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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Rick Jr on January 23, 2019, 06:20:33 PM
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Hi all, My name is Rick, or Junior. I'm from Vermont, 40 Years old, Great Wife, 2 beautiful Daughters, and I'm a Dipper of 20+ Years.
My Parents smoke, ever since I was a kid I hated it, the smell, the act, being around it.. I swore I would never Smoke. We moved from one town to another when I was 14, Out of the "City" and into the Country. All my new friends lived on a farm or at least worked on one. One day when I was 15 my buddy and I were doing field work, plowing getting everything ready for the planting season. We started our day like every other day. It was a Friday, we were off from School, we stopped to the store and bought 2 24 packs of Coke.. And we worked and Drank. Saturday morning I woke up puking up blood, off to the doctors to find out Coke was eating my Stomach, I had to quit drinking it. Two days later my buddy had the same issue with the same result.. We tried Water, Pepsi, Water with Lemon, Coffee, nothing worked.. Then an old timer saw us at the store, asked if we needed our daily Coke... We told him no, but asked what else he had that would keep us awake..
Our first pouch of Redman at 15.. The Buzz was great!! We then switched to Grizzly, then came Senior Year.. in 1997 I somehow quit dipping after 3 years hiding it in School. As I grew up I figured it would be good to get in a Trade. Hello HVAC! I was 20 years old.. Working on a roof with an old "Vet" of the trade, again it was summer and we were sweating up on a roof. He offered me a Pinch, thinking it would be funny to watch the new guy boot all over the roof.. Awww The Buzz was Great!! One can would last a Month, then 3 weeks, 2 weeks, a week then a day.
Met the girl of my dreams fresh after quitting drinking, I was a fifth a night guy, 30 rack if the liquor was gone.. I was dry 6 years when I met her.. Now I can have a drink now and again, have 3..stop.. I can drink anything but Tequila.. I figured "If I can quit Drinking, I can do anything"
Joke was on me. I have tried Gum, Patches, Seeds, Fake Dip you name it, went a year once.. then had a bad day, was buying a coffee, my wallet was in the wrong pocket.. The one with the old trusty Dip Ring.. Put my coffee down and heard myself say "And a Can of Copenhagen Long Cut please."
The questions from my Daughters, the bad breath, the needing a Pinch as soon as I wake up, making that special trip because I only have half a tin and worrying about running out, even if we are getting a foot of snow and it's -20 degrees out.. My Boss got sick this summer, was out for 6 months.. 1 tin a day was turning into 2.. I would put a pinch in for 10 minutes, spit it out and 2 minutes later be packing an new one. Yesterday I decided I have had enough.. Today at 8am I took my last pinch, skipped getting a coffee because I didn't want to buy dip.. I bought 2 on Tuesday and again fished my last tin this Morning at 8am.. Made it to 10:30am before I told my Boss "I'll be right back" Off to the drug store I picked up some Nicotine Gum and some seeds.
I have tried everything, Seeds, Fake Dip, Fake Dip with Nicotine, Gum, Patches, Hard Candy... But I never stuck with it, because I was not doing it for me, It was always my Grandma, My Parents, My Wife, My Daughters.. Spent tons of Money on stuff that didn't work... Well I am trying it again, and I am reaching out to all of you. In the past I would tell everyone I was done. Today I am telling you, God, and myself, I will let the others figure it out, ok I told the Wife too, so she knows why I will be grumpy, going to bed at weird hours etc.
My Name is Rick, or Junior... I was a dipper, but today I am Quit.
I would like to say sorry to everyone here in advance, for my long post and rants. Together we got this, I do feel less of a Man, not being able to just stop.. But I am ready.
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Hi all, My name is Rick, or Junior. I'm from Vermont, 40 Years old, Great Wife, 2 beautiful Daughters, and I'm a Dipper of 20+ Years.
My Parents smoke, ever since I was a kid I hated it, the smell, the act, being around it.. I swore I would never Smoke. We moved from one town to another when I was 14, Out of the "City" and into the Country. All my new friends lived on a farm or at least worked on one. One day when I was 15 my buddy and I were doing field work, plowing getting everything ready for the planting season. We started our day like every other day. It was a Friday, we were off from School, we stopped to the store and bought 2 24 packs of Coke.. And we worked and Drank. Saturday morning I woke up puking up blood, off to the doctors to find out Coke was eating my Stomach, I had to quit drinking it. Two days later my buddy had the same issue with the same result.. We tried Water, Pepsi, Water with Lemon, Coffee, nothing worked.. Then an old timer saw us at the store, asked if we needed our daily Coke... We told him no, but asked what else he had that would keep us awake..
Our first pouch of Redman at 15.. The Buzz was great!! We then switched to Grizzly, then came Senior Year.. in 1997 I somehow quit dipping after 3 years hiding it in School. As I grew up I figured it would be good to get in a Trade. Hello HVAC! I was 20 years old.. Working on a roof with an old "Vet" of the trade, again it was summer and we were sweating up on a roof. He offered me a Pinch, thinking it would be funny to watch the new guy boot all over the roof.. Awww The Buzz was Great!! One can would last a Month, then 3 weeks, 2 weeks, a week then a day.
Met the girl of my dreams fresh after quitting drinking, I was a fifth a night guy, 30 rack if the liquor was gone.. I was dry 6 years when I met her.. Now I can have a drink now and again, have 3..stop.. I can drink anything but Tequila.. I figured "If I can quit Drinking, I can do anything"
Joke was on me. I have tried Gum, Patches, Seeds, Fake Dip you name it, went a year once.. then had a bad day, was buying a coffee, my wallet was in the wrong pocket.. The one with the old trusty Dip Ring.. Put my coffee down and heard myself say "And a Can of Copenhagen Long Cut please."
The questions from my Daughters, the bad breath, the needing a Pinch as soon as I wake up, making that special trip because I only have half a tin and worrying about running out, even if we are getting a foot of snow and it's -20 degrees out.. My Boss got sick this summer, was out for 6 months.. 1 tin a day was turning into 2.. I would put a pinch in for 10 minutes, spit it out and 2 minutes later be packing an new one. Yesterday I decided I have had enough.. Today at 8am I took my last pinch, skipped getting a coffee because I didn't want to buy dip.. I bought 2 on Tuesday and again fished my last tin this Morning at 8am.. Made it to 10:30am before I told my Boss "I'll be right back" Off to the drug store I picked up some Nicotine Gum and some seeds.
I have tried everything, Seeds, Fake Dip, Fake Dip with Nicotine, Gum, Patches, Hard Candy... But I never stuck with it, because I was not doing it for me, It was always my Grandma, My Parents, My Wife, My Daughters.. Spent tons of Money on stuff that didn't work... Well I am trying it again, and I am reaching out to all of you. In the past I would tell everyone I was done. Today I am telling you, God, and myself, I will let the others figure it out, ok I told the Wife too, so she knows why I will be grumpy, going to bed at weird hours etc.
My Name is Rick, or Junior... I was a dipper, but today I am Quit.
I would like to say sorry to everyone here in advance, for my long post and rants. Together we got this, I do feel less of a Man, not being able to just stop.. But I am ready.
Dig your intro, Rick. Are you ready to quit for you? No nicotine replacements (gum, patches, etc.)? We're cold turkey, here, and we mean business. If you mean business, too, we're with you every day brother. Just make the promise here, one day at a time (ODAAT) - we all do, and we keep each other accountable.
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Hi all, My name is Rick, or Junior. I'm from Vermont, 40 Years old, Great Wife, 2 beautiful Daughters, and I'm a Dipper of 20+ Years.
My Parents smoke, ever since I was a kid I hated it, the smell, the act, being around it.. I swore I would never Smoke. We moved from one town to another when I was 14, Out of the "City" and into the Country. All my new friends lived on a farm or at least worked on one. One day when I was 15 my buddy and I were doing field work, plowing getting everything ready for the planting season. We started our day like every other day. It was a Friday, we were off from School, we stopped to the store and bought 2 24 packs of Coke.. And we worked and Drank. Saturday morning I woke up puking up blood, off to the doctors to find out Coke was eating my Stomach, I had to quit drinking it. Two days later my buddy had the same issue with the same result.. We tried Water, Pepsi, Water with Lemon, Coffee, nothing worked.. Then an old timer saw us at the store, asked if we needed our daily Coke... We told him no, but asked what else he had that would keep us awake..
Our first pouch of Redman at 15.. The Buzz was great!! We then switched to Grizzly, then came Senior Year.. in 1997 I somehow quit dipping after 3 years hiding it in School. As I grew up I figured it would be good to get in a Trade. Hello HVAC! I was 20 years old.. Working on a roof with an old "Vet" of the trade, again it was summer and we were sweating up on a roof. He offered me a Pinch, thinking it would be funny to watch the new guy boot all over the roof.. Awww The Buzz was Great!! One can would last a Month, then 3 weeks, 2 weeks, a week then a day.
Met the girl of my dreams fresh after quitting drinking, I was a fifth a night guy, 30 rack if the liquor was gone.. I was dry 6 years when I met her.. Now I can have a drink now and again, have 3..stop.. I can drink anything but Tequila.. I figured "If I can quit Drinking, I can do anything"
Joke was on me. I have tried Gum, Patches, Seeds, Fake Dip you name it, went a year once.. then had a bad day, was buying a coffee, my wallet was in the wrong pocket.. The one with the old trusty Dip Ring.. Put my coffee down and heard myself say "And a Can of Copenhagen Long Cut please."
