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Title: This is gonna be difficult
Post by: cf1k1 on December 26, 2014, 04:32:00 PM
Five Years. Five years is how long I've been spitting away my money; spitting away roughly $1,700 a year. Tuesday, 24 DEC 2014, I got all four of my wisdom removed. That morning before my 0900 appt, I took, what I want to be my last dip. However, I'm stuck between a rock and hard place. I understand that no one can do it but me. Sure, all the help can be afforded to me, but I'm the only one that can throw away the can forever. But, here's my dilemma. I don't know if I'm ready to quit. There is something, no matter how stupid it is, about the flavor, the pack, the lip, the can that I love. Yet, I know it can kill me. I have seen the pictures. I have seen the videos. I've had my scares. Today I'm on 3 of no dip. Doctor said I could have started again today if I wanted. I'm struggling to not get in my truck and go get some pouches (cause of this surgery) to curve these withdraw feelings I'm having right now. Irritability. Headache. Body aches. Cold sweats etc etc. Here goes everything.
Title: Re: This is gonna be difficult
Post by: soxfnnlansing on December 26, 2014, 05:11:00 PM
Deciding to come to KTC and post roll was the best decision you can make. The first thing you need to learn is to stop romanticizing nicotine. I like the pack, I like the flavor, etc has to go. That is your addict mind telling you that.

You are 3 days nic free. You need to read everything you can on here. I know it's hard, but you did this to yourself. Read the Words of Wisdom, HOF speeches, other intro's. You will notice that everything written down are experiences close to what you have had. We are all the same here. There is no one that is "more addicted" than the next guy.

You will feel better soon. There is no cure. You will always be an addict. Since you have posted roll in April, you need to make friends. Get guys numbers for text/raging,etc. There is no such thing as a person that will not fit in at KTC. Whatever you do, stay away from the convenience stores and alcohol for a while. Booze kills an early quit. You need to find ways of making yourself accountable. Tell people in real life (even if you were a ninja dipper). You need people checking in on you.

Again, welcome to KTC.
Title: Re: This is gonna be difficult
Post by: jabr on December 26, 2014, 05:21:00 PM
cf, don't go get a can. It's that simple. But you can't do it for anybody but you. You started dipping. You have to quit dipping. Until you do it for you, your chances of success are pretty low.

This site will get you there if you use it and embrace the tools available. The program is pretty simple: Post roll everyday promising your quit group and the rest of the members you won't dip. Then don't dip.

