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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Talonad on March 03, 2015, 09:42:00 AM
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Hi guys, I have been lurking in the back of these forums for weeks, nay months, trying to pull my shit up enough to finally quit. March 1st was the day I got my shit together and finally did it. Today is my day three and I am embracing the suck. As to my history, I dipped for 22 years, more than half my life (I am 34) since my step brother and I stole a pouch of chatanooga chew from my uncle when I was 12 years old and I was hooked. At the time I finally quit, I was up to 2-2.5 cans a day, my wife has been on my butt to quit, and i am freaking out every time i see something weird around my mouth or face thinking its cancer. This shit is gonna end up killing me if i dont kill it first. I planned the best I could, I work a very stressful job (restaurant general manager) so I took 4 days off work, I have 12 cans of Hooch (rough wiskey) and several packs of spitz seeds. The fog is the hardest part for me, I am actually a very intellectual person (though I know this post looks grammatically atrocious), i cant stand the feeling of not being able to think right. I will embrace my quit because i have to, because the suck that it is, is nothing compared to the suck that dipping will end up bringing me. This suck is my penance, this suck is my armor, this suck is my own and i will own it. Today i am day 3 and i will see tomorrow clean. I have posted roll with the goons of june 15, and i will see you all in HoF.
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Hi guys, I have been lurking in the back of these forums for weeks, nay months, trying to pull my shit up enough to finally quit. March 1st was the day I got my shit together and finally did it. Today is my day three and I am embracing the suck. As to my history, I dipped for 22 years, more than half my life (I am 34) since my step brother and I stole a pouch of chatanooga chew from my uncle when I was 12 years old and I was hooked. At the time I finally quit, I was up to 2-2.5 cans a day, my wife has been on my butt to quit, and i am freaking out every time i see something weird around my mouth or face thinking its cancer. This shit is gonna end up killing me if i dont kill it first. I planned the best I could, I work a very stressful job (restaurant general manager) so I took 4 days off work, I have 12 cans of Hooch (rough wiskey) and several packs of spitz seeds. The fog is the hardest part for me, I am actually a very intellectual person (though I know this post looks grammatically atrocious), i cant stand the feeling of not being able to think right. I will embrace my quit because i have to, because the suck that it is, is nothing compared to the suck that dipping will end up bringing me. This suck is my penance, this suck is my armor, this suck is my own and i will own it. Today i am day 3 and i will see tomorrow clean. I have posted roll with the goons of june 15, and i will see you all in HoF.
Welcome Talonad,
You got the lingo down.. and your body now is Nic free after 72 hours Congratulations.
Sounds like a mature start, for a lot of good reasons, and I think your understanding of the Suck is awesome!
I quit with you today.
Bring on the Suck.... its good for you!
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Hi guys, I have been lurking in the back of these forums for weeks, nay months, trying to pull my shit up enough to finally quit. March 1st was the day I got my shit together and finally did it. Today is my day three and I am embracing the suck. As to my history, I dipped for 22 years, more than half my life (I am 34) since my step brother and I stole a pouch of chatanooga chew from my uncle when I was 12 years old and I was hooked. At the time I finally quit, I was up to 2-2.5 cans a day, my wife has been on my butt to quit, and i am freaking out every time i see something weird around my mouth or face thinking its cancer. This shit is gonna end up killing me if i dont kill it first. I planned the best I could, I work a very stressful job (restaurant general manager) so I took 4 days off work, I have 12 cans of Hooch (rough wiskey) and several packs of spitz seeds. The fog is the hardest part for me, I am actually a very intellectual person (though I know this post looks grammatically atrocious), i cant stand the feeling of not being able to think right. I will embrace my quit because i have to, because the suck that it is, is nothing compared to the suck that dipping will end up bringing me. This suck is my penance, this suck is my armor, this suck is my own and i will own it. Today i am day 3 and i will see tomorrow clean. I have posted roll with the goons of june 15, and i will see you all in HoF.
Yes sir that's what I like to hear! Bitch ain't killing you! You killing her first! Awesome! Realize your an addict just like the rest of us! As an addict we come edd post roll giving or word no tobacco for that day. Wake up next day do same thing one day at a time! It sucks but gets much better! Worth every damn second! Damn proud to be quit with you today! Pm for number
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Congrats on a great choice, Talonad! Now let's reverse the suck. You don't get freedom for the asking. You have to earn it. And that is done one day at a time. As the poet John Donne (probably) said,
"Never send to know for whom the quit bell tolls. The quit bell tolls for thee." I'm pretty sure that is word for word what he said. Does that type of intellectualocity fire you up? It does me.
One thing that you will realize is that bad ass quitters are geniuses. Quitting is a privilege reserved to those who have the balls and brains to do it. Everyone who appears in the Quit Groups does...you included. Congrats!!!