The questions from my Daughters, the bad breath, the needing a Pinch as soon as I wake up, making that special trip because I only have half a tin and worrying about running out, even if we are getting a foot of snow and it's -20 degrees out.. My Boss got sick this summer, was out for 6 months.. 1 tin a day was turning into 2.. I would put a pinch in for 10 minutes, spit it out and 2 minutes later be packing an new one. Yesterday I decided I have had enough.. Today at 8am I took my last pinch, skipped getting a coffee because I didn't want to buy dip.. I bought 2 on Tuesday and again fished my last tin this Morning at 8am.. Made it to 10:30am before I told my Boss "I'll be right back" Off to the drug store I picked up some Nicotine Gum and some seeds.
I have tried everything, Seeds, Fake Dip, Fake Dip with Nicotine, Gum, Patches, Hard Candy... But I never stuck with it, because I was not doing it for me, It was always my Grandma, My Parents, My Wife, My Daughters.. Spent tons of Money on stuff that didn't work... Well I am trying it again, and I am reaching out to all of you. In the past I would tell everyone I was done. Today I am telling you, God, and myself, I will let the others figure it out, ok I told the Wife too, so she knows why I will be grumpy, going to bed at weird hours etc.
My Name is Rick, or Junior... I was a dipper, but today I am Quit.
I would like to say sorry to everyone here in advance, for my long post and rants. Together we got this, I do feel less of a Man, not being able to just stop.. But I am ready.
Dig your intro, Rick. Are you ready to quit for you? No nicotine replacements (gum, patches, etc.)? We're cold turkey, here, and we mean business. If you mean business, too, we're with you every day brother. Just make the promise here, one day at a time (ODAAT) - we all do, and we keep each other accountable.
You just made one of the best decisions of your life, Junior, welcome to KTC. No apologies for rants or long posts - this intro thread is all yours to post your thoughts, to pose questions, to celebrate milestones.
This is going to be a road filled with potholes and bumps, but it will be a journey that can change your life if you let it. Read everything you can on these boards - Intro's, HOF speeches... the Facts and Figures section of the main site here >> https://www.killthecan.org/facts-figures/ (https://www.killthecan.org/facts-figures/) has really great information. Understand your enemy - this addiction you and I and all of us here share - and it will be a lot easier to slay.
You can do this.
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I'd think you less of a man if you didn't quit, if you remained a blind slave. Takes a real man to be an active participant in his life, to alter the course, to not drift aimlessly like a log in the current but the captain of your own boat, upstream, against the wind and the current. Hooah. I say you have large bronze testicles that clang when you walk.
Educate yourself against what you're up against; it's addiction. No easy way around that. To deny it is to fail.
Quitting with you today!
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Hi all, My name is Rick, or Junior. I'm from Vermont, 40 Years old, Great Wife, 2 beautiful Daughters, and I'm a Dipper of 20+ Years.
My Parents smoke, ever since I was a kid I hated it, the smell, the act, being around it.. I swore I would never Smoke. We moved from one town to another when I was 14, Out of the "City" and into the Country. All my new friends lived on a farm or at least worked on one. One day when I was 15 my buddy and I were doing field work, plowing getting everything ready for the planting season. We started our day like every other day. It was a Friday, we were off from School, we stopped to the store and bought 2 24 packs of Coke.. And we worked and Drank. Saturday morning I woke up puking up blood, off to the doctors to find out Coke was eating my Stomach, I had to quit drinking it. Two days later my buddy had the same issue with the same result.. We tried Water, Pepsi, Water with Lemon, Coffee, nothing worked.. Then an old timer saw us at the store, asked if we needed our daily Coke... We told him no, but asked what else he had that would keep us awake..
Our first pouch of Redman at 15.. The Buzz was great!! We then switched to Grizzly, then came Senior Year.. in 1997 I somehow quit dipping after 3 years hiding it in School. As I grew up I figured it would be good to get in a Trade. Hello HVAC! I was 20 years old.. Working on a roof with an old "Vet" of the trade, again it was summer and we were sweating up on a roof. He offered me a Pinch, thinking it would be funny to watch the new guy boot all over the roof.. Awww The Buzz was Great!! One can would last a Month, then 3 weeks, 2 weeks, a week then a day.
Met the girl of my dreams fresh after quitting drinking, I was a fifth a night guy, 30 rack if the liquor was gone.. I was dry 6 years when I met her.. Now I can have a drink now and again, have 3..stop.. I can drink anything but Tequila.. I figured "If I can quit Drinking, I can do anything"
Joke was on me. I have tried Gum, Patches, Seeds, Fake Dip you name it, went a year once.. then had a bad day, was buying a coffee, my wallet was in the wrong pocket.. The one with the old trusty Dip Ring.. Put my coffee down and heard myself say "And a Can of Copenhagen Long Cut please."
The questions from my Daughters, the bad breath, the needing a Pinch as soon as I wake up, making that special trip because I only have half a tin and worrying about running out, even if we are getting a foot of snow and it's -20 degrees out.. My Boss got sick this summer, was out for 6 months.. 1 tin a day was turning into 2.. I would put a pinch in for 10 minutes, spit it out and 2 minutes later be packing an new one. Yesterday I decided I have had enough.. Today at 8am I took my last pinch, skipped getting a coffee because I didn't want to buy dip.. I bought 2 on Tuesday and again fished my last tin this Morning at 8am.. Made it to 10:30am before I told my Boss "I'll be right back" Off to the drug store I picked up some Nicotine Gum and some seeds.
I have tried everything, Seeds, Fake Dip, Fake Dip with Nicotine, Gum, Patches, Hard Candy... But I never stuck with it, because I was not doing it for me, It was always my Grandma, My Parents, My Wife, My Daughters.. Spent tons of Money on stuff that didn't work... Well I am trying it again, and I am reaching out to all of you. In the past I would tell everyone I was done. Today I am telling you, God, and myself, I will let the others figure it out, ok I told the Wife too, so she knows why I will be grumpy, going to bed at weird hours etc.
My Name is Rick, or Junior... I was a dipper, but today I am Quit.
I would like to say sorry to everyone here in advance, for my long post and rants. Together we got this, I do feel less of a Man, not being able to just stop.. But I am ready.
Dig your intro, Rick. Are you ready to quit for you? No nicotine replacements (gum, patches, etc.)? We're cold turkey, here, and we mean business. If you mean business, too, we're with you every day brother. Just make the promise here, one day at a time (ODAAT) - we all do, and we keep each other accountable.
I have done a lot of poking around tonight since I have joined. My mind is every where. The gum I bought today is on it's way back to the Store with with Wife and Girls.. You are right, I need to stop the drug I am addicted too, not just change the form I am taking it. I am ready to do it for Me this time, and Today I Quit with you Brother
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You just made one of the best decisions of your life, Junior, welcome to KTC. No apologies for rants or long posts - this intro thread is all yours to post your thoughts, to pose questions, to celebrate milestones.
This is going to be a road filled with potholes and bumps, but it will be a journey that can change your life if you let it. Read everything you can on these boards - Intro's, HOF speeches... the Facts and Figures section of the main site here >> https://www.killthecan.org/facts-figures/ (https://www.killthecan.org/facts-figures/) has really great information. Understand your enemy - this addiction you and I and all of us here share - and it will be a lot easier to slay.
You can do this.
Thank you Brother, I am ready for me. Today I Quit with you!
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I'd think you less of a man if you didn't quit, if you remained a blind slave. Takes a real man to be an active participant in his life, to alter the course, to not drift aimlessly like a log in the current but the captain of your own boat, upstream, against the wind and the current. Hooah. I say you have large bronze testicles that clang when you walk.
Educate yourself against what you're up against; it's addiction. No easy way around that. To deny it is to fail.
Quitting with you today!
Thank you Brother as I needed that. It will be a long road as we all know, but together we can do anything. Today I Quit with you.
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Hi all, My name is Rick, or Junior. I'm from Vermont, 40 Years old, Great Wife, 2 beautiful Daughters, and I'm a Dipper of 20+ Years.
My Parents smoke, ever since I was a kid I hated it, the smell, the act, being around it.. I swore I would never Smoke. We moved from one town to another when I was 14, Out of the "City" and into the Country. All my new friends lived on a farm or at least worked on one. One day when I was 15 my buddy and I were doing field work, plowing getting everything ready for the planting season. We started our day like every other day. It was a Friday, we were off from School, we stopped to the store and bought 2 24 packs of Coke.. And we worked and Drank. Saturday morning I woke up puking up blood, off to the doctors to find out Coke was eating my Stomach, I had to quit drinking it. Two days later my buddy had the same issue with the same result.. We tried Water, Pepsi, Water with Lemon, Coffee, nothing worked.. Then an old timer saw us at the store, asked if we needed our daily Coke... We told him no, but asked what else he had that would keep us awake..
