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12 years, various brands, mainly skoal.
Sick of being a slave to nic.
I am quit.
I have stopped before but always went back. Justified a "reward can" or some dumbass shit reason.
I can't drink during this time. Too risky. It will dull my will.
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Welcome aboard. This quit isn't easy, but it's well worth it. Get on over to the August quit group, introduce yourself, post your promise early every day, and get involved. Oh, and I couldn't agree more about the no drinking part.
Read if you haven't yet.
forum/55560/ (http://forum.killthecan.org/forum/55560/)
Link to August Quit Group.
topic/11604982/98/#new (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/11604982/98/#new)
RNGLock Day 88
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Welcome aboard. This quit isn't easy, but it's well worth it. Get on over to the August quit group, introduce yourself, post your promise early every day, and get involved. Oh, and I couldn't agree more about the no drinking part.
Read if you haven't yet.
forum/55560/ (http://forum.killthecan.org/forum/55560/)
Link to August Quit Group.
topic/11604982/98/#new (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/11604982/98/#new)
RNGLock Day 88
Congrats on a great decision, Zoe's Dad. Quitting is done ONE DAY AT A TIME. Don't think about tomorrow, next week, next year, whatever. We'll deal with them when they get here. All you need to focus on is what you can control...TODAY, THIS 5 MINUTES. NOW is all that matters. And, you're quit. So congrats!!!
Stay strong, stay quit.
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Lots of water and hookup with some fellow quitters. Get involved in this site. Plenty of things to learn and to occupy your mind. It helps get through The Suck. WATER! WATER! WATER! I can't stress that enough. WATER! Some fruit juice is good as well.
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You've got this right. We are not in a fight against dip...we are in a fight against ourselves and our addiction, which spews lies and bullshit that make a lot of sense when you are really struggling. Know those lies for what they are, and build your quit one day at a time. Good luck.
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You've got this right. We are not in a fight against dip...we are in a fight against ourselves and our addiction, which spews lies and bullshit that make a lot of sense when you are really struggling. Know those lies for what they are, and build your quit one day at a time. Good luck.
I like the fact you used stopped vs. quit. We all stopped many times only to cave, make this you ONLY quit.
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You've got this right. We are not in a fight against dip...we are in a fight against ourselves and our addiction, which spews lies and bullshit that make a lot of sense when you are really struggling. Know those lies for what they are, and build your quit one day at a time. Good luck.
I like the fact you used stopped vs. quit. We all stopped many times only to cave, make this you ONLY quit.
Jump on these two's coat tails and hang on for the quit truth!
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This dad of Zoe is a badass quitter right here for sure
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Day 18 - Memorial Day Weekend. Really enjoying spending time with family, completely free of mood swings. I would normally be stealing off somewhere (probably the bathroom) to sneak in a ninja dip in order to be level-headed and nice enough to hang around family and friends. Not today! Not this weekend! Free! Truly free! I will remain vigilant. This freedom is one thought and emotion away from slavery. Today is my focus. I will not use nicotine in any way. I will guard against the thoughts and emotions that lead to physical relapse. I quit with you all today!
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Day 18 - Memorial Day Weekend. Really enjoying spending time with family, completely free of mood swings. I would normally be stealing off somewhere (probably the bathroom) to sneak in a ninja dip in order to be level-headed and nice enough to hang around family and friends. Not today! Not this weekend! Free! Truly free! I will remain vigilant. This freedom is one thought and emotion away from slavery. Today is my focus. I will not use nicotine in any way. I will guard against the thoughts and emotions that lead to physical relapse. I quit with you all today!
It only gets better! Doing great. Damn proud to be quit with you!
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Day 19 - Feels good to be a level-headed man able to have conflict without having to run and grab my "blankie" weed. In conflict with my wife it feels much better to be able to be clear and passionate without going over the top and being hurtful. I quit with you all today. I don't know if I will use tomorrow but I promise to not use today. Memorial Day PS: Remember, the greatest way to support our troops is to only put them in harms way and/or separate them from their families when the threat to our sovereignty is without a doubt worth the cost in blood and treasure.
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Day 19 - Feels good to be a level-headed man able to have conflict without having to run and grab my "blankie" weed. In conflict with my wife it feels much better to be able to be clear and passionate without going over the top and being hurtful. I quit with you all today. I don't know if I will use tomorrow but I promise to not use today. Memorial Day PS: Remember, the greatest way to support our troops is to only put them in harms way and/or separate them from their families when the threat to our sovereignty is without a doubt worth the cost in blood and treasure.
I'm honored to b quit with you.
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Day 22 - I had a dream, more like a nightmare, last night. That I stood in the gas station and struggled and struggled. I said "just one dip then I'll throw it out." I told myself "no! You'll let down all your guys on KTC and you'll have to answer to them!" it went back and forth like this for what seemed like an eternity. Finally the dream jumped to a scene of me taking a dip, apparently having given in. I was immediately disgusted, it tasted like sawdust! And is was brokenhearted that I had failed. In the dream I was trying to wake myself up to make sure it was just a dream and I hadn't actually caved. Even after I woke up I had to go look in my car door to make sure I hadn't gone out and bought a can. I had a vague memory of stashing the can in my car door. It was terrifying. I'm relieved to know it was a dream but damn I still feel shitty about it.
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Day 23 - I will not get complacent. I will not get cocky. I am not above my addiction now, I am managing it day by day. I will continue to shut down my addict brain and ignore the bargaining and justifications that lead to relapse. I fight with you all today. I do not know if I will use tomorrow, but I will not use today.
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These are must-have resources from wildirish317's signature:
The Law of Addiction: single/?p=9740764t=11541810 (http://forum.killthecan.org/single/?p=9740764&t=11541810)
The Road Called Recovery: single/?p=9760421t=11541810 (http://forum.killthecan.org/single/?p=9760421&t=11541810)
PAWs - The Two Year Phase of Withdrawal: single/?p=9771916t=11541810 (http://forum.killthecan.org/single/?p=9771916&t=11541810)
The Three Steps of Caving: single/?p=9785911t=11541810 (http://forum.killthecan.org/single/?p=9785911&t=11541810)
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Bravo! Know thine enemy, but never look past today. Today is where it all starts, and it needs to start in the right direction.
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Zoe'sDad Day 41 - I remember the suck. I remember the asshole slave I was to the weed. I hated who I was on it, rather without it. Which had to be maintenanced every 3 hours. Should I fail to feed the demon within I would be punished with a dull headache in my temple for the next 12 hours, regardless if I fed it or not. I will not be lured back for any reason. I used to get craves that would make me feel anxious and wash over me and I could feel it in my lower intestine and the back of my neck would bristle. I would struggle through life from one dip to the next. I had bought the lie that the dip was making me calm. Rather, it was the lack of dip that was stressing me out. This weekend with my daughter, even though she was screaming and not sleeping and being very difficult. I never had to retreat and leave my wife stranded. Because I am quit. I will stay quit. It is self-control. I am addict and I will beat this one day at a time. Thanks for the digits and kick in the pants Hawps. I quit with you all today.
