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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: eric71 on June 27, 2012, 08:59:00 PM
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My wife actually tuned me on to the site and forum just minutes ago. I had chewed for the past 15 years and have gone through the same broken promises and lies to those I love much like others here. I made an announcement Monday night to my wife and 4 kids that I was done chewing. The kids collectively walked me to the trash can and we all together threw the last, unopened can of chew away. Somehow this time is different. Seeing my oldest daughter cry and my son jump up and give me a hug and kiss tells me this has to be it. Everything I preach to them about being accountable and doing what you expect from others, the golden rule, keeping your word, all of that will have no meaning in their lives if I falter.
How do I get into and find my group? Sorry I am in a complete haze and cannot focus too well on what I need.
Thanks for reading and I'll be here in the morning for roll call.
Eric
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My wife actually tuned me on to the site and forum just minutes ago. I had chewed for the past 15 years and have gone through the same broken promises and lies to those I love much like others here. I made an announcement Monday night to my wife and 4 kids that I was done chewing. The kids collectively walked me to the trash can and we all together threw the last, unopened can of chew away. Somehow this time is different. Seeing my oldest daughter cry and my son jump up and give me a hug and kiss tells me this has to be it. Everything I preach to them about being accountable and doing what you expect from others, the golden rule, keeping your word, all of that will have no meaning in their lives if I falter.
How do I get into and find my group? Sorry I am in a complete haze and cannot focus too well on what I need.
Thanks for reading and I'll be here in the morning for roll call.
Eric
Post up and read up. It sure helps.
I wont wish youluck, but ill quit with you.
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My wife actually tuned me on to the site and forum just minutes ago. I had chewed for the past 15 years and have gone through the same broken promises and lies to those I love much like others here. I made an announcement Monday night to my wife and 4 kids that I was done chewing. The kids collectively walked me to the trash can and we all together threw the last, unopened can of chew away. Somehow this time is different. Seeing my oldest daughter cry and my son jump up and give me a hug and kiss tells me this has to be it. Everything I preach to them about being accountable and doing what you expect from others, the golden rule, keeping your word, all of that will have no meaning in their lives if I falter.Â
How do I get into and find my group? Sorry I am in a complete haze and cannot focus too well on what I need.
Thanks for reading and I'll be here in the morning for roll call.
Eric
Day 17... Gooch.. Man the fog will lift.. day 17 has been rough as shit for me.. crave after crave.. a lot of craving but no caving! I swear I really thought I was the worst nic addict on the planet... there everywhere here... join the club... I swear if i can go 17 days anybody can go 1... 1 day at a time bro...
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My wife actually tuned me on to the site and forum just minutes ago. I had chewed for the past 15 years and have gone through the same broken promises and lies to those I love much like others here. I made an announcement Monday night to my wife and 4 kids that I was done chewing. The kids collectively walked me to the trash can and we all together threw the last, unopened can of chew away. Somehow this time is different. Seeing my oldest daughter cry and my son jump up and give me a hug and kiss tells me this has to be it. Everything I preach to them about being accountable and doing what you expect from others, the golden rule, keeping your word, all of that will have no meaning in their lives if I falter.Â
How do I get into and find my group? Sorry I am in a complete haze and cannot focus too well on what I need.
Thanks for reading and I'll be here in the morning for roll call.
Eric
Day 17... Gooch.. Man the fog will lift.. day 17 has been rough as shit for me.. crave after crave.. a lot of craving but no caving! I swear I really thought I was the worst nic addict on the planet... there everywhere here... join the club... I swear if i can go 17 days anybody can go 1... 1 day at a time bro...
I remember gooch's first three days. God call that today is a Wednesday. Cuz u win either way. I would love to relive my first 3 days. Welcome to THE S UC K. You may want to tell the wife and kids to go to the beach or something.
In my humble opinion, the first 3 days you need to go alone like Christ in the desert for 40 days............you need to face the devil and move on.........
My first 3 days were by luck........or was it........never mind......I happened to be in town for a week........working from my home office.........didnt let my wife or boys in my office for those 3 days.....yes, had dinner with the fam......but that was it
Here is the deal........the first 3 days are your quickening.........this is it..........enjoy it.........face the pain.........embrace the suck......got it Bitch?????
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My wife actually tuned me on to the site and forum just minutes ago. I had chewed for the past 15 years and have gone through the same broken promises and lies to those I love much like others here. I made an announcement Monday night to my wife and 4 kids that I was done chewing. The kids collectively walked me to the trash can and we all together threw the last, unopened can of chew away. Somehow this time is different. Seeing my oldest daughter cry and my son jump up and give me a hug and kiss tells me this has to be it. Everything I preach to them about being accountable and doing what you expect from others, the golden rule, keeping your word, all of that will have no meaning in their lives if I falter.Â
How do I get into and find my group? Sorry I am in a complete haze and cannot focus too well on what I need.
Thanks for reading and I'll be here in the morning for roll call.
Eric
Day 17... Gooch.. Man the fog will lift.. day 17 has been rough as shit for me.. crave after crave.. a lot of craving but no caving! I swear I really thought I was the worst nic addict on the planet... there everywhere here... join the club... I swear if i can go 17 days anybody can go 1... 1 day at a time bro...
I remember gooch's first three days. God call that today is a Wednesday. Cuz u win either way. I would love to relive my first 3 days. Welcome to THE S UC K. You may want to tell the wife and kids to go to the beach or something.
In my humble opinion, the first 3 days you need to go alone like Christ in the desert for 40 days............you need to face the devil and move on.........
My first 3 days were by luck........or was it........never mind......I happened to be in town for a week........working from my home office.........didnt let my wife or boys in my office for those 3 days.....yes, had dinner with the fam......but that was it
Here is the deal........the first 3 days are your quickening.........this is it..........enjoy it.........face the pain.........embrace the suck......got it Bitch?????
You've just made the best decision of your life. Now grab your man parts and hang on because the next couple days might be rough. Stock up on seeds, gum, mints, cinnamon toothpicks. . .anything that you can put into your mouth on a second's notice. It will help with the oral fixation part.
You're also going to want to drink water. LOTS of water. It helps flush the nicotine out of your body quicker. If you can find some unsweetened cranberry juice (the all natural stuff, not the sweet sugary drinkable stuff,) it helps fight off craves as well.
I dipped for about as long as you, 17 years plus or minus. Believe me, I told all the lies you did. But you can't lie to us. We know and have told every lie you got. But I can offer you this little nugget of truth. . .you CAN do this. It may require balls of steel, but I see you already posted up so I know you got 'em. Hell, if I can do it, anybody can.
Make sure you post your roll early in the day, first thing if you can. Take it off the table, then all you have to do is keep your word. Quit for today. . .we'll worry about tomorrow once it gets here.
Welcome aboard.
I quit with Eric today.
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Eric I'm with you! Damn if I can do it I know you can.
My 38+ years of hell as a ninja dipper were a lot harder than this 88 days of quit. I'm embracing the suck of quit but also the suck of dipping, I never want to experience either again.
Oh yeah I remember Goochs first days too, one word discribes them--crazy--
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Eric I'm with you! Damn if I can do it I know you can.
My 38+ years of hell as a ninja dipper were a lot harder than this 88 days of quit. I'm embracing the suck of quit but also the suck of dipping, I never want to experience either again.
Oh yeah I remember Goochs first days too, one word discribes them--crazy--
Eric....i had a weird start.....i never used fake dip, seeds, tooth picks, anything........all i did was brush my teeth, floss, and drank more that usual......which 98% of guys on this site will say is bad...............but I have never caved.....and will not......oddly.....I have NEVER felt a crave while drinking......my opinion......I was an idiot before and dipped....why would I dip again while drinking?????
My big triggers are stress..........fear........boredom.....and what I think is the most dangerous......the spite dip.............
Eric - I am quit with you..................
You game????????????????????
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1. Post roll.
2. Stay quit for today.
3. We will see your addicted ass tomorrow.
PM me if you need anything.
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Guys,
Appreciate all the insight and feedback, just went through roll call again and planning on spending the day working between offices (one at home, one about 15 minutes away). I had to do roll call because the drive to the office was always a vice in the AM to get the day going. NOT FUCKING TODAY THOUGH!
I just hope my wife and kids understand I am not the completely insensitive asshole I appear to be right now. Think I'll lock myself in the basement and lift my kettlebells until I can't move my carcass.
Again, I truly appreciate the support and know I am here for you as well.
Eric
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E71- Great choice, brother!
Here's what to do now...click on the "Welcome Center" Link at the top of the page and learn how to post roll. If you need help, all you have to do is ask. Your inbox will be filled up. Get a number of someone in your quit group (October '12) and tell them to post your promise for you.
There is no excuse for not posting roll. Try it if you don't believe me. We're addicts just like you...which means we are professional excuse-making liars. We're good, too. We've heard it all before. We've been through it. And we are still fighting today...just like you. Welcome to your new family.
After you post roll, fight like your life depends...because it does. Don't think about tomorrow, next week, or next year. We'll deal with them when they get here. Just focus on today. And anybody can go 1 day, right?
After you post roll each day, read all you can on this site. Personally, I recommend reading the "Tom and Jenny Kern Story" (bottom right side of the KillTheCan.org link). I owe them my life. Reading about his daughter holding his legs and pleading "don't go, daddy" is almost too much for me to read. I printed that off to read during bad craves. God bless the Kern family.
Anyway, there are no short-cuts and nobody can do this for you. You got yourself into this. And we're all here to help get you out. The good news is that YOU CAN DO THIS, BROTHER!!!
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Wow today was pretty rough. I wanted to rip everyone's head off just for shits and giggles. Made it through though.
Glad to see October HOF list filling up, sorry to see we lost two veterans though. Back on the fucking wagon boys, we are all waiting.
Eric
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Wow today was pretty rough. I wanted to rip everyone's head off just for shits and giggles. Made it through though.
Glad to see October HOF list filling up, sorry to see we lost two veterans though. Back on the fucking wagon boys, we are all waiting.
Eric
today was the nic bitch making her last grasp at staying in your sytem. three days. now it's all mental. always keep your gaurd up. always. i'm quit with you today.
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Wow today was pretty rough. I wanted to rip everyone's head off just for shits and giggles. Made it through though.
Glad to see October HOF list filling up, sorry to see we lost two veterans though. Back on the fucking wagon boys, we are all waiting.
Eric
today was the nic bitch making her last grasp at staying in your sytem. three days. now it's all mental. always keep your gaurd up. always. i'm quit with you today.
Looking back.....those first 3 days are what its all about......man.....the quickening........
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Or fucking kill somebody. First three days left me feeling hazy and unable to control thought and balance. Last night and thus far today, I am sweating like a stuck pig over an open flame and feel as though my test levels are what they were when I was 18. I either wanna fuck someone or fuck someone up.
Tell me this shit eases off here a little
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Or fucking kill somebody. First three days left me feeling hazy and unable to control thought and balance. Last night and thus far today, I am sweating like a stuck pig over an open flame and feel as though my test levels are what they were when I was 18. I either wanna fuck someone or fuck someone up.
Tell me this shit eases off here a little
It gets easier man. Hang in there. Go for a run, do 50 pushups, take a hot shower, whatever it takes, just stay quit.. Read everything on this site..... Reach out to people for help..
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Or fucking kill somebody. First three days left me feeling hazy and unable to control thought and balance. Last night and thus far today, I am sweating like a stuck pig over an open flame and feel as though my test levels are what they were when I was 18. I either wanna fuck someone or fuck someone up.
Tell me this shit eases off here a little
It gets easier man. Hang in there. Go for a run, do 50 pushups, take a hot shower, whatever it takes, just stay quit.. Read everything on this site..... Reach out to people for help..
That's what I'm doing. Already did the workout thing and took a cold shower, just reading away while working at the office. Just one of those moments that feels overwhelming but subsides with time.
Thanks though,
Eric
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Or fucking kill somebody. First three days left me feeling hazy and unable to control thought and balance. Last night and thus far today, I am sweating like a stuck pig over an open flame and feel as though my test levels are what they were when I was 18. I either wanna fuck someone or fuck someone up.
Tell me this shit eases off here a little
It gets easier man. Hang in there. Go for a run, do 50 pushups, take a hot shower, whatever it takes, just stay quit.. Read everything on this site..... Reach out to people for help..
Sounds like a cold shower! If Mthomas will share I've got a sheep. Day 6 7 for me. I made a total ass out of myself. It gets much better!
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Eric - You are fucking up the Nic Bitch right now. You are in the ring, toe to toe with that bitch right now...and you're winning!!! Keep it up, brother!!!
Yes, it gets better. Some people say the first week is the worst. But try this...embrace the suck. Turn the tables on the Nic Bitch. Get mentally tough and choose to enjoy what you're going through. Tell yourself that the first week is the best because you can actually feel how good your new found freedom feels. It is your new life.
You are a prisoner who just became free. You think a prisoner would chose to stay in his cell because the walk to the car was too long? Fuck no!!! Embrace your freedom! You're earning it one day at a time.
Stay strong, brother!!!
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Or fucking kill somebody. First three days left me feeling hazy and unable to control thought and balance. Last night and thus far today, I am sweating like a stuck pig over an open flame and feel as though my test levels are what they were when I was 18. I either wanna fuck someone or fuck someone up.
Tell me this shit eases off here a little
Day 19 here.. it gets better! I still have moments.. I really believe that is a nic-demon coming out of our asses! I was horrible! I don't know though... may be truth serum? We say shit we normally wouldn't say! Like there was no filter on my mouth! Hang in Pal... Gooch
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All,
Knew the weekend would be particularly rough (4th of July celebrations, golfing opportunities, fishing, swimming, grilling out, extra time w/family, etc.) so I thought I would attack the issue instead of waiting for it to catch me off guard.
To this point (4 days in), I had not had the urge for something to replace the log of shit I used to keep in my lip. Like I said, to this point. Craving to cave sent me on a mission...to find some mint chew (Oregon trail original non tobacco, non-nicotine). I knew I would be picking up beer for the weekend and would be grilling out (2 prime opportunities to chew in the past), so I began my quest.
What the fuck? Every flippin' idiot decided to drive the same time I was on my quest. And it just so happens if they weren't driving, they were working where I was looking for my fake fix.
I have to thank every one of you for all the posts and words of encouragement these last 4 days. I just kept thinking about all the things I've read since I began the quit. Thinking of those items, those I hold myself accountable to, and those of you who hold my word accountable, I can proudly say that I walked into and out of 3 convenience stores (one was the old standby), a state liquor store (told you I had to get beer for the weekend), and a gas station (thank God for Meijer) before I could finally go home and face my family with my plan in place.
Right now I am sitting here after dinner with a beer in one hand, fake mint chew in my lip, and not one bit of guilt or urge for the nic bitch! This feels incredible, to be able to walk through all that BS and still come out on top. You guys are awesome, I hope I can repay it all someday.
Eric71
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Or fucking kill somebody. First three days left me feeling hazy and unable to control thought and balance. Last night and thus far today, I am sweating like a stuck pig over an open flame and feel as though my test levels are what they were when I was 18. I either wanna fuck someone or fuck someone up.
Tell me this shit eases off here a little
Day 19 here.. it gets better! I still have moments.. I really believe that is a nic-demon coming out of our asses! I was horrible! I don't know though... may be truth serum? We say shit we normally wouldn't say! Like there was no filter on my mouth! Hang in Pal... Gooch
dude - totally normal....it eases off....but ups and down.....my biggest rage was at about Day 50 or so.......but I am always up for a good street fight :-)
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All,
Knew the weekend would be particularly rough (4th of July celebrations, golfing opportunities, fishing, swimming, grilling out, extra time w/family, etc.) so I thought I would attack the issue instead of waiting for it to catch me off guard.
To this point (4 days in), I had not had the urge for something to replace the log of shit I used to keep in my lip. Like I said, to this point. Craving to cave sent me on a mission...to find some mint chew (Oregon trail original non tobacco, non-nicotine). I knew I would be picking up beer for the weekend and would be grilling out (2 prime opportunities to chew in the past), so I began my quest.
What the fuck? Every flippin' idiot decided to drive the same time I was on my quest. And it just so happens if they weren't driving, they were working where I was looking for my fake fix.
I have to thank every one of you for all the posts and words of encouragement these last 4 days. I just kept thinking about all the things I've read since I began the quit. Thinking of those items, those I hold myself accountable to, and those of you who hold my word accountable, I can proudly say that I walked into and out of 3 convenience stores (one was the old standby), a state liquor store (told you I had to get beer for the weekend), and a gas station (thank God for Meijer) before I could finally go home and face my family with my plan in place.
Right now I am sitting here after dinner with a beer in one hand, fake mint chew in my lip, and not one bit of guilt or urge for the nic bitch! This feels incredible, to be able to walk through all that BS and still come out on top. You guys are awesome, I hope I can repay it all someday.
Eric71
Day 4 is a HUGE step......technically, the nic is out of your system......but from here on in, its a head game.......the blunt force trauma of the first 3 days won't work moving forward......there will be rage, weight gain, the cunt lurking........teasing you to come back........
here is your plan....post roll everyday.....and stay quit......
but Day 4.....thats big bro.......big........congrats
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If you are planning on drinking this weekend and it's day 4, that's probably not a very good idea.
There's a reason it's recommended to not drink in your first 50 days. Espeically if you will around other nicotine users. Alcohol is a HUGE trigger and getting tipsy or good 'ol fashioned shit faced this early into your quit is just a plain bad idea.
I didn't drink until around day 70 and I can tell you I was craving like a SOB after the buzz kicked in and this was after over 70 days quit.
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All,
Knew the weekend would be particularly rough (4th of July celebrations, golfing opportunities, fishing, swimming, grilling out, extra time w/family, etc.) so I thought I would attack the issue instead of waiting for it to catch me off guard.
To this point (4 days in), I had not had the urge for something to replace the log of shit I used to keep in my lip. Like I said, to this point. Craving to cave sent me on a mission...to find some mint chew (Oregon trail original non tobacco, non-nicotine). I knew I would be picking up beer for the weekend and would be grilling out (2 prime opportunities to chew in the past), so I began my quest.
What the fuck? Every flippin' idiot decided to drive the same time I was on my quest. And it just so happens if they weren't driving, they were working where I was looking for my fake fix.
I have to thank every one of you for all the posts and words of encouragement these last 4 days. I just kept thinking about all the things I've read since I began the quit. Thinking of those items, those I hold myself accountable to, and those of you who hold my word accountable, I can proudly say that I walked into and out of 3 convenience stores (one was the old standby), a state liquor store (told you I had to get beer for the weekend), and a gas station (thank God for Meijer) before I could finally go home and face my family with my plan in place.
Right now I am sitting here after dinner with a beer in one hand, fake mint chew in my lip, and not one bit of guilt or urge for the nic bitch! This feels incredible, to be able to walk through all that BS and still come out on top. You guys are awesome, I hope I can repay it all someday.
Eric71
I dont see how anybody can drink and not dip! Thats my experience anyway there! you can mix you own chew.. I do.. it does not taste like mint... takes like hmmmmmm? burning good.. coffee..espresso.. tea..hot pepper.. LOTS OF SALT.. tabasco..
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All,
Knew the weekend would be particularly rough (4th of July celebrations, golfing opportunities, fishing, swimming, grilling out, extra time w/family, etc.) so I thought I would attack the issue instead of waiting for it to catch me off guard.
To this point (4 days in), I had not had the urge for something to replace the log of shit I used to keep in my lip. Like I said, to this point. Craving to cave sent me on a mission...to find some mint chew (Oregon trail original non tobacco, non-nicotine). I knew I would be picking up beer for the weekend and would be grilling out (2 prime opportunities to chew in the past), so I began my quest.
What the fuck? Every flippin' idiot decided to drive the same time I was on my quest. And it just so happens if they weren't driving, they were working where I was looking for my fake fix.
I have to thank every one of you for all the posts and words of encouragement these last 4 days. I just kept thinking about all the things I've read since I began the quit. Thinking of those items, those I hold myself accountable to, and those of you who hold my word accountable, I can proudly say that I walked into and out of 3 convenience stores (one was the old standby), a state liquor store (told you I had to get beer for the weekend), and a gas station (thank God for Meijer) before I could finally go home and face my family with my plan in place.
Right now I am sitting here after dinner with a beer in one hand, fake mint chew in my lip, and not one bit of guilt or urge for the nic bitch! This feels incredible, to be able to walk through all that BS and still come out on top. You guys are awesome, I hope I can repay it all someday.
Eric71
I dont see how anybody can drink and not dip! Thats my experience anyway there! you can mix you own chew.. I do.. it does not taste like mint... takes like hmmmmmm? burning good.. coffee..espresso.. tea..hot pepper.. LOTS OF SALT.. tabasco..
I'm with everyone else the alcohol probably not a good idea! We've seen a lot of caves that wouldn't have happened if alcohol was out of the equation.
You don't need to start a new thread everytime just add to your intro!
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All,
Knew the weekend would be particularly rough (4th of July celebrations, golfing opportunities, fishing, swimming, grilling out, extra time w/family, etc.) so I thought I would attack the issue instead of waiting for it to catch me off guard.
To this point (4 days in), I had not had the urge for something to replace the log of shit I used to keep in my lip. Like I said, to this point. Craving to cave sent me on a mission...to find some mint chew (Oregon trail original non tobacco, non-nicotine). I knew I would be picking up beer for the weekend and would be grilling out (2 prime opportunities to chew in the past), so I began my quest.
What the fuck? Every flippin' idiot decided to drive the same time I was on my quest. And it just so happens if they weren't driving, they were working where I was looking for my fake fix.
I have to thank every one of you for all the posts and words of encouragement these last 4 days. I just kept thinking about all the things I've read since I began the quit. Thinking of those items, those I hold myself accountable to, and those of you who hold my word accountable, I can proudly say that I walked into and out of 3 convenience stores (one was the old standby), a state liquor store (told you I had to get beer for the weekend), and a gas station (thank God for Meijer) before I could finally go home and face my family with my plan in place.
Right now I am sitting here after dinner with a beer in one hand, fake mint chew in my lip, and not one bit of guilt or urge for the nic bitch! This feels incredible, to be able to walk through all that BS and still come out on top. You guys are awesome, I hope I can repay it all someday.
Eric71
I dont see how anybody can drink and not dip! Thats my experience anyway there! you can mix you own chew.. I do.. it does not taste like mint... takes like hmmmmmm? burning good.. coffee..espresso.. tea..hot pepper.. LOTS OF SALT.. tabasco..
I'm with everyone else the alcohol probably not a good idea! We've seen a lot of caves that wouldn't have happened if alcohol was out of the equation.
You don't need to start a new thread everytime just add to your intro!
please indulge me while I am the contrarian for a moment
#1....Wt and Kubrick are fucking rockstars - so listen to them
#2....I went big on booze in my quit.......very weird.....and did not do fake chew
#3....my journey is that booze is NOT a trigger......it just lowers your resolve and makes you weak.....triggers are triggers......booze makes you give in
Personally I think as a general matter booze is not a trigger.....when i was single i would drink, get drunk and would fuck an ugly chick.....
so - does that mean booze is a trigger to fuck an ugly chick?
no - cuz I would love a hot chick too
or does it mean that booze makes you stupid?
yes
in my opinion.........
booze is not a trigger....but be careful.....cuz you could be stupid and fuck the ugly girl (nic) in your quit
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All,
Knew the weekend would be particularly rough (4th of July celebrations, golfing opportunities, fishing, swimming, grilling out, extra time w/family, etc.) so I thought I would attack the issue instead of waiting for it to catch me off guard.
To this point (4 days in), I had not had the urge for something to replace the log of shit I used to keep in my lip. Like I said, to this point. Craving to cave sent me on a mission...to find some mint chew (Oregon trail original non tobacco, non-nicotine). I knew I would be picking up beer for the weekend and would be grilling out (2 prime opportunities to chew in the past), so I began my quest.
What the fuck? Every flippin' idiot decided to drive the same time I was on my quest. And it just so happens if they weren't driving, they were working where I was looking for my fake fix.
I have to thank every one of you for all the posts and words of encouragement these last 4 days. I just kept thinking about all the things I've read since I began the quit. Thinking of those items, those I hold myself accountable to, and those of you who hold my word accountable, I can proudly say that I walked into and out of 3 convenience stores (one was the old standby), a state liquor store (told you I had to get beer for the weekend), and a gas station (thank God for Meijer) before I could finally go home and face my family with my plan in place.
Right now I am sitting here after dinner with a beer in one hand, fake mint chew in my lip, and not one bit of guilt or urge for the nic bitch! This feels incredible, to be able to walk through all that BS and still come out on top. You guys are awesome, I hope I can repay it all someday.
Eric71
I dont see how anybody can drink and not dip! Thats my experience anyway there! you can mix you own chew.. I do.. it does not taste like mint... takes like hmmmmmm? burning good.. coffee..espresso.. tea..hot pepper.. LOTS OF SALT.. tabasco..
I'm with everyone else the alcohol probably not a good idea! We've seen a lot of caves that wouldn't have happened if alcohol was out of the equation.
You don't need to start a new thread everytime just add to your intro!
please indulge me while I am the contrarian for a moment
#1....Wt and Kubrick are fucking rockstars - so listen to them
#2....I went big on booze in my quit.......very weird.....and did not do fake chew
#3....my journey is that booze is NOT a trigger......it just lowers your resolve and makes you weak.....triggers are triggers......booze makes you give in
Personally I think as a general matter booze is not a trigger.....when i was single i would drink, get drunk and would fuck an ugly chick.....
so - does that mean booze is a trigger to fuck an ugly chick?
no - cuz I would love a hot chick too
or does it mean that booze makes you stupid?
yes
in my opinion.........
booze is not a trigger....but be careful.....cuz you could be stupid and fuck the ugly girl (nic) in your quit
HAHAHAHAHAHA
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All,
Knew the weekend would be particularly rough (4th of July celebrations, golfing opportunities, fishing, swimming, grilling out, extra time w/family, etc.) so I thought I would attack the issue instead of waiting for it to catch me off guard.
To this point (4 days in), I had not had the urge for something to replace the log of shit I used to keep in my lip. Like I said, to this point. Craving to cave sent me on a mission...to find some mint chew (Oregon trail original non tobacco, non-nicotine). I knew I would be picking up beer for the weekend and would be grilling out (2 prime opportunities to chew in the past), so I began my quest.
What the fuck? Every flippin' idiot decided to drive the same time I was on my quest. And it just so happens if they weren't driving, they were working where I was looking for my fake fix.
I have to thank every one of you for all the posts and words of encouragement these last 4 days. I just kept thinking about all the things I've read since I began the quit. Thinking of those items, those I hold myself accountable to, and those of you who hold my word accountable, I can proudly say that I walked into and out of 3 convenience stores (one was the old standby), a state liquor store (told you I had to get beer for the weekend), and a gas station (thank God for Meijer) before I could finally go home and face my family with my plan in place.
Right now I am sitting here after dinner with a beer in one hand, fake mint chew in my lip, and not one bit of guilt or urge for the nic bitch! This feels incredible, to be able to walk through all that BS and still come out on top. You guys are awesome, I hope I can repay it all someday.
Eric71
I dont see how anybody can drink and not dip! Thats my experience anyway there! you can mix you own chew.. I do.. it does not taste like mint... takes like hmmmmmm? burning good.. coffee..espresso.. tea..hot pepper.. LOTS OF SALT.. tabasco..
I'm with everyone else the alcohol probably not a good idea! We've seen a lot of caves that wouldn't have happened if alcohol was out of the equation.
You don't need to start a new thread everytime just add to your intro!
please indulge me while I am the contrarian for a moment
#1....Wt and Kubrick are fucking rockstars - so listen to them
#2....I went big on booze in my quit.......very weird.....and did not do fake chew
#3....my journey is that booze is NOT a trigger......it just lowers your resolve and makes you weak.....triggers are triggers......booze makes you give in
Personally I think as a general matter booze is not a trigger.....when i was single i would drink, get drunk and would fuck an ugly chick.....
so - does that mean booze is a trigger to fuck an ugly chick?
no - cuz I would love a hot chick too
or does it mean that booze makes you stupid?
yes
in my opinion.........
booze is not a trigger....but be careful.....cuz you could be stupid and fuck the ugly girl (nic) in your quit
HAHAHAHAHAHA
Simply awesome Clean Fuel, love the deductive reasoning. Will keep the alcohol (beer only) in check, needed to have it on hand for company, not one of the are dippers so I would have to play ninja and at 5'10" 240# that ain't easy
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Or fucking kill somebody. First three days left me feeling hazy and unable to control thought and balance. Last night and thus far today, I am sweating like a stuck pig over an open flame and feel as though my test levels are what they were when I was 18. I either wanna fuck someone or fuck someone up.
Tell me this shit eases off here a little
Day 19 here.. it gets better! I still have moments.. I really believe that is a nic-demon coming out of our asses! I was horrible! I don't know though... may be truth serum? We say shit we normally wouldn't say! Like there was no filter on my mouth! Hang in Pal... Gooch
dude - totally normal....it eases off....but ups and down.....my biggest rage was at about Day 50 or so.......but I am always up for a good street fight :-)
Fuck day 5, fuck day 6, fuck day 7, tomorrow I'll say fuck day 8 and so on. I said I felt like I wanted to fight or fuck, well, as I stand on the Nic Bitch's throat, I'm stickin' it in her ass!
Feeling a rush of freedom I haven't felt in years. Man, it sure is good to be through the quickening. I am embracing the suck and want all my fellow October brothers to do the same. Let's hear how you're feeling...good...bad...cranky...just get it out here and we WILL walk this road together.
Peace,
Eric71
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Or fucking kill somebody. First three days left me feeling hazy and unable to control thought and balance. Last night and thus far today, I am sweating like a stuck pig over an open flame and feel as though my test levels are what they were when I was 18. I either wanna fuck someone or fuck someone up.
Tell me this shit eases off here a little
Day 19 here.. it gets better! I still have moments.. I really believe that is a nic-demon coming out of our asses! I was horrible! I don't know though... may be truth serum? We say shit we normally wouldn't say! Like there was no filter on my mouth! Hang in Pal... Gooch
dude - totally normal....it eases off....but ups and down.....my biggest rage was at about Day 50 or so.......but I am always up for a good street fight :-)
Fuck day 5, fuck day 6, fuck day 7, tomorrow I'll say fuck day 8 and so on. I said I felt like I wanted to fight or fuck, well, as I stand on the Nic Bitch's throat, I'm stickin' it in her ass!
Feeling a rush of freedom I haven't felt in years. Man, it sure is good to be through the quickening. I am embracing the suck and want all my fellow October brothers to do the same. Let's hear how you're feeling...good...bad...cranky...just get it out here and we WILL walk this road together.
Peace,
Eric71
You will never regret quitting. Stay the course. Well done so far.
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Or fucking kill somebody. First three days left me feeling hazy and unable to control thought and balance. Last night and thus far today, I am sweating like a stuck pig over an open flame and feel as though my test levels are what they were when I was 18. I either wanna fuck someone or fuck someone up.
Tell me this shit eases off here a little
Day 19 here.. it gets better! I still have moments.. I really believe that is a nic-demon coming out of our asses! I was horrible! I don't know though... may be truth serum? We say shit we normally wouldn't say! Like there was no filter on my mouth! Hang in Pal... Gooch
dude - totally normal....it eases off....but ups and down.....my biggest rage was at about Day 50 or so.......but I am always up for a good street fight :-)
Fuck day 5, fuck day 6, fuck day 7, tomorrow I'll say fuck day 8 and so on. I said I felt like I wanted to fight or fuck, well, as I stand on the Nic Bitch's throat, I'm stickin' it in her ass!
Feeling a rush of freedom I haven't felt in years. Man, it sure is good to be through the quickening. I am embracing the suck and want all my fellow October brothers to do the same. Let's hear how you're feeling...good...bad...cranky...just get it out here and we WILL walk this road together.
Peace,
Eric71
You will never regret quitting. Stay the course. Well done so far.
I like the rage! The nic bitch isn't as strong when you hate her. Don't lift your foot.
You are at war. You only go to war to win. Never let up, never surrender and always be on your guard. Fight and kill your triggers and craves for nicotine. It is a battle but it is worth the fight for freedom.
It is yours to take. Kill her everyday and be free.
The best quitters are angry and hate the whole tobacco industry. Those pricks are profiting with politicians in their pockets and look the other way when the product they get children addicted to kills 3 million a year. Best organized terrorist group.
They fly under the radar and keep recruiting and killing. Yes they are well funded evil, worthless pricks.
Glad to see you're quit and angry with your former captor. Never kiss and make up. Kill or be killed. That is where you are now. Keep swinging my friend.
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"We also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; and perseverance, character; and character, hope. Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us" (Romans 5:3–5, NKJV).
Have a good Sunday all.
Peace
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"We also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; and perseverance, character; and character, hope. Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us" (Romans 5:3–5, NKJV).
Have a good Sunday all.
Peace
Thank you for that Eric - I dog-eared my nightstand Bible to Romans 5 for quick reference.
I needed that . . . Have a great Sunday
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Thank God the drama has subsided and a new call has risen. Bad Ass props to you vets who came up with the United Way type shit for us newbies. Sign me up and expect Oct 12 to pay it forward after we hit the hall. This is the kind of support that can never be undervalued or over-appreciated.
Thanks again, day 16 and I still QLF!
See y'all at roll in the AM
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Thank God the drama has subsided and a new call has risen. Bad Ass props to you vets who came up with the United Way type shit for us newbies. Sign me up and expect Oct 12 to pay it forward after we hit the hall. This is the kind of support that can never be undervalued or over-appreciated.
Thanks again, day 16 and I still QLF!
See y'all at roll in the AM
Day 28 and I managed to survive a wedding reception with some old buddies from the steel mill on Friday (drinking, shooting the shit about the past were serious past triggers), then bachelor party on Saturday (more drinking, golf, and idiots who cannot handle their alcohol).
Reflection Point: Had I not planned and prepared ahead of time, this would have been exponentially difficult to conquer. I knew going into each situation what I would be presented with throughout the event. I knew there would be smoking both days (moved outside and/or away from) and suspected there would be some chewing going on Saturday (wife's nephew getting married, bunch of dipshit, testosterone laden, college idiots who know everything already) at the party or on the course.
Keep in mind, this is not a pat yourself on the back moment. I am listing this so that others can see the validity in making and sticking to plans for the weekends. I knew I could find myself in a situation where will power alone may not be enough.
So, what did I do:
1. Made sure my phone was on me and charged at all times.
2. Always had a can of hooch in my pocket, just so I didn't have to say no to someone else's offer.
3. Posted roll first thing each morning and had the site pinned to the start menu on the laptop.
4. Made sure those closest to me, kept me in check by telling them I quit and wanted to stay quit regardless of the occasion.
5. Lots of prayer leading into the weekend. Prayers for strength, guidance, wisdom, fortitude. When you can't lean on someone, lean back and look up for strength.
Hopefully this helps some of the newbies in Oct12 with the weekends coming up. Summer is most definitely a time for parties and such, just prepare for those events like your life depends on it,
BECAUSE IT ABSOLUTELY DOES, DON'T LET ANYONE TELL YOU ANY DIFFERENT!
QLAFM!
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Thank God the drama has subsided and a new call has risen. Bad Ass props to you vets who came up with the United Way type shit for us newbies. Sign me up and expect Oct 12 to pay it forward after we hit the hall. This is the kind of support that can never be undervalued or over-appreciated.
Thanks again, day 16 and I still QLF!
See y'all at roll in the AM
Day 28 and I managed to survive a wedding reception with some old buddies from the steel mill on Friday (drinking, shooting the shit about the past were serious past triggers), then bachelor party on Saturday (more drinking, golf, and idiots who cannot handle their alcohol).
Reflection Point: Had I not planned and prepared ahead of time, this would have been exponentially difficult to conquer. I knew going into each situation what I would be presented with throughout the event. I knew there would be smoking both days (moved outside and/or away from) and suspected there would be some chewing going on Saturday (wife's nephew getting married, bunch of dipshit, testosterone laden, college idiots who know everything already) at the party or on the course.
Keep in mind, this is not a pat yourself on the back moment. I am listing this so that others can see the validity in making and sticking to plans for the weekends. I knew I could find myself in a situation where will power alone may not be enough.
