit today. Just a couple things on my mind.
One is how fucking pumped I am about going to PA to meet a whole bunch of quitters. FUCK. I'm excited about that one.
Two I've got a shitty commute right now but it just don't seem to matter when I see "KTC Scowick" pop up on the phone. Good talking with you bro.
Three I was telling a story to Sco about how Friday night it was raining cats and dogs up here. I was heading north to VT and decided to get off the highway and grab a burrito at a place called Chipotle. Food was good but I generally go to taco places where I'm the only white guy in there and have to point to a picture of what I want. This place was too bright, too clean and the music too Gaga. I got me a huge gut bomb and grabbed the hot sauce and sat down next to the window away from everyone else. It was pouring, like the drains over flowing pouring. I looked at my plump pocket of pleasure and had a single thought "Damn...be nice to have a dip for the ride after this thing".
I have protected my quit with the utmost attention that I could for the past 323 days. In roughly 60 hours from that moment I was going to run a marathon. I'm clean and sober for the first time in 15+ years. I've changed my diet and lost a solid bunch of weight during this past year. All this and I'm still an addict. It doesn't go away.
What did I do? I followed my plan of defense. I busted out my phone and went through all the threads I could. I commented on the fuckers bringing the quit and called out the candy asses still looking for the teat. I went to my quit group and I looked at each one of those guys that put their name down and the numbers they had next to them. All 300+. I read through this introduction twice. Some funny shit in here and some shit that makes me think I spent too much time on tour with Phish. One thing keeps coming through though...I'm an addict. Some times the addict is right in my face, sometimes he's standing outside in pouring rain watching me eat a burrito.
Soul,
You make me proud to be a KTC brother. Let's ride and do battle with the bitch.
Keep up the good Quit!
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I quit today. Just a couple things on my mind.
One is how fucking pumped I am about going to PA to meet a whole bunch of quitters. FUCK. I'm excited about that one.
Two I've got a shitty commute right now but it just don't seem to matter when I see "KTC Scowick" pop up on the phone. Good talking with you bro.
Three I was telling a story to Sco about how Friday night it was raining cats and dogs up here. I was heading north to VT and decided to get off the highway and grab a burrito at a place called Chipotle. Food was good but I generally go to taco places where I'm the only white guy in there and have to point to a picture of what I want. This place was too bright, too clean and the music too Gaga. I got me a huge gut bomb and grabbed the hot sauce and sat down next to the window away from everyone else. It was pouring, like the drains over flowing pouring. I looked at my plump pocket of pleasure and had a single thought "Damn...be nice to have a dip for the ride after this thing".
I have protected my quit with the utmost attention that I could for the past 323 days. In roughly 60 hours from that moment I was going to run a marathon. I'm clean and sober for the first time in 15+ years. I've changed my diet and lost a solid bunch of weight during this past year. All this and I'm still an addict. It doesn't go away.
What did I do? I followed my plan of defense. I busted out my phone and went through all the threads I could. I commented on the fuckers bringing the quit and called out the candy asses still looking for the teat. I went to my quit group and I looked at each one of those guys that put their name down and the numbers they had next to them. All 300+. I read through this introduction twice. Some funny shit in here and some shit that makes me think I spent too much time on tour with Phish. One thing keeps coming through though...I'm an addict. Some times the addict is right in my face, sometimes he's standing outside in pouring rain watching me eat a burrito.
Soul,
You make me proud to be a KTC brother. Let's ride and do battle with the bitch.
Keep up the good Quit!
Nic be-otch is fizucked - doesn't stand a chance.
Nice quit.
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323
I quit today. Just a couple things on my mind.
One is how fucking pumped I am about going to PA to meet a whole bunch of quitters. FUCK. I'm excited about that one.
Two I've got a shitty commute right now but it just don't seem to matter when I see "KTC Scowick" pop up on the phone. Good talking with you bro.
Three I was telling a story to Sco about how Friday night it was raining cats and dogs up here. I was heading north to VT and decided to get off the highway and grab a burrito at a place called Chipotle. Food was good but I generally go to taco places where I'm the only white guy in there and have to point to a picture of what I want. This place was too bright, too clean and the music too Gaga. I got me a huge gut bomb and grabbed the hot sauce and sat down next to the window away from everyone else. It was pouring, like the drains over flowing pouring. I looked at my plump pocket of pleasure and had a single thought "Damn...be nice to have a dip for the ride after this thing".
I have protected my quit with the utmost attention that I could for the past 323 days. In roughly 60 hours from that moment I was going to run a marathon. I'm clean and sober for the first time in 15+ years. I've changed my diet and lost a solid bunch of weight during this past year. All this and I'm still an addict. It doesn't go away.
What did I do? I followed my plan of defense. I busted out my phone and went through all the threads I could. I commented on the fuckers bringing the quit and called out the candy asses still looking for the teat. I went to my quit group and I looked at each one of those guys that put their name down and the numbers they had next to them. All 300+. I read through this introduction twice. Some funny shit in here and some shit that makes me think I spent too much time on tour with Phish. One thing keeps coming through though...I'm an addict. Some times the addict is right in my face, sometimes he's standing outside in pouring rain watching me eat a burrito.
Soul,
You make me proud to be a KTC brother. Let's ride and do battle with the bitch.
Keep up the good Quit!
Nic be-otch is fizucked - doesn't stand a chance.
Nice quit.
Soul, your words inspire me to be a better quitter. Isn't liberating when you meet your demons face-to-face and say, "No, longer will I succumb to your power. I win now. One day at a time."?
Have a great time in PA. That is the land where whsii was born.
Later.
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Way to kick the nic bitch in the taint.....I got your back Soul!
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I quit today. Just a couple things on my mind.
One is how fucking pumped I am about going to PA to meet a whole bunch of quitters. FUCK. I'm excited about that one.
Two I've got a shitty commute right now but it just don't seem to matter when I see "KTC Scowick" pop up on the phone. Good talking with you bro.
Three I was telling a story to Sco about how Friday night it was raining cats and dogs up here. I was heading north to VT and decided to get off the highway and grab a burrito at a place called Chipotle. Food was good but I generally go to taco places where I'm the only white guy in there and have to point to a picture of what I want. This place was too bright, too clean and the music too Gaga. I got me a huge gut bomb and grabbed the hot sauce and sat down next to the window away from everyone else. It was pouring, like the drains over flowing pouring. I looked at my plump pocket of pleasure and had a single thought "Damn...be nice to have a dip for the ride after this thing".
I have protected my quit with the utmost attention that I could for the past 323 days. In roughly 60 hours from that moment I was going to run a marathon. I'm clean and sober for the first time in 15+ years. I've changed my diet and lost a solid bunch of weight during this past year. All this and I'm still an addict. It doesn't go away.
What did I do? I followed my plan of defense. I busted out my phone and went through all the threads I could. I commented on the fuckers bringing the quit and called out the candy asses still looking for the teat. I went to my quit group and I looked at each one of those guys that put their name down and the numbers they had next to them. All 300+. I read through this introduction twice. Some funny shit in here and some shit that makes me think I spent too much time on tour with Phish. One thing keeps coming through though...I'm an addict. Some times the addict is right in my face, sometimes he's standing outside in pouring rain watching me eat a burrito.
Soul,
You make me proud to be a KTC brother. Let's ride and do battle with the bitch.
Keep up the good Quit!
Nic be-otch is fizucked - doesn't stand a chance.
Nice quit.
Soul, your words inspire me to be a better quitter. Isn't liberating when you meet your demons face-to-face and say, "No, longer will I succumb to your power. I win now. One day at a time."?
Have a great time in PA. That is the land where whsii was born.
Later.
Glad to be quit with you any day or night Soul. You sir are one bad as quitter. Keep it up. If that becomes a problem, get some Viagra.
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Way to use the tools here at KTC Soul. Proud to be quit with you brother.
BTW - Chipotle is only good with a shitload of tabasco sauce..place has no flavor (or jalapeno's for that matter which weirds me out - what kind of taco/burrito joint doesn't have jalapenos?)
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I quit today. I fucking love this cult. Fucking love it. I love the fact the we all sack up each day and say "fuck you" to the nic bitch. I like that folks lean on each other and in the light of weakness, they take strength in knowing they are not alone. I like that I've got to know some pretty cool and some pretty badass folks while I've been here. I dig that I'm a different guy than day 1. Thanks to all you guys. I'm paying it forward as much as I can. Time is short now a days since the power of quit has taken over my life. I'm expanding my horizons and giving the old high hard one to fuckers that say "you can't". I want more. I used to hold the boulder up with both hands...straining. Then it got easier. Now, I do a "I Dream of Jeanie (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-1VO6LYZyng)" move and that fucking boulder actually moves up the hill.
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Yes!! Thank you sir!! Proud to drink this cults kool aid with you fine sir!
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I quit today. I fucking love this cult. Fucking love it. I love the fact the we all sack up each day and say "fuck you" to the nic bitch. I like that folks lean on each other and in the light of weakness, they take strength in knowing they are not alone. I like that I've got to know some pretty cool and some pretty badass folks while I've been here. I dig that I'm a different guy than day 1. Thanks to all you guys. I'm paying it forward as much as I can. Time is short now a days since the power of quit has taken over my life. I'm expanding my horizons and giving the old high hard one to fuckers that say "you can't". I want more. I used to hold the boulder up with both hands...straining. Then it got easier. Now, I do a "I Dream of Jeanie (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-1VO6LYZyng)" move and that fucking boulder actually moves up the hill.
Freedom is a Great thing. I quit with you today.
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I quit today. I fucking love this cult. Fucking love it. I love the fact the we all sack up each day and say "fuck you" to the nic bitch. I like that folks lean on each other and in the light of weakness, they take strength in knowing they are not alone. I like that I've got to know some pretty cool and some pretty badass folks while I've been here. I dig that I'm a different guy than day 1. Thanks to all you guys. I'm paying it forward as much as I can. Time is short now a days since the power of quit has taken over my life. I'm expanding my horizons and giving the old high hard one to fuckers that say "you can't". I want more. I used to hold the boulder up with both hands...straining. Then it got easier. Now, I do a "I Dream of Jeanie (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-1VO6LYZyng)" move and that fucking boulder actually moves up the hill.
Dude, you are a fucking quit beast. Well done and thanks for supporting all of those who follow behind you.
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I quit today. I fucking love this cult. Fucking love it. I love the fact the we all sack up each day and say "fuck you" to the nic bitch. I like that folks lean on each other and in the light of weakness, they take strength in knowing they are not alone. I like that I've got to know some pretty cool and some pretty badass folks while I've been here. I dig that I'm a different guy than day 1. Thanks to all you guys. I'm paying it forward as much as I can. Time is short now a days since the power of quit has taken over my life. I'm expanding my horizons and giving the old high hard one to fuckers that say "you can't". I want more. I used to hold the boulder up with both hands...straining. Then it got easier. Now, I do a "I Dream of Jeanie (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-1VO6LYZyng)" move and that fucking boulder actually moves up the hill.
that's right.... and long live those of us in the Endurance thread that bask in the glow of exertion, endorphins, pain, challenge and taking one more step than we ever thought we could.... I quit with Soul, every day....
TCOPE
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Time is short now a days since the power of quit has taken over my life.
Wear out, don't rust out...and sleep when your dead.
And now that you're quit, that's a lot farther off than it would've been otherwise...
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347
I quit today. Quick story. Yesterday, before I took off from Soulville for the BBJ Compound, I stopped at the quickie mart to grab some gum and a few bottles of water(which I regretted later while stuck in traffic in NY). Obviously in a past life that would have included a big ole teat of nicotine for the 5 hour ride. In front of me is some Joe Blow with a green Sox hat on buying a paper and a can of Skoal. The thoughts that ran through my head were joy that I was not that guy anymore. He collected his cancer and I stepped up to the counter with my Big Red and future bladder bursting bottles of water. I went out to the car and looked to see where the guy went. Got into a mini-van, two girls under 10 in the backseat. I thought what a shame.
What would Souli do?
Yeah. I through my stuff in the car and went over to his van. It was raining and I gave him a big smile and asked if he had a minute. I asked him if he wanted to stop. "Stop what?" Chewing cancer my friend. I gave him the name of the website and told him I was Souliman and that we could get it done if he wanted to stop. His response "what the hell is wrong with you bothering strangers like this?" I smiled and apologized for bothering him and politely asked if he thought he was an addict and if he even knew what an addict was. I got a "get the hell out of here" and he shut the door. He pulled away and the last thing I saw was this little black haired girl looking through window at me. The rain falling made it look like tears coming down the glass. I tried. He failed.
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347
I quit today. Quick story. Yesterday, before I took off from Soulville for the BBJ Compound, I stopped at the quickie mart to grab some gum and a few bottles of water(which I regretted later while stuck in traffic in NY). Obviously in a past life that would have included a big ole teat of nicotine for the 5 hour ride. In front of me is some Joe Blow with a green Sox hat on buying a paper and a can of Skoal. The thoughts that ran through my head were joy that I was not that guy anymore. He collected his cancer and I stepped up to the counter with my Big Red and future bladder bursting bottles of water. I went out to the car and looked to see where the guy went. Got into a mini-van, two girls under 10 in the backseat. I thought what a shame.
What would Souli do?
Yeah. I through my stuff in the car and went over to his van. It was raining and I gave him a big smile and asked if he had a minute. I asked him if he wanted to stop. "Stop what?" Chewing cancer my friend. I gave him the name of the website and told him I was Souliman and that we could get it done if he wanted to stop. His response "what the hell is wrong with you bothering strangers like this?" I smiled and apologized for bothering him and politely asked if he thought he was an addict and if he even knew what an addict was. I got a "get the hell out of here" and he shut the door. He pulled away and the last thing I saw was this little black haired girl looking through window at me. The rain falling made it look like tears coming down the glass. I tried. He failed.
cavers find a way to cave, quitters find a way to quit. ~ 30
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I quit today. Quick story. Yesterday, before I took off from Soulville for the BBJ Compound, I stopped at the quickie mart to grab some gum and a few bottles of water(which I regretted later while stuck in traffic in NY). Obviously in a past life that would have included a big ole teat of nicotine for the 5 hour ride. In front of me is some Joe Blow with a green Sox hat on buying a paper and a can of Skoal. The thoughts that ran through my head were joy that I was not that guy anymore. He collected his cancer and I stepped up to the counter with my Big Red and future bladder bursting bottles of water. I went out to the car and looked to see where the guy went. Got into a mini-van, two girls under 10 in the backseat. I thought what a shame.
What would Souli do?
Yeah. I through my stuff in the car and went over to his van. It was raining and I gave him a big smile and asked if he had a minute. I asked him if he wanted to stop. "Stop what?" Chewing cancer my friend. I gave him the name of the website and told him I was Souliman and that we could get it done if he wanted to stop. His response "what the hell is wrong with you bothering strangers like this?" I smiled and apologized for bothering him and politely asked if he thought he was an addict and if he even knew what an addict was. I got a "get the hell out of here" and he shut the door. He pulled away and the last thing I saw was this little black haired girl looking through window at me. The rain falling made it look like tears coming down the glass. I tried. He failed.
cavers find a way to cave, quitters find a way to quit. ~ 30
One morning an elderly man was walking on a nearly deserted beach. He came upon a boy surrounded by thousands and thousands of starfish. As eagerly as he could, the youngster was picking them up and throwing them back into the ocean.
Puzzled, the older man looked at the young boy and asked, "Little boy, what are you doing?"
The youth responded without looking up, "I'm trying to save these starfish, sir."
The old man chuckled aloud, and queried, "Son, there are thousands of starfish and only one of you. What difference can you make?"
Holding a starfish in his hand, the boy turned to the man and, gently tossing the starfish into the water, said, "It will make a difference to that one!"
(source unknown)
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347
I quit today. Quick story. Yesterday, before I took off from Soulville for the BBJ Compound, I stopped at the quickie mart to grab some gum and a few bottles of water(which I regretted later while stuck in traffic in NY). Obviously in a past life that would have included a big ole teat of nicotine for the 5 hour ride. In front of me is some Joe Blow with a green Sox hat on buying a paper and a can of Skoal. The thoughts that ran through my head were joy that I was not that guy anymore. He collected his cancer and I stepped up to the counter with my Big Red and future bladder bursting bottles of water. I went out to the car and looked to see where the guy went. Got into a mini-van, two girls under 10 in the backseat. I thought what a shame.
What would Souli do?
