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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Loppy on April 05, 2012, 03:40:00 AM
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Glad I found you guys. I'm 45' so I've been dipping for 30 years straight. No breaks, not for nothing. I was with the wife and kids down in Santa cruz when again I'm in the room fighting off a cold while theyre out doing stuff it pissed me off. Then saw a show on tv about a ball player that died of throat cancer... He said it started out as a sore throat. Well shit that's what I have. Fuck this shit, I'm done.
Woke up this am had the tiny bit of skoal classic I had left as my last one... Not a shred since 7 am. I'll be back to get into this place and have some fun. Right now I'm tired but can't sleep. U know. Ugh, this isngunna suck!
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this is the right place to quit man. its my first day too and ive already had alot of support from our quit brothers on the site.
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i aint byin. why for you wanna quit? cuz you got a sore throte? yah i had so many day or to stops cuz my throte hurt. or my gums. or my cheeks. but soon as i was ok. bam i was rite back to it. now i ask agin. why for you wanna quit? are you gonna have the will when your throte dont hurt no more?
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This a a NO NICOTINE SITE, period, no discussion.
Biggest thing to do is get acquainted with this site. Highly recommend you go here: WELCOME CENTER (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=13)
What to Expect When You Quit Dipping (http://www.killthecan.org/yourquit/what.asp)
We "Post Roll Call" daily ( our promise to ourselves and to our brothers not to use nicotine today)- We DO THIS DAILY
Make posting roll the first step of your daily proactive quit.
Where to post roll call: PRE JULY HOF 2012 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=6205)
Lets see if this is real or hype
PM if I can help
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This a a NO NICOTINE SITE, period, no discussion.
Biggest thing to do is get acquainted with this site. Highly recommend you go here: WELCOME CENTER (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=13)
What to Expect When You Quit Dipping (http://www.killthecan.org/yourquit/what.asp)
We "Post Roll Call" daily ( our promise to ourselves and to our brothers not to use nicotine today)- We DO THIS DAILY
Make posting roll the first step of your daily proactive quit.
Where to post roll call: PRE JULY HOF 2012 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=6205)
Lets see if this is real or hype
PM if I can help
I've had those sores and sore throat too! 30yr is a long time how many times have ya failed? It really sucks doesn't. Man if you have that fire in your gut to quit this is the place to do it. On day 5 and it can suck. There is more support here than you can begin to imagine. Fight like hell quit and stay quit.
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Alrighty then... this is better. Howdy boys! Sorry about last night, I was in bed on an ipad and very tired. Hard to get thoughts out in that conditions. I'm at work now, just plowing through the morning... taking time out to come here and check in. Get serious. I pretty much read everything last night, now I'm ready to rock.
Grizz, hope you're in my quit group then, I'm moving onto fiding that today. My last dip was yesterday morning... :D
Hey Syndrome... 'Finger' Naw, I can understand... I wasn't very intellengent last night. Super tired. Make no mistake, this is very for real. The sore throat was more or less a mechinisim that kicked off something that's been needing to be done for 30 years. My kids are 10 and 13. My wife is beautiful and wants to kiss me without dipcheck. My whole extended family has battles with addiction of all kinds, and I've seen some nasty results.
Bottom line is I'm a slave to a can of shit, that some rich guys market and have to constantly find new kids to sign up because the can of shit I'm a slave to is killing me too. Since 15 fawk'n years old, its all I know. I quit drinking so I know what its like to be sober, so I'm thinking... why not find out what being off nicotine is like? Maybe it kicks ass. Maybe I'll go for that pilots license i've always wanted. Maybe I'll finally shoot better and FINALLY get into the upper half of an open USPSA match. Maybe I'll plow my wife twice in one night again. 'boob'
So yeah, I'm kinda freak'n serous guys. This is no joke.
Thanks Cbird, and WT... I've NEVER seriously tried to quit. Just haven't. Too chicken? Didnt care? I dunno... All I know is I'm a little over 24 hours now and doing good. A craving pisses me off and I jab back by not giving in. I cant let it win this time.