Our first pouch of Redman at 15.. The Buzz was great!! We then switched to Grizzly, then came Senior Year.. in 1997 I somehow quit dipping after 3 years hiding it in School. As I grew up I figured it would be good to get in a Trade. Hello HVAC! I was 20 years old.. Working on a roof with an old "Vet" of the trade, again it was summer and we were sweating up on a roof. He offered me a Pinch, thinking it would be funny to watch the new guy boot all over the roof.. Awww The Buzz was Great!! One can would last a Month, then 3 weeks, 2 weeks, a week then a day.
Met the girl of my dreams fresh after quitting drinking, I was a fifth a night guy, 30 rack if the liquor was gone.. I was dry 6 years when I met her.. Now I can have a drink now and again, have 3..stop.. I can drink anything but Tequila.. I figured "If I can quit Drinking, I can do anything"
Joke was on me. I have tried Gum, Patches, Seeds, Fake Dip you name it, went a year once.. then had a bad day, was buying a coffee, my wallet was in the wrong pocket.. The one with the old trusty Dip Ring.. Put my coffee down and heard myself say "And a Can of Copenhagen Long Cut please."
The questions from my Daughters, the bad breath, the needing a Pinch as soon as I wake up, making that special trip because I only have half a tin and worrying about running out, even if we are getting a foot of snow and it's -20 degrees out.. My Boss got sick this summer, was out for 6 months.. 1 tin a day was turning into 2.. I would put a pinch in for 10 minutes, spit it out and 2 minutes later be packing an new one. Yesterday I decided I have had enough.. Today at 8am I took my last pinch, skipped getting a coffee because I didn't want to buy dip.. I bought 2 on Tuesday and again fished my last tin this Morning at 8am.. Made it to 10:30am before I told my Boss "I'll be right back" Off to the drug store I picked up some Nicotine Gum and some seeds.
I have tried everything, Seeds, Fake Dip, Fake Dip with Nicotine, Gum, Patches, Hard Candy... But I never stuck with it, because I was not doing it for me, It was always my Grandma, My Parents, My Wife, My Daughters.. Spent tons of Money on stuff that didn't work... Well I am trying it again, and I am reaching out to all of you. In the past I would tell everyone I was done. Today I am telling you, God, and myself, I will let the others figure it out, ok I told the Wife too, so she knows why I will be grumpy, going to bed at weird hours etc.
My Name is Rick, or Junior... I was a dipper, but today I am Quit.
I would like to say sorry to everyone here in advance, for my long post and rants. Together we got this, I do feel less of a Man, not being able to just stop.. But I am ready.
Rick, you’ve got this. I’m just under 20 days into my quit, but it has been a profound difference in my quality of life. I still have a ways to go, but the quit brothers you will meet and make here at this site will be what gets you through it. Trust in others to hold you accountable. Damn glad to see you here and proud to quit with you. You made the most important step of your quit...doing it. Now just wake up, piss, post and repeat. If you need digits, send me a PM. I’m glad to help you through a rough spot or motivate you if you need it. Got about 10 sets of digits I lean on from time to time myself to keep the cave craves at bay.
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Hi all, My name is Rick, or Junior. I'm from Vermont, 40 Years old, Great Wife, 2 beautiful Daughters, and I'm a Dipper of 20+ Years.
My Parents smoke, ever since I was a kid I hated it, the smell, the act, being around it.. I swore I would never Smoke. We moved from one town to another when I was 14, Out of the "City" and into the Country. All my new friends lived on a farm or at least worked on one. One day when I was 15 my buddy and I were doing field work, plowing getting everything ready for the planting season. We started our day like every other day. It was a Friday, we were off from School, we stopped to the store and bought 2 24 packs of Coke.. And we worked and Drank. Saturday morning I woke up puking up blood, off to the doctors to find out Coke was eating my Stomach, I had to quit drinking it. Two days later my buddy had the same issue with the same result.. We tried Water, Pepsi, Water with Lemon, Coffee, nothing worked.. Then an old timer saw us at the store, asked if we needed our daily Coke... We told him no, but asked what else he had that would keep us awake..
Our first pouch of Redman at 15.. The Buzz was great!! We then switched to Grizzly, then came Senior Year.. in 1997 I somehow quit dipping after 3 years hiding it in School. As I grew up I figured it would be good to get in a Trade. Hello HVAC! I was 20 years old.. Working on a roof with an old "Vet" of the trade, again it was summer and we were sweating up on a roof. He offered me a Pinch, thinking it would be funny to watch the new guy boot all over the roof.. Awww The Buzz was Great!! One can would last a Month, then 3 weeks, 2 weeks, a week then a day.
Met the girl of my dreams fresh after quitting drinking, I was a fifth a night guy, 30 rack if the liquor was gone.. I was dry 6 years when I met her.. Now I can have a drink now and again, have 3..stop.. I can drink anything but Tequila.. I figured "If I can quit Drinking, I can do anything"
Joke was on me. I have tried Gum, Patches, Seeds, Fake Dip you name it, went a year once.. then had a bad day, was buying a coffee, my wallet was in the wrong pocket.. The one with the old trusty Dip Ring.. Put my coffee down and heard myself say "And a Can of Copenhagen Long Cut please."
The questions from my Daughters, the bad breath, the needing a Pinch as soon as I wake up, making that special trip because I only have half a tin and worrying about running out, even if we are getting a foot of snow and it's -20 degrees out.. My Boss got sick this summer, was out for 6 months.. 1 tin a day was turning into 2.. I would put a pinch in for 10 minutes, spit it out and 2 minutes later be packing an new one. Yesterday I decided I have had enough.. Today at 8am I took my last pinch, skipped getting a coffee because I didn't want to buy dip.. I bought 2 on Tuesday and again fished my last tin this Morning at 8am.. Made it to 10:30am before I told my Boss "I'll be right back" Off to the drug store I picked up some Nicotine Gum and some seeds.
I have tried everything, Seeds, Fake Dip, Fake Dip with Nicotine, Gum, Patches, Hard Candy... But I never stuck with it, because I was not doing it for me, It was always my Grandma, My Parents, My Wife, My Daughters.. Spent tons of Money on stuff that didn't work... Well I am trying it again, and I am reaching out to all of you. In the past I would tell everyone I was done. Today I am telling you, God, and myself, I will let the others figure it out, ok I told the Wife too, so she knows why I will be grumpy, going to bed at weird hours etc.
My Name is Rick, or Junior... I was a dipper, but today I am Quit.
I would like to say sorry to everyone here in advance, for my long post and rants. Together we got this, I do feel less of a Man, not being able to just stop.. But I am ready.
Best decision you have ever made, for sure! Love the intro, you got it man. Here we give our promise everyday to our brothers that we will remain free of nicotine just for that day. Break your day down from hours>minutes>seconds if you need to but if you sign roll you have made that decision to stay quit for that day. Make it to the next day and rinse and repeat.
This site is so badass, so many cool areas. The most important is your posting roll everyday in May. Don't miss it, it is sacred to me and I am always up there posting as soon as the board rolls over at 12am est. I also like the Intros. Keep a journal so you can remember what a dumbass you were for using for all those years. Get educated on addiction too. You will catch yourself sometimes thinking like an addict but knowing how you use to think is an advantage to staying quit. Own your quit, live it and remind yourself everyday that you are stronger than a dead groundup plant. You make the decision everyday to quit, remember that. No one else but we will qlf with you edd!!! Most important of all is get to know some of us. Trade your digits with your group members and vets alike. There is some real wisdom here on this site and I am so grateful that I found ktc. It has changed me in a really good way in the past month.
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Day 2
First I want to say thank you, to everyone that took the time to welcome me, share stories, digits, and the support.
Here I am on day 2. Over 24 hours free from the tin. I slept like shit last night, not only because of the lack of dip, but because my daughter was coughing all night.
I like many have tried to quit many times, I know what I will be dealing with, but waking up this morning, instead of reaching for my tin, I grabbed my phone, Signed into Roll, and had a glass of ice water. My gut hurt, my head felt like a brick was sitting on it and I was tired as hell. I am lucky for the support of my Wife, and with us being in a good place, I called out to work as I knew she was busy to stay home with our daughter.
I have issues at work, and I know they trigger the Dip Monster, being home with my Sick Daughter today has made things easy. Every where I read it talks of triggers, I know work is one of them. I use to think working in the garage, or garden, or out on the lawn was a trigger, but then I think back to Summer and remember my Wife telling me how proud she was of me, because I wouldn't have a dip all weekend while working in our yard.
My Wife and I have been talking about me being a stay at home dad, I have an issue with it because of the way I was raised. Being 2019 I am well over the fact my wife makes more than me, but me not working is something I can't imagine.
I want to thank the Brothers that checked in with me with support this morning via text, it means a lot and today was one of those easy days. Even my 4 year old looked at me today and said something that both melted my heart and made me scared as hell she said "Daddy, You don't the dip anymore?" I said No honey, Daddy is doing the Quit today, she said "I'm happy for you Daddy, I love you"
Stress is one thing that is a huge contributor to our addiction, Good paying Jobs are hard to find in VT and I have one now, but maybe it is time to think of something new. I know for a fact that if I passed today, My Job would have my position online before my Wife had my Obituary. I may be looking at another stay home day tomorrow, so maybe I will see Monday how it goes.
