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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: jimmydan68 on May 28, 2011, 10:28:00 AM
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Hello,
Figured I would take a moment to introduce myself to yall,so here it goes.
My name is James Daniel, hence the JimmyDan screen name. My family has been calling me that all my life. I was born in WV and first time I dipped was at the tender age of 10. Basebal was a big part of it. Almost all of us did it, though we were fucking cool like the big leaguers.....how retarded!! I am now 42 years old. I quoted 22yrs addicted the other day. Sorry , my math was skewed as I was in a bit of a fog that day. So, Ive been strung out like a Goddamn junkie for 32 years and it makes me wanna cry. I think this addiction, my first addiction, may just be the worst of my many over the years. I am a recovering alcoholic/ drug addict as well. In September(23) I will have 10 yrs. sober. So September is a good month for me, kida fitting that it is my HOF class too.
Of all the substances, this mother fucking insideous bitch called nicotine is gonna be a tough opponent. But I aint worried. With your help the bitch will meet the same fate as the rest.... fucking with the wrong hillbilly.
JimmyDan
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Welcome aboard JimmyDan. I see you are already posting roll so you don't need any guidance there.
Keep the attitude you have and you will go far in your quit. Very similar story here, 43 dipping since I was 12-13. Your first few days are going to be a bitch, but you can do this! PM me if you need anything.
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jimmy- Welcome! I dipped for 30 years as well. I am now Quit for 44 days. You can do this! Just one day at a time, though. Post Roll Call first thing in the morning then keep your word. Proud to be Quit with you! If you need anything let me know. Peace
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Good to have you aboard sir. Long time nicotine addict myself. I understand. One day at a time. :)
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Welcome Jimmy,
Your story is identical to mine. (Including the struggle with alcohol- for me it was 9 yrs ago.) You can do this, It will be tough sometimes, but the feeling of victory is beyond compare! PM me if you need anything. The first couple of days will be intense, but it will get better real soon. You got this.
Glad to be quit with you,
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Way to go James! Tom here and we are the same quit day. 40 years old and up until 3 days ago a 22 year user. I used to chew 2-4 cans a day. I actually slept last night :) (unisom helped). Got through the panic attack yesterday just like everyone told me I would
The biggest things helping me is the understanding that I have total control of how I feel. Nic is just a chemical, it does not control my mind or my heart! I wear a band around my wrist that says "You control how you feel"
The other big thing is the realization that if I can't quit for one day, today, what makes me think I'll be able to quit some time in the future. Either stay quit today or die a slave who never stood up and took control. No bullshit!
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Glad to have you in the Sept. 2011 quit group brother. Dropping you a line to let you know that we are similarly situated, I quit drinking 10 years ago January 31 of this year. I should have quit dipping then too, missed that opportunity. By then I was already 8 years in with the nic bitch.
I don't know how easy or hard it was for you to quit drinking/drugging, but I do know what my experience was like. It was all relatively simple for me, I bottomed out emotionally and quit. I did a little outpatient 1/2 day detox program for 8 or 9 days and never really grabbed on to the 12 steps, don't have anything against it though.
This HAS NOT been my experience with dropping the tin. I've tried 10 times over the last 18 years and it has never gotten any easier...plus I ALWAYS cave. I'm sharing this because I want you to know that your assumption about your 1st addiction being your hardest to drop is probably spot on. There's no way to candy-coat it and one of the things I appreciate about this group of guys is how no one pulls any punches. It is what it fucking is, and we all did it to ourselves.
Keep posting Roll Call with the rest of us in Sept. We're gonna make it, and there are portions of it that are going to suck cock, but if we stay true to each other and to ourselves, we'll make it.
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Glad to have you in the Sept. 2011 quit group brother. Dropping you a line to let you know that we are similarly situated, I quit drinking 10 years ago January 31 of this year. I should have quit dipping then too, missed that opportunity. By then I was already 8 years in with the nic bitch.
I don't know how easy or hard it was for you to quit drinking/drugging, but I do know what my experience was like. It was all relatively simple for me, I bottomed out emotionally and quit. I did a little outpatient 1/2 day detox program for 8 or 9 days and never really grabbed on to the 12 steps, don't have anything against it though.
This HAS NOT been my experience with dropping the tin. I've tried 10 times over the last 18 years and it has never gotten any easier...plus I ALWAYS cave. I'm sharing this because I want you to know that your assumption about your 1st addiction being your hardest to drop is probably spot on. There's no way to candy-coat it and one of the things I appreciate about this group of guys is how no one pulls any punches. It is what it fucking is, and we all did it to ourselves.