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Zoe'sDad Day 41 - I remember the suck. I remember the asshole slave I was to the weed. I hated who I was on it, rather without it. Which had to be maintenanced every 3 hours. Should I fail to feed the demon within I would be punished with a dull headache in my temple for the next 12 hours, regardless if I fed it or not. I will not be lured back for any reason. I used to get craves that would make me feel anxious and wash over me and I could feel it in my lower intestine and the back of my neck would bristle. I would struggle through life from one dip to the next. I had bought the lie that the dip was making me calm. Rather, it was the lack of dip that was stressing me out. This weekend with my daughter, even though she was screaming and not sleeping and being very difficult. I never had to retreat and leave my wife stranded. Because I am quit. I will stay quit. It is self-control. I am addict and I will beat this one day at a time. Thanks for the digits and kick in the pants Hawps. I quit with you all today.
You, sir.....you "get" it. Quitting nicotine is NOT AT ALL about you denying yourself some wonderful pleasure. That is the myth. I'll wager that not understanding this truth leads to more failures than even alcohol.
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Day 49 - I will keep my promise today. I will earn the right to celebrate the big HOF half-way point tomorrow.
At the recommendation of CowMus I am reading through Eric71's intro thread. I'm 7 of the 14 pages in. It is without a doubt, the most inspiring and centering thing I have read on this site.
topic/1008753/7/ (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/1008753/7/)
Eric71's clarity of thought, and expression of his quit-journey resonates so richly with me. He understands the struggle perfectly and serves as a valiant role model to me, here, on the eve of my half-way point. Thank you so much Eric71.
I have alot of work to do to achieve the mindset and quit that Eric71 has achieved, but his example proves to me it is possible and lifts me up to a new realm of possibility and a higher plane of thought existence.
I will celebrate and capitalize on my freedom and living life as clearly as he does.
He also gives much more than I have been giving. I will focus my attention outwards, not be so self-centered.
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Day 49 - I will keep my promise today. I will earn the right to celebrate the big HOF half-way point tomorrow.
At the recommendation of CowMus I am reading through Eric71's intro thread. I'm 7 of the 14 pages in. It is without a doubt, the most inspiring and centering thing I have read on this site.
topic/1008753/7/ (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/1008753/7/)
Eric71's clarity of thought, and expression of his quit-journey resonates so richly with me. He understands the struggle perfectly and serves as a valiant role model to me, here, on the eve of my half-way point. Thank you so much Eric71.
I have alot of work to do to achieve the mindset and quit that Eric71 has achieved, but his example proves to me it is possible and lifts me up to a new realm of possibility and a higher plane of thought existence.
I will celebrate and capitalize on my freedom and living life as clearly as he does.
He also gives much more than I have been giving. I will focus my attention outwards, not be so self-centered.
Thank you sir for the kind words. The journey only ends when we stop walking. If you want peace, prepare for war.
QLAFM
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Well I'm an addict, that's for sure... How else can I be quit from a substance for 61 fucking days and still think about it and want it? I decided to get on here and read some intro's, read some folk's milestones, and try to encourage some folks just starting out on their journey. I'm mad that I still want dip. Will I ever be totally free? This blows. And as I type this I sound like a whiny bitch. I'll sack up and own my quit now.
Is this a game? Do I really miss stuffing the cancer in my face? My sweet daughter needs a father in her life. I want to grow old and see her sweet children and bounce them on my knee and spoil them. Why would I risk losing it all by flirting with the cancer that comes with dip? And I don't even like nicotine. I hate the system of slavery where I must feed nicotine to avoid missing nicotine. Without any satisfaction beyond feeding the crave. It costs too much money, I can use fake stuff, and it messes with my relationship with my wife, my health, and my professional demeanor and relationships.
I may not like the fake stuff, and stress may come that makes me think I want dip but I gotta remember: 1 problem + dip = 2 problems. I will recall the learning earlier about the steps of a relapse:
Mental
Emotional
Physical
I believe I gave into the Mental relapse yesterday and today. Bargaining and justifying was fully commenced. Luckily I didn't give in Emotionally or Physically. I will rebuild my walls and be a fortress of quit. One Day at A Time. I need to stop thinking long term. Just focus on the minute, the second, and keep my promise. The hour, the day. And worry about tomorrow, tomorrow.
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Well I'm an addict, that's for sure... How else can I be quit from a substance for 61 fucking days and still think about it and want it? I decided to get on here and read some intro's, read some folk's milestones, and try to encourage some folks just starting out on their journey. I'm mad that I still want dip. Will I ever be totally free? This blows. And as I type this I sound like a whiny bitch. I'll sack up and own my quit now.
Is this a game? Do I really miss stuffing the cancer in my face? My sweet daughter needs a father in her life. I want to grow old and see her sweet children and bounce them on my knee and spoil them. Why would I risk losing it all by flirting with the cancer that comes with dip? And I don't even like nicotine. I hate the system of slavery where I must feed nicotine to avoid missing nicotine. Without any satisfaction beyond feeding the crave. It costs too much money, I can use fake stuff, and it messes with my relationship with my wife, my health, and my professional demeanor and relationships.
I may not like the fake stuff, and stress may come that makes me think I want dip but I gotta remember: 1 problem + dip = 2 problems. I will recall the learning earlier about the steps of a relapse:
Mental
Emotional
Physical
I believe I gave into the Mental relapse yesterday and today. Bargaining and justifying was fully commenced. Luckily I didn't give in Emotionally or Physically. I will rebuild my walls and be a fortress of quit. One Day at A Time. I need to stop thinking long term. Just focus on the minute, the second, and keep my promise. The hour, the day. And worry about tomorrow, tomorrow.
Glad to have you back on board and doing a brain dump! Don't hesitate to text if you're struggling and need a kick in the ass.
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Well I'm an addict, that's for sure... How else can I be quit from a substance for 61 fucking days and still think about it and want it? I decided to get on here and read some intro's, read some folk's milestones, and try to encourage some folks just starting out on their journey. I'm mad that I still want dip. Will I ever be totally free? This blows. And as I type this I sound like a whiny bitch. I'll sack up and own my quit now.
Is this a game? Do I really miss stuffing the cancer in my face? My sweet daughter needs a father in her life. I want to grow old and see her sweet children and bounce them on my knee and spoil them. Why would I risk losing it all by flirting with the cancer that comes with dip? And I don't even like nicotine. I hate the system of slavery where I must feed nicotine to avoid missing nicotine. Without any satisfaction beyond feeding the crave. It costs too much money, I can use fake stuff, and it messes with my relationship with my wife, my health, and my professional demeanor and relationships.
I may not like the fake stuff, and stress may come that makes me think I want dip but I gotta remember: 1 problem + dip = 2 problems. I will recall the learning earlier about the steps of a relapse:
Mental
Emotional
Physical
I believe I gave into the Mental relapse yesterday and today. Bargaining and justifying was fully commenced. Luckily I didn't give in Emotionally or Physically. I will rebuild my walls and be a fortress of quit. One Day at A Time. I need to stop thinking long term. Just focus on the minute, the second, and keep my promise. The hour, the day. And worry about tomorrow, tomorrow.
Glad to have you back on board and doing a brain dump! Don't hesitate to text if you're struggling and need a kick in the ass.