Anyway, Thank you all again for the amazing Welcome and Support. I was able to go to the store today, grab a pack of seeds and 4 pouches of Big League Chew (Bubble Gum) I would suggest everyone to buy stock in those companies as I will be buying a lot. Nic Bitch is being easy on me today, but I know she is just hiding and waiting, but today I am enjoying the Quit feeling and not having a disgusting bottle or Mudjug that I need to worry about filling, spilling or emptying.. Well the Mudjug is full of shells from the seeds.
I am not sure how long I want to do the seeds, On the KTC page I see a lot of the fake dips, which I have a hard time finding around VT, have any of you used them? What do you suggest?
Until tomorrow, Stay Strong Brothers & Sisters. We are in this together, and even being new here, I want to say, If you need me message me, because we are better then the Nic Bitch and we have this!
Rick Jr
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Day 2
First I want to say thank you, to everyone that took the time to welcome me, share stories, digits, and the support.
Here I am on day 2. Over 24 hours free from the tin. I slept like shit last night, not only because of the lack of dip, but because my daughter was coughing all night.
I like many have tried to quit many times, I know what I will be dealing with, but waking up this morning, instead of reaching for my tin, I grabbed my phone, Signed into Roll, and had a glass of ice water. My gut hurt, my head felt like a brick was sitting on it and I was tired as hell. I am lucky for the support of my Wife, and with us being in a good place, I called out to work as I knew she was busy to stay home with our daughter.
I have issues at work, and I know they trigger the Dip Monster, being home with my Sick Daughter today has made things easy. Every where I read it talks of triggers, I know work is one of them. I use to think working in the garage, or garden, or out on the lawn was a trigger, but then I think back to Summer and remember my Wife telling me how proud she was of me, because I wouldn't have a dip all weekend while working in our yard.
My Wife and I have been talking about me being a stay at home dad, I have an issue with it because of the way I was raised. Being 2019 I am well over the fact my wife makes more than me, but me not working is something I can't imagine.
I want to thank the Brothers that checked in with me with support this morning via text, it means a lot and today was one of those easy days. Even my 4 year old looked at me today and said something that both melted my heart and made me scared as hell she said "Daddy, You don't the dip anymore?" I said No honey, Daddy is doing the Quit today, she said "I'm happy for you Daddy, I love you"
Stress is one thing that is a huge contributor to our addiction, Good paying Jobs are hard to find in VT and I have one now, but maybe it is time to think of something new. I know for a fact that if I passed today, My Job would have my position online before my Wife had my Obituary. I may be looking at another stay home day tomorrow, so maybe I will see Monday how it goes.
Anyway, Thank you all again for the amazing Welcome and Support. I was able to go to the store today, grab a pack of seeds and 4 pouches of Big League Chew (Bubble Gum) I would suggest everyone to buy stock in those companies as I will be buying a lot. Nic Bitch is being easy on me today, but I know she is just hiding and waiting, but today I am enjoying the Quit feeling and not having a disgusting bottle or Mudjug that I need to worry about filling, spilling or emptying.. Well the Mudjug is full of shells from the seeds.
I am not sure how long I want to do the seeds, On the KTC page I see a lot of the fake dips, which I have a hard time finding around VT, have any of you used them? What do you suggest?
Until tomorrow, Stay Strong Brothers & Sisters. We are in this together, and even being new here, I want to say, If you need me message me, because we are better then the Nic Bitch and we have this!
Rick Jr
Hey Rick,
I'm glad today is an easy day. As you know, they will not all be that way. Some of them are going to down right suck. I love the comment your daughter made to you. That, right there, is the big win today. It is good she knows what dip is so that you can teach her to stay the fuck away from it and any other nicotine products.
Man, I wish I could be a stay at home dad. Maybe you could look into some part time positions that might be scheduled around your wife's work so no daycare would be needed.
Anyway, you'r doing great. Keep up the documentation in here. You will refer back to this page often during your quit journey.
Prepare yourself for the weekend. Keep your resources close.
Proud to quit with you,
Chris
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Day 3 (I missed posting on the 25th)
The suck is real. I have many Brothers send me text, I honestly love getting them. If I don't respond or if it takes awhile I am sorry, been trying to stay busy. I do appreciate them and all of you taking the time to send them.
So I was home sick with the little one again yesterday. Day 2 was much of the same, but on Day 3 my Head was screaming, my body ached, my chest was tight. I did have a cup of coffee, something I was a little worried about as that use to be my prime time to have a dip.. But I made it through. A few times I had to walk outside and take a few short walks just to clear my head as I didn't want to take my anger out on my Sweet 4 year old.. It's not her fault her Dad is a Monster, she was not even thought of when I started dipping 20+ Years ago..
I was super worried last night at around 8:45 as my Buddy and I broadcast Nascar Races from a Sim called iRacing. We do them to Youtube and hell, for that 2 to 3 hours I would normally go through a half tin, Put one in for 5 minutes, Spit it out, reload 2 or 3 minutes later, not small one, I'm talking hognuts. Last night was tough but with some bubble gum and hard candy I made it through.
I'm sure a lot of you may have seen the Movie or read the book titled Lone Survivor. Marcus talks about his escape down the mountain, Much like here, he talked about wanting to Quit, but on life. He was wounded, Lost all his brothers, he said he made a line in the dirt and crawled to it, once he passed it, he drew another, and another.
That's what we need to do Brothers & Sisters. Draw that line, Move to it, and draw another. Break that day down by Day, Hours, Minutes, hell Seconds if that is what you need to do. Don't feel ashamed, Nicotine is truly a Bitch! I don't get how it is legal.. All over the radio we hear how it is bad, how they want people to quit, they don't get how hard it is.. Honestly it should be banned.
I posted I was on Day 5 earlier in my Roll.. My mind is not where it use to be, but I know it will get better.
Gaming is a huge trigger for me. Most of the Day I was able to game as my daughter slept off her cold. My head hurt, mouth was dry, one thing I have noticed so far is my Breath don't smell like shit in the morning, and my gums are feeling good.
I will post again tonight as it's the weekend and it's bound to be tough, I just wanted to catch up from Yesterday.
Thank you to all the members that have messaged me with digits and support. It means a lot. I know have a May brother and together we are going to get it done!
Remember everyone, The Only Easy Day was Yesterday. #TeamNeverQuit (The Quit)
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Day 4 & 5!
So the Wife and I were surprised with a Saturday Night all alone as my Mom took the Girls for the night. We haven't had a night to ourselves for a loooong time. Daughters are 8 & 4. So I didn't get my post in like I wanted.
Yesterday was an ok day, last night was Awesome! Nice dinner, a little gaming then we settled down with some Wine and Watched a few shows together that lasted til 2am! It was nice talking with and hanging out with the Wife without my Girls even though we missed them like crazy! One thing I didn't miss was packing a dip! For a few hours I felt free and it felt great!
Up and at them early at 5am, did some cleaning, had coffee and breakfast in bed, and I figured now was a good time to post. I am a little worried about tomorrow heading into work for the first time since I started my Quit. Work is slow this time of the year as I work in an HVAC Supply House and we are geared more toward A/C & Refrigeration and not a lot of heating. It will be a good test and I have the digits to some great Supporters and I don't want to let anyone down. I'm not going to think anymore about tomorrow, as I want to enjoy today, and that free feeling I have!
Proud to quit with you all today! ODAAT EDD!
Before I go, My May Brother in the Quit AW, Thank you for your Service Brother, thank you for fighting for our Freedom! Same goes to any other member out there that has served this Great Country, Be it Military or Public Service. You have my Respect, Love and Honor! See you all later!
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Day 4 & 5!
So the Wife and I were surprised with a Saturday Night all alone as my Mom took the Girls for the night. We haven't had a night to ourselves for a loooong time. Daughters are 8 & 4. So I didn't get my post in like I wanted.
Yesterday was an ok day, last night was Awesome! Nice dinner, a little gaming then we settled down with some Wine and Watched a few shows together that lasted til 2am! It was nice talking with and hanging out with the Wife without my Girls even though we missed them like crazy! One thing I didn't miss was packing a dip! For a few hours I felt free and it felt great!
Up and at them early at 5am, did some cleaning, had coffee and breakfast in bed, and I figured now was a good time to post. I am a little worried about tomorrow heading into work for the first time since I started my Quit. Work is slow this time of the year as I work in an HVAC Supply House and we are geared more toward A/C & Refrigeration and not a lot of heating. It will be a good test and I have the digits to some great Supporters and I don't want to let anyone down. I'm not going to think anymore about tomorrow, as I want to enjoy today, and that free feeling I have!
Proud to quit with you all today! ODAAT EDD!
Before I go, My May Brother in the Quit AW, Thank you for your Service Brother, thank you for fighting for our Freedom! Same goes to any other member out there that has served this Great Country, Be it Military or Public Service. You have my Respect, Love and Honor! See you all later!
This site really is amazing, it will save your life if you follow the Brotherhood + Accountability = Success principles, but honestly, more importantly, it will make life worth living again.
