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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: rcohan on March 19, 2015, 02:08:00 PM
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Well here I am. My name is Rick. I've tried to quit many times. Mostly on my own. Probably my longest was about 4 months. I've wanted to quit thousands of times. I've been a secret dipper for about 30 years now. My wife would occasionally catch me. I'd say I'm sorry and quit for a day or so before going back at it. Yesterday morning, I woke up saying I was going to quit but until I actually took my last dip yesterday at lunch and then had nothing left in the can, I guess I really didn't believe that I could do it. I decided that I simply wasn't going to go buy any more. That way I would at least have to make an effort to satisfy the craving. It's been 24 hours and it seems that all I can think about is "I want a dip but I don't have any" which makes me kinda uneasy. Right now, I'm sucking on a piece of a paper towel with a drop of cinnamon oil on it just to get some sort of flavor in my mouth. Because it's been on my mind all day, I got out on the web and discovered the "Kill the Can" website. I started reading some of the posts and articles and, you know it was kinda refreshing to know that there were others that had already been through what I want to get through and there seemed to be a general desire to encourage and help others and I'm all about encouragement. I need positive reinforcement. I also read a posting on another web site where the wife was actually posting to get tips on how to get her husband to quit. One of the responses said that it was pretty much hopeless to try and make them quit and that it wasn't going to happen until he wanted to make it happen. I'd say that pretty much hits the nail on the head. I've decided that I want to quit. So today I quit for today. I'll worry about tomorrow when tomorrow comes.
Update - Almost a year later now and I won't ever make the claim that the journey is easy. I still have cravings. Maybe not as intense but the thought comes to mind that a dip would be really nice right now and it probably would be except that the repercussions to doing so just aren't worth it. The June Goons would be all over me and I am thankful for that. They keep me on my toes. Of you are reading this and thinking about quitting, it is very much a personal challenge but when you take that challenge, you do so with a whole army of fellow quitters right there with you. I will be quitting the rest of my life but I'll never be quitting alone. Get yourself involved in the forums and reach out to someone before you grab the car keys to go to the corner station for a can.
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You did nail it - you can only quit today, and worry about tomorrow then. That philosophy works. I would suggest reading the Welcome Center page, and learning how to post roll. Then ask some quitter s for some phone numbers - a timely text here and there saved my quit early on twice.
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No more trying... You're here now.
We DO.
I say it all the time... Get involved and stay involved. Your quit is what you put into it and if you're all in... You got this. Own it and nothing will shake you. Immerse yourself in the Welcome Center to learn what, why, and how we do things here. Welcome to freedom, bro.
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Thanks gentlemen. I found the welcome center and I'm reading it through.
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Thanks gentlemen. I found the welcome center and I'm reading it through.
Then go post roll here: topic/10990123/ (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/10990123/)
Directions on posting roll are on the list page. Don't worry if you mess it up the first couple times.
Before long you will learn to do it while your pissing in the morning, with your mobile phone.
Congrats on a great decision.
I quit with you today.
Also: Track this Intro page... bottom right corner, so you will be informed when people are trying to quit with you.
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Well here I am. My name is Rick. I've tried to quit many times. Mostly on my own. Probably my longest was about 4 months. I've wanted to quit thousands of times. I've been a secret dipper for about 30 years now. My wife would occasionally catch me. I'd say I'm sorry and quit for a day or so before going back at it. Yesterday morning, I woke up saying I was going to quit but until I actually took my last dip yesterday at lunch and then had nothing left in the can, I guess I really didn't believe that I could do it. I decided that I simply wasn't going to go buy any more. That way I would at least have to make an effort to satisfy the craving. It's been 24 hours and it seems that all I can think about is "I want a dip but I don't have any" which makes me kinda uneasy. Right now, I'm sucking on a piece of a paper towel with a drop of cinnamon oil on it just to get some sort of flavor in my mouth. Because it's been on my mind all day, I got out on the web and discovered the "Kill the Can" website. I started reading some of the posts and articles and, you know it was kinda refreshing to know that there were others that had already been through what I want to get through and there seemed to be a general desire to encourage and help others and I'm all about encouragement. I need positive reinforcement. I also read a posting on another web site where the wife was actually posting to get tips on how to get her husband to quit. One of the responses said that it was pretty much hopeless to try and make them quit and that it wasn't going to happen until he wanted to make it happen. I'd say that pretty much hits the nail on the head. I've decided that I want to quit. So today I quit for today. I'll worry about tomorrow when tomorrow comes.