So, what did I do:
1. Made sure my phone was on me and charged at all times.
2. Always had a can of hooch in my pocket, just so I didn't have to say no to someone else's offer.
3. Posted roll first thing each morning and had the site pinned to the start menu on the laptop.
4. Made sure those closest to me, kept me in check by telling them I quit and wanted to stay quit regardless of the occasion.
5. Lots of prayer leading into the weekend. Prayers for strength, guidance, wisdom, fortitude. When you can't lean on someone, lean back and look up for strength.
Hopefully this helps some of the newbies in Oct12 with the weekends coming up. Summer is most definitely a time for parties and such, just prepare for those events like your life depends on it,
BECAUSE IT ABSOLUTELY DOES, DON'T LET ANYONE TELL YOU ANY DIFFERENT!
QLAFM!
/\ /\ /\ This guy gets it. Quit Like Fuck with you bro!
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Thank God the drama has subsided and a new call has risen. Bad Ass props to you vets who came up with the United Way type shit for us newbies. Sign me up and expect Oct 12 to pay it forward after we hit the hall. This is the kind of support that can never be undervalued or over-appreciated.
Thanks again, day 16 and I still QLF!
See y'all at roll in the AM
Day 28 and I managed to survive a wedding reception with some old buddies from the steel mill on Friday (drinking, shooting the shit about the past were serious past triggers), then bachelor party on Saturday (more drinking, golf, and idiots who cannot handle their alcohol).
Reflection Point: Had I not planned and prepared ahead of time, this would have been exponentially difficult to conquer. I knew going into each situation what I would be presented with throughout the event. I knew there would be smoking both days (moved outside and/or away from) and suspected there would be some chewing going on Saturday (wife's nephew getting married, bunch of dipshit, testosterone laden, college idiots who know everything already) at the party or on the course.
Keep in mind, this is not a pat yourself on the back moment. I am listing this so that others can see the validity in making and sticking to plans for the weekends. I knew I could find myself in a situation where will power alone may not be enough.
So, what did I do:
1. Made sure my phone was on me and charged at all times.
2. Always had a can of hooch in my pocket, just so I didn't have to say no to someone else's offer.
3. Posted roll first thing each morning and had the site pinned to the start menu on the laptop.
4. Made sure those closest to me, kept me in check by telling them I quit and wanted to stay quit regardless of the occasion.
5. Lots of prayer leading into the weekend. Prayers for strength, guidance, wisdom, fortitude. When you can't lean on someone, lean back and look up for strength.
Hopefully this helps some of the newbies in Oct12 with the weekends coming up. Summer is most definitely a time for parties and such, just prepare for those events like your life depends on it,
BECAUSE IT ABSOLUTELY DOES, DON'T LET ANYONE TELL YOU ANY DIFFERENT!
QLAFM!
/\ /\ /\ This guy gets it. Quit Like Fuck with you bro!
Agreed Eric your quit rocks! I'm proud to be quit with the likes of you!!!
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Thank God the drama has subsided and a new call has risen. Bad Ass props to you vets who came up with the United Way type shit for us newbies. Sign me up and expect Oct 12 to pay it forward after we hit the hall. This is the kind of support that can never be undervalued or over-appreciated.
Thanks again, day 16 and I still QLF!
See y'all at roll in the AM
Day 28 and I managed to survive a wedding reception with some old buddies from the steel mill on Friday (drinking, shooting the shit about the past were serious past triggers), then bachelor party on Saturday (more drinking, golf, and idiots who cannot handle their alcohol).
Reflection Point: Had I not planned and prepared ahead of time, this would have been exponentially difficult to conquer. I knew going into each situation what I would be presented with throughout the event. I knew there would be smoking both days (moved outside and/or away from) and suspected there would be some chewing going on Saturday (wife's nephew getting married, bunch of dipshit, testosterone laden, college idiots who know everything already) at the party or on the course.
Keep in mind, this is not a pat yourself on the back moment. I am listing this so that others can see the validity in making and sticking to plans for the weekends. I knew I could find myself in a situation where will power alone may not be enough.
So, what did I do:
1. Made sure my phone was on me and charged at all times.
2. Always had a can of hooch in my pocket, just so I didn't have to say no to someone else's offer.
3. Posted roll first thing each morning and had the site pinned to the start menu on the laptop.
4. Made sure those closest to me, kept me in check by telling them I quit and wanted to stay quit regardless of the occasion.
5. Lots of prayer leading into the weekend. Prayers for strength, guidance, wisdom, fortitude. When you can't lean on someone, lean back and look up for strength.
Hopefully this helps some of the newbies in Oct12 with the weekends coming up. Summer is most definitely a time for parties and such, just prepare for those events like your life depends on it,
BECAUSE IT ABSOLUTELY DOES, DON'T LET ANYONE TELL YOU ANY DIFFERENT!
QLAFM!
/\ /\ /\ This guy gets it. Quit Like Fuck with you bro!
Eric71... you are well prepared and you have to be! You have to think way ahead to avoid situations!!
Keep up the Quit!!!! QLF!!!!
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Thank God the drama has subsided and a new call has risen. Bad Ass props to you vets who came up with the United Way type shit for us newbies. Sign me up and expect Oct 12 to pay it forward after we hit the hall. This is the kind of support that can never be undervalued or over-appreciated.
Thanks again, day 16 and I still QLF!
See y'all at roll in the AM
Day 28 and I managed to survive a wedding reception with some old buddies from the steel mill on Friday (drinking, shooting the shit about the past were serious past triggers), then bachelor party on Saturday (more drinking, golf, and idiots who cannot handle their alcohol).
Reflection Point: Had I not planned and prepared ahead of time, this would have been exponentially difficult to conquer. I knew going into each situation what I would be presented with throughout the event. I knew there would be smoking both days (moved outside and/or away from) and suspected there would be some chewing going on Saturday (wife's nephew getting married, bunch of dipshit, testosterone laden, college idiots who know everything already) at the party or on the course.
Keep in mind, this is not a pat yourself on the back moment. I am listing this so that others can see the validity in making and sticking to plans for the weekends. I knew I could find myself in a situation where will power alone may not be enough.
So, what did I do:
1. Made sure my phone was on me and charged at all times.
2. Always had a can of hooch in my pocket, just so I didn't have to say no to someone else's offer.
3. Posted roll first thing each morning and had the site pinned to the start menu on the laptop.
4. Made sure those closest to me, kept me in check by telling them I quit and wanted to stay quit regardless of the occasion.
5. Lots of prayer leading into the weekend. Prayers for strength, guidance, wisdom, fortitude. When you can't lean on someone, lean back and look up for strength.
Hopefully this helps some of the newbies in Oct12 with the weekends coming up. Summer is most definitely a time for parties and such, just prepare for those events like your life depends on it,
BECAUSE IT ABSOLUTELY DOES, DON'T LET ANYONE TELL YOU ANY DIFFERENT!
QLAFM!
/\ /\ /\ This guy gets it. Quit Like Fuck with you bro!
Eric71... you are well prepared and you have to be! You have to think way ahead to avoid situations!!
Keep up the Quit!!!! QLF!!!!
that's it Eric - knew you were one for the strength of October.
Way to go and congradulate your self for thinking through this.
Yours in Quit Brotherhood man.
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Thank God the drama has subsided and a new call has risen. Bad Ass props to you vets who came up with the United Way type shit for us newbies. Sign me up and expect Oct 12 to pay it forward after we hit the hall. This is the kind of support that can never be undervalued or over-appreciated.
Thanks again, day 16 and I still QLF!
See y'all at roll in the AM
Day 28 and I managed to survive a wedding reception with some old buddies from the steel mill on Friday (drinking, shooting the shit about the past were serious past triggers), then bachelor party on Saturday (more drinking, golf, and idiots who cannot handle their alcohol).
Reflection Point: Had I not planned and prepared ahead of time, this would have been exponentially difficult to conquer. I knew going into each situation what I would be presented with throughout the event. I knew there would be smoking both days (moved outside and/or away from) and suspected there would be some chewing going on Saturday (wife's nephew getting married, bunch of dipshit, testosterone laden, college idiots who know everything already) at the party or on the course.
Keep in mind, this is not a pat yourself on the back moment. I am listing this so that others can see the validity in making and sticking to plans for the weekends. I knew I could find myself in a situation where will power alone may not be enough.
So, what did I do:
1. Made sure my phone was on me and charged at all times.
2. Always had a can of hooch in my pocket, just so I didn't have to say no to someone else's offer.
3. Posted roll first thing each morning and had the site pinned to the start menu on the laptop.
4. Made sure those closest to me, kept me in check by telling them I quit and wanted to stay quit regardless of the occasion.
5. Lots of prayer leading into the weekend. Prayers for strength, guidance, wisdom, fortitude. When you can't lean on someone, lean back and look up for strength.
Hopefully this helps some of the newbies in Oct12 with the weekends coming up. Summer is most definitely a time for parties and such, just prepare for those events like your life depends on it,
BECAUSE IT ABSOLUTELY DOES, DON'T LET ANYONE TELL YOU ANY DIFFERENT!
QLAFM!
/\ /\ /\ This guy gets it. Quit Like Fuck with you bro!
Eric71... you are well prepared and you have to be! You have to think way ahead to avoid situations!!
Keep up the Quit!!!! QLF!!!!
that's it Eric - knew you were one for the strength of October.
Way to go and congradulate your self for thinking through this.
Yours in Quit Brotherhood man.
Honor, Integrity, courage, wisdom, strength, pride.
Get some.
Take your life back, one day at a time.
Never again, for any reason.
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62 active quits for Oct12 as the new Pre-HOF Nov12 rolls into view.
28 lost quits as lack of honor, integrity, commitment, and intelligence still remain pinned in our view.
How we as a group hold true to our word will go a long way in deciding the overall success of our group. I, for one, will be vigilant in the fight and determined to be accountable to my quit brethren each and every day of this journey.
Proud to be quit you all and keep on QLAFM!
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62 active quits for Oct12 as the new Pre-HOF Nov12 rolls into view.
28 lost quits as lack of honor, integrity, commitment, and intelligence still remain pinned in our view.
How we as a group hold true to our word will go a long way in deciding the overall success of our group. I, for one, will be vigilant in the fight and determined to be accountable to my quit brethren each and every day of this journey.
Proud to be quit you all and keep on QLAFM!
Hey brother I'm right here with you in the trenches. No matter how shitty it gets we will prevail. Quittin' like a mother fucker!!!
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62 active quits for Oct12 as the new Pre-HOF Nov12 rolls into view.
28 lost quits as lack of honor, integrity, commitment, and intelligence still remain pinned in our view.
How we as a group hold true to our word will go a long way in deciding the overall success of our group. I, for one, will be vigilant in the fight and determined to be accountable to my quit brethren each and every day of this journey.
Proud to be quit you all and keep on QLAFM!
Hey brother I'm right here with you in the trenches. No matter how shitty it gets we will prevail. Quittin' like a mother fucker!!!
That is the take away for today:
dip + any problem = 2 problems.
dip is a problem. It solves nothing. The notion that it does is merely a lie delivered by our addict brain.
I quit with you today.
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62 active quits for Oct12 as the new Pre-HOF Nov12 rolls into view.
28 lost quits as lack of honor, integrity, commitment, and intelligence still remain pinned in our view.
How we as a group hold true to our word will go a long way in deciding the overall success of our group. I, for one, will be vigilant in the fight and determined to be accountable to my quit brethren each and every day of this journey.
Proud to be quit you all and keep on QLAFM!
Hey brother I'm right here with you in the trenches. No matter how shitty it gets we will prevail. Quittin' like a mother fucker!!!
That is the take away for today:
dip + any problem = 2 problems.
dip is a problem. It solves nothing. The notion that it does is merely a lie delivered by our addict brain.
I quit with you today.
30 is right. Nicotine does NOTHING but keep you addicted to Nicotine.
Stay quit no matter what. Freedom is worth fighting for!
I quit with you today!
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62 active quits for Oct12 as the new Pre-HOF Nov12 rolls into view.
28 lost quits as lack of honor, integrity, commitment, and intelligence still remain pinned in our view.
How we as a group hold true to our word will go a long way in deciding the overall success of our group. I, for one, will be vigilant in the fight and determined to be accountable to my quit brethren each and every day of this journey.
Proud to be quit you all and keep on QLAFM!
With you till the end! Quit with you today! QLAFM
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62 active quits for Oct12 as the new Pre-HOF Nov12 rolls into view.
28 lost quits as lack of honor, integrity, commitment, and intelligence still remain pinned in our view.
How we as a group hold true to our word will go a long way in deciding the overall success of our group. I, for one, will be vigilant in the fight and determined to be accountable to my quit brethren each and every day of this journey.
Proud to be quit you all and keep on QLAFM!
With you till the end! Quit with you today! QLAFM
am all in with you, my armor is on and ready to combat that nic bitch for whenever she appears. I've shoved my sword into her once, I will do it again as I QLAFM.
Madmen forever.
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62 active quits for Oct12 as the new Pre-HOF Nov12 rolls into view.
28 lost quits as lack of honor, integrity, commitment, and intelligence still remain pinned in our view.
How we as a group hold true to our word will go a long way in deciding the overall success of our group. I, for one, will be vigilant in the fight and determined to be accountable to my quit brethren each and every day of this journey.
Proud to be quit you all and keep on QLAFM!
With you till the end! Quit with you today! QLAFM
am all in with you, my armor is on and ready to combat that nic bitch for whenever she appears. I've shoved my sword into her once, I will do it again as I QLAFM.
Madmen forever.
Keep up the determination and resolve brothers you will need it also it serves to inspire and re-energize the vets!!
keep on keeping on!
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Went to see the Dr. about 3 weeks ago due to some strange pains and chronic fatigue. Standard check up you have every 10 years (that was the last time I went to see them), they ordered some blood labs and completed an overall evaluation. They noticed some swelling in my neck and throat area and could not explain the other symptoms. So, on to step 2:
Lab results - all normal
Gave me an antibiotic due to swelling in my neck and throat - ran that cycle through, still had swelling afterward.
Follow up appointment with Dr about a week and half ago, they ordered an ultrasound on my neck and throat.
Ultrasound results - I have a clotted cyst in my neck that will require a biopsy. They said it will either be nothing or really something.
Talk about fucking anxiety. Now waiting on the call from the endocrinologist office to get this scheduled and find out the results.
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Went to see the Dr. about 3 weeks ago due to some strange pains and chronic fatigue. Standard check up you have every 10 years (that was the last time I went to see them), they ordered some blood labs and completed an overall evaluation. They noticed some swelling in my neck and throat area and could not explain the other symptoms. So, on to step 2:
Lab results - all normal
Gave me an antibiotic due to swelling in my neck and throat - ran that cycle through, still had swelling afterward.
Follow up appointment with Dr about a week and half ago, they ordered an ultrasound on my neck and throat.
Ultrasound results - I have a clotted cyst in my neck that will require a biopsy. They said it will either be nothing or really something.
Talk about fucking anxiety. Now waiting on the call from the endocrinologist office to get this scheduled and find out the results.
Hang in there man, everything will work out, just remember not to let the bitch back into your life. Keep that coffin shut and in the past.
We will all get through this. Yell if ya need anything
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Went to see the Dr. about 3 weeks ago due to some strange pains and chronic fatigue. Standard check up you have every 10 years (that was the last time I went to see them), they ordered some blood labs and completed an overall evaluation. They noticed some swelling in my neck and throat area and could not explain the other symptoms. So, on to step 2:
Lab results - all normal
Gave me an antibiotic due to swelling in my neck and throat - ran that cycle through, still had swelling afterward.
Follow up appointment with Dr about a week and half ago, they ordered an ultrasound on my neck and throat.
Ultrasound results - I have a clotted cyst in my neck that will require a biopsy. They said it will either be nothing or really something.Â
Talk about fucking anxiety. Now waiting on the call from the endocrinologist office to get this scheduled and find out the results.
Hang in there man, everything will work out, just remember not to let the bitch back into your life. Keep that coffin shut and in the past.
We will all get through this. Yell if ya need anything
Agree w/Derek. All will be fine, we are with you all the way brother. Stay close to your quit, anxiety only has as much power as you give her. No different from the bitch. And we know you can kick that ass like nobody's business. Same intensity, same support group till we get through it together. Call me if you need me...
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Went to see the Dr. about 3 weeks ago due to some strange pains and chronic fatigue. Standard check up you have every 10 years (that was the last time I went to see them), they ordered some blood labs and completed an overall evaluation. They noticed some swelling in my neck and throat area and could not explain the other symptoms. So, on to step 2:
Lab results - all normal
Gave me an antibiotic due to swelling in my neck and throat - ran that cycle through, still had swelling afterward.
Follow up appointment with Dr about a week and half ago, they ordered an ultrasound on my neck and throat.
Ultrasound results - I have a clotted cyst in my neck that will require a biopsy. They said it will either be nothing or really something.Â
Talk about fucking anxiety. Now waiting on the call from the endocrinologist office to get this scheduled and find out the results.
Hang in there man, everything will work out, just remember not to let the bitch back into your life. Keep that coffin shut and in the past.
We will all get through this. Yell if ya need anything
Agree w/Derek. All will be fine, we are with you all the way brother. Stay close to your quit, anxiety only has as much power as you give her. No different from the bitch. And we know you can kick that ass like nobody's business. Same intensity, same support group till we get through it together. Call me if you need me...
X2 brother!
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Went to see the Dr. about 3 weeks ago due to some strange pains and chronic fatigue. Standard check up you have every 10 years (that was the last time I went to see them), they ordered some blood labs and completed an overall evaluation. They noticed some swelling in my neck and throat area and could not explain the other symptoms. So, on to step 2:
Lab results - all normal
Gave me an antibiotic due to swelling in my neck and throat - ran that cycle through, still had swelling afterward.
Follow up appointment with Dr about a week and half ago, they ordered an ultrasound on my neck and throat.
Ultrasound results - I have a clotted cyst in my neck that will require a biopsy. They said it will either be nothing or really something.Â
Talk about fucking anxiety. Now waiting on the call from the endocrinologist office to get this scheduled and find out the results.
Hang in there man, everything will work out, just remember not to let the bitch back into your life. Keep that coffin shut and in the past.
We will all get through this. Yell if ya need anything
Agree w/Derek. All will be fine, we are with you all the way brother. Stay close to your quit, anxiety only has as much power as you give her. No different from the bitch. And we know you can kick that ass like nobody's business. Same intensity, same support group till we get through it together. Call me if you need me...
X2 brother!
Hey brother just wanted to let you know I am with you just like everyone else. Stay Strong!!! Stay Quit!!!
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Went to see the Dr. about 3 weeks ago due to some strange pains and chronic fatigue. Standard check up you have every 10 years (that was the last time I went to see them), they ordered some blood labs and completed an overall evaluation. They noticed some swelling in my neck and throat area and could not explain the other symptoms. So, on to step 2:
Lab results - all normal
Gave me an antibiotic due to swelling in my neck and throat - ran that cycle through, still had swelling afterward.
Follow up appointment with Dr about a week and half ago, they ordered an ultrasound on my neck and throat.
Ultrasound results - I have a clotted cyst in my neck that will require a biopsy. They said it will either be nothing or really something.Â
Talk about fucking anxiety. Now waiting on the call from the endocrinologist office to get this scheduled and find out the results.
Hang in there man, everything will work out, just remember not to let the bitch back into your life. Keep that coffin shut and in the past.
We will all get through this. Yell if ya need anything
Agree w/Derek. All will be fine, we are with you all the way brother. Stay close to your quit, anxiety only has as much power as you give her. No different from the bitch. And we know you can kick that ass like nobody's business. Same intensity, same support group till we get through it together. Call me if you need me...
X2 brother!
Hey brother just wanted to let you know I am with you just like everyone else. Stay Strong!!! Stay Quit!!!
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So today I get the call. From the doctor's office that is.
"We need to schedule you for an appointment with Dr. $%*^. The earliest day we can get you in to see her will be on Monday, September 10th, that is her surgery day."
"But I just needed to follow up with her regarding my ultrasound test"
"Yes well, the doctor said she will have to take a biopsy and she'll explain why when you arrive that day. Is morning or afternoon a better time for you?"
This is NOT some made up shit fellas! This is my fucking life, right here, right now! Just got off the horn with the receptionist and that is the dialogue still playing through my head. Don't know what or how to think, still processing I guess. Fuck it, if it was serious they'd get me in sooner right? Other side of my brain says, if it's not serious, why the fucking biopsy?
In all honesty, I have not been this worked up in my life for a helluva long time. The fact is, when I do not have control over a situation, I get anxious. And right now, I'm anxious as hell. Gonna be doing some serious extra praying from now till then and hope the Good Lord eases my concerns.
Take what you will from this and I know you've all heard plenty worse and read about the tragedies of addictions; just reach out to someone you know who is addicted and tell them how you feel, what thoughts cross your mind now that you are quit and free, and how lucky we all are to live a full life; not a life full of regret.
Peace
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So today I get the call. From the doctor's office that is.
"We need to schedule you for an appointment with Dr. $%*^. The earliest day we can get you in to see her will be on Monday, September 10th, that is her surgery day."
"But I just needed to follow up with her regarding my ultrasound test"
"Yes well, the doctor said she will have to take a biopsy and she'll explain why when you arrive that day. Is morning or afternoon a better time for you?"
This is NOT some made up shit fellas! This is my fucking life, right here, right now! Just got off the horn with the receptionist and that is the dialogue still playing through my head. Don't know what or how to think, still processing I guess. Fuck it, if it was serious they'd get me in sooner right? Other side of my brain says, if it's not serious, why the fucking biopsy?
In all honesty, I have not been this worked up in my life for a helluva long time. The fact is, when I do not have control over a situation, I get anxious. And right now, I'm anxious as hell. Gonna be doing some serious extra praying from now till then and hope the Good Lord eases my concerns.
Take what you will from this and I know you've all heard plenty worse and read about the tragedies of addictions; just reach out to someone you know who is addicted and tell them how you feel, what thoughts cross your mind now that you are quit and free, and how lucky we all are to live a full life; not a life full of regret.
Peace
i'd be calling them back and demand answers!
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So today I get the call. From the doctor's office that is.
"We need to schedule you for an appointment with Dr. $%*^. The earliest day we can get you in to see her will be on Monday, September 10th, that is her surgery day."
"But I just needed to follow up with her regarding my ultrasound test"
"Yes well, the doctor said she will have to take a biopsy and she'll explain why when you arrive that day. Is morning or afternoon a better time for you?"
This is NOT some made up shit fellas! This is my fucking life, right here, right now! Just got off the horn with the receptionist and that is the dialogue still playing through my head. Don't know what or how to think, still processing I guess. Fuck it, if it was serious they'd get me in sooner right? Other side of my brain says, if it's not serious, why the fucking biopsy?
In all honesty, I have not been this worked up in my life for a helluva long time. The fact is, when I do not have control over a situation, I get anxious. And right now, I'm anxious as hell. Gonna be doing some serious extra praying from now till then and hope the Good Lord eases my concerns.
Take what you will from this and I know you've all heard plenty worse and read about the tragedies of addictions; just reach out to someone you know who is addicted and tell them how you feel, what thoughts cross your mind now that you are quit and free, and how lucky we all are to live a full life; not a life full of regret.
Peace
i'd be calling them back and demand answers!
Agreed. You need to know what is up.
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So today I get the call. From the doctor's office that is.
"We need to schedule you for an appointment with Dr. $%*^. The earliest day we can get you in to see her will be on Monday, September 10th, that is her surgery day."
"But I just needed to follow up with her regarding my ultrasound test"
"Yes well, the doctor said she will have to take a biopsy and she'll explain why when you arrive that day. Is morning or afternoon a better time for you?"
This is NOT some made up shit fellas! This is my fucking life, right here, right now! Just got off the horn with the receptionist and that is the dialogue still playing through my head. Don't know what or how to think, still processing I guess. Fuck it, if it was serious they'd get me in sooner right? Other side of my brain says, if it's not serious, why the fucking biopsy?
In all honesty, I have not been this worked up in my life for a helluva long time. The fact is, when I do not have control over a situation, I get anxious. And right now, I'm anxious as hell. Gonna be doing some serious extra praying from now till then and hope the Good Lord eases my concerns.
Take what you will from this and I know you've all heard plenty worse and read about the tragedies of addictions; just reach out to someone you know who is addicted and tell them how you feel, what thoughts cross your mind now that you are quit and free, and how lucky we all are to live a full life; not a life full of regret.
Peace
i'd be calling them back and demand answers!
Agreed. You need to know what is up.
Call them back and tell them you need to speak to the doctor and ask why a biopsy is necessary.
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So today I get the call. From the doctor's office that is.
"We need to schedule you for an appointment with Dr. $%*^. The earliest day we can get you in to see her will be on Monday, September 10th, that is her surgery day."
"But I just needed to follow up with her regarding my ultrasound test"
"Yes well, the doctor said she will have to take a biopsy and she'll explain why when you arrive that day. Is morning or afternoon a better time for you?"
This is NOT some made up shit fellas! This is my fucking life, right here, right now! Just got off the horn with the receptionist and that is the dialogue still playing through my head. Don't know what or how to think, still processing I guess. Fuck it, if it was serious they'd get me in sooner right? Other side of my brain says, if it's not serious, why the fucking biopsy?
In all honesty, I have not been this worked up in my life for a helluva long time. The fact is, when I do not have control over a situation, I get anxious. And right now, I'm anxious as hell. Gonna be doing some serious extra praying from now till then and hope the Good Lord eases my concerns.
Take what you will from this and I know you've all heard plenty worse and read about the tragedies of addictions; just reach out to someone you know who is addicted and tell them how you feel, what thoughts cross your mind now that you are quit and free, and how lucky we all are to live a full life; not a life full of regret.
Peace
i'd be calling them back and demand answers!
Agreed. You need to know what is up.
Call them back and tell them you need to speak to the doctor and ask why a biopsy is necessary.
You definetly need some answers brother and when you call get the answers before you get off the phone!
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So today I get the call. From the doctor's office that is.
"We need to schedule you for an appointment with Dr. $%*^. The earliest day we can get you in to see her will be on Monday, September 10th, that is her surgery day."
"But I just needed to follow up with her regarding my ultrasound test"
"Yes well, the doctor said she will have to take a biopsy and she'll explain why when you arrive that day. Is morning or afternoon a better time for you?"
This is NOT some made up shit fellas! This is my fucking life, right here, right now! Just got off the horn with the receptionist and that is the dialogue still playing through my head. Don't know what or how to think, still processing I guess. Fuck it, if it was serious they'd get me in sooner right? Other side of my brain says, if it's not serious, why the fucking biopsy?
In all honesty, I have not been this worked up in my life for a helluva long time. The fact is, when I do not have control over a situation, I get anxious. And right now, I'm anxious as hell. Gonna be doing some serious extra praying from now till then and hope the Good Lord eases my concerns.
Take what you will from this and I know you've all heard plenty worse and read about the tragedies of addictions; just reach out to someone you know who is addicted and tell them how you feel, what thoughts cross your mind now that you are quit and free, and how lucky we all are to live a full life; not a life full of regret.
Peace
i'd be calling them back and demand answers!
Agreed. You need to know what is up.
Call them back and tell them you need to speak to the doctor and ask why a biopsy is necessary.
You definetly need some answers brother and when you call get the answers before you get off the phone!
Hey Brother. I am with everyone else on this one, you definitely need answers. If they can't give it to you I would find a different doctor that can help. That is bullshit that the only day the doctor can see you is on September 10th which is over a whole goddamn month! Give em' Hell!!
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So today I get the call. From the doctor's office that is.
"We need to schedule you for an appointment with Dr. $%*^. The earliest day we can get you in to see her will be on Monday, September 10th, that is her surgery day."
"But I just needed to follow up with her regarding my ultrasound test"
"Yes well, the doctor said she will have to take a biopsy and she'll explain why when you arrive that day. Is morning or afternoon a better time for you?"
This is NOT some made up shit fellas! This is my fucking life, right here, right now! Just got off the horn with the receptionist and that is the dialogue still playing through my head. Don't know what or how to think, still processing I guess. Fuck it, if it was serious they'd get me in sooner right? Other side of my brain says, if it's not serious, why the fucking biopsy?
In all honesty, I have not been this worked up in my life for a helluva long time. The fact is, when I do not have control over a situation, I get anxious. And right now, I'm anxious as hell. Gonna be doing some serious extra praying from now till then and hope the Good Lord eases my concerns.
Take what you will from this and I know you've all heard plenty worse and read about the tragedies of addictions; just reach out to someone you know who is addicted and tell them how you feel, what thoughts cross your mind now that you are quit and free, and how lucky we all are to live a full life; not a life full of regret.
Peace
i'd be calling them back and demand answers!
Agreed. You need to know what is up.
Call them back and tell them you need to speak to the doctor and ask why a biopsy is necessary.
You definetly need some answers brother and when you call get the answers before you get off the phone!
Hey Brother. I am with everyone else on this one, you definitely need answers. If they can't give it to you I would find a different doctor that can help. That is bullshit that the only day the doctor can see you is on September 10th which is over a whole goddamn month! Give em' Hell!!
If it was me I would give them a full fledge nic rage and then after you get some answers say FU and find a Dr. Not some no give a shit bitch!!
I just got a appointment with a otolaryngologist for a endoscope inconsiderate bastards send me 20 page instuctions and questions. 6 of the pages keep stressing that if I'm a no show or late I'll be billed anyway because the fucking Dr is busy and his time is valuable. Like mine isn't! I'll bet money I get to the office and the SOB's make me wait 45 min!! Think I'll send them a bill for my time!! Glad to vent with you Eric!!! Demand the answers!!!
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So today I get the call. From the doctor's office that is.
"We need to schedule you for an appointment with Dr. $%*^. The earliest day we can get you in to see her will be on Monday, September 10th, that is her surgery day."
"But I just needed to follow up with her regarding my ultrasound test"
"Yes well, the doctor said she will have to take a biopsy and she'll explain why when you arrive that day. Is morning or afternoon a better time for you?"
This is NOT some made up shit fellas! This is my fucking life, right here, right now! Just got off the horn with the receptionist and that is the dialogue still playing through my head. Don't know what or how to think, still processing I guess. Fuck it, if it was serious they'd get me in sooner right? Other side of my brain says, if it's not serious, why the fucking biopsy?
In all honesty, I have not been this worked up in my life for a helluva long time. The fact is, when I do not have control over a situation, I get anxious. And right now, I'm anxious as hell. Gonna be doing some serious extra praying from now till then and hope the Good Lord eases my concerns.
Take what you will from this and I know you've all heard plenty worse and read about the tragedies of addictions; just reach out to someone you know who is addicted and tell them how you feel, what thoughts cross your mind now that you are quit and free, and how lucky we all are to live a full life; not a life full of regret.
Peace
Man.. several months ago my oral surgeon wanted to do a biopsy on some shit growing in my mouth too.. I told her I'd wait for a week or two and come back if it didnt go away? It went away.. I have been a fortunate bastard.. they've all gone away and I've had many questionable lesions places.. we are pretty tough.. our mouths are used to a lot of abuse! If it is sore and bothering you.. get it checked out.. Mine was nothing - Only sharing my experience - do what you want? Gooch
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So today I get the call. From the doctor's office that is.
"We need to schedule you for an appointment with Dr. $%*^. The earliest day we can get you in to see her will be on Monday, September 10th, that is her surgery day."
"But I just needed to follow up with her regarding my ultrasound test"
"Yes well, the doctor said she will have to take a biopsy and she'll explain why when you arrive that day. Is morning or afternoon a better time for you?"
This is NOT some made up shit fellas! This is my fucking life, right here, right now! Just got off the horn with the receptionist and that is the dialogue still playing through my head. Don't know what or how to think, still processing I guess. Fuck it, if it was serious they'd get me in sooner right? Other side of my brain says, if it's not serious, why the fucking biopsy?
In all honesty, I have not been this worked up in my life for a helluva long time. The fact is, when I do not have control over a situation, I get anxious. And right now, I'm anxious as hell. Gonna be doing some serious extra praying from now till then and hope the Good Lord eases my concerns.
Take what you will from this and I know you've all heard plenty worse and read about the tragedies of addictions; just reach out to someone you know who is addicted and tell them how you feel, what thoughts cross your mind now that you are quit and free, and how lucky we all are to live a full life; not a life full of regret.
Peace
Man.. several months ago my oral surgeon wanted to do a biopsy on some shit growing in my mouth too.. I told her I'd wait for a week or two and s=coem back if it didnt go away? It went away.. I have been a fortunate bastard.. they've all gone away and I've had many questionable lesions places.. we are pretty tough.. our mouths are used to a lot of abuse! If it is sore and bothering you.. get it checked out.. Mine was nothing - Only sharing my experience - do what you want? Gooch
Hope all is well bro!! I will be praying for you. PM me, let's get some text's going!!
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Day 39 and this week has been a fucking roller coaster for sure. All the while, with all that's come and gone this week, one thing still sticks in my head. Don't know whose quote this is but I saw it and it speaks volumes:
"Life is a trigger" Simple and deep at the same time. Hit me this week and has actually motivated me to become even more active on the site and in my quit. I am feeling my energy levels return and the good days out number the bad. Getting so much more work done than when I was chained to addiction.
Feed off the energy and empowerment that an active quit gives you and live life with no regrets.
Zac Brown Band,
"I hope they say I was a man who lived and never compromised, and when I live out my days, until the very end, I hope they find me in home, with my guitar in my hand"
Weekend rolling in, tomorrow will be my 40 days out in the desert, no longer feeling like I'm lost forever, the first trial is over and I've come out victorious.
QLAFM
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Day 39 and this week has been a fucking roller coaster for sure. All the while, with all that's come and gone this week, one thing still sticks in my head. Don't know whose quote this is but I saw it and it speaks volumes:
"Life is a trigger" Simple and deep at the same time. Hit me this week and has actually motivated me to become even more active on the site and in my quit. I am feeling my energy levels return and the good days out number the bad. Getting so much more work done than when I was chained to addiction.
Feed off the energy and empowerment that an active quit gives you and live life with no regrets.
Zac Brown Band,
"I hope they say I was a man who lived and never compromised, and when I live out my days, until the very end, I hope they find me in home, with my guitar in my hand"
Weekend rolling in, tomorrow will be my 40 days out in the desert, no longer feeling like I'm lost forever, the first trial is over and I've come out victorious.
QLAFM
Great post brother!
Quitting is such a roller coaster and the ride is wild but i will confirm the freedom is very much worth the struggle!
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Posted this in a new quitter's intro page and just re-read it to myself. I thought it should have a place in my journal as well to remind me of what I am compared to what I let myself become:
"My first two weeks were absolute hell. I couldn't sleep at night and would fall asleep driving while at work. Angry as a hornet and ready to pounce at the slightest thing. I've come to see that it is all part of the suck. I've seen it written that the harder the original suck, the stronger and more committed the quit. That's what we talk about when we say, "Embrace the suck" , really pull that fucker in, own it, relish in its pain and turmoil. Sadistic, yeah it is, but well worth it when you come out on the other side. I am enjoying life and am seeing my kids and family so much more because I spend no time hiding myself in a far away place with a fucking spit bottle and a pile of cancer in my lip. How fucking selfish and ridiculous was that? What person of high morals, ethics, and integrity would put an inanimate, poisonous carcinogen ahead of their own flesh, blood, and love?
When we look at it how it truly is, not through the rose colored lenses of addiction, we see how an addictive mind set can truly rob us of the lives we work so hard to obtain. I'm here to say, not here, not now, not me."
Eric,
When you look back at this, you better be saying you only let this happen once. No one respects a man who cannot respect himself. How does a man respect himself? He keeps his fucking word, he honors his friends and family, he posts roll and he loves and lives his life with no regrets. You, my friend, are that man, prove it to yourself everyday.
