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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Ajacks23 on February 23, 2013, 07:20:00 PM
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Hello everyone, I finally decided it was time to quit. I am sick and tired of being a slave to dip. I have tried to quit in the past and made it about a month or two and caved. I think what has caused me to fail in the past is convincing myself that if I can quit for a month I can quit whenever I want and jump back into the can a day habit.
I'm currently on day 2 of my quit and my temper is on edge, feel in a fog, headache, and I think I have typed the wrong word in this post about 50 times already.
So far I have been spending all my time on the site reading everything I can and I always have a toothpick in my mouth (which seems to help).
That's it for now my brain is not functioning properly.
- Ajacks
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Hello everyone, I finally decided it was time to quit. I am sick and tired of being a slave to dip. I have tried to quit in the past and made it about a month or two and caved. I think what has caused me to fail in the past is convincing myself that if I can quit for a month I can quit whenever I want and jump back into the can a day habit.
I'm currently on day 2 of my quit and my temper is on edge, feel in a fog, headache, and I think I have typed the wrong word in this post about 50 times already.
So far I have been spending all my time on the site reading everything I can and I always have a toothpick in my mouth (which seems to help).
That's it for now my brain is not functioning properly.
- Ajacks
Yep, stick close read everything you can and drink deep of the damn koolaid. It's proven, it works and I can also promise you it sucks.
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Hello everyone, I finally decided it was time to quit. I am sick and tired of being a slave to dip. I have tried to quit in the past and made it about a month or two and caved. I think what has caused me to fail in the past is convincing myself that if I can quit for a month I can quit whenever I want and jump back into the can a day habit.
I'm currently on day 2 of my quit and my temper is on edge, feel in a fog, headache, and I think I have typed the wrong word in this post about 50 times already.
So far I have been spending all my time on the site reading everything I can and I always have a toothpick in my mouth (which seems to help).
That's it for now my brain is not functioning properly.
- Ajacks
Yep, stick close read everything you can and drink deep of the damn koolaid. It's proven, it works and I can also promise you it sucks.
Yes absolutely day 2 for me personally was the most fucked up day in my quit so far. I'm 20 days in and feeling really good about everything. I still spend at least 3 or 4 hours a day on this site reading, reading and reading again. I have read Diesels "Tend your Garden" no less than 30 times in 20 days. If you haven't it's a must read. My point of this reply quote is this site works if you work the site. Soak it all in and post roll every fucking day and as early as you can. That is the foundation of your quit and without that daily commitment you are setting yourself up for a cave. QLF today, come back tomorrow and do the same.
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We've all been in your shoes, but you hopefully already know that. And hopefully you also know that THAT is the reason this site works....those of us that are here and giving you advice are passing on the same advice we recieved only its been tweaked here and there by individuals to make it work for them.
Here's a little piece of advice I'll pass on to you as I confirm my 1096th day of quit - that's three years.
Your title said, "The Road to 100." I'd ask that you drop that idea. Don't set your goal at that. Your goal, for now, should be, "The Road to Tomorrow." Commit yourself to the quit today. Just enough to get to tomorrow. Tomorrow, repeat your goal. Guess what? In the course of a week you will have 7 VICTORIES - you yourself said, " I think what has caused me to fail in the past is convincing myself that if I can quit for a month I can quit whenever..."
Prove to yourself that you can do this. A day at a time still adds up the same as if you were to have set your goal at 3 years off the bat. Except you build confidence and trust in your quit with each success. Quit each day for that day. Do that, and we're all quit with you.
You've got this. We've got your back.
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Applejacks you got this. This group of fuckers can do anything. When Souliman finally declares Vermont as "his" and needs an army to fight to the death to defend it, I'm coming here to recruit. You will see "you" again as you go through this. That slave, that chemically dependent man who has sacrificed his will and being to a fucking poison will start to separate from the real "you". That's the dude who will be left standing. This process ain't easy. It takes determination and belief that you can conquer the unknown. Here's the fucking rub: there ain't anything you can do on the outside of your brain to do this. Its all you and the help you get here. There's no pill. There's no magical wand that can rid this from you. Its your will versus the addicts. And sure as shit I know you will win. All you got to do is follow the advice and path that's here.