Heck yeah! Get in here my friend! Together we can do this! Sounds like you have the right mind set! Get you some gum, candy, fake tobacco whatever it takes. Let's get this done! Been dipping 38 years hardest thing I've ever done but I can do this one day at a time and so can you with all this help here! Post roll EDD! ODAAT!
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Been a rough afternoon and early evening but I'm making it. I'll post in roll call in the morning! Thanks guys. I can tell I'm going to need your help.
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Been a rough afternoon and early evening but I'm making it. I'll post in roll call in the morning! Thanks guys. I can tell I'm going to need your help.
It's not easy my friend! Toughest thing I've ever done! But by far one of the best things! It's gonna suck then suck some more, just man up, get some numbers and get some help! Pm me if you want mine
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Been a rough afternoon and early evening but I'm making it. I'll post in roll call in the morning! Thanks guys. I can tell I'm going to need your help.
I am right here with you. My day 1 was Monday. I am on day 4 and tell you what, each day gets better. Use KTC, the people here are amazing. They are the only reason I am still quit.
I will quit with you today. Let me know if i can help you in any way.
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Been a rough afternoon and early evening but I'm making it. I'll post in roll call in the morning! Thanks guys. I can tell I'm going to need your help.
It's not easy my friend! Toughest thing I've ever done! But by far one of the best things! It's gonna suck then suck some more, just man up, get some numbers and get some help! Pm me if you want mine
It is definitely not easy - but it does get better! Take it from a chewer of almost 40 years. Quit one day at a time and reach out for help. You are definitely not alone my friend!
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Welcome to KTC brother. Post roll every day. Early. Make that promise to yourself and to your brothers that you will not use nicotine today! It makes a difference.
Most importantly, if you need help then don't be afraid to lean on us.
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Great to have you here, sir. I look forward to quitting with you. You sound like you understand what needs to be done, and that's great.
Get ready to kick nicotine's ass and meet some great folks along the way! Let us know if you need anything.
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You guys are the support I need. Thanks.
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You guys are the support I need. Thanks.
1 text, 1 pm,1 phone call away! As long as you keep your promise we will keep ours to help!
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^^^^ YES ^^^^ For all of that stuff. Post roll, read everything you can and repeat. That's all there is to it. You got this! You really can do this. Don't believe me? Then go to the Quit Groups and click around...not just your group, but click around a few other years and months. Then think...every name you see there...EVERY ONE OF THEM...is or has been right where you are now. And they are living free. Every last one of them...living free. Pretty cool, huh?
Nobody can do this for you. Quitting is a privilege reserved to those who have the guts to do it. YOU are earning your freedom ONE DAY AT A TIME.
Some say this sucks. But you tell me what sucks...cancer, chemotherapy, feeding tubes, torturing those who love you the most with your death, no jaw, no tongue, disfiguring surgery or withdrawal symptoms?
Tell me...just exactly what sucks about doing something as heroic as saving your own life? To me, you a badass hero for having made the choice. Never miss a chance to recognize your own greatness. Now stick with it. Post roll, read and repeat. CONGRATS!!!
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RC, welcome to KTC and the June Goons! Proud to be quit with you. Check your PM box brother.
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Man today is tough. I want so bad to search the house for that can I forgot to throw away but I know there is none in the house and that is the only thing saving me right now. This needs to get better soon! Just gotta make it through today though. Just through today.
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Man today is tough. I want so bad to search the house for that can I forgot to throw away but I know there is none in the house and that is the only thing saving me right now. This needs to get better soon! Just gotta make it through today though. Just through today.