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Hi guys, I have been lurking in the back of these forums for weeks, nay months, trying to pull my shit up enough to finally quit. March 1st was the day I got my shit together and finally did it. Today is my day three and I am embracing the suck. As to my history, I dipped for 22 years, more than half my life (I am 34) since my step brother and I stole a pouch of chatanooga chew from my uncle when I was 12 years old and I was hooked. At the time I finally quit, I was up to 2-2.5 cans a day, my wife has been on my butt to quit, and i am freaking out every time i see something weird around my mouth or face thinking its cancer. This shit is gonna end up killing me if i dont kill it first. I planned the best I could, I work a very stressful job (restaurant general manager) so I took 4 days off work, I have 12 cans of Hooch (rough wiskey) and several packs of spitz seeds. The fog is the hardest part for me, I am actually a very intellectual person (though I know this post looks grammatically atrocious), i cant stand the feeling of not being able to think right. I will embrace my quit because i have to, because the suck that it is, is nothing compared to the suck that dipping will end up bringing me. This suck is my penance, this suck is my armor, this suck is my own and i will own it. Today i am day 3 and i will see tomorrow clean. I have posted roll with the goons of june 15, and i will see you all in HoF.
Hey, bud, I'm a bar/restaurant general manager as well. Day 51 here. Trust me, you will get MUCH better at your job when you're not managing the business and the nic mistress at the same time. You will be much more effective and focused.
Post roll, one day at a time, rinse and repeat.
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Hi guys, I have been lurking in the back of these forums for weeks, nay months, trying to pull my shit up enough to finally quit. March 1st was the day I got my shit together and finally did it. Today is my day three and I am embracing the suck. As to my history, I dipped for 22 years, more than half my life (I am 34) since my step brother and I stole a pouch of chatanooga chew from my uncle when I was 12 years old and I was hooked. At the time I finally quit, I was up to 2-2.5 cans a day, my wife has been on my butt to quit, and i am freaking out every time i see something weird around my mouth or face thinking its cancer. This shit is gonna end up killing me if i dont kill it first. I planned the best I could, I work a very stressful job (restaurant general manager) so I took 4 days off work, I have 12 cans of Hooch (rough wiskey) and several packs of spitz seeds. The fog is the hardest part for me, I am actually a very intellectual person (though I know this post looks grammatically atrocious), i cant stand the feeling of not being able to think right. I will embrace my quit because i have to, because the suck that it is, is nothing compared to the suck that dipping will end up bringing me. This suck is my penance, this suck is my armor, this suck is my own and i will own it. Today i am day 3 and i will see tomorrow clean. I have posted roll with the goons of june 15, and i will see you all in HoF.
I quit with this BAQ today! It'll suck until it doesn't and then it won't. It's that simple. Don't over think it. It's good that you have a plan. Hooch has saved me on countless occasions, and I don't feel guilty using it because it doesn't have any of that hazardous , carcinogenic ( how's that for being inteligente) crap in it that my Skoal did. Post roll every single day, and early. Also, cranberry juice helps a lot the first few days. Drink plenty of water and read, read, read on here. Knowledge is power and useful against an opponent with an IQ of zero.
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Thanks for the support guys. Went to the gym today and had one of the best feeling work-outs ever, and I won a free t-shirt. Seems like ever since I decided to quit, good things have started happening to me randomly. I am proud to be QLF beside and with every single one of you guys! I found that the seeds have actually been working better for me than the hooch. i still use the hooch when i would normally have a dip in but not have a spitter (ie shower, working in the garden, etc.) for the rest of the time i just use seeds and have constructed a new special "quitter spitter" for myself out of a sawed off 2-liter bottle (patent pending assholes, dont none of yall be stealing my designs)
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Thanks for the support guys. Went to the gym today and had one of the best feeling work-outs ever, and I won a free t-shirt. Seems like ever since I decided to quit, good things have started happening to me randomly. I am proud to be QLF beside and with every single one of you guys! I found that the seeds have actually been working better for me than the hooch. i still use the hooch when i would normally have a dip in but not have a spitter (ie shower, working in the garden, etc.) for the rest of the time i just use seeds and have constructed a new special "quitter spitter" for myself out of a sawed off 2-liter bottle (patent pending assholes, dont none of yall be stealing my designs)
Hey, whatever it takes to get through each day right now nic free. That's what matters. Keep fighting the good fight, bro, you're winning and getting stronger each day.
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Today is Day 7 of my quit. A lot of people find the weekends threatening, but I work in the restaurant business so its just another day to me. Fog has been worse the last couple of days, but kinda just coming and going throughout the day, working out definitely helps a lot, been going beast mode at the gym. Have now slowed way back on the seeds and fake, been using jolly ranchers when at work, they also tend to make me everyone's best friend. The fog sucks when it hits still, but the moments of clarity are so much infinitely better, like I can feel happiness and love with so much more intensity than I ever could before. One thing I know for certain, I never want to relive this first week again! QLFEDD
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Day 12, The first few days I slept all the time, now I have a hell of a time falling asleep. No problem sleeping when I get there, but like every time I start to fall asleep my body jerks awake like I am choking. weirdest damn feeling, and disorienting as hell. Today is day 12 for me and I can honestly say I don't even remember what a "real" fatty tasted or felt like anymore, the fake does just fine for me. My oral fixation has always been about more than dipping though, even when I would wouldn't have a dip in I would still try and have something else in my mouth. seeds, gum, candies, food, toothpicks, etc. just anything. With the smoky mountain I pop it in whenever I start getting that twitch, and I am good to go. The fog comes and goes, or maybe a better way to say, it gets lighter and heavier. Still don't feel like ive come fully out of it. sometimes I feel like it gets so heavy I cant even function, have to sit down for a few minutes, but that usually only lasts a short while. But it gets a little better every day, and I feel more and more proud of myself every day. This is the longest I have been without nicotine since 1998, and I feel like a whole new man. I feel like I am re-learning and re-creating myself every single day. Cheers fellas, for the first time in my life, I feel like I have a life to go out and live!