Yeah. I through my stuff in the car and went over to his van. It was raining and I gave him a big smile and asked if he had a minute. I asked him if he wanted to stop. "Stop what?" Chewing cancer my friend. I gave him the name of the website and told him I was Souliman and that we could get it done if he wanted to stop. His response "what the hell is wrong with you bothering strangers like this?" I smiled and apologized for bothering him and politely asked if he thought he was an addict and if he even knew what an addict was. I got a "get the hell out of here" and he shut the door. He pulled away and the last thing I saw was this little black haired girl looking through window at me. The rain falling made it look like tears coming down the glass. I tried. He failed.
cavers find a way to cave, quitters find a way to quit. ~ 30
One morning an elderly man was walking on a nearly deserted beach. He came upon a boy surrounded by thousands and thousands of starfish. As eagerly as he could, the youngster was picking them up and throwing them back into the ocean.
Puzzled, the older man looked at the young boy and asked, "Little boy, what are you doing?"
The youth responded without looking up, "I'm trying to save these starfish, sir."
The old man chuckled aloud, and queried, "Son, there are thousands of starfish and only one of you. What difference can you make?"
Holding a starfish in his hand, the boy turned to the man and, gently tossing the starfish into the water, said, "It will make a difference to that one!"
(source unknown)
That starfish story is completely ghey. Just FYI.
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I quit today. Quick story. Yesterday, before I took off from Soulville for the BBJ Compound, I stopped at the quickie mart to grab some gum and a few bottles of water(which I regretted later while stuck in traffic in NY). Obviously in a past life that would have included a big ole teat of nicotine for the 5 hour ride. In front of me is some Joe Blow with a green Sox hat on buying a paper and a can of Skoal. The thoughts that ran through my head were joy that I was not that guy anymore. He collected his cancer and I stepped up to the counter with my Big Red and future bladder bursting bottles of water. I went out to the car and looked to see where the guy went. Got into a mini-van, two girls under 10 in the backseat. I thought what a shame.
What would Souli do?
Yeah. I through my stuff in the car and went over to his van. It was raining and I gave him a big smile and asked if he had a minute. I asked him if he wanted to stop. "Stop what?" Chewing cancer my friend. I gave him the name of the website and told him I was Souliman and that we could get it done if he wanted to stop. His response "what the hell is wrong with you bothering strangers like this?" I smiled and apologized for bothering him and politely asked if he thought he was an addict and if he even knew what an addict was. I got a "get the hell out of here" and he shut the door. He pulled away and the last thing I saw was this little black haired girl looking through window at me. The rain falling made it look like tears coming down the glass. I tried. He failed.
cavers find a way to cave, quitters find a way to quit. ~ 30
One morning an elderly man was walking on a nearly deserted beach. He came upon a boy surrounded by thousands and thousands of starfish. As eagerly as he could, the youngster was picking them up and throwing them back into the ocean.
Puzzled, the older man looked at the young boy and asked, "Little boy, what are you doing?"
The youth responded without looking up, "I'm trying to save these starfish, sir."
The old man chuckled aloud, and queried, "Son, there are thousands of starfish and only one of you. What difference can you make?"
Holding a starfish in his hand, the boy turned to the man and, gently tossing the starfish into the water, said, "It will make a difference to that one!"
(source unknown)
That starfish story is completely ghey. Just FYI.
I knew you would like it...but my man card is way too secure to be revoked...so that one little hit won't effect me in the least....
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I quit today. Quick story. Yesterday, before I took off from Soulville for the BBJ Compound, I stopped at the quickie mart to grab some gum and a few bottles of water(which I regretted later while stuck in traffic in NY). Obviously in a past life that would have included a big ole teat of nicotine for the 5 hour ride. In front of me is some Joe Blow with a green Sox hat on buying a paper and a can of Skoal. The thoughts that ran through my head were joy that I was not that guy anymore. He collected his cancer and I stepped up to the counter with my Big Red and future bladder bursting bottles of water. I went out to the car and looked to see where the guy went. Got into a mini-van, two girls under 10 in the backseat. I thought what a shame.
What would Souli do?
Yeah. I through my stuff in the car and went over to his van. It was raining and I gave him a big smile and asked if he had a minute. I asked him if he wanted to stop. "Stop what?" Chewing cancer my friend. I gave him the name of the website and told him I was Souliman and that we could get it done if he wanted to stop. His response "what the hell is wrong with you bothering strangers like this?" I smiled and apologized for bothering him and politely asked if he thought he was an addict and if he even knew what an addict was. I got a "get the hell out of here" and he shut the door. He pulled away and the last thing I saw was this little black haired girl looking through window at me. The rain falling made it look like tears coming down the glass. I tried. He failed.
cavers find a way to cave, quitters find a way to quit. ~ 30
One morning an elderly man was walking on a nearly deserted beach. He came upon a boy surrounded by thousands and thousands of starfish. As eagerly as he could, the youngster was picking them up and throwing them back into the ocean.
Puzzled, the older man looked at the young boy and asked, "Little boy, what are you doing?"
The youth responded without looking up, "I'm trying to save these starfish, sir."
The old man chuckled aloud, and queried, "Son, there are thousands of starfish and only one of you. What difference can you make?"
Holding a starfish in his hand, the boy turned to the man and, gently tossing the starfish into the water, said, "It will make a difference to that one!"
(source unknown)
That starfish story is completely ghey. Just FYI.
I knew you would like it...but my man card is way too secure to be revoked...so that one little hit won't effect me in the least....
Mine too. Mine, too.
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I quit today. Quick story. Yesterday, before I took off from Soulville for the BBJ Compound, I stopped at the quickie mart to grab some gum and a few bottles of water(which I regretted later while stuck in traffic in NY). Obviously in a past life that would have included a big ole teat of nicotine for the 5 hour ride. In front of me is some Joe Blow with a green Sox hat on buying a paper and a can of Skoal. The thoughts that ran through my head were joy that I was not that guy anymore. He collected his cancer and I stepped up to the counter with my Big Red and future bladder bursting bottles of water. I went out to the car and looked to see where the guy went. Got into a mini-van, two girls under 10 in the backseat. I thought what a shame.
What would Souli do?
Yeah. I through my stuff in the car and went over to his van. It was raining and I gave him a big smile and asked if he had a minute. I asked him if he wanted to stop. "Stop what?" Chewing cancer my friend. I gave him the name of the website and told him I was Souliman and that we could get it done if he wanted to stop. His response "what the hell is wrong with you bothering strangers like this?" I smiled and apologized for bothering him and politely asked if he thought he was an addict and if he even knew what an addict was. I got a "get the hell out of here" and he shut the door. He pulled away and the last thing I saw was this little black haired girl looking through window at me. The rain falling made it look like tears coming down the glass. I tried. He failed.
cavers find a way to cave, quitters find a way to quit. ~ 30
One morning an elderly man was walking on a nearly deserted beach. He came upon a boy surrounded by thousands and thousands of starfish. As eagerly as he could, the youngster was picking them up and throwing them back into the ocean.
Puzzled, the older man looked at the young boy and asked, "Little boy, what are you doing?"
The youth responded without looking up, "I'm trying to save these starfish, sir."
The old man chuckled aloud, and queried, "Son, there are thousands of starfish and only one of you. What difference can you make?"
Holding a starfish in his hand, the boy turned to the man and, gently tossing the starfish into the water, said, "It will make a difference to that one!"
(source unknown)
That starfish story is completely ghey. Just FYI.
I knew you would like it...but my man card is way too secure to be revoked...so that one little hit won't effect me in the least....
Mine too. Mine, too.
That is some seriously good shit right there. Yeah, he tossed your advice aside at the moment but you never know, he may have thought twice about it as he drove off. Nonetheless, I have a lot of respect for you stepping out and reaching out to that addict - never know, the next one may respect your advice and have his life saved. I hope you continue to do that.
gmann and his starfish stories...
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I quit today. Quick story. Yesterday, before I took off from Soulville for the BBJ Compound, I stopped at the quickie mart to grab some gum and a few bottles of water(which I regretted later while stuck in traffic in NY). Obviously in a past life that would have included a big ole teat of nicotine for the 5 hour ride. In front of me is some Joe Blow with a green Sox hat on buying a paper and a can of Skoal. The thoughts that ran through my head were joy that I was not that guy anymore. He collected his cancer and I stepped up to the counter with my Big Red and future bladder bursting bottles of water. I went out to the car and looked to see where the guy went. Got into a mini-van, two girls under 10 in the backseat. I thought what a shame.
What would Souli do?
Yeah. I through my stuff in the car and went over to his van. It was raining and I gave him a big smile and asked if he had a minute. I asked him if he wanted to stop. "Stop what?" Chewing cancer my friend. I gave him the name of the website and told him I was Souliman and that we could get it done if he wanted to stop. His response "what the hell is wrong with you bothering strangers like this?" I smiled and apologized for bothering him and politely asked if he thought he was an addict and if he even knew what an addict was. I got a "get the hell out of here" and he shut the door. He pulled away and the last thing I saw was this little black haired girl looking through window at me. The rain falling made it look like tears coming down the glass. I tried. He failed.
cavers find a way to cave, quitters find a way to quit. ~ 30
One morning an elderly man was walking on a nearly deserted beach. He came upon a boy surrounded by thousands and thousands of starfish. As eagerly as he could, the youngster was picking them up and throwing them back into the ocean.
Puzzled, the older man looked at the young boy and asked, "Little boy, what are you doing?"
The youth responded without looking up, "I'm trying to save these starfish, sir."
The old man chuckled aloud, and queried, "Son, there are thousands of starfish and only one of you. What difference can you make?"
Holding a starfish in his hand, the boy turned to the man and, gently tossing the starfish into the water, said, "It will make a difference to that one!"
(source unknown)
That starfish story is completely ghey. Just FYI.
I knew you would like it...but my man card is way too secure to be revoked...so that one little hit won't effect me in the least....
Mine too. Mine, too.
That is some seriously good shit right there. Yeah, he tossed your advice aside at the moment but you never know, he may have thought twice about it as he drove off. Nonetheless, I have a lot of respect for you stepping out and reaching out to that addict - never know, the next one may respect your advice and have his life saved. I hope you continue to do that.
gmann and his starfish stories...
More proof that red sox fans are cunts.
Good work soul.
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Congratulations (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vu1XCIev3Cc&feature=related) on your first year!!! 'worship'
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Congrats on a year Soul
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A year of freedom and helping others achieve freedom. Outstanding.
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Tree hunnert an sitty fi days. Right the hell on cuz!!!!
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The best. B)
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Huge congrats on the year - your quit is strong and your presence here has strengthened many others. Well done.
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365 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=adbrFysZvc4&feature=related)
I quit today. Few things dancing around in the ole cerebellum tonight...
First, I just want to thank all the good folks here. I'm a lucky man. I know that luck is for folks that don't make their own path but I don't know how else to describe how grateful I am for today.
Second, I said it a few times today but that 365 is not just my hard work but the attention and work of all of us. Quite a few folks have a share of those days.
Third, I really have a hard time describing my state of being now a days. I know a few of you now roll your eyes thinking "here he goes...off on some transcendental journey through the acid trips of his youth". No. I've worked hard to get to this spot. I feel so fucking empowered. I have complete conviction in who I am and what I am doing now a days. Did I need quit to give me the confidence? No. Did I need quit to give me peace? I do believe so. There's no conflict today and that has allowed me to see the path. It starts visually and you consciously take a step towards your goal. It takes effort and control to make a "purposeful step". I visualize that step and the path its landing on. Both are manifestations of what I want (the path) and how I am getting it (the step). After a while, the step went from being a short step to a longer step and longer step and longer as I learned to appreciate the strain of changing yourself from something you don't want to be. Its as though now, I'm in a continuous state of step. I can feel the effort and control still but its constant. It doesn't wane or wax. And I don't have to aim for the path because I can always feel it. This is quit nirvana. This is the treading water in the quit pool. Purposeful motion to save your life knowing that all the exertion is worth it to keep your head above water. Its satisfying. Its completion. That effort is the answer to that simple question: do you want to live or die today. A while ago, in this thread somewhere, I bitched about being an addict and having to face the decision every fucking day whether to use or not. Whether to be owned today or not. Today...I enjoy answering that question because the answer has never been clearer. That euphemism of screaming "I quit" from the top of the building is exactly what I feel when I post roll. "I quit. I am no longer owned. I make my path."
There's something about quitters man...they fully appreciate having purpose.
"Congrats on taking a healthy, nic-free trip around the sun, bro." - Radman
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big ups
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'clap'
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Congrats Soulman on your one year quit! You have strengthened my quit with your posts and support! Keep up the good job. Proud to be quit with you today.
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365 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=adbrFysZvc4&feature=related)
I quit today. Few things dancing around in the ole cerebellum tonight...
First, I just want to thank all the good folks here. I'm a lucky man. I know that luck is for folks that don't make their own path but I don't know how else to describe how grateful I am for today.
Second, I said it a few times today but that 365 is not just my hard work but the attention and work of all of us. Quite a few folks have a share of those days.
Third, I really have a hard time describing my state of being now a days. I know a few of you now roll your eyes thinking "here he goes...off on some transcendental journey through the acid trips of his youth". No. I've worked hard to get to this spot. I feel so fucking empowered. I have complete conviction in who I am and what I am doing now a days. Did I need quit to give me the confidence? No. Did I need quit to give me peace? I do believe so. There's no conflict today and that has allowed me to see the path. It starts visually and you consciously take a step towards your goal. It takes effort and control to make a "purposeful step". I visualize that step and the path its landing on. Both are manifestations of what I want (the path) and how I am getting it (the step). After a while, the step went from being a short step to a longer step and longer step and longer as I learned to appreciate the strain of changing yourself from something you don't want to be. Its as though now, I'm in a continuous state of step. I can feel the effort and control still but its constant. It doesn't wane or wax. And I don't have to aim for the path because I can always feel it. This is quit nirvana. This is the treading water in the quit pool. Purposeful motion to save your life knowing that all the exertion is worth it to keep your head above water. Its satisfying. Its completion. That effort is the answer to that simple question: do you want to live or die today. A while ago, in this thread somewhere, I bitched about being an addict and having to face the decision every fucking day whether to use or not. Whether to be owned today or not. Today...I enjoy answering that question because the answer has never been clearer. That euphemism of screaming "I quit" from the top of the building is exactly what I feel when I post roll. "I quit. I am no longer owned. I make my path."
There's something about quitters man...they fully appreciate having purpose.
"Congrats on taking a healthy, nic-free trip around the sun, bro." - Radman
Just ran across this. Well said. Yet another epic ramble from the Souliman. I'll take that step with you anytime.
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I quit today. I just got to say how fucking awesome it is to see young men in the late teens and twenties giving the old proverbial "Number One" to the nic bitch. I can't imagine having the past 20 or so years free as these men will. Own it boys. Fight through that shit. Reach out. You can do this.
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Soul, congrats on 400. Thank you for all that you do here.
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Soul, congrats on 400. Thank you for all that you do here.
X2
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Congrats on reaching the 4th floor soul man! Keep climbing!
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oh hell yeah.
4th floor.
hallelujah. holy shit. where's the tylenol.
nice quit you've got there, brother.
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400
I quit today.
You fuckers bring the quit. I just hold the water bucket when you need a refreshing gulp of reminder that no one here is special and that everyone of us is an addict and everyone of us is strong enough to overcome.
Thanks for the kind words. I'm grateful for the support. I hate the nic bitch. I've never despised anything more. I want to hunt her down like how I want to hunt down folks that decorate their cars for the holidays. I'd get all camo with a "I HEART UST" shirt and spit stains on my jeans. She'd think I was a slave. Oh no bitch. I am your nightmare. I am my own man.
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400
I quit today.
You fuckers bring the quit. I just hold the water bucket when you need a refreshing gulp of reminder that no one here is special and that everyone of us is an addict and everyone of us is strong enough to overcome.
Thanks for the kind words. I'm grateful for the support. I hate the nic bitch. I've never despised anything more. I want to hunt her down like how I want to hunt down folks that decorate their cars for the holidays. I'd get all camo with a "I HEART UST" shirt and spit stains on my jeans. She'd think I was a slave. Oh no bitch. I am your nightmare. I am my own man.
Well Done Sir!!!
4 Bones and Rollin
'clap'
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"One day at a time"
"Its simple but it ain't easy"
"This isn't an ATTEMPT at quitting...you are now quit."
"You put your word down with the rest of us...you give your word."
"I am not a unique and special butterfly. I am an addict."
The Words of Souliman are wise.
You preach something brother, and I'll be there to learn from it.
Cornholio - None today.
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"One day at a time"
"Its simple but it ain't easy"
"This isn't an ATTEMPT at quitting...you are now quit."
"You put your word down with the rest of us...you give your word."
"I am not a unique and special butterfly. I am an addict."
The Words of Souliman are wise.
You preach something brother, and I'll be there to learn from it.
Cornholio - None today.
Thanks Corn. Can't take credit for those. That's the collective wisdom within this site.
"The power is in the priests." - Father Merrin
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AV,
I am reaching out from inside the community today to get you on here. We spoke yesterday about fear and what it takes to conquer that fear. You are not alone in this fight. You have support from me on-site and the bad ass mother fuckers that are this community.