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Posted this in a new quitter's intro page and just re-read it to myself. I thought it should have a place in my journal as well to remind me of what I am compared to what I let myself become:
"My first two weeks were absolute hell. I couldn't sleep at night and would fall asleep driving while at work. Angry as a hornet and ready to pounce at the slightest thing. I've come to see that it is all part of the suck. I've seen it written that the harder the original suck, the stronger and more committed the quit. That's what we talk about when we say, "Embrace the suck" , really pull that fucker in, own it, relish in its pain and turmoil. Sadistic, yeah it is, but well worth it when you come out on the other side. I am enjoying life and am seeing my kids and family so much more because I spend no time hiding myself in a far away place with a fucking spit bottle and a pile of cancer in my lip. How fucking selfish and ridiculous was that? What person of high morals, ethics, and integrity would put an inanimate, poisonous carcinogen ahead of their own flesh, blood, and love?
When we look at it how it truly is, not through the rose colored lenses of addiction, we see how an addictive mind set can truly rob us of the lives we work so hard to obtain. I'm here to say, not here, not now, not me."
Eric,
When you look back at this, you better be saying you only let this happen once. No one respects a man who cannot respect himself. How does a man respect himself? He keeps his fucking word, he honors his friends and family, he posts roll and he loves and lives his life with no regrets. You, my friend, are that man, prove it to yourself everyday.
I just read it over there and again here! Well said!
'clap' 'clap'
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Posted this in a new quitter's intro page and just re-read it to myself. I thought it should have a place in my journal as well to remind me of what I am compared to what I let myself become:
"My first two weeks were absolute hell. I couldn't sleep at night and would fall asleep driving while at work. Angry as a hornet and ready to pounce at the slightest thing. I've come to see that it is all part of the suck. I've seen it written that the harder the original suck, the stronger and more committed the quit. That's what we talk about when we say, "Embrace the suck" , really pull that fucker in, own it, relish in its pain and turmoil. Sadistic, yeah it is, but well worth it when you come out on the other side. I am enjoying life and am seeing my kids and family so much more because I spend no time hiding myself in a far away place with a fucking spit bottle and a pile of cancer in my lip. How fucking selfish and ridiculous was that? What person of high morals, ethics, and integrity would put an inanimate, poisonous carcinogen ahead of their own flesh, blood, and love?
When we look at it how it truly is, not through the rose colored lenses of addiction, we see how an addictive mind set can truly rob us of the lives we work so hard to obtain. I'm here to say, not here, not now, not me."
Eric,
When you look back at this, you better be saying you only let this happen once. No one respects a man who cannot respect himself. How does a man respect himself? He keeps his fucking word, he honors his friends and family, he posts roll and he loves and lives his life with no regrets. You, my friend, are that man, prove it to yourself everyday.
I just read it over there and again here! Well said!
'clap' 'clap'
Your quality of life will improve drastically for sure.
Welcome to your Freedom. Keep fighting for it. It is well worth it and the fight gets easier with time.
Damn proud of you.
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Day 43:
Getting real sick and tired of taking a shift babysitting our quit group. Trying hard to understand how and why some need the constant reminder to stay quit. Was the suck not bad enough, were they not the complete asshole I was for the better part of two weeks, was the fog so light they would think of going back, does their word not carry enough weight even in their own heart to put forth the effort to live?
Just frustrated and want to see us all take control of putting our lives and loved ones ahead of addiction. I will be praying for all of us to continue to have the strength to see the task through every day, one at a time.
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Day 48:
County fair week and that is sure to mean a load of people chewing and spitting and the site of cans in jeans at every turn. Ninja dipped last year at fair even while talking to current and potential clients.
Took a walk down cancer lane getting ready to transport items to the fair. I went to clean out the back of my truck, moved my spare tire, and lo and behold, there lay an empty can of Timberwolf mint. Paused for second, first time I had even looked at a can. I had made sure to have every last spitter, can, and hiding spot cleaned and emptied when the quit began. Too bad I forgot about the bed of my truck (Truck gets driven sporadically, not too good on gas for my occupation). Ah yes, the sneaky nic bitch trying to claw back into my life during an opportune time.
Walked inside, asked my son (6) to come outside with me. He has been wanting to learn how to shoot a gun for so long, I thought now could be a perfect teachable moment to do so. I took the can, and using my air nailer, fastened it to the nearest tree. I took my son outside and gave him the finer points on using his BB rifle, and let him have at it.
I reminded him to always be able to look your obstacles and adversaries in the face, meet them head on, and shoot 'em straight. That meant a helluva lot more to me than him when I said it. I pray to God he never has to look this bitch in the face. It was kind of like the Medusa moment when the heroes of old would turn to stone. Turns out for her though, she was only looking at a reflection of me and I took her head off with one fell swoop.
R.I.P. Bitch!
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Day 48:
County fair week and that is sure to mean a load of people chewing and spitting and the site of cans in jeans at every turn. Ninja dipped last year at fair even while talking to current and potential clients.
Took a walk down cancer lane getting ready to transport items to the fair. I went to clean out the back of my truck, moved my spare tire, and lo and behold, there lay an empty can of Timberwolf mint. Paused for second, first time I had even looked at a can. I had made sure to have every last spitter, can, and hiding spot cleaned and emptied when the quit began. Too bad I forgot about the bed of my truck (Truck gets driven sporadically, not too good on gas for my occupation). Ah yes, the sneaky nic bitch trying to claw back into my life during an opportune time.
Walked inside, asked my son (6) to come outside with me. He has been wanting to learn how to shoot a gun for so long, I thought now could be a perfect teachable moment to do so. I took the can, and using my air nailer, fastened it to the nearest tree. I took my son outside and gave him the finer points on using his BB rifle, and let him have at it.
I reminded him to always be able to look your obstacles and adversaries in the face, meet them head on, and shoot 'em straight. That meant a helluva lot more to me than him when I said it. I pray to God he never has to look this bitch in the face. It was kind of like the Medusa moment when the heroes of old would turn to stone. Turns out for her though, she was only looking at a reflection of me and I took her head off with one fell swoop.
R.I.P. Bitch!
Love it !!!!! found a great use for it.
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Day 48:
County fair week and that is sure to mean a load of people chewing and spitting and the site of cans in jeans at every turn. Ninja dipped last year at fair even while talking to current and potential clients.Â
Took a walk down cancer lane getting ready to transport items to the fair. I went to clean out the back of my truck, moved my spare tire, and lo and behold, there lay an empty can of Timberwolf mint. Paused for second, first time I had even looked at a can. I had made sure to have every last spitter, can, and hiding spot cleaned and emptied when the quit began. Too bad I forgot about the bed of my truck (Truck gets driven sporadically, not too good on gas for my occupation). Ah yes, the sneaky nic bitch trying to claw back into my life during an opportune time.
Walked inside, asked my son (6) to come outside with me. He has been wanting to learn how to shoot a gun for so long, I thought now could be a perfect teachable moment to do so. I took the can, and using my air nailer, fastened it to the nearest tree. I took my son outside and gave him the finer points on using his BB rifle, and let him have at it.Â
I reminded him to always be able to look your obstacles and adversaries in the face, meet them head on, and shoot 'em straight. That meant a helluva lot more to me than him when I said it. I pray to God he never has to look this bitch in the face. It was kind of like the Medusa moment when the heroes of old would turn to stone. Turns out for her though, she was only looking at a reflection of me and I took her head off with one fell swoop.
R.I.P. Bitch!
Love it !!!!! found a great use for it.
Way to go Eric. Shoot em up!!!
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Day 48:
County fair week and that is sure to mean a load of people chewing and spitting and the site of cans in jeans at every turn. Ninja dipped last year at fair even while talking to current and potential clients.Â
Took a walk down cancer lane getting ready to transport items to the fair. I went to clean out the back of my truck, moved my spare tire, and lo and behold, there lay an empty can of Timberwolf mint. Paused for second, first time I had even looked at a can. I had made sure to have every last spitter, can, and hiding spot cleaned and emptied when the quit began. Too bad I forgot about the bed of my truck (Truck gets driven sporadically, not too good on gas for my occupation). Ah yes, the sneaky nic bitch trying to claw back into my life during an opportune time.
Walked inside, asked my son (6) to come outside with me. He has been wanting to learn how to shoot a gun for so long, I thought now could be a perfect teachable moment to do so. I took the can, and using my air nailer, fastened it to the nearest tree. I took my son outside and gave him the finer points on using his BB rifle, and let him have at it.Â
I reminded him to always be able to look your obstacles and adversaries in the face, meet them head on, and shoot 'em straight. That meant a helluva lot more to me than him when I said it. I pray to God he never has to look this bitch in the face. It was kind of like the Medusa moment when the heroes of old would turn to stone. Turns out for her though, she was only looking at a reflection of me and I took her head off with one fell swoop.
R.I.P. Bitch!
Love it !!!!! found a great use for it.
Way to go Eric. Shoot em up!!!
I got quit wood.
Quit with you today.
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Day 48:
County fair week and that is sure to mean a load of people chewing and spitting and the site of cans in jeans at every turn. Ninja dipped last year at fair even while talking to current and potential clients.Â
Took a walk down cancer lane getting ready to transport items to the fair. I went to clean out the back of my truck, moved my spare tire, and lo and behold, there lay an empty can of Timberwolf mint. Paused for second, first time I had even looked at a can. I had made sure to have every last spitter, can, and hiding spot cleaned and emptied when the quit began. Too bad I forgot about the bed of my truck (Truck gets driven sporadically, not too good on gas for my occupation). Ah yes, the sneaky nic bitch trying to claw back into my life during an opportune time.
Walked inside, asked my son (6) to come outside with me. He has been wanting to learn how to shoot a gun for so long, I thought now could be a perfect teachable moment to do so. I took the can, and using my air nailer, fastened it to the nearest tree. I took my son outside and gave him the finer points on using his BB rifle, and let him have at it.Â
I reminded him to always be able to look your obstacles and adversaries in the face, meet them head on, and shoot 'em straight. That meant a helluva lot more to me than him when I said it. I pray to God he never has to look this bitch in the face. It was kind of like the Medusa moment when the heroes of old would turn to stone. Turns out for her though, she was only looking at a reflection of me and I took her head off with one fell swoop.
R.I.P. Bitch!
Love it !!!!! found a great use for it.
Way to go Eric. Shoot em up!!!
I got quit wood.
Quit with you today.
Good job Eric! I'm so proud to be quit with you!
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Day 57:
Note to self:
Fuck you and the weak ass thoughts swimming in your head. You were told these days would come and sure as hell they have. These are the days your quit is being tested mentally. So, bigshot, how strong is your quit? A little mind fuck getting you all riled up is it? Thinking about me aren't you?
"Yeah, I'm thinking about you, about how you fucked up 15 years of my life that I cannot get back! About leaving me in a corner somewhere with a fucking bottle in my hand and a pile of shit jammed in my lip! About seeing the disappointment and hurt in my wife and children's eyes as I pushed one in my lip. About tearing up a level of honor and respect that I have to work so hard to put back in place with those I love. About how fucking stupid I was to let something like you into my life in the first place. About how if you were a real person I would be in prison for the mutilating, abhorrent beating I would place on you, rendering you a crippled pile of shit incapable of rational thought or motion. About how needy you are, how reliant you are on the weakness of others to make yourself feel worth. Face it bitch, without me, you are just a shredded up, rode hard, put away wet, wilting and sagging, pile of shit that no one can stay committed to. We all find something better, something way better, and you're left holding the can."
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Day 57:
Note to self:
Fuck you and the weak ass thoughts swimming in your head. You were told these days would come and sure as hell they have. These are the days your quit is being tested mentally. So, bigshot, how strong is your quit? A little mind fuck getting you all riled up is it? Thinking about me aren't you?
"Yeah, I'm thinking about you, about how you fucked up 15 years of my life that I cannot get back! About leaving me in a corner somewhere with a fucking bottle in my hand and a pile of shit jammed in my lip! About seeing the disappointment and hurt in my wife and children's eyes as I pushed one in my lip. About tearing up a level of honor and respect that I have to work so hard to put back in place with those I love. About how fucking stupid I was to let something like you into my life in the first place. About how if you were a real person I would be in prison for the mutilating, abhorrent beating I would place on you, rendering you a crippled pile of shit incapable of rational thought or motion. About how needy you are, how reliant you are on the weakness of others to make yourself feel worth. Face it bitch, without me, you are just a shredded up, rode hard, put away wet, wilting and sagging, pile of shit that no one can stay committed to. We all find something better, something way better, and you're left holding the can."
comming from a leader of QUIT within the Roctober Madmen
keep on feeling the freedom, and I quit each day with you.
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Eric,
Just wanted to stop in and say that I think you have the greatest title and subtitle for an intro thread, ever.
Keep up the great work.
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Day 60:
Said this to one of my co-workers and took a mental step back to reflect on it.
"Does life have to be perfect in order for you to live?"
Guy is a whiny little mommas boy bitch, sometimes it can be extremely draining to be around him. It just gets fucking old after a while watching someone almost purposely labor through life, their body language pleading for someone to end it all for them. So, I finally had enough and called him on the carpet with that comment. What I didn't expect was that I had been doing this for the past 15 or so years. Life did have to be perfect or else I would throw in a chew. The kids did have to behave as model citizens, my wife did have to be a Stepford wife, and work all had to fall in line with my designs for it. I was the one who demanded perfection or else I would resort to a slow and steady destruction of myself.
Having had the taste of 60 days of freedom I can honestly say that life is so much sweeter when it is not perfect. When the kids are kids, when my wife and I don't always see eye to eye, and when contingency plans have to be called upon to get through a day's work. It is sweeter and I am living life without a killing crutch that sapped me of my mental resolve and the ability to cope and manage the stress of everyday life. So now I can say that life indeed does not have to be perfect, I am going to live it to its fullest anyway and the mistress of addiction can pack her overnight bag somewhere else, she will never be welcome in my house again.
QLAFM with all of you, today, and every day that follows!
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Day 69: An open letter to my absentee brothers
Today is a good day. Why is today a good day?
1. I'm alive
2. I'm quit
3. I'm loved by my family and friends
4. I love that I'm quit
5. I live in a free country
6. My quit gives me my freedom
7. I have a roof over my head
8. My quit never strays far from my mind
9. I have food for nourishment
10. I feed my quit daily by being active on KTC
11. My God gives me strength in my endeavors
12. My quit grows stronger daily with the help of my quit brethren
This list could continue, but the trend is easily evident. We can find how our quit enhances every part of our lives if we just take a moment to look. I just thought on a day of reflection, I could give you some encouragement in your quit.
That said, don't get all touchy feely on me! I still hate what that bitch did to me for all those years! I'm still stark, raving mad that I allowed something like her to rob me of time, moments, and treasure. I still have no room in my quit for those of you who don't feel the same. As I sit here and type this, my palms are sweating, pits dripping, and rage spewing over. Those of you who don't commit daily to your quit should be ashamed of yourselves! Don't you fucking get it? Any time you leave the door open, you leave an open invitation for her to enter back into your life. Any time you fail to post roll or come to the site, you are showing others that they do not matter to you today and that you will not be around to support them if they need your help. You entered this site as a needy, confused, scared little sack of shit who was scooped up, coddled, guided, and empowered with tremendous support during the initial stages of your quit. How fucking selfish and disrespectful that you don't have the common decency to pay it back and forward. You self-centered, world revolves around you sack of shit. You know who you are, and you know as well as everyone else here that the door swings both ways.
You are not holding up your end of the bargain. You are a disappointment to your quit group! Mostly though, you are proving what type of person you really are. If I'm pissing you off, tough shit! Bring it on! Come tell me about it, at least I'd know you had a spine. Is quitting everything? No, but it damns sure says a shit ton about who lies deep inside your skin and what they stand for.
Fight or flight, which end are you on? You can quit with me, like a fucking madman; full of rage and hate, anger and aggression, thought and persistence.
OR
You can fly the fucking coop! Intimidated and afraid, scared of the forever, afraid of the commitment, dodging the responsibility, shunning your fellow man.
Again, which will you choose?
QLAFM
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Day 69: An open letter to my absentee brothers
Today is a good day. Why is today a good day?
1. I'm alive
2. I'm quit
3. I'm loved by my family and friends
4. I love that I'm quit
5. I live in a free country
6. My quit gives me my freedom
7. I have a roof over my head
8. My quit never strays far from my mind
9. I have food for nourishment
10. I feed my quit daily by being active on KTC
11. My God gives me strength in my endeavors
12. My quit grows stronger daily with the help of my quit brethren
This list could continue, but the trend is easily evident. We can find how our quit enhances every part of our lives if we just take a moment to look. I just thought on a day of reflection, I could give you some encouragement in your quit.
That said, don't get all touchy feely on me! I still hate what that bitch did to me for all those years! I'm still stark, raving mad that I allowed something like her to rob me of time, moments, and treasure. I still have no room in my quit for those of you who don't feel the same. As I sit here and type this, my palms are sweating, pits dripping, and rage spewing over. Those of you who don't commit daily to your quit should be ashamed of yourselves! Don't you fucking get it? Any time you leave the door open, you leave an open invitation for her to enter back into your life. Any time you fail to post roll or come to the site, you are showing others that they do not matter to you today and that you will not be around to support them if they need your help. You entered this site as a needy, confused, scared little sack of shit who was scooped up, coddled, guided, and empowered with tremendous support during the initial stages of your quit. How fucking selfish and disrespectful that you don't have the common decency to pay it back and forward. You self-centered, world revolves around you sack of shit. You know who you are, and you know as well as everyone else here that the door swings both ways.
You are not holding up your end of the bargain. You are a disappointment to your quit group! Mostly though, you are proving what type of person you really are. If I'm pissing you off, tough shit! Bring it on! Come tell me about it, at least I'd know you had a spine. Is quitting everything? No, but it damns sure says a shit ton about who lies deep inside your skin and what they stand for.
Fight or flight, which end are you on? You can quit with me, like a fucking madman; full of rage and hate, anger and aggression, thought and persistence.
OR
You can fly the fucking coop! Intimidated and afraid, scared of the forever, afraid of the commitment, dodging the responsibility, shunning your fellow man.
Again, which will you choose?
QLAFM
Good stuff E. I need to do a better job of paying it forward myself. Sometimes I get tunnel vision with my quit and focus too much on ME. A lot of guys helped me early on when I was a blubbering mess. Only fair I try harder to do the same.
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Day 69:Â An open letter to my absentee brothers
Today is a good day. Why is today a good day?
1. I'm alive
2. I'm quit
3. I'm loved by my family and friends
4. I love that I'm quit
5. I live in a free country
6. My quit gives me my freedom
7. I have a roof over my head
8. My quit never strays far from my mind
9. I have food for nourishment
10. I feed my quit daily by being active on KTC
11. My God gives me strength in my endeavors
12. My quit grows stronger daily with the help of my quit brethren
This list could continue, but the trend is easily evident. We can find how our quit enhances every part of our lives if we just take a moment to look. I just thought on a day of reflection, I could give you some encouragement in your quit.Â
That said, don't get all touchy feely on me! I still hate what that bitch did to me for all those years! I'm still stark, raving mad that I allowed something like her to rob me of time, moments, and treasure. I still have no room in my quit for those of you who don't feel the same. As I sit here and type this, my palms are sweating, pits dripping, and rage spewing over. Those of you who don't commit daily to your quit should be ashamed of yourselves! Don't you fucking get it? Any time you leave the door open, you leave an open invitation for her to enter back into your life. Any time you fail to post roll or come to the site, you are showing others that they do not matter to you today and that you will not be around to support them if they need your help. You entered this site as a needy, confused, scared little sack of shit who was scooped up, coddled, guided, and empowered with tremendous support during the initial stages of your quit. How fucking selfish and disrespectful that you don't have the common decency to pay it back and forward. You self-centered, world revolves around you sack of shit. You know who you are, and you know as well as everyone else here that the door swings both ways.Â
You are not holding up your end of the bargain. You are a disappointment to your quit group! Mostly though, you are proving what type of person you really are. If I'm pissing you off, tough shit! Bring it on! Come tell me about it, at least I'd know you had a spine. Is quitting everything? No, but it damns sure says a shit ton about who lies deep inside your skin and what they stand for.
Fight or flight, which end are you on? You can quit with me, like a fucking madman; full of rage and hate, anger and aggression, thought and persistence.
OR
You can fly the fucking coop! Intimidated and afraid, scared of the forever, afraid of the commitment, dodging the responsibility, shunning your fellow man.
Again, which will you choose?
QLAFM
Good stuff E. I need to do a better job of paying it forward myself. Sometimes I get tunnel vision with my quit and focus too much on ME. A lot of guys helped me early on when I was a blubbering mess. Only fair I try harder to do the same.
'clap'
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Day 78:
September 10th, a day I have been dwelling on for the better part of 7 weeks. If you remember the last bit of news I had was regarding a potential biopsy of a cyst in my neck/throat region. Well, the day finally arrived. As I sit in the waiting room of the endocrine/diabetes management center I cannot help but look around at what a seemingly harmless thing as eating can do to crumble someone's life. Now granted, diabetes is plenty more than the inability to control food consumption. I am not that ignorant to make that reference. However, I did see more people enter into diet management consultation area than I did anywhere else.
Fast forward through the agonizing wait. Into the room, up on the table, another ultrasound. Only this one lights up your cysts in fancy colors. I could give a shit what color they were so long as they weren't cancerous. The doctor looks at, analyzes, measures, and pokes and prods at my neck and throat only to say that whatever was there 7 weeks ago has subsided and I am only left with small cysts near my thyroid gland and no sign of lymph nodes or cysts that need biopsied for analysis. She said that if the pain in this area continues that we would need to do a CAT scan. All the blood work done also came back normal. She said she has never seen a change as dramatic as this in this short of a time frame from one ultrasound to another. She had no real explanation for it.
I would like to thank you all for your thoughts and prayers during this time. These last 7 weeks have been exhausting to myself and to my wife I'm sure. You see, we didn't talk about it much because with 4 little ones around, adult conversation time is generally at the end of a long day and this topic was quite heavy to go to bed on. I imagine, we both just lifted it up to God and let him speak to us through His ways. We also did not want to place any unnecessary worry on the kids until we knew for sure what was going on.
I will tell you all this though, life is meant to be lived without fear and regret. These last 7 weeks I have lived as though I knew when my last day was. I have said things I otherwise would have refrained from saying. I have volunteered for things I would have deferred upon. I have become more involved in my church, my family, my friends, and my businesses. I have taken the time to be home early to help my wife with her day. I have told her how much I love her and what a great job she does day in and day out with our kids. I have been more affectionate and complimentary to her. I have kissed and hugged my kids more. I have had the conversations we all remember having with our parents, the life lessons. I have taken the time to just play with them. I have taken them places and done things with them that I would have put off for another time before. I was able to take my son to his first NFL game this past weekend. I built gymnastic equipment for my girls. I have been the man I have wanted to be for so long. I have finally figured out that I can be that man now, not at a future time.
I guess what I'm saying is that I had to have the shit scared out of me before I realized that life was not meant to be a "go through the motions" exercise. Life is meant to be lived. It is meant to be exhilarating and exhausting all at once, everyday if possible. It is meant for afternoon naps with your spouse on a Sunday after Church and dinner. It is meant for the grind of the work week and the chaos of raising a family. It is meant for disappointments and opportunities, successes and failures, loves and hates. It is meant for everything we encounter if we put ourselves into it.
What life is not meant to be is regretful. Don't go another day without doing something, anything, that you wouldn't normally do. Be the man or woman you aspire to be a little bit more today than you did yesterday. Hug your kids, kiss your wife/husband for no other reason than to just say I love you. Be the person you hear inside screaming to get out. The feeling of liberating those feelings is one you will never regret. I can only thank God and all of you and those around me for all the prayer and support.
Peace
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Day 78:
September 10th, a day I have been dwelling on for the better part of 7 weeks. If you remember the last bit of news I had was regarding a potential biopsy of a cyst in my neck/throat region. Well, the day finally arrived. As I sit in the waiting room of the endocrine/diabetes management center I cannot help but look around at what a seemingly harmless thing as eating can do to crumble someone's life. Now granted, diabetes is plenty more than the inability to control food consumption. I am not that ignorant to make that reference. However, I did see more people enter into diet management consultation area than I did anywhere else.
Fast forward through the agonizing wait. Into the room, up on the table, another ultrasound. Only this one lights up your cysts in fancy colors. I could give a shit what color they were so long as they weren't cancerous. The doctor looks at, analyzes, measures, and pokes and prods at my neck and throat only to say that whatever was there 7 weeks ago has subsided and I am only left with small cysts near my thyroid gland and no sign of lymph nodes or cysts that need biopsied for analysis. She said that if the pain in this area continues that we would need to do a CAT scan. All the blood work done also came back normal. She said she has never seen a change as dramatic as this in this short of a time frame from one ultrasound to another. She had no real explanation for it.
I would like to thank you all for your thoughts and prayers during this time. These last 7 weeks have been exhausting to myself and to my wife I'm sure. You see, we didn't talk about it much because with 4 little ones around, adult conversation time is generally at the end of a long day and this topic was quite heavy to go to bed on. I imagine, we both just lifted it up to God and let him speak to us through His ways. We also did not want to place any unnecessary worry on the kids until we knew for sure what was going on.
I will tell you all this though, life is meant to be lived without fear and regret. These last 7 weeks I have lived as though I knew when my last day was. I have said things I otherwise would have refrained from saying. I have volunteered for things I would have deferred upon. I have become more involved in my church, my family, my friends, and my businesses. I have taken the time to be home early to help my wife with her day. I have told her how much I love her and what a great job she does day in and day out with our kids. I have been more affectionate and complimentary to her. I have kissed and hugged my kids more. I have had the conversations we all remember having with our parents, the life lessons. I have taken the time to just play with them. I have taken them places and done things with them that I would have put off for another time before. I was able to take my son to his first NFL game this past weekend. I built gymnastic equipment for my girls. I have been the man I have wanted to be for so long. I have finally figured out that I can be that man now, not at a future time.
I guess what I'm saying is that I had to have the shit scared out of me before I realized that life was not meant to be a "go through the motions" exercise. Life is meant to be lived. It is meant to be exhilarating and exhausting all at once, everyday if possible. It is meant for afternoon naps with your spouse on a Sunday after Church and dinner. It is meant for the grind of the work week and the chaos of raising a family. It is meant for disappointments and opportunities, successes and failures, loves and hates. It is meant for everything we encounter if we put ourselves into it.
What life is not meant to be is regretful. Don't go another day without doing something, anything, that you wouldn't normally do. Be the man or woman you aspire to be a little bit more today than you did yesterday. Hug your kids, kiss your wife/husband for no other reason than to just say I love you. Be the person you hear inside screaming to get out. The feeling of liberating those feelings is one you will never regret. I can only thank God and all of you and those around me for all the prayer and support.
Peace
Great news and great post brother!
I feel very inspired from your post and I say thank you!
Quit on quiter!
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Beautiful post.
I'm so fucking proud of you.
Keep up the good work.
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I love this post!!! Seriously, Love this post!!!!
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Day 78:
September 10th, a day I have been dwelling on for the better part of 7 weeks. If you remember the last bit of news I had was regarding a potential biopsy of a cyst in my neck/throat region. Well, the day finally arrived. As I sit in the waiting room of the endocrine/diabetes management center I cannot help but look around at what a seemingly harmless thing as eating can do to crumble someone's life. Now granted, diabetes is plenty more than the inability to control food consumption. I am not that ignorant to make that reference. However, I did see more people enter into diet management consultation area than I did anywhere else.
Fast forward through the agonizing wait. Into the room, up on the table, another ultrasound. Only this one lights up your cysts in fancy colors. I could give a shit what color they were so long as they weren't cancerous. The doctor looks at, analyzes, measures, and pokes and prods at my neck and throat only to say that whatever was there 7 weeks ago has subsided and I am only left with small cysts near my thyroid gland and no sign of lymph nodes or cysts that need biopsied for analysis. She said that if the pain in this area continues that we would need to do a CAT scan. All the blood work done also came back normal. She said she has never seen a change as dramatic as this in this short of a time frame from one ultrasound to another. She had no real explanation for it.
I would like to thank you all for your thoughts and prayers during this time. These last 7 weeks have been exhausting to myself and to my wife I'm sure. You see, we didn't talk about it much because with 4 little ones around, adult conversation time is generally at the end of a long day and this topic was quite heavy to go to bed on. I imagine, we both just lifted it up to God and let him speak to us through His ways. We also did not want to place any unnecessary worry on the kids until we knew for sure what was going on.
I will tell you all this though, life is meant to be lived without fear and regret. These last 7 weeks I have lived as though I knew when my last day was. I have said things I otherwise would have refrained from saying. I have volunteered for things I would have deferred upon. I have become more involved in my church, my family, my friends, and my businesses. I have taken the time to be home early to help my wife with her day. I have told her how much I love her and what a great job she does day in and day out with our kids. I have been more affectionate and complimentary to her. I have kissed and hugged my kids more. I have had the conversations we all remember having with our parents, the life lessons. I have taken the time to just play with them. I have taken them places and done things with them that I would have put off for another time before. I was able to take my son to his first NFL game this past weekend. I built gymnastic equipment for my girls. I have been the man I have wanted to be for so long. I have finally figured out that I can be that man now, not at a future time.
I guess what I'm saying is that I had to have the shit scared out of me before I realized that life was not meant to be a "go through the motions" exercise. Life is meant to be lived. It is meant to be exhilarating and exhausting all at once, everyday if possible. It is meant for afternoon naps with your spouse on a Sunday after Church and dinner. It is meant for the grind of the work week and the chaos of raising a family. It is meant for disappointments and opportunities, successes and failures, loves and hates. It is meant for everything we encounter if we put ourselves into it.
What life is not meant to be is regretful. Don't go another day without doing something, anything, that you wouldn't normally do. Be the man or woman you aspire to be a little bit more today than you did yesterday. Hug your kids, kiss your wife/husband for no other reason than to just say I love you. Be the person you hear inside screaming to get out. The feeling of liberating those feelings is one you will never regret. I can only thank God and all of you and those around me for all the prayer and support.
Peace
Wow Eric, you are my hero. What an inspiration and change you have been to me and if you look back over the short 70 + days....What a positive change.
This is a witness that quitting tobacco is when we start living and stop going through the motions of life.
I fought with my wife today. I came home and she asked me to run some errands, so I went and picked up dry cleaning, grocery store for milk. I said, "you have been home all day and I'm the one that has to run errands?"
Well I didn't even acknowledge that the house was clean, dinner on the table and laundry was done. She worked hard and I criticized.
Well I am going to do something I probably wouldn't have until I read your post. I am going to tell her I am sorry for not recognizing all she does do...
Thanks Eric. Went to the gym today too. I hurt but it is a good hurt!
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Thank you Eric. The past two days I've been feeling sorry for myself, whining about the amount of Time the bitch has been whispering in my ear and feeling like a failure because I wasn't feeling as confident in my quit as I want. You brought me back down to Earth I'll be here tommorrow to quit for the day!
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great post Eric.. glad everything came back neg.. This whole process is quite simple when you think about what's most important in life. It all starts with the man in the mirror.. proud to quit with you..
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Day 78:
September 10th, a day I have been dwelling on for the better part of 7 weeks. If you remember the last bit of news I had was regarding a potential biopsy of a cyst in my neck/throat region. Well, the day finally arrived. As I sit in the waiting room of the endocrine/diabetes management center I cannot help but look around at what a seemingly harmless thing as eating can do to crumble someone's life. Now granted, diabetes is plenty more than the inability to control food consumption. I am not that ignorant to make that reference. However, I did see more people enter into diet management consultation area than I did anywhere else.Â
Fast forward through the agonizing wait. Into the room, up on the table, another ultrasound. Only this one lights up your cysts in fancy colors. I could give a shit what color they were so long as they weren't cancerous. The doctor looks at, analyzes, measures, and pokes and prods at my neck and throat only to say that whatever was there 7 weeks ago has subsided and I am only left with small cysts near my thyroid gland and no sign of lymph nodes or cysts that need biopsied for analysis. She said that if the pain in this area continues that we would need to do a CAT scan. All the blood work done also came back normal. She said she has never seen a change as dramatic as this in this short of a time frame from one ultrasound to another. She had no real explanation for it.
I would like to thank you all for your thoughts and prayers during this time. These last 7 weeks have been exhausting to myself and to my wife I'm sure. You see, we didn't talk about it much because with 4 little ones around, adult conversation time is generally at the end of a long day and this topic was quite heavy to go to bed on. I imagine, we both just lifted it up to God and let him speak to us through His ways. We also did not want to place any unnecessary worry on the kids until we knew for sure what was going on.Â
I will tell you all this though, life is meant to be lived without fear and regret. These last 7 weeks I have lived as though I knew when my last day was. I have said things I otherwise would have refrained from saying. I have volunteered for things I would have deferred upon. I have become more involved in my church, my family, my friends, and my businesses. I have taken the time to be home early to help my wife with her day. I have told her how much I love her and what a great job she does day in and day out with our kids. I have been more affectionate and complimentary to her. I have kissed and hugged my kids more. I have had the conversations we all remember having with our parents, the life lessons. I have taken the time to just play with them. I have taken them places and done things with them that I would have put off for another time before. I was able to take my son to his first NFL game this past weekend. I built gymnastic equipment for my girls. I have been the man I have wanted to be for so long. I have finally figured out that I can be that man now, not at a future time.Â
I guess what I'm saying is that I had to have the shit scared out of me before I realized that life was not meant to be a "go through the motions" exercise. Life is meant to be lived. It is meant to be exhilarating and exhausting all at once, everyday if possible. It is meant for afternoon naps with your spouse on a Sunday after Church and dinner. It is meant for the grind of the work week and the chaos of raising a family. It is meant for disappointments and opportunities, successes and failures, loves and hates. It is meant for everything we encounter if we put ourselves into it.Â
What life is not meant to be is regretful. Don't go another day without doing something, anything, that you wouldn't normally do. Be the man or woman you aspire to be a little bit more today than you did yesterday. Hug your kids, kiss your wife/husband for no other reason than to just say I love you. Be the person you hear inside screaming to get out. The feeling of liberating those feelings is one you will never regret. I can only thank God and all of you and those around me for all the prayer and support.
Peace
Wow Eric, you are my hero. What an inspiration and change you have been to me and if you look back over the short 70 + days....What a positive change.
This is a witness that quitting tobacco is when we start living and stop going through the motions of life.
I fought with my wife today. I came home and she asked me to run some errands, so I went and picked up dry cleaning, grocery store for milk. I said, "you have been home all day and I'm the one that has to run errands?"
Well I didn't even acknowledge that the house was clean, dinner on the table and laundry was done. She worked hard and I criticized.
Well I am going to do something I probably wouldn't have until I read your post. I am going to tell her I am sorry for not recognizing all she does do...
Thanks Eric. Went to the gym today too. I hurt but it is a good hurt!
What a post! Nice Eric. Like you, (and ^^^) I am trying to use quitting dipping as a springboard to an overall improvement in my quality of life. I smell what you're cooking bud. I want some. Congrats on the good news in regards to your health!!
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Day 85:
I feel like I missed a helluva lot yesterday in our group. Too late to go back in and try to help or fix what got broken. A 100% poster caved, fucking gave it up, went back to his old ways. I wasn't there for him, and it fucking hurts a little bit. I remember having a chat with Sir D just about 2 weeks ago and remarking on how impressive this guy's run was and how he kept a tally of how much cash he'd saved. He did this on a daily basis. This guy wasn't much of a communicator to the group and had grown tired of the litany of roll posts in our group thread. To him, the thread must have been his sounding board. I did not have his number, gave him mine and offered my help if he ever needed it. He said he was never much the type to talk about shit with relative strangers.
Is that what we are October? Are we strangers to each other? Do we really have our brothers' backs when the shit hits the fan? Can I rely on any of you if I get in a bind?
These are rhetorical questions for me. I know for a fact that I can count on some of you in our group and I hope the feeling is likewise. For those of you, any of you, but especially those of you in Oct12, who do not feel like you can count on someone in those dire times I have one simple message for you.
You need to get numbers right now and call these people. I mean fucking call them, talk to them. Don't fucking text them, that shit is paltry compared to real human interaction. What would a suicide helpline be if all you had to do was text, "Don't do it, you'll regret it"? Pretty fucking lame attempt but I guess it would remove the guilt right? At least you tried right?
So, what I'm saying is this I guess. We all talk of honor and support and I know it's there, you who read this know it's there, but a shit ton of us in here are missing that train. Quitting is a matter of life or death, let's treat it like one everyday and not let this kind of shit go on without a true attempt at help.
