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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: mrwest on March 24, 2014, 01:11:00 PM
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...That I do an introduction. No real reason I didn't do this when I first joined almost a month ago, just kinda dove in and didn't get around to it. I was blogging my craves and struggles in my "quit smoking" phone app, just seemed convenient. I'm James, I'm 23, and I'm an addict. I started smoking when I was 18. Started with cigars, then moved quickly to a half pack a day habit. About 3 years ago, I picked up chewing when I was at home and in the winter when it was too cold to have a smoke. I would be able to put it down whenever I wanted. I was wrong. Spent the last 3 years being a dual nicotine user, although I had grown more fond of dip as time went on. Quit dip cold turkey on a lost bet on Super Bowl sunday, and spent the next month miserably smoking a pack a day. One night, decided to stop. I Quit for me. I quit so I wouldn't be a slave any more. I quit to be healthier and just generally live a better life.
I've been quit for 27 days, and I couldn't have done it without this site. This place works if you let it, and I'm glad I made the choice to drink the Koolaid. There have been countless people on here who have supported me and helped my quit, and I thank all of you guys. I quit with June today.
I can't tell you that I'll be quit forever. If there's one thing I've learned, it's to let the future take care of itself. I posted roll today, so I can tell you that I will be quit for today. Tomorrow, I'll wake up and quit again. And so it goes.
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...That I do an introduction. No real reason I didn't do this when I first joined almost a month ago, just kinda dove in and didn't get around to it. I was blogging my craves and struggles in my "quit smoking" phone app, just seemed convenient. I'm James, I'm 23, and I'm an addict. I started smoking when I was 18. Started with cigars, then moved quickly to a half pack a day habit. About 3 years ago, I picked up chewing when I was at home and in the winter when it was too cold to have a smoke. I would be able to put it down whenever I wanted. I was wrong. Spent the last 3 years being a dual nicotine user, although I had grown more fond of dip as time went on. Quit dip cold turkey on a lost bet on Super Bowl sunday, and spent the next month miserably smoking a pack a day. One night, decided to stop. I Quit for me. I quit so I wouldn't be a slave any more. I quit to be healthier and just generally live a better life.
I've been quit for 27 days, and I couldn't have done it without this site. This place works if you let it, and I'm glad I made the choice to drink the Koolaid. There have been countless people on here who have supported me and helped my quit, and I thank all of you guys. I quit with June today.
I can't tell you that I'll be quit forever. If there's one thing I've learned, it's to let the future take care of itself. I posted roll today, so I can tell you that I will be quit for today. Tomorrow, I'll wake up and quit again. And so it goes.
Sounds like you get it and I believe you will continue along your path just keep your wits and your balls handy you will need them!
Quiting is not for the weak, so stay stong focused QUIT!!!!
PM me if you need some numbers
Grizzly25/Lou ...... out
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...That I do an introduction. No real reason I didn't do this when I first joined almost a month ago, just kinda dove in and didn't get around to it. I was blogging my craves and struggles in my "quit smoking" phone app, just seemed convenient. I'm James, I'm 23, and I'm an addict. I started smoking when I was 18. Started with cigars, then moved quickly to a half pack a day habit. About 3 years ago, I picked up chewing when I was at home and in the winter when it was too cold to have a smoke. I would be able to put it down whenever I wanted. I was wrong. Spent the last 3 years being a dual nicotine user, although I had grown more fond of dip as time went on. Quit dip cold turkey on a lost bet on Super Bowl sunday, and spent the next month miserably smoking a pack a day. One night, decided to stop. I Quit for me. I quit so I wouldn't be a slave any more. I quit to be healthier and just generally live a better life.
I've been quit for 27 days, and I couldn't have done it without this site. This place works if you let it, and I'm glad I made the choice to drink the Koolaid. There have been countless people on here who have supported me and helped my quit, and I thank all of you guys. I quit with June today.
I can't tell you that I'll be quit forever. If there's one thing I've learned, it's to let the future take care of itself. I posted roll today, so I can tell you that I will be quit for today. Tomorrow, I'll wake up and quit again. And so it goes.
Nice job West!
We have spent time in live chat and I think that you've bought in to the process. You've got the right attitude brother, ODAAT. I'm sure you'll hear this more than you like, but to quit at your age..... you'll save your self so many years of slavery and that brother is awesome.
Hit me up if you need anything, I'll catch you in chat i'm sure!