Okay, I'm off to get my other duties done. Thanks for the words, and like it or not, You're all going to see a lot more of me around here. 'na na' 'Crazy'
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Alrighty then... this is better. Howdy boys! Sorry about last night, I was in bed on an ipad and very tired. Hard to get thoughts out in that conditions. I'm at work now, just plowing through the morning... taking time out to come here and check in. Get serious. I pretty much read everything last night, now I'm ready to rock.Â
Grizz, hope you're in my quit group then, I'm moving onto fiding that today. My last dip was yesterday morning... :D
Hey Syndrome... 'Finger'  Naw, I can understand... I wasn't very intellengent last night. Super tired. Make no mistake, this is very for real. The sore throat was more or less a mechinisim that kicked off something that's been needing to be done for 30 years. My kids are 10 and 13. My wife is beautiful and wants to kiss me without dipcheck. My whole extended family has battles with addiction of all kinds, and I've seen some nasty results.Â
Bottom line is I'm a slave to a can of shit, that some rich guys market and have to constantly find new kids to sign up because the can of shit I'm a slave to is killing me too. Since 15 fawk'n years old, its all I know. I quit drinking so I know what its like to be sober, so I'm thinking... why not find out what being off nicotine is like? Maybe it kicks ass. Maybe I'll go for that pilots license i've always wanted. Maybe I'll finally shoot better and FINALLY get into the upper half of an open USPSA match. Maybe I'll plow my wife twice in one night again. 'boob'
So yeah, I'm kinda freak'n serous guys. This is no joke.Â
Thanks Cbird, and WT... I've NEVER seriously tried to quit. Just haven't. Too chicken? Didnt care? I dunno... All I know is I'm a little over 24 hours now and doing good. A craving pisses me off and I jab back by not giving in. I cant let it win this time.Â
Okay, I'm off to get my other duties done. Thanks for the words, and like it or not, You're all going to see a lot more of me around here. 'na na' 'Crazy'
'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'dance'
Sold!!!! I love it. Stay Quit.
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man i love to be proved rong. but no this. i quit like a hunnert times cuz i was scaredy. i prolly seen dozens a guys what hang for 2 days here and disapeer to. the suck sucks. thats your first few days. and man onse the sore throte or spot on the cheeks went a way i jumped rite back in to stuffin my face. the next few days are gonna suck. your sore throttes gonna go away and your gonna get a test a wills atween you and the nic bitch. want this more than any thing for the next week man. i love to be rong bout shit like this. hell want it to prove me rong and show me whats what. evin if you gotta wanna stick it to that dum ass syndrome for the next hunnert days im good with that.
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man i love to be proved rong. but no this. i quit like a hunnert times cuz i was scaredy. i prolly seen dozens a guys what hang for 2 days here and disapeer to. the suck sucks. thats your first few days. and man onse the sore throte or spot on the cheeks went a way i jumped rite back in to stuffin my face. the next few days are gonna suck. your sore throttes gonna go away and your gonna get a test a wills atween you and the nic bitch. want this more than any thing for the next week man. i love to be rong bout shit like this. hell want it to prove me rong and show me whats what. evin if you gotta wanna stick it to that dum ass syndrome for the next hunnert days im good with that.
By the way Syndrome, do you type that way on purpose? I have to say, it hurts my brain a little. :P If its your artform or just how you're wired... all good. Just curious if there's a new language out there I'm not aware of... :D
I've never been so serious about anything. I can sit here and profess all this and that. Or start with "I'm gunna..." How about, every day, I'll just say "See ya tomorrow".
mthomas... I'm stay'n quit, but its hard. I want to eat everything in sight!
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man i love to be proved rong. but no this. i quit like a hunnert times cuz i was scaredy. i prolly seen dozens a guys what hang for 2 days here and disapeer to. the suck sucks. thats your first few days. and man onse the sore throte or spot on the cheeks went a way i jumped rite back in to stuffin my face. the next few days are gonna suck. your sore throttes gonna go away and your gonna get a test a wills atween you and the nic bitch. want this more than any thing for the next week man. i love to be rong bout shit like this. hell want it to prove me rong and show me whats what. evin if you gotta wanna stick it to that dum ass syndrome for the next hunnert days im good with that.