Does this mean the failed quitter had no skin in the game? Absolutely not, and I am downright ashamed of the fact he fell off the way he did. If I am ashamed of it, I can only imagine how he feels. I will not, however, grant him any leeway. I don't care the circumstances of his failure, only the fact that he failed.
Here is what we need to understand. Life is fucking hard people. Shit will happen, losses will occur, jobs will be lost, family will fall ill, stress will be overcoming at times. It is how we react in those times though that truly define the person we are. This is where our honor, integrity, faith, and moral fiber come in to save us from ourselves. This is where building that system of support can carry us through. This is the reason I am still quit and typing this diatribe.
When you post roll, mean it. When you offer your contact info, mean it. When you accept someone's number, use it. I am as guarded as the next person and I wear my emotions on my sleeve for all to see. What you will see from me is a fight to the death if the nic bitch comes calling, bitch better hope she's got nukes because I will not surrender. I will call every fucking one of you to help me get through it and I expect nothing less from any of you.
I am quit and failure is never an option.
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Day 85:
I feel like I missed a helluva lot yesterday in our group. Too late to go back in and try to help or fix what got broken. A 100% poster caved, fucking gave it up, went back to his old ways. I wasn't there for him, and it fucking hurts a little bit. I remember having a chat with Sir D just about 2 weeks ago and remarking on how impressive this guy's run was and how he kept a tally of how much cash he'd saved. He did this on a daily basis. This guy wasn't much of a communicator to the group and had grown tired of the litany of roll posts in our group thread. To him, the thread must have been his sounding board. I did not have his number, gave him mine and offered my help if he ever needed it. He said he was never much the type to talk about shit with relative strangers.
Is that what we are October? Are we strangers to each other? Do we really have our brothers' backs when the shit hits the fan? Can I rely on any of you if I get in a bind?
These are rhetorical questions for me. I know for a fact that I can count on some of you in our group and I hope the feeling is likewise. For those of you, any of you, but especially those of you in Oct12, who do not feel like you can count on someone in those dire times I have one simple message for you.
You need to get numbers right now and call these people. I mean fucking call them, talk to them. Don't fucking text them, that shit is paltry compared to real human interaction. What would a suicide helpline be if all you had to do was text, "Don't do it, you'll regret it"? Pretty fucking lame attempt but I guess it would remove the guilt right? At least you tried right?
So, what I'm saying is this I guess. We all talk of honor and support and I know it's there, you who read this know it's there, but a shit ton of us in here are missing that train. Quitting is a matter of life or death, let's treat it like one everyday and not let this kind of shit go on without a true attempt at help.
Does this mean the failed quitter had no skin in the game? Absolutely not, and I am downright ashamed of the fact he fell off the way he did. If I am ashamed of it, I can only imagine how he feels. I will not, however, grant him any leeway. I don't care the circumstances of his failure, only the fact that he failed.
Here is what we need to understand. Life is fucking hard people. Shit will happen, losses will occur, jobs will be lost, family will fall ill, stress will be overcoming at times. It is how we react in those times though that truly define the person we are. This is where our honor, integrity, faith, and moral fiber come in to save us from ourselves. This is where building that system of support can carry us through. This is the reason I am still quit and typing this diatribe.
When you post roll, mean it. When you offer your contact info, mean it. When you accept someone's number, use it. I am as guarded as the next person and I wear my emotions on my sleeve for all to see. What you will see from me is a fight to the death if the nic bitch comes calling, bitch better hope she's got nukes because I will not surrender. I will call every fucking one of you to help me get through it and I expect nothing less from any of you.
I am quit and failure is never an option.
Well stated my brother, and you can count on me to be there for you.
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Day 85:
I feel like I missed a helluva lot yesterday in our group. Too late to go back in and try to help or fix what got broken. A 100% poster caved, fucking gave it up, went back to his old ways. I wasn't there for him, and it fucking hurts a little bit. I remember having a chat with Sir D just about 2 weeks ago and remarking on how impressive this guy's run was and how he kept a tally of how much cash he'd saved. He did this on a daily basis. This guy wasn't much of a communicator to the group and had grown tired of the litany of roll posts in our group thread. To him, the thread must have been his sounding board. I did not have his number, gave him mine and offered my help if he ever needed it. He said he was never much the type to talk about shit with relative strangers.
Is that what we are October? Are we strangers to each other? Do we really have our brothers' backs when the shit hits the fan? Can I rely on any of you if I get in a bind?
These are rhetorical questions for me. I know for a fact that I can count on some of you in our group and I hope the feeling is likewise. For those of you, any of you, but especially those of you in Oct12, who do not feel like you can count on someone in those dire times I have one simple message for you.
You need to get numbers right now and call these people. I mean fucking call them, talk to them. Don't fucking text them, that shit is paltry compared to real human interaction. What would a suicide helpline be if all you had to do was text, "Don't do it, you'll regret it"? Pretty fucking lame attempt but I guess it would remove the guilt right? At least you tried right?
So, what I'm saying is this I guess. We all talk of honor and support and I know it's there, you who read this know it's there, but a shit ton of us in here are missing that train. Quitting is a matter of life or death, let's treat it like one everyday and not let this kind of shit go on without a true attempt at help.
Does this mean the failed quitter had no skin in the game? Absolutely not, and I am downright ashamed of the fact he fell off the way he did. If I am ashamed of it, I can only imagine how he feels. I will not, however, grant him any leeway. I don't care the circumstances of his failure, only the fact that he failed.
Here is what we need to understand. Life is fucking hard people. Shit will happen, losses will occur, jobs will be lost, family will fall ill, stress will be overcoming at times. It is how we react in those times though that truly define the person we are. This is where our honor, integrity, faith, and moral fiber come in to save us from ourselves. This is where building that system of support can carry us through. This is the reason I am still quit and typing this diatribe.
When you post roll, mean it. When you offer your contact info, mean it. When you accept someone's number, use it. I am as guarded as the next person and I wear my emotions on my sleeve for all to see. What you will see from me is a fight to the death if the nic bitch comes calling, bitch better hope she's got nukes because I will not surrender. I will call every fucking one of you to help me get through it and I expect nothing less from any of you.
I am quit and failure is never an option.
I look at it this way Eric, there is no reason for you to feel guilty over this. The guy caved and it was his own fault for not reaching out to someone. Hell we shouldn't have to be accountable for someone elses actions, they are grown ass men!
Some people like to do this journey on their own and from the looks of it he did it for awhile. There is a point when you hit a wall and you need a little extra help from a few people to get you back on track. Thats what this site is for but if you are not capable of working with a few strangers then its only a matter of time before a cave happens.
As far as support I got your back brother and I don't have any problems exchanging numbers with you. There are always going to be forks in the road that separate the path to freedom and the road to dipville. We need to keep our quit strong and continue on this path to freedom without ever looking back. If you need anything I'm a phone call away brother. Stay strong, stay quit.
Kstamp
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Eric, read your entire intro and wanted to say thanks for sharing. Like most us you started at the lowest of lows, but from the bottom the only way to look is up. Your journey is a model example of using your quit to become a better man in spite of circumstances out of your control. I am relieved for you and your family with the news about your cyst. God is good! I'm glad to be quit with you today. Peace.
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And we shall not conform to our addiction.
One fucking day at a time. Shit, my grandma's good for one day and she's 91. Finally got her to hop off the nic train she's been riding since she was 16. Like I said, if she can do it at her age, you all have no fucking excuse.
Use that for inspiration to keep your asses quit. If you can't measure up to her, you are no one I would trust in a foxhole.
Ego in check, quit in check, life in check.
QLAFM every flippin' day
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Day 162:
Been quiet for a while in here, I've had to deal with some of the more important issues in life like marriage. I can honestly say that during this phase, not one fucking time did I want to stick cancer in my lip. Did I want to give up on my marriage? Sure, haven't we all felt that way at one time or another? If not, consider yourself truly blessed and make sure you let your spouse know how much you love them.
What I have come to realize though is that being quit has further developed a mental resolve in me to overcome where the outlook looks bleak. That being quit drives me to be something more than selfish. That being quit inspires me to be the man my wife and children can look at as a husband/father to be proud of. That being quit is a chance to take those tools (the ones that keep me quit) and apply them to other facets of my life to make me a better me. That being quit takes discipline, attitude, perseverance, faith, and selflessness.
That being in a marriage is a lot like being quit. There are times when we feel like giving up on our quit but we don't. There are times when we feel like being selfish but we aren't. There are times we feel like it's not worth the time and effort but it is. There are times when it is so fucking hard that we don't know how we can go on one more minute but we do. There are times when we don't see the light at the end of the tunnel but it's there. There are times when we feel no one can possibly know or understand what we are going through but there is someone.
Then, there is that time when we question who that person might be that knows and feels all this we experience and we demand an answer. The answer we get catches us by surprise and we suddenly look at this life through a different set of lenses. We look at it through their eyes and suddenly we, ourselves, look like a weak, selfish, egocentric, narcissistic, piece of shit that no one could love.
You see, being quit has made me realize that I have made some major mistakes in my life. Having tools to use to keep me quit has bled over into other phases of my life. I was not meant to travel upon this site and just be quit from tobacco. I was meant to incorporate the skills I have learned by staying quit into a process of remodeling my life. I am in an evolution of myself thanks to this site. I am becoming a better husband, a better father, a better model of behavior in my church and community, and a better person overall. I am showing that it is acceptable to be strong and soft at the same time, to be firm but gentle, and to be loving.
I am loving what I am becoming and know that the day I give in to one of my addictions will be the day that I let my wife, family, friends, and this community down. That day, with the help of you all and the Good Lord, will not come.
Thanks for reading,
Eric
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Day 162:
Been quiet for a while in here, I've had to deal with some of the more important issues in life like marriage. I can honestly say that during this phase, not one fucking time did I want to stick cancer in my lip. Did I want to give up on my marriage? Sure, haven't we all felt that way at one time or another? If not, consider yourself truly blessed and make sure you let your spouse know how much you love them.
What I have come to realize though is that being quit has further developed a mental resolve in me to overcome where the outlook looks bleak. That being quit drives me to be something more than selfish. That being quit inspires me to be the man my wife and children can look at as a husband/father to be proud of. That being quit is a chance to take those tools (the ones that keep me quit) and apply them to other facets of my life to make me a better me. That being quit takes discipline, attitude, perseverance, faith, and selflessness.
That being in a marriage is a lot like being quit. There are times when we feel like giving up on our quit but we don't. There are times when we feel like being selfish but we aren't. There are times we feel like it's not worth the time and effort but it is. There are times when it is so fucking hard that we don't know how we can go on one more minute but we do. There are times when we don't see the light at the end of the tunnel but it's there. There are times when we feel no one can possibly know or understand what we are going through but there is someone.
Then, there is that time when we question who that person might be that knows and feels all this we experience and we demand an answer. The answer we get catches us by surprise and we suddenly look at this life through a different set of lenses. We look at it through their eyes and suddenly we, ourselves, look like a weak, selfish, egocentric, narcissistic, piece of shit that no one could love.
You see, being quit has made me realize that I have made some major mistakes in my life. Having tools to use to keep me quit has bled over into other phases of my life. I was not meant to travel upon this site and just be quit from tobacco. I was meant to incorporate the skills I have learned by staying quit into a process of remodeling my life. I am in an evolution of myself thanks to this site. I am becoming a better husband, a better father, a better model of behavior in my church and community, and a better person overall. I am showing that it is acceptable to be strong and soft at the same time, to be firm but gentle, and to be loving.
I am loving what I am becoming and know that the day I give in to one of my addictions will be the day that I let my wife, family, friends, and this community down. That day, with the help of you all and the Good Lord, will not come.
Thanks for reading,
Eric
That is what I call MADMAN Quittin' right there. Everyone needs some space every once in a while to put things in perspective. We are all about accountability, and you have remained 100%. Even through the rough times you have been facing.
When we start on KTC, it is ALL about the quit. But now, it's about so much more. The lessons learned here are bigger than the quit. They are life lessons, not just quit lessons. They are applicable in all aspects of our lives. We ARE put on this earth to experience relationship. Plain and simple. You, my brother, have figured that out. Keep her close, and let her hold you accountable just like we do. You will come through this a better man.
Proud to be quit with you today and any day...QLAFM
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Day 162:
Been quiet for a while in here, I've had to deal with some of the more important issues in life like marriage. I can honestly say that during this phase, not one fucking time did I want to stick cancer in my lip. Did I want to give up on my marriage? Sure, haven't we all felt that way at one time or another? If not, consider yourself truly blessed and make sure you let your spouse know how much you love them.Â
What I have come to realize though is that being quit has further developed a mental resolve in me to overcome where the outlook looks bleak. That being quit drives me to be something more than selfish. That being quit inspires me to be the man my wife and children can look at as a husband/father to be proud of. That being quit is a chance to take those tools (the ones that keep me quit) and apply them to other facets of my life to make me a better me. That being quit takes discipline, attitude, perseverance, faith, and selflessness.Â
That being in a marriage is a lot like being quit. There are times when we feel like giving up on our quit but we don't. There are times when we feel like being selfish but we aren't. There are times we feel like it's not worth the time and effort but it is. There are times when it is so fucking hard that we don't know how we can go on one more minute but we do. There are times when we don't see the light at the end of the tunnel but it's there. There are times when we feel no one can possibly know or understand what we are going through but there is someone.Â
Then, there is that time when we question who that person might be that knows and feels all this we experience and we demand an answer. The answer we get catches us by surprise and we suddenly look at this life through a different set of lenses. We look at it through their eyes and suddenly we, ourselves, look like a weak, selfish, egocentric, narcissistic, piece of shit that no one could love.
You see, being quit has made me realize that I have made some major mistakes in my life. Having tools to use to keep me quit has bled over into other phases of my life. I was not meant to travel upon this site and just be quit from tobacco. I was meant to incorporate the skills I have learned by staying quit into a process of remodeling my life. I am in an evolution of myself thanks to this site. I am becoming a better husband, a better father, a better model of behavior in my church and community, and a better person overall. I am showing that it is acceptable to be strong and soft at the same time, to be firm but gentle, and to be loving.
I am loving what I am becoming and know that the day I give in to one of my addictions will be the day that I let my wife, family, friends, and this community down. That day, with the help of you all and the Good Lord, will not come.
Thanks for reading,
Eric
That is what I call MADMAN Quittin' right there. Everyone needs some space every once in a while to put things in perspective. We are all about accountability, and you have remained 100%. Even through the rough times you have been facing.
When we start on KTC, it is ALL about the quit. But now, it's about so much more. The lessons learned here are bigger than the quit. They are life lessons, not just quit lessons. They are applicable in all aspects of our lives. We ARE put on this earth to experience relationship. Plain and simple. You, my brother, have figured that out. Keep her close, and let her hold you accountable just like we do. You will come through this a better man.
Proud to be quit with you today and any day...QLAFM
Eric,
Very lucky that I stumble on this masterpiece. Well said and damn I feel like you do.
KTC take the time to read this.........
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Thanks for posting Eric! Something for everyone to read and learn from.
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Day 162:
Been quiet for a while in here, I've had to deal with some of the more important issues in life like marriage. I can honestly say that during this phase, not one fucking time did I want to stick cancer in my lip. Did I want to give up on my marriage? Sure, haven't we all felt that way at one time or another? If not, consider yourself truly blessed and make sure you let your spouse know how much you love them.Â
What I have come to realize though is that being quit has further developed a mental resolve in me to overcome where the outlook looks bleak. That being quit drives me to be something more than selfish. That being quit inspires me to be the man my wife and children can look at as a husband/father to be proud of. That being quit is a chance to take those tools (the ones that keep me quit) and apply them to other facets of my life to make me a better me. That being quit takes discipline, attitude, perseverance, faith, and selflessness.Â
That being in a marriage is a lot like being quit. There are times when we feel like giving up on our quit but we don't. There are times when we feel like being selfish but we aren't. There are times we feel like it's not worth the time and effort but it is. There are times when it is so fucking hard that we don't know how we can go on one more minute but we do. There are times when we don't see the light at the end of the tunnel but it's there. There are times when we feel no one can possibly know or understand what we are going through but there is someone.Â
Then, there is that time when we question who that person might be that knows and feels all this we experience and we demand an answer. The answer we get catches us by surprise and we suddenly look at this life through a different set of lenses. We look at it through their eyes and suddenly we, ourselves, look like a weak, selfish, egocentric, narcissistic, piece of shit that no one could love.
You see, being quit has made me realize that I have made some major mistakes in my life. Having tools to use to keep me quit has bled over into other phases of my life. I was not meant to travel upon this site and just be quit from tobacco. I was meant to incorporate the skills I have learned by staying quit into a process of remodeling my life. I am in an evolution of myself thanks to this site. I am becoming a better husband, a better father, a better model of behavior in my church and community, and a better person overall. I am showing that it is acceptable to be strong and soft at the same time, to be firm but gentle, and to be loving.
I am loving what I am becoming and know that the day I give in to one of my addictions will be the day that I let my wife, family, friends, and this community down. That day, with the help of you all and the Good Lord, will not come.
Thanks for reading,
Eric
That is what I call MADMAN Quittin' right there. Everyone needs some space every once in a while to put things in perspective. We are all about accountability, and you have remained 100%. Even through the rough times you have been facing.
When we start on KTC, it is ALL about the quit. But now, it's about so much more. The lessons learned here are bigger than the quit. They are life lessons, not just quit lessons. They are applicable in all aspects of our lives. We ARE put on this earth to experience relationship. Plain and simple. You, my brother, have figured that out. Keep her close, and let her hold you accountable just like we do. You will come through this a better man.
Proud to be quit with you today and any day...QLAFM
Eric,
Very lucky that I stumble on this masterpiece. Well said and damn I feel like you do.
KTC take the time to read this.........
Now this is the kind of shit I love seeing in the morning! It just makes my day to read about someone applying the quit lessons learned to their life. Everything uttered above me is 100% truth. I'm with you guys, being quit has taught me more about myself than I could have ever imagined.
Quit Like (A) Fuck (ing) (Madman)
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Day 162:
Been quiet for a while in here, I've had to deal with some of the more important issues in life like marriage. I can honestly say that during this phase, not one fucking time did I want to stick cancer in my lip. Did I want to give up on my marriage? Sure, haven't we all felt that way at one time or another? If not, consider yourself truly blessed and make sure you let your spouse know how much you love them.Â
What I have come to realize though is that being quit has further developed a mental resolve in me to overcome where the outlook looks bleak. That being quit drives me to be something more than selfish. That being quit inspires me to be the man my wife and children can look at as a husband/father to be proud of. That being quit is a chance to take those tools (the ones that keep me quit) and apply them to other facets of my life to make me a better me. That being quit takes discipline, attitude, perseverance, faith, and selflessness.Â
That being in a marriage is a lot like being quit. There are times when we feel like giving up on our quit but we don't. There are times when we feel like being selfish but we aren't. There are times we feel like it's not worth the time and effort but it is. There are times when it is so fucking hard that we don't know how we can go on one more minute but we do. There are times when we don't see the light at the end of the tunnel but it's there. There are times when we feel no one can possibly know or understand what we are going through but there is someone.Â
Then, there is that time when we question who that person might be that knows and feels all this we experience and we demand an answer. The answer we get catches us by surprise and we suddenly look at this life through a different set of lenses. We look at it through their eyes and suddenly we, ourselves, look like a weak, selfish, egocentric, narcissistic, piece of shit that no one could love.
You see, being quit has made me realize that I have made some major mistakes in my life. Having tools to use to keep me quit has bled over into other phases of my life. I was not meant to travel upon this site and just be quit from tobacco. I was meant to incorporate the skills I have learned by staying quit into a process of remodeling my life. I am in an evolution of myself thanks to this site. I am becoming a better husband, a better father, a better model of behavior in my church and community, and a better person overall. I am showing that it is acceptable to be strong and soft at the same time, to be firm but gentle, and to be loving.
I am loving what I am becoming and know that the day I give in to one of my addictions will be the day that I let my wife, family, friends, and this community down. That day, with the help of you all and the Good Lord, will not come.
Thanks for reading,
Eric
That is what I call MADMAN Quittin' right there. Everyone needs some space every once in a while to put things in perspective. We are all about accountability, and you have remained 100%. Even through the rough times you have been facing.
When we start on KTC, it is ALL about the quit. But now, it's about so much more. The lessons learned here are bigger than the quit. They are life lessons, not just quit lessons. They are applicable in all aspects of our lives. We ARE put on this earth to experience relationship. Plain and simple. You, my brother, have figured that out. Keep her close, and let her hold you accountable just like we do. You will come through this a better man.
Proud to be quit with you today and any day...QLAFM
Eric,
Very lucky that I stumble on this masterpiece. Well said and damn I feel like you do.
KTC take the time to read this.........
Now this is the kind of shit I love seeing in the morning! It just makes my day to read about someone applying the quit lessons learned to their life. Everything uttered above me is 100% truth. I'm with you guys, being quit has taught me more about myself than I could have ever imagined.
Quit Like (A) Fuck (ing) (Madman)
Thanks for taking the time Eric, proud to be quit with you.
-
Day 162:
Been quiet for a while in here, I've had to deal with some of the more important issues in life like marriage. I can honestly say that during this phase, not one fucking time did I want to stick cancer in my lip. Did I want to give up on my marriage? Sure, haven't we all felt that way at one time or another? If not, consider yourself truly blessed and make sure you let your spouse know how much you love them.Â
What I have come to realize though is that being quit has further developed a mental resolve in me to overcome where the outlook looks bleak. That being quit drives me to be something more than selfish. That being quit inspires me to be the man my wife and children can look at as a husband/father to be proud of. That being quit is a chance to take those tools (the ones that keep me quit) and apply them to other facets of my life to make me a better me. That being quit takes discipline, attitude, perseverance, faith, and selflessness.Â
That being in a marriage is a lot like being quit. There are times when we feel like giving up on our quit but we don't. There are times when we feel like being selfish but we aren't. There are times we feel like it's not worth the time and effort but it is. There are times when it is so fucking hard that we don't know how we can go on one more minute but we do. There are times when we don't see the light at the end of the tunnel but it's there. There are times when we feel no one can possibly know or understand what we are going through but there is someone.Â
Then, there is that time when we question who that person might be that knows and feels all this we experience and we demand an answer. The answer we get catches us by surprise and we suddenly look at this life through a different set of lenses. We look at it through their eyes and suddenly we, ourselves, look like a weak, selfish, egocentric, narcissistic, piece of shit that no one could love.
You see, being quit has made me realize that I have made some major mistakes in my life. Having tools to use to keep me quit has bled over into other phases of my life. I was not meant to travel upon this site and just be quit from tobacco. I was meant to incorporate the skills I have learned by staying quit into a process of remodeling my life. I am in an evolution of myself thanks to this site. I am becoming a better husband, a better father, a better model of behavior in my church and community, and a better person overall. I am showing that it is acceptable to be strong and soft at the same time, to be firm but gentle, and to be loving.
I am loving what I am becoming and know that the day I give in to one of my addictions will be the day that I let my wife, family, friends, and this community down. That day, with the help of you all and the Good Lord, will not come.
Thanks for reading,
Eric
That is what I call MADMAN Quittin' right there. Everyone needs some space every once in a while to put things in perspective. We are all about accountability, and you have remained 100%. Even through the rough times you have been facing.
When we start on KTC, it is ALL about the quit. But now, it's about so much more. The lessons learned here are bigger than the quit. They are life lessons, not just quit lessons. They are applicable in all aspects of our lives. We ARE put on this earth to experience relationship. Plain and simple. You, my brother, have figured that out. Keep her close, and let her hold you accountable just like we do. You will come through this a better man.
Proud to be quit with you today and any day...QLAFM
Eric,
Very lucky that I stumble on this masterpiece. Well said and damn I feel like you do.
KTC take the time to read this.........
Now this is the kind of shit I love seeing in the morning! It just makes my day to read about someone applying the quit lessons learned to their life. Everything uttered above me is 100% truth. I'm with you guys, being quit has taught me more about myself than I could have ever imagined.
Quit Like (A) Fuck (ing) (Madman)
Thanks for taking the time Eric, proud to be quit with you.
I would say again that someone here has wrote what alot of us think!!! 'clap' 'clap'
Proud to be quit with you and stay strong brother remember if it was easy it wouldnt be worth having!
-
Day 162:
Been quiet for a while in here, I've had to deal with some of the more important issues in life like marriage. I can honestly say that during this phase, not one fucking time did I want to stick cancer in my lip. Did I want to give up on my marriage? Sure, haven't we all felt that way at one time or another? If not, consider yourself truly blessed and make sure you let your spouse know how much you love them.Â
What I have come to realize though is that being quit has further developed a mental resolve in me to overcome where the outlook looks bleak. That being quit drives me to be something more than selfish. That being quit inspires me to be the man my wife and children can look at as a husband/father to be proud of. That being quit is a chance to take those tools (the ones that keep me quit) and apply them to other facets of my life to make me a better me. That being quit takes discipline, attitude, perseverance, faith, and selflessness.Â
That being in a marriage is a lot like being quit. There are times when we feel like giving up on our quit but we don't. There are times when we feel like being selfish but we aren't. There are times we feel like it's not worth the time and effort but it is. There are times when it is so fucking hard that we don't know how we can go on one more minute but we do. There are times when we don't see the light at the end of the tunnel but it's there. There are times when we feel no one can possibly know or understand what we are going through but there is someone.Â
Then, there is that time when we question who that person might be that knows and feels all this we experience and we demand an answer. The answer we get catches us by surprise and we suddenly look at this life through a different set of lenses. We look at it through their eyes and suddenly we, ourselves, look like a weak, selfish, egocentric, narcissistic, piece of shit that no one could love.
You see, being quit has made me realize that I have made some major mistakes in my life. Having tools to use to keep me quit has bled over into other phases of my life. I was not meant to travel upon this site and just be quit from tobacco. I was meant to incorporate the skills I have learned by staying quit into a process of remodeling my life. I am in an evolution of myself thanks to this site. I am becoming a better husband, a better father, a better model of behavior in my church and community, and a better person overall. I am showing that it is acceptable to be strong and soft at the same time, to be firm but gentle, and to be loving.
I am loving what I am becoming and know that the day I give in to one of my addictions will be the day that I let my wife, family, friends, and this community down. That day, with the help of you all and the Good Lord, will not come.
Thanks for reading,
Eric
That is what I call MADMAN Quittin' right there. Everyone needs some space every once in a while to put things in perspective. We are all about accountability, and you have remained 100%. Even through the rough times you have been facing.
When we start on KTC, it is ALL about the quit. But now, it's about so much more. The lessons learned here are bigger than the quit. They are life lessons, not just quit lessons. They are applicable in all aspects of our lives. We ARE put on this earth to experience relationship. Plain and simple. You, my brother, have figured that out. Keep her close, and let her hold you accountable just like we do. You will come through this a better man.
Proud to be quit with you today and any day...QLAFM
Eric,
Very lucky that I stumble on this masterpiece. Well said and damn I feel like you do.
KTC take the time to read this.........
Now this is the kind of shit I love seeing in the morning! It just makes my day to read about someone applying the quit lessons learned to their life. Everything uttered above me is 100% truth. I'm with you guys, being quit has taught me more about myself than I could have ever imagined.
Quit Like (A) Fuck (ing) (Madman)
Thanks for taking the time Eric, proud to be quit with you.
I would say again that someone here has wrote what alot of us think!!! 'clap' 'clap'
Proud to be quit with you and stay strong brother remember if it was easy it wouldnt be worth having!
Thanks for sharing that Eric. I alway's enjoy your posts...You have come a long way, and I'm effin proud of you...
-
Day 162:
Been quiet for a while in here, I've had to deal with some of the more important issues in life like marriage. I can honestly say that during this phase, not one fucking time did I want to stick cancer in my lip. Did I want to give up on my marriage? Sure, haven't we all felt that way at one time or another? If not, consider yourself truly blessed and make sure you let your spouse know how much you love them.Â
What I have come to realize though is that being quit has further developed a mental resolve in me to overcome where the outlook looks bleak. That being quit drives me to be something more than selfish. That being quit inspires me to be the man my wife and children can look at as a husband/father to be proud of. That being quit is a chance to take those tools (the ones that keep me quit) and apply them to other facets of my life to make me a better me. That being quit takes discipline, attitude, perseverance, faith, and selflessness.Â
That being in a marriage is a lot like being quit. There are times when we feel like giving up on our quit but we don't. There are times when we feel like being selfish but we aren't. There are times we feel like it's not worth the time and effort but it is. There are times when it is so fucking hard that we don't know how we can go on one more minute but we do. There are times when we don't see the light at the end of the tunnel but it's there. There are times when we feel no one can possibly know or understand what we are going through but there is someone.Â
Then, there is that time when we question who that person might be that knows and feels all this we experience and we demand an answer. The answer we get catches us by surprise and we suddenly look at this life through a different set of lenses. We look at it through their eyes and suddenly we, ourselves, look like a weak, selfish, egocentric, narcissistic, piece of shit that no one could love.
You see, being quit has made me realize that I have made some major mistakes in my life. Having tools to use to keep me quit has bled over into other phases of my life. I was not meant to travel upon this site and just be quit from tobacco. I was meant to incorporate the skills I have learned by staying quit into a process of remodeling my life. I am in an evolution of myself thanks to this site. I am becoming a better husband, a better father, a better model of behavior in my church and community, and a better person overall. I am showing that it is acceptable to be strong and soft at the same time, to be firm but gentle, and to be loving.
I am loving what I am becoming and know that the day I give in to one of my addictions will be the day that I let my wife, family, friends, and this community down. That day, with the help of you all and the Good Lord, will not come.
Thanks for reading,
Eric
That is what I call MADMAN Quittin' right there. Everyone needs some space every once in a while to put things in perspective. We are all about accountability, and you have remained 100%. Even through the rough times you have been facing.
When we start on KTC, it is ALL about the quit. But now, it's about so much more. The lessons learned here are bigger than the quit. They are life lessons, not just quit lessons. They are applicable in all aspects of our lives. We ARE put on this earth to experience relationship. Plain and simple. You, my brother, have figured that out. Keep her close, and let her hold you accountable just like we do. You will come through this a better man.
Proud to be quit with you today and any day...QLAFM
Eric,
Very lucky that I stumble on this masterpiece. Well said and damn I feel like you do.
KTC take the time to read this.........
Now this is the kind of shit I love seeing in the morning! It just makes my day to read about someone applying the quit lessons learned to their life. Everything uttered above me is 100% truth. I'm with you guys, being quit has taught me more about myself than I could have ever imagined.
Quit Like (A) Fuck (ing) (Madman)
Thanks for taking the time Eric, proud to be quit with you.
I would say again that someone here has wrote what alot of us think!!! 'clap' 'clap'
Proud to be quit with you and stay strong brother remember if it was easy it wouldnt be worth having!
Thanks for sharing that Eric. I alway's enjoy your posts...You have come a long way, and I'm effin proud of you...
Sir Eric, I do believe that you have written/shared what all serious quitters are feeling and thinking.
Thank you for the inspiration.
-
Day 162:
Been quiet for a while in here, I've had to deal with some of the more important issues in life like marriage. I can honestly say that during this phase, not one fucking time did I want to stick cancer in my lip. Did I want to give up on my marriage? Sure, haven't we all felt that way at one time or another? If not, consider yourself truly blessed and make sure you let your spouse know how much you love them.Â
What I have come to realize though is that being quit has further developed a mental resolve in me to overcome where the outlook looks bleak. That being quit drives me to be something more than selfish. That being quit inspires me to be the man my wife and children can look at as a husband/father to be proud of. That being quit is a chance to take those tools (the ones that keep me quit) and apply them to other facets of my life to make me a better me. That being quit takes discipline, attitude, perseverance, faith, and selflessness.Â
That being in a marriage is a lot like being quit. There are times when we feel like giving up on our quit but we don't. There are times when we feel like being selfish but we aren't. There are times we feel like it's not worth the time and effort but it is. There are times when it is so fucking hard that we don't know how we can go on one more minute but we do. There are times when we don't see the light at the end of the tunnel but it's there. There are times when we feel no one can possibly know or understand what we are going through but there is someone.Â
Then, there is that time when we question who that person might be that knows and feels all this we experience and we demand an answer. The answer we get catches us by surprise and we suddenly look at this life through a different set of lenses. We look at it through their eyes and suddenly we, ourselves, look like a weak, selfish, egocentric, narcissistic, piece of shit that no one could love.
You see, being quit has made me realize that I have made some major mistakes in my life. Having tools to use to keep me quit has bled over into other phases of my life. I was not meant to travel upon this site and just be quit from tobacco. I was meant to incorporate the skills I have learned by staying quit into a process of remodeling my life. I am in an evolution of myself thanks to this site. I am becoming a better husband, a better father, a better model of behavior in my church and community, and a better person overall. I am showing that it is acceptable to be strong and soft at the same time, to be firm but gentle, and to be loving.
I am loving what I am becoming and know that the day I give in to one of my addictions will be the day that I let my wife, family, friends, and this community down. That day, with the help of you all and the Good Lord, will not come.
Thanks for reading,
Eric
That is what I call MADMAN Quittin' right there. Everyone needs some space every once in a while to put things in perspective. We are all about accountability, and you have remained 100%. Even through the rough times you have been facing.
When we start on KTC, it is ALL about the quit. But now, it's about so much more. The lessons learned here are bigger than the quit. They are life lessons, not just quit lessons. They are applicable in all aspects of our lives. We ARE put on this earth to experience relationship. Plain and simple. You, my brother, have figured that out. Keep her close, and let her hold you accountable just like we do. You will come through this a better man.
Proud to be quit with you today and any day...QLAFM
Eric,
Very lucky that I stumble on this masterpiece. Well said and damn I feel like you do.
KTC take the time to read this.........
Now this is the kind of shit I love seeing in the morning! It just makes my day to read about someone applying the quit lessons learned to their life. Everything uttered above me is 100% truth. I'm with you guys, being quit has taught me more about myself than I could have ever imagined.
Quit Like (A) Fuck (ing) (Madman)
Thanks for taking the time Eric, proud to be quit with you.
I would say again that someone here has wrote what alot of us think!!! 'clap' 'clap'
Proud to be quit with you and stay strong brother remember if it was easy it wouldnt be worth having!
Thanks for sharing that Eric. I alway's enjoy your posts...You have come a long way, and I'm effin proud of you...
Sir Eric, I do believe that you have written/shared what all serious quitters are feeling and thinking.
Thank you for the inspiration.
I dont think i have cried as much as i am right now in a long time. My heart is even crying. Thank you so much for putting words to my thoughts. Well said glad to be quit with you Eric. And all the rest of you here at this blessed site ktc.
-
Day 162:
Been quiet for a while in here, I've had to deal with some of the more important issues in life like marriage. I can honestly say that during this phase, not one fucking time did I want to stick cancer in my lip. Did I want to give up on my marriage? Sure, haven't we all felt that way at one time or another? If not, consider yourself truly blessed and make sure you let your spouse know how much you love them.Â
What I have come to realize though is that being quit has further developed a mental resolve in me to overcome where the outlook looks bleak. That being quit drives me to be something more than selfish. That being quit inspires me to be the man my wife and children can look at as a husband/father to be proud of. That being quit is a chance to take those tools (the ones that keep me quit) and apply them to other facets of my life to make me a better me. That being quit takes discipline, attitude, perseverance, faith, and selflessness.Â
That being in a marriage is a lot like being quit. There are times when we feel like giving up on our quit but we don't. There are times when we feel like being selfish but we aren't. There are times we feel like it's not worth the time and effort but it is. There are times when it is so fucking hard that we don't know how we can go on one more minute but we do. There are times when we don't see the light at the end of the tunnel but it's there. There are times when we feel no one can possibly know or understand what we are going through but there is someone.Â
Then, there is that time when we question who that person might be that knows and feels all this we experience and we demand an answer. The answer we get catches us by surprise and we suddenly look at this life through a different set of lenses. We look at it through their eyes and suddenly we, ourselves, look like a weak, selfish, egocentric, narcissistic, piece of shit that no one could love.