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Hello everyone, I finally decided it was time to quit. I am sick and tired of being a slave to dip. I have tried to quit in the past and made it about a month or two and caved. I think what has caused me to fail in the past is convincing myself that if I can quit for a month I can quit whenever I want and jump back into the can a day habit.
I'm currently on day 2 of my quit and my temper is on edge, feel in a fog, headache, and I think I have typed the wrong word in this post about 50 times already.
So far I have been spending all my time on the site reading everything I can and I always have a toothpick in my mouth (which seems to help).
That's it for now my brain is not functioning properly.
- Ajacks
Yep, stick close read everything you can and drink deep of the damn koolaid. It's proven, it works and I can also promise you it sucks.
Yes absolutely day 2 for me personally was the most fucked up day in my quit so far. I'm 20 days in and feeling really good about everything. I still spend at least 3 or 4 hours a day on this site reading, reading and reading again. I have read Diesels "Tend your Garden" no less than 30 times in 20 days. If you haven't it's a must read. My point of this reply quote is this site works if you work the site. Soak it all in and post roll every fucking day and as early as you can. That is the foundation of your quit and without that daily commitment you are setting yourself up for a cave. QLF today, come back tomorrow and do the same.
Welcome to KTC aj, the fog gets better. Lots of water and exercise will help. There is a link to live chat in the upper left corner, I found it very helpful my first couple of weeks. If you have a question ask it, lots of people here with tons of quit experience.
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I noticed your avatar and thought it warranted a response. I played soccer with Blake for a few years when we were younger. His step-dad was our coach. I have to admit, from what I remember we did not get along. I would see him on occasion during jr. high and high school (we went to different schools) and would always be reminded how I didn't like him. So anyway, it took me a few episode of Workaholics to realize it was him. At first I wasn't sure what to think, but now I have nothing but respect for the guy because I think the show is pretty fucking funny.
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Hey guys haven't posted much in my intro thread and thought I should put something up in here at Day 49 for something to look back on down the road.
I was not a dipper as long as some of the guys here at KTC but I definitely got up to speed very quickly and was flying through cans in less than 12 hours. Most of my time spent dipping was in the library, at my desk, sometimes even ninja style in the back of the classroom. I am 22 years old and have always told myself these last few years that I would quit dip right as I graduated college. Listening to the stories here about guys who have dipped for 30+ years scares the shit out of me, all it takes is one more dip after graduation and I could follow right down that path. From what I understand many of you would do anything to be in my shoes and would kick your 20 year old self right in the ass. After reading the site for a few days before my day 1 I decided that there really was no better time than right NOW and I dumped my can. Now when my graduation date comes around (may 10th) I will be dip/nicotine free for 78 days! This will be a HUGE day for me as I will be able to start the next chapter of my life free of nicotine.
The only real cravings I have been facing come when its time for me to sit down and study. Dip has always been my crutch and I thought that it "helped" me study longer and stay focused. But in reality it did none of that, it will definitely take some time to forget about this ritual. With finals quickly approaching I still hear the nic bitch in the back of my mind telling me that I have come so far and that I could just dip for finals week, graduate, and then jump right back on the quit train like its nothing. But I know this is a trap and I have tried to think about the pros/cons of dipping for finals and I can't think of one "pro" that actually makes sense. FUCK YOU NIC BITCH.
So at Day 49 I would like to say that I am QLFuck with all of you today and I can't fucking wait for tomorrow to do it all again.
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Hey guys haven't posted much in my intro thread and thought I should put something up in here at Day 49 for something to look back on down the road.
