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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Steel Cowboy on December 16, 2015, 04:27:00 PM
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I'm done playing this game. I've been dipping for about 6 years, and I'm over it. I want to do this for myself. I've played the stop and restart game many times and I've tried programs to ween myself off. It's been 16 hours since I promised that I won't dip today. I plan on making the same promise tomorrow. I don't know how I stumbled on this site, but I'm glad I did. I was up late last night and couldn't stop reading through the website. I don't expect it to be easy, but it will be worth it.
I'm done being weak, it's time. I QUIT!
Edit: A little back story from me. I'm a Marine Corps Combat Veteran, Career firefighter, Father, Husband, and Biker. I'm also a quitter now. I'm motivated right now, which I'm sure will change at times. Today is day one and I'm going strong. Already checked into March 2016 roll call. A lot of the guys at the firehouse chew which won't make this journey easier. My previous attempts at quitting weren't successful because I didn't want to. I wasn't doing it for me. More to come later.
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The best decision you've ever made! Get ready, sack up, and remember the hell your about to go through; that way you never ever, not for any reason, go back to the shit in your lip!! I used Cope Snuff, can a day for nearly 20 years, and if I can do it, then you for sure as hell can do it! I'm on day 77, and this site works as long as you use it; and only promise to quit one day at a time!!! Get in your pre hall of fame group and post that day one if you have not already!!! PM me if you need anything!!
Copper12
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The time has come. No turning back and no giving in. You've posted up and it's as easy as that. There's a buncha hose draggers and jar heads roaming around these hallowed halls. Gym, water, read, and more water...Welcome aboard! Let's do it again tomorrow!
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Hey Cowboy,
The best decision you've ever made, and Jarhead your in the right place as you suspected. Post roll early everyday, make your promise and stick to it. Its that EASY, yeah right, you and both know if something easy probably not worth doing and sticking out, never easy. What I can Say, very doable if you pay attention and drink the coolaid, I dipped before, during, and after the Marine Corp and it took me 30 yrs to find another brotherhood that could help me stay quit. Pm when you need digits, because theres not if, when the nic bitch comes a calling you need brothers and a plan. I quit with you today Cowboy!
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Day 1 is coming to a close, nicotine free. It wasn't easy, especially being at the firehouse where there's quite a few chew addicts. I'm proud of myself so far. I'm feeling antsy and a little jittery. I've had chewing gum, sunflower seeds, or cough drops in my mouth most of the day. All my tins were thrown out last night along with the spit bottles. I haven't told my wife, or really anyone outside of the firehouse yet. Yall are it for me. I want to make some headway before I spread the news, at least a week into it. I've stopped dipping before, but started up shortly later, I've tried bacc-off, only to deviate from the program and go back to my full flavor Grizzly Wintergreen Longcut. Anyway, I want to do this for myself. My wife wants me to as well, but I don't want that to distract this momentum I have going. I'm pretty scatter-brained right now, which doesn't help my adult adhd haha. That about sums up my feelings at this point. Still motivated. Let's do it again tomorrow.
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Day 1 is coming to a close, nicotine free. It wasn't easy, especially being at the firehouse where there's quite a few chew addicts. I'm proud of myself so far. I'm feeling antsy and a little jittery. I've had chewing gum, sunflower seeds, or cough drops in my mouth most of the day. All my tins were thrown out last night along with the spit bottles. I haven't told my wife, or really anyone outside of the firehouse yet. Yall are it for me. I want to make some headway before I spread the news, at least a week into it. I've stopped dipping before, but started up shortly later, I've tried bacc-off, only to deviate from the program and go back to my full flavor Grizzly Wintergreen Longcut. Anyway, I want to do this for myself. My wife wants me to as well, but I don't want that to distract this momentum I have going. I'm pretty scatter-brained right now, which doesn't help my adult adhd haha. That about sums up my feelings at this point. Still motivated. Let's do it again tomorrow.