Put down your word. Put yourself first. No longer be owned by a chemical that is trying to kill you.
-Soul
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Bring it AV.
I'm here to fight that nic bitch with you, too.
Yota
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Bring it AV.
I'm here to fight that nic bitch with you, too.
Yota
If these two monsters of quit are in...I'm there too... B)
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Bring it AV.
I'm here to fight that nic bitch with you, too.
Yota
If these two monsters of quit are in...I'm there too... B)
Count me in too. Don't know who you are AV but I do know what you're going through. So does everyone else on this site.
Be courageous and take the first step. I know it's difficult. You can do this and we can help but you have to take that first step...
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Fear is quite a powerful human emotion. It can even create paralysis.
One of the ways humans have coped with fear over history is by participating in groups. We can study the negative aspects of groups by reading about Despots in war or observing the mob mentality. On a positive note, we have all cheered sports teams that have overcome insurmountable odds. Groups are powerful. Groups enable individuals to overcome fear and accomplish more than they could on their own.
Here at KTC we have created a group that produces very positive results for those who have decided to use nicotine no longer. By participating in this group, quitters have a higher success rate than if they were to quit on their own. Why? Mentoring and support. I would imagine our success rate is as high as any method available. If you join us you will learn what symptoms to expect and how to handle them. You will have an access to knowledge, a plan and support; support like no other.
Addiction is no joke. It is powerful.
You can get the original AV back. You may not remember him, but he is there. He is more powerful, happier and fitter than the one nicotine owns and presents to the world.
Fear not, you can do this. You can count on me for help.
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Bring it AV.
I'm here to fight that nic bitch with you, too.
Yota
If these two monsters of quit are in...I'm there too... B)
Count me in too. Don't know who you are AV but I do know what you're going through. So does everyone else on this site.
Be courageous and take the first step. I know it's difficult. You can do this and we can help but you have to take that first step...
I'm in.
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It's worth the fight, AV!! All the way . . . .
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I got your back.
All you got to do is make the choice.
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We've all faced the fear and conquered it. Proof that it can be done. Jump in, the water is fucking fine!
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damn, AV, you've got some HEAVY hitters in your corner here.
YOU CAN'T BUY SUPPORT LIKE THIS.
i like what i see in here, so i want to be a part of it... looking forward to hearing your story and seeing you post roll. there's no time like the present.
what are you waiting for?
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IN!
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Come on AV...nothing feels as good as QUIT :)
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Man, if these badass quitters got your back then I'll pick up the sword and fight the nic bitch with you today too! Come on AV. Join us in the battle against Big Tobacco. It's a righteous fight and we are all in it together.
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you can do this
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Im on day 7, Danny x has helped me immensly. You gave me a focus, challange maybe, kinda like a stray dog pissing on your fence. I got no love the first time I posted....didn't need any, was a weak scared little field mouse. yeah yeah pretty pink panties and all. Thanks for shining a light on my weakness, poking me in the eye and pushing me into a corner so the only way out was QUIT. Thanks.
nv0311
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Im on day 7, Danny x has helped me immensly. You gave me a focus, challange maybe, kinda like a stray dog pissing on your fence. I got no love the first time I posted....didn't need any, was a weak scared little field mouse. yeah yeah pretty pink panties and all. Thanks for shining a light on my weakness, poking me in the eye and pushing me into a corner so the only way out was QUIT. Thanks.
nv0311
Just needed to believe in yourself bro. That's all. This is all you. I just throw a smile and a high five now and then. An occasional kick to the crotch when necessary...per my discretion.
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Im on day 7, Danny x has helped me immensly. You gave me a focus, challange maybe, kinda like a stray dog pissing on your fence. I got no love the first time I posted....didn't need any, was a weak scared little field mouse. yeah yeah pretty pink panties and all. Thanks for shining a light on my weakness, poking me in the eye and pushing me into a corner so the only way out was QUIT. Thanks.
nv0311
Just needed to believe in yourself bro. That's all. This is all you. I just throw a smile and a high five now and then. An occasional kick to the crotch when necessary...per my discretion.
The lace pinky's were a good touch Soul. 'crackup'
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Souli gave me the push I needed to fight this addiction. I'm wrapping up day 5.
i've been working out every morning for a hour which helps calm the nerves for a good part of the day. my jaw hurts from chewing so much gum and have a bunch of blisters/whatnot from (i think) plowing through so many sunflower seeds.
the nights have been the most challenging. cravings are bad and winding down to sleep is the worst. my old routine would be coming back after a long day, pack a huge lip, and relax. i'd have it in for the entire evening. does anyone have any advice they can share?
also, i enjoy an adult beverage from time to time (or more) but i've purposely avoided the last 5 days. the weekend is coming up and i would like to have some beers without falling into a nic trap. any thoughts or previous experience that may help? dont think that made sense, but hopefully you know what i mean.
Thx for all the support and ready to continue this fight.
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Most on here will tell you to abstain from adult beverages. Probably good advice. Actually, it's very good advice if you are having a beer or several with people that are also nicotine addicts like yourself. You have a few, they have a few, they pull out a can, and you find yourself starting over again and feeling like shit about it.
I, for the most part, don't live around anyone that dips or smokes or chews. None of my neighbors do. None of the friends that I hang out with do (or if they do they are ninjas like myself). So I haven't worried about drinking the last three weeks. Actually, I figure that drinking has been insurance for me - after a few beers I know I'm not driving anyway so if I don't have any around the house then I'm not going to drive to go get some!
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Well Thick n' Vainy I want to offer you a sincere welcome and its about fucking time.
I may have lied about the trannie hookers we supply to all new quitters...just to get you in here...but I think you'll find that folks here have a single goal: protect our quits one day at a time.
WRT to alcohol I would obviously say wait a while. Someone smart here said "If you don't want to slip, don't go to slippery places." And if having a few beers puts you in a slippery place, I would suggest avoiding for a bit.
WRT to your nightly routine of requesting some "teat time" on the cancer hound, break your patterns. Distract yourself from wanting it. Simple tool to do so is get on here and reach out to folks. You'll get more moral support than you can imagine. Enough to get you through it.
The last thing is Roll Call. This is us putting our word down that we won't use today. I suggest you check out the welcome center in the upper left to see how we do it and why we do it.
I'm glad you're here bro. You've made a great decision. If I had some asshole 15 years ago telling me to stop and bringing me to this place, I'd be a different man today.
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Soul....school the boy on Roll Call. Then, get him on it.
Welcome BlueVeinThrobber
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I missed this originally, but the support in this thread is like a "who's who" of badasses. I just gotta be part of it. Preach on, brother Soul...... preach on.
Vainy: you are here, and you are quit. Do not change either of those things. Look closely at the folks that have posted here. Each of them is available for support anytime you need it. These are not just folks hiding behind a keyboard. Reach out via PM if you need us. Every one of these folks wants you to succeed and is investing personal time in your quit. Don't let them down. That part is simple: just keep your word.
Congratulations on the best decision of your life.
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Soul....school the boy on Roll Call. Then, get him on it.
Welcome BlueVeinThrobber
Okay Vainy. This is the place to be. No doubt. Here's a great thing to consider: you have quit. You are done my friend. You will not be owned again. For making the decision to do this, I applaud you. This site is extreme. We're about cold turkey and accountability. That means no gum or patches. You are done with nicotine. We build accountability by being involved and posting roll. There are a few secrets that I'll share on getting this done:
1. Read the warm, salmon, quite inviting colored link in upper left called 'Welcome Center' if you haven't already. Then, you read everything on this site. The more you read the more you know what to expect with the different phases of being quit (which you are right?)
2. Post roll. You get up, before you slip off the jammies you run to your computer and post roll saying you will not use nicotine today. This is you putting your word down with the rest of us that you will not use today. You a man of your word Vainster? We do this early and we do it everyday. Don't fuck with the system. You can't get to a computer? You call or text a quit bro/sis that you are quit that day. We quit one day at a time because quitting forever is impossible. Especially, when you are an addict. Way too many steps on the road to forever so we quit today then get up and quit again tomorrow. Got it? Good. Do it.
3. Get involved. The more you read and contribute, the safer your quit. The more you are involved, the safer your quit. I protect my quit with the passion of a 1000 burning suns. Its my priority. I work hard at it and I suggest you should too.
4. Get to know your quit brothers and sisters. Build up the framework for being successful. This will help when shit hits the fan and believe me it will. Your quit group is April which is here:
April 2012 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=5688)
Don't know how to post roll? Look here: How to post roll (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50)
Find yourself being someone that needs a helmet and riding the short bus? Here's a video: Roll for slow (http://www.killthecan.org/roll/)
5. Get someone in the real world to support your quit as well...oh boy you already got that! ITS ME. You'll have several thousand junkies in here watching your back and one gigantic asshole in the real world. Having someone on the outside as well, you're even more safe.
6. Have a plan. Protect it. Quitting is quitting. Its hard. You've been shoving poison in your body daily. You think your body was excited about that? Fuck no. Quitting is simple but it ain't easy. So have a plan for when the craves hit. Get on the site. Get into chat. Text a brother. Call a brother. Stuff anything in your mouth besides cancer candy because you don't do that anymore. Right?
That's all there is to it. We take it one day at a time. Get up today and quit. Keep your word all day and face tomorrow when its looking you in the mirror. We're all addicts here. This is the framework we live in. You can do this. I know you can. I've done it and do it.
We don't hope (that's a large woman Miles seems to know from under the bleachers), we don't try (we make our own path here) nor wish (wish for what? you're already quit!) and it don't take luck cause luck is for losers. You a loser Vainyrod? No.
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Soul, you are kicking this day off right. Yet another epic ramble!
EDIT: Well, maybe not a ramble, but it was surely of epic proportions.
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hmmm... thought gmann would have been here by now with that username.
veiny, if gmann tries to take you to a slippery place, try not to struggle too much. he likes it and wastepanel says that just makes it worse.
welcome to the big leagues, kid.
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Soul....school the boy on Roll Call. Then, get him on it.
Welcome BlueVeinThrobber
Okay Vainy. This is the place to be. No doubt. Here's a great thing to consider: you have quit. You are done my friend. You will not be owned again. For making the decision to do this, I applaud you. This site is extreme. We're about cold turkey and accountability. That means no gum or patches. You are done with nicotine. We build accountability by being involved and posting roll. There are a few secrets that I'll share on getting this done:
1. Read the warm, salmon, quite inviting colored link in upper left called 'Welcome Center' if you haven't already. Then, you read everything on this site. The more you read the more you know what to expect with the different phases of being quit (which you are right?)
2. Post roll. You get up, before you slip off the jammies you run to your computer and post roll saying you will not use nicotine today. This is you putting your word down with the rest of us that you will not use today. You a man of your word Vainster? We do this early and we do it everyday. Don't fuck with the system. You can't get to a computer? You call or text a quit bro/sis that you are quit that day. We quit one day at a time because quitting forever is impossible. Especially, when you are an addict. Way too many steps on the road to forever so we quit today then get up and quit again tomorrow. Got it? Good. Do it.
3. Get involved. The more you read and contribute, the safer your quit. The more you are involved, the safer your quit. I protect my quit with the passion of a 1000 burning suns. Its my priority. I work hard at it and I suggest you should too.
4. Get to know your quit brothers and sisters. Build up the framework for being successful. This will help when shit hits the fan and believe me it will. Your quit group is April which is here:
April 2012 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=5688)
Don't know how to post roll? Look here: How to post roll (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50)
Find yourself being someone that needs a helmet and riding the short bus? Here's a video: Roll for slow (http://www.killthecan.org/roll/)
5. Get someone in the real world to support your quit as well...oh boy you already got that! ITS ME. You'll have several thousand junkies in here watching your back and one gigantic asshole in the real world. Having someone on the outside as well, you're even more safe.
6. Have a plan. Protect it. Quitting is quitting. Its hard. You've been shoving poison in your body daily. You think your body was excited about that? Fuck no. Quitting is simple but it ain't easy. So have a plan for when the craves hit. Get on the site. Get into chat. Text a brother. Call a brother. Stuff anything in your mouth besides cancer candy because you don't do that anymore. Right?
That's all there is to it. We take it one day at a time. Get up today and quit. Keep your word all day and face tomorrow when its looking you in the mirror. We're all addicts here. This is the framework we live in. You can do this. I know you can. I've done it and do it.
We don't hope (that's a large woman Miles seems to know from under the bleachers), we don't try (we make our own path here) nor wish (wish for what? you're already quit!) and it don't take luck cause luck is for losers. You a loser Vainyrod? No.
What does Soul have to do to make it to the Words of Wisdom section. He's like Susan Lucci trying to win that first emmy!
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Souli gave me the push I needed to fight this addiction. I'm wrapping up day 5.
i've been working out every morning for a hour which helps calm the nerves for a good part of the day. my jaw hurts from chewing so much gum and have a bunch of blisters/whatnot from (i think) plowing through so many sunflower seeds.
the nights have been the most challenging. cravings are bad and winding down to sleep is the worst. my old routine would be coming back after a long day, pack a huge lip, and relax. i'd have it in for the entire evening. does anyone have any advice they can share?
also, i enjoy an adult beverage from time to time (or more) but i've purposely avoided the last 5 days. the weekend is coming up and i would like to have some beers without falling into a nic trap. any thoughts or previous experience that may help? dont think that made sense, but hopefully you know what i mean.
Thx for all the support and ready to continue this fight.
I had the same nightly routine as you. I'm only on day 13 had a really hard time with the feeling that something was missing without my can. The fake dip (tobacco free) is helping alot in my case. There's a list on here with the different types of tobacco free alternatives. Good luck.
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Souli gave me the push I needed to fight this addiction. I'm wrapping up day 5.Â
i've been working out every morning for a hour which helps calm the nerves for a good part of the day. my jaw hurts from chewing so much gum and have a bunch of blisters/whatnot from (i think) plowing through so many sunflower seeds.Â
the nights have been the most challenging. cravings are bad and winding down to sleep is the worst. my old routine would be coming back after a long day, pack a huge lip, and relax. i'd have it in for the entire evening. does anyone have any advice they can share?
also, i enjoy an adult beverage from time to time (or more) but i've purposely avoided the last 5 days. the weekend is coming up and i would like to have some beers without falling into a nic trap. any thoughts or previous experience that may help? dont think that made sense, but hopefully you know what i mean.
Thx for all the support and ready to continue this fight.
I had the same nightly routine as you. I'm only on day 13 had a really hard time with the feeling that something was missing without my can. The fake dip (tobacco free) is helping alot in my case. There's a list on here with the different types of tobacco free alternatives. Good luck.
Play it safe and dump the beer for a while. Too many caves from getting drunk. I avoided alcohol for about the first 50 days with the exception of one or two with my wife at dinner. You need to get through the first month or two and be more comfortable with your quit before consuming mass quantities of beer! 5 days is awesome but you don't need beer weakening your resolve!
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Soul....school the boy on Roll Call. Then, get him on it.
Welcome BlueVeinThrobber
Okay Vainy. This is the place to be. No doubt. Here's a great thing to consider: you have quit. You are done my friend. You will not be owned again. For making the decision to do this, I applaud you. This site is extreme. We're about cold turkey and accountability. That means no gum or patches. You are done with nicotine. We build accountability by being involved and posting roll. There are a few secrets that I'll share on getting this done:
1. Read the warm, salmon, quite inviting colored link in upper left called 'Welcome Center' if you haven't already. Then, you read everything on this site. The more you read the more you know what to expect with the different phases of being quit (which you are right?)
2. Post roll. You get up, before you slip off the jammies you run to your computer and post roll saying you will not use nicotine today. This is you putting your word down with the rest of us that you will not use today. You a man of your word Vainster? We do this early and we do it everyday. Don't fuck with the system. You can't get to a computer? You call or text a quit bro/sis that you are quit that day. We quit one day at a time because quitting forever is impossible. Especially, when you are an addict. Way too many steps on the road to forever so we quit today then get up and quit again tomorrow. Got it? Good. Do it.
3. Get involved. The more you read and contribute, the safer your quit. The more you are involved, the safer your quit. I protect my quit with the passion of a 1000 burning suns. Its my priority. I work hard at it and I suggest you should too.
4. Get to know your quit brothers and sisters. Build up the framework for being successful. This will help when shit hits the fan and believe me it will. Your quit group is April which is here:
April 2012 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=5688)
Don't know how to post roll? Look here: How to post roll (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50)
Find yourself being someone that needs a helmet and riding the short bus? Here's a video: Roll for slow (http://www.killthecan.org/roll/)
5. Get someone in the real world to support your quit as well...oh boy you already got that! ITS ME. You'll have several thousand junkies in here watching your back and one gigantic asshole in the real world. Having someone on the outside as well, you're even more safe.