You see, being quit has made me realize that I have made some major mistakes in my life. Having tools to use to keep me quit has bled over into other phases of my life. I was not meant to travel upon this site and just be quit from tobacco. I was meant to incorporate the skills I have learned by staying quit into a process of remodeling my life. I am in an evolution of myself thanks to this site. I am becoming a better husband, a better father, a better model of behavior in my church and community, and a better person overall. I am showing that it is acceptable to be strong and soft at the same time, to be firm but gentle, and to be loving.
I am loving what I am becoming and know that the day I give in to one of my addictions will be the day that I let my wife, family, friends, and this community down. That day, with the help of you all and the Good Lord, will not come.
Thanks for reading,
Eric
That is what I call MADMAN Quittin' right there. Everyone needs some space every once in a while to put things in perspective. We are all about accountability, and you have remained 100%. Even through the rough times you have been facing.
When we start on KTC, it is ALL about the quit. But now, it's about so much more. The lessons learned here are bigger than the quit. They are life lessons, not just quit lessons. They are applicable in all aspects of our lives. We ARE put on this earth to experience relationship. Plain and simple. You, my brother, have figured that out. Keep her close, and let her hold you accountable just like we do. You will come through this a better man.
Proud to be quit with you today and any day...QLAFM
Eric,
Very lucky that I stumble on this masterpiece. Well said and damn I feel like you do.
KTC take the time to read this.........
Now this is the kind of shit I love seeing in the morning! It just makes my day to read about someone applying the quit lessons learned to their life. Everything uttered above me is 100% truth. I'm with you guys, being quit has taught me more about myself than I could have ever imagined.
Quit Like (A) Fuck (ing) (Madman)
Thanks for taking the time Eric, proud to be quit with you.
I would say again that someone here has wrote what alot of us think!!! 'clap' 'clap'
Proud to be quit with you and stay strong brother remember if it was easy it wouldnt be worth having!
Thanks for sharing that Eric. I alway's enjoy your posts...You have come a long way, and I'm effin proud of you...
Sir Eric, I do believe that you have written/shared what all serious quitters are feeling and thinking.
Thank you for the inspiration.
I dont think i have cried as much as i am right now in a long time. My heart is even crying. Thank you so much for putting words to my thoughts. Well said glad to be quit with you Eric. And all the rest of you here at this blessed site ktc.
Eric, this is hands down the best post I have ever read on this site. I'm saving this, and postin it in my group. Thank you for posting this!
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Day 162:
Been quiet for a while in here, I've had to deal with some of the more important issues in life like marriage. I can honestly say that during this phase, not one fucking time did I want to stick cancer in my lip. Did I want to give up on my marriage? Sure, haven't we all felt that way at one time or another? If not, consider yourself truly blessed and make sure you let your spouse know how much you love them.Â
What I have come to realize though is that being quit has further developed a mental resolve in me to overcome where the outlook looks bleak. That being quit drives me to be something more than selfish. That being quit inspires me to be the man my wife and children can look at as a husband/father to be proud of. That being quit is a chance to take those tools (the ones that keep me quit) and apply them to other facets of my life to make me a better me. That being quit takes discipline, attitude, perseverance, faith, and selflessness.Â
That being in a marriage is a lot like being quit. There are times when we feel like giving up on our quit but we don't. There are times when we feel like being selfish but we aren't. There are times we feel like it's not worth the time and effort but it is. There are times when it is so fucking hard that we don't know how we can go on one more minute but we do. There are times when we don't see the light at the end of the tunnel but it's there. There are times when we feel no one can possibly know or understand what we are going through but there is someone.Â
Then, there is that time when we question who that person might be that knows and feels all this we experience and we demand an answer. The answer we get catches us by surprise and we suddenly look at this life through a different set of lenses. We look at it through their eyes and suddenly we, ourselves, look like a weak, selfish, egocentric, narcissistic, piece of shit that no one could love.
You see, being quit has made me realize that I have made some major mistakes in my life. Having tools to use to keep me quit has bled over into other phases of my life. I was not meant to travel upon this site and just be quit from tobacco. I was meant to incorporate the skills I have learned by staying quit into a process of remodeling my life. I am in an evolution of myself thanks to this site. I am becoming a better husband, a better father, a better model of behavior in my church and community, and a better person overall. I am showing that it is acceptable to be strong and soft at the same time, to be firm but gentle, and to be loving.
I am loving what I am becoming and know that the day I give in to one of my addictions will be the day that I let my wife, family, friends, and this community down. That day, with the help of you all and the Good Lord, will not come.
Thanks for reading,
Eric
That is what I call MADMAN Quittin' right there. Everyone needs some space every once in a while to put things in perspective. We are all about accountability, and you have remained 100%. Even through the rough times you have been facing.
When we start on KTC, it is ALL about the quit. But now, it's about so much more. The lessons learned here are bigger than the quit. They are life lessons, not just quit lessons. They are applicable in all aspects of our lives. We ARE put on this earth to experience relationship. Plain and simple. You, my brother, have figured that out. Keep her close, and let her hold you accountable just like we do. You will come through this a better man.
Proud to be quit with you today and any day...QLAFM
Eric,
Very lucky that I stumble on this masterpiece. Well said and damn I feel like you do.
KTC take the time to read this.........
Now this is the kind of shit I love seeing in the morning! It just makes my day to read about someone applying the quit lessons learned to their life. Everything uttered above me is 100% truth. I'm with you guys, being quit has taught me more about myself than I could have ever imagined.
Quit Like (A) Fuck (ing) (Madman)
Thanks for taking the time Eric, proud to be quit with you.
I would say again that someone here has wrote what alot of us think!!! 'clap' 'clap'
Proud to be quit with you and stay strong brother remember if it was easy it wouldnt be worth having!
Thanks for sharing that Eric. I alway's enjoy your posts...You have come a long way, and I'm effin proud of you...
Sir Eric, I do believe that you have written/shared what all serious quitters are feeling and thinking.
Thank you for the inspiration.
I dont think i have cried as much as i am right now in a long time. My heart is even crying. Thank you so much for putting words to my thoughts. Well said glad to be quit with you Eric. And all the rest of you here at this blessed site ktc.
Eric, this is hands down the best post I have ever read on this site. I'm saving this, and postin it in my group. Thank you for posting this!
Bravo Eric! 'clap'
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Day 162:
Been quiet for a while in here, I've had to deal with some of the more important issues in life like marriage. I can honestly say that during this phase, not one fucking time did I want to stick cancer in my lip. Did I want to give up on my marriage? Sure, haven't we all felt that way at one time or another? If not, consider yourself truly blessed and make sure you let your spouse know how much you love them.Â
What I have come to realize though is that being quit has further developed a mental resolve in me to overcome where the outlook looks bleak. That being quit drives me to be something more than selfish. That being quit inspires me to be the man my wife and children can look at as a husband/father to be proud of. That being quit is a chance to take those tools (the ones that keep me quit) and apply them to other facets of my life to make me a better me. That being quit takes discipline, attitude, perseverance, faith, and selflessness.Â
That being in a marriage is a lot like being quit. There are times when we feel like giving up on our quit but we don't. There are times when we feel like being selfish but we aren't. There are times we feel like it's not worth the time and effort but it is. There are times when it is so fucking hard that we don't know how we can go on one more minute but we do. There are times when we don't see the light at the end of the tunnel but it's there. There are times when we feel no one can possibly know or understand what we are going through but there is someone.Â
Then, there is that time when we question who that person might be that knows and feels all this we experience and we demand an answer. The answer we get catches us by surprise and we suddenly look at this life through a different set of lenses. We look at it through their eyes and suddenly we, ourselves, look like a weak, selfish, egocentric, narcissistic, piece of shit that no one could love.
You see, being quit has made me realize that I have made some major mistakes in my life. Having tools to use to keep me quit has bled over into other phases of my life. I was not meant to travel upon this site and just be quit from tobacco. I was meant to incorporate the skills I have learned by staying quit into a process of remodeling my life. I am in an evolution of myself thanks to this site. I am becoming a better husband, a better father, a better model of behavior in my church and community, and a better person overall. I am showing that it is acceptable to be strong and soft at the same time, to be firm but gentle, and to be loving.
I am loving what I am becoming and know that the day I give in to one of my addictions will be the day that I let my wife, family, friends, and this community down. That day, with the help of you all and the Good Lord, will not come.
Thanks for reading,
Eric
That is what I call MADMAN Quittin' right there. Everyone needs some space every once in a while to put things in perspective. We are all about accountability, and you have remained 100%. Even through the rough times you have been facing.
When we start on KTC, it is ALL about the quit. But now, it's about so much more. The lessons learned here are bigger than the quit. They are life lessons, not just quit lessons. They are applicable in all aspects of our lives. We ARE put on this earth to experience relationship. Plain and simple. You, my brother, have figured that out. Keep her close, and let her hold you accountable just like we do. You will come through this a better man.
Proud to be quit with you today and any day...QLAFM
Eric,
Very lucky that I stumble on this masterpiece. Well said and damn I feel like you do.
KTC take the time to read this.........
Now this is the kind of shit I love seeing in the morning! It just makes my day to read about someone applying the quit lessons learned to their life. Everything uttered above me is 100% truth. I'm with you guys, being quit has taught me more about myself than I could have ever imagined.
Quit Like (A) Fuck (ing) (Madman)
Thanks for taking the time Eric, proud to be quit with you.
I would say again that someone here has wrote what alot of us think!!! 'clap' 'clap'
Proud to be quit with you and stay strong brother remember if it was easy it wouldnt be worth having!
Thanks for sharing that Eric. I alway's enjoy your posts...You have come a long way, and I'm effin proud of you...
Sir Eric, I do believe that you have written/shared what all serious quitters are feeling and thinking.
Thank you for the inspiration.
I dont think i have cried as much as i am right now in a long time. My heart is even crying. Thank you so much for putting words to my thoughts. Well said glad to be quit with you Eric. And all the rest of you here at this blessed site ktc.
Eric, this is hands down the best post I have ever read on this site. I'm saving this, and postin it in my group. Thank you for posting this!
Bravo Eric! 'clap'
Thanks Eric!! Very proud of you! that was a fabulous read.. 'clap'
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Day 162:
Been quiet for a while in here, I've had to deal with some of the more important issues in life like marriage. I can honestly say that during this phase, not one fucking time did I want to stick cancer in my lip. Did I want to give up on my marriage? Sure, haven't we all felt that way at one time or another? If not, consider yourself truly blessed and make sure you let your spouse know how much you love them.Â
What I have come to realize though is that being quit has further developed a mental resolve in me to overcome where the outlook looks bleak. That being quit drives me to be something more than selfish. That being quit inspires me to be the man my wife and children can look at as a husband/father to be proud of. That being quit is a chance to take those tools (the ones that keep me quit) and apply them to other facets of my life to make me a better me. That being quit takes discipline, attitude, perseverance, faith, and selflessness.Â
That being in a marriage is a lot like being quit. There are times when we feel like giving up on our quit but we don't. There are times when we feel like being selfish but we aren't. There are times we feel like it's not worth the time and effort but it is. There are times when it is so fucking hard that we don't know how we can go on one more minute but we do. There are times when we don't see the light at the end of the tunnel but it's there. There are times when we feel no one can possibly know or understand what we are going through but there is someone.Â
Then, there is that time when we question who that person might be that knows and feels all this we experience and we demand an answer. The answer we get catches us by surprise and we suddenly look at this life through a different set of lenses. We look at it through their eyes and suddenly we, ourselves, look like a weak, selfish, egocentric, narcissistic, piece of shit that no one could love.
You see, being quit has made me realize that I have made some major mistakes in my life. Having tools to use to keep me quit has bled over into other phases of my life. I was not meant to travel upon this site and just be quit from tobacco. I was meant to incorporate the skills I have learned by staying quit into a process of remodeling my life. I am in an evolution of myself thanks to this site. I am becoming a better husband, a better father, a better model of behavior in my church and community, and a better person overall. I am showing that it is acceptable to be strong and soft at the same time, to be firm but gentle, and to be loving.
I am loving what I am becoming and know that the day I give in to one of my addictions will be the day that I let my wife, family, friends, and this community down. That day, with the help of you all and the Good Lord, will not come.
Thanks for reading,
Eric
That is what I call MADMAN Quittin' right there. Everyone needs some space every once in a while to put things in perspective. We are all about accountability, and you have remained 100%. Even through the rough times you have been facing.
When we start on KTC, it is ALL about the quit. But now, it's about so much more. The lessons learned here are bigger than the quit. They are life lessons, not just quit lessons. They are applicable in all aspects of our lives. We ARE put on this earth to experience relationship. Plain and simple. You, my brother, have figured that out. Keep her close, and let her hold you accountable just like we do. You will come through this a better man.
Proud to be quit with you today and any day...QLAFM
Eric,
Very lucky that I stumble on this masterpiece. Well said and damn I feel like you do.
KTC take the time to read this.........
Now this is the kind of shit I love seeing in the morning! It just makes my day to read about someone applying the quit lessons learned to their life. Everything uttered above me is 100% truth. I'm with you guys, being quit has taught me more about myself than I could have ever imagined.
Quit Like (A) Fuck (ing) (Madman)
Thanks for taking the time Eric, proud to be quit with you.
I would say again that someone here has wrote what alot of us think!!! 'clap' 'clap'
Proud to be quit with you and stay strong brother remember if it was easy it wouldnt be worth having!
Thanks for sharing that Eric. I alway's enjoy your posts...You have come a long way, and I'm effin proud of you...
Sir Eric, I do believe that you have written/shared what all serious quitters are feeling and thinking.
Thank you for the inspiration.
I dont think i have cried as much as i am right now in a long time. My heart is even crying. Thank you so much for putting words to my thoughts. Well said glad to be quit with you Eric. And all the rest of you here at this blessed site ktc.
Eric, this is hands down the best post I have ever read on this site. I'm saving this, and postin it in my group. Thank you for posting this!
Bravo Eric! 'clap'
Thanks Eric!! Very proud of you! that was a fabulous read.. 'clap'
Real nice work eric. Real nice!
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Day 162:
Been quiet for a while in here, I've had to deal with some of the more important issues in life like marriage. I can honestly say that during this phase, not one fucking time did I want to stick cancer in my lip. Did I want to give up on my marriage? Sure, haven't we all felt that way at one time or another? If not, consider yourself truly blessed and make sure you let your spouse know how much you love them.Â
What I have come to realize though is that being quit has further developed a mental resolve in me to overcome where the outlook looks bleak. That being quit drives me to be something more than selfish. That being quit inspires me to be the man my wife and children can look at as a husband/father to be proud of. That being quit is a chance to take those tools (the ones that keep me quit) and apply them to other facets of my life to make me a better me. That being quit takes discipline, attitude, perseverance, faith, and selflessness.Â
That being in a marriage is a lot like being quit. There are times when we feel like giving up on our quit but we don't. There are times when we feel like being selfish but we aren't. There are times we feel like it's not worth the time and effort but it is. There are times when it is so fucking hard that we don't know how we can go on one more minute but we do. There are times when we don't see the light at the end of the tunnel but it's there. There are times when we feel no one can possibly know or understand what we are going through but there is someone.Â
Then, there is that time when we question who that person might be that knows and feels all this we experience and we demand an answer. The answer we get catches us by surprise and we suddenly look at this life through a different set of lenses. We look at it through their eyes and suddenly we, ourselves, look like a weak, selfish, egocentric, narcissistic, piece of shit that no one could love.
You see, being quit has made me realize that I have made some major mistakes in my life. Having tools to use to keep me quit has bled over into other phases of my life. I was not meant to travel upon this site and just be quit from tobacco. I was meant to incorporate the skills I have learned by staying quit into a process of remodeling my life. I am in an evolution of myself thanks to this site. I am becoming a better husband, a better father, a better model of behavior in my church and community, and a better person overall. I am showing that it is acceptable to be strong and soft at the same time, to be firm but gentle, and to be loving.
I am loving what I am becoming and know that the day I give in to one of my addictions will be the day that I let my wife, family, friends, and this community down. That day, with the help of you all and the Good Lord, will not come.
Thanks for reading,
Eric
That is what I call MADMAN Quittin' right there. Everyone needs some space every once in a while to put things in perspective. We are all about accountability, and you have remained 100%. Even through the rough times you have been facing.
When we start on KTC, it is ALL about the quit. But now, it's about so much more. The lessons learned here are bigger than the quit. They are life lessons, not just quit lessons. They are applicable in all aspects of our lives. We ARE put on this earth to experience relationship. Plain and simple. You, my brother, have figured that out. Keep her close, and let her hold you accountable just like we do. You will come through this a better man.
Proud to be quit with you today and any day...QLAFM
Eric,
Very lucky that I stumble on this masterpiece. Well said and damn I feel like you do.
KTC take the time to read this.........
Now this is the kind of shit I love seeing in the morning! It just makes my day to read about someone applying the quit lessons learned to their life. Everything uttered above me is 100% truth. I'm with you guys, being quit has taught me more about myself than I could have ever imagined.
Quit Like (A) Fuck (ing) (Madman)
Thanks for taking the time Eric, proud to be quit with you.
I would say again that someone here has wrote what alot of us think!!! 'clap' 'clap'
Proud to be quit with you and stay strong brother remember if it was easy it wouldnt be worth having!
Thanks for sharing that Eric. I alway's enjoy your posts...You have come a long way, and I'm effin proud of you...
Sir Eric, I do believe that you have written/shared what all serious quitters are feeling and thinking.
Thank you for the inspiration.
I dont think i have cried as much as i am right now in a long time. My heart is even crying. Thank you so much for putting words to my thoughts. Well said glad to be quit with you Eric. And all the rest of you here at this blessed site ktc.
Eric, this is hands down the best post I have ever read on this site. I'm saving this, and postin it in my group. Thank you for posting this!
Bravo Eric! 'clap'
Thanks Eric!! Very proud of you! that was a fabulous read.. 'clap'
Real nice work eric. Real nice!
Badass and Sick Nasty.......that's how E rolls.......POWWWWWW.....love this
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DAY 174:
I have had a good quit going lately. I am convinced the dedication of my quit is directly linked to how other facets of my life are going. I am in a good position in my career. I am in good shape and still enjoy lifting weights and exercise 5x a week. Marriage and home life is on the upswing, there are more good days than bad. My faith is strong and I am looking forward to the Christmas season.
I am convinced my quit is independent of these facets as well. As I had detailed in previous entries, all was not always rosy. It was during those times that I, above everything else going on, realized what the vets had said to us when we were newbies. We were told that the quit had to be about us, nothing else. We were told if it wasn't, failure was imminent. I can say without a shadow of a doubt, in hindsight, my quit was about me in the beginning. I played it off as though I was going to do it for my family and that it would make me better somehow because of doing it for them.
In reality, I did quit for me. I quit for me because my quitting nicotine would make me a better, more reliable, honest, and dedicated husband and father. I did quit in spite of my ego. Sure I let myself believe for a while I did it for them. When I truly analyze it though, my quit was a way of the better me winning out so that those thoughts I harbored about wanting to be the best husband and father a man could be would become reality, not unfulfilled desires.
Now, everyday, my quit is about me. It is about me because my quit gives me the freedom to go out and be who I want to be.
I've stated it before but it bears repeating, I would rather live a full life from this point on than a life full of regret.
QLAFM
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DAY 174:
I have had a good quit going lately. I am convinced the dedication of my quit is directly linked to how other facets of my life are going. I am in a good position in my career. I am in good shape and still enjoy lifting weights and exercise 5x a week. Marriage and home life is on the upswing, there are more good days than bad. My faith is strong and I am looking forward to the Christmas season.
I am convinced my quit is independent of these facets as well. As I had detailed in previous entries, all was not always rosy. It was during those times that I, above everything else going on, realized what the vets had said to us when we were newbies. We were told that the quit had to be about us, nothing else. We were told if it wasn't, failure was imminent. I can say without a shadow of a doubt, in hindsight, my quit was about me in the beginning. I played it off as though I was going to do it for my family and that it would make me better somehow because of doing it for them.
In reality, I did quit for me. I quit for me because my quitting nicotine would make me a better, more reliable, honest, and dedicated husband and father. I did quit in spite of my ego. Sure I let myself believe for a while I did it for them. When I truly analyze it though, my quit was a way of the better me winning out so that those thoughts I harbored about wanting to be the best husband and father a man could be would become reality, not unfulfilled desires.
Now, everyday, my quit is about me. It is about me because my quit gives me the freedom to go out and be who I want to be.
I've stated it before but it bears repeating, I would rather live a full life from this point on than a life full of regret.
QLAFM
beautiful man,
and to those reading I totally agree and pay attention as the quit needs to totally be about yourself as Eric said. It definately is not lip service. Internalize it, make it for yourself and let the rest of the cards unfold as things with your whole life will get better.
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Day 177:
First birthday in 16 years I haven't started it with a log of shit in my mouth! Don't miss it a bit! I miss everything I did miss as a result of trying to kill myself slowly over that time though!
Freedom is a wonderful thing fellas! Do not become complacent and revel in your daily accomplishment!
QLAFM
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Day 177:
First birthday in 16 years I haven't started it with a log of shit in my mouth! Don't miss it a bit! I miss everything I did miss as a result of trying to kill myself slowly over that time though!
Freedom is a wonderful thing fellas! Do not become complacent and revel in your daily accomplishment!
QLAFM
Felicitations on the annual celebration of your birth 'Cheers'
I'll be celebrating a birthday without the shit next week. I can't wait. I don't even remember what it's like.
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Day 177:
First birthday in 16 years I haven't started it with a log of shit in my mouth! Don't miss it a bit! I miss everything I did miss as a result of trying to kill myself slowly over that time though!Â
Freedom is a wonderful thing fellas! Do not become complacent and revel in your daily accomplishment!
QLAFM
Felicitations on the annual celebration of your birth 'Cheers'
I'll be celebrating a birthday without the shit next week. I can't wait. I don't even remember what it's like.
Happy Birthday Eric,
Every milestone is something we should remember and cherish.
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Day 177:
First birthday in 16 years I haven't started it with a log of shit in my mouth! Don't miss it a bit! I miss everything I did miss as a result of trying to kill myself slowly over that time though!Â
Freedom is a wonderful thing fellas! Do not become complacent and revel in your daily accomplishment!
QLAFM
Felicitations on the annual celebration of your birth 'Cheers'
I'll be celebrating a birthday without the shit next week. I can't wait. I don't even remember what it's like.
Happy Birthday Eric,
Every milestone is something we should remember and cherish.
My last 5 birthday's were failed attempts. Along with many other failed attempts. This year is different. This year I'm quit, will be quit for 10 months by my next b-day. :D
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Happy Birthday Brother! Glad to be on this journey with you...
QLAFM
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Happy Birthday brother!!! I know a day late.... but .......
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Day 181:
Got a Christmas card from Camel yesterday. Just laughed my ass off and shredded it into the garbage. I did read it to see what new marketing ploys they've come up with to entice addicts to keep using though. What I found was quite alarming I must say. They actually knew I hadn't bought in months and we welcoming me with all these special offers. I guess I never thought they tracked their customers that close. That feels like a greater conspiracy theory than the whole end of the world thing. I mean really, think about this, we live in a population of millions and they are able to identify me and know when I last purchased one of their products. Looks like it's gonna be cash from now on for all purchases. Big brother can trace someone else. I guess the price of convenience is your privacy and preferences.
Alarmed, Armed, and QUIT!
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Day 193:
What a rush of a holiday season. Time flew by between end of the year work deadlines, training and certifications, family and extended family gatherings, and then a funeral. I know this is a quit site and the topic usually centers on that but I would like to take a moment to honor the soul of a remarkable and simple lady, my grandmother.
Born today, January 4, 1921 and born into eternal life yesterday, January 3, 2013. A child born into poverty, dropped out of school to work at a factory to support an ill mother and her siblings. The youngest of 5 children, she maintained that role and honored her family until she met my grandfather. A man of similar circumstances, he dropped out of school at the age of 9 to manually haul steel for a company he would dedicate 56 years of his life to. She met him and they wed in 1944. They raised 4 daughters, put them all through college on an income of one. She taught them how to be ladies, how to honor your husband and family, and, above all, how to remain faithful and diligent to your faith. She remained steadfast and strong through trials and tribulations. She influenced me more than I ever let her know. Together they touched the lives of a community for 63 years until he passed into eternity. She missed him every day and longed for the day they would reunite and continue to see their legacy play out. Well, on December 30, 2012, he came calling again and asked for her hand. She obliged and, knowing she had given us all the tools we needed, passed from this world into her home and into the hearts and minds of us she leaves here. Helen Rose Steinbrener, you are one amazing lady. Your spirit and love of family and life will stick with me for as long as I live. As long as you and grandpa are looking down on me, I pray you guide me in the path of right, inspire me in the ways of old, and ease my anxieties about the future. I love you.
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Day 193:
What a rush of a holiday season. Time flew by between end of the year work deadlines, training and certifications, family and extended family gatherings, and then a funeral. I know this is a quit site and the topic usually centers on that but I would like to take a moment to honor the soul of a remarkable and simple lady, my grandmother.
Born today, January 4, 1921 and born into eternal life yesterday, January 3, 2013. A child born into poverty, dropped out of school to work at a factory to support an ill mother and her siblings. The youngest of 5 children, she maintained that role and honored her family until she met my grandfather. A man of similar circumstances, he dropped out of school at the age of 9 to manually haul steel for a company he would dedicate 56 years of his life to. She met him and they wed in 1944. They raised 4 daughters, put them all through college on an income of one. She taught them how to be ladies, how to honor your husband and family, and, above all, how to remain faithful and diligent to your faith. She remained steadfast and strong through trials and tribulations. She influenced me more than I ever let her know. Together they touched the lives of a community for 63 years until he passed into eternity. She missed him every day and longed for the day they would reunite and continue to see their legacy play out. Well, on December 30, 2012, he came calling again and asked for her hand. She obliged and, knowing she had given us all the tools we needed, passed from this world into her home and into the hearts and minds of us she leaves here. Helen Rose Steinbrener, you are one amazing lady. Your spirit and love of family and life will stick with me for as long as I live. As long as you and grandpa are looking down on me, I pray you guide me in the path of right, inspire me in the ways of old, and ease my anxieties about the future. I love you.
Very nice tribute. I can tell that the world lost some goodness, but not much because their blood and goodness flow through your veins. Love your heritage and honor the name you were blessed to have. Your Grandparents look upon you and know you are ready, willing and will not tire or fail to carry the family torch honorably. I feel like I know you better from understanding your Grandparents.
I think this post is very appropriate because my quit is stronger from reading. I know that I want to be honorable and stand up for good. Quitting nicotine is good and we can pass that on to our children.
Quit with you yesterday, today and for life Eric.
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Day 193:
What a rush of a holiday season. Time flew by between end of the year work deadlines, training and certifications, family and extended family gatherings, and then a funeral. I know this is a quit site and the topic usually centers on that but I would like to take a moment to honor the soul of a remarkable and simple lady, my grandmother.
Born today, January 4, 1921 and born into eternal life yesterday, January 3, 2013. A child born into poverty, dropped out of school to work at a factory to support an ill mother and her siblings. The youngest of 5 children, she maintained that role and honored her family until she met my grandfather. A man of similar circumstances, he dropped out of school at the age of 9 to manually haul steel for a company he would dedicate 56 years of his life to. She met him and they wed in 1944. They raised 4 daughters, put them all through college on an income of one. She taught them how to be ladies, how to honor your husband and family, and, above all, how to remain faithful and diligent to your faith. She remained steadfast and strong through trials and tribulations. She influenced me more than I ever let her know. Together they touched the lives of a community for 63 years until he passed into eternity. She missed him every day and longed for the day they would reunite and continue to see their legacy play out. Well, on December 30, 2012, he came calling again and asked for her hand. She obliged and, knowing she had given us all the tools we needed, passed from this world into her home and into the hearts and minds of us she leaves here. Helen Rose Steinbrener, you are one amazing lady. Your spirit and love of family and life will stick with me for as long as I live. As long as you and grandpa are looking down on me, I pray you guide me in the path of right, inspire me in the ways of old, and ease my anxieties about the future. I love you.
Very nice tribute. I can tell that the world lost some goodness, but not much because their blood and goodness flow through your veins. Love your heritage and honor the name you were blessed to have. Your Grandparents look upon you and know you are ready, willing and will not tire or fail to carry the family torch honorably. I feel like I know you better from understanding your Grandparents.
I think this post is very appropriate because my quit is stronger from reading. I know that I want to be honorable and stand up for good. Quitting nicotine is good and we can pass that on to our children.
Quit with you yesterday, today and for life Eric.
Well said Eric, she sounds like a phenomenal woman of character and virtue. Prayers for the family and for your grandmother who now rests with her eternal Father. God bless.
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Day 193:
What a rush of a holiday season. Time flew by between end of the year work deadlines, training and certifications, family and extended family gatherings, and then a funeral. I know this is a quit site and the topic usually centers on that but I would like to take a moment to honor the soul of a remarkable and simple lady, my grandmother.
Born today, January 4, 1921 and born into eternal life yesterday, January 3, 2013. A child born into poverty, dropped out of school to work at a factory to support an ill mother and her siblings. The youngest of 5 children, she maintained that role and honored her family until she met my grandfather. A man of similar circumstances, he dropped out of school at the age of 9 to manually haul steel for a company he would dedicate 56 years of his life to. She met him and they wed in 1944. They raised 4 daughters, put them all through college on an income of one. She taught them how to be ladies, how to honor your husband and family, and, above all, how to remain faithful and diligent to your faith. She remained steadfast and strong through trials and tribulations. She influenced me more than I ever let her know. Together they touched the lives of a community for 63 years until he passed into eternity. She missed him every day and longed for the day they would reunite and continue to see their legacy play out. Well, on December 30, 2012, he came calling again and asked for her hand. She obliged and, knowing she had given us all the tools we needed, passed from this world into her home and into the hearts and minds of us she leaves here. Helen Rose Steinbrener, you are one amazing lady. Your spirit and love of family and life will stick with me for as long as I live. As long as you and grandpa are looking down on me, I pray you guide me in the path of right, inspire me in the ways of old, and ease my anxieties about the future. I love you.
Very nice tribute. I can tell that the world lost some goodness, but not much because their blood and goodness flow through your veins. Love your heritage and honor the name you were blessed to have. Your Grandparents look upon you and know you are ready, willing and will not tire or fail to carry the family torch honorably. I feel like I know you better from understanding your Grandparents.
I think this post is very appropriate because my quit is stronger from reading. I know that I want to be honorable and stand up for good. Quitting nicotine is good and we can pass that on to our children.
Quit with you yesterday, today and for life Eric.
Well said Eric, she sounds like a phenomenal woman of character and virtue. Prayers for the family and for your grandmother who now rests with her eternal Father. God bless.
Very nice tribute brother very sorry for your loss.
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Day 193:
What a rush of a holiday season. Time flew by between end of the year work deadlines, training and certifications, family and extended family gatherings, and then a funeral. I know this is a quit site and the topic usually centers on that but I would like to take a moment to honor the soul of a remarkable and simple lady, my grandmother.
Born today, January 4, 1921 and born into eternal life yesterday, January 3, 2013. A child born into poverty, dropped out of school to work at a factory to support an ill mother and her siblings. The youngest of 5 children, she maintained that role and honored her family until she met my grandfather. A man of similar circumstances, he dropped out of school at the age of 9 to manually haul steel for a company he would dedicate 56 years of his life to. She met him and they wed in 1944. They raised 4 daughters, put them all through college on an income of one. She taught them how to be ladies, how to honor your husband and family, and, above all, how to remain faithful and diligent to your faith. She remained steadfast and strong through trials and tribulations. She influenced me more than I ever let her know. Together they touched the lives of a community for 63 years until he passed into eternity. She missed him every day and longed for the day they would reunite and continue to see their legacy play out. Well, on December 30, 2012, he came calling again and asked for her hand. She obliged and, knowing she had given us all the tools we needed, passed from this world into her home and into the hearts and minds of us she leaves here. Helen Rose Steinbrener, you are one amazing lady. Your spirit and love of family and life will stick with me for as long as I live. As long as you and grandpa are looking down on me, I pray you guide me in the path of right, inspire me in the ways of old, and ease my anxieties about the future. I love you.
Very nice tribute. I can tell that the world lost some goodness, but not much because their blood and goodness flow through your veins. Love your heritage and honor the name you were blessed to have. Your Grandparents look upon you and know you are ready, willing and will not tire or fail to carry the family torch honorably. I feel like I know you better from understanding your Grandparents.
I think this post is very appropriate because my quit is stronger from reading. I know that I want to be honorable and stand up for good. Quitting nicotine is good and we can pass that on to our children.
Quit with you yesterday, today and for life Eric.
Well said Eric, she sounds like a phenomenal woman of character and virtue. Prayers for the family and for your grandmother who now rests with her eternal Father. God bless.
Very nice tribute brother very sorry for your loss.
Eric - I'm sorry for your loss too, it sounds like you've lost a hell of a lady and teacher.
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Day 200:
To say the last hundred days went fast would be an understatement. Numerous events in my life all contributed to it flying by ever so quickly. To compound that, the holidays and Christmas season are always frantic times at our house. To be here today, at day 200 quit, and to have gone through the holidays, I can honestly say that the best time to be quit is during that time of year. There is so much to see, do, and be part of. How much did I miss in years past when I would disconnect and go to the can and spitter. What a fucking waste of some of the most precious moments in life. How many times in the past did I choose an addiction over family and friends.
New quitters and veterans alike, we cannot become complacent in our quits. We cannot allow all the luster and shine to wear off. We cannot take for granted these new memories we have the opportunity to create with family and friends because we are not chained to nicotine. We have to take up our badge of quit everyday, be ever mindful of the lies, deception, and false highs it would give us. Do we have to dwell upon it, absolutely not. Just don't forget where you came from.
I am proud to be a member of this community and hope that we grow in numbers like the population of China. It would mean that the awareness and knowledge of the death nicotine brings is being heard and that we are leading the charge.
Happy Fucking Quit Day to you all!
QLAFM
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That is some great reflection right there Eric. Thanks for posting it up and congrats on 200!
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Day 240:
I just as recently as Monday night had a fake chew. Long story short, it was a stressful day that culminated in a high stress, lengthy meeting with clients. After the meeting I had an unbelievable crave. I have always kept some fake for these moments. Is it a huge victory that I didn't cave? No, I think at this point I should be further along. Is it a victory at all that I didn't? Sure, any day and any situation that I used to have cancer in my body that I don't now is a victory. These are all tools we use to keep us quit. Every day does not have to be a gold medal day. It just has to be a day where we get up, compete and give our best and stay true to our goal. As long as we are doing that and can look ourselves in the mirror at the end of the day, I think we are good.
QLAFM
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Day 240:
I just as recently as Monday night had a fake chew. Long story short, it was a stressful day that culminated in a high stress, lengthy meeting with clients. After the meeting I had an unbelievable crave. I have always kept some fake for these moments. Is it a huge victory that I didn't cave? No, I think at this point I should be further along. Is it a victory at all that I didn't? Sure, any day and any situation that I used to have cancer in my body that I don't now is a victory. These are all tools we use to keep us quit. Every day does not have to be a gold medal day. It just has to be a day where we get up, compete and give our best and stay true to our goal. As long as we are doing that and can look ourselves in the mirror at the end of the day, I think we are good.
QLAFM
Nice work brother I always keep some fake just for that exact reason and anytime you beat back the crave can and should be a victory!
I know what you mean about thinking your further along and that should not be as bad but remember how long you were a slave to the can....... 240 days is awesome but not when compared to how long you were nic's bitch.
I say keep doing what your doing and never worry about using the fake stuff your still in mind retrainfromnotusingnicotene mode!
Quit on Quiter!
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Day 240:
I just as recently as Monday night had a fake chew. Long story short, it was a stressful day that culminated in a high stress, lengthy meeting with clients. After the meeting I had an unbelievable crave. I have always kept some fake for these moments. Is it a huge victory that I didn't cave? No, I think at this point I should be further along. Is it a victory at all that I didn't? Sure, any day and any situation that I used to have cancer in my body that I don't now is a victory. These are all tools we use to keep us quit. Every day does not have to be a gold medal day. It just has to be a day where we get up, compete and give our best and stay true to our goal. As long as we are doing that and can look ourselves in the mirror at the end of the day, I think we are good.