I saw this same post in March 16. Let me repeat my reply so hopefully you see it. Don't hold back tell everyone you know that you have quit. Build accountability for yourself. When you say you want to make some headway before you tell people I hear I don't want to tell anybody so I don't look like a pussy caver if I can't do it! By doing this you are building in a planned cave. The day I quit I put it on facebook and told everyone because I wanted the pressure of failing. Make your promise every day and keep it. Repeat the next day. Quitting is simple but it is not easy. You can do this if YOU WANT IT. Keep posting roll early and every day. Read everything you can in here.
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Day 1 is coming to a close, nicotine free. It wasn't easy, especially being at the firehouse where there's quite a few chew addicts. I'm proud of myself so far. I'm feeling antsy and a little jittery. I've had chewing gum, sunflower seeds, or cough drops in my mouth most of the day. All my tins were thrown out last night along with the spit bottles. I haven't told my wife, or really anyone outside of the firehouse yet. Yall are it for me. I want to make some headway before I spread the news, at least a week into it. I've stopped dipping before, but started up shortly later, I've tried bacc-off, only to deviate from the program and go back to my full flavor Grizzly Wintergreen Longcut. Anyway, I want to do this for myself. My wife wants me to as well, but I don't want that to distract this momentum I have going. I'm pretty scatter-brained right now, which doesn't help my adult adhd haha. That about sums up my feelings at this point. Still motivated. Let's do it again tomorrow.
I saw this same post in March 16. Let me repeat my reply so hopefully you see it. Don't hold back tell everyone you know that you have quit. Build accountability for yourself. When you say you want to make some headway before you tell people I hear I don't want to tell anybody so I don't look like a pussy caver if I can't do it! By doing this you are building in a planned cave. The day I quit I put it on facebook and told everyone because I wanted the pressure of failing. Make your promise every day and keep it. Repeat the next day. Quitting is simple but it is not easy. You can do this if YOU WANT IT. Keep posting roll early and every day. Read everything you can in here.
You're absolutely correct. I like the way you roll. I'll let me wife know as soon as I get home from work in the morning. Thanks
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Day 1 is coming to a close, nicotine free. It wasn't easy, especially being at the firehouse where there's quite a few chew addicts. I'm proud of myself so far. I'm feeling antsy and a little jittery. I've had chewing gum, sunflower seeds, or cough drops in my mouth most of the day. All my tins were thrown out last night along with the spit bottles. I haven't told my wife, or really anyone outside of the firehouse yet. Yall are it for me. I want to make some headway before I spread the news, at least a week into it. I've stopped dipping before, but started up shortly later, I've tried bacc-off, only to deviate from the program and go back to my full flavor Grizzly Wintergreen Longcut. Anyway, I want to do this for myself. My wife wants me to as well, but I don't want that to distract this momentum I have going. I'm pretty scatter-brained right now, which doesn't help my adult adhd haha. That about sums up my feelings at this point. Still motivated. Let's do it again tomorrow.
I saw this same post in March 16. Let me repeat my reply so hopefully you see it. Don't hold back tell everyone you know that you have quit. Build accountability for yourself. When you say you want to make some headway before you tell people I hear I don't want to tell anybody so I don't look like a pussy caver if I can't do it! By doing this you are building in a planned cave. The day I quit I put it on facebook and told everyone because I wanted the pressure of failing. Make your promise every day and keep it. Repeat the next day. Quitting is simple but it is not easy. You can do this if YOU WANT IT. Keep posting roll early and every day. Read everything you can in here.
You're absolutely correct. I like the way you roll. I'll let me wife know as soon as I get home from work in the morning. Thanks
Check your pm upper right corner.
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"go back to my full flavor Grizzly Wintergreen Longcut"
No more romancing... That doesnt sound right....
Thats a lie. Like saying:
My cold blue steal pistol stuck in my mouth.
Kissing my warm cudley diamondback rattlesnake.
Shooting my pretty warm herion in my vains.
Ready for my next full flavor Chemo shot.
See it for what it is.... Its a lie.
Its your addiction that used to rule you.
And its next plan is to turn one cell wrong....
FOR WHAT?
You were not created to need poison.