6. Have a plan. Protect it. Quitting is quitting. Its hard. You've been shoving poison in your body daily. You think your body was excited about that? Fuck no. Quitting is simple but it ain't easy. So have a plan for when the craves hit. Get on the site. Get into chat. Text a brother. Call a brother. Stuff anything in your mouth besides cancer candy because you don't do that anymore. Right?
That's all there is to it. We take it one day at a time. Get up today and quit. Keep your word all day and face tomorrow when its looking you in the mirror. We're all addicts here. This is the framework we live in. You can do this. I know you can. I've done it and do it.
We don't hope (that's a large woman Miles seems to know from under the bleachers), we don't try (we make our own path here) nor wish (wish for what? you're already quit!) and it don't take luck cause luck is for losers. You a loser Vainyrod? No.
Souli is zen of quit. Just practice the poses of wisdom to attain quitlightenment.
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Soul....school the boy on Roll Call. Then, get him on it.
Welcome BlueVeinThrobber
Okay Vainy. This is the place to be. No doubt. Here's a great thing to consider: you have quit. You are done my friend. You will not be owned again. For making the decision to do this, I applaud you. This site is extreme. We're about cold turkey and accountability. That means no gum or patches. You are done with nicotine. We build accountability by being involved and posting roll. There are a few secrets that I'll share on getting this done:
1. Read the warm, salmon, quite inviting colored link in upper left called 'Welcome Center' if you haven't already. Then, you read everything on this site. The more you read the more you know what to expect with the different phases of being quit (which you are right?)
2. Post roll. You get up, before you slip off the jammies you run to your computer and post roll saying you will not use nicotine today. This is you putting your word down with the rest of us that you will not use today. You a man of your word Vainster? We do this early and we do it everyday. Don't fuck with the system. You can't get to a computer? You call or text a quit bro/sis that you are quit that day. We quit one day at a time because quitting forever is impossible. Especially, when you are an addict. Way too many steps on the road to forever so we quit today then get up and quit again tomorrow. Got it? Good. Do it.
3. Get involved. The more you read and contribute, the safer your quit. The more you are involved, the safer your quit. I protect my quit with the passion of a 1000 burning suns. Its my priority. I work hard at it and I suggest you should too.
4. Get to know your quit brothers and sisters. Build up the framework for being successful. This will help when shit hits the fan and believe me it will. Your quit group is April which is here:
April 2012 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=5688)
Don't know how to post roll? Look here: How to post roll (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50)
Find yourself being someone that needs a helmet and riding the short bus? Here's a video: Roll for slow (http://www.killthecan.org/roll/)
5. Get someone in the real world to support your quit as well...oh boy you already got that! ITS ME. You'll have several thousand junkies in here watching your back and one gigantic asshole in the real world. Having someone on the outside as well, you're even more safe.
6. Have a plan. Protect it. Quitting is quitting. Its hard. You've been shoving poison in your body daily. You think your body was excited about that? Fuck no. Quitting is simple but it ain't easy. So have a plan for when the craves hit. Get on the site. Get into chat. Text a brother. Call a brother. Stuff anything in your mouth besides cancer candy because you don't do that anymore. Right?
That's all there is to it. We take it one day at a time. Get up today and quit. Keep your word all day and face tomorrow when its looking you in the mirror. We're all addicts here. This is the framework we live in. You can do this. I know you can. I've done it and do it.
We don't hope (that's a large woman Miles seems to know from under the bleachers), we don't try (we make our own path here) nor wish (wish for what? you're already quit!) and it don't take luck cause luck is for losers. You a loser Vainyrod? No.
Souli is zen of quit. Just practice the poses of wisdom to attain quitlightenment.
Best parts of this are numbers 2 and 4.
If I were a new quitter, those are the ones I would focus on...TODAY
PS. And the winner is Susan....nope (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z_39abLEj4I)
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Soul....school the boy on Roll Call. Then, get him on it.
Welcome BlueVeinThrobber
Okay Vainy. This is the place to be. No doubt. Here's a great thing to consider: you have quit. You are done my friend. You will not be owned again. For making the decision to do this, I applaud you. This site is extreme. We're about cold turkey and accountability. That means no gum or patches. You are done with nicotine. We build accountability by being involved and posting roll. There are a few secrets that I'll share on getting this done:
1. Read the warm, salmon, quite inviting colored link in upper left called 'Welcome Center' if you haven't already. Then, you read everything on this site. The more you read the more you know what to expect with the different phases of being quit (which you are right?)
2. Post roll. You get up, before you slip off the jammies you run to your computer and post roll saying you will not use nicotine today. This is you putting your word down with the rest of us that you will not use today. You a man of your word Vainster? We do this early and we do it everyday. Don't fuck with the system. You can't get to a computer? You call or text a quit bro/sis that you are quit that day. We quit one day at a time because quitting forever is impossible. Especially, when you are an addict. Way too many steps on the road to forever so we quit today then get up and quit again tomorrow. Got it? Good. Do it.
3. Get involved. The more you read and contribute, the safer your quit. The more you are involved, the safer your quit. I protect my quit with the passion of a 1000 burning suns. Its my priority. I work hard at it and I suggest you should too.
4. Get to know your quit brothers and sisters. Build up the framework for being successful. This will help when shit hits the fan and believe me it will. Your quit group is April which is here:
April 2012 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=5688)
Don't know how to post roll? Look here: How to post roll (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50)
Find yourself being someone that needs a helmet and riding the short bus? Here's a video: Roll for slow (http://www.killthecan.org/roll/)
5. Get someone in the real world to support your quit as well...oh boy you already got that! ITS ME. You'll have several thousand junkies in here watching your back and one gigantic asshole in the real world. Having someone on the outside as well, you're even more safe.
6. Have a plan. Protect it. Quitting is quitting. Its hard. You've been shoving poison in your body daily. You think your body was excited about that? Fuck no. Quitting is simple but it ain't easy. So have a plan for when the craves hit. Get on the site. Get into chat. Text a brother. Call a brother. Stuff anything in your mouth besides cancer candy because you don't do that anymore. Right?
That's all there is to it. We take it one day at a time. Get up today and quit. Keep your word all day and face tomorrow when its looking you in the mirror. We're all addicts here. This is the framework we live in. You can do this. I know you can. I've done it and do it.
We don't hope (that's a large woman Miles seems to know from under the bleachers), we don't try (we make our own path here) nor wish (wish for what? you're already quit!) and it don't take luck cause luck is for losers. You a loser Vainyrod? No.
Souli is zen of quit. Just practice the poses of wisdom to attain quitlightenment.
Best parts of this are numbers 2 and 4.
If I were a new quitter, those are the ones I would focus on...TODAY
PS. And the winner is Susan....nope (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z_39abLEj4I)
For all the unbelievable support this guy got, and all the attention paid by the baddest of BAMFs on this site... The only post he's made is in this thread. What gives?
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Soul....school the boy on Roll Call. Then, get him on it.
Welcome BlueVeinThrobber
Okay Vainy. This is the place to be. No doubt. Here's a great thing to consider: you have quit. You are done my friend. You will not be owned again. For making the decision to do this, I applaud you. This site is extreme. We're about cold turkey and accountability. That means no gum or patches. You are done with nicotine. We build accountability by being involved and posting roll. There are a few secrets that I'll share on getting this done:
1. Read the warm, salmon, quite inviting colored link in upper left called 'Welcome Center' if you haven't already. Then, you read everything on this site. The more you read the more you know what to expect with the different phases of being quit (which you are right?)
2. Post roll. You get up, before you slip off the jammies you run to your computer and post roll saying you will not use nicotine today. This is you putting your word down with the rest of us that you will not use today. You a man of your word Vainster? We do this early and we do it everyday. Don't fuck with the system. You can't get to a computer? You call or text a quit bro/sis that you are quit that day. We quit one day at a time because quitting forever is impossible. Especially, when you are an addict. Way too many steps on the road to forever so we quit today then get up and quit again tomorrow. Got it? Good. Do it.
3. Get involved. The more you read and contribute, the safer your quit. The more you are involved, the safer your quit. I protect my quit with the passion of a 1000 burning suns. Its my priority. I work hard at it and I suggest you should too.
4. Get to know your quit brothers and sisters. Build up the framework for being successful. This will help when shit hits the fan and believe me it will. Your quit group is April which is here:
April 2012 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=5688)
Don't know how to post roll? Look here: How to post roll (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50)
Find yourself being someone that needs a helmet and riding the short bus? Here's a video: Roll for slow (http://www.killthecan.org/roll/)
5. Get someone in the real world to support your quit as well...oh boy you already got that! ITS ME. You'll have several thousand junkies in here watching your back and one gigantic asshole in the real world. Having someone on the outside as well, you're even more safe.
6. Have a plan. Protect it. Quitting is quitting. Its hard. You've been shoving poison in your body daily. You think your body was excited about that? Fuck no. Quitting is simple but it ain't easy. So have a plan for when the craves hit. Get on the site. Get into chat. Text a brother. Call a brother. Stuff anything in your mouth besides cancer candy because you don't do that anymore. Right?
That's all there is to it. We take it one day at a time. Get up today and quit. Keep your word all day and face tomorrow when its looking you in the mirror. We're all addicts here. This is the framework we live in. You can do this. I know you can. I've done it and do it.
We don't hope (that's a large woman Miles seems to know from under the bleachers), we don't try (we make our own path here) nor wish (wish for what? you're already quit!) and it don't take luck cause luck is for losers. You a loser Vainyrod? No.
Souli is zen of quit. Just practice the poses of wisdom to attain quitlightenment.
Best parts of this are numbers 2 and 4.
If I were a new quitter, those are the ones I would focus on...TODAY
PS. And the winner is Susan....nope (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z_39abLEj4I)
For all the unbelievable support this guy got, and all the attention paid by the baddest of BAMFs on this site... The only post he's made is in this thread. What gives?
I can lead a horse to water but I can't make a jackass drink the punch.
I am on him.
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426
I quit today. Humility. Its takes humility to truly step outside yourself and see what you are. You're not always right. If you were, every time you put a lipper in or took a sip of whiskey or swallowed a pill would have been the right way to go. I think you have to concede that you have failures in the past to be able to create victories in the future on these fronts. So when someone here points a direction and you question that direction, concede your past failures and listen before you spit in their eye tell them you know the path.
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426
I quit today. Humility. Its takes humility to truly step outside yourself and see what you are. You're not always right. If you were, every time you put a lipper in or took a sip of whiskey or swallowed a pill would have been the right way to go. I think you have to concede that you have failures in the past to be able to create victories in the future on these fronts. So when someone here points a direction and you question that direction, concede your past failures and listen before you spit in their eye tell them you know the path.
Indeed. Unfortunately some never find their way to any level of objectivity- they act like my old hound when she was after a porcupine: Ouch that hurts....think I'll try it again....ouch that hurts.....think I'll try it again.....ouch....With each bite she got madder at the porcupine.....
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Today I was cued up in the gas station. The lady standing in front of a back drop of green logs of death decorated with bears and wolves and such. The dude in front of me orders one unit of cancer in a can. When I approach the counter I can't help but laugh because I can only think that if I was Souli I would be trying to complete my transaction as fast as possible so I can go out and preach the zen of quit to this dumbass with a wolf in his pocket. His eyes wide open not ever expecting the Souli~zenster to bring the quit so relentlessly.
Stay quit friends. Make me :)
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426
I quit today. Humility. Its takes humility to truly step outside yourself and see what you are. You're not always right. If you were, every time you put a lipper in or took a sip of whiskey or swallowed a pill would have been the right way to go. I think you have to concede that you have failures in the past to be able to create victories in the future on these fronts. So when someone here points a direction and you question that direction, concede your past failures and listen before you spit in their eye tell them you know the path.
Thanks Soul. This speaks to me today.
One of those days...
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467
I quit today. This place is the undeniable truth. It throws it right in your face and makes you deal it. Sometimes I fucking hate that. I just want some peace from having to answer the questions "will I use this? will I use that?" everyday. As much as that's what's on the form, its not really the question I keep answering. Who do I believe I am? What do I want to be? I feel like a blacksmith. Slamming the hammer down each day answering those things. Strengthening my belief in the answers. Sometimes it feels like an inquisition. Like I'm being exposed. Either way its reality for me day in and day out here.
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467
I quit today. This place is the undeniable truth. It throws it right in your face and makes you deal it. Sometimes I fucking hate that. I just want some peace from having to answer the questions "will I use this? will I use that?" everyday. As much as that's what's on the form, its not really the question I keep answering. Who do I believe I am? What do I want to be? I feel like a blacksmith. Slamming the hammer down each day answering those things. Strengthening my belief in the answers. Sometimes it feels like an inquisition. Like I'm being exposed. Either way its reality for me day in and day out here.
Keep banging away...there are a bunch of us who keep waiting to see the latest artistic creation to come from your forge. B)
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467
I quit today. This place is the undeniable truth. It throws it right in your face and makes you deal it. Sometimes I fucking hate that. I just want some peace from having to answer the questions "will I use this? will I use that?" everyday. As much as that's what's on the form, its not really the question I keep answering. Who do I believe I am? What do I want to be? I feel like a blacksmith. Slamming the hammer down each day answering those things. Strengthening my belief in the answers. Sometimes it feels like an inquisition. Like I'm being exposed. Either way its reality for me day in and day out here.
Not sure what that all means but one thing is certain, you are a solid ambassador of quit!
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467
I quit today. This place is the undeniable truth. It throws it right in your face and makes you deal it. Sometimes I fucking hate that. I just want some peace from having to answer the questions "will I use this? will I use that?" everyday. As much as that's what's on the form, its not really the question I keep answering. Who do I believe I am? What do I want to be? I feel like a blacksmith. Slamming the hammer down each day answering those things. Strengthening my belief in the answers. Sometimes it feels like an inquisition. Like I'm being exposed. Either way its reality for me day in and day out here.
Outstanding!! Keep banging away bro! Everyday without dip is another day I get with my kids! I am not quiting for them I am quiting for me and just enjoying them!!!
Quit on quiter!
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467
I quit today. This place is the undeniable truth. It throws it right in your face and makes you deal it. Sometimes I fucking hate that. I just want some peace from having to answer the questions "will I use this? will I use that?" everyday. As much as that's what's on the form, its not really the question I keep answering. Who do I believe I am? What do I want to be? I feel like a blacksmith. Slamming the hammer down each day answering those things. Strengthening my belief in the answers. Sometimes it feels like an inquisition. Like I'm being exposed. Either way its reality for me day in and day out here.
Soul waxes poetic!!
As long as your "slamming the hammer" and not the nicBitch, you'll do fine . . . .
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537
I quit today. I fucking love being quit. 537 days of freedom vs. 8760 of being a slave. I still need this place. I still need to put my word down everyday. Its just too god damn familiar still. That pattern...I can see it still in my head. Still got to fight each day. I want that fight.
Pinkie finger on boulder.
I got to add something. I basically called a guy a no-nuts candy ass panties wearing pussy a while back. Yeah it was intentional. I wanted him to get pissed. I wanted him to see that a quit day plan is for losers. He got the message. Empowered himself and has been a solid fixture at this place since. Just a simple text from this guy seeing how I'm doing makes my fucking day. This same guy knows my struggle and knows how hard I fight. I appreciate it. Hope I get to shake his hand some day.
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537
I quit today. I fucking love being quit. 537 days of freedom vs. 8760 of being a slave. I still need this place. I still need to put my word down everyday. Its just too god damn familiar still. That pattern...I can see it still in my head. Still got to fight each day. I want that fight.
Pinkie finger on boulder.
I got to add something. I basically called a guy a no-nuts candy ass panties wearing pussy a while back. Yeah it was intentional. I wanted him to get pissed. I wanted him to see that a quit day plan is for losers. He got the message. Empowered himself and has been a solid fixture at this place since. Just a simple text from this guy seeing how I'm doing makes my fucking day. This same guy knows my struggle and knows how hard I fight. I appreciate it. Hope I get to shake his hand some day.
Great stuff souliman you put it exactly how it is WE all still need this place and all the guys who are here!
The one you called out might have hated getting called out and was pissed but sooner or later he realizes that even though you gave him the business and didnt want to hear it, it was exactly what he needed to hear!!!!
Stay badass brother!!!!
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537
I quit today. I fucking love being quit. 537 days of freedom vs. 8760 of being a slave. I still need this place. I still need to put my word down everyday. Its just too god damn familiar still. That pattern...I can see it still in my head. Still got to fight each day. I want that fight.
Pinkie finger on boulder.
I got to add something. I basically called a guy a no-nuts candy ass panties wearing pussy a while back. Yeah it was intentional. I wanted him to get pissed. I wanted him to see that a quit day plan is for losers. He got the message. Empowered himself and has been a solid fixture at this place since. Just a simple text from this guy seeing how I'm doing makes my fucking day. This same guy knows my struggle and knows how hard I fight. I appreciate it. Hope I get to shake his hand some day.