QLAFM
Nice work brother I always keep some fake just for that exact reason and anytime you beat back the crave can and should be a victory!
I know what you mean about thinking your further along and that should not be as bad but remember how long you were a slave to the can....... 240 days is awesome but not when compared to how long you were nic's bitch.
I say keep doing what your doing and never worry about using the fake stuff your still in mind retrainfromnotusingnicotene mode!
Quit on Quiter!
Nice post. I've never used fake at all. Just wanted to get away from the whole deal, but I believe every quit is different. This is a good illustration of that.
I agree with you 100%. No nicotine = winning. That is the bottom line, and the tools used to get there should not be criticized. Glad to be quit with you today.
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Day 240:
I just as recently as Monday night had a fake chew. Long story short, it was a stressful day that culminated in a high stress, lengthy meeting with clients. After the meeting I had an unbelievable crave. I have always kept some fake for these moments. Is it a huge victory that I didn't cave? No, I think at this point I should be further along. Is it a victory at all that I didn't? Sure, any day and any situation that I used to have cancer in my body that I don't now is a victory. These are all tools we use to keep us quit. Every day does not have to be a gold medal day. It just has to be a day where we get up, compete and give our best and stay true to our goal. As long as we are doing that and can look ourselves in the mirror at the end of the day, I think we are good.
QLAFM
Nice work brother I always keep some fake just for that exact reason and anytime you beat back the crave can and should be a victory!
I know what you mean about thinking your further along and that should not be as bad but remember how long you were a slave to the can....... 240 days is awesome but not when compared to how long you were nic's bitch.
I say keep doing what your doing and never worry about using the fake stuff your still in mind retrainfromnotusingnicotene mode!
Quit on Quiter!
Nice post. I've never used fake at all. Just wanted to get away from the whole deal, but I believe every quit is different. This is a good illustration of that.
I agree with you 100%. No nicotine = winning. That is the bottom line, and the tools used to get there should not be criticized. Glad to be quit with you today.
Nice bud, use the tools we learned here. Been in very similar situations and have turned to the same result as you.
Proud of you my quit brother. All hail an October 12 madmen
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Day 240:
I just as recently as Monday night had a fake chew. Long story short, it was a stressful day that culminated in a high stress, lengthy meeting with clients. After the meeting I had an unbelievable crave. I have always kept some fake for these moments. Is it a huge victory that I didn't cave? No, I think at this point I should be further along. Is it a victory at all that I didn't? Sure, any day and any situation that I used to have cancer in my body that I don't now is a victory. These are all tools we use to keep us quit. Every day does not have to be a gold medal day. It just has to be a day where we get up, compete and give our best and stay true to our goal. As long as we are doing that and can look ourselves in the mirror at the end of the day, I think we are good.
QLAFM
Nice work brother I always keep some fake just for that exact reason and anytime you beat back the crave can and should be a victory!
I know what you mean about thinking your further along and that should not be as bad but remember how long you were a slave to the can....... 240 days is awesome but not when compared to how long you were nic's bitch.
I say keep doing what your doing and never worry about using the fake stuff your still in mind retrainfromnotusingnicotene mode!
Quit on Quiter!
Nice post. I've never used fake at all. Just wanted to get away from the whole deal, but I believe every quit is different. This is a good illustration of that.
I agree with you 100%. No nicotine = winning. That is the bottom line, and the tools used to get there should not be criticized. Glad to be quit with you today.
Nice bud, use the tools we learned here. Been in very similar situations and have turned to the same result as you.
Proud of you my quit brother. All hail an October 12 madmen
Whatever it takes brother.....NICE JOB!
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Day 268:
Get a message from a quit brother asking me how I've been and if all is well. That is the kind of support we find here. That is why we emphasize the need to get digits, contacts, names, etc.
All is fucking rosy here, just busy as fuck with life and new adventures now that nicotine is not in the way. Way more time to concentrate on the real, tangible relationships and events that make life worthwhile.
My quit is black and white. All this bullshit I've seen lately about supposed "quitters" having regret and caving...Are you fucking kidding me? You want to cave? It must not have been that bad getting past the first 3 days. For me, that was fucking brutal, hence the tagline of my story. I refuse to go back to a time of my life that sorely needed a wake up call. Just like night and day fellas, your quit HAS to be BLACK AND WHITE!
Man up, grab your sack to see if you still have the balls to quit and stay that way. If you do, I want to fucking hear it.
Who is with me?
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Day 9 - Im with ya bro... I dont ever wanna relive those first three days, and anyone who caves will eventually try again...dumb fucks!!!
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Day 21 I am all in. I still get afternoon fog so bad, I want to eat my arm off, no way I want to do this shit again.
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Day 21 I am all in. I still get afternoon fog so bad, I want to eat my arm off, no way I want to do this shit again.
Really, 6 hours later and I get 2 newbies as the only ones beside myself with a sack of quit big enough to grab hold of and say, "Fuck yeah, I'm quit! Now bring the bitch on and let's settle this once and for all!"
CleanFuel, MThomas, Jag, Wastepanel, Sir D, Kstamp, Taz, Coach Steve, TJ81, I'm calling you out! Give me some quit juice, I need a refill!
QLAFM
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Day 21 I am all in. I still get afternoon fog so bad, I want to eat my arm off, no way I want to do this shit again.
Really, 6 hours later and I get 2 newbies as the only ones beside myself with a sack of quit big enough to grab hold of and say, "Fuck yeah, I'm quit! Now bring the bitch on and let's settle this once and for all!"
CleanFuel, MThomas, Jag, Wastepanel, Sir D, Kstamp, Taz, Coach Steve, TJ81, I'm calling you out! Give me some quit juice, I need a refill!
QLAFM
Day 630, and I'm
(1) Quit (Thank you.)
(2) Proud of you (Thank you. Makes my quit stronger.)
(3) Horny. (This doesn't have shit to do with you.)
Keep up the great work man.
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Day 21 I am all in. I still get afternoon fog so bad, I want to eat my arm off, no way I want to do this shit again.
Really, 6 hours later and I get 2 newbies as the only ones beside myself with a sack of quit big enough to grab hold of and say, "Fuck yeah, I'm quit! Now bring the bitch on and let's settle this once and for all!"
CleanFuel, MThomas, Jag, Wastepanel, Sir D, Kstamp, Taz, Coach Steve, TJ81, I'm calling you out! Give me some quit juice, I need a refill!
QLAFM
oh this Rocktober Madman is right here shoulder to shoulder with you.
Even in the 250s last week that nic bitch was hanging around and you all came to me. Well I can say that she was thrown overboard, left in the past with a shit-stain across her face.
The strength increases as we build that bond here at KTC.
And I have my armor on, it is no longer shiny as it once was, but is battered and worn, but is as strong as ever and ready to continue this fight with you.
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Day 21 I am all in. I still get afternoon fog so bad, I want to eat my arm off, no way I want to do this shit again.
Really, 6 hours later and I get 2 newbies as the only ones beside myself with a sack of quit big enough to grab hold of and say, "Fuck yeah, I'm quit! Now bring the bitch on and let's settle this once and for all!"
CleanFuel, MThomas, Jag, Wastepanel, Sir D, Kstamp, Taz, Coach Steve, TJ81, I'm calling you out! Give me some quit juice, I need a refill!
QLAFM
oh this Rocktober Madman is right here shoulder to shoulder with you.
Even in the 250s last week that nic bitch was hanging around and you all came to me. Well I can say that she was thrown overboard, left in the past with a shit-stain across her face.
The strength increases as we build that bond here at KTC.
And I have my armor on, it is no longer shiny as it once was, but is battered and worn, but is as strong as ever and ready to continue this fight with you.
sick as shit and just plain beat, wore out. Still better than 244 days ago because I'm quit today. Nothing's greener over there - that's why we all went through hell to make it to this side of the fence...
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Day 268:
Get a message from a quit brother asking me how I've been and if all is well. That is the kind of support we find here. That is why we emphasize the need to get digits, contacts, names, etc.
All is fucking rosy here, just busy as fuck with life and new adventures now that nicotine is not in the way. Way more time to concentrate on the real, tangible relationships and events that make life worthwhile.
My quit is black and white. All this bullshit I've seen lately about supposed "quitters" having regret and caving...Are you fucking kidding me? You want to cave? It must not have been that bad getting past the first 3 days. For me, that was fucking brutal, hence the tagline of my story. I refuse to go back to a time of my life that sorely needed a wake up call. Just like night and day fellas, your quit HAS to be BLACK AND WHITE!
Man up, grab your sack to see if you still have the balls to quit and stay that way. If you do, I want to fucking hear it.
Who is with me?
I'm with you. Just the other day i added to my intro about these guys who still have fondness for the bitch need to dig in and get EXCITED again. No more moaping.
I'm with you every day of the week and twice on Sunday. Hell...I'm with every man, woman or he/she on this site!!!!!
Quit On!
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Day 289:
It is my honor to quit everyday with all of you.
"No one left behind" It is my creed and the way I live my life.
QLAFM, it's what October 2012 is all about.
Quit Like a Fucking Madman... don't lose the hate for what that bitch robbed you of.
Don't forget how she had you hiding and wallowing in your own slow death for years on end.
Don't forget the memories you couldn't make with your family and friends because you were busy stuffing you lip with her ration of death.
Don't forget those we have already lost to her, and don't let yourself or any of your quit family be next.
I am here and always will be, just look for me.
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Day 289:
It is my honor to quit everyday with all of you.
"No one left behind" It is my creed and the way I live my life.
QLAFM, it's what October 2012 is all about.
Quit Like a Fucking Madman... don't lose the hate for what that bitch robbed you of.
Don't forget how she had you hiding and wallowing in your own slow death for years on end.
Don't forget the memories you couldn't make with your family and friends because you were busy stuffing you lip with her ration of death.
Don't forget those we have already lost to her, and don't let yourself or any of your quit family be next.
I am here and always will be, just look for me.
It's a pleasure to quit with you Eric, glad to be quit with you bro.
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Been sitting here letting this sink in there Eric, and hope that any of the newer guys to the quit really read this and see what you are saying.
1 - Quit is something to be internalized, this is for one's self and no one else"It is my honor to quit everyday with all of you.
"No one left behind" It is my creed and the way I live my life."
2 - Quit is a part of this site, in your groups and the Brotherhood of KTC that can help you
QLAFM, it's what October 2012 is all about.
Quit Like a Fucking Madman
3 - Quit is the Accountability here at KTCI am here and always will be, just look for me.
This is one Successful, badass quitter that I am proud to stand side by side with
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Day 289:
It is my honor to quit everyday with all of you.
"No one left behind"Â It is my creed and the way I live my life.
QLAFM, it's what October 2012 is all about.
Quit Like a Fucking Madman... don't lose the hate for what that bitch robbed you of.
Don't forget how she had you hiding and wallowing in your own slow death for years on end.
Don't forget the memories you couldn't make with your family and friends because you were busy stuffing you lip with her ration of death.Â
Don't forget those we have already lost to her, and don't let yourself or any of your quit family be next.
I am here and always will be, just look for me.
It's a pleasure to quit with you Eric, glad to be quit with you bro.
QLAFM w/ E71!!!!
Love this...BOOOM
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Day 298:
Adapted from a thread by my quit brother CleanFuel:
"I just learn from the best, you know, the ones who have gone before me and are still here posting roll and willing to help a newbie along. If you are quit, reading this, and are more than 298 days quit, then I'm talking about you. And if I've never thanked you for it, consider yourself thanked because in some way, shape, or form, each one of you has helped me stay quit and committed to following a simple edict:
Wake, post roll, repeat, every flippin' day!
The only way to improve your life is to set goals and develop a plan for achieving said goal. KTC has gone and developed the plan for you, all you have to do is have the goal of quitting.
I have never gained so much in my life by quitting!"
QLAFM
It's the weekend fellas, never a bad time to pick up a new contact #
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Day 298:
Adapted from a thread by my quit brother CleanFuel:
"I just learn from the best, you know, the ones who have gone before me and are still here posting roll and willing to help a newbie along. If you are quit, reading this, and are more than 298 days quit, then I'm talking about you. And if I've never thanked you for it, consider yourself thanked because in some way, shape, or form, each one of you has helped me stay quit and committed to following a simple edict:
Wake, post roll, repeat, every flippin' day!
The only way to improve your life is to set goals and develop a plan for achieving said goal. KTC has gone and developed the plan for you, all you have to do is have the goal of quitting.
I have never gained so much in my life by quitting!"
QLAFM
It's the weekend fellas, never a bad time to pick up a new contact #
I'll quit with YOU Eric any day that ends with a "y".
You're a RockStar of Quit!!!
ODAAT and NAFAR
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Day 365:
How does a year feel? Hard to quantify it I must say. It's not like having a new child, wife, job, or car. It is more like a brief pat on the back to having completed my apprenticeship. It's a nice feeling and I am proud of the fact that this is the longest I have quit my addiction. This is still uncharted water. I am not out of the woods yet. Any newbie or veteran alike that thinks reaching the HOF or a half comma or whatever point you're at is reason enough to slack the reigns is a fucking fool!
Don't you get it? Pride and a sense of accomplishment, if not held in check, can be the absolute biggest obstacle in you staying quit. Just get a little satisfied about where you're at in your quit and see if that bitch doesn't start whispering your name. Afterall, you've been quit for x number of days. You got this, you can handle this, right?
Wrong, fucking dead wrong! You and I are just as much addicts today as we were when we started this journey. There is no fucking magic destination marker that erases the addictive tendencies from our brains. It's who we are, addicts!
The key is to become addicted to life gentlemen! Get involved in your life! When we become selfless, we become so much more. That is why this site works. People you may never meet invest themselves in you. They invest themselves in the marriages, the lives of their significant other, their children, their career, their new found hobby. You get the idea. Use your tendency to become addicted to being a better you. And don't walk away from this site, ever!
I'll hunt your ass down, make you submit, and keep your addict ass quit! There is no room in our lives for half-assing anything! Be who you are supposed to be and take up the fight right here, right now with me!
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Day 365:
How does a year feel? Hard to quantify it I must say. It's not like having a new child, wife, job, or car. It is more like a brief pat on the back to having completed my apprenticeship. It's a nice feeling and I am proud of the fact that this is the longest I have quit my addiction. This is still uncharted water. I am not out of the woods yet. Any newbie or veteran alike that thinks reaching the HOF or a half comma or whatever point you're at is reason enough to slack the reigns is a fucking fool!
Don't you get it? Pride and a sense of accomplishment, if not held in check, can be the absolute biggest obstacle in you staying quit. Just get a little satisfied about where you're at in your quit and see if that bitch doesn't start whispering your name. Afterall, you've been quit for x number of days. You got this, you can handle this, right?
Wrong, fucking dead wrong! You and I are just as much addicts today as we were when we started this journey. There is no fucking magic destination marker that erases the addictive tendencies from our brains. It's who we are, addicts!
The key is to become addicted to life gentlemen! Get involved in your life! When we become selfless, we become so much more. That is why this site works. People you may never meet invest themselves in you. They invest themselves in the marriages, the lives of their significant other, their children, their career, their new found hobby. You get the idea. Use your tendency to become addicted to being a better you. And don't walk away from this site, ever!
I'll hunt your ass down, make you submit, and keep your addict ass quit! There is no room in our lives for half-assing anything! Be who you are supposed to be and take up the fight right here, right now with me!
nothing else to say than 'worship'
poud to call you my brother and true madman. QLAFM
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Day 365:
How does a year feel? Hard to quantify it I must say. It's not like having a new child, wife, job, or car. It is more like a brief pat on the back to having completed my apprenticeship. It's a nice feeling and I am proud of the fact that this is the longest I have quit my addiction. This is still uncharted water. I am not out of the woods yet. Any newbie or veteran alike that thinks reaching the HOF or a half comma or whatever point you're at is reason enough to slack the reigns is a fucking fool!
Don't you get it? Pride and a sense of accomplishment, if not held in check, can be the absolute biggest obstacle in you staying quit. Just get a little satisfied about where you're at in your quit and see if that bitch doesn't start whispering your name. Afterall, you've been quit for x number of days. You got this, you can handle this, right?
Wrong, fucking dead wrong! You and I are just as much addicts today as we were when we started this journey. There is no fucking magic destination marker that erases the addictive tendencies from our brains. It's who we are, addicts!
The key is to become addicted to life gentlemen! Get involved in your life! When we become selfless, we become so much more. That is why this site works. People you may never meet invest themselves in you. They invest themselves in the marriages, the lives of their significant other, their children, their career, their new found hobby. You get the idea. Use your tendency to become addicted to being a better you. And don't walk away from this site, ever!
I'll hunt your ass down, make you submit, and keep your addict ass quit! There is no room in our lives for half-assing anything! Be who you are supposed to be and take up the fight right here, right now with me!
Thank you eric. As always you add a little more wisdom to this half redneck.
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Day 365:
How does a year feel? Hard to quantify it I must say. It's not like having a new child, wife, job, or car. It is more like a brief pat on the back to having completed my apprenticeship. It's a nice feeling and I am proud of the fact that this is the longest I have quit my addiction. This is still uncharted water. I am not out of the woods yet. Any newbie or veteran alike that thinks reaching the HOF or a half comma or whatever point you're at is reason enough to slack the reigns is a fucking fool!
Don't you get it? Pride and a sense of accomplishment, if not held in check, can be the absolute biggest obstacle in you staying quit. Just get a little satisfied about where you're at in your quit and see if that bitch doesn't start whispering your name. Afterall, you've been quit for x number of days. You got this, you can handle this, right?Â
Wrong, fucking dead wrong! You and I are just as much addicts today as we were when we started this journey. There is no fucking magic destination marker that erases the addictive tendencies from our brains. It's who we are, addicts!Â
The key is to become addicted to life gentlemen! Get involved in your life! When we become selfless, we become so much more. That is why this site works. People you may never meet invest themselves in you. They invest themselves in the marriages, the lives of their significant other, their children, their career, their new found hobby. You get the idea. Use your tendency to become addicted to being a better you. And don't walk away from this site, ever!
I'll hunt your ass down, make you submit, and keep your addict ass quit! There is no room in our lives for half-assing anything! Be who you are supposed to be and take up the fight right here, right now with me!
Thank you eric. As always you add a little more wisdom to this half redneck.
Congratulations Brother! Proud of you, and proud to have stood side by side for the past year! QLAFM
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Day 365:
How does a year feel? Hard to quantify it I must say. It's not like having a new child, wife, job, or car. It is more like a brief pat on the back to having completed my apprenticeship. It's a nice feeling and I am proud of the fact that this is the longest I have quit my addiction. This is still uncharted water. I am not out of the woods yet. Any newbie or veteran alike that thinks reaching the HOF or a half comma or whatever point you're at is reason enough to slack the reigns is a fucking fool!
Don't you get it? Pride and a sense of accomplishment, if not held in check, can be the absolute biggest obstacle in you staying quit. Just get a little satisfied about where you're at in your quit and see if that bitch doesn't start whispering your name. Afterall, you've been quit for x number of days. You got this, you can handle this, right?
Wrong, fucking dead wrong! You and I are just as much addicts today as we were when we started this journey. There is no fucking magic destination marker that erases the addictive tendencies from our brains. It's who we are, addicts!
The key is to become addicted to life gentlemen! Get involved in your life! When we become selfless, we become so much more. That is why this site works. People you may never meet invest themselves in you. They invest themselves in the marriages, the lives of their significant other, their children, their career, their new found hobby. You get the idea. Use your tendency to become addicted to being a better you. And don't walk away from this site, ever!
I'll hunt your ass down, make you submit, and keep your addict ass quit! There is no room in our lives for half-assing anything! Be who you are supposed to be and take up the fight right here, right now with me!
Congrats. One full year of doing this to da nic monster, feels good don't it?
'tough'
'Cheers' 'Cheers' 'wave' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'tanks' 'tanks' 'tanks' :Winner: :Winner: :Winner:
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Day 365:
How does a year feel? Hard to quantify it I must say. It's not like having a new child, wife, job, or car. It is more like a brief pat on the back to having completed my apprenticeship. It's a nice feeling and I am proud of the fact that this is the longest I have quit my addiction. This is still uncharted water. I am not out of the woods yet. Any newbie or veteran alike that thinks reaching the HOF or a half comma or whatever point you're at is reason enough to slack the reigns is a fucking fool!
Don't you get it? Pride and a sense of accomplishment, if not held in check, can be the absolute biggest obstacle in you staying quit. Just get a little satisfied about where you're at in your quit and see if that bitch doesn't start whispering your name. Afterall, you've been quit for x number of days. You got this, you can handle this, right?Â
Wrong, fucking dead wrong! You and I are just as much addicts today as we were when we started this journey. There is no fucking magic destination marker that erases the addictive tendencies from our brains. It's who we are, addicts!Â
The key is to become addicted to life gentlemen! Get involved in your life! When we become selfless, we become so much more. That is why this site works. People you may never meet invest themselves in you. They invest themselves in the marriages, the lives of their significant other, their children, their career, their new found hobby. You get the idea. Use your tendency to become addicted to being a better you. And don't walk away from this site, ever!
I'll hunt your ass down, make you submit, and keep your addict ass quit! There is no room in our lives for half-assing anything! Be who you are supposed to be and take up the fight right here, right now with me!
Congrats. One full year of doing this to da nic monster, feels good don't it?
'tough'
'Cheers' 'Cheers' 'wave' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'tanks' 'tanks' 'tanks' :Winner: :Winner: :Winner:
What he said. Congrats. It feels good doesn't it?
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Day 365:
How does a year feel? Hard to quantify it I must say. It's not like having a new child, wife, job, or car. It is more like a brief pat on the back to having completed my apprenticeship. It's a nice feeling and I am proud of the fact that this is the longest I have quit my addiction. This is still uncharted water. I am not out of the woods yet. Any newbie or veteran alike that thinks reaching the HOF or a half comma or whatever point you're at is reason enough to slack the reigns is a fucking fool!
Don't you get it? Pride and a sense of accomplishment, if not held in check, can be the absolute biggest obstacle in you staying quit. Just get a little satisfied about where you're at in your quit and see if that bitch doesn't start whispering your name. Afterall, you've been quit for x number of days. You got this, you can handle this, right?Â
Wrong, fucking dead wrong! You and I are just as much addicts today as we were when we started this journey. There is no fucking magic destination marker that erases the addictive tendencies from our brains. It's who we are, addicts!Â
The key is to become addicted to life gentlemen! Get involved in your life! When we become selfless, we become so much more. That is why this site works. People you may never meet invest themselves in you. They invest themselves in the marriages, the lives of their significant other, their children, their career, their new found hobby. You get the idea. Use your tendency to become addicted to being a better you. And don't walk away from this site, ever!
I'll hunt your ass down, make you submit, and keep your addict ass quit! There is no room in our lives for half-assing anything! Be who you are supposed to be and take up the fight right here, right now with me!
Congrats. One full year of doing this to da nic monster, feels good don't it?
'tough'
'Cheers' 'Cheers' 'wave' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'tanks' 'tanks' 'tanks' :Winner: :Winner: :Winner:
What he said. Congrats. It feels good doesn't it?
You my friend, are a quit badass!! Proud to quit with you!
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Day 365:
How does a year feel? Hard to quantify it I must say. It's not like having a new child, wife, job, or car. It is more like a brief pat on the back to having completed my apprenticeship. It's a nice feeling and I am proud of the fact that this is the longest I have quit my addiction. This is still uncharted water. I am not out of the woods yet. Any newbie or veteran alike that thinks reaching the HOF or a half comma or whatever point you're at is reason enough to slack the reigns is a fucking fool!
Don't you get it? Pride and a sense of accomplishment, if not held in check, can be the absolute biggest obstacle in you staying quit. Just get a little satisfied about where you're at in your quit and see if that bitch doesn't start whispering your name. Afterall, you've been quit for x number of days. You got this, you can handle this, right?Â
Wrong, fucking dead wrong! You and I are just as much addicts today as we were when we started this journey. There is no fucking magic destination marker that erases the addictive tendencies from our brains. It's who we are, addicts!Â
The key is to become addicted to life gentlemen! Get involved in your life! When we become selfless, we become so much more. That is why this site works. People you may never meet invest themselves in you. They invest themselves in the marriages, the lives of their significant other, their children, their career, their new found hobby. You get the idea. Use your tendency to become addicted to being a better you. And don't walk away from this site, ever!
I'll hunt your ass down, make you submit, and keep your addict ass quit! There is no room in our lives for half-assing anything! Be who you are supposed to be and take up the fight right here, right now with me!
Congrats. One full year of doing this to da nic monster, feels good don't it?
'tough'
'Cheers' 'Cheers' 'wave' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'tanks' 'tanks' 'tanks' :Winner: :Winner: :Winner:
What he said. Congrats. It feels good doesn't it?
You my friend, are a quit badass!! Proud to quit with you!
Congratulations Eric! Good information
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Day 365:
How does a year feel? Hard to quantify it I must say. It's not like having a new child, wife, job, or car. It is more like a brief pat on the back to having completed my apprenticeship. It's a nice feeling and I am proud of the fact that this is the longest I have quit my addiction. This is still uncharted water. I am not out of the woods yet. Any newbie or veteran alike that thinks reaching the HOF or a half comma or whatever point you're at is reason enough to slack the reigns is a fucking fool!
Don't you get it? Pride and a sense of accomplishment, if not held in check, can be the absolute biggest obstacle in you staying quit. Just get a little satisfied about where you're at in your quit and see if that bitch doesn't start whispering your name. Afterall, you've been quit for x number of days. You got this, you can handle this, right?Â
Wrong, fucking dead wrong! You and I are just as much addicts today as we were when we started this journey. There is no fucking magic destination marker that erases the addictive tendencies from our brains. It's who we are, addicts!Â
The key is to become addicted to life gentlemen! Get involved in your life! When we become selfless, we become so much more. That is why this site works. People you may never meet invest themselves in you. They invest themselves in the marriages, the lives of their significant other, their children, their career, their new found hobby. You get the idea. Use your tendency to become addicted to being a better you. And don't walk away from this site, ever!
I'll hunt your ass down, make you submit, and keep your addict ass quit! There is no room in our lives for half-assing anything! Be who you are supposed to be and take up the fight right here, right now with me!
Congrats. One full year of doing this to da nic monster, feels good don't it?
'tough'
'Cheers' 'Cheers' 'wave' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'tanks' 'tanks' 'tanks' :Winner: :Winner: :Winner:
What he said. Congrats. It feels good doesn't it?
You my friend, are a quit badass!! Proud to quit with you!
Congratulations Eric! Good information
congrats eric
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Day 365:
How does a year feel? Hard to quantify it I must say. It's not like having a new child, wife, job, or car. It is more like a brief pat on the back to having completed my apprenticeship. It's a nice feeling and I am proud of the fact that this is the longest I have quit my addiction. This is still uncharted water. I am not out of the woods yet. Any newbie or veteran alike that thinks reaching the HOF or a half comma or whatever point you're at is reason enough to slack the reigns is a fucking fool!
Don't you get it? Pride and a sense of accomplishment, if not held in check, can be the absolute biggest obstacle in you staying quit. Just get a little satisfied about where you're at in your quit and see if that bitch doesn't start whispering your name. Afterall, you've been quit for x number of days. You got this, you can handle this, right?Â
Wrong, fucking dead wrong! You and I are just as much addicts today as we were when we started this journey. There is no fucking magic destination marker that erases the addictive tendencies from our brains. It's who we are, addicts!Â
The key is to become addicted to life gentlemen! Get involved in your life! When we become selfless, we become so much more. That is why this site works. People you may never meet invest themselves in you. They invest themselves in the marriages, the lives of their significant other, their children, their career, their new found hobby. You get the idea. Use your tendency to become addicted to being a better you. And don't walk away from this site, ever!
I'll hunt your ass down, make you submit, and keep your addict ass quit! There is no room in our lives for half-assing anything! Be who you are supposed to be and take up the fight right here, right now with me!
Congrats. One full year of doing this to da nic monster, feels good don't it?
'tough'
'Cheers' 'Cheers' 'wave' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'tanks' 'tanks' 'tanks' :Winner: :Winner: :Winner:
What he said. Congrats. It feels good doesn't it?
You my friend, are a quit badass!! Proud to quit with you!
Congratulations Eric! Good information
congrats eric
Just awesome. You = badass
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Day 365:
How does a year feel? Hard to quantify it I must say. It's not like having a new child, wife, job, or car. It is more like a brief pat on the back to having completed my apprenticeship. It's a nice feeling and I am proud of the fact that this is the longest I have quit my addiction. This is still uncharted water. I am not out of the woods yet. Any newbie or veteran alike that thinks reaching the HOF or a half comma or whatever point you're at is reason enough to slack the reigns is a fucking fool!
Don't you get it? Pride and a sense of accomplishment, if not held in check, can be the absolute biggest obstacle in you staying quit. Just get a little satisfied about where you're at in your quit and see if that bitch doesn't start whispering your name. Afterall, you've been quit for x number of days. You got this, you can handle this, right?Â
Wrong, fucking dead wrong! You and I are just as much addicts today as we were when we started this journey. There is no fucking magic destination marker that erases the addictive tendencies from our brains. It's who we are, addicts!Â
The key is to become addicted to life gentlemen! Get involved in your life! When we become selfless, we become so much more. That is why this site works. People you may never meet invest themselves in you. They invest themselves in the marriages, the lives of their significant other, their children, their career, their new found hobby. You get the idea. Use your tendency to become addicted to being a better you. And don't walk away from this site, ever!
I'll hunt your ass down, make you submit, and keep your addict ass quit! There is no room in our lives for half-assing anything! Be who you are supposed to be and take up the fight right here, right now with me!
Congrats. One full year of doing this to da nic monster, feels good don't it?
'tough'
'Cheers' 'Cheers' 'wave' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'tanks' 'tanks' 'tanks' :Winner: :Winner: :Winner:
What he said. Congrats. It feels good doesn't it?
You my friend, are a quit badass!! Proud to quit with you!
Congratulations Eric! Good information
congrats eric
Just awesome. You = badass
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM
CONGRATS BROTHER!!!
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Day 365:
How does a year feel? Hard to quantify it I must say. It's not like having a new child, wife, job, or car. It is more like a brief pat on the back to having completed my apprenticeship. It's a nice feeling and I am proud of the fact that this is the longest I have quit my addiction. This is still uncharted water. I am not out of the woods yet. Any newbie or veteran alike that thinks reaching the HOF or a half comma or whatever point you're at is reason enough to slack the reigns is a fucking fool!
Don't you get it? Pride and a sense of accomplishment, if not held in check, can be the absolute biggest obstacle in you staying quit. Just get a little satisfied about where you're at in your quit and see if that bitch doesn't start whispering your name. Afterall, you've been quit for x number of days. You got this, you can handle this, right?Â
Wrong, fucking dead wrong! You and I are just as much addicts today as we were when we started this journey. There is no fucking magic destination marker that erases the addictive tendencies from our brains. It's who we are, addicts!Â
The key is to become addicted to life gentlemen! Get involved in your life! When we become selfless, we become so much more. That is why this site works. People you may never meet invest themselves in you. They invest themselves in the marriages, the lives of their significant other, their children, their career, their new found hobby. You get the idea. Use your tendency to become addicted to being a better you. And don't walk away from this site, ever!
I'll hunt your ass down, make you submit, and keep your addict ass quit! There is no room in our lives for half-assing anything! Be who you are supposed to be and take up the fight right here, right now with me!
Congrats. One full year of doing this to da nic monster, feels good don't it?
'tough'
'Cheers' 'Cheers' 'wave' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'tanks' 'tanks' 'tanks' :Winner: :Winner: :Winner:
What he said. Congrats. It feels good doesn't it?
You my friend, are a quit badass!! Proud to quit with you!
Congratulations Eric! Good information
congrats eric
Just awesome. You = badass
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM
CONGRATS BROTHER!!!
You my friend are the definition of BadAss Quiter!
Carry on....
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HALF-COMMA time
the big 500 -
I am damn proud to call this guy my brother in quit (and more).
Eric - you have been a leader with the madmen and madwomen of Oct12. I owe a huge thanks to all you have done for us (and for me).
Congrats man and keep it going.
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6 0 0
For this Oct12 madman.
Damn Eric congrats to someone who not only has provided a bad ass attitude to quitting the nic bitch, but to someone who has also tackled the accomplice alcohol.
This is a guy who has definitely taken the quit to the next level with the improvement of ones life.
Extremely Proud Brother.
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6 0 0
For this Oct12 madman.
Damn Eric congrats to someone who not only has provided a bad ass attitude to quitting the nic bitch, but to someone who has also tackled the accomplice alcohol.
This is a guy who has definitely taken the quit to the next level with the improvement of ones life.
Extremely Proud Brother.
'clap'
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6 0 0
For this Oct12 madman.
Damn Eric congrats to someone who not only has provided a bad ass attitude to quitting the nic bitch, but to someone who has also tackled the accomplice alcohol.
This is a guy who has definitely taken the quit to the next level with the improvement of ones life.
Extremely Proud Brother.
'clap'
Well Done Sir!!!
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6 0 0
For this Oct12 madman.
Damn Eric congrats to someone who not only has provided a bad ass attitude to quitting the nic bitch, but to someone who has also tackled the accomplice alcohol.
This is a guy who has definitely taken the quit to the next level with the improvement of ones life.
Extremely Proud Brother.
'clap'
Well Done Sir!!!
CS must be slipping
'BanDog'
'oh yeah'
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6 0 0
For this Oct12 madman.
Damn Eric congrats to someone who not only has provided a bad ass attitude to quitting the nic bitch, but to someone who has also tackled the accomplice alcohol.
This is a guy who has definitely taken the quit to the next level with the improvement of ones life.
Extremely Proud Brother.
'clap'
Well Done Sir!!!
CS must be slipping
'BanDog'
'oh yeah'
Excellent! :)
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6 0 0
For this Oct12 madman.
Damn Eric congrats to someone who not only has provided a bad ass attitude to quitting the nic bitch, but to someone who has also tackled the accomplice alcohol.
This is a guy who has definitely taken the quit to the next level with the improvement of ones life.
Extremely Proud Brother.
'clap'
Well Done Sir!!!
CS must be slipping
'BanDog'
'oh yeah'
Excellent! :)
6 hundo.
Fucking STRONG!!!
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6 0 0
For this Oct12 madman.
Damn Eric congrats to someone who not only has provided a bad ass attitude to quitting the nic bitch, but to someone who has also tackled the accomplice alcohol.
This is a guy who has definitely taken the quit to the next level with the improvement of ones life.
Extremely Proud Brother.
'clap'
Well Done Sir!!!
CS must be slipping
'BanDog'
'oh yeah'
Excellent! :)
6 hundo.
Fucking STRONG!!!
'BanDog'
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6 0 0
For this Oct12 madman.
Damn Eric congrats to someone who not only has provided a bad ass attitude to quitting the nic bitch, but to someone who has also tackled the accomplice alcohol.
This is a guy who has definitely taken the quit to the next level with the improvement of ones life.
Extremely Proud Brother.
'clap'
Well Done Sir!!!
CS must be slipping
'BanDog'
'oh yeah'
Excellent! :)
6 hundo.
Fucking STRONG!!!
'BanDog'
Cold. Fuck yeah. Noobs take notice.
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6 0 0
For this Oct12 madman.
Damn Eric congrats to someone who not only has provided a bad ass attitude to quitting the nic bitch, but to someone who has also tackled the accomplice alcohol.
This is a guy who has definitely taken the quit to the next level with the improvement of ones life.
Extremely Proud Brother.
'clap'
Well Done Sir!!!
CS must be slipping
'BanDog'
'oh yeah'
Excellent! :)
6 hundo.
Fucking STRONG!!!
'BanDog'
Cold. Fuck yeah. Noobs take notice.
Awesome !
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6 0 0
For this Oct12 madman.
Damn Eric congrats to someone who not only has provided a bad ass attitude to quitting the nic bitch, but to someone who has also tackled the accomplice alcohol.
This is a guy who has definitely taken the quit to the next level with the improvement of ones life.
Extremely Proud Brother.
'clap'
Well Done Sir!!!
CS must be slipping
'BanDog'
'oh yeah'
Excellent! :)
6 hundo.
Fucking STRONG!!!