I was not a dipper as long as some of the guys here at KTC but I definitely got up to speed very quickly and was flying through cans in less than 12 hours. Most of my time spent dipping was in the library, at my desk, sometimes even ninja style in the back of the classroom. I am 22 years old and have always told myself these last few years that I would quit dip right as I graduated college. Listening to the stories here about guys who have dipped for 30+ years scares the shit out of me, all it takes is one more dip after graduation and I could follow right down that path. From what I understand many of you would do anything to be in my shoes and would kick your 20 year old self right in the ass. After reading the site for a few days before my day 1 I decided that there really was no better time than right NOW and I dumped my can. Now when my graduation date comes around (may 10th) I will be dip/nicotine free for 78 days! This will be a HUGE day for me as I will be able to start the next chapter of my life free of nicotine.
The only real cravings I have been facing come when its time for me to sit down and study. Dip has always been my crutch and I thought that it "helped" me study longer and stay focused. But in reality it did none of that, it will definitely take some time to forget about this ritual. With finals quickly approaching I still hear the nic bitch in the back of my mind telling me that I have come so far and that I could just dip for finals week, graduate, and then jump right back on the quit train like its nothing. But I know this is a trap and I have tried to think about the pros/cons of dipping for finals and I can't think of one "pro" that actually makes sense. FUCK YOU NIC BITCH.
So at Day 49 I would like to say that I am QLFuck with all of you today and I can't fucking wait for tomorrow to do it all again.
Good idea. Wish I had compiled my experiences a little better.
Congratulations on being a damn sight smarter than me. I won't go into the whole story here and clutter up your intro, but I wish I had quit early like you did. The details are in my HOF speech if you care to read it.
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Hey guys haven't posted much in my intro thread and thought I should put something up in here at Day 49 for something to look back on down the road.
I was not a dipper as long as some of the guys here at KTC but I definitely got up to speed very quickly and was flying through cans in less than 12 hours. Most of my time spent dipping was in the library, at my desk, sometimes even ninja style in the back of the classroom. I am 22 years old and have always told myself these last few years that I would quit dip right as I graduated college. Listening to the stories here about guys who have dipped for 30+ years scares the shit out of me, all it takes is one more dip after graduation and I could follow right down that path. From what I understand many of you would do anything to be in my shoes and would kick your 20 year old self right in the ass. After reading the site for a few days before my day 1 I decided that there really was no better time than right NOW and I dumped my can. Now when my graduation date comes around (may 10th) I will be dip/nicotine free for 78 days! This will be a HUGE day for me as I will be able to start the next chapter of my life free of nicotine.
The only real cravings I have been facing come when its time for me to sit down and study. Dip has always been my crutch and I thought that it "helped" me study longer and stay focused. But in reality it did none of that, it will definitely take some time to forget about this ritual. With finals quickly approaching I still hear the nic bitch in the back of my mind telling me that I have come so far and that I could just dip for finals week, graduate, and then jump right back on the quit train like its nothing. But I know this is a trap and I have tried to think about the pros/cons of dipping for finals and I can't think of one "pro" that actually makes sense. FUCK YOU NIC BITCH.Â
So at Day 49 I would like to say that I am QLFuck with all of you today and I can't fucking wait for tomorrow to do it all again.
Good idea. Wish I had compiled my experiences a little better.
Congratulations on being a damn sight smarter than me. I won't go into the whole story here and clutter up your intro, but I wish I had quit early like you did. The details are in my HOF speech if you care to read it.
What he said X2
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Hey guys haven't posted much in my intro thread and thought I should put something up in here at Day 49 for something to look back on down the road.
I was not a dipper as long as some of the guys here at KTC but I definitely got up to speed very quickly and was flying through cans in less than 12 hours. Most of my time spent dipping was in the library, at my desk, sometimes even ninja style in the back of the classroom. I am 22 years old and have always told myself these last few years that I would quit dip right as I graduated college. Listening to the stories here about guys who have dipped for 30+ years scares the shit out of me, all it takes is one more dip after graduation and I could follow right down that path. From what I understand many of you would do anything to be in my shoes and would kick your 20 year old self right in the ass. After reading the site for a few days before my day 1 I decided that there really was no better time than right NOW and I dumped my can. Now when my graduation date comes around (may 10th) I will be dip/nicotine free for 78 days! This will be a HUGE day for me as I will be able to start the next chapter of my life free of nicotine.