It subsides with time. Just like anything else in life, we grow attached to things of all kinds. Grow attached to your freedom from slavery to the can. False promises of satisfaction are all it can provide. I quit with you today.
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Day 67 - I sure do whine alot and feel sorry for myself. I'm gonna go see if I can find my sack and own my quit like I should.
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Day 67 - I sure do whine alot and feel sorry for myself. I'm gonna go see if I can find my sack and own my quit like I should.
Might I suggest chopping some firewood? From emotional distress to not knowing what to do with all these damn trees, there's no problem man has yet faced that hasn't been solved by chopping firewood.
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Day 67 - I sure do whine alot and feel sorry for myself. I'm gonna go see if I can find my sack and own my quit like I should.
Might I suggest chopping some firewood? From emotional distress to not knowing what to do with all these damn trees, there's no problem man has yet faced that hasn't been solved by chopping firewood.
It fucking sucks man. Plain and simple. It does get easier / better. I'm not even going to lie to you here so I'll just cut to the chase. I quit smoking 3+ packs of cigs per day back in 2002 ... I think. I have actually lost track of time. To this every day, I get blind sided with a crave for a cig or a cigar. ESPECIALLY cigars. To me smoking is the most repulsive smell on the face of the Earth right along side nasty ass dip. So how could it be I hate it so much but get craves? The nic bitch my friend!
Gave up dip 305 days ago. To this every day I get blind sided by random craves. I hate the shit. It costs me to much money, takes up my time traveling to stores to buy it, makes my lips stick out like a monkey, and makes it so my wife won't even think of kissing me, but yet on that occasion, WHAM!!! I gotta have me some of that feeling takes over even if just for a brief moment. Why? It's that dirty nic bitch back in action!
We created this mess, we have to live with it. An addict is an addict no matter what. Toss a bump of cola in front of me and start listening for reasons why I need it and the look on my face. It will be fucking comical. And no, have not done it in over 11 years. It's the addict in me at it's finest.
It gets better man. Never let the old bitch get you to the point of ah fuck it! It's just not worth it. You know this and we all know this. We have the tools we need to succeed together.
I quit with you EDD man.
Ray - 305
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I appreciate all the words and advice guys. I know your busy like I am and it really means alot. Thanks for taking the time.
Today, again, was a battle. I got a PM that suggested I google some mouth cancer pictures. That whipped me back to reality and out of my pity party.
I'm at the point where I don't want to keep thinking about my quit but if I don't keep thinking about my quit I will stumble. It's weird, because I don't necessarily want dip, or to feed the absence of nicotine. At this point I know better.
But I do feel like something is missing.... I think the problem is I had this major part of my life, something I thought about constantly, and arranged my life to feed. It was something to do while doing other things. Yes, I've addressed the oral fixation with gum, mints, fireballs, food, fake stuff, whatever. But that's not really the crave. The crave is not really for nicotine, (so I think) but it is for something. I just don't know what....
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I get where you are coming from on the something is missing feeling. Something major is missing. The dip. I know that is not what I am after now though. I felt like that for a good little while. it has pretty much gone now. It was a big void in my life. I revolved around my dip. Literally.
I replaced it with food there for a bit and once I gained around 10 pounds that was enough and I started in on more water every day. Like I said eventually the feeling went away and now my days are just .... normal now. I don't rise and shine and think of dip, but I think about my quit all day. I am always on the guard for the old nic bitch. She is a tricky one.
Stick with it man and keep your tools close.
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I'm at the point where I don't want to keep thinking about my quit but if I don't keep thinking about my quit I will stumble. It's weird, because I don't necessarily want dip, or to feed the absence of nicotine. At this point I know better.
But I do feel like something is missing.... I think the problem is I had this major part of my life, something I thought about constantly, and arranged my life to feed. It was something to do while doing other things. Yes, I've addressed the oral fixation with gum, mints, fireballs, food, fake stuff, whatever. But that's not really the crave. The crave is not really for nicotine, (so I think) but it is for something. I just don't know what....
I'm right there with you ZD
Every night at about 7:00 I start getting these nagging feelings of need and emptiness. I used to dip all day long but around this time in the evening was my favorite time to dip. Most of other times I was just dipping to avoid withdrawal.
Now, during this time, I try to read intros and posts here and articles on quitting. One website I found extremely helpful in the last couple of days is this one https://www.verywell.com/will-i-miss-sm ... er-2824756 (https://www.verywell.com/will-i-miss-smoking-forever-2824756) it is for quitting smoking, but there are many similarities,you might find it helpful too.
Since I've quit I've noticed that I've gone through a couple of different phases of quitting:
1 There was the initial withdrawal and intense craving period,
2 Then there was a period of feeling like I'd give anything if could just stop thinking about quitting and think about anything else(I still think about it a lot but back then it seemed like someone was screaming at me though a bullhorn "YOU'RE QUITTING YOU'RE QUITTING! YOU'VE NOT HAD ANY NIC TODAY!) as well as feeling fidgety and unable to concentrate.
3 And now the nagging feelings of need every night around 7:00
I can remember when I was contemplating quiting, wishing I could skip the withdrawal portion of quitting. That wasn't realistic though, and the same is true of the other phases and periods of quitting even the ones in the future that I have yet to experience. We can't skip them any more than we could skip that period of withdrawal
We are a society of people who are use to and demand instant gratification. We want what we want and we want it now. But with nicotine addiction recovery, there is no substitute for time, no shortcuts we can take. Just as Rome wasn't built in a day, people don't quit nicotine in a day either. A lot of us spent 30 years or more of dipping before we quit. Quitting is not a single event that took place on April 18th (for me) it's a process of breaking free of the mental associations I built over years and years of reinforcement.
Now I'm trying to walk through these various phases of quitting, instead of trying to take a shortcut around them, I'm trying to use some advice I've gotten here at KTC. Now during these 7:00 urges/empty feelings, I remind myself to be patient with my quit, that Rome wasn't built in a day and take the advice Gone Cruising has posted,"stop trying to feel better, stop fighting it, accept it, live with it and move on with your life as if it's part of your life now and it will slowly fade away in time!"
And I'm trying to apply the advice from the website above "Accept and Let It Go - Relax into your quit program and embrace cravings to Smoke as they come. Don't fight them. Instead, try leaning into urges emotionally and let them run their course. Most cravings last 3-5 minutes. Think of them as signs that your body is healing, because that is just what they are." Embrace them? I'll admit I haven't quite mastered that one yet but I'm trying.
Sorry to run off at the mouth on your Intro brother! These were some things that I've been mulling over in my head the last couple of days that I've wanted to put in my intro. When I read your intro it all came gushing out!
One other thought before I go . . . .As for nicotine relieving stress. I've used it time and time again as a stress reliever, but now, I truly believe that the only stress it relieves is the stress that it created in the 1st place. I've conditioned myself over time to believe that it relieves stress because I've used it time and time again to relieve the stress of withdrawal.
Mike1966 on a rambling rampage on day 91!
I quit with you today!
