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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: ronniebean3 on September 13, 2018, 02:17:00 PM
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IÂ’m a tad bit late to the introduction, as I am currently 17 days quit, but here it goes.
Hello everyone, IÂ’m a 25 year old that got hooked on dip around 15. It all started for me, with Skoal Apple. I would take a harmless dip at the county fair with buddies and be off our rockers buzzed out of our minds. I would hide it from my parents and the more I would do it, the more and more I got hooked on it. A dip a day turned into 2, and then 3 and then.... well you get the picture.
I then found Copenhagen Wintergreen. I found that I could “side hide” and chew all day long through high school classes if I had a bottle of pop to wash the spit down. After a while of that, it evolved into just swallowing the spit. Hell, I chewed in every sport believe it or not (football, basketball, and baseball) and we would call ourselves the “TJs” which stood for Tobacco Junkies. We knew the risks but we didn’t care. I went to college and continued to dip, but even more. Dip after dip, moving it around my entire mouth, (bottom, bottom side, top, top side) usually the spot that wasn’t the sorest or most raw. I continued to chew after college with no real intent on ever quitting. Dip became my crutch. I used it in every situation imaginable. When I was nervous, sad, happy, anxious, stressed, bored, literally all day every day, other than to eat. I finally came to the conclusion that enough was enough.
On 8/28/2018 @ 8:00 PM I spit out my last dip. The struggle is real. The first 4 days really are hell. I will not lie to potential quitters, it is like losing your best friend in life. ItÂ’s an emotional rollercoaster, and you will think to yourself that thereÂ’s no way you can do it. I decided to look Nicotine straight in the eye and tough it out. I still have my last can for a trophy. Some of my favorite things to do, didnÂ’t seem like fun anymore without dip. I didnÂ’t even want to leave my bed some days. But I DID! I got on here every day, posted roll, and read stories of people (some that have dipped double or even triple the amount of time I have dipped) that were on their hall of fame speech. I knew this was possible. I reached out to the veterans, got numbers, and promised my group that I would stay dip free every day. The cravings go in waves, some almost brought me to my knees, but they do go away, and they do get less intense. I know I have a long, bumpy road ahead of me, but with determination, self discipline, and help from KTC members, I know I can quit.
Can you?
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IÂ’m a tad bit late to the introduction, as I am currently 17 days quit, but here it goes.
Hello everyone, IÂ’m a 25 year old that got hooked on dip around 15. It all started for me, with Skoal Apple. I would take a harmless dip at the county fair with buddies and be off our rockers buzzed out of our minds. I would hide it from my parents and the more I would do it, the more and more I got hooked on it. A dip a day turned into 2, and then 3 and then.... well you get the picture.
I then found Copenhagen Wintergreen. I found that I could “side hide” and chew all day long through high school classes if I had a bottle of pop to wash the spit down. After a while of that, it evolved into just swallowing the spit. Hell, I chewed in every sport believe it or not (football, basketball, and baseball) and we would call ourselves the “TJs” which stood for Tobacco Junkies. We knew the risks but we didn’t care. I went to college and continued to dip, but even more. Dip after dip, moving it around my entire mouth, (bottom, bottom side, top, top side) usually the spot that wasn’t the sorest or most raw. I continued to chew after college with no real intent on ever quitting. Dip became my crutch. I used it in every situation imaginable. When I was nervous, sad, happy, anxious, stressed, bored, literally all day every day, other than to eat. I finally came to the conclusion that enough was enough.
On 8/28/2018 @ 8:00 PM I spit out my last dip. The struggle is real. The first 4 days really are hell. I will not lie to potential quitters, it is like losing your best friend in life. ItÂ’s an emotional rollercoaster, and you will think to yourself that thereÂ’s no way you can do it. I decided to look Nicotine straight in the eye and tough it out. I still have my last can for a trophy. Some of my favorite things to do, didnÂ’t seem like fun anymore without dip. I didnÂ’t even want to leave my bed some days. But I DID! I got on here every day, posted roll, and read stories of people (some that have dipped double or even triple the amount of time I have dipped) that were on their hall of fame speech. I knew this was possible. I reached out to the veterans, got numbers, and promised my group that I would stay dip free every day. The cravings go in waves, some almost brought me to my knees, but they do go away, and they do get less intense. I know I have a long, bumpy road ahead of me, but with determination, self discipline, and help from KTC members, I know I can quit.
Can you?
Dump that trophy can NOW.
If you were hooked on heroin would you keep a "trophy"
If you were an alcoholic?
Crack addict?
Keeping a trophy can doesn't make you a better quitter. It gives you an easy path to a cave when that bitch starts screaming in your ear.
Burn the boats. Torch the bridges. Flush that shit and toss the can. Don't look back.
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Agreed - get rid of the trophy. It serves no purpose other than a quick ticket to a cave.
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Will get rid of the can as soon as I get home!
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Ronnie,
Stay strong, lean into KTC, get digits of vets and people in Your group, and post that promise first thing every day. The other thing is to kill the “good time”memories nicotine has lied to you about all these years. Start to absolutely hate nicotine for all it robbed you of all these years; money, time, dignity and health. Early in for me I thought all these things will suck without a lip but turning that into anger at nicotine has helped me thus far thru some gnarly cravings.
Happy to exchange digits if you need em, just shoot me a PM. Qwyt
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Great Job Ronnie, i agree get rid of the can. You don't need a visual reminder of how easy it will be to go back.
Proud to quit with you everyday. PM me if you want digits to help keep you quit.