'BanDog'
Cold. Fuck yeah. Noobs take notice.
Awesome !
Thanks for the support here fellas. I do have to say though, Sir Derek is mistaken here. It's Jag, not myself, who has slain the two headed monster of dip and drink. My demons lay in the form of pornography. That was the demon, the addiction, that nearly ended the beautiful marriage to my wife and shattered the family life I now treasure so dearly. To date, 485 to be exact, I am quit with that heinous addiction. I continue to treat that addiction the way I treated quitting dip. One day at a time. What I've found in this journey is that no matter the addiction, the human mind treats it all the same. There is no in between to an addict. You are either quit or you are not. I, my friends, with your support and the strength of our good and gracious Lord, am QUIT!
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Just mined this little bit from back on page 7 or 8 of my intro. Thought it may be of a little assistance to some of you newbies:
Day 57:
Note to self:
Fuck you and the weak ass thoughts swimming in your head. You were told these days would come and sure as hell they have. These are the days your quit is being tested mentally. So, bigshot, how strong is your quit? A little mind fuck getting you all riled up is it? Thinking about me aren't you?
"Yeah, I'm thinking about you, about how you fucked up 15 years of my life that I cannot get back! About leaving me in a corner somewhere with a fucking bottle in my hand and a pile of shit jammed in my lip! About seeing the disappointment and hurt in my wife and children's eyes as I pushed one in my lip. About tearing up a level of honor and respect that I have to work so hard to put back in place with those I love. About how fucking stupid I was to let something like you into my life in the first place. About how if you were a real person I would be in prison for the mutilating, abhorrent beating I would place on you, rendering you a crippled pile of shit incapable of rational thought or motion. About how needy you are, how reliant you are on the weakness of others to make yourself feel worth. Face it bitch, without me, you are just a shredded up, rode hard, put away wet, wilting and sagging, pile of shit that no one can stay committed to. We all find something better, something way better, and you're left holding the can."
Your brother in quit,
Eric71
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Just mined this little bit from back on page 7 or 8 of my intro. Thought it may be of a little assistance to some of you newbies:
Day 57:
Note to self:
Fuck you and the weak ass thoughts swimming in your head. You were told these days would come and sure as hell they have. These are the days your quit is being tested mentally. So, bigshot, how strong is your quit? A little mind fuck getting you all riled up is it? Thinking about me aren't you?
"Yeah, I'm thinking about you, about how you fucked up 15 years of my life that I cannot get back! About leaving me in a corner somewhere with a fucking bottle in my hand and a pile of shit jammed in my lip! About seeing the disappointment and hurt in my wife and children's eyes as I pushed one in my lip. About tearing up a level of honor and respect that I have to work so hard to put back in place with those I love. About how fucking stupid I was to let something like you into my life in the first place. About how if you were a real person I would be in prison for the mutilating, abhorrent beating I would place on you, rendering you a crippled pile of shit incapable of rational thought or motion. About how needy you are, how reliant you are on the weakness of others to make yourself feel worth. Face it bitch, without me, you are just a shredded up, rode hard, put away wet, wilting and sagging, pile of shit that no one can stay committed to. We all find something better, something way better, and you're left holding the can."
Your brother in quit,
Eric71
You need to bring back a few more of these Eric. You are a bad ass quitter and leader. I have had the honor of being kicked in the ass a few times by you as your words were always true, yea, they hurt but you were direct and to the point. The TRUTH always hurts when you're an addict and brother you speak to the TRUTH. Thank you brother!
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Just mined this little bit from back on page 7 or 8 of my intro. Thought it may be of a little assistance to some of you newbies:
Day 57:
Note to self:
Fuck you and the weak ass thoughts swimming in your head. You were told these days would come and sure as hell they have. These are the days your quit is being tested mentally. So, bigshot, how strong is your quit? A little mind fuck getting you all riled up is it? Thinking about me aren't you?
"Yeah, I'm thinking about you, about how you fucked up 15 years of my life that I cannot get back! About leaving me in a corner somewhere with a fucking bottle in my hand and a pile of shit jammed in my lip! About seeing the disappointment and hurt in my wife and children's eyes as I pushed one in my lip. About tearing up a level of honor and respect that I have to work so hard to put back in place with those I love. About how fucking stupid I was to let something like you into my life in the first place. About how if you were a real person I would be in prison for the mutilating, abhorrent beating I would place on you, rendering you a crippled pile of shit incapable of rational thought or motion. About how needy you are, how reliant you are on the weakness of others to make yourself feel worth. Face it bitch, without me, you are just a shredded up, rode hard, put away wet, wilting and sagging, pile of shit that no one can stay committed to. We all find something better, something way better, and you're left holding the can."
Your brother in quit,
Eric71
You need to bring back a few more of these Eric. You are a bad ass quitter and leader. I have had the honor of being kicked in the ass a few times by you as your words were always true, yea, they hurt but you were direct and to the point. The TRUTH always hurts when you're an addict and brother you speak to the TRUTH. Thank you brother!
This is good stuff.
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Pride and a sense of accomplishment, if not held in check, can be the absolute biggest obstacle in you staying quit. Just get a little satisfied about where you're at in your quit and see if that bitch doesn't start whispering your name. Afterall, you've been quit for x number of days. You got this, you can handle this, right?
Wrong, fucking dead wrong! You and I are just as much addicts today as we were when we started this journey. There is no fucking magic destination marker that erases the addictive tendencies from our brains. It's who we are, addicts!
The key is to become addicted to life gentlemen! Get involved in your life! When we become selfless, we become so much more. That is why this site works. People you may never meet invest themselves in you. They invest themselves in the marriages, the lives of their significant other, their children, their career, their new found hobby. You get the idea. Use your tendency to become addicted to being a better you. And don't walk away from this site, ever!
I'll hunt your ass down, make you submit, and keep your addict ass quit! There is no room in our lives for half-assing anything! Be who you are supposed to be and take up the fight right here, right now with me!
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Pride and a sense of accomplishment, if not held in check, can be the absolute biggest obstacle in you staying quit. Just get a little satisfied about where you're at in your quit and see if that bitch doesn't start whispering your name. Afterall, you've been quit for x number of days. You got this, you can handle this, right?
Wrong, fucking dead wrong! You and I are just as much addicts today as we were when we started this journey. There is no fucking magic destination marker that erases the addictive tendencies from our brains. It's who we are, addicts!
The key is to become addicted to life gentlemen! Get involved in your life! When we become selfless, we become so much more. That is why this site works. People you may never meet invest themselves in you. They invest themselves in the marriages, the lives of their significant other, their children, their career, their new found hobby. You get the idea. Use your tendency to become addicted to being a better you. And don't walk away from this site, ever!
I'll hunt your ass down, make you submit, and keep your addict ass quit! There is no room in our lives for half-assing anything! Be who you are supposed to be and take up the fight right here, right now with me!
Right on Eric...and in the words of another addiction group..."Half measures availed us nothing." To quit the nic you gotta be "ALL IN."
ZC
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Day 608:
Ever feel empty as hell? I'm quit. Today I am empty. Empty is not a feeling a man with all the blessings I have should feel. Empty is how you feel when some of those blessings and memories are taken from you. Empty as a man because I could not control the outcome. We had a fire yesterday and lost an outbuilding that contained every precious memory of our children. From their toys to first Christmas ornaments, to my wife's last memories and toys of her childhood, all gone. Tools given to me by my grandfather, gone. Baseball and football card collections, gone. Wedding memories, gone. A huge tangible portion of our lives, fucking gone. On top of that, our dog Stewie is being treated at an animal hospital for 3rd degree burns as his compound was attached to the building. I just could not do enough. Don't know why I am rambling. I can't find the message here.
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Day 608:
Ever feel empty as hell? I'm quit. Today I am empty. Empty is not a feeling a man with all the blessings I have should feel. Empty is how you feel when some of those blessings and memories are taken from you. Empty as a man because I could not control the outcome. We had a fire yesterday and lost an outbuilding that contained every precious memory of our children. From their toys to first Christmas ornaments, to my wife's last memories and toys of her childhood, all gone. Tools given to me by my grandfather, gone. Baseball and football card collections, gone. Wedding memories, gone. A huge tangible portion of our lives, fucking gone. On top of that, our dog Stewie is being treated at an animal hospital for 3rd degree burns as his compound was attached to the building. I just could not do enough. Don't know why I am rambling. I can't find the message here.
Stuff is just stuff brother, mementos of an earlier time. It sounds like you were lucky it wasn't worse. I realize your loss seems devastating but your memories are intact. Your family is intact. Stewie will heal. I've come to know you as a strong man and I know you'll lead your family through this and whatever else comes your way.
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Day 608:
Ever feel empty as hell? I'm quit. Today I am empty. Empty is not a feeling a man with all the blessings I have should feel. Empty is how you feel when some of those blessings and memories are taken from you. Empty as a man because I could not control the outcome. We had a fire yesterday and lost an outbuilding that contained every precious memory of our children. From their toys to first Christmas ornaments, to my wife's last memories and toys of her childhood, all gone. Tools given to me by my grandfather, gone. Baseball and football card collections, gone. Wedding memories, gone. A huge tangible portion of our lives, fucking gone. On top of that, our dog Stewie is being treated at an animal hospital for 3rd degree burns as his compound was attached to the building. I just could not do enough. Don't know why I am rambling. I can't find the message here.
That's horrible E, and I'm not sure any words I have will not help ease your pain of losing all those items. I guess on the positive side, no lives were lost and I pray your dog will be ok.
Damn, can life kick you in the nuts sometimes. Just remember that a mouth full of shit isn't going to fill that empty feeling, it will only drain you more.
Stay strong. I know there's not much we can "do", but if you need to vent, come here any time. We may not be able to fill you up, but we are always here to listen and offer our support.
Hang in there bro.
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Eric, something's we just can't control. For me lack of control fed my addiction. Look around you and recognize those things you do have rather than the things you lost. I'm so sorry about your loss but very glad for the things you didn't lose.
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Day 627:
Morning of my oldest daughter's surgery. We found out yesterday her fall at gymnastics was not as lucky as we'd hoped. She has 2 dislocated elbows, fragmented bone and torn ligaments in both arms. Surgery scheduled this AM around 730 EST. This might well be the capper on a helluva six month stretch for this family. I struggle back and forth in emotions toward God, the world, and everything in between. I get so angry but know I need to lean so much. I question and pray. As a parent, these moments are the moments we hate. Do what you will with me, just leave my family alone. Such frustration, but such hope in His divine grace. Thinking of you all in your struggles with nicotine and praying for your strength in your own battles today. There will most certainly be a couple fights I win today: I will win the fight for my soul through my faith and I will be quit!
QLAFM
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Keep winning brother. We're all here with you. Life might be getting you down right now, but it can't suck forever, keep the faith. Tomorrow is always a new day. Make the best out of it that you can.
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"The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen."
Be beautiful bro...
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Day 627:
Morning of my oldest daughter's surgery. We found out yesterday her fall at gymnastics was not as lucky as we'd hoped. She has 2 dislocated elbows, fragmented bone and torn ligaments in both arms. Surgery scheduled this AM around 730 EST. This might well be the capper on a helluva six month stretch for this family. I struggle back and forth in emotions toward God, the world, and everything in between. I get so angry but know I need to lean so much. I question and pray. As a parent, these moments are the moments we hate. Do what you will with me, just leave my family alone. Such frustration, but such hope in His divine grace. Thinking of you all in your struggles with nicotine and praying for your strength in your own battles today. There will most certainly be a couple fights I win today: I will win the fight for my soul through my faith and I will be quit!
QLAFM
brother all the prayers for a speedy health. I think in a lot of ways when it comes to our kids that we do wish it was us instead of them, but I am learning that it is their youth that can sometimes take us by complete amazement.
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Day 627:
Morning of my oldest daughter's surgery. We found out yesterday her fall at gymnastics was not as lucky as we'd hoped. She has 2 dislocated elbows, fragmented bone and torn ligaments in both arms. Surgery scheduled this AM around 730 EST. This might well be the capper on a helluva six month stretch for this family. I struggle back and forth in emotions toward God, the world, and everything in between. I get so angry but know I need to lean so much. I question and pray. As a parent, these moments are the moments we hate. Do what you will with me, just leave my family alone. Such frustration, but such hope in His divine grace. Thinking of you all in your struggles with nicotine and praying for your strength in your own battles today. There will most certainly be a couple fights I win today: I will win the fight for my soul through my faith and I will be quit!
QLAFM
brother all the prayers for a speedy health. I think in a lot of ways when it comes to our kids that we do wish it was us instead of them, but I am learning that it is their youth that can sometimes take us by complete amazement.
Stay strong my friend all ends well so with that in mind if its not well its not ended!
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Day 627:
Morning of my oldest daughter's surgery. We found out yesterday her fall at gymnastics was not as lucky as we'd hoped. She has 2 dislocated elbows, fragmented bone and torn ligaments in both arms. Surgery scheduled this AM around 730 EST. This might well be the capper on a helluva six month stretch for this family. I struggle back and forth in emotions toward God, the world, and everything in between. I get so angry but know I need to lean so much. I question and pray. As a parent, these moments are the moments we hate. Do what you will with me, just leave my family alone. Such frustration, but such hope in His divine grace. Thinking of you all in your struggles with nicotine and praying for your strength in your own battles today. There will most certainly be a couple fights I win today: I will win the fight for my soul through my faith and I will be quit!
QLAFM
brother all the prayers for a speedy health. I think in a lot of ways when it comes to our kids that we do wish it was us instead of them, but I am learning that it is their youth that can sometimes take us by complete amazement.
Stay strong my friend all ends well so with that in mind if its not well its not ended!
Day 628:
Surgery was successful. Doctor said it looked like bombs exploded in her elbows. Kid is tough as nails; never cried from the moment it happened until now. Now to get the nausea from the pain meds under control and get her home.
I got the chance to step back and reflect for a minute on all the support and kind words we've received and my wife and I will never be able to thank those people enough. The beauty in a struggle are the small life victories God gives us.
The journey IS the reward quitters! Reap your reward today! So proud to be part of this community!
QLAFM!
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Day 627:
Morning of my oldest daughter's surgery. We found out yesterday her fall at gymnastics was not as lucky as we'd hoped. She has 2 dislocated elbows, fragmented bone and torn ligaments in both arms. Surgery scheduled this AM around 730 EST. This might well be the capper on a helluva six month stretch for this family. I struggle back and forth in emotions toward God, the world, and everything in between. I get so angry but know I need to lean so much. I question and pray. As a parent, these moments are the moments we hate. Do what you will with me, just leave my family alone. Such frustration, but such hope in His divine grace. Thinking of you all in your struggles with nicotine and praying for your strength in your own battles today. There will most certainly be a couple fights I win today: I will win the fight for my soul through my faith and I will be quit!
QLAFM
brother all the prayers for a speedy health. I think in a lot of ways when it comes to our kids that we do wish it was us instead of them, but I am learning that it is their youth that can sometimes take us by complete amazement.
Stay strong my friend all ends well so with that in mind if its not well its not ended!
Day 628:
Surgery was successful. Doctor said it looked like bombs exploded in her elbows. Kid is tough as nails; never cried from the moment it happened until now. Now to get the nausea from the pain meds under control and get her home.
I got the chance to step back and reflect for a minute on all the support and kind words we've received and my wife and I will never be able to thank those people enough. The beauty in a struggle are the small life victories God gives us.
The journey IS the reward quitters! Reap your reward today! So proud to be part of this community!
QLAFM!
Glad to hear, E!!!.
Damn man, what kind of move was you girl trying to pull off, a quadruple flip with 8 twists in the tuck position?
Sounds like she's tough as nails. Must get it from her Mom, LOL.
Happy that she's doing good. Way to be strong bro!!!
Quit with you all damn day!!!!
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Day 730:
2 fucking years! Thinking back from then till now and all the good and the not so good I've traversed and to have done it all without nicotine is perhaps the icing on the cake. Since that day 2 years ago, I invested back into myself, my family, my relationships and my career; in that order. I had to own my quit before I could give back to those that empower me to become more than myself. I can reflect on this day in happiness thanks to my wife who stumbled upon this place 2 years ago and to all of you who have served as mentors, friends, partners in crime, and pains in my ass since. May today be your best quit day yet!
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Day 730:
2 fucking years! Thinking back from then till now and all the good and the not so good I've traversed and to have done it all without nicotine is perhaps the icing on the cake. Since that day 2 years ago, I invested back into myself, my family, my relationships and my career; in that order. I had to own my quit before I could give back to those that empower me to become more than myself. I can reflect on this day in happiness thanks to my wife who stumbled upon this place 2 years ago and to all of you who have served as mentors, friends, partners in crime, and pains in my ass since. May today be your best quit day yet!
That's what it is all about! Gratz on the 2 years Eric!
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Day 730:
2 fucking years! Thinking back from then till now and all the good and the not so good I've traversed and to have done it all without nicotine is perhaps the icing on the cake. Since that day 2 years ago, I invested back into myself, my family, my relationships and my career; in that order. I had to own my quit before I could give back to those that empower me to become more than myself. I can reflect on this day in happiness thanks to my wife who stumbled upon this place 2 years ago and to all of you who have served as mentors, friends, partners in crime, and pains in my ass since. May today be your best quit day yet!
That's what it is all about! Gratz on the 2 years Eric!
Right back at you brother, You got the mustard but will never ketchup! Congrats!
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Day 730:
2 fucking years! Thinking back from then till now and all the good and the not so good I've traversed and to have done it all without nicotine is perhaps the icing on the cake. Since that day 2 years ago, I invested back into myself, my family, my relationships and my career; in that order. I had to own my quit before I could give back to those that empower me to become more than myself. I can reflect on this day in happiness thanks to my wife who stumbled upon this place 2 years ago and to all of you who have served as mentors, friends, partners in crime, and pains in my ass since. May today be your best quit day yet!
That's what it is all about! Gratz on the 2 years Eric!
Right back at you brother, You got the mustard but will never ketchup! Congrats!
Damn Eric! Two years, congratulations! I remember my first few days and months on this site. I'd miss roll or post roll late and you were there like a Drill Instructor, instructing me where, when and how to post roll. I was having flash backs and sometimes scared to death to get on here and post roll yet scared to disappoint also. I finally failed and dropped away for a while. I came back and knew you would be there, larger than life to set me back on the right path.
Thank you for setting the example in the two years of quit for so many quitters and not leaving them behind as you say in your tag line. Proud to be quit with you today, Eric!
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Day 730:
2 fucking years! Thinking back from then till now and all the good and the not so good I've traversed and to have done it all without nicotine is perhaps the icing on the cake. Since that day 2 years ago, I invested back into myself, my family, my relationships and my career; in that order. I had to own my quit before I could give back to those that empower me to become more than myself. I can reflect on this day in happiness thanks to my wife who stumbled upon this place 2 years ago and to all of you who have served as mentors, friends, partners in crime, and pains in my ass since. May today be your best quit day yet!
That's what it is all about! Gratz on the 2 years Eric!
Right back at you brother, You got the mustard but will never ketchup! Congrats!
Damn Eric! Two years, congratulations! I remember my first few days and months on this site. I'd miss roll or post roll late and you were there like a Drill Instructor, instructing me where, when and how to post roll. I was having flash backs and sometimes scared to death to get on here and post roll yet scared to disappoint also. I finally failed and dropped away for a while. I came back and knew you would be there, larger than life to set me back on the right path.
Thank you for setting the example in the two years of quit for so many quitters and not leaving them behind as you say in your tag line. Proud to be quit with you today, Eric!
2 years = STRONG
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Day 730:
2 fucking years! Thinking back from then till now and all the good and the not so good I've traversed and to have done it all without nicotine is perhaps the icing on the cake. Since that day 2 years ago, I invested back into myself, my family, my relationships and my career; in that order. I had to own my quit before I could give back to those that empower me to become more than myself. I can reflect on this day in happiness thanks to my wife who stumbled upon this place 2 years ago and to all of you who have served as mentors, friends, partners in crime, and pains in my ass since. May today be your best quit day yet!
That's what it is all about! Gratz on the 2 years Eric!
Right back at you brother, You got the mustard but will never ketchup! Congrats!
Damn Eric! Two years, congratulations! I remember my first few days and months on this site. I'd miss roll or post roll late and you were there like a Drill Instructor, instructing me where, when and how to post roll. I was having flash backs and sometimes scared to death to get on here and post roll yet scared to disappoint also. I finally failed and dropped away for a while. I came back and knew you would be there, larger than life to set me back on the right path.
Thank you for setting the example in the two years of quit for so many quitters and not leaving them behind as you say in your tag line. Proud to be quit with you today, Eric!
2 years = STRONG
Amazing! Glad you're still here and posting. June Platoon is down to 3 posting daily now. Congrats and stay ghey! 'winker'
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Day 730:
2 fucking years! Thinking back from then till now and all the good and the not so good I've traversed and to have done it all without nicotine is perhaps the icing on the cake. Since that day 2 years ago, I invested back into myself, my family, my relationships and my career; in that order. I had to own my quit before I could give back to those that empower me to become more than myself. I can reflect on this day in happiness thanks to my wife who stumbled upon this place 2 years ago and to all of you who have served as mentors, friends, partners in crime, and pains in my ass since. May today be your best quit day yet!
That's what it is all about! Gratz on the 2 years Eric!
Right back at you brother, You got the mustard but will never ketchup! Congrats!
Damn Eric! Two years, congratulations! I remember my first few days and months on this site. I'd miss roll or post roll late and you were there like a Drill Instructor, instructing me where, when and how to post roll. I was having flash backs and sometimes scared to death to get on here and post roll yet scared to disappoint also. I finally failed and dropped away for a while. I came back and knew you would be there, larger than life to set me back on the right path.
Thank you for setting the example in the two years of quit for so many quitters and not leaving them behind as you say in your tag line. Proud to be quit with you today, Eric!
2 years = STRONG
Amazing! Glad you're still here and posting. June Platoon is down to 3 posting daily now. Congrats and stay ghey! 'winker'
another example of one who stands by his word and by those who are with him.
a belated congrats my brother.
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Day 730:
2 fucking years! Thinking back from then till now and all the good and the not so good I've traversed and to have done it all without nicotine is perhaps the icing on the cake. Since that day 2 years ago, I invested back into myself, my family, my relationships and my career; in that order. I had to own my quit before I could give back to those that empower me to become more than myself. I can reflect on this day in happiness thanks to my wife who stumbled upon this place 2 years ago and to all of you who have served as mentors, friends, partners in crime, and pains in my ass since. May today be your best quit day yet!
That's what it is all about! Gratz on the 2 years Eric!
Right back at you brother, You got the mustard but will never ketchup! Congrats!
Damn Eric! Two years, congratulations! I remember my first few days and months on this site. I'd miss roll or post roll late and you were there like a Drill Instructor, instructing me where, when and how to post roll. I was having flash backs and sometimes scared to death to get on here and post roll yet scared to disappoint also. I finally failed and dropped away for a while. I came back and knew you would be there, larger than life to set me back on the right path.
Thank you for setting the example in the two years of quit for so many quitters and not leaving them behind as you say in your tag line. Proud to be quit with you today, Eric!
2 years = STRONG
Amazing! Glad you're still here and posting. June Platoon is down to 3 posting daily now. Congrats and stay ghey! 'winker'
another example of one who stands by his word and by those who are with him.
a belated congrats my brother.
+1 man
Quit is not just the decision.
It is not the individual days.
Quit is the decision, getting through that day, and piling those "+1"s up.
You, sir, are winning.
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Day 730:
2 fucking years! Thinking back from then till now and all the good and the not so good I've traversed and to have done it all without nicotine is perhaps the icing on the cake. Since that day 2 years ago, I invested back into myself, my family, my relationships and my career; in that order. I had to own my quit before I could give back to those that empower me to become more than myself. I can reflect on this day in happiness thanks to my wife who stumbled upon this place 2 years ago and to all of you who have served as mentors, friends, partners in crime, and pains in my ass since. May today be your best quit day yet!
That's what it is all about! Gratz on the 2 years Eric!
Right back at you brother, You got the mustard but will never ketchup! Congrats!
Damn Eric! Two years, congratulations! I remember my first few days and months on this site. I'd miss roll or post roll late and you were there like a Drill Instructor, instructing me where, when and how to post roll. I was having flash backs and sometimes scared to death to get on here and post roll yet scared to disappoint also. I finally failed and dropped away for a while. I came back and knew you would be there, larger than life to set me back on the right path.
Thank you for setting the example in the two years of quit for so many quitters and not leaving them behind as you say in your tag line. Proud to be quit with you today, Eric!
2 years = STRONG
Amazing! Glad you're still here and posting. June Platoon is down to 3 posting daily now. Congrats and stay ghey! 'winker'
another example of one who stands by his word and by those who are with him.
a belated congrats my brother.
+1 man
Quit is not just the decision.
It is not the individual days.
Quit is the decision, getting through that day, and piling those "+1"s up.
You, sir, are winning.
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Day 784:
Is it really necessary to think we are smarter than the system?
Quite Simple Folks: That is the nic bitch fucking with your head! All of you, regardless of days quit, know that each day you walk without posting roll is an invitation for your addictive mind to rationalize and let your guard down. Don't try to be Einstein and come up with a new theory on how to quit! There are times to be sheep and times to be a shepherd. True knowledge and wisdom is shown by your actions. Understand the difference?
You are always an addict. That is in your genes and is your predisposition. It sucks, but it's who we are. The minute we forget what we are is the second your addiction latches on and the battle shifts in a different direction; away from the goal. Patton didn't allow the distractions of war to cloud his vision of the goal and his role in it.
Be a sheep and be quit.
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Day 784:
Is it really necessary to think we are smarter than the system?
Quite Simple Folks: That is the nic bitch fucking with your head! All of you, regardless of days quit, know that each day you walk without posting roll is an invitation for your addictive mind to rationalize and let your guard down. Don't try to be Einstein and come up with a new theory on how to quit! There are times to be sheep and times to be a shepherd. True knowledge and wisdom is shown by your actions. Understand the difference?
You are always an addict. That is in your genes and is your predisposition. It sucks, but it's who we are. The minute we forget what we are is the second your addiction latches on and the battle shifts in a different direction; away from the goal. Patton didn't allow the distractions of war to cloud his vision of the goal and his role in it.
Be a sheep and be quit.
Good stuff on a Monday morning Eric!
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Day 784:
Is it really necessary to think we are smarter than the system?
Quite Simple Folks: That is the nic bitch fucking with your head! All of you, regardless of days quit, know that each day you walk without posting roll is an invitation for your addictive mind to rationalize and let your guard down. Don't try to be Einstein and come up with a new theory on how to quit! There are times to be sheep and times to be a shepherd. True knowledge and wisdom is shown by your actions. Understand the difference?
You are always an addict. That is in your genes and is your predisposition. It sucks, but it's who we are. The minute we forget what we are is the second your addiction latches on and the battle shifts in a different direction; away from the goal. Patton didn't allow the distractions of war to cloud his vision of the goal and his role in it.
Be a sheep and be quit.
Good stuff on a Monday morning Eric!
Thanks Fleas, your input is always appreciated. Quit on!
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Day 784:
Is it really necessary to think we are smarter than the system?
Quite Simple Folks: That is the nic bitch fucking with your head! All of you, regardless of days quit, know that each day you walk without posting roll is an invitation for your addictive mind to rationalize and let your guard down. Don't try to be Einstein and come up with a new theory on how to quit! There are times to be sheep and times to be a shepherd. True knowledge and wisdom is shown by your actions. Understand the difference?
You are always an addict. That is in your genes and is your predisposition. It sucks, but it's who we are. The minute we forget what we are is the second your addiction latches on and the battle shifts in a different direction; away from the goal. Patton didn't allow the distractions of war to cloud his vision of the goal and his role in it.
Be a sheep and be quit.
Good stuff on a Monday morning Eric!
Thanks Fleas, your input is always appreciated. Quit on!
poof!
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Day 841:
This is an excerpt from the drama of Oct12. If you choose to read it, by all means do. If you could care less, tell me as much. Quite frankly, I don't give 2 shits if you read it or not. This is my intro page and I'll use it how I want. For me though, this is an example of the mind fuck of nicotine at its highest level; pitting quitter against quitter and pushing the greater good we all seek, to the background. There is no crave here, understand that, to my estimation, all involved in this BS are rock solid quitters who are steadfast in their battle against nicotine. There is a crave for power and control and isn't that what addiction is by definition in the first place? So, without further delay:
It's high time this shit came to a close. Derek, you know I support you and think the world of what you do in regards to helping keep Oct12 rolling and supporting new and old quitters alike. Knowing that is who you are, why would you let this dissuade you from being who you are? If the collective "they" can keep you distracted from doing what you do best, don't they win?
I don't know or care who "they" are or where this all stemmed from. I don't want to know. It is painfully obvious that what is going on has absolutely no benefit for ANYONE involved.
I would ask all that are involved though, to take a minute and truly think about whether or not this BS has any long term positive effects on the site, on the people supporting the site, and on those who come here to be fed. We are leaning on each other in here everyday. All it takes is one person to say the hell with it, lean on someone else, and the army then has a weakness. If you think the enemy will not attack where they see a weakness, you've all missed the entire purpose of this site to begin with.
I suggest you all get back to being adults and step up to the greater good.
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So today marks 3 years since I threw the nic bitch to the curb and quite a lot has transpired in that time. Those of you who know of me, very few of you "know" me, know that I speak my mind and am comfortable enough in my own skin to do so. The journey of a quitter is never over; it just changes. My journey as a quitter has me questioning the value of intimate relationships. The type of relationship so close to your being that if/when it ends, you cannot recall what you were before that relationship started or who you are able to be after it. Today is extremely bittersweet. 3 years ago my family celebrated me throwing a can of chew in the garbage. They cried, kissed, hugged, loved me, and supported my decision. Today, I walk this journey alone. My family is gone. Wife seeking divorce, lying, cheating, and placing a protection order against me to "protect" her and my children from having contact with me. I've done nothing, no one in my family was ever harmed. I finished coaching my son's baseball team on Tuesday evening and may not see my children ever again. I have been ostracized by those I let inside my armor. My celebration today is seeing all those who quit today remain quit. There will be no anniversary dinner, no ice cream, no hugs, kisses, pats on the back. There is a bitter memory of days gone by; of a life squandered, a journey for reason and purpose. I still am quit. I still do it for myself and to show my children that commitment is hard and that the reward of a journey IS THE JOURNEY ITSELF. Somehow, at least today, this reward feels less like a reward and more like a sentence. If you are not giving back to those you love on a daily basis in thoughts, deeds, or time, you're missing the opportunity afforded you by your adherence to remain quit. Being quit and not utilizing your journey to better yourself and those you come in contact with is nothing more than an empty quit. It is the self serving prayers by the Pharisee in the temple. The "generosity" of the Politician who steals your hard earned dollars to give to the lazy and undeserving. Don't be empty. Be quit and be a fulfillment to your life and others.
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So today marks 3 years since I threw the nic bitch to the curb and quite a lot has transpired in that time. Those of you who know of me, very few of you "know" me, know that I speak my mind and am comfortable enough in my own skin to do so. The journey of a quitter is never over; it just changes. My journey as a quitter has me questioning the value of intimate relationships. The type of relationship so close to your being that if/when it ends, you cannot recall what you were before that relationship started or who you are able to be after it. Today is extremely bittersweet. 3 years ago my family celebrated me throwing a can of chew in the garbage. They cried, kissed, hugged, loved me, and supported my decision. Today, I walk this journey alone. My family is gone. Wife seeking divorce, lying, cheating, and placing a protection order against me to "protect" her and my children from having contact with me. I've done nothing, no one in my family was ever harmed. I finished coaching my son's baseball team on Tuesday evening and may not see my children ever again. I have been ostracized by those I let inside my armor. My celebration today is seeing all those who quit today remain quit. There will be no anniversary dinner, no ice cream, no hugs, kisses, pats on the back. There is a bitter memory of days gone by; of a life squandered, a journey for reason and purpose. I still am quit. I still do it for myself and to show my children that commitment is hard and that the reward of a journey IS THE JOURNEY ITSELF. Somehow, at least today, this reward feels less like a reward and more like a sentence. If you are not giving back to those you love on a daily basis in thoughts, deeds, or time, you're missing the opportunity afforded you by your adherence to remain quit. Being quit and not utilizing your journey to better yourself and those you come in contact with is nothing more than an empty quit. It is the self serving prayers by the Pharisee in the temple. The "generosity" of the Politician who steals your hard earned dollars to give to the lazy and undeserving. Don't be empty. Be quit and be a fulfillment to your life and others.
Congrats on 3 years and hang in there bro.
Sounds like life is kicking you in the balls a little bit, but stay true to your beliefs and trust in yourself. Life has a funny way of evening itself out and it definitely sounds like you're due for some good to come your way.
Hang tough and quit on!
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So today marks 3 years since I threw the nic bitch to the curb and quite a lot has transpired in that time. Those of you who know of me, very few of you "know" me, know that I speak my mind and am comfortable enough in my own skin to do so. The journey of a quitter is never over; it just changes. My journey as a quitter has me questioning the value of intimate relationships. The type of relationship so close to your being that if/when it ends, you cannot recall what you were before that relationship started or who you are able to be after it. Today is extremely bittersweet. 3 years ago my family celebrated me throwing a can of chew in the garbage. They cried, kissed, hugged, loved me, and supported my decision. Today, I walk this journey alone. My family is gone. Wife seeking divorce, lying, cheating, and placing a protection order against me to "protect" her and my children from having contact with me. I've done nothing, no one in my family was ever harmed. I finished coaching my son's baseball team on Tuesday evening and may not see my children ever again. I have been ostracized by those I let inside my armor. My celebration today is seeing all those who quit today remain quit. There will be no anniversary dinner, no ice cream, no hugs, kisses, pats on the back. There is a bitter memory of days gone by; of a life squandered, a journey for reason and purpose. I still am quit. I still do it for myself and to show my children that commitment is hard and that the reward of a journey IS THE JOURNEY ITSELF. Somehow, at least today, this reward feels less like a reward and more like a sentence. If you are not giving back to those you love on a daily basis in thoughts, deeds, or time, you're missing the opportunity afforded you by your adherence to remain quit. Being quit and not utilizing your journey to better yourself and those you come in contact with is nothing more than an empty quit. It is the self serving prayers by the Pharisee in the temple. The "generosity" of the Politician who steals your hard earned dollars to give to the lazy and undeserving. Don't be empty. Be quit and be a fulfillment to your life and others.
Congrats on 3 years and hang in there bro.
Sounds like life is kicking you in the balls a little bit, but stay true to your beliefs and trust in yourself. Life has a funny way of evening itself out and it definitely sounds like you're due for some good to come your way.
Hang tough and quit on!
Thanks Diesel and continued success to you in your journey. Life will work itself out, in its own time. Patience is far from my finest quality. Today I reached the 11th floor (1100 days) and I have a stronger urge to chew now than I have in some time. This is the lesson to us all...No matter the time or duration of your quit, there will come a time where you feel weakness re-enter the equation. Your actions at this time show your true character. Be the person you profess to be. Be strong enough to reach out for help if it's needed. Be grateful to show you are not too proud to ask or tell someone of your struggle. They will be the strength you need. This community can be that someone. You, me, all of us are here for a reason.
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So today marks 3 years since I threw the nic bitch to the curb and quite a lot has transpired in that time. Those of you who know of me, very few of you "know" me, know that I speak my mind and am comfortable enough in my own skin to do so. The journey of a quitter is never over; it just changes. My journey as a quitter has me questioning the value of intimate relationships. The type of relationship so close to your being that if/when it ends, you cannot recall what you were before that relationship started or who you are able to be after it. Today is extremely bittersweet. 3 years ago my family celebrated me throwing a can of chew in the garbage. They cried, kissed, hugged, loved me, and supported my decision. Today, I walk this journey alone. My family is gone. Wife seeking divorce, lying, cheating, and placing a protection order against me to "protect" her and my children from having contact with me. I've done nothing, no one in my family was ever harmed. I finished coaching my son's baseball team on Tuesday evening and may not see my children ever again. I have been ostracized by those I let inside my armor. My celebration today is seeing all those who quit today remain quit. There will be no anniversary dinner, no ice cream, no hugs, kisses, pats on the back. There is a bitter memory of days gone by; of a life squandered, a journey for reason and purpose. I still am quit. I still do it for myself and to show my children that commitment is hard and that the reward of a journey IS THE JOURNEY ITSELF. Somehow, at least today, this reward feels less like a reward and more like a sentence. If you are not giving back to those you love on a daily basis in thoughts, deeds, or time, you're missing the opportunity afforded you by your adherence to remain quit. Being quit and not utilizing your journey to better yourself and those you come in contact with is nothing more than an empty quit. It is the self serving prayers by the Pharisee in the temple. The "generosity" of the Politician who steals your hard earned dollars to give to the lazy and undeserving. Don't be empty. Be quit and be a fulfillment to your life and others.