Souliman, Some of us Addicted Assholes need to have someone piss us off. For me when I get pissed it strengthens my resolve. I also like pissing people off you find out fast what they are made of. Thanks for the thoughts.
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584
I quit today.
I was a candy ass. A complete fucking wishy washy little bitch. Feeling sorry for myself. Always looking for a reason to drink this or eat that or stuff poison in my mouth. The boys and I spend a lot of time in Vermont. Being it's so hot we spend a lot of that time in a river. There's this one spot in Stowe that got these nice river stones. We'll build up a solid rock wall and create a jet and the boys will boogie board through it for hours. Good shit. I love taking a second before we leave to take look behind me, see what we built. Totally changed the river. There's a deep swimming hole. There's current. Other kids dig what we're doing and start building it up as well. Makes me feel good to see folks have good fun. We come back a week later and its totally different. A big rain might wash that wall down river. Some kid might think he can build it better and tear it down to start over. Its always different when I come back. I can usually find a few stones that I placed the week before. I knew I placed those right. I'm finally at a place where when I turn around, I feel good about seeing the stones I placed. I own the things I've done. And the things I haven't. Sometimes nature fucks with you. Sometimes other folk do as well. That's going to happen. Nothing you can do about it but place the stones where you think they belong and believe you're doing the right thing.
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584
I quit today.
I was a candy ass. A complete fucking wishy washy little bitch. Feeling sorry for myself. Always looking for a reason to drink this or eat that or stuff poison in my mouth. The boys and I spend a lot of time in Vermont. Being it's so hot we spend a lot of that time in a river. There's this one spot in Stowe that got these nice river stones. We'll build up a solid rock wall and create a jet and the boys will boogie board through it for hours. Good shit. I love taking a second before we leave to take look behind me, see what we built. Totally changed the river. There's a deep swimming hole. There's current. Other kids dig what we're doing and start building it up as well. Makes me feel good to see folks have good fun. We come back a week later and its totally different. A big rain might wash that wall down river. Some kid might think he can build it better and tear it down to start over. Its always different when I come back. I can usually find a few stones that I placed the week before. I knew I placed those right. I'm finally at a place where when I turn around, I feel good about seeing the stones I placed. I own the things I've done. And the things I haven't. Sometimes nature fucks with you. Sometimes other folk do as well. That's going to happen. Nothing you can do about it but place the stones where you think they belong and believe you're doing the right thing.
This brilliance is an excellent example of why I am a Souliman follower. 356 and proud to quit with you everyday.
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584
I quit today.
I was a candy ass. A complete fucking wishy washy little bitch. Feeling sorry for myself. Always looking for a reason to drink this or eat that or stuff poison in my mouth. The boys and I spend a lot of time in Vermont. Being it's so hot we spend a lot of that time in a river. There's this one spot in Stowe that got these nice river stones. We'll build up a solid rock wall and create a jet and the boys will boogie board through it for hours. Good shit. I love taking a second before we leave to take look behind me, see what we built. Totally changed the river. There's a deep swimming hole. There's current. Other kids dig what we're doing and start building it up as well. Makes me feel good to see folks have good fun. We come back a week later and its totally different. A big rain might wash that wall down river. Some kid might think he can build it better and tear it down to start over. Its always different when I come back. I can usually find a few stones that I placed the week before. I knew I placed those right. I'm finally at a place where when I turn around, I feel good about seeing the stones I placed. I own the things I've done. And the things I haven't. Sometimes nature fucks with you. Sometimes other folk do as well. That's going to happen. Nothing you can do about it but place the stones where you think they belong and believe you're doing the right thing.
This brilliance is an excellent example of why I am a Souliman follower. 356 and proud to quit with you everyday.
Soul is the cornerstone of quit.
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584
I quit today.
I was a candy ass. A complete fucking wishy washy little bitch. Feeling sorry for myself. Always looking for a reason to drink this or eat that or stuff poison in my mouth. The boys and I spend a lot of time in Vermont. Being it's so hot we spend a lot of that time in a river. There's this one spot in Stowe that got these nice river stones. We'll build up a solid rock wall and create a jet and the boys will boogie board through it for hours. Good shit. I love taking a second before we leave to take look behind me, see what we built. Totally changed the river. There's a deep swimming hole. There's current. Other kids dig what we're doing and start building it up as well. Makes me feel good to see folks have good fun. We come back a week later and its totally different. A big rain might wash that wall down river. Some kid might think he can build it better and tear it down to start over. Its always different when I come back. I can usually find a few stones that I placed the week before. I knew I placed those right. I'm finally at a place where when I turn around, I feel good about seeing the stones I placed. I own the things I've done. And the things I haven't. Sometimes nature fucks with you. Sometimes other folk do as well. That's going to happen. Nothing you can do about it but place the stones where you think they belong and believe you're doing the right thing.
This brilliance is an excellent example of why I am a Souliman follower. 356 and proud to quit with you everyday.
Soul is the cornerstone of quit.
I like the stand up and be counted quit that Souliman brings!
Awesome!
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I own the things I've done. And the things I haven't........
Never been prouder of the things I haven't done than I am today. Thanks for those words soul. I needed a quit boost and this was it.
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584
I quit today.
I was a candy ass. A complete fucking wishy washy little bitch. Feeling sorry for myself. Always looking for a reason to drink this or eat that or stuff poison in my mouth. The boys and I spend a lot of time in Vermont. Being it's so hot we spend a lot of that time in a river. There's this one spot in Stowe that got these nice river stones. We'll build up a solid rock wall and create a jet and the boys will boogie board through it for hours. Good shit. I love taking a second before we leave to take look behind me, see what we built. Totally changed the river. There's a deep swimming hole. There's current. Other kids dig what we're doing and start building it up as well. Makes me feel good to see folks have good fun. We come back a week later and its totally different. A big rain might wash that wall down river. Some kid might think he can build it better and tear it down to start over. Its always different when I come back. I can usually find a few stones that I placed the week before. I knew I placed those right. I'm finally at a place where when I turn around, I feel good about seeing the stones I placed. I own the things I've done. And the things I haven't. Sometimes nature fucks with you. Sometimes other folk do as well. That's going to happen. Nothing you can do about it but place the stones where you think they belong and believe you're doing the right thing.
This brilliance is an excellent example of why I am a Souliman follower. 356 and proud to quit with you everyday.
Soul is the cornerstone of quit.
I like the stand up and be counted quit that Souliman brings!
Awesome!
Soul we must be related I was that wishy washy little bitch also. I'm slowly changing that by listening to and following guys like you! Thanks,
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Thanks for that, Souli.
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584
I quit today.
I was a candy ass. A complete fucking wishy washy little bitch. Feeling sorry for myself. Always looking for a reason to drink this or eat that or stuff poison in my mouth. The boys and I spend a lot of time in Vermont. Being it's so hot we spend a lot of that time in a river. There's this one spot in Stowe that got these nice river stones. We'll build up a solid rock wall and create a jet and the boys will boogie board through it for hours. Good shit. I love taking a second before we leave to take look behind me, see what we built. Totally changed the river. There's a deep swimming hole. There's current. Other kids dig what we're doing and start building it up as well. Makes me feel good to see folks have good fun. We come back a week later and its totally different. A big rain might wash that wall down river. Some kid might think he can build it better and tear it down to start over. Its always different when I come back. I can usually find a few stones that I placed the week before. I knew I placed those right. I'm finally at a place where when I turn around, I feel good about seeing the stones I placed. I own the things I've done. And the things I haven't. Sometimes nature fucks with you. Sometimes other folk do as well. That's going to happen. Nothing you can do about it but place the stones where you think they belong and believe you're doing the right thing.
This brilliance is an excellent example of why I am a Souliman follower. 356 and proud to quit with you everyday.
Soul is the cornerstone of quit.
I like the stand up and be counted quit that Souliman brings!
Awesome!
Soul we must be related I was that wishy washy little bitch also. I'm slowly changing that by listening to and following guys like you! Thanks,
Souliman is to nic what the a bomb was to Japan. Keep rocking it brother
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584
I quit today.
I was a candy ass. A complete fucking wishy washy little bitch. Feeling sorry for myself. Always looking for a reason to drink this or eat that or stuff poison in my mouth. The boys and I spend a lot of time in Vermont. Being it's so hot we spend a lot of that time in a river. There's this one spot in Stowe that got these nice river stones. We'll build up a solid rock wall and create a jet and the boys will boogie board through it for hours. Good shit. I love taking a second before we leave to take look behind me, see what we built. Totally changed the river. There's a deep swimming hole. There's current. Other kids dig what we're doing and start building it up as well. Makes me feel good to see folks have good fun. We come back a week later and its totally different. A big rain might wash that wall down river. Some kid might think he can build it better and tear it down to start over. Its always different when I come back. I can usually find a few stones that I placed the week before. I knew I placed those right. I'm finally at a place where when I turn around, I feel good about seeing the stones I placed. I own the things I've done. And the things I haven't. Sometimes nature fucks with you. Sometimes other folk do as well. That's going to happen. Nothing you can do about it but place the stones where you think they belong and believe you're doing the right thing.
This brilliance is an excellent example of why I am a Souliman follower. 356 and proud to quit with you everyday.
Soul is the cornerstone of quit.
I like the stand up and be counted quit that Souliman brings!
Awesome!
Soul we must be related I was that wishy washy little bitch also. I'm slowly changing that by listening to and following guys like you! Thanks,
Souliman is to nic what the a bomb was to Japan. Keep rocking it brother
Wow. Soul. Wow.
I am proud to be quit with you.
Wow.
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584
I quit today.
I was a candy ass. A complete fucking wishy washy little bitch. Feeling sorry for myself. Always looking for a reason to drink this or eat that or stuff poison in my mouth. The boys and I spend a lot of time in Vermont. Being it's so hot we spend a lot of that time in a river. There's this one spot in Stowe that got these nice river stones. We'll build up a solid rock wall and create a jet and the boys will boogie board through it for hours. Good shit. I love taking a second before we leave to take look behind me, see what we built. Totally changed the river. There's a deep swimming hole. There's current. Other kids dig what we're doing and start building it up as well. Makes me feel good to see folks have good fun. We come back a week later and its totally different. A big rain might wash that wall down river. Some kid might think he can build it better and tear it down to start over. Its always different when I come back. I can usually find a few stones that I placed the week before. I knew I placed those right. I'm finally at a place where when I turn around, I feel good about seeing the stones I placed. I own the things I've done. And the things I haven't. Sometimes nature fucks with you. Sometimes other folk do as well. That's going to happen. Nothing you can do about it but place the stones where you think they belong and believe you're doing the right thing.
This brilliance is an excellent example of why I am a Souliman follower. 356 and proud to quit with you everyday.
Soul is the cornerstone of quit.
I like the stand up and be counted quit that Souliman brings!
Awesome!
Soul we must be related I was that wishy washy little bitch also. I'm slowly changing that by listening to and following guys like you! Thanks,
Souliman is to nic what the a bomb was to Japan. Keep rocking it brother
Wow. Soul. Wow.
I am proud to be quit with you.
Wow.
'clap' 'clap' 'clap'
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584
I quit today.
I was a candy ass. A complete fucking wishy washy little bitch. Feeling sorry for myself. Always looking for a reason to drink this or eat that or stuff poison in my mouth. The boys and I spend a lot of time in Vermont. Being it's so hot we spend a lot of that time in a river. There's this one spot in Stowe that got these nice river stones. We'll build up a solid rock wall and create a jet and the boys will boogie board through it for hours. Good shit. I love taking a second before we leave to take look behind me, see what we built. Totally changed the river. There's a deep swimming hole. There's current. Other kids dig what we're doing and start building it up as well. Makes me feel good to see folks have good fun. We come back a week later and its totally different. A big rain might wash that wall down river. Some kid might think he can build it better and tear it down to start over. Its always different when I come back. I can usually find a few stones that I placed the week before. I knew I placed those right. I'm finally at a place where when I turn around, I feel good about seeing the stones I placed. I own the things I've done. And the things I haven't. Sometimes nature fucks with you. Sometimes other folk do as well. That's going to happen. Nothing you can do about it but place the stones where you think they belong and believe you're doing the right thing.
This brilliance is an excellent example of why I am a Souliman follower. 356 and proud to quit with you everyday.
Soul is the cornerstone of quit.
I like the stand up and be counted quit that Souliman brings!
Awesome!
Soul we must be related I was that wishy washy little bitch also. I'm slowly changing that by listening to and following guys like you! Thanks,
Souliman is to nic what the a bomb was to Japan. Keep rocking it brother
Wow. Soul. Wow.
I am proud to be quit with you.
Wow.
'clap' 'clap' 'clap'
Good shit friend. Good shit.
Looking at that wall as you leave will be a "flash" of your when JC comes for you. Be proud of your accomplishments bro....small and large.
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584
I quit today.
I was a candy ass. A complete fucking wishy washy little bitch. Feeling sorry for myself. Always looking for a reason to drink this or eat that or stuff poison in my mouth. The boys and I spend a lot of time in Vermont. Being it's so hot we spend a lot of that time in a river. There's this one spot in Stowe that got these nice river stones. We'll build up a solid rock wall and create a jet and the boys will boogie board through it for hours. Good shit. I love taking a second before we leave to take look behind me, see what we built. Totally changed the river. There's a deep swimming hole. There's current. Other kids dig what we're doing and start building it up as well. Makes me feel good to see folks have good fun. We come back a week later and its totally different. A big rain might wash that wall down river. Some kid might think he can build it better and tear it down to start over. Its always different when I come back. I can usually find a few stones that I placed the week before. I knew I placed those right. I'm finally at a place where when I turn around, I feel good about seeing the stones I placed. I own the things I've done. And the things I haven't. Sometimes nature fucks with you. Sometimes other folk do as well. That's going to happen. Nothing you can do about it but place the stones where you think they belong and believe you're doing the right thing.
This brilliance is an excellent example of why I am a Souliman follower. 356 and proud to quit with you everyday.
Soul is the cornerstone of quit.
I like the stand up and be counted quit that Souliman brings!
Awesome!
Soul we must be related I was that wishy washy little bitch also. I'm slowly changing that by listening to and following guys like you! Thanks,
Souliman is to nic what the a bomb was to Japan. Keep rocking it brother
Wow. Soul. Wow.
I am proud to be quit with you.
Wow.
'clap' 'clap' 'clap'
Good shit friend. Good shit.
Looking at that wall as you leave will be a "flash" of your when JC comes for you. Be proud of your accomplishments bro....small and large.
Excellent post !! Proud to be quit with you !!
'clap' 'clap'
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584
I quit today.
I was a candy ass. A complete fucking wishy washy little bitch. Feeling sorry for myself. Always looking for a reason to drink this or eat that or stuff poison in my mouth. The boys and I spend a lot of time in Vermont. Being it's so hot we spend a lot of that time in a river. There's this one spot in Stowe that got these nice river stones. We'll build up a solid rock wall and create a jet and the boys will boogie board through it for hours. Good shit. I love taking a second before we leave to take look behind me, see what we built. Totally changed the river. There's a deep swimming hole. There's current. Other kids dig what we're doing and start building it up as well. Makes me feel good to see folks have good fun. We come back a week later and its totally different. A big rain might wash that wall down river. Some kid might think he can build it better and tear it down to start over. Its always different when I come back. I can usually find a few stones that I placed the week before. I knew I placed those right. I'm finally at a place where when I turn around, I feel good about seeing the stones I placed. I own the things I've done. And the things I haven't. Sometimes nature fucks with you. Sometimes other folk do as well. That's going to happen. Nothing you can do about it but place the stones where you think they belong and believe you're doing the right thing.
This brilliance is an excellent example of why I am a Souliman follower. 356 and proud to quit with you everyday.
Soul is the cornerstone of quit.
I like the stand up and be counted quit that Souliman brings!
Awesome!
Soul we must be related I was that wishy washy little bitch also. I'm slowly changing that by listening to and following guys like you! Thanks,
Souliman is to nic what the a bomb was to Japan. Keep rocking it brother
Wow. Soul. Wow.
I am proud to be quit with you.
Wow.
'clap' 'clap' 'clap'
Good shit friend. Good shit.
Looking at that wall as you leave will be a "flash" of your when JC comes for you. Be proud of your accomplishments bro....small and large.
Excellent post !! Proud to be quit with you !!
'clap' 'clap'
Proud to quit with guys like Souliman.... Great post
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584
I quit today.
