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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: okcguy on January 07, 2016, 11:57:00 PM
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Hey Guys,
My name on the site is OKCGUY, my given name is Dustin. I am on day 26. I decided to wait to post an introduction as the first few days were hell and I was not really in my right mind. I was born and raised in Oklahoma. As a result, chewing tobacco was a right of passage growing up. I grew up raising animals, working on farms, rodeoing, and drinking beer on dirt roads on Friday nights. Furthermore, I believe that my addiction to nicotine is really a generational and almost genetic thing. My father chews tobacco and hides it from my Mom. My Uncle, who is a cancer survivor, still continues to chew tobacco and hides it from the family. My grandfather, whom I am the spitting image of, smoked but hid it from the family and by hid I mean that we all knew he did it but we just did not want to face that he did it.
Said all that to say, nicotine addiction just runs in the blood and in the family. However, it stops with me. It feels so damn good to say that. I am ending a generational curse that has plagued my family for generations. For some reason, the big guy saw fit to get me connected to you all and finally showed me that I was believing a lie in that I could have one more dip and now I have stopped believing that lie and just surrendered. I once watched this crime show, it was a reality show, where a guy confessed to a crime. You could tell as soon as he confessed he knew he was in trouble but the look on his face and his countenance changed after confessing his crime. I felt that way when I finally surrendered to my nicotine addiction. Will there be health consequences? Likely, but I don't care. That was how I knew I was done. I knew I was not going to believe the lie anymore and that one day off this shit was worth it rather than living in fear of cancer and death.
I chewed for a long time. 18 years. Grizzly was my brand. I was a can sometime more than a can a day guy toward the end. Stealthy motherfucker, I said it, deal with it. I just was. I got sick of hiding stuff. But at the same time, I got so good at hiding stuff as a result of my addiction to nicotine and chewing tobacco. I dated girls for years and they never knew that I dipped. I took great pride in hiding my addiction. However, in the end my addiction ultimately hid me from the world and I lived in isolation. I once quit for 14 days, well I didn't dip. I chewed the hell out of some nicotine gum. I called my dad and asked for help, he said he would pray for me and I never heard from him again on the subject. All the while, he continued to dip.
Here is the deal though, I moved past that shit. I just grabbed some bootstraps like we do here in Oklahoma and said I got one life to live. I thank my higher power every day that I came across this site and was able to see the light so to speak. I am done. I surrendered. I cannot ever again have nicotine. In fact, this past week I was in a fantasy football championship and went to a bar to watch the final games. While there I was breathing second hand smoke and my mind said, I need a cigarette. Bull shit, I need a cigarette. That was the nic bitch rearing her ugly head. I moved outside and was fine. Day by day in every way I am getting better and better.
I am a proud member of the Bastards of March quit group and am open to connect with any of you to support you in your quits or just to be a resource.
Today, just for today, I quit! I quit! I quit! I quit!
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Great introduction OKC. Build a good support group here to help yourself deal with your family. You're on your way to freedom and that freedom needs to be protected.
I quit with you today!
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Omg. This introduction is straight up bad ass. Once in a while a dude joins this site and just gets it. Mr Oklahoma looks like one of those guys, and Stranger is one also. I hope youb2 exchange phone numbers. You could both help each other a lot.
You've got this man. Nothing... Nothing feels better than winning at something that you lost at daily for 18 years. That your father/grandfather lost and are still losing at. It is so hard now, but soon you are gonna stand up straight and feel 10' tall. No more hiding. No more shame. No more lies. Just winning.
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Great Intro Dustin!
Like wortowin and stranger said - use all the tools here at KTC! Writing an intro is one of them. I've come to learn (the hard way) that we cant really do this on our own.
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It's good to be a quitter! I'm in your corner Dustin! Great job, Quit on!
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Congratulations on the best decision of your life.
Come in and drink the Kool-Aid and get your quit on.