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Nicely done Mrwest. Or is it kanye?? We have crossed paths in chat and I thought I'd say hello here as well. Glad to see your intro, I see it as an important tool throughout you journey here. Keep doing what you are doing my friend, proud as hell to be quit like fuck with you!!!
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So proud to be quit with you Kanye!
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West,
Glad to see you made an intro. It is always good to see you in chat brother, keep up the good work and keep drinking that koolaid. I proudly quit with you today.
MCO
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happy to be quit with you brother, let me know if u need anything.
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Proud to be quit with you, West. And thanks for your support early in my quit!
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Thanks for the support everyone, wouldn't ben where I'm at today without it. If anyone needs a number, or anything really, feel free to send me a PM. Quit on!
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Thanks for the support everyone, wouldn't ben where I'm at today without it. If anyone needs a number, or anything really, feel free to send me a PM. Quit on!
Thanks for your continued work in the June 2014 group, West. Taking on the spreadsheet and patrolling our roll as vigilant as you have is extremely commendable. Proud to be quit w/you again today.
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Thanks for the support everyone, wouldn't ben where I'm at today without it. If anyone needs a number, or anything really, feel free to send me a PM. Quit on!
Thanks for your continued work in the June 2014 group, West. Taking on the spreadsheet and patrolling our roll as vigilant as you have is extremely commendable. Proud to be quit w/you again today.
Your avatar makes me feel hostility towards you when I see it. I don't know why. I just needed to get that off my chest.
Also, I notice your hard work with roll and your support for your quitters, I like that about you. So I get over the avatar and think that Mr. West... He's alright.
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Thanks for the support everyone, wouldn't ben where I'm at today without it. If anyone needs a number, or anything really, feel free to send me a PM. Quit on!
Thanks for your continued work in the June 2014 group, West. Taking on the spreadsheet and patrolling our roll as vigilant as you have is extremely commendable. Proud to be quit w/you again today.
Your avatar makes me feel hostility towards you when I see it. I don't know why. I just needed to get that off my chest.
Also, I notice your hard work with roll and your support for your quitters, I like that about you. So I get over the avatar and think that Mr. West... He's alright.
The avatar is to supposed to make people mad. It's kanye west prowling in a fur coat. The only purpose that could possibly have is trolling. Mr west is always on the prowl. ;)
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Having some craves the past few days had me feeling a little down about my quit. I didn't have a funk around 20, but I'm definitely in one now. I know for a fact that if I wasn't on KTC I would not still be quit. I know it. By ourselves, we're weak. Together, we can do it. I think it's just about readjusting my motivation. The first few weeks it's easy to float through on adrenaline alone. When that wears off, you have to ask yourself, what am I doing? I asked myself that question last night. What I did next? Went back and read my journaling from the first 5 days. I didn't write much, but enough to jog my memory of just how bad I really hate tobacco and everything that it had turned me into. It's easy to forget just how pathetic and useless a nicotine addiction really is, and I'm glad I had something that I had written to remind myself.
Not sure where this is going, but the message is, NAFAR. I'm quit, and I'm not fucking going back now. So bring on fucking day 37. 'Finger'
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Having some craves the past few days had me feeling a little down about my quit. I didn't have a funk around 20, but I'm definitely in one now. I know for a fact that if I wasn't on KTC I would not still be quit. I know it. By ourselves, we're weak. Together, we can do it. I think it's just about readjusting my motivation. The first few weeks it's easy to float through on adrenaline alone. When that wears off, you have to ask yourself, what am I doing? I asked myself that question last night. What I did next? Went back and read my journaling from the first 5 days. I didn't write much, but enough to jog my memory of just how bad I really hate tobacco and everything that it had turned me into. It's easy to forget just how pathetic and useless a nicotine addiction really is, and I'm glad I had something that I had written to remind myself.
Not sure where this is going, but the message is, NAFAR. I'm quit, and I'm not fucking going back now. So bring on fucking day 37. 'Finger'
Those days were difficult in my quit also. Rage, F-its, everyone is a dumbass, etc.... It will pass.
I quit w/ you today!
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Having some craves the past few days had me feeling a little down about my quit. I didn't have a funk around 20, but I'm definitely in one now. I know for a fact that if I wasn't on KTC I would not still be quit. I know it. By ourselves, we're weak. Together, we can do it. I think it's just about readjusting my motivation. The first few weeks it's easy to float through on adrenaline alone. When that wears off, you have to ask yourself, what am I doing? I asked myself that question last night. What I did next? Went back and read my journaling from the first 5 days. I didn't write much, but enough to jog my memory of just how bad I really hate tobacco and everything that it had turned me into. It's easy to forget just how pathetic and useless a nicotine addiction really is, and I'm glad I had something that I had written to remind myself.