See, right now you are fighting and all of your energy is part of winning that minute by minute, second by second fight that your mind is trying to get you to give in to... but Rick, it gets easier with time. You know that, as you've stopped before. Stopping can be done by anyone, but quitting... quitting takes a real winner. It takes a commitment to yourself and others that you will win together. That you won't let your team down. It takes a mindset, like a football team, that even when you are beaten up and it is 110 degrees outside, you will not stop playing your damnedest to win for your brothers. It takes fear, and humility - fear of having to call a brother that you've fought side by side with and admit that y "hey fuck you man... I decided to cave", and humility to know that, as tough as you are, dude you need help with this. And the help is here in spades for the taking.
There cannot be just one. There can't be a celebration puff on a cigar. There can't be a hit of a vape pipe. You are an addict. And some of the brightest, hardest working, most dedicated and honest people I've ever met are addicts - right here on KTC. So, you are joining a very esteemed group of guys (and some girls too) who, like you, spit thousands (probably tens of thousands) of dollars away in some empty bottle. We can't change that past, but we can own where we are going from here. And I promise you that the pride and freedom that you will feel after this funk disappears will be one of the brightest periods in your life.
It is an honor to quit with you today, Rick.
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Day 4 & 5!
So the Wife and I were surprised with a Saturday Night all alone as my Mom took the Girls for the night. We haven't had a night to ourselves for a loooong time. Daughters are 8 & 4. So I didn't get my post in like I wanted.
Yesterday was an ok day, last night was Awesome! Nice dinner, a little gaming then we settled down with some Wine and Watched a few shows together that lasted til 2am! It was nice talking with and hanging out with the Wife without my Girls even though we missed them like crazy! One thing I didn't miss was packing a dip! For a few hours I felt free and it felt great!
Up and at them early at 5am, did some cleaning, had coffee and breakfast in bed, and I figured now was a good time to post. I am a little worried about tomorrow heading into work for the first time since I started my Quit. Work is slow this time of the year as I work in an HVAC Supply House and we are geared more toward A/C & Refrigeration and not a lot of heating. It will be a good test and I have the digits to some great Supporters and I don't want to let anyone down. I'm not going to think anymore about tomorrow, as I want to enjoy today, and that free feeling I have!
Proud to quit with you all today! ODAAT EDD!
Before I go, My May Brother in the Quit AW, Thank you for your Service Brother, thank you for fighting for our Freedom! Same goes to any other member out there that has served this Great Country, Be it Military or Public Service. You have my Respect, Love and Honor! See you all later!
This site really is amazing, it will save your life if you follow the Brotherhood + Accountability = Success principles, but honestly, more importantly, it will make life worth living again.
See, right now you are fighting and all of your energy is part of winning that minute by minute, second by second fight that your mind is trying to get you to give in to... but Rick, it gets easier with time. You know that, as you've stopped before. Stopping can be done by anyone, but quitting... quitting takes a real winner. It takes a commitment to yourself and others that you will win together. That you won't let your team down. It takes a mindset, like a football team, that even when you are beaten up and it is 110 degrees outside, you will not stop playing your damnedest to win for your brothers. It takes fear, and humility - fear of having to call a brother that you've fought side by side with and admit that y "hey fuck you man... I decided to cave", and humility to know that, as tough as you are, dude you need help with this. And the help is here in spades for the taking.
There cannot be just one. There can't be a celebration puff on a cigar. There can't be a hit of a vape pipe. You are an addict. And some of the brightest, hardest working, most dedicated and honest people I've ever met are addicts - right here on KTC. So, you are joining a very esteemed group of guys (and some girls too) who, like you, spit thousands (probably tens of thousands) of dollars away in some empty bottle. We can't change that past, but we can own where we are going from here. And I promise you that the pride and freedom that you will feel after this funk disappears will be one of the brightest periods in your life.
It is an honor to quit with you today, Rick.
Thank you Worktowin, The daily battle is almost done, it was tough and I feel really funny today, Head is light, Face feels funny, chest is tight, Wife thinks I am having a Stroke haha.
Day 6
First Full Day back to Work, The drive in was a little weird. Jumped in my truck and noticed I still had a spit bottle in the cup holder. I drove to the same store where I have so many times walked into early in the morning and buy a Chocolate Milk and 2 Cans of Cope Long cut or Grizzly Dark wintergreen... Today was different, I grabbed that bottle and a couple of empty cans from the console and tossed them in the trash, I walked to the wall and grabbed a couple of A&W Rootbeers and 2 bags of seeds. I walked out spending $5 and change.. Damn that's different.
On the way into work, Thomas Rhett comes on the Country station singing about being 16 in his F150, the Buzzing on a can of Grizzly Wintergreen.. I kind of laugh and turn the channel.
Felt kind of weird driving in, almost like I was outside of my head. Work started ok, had some coffee, and then water. About 8 I start really feeling weird, My head was light, My face felt funny. I have some seeds, and some water and took a short walk to the mailbox, fought these feelings all day.
On the ride home I was in between of being outside of my head and me telling the Nic Bitch to try harder because I am winning this. The best part of today was me Texting my May Brother AWright and making sure he was good, and to let him know I am feeling like shit, and of course all the other guys that are sending text, I mean this Bro's you guys are the best and those text came just at the right time. I thank God for leading me to this site.
Well fellow Quitters, The day is almost done here, few more hours and I will be in bed. We have almost won today's battle.... I'm Proud to Quit with you all today! ODAAT, EDD
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Day 7!
Well it has been a week, and I have learned some stuff!!
First off today fucking sucked, it started well, but by mid day I was a total dick to myself. Head hurts, and the cravings are bad, I need to get some fake dip I think, something I can put in and may trick the Nic Bitch.. This morning I stopped to get gas at a store that is just gas pumps and a little "Hut" so no way can I cave.
Mid Day I wanted nothing more to say Fuck it and go to the Store. Long story but Work has turned into hell for me, Boss is pissed off for no other reason because I was asked to take over for 6.5 months when he became ill, I'm the only person in our small 4 person office that gives a shit about our customers and the company.. Well today I got a lead on a new job, and I am fully looking into it.
On my way home I wanted to hit a store, but no way in hell. I got my youngest from Daycare, came home and got my oldest off the bus, they are setting up a game for us to play now, and I can relax, clear my head and finish today's battle!
Never Quit the Quit Brothers! Remember we lived life before Dip and we will live it Without it. Nicotine should not be legal!
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Day 7!
Well it has been a week, and I have learned some stuff!!
First off today fucking sucked, it started well, but by mid day I was a total dick to myself. Head hurts, and the cravings are bad, I need to get some fake dip I think, something I can put in and may trick the Nic Bitch.. This morning I stopped to get gas at a store that is just gas pumps and a little "Hut" so no way can I cave.
Mid Day I wanted nothing more to say Fuck it and go to the Store. Long story but Work has turned into hell for me, Boss is pissed off for no other reason because I was asked to take over for 6.5 months when he became ill, I'm the only person in our small 4 person office that gives a shit about our customers and the company.. Well today I got a lead on a new job, and I am fully looking into it.
On my way home I wanted to hit a store, but no way in hell. I got my youngest from Daycare, came home and got my oldest off the bus, they are setting up a game for us to play now, and I can relax, clear my head and finish today's battle!
Never Quit the Quit Brothers! Remember we lived life before Dip and we will live it Without it. Nicotine should not be legal!
Way to stay strong Rick. Enjoy that game with your kids, sounds like the best way to wrap up a day to me.
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Thank you Chris, holy shit I feel like less of a man today, how can this be so hard? Good News is I have some Cowboy Coffee Chew on order. I figured I would give it a shot as I have been having very little coffee since my Quit. Hope it helps a little.
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Thank you Chris, holy shit I feel like less of a man today, how can this be so hard? Good News is I have some Cowboy Coffee Chew on order. I figured I would give it a shot as I have been having very little coffee since my Quit. Hope it helps a little.
A lot of guys like the grinds. I personally never tried them. Hope they help for you.
For your listening pleasure Thunderstruck - Hillbilly Style (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e4Ao-iNPPUc)
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I enjoyed reading your story Rick. Work is a trigger for me as well. Let me know if you need any help.
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I enjoyed reading your story Rick. Work is a trigger for me as well. Let me know if you need any help.
Thank you Kerby I am here for you as Well!
Chris, Thank you my friend, you have been a huge ass help in all of this Brother, it means a lot!
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Day 8 1/30/19 I skipped posting yesterday. I honestly had an outstanding day! Day 7 Sucked so I was surprised, and since I had such a great day as a reward I slacked on posting here. I had no issues what so ever, felt like my old self! It was a blessing.
Day 9 Baby!!! 1/31/19
Today started a little iffy, I had the old fog brain this morning driving into work, but I am starting to embrace it and even enjoy it a little. I have been really paying attention to these shitty feelings, I'm making sure I remember the suck, and I never want to go through it again. I almost had a slip up today, one of my customers came in and asked if I was still quitting, I told his yes, and it has been ok, the headache was dull so he asked me if I wanted some gum.. I was taking a break from seeds because they are cutting up my mouth worse then dip and I have a little sore on my tongue. He shook out a coupe pieces from one of those cupholder type containers, I almost tossed it in my mouth and asked if it was Nicotine Gum.... It was so I gave it back. Glad I missed that bullet, he was trying to be nice, I told him about our site here, and it got him to also try to quit, I explained how he needs to do it cold turkey, and gave him the KTC address. We will see what he does for it. I still support his journey, even if it is another path.
