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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Jason Raiford on May 17, 2013, 11:25:00 AM
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I wanted to intruduce myself. I dipped for 30 years plus. I was given the habbit by my third grade baseball coach. I never tried to quit and never thought about the quit. I have not dipped for three days now....I almost caved yesterday. I thought of my family and you guys. Thought of the promise and the contract I would have to fill out. I won....but the battle starts again today. If I can quit for three days after 30 years.....anyone can do this. It was my baby and at the same time my demon. I quit with you!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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quit on brother...i'm only on day 10 but i can tell you, you are almost to the point that the nicotine is out of your system (depending on the hour you quit it could be now). That was really the hard part for me. It's tough maintenance for now...diligent actually is a better word. We just lost a quitter today so i hope we have picked up a tougher one to take his weak ass place. If you need anything just pm any of our guys in our quit group. Post roll every day or you will get blasted by the vets...support your fellow quitters and this site will save your life.
And wtf? Your 3rd grade baseball coach probably should have gotten a little jail time for that!!
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Ha I know....back then It was not was not thought of as a bad habit. I will not ever go back to dip....I have to much to live for. I went to the Dr because I had a sore throat and my ear hurt. As all of us i thought the worse.......the Dr put her hand on me and said it is all the changes going on in my body. She said hang on and get ready for the ass kicking. You quit the worse drug made. She even told me that the only drug worse is heroin
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In for the roller coaster of your life - Quitting is personal but joining a bad ass group like this gives you greater odds of kicking the bitch to the curb - Every Damn Day!
Your promise is posted so you have no choice but to stay quit - I will see you tomorrow.
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Ha I know....back then It was not was not thought of as a bad habbit. I will not ever go back to dip....I have to much to live for. I went to the Dr because I had a sore throat and my ear hurt. As all of us i thought the worse.......the Dr put her hand on me and said it is all the changes going on in my body. She said hang on and get ready for the ass kicking. You quit the worse drug made. She even told me that the only drug worse is herion!
Yeah that is the part that my wife is having a hard time wrapping her brain around i think...the whole it's as addictive or more addictive than heroin or cocaine and that is why it's so hard to quit! She's coming around though, but i don't know if she'll ever fully understand. Anyhow...quit on!
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quit on brother...i'm only on day 10 but i can tell you, you are almost to the point that the nicotine is out of your system (depending on the hour you quit it could be now). That was really the hard part for me. It's tough maintenance for now...diligent actually is a better word. We just lost a quitter today so i hope we have picked up a tougher one to take his weak ass place. If you need anything just pm any of our guys in our quit group. Post roll every day or you will get blasted by the vets...support your fellow quitters and this site will save your life.
And wtf? Your 3rd grade baseball coach probably should have gotten a little jail time for that!!
Listen brother,,, you are right in the suck. It gets so much better. Do you have some phone #s. Mine is now in your inbox. You've been winning for 3 days brother.. You know what that means?
That's 3 days of freedom. 3 days that you haven't spent your hard earned money on something that is killing you, taking your freedom and dignity. 3 Days you haven't been putting some stinky {yes it stinks} dirt like substance that absolutely makes no sense whatsoever in your person. I say we continue taking our life back today,, I quit with you.
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I know what you mean about the wife deal..... My girlfriend laughed at me when I was having cold sweats and about to pass out. She got on the kill the can and felt terrible about what she said. She even went and got me all kinds of snacks and more! lol
The battle is ours....and we have to fight alone in our heads. We have good guys like Chip and Chewie to help. ...but the battle is our own!
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I have had the most amount of realizations here on this site. My thinking has changed I have been provided tools to defend myself... keep this site close to you especially with the weekend on the horizon get numbers post roll give us your promise you will be nicotine free today. READ READ READ
remember its not a habit its an addiction... and like me you will always be an addict...