Not sure where this is going, but the message is, NAFAR. I'm quit, and I'm not fucking going back now. So bring on fucking day 37. 'Finger'
Those days were difficult in my quit also. Rage, F-its, everyone is a dumbass, etc.... It will pass.
I quit w/ you today!
Yes, yes....It's the "Nothing works, and everyone is an idiot" phase. I have those only momentarily now. :-) Hang in there Westie. Etx is right....this too shall pass.
ZC
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Having some craves the past few days had me feeling a little down about my quit. I didn't have a funk around 20, but I'm definitely in one now. I know for a fact that if I wasn't on KTC I would not still be quit. I know it. By ourselves, we're weak. Together, we can do it. I think it's just about readjusting my motivation. The first few weeks it's easy to float through on adrenaline alone. When that wears off, you have to ask yourself, what am I doing? I asked myself that question last night. What I did next? Went back and read my journaling from the first 5 days. I didn't write much, but enough to jog my memory of just how bad I really hate tobacco and everything that it had turned me into. It's easy to forget just how pathetic and useless a nicotine addiction really is, and I'm glad I had something that I had written to remind myself.
Not sure where this is going, but the message is, NAFAR. I'm quit, and I'm not fucking going back now. So bring on fucking day 37. 'Finger'
Those days were difficult in my quit also. Rage, F-its, everyone is a dumbass, etc.... It will pass.
I quit w/ you today!
Yes, yes....It's the "Nothing works, and everyone is an idiot" phase. I have those only momentarily now. :-) Hang in there Westie. Etx is right....this too shall pass.
ZC
Solid quitter in Mr West. As you post support with July and then with August and even September you will really see the patterns develop. For me, it helped me better understand what I went through watching the next couple of groups and the developing quits of others. That understanding made it even clearer just what a hold nicotine had on me, how much I rationalized every day, and it helped me see through the lies in my own head. This is powerful stuff here. No doubt I would not have added this many +1's on my own. ODAAT Mr. West, the funks pass as well.
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Having some craves the past few days had me feeling a little down about my quit. I didn't have a funk around 20, but I'm definitely in one now. I know for a fact that if I wasn't on KTC I would not still be quit. I know it. By ourselves, we're weak. Together, we can do it. I think it's just about readjusting my motivation. The first few weeks it's easy to float through on adrenaline alone. When that wears off, you have to ask yourself, what am I doing? I asked myself that question last night. What I did next? Went back and read my journaling from the first 5 days. I didn't write much, but enough to jog my memory of just how bad I really hate tobacco and everything that it had turned me into. It's easy to forget just how pathetic and useless a nicotine addiction really is, and I'm glad I had something that I had written to remind myself.
Not sure where this is going, but the message is, NAFAR. I'm quit, and I'm not fucking going back now. So bring on fucking day 37. 'Finger'
Those days were difficult in my quit also. Rage, F-its, everyone is a dumbass, etc.... It will pass.
I quit w/ you today!
Yes, yes....It's the "Nothing works, and everyone is an idiot" phase. I have those only momentarily now. :-) Hang in there Westie. Etx is right....this too shall pass.
ZC
Solid quitter in Mr West. As you post support with July and then with August and even September you will really see the patterns develop. For me, it helped me better understand what I went through watching the next couple of groups and the developing quits of others. That understanding made it even clearer just what a hold nicotine had on me, how much I rationalized every day, and it helped me see through the lies in my own head. This is powerful stuff here. No doubt I would not have added this many +1's on my own. ODAAT Mr. West, the funks pass as well.
Always remember that it will KILL you.
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Two months today. Not going to lie, it feels good. Probably the best milestone I've had yet. I honestly couldn't have done it without the awesome group of quitters we have it, so thank you. I look forward to posting up a 61 tomorrow. ODAAT
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Two months today. Not going to lie, it feels good. Probably the best milestone I've had yet. I honestly couldn't have done it without the awesome group of quitters we have it, so thank you. I look forward to posting up a 61 tomorrow. ODAAT
Rock solid Mr. West....Quit with you today!
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Two months today. Not going to lie, it feels good. Probably the best milestone I've had yet. I honestly couldn't have done it without the awesome group of quitters we have it, so thank you. I look forward to posting up a 61 tomorrow. ODAAT
Rock solid Mr. West....Quit with you today!