The only real cravings I have been facing come when its time for me to sit down and study. Dip has always been my crutch and I thought that it "helped" me study longer and stay focused. But in reality it did none of that, it will definitely take some time to forget about this ritual. With finals quickly approaching I still hear the nic bitch in the back of my mind telling me that I have come so far and that I could just dip for finals week, graduate, and then jump right back on the quit train like its nothing. But I know this is a trap and I have tried to think about the pros/cons of dipping for finals and I can't think of one "pro" that actually makes sense. FUCK YOU NIC BITCH.Â
So at Day 49 I would like to say that I am QLFuck with all of you today and I can't fucking wait for tomorrow to do it all again.
Good idea. Wish I had compiled my experiences a little better.
Congratulations on being a damn sight smarter than me. I won't go into the whole story here and clutter up your intro, but I wish I had quit early like you did. The details are in my HOF speech if you care to read it.
What he said X2
Well, Said Ajacks! We have some bad asses, in P3, I quit with you today!
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Hey guys haven't posted much in my intro thread and thought I should put something up in here at Day 49 for something to look back on down the road.
I was not a dipper as long as some of the guys here at KTC but I definitely got up to speed very quickly and was flying through cans in less than 12 hours. Most of my time spent dipping was in the library, at my desk, sometimes even ninja style in the back of the classroom. I am 22 years old and have always told myself these last few years that I would quit dip right as I graduated college. Listening to the stories here about guys who have dipped for 30+ years scares the shit out of me, all it takes is one more dip after graduation and I could follow right down that path. From what I understand many of you would do anything to be in my shoes and would kick your 20 year old self right in the ass. After reading the site for a few days before my day 1 I decided that there really was no better time than right NOW and I dumped my can. Now when my graduation date comes around (may 10th) I will be dip/nicotine free for 78 days! This will be a HUGE day for me as I will be able to start the next chapter of my life free of nicotine.
The only real cravings I have been facing come when its time for me to sit down and study. Dip has always been my crutch and I thought that it "helped" me study longer and stay focused. But in reality it did none of that, it will definitely take some time to forget about this ritual. With finals quickly approaching I still hear the nic bitch in the back of my mind telling me that I have come so far and that I could just dip for finals week, graduate, and then jump right back on the quit train like its nothing. But I know this is a trap and I have tried to think about the pros/cons of dipping for finals and I can't think of one "pro" that actually makes sense. FUCK YOU NIC BITCH.Â
So at Day 49 I would like to say that I am QLFuck with all of you today and I can't fucking wait for tomorrow to do it all again.
Good idea. Wish I had compiled my experiences a little better.
Congratulations on being a damn sight smarter than me. I won't go into the whole story here and clutter up your intro, but I wish I had quit early like you did. The details are in my HOF speech if you care to read it.
Just read through your intro, good stuff man.
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Hey guys haven't posted much in my intro thread and thought I should put something up in here at Day 49 for something to look back on down the road.
I was not a dipper as long as some of the guys here at KTC but I definitely got up to speed very quickly and was flying through cans in less than 12 hours. Most of my time spent dipping was in the library, at my desk, sometimes even ninja style in the back of the classroom. I am 22 years old and have always told myself these last few years that I would quit dip right as I graduated college. Listening to the stories here about guys who have dipped for 30+ years scares the shit out of me, all it takes is one more dip after graduation and I could follow right down that path. From what I understand many of you would do anything to be in my shoes and would kick your 20 year old self right in the ass. After reading the site for a few days before my day 1 I decided that there really was no better time than right NOW and I dumped my can. Now when my graduation date comes around (may 10th) I will be dip/nicotine free for 78 days! This will be a HUGE day for me as I will be able to start the next chapter of my life free of nicotine.