I was a candy ass. A complete fucking wishy washy little bitch. Feeling sorry for myself. Always looking for a reason to drink this or eat that or stuff poison in my mouth. The boys and I spend a lot of time in Vermont. Being it's so hot we spend a lot of that time in a river. There's this one spot in Stowe that got these nice river stones. We'll build up a solid rock wall and create a jet and the boys will boogie board through it for hours. Good shit. I love taking a second before we leave to take look behind me, see what we built. Totally changed the river. There's a deep swimming hole. There's current. Other kids dig what we're doing and start building it up as well. Makes me feel good to see folks have good fun. We come back a week later and its totally different. A big rain might wash that wall down river. Some kid might think he can build it better and tear it down to start over. Its always different when I come back. I can usually find a few stones that I placed the week before. I knew I placed those right. I'm finally at a place where when I turn around, I feel good about seeing the stones I placed. I own the things I've done. And the things I haven't. Sometimes nature fucks with you. Sometimes other folk do as well. That's going to happen. Nothing you can do about it but place the stones where you think they belong and believe you're doing the right thing.
This brilliance is an excellent example of why I am a Souliman follower. 356 and proud to quit with you everyday.
Soul is the cornerstone of quit.
I like the stand up and be counted quit that Souliman brings!
Awesome!
Soul we must be related I was that wishy washy little bitch also. I'm slowly changing that by listening to and following guys like you! Thanks,
Souliman is to nic what the a bomb was to Japan. Keep rocking it brother
Wow. Soul. Wow.
I am proud to be quit with you.
Wow.
'clap' 'clap' 'clap'
Good shit friend. Good shit.
Looking at that wall as you leave will be a "flash" of your when JC comes for you. Be proud of your accomplishments bro....small and large.
Excellent post !! Proud to be quit with you !!
'clap' 'clap'
Proud to quit with guys like Souliman.... Great post
Worthy of applause, Soul!
'clap'
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426
I quit today. Humility. Its takes humility to truly step outside yourself and see what you are. You're not always right. If you were, every time you put a lipper in or took a sip of whiskey or swallowed a pill would have been the right way to go. I think you have to concede that you have failures in the past to be able to create victories in the future on these fronts. So when someone here points a direction and you question that direction, concede your past failures and listen before you spit in their eye tell them you know the path.
Pure gold. I like this guy.
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426
I quit today. Humility. Its takes humility to truly step outside yourself and see what you are. You're not always right. If you were, every time you put a lipper in or took a sip of whiskey or swallowed a pill would have been the right way to go. I think you have to concede that you have failures in the past to be able to create victories in the future on these fronts. So when someone here points a direction and you question that direction, concede your past failures and listen before you spit in their eye tell them you know the path.
Pure gold. I like this guy.
Sounds like that guy knows right from wrong.
Thanks friend.
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Day 615
I quit today. I've been watching the Olympics like every other red blooded American. I dig that stuff. Its amazing how many of the events are around 50 seconds and what a massive difference 50 and 51 seconds is when you want to be the best in the world. Today's modern technology really lets see the difference of that 1 second in slomo. You slow that down and see every little muscle twitch. Every litle impulse. About a week ago I didn't slow down and look at every little impulse. I came here to quit chewing tobacco and ended up changing my life. I was wrestling with a couple other demons. I should say I am wrestling with a couple other demons. Unlike Meatloaf, I don't believe two out of three is acceptable. After a year or so of fighting the urge to drink, someone put a drink in front of me and I said yes. I didn't put my word down yet that day whether consciously or not. I had numbers of a great number of folks and even more numbers of folks that would have gladly took up the fight to get me through that impulse. I didn't want to hear 'no'. I should have slowed down, taken a breath and looked at the situation in front of me. If I had, I would have walked away. I didn't. I know this is really the nicotine intros but I don't really separate my quits anymore. I look at it as changing who I am. I broke part of that down last week. In the past, that would have opened the flood gates and I would have wrecked myself for a while. That didn't happen. That's the only good I can take away from this. I didn't lose my job and didn't end up on the couch at all at home. I've made progress but I feel a sense of failure at the same time. I'm thinking of my HOF speech in this instant - "no one can be harder on you than you." I need to take a small win out of this and improve at the same time. I offer a sincere apology to the folks that I am close to here. I knew what was right and I didn't execute. I got away from my core values.
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Day 624
I quit today. I used to spend several hours a day on here, specifically in the intros section in the past. I forgot the power of this spot right here. The humility it takes to say you are an addict and understand that you have to work from a disadvantage to achieve what you want is difficult but the first big win. Its step one to changing yourself. Its powerful. Truly powerful. I'm grateful to have found this place and met the folks I have.
If any of you newbs haven't been to a quitter convention yet, find one near by. I have not met a quitter that isn't powerful and a complete character. Incredible folks. Empowering.
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Day 624
I quit today. I used to spend several hours a day on here, specifically in the intros section in the past. I forgot the power of this spot right here. The humility it takes to say you are an addict and understand that you have to work from a disadvantage to achieve what you want is difficult but the first big win. Its step one to changing yourself. Its powerful. Truly powerful. I'm grateful to have found this place and met the folks I have.
If any of you newbs haven't been to a quitter convention yet, find one near by. I have not met a quitter that isn't powerful and a complete character. Incredible folks. Empowering.
good words, brother soul. i miss having the time to spend hours here. granted, i was forcing that time into my schedule before during my early quit days, but it was so valuable and reinforced what i was doing.
i'm hoping that life (well, mainly work... and that ain't all of life!) slows down to a degree that i can be back and more active. helping new quitters is a great way to strengthen your own quit, and that's something that every quitter needs... at 458, 624, or 2311 days. hell, i know for a fact that soul and i strengthened each other's quits when i was just cutting my teeth in here.
good seeing you here, soul, and most importantly, good seeing you on the Quithead roll call each day. it means a lot to still have your support.
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Day 624
I quit today. I used to spend several hours a day on here, specifically in the intros section in the past. I forgot the power of this spot right here. The humility it takes to say you are an addict and understand that you have to work from a disadvantage to achieve what you want is difficult but the first big win. Its step one to changing yourself. Its powerful. Truly powerful. I'm grateful to have found this place and met the folks I have.
If any of you newbs haven't been to a quitter convention yet, find one near by. I have not met a quitter that isn't powerful and a complete character. Incredible folks. Empowering.
good words, brother soul. i miss having the time to spend hours here. granted, i was forcing that time into my schedule before during my early quit days, but it was so valuable and reinforced what i was doing.
i'm hoping that life (well, mainly work... and that ain't all of life!) slows down to a degree that i can be back and more active. helping new quitters is a great way to strengthen your own quit, and that's something that every quitter needs... at 458, 624, or 2311 days. hell, i know for a fact that soul and i strengthened each other's quits when i was just cutting my teeth in here.
good seeing you here, soul, and most importantly, good seeing you on the Quithead roll call each day. it means a lot to still have your support.
Don't think I'm not showing up in Aug'11 each day to make sure you folks aren't slacking. You fuckers used to spread the gospel of quit everywhere you went, like you were selling snake oil or "I got pipe" Nancy Kerrigan t-shirts or something. If quit had ratings, that group would come in a brown paper wrapper. You guys are certainly a part of my foundation. Thanks DC.
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Day 624
I quit today. I used to spend several hours a day on here, specifically in the intros section in the past. I forgot the power of this spot right here. The humility it takes to say you are an addict and understand that you have to work from a disadvantage to achieve what you want is difficult but the first big win. Its step one to changing yourself. Its powerful. Truly powerful. I'm grateful to have found this place and met the folks I have.
If any of you newbs haven't been to a quitter convention yet, find one near by. I have not met a quitter that isn't powerful and a complete character. Incredible folks. Empowering.
good words, brother soul. i miss having the time to spend hours here. granted, i was forcing that time into my schedule before during my early quit days, but it was so valuable and reinforced what i was doing.
i'm hoping that life (well, mainly work... and that ain't all of life!) slows down to a degree that i can be back and more active. helping new quitters is a great way to strengthen your own quit, and that's something that every quitter needs... at 458, 624, or 2311 days. hell, i know for a fact that soul and i strengthened each other's quits when i was just cutting my teeth in here.
good seeing you here, soul, and most importantly, good seeing you on the Quithead roll call each day. it means a lot to still have your support.
Don't think I'm not showing up in Aug'12 each day to make sure you folks aren't slacking. You fuckers used to spread the gospel of quit everywhere you went, like you were selling snake oil or "I got pipe" Nancy Kerrigan t-shirts or something. If quit had ratings, that group would come in a brown paper wrapper. You guys are certainly a part of my foundation. Thanks DC.
I need to run into you two, as what I have seen, very knowledgeable and helpful to us new quitters - always welcome to stop by the Oct12 group too, in order to spread your wisdom.
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Day 624
I quit today. I used to spend several hours a day on here, specifically in the intros section in the past. I forgot the power of this spot right here. The humility it takes to say you are an addict and understand that you have to work from a disadvantage to achieve what you want is difficult but the first big win. Its step one to changing yourself. Its powerful. Truly powerful. I'm grateful to have found this place and met the folks I have.
If any of you newbs haven't been to a quitter convention yet, find one near by. I have not met a quitter that isn't powerful and a complete character. Incredible folks. Empowering.
good words, brother soul. i miss having the time to spend hours here. granted, i was forcing that time into my schedule before during my early quit days, but it was so valuable and reinforced what i was doing.
i'm hoping that life (well, mainly work... and that ain't all of life!) slows down to a degree that i can be back and more active. helping new quitters is a great way to strengthen your own quit, and that's something that every quitter needs... at 458, 624, or 2311 days. hell, i know for a fact that soul and i strengthened each other's quits when i was just cutting my teeth in here.
good seeing you here, soul, and most importantly, good seeing you on the Quithead roll call each day. it means a lot to still have your support.
Don't think I'm not showing up in Aug'12 each day to make sure you folks aren't slacking. You fuckers used to spread the gospel of quit everywhere you went, like you were selling snake oil or "I got pipe" Nancy Kerrigan t-shirts or something. If quit had ratings, that group would come in a brown paper wrapper. You guys are certainly a part of my foundation. Thanks DC.
I need to run into you two, as what I have seen, very knowledgeable and helpful to us new quitters - always welcome to stop by the Oct12 group too, in order to spread your wisdom.
Aug'11 I meant.
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Day 624
I quit today. I used to spend several hours a day on here, specifically in the intros section in the past. I forgot the power of this spot right here. The humility it takes to say you are an addict and understand that you have to work from a disadvantage to achieve what you want is difficult but the first big win. Its step one to changing yourself. Its powerful. Truly powerful. I'm grateful to have found this place and met the folks I have.
If any of you newbs haven't been to a quitter convention yet, find one near by. I have not met a quitter that isn't powerful and a complete character. Incredible folks. Empowering.
good words, brother soul. i miss having the time to spend hours here. granted, i was forcing that time into my schedule before during my early quit days, but it was so valuable and reinforced what i was doing.
i'm hoping that life (well, mainly work... and that ain't all of life!) slows down to a degree that i can be back and more active. helping new quitters is a great way to strengthen your own quit, and that's something that every quitter needs... at 458, 624, or 2311 days. hell, i know for a fact that soul and i strengthened each other's quits when i was just cutting my teeth in here.
good seeing you here, soul, and most importantly, good seeing you on the Quithead roll call each day. it means a lot to still have your support.
Don't think I'm not showing up in Aug'12 each day to make sure you folks aren't slacking. You fuckers used to spread the gospel of quit everywhere you went, like you were selling snake oil or "I got pipe" Nancy Kerrigan t-shirts or something. If quit had ratings, that group would come in a brown paper wrapper. You guys are certainly a part of my foundation. Thanks DC.
I need to run into you two, as what I have seen, very knowledgeable and helpful to us new quitters - always welcome to stop by the Oct12 group too, in order to spread your wisdom.
Aug'11 I meant.
Rock on, Soul!! Keep fighting the good fight, brother.
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Day 624
I quit today. I used to spend several hours a day on here, specifically in the intros section in the past. I forgot the power of this spot right here. The humility it takes to say you are an addict and understand that you have to work from a disadvantage to achieve what you want is difficult but the first big win. Its step one to changing yourself. Its powerful. Truly powerful. I'm grateful to have found this place and met the folks I have.
If any of you newbs haven't been to a quitter convention yet, find one near by. I have not met a quitter that isn't powerful and a complete character. Incredible folks. Empowering.
good words, brother soul. i miss having the time to spend hours here. granted, i was forcing that time into my schedule before during my early quit days, but it was so valuable and reinforced what i was doing.
i'm hoping that life (well, mainly work... and that ain't all of life!) slows down to a degree that i can be back and more active. helping new quitters is a great way to strengthen your own quit, and that's something that every quitter needs... at 458, 624, or 2311 days. hell, i know for a fact that soul and i strengthened each other's quits when i was just cutting my teeth in here.
good seeing you here, soul, and most importantly, good seeing you on the Quithead roll call each day. it means a lot to still have your support.
Don't think I'm not showing up in Aug'12 each day to make sure you folks aren't slacking. You fuckers used to spread the gospel of quit everywhere you went, like you were selling snake oil or "I got pipe" Nancy Kerrigan t-shirts or something. If quit had ratings, that group would come in a brown paper wrapper. You guys are certainly a part of my foundation. Thanks DC.
I need to run into you two, as what I have seen, very knowledgeable and helpful to us new quitters - always welcome to stop by the Oct12 group too, in order to spread your wisdom.
Aug'11 I meant.
Rock on, Soul!! Keep fighting the good fight, brother.
me likey! ;)
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Day 624
I quit today. I used to spend several hours a day on here, specifically in the intros section in the past. I forgot the power of this spot right here. The humility it takes to say you are an addict and understand that you have to work from a disadvantage to achieve what you want is difficult but the first big win. Its step one to changing yourself. Its powerful. Truly powerful. I'm grateful to have found this place and met the folks I have.
If any of you newbs haven't been to a quitter convention yet, find one near by. I have not met a quitter that isn't powerful and a complete character. Incredible folks. Empowering.
good words, brother soul. i miss having the time to spend hours here. granted, i was forcing that time into my schedule before during my early quit days, but it was so valuable and reinforced what i was doing.
i'm hoping that life (well, mainly work... and that ain't all of life!) slows down to a degree that i can be back and more active. helping new quitters is a great way to strengthen your own quit, and that's something that every quitter needs... at 458, 624, or 2311 days. hell, i know for a fact that soul and i strengthened each other's quits when i was just cutting my teeth in here.
good seeing you here, soul, and most importantly, good seeing you on the Quithead roll call each day. it means a lot to still have your support.
Don't think I'm not showing up in Aug'12 each day to make sure you folks aren't slacking. You fuckers used to spread the gospel of quit everywhere you went, like you were selling snake oil or "I got pipe" Nancy Kerrigan t-shirts or something. If quit had ratings, that group would come in a brown paper wrapper. You guys are certainly a part of my foundation. Thanks DC.
I need to run into you two, as what I have seen, very knowledgeable and helpful to us new quitters - always welcome to stop by the Oct12 group too, in order to spread your wisdom.
Aug'11 I meant.
Rock on, Soul!! Keep fighting the good fight, brother.
me likey! ;)
Good stuff. Time for a shameless plug: If you guys want to get more involved with the newer groups then just put your name on the mentors list in the Adopt a Quitter Program. You'd be able to work with a new quitter through the HOF without having to spend hours on KTC everyday. Make sure you're the responsive type cause we're not big fans of having to track vets down.
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Day 674
Don't chew tobacco fucksticks...
Gruen (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YvpFJ6QEYdU)
Run from this path. Fight for every fucking inch away from this possible future. Separate yourself. Make it your past and watch it get further and further from you.
Do this.
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Day 691
The funk sucks...be prepared. You will survive. You will see the other side. You will be strong as steel once again. Your footsteps will shake the ground on the other side. One step at a time. One day at a time.
Bring on the funk (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gjKFCYzqq-A)
Fight. Plan. Protect.
You can do this. You will do this. You will own the nic bitch. You will rise above the pain of breaking the bonds of addiction. You will stare into the mirror and see a fucking bad ass. You will achieve your goal of 24 hours. You will be a man or women of substance. Your "word" will carry you through to morning.
I don't like candy asses. I don't like bullshit quit day parties or "tomorrow quitters". I want to hear folks that own today. They control their future. They know exactly what's going on and own up to the choices they have made to this very moment. Those fuckers will survive. Those fuckers help me survive.
Look into that mirror. Who do you see? Answer that question. Do you see someone who can overcome? Someone who sees freedom and will claw through broken glass to get it? That's what I see. I see a guy who will bash you if you try taking that freedom from me. I will not concede. I suggest you do the same.
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Day 691
The funk sucks...be prepared. You will survive. You will see the other side. You will be strong as steel once again. Your footsteps will shake the ground on the other side. One step at a time. One day at a time.
Bring on the funk (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gjKFCYzqq-A)
Fight. Plan. Protect.