You'll be in the April '15 quit group. Read the info at the Welcome Center, go post roll, and get started with the rest of your life.
Title: Re: This is gonna be difficult
Post by: cf1k1 on December 26, 2014, 06:37:00 PM
So far so good. What's funny is that when I'm driving, I notice the fog more so than ever. I went to the bank, took care of business and headed to Wal-Mart. I browsed the tobacco check-out lane for one thing in mind... sun-flower seeds. Bought a whole case of them. I know it's only the start and it's gonna take commitment but so far I'm happy. This fog is really kicking my ass though.
Title: Re: This is gonna be difficult
Post by: soxfnnlansing on December 26, 2014, 06:43:00 PM
Quote from: cf1k1
So far so good. What's funny is that when I'm driving, I notice the fog more so than ever. I went to the bank, took care of business and headed to Wal-Mart. I browsed the tobacco check-out lane for one thing in mind... sun-flower seeds. Bought a whole case of them. I know it's only the start and it's gonna take commitment but so far I'm happy. This fog is really kicking my ass though.
I've been eating the seeds too. Just a suggestion, you might want to try the low sodium seeds. I was getting dehydrated with the normal ones. Gonna be foggy for a while, lol. Just keep plowing through it and it gets better. Embrace the suck and it will help you hate the nic bitch.
Title: Re: This is gonna be difficult
Post by: cf1k1 on December 26, 2014, 06:45:00 PM
Quote from: soxfnnlansing
Quote from: cf1k1
So far so good. What's funny is that when I'm driving, I notice the fog more so than ever. I went to the bank, took care of business and headed to Wal-Mart. I browsed the tobacco check-out lane for one thing in mind... sun-flower seeds. Bought a whole case of them. I know it's only the start and it's gonna take commitment but so far I'm happy. This fog is really kicking my ass though.
I've been eating the seeds too. Just a suggestion, you might want to try the low sodium seeds. I was getting dehydrated with the normal ones. Gonna be foggy for a while, lol. Just keep plowing through it and it gets better. Embrace the suck and it will help you hate the nic bitch.
Thats hopefully the plan. I got the regular seeds cause I was in a rush and wanted that oral fixation. When I run out of this case, I'll remember the low sodium ones. That makes sense. Embracing the suck is going to S U C K Sunday when I drive back to school. Gonna be downing seeds like nobody's business.
Title: Re: This is gonna be difficult
Post by: Candoit on December 29, 2014, 11:51:00 PM
Nothing worth doing is going to be easy. This is going to be the hardest yet most rewarding thing you can do. Invest in the quit, develop your skills, tools, and knowledge. It will make the pain right now worth it in the end. Pain is temporary Pride is forever.
Title: Re: This is gonna be difficult
Post by: sethayers90 on December 30, 2014, 12:25:00 AM
Quote from: cf1k1
So far so good. What's funny is that when I'm driving, I notice the fog more so than ever. I went to the bank, took care of business and headed to Wal-Mart. I browsed the tobacco check-out lane for one thing in mind... sun-flower seeds. Bought a whole case of them. I know it's only the start and it's gonna take commitment but so far I'm happy. This fog is really kicking my ass though.
The fog sucks, trust us we know, but it is worth it in the end. I'm at day 110 and yeah some days are harder than other but that's why you have this site and your brothers and sisters. We are here to kick this bitch's ass every damn day.
Title: Re: This is gonna be difficult
Post by: trigerhapy on April 02, 2015, 10:16:00 AM
Quote from: cf1k1
Five Years. Five years is how long I've been spitting away my money; spitting away roughly $1,700 a year. Tuesday, 24 DEC 2014, I got all four of my wisdom removed. That morning before my 0900 appt, I took, what I want to be my last dip. However, I'm stuck between a rock and hard place. I understand that no one can do it but me. Sure, all the help can be afforded to me, but I'm the only one that can throw away the can forever. But, here's my dilemma. I don't know if I'm ready to quit. There is something, no matter how stupid it is, about the flavor, the pack, the lip, the can that I love. Yet, I know it can kill me. I have seen the pictures. I have seen the videos. I've had my scares. Today I'm on 3 of no dip. Doctor said I could have started again today if I wanted. I'm struggling to not get in my truck and go get some pouches (cause of this surgery) to curve these withdraw feelings I'm having right now. Irritability. Headache. Body aches. Cold sweats etc etc. Here goes everything.
HOF, 100 days man! Congratulations bro!
Title: Re: This is gonna be difficult
Post by: pab1964 on April 02, 2015, 12:32:00 PM
Quote from: trigerhapy
Quote from: cf1k1
Five Years. Five years is how long I've been spitting away my money; spitting away roughly $1,700 a year. Tuesday, 24 DEC 2014, I got all four of my wisdom removed. That morning before my 0900 appt, I took, what I want to be my last dip. However, I'm stuck between a rock and hard place. I understand that no one can do it but me. Sure, all the help can be afforded to me, but I'm the only one that can throw away the can forever. But, here's my dilemma. I don't know if I'm ready to quit. There is something, no matter how stupid it is, about the flavor, the pack, the lip, the can that I love. Yet, I know it can kill me. I have seen the pictures. I have seen the videos. I've had my scares. Today I'm on 3 of no dip. Doctor said I could have started again today if I wanted. I'm struggling to not get in my truck and go get some pouches (cause of this surgery) to curve these withdraw feelings I'm having right now. Irritability. Headache. Body aches. Cold sweats etc etc. Here goes everything.
HOF, 100 days man! Congratulations bro!
Proud of you! Good kid! Now go work on next 100! Damn proud to be quit with you!
Title: Re: This is gonna be difficult
Post by: ChickDip on April 02, 2015, 02:00:00 PM
Quote from: pab1964
Quote from: trigerhapy
Quote from: cf1k1
Five Years. Five years is how long I've been spitting away my money; spitting away roughly $1,700 a year. Tuesday, 24 DEC 2014, I got all four of my wisdom removed. That morning before my 0900 appt, I took, what I want to be my last dip. However, I'm stuck between a rock and hard place. I understand that no one can do it but me. Sure, all the help can be afforded to me, but I'm the only one that can throw away the can forever. But, here's my dilemma. I don't know if I'm ready to quit. There is something, no matter how stupid it is, about the flavor, the pack, the lip, the can that I love. Yet, I know it can kill me. I have seen the pictures. I have seen the videos. I've had my scares. Today I'm on 3 of no dip. Doctor said I could have started again today if I wanted. I'm struggling to not get in my truck and go get some pouches (cause of this surgery) to curve these withdraw feelings I'm having right now. Irritability. Headache. Body aches. Cold sweats etc etc. Here goes everything.
HOF, 100 days man! Congratulations bro!
Proud of you! Good kid! Now go work on next 100! Damn proud to be quit with you!
Wow 100 Days!
Good to see!
Title: Re: This is gonna be difficult
Post by: trigerhapy on July 11, 2015, 11:29:00 AM
200 Man! Congratulations!
Title: Re: This is gonna be difficult
Post by: pab1964 on July 11, 2015, 01:56:00 PM
Quote from: trigerhapy
200 Man! Congratulations!
Well I be damn look who made it 200! Still wet behind the ears and kicked this bitch to the curb! Damn proud! Bravo! 'boob' 'boob' 'boob' 'boob'
Title: Re: This is gonna be difficult
Post by: Thumblewort on July 13, 2015, 02:23:00 PM
Quote from: pab1964
Quote from: trigerhapy
200 Man! Congratulations!
Well I be damn look who made it 200! Still wet behind the ears and kicked this bitch to the curb! Damn proud! Bravo! 'boob' 'boob' 'boob' 'boob'
Right on, 2 hundo ain't no joke.