The only real cravings I have been facing come when its time for me to sit down and study. Dip has always been my crutch and I thought that it "helped" me study longer and stay focused. But in reality it did none of that, it will definitely take some time to forget about this ritual. With finals quickly approaching I still hear the nic bitch in the back of my mind telling me that I have come so far and that I could just dip for finals week, graduate, and then jump right back on the quit train like its nothing. But I know this is a trap and I have tried to think about the pros/cons of dipping for finals and I can't think of one "pro" that actually makes sense. FUCK YOU NIC BITCH.Â
So at Day 49 I would like to say that I am QLFuck with all of you today and I can't fucking wait for tomorrow to do it all again.
Good idea. Wish I had compiled my experiences a little better.
Congratulations on being a damn sight smarter than me. I won't go into the whole story here and clutter up your intro, but I wish I had quit early like you did. The details are in my HOF speech if you care to read it.
Just read through your intro, good stuff man.
Keep it up! I know there are a lot of us here that wish we could go back and kick the crap out of our 22 year old selves and quit like you are doing right now.
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Hey guys haven't posted much in my intro thread and thought I should put something up in here at Day 49 for something to look back on down the road.
I was not a dipper as long as some of the guys here at KTC but I definitely got up to speed very quickly and was flying through cans in less than 12 hours. Most of my time spent dipping was in the library, at my desk, sometimes even ninja style in the back of the classroom. I am 22 years old and have always told myself these last few years that I would quit dip right as I graduated college. Listening to the stories here about guys who have dipped for 30+ years scares the shit out of me, all it takes is one more dip after graduation and I could follow right down that path. From what I understand many of you would do anything to be in my shoes and would kick your 20 year old self right in the ass. After reading the site for a few days before my day 1 I decided that there really was no better time than right NOW and I dumped my can. Now when my graduation date comes around (may 10th) I will be dip/nicotine free for 78 days! This will be a HUGE day for me as I will be able to start the next chapter of my life free of nicotine.
The only real cravings I have been facing come when its time for me to sit down and study. Dip has always been my crutch and I thought that it "helped" me study longer and stay focused. But in reality it did none of that, it will definitely take some time to forget about this ritual. With finals quickly approaching I still hear the nic bitch in the back of my mind telling me that I have come so far and that I could just dip for finals week, graduate, and then jump right back on the quit train like its nothing. But I know this is a trap and I have tried to think about the pros/cons of dipping for finals and I can't think of one "pro" that actually makes sense. FUCK YOU NIC BITCH.Â
So at Day 49 I would like to say that I am QLFuck with all of you today and I can't fucking wait for tomorrow to do it all again.
Good idea. Wish I had compiled my experiences a little better.
Congratulations on being a damn sight smarter than me. I won't go into the whole story here and clutter up your intro, but I wish I had quit early like you did. The details are in my HOF speech if you care to read it.
Just read through your intro, good stuff man.
Keep it up! I know there are a lot of us here that wish we could go back and kick the crap out of our 22 year old selves and quit like you are doing right now.
Quit on Ajacks23!! You'll live to enjoy it Sir!! 'bang head'
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Hey guys haven't posted much in my intro thread and thought I should put something up in here at Day 49 for something to look back on down the road.
I was not a dipper as long as some of the guys here at KTC but I definitely got up to speed very quickly and was flying through cans in less than 12 hours. Most of my time spent dipping was in the library, at my desk, sometimes even ninja style in the back of the classroom. I am 22 years old and have always told myself these last few years that I would quit dip right as I graduated college. Listening to the stories here about guys who have dipped for 30+ years scares the shit out of me, all it takes is one more dip after graduation and I could follow right down that path. From what I understand many of you would do anything to be in my shoes and would kick your 20 year old self right in the ass. After reading the site for a few days before my day 1 I decided that there really was no better time than right NOW and I dumped my can. Now when my graduation date comes around (may 10th) I will be dip/nicotine free for 78 days! This will be a HUGE day for me as I will be able to start the next chapter of my life free of nicotine.