You can do this. You will do this. You will own the nic bitch. You will rise above the pain of breaking the bonds of addiction. You will stare into the mirror and see a fucking bad ass. You will achieve your goal of 24 hours. You will be a man or women of substance. Your "word" will carry you through to morning.
I don't like candy asses. I don't like bullshit quit day parties or "tomorrow quitters". I want to hear folks that own today. They control their future. They know exactly what's going on and own up to the choices they have made to this very moment. Those fuckers will survive. Those fuckers help me survive.
Look into that mirror. Who do you see? Answer that question. Do you see someone who can overcome? Someone who sees freedom and will claw through broken glass to get it? That's what I see. I see a guy who will bash you if you try taking that freedom from me. I will not concede. I suggest you do the same.
Just Post this on your wall next to the picture of Jesus!
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Day 691
The funk sucks...be prepared. You will survive. You will see the other side. You will be strong as steel once again. Your footsteps will shake the ground on the other side. One step at a time. One day at a time.
Bring on the funk (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gjKFCYzqq-A)
Fight. Plan. Protect.
You can do this. You will do this. You will own the nic bitch. You will rise above the pain of breaking the bonds of addiction. You will stare into the mirror and see a fucking bad ass. You will achieve your goal of 24 hours. You will be a man or women of substance. Your "word" will carry you through to morning.
I don't like candy asses. I don't like bullshit quit day parties or "tomorrow quitters". I want to hear folks that own today. They control their future. They know exactly what's going on and own up to the choices they have made to this very moment. Those fuckers will survive. Those fuckers help me survive.
Look into that mirror. Who do you see? Answer that question. Do you see someone who can overcome? Someone who sees freedom and will claw through broken glass to get it? That's what I see. I see a guy who will bash you if you try taking that freedom from me. I will not concede. I suggest you do the same.
Just Post this on your wall next to the picture of Jesus!
This is kick-ass quit, brother!! Got my Monday off to an excellent start. I'll see you here tomorrow.
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Just making sure you read the zen of quit.
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810
There is no rear view mirror right now. Pedal is firm beneath my foot. The Soulmobile is heading down the road with a full tank of gas. Not sure how far I'm going but I'm behind the wheel today. I got White Snake on the boom box in the back seat and my mullet is looking fucking sharp. Look out bitches. I own today.
-Soul
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810
There is no rear view mirror right now. Pedal is firm beneath my foot. The Soulmobile is heading down the road with a full tank of gas. Not sure how far I'm going but I'm behind the wheel today. I got White Snake on the boom box in the back seat and my mullet is looking fucking sharp. Look out bitches. I own today.
-Soul
Now I have that song in my head, "going down the only road I've ever known".
I'll quit with you, your mullet and white snake today. I am a bald man but sport a mullet in spirit with ya today.
810! Awesomeness.
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810
There is no rear view mirror right now. Pedal is firm beneath my foot. The Soulmobile is heading down the road with a full tank of gas. Not sure how far I'm going but I'm behind the wheel today. I got White Snake on the boom box in the back seat and my mullet is looking fucking sharp. Look out bitches. I own today.
-Soul
Now I have that song in my head, "going down the only road I've ever known".
I'll quit with you, your mullet and white snake today. I am a bald man but sport a mullet in spirit with ya today.
810! Awesomeness.
MT
I shave my entire body once a month. That's how Soul rolls. Bald is beautiful my friend.
Keep killing it brother.
-Soul
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810
There is no rear view mirror right now. Pedal is firm beneath my foot. The Soulmobile is heading down the road with a full tank of gas. Not sure how far I'm going but I'm behind the wheel today. I got White Snake on the boom box in the back seat and my mullet is looking fucking sharp. Look out bitches. I own today.
-Soul
Now I have that song in my head, "going down the only road I've ever known".
I'll quit with you, your mullet and white snake today. I am a bald man but sport a mullet in spirit with ya today.
810! Awesomeness.
MT
I shave my entire body once a month. That's how Soul rolls. Bald is beautiful my friend.
Keep killing it brother.
-Soul
Aint no Souli like a shorn Souli ... shocker
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810
There is no rear view mirror right now. Pedal is firm beneath my foot. The Soulmobile is heading down the road with a full tank of gas. Not sure how far I'm going but I'm behind the wheel today. I got White Snake on the boom box in the back seat and my mullet is looking fucking sharp. Look out bitches. I own today.
-Soul
Now I have that song in my head, "going down the only road I've ever known".
I'll quit with you, your mullet and white snake today. I am a bald man but sport a mullet in spirit with ya today.
810! Awesomeness.
MT
I shave my entire body once a month. That's how Soul rolls. Bald is beautiful my friend.
Keep killing it brother.
-Soul
Aint no Souli like a shorn Souli ... shocker
Pretty sure the Soulimobile is an 84 Monte Carlo. (http://www.dragtimes.com/1984-Chevrolet-Monte-Carlo-Pictures-6384.html) Obviously the SS stands for shorn souli.
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881
Today I am mother fucking gigantic ball swinging quit. Fuck you UST. I got two hands, a good heart and determination. This world is mine and I will do my best to keep the peace and share it as long as no one pisses on my path. I will unleash my sword otherwise. No more pity party for the weak and those caught in the current. Fucking swim. Choose your path. Make yourself whom you are suppose to be. Enough already. Fight. Plan. Protect.
Lord...oh gentle and benevolent one...surround me with badassery and folks that see a path and want it. Those are the fuckers that keep my heart pumping. Those are the fuckers that show me I can and I will succeed.
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881
Today I am mother fucking gigantic ball swinging quit. Fuck you UST. I got two hands, a good heart and determination. This world is mine and I will do my best to keep the peace and share it as long as no one pisses on my path. I will unleash my sword otherwise. No more pity party for the weak and those caught in the current. Fucking swim. Choose your path. Make yourself whom you are suppose to be. Enough already. Fight. Plan. Protect.
Lord...oh gentle and benevolent one...surround me with badassery and folks that see a path and want it. Those are the fuckers that keep my heart pumping. Those are the fuckers that show me I can and I will succeed.
Out-fucking-standing!
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881
Today I am mother fucking gigantic ball swinging quit. Fuck you UST. I got two hands, a good heart and determination. This world is mine and I will do my best to keep the peace and share it as long as no one pisses on my path. I will unleash my sword otherwise. No more pity party for the weak and those caught in the current. Fucking swim. Choose your path. Make yourself whom you are suppose to be. Enough already. Fight. Plan. Protect.
Lord...oh gentle and benevolent one...surround me with badassery and folks that see a path and want it. Those are the fuckers that keep my heart pumping. Those are the fuckers that show me I can and I will succeed.
Out-fucking-standing!
Its amazing what you see when you clean the fingerprints off a mirror.
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881
Today I am mother fucking gigantic ball swinging quit. Fuck you UST. I got two hands, a good heart and determination. This world is mine and I will do my best to keep the peace and share it as long as no one pisses on my path. I will unleash my sword otherwise. No more pity party for the weak and those caught in the current. Fucking swim. Choose your path. Make yourself whom you are suppose to be. Enough already. Fight. Plan. Protect.
Lord...oh gentle and benevolent one...surround me with badassery and folks that see a path and want it. Those are the fuckers that keep my heart pumping. Those are the fuckers that show me I can and I will succeed.
Out-fucking-standing!
Its amazing what you see when you clean the fingerprints off a mirror.
It's amazing when one can look into the mirror at all for the first time to be honestly quit with themself.
Just look and see it, strength, truth....so good to be quit
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881
Today I am mother fucking gigantic ball swinging quit. Fuck you UST. I got two hands, a good heart and determination. This world is mine and I will do my best to keep the peace and share it as long as no one pisses on my path. I will unleash my sword otherwise. No more pity party for the weak and those caught in the current. Fucking swim. Choose your path. Make yourself whom you are suppose to be. Enough already. Fight. Plan. Protect.
Lord...oh gentle and benevolent one...surround me with badassery and folks that see a path and want it. Those are the fuckers that keep my heart pumping. Those are the fuckers that show me I can and I will succeed.
Out-fucking-standing!
Its amazing what you see when you clean the fingerprints off a mirror.
It's amazing when one can look into the mirror at all for the first time to be honestly quit with themself.
Just look and see it, strength, truth....so good to be quit
AMEN AND AMEN!!
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881
Today I am mother fucking gigantic ball swinging quit. Fuck you UST. I got two hands, a good heart and determination. This world is mine and I will do my best to keep the peace and share it as long as no one pisses on my path. I will unleash my sword otherwise. No more pity party for the weak and those caught in the current. Fucking swim. Choose your path. Make yourself whom you are suppose to be. Enough already. Fight. Plan. Protect.
Lord...oh gentle and benevolent one...surround me with badassery and folks that see a path and want it. Those are the fuckers that keep my heart pumping. Those are the fuckers that show me I can and I will succeed.
Out-fucking-standing!
Its amazing what you see when you clean the fingerprints off a mirror.
It's amazing when one can look into the mirror at all for the first time to be honestly quit with themself.
Just look and see it, strength, truth....so good to be quit
AMEN AND AMEN!!
I bet Jesus even dropped a "Fuck Yeah!" after reading that Souli.
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881
Today I am mother fucking gigantic ball swinging quit. Fuck you UST. I got two hands, a good heart and determination. This world is mine and I will do my best to keep the peace and share it as long as no one pisses on my path. I will unleash my sword otherwise. No more pity party for the weak and those caught in the current. Fucking swim. Choose your path. Make yourself whom you are suppose to be. Enough already. Fight. Plan. Protect.
Lord...oh gentle and benevolent one...surround me with badassery and folks that see a path and want it. Those are the fuckers that keep my heart pumping. Those are the fuckers that show me I can and I will succeed.
Out-fucking-standing!
Its amazing what you see when you clean the fingerprints off a mirror.
It's amazing when one can look into the mirror at all for the first time to be honestly quit with themself.
Just look and see it, strength, truth....so good to be quit
AMEN AND AMEN!!
I bet Jesus even dropped a "Fuck Yeah!" after reading that Souli.
Quit on, brother Soul!!
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881
Today I am mother fucking gigantic ball swinging quit. Fuck you UST. I got two hands, a good heart and determination. This world is mine and I will do my best to keep the peace and share it as long as no one pisses on my path. I will unleash my sword otherwise. No more pity party for the weak and those caught in the current. Fucking swim. Choose your path. Make yourself whom you are suppose to be. Enough already. Fight. Plan. Protect.
Lord...oh gentle and benevolent one...surround me with badassery and folks that see a path and want it. Those are the fuckers that keep my heart pumping. Those are the fuckers that show me I can and I will succeed.
Out-fucking-standing!
Its amazing what you see when you clean the fingerprints off a mirror.
It's amazing when one can look into the mirror at all for the first time to be honestly quit with themself.
Just look and see it, strength, truth....so good to be quit
AMEN AND AMEN!!
I bet Jesus even dropped a "Fuck Yeah!" after reading that Souli.
Quit on, brother Soul!!
Yes. Fight, Plan, Protect and you shall be victorious!
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881
Today I am mother fucking gigantic ball swinging quit. Fuck you UST. I got two hands, a good heart and determination. This world is mine and I will do my best to keep the peace and share it as long as no one pisses on my path. I will unleash my sword otherwise. No more pity party for the weak and those caught in the current. Fucking swim. Choose your path. Make yourself whom you are suppose to be. Enough already. Fight. Plan. Protect.
Lord...oh gentle and benevolent one...surround me with badassery and folks that see a path and want it. Those are the fuckers that keep my heart pumping. Those are the fuckers that show me I can and I will succeed.
Out-fucking-standing!
Its amazing what you see when you clean the fingerprints off a mirror.
It's amazing when one can look into the mirror at all for the first time to be honestly quit with themself.
Just look and see it, strength, truth....so good to be quit
AMEN AND AMEN!!
I bet Jesus even dropped a "Fuck Yeah!" after reading that Souli.
Quit on, brother Soul!!
Yes. Fight, Plan, Protect and you shall be victorious!
Bring that quit down to Austin in July Soul!!!
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946
I quit today.
Fucking eh. I love this place. Look at the fucking power flowing through you bitches. Powerful stuff. The support. You can't buy support like this. Anyone of these fuckers would walk through the fire with you. Anyone of them would pick up the phone in your hour of need. Use the tools. Use the titans of quit that walk beside you.
Thanks for kicking ass daily.
-Soul
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946
I quit today.
Fucking eh. I love this place. Look at the fucking power flowing through you bitches. Powerful stuff. The support. You can't buy support like this. Anyone of these fuckers would walk through the fire with you. Anyone of them would pick up the phone in your hour of need. Use the tools. Use the titans of quit that walk beside you.
Thanks for kicking ass daily.
-Soul
AWESOME.
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946
I quit today.
Fucking eh. I love this place. Look at the fucking power flowing through you bitches. Powerful stuff. The support. You can't buy support like this. Anyone of these fuckers would walk through the fire with you. Anyone of them would pick up the phone in your hour of need. Use the tools. Use the titans of quit that walk beside you.
Thanks for kicking ass daily.
-Soul
AWESOME.
x2 ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
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946
I quit today.
Fucking eh. I love this place. Look at the fucking power flowing through you bitches. Powerful stuff. The support. You can't buy support like this. Anyone of these fuckers would walk through the fire with you. Anyone of them would pick up the phone in your hour of need. Use the tools. Use the titans of quit that walk beside you.
Thanks for kicking ass daily.
-Soul
AWESOME.
x2 ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
The zen of quit speaks.
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946
I quit today.
Fucking eh. I love this place. Look at the fucking power flowing through you bitches. Powerful stuff. The support. You can't buy support like this. Anyone of these fuckers would walk through the fire with you. Anyone of them would pick up the phone in your hour of need. Use the tools. Use the titans of quit that walk beside you.
Thanks for kicking ass daily.
-Soul
AWESOME.
x2 ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
The zen of quit speaks.
he led the way, now my quit talks to soulimans quitlol
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946
I quit today.
Fucking eh. I love this place. Look at the fucking power flowing through you bitches. Powerful stuff. The support. You can't buy support like this. Anyone of these fuckers would walk through the fire with you. Anyone of them would pick up the phone in your hour of need. Use the tools. Use the titans of quit that walk beside you.
Thanks for kicking ass daily.
-Soul
AWESOME.
x2 ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
The zen of quit speaks.
he led the way, now my quit talks to soulimans quitlol
breath deep the essence of quitdom!
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949
I quit today.
I spent years self medicating. Several of those overlapped with my two beautiful sons being in this world. I didn't quit anything for anyone but me. A friend of a quitter here, Benjie said "soul make every moment this weekend count." Sure as shit I jumped all over it. Every moment. Every moment. I started asking myself "well what's possible at this moment?" What can I do? What do I want? I started answering those questions. I looked in the mirror and smiled. I'm going to own it. It's amazing what you can do when you just slow down, take a look at yourself and all that is there. All that you've done and decide what you want and what you're willing to do to get it. I fucking quit today. Fuck you if you try to take any of these moments from me. I'll fight for them. And you can fucking count on the level of pain I will suffer to get what I want being infinitely deeper than the power of a marketing campaign or the stupidity of a coworker with a mouth full of dirt. I cannot be stopped.
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I'm not one for sympathy. I'm in the camp that you fight and as long as you fought to the end with every fiber of your soul putting forth the effort, the win-loss columns are immaterial. I was real sick recently...I'm still real sick. The men and women from this group that reached out to me, to support me through this I want to thank. The prayers, the well wishes, the humor for distraction was beyond what a sod like me deserves. My foul mouth and low drag attitude will cost me in the end but I've been humbled by you all today. I love you all. A sincere thank you to all you incredible people in my world.
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949
I quit today.
I spent years self medicating. Several of those overlapped with my two beautiful sons being in this world. I didn't quit anything for anyone but me. A friend of a quitter here, Benjie said "soul make every moment this weekend count." Sure as shit I jumped all over it. Every moment. Every moment. I started asking myself "well what's possible at this moment?" What can I do? What do I want? I started answering those questions. I looked in the mirror and smiled. I'm going to own it. It's amazing what you can do when you just slow down, take a look at yourself and all that is there. All that you've done and decide what you want and what you're willing to do to get it. I fucking quit today. Fuck you if you try to take any of these moments from me. I'll fight for them. And you can fucking count on the level of pain I will suffer to get what I want being infinitely deeper than the power of a marketing campaign or the stupidity of a coworker with a mouth full of dirt. I cannot be stopped.
Hey man today was day 47 for me. I see dudes like you rollin up on day 949. All I gotta say is that's bad ass. For a "newbie" like myself to see vets quit for that long helps feed my fire to stay quit. I have never talked with you before. But thank you for posting. Thank you for showing me that 949 days is possible. It's easy to quit when you have badass mofo's like this guy leading the way.