Send me a PM if you ever need anything.
I am Proud to quit like you and see you break the Family Tradition.
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Congratulations on 100 days of bad ass honor!
The road ahead has a few bumps, but oh man are you gonna like the drive! It is an honor to quit with you today.
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Congratulations on 100 days of bad ass honor!
The road ahead has a few bumps, but oh man are you gonna like the drive! It is an honor to quit with you today.
Congrats on HOF Dustin! A huge milestone on your journey. Proud to be quit with you
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Congratulations on 100 days of bad ass honor!
The road ahead has a few bumps, but oh man are you gonna like the drive! It is an honor to quit with you today.
Congrats on HOF Dustin! A huge milestone on your journey. Proud to be quit with you
Congrats on HOF! Well Done!!
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Congratulations on 100 days of bad ass honor!
The road ahead has a few bumps, but oh man are you gonna like the drive! It is an honor to quit with you today.
Congrats on HOF Dustin! A huge milestone on your journey. Proud to be quit with you
Congrats on HOF! Well Done!!
Good mile marker Dusty! Keep cranking to the next.
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Congratulations on 100 days of bad ass honor!
The road ahead has a few bumps, but oh man are you gonna like the drive! It is an honor to quit with you today.
Congrats on HOF Dustin! A huge milestone on your journey. Proud to be quit with you
Congrats on HOF! Well Done!!
Good mile marker Dusty! Keep cranking to the next.
Congrats on the milestone, dude! Proud to quit with you today.
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Congratulations on 100 days of bad ass honor!
The road ahead has a few bumps, but oh man are you gonna like the drive! It is an honor to quit with you today.
Congrats on HOF Dustin! A huge milestone on your journey. Proud to be quit with you
Congrats on HOF! Well Done!!
Good mile marker Dusty! Keep cranking to the next.
Congrats on the milestone, dude! Proud to quit with you today.
Nice work OKC! I'm proud to quit with you today. B)B
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Congratulations on 100 days of bad ass honor!
The road ahead has a few bumps, but oh man are you gonna like the drive! It is an honor to quit with you today.
Congrats on HOF Dustin! A huge milestone on your journey. Proud to be quit with you
Congrats on HOF! Well Done!!
Good mile marker Dusty! Keep cranking to the next.
Congrats on the milestone, dude! Proud to quit with you today.
Nice work OKC! I'm proud to quit with you today. B)B
Okc congrats on 100 days!!!!
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Great intro read.
Congrats on 100
You are the link.
He doesnt ask us to be the chain.
He ask us not to be the missing link.
You sir will be a huge link in your families story.
Focus on just today... Today is where everything is changed.
I quit with you Dustin.Congrats bro.
Rawls 491
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Keep winning EDD okcguy! We all need to post here every day to protect our quits. I'll never regret quitting. B)B
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200 days and counting OKC!
thanks for quitting with me brother!
Only thing we can do today to honor those who are struggling with what this contaminated weed did to them... and that is to continue to be quit and to help others do the same.
Keep on keeping on OKC.
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200 days and counting OKC!
thanks for quitting with me brother!
Only thing we can do today to honor those who are struggling with what this contaminated weed did to them... and that is to continue to be quit and to help others do the same.
Keep on keeping on OKC.
Wow, time flies. Welcome to the 2nd floor OKCGUY! It's a pleasure to quit with you EDD. :)
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Congrats on 2 years quit OKC!
Keep on counting!
'party2'
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Congrats on 2 years quit OKC!
Keep on counting!
'party2'
Honored to quit with you. Congratulations.
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Congrats on 2 years quit OKC!
Keep on counting!
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Honored to quit with you. Congratulations.
Congratulations my friend! 2 years is badass
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Congrats on hitting that comma okc!
Outstanding. Keep it up!
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Congrats on hitting that comma okc!
Outstanding. Keep it up!
Sorry IÂ’m late but congratulations on the dangle!