I quit with you today... stay strong
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I wanted to intruduce myself. I dipped for 30 years plus. I was given the habbit by my third grade baseball coach. I never tried to quit and never thought about the quit. I have not dipped for three days now....I almost caved yesterday. I thought of my family and you guys. Thought of the promise and the contract I would have to fill out I won....but the battle starts again today. If I can quit for three days after 30 years.....anyone can do this. It was my baby and at the same time my demon. I quit with you!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Welcome Jason, and welcome to day three. Well it really sounds like you are quit for you.
AT day three, the nic should be out of your system, now it's just the mind games. Glad you are hear and glad you introduced yourself. I can tell you in my quit it helped me a lot to get involved in the site. Reach out to others in your group and become accountable.
I quit with you today
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Thats what the spouses and significant others dont know how it is to be an addict. I 100% know what JayD is saying. Withdrawals suck embrace the suck remember how you felt....and know that this is how you get to the other side.
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I know what you mean about the wife deal..... My girlfriend laughed at me when I was having cold sweats and about to pass out. She got on the kill the can and felt terrible about what she said. She even went and got me all kinds of snacks and more! lol
The battle is ours....and we have to fight alone in our heads. We have good guys like Chip and Chewie to help. ...but the battle is our own!
Jason,, jay,, sadly, your wife will never understand fully unless she too had the addiction. It is actually one of the hard parts of quitting. It took a while for me to wrap my head around the fact that quitting is more mental than physical. Part of the mental is dealing with wife, kids, and life in general while quitting something you have grown to love more than all that. Yea,, you loved it more!!
My wife thinks I should be completely healed right now which is so far from the truth. She understands more, but she'll never really understand,, which is ok... I don't want her to ever understand fully. Quit on gentlemen..
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I wanted to intruduce myself. I dipped for 30 years plus. I was given the habbit by my third grade baseball coach. I never tried to quit and never thought about the quit. I have not dipped for three days now....I almost caved yesterday. I thought of my family and you guys. Thought of the promise and the contract I would have to fill out. I won....but the battle starts again today. If I can quit for three days after 30 years.....anyone can do this. It was my baby and at the same time my demon. I quit with you!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wow you are posting roll which make you a badd ass as long as you keep that work remember it is a promise. It's not a casual "I agree to another day" statement, its your word to guys who are going through the same hell as you that your are going to stick by their side all day and not cave! You keep your work to us Brother! We care about you and want you with us for a long time. I am proud as hell to be quit with you man! You pm me if you need anything!
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Erussel and Cbird....thank all of you guys! I stand with you and quit! I take roll very serious and will not fail!
I felt like I was free yesterday for the first time. I even smiled and thought....I dont have to worry about cancer or buying the crap anymore.
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Srans....got your number....call me if you need me as well!
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Erussel and Cbird....thank all of you guys! I stand with you and quit! I take roll very serious and will not fail!
I felt like I was free yesterday for the first time. I even smiled and thought....I dont have to worry about cancer or buying the crap anymore.
Isn't it an amazing realization that you no longer have to plan for extra time, when you do ANYTHING, so you can make it by the store for a backup or new can? Congrats on the decision to take your life back! If you need anything... Any. Thing.... Just ask and you got it. Proud to quit with you today, man!
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I quit with Jason and any one else that has the balls to kick the bitch's ass.
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How about an update??
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Well it is now day 29 and I look back over the last days. Wow have they flown by! I think I should have been more involved with the group on this site. I think when I quit a just put my head down and did not look up. I had the shakes and about passed out several times. My girlfriend said even my eyes looked funny. I am now proving slowly to myself each day I have truly quit. I was at a co-workers desk that dips Cope...I thought all you have to do is reach down pick that can up and take one dip. Then fear came over me as I thought back to some of the things the vets have said. Me taking role that day. I gave my word to my quit group and the Vets on the site.
I did not want to see the disappointment in my parents eyes when they asked how's the quit was going. I did not want to fear every little sore in my mouth. So I looked at that can....I thought no more!
I have recently been through and still am going through a rough patch in my life. I have been divorced and lost my home, campers, boats, friends and my wife. I have evaluated and tore myself up. There was war in my head and I kept torturing my self and my soul. I am not looking for a pity party. All I want to do is help someone stay quit.....look what I have been through and I made no excuses to cave!