All in all I am home, having some tea, and reading to my girls. Embrace the day Brothers & Sisters. I am so happy to see all the new Members! If any of you read this, if you need digits hit me up please!
Proud to be quit with you all today!
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Day 8 1/30/19 I skipped posting yesterday. I honestly had an outstanding day! Day 7 Sucked so I was surprised, and since I had such a great day as a reward I slacked on posting here. I had no issues what so ever, felt like my old self! It was a blessing.
Day 9 Baby!!! 1/31/19
Today started a little iffy, I had the old fog brain this morning driving into work, but I am starting to embrace it and even enjoy it a little. I have been really paying attention to these shitty feelings, I'm making sure I remember the suck, and I never want to go through it again. I almost had a slip up today, one of my customers came in and asked if I was still quitting, I told his yes, and it has been ok, the headache was dull so he asked me if I wanted some gum.. I was taking a break from seeds because they are cutting up my mouth worse then dip and I have a little sore on my tongue. He shook out a coupe pieces from one of those cupholder type containers, I almost tossed it in my mouth and asked if it was Nicotine Gum.... It was so I gave it back. Glad I missed that bullet, he was trying to be nice, I told him about our site here, and it got him to also try to quit, I explained how he needs to do it cold turkey, and gave him the KTC address. We will see what he does for it. I still support his journey, even if it is another path.
All in all I am home, having some tea, and reading to my girls. Embrace the day Brothers & Sisters. I am so happy to see all the new Members! If any of you read this, if you need digits hit me up please!
Proud to be quit with you all today!
Rick, very proud you turned down the gym and proud to quit with you today. Any time I get the urge, I chew the seeds, and yes my mouth got tore up as well with them, but beats cancer. If coming from the April BAQ’s team and support May. You got this an I’ve PMd you my digits. If you ever need some motivation, return your digits and I help keep you honest. ODAAT.
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So it's been a bit since I posted. Here I am on Day 31..
A bit of reason I have not posted is due to the fact I didn't want to dwell on it all. I managed the Suck like I do most problems in my life, By myself. I did have outstanding Support from the Vet's and it means a lot that they care. They don't know me, don't owe me anything, but they take that minute out of their day to show support, that was cool. I have passed a lot of digits around with my May Group, a couple have used them, AW and I are pretty tight and that's cool.
May 19 Our group is a bit crazy, but it keeps it fun, But if any of you read this and need someone, toss me a pm and my digits are yours, same goes for any groups that come along.
So yeah Day 31, damn a Month! I would be excited, but I have done a 1.5 year Self quit before, I know it's not done, hell it will never be "Done" I have had times were I wanted to say "Screw it, no one will know" and thought about tossing in the towel, but then I remembered, I have other folks dealing with the same shit I am, they are doing it, and I can too.. I didn't want to let the guys down, and I didn't. I'm not a Quitter in life, was raised to work hard, and work through issues on my own. I don't like to think I am quitting Dip, I'm just learning how great life was before dip.
I haven't posted because I didn't want to dwell, I wanted to embrace the Suck, Learn from it, Shit I was ready to quit my Job, because of dip as it is a huge trigger for me, I dipped because I was bored at work, I learned to find things to do in the slow times, I drew my line in the "Sand" got to 3pm and then it was off to get my girls from school, before I knew it, it was time to WUPP. Drive to work, make it to 10, make it to 1, make it to 3 rinse and repeat.
But here I am at 31, Each Day is getting better. I did what I always do, Dropped $50 on Cowboy Coffee Chew, got sick of it by the 4th can, Ordered some Smokey Mountain, works a bit better and ordered more, but I am getting to the point I don't even want to use that..
Stay strong folks, it does get better, I have learned to take a walk, drink shit tons of water, to get past the shitty moments and you will to. If you need support, Reach out I got your back
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Man I had forgotten all about the "throw one in, pull it out after 10 mins because it was disgusting, only to throw another in after 5 minutes again thing" Almost like my body was on autopilot. I like your attitude, your style, and your leadership in your group. You're really stepping up in a big way! Proud to be quit with you.
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Man I had forgotten all about the "throw one in, pull it out after 10 mins because it was disgusting, only to throw another in after 5 minutes again thing" Almost like my body was on autopilot. I like your attitude, your style, and your leadership in your group. You're really stepping up in a big way! Proud to be quit with you.
Thank you Sir, and Thank you for the Support, it really means a lot! Proud to be quit with you today!
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Day 34. I was going to wait til I got home to write this, but I need to do it asap. First Thank you God for my Brothers that I was able to reach out too, this afternoon was crazy..
I haven't had Chinese food since my quit. A little bit due to the fact the shit ain't good for you, and my diet has taken a hit since the start of my quit, but I also stayed away because I use to love a lipski after Chinese..
I figured "Hey you're on Day 34, treat yourself"
Well all was great while I was eating, then I finished, and walked out to my truck. My first thought was food poisoning.. but the Fog rolled in like a Storm at Sea, I was shaking, sweating even though it is 25 and very windy.. I honestly started to cry a little.. I did something I was praying I never had to do, because I'm a "Man" and I felt bad because what if some of the brothers didn't want their digits to go out to others?.
I made a quick group text with most everyone I had digits for, I told them what was going on, I sent it and said shit, what if they didn't want their digits to go out? That added to my anxiety attack I was having.. fearful that I just fucked up.
But my Brothers where there for me, calming me down, telling me to take a walk, pound the water as it could have been the increase of salt, words of encouragement... no ball busting, no bitching.
You saved me today Brothers, I wouldn't have caved, but damn I was scared. I have ran into burning buildings as a firefighter, seen things no one should have to see as an EMT, but I was scared as hell this afternoon.
I was able to get back to work, pounded 2 of my 40oz water bottles and felt a bit better.. I reached for my Smokey Mountain and calmed myself down..
Folks if you are reading this please know our fight will never end. The Nic Bitch is real and she is mean. Take it from me, get the digits of the Vets and those on your group and do not be afraid to use them. The folks that reached out to calm me are Angels and Heroes.
As a "Man" I hate bothering others with my issues, I was raised to deal with them myself, today I am blessed I am not alone.
I quit once for a year and a half, this time around it is harder... I'm an addict and I need help and today I got that, and I'm thankful.
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Hey Brothers,
I wanted to do this away from the Vets Eyes. Listen they have been pretty hard on us. I get it with being a Firefighter and was a Military hopeful before a car accident took that dream away from me.
I have somehow become the "Leader" of the May 19 Quit Group in the eyes of the Vets, while I don't mind that "Title" I wanted to get us all together and work some stuff out.
1. If you guys need Digits lets share them, I had a scary moment today and the Vets and AW helped me out of it today. Something I am thankful for, as no one has to care about me, but they do.
If you guys want lets swap digits and get a group text going, it will help us stick together. 802-XXX-XXXX are mine.
2. Our name. The Masters of Mayhem is kind of cool, but we had some others. Lets nail that name down before Friday, Lets Vote on it and stick to it, Again it don't have to have MAY in it at all.
3. Lets figure out leadership, not that it is really needed, but it would be good to have a little structure, I have all your backs, We are a kick ass group.
4. Caving, we have had a few people slip up. The Vets were a bitch to you. Listen this shit is not easy, We are all under a lot of stress, some are handling it better then others. I have once quit for a Year & a half, that little "One Dip won't hurt" is Bullshit. Now we are all working hard, and I don't want people to cave, use the digits and the group to get passed it. Give in now and you are Posting day 1 in June, and while I will still be here for you if you cave, and I won't think less of you because we are all Human, but we are only as strong as our weakest link.
Lets show these Motherfuckers we are not a bunch of Shit heads, Lets get May 19 to the top of even the best past group, let unite and become #1 because we are Badass! Lets use my Intro as a "Homebase" the link is below. We can only PM 10 People at a time so the Intro will be the best place to get our shit together then we can use our Roll page once everything is figured out! Lets become the KTC Band of Brothers and show these guys we have what it take!
Proud to be quit with you today!
Rick Jr
Edit: So it Seems we can only send PM's to 10 people at a time so I will be sending out 3 PM's as we have 22 people in the group. To make it easier lets use my Intro as a meeting place until we figure out something better. I will repost this PM in my intro at https://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?topic=1029.0
Justin J
Mlovell336
Killshot
AWright2262
closetdipper
Delahunt
eschmit04
sweetrice80
nate67
quittinAg
2ndTimeAround
VMan
Barney1977
crich
Gunnar
Jonathan b
BrianD
Scott_B
TomA9003
TomC
Need to send PM to below member at 1800 2/25/19
mre
Dawgs
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I am game to do whatever we need to. I am only on day two as MEMBER of the site, day 21 as a quitter. I have a tendency to be more like the vets and be pretty hardcore and heavy handed with people. However...if nothing else...this quit has taught me patience and gentleness, while still being firm. We are badass...personally, I love the name. However, I am also not butthurt if we want to change it. I too had a really rough day. I had to reach out to a couple of folks(UncleRico & eschmit04...thank you). The only way we can beat this is with determination and support of one another. I think if we are here, together, fighting the same battle...we will kill it...ODAAT...TOGETHER. I am totally available to anyone. I’ll be damned if someone breaks because I wasn’t available. I realize we all have a choice to make, but that choice is never made until it is made. I’ll support whatever the group wants.