Let's not try to die early.
Proud to quit with you today.
ODAAT...EDD
Rawls 394
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I told the wife, she's excited. I'm excited. Posted roll, stopped by a gas station on the way home from work this morning and grabbed some seeds. Stayed away from the nasty shit behind the counter. I quit today with all of you. One day at a time. 'oh yeah'
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Slept thru most of today so far. Day 3. Wish I hadn't. However I posted roll and promised myself and all of you that I quit with yall today. About to go to dinner with the wife and little girl. Almost at that 72 hour benchmark.
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Slept thru most of today so far. Day 3. Wish I hadn't. However I posted roll and promised myself and all of you that I quit with yall today. About to go to dinner with the wife and little girl. Almost at that 72 hour benchmark.
Keep your guard up. She will lull you to sleep and when you least expect it she will hit you over the head
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Told my doc I kicked the nic bitch to the curb and he suggested Wellbutrin. Anyone have any thoughts or opinions about that?
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Told my doc I kicked the nic bitch to the curb and he suggested Wellbutrin. Anyone have any thoughts or opinions about that?
Do you have issues with anxiety? If yes it might be worth it. A lot of people on here have used anti anxiety meds to help with their quits. You stopped for what 6 months last time? How did you feel?
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Day 4 coming to an end. Started Wellbutrin, no noticeable differences. Definitely had some strong cravings today, but no chance of caving. Relying on seeds and chewing gum. Drinking water and constantly visiting the forums to remind me of my quit. I've had mini battles in my head about my quit, but I'm still standing strong. Stayed quit today and gonna stay quit tomorrow. ODAAT
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Day 4 coming to an end. Started Wellbutrin, no noticeable differences. Definitely had some strong cravings today, but no chance of caving. Relying on seeds and chewing gum. Drinking water and constantly visiting the forums to remind me of my quit. I've had mini battles in my head about my quit, but I'm still standing strong. Stayed quit today and gonna stay quit tomorrow. ODAAT
Cowboy, you have some quit stud's on your side already. My advice, take full advantage of them ,trade numbers, and most of all I noticed you went to eat with family. How damn great was it to sit there enjoy dinner and basically not rush to put that disgusting shit in your mouth? I wasted alot of valuable family, which I will never get back! Take full advantage of this opportunity to have people on your side that's been through the exact same shit your going through, you post your Roll early every damn day and you will have all the support you need. Damn proud of you! Quit on!
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You hit the nail on the head pab. We went from dinner to waiting in line to see Santa and I wasn't looking disgusting holding my little girls hand with one hand and a spitter in the other because I "had" to have one in after eating. The freedom is awesome.
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You hit the nail on the head pab. We went from dinner to waiting in line to see Santa and I wasn't looking disgusting holding my little girls hand with one hand and a spitter in the other because I "had" to have one in after eating. The freedom is awesome.
Many many many more of these victories are imminent SC if you continue to keep your promise every day. You won't believe how much better it's going to get.
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You hit the nail on the head pab. We went from dinner to waiting in line to see Santa and I wasn't looking disgusting holding my little girls hand with one hand and a spitter in the other because I "had" to have one in after eating. The freedom is awesome.
Many many many more of these victories are imminent SC if you continue to keep your promise every day. You won't believe how much better it's going to get.
A nice quit started here...QLF with you SC.
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Another successful day of quit. Hit double digits today and it's Christmas. It was awesome to hang out with family without having to throw in a dip. At the end of the family dinner I didn't constantly plan my after meal dip, nor did I throw one in for all the family to see (even though they were probably still eating). The urge was there though. Being the host was stressful, herding cats some of the time. But I kept telling myself "a problem + nicotine = 2 problems". I was also tossing back a few so I had to keep my guard up. Hope everyone had a Merry Christmas and a successful quit.
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Another successful day of quit. Hit double digits today and it's Christmas. It was awesome to hang out with family without having to throw in a dip. At the end of the family dinner I didn't constantly plan my after meal dip, nor did I throw one in for all the family to see (even though they were probably still eating). The urge was there though. Being the host was stressful, herding cats some of the time. But I kept telling myself "a problem + nicotine = 2 problems". I was also tossing back a few so I had to keep my guard up. Hope everyone had a Merry Christmas and a successful quit.