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Day 69 - huge day for me. Today marks the longest I have ever gone without using dip since 2007. The last time I caved was due to some mental justification bullshit about how it wouldn't be safe for me to drive 8 hours to my buddy's bachelor party in Ohio without the "stay-awake aid" of dip. Well, poetically, today, I start another 8-week driving challenge. Granted, it is only 1 hour twice a day, but I am QLF and I ain't gonna throw it all away now. I see some of our bros are so close to HOF and I want to cross the "finish line" with them too. Pray for me today folks. I have Eclipse (not nic) gum, mints, and caffeine. I have digits. I got this. Thank you all for your support.
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I'm at the point where I don't want to keep thinking about my quit but if I don't keep thinking about my quit I will stumble. It's weird, because I don't necessarily want dip, or to feed the absence of nicotine. At this point I know better.
But I do feel like something is missing.... I think the problem is I had this major part of my life, something I thought about constantly, and arranged my life to feed. It was something to do while doing other things. Yes, I've addressed the oral fixation with gum, mints, fireballs, food, fake stuff, whatever. But that's not really the crave. The crave is not really for nicotine, (so I think) but it is for something. I just don't know what....
I'm right there with you ZD
Every night at about 7:00 I start getting these nagging feelings of need and emptiness. I used to dip all day long but around this time in the evening was my favorite time to dip. Most of other times I was just dipping to avoid withdrawal.
Now, during this time, I try to read intros and posts here and articles on quitting. One website I found extremely helpful in the last couple of days is this one https://www.verywell.com/will-i-miss-sm ... er-2824756 (https://www.verywell.com/will-i-miss-smoking-forever-2824756) it is for quitting smoking, but there are many similarities,you might find it helpful too.
Since I've quit I've noticed that I've gone through a couple of different phases of quitting:
1 There was the initial withdrawal and intense craving period,
2 Then there was a period of feeling like I'd give anything if could just stop thinking about quitting and think about anything else(I still think about it a lot but back then it seemed like someone was screaming at me though a bullhorn "YOU'RE QUITTING YOU'RE QUITTING! YOU'VE NOT HAD ANY NIC TODAY!) as well as feeling fidgety and unable to concentrate.
3 And now the nagging feelings of need every night around 7:00
I can remember when I was contemplating quiting, wishing I could skip the withdrawal portion of quitting. That wasn't realistic though, and the same is true of the other phases and periods of quitting even the ones in the future that I have yet to experience. We can't skip them any more than we could skip that period of withdrawal
We are a society of people who are use to and demand instant gratification. We want what we want and we want it now. But with nicotine addiction recovery, there is no substitute for time, no shortcuts we can take. Just as Rome wasn't built in a day, people don't quit nicotine in a day either. A lot of us spent 30 years or more of dipping before we quit. Quitting is not a single event that took place on April 18th (for me) it's a process of breaking free of the mental associations I built over years and years of reinforcement.
Now I'm trying to walk through these various phases of quitting, instead of trying to take a shortcut around them, I'm trying to use some advice I've gotten here at KTC. Now during these 7:00 urges/empty feelings, I remind myself to be patient with my quit, that Rome wasn't built in a day and take the advice Gone Cruising has posted,"stop trying to feel better, stop fighting it, accept it, live with it and move on with your life as if it's part of your life now and it will slowly fade away in time!"
And I'm trying to apply the advice from the website above "Accept and Let It Go - Relax into your quit program and embrace cravings to Smoke as they come. Don't fight them. Instead, try leaning into urges emotionally and let them run their course. Most cravings last 3-5 minutes. Think of them as signs that your body is healing, because that is just what they are." Embrace them? I'll admit I haven't quite mastered that one yet but I'm trying.
Sorry to run off at the mouth on your Intro brother! These were some things that I've been mulling over in my head the last couple of days that I've wanted to put in my intro. When I read your intro it all came gushing out!
One other thought before I go . . . .As for nicotine relieving stress. I've used it time and time again as a stress reliever, but now, I truly believe that the only stress it relieves is the stress that it created in the 1st place. I've conditioned myself over time to believe that it relieves stress because I've used it time and time again to relieve the stress of withdrawal.
Mike1966 on a rambling rampage on day 91!
I quit with you today!
Mike,
Thank you so much for coming by and dropping such sweet, succulent, sorely needed knowledge on me, broseefus. I really benefited alot from your thoughts. So much of what you said resonated with me and is helping me. Thank you.
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I'm at the point where I don't want to keep thinking about my quit but if I don't keep thinking about my quit I will stumble. It's weird, because I don't necessarily want dip, or to feed the absence of nicotine. At this point I know better.
But I do feel like something is missing.... I think the problem is I had this major part of my life, something I thought about constantly, and arranged my life to feed. It was something to do while doing other things. Yes, I've addressed the oral fixation with gum, mints, fireballs, food, fake stuff, whatever. But that's not really the crave. The crave is not really for nicotine, (so I think) but it is for something. I just don't know what....
I'm right there with you ZD
Every night at about 7:00 I start getting these nagging feelings of need and emptiness. I used to dip all day long but around this time in the evening was my favorite time to dip. Most of other times I was just dipping to avoid withdrawal.
Now, during this time, I try to read intros and posts here and articles on quitting. One website I found extremely helpful in the last couple of days is this one https://www.verywell.com/will-i-miss-sm ... er-2824756 (https://www.verywell.com/will-i-miss-smoking-forever-2824756) it is for quitting smoking, but there are many similarities,you might find it helpful too.
Since I've quit I've noticed that I've gone through a couple of different phases of quitting:
1 There was the initial withdrawal and intense craving period,
2 Then there was a period of feeling like I'd give anything if could just stop thinking about quitting and think about anything else(I still think about it a lot but back then it seemed like someone was screaming at me though a bullhorn "YOU'RE QUITTING YOU'RE QUITTING! YOU'VE NOT HAD ANY NIC TODAY!) as well as feeling fidgety and unable to concentrate.
3 And now the nagging feelings of need every night around 7:00
I can remember when I was contemplating quiting, wishing I could skip the withdrawal portion of quitting. That wasn't realistic though, and the same is true of the other phases and periods of quitting even the ones in the future that I have yet to experience. We can't skip them any more than we could skip that period of withdrawal
We are a society of people who are use to and demand instant gratification. We want what we want and we want it now. But with nicotine addiction recovery, there is no substitute for time, no shortcuts we can take. Just as Rome wasn't built in a day, people don't quit nicotine in a day either. A lot of us spent 30 years or more of dipping before we quit. Quitting is not a single event that took place on April 18th (for me) it's a process of breaking free of the mental associations I built over years and years of reinforcement.
Now I'm trying to walk through these various phases of quitting, instead of trying to take a shortcut around them, I'm trying to use some advice I've gotten here at KTC. Now during these 7:00 urges/empty feelings, I remind myself to be patient with my quit, that Rome wasn't built in a day and take the advice Gone Cruising has posted,"stop trying to feel better, stop fighting it, accept it, live with it and move on with your life as if it's part of your life now and it will slowly fade away in time!"
And I'm trying to apply the advice from the website above "Accept and Let It Go - Relax into your quit program and embrace cravings to Smoke as they come. Don't fight them. Instead, try leaning into urges emotionally and let them run their course. Most cravings last 3-5 minutes. Think of them as signs that your body is healing, because that is just what they are." Embrace them? I'll admit I haven't quite mastered that one yet but I'm trying.