Keep posting Roll Call with the rest of us in Sept. We're gonna make it, and there are portions of it that are going to suck cock, but if we stay true to each other and to ourselves, we'll make it.
Thanks Ace. I agree with you that the drinking and drugging thing was pretty easy. I did outpatient as well as 12 steps, but one counselor put it to me this way: "Whatever way you feel/felt you have been victimized, always remember YOU volunteered to abuse yoursel." That has stuck with me. Nice avatar too bro. All dude wanted was his rug back.....classic! September bad fucking asses glad to have you on my side.
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Way to go James! Tom here and we are the same quit day. 40 years old and up until 3 days ago a 22 year user. I used to chew 2-4 cans a day. I actually slept last night :) (unisom helped). Got through the panic attack yesterday just like everyone told me I would
The biggest things helping me is the understanding that I have total control of how I feel. Nic is just a chemical, it does not control my mind or my heart! I wear a band around my wrist that says "You control how you feel"
The other big thing is the realization that if I can't quit for one day, today, what makes me think I'll be able to quit some time in the future. Either stay quit today or die a slave who never stood up and took control. No bullshit!
Thanks Tom, good job to you too brother. Lets kick ass on this fuckin bitch!!! NO BULLSHIT!
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Welcome aboard the QUITTERS TRAIN Jimmydan!!! Lets kick this nic bitches ass together! Nico
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Welcome JimmyDan. Ive known a few Mountaineers through the years and if I could say one thing about them its that they are stubborn sonsabitches. I know that if you put your mind to quittin then its a done deal. You can do thing thing my brudda. Post DAILY and post EARLY. Get involved in another persons quit you will find that it helps strengthen your own.
MOA
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Hello,
Figured I would take a moment to introduce myself to yall,so here it goes.
My name is James Daniel, hence the JimmyDan screen name. My family has been calling me that all my life. I was born in WV and first time I dipped was at the tender age of 10. Basebal was a big part of it. Almost all of us did it, though we were fucking cool like the big leaguers.....how retarded!! I am now 42 years old. I quoted 22yrs addicted the other day. Sorry , my math was skewed as I was in a bit of a fog that day. So, Ive been strung out like a Goddamn junkie for 32 years and it makes me wanna cry. I think this addiction, my first addiction, may just be the worst of my many over the years. I am a recovering alcoholic/ drug addict as well. In September(23) I will have 10 yrs. sober. So September is a good month for me, kida fitting that it is my HOF class too.
Of all the substances, this mother fucking insideous bitch called nicotine is gonna be a tough opponent. But I aint worried. With your help the bitch will meet the same fate as the rest.... fucking with the wrong hillbilly.
JimmyDan
Whose tougher? You or a little can? 'tough' This is not a retorical question!
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Welcome JimmyDan. Ive known a few Mountaineers through the years and if I could say one thing about them its that they are stubborn sonsabitches. I know that if you put your mind to quittin then its a done deal. You can do thing thing my brudda. Post DAILY and post EARLY. Get involved in another persons quit you will find that it helps strengthen your own.
MOA
Thanks MOA. Love the latin in ur avatar.....Im Prepared...lol.
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Having a hard time today....fucking mind games... Ill be cool tho...hopefully.
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Having a hard time today....fucking mind games... Ill be cool tho...hopefully.
Did you post your word today? If so, then you will be cool. Hang in there, you can do this. You need someone to talk to, pm me for my number. Remember, there are a lot of resources here to help you.
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jimmydan68- day6- No dip today!
I will hold you accountable to this.
Keep your word.
Caving is not an option, do something else. Anything else.
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jimmydan68- day6- No dip today!
I will hold you accountable to this.
Keep your word.
Caving is not an option, do something else. Anything else.
Yep, you ain't dipping today, so focus on something else. You are stronger than anything the nic bitch can throw your way for ONE day. Don't think about tomorrow. TODAY you have given your word. TODAY you will not use nicotine.
I've given my word, so I'm quitting with you TODAY.
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jimmydan68- day6- No dip today!
I will hold you accountable to this.
Keep your word.
Caving is not an option, do something else. Anything else.
Yep, you ain't dipping today, so focus on something else. You are stronger than anything the nic bitch can throw your way for ONE day. Don't think about tomorrow. TODAY you have given your word. TODAY you will not use nicotine.
I've given my word, so I'm quitting with you TODAY.
Hang in there, bro. You got this. We got your back. Looks like you've made the promise earlier today, so nicotine is off the table for today. Reach out if you need to.