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Hey all,
I am happy to be in this quit with the rest of you, this website has gotten me through a lot of craves. Happy to help any brothers in our May group if you wanna chat or text it out, PM me. I'm doing pretty ok, some days better than others, but I continue to surprise myself. I've never gotten this far and I feel great. Every day is a fight but with the right state of mind we can all get through this.
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You guys should delegate the work. Get 5 people. Have each of those 5 responsible for making contact with a list of 4, 5, 6, 7 other quitters in the group. Make an introduction. Give numbers - request numbers. Make 100% contact. No man gets left behind. Some might resist getting involved. Draw them out. At the very least, they can't say they didn't have anyone to call. This could get done today or tomorrow. Let's hear a progress report of the % contacted tomorrow.
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Thanks for taking the lead Rick Jr. I am OK with the name as is. I am available to help as well if you need anything. It is an honor to quit with all you fine gentlemen. Stay strong!
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Question for my May 19 Brothers
Anyone interested in a Facebook Group?
Rule 1. It will not take place of KTC at all, we still post roll, we still keep in contact via PM, text etc. but adds another place we can support each other. Just an idea I had while at work.
I could make it up, if you have your profile set to private you are still private, we would just have another place to hang and support. Let me know
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For anyone that is interested there is a GroupMe chat for your group....Just another way to chat and communicate...the link is on your roll page....there is a few people on it....
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For anyone that is interested there is a GroupMe chat for your group....Just another way to chat and communicate...the link is on your roll page....there is a few people on it....
Going to have to check that out!
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You guys should delegate the work. Get 5 people. Have each of those 5 responsible for making contact with a list of 4, 5, 6, 7 other quitters in the group. Make an introduction. Give numbers - request numbers. Make 100% contact. No man gets left behind. Some might resist getting involved. Draw them out. At the very least, they can't say they didn't have anyone to call. This could get done today or tomorrow. Let's hear a progress report of the % contacted tomorrow.
You all are doing a terrific job. It's not easy making sure no one is getting left behind.
It takes a coordinated effort.
You're probably familiar with the Incident Commander method of organizing and planning? Decentralized nodes of leadership responsible for separate sectors? Redundancies and multiple layers of leadership?
Ask for volunteers. Many are eager to start giving something back, and it will give them something to do.
Now, ensure all group members get a copy of the Contract To Give Up from the sector leaders. Have it explained to them to print it out and to keep it on their person. Explain that they are to sign and date in ink and to notify one of their sector leaders (just don't call it that) before they give up on the quit. Group members need to be available to take those types of calls. They aren't fun, but will happen. This is the foundation of real brotherhood.
https://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?topic=946.0
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I am good with the name. It seems to have stuck. I think it would be silly to change it. Also, I am on the Group Me page but I am not interested in Facebook.
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I’m also good with the name, pretty sure it has stuck now.
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I agree, we will forever be remembered as the Masters of Mayhem May 19, it has stuck, but the biggest thing is I am Proud to be in this Quit with all of you!
I have pretty much taken over the SSOA Spreadsheet, if anyone wants to help let me know!
We have a lot of folks posting "Zeros" today and that's a good thing. We have had members use the digits for support (Myself included) and that is awesome to see! Keep up the Awesome Work all!
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Below is a Post I made on Day 41 of my Quit. It is also my 100th Post and I want to save it here, for the new folks in hopes they can maybe learn something from it.
Here is about all I have to say. I have fucked up a few times, I have been bitched at, and it was a little harsh. At a few points I almost said "Fuck It All". I know the quit has to be about me, but I am here because of my Brothers.. I don't want to let them down, simple as that, it's not about me, it's about my Brothers reaching out to me in a hard time, Just shooting the shit and getting through the Suck of it all.
Something the Vet's have to remember, us new quitters are going through hell, you all have learned how to deal with the Suck and life after the Nic Bitch. We are all addicts yes, but we are new, our heads are not right.
Now Penree, has gone MIA, has not answered PM's and not shared digits with me. BrianD was sick a couple of days ago and answered my PM saying he was sorry, I gave him my digits, but that's all I can do. I can't force him to use them. Toss me a text for a pick up, I don't mind. I like the extra work I have been given with the SSOA and don't mind doing it, if anyone wants to help let me know, the work has helped calm some tough craving times, keeps my mind busy.
Quitting cold turkey as you all know, sucks ass! Many times I thought about finger fucking a tin, because I know it will give instant relief, but I can't and won't go back. It's a temporary fix to a problem.. We need to learn to live a life once again without Nicotine. After 41 days, my head is still not right. There are days I want to call out from Work, lock myself in my Mancave, or days I want to drive my truck off the road... I have thought about going to the doctors and get Wellbutrin, then I see the side affects.
To any brother that has gone AWOL, we are still here for you. This is not a "Safe Place" no stuffed animals or cry closets. Quitting Sucks, no one likes a Quitter, but this comes down to life or death. Do we really need Dip? Fuck no we don't. It changes our moods, gives us false hope. Reach out to people. I have to say I have never met anyone here in person, but I do care about you. This is why I text or PM you. I'm worried you are having a hard time, I have no idea what you are doing at any given second of the day. WUPP. We all wake up, we all Piss in the Morning. Get on your phone and make your Promise, then go about your day. Sure some of us sleep in on the weekend, whatever day of the week that may be, but we all with the grace of God wake up.
I have taken crap from the wife asking who is texting me all the time, I tell her my Quit brothers, she don't get it. She has access to my phone, I have nothing to hide. Sometimes I ignore text, it's wrong, but sometimes I'm not in the mood. I do check them in case it is a brother in need.
Brotherhood is a strange thing, it's something I love in life being a Firefighter / EMT and a Military Hopeful (Car accident took that from me)
BrianD and Penree if you see this reach out, stay quit with us, suck it up and move on. No one here is Perfect, we don't claim to be, I have been told if I fuck up I'm gone, I'm fine with that, but the digits I have will never leave my phone. If I ever removed from KTC, I would still be in contact with folks. People here care, even if they are bitching you out. Remember we are new, we may be quit for 40 Days, but we are new and we still have to learn to live without a dip in our lip.
That's all I have to say about that...
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I hope everyone is doing good so far this weekend. I know the crave can become overbearing but lets not forget why were here!
We have one life my friends, let us not fall victim to this drug called nicotine.
I promise you all this friday night the dip will not hit my lips!!!!! ODAAT
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I hope everyone is doing good so far this weekend. I know the crave can become overbearing but lets not forget why were here!
We have one life my friends, let us not fall victim to this drug called nicotine.
I promise you all this friday night the dip will not hit my lips!!!!! ODAAT
Amen Brother! Proud to quit with you! Everyone in May 19 has my digits, and those of others. Use them, do not be ashamed. Most of you guys are hitting the Dirty 30's I was feeling great until 34-36 fog, shakes, etc. I relied on my digits, the guys talked me down. The Anxiety was real. Be alert, and do what you need to do. Being an Addict sucks, but we are blessed to have each other.
Please don't think of me as a Leader of this group. We are ALL Equal, we are all going through the Same Hell. Together we are Strong. I am Proud of Each and every one of you!
Quit On!
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It's been far to long since I have posted. I guess it's because I don't want to dwell on it all. Just do my thing One Day at a time. 78 Days in, Feeling good. Do I miss it? Yeah... Do I need it? Not in the least. Dip didn't make me cool or a Cowboy, it drained my Wallet.. Like a Smoker I always remember saying "I ain't paying this much for a Tin of Dip" (I started when Grizzly just had Wintergreen and was only .99 Cents a tin, Now almost $8)
I read from a Brother about the "Daily Feeling" We wake up, post and go about our day.. The Daily Grind, Piss Post, go to work, drive home, relax, eat, go to bed and do it again tomorrow.. Yes it gets old fast. I hate Winter (Vermont is not the Best Place for this, But it's Home) Cabin Fever is High, I get bored, look for something to do.. We all deal with this, We need to Work to Live and pay the Bills.. We got this...
That's all for now.
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So here I sit, on the Eve of Hall of Fame... Day 99. The past few weeks has been crazy, Work stress pushing me to the limits, this and that, if it could go wrong.. it did. But with my Brothers having my back, making me laugh, taking my mind of things, it's helped a lot.
Day 99.. It should feel a bit more special for me, but I have been here before, just not on KTC, I made it 1.5 Years, but the difference is, I have my Mayhem Brothers. This time it is different. I am the type of guy that don't like the attention. I would rather see my Brothers get it, because they deserve it just as much as I do, but their day will come. I hope they are just as proud about it as I am. With out my Brothers I am just a guy, doing what I do, my Brothers make this what it is.
If someone new comes to KTC and see's this.. All I want to say is Welcome, Drink all the Kool Aid you can, Read Everything, Contact your Brothers / Sisters in Quit, Swap numbers, Text, Call, PM, Groupme with them. Get active on the Boards, Remember your Quit group is YOUR Home, Use it and Respect it. Become a team as soon as you can.. No one on this site can do it a lone.. You are a Team and you are only as Strong as your Weakest Link. Always remember the Vets are here for you, they will give you a hard time if they don't see you are becoming One Team, but they care, We have all had the feelings, the rage, craves, you name it. Drink the Kool Aid my Friends, Dive in 100%
Rick Jr
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Congrats brother. We’ll see you on roll in the AM’s!