By the way Syndrome, do you type that way on purpose? I have to say, it hurts my brain a little. :P If its your artform or just how you're wired... all good. Just curious if there's a new language out there I'm not aware of... :D
I've never been so serious about anything. I can sit here and profess all this and that. Or start with "I'm gunna..." How about, every day, I'll just say "See ya tomorrow".
mthomas... I'm stay'n quit, but its hard. I want to eat everything in sight!
Which makes quitting the perfect time to start an all knew work out routine!
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man i love to be proved rong. but no this. i quit like a hunnert times cuz i was scaredy. i prolly seen dozens a guys what hang for 2 days here and disapeer to. the suck sucks. thats your first few days. and man onse the sore throte or spot on the cheeks went a way i jumped rite back in to stuffin my face. the next few days are gonna suck. your sore throttes gonna go away and your gonna get a test a wills atween you and the nic bitch. want this more than any thing for the next week man. i love to be rong bout shit like this. hell want it to prove me rong and show me whats what. evin if you gotta wanna stick it to that dum ass syndrome for the next hunnert days im good with that.
By the way Syndrome, do you type that way on purpose? I have to say, it hurts my brain a little. :P If its your artform or just how you're wired... all good. Just curious if there's a new language out there I'm not aware of... :D
I've never been so serious about anything. I can sit here and profess all this and that. Or start with "I'm gunna..." How about, every day, I'll just say "See ya tomorrow".
mthomas... I'm stay'n quit, but its hard. I want to eat everything in sight!
Which makes quitting the perfect time to start an all knew work out routine!
Indeed! I know its kinda early yet, but I already feel like I have more energy. I'm not bummed, I'm not torn up, super foggy... its wierd. I knew I had adult ADD, but its like its super kicked in now. I gave up on work and just reading here all day. I feel bad, but I cant concentrate. Drive home should be interesting... hahahaha... But yeah, working out is a must. I already do, now it will just intensify.
My other saviour is Jake's Mint Chew! Not sure I could do this without it.
I'm hang'n bro's. See ya tomorrow, if not later tonight. Off to boy's baseball.
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man i love to be proved rong. but no this. i quit like a hunnert times cuz i was scaredy. i prolly seen dozens a guys what hang for 2 days here and disapeer to. the suck sucks. thats your first few days. and man onse the sore throte or spot on the cheeks went a way i jumped rite back in to stuffin my face. the next few days are gonna suck. your sore throttes gonna go away and your gonna get a test a wills atween you and the nic bitch. want this more than any thing for the next week man. i love to be rong bout shit like this. hell want it to prove me rong and show me whats what. evin if you gotta wanna stick it to that dum ass syndrome for the next hunnert days im good with that.
By the way Syndrome, do you type that way on purpose? I have to say, it hurts my brain a little. :P If its your artform or just how you're wired... all good. Just curious if there's a new language out there I'm not aware of... :D
I've never been so serious about anything. I can sit here and profess all this and that. Or start with "I'm gunna..." How about, every day, I'll just say "See ya tomorrow".
mthomas... I'm stay'n quit, but its hard. I want to eat everything in sight!
Which makes quitting the perfect time to start an all knew work out routine!
Indeed! I know its kinda early yet, but I already feel like I have more energy. I'm not bummed, I'm not torn up, super foggy... its wierd. I knew I had adult ADD, but its like its super kicked in now. I gave up on work and just reading here all day. I feel bad, but I cant concentrate. Drive home should be interesting... hahahaha... But yeah, working out is a must. I already do, now it will just intensify.
My other saviour is Jake's Mint Chew! Not sure I could do this without it.
I'm hang'n bro's. See ya tomorrow, if not later tonight. Off to boy's baseball.
Totally not quit related but. . .
If you're going to call syndrome out on his letters, you might want to check the spelling in your siggy. (hint: I think you mean forcibly)
Regardless of your politics, I'll quit with you today, and I'll see you tomorrow.
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Quitting right along side you man.
I got two teenagers too. I wouldn't want them to start this shit. Trying to set a good example.
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welcome aboard loppy, sounds like your having a foggy day. It's gonna be up and down, not to worry, load up with contacts. this way you have something and someone to yack at when the nic whore starts screwing with your head. One day at a time brother, you can do this, if I can anyone can. IM me if you wanna talk. Welcome.
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Quitting right along side you man.