Each day our battle will drum and we have to pick up the shield and fight of the devils drug.
Stay quit!
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Well it is now day 29 and I look back over the last days. Wow have they flown by! I think I should have been more involved with the group on this site. I think when I quit a just put my head down and did not look up. I had the shakes and about passed out several times. My girlfriend said even my eyes looked funny. I am now proving slowly to myself each day I have truly quit. I was at a co-workers desk that dips Cope...I thought all you have to do is reach down pick that can up and take one dip. Then fear came over me as I thought back to some of the things the vets have said. Me taking role that day. I gave my word to my quit group and the Vets on the site.
I did not want to see the disappointment in my parents eyes when they asked how's the quit was going. I did not want to fear every little sore in my mouth. So I looked at that can....I thought no more!
I have recently been through and still am going through a rough patch in my life. I have been divorced and lost my home, campers, boats, friends and my wife. I have evaluated and tore myself up. There was war in my head and I kept torturing my self and my soul. I am not looking for a pity party. All I want to do is help someone stay quit.....look what I have been through and I made no excuses to cave!
Each day our battle will drum and we have to pick up the shield and fight of the devils drug.Â
Stay quit!
"Me taking role that day".... Dude your not hanging out with Gman are you? Ghey?
Just playing with you. It's good to see your post. I was just thinking about how some of the people in my group are not well known to me. I like how you say you want to be more involved in the group and site. We need more people bringing positivity to the site. That's what happens when you tell us about your quit. We all get to nod our heads and relate.
Your post does inspire me. I have had a shitty day, and the things you have gone through and NOT caved during, gives me proof that hard times do not mean you have to be weak. Thank you for showing me that!
So today you did what you want to do. You helped me!
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Well it is now day 29 and I look back over the last days. Wow have they flown by! I think I should have been more involved with the group on this site. I think when I quit a just put my head down and did not look up. I had the shakes and about passed out several times. My girlfriend said even my eyes looked funny. I am now proving slowly to myself each day I have truly quit. I was at a co-workers desk that dips Cope...I thought all you have to do is reach down pick that can up and take one dip. Then fear came over me as I thought back to some of the things the vets have said. Me taking role that day. I gave my word to my quit group and the Vets on the site.
I did not want to see the disappointment in my parents eyes when they asked how's the quit was going. I did not want to fear every little sore in my mouth. So I looked at that can....I thought no more!
I have recently been through and still am going through a rough patch in my life. I have been divorced and lost my home, campers, boats, friends and my wife. I have evaluated and tore myself up. There was war in my head and I kept torturing my self and my soul. I am not looking for a pity party. All I want to do is help someone stay quit.....look what I have been through and I made no excuses to cave!
Each day our battle will drum and we have to pick up the shield and fight of the devils drug.Â
Stay quit!
"Me taking role that day".... Dude your not hanging out with Gman are you? Ghey?
Just playing with you. It's good to see your post. I was just thinking about how some of the people in my group are not well known to me. I like how you say you want to be more involved in the group and site. We need more people bringing positivity to the site. That's what happens when you tell us about your quit. We all get to nod our heads and relate.
Your post does inspire me. I have had a shitty day, and the things you have gone through and NOT caved during, gives me proof that hard times do not mean you have to be weak. Thank you for showing me that!
So today you did what you want to do. You helped me!
Never forget my friend...Brotherhood is a two way street here on the site. It is an absolute pleasure that you want to help others, and by darned your posting have and will do that. But remember to open up and also receive that same help from others. As that is the way we stay the strongest that we can in our battle.
Well done and I quit with you today +1
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Well it is now day 29 and I look back over the last days. Wow have they flown by! I think I should have been more involved with the group on this site. I think when I quit a just put my head down and did not look up. I had the shakes and about passed out several times. My girlfriend said even my eyes looked funny. I am now proving slowly to myself each day I have truly quit. I was at a co-workers desk that dips Cope...I thought all you have to do is reach down pick that can up and take one dip. Then fear came over me as I thought back to some of the things the vets have said. Me taking role that day. I gave my word to my quit group and the Vets on the site.