Sorry to run off at the mouth on your Intro brother! These were some things that I've been mulling over in my head the last couple of days that I've wanted to put in my intro. When I read your intro it all came gushing out!
One other thought before I go . . . .As for nicotine relieving stress. I've used it time and time again as a stress reliever, but now, I truly believe that the only stress it relieves is the stress that it created in the 1st place. I've conditioned myself over time to believe that it relieves stress because I've used it time and time again to relieve the stress of withdrawal.
Mike1966 on a rambling rampage on day 91!
I quit with you today!
Mike,
Thank you so much for coming by and dropping such sweet, succulent, sorely needed knowledge on me, broseefus. I really benefited alot from your thoughts. So much of what you said resonated with me and is helping me. Thank you.
Guys, I promise you that this gets better and easier. Mindset is key. Try to think of these mental challenges as reminders that you are winning.
They will fade with time.
You are both killing it!
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I'm at the point where I don't want to keep thinking about my quit but if I don't keep thinking about my quit I will stumble. It's weird, because I don't necessarily want dip, or to feed the absence of nicotine. At this point I know better.
But I do feel like something is missing.... I think the problem is I had this major part of my life, something I thought about constantly, and arranged my life to feed. It was something to do while doing other things. Yes, I've addressed the oral fixation with gum, mints, fireballs, food, fake stuff, whatever. But that's not really the crave. The crave is not really for nicotine, (so I think) but it is for something. I just don't know what....
I'm right there with you ZD
Every night at about 7:00 I start getting these nagging feelings of need and emptiness. I used to dip all day long but around this time in the evening was my favorite time to dip. Most of other times I was just dipping to avoid withdrawal.
Now, during this time, I try to read intros and posts here and articles on quitting. One website I found extremely helpful in the last couple of days is this one https://www.verywell.com/will-i-miss-sm ... er-2824756 (https://www.verywell.com/will-i-miss-smoking-forever-2824756) it is for quitting smoking, but there are many similarities,you might find it helpful too.
Since I've quit I've noticed that I've gone through a couple of different phases of quitting:
1 There was the initial withdrawal and intense craving period,
2 Then there was a period of feeling like I'd give anything if could just stop thinking about quitting and think about anything else(I still think about it a lot but back then it seemed like someone was screaming at me though a bullhorn "YOU'RE QUITTING YOU'RE QUITTING! YOU'VE NOT HAD ANY NIC TODAY!) as well as feeling fidgety and unable to concentrate.
3 And now the nagging feelings of need every night around 7:00
I can remember when I was contemplating quiting, wishing I could skip the withdrawal portion of quitting. That wasn't realistic though, and the same is true of the other phases and periods of quitting even the ones in the future that I have yet to experience. We can't skip them any more than we could skip that period of withdrawal
We are a society of people who are use to and demand instant gratification. We want what we want and we want it now. But with nicotine addiction recovery, there is no substitute for time, no shortcuts we can take. Just as Rome wasn't built in a day, people don't quit nicotine in a day either. A lot of us spent 30 years or more of dipping before we quit. Quitting is not a single event that took place on April 18th (for me) it's a process of breaking free of the mental associations I built over years and years of reinforcement.
Now I'm trying to walk through these various phases of quitting, instead of trying to take a shortcut around them, I'm trying to use some advice I've gotten here at KTC. Now during these 7:00 urges/empty feelings, I remind myself to be patient with my quit, that Rome wasn't built in a day and take the advice Gone Cruising has posted,"stop trying to feel better, stop fighting it, accept it, live with it and move on with your life as if it's part of your life now and it will slowly fade away in time!"
And I'm trying to apply the advice from the website above "Accept and Let It Go - Relax into your quit program and embrace cravings to Smoke as they come. Don't fight them. Instead, try leaning into urges emotionally and let them run their course. Most cravings last 3-5 minutes. Think of them as signs that your body is healing, because that is just what they are." Embrace them? I'll admit I haven't quite mastered that one yet but I'm trying.
Sorry to run off at the mouth on your Intro brother! These were some things that I've been mulling over in my head the last couple of days that I've wanted to put in my intro. When I read your intro it all came gushing out!
One other thought before I go . . . .As for nicotine relieving stress. I've used it time and time again as a stress reliever, but now, I truly believe that the only stress it relieves is the stress that it created in the 1st place. I've conditioned myself over time to believe that it relieves stress because I've used it time and time again to relieve the stress of withdrawal.
Mike1966 on a rambling rampage on day 91!
I quit with you today!
Mike,
Thank you so much for coming by and dropping such sweet, succulent, sorely needed knowledge on me, broseefus. I really benefited alot from your thoughts. So much of what you said resonated with me and is helping me. Thank you.
Guys, I promise you that this gets better and easier. Mindset is key. Try to think of these mental challenges as reminders that you are winning.
They will fade with time.
You are both killing it!
The positive takeaway is that you recognize a void. That may sound ass backwards, but it most definitely is not. You have made an empty space by removing a negative in your life. Replace it with a positive. What is something positive your life is lacking? Quality time with family, spouse? Communicating with them? Helping with homework, chores? Religion? Meditation? Exercise? Hobbies? The quit journey is about transforming yourself from what you were to what you want to become. Do not stop trying to become the best version of yourself.
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I'm at the point where I don't want to keep thinking about my quit but if I don't keep thinking about my quit I will stumble. It's weird, because I don't necessarily want dip, or to feed the absence of nicotine. At this point I know better.
But I do feel like something is missing.... I think the problem is I had this major part of my life, something I thought about constantly, and arranged my life to feed. It was something to do while doing other things. Yes, I've addressed the oral fixation with gum, mints, fireballs, food, fake stuff, whatever. But that's not really the crave. The crave is not really for nicotine, (so I think) but it is for something. I just don't know what....
I'm right there with you ZD
Every night at about 7:00 I start getting these nagging feelings of need and emptiness. I used to dip all day long but around this time in the evening was my favorite time to dip. Most of other times I was just dipping to avoid withdrawal.
Now, during this time, I try to read intros and posts here and articles on quitting. One website I found extremely helpful in the last couple of days is this one https://www.verywell.com/will-i-miss-sm ... er-2824756 (https://www.verywell.com/will-i-miss-smoking-forever-2824756) it is for quitting smoking, but there are many similarities,you might find it helpful too.
Since I've quit I've noticed that I've gone through a couple of different phases of quitting:
1 There was the initial withdrawal and intense craving period,
2 Then there was a period of feeling like I'd give anything if could just stop thinking about quitting and think about anything else(I still think about it a lot but back then it seemed like someone was screaming at me though a bullhorn "YOU'RE QUITTING YOU'RE QUITTING! YOU'VE NOT HAD ANY NIC TODAY!) as well as feeling fidgety and unable to concentrate.
3 And now the nagging feelings of need every night around 7:00
I can remember when I was contemplating quiting, wishing I could skip the withdrawal portion of quitting. That wasn't realistic though, and the same is true of the other phases and periods of quitting even the ones in the future that I have yet to experience. We can't skip them any more than we could skip that period of withdrawal
We are a society of people who are use to and demand instant gratification. We want what we want and we want it now. But with nicotine addiction recovery, there is no substitute for time, no shortcuts we can take. Just as Rome wasn't built in a day, people don't quit nicotine in a day either. A lot of us spent 30 years or more of dipping before we quit. Quitting is not a single event that took place on April 18th (for me) it's a process of breaking free of the mental associations I built over years and years of reinforcement.