Hang in there man. Get some Smokey Mountain, it helps. I am only Day 7 and yes, i have had a few rough days myself, the fake stuff helps. Tastes like shit but it does help. PM if your number if you want a text buddy.
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^^^^ YES ^^^^ For all of that stuff. Post roll, read everything you can and repeat. That's all there is to it. You got this! You really can do this. Don't believe me? Then go to the Quit Groups and click around...not just your group, but click around a few other years and months. Then think...every name you see there...EVERY ONE OF THEM...is or has been right where you are now. And they are living free. Every last one of them...living free. Pretty cool, huh?
Nobody can do this for you. Quitting is a privilege reserved to those who have the guts to do it. YOU are earning your freedom ONE DAY AT A TIME.
Some say this sucks. But you tell me what sucks...cancer, chemotherapy, feeding tubes, torturing those who love you the most with your death, no jaw, no tongue, disfiguring surgery or withdrawal symptoms?
Tell me...just exactly what sucks about doing something as heroic as saving your own life? To me, you a badass hero for having made the choice. Never miss a chance to recognize your own greatness. Now stick with it. Post roll, read and repeat. CONGRATS!!!
Bean your a BA.
Rcohan. You might read Bean's post again, and again.. Then grab a bottle of water and go for a walk.
It's not gonna be fun.
And if you were to cave it will only get worse.
Everyday will get better.
Let your old self identity die.
Be excited about your new freedom.
You have a great quit started.. Don't go backwards.
I quit with you today.
How many digits have you exchanged?
Get some more.
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Thanks HeathDux, Bean and Rawles, Two things helped me last night. The first was when I had a craving, I had someplace to go and sound off about it. Right here. And that reminded me about how hard this is but also how many other brothers in the can had done or were doing it too. Let me know that I CAN do this. I actually looked forward to being able to post in roll call this morning that I was still nic free. If I had caved, then I wouldn't have been able to do it. Sounds a little self centered and boastful. But right now, I still need the tons of encouragement and support I get here. This site is awesome. You guys are awesome. I've won 4 days in a row and I'm looking forward to tomorrow to say I made it 5. I am so jealous of the guys that are posting over 100 and I want to be there too. But that's going to take me another 95 days and too far in the future to worry about now. So today, today I quit. You guys are rocking my world. Thanks again.
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Thanks HeathDux, Bean and Rawles, Two things helped me last night. The first was when I had a craving, I had someplace to go and sound off about it. Right here. And that reminded me about how hard this is but also how many other brothers in the can had done or were doing it too. Let me know that I CAN do this. I actually looked forward to being able to post in roll call this morning that I was still nic free. If I had caved, then I wouldn't have been able to do it. Sounds a little self centered and boastful. But right now, I still need the tons of encouragement and support I get here. This site is awesome. You guys are awesome. I've won 4 days in a row and I'm looking forward to tomorrow to say I made it 5. I am so jealous of the guys that are posting over 100 and I want to be there too. But that's going to take me another 95 days and too far in the future to worry about now. So today, today I quit. You guys are rocking my world. Thanks again.
Being a ninja is no way to live. The lies, the sneakiness, the hiding...
You will not believe how good freedom is. Here is just one example... Vacation. You didn't take vacations in the past. Remember where you hoarded cans and were then crazy making excuses about why she couldn't touch your suitcase? How about making excuses to spend an hour in the lobby bathroom at the hotel? Ever run out and had to drive around some remote place for your brand and had to pay $15 for a can?
No more hiding. No more lies. No more sneaking around. Dude I could type this shit all day long. You are really gonna like the new you.
If you need another contact, shoot me a pm. I'd be happy to be in your circle of accountability. For 25 years I was a ninja. Now I am free. 820 days ago I didn't think it was possible - and without this site and members like you I don't think it would be possible.
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Kick ass 7 days. One day at a time -this gets better.
It is a god idea to journal your progress. It is nice to look bad and see the bullshit that nicotine put us through, while you are winning! Proud to wuit with you today sir.