Nice job Kanye!
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What up Mr. West?? Just wanted to drop a line and tell you how badass it is to see guys like yourself of character continue to stay quit.. You are well on your way to HOF and I comnend you, you deserve it, but continue to stay vigiliant.. We all do....
And for that nic bitch that tries to suck you off every once in awhile, tell her to fuck off!!! QLF with you man!
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6 days no post, leaves the spreadsheet idle for 5 days, and his excuses apparently are "too busy" and "June doesn't deserve an inconsistent poster".
Chalk this one up to a cave. Unreal. Don't be this guy, quitters.
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Mr. West, I hope what KO said is not true. You were one of the the quitters I looked up to. Whenever new young quitters joined I could always say You, Me, KO, etc were bad-fucking-ass young quitters, we were proof that young quitters could not only make a long term commitment to quitting but we could also give advice and help others just as well as the older guys. I am hoping you didn't cave, I am hoping you've just been really busy with work, either way you need to post roll. I hope I can reach you through text/facebook, and we can talk, I know you want to quit and I want you to be quit.
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Come on, West. What the fuck? You were one of the leaders of our group early on. You were always in the chat room helping the new guys. You were someone that alot of guys in our group looked up to. I hope we're wrong, but I can't think of a single reason that someone would miss roll for that many days in a row other than caving. I would love to be wrong about this, but I don't think so. Hey June. Let's man up, grow a set of nuts, and Quit Like Fuck.
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Never heard of this guy until today, and now I am bummed out. West man, don't do us like this.
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6 days no post, leaves the spreadsheet idle for 5 days, and his excuses apparently are "too busy" and "June doesn't deserve an inconsistent poster".
Chalk this one up to a cave. Unreal. Don't be this guy, quitters.
"Whoa is me"
Excuses stink
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6 days no post, leaves the spreadsheet idle for 5 days, and his excuses apparently are "too busy" and "June doesn't deserve an inconsistent poster".
Chalk this one up to a cave. Unreal. Don't be this guy, quitters.
"Whoa is me"
Excuses stink
Say it ain't so...
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6 days no post, leaves the spreadsheet idle for 5 days, and his excuses apparently are "too busy" and "June doesn't deserve an inconsistent poster".
Chalk this one up to a cave. Unreal. Don't be this guy, quitters.
"Whoa is me"
Excuses stink
Say it ain't so...
Kanye - grow a pair would you?! This is bullshit. What happened? to be honest, I could care less. the only person you're hurting is yourself. If you don't give a shit about your quit, why should we.
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6 days no post, leaves the spreadsheet idle for 5 days, and his excuses apparently are "too busy" and "June doesn't deserve an inconsistent poster".
Chalk this one up to a cave. Unreal. Don't be this guy, quitters.
"Whoa is me"
Excuses stink
Say it ain't so...
Kanye - grow a pair would you?! This is bullshit. What happened? to be honest, I could care less. the only person you're hurting is yourself. If you don't give a shit about your quit, why should we.
Any shame or guilt you have from bailing on your group, or worse caving, does not improve by just lurking in the shadows. Man up West, I see you popping in without posting.
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6 days no post, leaves the spreadsheet idle for 5 days, and his excuses apparently are "too busy" and "June doesn't deserve an inconsistent poster".
Chalk this one up to a cave. Unreal. Don't be this guy, quitters.
"Whoa is me"
Excuses stink
Say it ain't so...
Kanye - grow a pair would you?! This is bullshit. What happened? to be honest, I could care less. the only person you're hurting is yourself. If you don't give a shit about your quit, why should we.
Any shame or guilt you have from bailing on your group, or worse caving, does not improve by just lurking in the shadows. Man up West, I see you popping in without posting.
the thoughts just go wild.
This whole situation can be resolved if you just look deep inside yourself. You came to KTC because you wanted to quit. You joined up, participated, lead the control of your spreadsheet,.....and then something happened. Well lets look inside yourself. I doubt something has changed that drastically that would really keep you away from here. Somewhere inside I bet you still want to be quit. But you need to take that next step. Whether you messed up or not, you are messing up right now by not responding to repeated PMs and Texts. It is that which is turning your back on friends and a new family that is here in support.
But this is a time where one needs to see that fork in the road. A time where one needs to look inside himself and really ask what he wants, because the clock is ticking. That tic tock can be the countdown to one of 2 things.....either a life plagued with poison, wasted time, and all that comes with that....Or it could be a life of freedom.
So what is your choice my friend.....