Now I'm trying to walk through these various phases of quitting, instead of trying to take a shortcut around them, I'm trying to use some advice I've gotten here at KTC. Now during these 7:00 urges/empty feelings, I remind myself to be patient with my quit, that Rome wasn't built in a day and take the advice Gone Cruising has posted,"stop trying to feel better, stop fighting it, accept it, live with it and move on with your life as if it's part of your life now and it will slowly fade away in time!"
And I'm trying to apply the advice from the website above "Accept and Let It Go - Relax into your quit program and embrace cravings to Smoke as they come. Don't fight them. Instead, try leaning into urges emotionally and let them run their course. Most cravings last 3-5 minutes. Think of them as signs that your body is healing, because that is just what they are." Embrace them? I'll admit I haven't quite mastered that one yet but I'm trying.
Sorry to run off at the mouth on your Intro brother! These were some things that I've been mulling over in my head the last couple of days that I've wanted to put in my intro. When I read your intro it all came gushing out!
One other thought before I go . . . .As for nicotine relieving stress. I've used it time and time again as a stress reliever, but now, I truly believe that the only stress it relieves is the stress that it created in the 1st place. I've conditioned myself over time to believe that it relieves stress because I've used it time and time again to relieve the stress of withdrawal.
Mike1966 on a rambling rampage on day 91!
I quit with you today!
Mike,
Thank you so much for coming by and dropping such sweet, succulent, sorely needed knowledge on me, broseefus. I really benefited alot from your thoughts. So much of what you said resonated with me and is helping me. Thank you.
Guys, I promise you that this gets better and easier. Mindset is key. Try to think of these mental challenges as reminders that you are winning.
They will fade with time.
You are both killing it!
The positive takeaway is that you recognize a void. That may sound ass backwards, but it most definitely is not. You have made an empty space by removing a negative in your life. Replace it with a positive. What is something positive your life is lacking? Quality time with family, spouse? Communicating with them? Helping with homework, chores? Religion? Meditation? Exercise? Hobbies? The quit journey is about transforming yourself from what you were to what you want to become. Do not stop trying to become the best version of yourself.
I think you guys are on the right track with this. There is a void. Right now, I'm filling a lot of it with time on KTC. I'm purposely not thinking too far into the future, taking things one day at a time.
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Day 86 - I had no idea the feeling of elation that was awaiting me. Starting to see some of our group cross the 100-day line gives me such great joy. Deep down, make your brain buzz, joy. Now 2 weeks of promises gets me in the winner's circle, too. Fuck yes. ODAAT.
I wanted to come on here and post that looking back on my "Introduction Journal" Day 61 was probably my lowest point. I got on here and talked about it. Read up and got motivated. Since then I can say I truly turned a corner. Celebrating Day 69 (which beat the record for longest I had stayed quit in my 12 years of use) really put things into overdrive for me. If and when I hit 100 I'm going plug in my promise for 200. Why would I quit doing what works?
When I went to go write this I hadn't planned on writing this much. More for me than for anyone else. But damn, there it was, "1 user reading this thread (Anonymous)".
That's me.
I was that guy 86 days ago.
I was the lurker: reading, reading, reading.
"Is it possible?"
"Can I be like them?"
"Can I actually quit this god-forsaken weed that has such a strangle hold on where I can go, what I can do, how I feel, how I treat others?"
"This expensive shit I pack my lip with that could prevent me from being there for my daughter as she is growing up and when she is grown!"
"I've tried so many times before, how could it be a fuckin' website that finally gets me there?"
I was wondering: Can that be me?"
I was that Anonymous user 86 days ago.
Let me tell you, Anonymous user, Yes. Yes it can be you. I am living proof that cold-turkey is the way to do it. I'd done the gum, the patch, quitting for others, quitting without accountability or support or education, you name it.....
Yes, the nicotine god dam C10H14N2 3-(1-Methyl-2-pyrrolidinyl)pyridine, was the chemical that was chemically responsible for my chemical addiction...... but there was so much more to it than that. Breaking associations, breaking habits, routines, escapes, breaking attitudes that it had fostered and fed. The void had to be created and then the void had to be filled, with new, good, vibrant things of life and freedom and gladness. Self-care was a concept I became aware of and embraced. I must care for myself. This is very different than being self-centered.
I find it so much easier now to love and serve my wife when she needs help, even with simple things. Her existence no longer interferes with my perfectly laid plans to not go more than 180 minutes without a dose (or be punished by a grueling headache all day). I find myself considering her, what she might need, in advance of her asking for it. Because my quit is slowly "freeing up space" previously occupied with dipping. Mental space, emotional space, TIME space...... This space is allowing me to fill the void with things that make me become less of a selfish, moody bastard-addict who is no longer intent about planning perfectly a routine and life that allows the next maintenance fix.
At first I drank more, to replace the void, now I drink less. At first I ate more, to fill the void, now I eat less. I can't say I have started the exercise regime I need to start but I feel I will. I have seen nothing but steady, good things, flow from this deeply impactful change that quitting has brought about.
Hell, this kinda feels like a HOF speech now that I've gone on and on, but it's all good. Maybe it will help me keep up my quit until I've earned the right to write my official HOF speech. It's good practice..... Most importantly, maybe I can help someone. Lord knows how much this site has helped me.
Oh, and Mr. Anonymous, God sent me here to tell you that this message is for you and you're supposed to go register for KTC right now, when this post ends and find your Quit Group because today is your day and this is your moment to claim your freedom from the slavery of the chemical and the habit which owns you. That this life is not the life He created for you. He made you to thrive and breathe deep peaceful joy and you can, if you use the free-will He gave you, right now, to make that leap. It's gonna suck, it's gonna suck harder, it's gonna suck some more, and then it's going to amazingly, magically, rock. It's Day 86 and I am rockin'. We'll be here for you on your Day 1 and every step of the way.
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Day 86 - I had no idea the feeling of elation that was awaiting me. Starting to see some of our group cross the 100-day line gives me such great joy. Deep down, make your brain buzz, joy. Now 2 weeks of promises gets me in the winner's circle, too. Fuck yes. ODAAT.
I wanted to come on here and post that looking back on my "Introduction Journal" Day 61 was probably my lowest point. I got on here and talked about it. Read up and got motivated. Since then I can say I truly turned a corner. Celebrating Day 69 (which beat the record for longest I had stayed quit in my 12 years of use) really put things into overdrive for me. If and when I hit 100 I'm going plug in my promise for 200. Why would I quit doing what works?
When I went to go write this I hadn't planned on writing this much. More for me than for anyone else. But damn, there it was, "1 user reading this thread (Anonymous)".
That's me.
I was that guy 86 days ago.
I was the lurker: reading, reading, reading.
"Is it possible?"
"Can I be like them?"
"Can I actually quit this god-forsaken weed that has such a strangle hold on where I can go, what I can do, how I feel, how I treat others?"
"This expensive shit I pack my lip with that could prevent me from being there for my daughter as she is growing up and when she is grown!"