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Congrats brother. We’ll see you on roll in the AM’s!
Every Damn Day Brother, I'm keeping the beer cold for you. Keep up the great work! Thank you Brother
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Man what a great Saturday I had. A few buddies and I found this Older Gent that is starting a Homestead. He's 58 and dealing with Parkinson's Disease. We went to hep him do a few things around his Property. Built some Sheds, cleared land for a garden, set up Chicken areas. It was a long ass cool day, but man did it feel great to be outdoors with a small circle of friends, just helping someone in need.
So here I sit 110 Days into my quit, this day is a little special for me, I always say "I give 110% in anything I do" This quit has effected my life like I never thought it would. When I joined KTC, I figured "Ok make it to Day 100 and it's done" But it's never done. I have made a lot of awesome Friends here, People I think of as Brothers. We lost some early in our quit, but we gained more. Working on the SSOA, tracking down my Brothers as the day grew short, all fun. I truly care for my Brothers and their quit, like it was my own.
Well it's Mother's Day and I am the only one in the house up, besides the Dog, so time to get things ready for the Wife to have an easy day and to visit my Mom. Hope everyone has a great day today!
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Man, Brothers and Sisters, if you haven't yet, get your asses to the Dentist. Little back story on me. My Parents, Grandparents, Aunts and Uncles on my Mom & Dads side have what is known as Sot Teeth.. All of them but 1 Uncle that spent thousands on his teeth all have false teeth... You would of thought that would been enough to keep me away from the dip. Well it didn't and now I am paying the price.
The past few weeks I have been hitting the dentist to make sure everything is good. 2 Weeks ago I had 3 teeth pulled, and now I am looking at getting 4 more pulled. This is something I am ashamed of, but I am dealing with the Price of Dipping for over 20 Years.. I'm embarrassed to even be typing this here in a public forum, but if I can help just one person it is worth it to me.
I am using this experience to teach some young dipper out there, and of course my two beautiful daughter's to keep them away from the dip. I was up all night last night dealing with the pain, didn't get to bed until 4:30am when I finally just passed out. Nothing was working for the pain. Sad to think a few times I would buy my daughters some of the shredded Beef Jerky and they would sit there and put it in their mouths and "Dip like Daddy" I think I have put the fear into their minds that Dipping is NOT cool.
I am so Proud of my Mayhem 19 Brothers! These gents are really Masters in the Quit, the train is starting to fill up. Today OBB and Allpuck posted a cool quote from a vet quitter and I want to post it here in hopes My Brothers will look back on it and remember, and any new quitters that join KTC will read and it will stick in their heads.
"Been thinking a lot about this whole "it gets better" voodoo that we all parrot over and over. I know I didn't really believe it when I was just past the hall and trudging through the motions trying like hell to stay clean and watching my group lose quitters. Always lead me to think - if it is OK for them, why not me?
I remember another thing I did in these types of situations. Go find some "active", crusty old vet - I'd suggest a guy like Hydro because he is quit friggen YODA - shoot him a pm. Ask him questions about what it is like now. Find these 6, 7, 8 year quitters who are still here every day - though not overly active - and ask them. Don't take my word for it. Ask them what it is like. Ask them if it was all worth it. There HAS to be a reason guys like Hydro and others still post roll like it is their job. We are all pretty busy guys with professional lives and work responsibilities, with families and probably have FAR better things to do than troll internet forums for nic addicts. Yet here we all are - in the same boat.
I bet you'll hear the same story over and over. Take it on faith that shit gets so much fucking better you can't possibly imagine. I sure as shit didn't until one day, I realized it had. I challenge you all to keep the focus on TODAY - every day and everything will get worked out in time. Get rid of the thoughts of "by now, I should feel ______" because I can promise you those expectations will lead to let down. Instead, try "Today I will not use nicotine" and go live your life without thinking about where you think you ought to be at this point. You are exactly where you all should be. There is a reason I hate the hall...sure it is a bad ass benchmark but after that, it is just another +1. My worst days were AFTER the hall. My best days were ahead of me - I just didn't believe it.
Keep the faith brothers. You are all killing it - and winning - it just doesn't feel like it most days. I promise that changes."
My biggest fear is after May 19 is no longer in the Pre - Hall of Fame area and becomes just another group. I fear of the Brothers dropping 1 by 1 from Roll. This journey is not just to 100 Days, it goes far beyond that. We are not "Cured" after 100 Days, shit I went a Year and a Half once on my Own, the numbers in my phone will never get deleted, because I know some day I may need them. All it took was one shitty day to start back up again.
To my Masters of Mayhem Brothers. I am damn proud of you all, sure we lost a few along the way, some were just not ready to quit, a couple caved, a couple left because of the "Drama" on the Board of the Vets trying to whip our asses into shape. Like any elite group, we weeded out all the non hackers who were not ready, I do hope someday to see those names back in another group, ready to start over and toss that can or pouch, and enjoy the freedom we are all feeling!
Well that's all for today.
Rick Jr 111
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Man, Brothers and Sisters, if you haven't yet, get your asses to the Dentist. Little back story on me. My Parents, Grandparents, Aunts and Uncles on my Mom & Dads side have what is known as Sot Teeth.. All of them but 1 Uncle that spent thousands on his teeth all have false teeth... You would of thought that would been enough to keep me away from the dip. Well it didn't and now I am paying the price.
The past few weeks I have been hitting the dentist to make sure everything is good. 2 Weeks ago I had 3 teeth pulled, and now I am looking at getting 4 more pulled. This is something I am ashamed of, but I am dealing with the Price of Dipping for over 20 Years.. I'm embarrassed to even be typing this here in a public forum, but if I can help just one person it is worth it to me.
I am using this experience to teach some young dipper out there, and of course my two beautiful daughter's to keep them away from the dip. I was up all night last night dealing with the pain, didn't get to bed until 4:30am when I finally just passed out. Nothing was working for the pain. Sad to think a few times I would buy my daughters some of the shredded Beef Jerky and they would sit there and put it in their mouths and "Dip like Daddy" I think I have put the fear into their minds that Dipping is NOT cool.
I am so Proud of my Mayhem 19 Brothers! These gents are really Masters in the Quit, the train is starting to fill up. Today OBB and Allpuck posted a cool quote from a vet quitter and I want to post it here in hopes My Brothers will look back on it and remember, and any new quitters that join KTC will read and it will stick in their heads.
"Been thinking a lot about this whole "it gets better" voodoo that we all parrot over and over. I know I didn't really believe it when I was just past the hall and trudging through the motions trying like hell to stay clean and watching my group lose quitters. Always lead me to think - if it is OK for them, why not me?
I remember another thing I did in these types of situations. Go find some "active", crusty old vet - I'd suggest a guy like Hydro because he is quit friggen YODA - shoot him a pm. Ask him questions about what it is like now. Find these 6, 7, 8 year quitters who are still here every day - though not overly active - and ask them. Don't take my word for it. Ask them what it is like. Ask them if it was all worth it. There HAS to be a reason guys like Hydro and others still post roll like it is their job. We are all pretty busy guys with professional lives and work responsibilities, with families and probably have FAR better things to do than troll internet forums for nic addicts. Yet here we all are - in the same boat.
I bet you'll hear the same story over and over. Take it on faith that shit gets so much fucking better you can't possibly imagine. I sure as shit didn't until one day, I realized it had. I challenge you all to keep the focus on TODAY - every day and everything will get worked out in time. Get rid of the thoughts of "by now, I should feel ______" because I can promise you those expectations will lead to let down. Instead, try "Today I will not use nicotine" and go live your life without thinking about where you think you ought to be at this point. You are exactly where you all should be. There is a reason I hate the hall...sure it is a bad ass benchmark but after that, it is just another +1. My worst days were AFTER the hall. My best days were ahead of me - I just didn't believe it.
Keep the faith brothers. You are all killing it - and winning - it just doesn't feel like it most days. I promise that changes."
My biggest fear is after May 19 is no longer in the Pre - Hall of Fame area and becomes just another group. I fear of the Brothers dropping 1 by 1 from Roll. This journey is not just to 100 Days, it goes far beyond that. We are not "Cured" after 100 Days, shit I went a Year and a Half once on my Own, the numbers in my phone will never get deleted, because I know some day I may need them. All it took was one shitty day to start back up again.
To my Masters of Mayhem Brothers. I am damn proud of you all, sure we lost a few along the way, some were just not ready to quit, a couple caved, a couple left because of the "Drama" on the Board of the Vets trying to whip our asses into shape. Like any elite group, we weeded out all the non hackers who were not ready, I do hope someday to see those names back in another group, ready to start over and toss that can or pouch, and enjoy the freedom we are all feeling!
Well that's all for today.
Rick Jr 111
Day 2,331. Guess how many I've missed on roll??? Rick, you are a winner. It is easy to read in the passion of your writing. Winners post roll.
What happens in your group after HOF is not in your control. But your actions are. This quit is about you. And you are killing it.
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Hope all is well brother!