Well done Cowboy....
One successful day at a time. OSDAAT
I QUIT with you today.
Merry Christmas!
Rawls 403
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Another successful day of quit. Hit double digits today and it's Christmas. It was awesome to hang out with family without having to throw in a dip. At the end of the family dinner I didn't constantly plan my after meal dip, nor did I throw one in for all the family to see (even though they were probably still eating). The urge was there though. Being the host was stressful, herding cats some of the time. But I kept telling myself "a problem + nicotine = 2 problems". I was also tossing back a few so I had to keep my guard up. Hope everyone had a Merry Christmas and a successful quit.
Nice work SC...but watch the alcohol. It has killed a million quits here.
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I've noticed myself telling people about my quit. I'm proud of my quit and I also want the accountability from those around me. I'm around people that dip pretty often and I notice the shit I used to do in order to revolve around that damn can. Almost two weeks into my quit and the benefits are awesome.
Dear future self, read this shit if you're contemplating doing something dumb!
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I've noticed myself telling people about my quit. I'm proud of my quit and I also want the accountability from those around me. I'm around people that dip pretty often and I notice the shit I used to do in order to revolve around that damn can. Almost two weeks into my quit and the benefits are awesome.
Dear future self, read this shit if you're contemplating doing something dumb!
Accountability is key SC. Don't be disheartened if some of the people you tell aren't impressed with your quit. Unless they are also an addict (like all of us here) they can not fully understand the magnitude of what you are doing. But we sure do and keep kicking ass.
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I've noticed myself telling people about my quit. I'm proud of my quit and I also want the accountability from those around me. I'm around people that dip pretty often and I notice the shit I used to do in order to revolve around that damn can. Almost two weeks into my quit and the benefits are awesome.
Dear future self, read this shit if you're contemplating doing something dumb!
Accountability is key SC. Don't be disheartened if some of the people you tell aren't impressed with your quit. Unless they are also an addict (like all of us here) they can not fully understand the magnitude of what you are doing. But we sure do and keep kicking ass.
You quit for yourself and no one else. Every day quit is the sweetest revenge.
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I've noticed myself telling people about my quit. I'm proud of my quit and I also want the accountability from those around me. I'm around people that dip pretty often and I notice the shit I used to do in order to revolve around that damn can. Almost two weeks into my quit and the benefits are awesome.
Dear future self, read this shit if you're contemplating doing something dumb!
Accountability is key SC. Don't be disheartened if some of the people you tell aren't impressed with your quit. Unless they are also an addict (like all of us here) they can not fully understand the magnitude of what you are doing. But we sure do and keep kicking ass.
You quit for yourself and no one else. Every day quit is the sweetest revenge.
Cowboy I'm damn proud of you my friend! I know your family is! Keep winning, it will get easier, I promise! Quit on!
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New Year's Eve and I'm working. It's actually a blessing because I can't drink so my guard won't drop. I'm ending 2015 nicotine free and it feels great! My new coping mechanism is cinnamon fire Jolly Ranchers rather than seeds. I'm trying to avoid fake because I think it'll remind me too much of that nasty shit. Happy New Year quitters! ODAAT
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I'm now 20 days nicotine free and it's fucking awesome. I couldn't do it without this site or all you fuckin' quitters! Mini battles in my head are often, but quickly squashed knowing that I'm not the only quitter going through this wicked shit. I'm toughing through the worst cotton mouth I've ever had right now, along with canker sores. I see this as my mouth giving me payback for putting that poison in my body. Dreams are still occurring, some more realistic than others, freaking me out at times thinking I caved. I've acquired a handful of numbers, thus building my support system. Triggers such as chopping wood, the end of a house-fire, driving, eating, shitting, etc still bring up a small crave until I run my tongue across the inside of my lower lip and can feel how smooth it is. I've picked up handling the spreadsheet for my quit group, which I feel is helping TONS with my quit. It's amazing that I'm conquering this after using 1-2 cans of shit daily for 6+ years. I quit with all you bad-ass quitters today!