"I've tried so many times before, how could it be a fuckin' website that finally gets me there?"
I was wondering: Can that be me?"
I was that Anonymous user 86 days ago.
Let me tell you, Anonymous user, Yes. Yes it can be you. I am living proof that cold-turkey is the way to do it. I'd done the gum, the patch, quitting for others, quitting without accountability or support or education, you name it.....
Yes, the nicotine god dam C10H14N2 3-(1-Methyl-2-pyrrolidinyl)pyridine, was the chemical that was chemically responsible for my chemical addiction...... but there was so much more to it than that. Breaking associations, breaking habits, routines, escapes, breaking attitudes that it had fostered and fed. The void had to be created and then the void had to be filled, with new, good, vibrant things of life and freedom and gladness. Self-care was a concept I became aware of and embraced. I must care for myself. This is very different than being self-centered.
I find it so much easier now to love and serve my wife when she needs help, even with simple things. Her existence no longer interferes with my perfectly laid plans to not go more than 180 minutes without a dose (or be punished by a grueling headache all day). I find myself considering her, what she might need, in advance of her asking for it. Because my quit is slowly "freeing up space" previously occupied with dipping. Mental space, emotional space, TIME space...... This space is allowing me to fill the void with things that make me become less of a selfish, moody bastard-addict who is no longer intent about planning perfectly a routine and life that allows the next maintenance fix.
At first I drank more, to replace the void, now I drink less. At first I ate more, to fill the void, now I eat less. I can't say I have started the exercise regime I need to start but I feel I will. I have seen nothing but steady, good things, flow from this deeply impactful change that quitting has brought about.
Hell, this kinda feels like a HOF speech now that I've gone on and on, but it's all good. Maybe it will help me keep up my quit until I've earned the right to write my official HOF speech. It's good practice..... Most importantly, maybe I can help someone. Lord knows how much this site has helped me.
Oh, and Mr. Anonymous, God sent me here to tell you that this message is for you and you're supposed to go register for KTC right now, when this post ends and find your Quit Group because today is your day and this is your moment to claim your freedom from the slavery of the chemical and the habit which owns you. That this life is not the life He created for you. He made you to thrive and breathe deep peaceful joy and you can, if you use the free-will He gave you, right now, to make that leap. It's gonna suck, it's gonna suck harder, it's gonna suck some more, and then it's going to amazingly, magically, rock. It's Day 86 and I am rockin'. We'll be here for you on your Day 1 and every step of the way.
Beautiful. Thanks for sharing.
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Day 86 - I had no idea the feeling of elation that was awaiting me. Starting to see some of our group cross the 100-day line gives me such great joy. Deep down, make your brain buzz, joy. Now 2 weeks of promises gets me in the winner's circle, too. Fuck yes. ODAAT.
I wanted to come on here and post that looking back on my "Introduction Journal" Day 61 was probably my lowest point. I got on here and talked about it. Read up and got motivated. Since then I can say I truly turned a corner. Celebrating Day 69 (which beat the record for longest I had stayed quit in my 12 years of use) really put things into overdrive for me. If and when I hit 100 I'm going plug in my promise for 200. Why would I quit doing what works?
When I went to go write this I hadn't planned on writing this much. More for me than for anyone else. But damn, there it was, "1 user reading this thread (Anonymous)".
That's me.
I was that guy 86 days ago.
I was the lurker: reading, reading, reading.
"Is it possible?"
"Can I be like them?"
"Can I actually quit this god-forsaken weed that has such a strangle hold on where I can go, what I can do, how I feel, how I treat others?"
"This expensive shit I pack my lip with that could prevent me from being there for my daughter as she is growing up and when she is grown!"
"I've tried so many times before, how could it be a fuckin' website that finally gets me there?"
I was wondering: Can that be me?"
I was that Anonymous user 86 days ago.
Let me tell you, Anonymous user, Yes. Yes it can be you. I am living proof that cold-turkey is the way to do it. I'd done the gum, the patch, quitting for others, quitting without accountability or support or education, you name it.....
Yes, the nicotine god dam C10H14N2 3-(1-Methyl-2-pyrrolidinyl)pyridine, was the chemical that was chemically responsible for my chemical addiction...... but there was so much more to it than that. Breaking associations, breaking habits, routines, escapes, breaking attitudes that it had fostered and fed. The void had to be created and then the void had to be filled, with new, good, vibrant things of life and freedom and gladness. Self-care was a concept I became aware of and embraced. I must care for myself. This is very different than being self-centered.
I find it so much easier now to love and serve my wife when she needs help, even with simple things. Her existence no longer interferes with my perfectly laid plans to not go more than 180 minutes without a dose (or be punished by a grueling headache all day). I find myself considering her, what she might need, in advance of her asking for it. Because my quit is slowly "freeing up space" previously occupied with dipping. Mental space, emotional space, TIME space...... This space is allowing me to fill the void with things that make me become less of a selfish, moody bastard-addict who is no longer intent about planning perfectly a routine and life that allows the next maintenance fix.
At first I drank more, to replace the void, now I drink less. At first I ate more, to fill the void, now I eat less. I can't say I have started the exercise regime I need to start but I feel I will. I have seen nothing but steady, good things, flow from this deeply impactful change that quitting has brought about.
Hell, this kinda feels like a HOF speech now that I've gone on and on, but it's all good. Maybe it will help me keep up my quit until I've earned the right to write my official HOF speech. It's good practice..... Most importantly, maybe I can help someone. Lord knows how much this site has helped me.
Oh, and Mr. Anonymous, God sent me here to tell you that this message is for you and you're supposed to go register for KTC right now, when this post ends and find your Quit Group because today is your day and this is your moment to claim your freedom from the slavery of the chemical and the habit which owns you. That this life is not the life He created for you. He made you to thrive and breathe deep peaceful joy and you can, if you use the free-will He gave you, right now, to make that leap. It's gonna suck, it's gonna suck harder, it's gonna suck some more, and then it's going to amazingly, magically, rock. It's Day 86 and I am rockin'. We'll be here for you on your Day 1 and every step of the way.
Beautiful. Thanks for sharing.
All good things brother. Keep rolling with the quit train! I'll drive the Karma bus and flatten the nic bitch everyday she tries to get up from her beat down!
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100! Praise God from whom all blessings flow! Thanks to everyone who supported me in this journey. Now for 200!
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100! Praise God from whom all blessings flow! Thanks to everyone who supported me in this journey. Now for 200!
Congrats brother on your HOF milestone. It's a milestone you should be proud of. I've enjoyed reading your intro as well as your daily roll call promises. You've made my quit stronger! Stay the course. Proud to be quit with you today!
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100! Praise God from whom all blessings flow! Thanks to everyone who supported me in this journey. Now for 200!
Congrats brother on your HOF milestone. It's a milestone you should be proud of. I've enjoyed reading your intro as well as your daily roll call promises. You've made my quit stronger! Stay the course. Proud to be quit with you today!
Congrats on your HOF ZoesDad!! Thanks for being such a solid August quitter!
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100! Praise God from whom all blessings flow! Thanks to everyone who supported me in this journey. Now for 200!