The only real cravings I have been facing come when its time for me to sit down and study. Dip has always been my crutch and I thought that it "helped" me study longer and stay focused. But in reality it did none of that, it will definitely take some time to forget about this ritual. With finals quickly approaching I still hear the nic bitch in the back of my mind telling me that I have come so far and that I could just dip for finals week, graduate, and then jump right back on the quit train like its nothing. But I know this is a trap and I have tried to think about the pros/cons of dipping for finals and I can't think of one "pro" that actually makes sense. FUCK YOU NIC BITCH.Â
So at Day 49 I would like to say that I am QLFuck with all of you today and I can't fucking wait for tomorrow to do it all again.
Good idea. Wish I had compiled my experiences a little better.
Congratulations on being a damn sight smarter than me. I won't go into the whole story here and clutter up your intro, but I wish I had quit early like you did. The details are in my HOF speech if you care to read it.
Just read through your intro, good stuff man.
Keep it up! I know there are a lot of us here that wish we could go back and kick the crap out of our 22 year old selves and quit like you are doing right now.
Quit on Ajacks23!! You'll live to enjoy it Sir!! 'bang head'
20 years, 2 years, 2 months..it's all too fucking long.
Fuck chew. Fuck it right in the fucking ass.
Fuck nicotine, fuck getting hooked on it, fuck becoming dependent on it, fuck giving it ANY credit, fuck ever going back to it, fuck off and die.
I fucking HATE that shit.
I might buy a can today just so I can take a shit on it. But that would be giving big tobacco another cent of my money, so fuck that and fuck them too.
fuck off nicotine, you fucking idiot.
Great work Ajack! Keep up the great work!
Fuck.
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Anyone else having some issues with the site loading today? or could I just be watching too much porn? 'boob'
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Anyone else having some issues with the site loading today? or could I just be watching too much porn? 'boob'
Not me, but I have not started looking for tits, yet.....
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One thing that I want to mention....Every time I see the title of this thread, it makes me cringe. You are on multiple roads, and yes, to the HoF is one of them but not the one you should focus on. Every day, you are on all of these, it will never change. EVERY DAY.
Road to the end of the day.
Road to the next gas station to fill up.
Road til tomorrow.
Road to being around someone else who dips/smokes.
Road to the next major disaster in your life.
Milestones like 100 days, 200 days, 1 year, etc. are great and help us remind ourselves of where we have been. But goals of winning at the end of each of the roads above (which is not a complete list by any means) are just as important. Have a game plan to win, and win well.
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One thing that I want to mention....Every time I see the title of this thread, it makes me cringe. You are on multiple roads, and yes, to the HoF is one of them but not the one you should focus on. Every day, you are on all of these, it will never change. EVERY DAY.
Road to the end of the day.
Road to the next gas station to fill up.
Road til tomorrow.
Road to being around someone else who dips/smokes.
Road to the next major disaster in your life.
Milestones like 100 days, 200 days, 1 year, etc. are great and help us remind ourselves of where we have been. But goals of winning at the end of each of the roads above (which is not a complete list by any means) are just as important. Have a game plan to win, and win well.
'clap' 'clap'
Gospel truth.
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One thing that I want to mention....Every time I see the title of this thread, it makes me cringe. You are on multiple roads, and yes, to the HoF is one of them but not the one you should focus on. Every day, you are on all of these, it will never change. EVERY DAY.
Road to the end of the day.
Road to the next gas station to fill up.
Road til tomorrow.
Road to being around someone else who dips/smokes.
Road to the next major disaster in your life.
Milestones like 100 days, 200 days, 1 year, etc. are great and help us remind ourselves of where we have been. But goals of winning at the end of each of the roads above (which is not a complete list by any means) are just as important. Have a game plan to win, and win well.
Made that title 55 days ago..my perspective has changed dramatically over that time.
QLFuck