I got two teenagers too. I wouldn't want them to start this shit. Trying to set a good example.
No "try" to it Norton. Yous "doing". You will continue "doing". Yous got no choice. You are committed.
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mthomas... I'm stay'n quit, but its hard. I want to eat everything in sight!
Of course its hard, if it wasn't, we all would just put it down. I love that it is hard. I love the fight. I love to say, "Not Today"! Hell if I can control this, I can be the captain of my ship. The master of my fate.
My Winston Churchill quote of the day...."I love a man that grins when he's in a fight"
Loppy, grin an bare it! You gave your word and it means something when you back it up.
I have my integrity back! Wouldn't trade it for the little buzz I get from tobacco. Walk as much as you can. Let your brain rewire without poison. You will feel the cravings, as you fight the cravings, you will feel more free!!!!!!!!! Its Fucking great....And worth the suck of the addiction. Don't get me wrong...I crave but when I do, I put up my fists and start grinning.
I have been kicking the nicotine bitch's ass for 23 days! It hasn't been easy; but I am happy and love the battle because I am winning. Its been a long time since I felt the love of victory and winning.
Oh by the way, I am nicotine and alcohol free for 23 days. I am one sober, angry, constipated son of a bitch, but my mind is so clear.
Two things I attribute to my victories so far....Brotherhood of the KTC, and personal commitments and determination. If you knew me you would easily think, "if that pussy can do this, so can I." YOU CAN.
My advise:
1) Respect your elders (Meaning the vets on this site) They have earned our respect. They are great advisers, support and therapist. Never fight what they advise, just do it and you'll be safe. In short, follow orders with exactness.
2) Vent and express your feelings here. Off the site, with family, friends and co-workers. Over do it on being nice. Force a smile and express appreciation to them. They will help you get through it too.
3) Go into the introduction site. Write your story and use it as a daily or weekly journal so that you never forget the journey. Soon it will become easy, you never want to forget the battles. You will have day's where you think, this isn't that bad. Then it will get bad. Many spectrum's of emotion.
4) Give back to your brothers. When you are strong, come to the site. Someone needs your support. When you're weak, come to the site, someone needs to support you. Read and gain knowledge. A clear mind is amazing because concepts and understanding are greater.
5) Welcome to hell. It's a painful journey but you'll be back soon if you keep walking. You're just detoxing and refining. Embrace the suck!
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By the way Syndrome, do you type that way on purpose? I have to say, it hurts my brain a little. :P
corse i type this way on perpiss. there was a guy in my quit groop what used all capatals and man that drove me nuts so i just quit usin capatals at all when i type.
dont worry onse the fog lifts it gets eezyer to reed. now if you want more practise head on over to my intro pages. plus theres lots a good avise in it. its linked dow nin my sig line. its the bestest thred ever.
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mthomas... I'm stay'n quit, but its hard. I want to eat everything in sight!
Of course its hard, if it wasn't, we all would just put it down. I love that it is hard. I love the fight. I love to say, "Not Today"! Hell if I can control this, I can be the captain of my ship. The master of my fate.
My Winston Churchill quote of the day...."I love a man that grins when he's in a fight"
Loppy, grin an bare it! You gave your word and it means something when you back it up.
I have my integrity back! Wouldn't trade it for the little buzz I get from tobacco. Walk as much as you can. Let your brain rewire without poison. You will feel the cravings, as you fight the cravings, you will feel more free!!!!!!!!! Its Fucking great....And worth the suck of the addiction. Don't get me wrong...I crave but when I do, I put up my fists and start grinning.
I have been kicking the nicotine bitch's ass for 23 days! It hasn't been easy; but I am happy and love the battle because I am winning. Its been a long time since I felt the love of victory and winning.
Oh by the way, I am nicotine and alcohol free for 23 days. I am one sober, angry, constipated son of a bitch, but my mind is so clear.
Two things I attribute to my victories so far....Brotherhood of the KTC, and personal commitments and determination. If you knew me you would easily think, "if that pussy can do this, so can I." YOU CAN.
My advise:
1) Respect your elders (Meaning the vets on this site) They have earned our respect. They are great advisers, support and therapist. Never fight what they advise, just do it and you'll be safe. In short, follow orders with exactness.