I did not want to see the disappointment in my parents eyes when they asked how's the quit was going. I did not want to fear every little sore in my mouth. So I looked at that can....I thought no more!
I have recently been through and still am going through a rough patch in my life. I have been divorced and lost my home, campers, boats, friends and my wife. I have evaluated and tore myself up. There was war in my head and I kept torturing my self and my soul. I am not looking for a pity party. All I want to do is help someone stay quit.....look what I have been through and I made no excuses to cave!
Each day our battle will drum and we have to pick up the shield and fight of the devils drug.Â
Stay quit!
"Me taking role that day".... Dude your not hanging out with Gman are you? Ghey?
Just playing with you. It's good to see your post. I was just thinking about how some of the people in my group are not well known to me. I like how you say you want to be more involved in the group and site. We need more people bringing positivity to the site. That's what happens when you tell us about your quit. We all get to nod our heads and relate.
Your post does inspire me. I have had a shitty day, and the things you have gone through and NOT caved during, gives me proof that hard times do not mean you have to be weak. Thank you for showing me that!
So today you did what you want to do. You helped me!
Thanks Brother for the nice reply....I appreciate it. No not running with that cat! lol
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Well it is now day 29 and I look back over the last days. Wow have they flown by! I think I should have been more involved with the group on this site. I think when I quit a just put my head down and did not look up. I had the shakes and about passed out several times. My girlfriend said even my eyes looked funny. I am now proving slowly to myself each day I have truly quit. I was at a co-workers desk that dips Cope...I thought all you have to do is reach down pick that can up and take one dip. Then fear came over me as I thought back to some of the things the vets have said. Me taking role that day. I gave my word to my quit group and the Vets on the site.
I did not want to see the disappointment in my parents eyes when they asked how's the quit was going. I did not want to fear every little sore in my mouth. So I looked at that can....I thought no more!
I have recently been through and still am going through a rough patch in my life. I have been divorced and lost my home, campers, boats, friends and my wife. I have evaluated and tore myself up. There was war in my head and I kept torturing my self and my soul. I am not looking for a pity party. All I want to do is help someone stay quit.....look what I have been through and I made no excuses to cave!
Each day our battle will drum and we have to pick up the shield and fight of the devils drug.Â
Stay quit!
"Me taking role that day".... Dude your not hanging out with Gman are you? Ghey?
Just playing with you. It's good to see your post. I was just thinking about how some of the people in my group are not well known to me. I like how you say you want to be more involved in the group and site. We need more people bringing positivity to the site. That's what happens when you tell us about your quit. We all get to nod our heads and relate.
Your post does inspire me. I have had a shitty day, and the things you have gone through and NOT caved during, gives me proof that hard times do not mean you have to be weak. Thank you for showing me that!
So today you did what you want to do. You helped me!
Thanks Brother for the nice reply....I appreciate it. No not running with that cat! lol
'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup'
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Thanks Jake....those were nice words. Stay gold pony boy...stay gold!
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Thanks Jake....those were nice words. Stay gold pony boy...stay gold!
Good post jason. I'm sorry about your personal difficulties. Life can throw some serious curve balls. I'm glad to see that you have realized that the poison doesn't help one bit with any of those curve ball. It's something how a person like yourself can be going through so much, but still come here and lift people up. Thats KTC at its best brother. We all have something to offer. I quit with your brother.
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Jason, from the little you have shared, I see a Phoenix rising. You have worked hard to throw the nic bitch off your back and that is a great beginning to a new life. I bet if you could see into the future one year, life will be pretty sweet. Keep up the good fight, I quit with you today.
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Thanks Sage and Srans...you guys will have to forgive me on this site. I am learning how to navigate with the help of CBIRD. This thing can be complicated to a new guy. stay quit my brothers!
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Thanks Sage and Srans...you guys will have to forgive me on this site. I am learning how to navigate with the help of CBIRD. This thing can be complicated to a new guy. stay quit my brothers!
And sisters.
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I hear the train a commin........ We are on our way bro, pick you up in the am! Erussell 112.