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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Xipher on September 20, 2017, 05:52:00 AM
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Hey everyone. Name's Clint. I'm 29 and have been dipping for a little over 12 years now. I've quit dipping about 5 times, most recently being for about 4 months and now I'd like to quit forever. I also recently quit drinking after going through detox. It's been about a month since my last drink. I wanted to stagger it out from my alcohol quit date and my time to quit dipping again is coming soon. I've been around quit sites for awhile and I'm going to try this one this time. I wanted to give my reasons for quitting and see if they're similar to anyone else's. Dipping at this point for me isn't really enjoyable anymore. My brain learned that the activities I mainly do while dipping aren't as fun or enjoyable when I'm not chewing. When I throw in a dip these days, my body just tenses up. My palms start to sweat. My nerves get worse. I get panic attacks occasionally. It feels like my stomach gets tense too, digestion is worse. In the beginning I could throw in a chew and just chill out!! Got a real nice buzz and could chill out. That doesn't happen anymore. Anxiety while chewing has gone up exponentially. I don't get that "buzz" feeling anymore. The problem for me was that the urge to throw in a chew again never ceased in those four months. It was always on my mind. I felt like I really wanted one, even while being four months in to my quit. What I didn't notice and what I forgot was how many problems I WASN'T having while being sober and off the can. I didn't have panic attacks. My anxiety was fine. The only thing that bothered me was that dark passenger in my mind telling me that I could really go for a dip. I feel like I'm ready to stop again, but this time for good. The worst (for me) is when I'm on or around my computer. The activity itself is most likely the sole reason I didn't stay quit. If any of you veterans of the quit are out there and come across this, have you felt the same before you quit? Should I stay off the computer and away from activities that make the cravings worse? For how long? I know at least that quitting and staying quit is a very long process. I feel like people expect to be feeling better around a few weeks. It may differ from person to person, but I imagine I won't be able to go back to my normal routine for a very long time. Well that's me and any advice is appreciated. Hope to meet some cool people when I get into a group.
~Clint
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Welcome Clint. Glad to hear you're turning your life around.
One correction - you've never quit tobacco before, you only stopped temporarily. When we Quit, we quit for good. We throw our entire selves into our quit, and we never ingest the poison again.
The method we use is to post a daily promise to members of your Quit Group. You will be a member of the December '17 (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/30321153/219/) group. Post your promise. Keep your word. Post early the next day, and keep your word again. It's that simple - hard as hell - but simple. You can learn about posting roll here (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/10391308/1/#new) and here (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/1003072/1/#new).
Collect digits from your fellow quitters, and reach out when you need to.
As for your reasons for quitting - most of us share many of the same reasons. We were sick and tired of being a little bitch to a weed in a can, for the most part.
My suggestion is to read as much as you can. Read the intros. Read the HOF speeches. Read the December group thread from the beginning. You will see story after story from other quitters.
Most importantly - post roll!
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Dude you are in our December Group -- WE are serious! Make your pledge for today - Post Now -- Pledge Tomorrow -- Post Tomorrow -- REPEAT!!
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Dude you are in our December Group -- WE are serious! Make your pledge for today - Post Now -- Pledge Tomorrow -- Post Tomorrow -- REPEAT!!
I still do not see your name today on the group - make sure you post Roll - need all of our December group to stay strong. We are real kick A$$ Quitters - so pledge and post with us.