2) Vent and express your feelings here. Off the site, with family, friends and co-workers. Over do it on being nice. Force a smile and express appreciation to them. They will help you get through it too.
3) Go into the introduction site. Write your story and use it as a daily or weekly journal so that you never forget the journey. Soon it will become easy, you never want to forget the battles. You will have day's where you think, this isn't that bad. Then it will get bad. Many spectrum's of emotion.
4) Give back to your brothers. When you are strong, come to the site. Someone needs your support. When you're weak, come to the site, someone needs to support you. Read and gain knowledge. A clear mind is amazing because concepts and understanding are greater.
5) Welcome to hell. It's a painful journey but you'll be back soon if you keep walking. You're just detoxing and refining. Embrace the suck!
good advice stay strong and quit you badasses. 'boob'
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By the way Syndrome, do you type that way on purpose? I have to say, it hurts my brain a little. :P
corse i type this way on perpiss. there was a guy in my quit groop what used all capatals and man that drove me nuts so i just quit usin capatals at all when i type.
dont worry onse the fog lifts it gets eezyer to reed. now if you want more practise head on over to my intro pages. plus theres lots a good avise in it. its linked dow nin my sig line. its the bestest thred ever.
Right on dude. I getcha. 'Sno'
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So... Hi fella's, I'm back. 'arse' so interesting how I kinda thought yesterday... hey, this aint so bad... what's with the "fog" and this or that... I'm good...
NOW I KNOW!
Last night, on way home, I almost ran a dude off the road for cutting me off. Luckily I have a little stress training in me and wrangled my feelings down, but that was wierd. A wave of complete pissed-off-ness.
Got super mad at my son who was lagging getting his baseball shit done. I actually threw something at him.
Okay, stop this shit you're turning into a complete asshole!!! i tell myself.
So boys, this is my stage. I'm still 100% nic free, thank god. Great stuff from Mthomas and all you guys. I'm going to keep coming back in here as much as possible to bring you interesting tidbits of the wierd way I look at life. Its gunna help me get throught this. You guys are awesome. (big semi gay e group hug) 'loot01'
Love the talk of integrity, because that's where I'm at right now. How easy it would be to stop, pick up a Skoal classic and, ya know, just one. But fuck that. Thats pussy. I'm here to fight, make some friends and help out other dudes in the same boat.
I remember something I read from a Navy Seal who was describing an operation over in the sand box somewhere, when they were nabbing some dude from kidnappers. He had the dude over his shoulder, runing down stairs trying to return fire with his Barretta sidearm when he got "bit" twice in the leg and ass. He said "in this business, pain is good. It means you're still alive".
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Still work'n hard, still quit, still in this for the long haul.
I was talking to another buddy on another forum I'm on, who just started chewing. I thought my response to him might make a good read here... He said he's not addicted, he doesn't understand it. I said:
"You dont understand the addiction part of it because nicotine is courting you right now. You're in love, dancing around the room, nothing's bad, everything's good. What good ol Nicci isnt showing you is how at this very moment, she is re-wiring your brain, pumping out dopamine, even setting up in your cardio. You're being lured in to the cave, its warm and fuzzy.
FF years, the cave turns into a prison. Nicci is no longer beautiful, she's just a nagging ugly bitch you serve, like a slave. The cave is cold and dark, and the longer you stay there the further away the entrance, and its light gets. Its harder and harder to leave."
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Still work'n hard, still quit, still in this for the long haul.
I was talking to another buddy on another forum I'm on, who just started chewing. I thought my response to him might make a good read here... He said he's not addicted, he doesn't understand it. I said:
"You dont understand the addiction part of it because nicotine is courting you right now. You're in love, dancing around the room, nothing's bad, everything's good. What good ol Nicci isnt showing you is how at this very moment, she is re-wiring your brain, pumping out dopamine, even setting up in your cardio. You're being lured in to the cave, its warm and fuzzy.
FF years, the cave turns into a prison. Nicci is no longer beautiful, she's just a nagging ugly bitch you serve, like a slave. The cave is cold and dark, and the longer you stay there the further away the entrance, and its light gets. Its harder and harder to leave."
Good read Loppy!!!!
Great perspective!
Something every new nic user should read before becomming a slave!