Congrats on 3 years and hang in there bro.
Sounds like life is kicking you in the balls a little bit, but stay true to your beliefs and trust in yourself. Life has a funny way of evening itself out and it definitely sounds like you're due for some good to come your way.
Hang tough and quit on!
Thanks Diesel and continued success to you in your journey. Life will work itself out, in its own time. Patience is far from my finest quality. Today I reached the 11th floor (1100 days) and I have a stronger urge to chew now than I have in some time. This is the lesson to us all...No matter the time or duration of your quit, there will come a time where you feel weakness re-enter the equation. Your actions at this time show your true character. Be the person you profess to be. Be strong enough to reach out for help if it's needed. Be grateful to show you are not too proud to ask or tell someone of your struggle. They will be the strength you need. This community can be that someone. You, me, all of us are here for a reason.
Eric,
Wow man I hate to say it but amazing your post decision journey recalls a bunch with me bud. I too coach my kids baseball and family is also on each end of the spectrum. I can say that you were one who reached out to me early on and I have trusted in your advice and continued to follow this path and for that I thank you. Like Diesel said you are due some luck soon.
I am glad that you have the perseverance that you do and I look forward to many more days quit right along side you brother. Hang tough and keep your chin up.
P
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So today marks 3 years since I threw the nic bitch to the curb and quite a lot has transpired in that time. Those of you who know of me, very few of you "know" me, know that I speak my mind and am comfortable enough in my own skin to do so. The journey of a quitter is never over; it just changes. My journey as a quitter has me questioning the value of intimate relationships. The type of relationship so close to your being that if/when it ends, you cannot recall what you were before that relationship started or who you are able to be after it. Today is extremely bittersweet. 3 years ago my family celebrated me throwing a can of chew in the garbage. They cried, kissed, hugged, loved me, and supported my decision. Today, I walk this journey alone. My family is gone. Wife seeking divorce, lying, cheating, and placing a protection order against me to "protect" her and my children from having contact with me. I've done nothing, no one in my family was ever harmed. I finished coaching my son's baseball team on Tuesday evening and may not see my children ever again. I have been ostracized by those I let inside my armor. My celebration today is seeing all those who quit today remain quit. There will be no anniversary dinner, no ice cream, no hugs, kisses, pats on the back. There is a bitter memory of days gone by; of a life squandered, a journey for reason and purpose. I still am quit. I still do it for myself and to show my children that commitment is hard and that the reward of a journey IS THE JOURNEY ITSELF. Somehow, at least today, this reward feels less like a reward and more like a sentence. If you are not giving back to those you love on a daily basis in thoughts, deeds, or time, you're missing the opportunity afforded you by your adherence to remain quit. Being quit and not utilizing your journey to better yourself and those you come in contact with is nothing more than an empty quit. It is the self serving prayers by the Pharisee in the temple. The "generosity" of the Politician who steals your hard earned dollars to give to the lazy and undeserving. Don't be empty. Be quit and be a fulfillment to your life and others.
Congrats on 3 years and hang in there bro.
Sounds like life is kicking you in the balls a little bit, but stay true to your beliefs and trust in yourself. Life has a funny way of evening itself out and it definitely sounds like you're due for some good to come your way.
Hang tough and quit on!
Thanks Diesel and continued success to you in your journey. Life will work itself out, in its own time. Patience is far from my finest quality. Today I reached the 11th floor (1100 days) and I have a stronger urge to chew now than I have in some time. This is the lesson to us all...No matter the time or duration of your quit, there will come a time where you feel weakness re-enter the equation. Your actions at this time show your true character. Be the person you profess to be. Be strong enough to reach out for help if it's needed. Be grateful to show you are not too proud to ask or tell someone of your struggle. They will be the strength you need. This community can be that someone. You, me, all of us are here for a reason.
Eric,
Wow man I hate to say it but amazing your post decision journey recalls a bunch with me bud. I too coach my kids baseball and family is also on each end of the spectrum. I can say that you were one who reached out to me early on and I have trusted in your advice and continued to follow this path and for that I thank you. Like Diesel said you are due some luck soon.
I am glad that you have the perseverance that you do and I look forward to many more days quit right along side you brother. Hang tough and keep your chin up.
P
Congrats on 1100 Eric. Hang in there man.
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No special reason to post today really. Day 1318, no anniversary of any kind; just feel the need to revisit the Intro thread. Wow, how this place has evolved. Yet the one constant remains: Quit is a life choice and lifestyle. I am proud to walk side by side with people I may never meet or recognize. Sound weird? Don't we all strive for betterment? The paths are wide and varied but we are linked by a common road. Never, ever, for any reason fail to reach out when your road needs repaired; to any of us still here. There is so much value and wisdom in the reams of text inscribed in the cyber journal of Quit. Use it and use me!
Semper Fi
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No special reason to post today really. Day 1318, no anniversary of any kind; just feel the need to revisit the Intro thread. Wow, how this place has evolved. Yet the one constant remains: Quit is a life choice and lifestyle. I am proud to walk side by side with people I may never meet or recognize. Sound weird? Don't we all strive for betterment? The paths are wide and varied but we are linked by a common road. Never, ever, for any reason fail to reach out when your road needs repaired; to any of us still here. There is so much value and wisdom in the reams of text inscribed in the cyber journal of Quit. Use it and use me!
Semper Fi
Eric, you are incorrect, there is a special reason to post in your intro. You see many of the newbie quitters have not walked along the path as long as you have. You posting in your intro brings it back to the top of the pile and lets others read your story. Plus you have had plenty of "life" happen since you first quit and never once used that as an excuse. We have lost many a quitter here because their problems piled up. Man, if only they could see and understand that sometime others have bigger problems and they can find a way out on their own without the need of a helping hand form Nicotine.
Yes I would say walking side by side with a strange I never met was weird, but that was 934 days ago, now I do it without a hesitation.
Semper Fi brother!
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Life is a bitch sometimes Pinched; that is for sure. I invite everyone to read through my Quit journey. Were there times I contemplated grabbing a chew and saying Fuck It? Absolutely there were. Did it ever go beyond a small, passing thought, Fuck NO! Life can kick me when I fall, when you fall. But, what life can't do is make me decide to walk away from my Quit. I would have to consciously choose to do that. What would that accomplish? That is a massive step back in the evolution of my life. I am not willing to step backwards. I already know where those footprints led me.
I am here daily because I choose to be Quit and show respect to those who allowed me to lean when I needed to. I am your rock, your steadying force, your shoulder, your ear, your kick in the ass.
I am here because Quitters like Pinched, SFGE, Sir Derek, 2mch, NOLAQ, Keddy, Syndrome, Coach Steve, and the rest of y'all would never stand by and let someone give up.
Oh, and life, just remember when you kick at me, I'm sweeping your other leg and knocking YOU on YOUR ASS!
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Life is a bitch sometimes Pinched; that is for sure. I invite everyone to read through my Quit journey. Were there times I contemplated grabbing a chew and saying Fuck It? Absolutely there were. Did it ever go beyond a small, passing thought, Fuck NO! Life can kick me when I fall, when you fall. But, what life can't do is make me decide to walk away from my Quit. I would have to consciously choose to do that. What would that accomplish? That is a massive step back in the evolution of my life. I am not willing to step backwards. I already know where those footprints led me.
I am here daily because I choose to be Quit and show respect to those who allowed me to lean when I needed to. I am your rock, your steadying force, your shoulder, your ear, your kick in the ass.
I am here because Quitters like Pinched, SFGE, Sir Derek, 2mch, NOLAQ, Keddy, Syndrome, Coach Steve, and the rest of y'all would never stand by and let someone give up.
Oh, and life, just remember when you kick at me, I'm sweeping your other leg and knocking YOU on YOUR ASS!
YES! By far the best closing statement I have read on here in a long time!
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Life is a bitch sometimes Pinched; that is for sure. I invite everyone to read through my Quit journey. Were there times I contemplated grabbing a chew and saying Fuck It? Absolutely there were. Did it ever go beyond a small, passing thought, Fuck NO! Life can kick me when I fall, when you fall. But, what life can't do is make me decide to walk away from my Quit. I would have to consciously choose to do that. What would that accomplish? That is a massive step back in the evolution of my life. I am not willing to step backwards. I already know where those footprints led me.
I am here daily because I choose to be Quit and show respect to those who allowed me to lean when I needed to. I am your rock, your steadying force, your shoulder, your ear, your kick in the ass.
I am here because Quitters like Pinched, SFGE, Sir Derek, 2mch, NOLAQ, Keddy, Syndrome, Coach Steve, and the rest of y'all would never stand by and let someone give up.
Oh, and life, just remember when you kick at me, I'm sweeping your other leg and knocking YOU on YOUR ASS!
YES! By far the best closing statement I have read on here in a long time!
My friend, nay brother.... you have been hit hard, but you have always stood back up, never taking the easy way out. You always have been a strength in our group and around that table of my closest quit family. You have found that extra bit inside you to carry on, and I will always follow and be by your side.
(and hope to get rid of that stranger tag, as one day will road trip the 8 hours west of where I am to get out your way).
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Passed 4 years quit a couple days back, WOW, there's a helluva lot that can happen in 4 years! I see now that the day I made the choice to quit was to set in motion a landslide series of events that would shake my life, as I knew it, to the core. The journey of my quit gave me tools to handle what life was going to be throwing at me since that day. Make no mistake folks, there are other powers at play in your quit, whatever stage you're in. I could not have navigated my days without my quit. Do not look at your quit as a governance on your life. Look at it as a blessing that will provide you with the wisdom, confidence, optimism, coping mechanisms, etc. for the bigger picture. Our job on this Earth is to not be perfect but rather to keep pursuing the best version of ourselves. That version can only come through trials and tribulations. It is the lessons learned on the journey that are to be treasured. Because, when there are no steps left to take, we won't have the time or desire to look back and reflect on those moments. Live in each step. Regret nothing. Learn from everything.
QLAFM
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Passed 4 years quit a couple days back, WOW, there's a helluva lot that can happen in 4 years! I see now that the day I made the choice to quit was to set in motion a landslide series of events that would shake my life, as I knew it, to the core. The journey of my quit gave me tools to handle what life was going to be throwing at me since that day. Make no mistake folks, there are other powers at play in your quit, whatever stage you're in. I could not have navigated my days without my quit. Do not look at your quit as a governance on your life. Look at it as a blessing that will provide you with the wisdom, confidence, optimism, coping mechanisms, etc. for the bigger picture. Our job on this Earth is to not be perfect but rather to keep pursuing the best version of ourselves. That version can only come through trials and tribulations. It is the lessons learned on the journey that are to be treasured. Because, when there are no steps left to take, we won't have the time or desire to look back and reflect on those moments. Live in each step. Regret nothing. Learn from everything.
QLAFM
proud of you Brother, and would not be where I am today without you leading the way in Oct12.
Not even going to say madman forever, but will say friend and family forever.....
thanks
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Passed 4 years quit a couple days back, WOW, there's a helluva lot that can happen in 4 years! I see now that the day I made the choice to quit was to set in motion a landslide series of events that would shake my life, as I knew it, to the core. The journey of my quit gave me tools to handle what life was going to be throwing at me since that day. Make no mistake folks, there are other powers at play in your quit, whatever stage you're in. I could not have navigated my days without my quit. Do not look at your quit as a governance on your life. Look at it as a blessing that will provide you with the wisdom, confidence, optimism, coping mechanisms, etc. for the bigger picture. Our job on this Earth is to not be perfect but rather to keep pursuing the best version of ourselves. That version can only come through trials and tribulations. It is the lessons learned on the journey that are to be treasured. Because, when there are no steps left to take, we won't have the time or desire to look back and reflect on those moments. Live in each step. Regret nothing. Learn from everything.
QLAFM
proud of you Brother, and would not be where I am today without you leading the way in Oct12.
Not even going to say madman forever, but will say friend and family forever.....
thanks
I just read your entire intro. I was captivated by the fact that you chronicled everything! I felt tears in some places, I laughed in some places and some places I was perplexed by your words. Probably because I am only 48 days quit. But your words in these pages gave me some great strength tonight. I have felt like shit. I'm not in a place of caving...I just feel like shit.
Two canker sores in my mouth, sore throat from who knows what. I was hoping by now my mouth would be well and happy. I could possibly begin some work on my teeth and gums. But it seems to heal and then have yet another trauma.
The truth I guess is that why should I be a whiny bitch about it not being healed in 48 days when I stuffed cancer shit into it for almost 30 years. Fuck...hate when I'm a whiny bitch.
Thanks for the words that you write. They inspire. They really do.
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TO ALL NEW AND RECENT QUITTERS, TAKE A GLANCE AT A POST FROM THE PAST. IF YOU SEEK MOTIVATION, FIND IT HERE:
Day 57:
Note to self:
Fuck you and the weak ass thoughts swimming in your head. You were told these days would come and sure as hell they have. These are the days your quit is being tested mentally. So, bigshot, how strong is your quit? A little mind fuck getting you all riled up is it? Thinking about me aren't you?
"Yeah, I'm thinking about you, about how you fucked up 15 years of my life that I cannot get back! About leaving me in a corner somewhere with a fucking bottle in my hand and a pile of shit jammed in my lip! About seeing the disappointment and hurt in my wife and children's eyes as I pushed one in my lip. About tearing up a level of honor and respect that I have to work so hard to put back in place with those I love. About how fucking stupid I was to let something like you into my life in the first place. About how if you were a real person I would be in prison for the mutilating, abhorrent beating I would place on you, rendering you a crippled pile of shit incapable of rational thought or motion. About how needy you are, how reliant you are on the weakness of others to make yourself feel worth. Face it bitch, without me, you are just a shredded up, rode hard, put away wet, wilting and sagging, pile of shit that no one can stay committed to. We all find something better, something way better, and you're left holding the can."
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TO ALL NEW AND RECENT QUITTERS, TAKE A GLANCE AT A POST FROM THE PAST. IF YOU SEEK MOTIVATION, FIND IT HERE:
Day 57:
Note to self:
Fuck you and the weak ass thoughts swimming in your head. You were told these days would come and sure as hell they have. These are the days your quit is being tested mentally. So, bigshot, how strong is your quit? A little mind fuck getting you all riled up is it? Thinking about me aren't you?
"Yeah, I'm thinking about you, about how you fucked up 15 years of my life that I cannot get back! About leaving me in a corner somewhere with a fucking bottle in my hand and a pile of shit jammed in my lip! About seeing the disappointment and hurt in my wife and children's eyes as I pushed one in my lip. About tearing up a level of honor and respect that I have to work so hard to put back in place with those I love. About how fucking stupid I was to let something like you into my life in the first place. About how if you were a real person I would be in prison for the mutilating, abhorrent beating I would place on you, rendering you a crippled pile of shit incapable of rational thought or motion. About how needy you are, how reliant you are on the weakness of others to make yourself feel worth. Face it bitch, without me, you are just a shredded up, rode hard, put away wet, wilting and sagging, pile of shit that no one can stay committed to. We all find something better, something way better, and you're left holding the can."
Day 2000:
I can appreciate the purpose of journals. Looking back through my chronicles paved the way for a lot of tears, reflection, disappointment, and victory. I stand here today in front of you all a man unshackled from the chains of nicotine. I am ever vigilant, never cured, never not an addict. I stand here as a shell of the man who, 2000 days ago, entered this arena with the support of a loving wife and 4 children. Now, I am in the midst of a 3 year divorce process, half my children wish I was dead, the other 2 unsure what my lessons to them ever meant. I have to be their guiding force you see. I cannot allow failure for it would crush the resolve and dedication to a cause I urge them to never waver from. Ever want to give up on your quit? Go look into the deep, trusting eyes of your child and tell them you just don't have it in you to stay committed. Watch the reaction, feel the bone rattling crush of betrayal hit their eyes and shatter their dreams of who dad was. Don't ever go back. No matter how hard, how long. I can stand here and, shell or not, tell you that I will never allow something/someone cause me to make that choice. Everyone needs a hero at some point. As fathers, we are our children's first. We should always strive to be their best hero all the days of their lives.
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TO ALL NEW AND RECENT QUITTERS, TAKE A GLANCE AT A POST FROM THE PAST. IF YOU SEEK MOTIVATION, FIND IT HERE:
Day 57:
Note to self:
Fuck you and the weak ass thoughts swimming in your head. You were told these days would come and sure as hell they have. These are the days your quit is being tested mentally. So, bigshot, how strong is your quit? A little mind fuck getting you all riled up is it? Thinking about me aren't you?
"Yeah, I'm thinking about you, about how you fucked up 15 years of my life that I cannot get back! About leaving me in a corner somewhere with a fucking bottle in my hand and a pile of shit jammed in my lip! About seeing the disappointment and hurt in my wife and children's eyes as I pushed one in my lip. About tearing up a level of honor and respect that I have to work so hard to put back in place with those I love. About how fucking stupid I was to let something like you into my life in the first place. About how if you were a real person I would be in prison for the mutilating, abhorrent beating I would place on you, rendering you a crippled pile of shit incapable of rational thought or motion. About how needy you are, how reliant you are on the weakness of others to make yourself feel worth. Face it bitch, without me, you are just a shredded up, rode hard, put away wet, wilting and sagging, pile of shit that no one can stay committed to. We all find something better, something way better, and you're left holding the can."
Day 2000:
I can appreciate the purpose of journals. Looking back through my chronicles paved the way for a lot of tears, reflection, disappointment, and victory. I stand here today in front of you all a man unshackled from the chains of nicotine. I am ever vigilant, never cured, never not an addict. I stand here as a shell of the man who, 2000 days ago, entered this arena with the support of a loving wife and 4 children. Now, I am in the midst of a 3 year divorce process, half my children wish I was dead, the other 2 unsure what my lessons to them ever meant. I have to be their guiding force you see. I cannot allow failure for it would crush the resolve and dedication to a cause I urge them to never waver from. Ever want to give up on your quit? Go look into the deep, trusting eyes of your child and tell them you just don't have it in you to stay committed. Watch the reaction, feel the bone rattling crush of betrayal hit their eyes and shatter their dreams of who dad was. Don't ever go back. No matter how hard, how long. I can stand here and, shell or not, tell you that I will never allow something/someone cause me to make that choice. Everyone needs a hero at some point. As fathers, we are our children's first. We should always strive to be their best hero all the days of their lives.
friend, brother....
you are more than just a shell. When you see a diamond, the best are those that are crystal clear, color and clarity a big plus and very valuable. It is this value that sets you apart from most. And there are those, including the lord above who see that each day.
Keep being that family member of mine as the other madmen of Oct12.
And for those new, this is the type of person who prevails and lives a life free from the poison.
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TO ALL NEW AND RECENT QUITTERS, TAKE A GLANCE AT A POST FROM THE PAST. IF YOU SEEK MOTIVATION, FIND IT HERE:
Day 57:
Note to self:
Fuck you and the weak ass thoughts swimming in your head. You were told these days would come and sure as hell they have. These are the days your quit is being tested mentally. So, bigshot, how strong is your quit? A little mind fuck getting you all riled up is it? Thinking about me aren't you?
"Yeah, I'm thinking about you, about how you fucked up 15 years of my life that I cannot get back! About leaving me in a corner somewhere with a fucking bottle in my hand and a pile of shit jammed in my lip! About seeing the disappointment and hurt in my wife and children's eyes as I pushed one in my lip. About tearing up a level of honor and respect that I have to work so hard to put back in place with those I love. About how fucking stupid I was to let something like you into my life in the first place. About how if you were a real person I would be in prison for the mutilating, abhorrent beating I would place on you, rendering you a crippled pile of shit incapable of rational thought or motion. About how needy you are, how reliant you are on the weakness of others to make yourself feel worth. Face it bitch, without me, you are just a shredded up, rode hard, put away wet, wilting and sagging, pile of shit that no one can stay committed to. We all find something better, something way better, and you're left holding the can."
Day 2000:
I can appreciate the purpose of journals. Looking back through my chronicles paved the way for a lot of tears, reflection, disappointment, and victory. I stand here today in front of you all a man unshackled from the chains of nicotine. I am ever vigilant, never cured, never not an addict. I stand here as a shell of the man who, 2000 days ago, entered this arena with the support of a loving wife and 4 children. Now, I am in the midst of a 3 year divorce process, half my children wish I was dead, the other 2 unsure what my lessons to them ever meant. I have to be their guiding force you see. I cannot allow failure for it would crush the resolve and dedication to a cause I urge them to never waver from. Ever want to give up on your quit? Go look into the deep, trusting eyes of your child and tell them you just don't have it in you to stay committed. Watch the reaction, feel the bone rattling crush of betrayal hit their eyes and shatter their dreams of who dad was. Don't ever go back. No matter how hard, how long. I can stand here and, shell or not, tell you that I will never allow something/someone cause me to make that choice. Everyone needs a hero at some point. As fathers, we are our children's first. We should always strive to be their best hero all the days of their lives.
friend, brother....
you are more than just a shell. When you see a diamond, the best are those that are crystal clear, color and clarity a big plus and very valuable. It is this value that sets you apart from most. And there are those, including the lord above who see that each day.
Keep being that family member of mine as the other madmen of Oct12.
And for those new, this is the type of person who prevails and lives a life free from the poison.
DonÂ’t get down on yourself my friend. Being a father is not always the easiest thing and living with a woman sometimes we donÂ’t have a choice on which direction that takes but one thing for sure I know you did well was you were a fine example to them on how to take control of something that had a tremendous hold on you and show them that my dad took control of his addiction, unfortunately my brother my dad didnÂ’t teach me that he let several addictions control him as did I for 38 years. Stay strong and I know without a doubt those kids love you, they may be hurt but not everything in life is roses. Hang in there and God bless
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TO ALL NEW AND RECENT QUITTERS, TAKE A GLANCE AT A POST FROM THE PAST. IF YOU SEEK MOTIVATION, FIND IT HERE:
Day 57:
Note to self:
Fuck you and the weak ass thoughts swimming in your head. You were told these days would come and sure as hell they have. These are the days your quit is being tested mentally. So, bigshot, how strong is your quit? A little mind fuck getting you all riled up is it? Thinking about me aren't you?
"Yeah, I'm thinking about you, about how you fucked up 15 years of my life that I cannot get back! About leaving me in a corner somewhere with a fucking bottle in my hand and a pile of shit jammed in my lip! About seeing the disappointment and hurt in my wife and children's eyes as I pushed one in my lip. About tearing up a level of honor and respect that I have to work so hard to put back in place with those I love. About how fucking stupid I was to let something like you into my life in the first place. About how if you were a real person I would be in prison for the mutilating, abhorrent beating I would place on you, rendering you a crippled pile of shit incapable of rational thought or motion. About how needy you are, how reliant you are on the weakness of others to make yourself feel worth. Face it bitch, without me, you are just a shredded up, rode hard, put away wet, wilting and sagging, pile of shit that no one can stay committed to. We all find something better, something way better, and you're left holding the can."
Day 2000:
I can appreciate the purpose of journals. Looking back through my chronicles paved the way for a lot of tears, reflection, disappointment, and victory. I stand here today in front of you all a man unshackled from the chains of nicotine. I am ever vigilant, never cured, never not an addict. I stand here as a shell of the man who, 2000 days ago, entered this arena with the support of a loving wife and 4 children. Now, I am in the midst of a 3 year divorce process, half my children wish I was dead, the other 2 unsure what my lessons to them ever meant. I have to be their guiding force you see. I cannot allow failure for it would crush the resolve and dedication to a cause I urge them to never waver from. Ever want to give up on your quit? Go look into the deep, trusting eyes of your child and tell them you just don't have it in you to stay committed. Watch the reaction, feel the bone rattling crush of betrayal hit their eyes and shatter their dreams of who dad was. Don't ever go back. No matter how hard, how long. I can stand here and, shell or not, tell you that I will never allow something/someone cause me to make that choice. Everyone needs a hero at some point. As fathers, we are our children's first. We should always strive to be their best hero all the days of their lives.
friend, brother....
you are more than just a shell. When you see a diamond, the best are those that are crystal clear, color and clarity a big plus and very valuable. It is this value that sets you apart from most. And there are those, including the lord above who see that each day.
Keep being that family member of mine as the other madmen of Oct12.
And for those new, this is the type of person who prevails and lives a life free from the poison.
DonÂ’t get down on yourself my friend. Being a father is not always the easiest thing and living with a woman sometimes we donÂ’t have a choice on which direction that takes but one thing for sure I know you did well was you were a fine example to them on how to take control of something that had a tremendous hold on you and show them that my dad took control of his addiction, unfortunately my brother my dad didnÂ’t teach me that he let several addictions control him as did I for 38 years. Stay strong and I know without a doubt those kids love you, they may be hurt but not everything in life is roses. Hang in there and God bless
^^^ Listen to this guy!
Eric, I am so proud to be able to post alongside you every day. Thank you (and all the 'Crazy' people) for allowing me that honor.
Congratulations on a maginificent quit.
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Day 2024:
Came across this today in Introductions and had to let my thoughts fly. Your thoughts...
J3D
Jan 8 2018, 09:38 AM
IÂ’ve been doing a tin a day for about 4 years and dipping for 7. Today is my first day and itÂ’s only been a few hours but IÂ’m dying. My BIGGEST trigger is being at school. I started in college to stay up to study and IÂ’m in technical school to be an aircraft mechanic. IÂ’m sitting here doing nothing because I finished all my work and all I want to do is dip. This is my 5th time trying to quit and the longest I made it was 4 months. ItÂ’s also brutal because half the people around me dip and 90% of the class smokes. This is going to suck, IÂ’m going to do it, but fuck this is going to suck.
J3D - 1
IÂ’m a fucking failure. I couldnÂ’t even make it 2 hours of being in class. I canÂ’t do this shit. If an admin could delete this post I would appreciate it because this is for quitters and I failed. Good luck to the rest of you, maybe one day IÂ’ll be as strong as you and be able to quit. Idk how yÂ’all do it, I didnÂ’t even make it to the worst parts.
Reply from Frazzled:
You CAN do this shit, and you MUST do this shit before you trigger than one cell that is going to give you cancer.
Have you tried gum, atomic fireballs, fake dip, etc. to try to keep your triggers at bay? That's the best option I know of. You have to be stronger than a plant in a plastic can.
Take it minute by minute, and second by second if you have to. But don't walk into a den of vipers without ammunition.
Reply from Eric71:
Here is a microcosm of the self centered mentality that plagues our nation. This is the entitled, I want it now, I deserve it, I shouldn't have to work for it mind set that has weakened our culture to the point of passivity and nonchalance. If I could physically see and speak to this guy, I'd whip his ass. What the fuck! Are you kidding? I couldn't even make it 2 hours and caved? How fucking bad did you want it then? And then have the audacity to ask an Admin to remove his thread? Why? Are you embarrassed by your lack of intestinal fortitude, character, and moral fiber? You should be. You were never a quitter in the first place. You were a fucking poser! This thread better never be removed and actually, it should be pinned to the start of the introduction page as a message to all who enter our hallowed halls of quit seeking to become a better person. Do not tread lightly here! Leave your mark on your life and be steadfast in your quit. For fuck's sake, make your life and your quit mean something. It's high time these newbies know this is no place for the weak, timid, and soulless. This place is for those whose quit is black and white. There is no gray. You are either quit and emphatic about it and those who join you in the daily fight. Don't come here asking to be coddled and treated like a special snowflake, butterfly, unicorn, or what the hell ever. We, the true quitters, do not have time for games. We are too busy with our new found freedoms to build a better life for ourselves and those we care for.
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Day 2105:
Nothing special about today with the exception that it's another day that I win. However, one thing caught me by surprise so the need to memorialize it spurred me to jot it down.
My kids were a huge accountability partner for me in the initial stages of my quit. How many times before I looked at them knowing I had failed and caved, never in their eyes was I a failure. They always knew and believed in me. When I finally decided to quit, they were instrumental in it. I could never go back on my word to them. I could never look in their innocent,trusting, and loving eyes and admit failure. I could never crush their idea of who Dad really is. I look back now and those beautiful faces are still there in my mind and my soul. As I reflect, it still chokes me up. God, to love like a child, how fucking amazing would this world be.
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Day 2105:
Nothing special about today with the exception that it's another day that I win. However, one thing caught me by surprise so the need to memorialize it spurred me to jot it down.
My kids were a huge accountability partner for me in the initial stages of my quit. How many times before I looked at them knowing I had failed and caved, never in their eyes was I a failure. They always knew and believed in me. When I finally decided to quit, they were instrumental in it. I could never go back on my word to them. I could never look in their innocent,trusting, and loving eyes and admit failure. I could never crush their idea of who Dad really is. I look back now and those beautiful faces are still there in my mind and my soul. As I reflect, it still chokes me up. God, to love like a child, how fucking amazing would this world be.
Day 2192: 6 years
What a ride it's been. Highest of highs, lowest of lows, it's all part of life. Also a daily part of my life is being quit. There are days I reflect on the journey to this point. I marvel at the parallels of a quit journey and our journey through life. It's all cyclical. The old becomes new, the new, old, and so the world moves on. Time and opportunity will not pause to wait on us to get our shit in order. The world is not that patient. Don't be hesitant in your quit. Don't be passive in your endeavors. Don't let your fire burn out. This is your here and now, every day, every moment, we have the chance to make life better for ourselves and those we allow in our world. Do we want to look back and wish for time long since past, or do we want to remember the instances we chose to show our fire, passion, and love for our life?
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Day 2105:
Nothing special about today with the exception that it's another day that I win. However, one thing caught me by surprise so the need to memorialize it spurred me to jot it down.
My kids were a huge accountability partner for me in the initial stages of my quit. How many times before I looked at them knowing I had failed and caved, never in their eyes was I a failure. They always knew and believed in me. When I finally decided to quit, they were instrumental in it. I could never go back on my word to them. I could never look in their innocent,trusting, and loving eyes and admit failure. I could never crush their idea of who Dad really is. I look back now and those beautiful faces are still there in my mind and my soul. As I reflect, it still chokes me up. God, to love like a child, how fucking amazing would this world be.
Day 2192: 6 years
What a ride it's been. Highest of highs, lowest of lows, it's all part of life. Also a daily part of my life is being quit. There are days I reflect on the journey to this point. I marvel at the parallels of a quit journey and our journey through life. It's all cyclical. The old becomes new, the new, old, and so the world moves on. Time and opportunity will not pause to wait on us to get our shit in order. The world is not that patient. Don't be hesitant in your quit. Don't be passive in your endeavors. Don't let your fire burn out. This is your here and now, every day, every moment, we have the chance to make life better for ourselves and those we allow in our world. Do we want to look back and wish for time long since past, or do we want to remember the instances we chose to show our fire, passion, and love for our life?
Congratulations on 6 years, Eric - and thank you for all you have done to pay it forward here at KTC!
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Day 2105:
Nothing special about today with the exception that it's another day that I win. However, one thing caught me by surprise so the need to memorialize it spurred me to jot it down.
My kids were a huge accountability partner for me in the initial stages of my quit. How many times before I looked at them knowing I had failed and caved, never in their eyes was I a failure. They always knew and believed in me. When I finally decided to quit, they were instrumental in it. I could never go back on my word to them. I could never look in their innocent,trusting, and loving eyes and admit failure. I could never crush their idea of who Dad really is. I look back now and those beautiful faces are still there in my mind and my soul. As I reflect, it still chokes me up. God, to love like a child, how fucking amazing would this world be.
Day 2192: 6 years
What a ride it's been. Highest of highs, lowest of lows, it's all part of life. Also a daily part of my life is being quit. There are days I reflect on the journey to this point. I marvel at the parallels of a quit journey and our journey through life. It's all cyclical. The old becomes new, the new, old, and so the world moves on. Time and opportunity will not pause to wait on us to get our shit in order. The world is not that patient. Don't be hesitant in your quit. Don't be passive in your endeavors. Don't let your fire burn out. This is your here and now, every day, every moment, we have the chance to make life better for ourselves and those we allow in our world. Do we want to look back and wish for time long since past, or do we want to remember the instances we chose to show our fire, passion, and love for our life?
Congratulations on 6 years, Eric - and thank you for all you have done to pay it forward here at KTC!
You are an inspiration, man... Thank you for the honor of staying quit with you!!!
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Day 2221:
When I was in high school, I had this idea for a novel. I forget the details now, but it was something about a section of the Garden of Eden that had somehow been preserved in its pre-lapsarian state and then discovered. This idea captured me at a deep level. I thought it could be the seeds of something great. But I didn't start writing. I didn't dare. You see, I told myself I should wait until I was a better writer. Wait until I was "ready" to do the idea justice. Deep down, I felt this was my "big idea." Perhaps my one shot at writing the next great American novel. Here's your one chance... don't fuck it up. So I hoarded my best. Creative hoarding is different than other kinds of hoarding. You're not cluttering your house: you're clogging the lifeline between your soul and the world. You are denying yourself permission to take the best of what you have, here and now, and make it manifest. The REALITY is that you have a limitless pipeline of new ideas. In fact, the faster you execute your best ideas, the faster your flow of bigger and better ideas becomes. And, ironically, it is precisely through the courageous act of creating that you gain the skill and practice required to "do them justice"--NOT in hoarding them for a "perfect condition" future that, of course, never comes. So stop hoarding your best. Take that one "best idea" you've told yourself is off limits for now... that you've forbid yourself from executing "until conditions are perfect"... and bring it to life NOW. Will it be your landmark work? Your breakthrough piece? Your magnum opus? Maybe. Maybe not. It doesn't matter. Because once you've brought it to life, a bigger and better "best idea" will come to you, and another after that. You will have all the world-changing ideas you need, so long as you have the courage to bring to life "the best" that is before you now. Don't rob us of the joy, wisdom, or "lumps in the throat" your best work might give us. Open your hands. Their protective grip around your best has become a stranglehold. Let your best finally see the light of day.
Seeing any parallels to being quit? Have a great hump day!
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Day 2221:
When I was in high school, I had this idea for a novel. I forget the details now, but it was something about a section of the Garden of Eden that had somehow been preserved in its pre-lapsarian state and then discovered. This idea captured me at a deep level. I thought it could be the seeds of something great. But I didn't start writing. I didn't dare. You see, I told myself I should wait until I was a better writer. Wait until I was "ready" to do the idea justice. Deep down, I felt this was my "big idea." Perhaps my one shot at writing the next great American novel. Here's your one chance... don't fuck it up. So I hoarded my best. Creative hoarding is different than other kinds of hoarding. You're not cluttering your house: you're clogging the lifeline between your soul and the world. You are denying yourself permission to take the best of what you have, here and now, and make it manifest. The REALITY is that you have a limitless pipeline of new ideas. In fact, the faster you execute your best ideas, the faster your flow of bigger and better ideas becomes. And, ironically, it is precisely through the courageous act of creating that you gain the skill and practice required to "do them justice"--NOT in hoarding them for a "perfect condition" future that, of course, never comes. So stop hoarding your best. Take that one "best idea" you've told yourself is off limits for now... that you've forbid yourself from executing "until conditions are perfect"... and bring it to life NOW. Will it be your landmark work? Your breakthrough piece? Your magnum opus? Maybe. Maybe not. It doesn't matter. Because once you've brought it to life, a bigger and better "best idea" will come to you, and another after that. You will have all the world-changing ideas you need, so long as you have the courage to bring to life "the best" that is before you now. Don't rob us of the joy, wisdom, or "lumps in the throat" your best work might give us. Open your hands. Their protective grip around your best has become a stranglehold. Let your best finally see the light of day.
Seeing any parallels to being quit? Have a great hump day!
That's me there!!! Thank you for writing this brother!!!