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I'm not one for sympathy. I'm in the camp that you fight and as long as you fought to the end with every fiber of your soul putting forth the effort, the win-loss columns are immaterial. I was real sick recently...I'm still real sick. The men and women from this group that reached out to me, to support me through this I want to thank. The prayers, the well wishes, the humor for distraction was beyond what a sod like me deserves. My foul mouth and low drag attitude will cost me in the end but I've been humbled by you all today. I love you all. A sincere thank you to all you incredible people in my world.
We are all individually a part of the whole. Glad you are doing well brother.
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I'm not one for sympathy. I'm in the camp that you fight and as long as you fought to the end with every fiber of your soul putting forth the effort, the win-loss columns are immaterial. I was real sick recently...I'm still real sick. The men and women from this group that reached out to me, to support me through this I want to thank. The prayers, the well wishes, the humor for distraction was beyond what a sod like me deserves. My foul mouth and low drag attitude will cost me in the end but I've been humbled by you all today. I love you all. A sincere thank you to all you incredible people in my world.
We are all individually a part of the whole. Glad you are doing well brother.
Thank you Soul. Keep bringing the quit.
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Help me give props to the zen of quit. 1,000 days of bringing it. This thread is worth a read. Thanks bro.
Scodaddy
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Help me give props to the zen of quit. 1,000 days of bringing it. This thread is worth a read. Thanks bro.
Scodaddy
'worship'
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Help me give props to the zen of quit. 1,000 days of bringing it. This thread is worth a read. Thanks bro.
Scodaddy
'worship'
Happy to be quit with you and proud to call you a friend. Well done, bro.
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Help me give props to the zen of quit. 1,000 days of bringing it. This thread is worth a read. Thanks bro.
Scodaddy
'worship'
Happy to be quit with you and proud to call you a friend. Well done, bro.
Congrats on 1,000. That is inspirational to keep at this.
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Help me give props to the zen of quit. 1,000 days of bringing it. This thread is worth a read. Thanks bro.
Scodaddy
'worship'
Happy to be quit with you and proud to call you a friend. Well done, bro.
Congrats on 1,000. That is inspirational to keep at this.
You are a quit machine!
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Help me give props to the zen of quit. 1,000 days of bringing it. This thread is worth a read. Thanks bro.
Scodaddy
'worship'
Happy to be quit with you and proud to call you a friend. Well done, bro.
Congrats on 1,000. That is inspirational to keep at this.
You are a quit machine!
Awesome! You are a true Role Model of Quit!
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Help me give props to the zen of quit. 1,000 days of bringing it. This thread is worth a read. Thanks bro.
Scodaddy
'worship'
Happy to be quit with you and proud to call you a friend. Well done, bro.
Congrats on 1,000. That is inspirational to keep at this.
You are a quit machine!
Awesome! You are a true Role Model of Quit!
My scrotum is shorn slick in your honor sir.
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1118
I quit today.
I'm quit and rarely do I think otherwise. But it still happens that there is some nasty little heathen nic bitch hiding in a corner somewhere looking to sink her claws into my back. I've been driving north to Vermont since I left it. Its a ritual that is absolutely comforting to me especially this time of year. So many holidays and birthdays have pulled me up route 89 North. Up until 1118 days ago, everyone of those flooding my body with poisons continuously for 4 or 5 hours. The Soulmobile was meant for dipping. When I bought it, the previous owner had left an emergency tin in the glove box under the seat. What were the fucking chances an old can of Copenhagen would be in there? Blew my mind. Weather got nasty last night...ice storm (to which I will add 'F U Scowick' :). Stopped off and found the largest display of tobacco products I have ever seen. It was unbelievable. And just at that moment, I felt it. It was like there was no time between that day I put in my last dip and today. Like those 1118 days and the pain and the struggle and the accountability and honor disappeared. I'm an addict. I'll always be an addict. Grabbed a juice bottle and a water and two bags of sun flower seeds (original and ranch which I now regret). Made it north in one piece...body and 'my word' intact.
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1118
I quit today.
I'm quit and rarely do I think otherwise. But it still happens that there is some nasty little heathen nic bitch hiding in a corner somewhere looking to sink her claws into my back. I've been driving north to Vermont since I left it. Its a ritual that is absolutely comforting to me especially this time of year. So many holidays and birthdays have pulled me up route 89 North. Up until 1118 days ago, everyone of those flooding my body with poisons continuously for 4 or 5 hours. The Soulmobile was meant for dipping. When I bought it, the previous owner had left an emergency tin in the glove box under the seat. What were the fucking chances an old can of Copenhagen would be in there? Blew my mind. Weather got nasty last night...ice storm (to which I will add 'F U Scowick' :). Stopped off and found the largest display of tobacco products I have ever seen. It was unbelievable. And just at that moment, I felt it. It was like there was no time between that day I put in my last dip and today. Like those 1118 days and the pain and the struggle and the accountability and honor disappeared. I'm an addict. I'll always be an addict. Grabbed a juice bottle and a water and two bags of sun flower seeds (original and ranch which I now regret). Made it north in one piece...body and 'my word' intact.
Scary how she is always there. You are quit I am quit not worth a day 1 Souli
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1118
I quit today.
I'm quit and rarely do I think otherwise. But it still happens that there is some nasty little heathen nic bitch hiding in a corner somewhere looking to sink her claws into my back. I've been driving north to Vermont since I left it. Its a ritual that is absolutely comforting to me especially this time of year. So many holidays and birthdays have pulled me up route 89 North. Up until 1118 days ago, everyone of those flooding my body with poisons continuously for 4 or 5 hours. The Soulmobile was meant for dipping. When I bought it, the previous owner had left an emergency tin in the glove box under the seat. What were the fucking chances an old can of Copenhagen would be in there? Blew my mind. Weather got nasty last night...ice storm (to which I will add 'F U Scowick' :). Stopped off and found the largest display of tobacco products I have ever seen. It was unbelievable. And just at that moment, I felt it. It was like there was no time between that day I put in my last dip and today. Like those 1118 days and the pain and the struggle and the accountability and honor disappeared. I'm an addict. I'll always be an addict. Grabbed a juice bottle and a water and two bags of sun flower seeds (original and ranch which I now regret). Made it north in one piece...body and 'my word' intact.
Scary how she is always there. You are quit I am quit not worth a day 1 Souli
Wow. I needed to read this. I'm quit for 29 whole days and find myself feeling really good then I read this and it reminds me to not ever get complacent. Constant vigilance from here on out is a price I am willing to pay to stay clean. I am so glad you badass vets are sticking around here or else US quit babies would never make it. I am going to stay around to pay it forward. THANK YOU!
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1118
I quit today.
I'm quit and rarely do I think otherwise. But it still happens that there is some nasty little heathen nic bitch hiding in a corner somewhere looking to sink her claws into my back. I've been driving north to Vermont since I left it. Its a ritual that is absolutely comforting to me especially this time of year. So many holidays and birthdays have pulled me up route 89 North. Up until 1118 days ago, everyone of those flooding my body with poisons continuously for 4 or 5 hours. The Soulmobile was meant for dipping. When I bought it, the previous owner had left an emergency tin in the glove box under the seat. What were the fucking chances an old can of Copenhagen would be in there? Blew my mind. Weather got nasty last night...ice storm (to which I will add 'F U Scowick' :). Stopped off and found the largest display of tobacco products I have ever seen. It was unbelievable. And just at that moment, I felt it. It was like there was no time between that day I put in my last dip and today. Like those 1118 days and the pain and the struggle and the accountability and honor disappeared. I'm an addict. I'll always be an addict. Grabbed a juice bottle and a water and two bags of sun flower seeds (original and ranch which I now regret). Made it north in one piece...body and 'my word' intact.
Scary how she is always there. You are quit I am quit not worth a day 1 Souli
Wow. I needed to read this. I'm quit for 29 whole days and find myself feeling really good then I read this and it reminds me to not ever get complacent. Constant vigilance from here on out is a price I am willing to pay to stay clean. I am so glad you badass vets are sticking around here or else US quit babies would never make it. I am going to stay around to pay it forward. THANK YOU!
I wanted to add one thing:
There is something completely fucking badass about a day one...a true day one...not a repeat day one. Its this conscious decision to make change. Its the first step in saying "I'm worth more". And that's exactly what I said last night..."I'm worth more"...that's why I grabbed the seeds and let cancer candy sit on the shelf for the next limp dick frilly panties wearing pussy that can't see where freedom is.
F U UST. I am your nightmare.
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1118
I quit today.
I'm quit and rarely do I think otherwise. But it still happens that there is some nasty little heathen nic bitch hiding in a corner somewhere looking to sink her claws into my back. I've been driving north to Vermont since I left it. Its a ritual that is absolutely comforting to me especially this time of year. So many holidays and birthdays have pulled me up route 89 North. Up until 1118 days ago, everyone of those flooding my body with poisons continuously for 4 or 5 hours. The Soulmobile was meant for dipping. When I bought it, the previous owner had left an emergency tin in the glove box under the seat. What were the fucking chances an old can of Copenhagen would be in there? Blew my mind. Weather got nasty last night...ice storm (to which I will add 'F U Scowick' :). Stopped off and found the largest display of tobacco products I have ever seen. It was unbelievable. And just at that moment, I felt it. It was like there was no time between that day I put in my last dip and today. Like those 1118 days and the pain and the struggle and the accountability and honor disappeared. I'm an addict. I'll always be an addict. Grabbed a juice bottle and a water and two bags of sun flower seeds (original and ranch which I now regret). Made it north in one piece...body and 'my word' intact.
Scary how she is always there. You are quit I am quit not worth a day 1 Souli
Wow. I needed to read this. I'm quit for 29 whole days and find myself feeling really good then I read this and it reminds me to not ever get complacent. Constant vigilance from here on out is a price I am willing to pay to stay clean. I am so glad you badass vets are sticking around here or else US quit babies would never make it. I am going to stay around to pay it forward. THANK YOU!
I wanted to add one thing:
There is something completely fucking badass about a day one...a true day one...not a repeat day one. Its this conscious decision to make change. Its the first step in saying "I'm worth more". And that's exactly what I said last night..."I'm worth more"...that's why I grabbed the seeds and let cancer candy sit on the shelf for the next limp dick frilly panties wearing pussy that can't see where freedom is.
F U UST. I am your nightmare.
I bow in your general direction bro. Rock on...
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1118
I quit today.
I'm quit and rarely do I think otherwise. But it still happens that there is some nasty little heathen nic bitch hiding in a corner somewhere looking to sink her claws into my back. I've been driving north to Vermont since I left it. Its a ritual that is absolutely comforting to me especially this time of year. So many holidays and birthdays have pulled me up route 89 North. Up until 1118 days ago, everyone of those flooding my body with poisons continuously for 4 or 5 hours. The Soulmobile was meant for dipping. When I bought it, the previous owner had left an emergency tin in the glove box under the seat. What were the fucking chances an old can of Copenhagen would be in there? Blew my mind. Weather got nasty last night...ice storm (to which I will add 'F U Scowick' :). Stopped off and found the largest display of tobacco products I have ever seen. It was unbelievable. And just at that moment, I felt it. It was like there was no time between that day I put in my last dip and today. Like those 1118 days and the pain and the struggle and the accountability and honor disappeared. I'm an addict. I'll always be an addict. Grabbed a juice bottle and a water and two bags of sun flower seeds (original and ranch which I now regret). Made it north in one piece...body and 'my word' intact.
Scary how she is always there. You are quit I am quit not worth a day 1 Souli
Wow. I needed to read this. I'm quit for 29 whole days and find myself feeling really good then I read this and it reminds me to not ever get complacent. Constant vigilance from here on out is a price I am willing to pay to stay clean. I am so glad you badass vets are sticking around here or else US quit babies would never make it. I am going to stay around to pay it forward. THANK YOU!
I wanted to add one thing:
There is something completely fucking badass about a day one...a true day one...not a repeat day one. Its this conscious decision to make change. Its the first step in saying "I'm worth more". And that's exactly what I said last night..."I'm worth more"...that's why I grabbed the seeds and let cancer candy sit on the shelf for the next limp dick frilly panties wearing pussy that can't see where freedom is.
F U UST. I am your nightmare.
I bow in your general direction bro. Rock on...
And that is how to add a +1. Thanks for the continual inspiration.
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Some 13th Floor :wub:
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Some 13th Floor :wub:
Lucky 13, damn does that mean Souli gives or receives?
well done my friend.
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2238
I quit today.
Just wanted to chime in to say
It's true. With every 1000 days your balls become more steely. I could break down a door by humping a door knob today. Not necessary though as I can walk through walls.
Quit on you glorious bunch of fucking badasses.
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2248
I quit today
Saw a flame session in a group with a guy posting a 4th day 1? This place isn't for everyone and sure as shit I don't want some ass monkey pissing in the quit pool. Protect the pool by protecting each other. Get fucking numbers. Your dick will not shrink from asking for help. In your time of need people will answer. There is no shame. Posting a 4th day 1? That's pretty fucking shameful. Like punch a dolphin shameful. Plan. Protect. Fight.
F UST - I'm worth more.
Fuck the nic bitch.
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2248
I quit today
Saw a flame session in a group with a guy posting a 4th day 1? This place isn't for everyone and sure as shit I don't want some ass monkey pissing in the quit pool. Protect the pool by protecting each other. Get fucking numbers. Your dick will not shrink from asking for help. In your time of need people will answer. There is no shame. Posting a 4th day 1? That's pretty fucking shameful. Like punch a dolphin shameful. Plan. Protect. Fight.
F UST - I'm worth more.
Fuck the nic bitch.
Perfect. Not really sure how you fail 3 times when all the tools are at your disposal. Well there is the "brutal cave", and that can just hit out of nowhere. 'no'
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2248
I quit today
Saw a flame session in a group with a guy posting a 4th day 1? This place isn't for everyone and sure as shit I don't want some ass monkey pissing in the quit pool. Protect the pool by protecting each other. Get fucking numbers. Your dick will not shrink from asking for help. In your time of need people will answer. There is no shame. Posting a 4th day 1? That's pretty fucking shameful. Like punch a dolphin shameful. Plan. Protect. Fight.
F UST - I'm worth more.
Fuck the nic bitch.
Perfect. Not really sure how you fail 3 times when all the tools are at your disposal. Well there is the "brutal cave", and that can just hit out of nowhere. 'no'
"Brutal cave" is just another way of saying your dick has gone from outtie to innie.
Don't dick invert. Keep your word people.
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2248
I quit today
Saw a flame session in a group with a guy posting a 4th day 1? This place isn't for everyone and sure as shit I don't want some ass monkey pissing in the quit pool. Protect the pool by protecting each other. Get fucking numbers. Your dick will not shrink from asking for help. In your time of need people will answer. There is no shame. Posting a 4th day 1? That's pretty fucking shameful. Like punch a dolphin shameful. Plan. Protect. Fight.
F UST - I'm worth more.
Fuck the nic bitch.
Perfect. Not really sure how you fail 3 times when all the tools are at your disposal. Well there is the "brutal cave", and that can just hit out of nowhere. 'no'
"Brutal cave" is just another way of saying your dick has gone from outtie to innie.
Don't dick invert. Keep your word people.
serial cavers suck. Originally this was an extreme site, for those with the gumption to quit hard and want REAL accountability. I'm still with that type of quitters, and serial cavers and their enablers only piss in this pool as far as i'm concerned. Thanks Souli for bringing the highly seasoned quit wisdom back to the front here.
Fuck tobacco, and its spinoff tentacles in other nicotine products. No Caving! Get out if you can't handle it. Get IN and quit hard if you're really ready!
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2259
I quit today
Once again I find myself flying south to Savannah for a few races and a lot of oysters. If you have not gone to a quit meet, if you haven't shaken the hand of another quitter...create the opportunity. We are the same bunch of steel balled fuckers as yourself. We quit one day at a time and flip the bird to anyone who says hope, try or wish. Kill it bitches.
-soul
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2259
I quit today
Once again I find myself flying south to Savannah for a few races and a lot of oysters. If you have not gone to a quit meet, if you haven't shaken the hand of another quitter...create the opportunity. We are the same bunch of steel balled fuckers as yourself. We quit one day at a time and flip the bird to anyone who says hope, try or wish. Kill it bitches.
-soul
That awesome!
Tell everyone "hey"!
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2259
I quit today
Once again I find myself flying south to Savannah for a few races and a lot of oysters. If you have not gone to a quit meet, if you haven't shaken the hand of another quitter...create the opportunity. We are the same bunch of steel balled fuckers as yourself. We quit one day at a time and flip the bird to anyone who says hope, try or wish. Kill it bitches.
-soul
That awesome!
Tell everyone "hey"!
Tell everyone hey for me as well! And remember, pics or it didn't happen??
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Bumping this for a 7x lapper!!!
'oh yeah' badassery indeed 'oh yeah'