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Day 4 coming to an end. Started Wellbutrin, no noticeable differences. Definitely had some strong cravings today, but no chance of caving. Relying on seeds and chewing gum. Drinking water and constantly visiting the forums to remind me of my quit. I've had mini battles in my head about my quit, but I'm still standing strong. Stayed quit today and gonna stay quit tomorrow. ODAAT
The first few days suck. There ain't no getting around that.
Fortunately, it makes the freedom so much sweeter. If this stuff was not so difficult to quit, we wouldn't appreciate what we've done. It sounds silly to tell somebody "I'm exhausted and brain dead from NOT chewing tobacco". But, at least in my case and most others, that withdrawal process is hard and beats you into a pathetic pile of mush. It sucks at the time but I will tell you: I'm on day 1649. I still remember how awful it was and that drives me to stay quit. I can't go through that again. This freedom is much too good.
My best suggestion to you is to make a friend in April 2016. I made my first friend in my group around day 6 (Eafman). I texted him like a teenage girl and let him know how bad this shit was and every time I celebrated a little victory. He did the same back to me (he was and is 3 days behind me). He has been my rock throughout my quit. Because of this, even though I've leaned on and been a support to numerous other quitters on this board, I owe him my quit. Outside of this, read as much as you can here. Prepare yourself for upcoming battles by planning to be quit. Remember that "ODAAT" moniker you tout and (most importantly) understand it. We make feel like we're quit forever, but a quit can only be built one decision at a time. The mini battles will always be there. Right now they're loud and overtake your thoughts. Later, they'll be fleeting thoughts. No matter how you slice it, they are battles and (most importantly) VICTORIES. Most importantly, post roll. It's where our quits start. Always.
I always got your back if you need it man. I'm sure there are hundreds and even thousands that will do the same for you today. All you have to do is ask.
EDIT: Apparently, I got stuck on page 1 and answered like you're on day 4. Oops. Way to rock that day 20 man.
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31 days quit today. A full calendar month. I'm still feeling the wrath of the nic bitch, but I'm learning how to deal with it. Cotton mouth is finally gone. Still taking care of the spreadsheet for March '16 and slowing seeing quitters move to the MIQ section. I've reached out, giving out my digits to many. I have quite a few quitters I know I can call or text if I'm hurting as well. Yall are a big reason for this success, and for that I thank you. I'm telling everyone. Today I learned that my older brother started his quit 3 days ago. That makes me damn proud too. I've gotten him on the right path toward KTC and we should see him sign up in the next few days.
MENTAL March of 2016 is getting to be a tight knit group, and a damn fine one at that. I still only quit today. Tomorrow I'll worry about tomorrow. Always gotta be ODAAT.
I plan on kicking energy drinks to the curb as well. I just don't want to set myself up for a cave. Any insight or experience regarding that is much appreciated.
I QLFT with the Badass Quitters of KTC
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31 days quit today. A full calendar month. I'm still feeling the wrath of the nic bitch, but I'm learning how to deal with it. Cotton mouth is finally gone. Still taking care of the spreadsheet for March '16 and slowing seeing quitters move to the MIQ section. I've reached out, giving out my digits to many. I have quite a few quitters I know I can call or text if I'm hurting as well. Yall are a big reason for this success, and for that I thank you. I'm telling everyone. Today I learned that my older brother started his quit 3 days ago. That makes me damn proud too. I've gotten him on the right path toward KTC and we should see him sign up in the next few days.
MENTAL March of 2016 is getting to be a tight knit group, and a damn fine one at that. I still only quit today. Tomorrow I'll worry about tomorrow. Always gotta be ODAAT.
I plan on kicking energy drinks to the curb as well. I just don't want to set myself up for a cave. Any insight or experience regarding that is much appreciated.
I QLFT with the Badass Quitters of KTC
Nice work Steel. A solid quit going here.