Congrats brother on your HOF milestone. It's a milestone you should be proud of. I've enjoyed reading your intro as well as your daily roll call promises. You've made my quit stronger! Stay the course. Proud to be quit with you today!
Congrats on your HOF ZoesDad!! Thanks for being such a solid August quitter!
Belated congrats brother, well done. One day, one step, one promise at a time. Quit with you every day forward.
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Day 150. The past 50 days since HOF have flown by. Trust me guys, it does get better. And it's worth it. I quit with you all today.
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Day 150. The past 50 days since HOF have flown by. Trust me guys, it does get better. And it's worth it. I quit with you all today.
great to celebrate the victories! keep it rolling, and keep sharing! Not out of the woods yet but you get it about posting, and not getting complacent. I'll gladly take the free insurance policy against addiction and chew-induced disease and early death- paid only with the cost of a daily post!
Keep the solid quit rolling! 'oh yeah'
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200 Days. Couldn't have done it without this site. In our group I get to celebrate by answer these questions:
#1. What single moment or post on KTC stands out the most during your quit?
One might be inclined to bring up the drama queens who dropped out along the way, but to be honest, I canÂ’t remember half their names. Instead, what stands out to me is Day 69 in my quit which marked the longest I had ever gone without using dip since 2007. That and when folks from our group actually started hitting 100 days.
#2. If someone is lurking, considering a quit; what would you say to them (in 20 words or less)
Read my post from Day 86 of my quit: single/?p=9950929t=11636339 (http://forum.killthecan.org/single/?p=9950929&t=11636339)
#3. What is the most rewarding part of being quit?
As I was writing this my 1-year-old daughter walked into the room. I scooped her up and hugged her. She is my world. I donÂ’t feel like a liar any more. I donÂ’t feel deep down guilty and selfish about my decision to choose dip over relationships. I love knowing I am no longer jeopardizing my daughterÂ’s future by choosing my addiction over her. The physical, emotional, and mental freedom is priceless. The restoration of relationships and being less self-centered by choosing to lord over my addiction is what makes me feel like I am winning every day.
Now I will Quit Every Damn Day to earn my way to 300!
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200 Days. Couldn't have done it without this site. In our group I get to celebrate by answer these questions:
#1. What single moment or post on KTC stands out the most during your quit?
One might be inclined to bring up the drama queens who dropped out along the way, but to be honest, I canÂ’t remember half their names. Instead, what stands out to me is Day 69 in my quit which marked the longest I had ever gone without using dip since 2007. That and when folks from our group actually started hitting 100 days.
#2. If someone is lurking, considering a quit; what would you say to them (in 20 words or less)
Read my post from Day 86 of my quit: single/?p=9950929t=11636339 (http://forum.killthecan.org/single/?p=9950929&t=11636339)
#3. What is the most rewarding part of being quit?
As I was writing this my 1-year-old daughter walked into the room. I scooped her up and hugged her. She is my world. I donÂ’t feel like a liar any more. I donÂ’t feel deep down guilty and selfish about my decision to choose dip over relationships. I love knowing I am no longer jeopardizing my daughterÂ’s future by choosing my addiction over her. The physical, emotional, and mental freedom is priceless. The restoration of relationships and being less self-centered by choosing to lord over my addiction is what makes me feel like I am winning every day.
Now I will Quit Every Damn Day to earn my way to 300!
Well done, enjoy the freedom and milestone and keep learning each and every day to take your life to new heights.
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200 Days. Couldn't have done it without this site. In our group I get to celebrate by answer these questions:
#1. What single moment or post on KTC stands out the most during your quit?
One might be inclined to bring up the drama queens who dropped out along the way, but to be honest, I canÂ’t remember half their names. Instead, what stands out to me is Day 69 in my quit which marked the longest I had ever gone without using dip since 2007. That and when folks from our group actually started hitting 100 days.
#2. If someone is lurking, considering a quit; what would you say to them (in 20 words or less)
Read my post from Day 86 of my quit: single/?p=9950929t=11636339 (http://forum.killthecan.org/single/?p=9950929&t=11636339)
#3. What is the most rewarding part of being quit?
As I was writing this my 1-year-old daughter walked into the room. I scooped her up and hugged her. She is my world. I donÂ’t feel like a liar any more. I donÂ’t feel deep down guilty and selfish about my decision to choose dip over relationships. I love knowing I am no longer jeopardizing my daughterÂ’s future by choosing my addiction over her. The physical, emotional, and mental freedom is priceless. The restoration of relationships and being less self-centered by choosing to lord over my addiction is what makes me feel like I am winning every day.
Now I will Quit Every Damn Day to earn my way to 300!
Well done, enjoy the freedom and milestone and keep learning each and every day to take your life to new heights.
Congrats Zoe'sdad! Proud to have fought next to you for the last 200 days.
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Day 264 - man am I ever in a pissy mood today. First not great day in a while. Dull craves, first time in a long time. Nothing acute like when I first quit but for the first time in a long time do I have a bad attitude and I'm thinking for some stupid reason dip sounds nice. I will keep my promise to you all today. I will not use nicotine or tobacco in any form. Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers. If it gets bad enough I will text and call some folks for a kick in the pants. Until then I will sack up and rise above the temporary emotions on this.
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26 minutes ago I posted this. ^^
It's been so long since I really had to "use the tools" on the website. Re-read my intro (especially day 61), read others' intros, and checked my signature links. Yep. This site works. Feeling better already. Thanks guys. :)
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26 minutes ago I posted this. ^^
It's been so long since I really had to "use the tools" on the website. Re-read my intro (especially day 61), read others' intros, and checked my signature links. Yep. This site works. Feeling better already. Thanks guys. :)
Excellent!
Freedom is worth it!
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3rd floor! Thanks for the support and love! Never could have made it here without ya'll. If you're thinking of quitting.... Do it! Best thing I ever did. FREEEEEEEEDOM!!!!
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3rd floor! Thanks for the support and love! Never could have made it here without ya'll. If you're thinking of quitting.... Do it! Best thing I ever did. FREEEEEEEEDOM!!!!
Congrats on reaching the third floor brother! Thanks for being a solid member of August and for continuing to fight with us. Let's keep rolling to 400 and beyond!
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1 year. I can't believe it. I don't have to think about feeding my addiction and missing out on life due to planning the next fix. It's overwhelming. Thank you KTC!!!!
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1 year. I can't believe it. I don't have to think about feeding my addiction and missing out on life due to planning the next fix. It's overwhelming. Thank you KTC!!!!
Well done m'man!
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1 year. I can't believe it. I don't have to think about feeding my addiction and missing out on life due to planning the next fix. It's overwhelming. Thank you KTC!!!!
Well done m'man!
Huge congrats on your one year my brotha!
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This badass quitter just hit 600 a few days ago! So proud to be quit with you and happy as hell you are a part of my August 2016 brotherhood!
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This badass quitter just hit 600 a few days ago! So proud to be quit with you and happy as hell you are a part of my August 2016 brotherhood!
Congrats brotha!
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This badass quitter just hit 600 a few days ago! So proud to be quit with you and happy as hell you are a part of my August 2016 brotherhood!
Congrats brotha!
Belated Congrats on hitting 6th floor. Glad to be part of your quit.