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Day 12, The first few days I slept all the time, now I have a hell of a time falling asleep. No problem sleeping when I get there, but like every time I start to fall asleep my body jerks awake like I am choking. weirdest damn feeling, and disorienting as hell. Today is day 12 for me and I can honestly say I don't even remember what a "real" fatty tasted or felt like anymore, the fake does just fine for me. My oral fixation has always been about more than dipping though, even when I would wouldn't have a dip in I would still try and have something else in my mouth. seeds, gum, candies, food, toothpicks, etc. just anything. With the smoky mountain I pop it in whenever I start getting that twitch, and I am good to go. The fog comes and goes, or maybe a better way to say, it gets lighter and heavier. Still don't feel like ive come fully out of it. sometimes I feel like it gets so heavy I cant even function, have to sit down for a few minutes, but that usually only lasts a short while. But it gets a little better every day, and I feel more and more proud of myself every day. This is the longest I have been without nicotine since 1998, and I feel like a whole new man. I feel like I am re-learning and re-creating myself every single day. Cheers fellas, for the first time in my life, I feel like I have a life to go out and live!
Life is so real and meaningful without dip! Seems like the sun shines brighter and the grass is greener that's the way I see it. Let's do this and enjoy every second we can nic free! Proud to be quit with you today my friend!
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Keep it up bro! I'm proud of you! There are a lot of guys here looking up to you. Me included!
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Keep it up bro! I'm proud of you! There are a lot of guys here looking up to you. Me invluded!
Me invluded also.
Sorry Gargoose.... Couldn't help myself.
Quit with both of you young studs. EDD ODAAT.
Quit On.
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thanks gargoose, rawls, and Pab. You guys have helped keep me strong and I owe my quit to this site and my june brothers.
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Welcome. Hope you stay quit and help others along the way.
Why joined day in September and quit in March?
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Welcome. Hope you stay quit and help others along the way.
Why joined day in September and quit in March?
Quite frankly, I hadn't found the balls to quit yet, always planning, saying I was going to slow down first, wean myself of, etc etc etc, same old bullshit addiction talk, until I finally said enough is enough and here I am.
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Welcome. Hope you stay quit and help others along the way.
Why joined day in September and quit in March?
Quite frankly, I hadn't found the balls to quit yet, always planning, saying I was going to slow down first, wean myself of, etc etc etc, same old bullshit addiction talk, until I finally said enough is enough and here I am.
You will be glad that you finally made one of the best decisions of your life Talon. You took a different path than most, but that was probably the nic bitch twisting your addict mind. Congratulations on finally quitting with KTC. It took me forever to start quitting - other than many short-lived and fruitless stoppages on my own. Keep posting roll every day, making that promise each morning. It will suck for a while, and the fog was frustration for me in trying to work and think efficiently, but it gets so much better in so many ways.
Quit with you EDD.
CJ
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Welcome. Hope you stay quit and help others along the way.
Why joined day in September and quit in March?
Quite frankly, I hadn't found the balls to quit yet, always planning, saying I was going to slow down first, wean myself of, etc etc etc, same old bullshit addiction talk, until I finally said enough is enough and here I am.
You will be glad that you finally made one of the best decisions of your life Talon. You took a different path than most, but that was probably the nic bitch twisting your addict mind. Congratulations on finally quitting with KTC. It took me forever to start quitting - other than many short-lived and fruitless stoppages on my own. Keep posting roll every day, making that promise each morning. It will suck for a while, and the fog was frustration for me in trying to work and think efficiently, but it gets so much better in so many ways.
Quit with you EDD.
CJ
I am glad every day to have the bitch out of my system. I knew it was all bullshit when I was looking for the site before, but she had her hooks in deep, telling me how scary lie was gonna be without her, I'd been dipping since I was 12, I had no idea how to live my life nicotine free. Blah blah blah, I wish I had just quit then, but oh well, I am here now and quit for good EDDODAAT!
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38 days today and my first real near miss. Got all the way to opening the can and the smell of it was so putrid I wanted to vomit. I cant believe I lived over 20 years smelling like that crap. How could anyone stand to be near me? I had to go apologize to my wife for her having to smell me like that for all these years, I don't know how she could stand to be near me. While I am pissed I had a near miss, it has strengthened my quit and my resolve so much. I am never going to smell like that again.
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Congrats on your 100. Here's to quitting with you every +1.
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Here to say congrads on 500 +1's
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Here to say congrads on 500 +1's
Congrats on 500 Talon!